#sorry for the incoherent rambling lmao

[number-one-toku-robot-lover]

you finished ketai sosakan 7!

thoughts?

But, in more seriousness...

I loved it! The eldritch machine horror, the looming question of humanity's capacity to engage with intelligent life beyond ourselves, the precious and adorable little cellphones! (´▽`ʃ♡ƪ)

I was pleasantly surprised by how much the show made me care about Takimoto through Seven! Mr. Haunting the Narrative...Mr. Literal Ghost in the Machine...

The more episodic episodes were (as usual with longer series) a little hit or miss? The show does drama a bit better than comedy generally, and the characters that are mainly in the comedic segments do suffer a bit from that, but that's not the end of the world to me. When the show gets it right, it gets it right. It's a lot like Robot Detective K in that respect.

I wonder if it would do well in a shorter form animated series, like Kikaider. I feel like it's so intensely 2008 that you couldn't do it now though.

[underkunimi]

i think luffy and law are the couple that just don’t care(they’re pirates)(also hear me out). like obviously at first, law is like ‘hey maybe not in front of our crews’ but then at some point, he just stops caring. not only are they connected by the hip, you can literally find one of them hoisted onto something or pressed against a flat surface with their tongues in each other’s mouths. luffy is absolutely insatiable and law kinda loves it. don’t go to the crow’s nest after dinner, luffy is in law’s lap practically devouring him. on warm nights, you might find law pressed against the railing of the Sunny or pressed against a door. on most days, luffy makes law sit up on the helm with him and they give each other kisses while watching the open sea. law watching luffy absolutely devour his meal and has to give luffy the absolute filthiest kiss ever. they’re on an island, luffy is dragging law to the nearest secluded corner or alleyway and shoving his tongue down law’s throat

[chuluoyi]

aaaa i’m squealing >< my popular guy college crush is now in the same community group as me and apparently he’s noticed me all these years🥹

[townofcrosshollow]

Y'know way before I got involved with IF myself I tried a free trial of a COG game (no idea which) and immediately uninstalled it cause the UI looked like it was designed by an intern in 2005 and I just assumed the actual story would be just as low-effort. Like until I learned what their actual business model was (taking a massive cut from people with actual talent) their entire vibe was so "shitty mobile app developer" that I completely dismissed them. So like. What exactly are writers getting for signing away 75% of their revenue? A shitty coding language that's basically just "Renpy if it couldn't do anything," baby's first UI, and a marketing campaign that consists of an overpaid social media manager writing a tweet? Lmao

[turniparts]

I may be screaming into a void here, but is there anyone else out there who loves the Life Series SMP/Traffic Life and Omori?? I know there probably isn't a whole lot of crossover, but I have been in the life series fandom since the start, and I recently played Omori and got brainrot, so of course the logical next step was to combine the two, and now I have all these parallels between the life series winners and Omori characters and I drew out character sheets... I may be going a little insane. Anyway I'm just wondering if anyone out there also has these two interests so I don't have to try to explain two pieces of media at once to my poor friends <3

[juniperhillpatient]

I really really really do love a well written tragedy actually (& I think that’s why I get frustrated whenever I try to explain my anger at character deaths that I think were done poorly & people don’t understand, or think I’m just salty) because NO actually I LOVE death in fiction. I’ve always been fascinated by the morbid & macabre. I think fiction SHOULD tackle death & grief, I just think it should do it thoughtfully.

All genres are challenging but tragedy is especially hard to get right & especially resonating when it’s done well. If art is about capturing human emotion, grief is among the most powerful emotions we can experience is it not? We joke a lot about the concept of being “doomed by the narrative” on tumblr but genuinely what a bone chilling concept that you’re truly DOOMED. That something bad is going to happen, that it’s already happened, that there’s no escaping that final destination… death scares us all but it’s difficult to truly capture that pure terror & sadness in fiction & only really good stories can do it in a way that works.

I think grief in horror is rarely utilized because it’s an intimidating concept to tackle. It’s a lot easier & more fun to show vengeful spirits & serial killers & monsters. Death in horror is often casual & like, I’m not saying that’s a bad thing it can work depending on the story.

What I AM saying is that when a story truly tackles grief & the impact of death & the idea that a person’s story matters even though they die & that they’ll never truly be gone & their loved ones will carry that pain forever & it’s done well? That’s rare & intense.

[potetosaradas]

guys... guys.. am i out of writers block hell???????

[ansy-tea]

Y'all ever stopped listening to your favorite bands for about 2 years for reasons you don't even know yourself. Maybe it's because you're busy. Maybe it's because you thought you've acquired new tastes. You really don't know. But then suddenly you listened to one song of theirs again and now you're sobbing over how good the songwriting was? And now that you're not a dumb High Schooler without much experience you understand the lyrics even more?

Anyways that's me with Fall Out Boy right now lmao. It's high time I listen to their new album later.

[silverselfshippingchaos]

i love my husband he's so silly goofy!!

[myopicry]

Hello! Lesbian from the last ask about qprs again! Your ramblings were delightful as expected, it definetely gave me something to think about (as someone who has also identified with aroace for a while before adopting my current "label"). If you're still okay with answering questions, I'd like to know more about your thoughts on the aroace spectrum itself? I remember there being some discourse in the community about whether or not gray area aroaces were valid or not (or something like that... I don't care enough now to remember lol). But just generally, what do you think of the concept of an aroace spectrum? (also can I be 🪼anon pls? I'm pretty sure I'll keep visiting your inbox in the future sorryyyy)

hi again :0 !! honored to get a named anon and I did not know there was a jellyfish emoji so that was also fun to learn lmao, and do not worry I love having stuff in my inbox it's like a little writing prompt for me sometimes and I really love that!

onto the actual question in the ask (which I am also very happy to answer genuinely I enjoy yapping far too much so this is very self indulgent)

it is also very long... I hope you enjoy more long paragraphs !!

similar to how I feel about qprs, I think a lot of the labeling and identification that comes from the concept of the aroace spectrum is just unnecessary and puts far too much focus on the idea of labeling yourself anyways. I mean, does it exist? yeah, it exists since you could define many things as a spectrum if you want to. and clearly, there are people who have such experiences that can be labeled on the spectrum, micro-labels do have some point of origin. but what it always comes down to for me is: does it matter? does it change anything to have a label versus not having one? does it actually help to have a label?

because, on the one hand, I totally get wanting to know that your experiences aren't isolated, that there are others who feel similarly. especially since we live in a world that has such a deluge of media that reinforces a very slim view of what the human experience looks like, and that there are a lot of traditionalist societal norms in the US that dictate the "normative" way to think about sexuality and romance, if you deviate from that norm, it can be incredibly isolating. that's why I do get why there is always so much passion (especially among younger generations) to defend these labels and communities, because in a way people just want to feel seen and understood. that's pretty universal, I think.

however, on the other hand, I think using a spectrum that spawns a new identification label promotes the "being seen" aspect more than the "being understood" part, and at least to me, the understanding is much more valuable when it comes to the function of a label.

a label that allows people to understand you, which can foster community--think "lesbian" as a label, it allows for same-sex attracted women to identify themselves and find each other to share experiences, advice, and advocate for general rights and protections.

a label that allows people to just be seen could be an identifier, sure. but if you just label yourself as "gray ace" or "on the ace spectrum", considering that it is a spectrum and thus could mean pretty different things for different people, it just lets people know this is what you call yourself and you probably think it's interesting enough to keep mentioning. plus, a majority of this kind of niche identification happens online anyway (what would be the point of a aspec bar, y'know. that's just a bar. or what legal protections do gray aces need? everyone has the right to not have sex with people they don't want to, that kind of stuff is in fact protected by the law, which is great) and calling yourself anything on the internet is explicitly about being seen a certain way and not questioned on it. so, the label becomes more of a vanity. maybe a conversation starter. more cynically, maybe a ticket into feeling special and asserting yourself in a larger, trendy community that has been slowly growing in a marketable demographic. (I really wanted to go on a tangent about the "do aromatic/aspec identities belong in the lgbtq community" discourse but then I realized I don't even really believe in the concept of "lgbtq community" so. uh. maybe a ramble for another day.)

(tangent I will go on: one very petty thing that pushed me to question the identification of aroace was that I noticed people who were identified as aroace or on the ace spectrum talked about it so much even though there wasn't much to say outside of niche fandom opinions. I found that a bit irksome, and became more self conscious if I was talking about it too much myself because if I found it annoying, I definitely didn't want to behave like that lol, especially because it's basically a conversational dead end to mention. for definitionally embodying the lack of something honestly aroaces do love to talk about that. I say this as I type another 500 words or something though lmao)

honestly, I think the label of asexual is pretty functional by itself, it's a lack of sexual attraction, which is pretty self explanatory and important to communicate to others. It's unique enough to have it's own community struggles to share (dating while ace, not relating to peers) it's just when you get to stuff like demisexual or throw in the split attraction model then it's actually way faster to just say "I don't really consider that until I have an emotional connection with someone" or "I don't see myself with that person/most people/whatever distinction romantically" or "I care more about personality" or just not talking about it unless relevant in conversation, which most people already do when it comes to their preferences and details of their relationship boundaries.

this is already so long and I feel like I've gone slightly off topic but I am just gonna sandwich this last thing I've been thinking about regarding micro-labels, especially aroace related ones. sometimes, to me, it feels like there's too much possibility for them to become excuses. like, if I say I'm aromantic, I might just be justifying my own fear of intimacy and opening up to people, and no one can push me on this because it's "valid" and if you push back that would be the equivalent of "telling a gay person they're not gay". which it obviously isn't. If I say I'm "fictosexual" I might just not talk to a lot of people in real life and am very obsessed with fandom culture, or I might just have a celebrity crush and very little real relationship experience, which I definitely won't gain if I just label myself as some flavor of aroace and commit to justifying my adherence to a comfort zone. (the aromantic one is based on my actual experience, the fictosexual one is not but I can definitely see how a much younger version of myself might latch on to that. concerning!)

I personally also used the "safety" of the aroace label of not needing to come out as a crutch to ensure I wouldn't have to think about telling my parents at all (it's much easier to tell your parents that you don't feel like dating anyone than to tell them you want to date a woman). it just became another way I could repress things without having to come to terms with the fact that it was repression. sometimes I blame myself for this, sometimes I don't. it is actually pretty bleak sometimes to be same sex attracted, and I have had many sleepless nights where I truly feel the weight of what I have to do to simply find the love and support heterosexuals have easily. it's all tangled up with my self-hatred, and led to me dealing with a lot of anger and dysphoria over "not having it as easy" as men. obviously all that is pretty toxic, and only when I was able to come to terms with being same-sex attracted could I start tackling these things head on. I do think if I kept believing in the aroace spectrum and community wholeheartedly, some of my problems would have gotten worse. repression is not really a good technique, who knew?

all in all, I think if you start to think about all of it too much, it begins to unravel. asexual is maybe the only "useful" label but the rest of it falls apart in meaning and purpose to me. and the more nuanced stuff, like the concept of a split attraction model, is interesting academically and in discussion, but I feel like introducing to the clumsy hands of twitter, tumblr, tiktok (and other social media sites that don't start with t) as a way to determine identities on par with lgb ones is. probably not super productive.

apologies in advance for the unhinged use of prepositions and conjunctions on this one, I had way too much random shit to say and too little energy to actually properly draft and edit it, feel free to ask for further clarification or elaboration! big big thanks again anon I shall look forward to you in my inbox once more :D

[ilynpilled]

i dont wanna bring jc vs jb discourse bc ick but i saw a tweet that was like “everything complex about jb is jc” thoughts? bc personally i think the jb dynamic revolves around deconstructing knighthood and oaths and honour. cersei’s involvement is restricted to jaime’s development and has nothing to do with jaime and brienne’s dynamic so i dont know where they got that from

oh god im sorry this is kind of long 😭😭. nah you are absolutely right, JB can obviously stand on its own. and yes I agree with your read of what it is deconstructing. you can read any of my jaime metas and the complexity of their dynamic is always prevalent. however I also dont think cersei is entirely separate from it either (or has nothing to do with it, as you put it). like I think these characters and their dynamics enrich each other. I think the problem is just fandom tribalism. like a lot of JC people act like his narrative with brienne is practically irrelevant and just a little side quest for him until he returns to his “true love”, when it is absolutely key in reconstructing his character and plays an essential role in a lot of jaime’s themes, many of which are mostly outside of his relationship with cersei, like u said. same with a lot of JB shippers who place cersei into this role of “evil sister wife abuser that we will just get away from quick and it is over, no significant impact on jaime as a character from now on, it is not like this insane toxic relationship will affect him anymore since he burned that letter”. Those two dynamics foil and deepen each other so much, and have multiple thematic through-lines (like gender, rigid social constructs, identity etc) and it is so weird when either is just written off bc it kind of shows a lack of interest in jaime as a character in specific. which is also fine, don’t get me wrong. i take no issue with someone just liking brienne or cersei a lot, and only caring about jaime as an extension of their characters. but jaime exists outside of those two just as those two exist outside of him, no matter how interwoven their narratives can be. imo you don’t have to engage with something emotionally, but to refuse to even acknowledge it intellectually will lead to tunnel vision and just frankly terrible takes. takes that we can just ignore tbh

[fayesdiary]

I just finished Verdant Wind so, you know the drill!

Ask me some questions about it and I'll answer them while I take a few days of well-deserved break from Fòdlan...

Well until I start CF next week. Honestly at this point I'm determined to finish 3H out of nothing but sheer spite.

At least I get to change the blog theme to red, I hate yellow as a main color...

Will have to draw another Edie-themed Faye too

[judasisgayriot]

I want to make gifs but I don’t want to make anything that’s on my list of gifs to make lol. the struggle

Also I just ranted to Han about this lol, but I’m just grumpy bc I feel like I never do anything or go anywhere, I just play Pokemon or watch YouTube videos (mainly about pokemon lol), I don’t have any hobbies, I tried crochet for like 2 mins then gave up bc I found it frustrating, I don’t even read any more, literally it’s been years since I read for pleasure (more than like maybe 1/2 books a year) bc I literally can’t make myself focus on it any more and it makes me feel stupid and a failure (it seems like everyone reads so much, everyone talks about reading and books so much, I used to but I’ve lost it and I just feel alienated when people start conversations about what they’re reading or whatever lol)

work every day makes me feel tired and burned out so I never want to do anything afterwards bc I’m tired, it’s hard to even make myself go for a walk, at the weekends I’m tired and don’t want to do anything, like I said I barely have hobbies, I don’t see any of my friends any more and haven’t for ages bc we’re all busy or scattered around the place and even old work friends, we don’t see each other regularly bc everyone works from home and not the office now

I don’t even want to do things so much as want to want to do things, bc I feel like I literally do nothing with my time outside work bc I’m fuckin tired and I feel useless and bored and friendless and hobbyless and I can’t even fuckin read

anyway this started off as a light hearted grumble about gifs lol (is that a hobby? Making niche gifsets that get 6 notes? Lmao) but here we are, just wanted to rant. I turn 30 soon, dear lord

[sadgirlautumn]

It’s been over a week and I still can’t type on my new phone

[jonsaslove]

actually I have more to say re: rhaenicent and d/ensa. this might be a bit jumbled but...

anyway obviously i’m a jonsa through and through but I was also drawn to the idea of d/ensa as like a corruption of power, making all the wrong choices, etc etc. but also i could never fully commit because I simply do not like dany. her character is not interesting enough to me to pair her with a character who I love so deeply, sansa. also if we’re talking canon (which is obviously not the only valid interpretation of texts, but as an aside), I cannot even remotely see them ever getting along enough to have that sort of connection. still, there is the smallest piece of what they could be that draws me in. 

but rhaenicent. and we’re talking purely show here since it’s been too long since i’ve read fire and blood and I know it’s a much different dynamic there. rhaenicent is fated from the start. these two women are intertwined and really the only friend the other has for many years. but where alicent is constrained by the binds of society, rhaenyra doesn’t understand (yet) that she is too, and by nature of being a targaryen she pushes against those barriers in ways that alicent cannot. their bond intensifies before it starts to rot, but it starts with the simple things rhaenyra can get away with that alicent cannot. 

i don’t have a good way to wrap this up other than to say that what compels me about rhaenicent is that they are both prone to self-destruction, albeit sometimes unknowingly, and I think d/ensa lacks that component that compels me to them. sansa’s story is one of rebuilding where dany was destined for tragedy from the start. rhaenyra and alicent might have been able to avoid the fates they were destined for at one point, if things had been different. but they weren’t. and it makes me love them all the more. 

[volfoss]

like... to get an idea of what all id need to do. for anyone curious ig and also to just... totally beat the allegations of yucky little beast:

survey the damage... bc shes obviously in VERY bad shape. so id need to see if i could even get her eyes out or if id maybe. need to dremel into them to get them free so i could start on faceup removal

get the eyes out. this is very scary bc of the hot glue and also the mysterious gray substance. if it IS apoxie sculpt like i think it is then good god. thats going to be the worst 7 bucks ive ever spent or smth

clean the head. im really hoping that its dirt and not.. the alternative on the forehead and other parts of the face. if it IS some mold or fungus, ive got pony experience here (as in. i have dealt with that a few times on MLP) so I'm not... too worried? My guess is its surface level grime that should go away w the faceup being removed.

attempt to remove the faceup. the paint rly looks like it goes ALL the way around her head (poor thang) so ill probably test with acetone at the back of her head. for whatever reason i feel very much like her head has to be fragile so id rather test the more strong/easy to use chemical in a lesser seen spot. i really do not want to be scrubbing with rubbing alcohol for 5 years. bc the faceup looks like at LEAST a few layers of paint with a bad sealant so (as someone whos removed two full body resin paint jobs) i know acetone would be quickest (but alcohol is safest. but we will see)

assess the damage AGAIN. i predict that she is severely yellowed (due to the cracks on the cheek) but the question of if it is either just. in those spots where the faceup cracked or if its all over is really unsure. i mainly want to get her to try retrobrighting (which ive done on older MLP with great success and it seems to be something that works for this kind of vinyl as well) on her and just. fix up a doll that is beyond repair for most people lol. from what ive experienced with resin, i think the yellowing could either be all over (and the head was painted to try and hide this. although this clearly did not go well lol, altho i think its a sealant issue and not a paint issue, as it kind of looks like when ive fucked up with MSC (a common sealant for bjds)) or it could be just... shes been in sunlight and where the paint cracked got unevenly yellowed (i experienced this most recently with my big blue boy, where all the blue paint kind of. protected his resin and the non covered parts got more yellow). so its kind of a toss up. or a mysterious third thing you never know.

once shes all clean (which i assume will take a while due to well... how bad of shape that she is in), ill probably sit with it for a few days and then get milliput and sculpt a new nose. this will not be fun for me i think because I just... am not a sculpting fan (funny thing when this project WILL have a lot of sculpting) and much prefer sanding. I'm not too mad about the chin being sanded down (as the original had an INSANELY pointed chin which I really didn't like. I hate sanding vinyl so this works for me) or the eyes being opened (other than.. having to figure out the size on my own and pray for the best). Most of the mods are not... bad to me and are partially why I'm drawn to miss yucky bc like... the diseases but also the fact that the mods do mostly make the head cuter for me

Redo the faceup. I would love to keep the elements of the original with the big eyelashes as I find them cute, but the BIGGEST order of business is eyebrows good god. I'll have to paint over the mod that I did but I'm not super worried about it (maybe falsely I've never painted a vinyl head in full bc I have exactly one vinyl doll) and then hope i can get the head right on the first try. depending on how bad the yellowing is (and if im able to retrobright her to a lighter skin tone, as the body i have is pretty light (altho it doesnt match any skins from this company so. its a whole thing its ok)) i might just paint the whole head (or even come up with a story or reason why its mismatched. I have a lot of heads and bodies like that so I don't mind fully lol). It's just kind of a scary tossup on how bad of shape everything is.

Done <3 i really dont think itll be TOO bad but i also like... think i wont know fully until i get my hands on her if i do. She would be pretty tiny too (as in 45 cm or so, or for the americans, 1.5 ft) but I do love that scale of doll so. it could work.