#sorry I’m being. insane.

[inkats]

yup talking to people is too stressful how do y’all have like. Conversations. How do you make friends. I don’t talk to anyone regularly. I have like one “friend” (if I only have one short text conversation once every like. 3 months is it friendship? I don’t even see her anymore she’s moved away) and it was mostly her doing to heavy pulling to get this far. I’ve known people since literally kindergarten and I don’t think we’re anything more than acquaintances? Sunday friends as smoker on the balcony would say.

[fairy-bard]

i’ve been loving watching critical role recently if for no other reason than because i get to watch a decent portion of viewers actively falling for cult tactics lmao

a forbes article describes cult tactics as when cult leaders “censor dissenting viewpoints, promote a distorted narrative and use relentless repetition and peer pressure”

ludinus needing to monologue at everyone he meets. cherry picking what information to let people know (ie the orb). showing popular world leaders (gods?) at their absolute worst as a means to win over the vulnerable. creating dissent between cult prospects and the people who they’re close to outside the cult. doesn’t take no for an answer. repeating his points over and over, in whatever context he thinks will be most persuasive. targeting people who’ve lost everything. convincing people that they’re special

matt is a genius.

[lokimobius]

LOKI S02E01 “Ouroboros”

[karouvas]

unstoppable force (Adam’s canonical teacher kink) meets immovable object (Gansey being a professor’s soul in a teenagers body).

[royaltea000]

this was actually for @doomspiral ‘s mini ruspru week but I’m. very.. slow… o)-(

[ysabellious]

tis the (finals) season

[delta-piscium]

the real reason Steve brings a date to a high school basketball game for a high school he doesn’t even go to anymore is because the one time Nancy went with him the team won and his sports superstitions kicked in and he can’t just risk Lucas losing because of him not having a date, so he will take on the burden and ridicule of being the guy who graduated and drags new dates to games all in the name of not upsetting the delicate intricacies of rituals in sports

[satan-wishes-he-was-me]

god jack rose and the doctor just love each other so fucking much it kills me. the parting of ways where jack wants his last act to be kissing rose and the doctor tenderly and softly. to rose “you are worth fighting for” to the doctor “wish i never met you (affectionate)” it’s the doctor kissing rose on the forehead before he sends her to safety. it’s rose refusing to let jack die. a subconscious deep desire to keep him alive. the doctor protecting rose. jack and the doctor being willing to die because at least rose is safe. jack fighting for the first time in his life because he found people to fight for. the doctor just wanting rose to be happy even if it isn’t with him. unwell

[ghoulishcavern]

every single interaction between bdubs and joel makes me scream and yelp in joy. they’re unyieldingly insane isolated, but putting them beside each other is like the flathead screwdriver dropping the hemisphere onto the demon core. i swear if you look close enough you can actually see a deadly radioactive blue flash that emits when those two interact.

[lavender-rroses]

//dunmeshi spoilers? eyestrain

desire

timelapse under cut

[galaxostars]

presque vu (almost seen): the intense feeling of being on the very brink of a powerful epiphany, insight, or revelation, without actually achieving the revelation

Sirius Black is born.

Sirius Black dies.

Everything in between is the unknown.

—from the fic Presque Vu by @starsworth

[junkh3ad]

guys i might be going off the fucking rails here because i woke up, saw this picture of Pickles and had a fucking EPIPHANY. So as we see, this is Pickles (DUH) in Snakes N Barrels. Right? Right. SO. He’s facing us in this picture, so his sides are switched. His left is our right. Got it? GOOD BECAUSE THATS IMPORTANT.

So, in my tired state it hit me. If Snakes N Barrels was (assumed) in the 80s, then there’s a very fucking good chance that his ear piercing being on his right side was either a simple thing that doesn’t mean anything (i doubt that because everything has meaning in this god forsaken show) OR. Or it matches the times and if you have any knowledge about subtle gay signaling in the 80s, a single right ear piercing was to represent being gay

Like i said this all came to me in a frenzied state, freshly awaken and still too hot from slumber but IM TELLING YOU. NOTHING IS AN ACCIDENT.

[leftenmost-window]

just watched the thirsty vampires skit and

uhhhhhhhHHHH i think my brain doesn’t work anymore.

I cannot believe sam played an existentially horrific build-a-bear that tries and fails to kill itself, and like a minute later is a horny teenager who watched too much twilight, then he’s actually bi?? wait actually he’s a girl? HES ACTUALLY A VAMPIRE SLAYER? the little strangled scream I let out when he stabbed luke is something I will share on this very public blog, but not to anybody who knows me in real life T-T

I was unhinged but I think watching this took all my remaining hinges so to speak. I’m not recovering from this

also I’m impressed at how comfortable they are playing lesbians lmao. the “women really want good listeners/personality” was hilarious because it’s true and then “also hair” basically saying “aj will get no women” was great

“have you ever had a woman?” sam you are KILLING me okay KILLING me

[moonkhao]

hi.

[shorthaltsjester]

downfall has me thinking about the prime deities far more than is best for my mental health and so i’ve been rewatching c1 just because so many of the pcs have relationships with the gods — even percy and keyleth who hold lower opinions of the gods still have relationships with them — and good grief . you ever think about whitestone as this bastion of love that the gods still have for one another and the love that a party of idiots have for one another. that the centrepiece of the town is a tree from the dawnfather, one used for the builders of castle whitestone to take shelter from the tumultuous lands of the alabaster sierras. a mountain range that came about out of the conflict between the dawn father and the chained oblivion.

the fact that the family that whitestone’s lost son found and brought back with him amounted to two temples being erected, and how fitting that after defeating the briarwoods, the two gods that are given new houses of worship in whitestone are the gods of death and redemption, fate and compassion. do you ever think about how many of vox machina are champions but how much the ones who are not are still held in good faith by the gods, whether or not that is returned? do you ever think about the raven queen telling percy he is broken and reminding him that does not mean he is alone, that means he is mortal, as are all those whom he loves. do you ever think about percy’s death letter, read by vox machina in a tavern as he tells them that the raven queen calling him broken finally opened his eyes to the fact that he has chosen his life (and thus, he might choose better), writing “one the lie [that vengeance would bring my family back] was shattered, I scrambled to find a solution, to make a deal, to undo my mistakes and balance the scales. I now understand that there are no scales. There is no redemption, and no ledger that judges me good or evil. I am free to simply be myself and live with the terrible mistakes I’ve made. Tomorrow, I start upon a path beyond the gods and demons who have tormented me, and it’s your friendship that makes this possible. […] I will try and do my best for you all.” and signing it Percival, of Vox Machina - the family he found and chose, not the one he lost and buried himself in vengeance to avoid. and fucking, vex having just heard percy forgive ripley also hearing those words and having carved the word forgive on the weapon she carries who has a conversation with him to remind him (and herself) that committing to forgiveness over grudges and vengeance means also forgiving the person he’s been that prioritized vengeance. the fact that one of the main things they bond over is that they have similar dispositions to justice and a similar unwillingness to forgive but they both see that in themselves as something they wish to improve at, and that when they eventually marry, each time is by someone devoted to a god neither of them necessarily worship but each of which oversees a domain particularly relevant to that connection - keeper yennen is a worshipper of erathis, and thus the justice that both percy and vex care to honour; pike is a worshipper of raei, and thus the redemption that both vex and percy seek (and see in one another). do you get it.

and god the entirety of the final arc of vox machina is truly some of the most interesting cr content for me just because you get the silliness and depth of vox machina in the face of these Beings On High and they all gaze at these idiots trying to save the world with fondness and the realization with downfall that in many ways those gods were just as much idiots trying to save the world makes that so, so interesting. and i wonder what might’ve happened if one of the gods they’d gone to see had been the lawbearer or the wildmother, what might have been made of percy and keyleth. i wonder if the lawbearer might have taken an interest in a calculating and curious man who loves to strike a deal and stick to it, even if manipulating the contents of the deal made to better suit his ends - especially given that percy was rejected by ioun for his propensity not to share his knowledge, and especially given that whitestone has a historical precedent for worship of the lawbearer. and i wonder what the wildmother would make of an angry girl who is fated to watch the people and places she loves be irrevocably changed and die, who wields her vestige, and who favours the world and it’s people over the gods and their rules — something i’m willing to bet melora would find some common ground with.

there’s also some beautiful symmetry between the relationships of the gods to which vox machina become champions and their own relationships with one another. and i’ve made my post about vax and vex vs. the matron of ravens and the dawn father, but i also think quite a lot about vex and scanlan vs. pelor and ioun. vex and scanlan who can be quite antagonistic to one another but also understand each other as few others do; scanlan who tells the dawn father that vex is not perfect but she is the most perfect among them, vex who hears the knowing mistress tell scanlan that his stories give vox machina strength and genuinely tells him it’s true and that he is very powerful, even when he tries to joke about it. ioun and pelor were the ones to take on tharizdun, ioun nearly perishing and having to hide away to recover. when vox machina asks pelor for her location he doesn’t know it. and fuckin. dalen’s closet. should be a silly little wedding oneshot ends with fuckin. vex glowing with the light of the dawnfather as her and percy, the living son of whitestone, are married by pike who is a cleric and is also the champion of the god of redemption, where the champion of ioun turns into a. dinosaur to walk his friend down the aisle and then grants a wish so that she can see her brother again and the champion of the matron of ravens comes to visit - something that is explicitly stated to be allowed by the matron of ravens. where a twin glowing like the dawn and a twin darkened by raven feather embrace. do you get it . do you see it. the fact that the first story we all heard in exandria was one of a family threatened by fate who could not beat it but did their best with it and that now downfall, the newest story but with parts of the oldest story in exandria’s timeline, is the same. a family who is doing the best with what they have, and what they have isn’t always great.

[draculovemp3]

house would run his discogs account like the army 🎧💆⛓️