#speedrunning the phases of grief

[tornoleander]

Just realized I’m a Lavashiper

Fu-

[galatoma]

can qfit stay in the denial phase of grief over qtubbo being dead long enough that he's able to see Creation. I just think it would funny to see the stages of grief speedrun if he saw a robot (that only reactivated because his friend died) trying to remake his dead friend

[princess-of-the-corner]

Any thoughts on how Mic & Aizawa got together in CC? Like, did they start dating in high school? After they graduated? Was there a painful pining phase that made all their friends want to kill them?

OH GOD SO LIKE

I hinted before that it was a poly thing with them and Oboro(who was probs the one who asked them out if Midnight didn't watch them all pining and smack them upside the head) and like.

They did get together in high school and that was mostly just some normal pining and such but also due to the Oboro situation that went sideways for a bit.

Oboro's death kinda. Hit them hard in different ways and swung between finding comfort in each other but more often than not it was just. A lot. For them to be with each other.

Mic is handling things.... decently. He's more bottling everything up and it /will/ come out one day but he's just kinda trying his best to move forward while Aizawa is kinda lost in grief. And that does kinda fuck them up because Mic is upset that Aizawa doesn't seem to be trying to make progress while Aizawa's in the 'how dare you try to move on' thing. (neither are right or wrong here but god do they need therapy)

They didn't explicitly break up, but they weren't exactly together anymore.

And then I'm like. I'm speedrunning Aizawa's character development so that a lot of it happened pre-Canon of him like. Coping by overcompensating. Pushing himself too hard. And eventually taking out his anger on people who aren't pushing themselves to the same unhealthy extent in the same unhealthy ways

Ms. Joke was kinda the first target in this, given her entire persona is about being goofy and all so when given close proximity... but she's also got thick skin and is a determined motherfucker and is like "I can fix him!" (baby girl please your taste in men is awful)

This continues for a while and even into Aizawa's first year as a UA teacher where he just starts randomly expelling any student he feels isn't extremely dedicated and taking it seriously. Which is, ultimately, all of his students within the first like month. Because they're dumbass 15 year olds who are mostly trauma-free ofc they're gonna good off and not buckle down and be serious all the goddamn time.

Nezu is like 'look I love some chaos as much as anyone else HOWEVER you need to get your shit together because I can't have you expelling literally all of your students. PLEASE get therapy!'.

Which does piss Aizawa off for a bit. Because he's heavily projecting. He lost someone. Any of them could die at any moment they need to take this seriously and prepare for it! They're here to be Heroes not have fun! Not taking things seriously will get them killed!

This does swing back around to Ms. Joke who does end up snapping at him of just like a 'god don't you get it? People have to have fun and goof off and be fuckin happy sometimes or else they're absolutely miserable and probably just want to die!'(she might like being silly and all but humor is /also/ a coping mechanism for her)

And it's.... yeah just her snapping and pointing that out does kinda. Hit. In having him realize that 'oh I'm very much Not Okay™'.

Which gets him to actually get his ass some therapy so he can help process the grief and the whole like. You're allowed to take a break, you're allowed to be happy and do things that aren't serious when you don't have to be on the job you don't have to be paranoid 24/7 that someone else you love is gonna fuckin drop.

After a bit of this he does meet up with Mic again to talk on just. Everything. Kind of apologize. Mic def hits his own breaking point here too. And they need to do a bit of work but GOD do they miss each other.

Slowly but surely they work on themselves and each other and by the time of CC they've gotten to the point where they're married now and while they still have some hiccups they're a hell of a lot better.

ofc we get the added 'oh hey your dead boyfriend is actually alive but was kidnapped, experimented on, given amnesia, and has been forced into villainy for the last 10+ years and for bonus points he's a dilf now' drama later

[wrenhavenriver]

If you're still doing these can I ask top 5 songs from the Bloodborne OST?

absolutely you can!

the first hunter is on my "secret emotions" playlist for a reason. it's like, no matter how you feel about [redacted], you will be struck by a sense of regret and grief as you two fight to the death in this field of beautiful white flowers, the full moon looming meaningfully overhead, the hunter's dream burning to the ground in the distance,

lady maria of the astral clocktower. you ever search youtube for "lady maria fight no hud" and let the music and visuals wash over you and just marvel at how gotdamn cinematic it all is? y-yeah me neither. but seriously, it's such a fitting theme for her. the beginning is anxiety personified, heightening that feeling of "OH SHIT OH FUCK" you get from the cutscene and the transition into the boss fight where she's slowly advancing on you and you start to suspect you're about to get your ass handed to you. the bits with the choir are really powerful but also discordant and unsettling, especially with the sort of piercing wail you can hear over the top of it at parts. if you manage to time the fight so maria's phases/power ups sync up with the major turning points of the song it's just awesome in the original sense of the word. bone rattling and shiver inducing.

omen. i've seen the cinematic trailer/menu movie so many fucken times that if i put this song on i can pretty much just watch the cinematic behind my eyes. that moment when the hunter flicks open the saw cleaver and walks away with Purpose as the scene fades out? talented, brilliant, incredible, amazing, show stopping, spectacular,

ludwig the holy blade. i watch a lot of soulsborne speedruns and 9/10 times the streamer successfully blasts through the ludwig fight somebody in chat will be like "we didn't get to hear the music >(" and like. how can you argue with that. do the fight again but worse, streamer, 2:39 onward is the best part of the track!!

lullaby for mergo. what is it about music boxes that makes everything feel a hundred times more melancholy?? and this track is sad enough to begin with, associated with the loss of both child Great Ones (mergo) and human children (gascoigne's daughter(s), if you try and help them).

[knightofconcordia]

how do i escape denial phase. will i ever

i'm gonna be honest w you i either speedrun the 5 stages of grief or stay in the denial phase for months-

luckily it's very possible for people like us to escape denial! you just. don't care. (look i said possible, not that it was easy-) FOR EXAMPLE say you're hyperfixating on a character you want to pull and they won't come home even after you've spent over half your wallet (wataru pls come home i made cookies) Well then damn skip the denial and go straight to anger or acceptance and avoid that character as much as possible and give your attention and savings to one of their close friends so they get jealous and finally come home-

this has def worked perfectly for me 50% of the time but yk what i still take those odds

i am not ok 😃

[wackernagels]

prefacing this w personal meta on yang jian as a god but it’s actually just more meta on my yang jian esper oc:

i understand yang jian as someone who loves and cares very deeply, and also as someone who adheres strictly to a set of morals. and like most times these two things can coexist bc in most cases it is not a bad thing to care about others, etc. but if he has to choose between one or the other it almost seems like he is conflicted in the choice. to save his mother is a decision he made while acknowledging he would defy the most powerful heavenly figure if he does so. to imprison his sister is to follow heavenly law, but i imagine he did it with a heavy heart. he can be kind and loyal and devoted, but he is also a punisher, an enforcer of heaven’s will. i think he places a certain degree of trust in his superiors, which can just as easily be taken away for injustice or malevolence.

i think that’s probably why i stuck with him having an emotionally platonic d/s relationship. it doesn’t really matter who he has it with, so long as it’s someone who’s understanding and willing to support him. my concept for a tu’er shen esper just happened to fit the bill. tianhu isn’t quite anywhere in life either, but he’s not burdened by choices. he’s gone through enough to empathize with yulang but he has the space and time to be a source of comfort or offer him a break from his life. yulang’s not in a position where he should keep deep bonds if he doesn’t want to run the risk of having to destroy them, but there’s less of an obligation to physically be around in order to keep a friendship, as opposed to a romantic relationship.

yulang is still very interesting to me as a character who has basically been forced to mature too quickly. this is something that could have been touched on with characters like li ling or tang xuan who have been given power/responsibility at a relatively young age but it doesn’t appear that they’re struggling with it in any way. yang jian himself is a person who lost both parents and possibly a sibling as a young child, and it’s not unrealistic to think he would’ve carried the trauma into his journey to split the mountain. it’s not just grief and love for family but the fact that he should not have had to grow into the world to take their place. with the disappearance of her sister and the death of his bil yulang has instantly become the head of the family. he is the only one left who can take in xiang liu, who up until this point was more like a younger brother. to find his sister is to try and fulfill this desire to shift his responsibility away, to be distant from his nephew and make his sister return as a beacon of the family. (realistically, i’m not even sure if he’d even find her alive or in a state where everything can go back to normal. it’s been years since he started trying and there’s a good chance she’s already gone.). it’s selfish, ultimately, though he does care for her and want her safety. he does grieve for her and how she is gone from his life, but i think he tacitly understands that she would’ve rather have yulang look after his nephew than drop everything to try and save her.

the mature decision IS to make choices that would benefit xiang liu and yulang’s relationship with him, but it’s not an easy decision and yulang would find himself at times trying to go back from it. he’s been forced to grow up too early. though 21 year olds are adults, most of them aren’t adults who worry about jobs, benefits, or the future of other family members. most of them are still in this transitional phase of entering society and learning how to live off it. yulang was forced to speedrun this transition at 17 and though it is the selfless to fill in as household head, is it worth it? does he have to? he’s unable to experience several aspects of a quintessential early adult life bc he has taken up the weight of the family. does he deserve to grow up normally? would he even forgive himself if he abandoned the responsibility?

ollie is someone with similar experiences to yulang, the difference being that he has made a decision to abandon his role as an heir and reject the burden of his family to seek justice. it may have even been the only path he was offered. he was someone i considered yulang could’ve bonded with, but not right now. i don’t think yulang’s situation as i currently have him allowed him to meet and connect with ollie.

i also considered at one point putting yulang in the shadow decree as a sort of infiltrator, or perhaps someone who works there in exchange for the safety of the sister they stole from him. i eventually decided against it since the choice would distance him so much from xiang liu, becoming the result of a choice that’s so selfish the yang jian in yulang would have refused to go down that path in the first place. but possibly in a timeline where he goes off the deep end, almost if i want to go in the vein of lotus lantern (1999) chenxiang and yang jian, it might’ve been viable?

[bapple117]

(Chapter 20 spoilers)

lowkey obsessed with the implied visual of, like, Charlie and the gang having the time of their lives while alastor bleeds out in an alley while speedrunning the phases of grief

I know, the image of Al on the ground while fireworks go off in the distance was something I had in my head for SO LONG AEGHHHH

Poor guy 😂

[honesteas]

posting gifs is just speedrunning the 5 stages of grief but the acceptance phase is just realizing people are going to steal your gifs no matter what you do

[mrkanman]

wtf why are people trying to defend incest like. its gross and hurts real life people and enjoying content involving it is embarrassing as fuck

i dont even have like. words rn youre just one hundred percent right.

[delightfullygiddy]

If you wanted some additional context of that scene of the psychic gorilla attacking young Barrack Obama, basically the gorilla is working for an ancient time demon named Mallus, who sent him back in time to kill Obama to mess up the timeline in order weaken the prison that is holding Mallus. The gorilla's name is "Gorilla Grodd" & later in that very scene he says he is going to "Make America Grodd again." The show is completely aware of how stupid it and is unironically the best show on the CW.

You know what, that's par for the course.

[chaos-is-my-lifeblood]

Ok so. For this post I started with the scene of ‘gotta stop all the ghosts- Danny: Ok ez just hit the fucking button’ when I started, but. It’s interesting to think of the events that would follow, too, with no portal invaders and Danny having already speedrun the five stages of grief. Which means, of course, my brain must elaborate on it.

Danny, having nosedived into Acceptance, is pretty casual with his newfound powers. And... yeah, they act up sometimes, but it’s a pretty doable learning curve. After all, his parents have finally stopped obsessing about ghosts, and there’s no ghost attacks. Danny has all the time in the world to figure stuff out, in a relatively low-stress environment.

There’s no identity as ‘Phantom’ for Danny to even bother hiding. The rest of the school don’t know what the fuck up with that kid, but all the Fentons are weird, so... Danny be living his best life flying to school and phasing through his locker and whatnot. His fellow students? Think the Fentons figured out how to break the laws of physics. And manifest Schrödinger’s hair dye.

(His physics teacher sees him fly on his first day of that class. They cry. By the end of the year, Danny Fenton’s weirdness is the physics teacher’s pet project. How does it all work??)

[foulserpent]

How does Ned react to what happens with Dagon & Martin?

uhhhh very badly. hes already having an absolutely abysmal time BEFORE mehrunes dagon shows up (due to ptsd involved with the imperial city) so hes like primed to be in a personal hell.

when the dust settles he kind of makes sure xikeels okay, then looks around in the rubble expecting martin to be in there somewhere, and once it sinks in that hes fucking Gone its just like speedrunning every phase of grief. starts just absolutely panicking and sobbing. when chancellor ocato and jauffre walk in he’s absolutely enraged and like starts shouting at them and grabs ocato by the collar and shit bc as far as hes concerned, him xikeel and mostly martin were mostly just pawns and sacrificial lambs for them. xikeel has to talk him down so he doesnt get mowed down on the spot for nearly attacking the chancellor (and shes not exactly doing very well either).

then he starts going like “oh god i was a champion of boethiah i dont know if im on good terms with her anymore but maybe i could have like cut my wrists and offered myself and maybe she could do something to slow him down or something maybe that could have worked maybe we could have found another way” etc etc . and this whole time hes just been grieving bc he lost someone he loved but THEN it also hits him that the worlds in shambles and its gonna be a succession crisis and whoever gets chosen as emperor sure as hell wont be paying reparation to other countries the empire occupied then left to uselessly fend for itself, much less attempt to DISSOLVE the empire, and that the worlds gonna get real shitty real fast, so thats like being sucker punched a second time. so basically ends the day guilty and angry and depressed and not wanting to be alive. makes kind of feeble attempts at dying. tries really hard to be there for xikeel bc he loves her so much but is kind of too much of a wreck to help her. also is mad at akatosh like goes to a shrine of akatosh and attempts to yell at the damn dragon god.

so basically he reacts about as badly as possible and is in a personal hell about it for a very long time. this is not helped when xikeel vanishes without a trace months later and he makes a stronger attempt at killing himself but gets scared and realizes something in him wants to live. is eventually able to somewhat recover and at least be able to accept it, and does go on to have a pretty decent rest of his life, but its a nightmare to get to that point.