#stop being toxic bitch im about to redeem you

[fourphoenixfeathers]

Beloveds. My blorbos. Holding them gently in my hands but in my mind they are spinning at mach speeds.

[dorigvbcorvis]

I feel so incredibly used, roped in, ambushed and finally picked apart like I was in some Lord of the Flies tribal warfare and I am Piggy and my shell has just exploded. My crime? I placed an angry emoji on a a thread started with a meme that said "Kurtofski is endgame"

I did as a final act before unfollowing a "Glee Fan Fiction FB Channel". I thought that's all I had to do. But then yesterday a mod invited me to answer why I felt the way I do. I obliged her and said I didn't understand why anyone who ship two people so ill suited I said that Karofski is woefully ignorant racist thug who thinks it is okay to push around girls half his size. That was my reason but more to the point I said bullies like him are seldom redeemable unless they receive anger management...that unless they do they go on to commit crimes at higher rates than those who were never bullied. I said bullies are more likely to use violence as both a coping mechanism but also as conflict resolution. In short they are people no one should want to be around.

Shipping Kurtofsky made little sense

Whatever the reason I suggested there might be racist component because the same crowd wants anybody not Blaine

Sebastian Karofski Adam Elliot even Rachel what do all these characters have in common...They are all white

But it is worse because nearly all are also vile.

Sebastian and Karofski are both abusive racist thugs...

Adam is a nice guy but he is as boring as observing the oxidation process of liquid pigment applied to vertical substrates

Elliot also nice guy but a better friend than a boyfriend.

Rachel even if we get past being the wrong sex she is a egotistical narcissistic racist bitch.

Blaine is the right sex he is not a thug, he is kind, and thoughtful so what is there left?

He is half Asian?

And so I have wondered why it seemed people were desperate to ship Kurt with anybody but Blaine

Why we can look past toxic qualities and I keep coming back to race as possible reason but I am an Apistevist so I am not firm on this and I use unafirming language like it seems this way or it might be this way

I also said Karofski was woefully ignorant

But my words were strawmanned into the mod thinking I was calling her stupid, desperate, and a racist

So I reiterate back how this was a strawman fallacy

I didn't call her stupid, desperate, or a racist

I said I didn't even say Karofsky was stupid I said ignorant

So the mod administrator says Karofski can't be ignorant his father said he got good grades and he took Calculus

I said Karofsky said he was "going to calculus" he didn't say why he was going or even if he was taking Calculus. For all we know he could had some body else who needed to be escorted to class

Again I said ignorance is not the same as being stupid. It is about the knowledge and learning or lack there of, of a curtain subject

I restate how Kurt and Karofski are ill suited for each Kurt has all these interest that Karofski doesn't have nor does he ever want to have in that sense Karofski is the purest form of ignorance in that he wishes to ignore these things.

Imagine loving someone but then having nothing to love if you have zero in common

I also mention as a side note how Karofski could not possibly have been taking Calculus. This is because he was in remedial math in 10 grade and same year carried a Pre Algebra textbook in the episode called Bad Reputation

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I was invited to share my opinion I was honest I share something deeply persona about how I was bullied both at school as a child and at home by some I knew who used a unloaded gun to rape me over a span of many years. These two incidents are forever interconnected The trauma at home led to Complex PTSD, Bulimia, a stuttering problem, I also sucked my thumb for emotional comfort, and I wet my bed until an age 11 I only stopped when I was strong enough to move a big dresser in front of my bedroom door and smart enough to put a wedges in the windows to prevent it from being opened from the outside ....At age 11 I took care of myself because my parents didn't want to admit their son was racist asshole thug. This home trauma made me a trouble emotional kid I was bullied for all of it ...And yes I have since gotten help - So thanks but no thanks to all the new Glee Fan Fiction FB recommendations who can now all collectively stfu...because the problem isn't me. The problem is the perception we have of bullies. Some want to write them off like what they are and do are just a facts of life. In the immortal words of Chris Colfer who is just so apt in this moment but screw that. If those at Glee Fan Fiction FB Group can't see bullies for who they are - who will have their backs when they are bullied?....As for Glee Fan Fiction channel on Facebook who took more than a pound of flesh from me today...maybe it was naive of me to think I was only being invited to state my reason...and that once said I could back out the way I came... I mean I had already unfollowed the channel.

But also true maybe they now have to ask themselves if the mod has to secretly invited all these other friends of hers to join her using her IM so I didn't see this was going on behind the scenes... maybe they should be asking themselves why if this position that well grounded and the character of Karofski was such the up standing guy/such a decent young man and epitome of the kind you take home to meet mom...well then why does one need help taking turns taking pop shots at someone who disagrees???. I guess in an ironic sense another mystery piece of why this crowd people who like Karofsky and why they can relate to a bully and a thug is that they are bullies themselves

[baddyxangel]

well...that was an...experience.

spoiler

ok babies so i finally finished ALL of teen wolf and umm...wow . im gonna go ahead and share my thoughts, i think im gonna split this into 2 posts 1 where i talk about the characters individually and 1 where i just speak in general

6B never happened, I've never heard of it, never seen it, never touched it, never smelled it and i dont think i wanna see anything anymore.

starting with our MC we have scott, the indecisive, pure, irritating, "true alpha". now my problems with scott are honestly just preferrence but still somewhat justified . if you're familiar with comics you know that we always have our hero who believes and tries his best to save EVERYBODY including his enemies, and he is the "if i kill them i'll be just as bad as them" type. now the issue i have with this trope is that its just annoying and naive , I've always been more of a wonder woman type myself personally i dont see this issue with killing 1 person who has killed hundreds or dozens. Scott in most cases is very...bland ? very cookie cutter goody two shoes type, naive and a little bit soft, and for how gassed up true alphas are he is EXTREMELY underwhelming and one is his only saving graces for me is me being attracted to him.

he lets some of the most dangerous people in his universe roam freely because there is a "line" he wont cross and while i get those are his morals and his code i just personally couldnt fuck with it if i was in pack. his innocence meshes more well with ignorance. AND FOR FUCKS SAKE LET THIS MAN BE FUCKING SINGLE

also this was added in post: he's best on screen when he has other people with him to actually show he had some kind of personality besides "me help people" is what I've noticed. specifically stiles, derek and isaac tbh. i think one of my fav scott moments is "im the hot girl 🙂" and isaac saying "yes you are 👍🏽"

Stiles now we all know stiles, the best friend, the brains of the operation, the sarcastic and funny one who lightens the mood. Now stiles is one of my favorites (surprise surprise) because he's not infuriating to me i dont think I've ever been frustrated with mr.stilinski. he's essentially scotts polar opposite but not really if you get what i mean ? idk i love him, moving on.

Allison- i like her. got on my nerves after her coocoo ass momma died but y know. i thought her and scott were cute and i would've liked her to stay alive

Lydia- my favorite banshee, smart, but for some reason is always being taken hostage, attacked, injured, and put into extremely horrifying situations and i dont think i like that.

Kira- personally my fav of scotts Gf's, i think she's cute, right amount of awkward, strong, interesting and i would've loved for her kitsune to have been able to kill somebody. jeff davis obviously did her dirty with her storyline that was apparently finished even though...we still didnt get to learn that much about her powers ? whatever im upset.

Liam- dont like him . moving on. also the long hair didnt grow on me and i dont think it will.

Jackson- eat shit and die.

coach- we love you.

monroe- i could write an entire 2 hour movie script on this hoe. bitch killed 1 hellhound and start feeling ha pussy and thinking she hot shit fuck this lil girl was annoying, moving on before i keep typing.

gerard- you got what the fuck yo old ass had coming to you

peter- we love an anti hero with a sense of humor 💕 and idc he would've wrecked everybody shit in season 1

kate- girl...you are a mess of a hoe. lemme stop there before i write a book on her too.

chris- ily

melissa- someone give her an award ASAP

sherrif- you were very on and off for me

derek- baby i missed you so much, leave scott musty ass and come pack this puss-

dread doctors- these fuckers used to put fear in my soul when i was little

deaton- i dont like how he's used as a plot device.

desert wolf- LMFAOOOO

malia- i like her because she's impulsive but sometimes those impulsive tendecies make me wanna stomp her head in the ground.

deucalion- also used a plot device after his season and then died for no reason. im so sorry for what this show did to you

im missing a lot but if you drop your opinions and names in the replies i'll share my opinion on whoever i missed

Thoughts on Theo? theo- hated his manipulative ass but he is so fine so it hurt me to be screaming and cursing at my tv when he was on screen. originally i was extremely irritated and annoyed when they brought him back cause i dont think he needed to be redeemed like at all, even though i appreciate that i can love him without him being a piece of shit it was unneeded i think . id still fuck him tho

scott pissed me off cause... is theo just a great liar or does scott just hate stiles ? why would he believe theo so easily yet not ask for stiles part of the story ? its like he forgets that stiles doesnt have claws and fangs and shit so of course he's gonna do what he does to survive when y'all can't protect him 🙄 i swear their werewolf hearing only works when the plot needs it too (ik they probably need to focus to enhance their hearing but still it's so annoying-) the season is essentially based on misunderstandings tbh. everyone's lying for no reason at all. but i do like how we actually get to see the effect of their mental health but this is also what i mean when i was talking about scotts fluctuating intelligence and how he's only smart when the plot needs him to be, how does he go from being the dimmest bulb in the box to being able to be in AP biology or whatever class it was. it makes no sense at all

”scott pissed me off cause... is theo just a great liar or does scott just hate stiles? why would he believe theo so easily yet not ask for stiles’ part of the story?” Because Scott McCall is a toxic friend and an even shittier werewolf (he couldn’t even detect Theo’s cheap lies and let himself be played like a fiddle throughout Season 5) And because Stiles doesn’t cater to Scott’s delusions of werewolf Jesus-hood and doesn’t stroke Scott’s ego like Theo does. Scott simply chose to believe the worst of his neurodivergent best friend – the boy who risked his own life to save his whiny ass countless times – because it suited his agenda, and because he’s pissed that Stiles didn’t share his own trauma with him like Scott wanted and demanded. SCOTT: We can’t kill the people that we’re trying to save! There’s always a choice! And yet Scott has no problem conspiring with Deucalion (Boyd and Erica’s murderer) behind everyone’s back to assassinate Josh and Tracy AND trying (but failing) to kill Gerard – selling Derek and his Pack out to the hunters, violating Derek, and using Derek as his own personal murder weapon to achieve that – just because “He threatened my mom! I had no choice!” A True Hypocrite indeed

[soliloquyangel]

you ever realize how stupid and meaningless you are like shit dude everyone is doing things with their lives and their significant others and i ??? am not?? i didn't even think i would be alive right now but here i am! my friends invited me to go ice skating and i want to go i just really don't want to /skate/ so im going to look like a fuckinf idiot i hate myself and i hate how jealous i am of everyone?? like im genuinely really happy for people but i am so jealous because i really want to be loved but it's not going to happen!! im going to die alone because im fat and annoying and too anxious about everything! that's what drove me and kenzie apart! i binged tonight and i want to relapse and also fucking kill myself i am so sad and im scared that people just pretend to like me!! i don't want to be people's pity friend but i dont have any redeeming qualities that would put me as an actually good friend, people just tolerate me at best, im constantly intruding on everyones life!! people think im crazy and weird and they're right i laugh/cry all the time, i hear shit, i have full panic attacks in the hallways in front of everyone, and i cant keep a relationship for the life of me because i dont deserve love!! im going to die alone and i should just embrace the fact that i am unlovable - i don't even have anything about me someone could *pretend* to be interested in - i dont have hobbies and im not talented and im not skinny or pretty?? ill let you abuse me but that's like idk we been knew!! my life has gone to base boosted fucking garbage for the like fourth year now and that fuckinf sucks!! i want to cut again so bad and nothing is stopping me because it's not like im ever going to be in a relationship where someone is going to see my body??? im never going to have consensual sex so it doesn't fuckinf matter if im scarred up or not because if im being assaulted again maybe the scars will say like she's wack don't mess with her and i suppose in some ways it's to keep people out because as much as i want to be loved it will never happen so i should just shut the fuck up! learn to make a good goddamn decision for once! you binged and you could have easily skipped dinner you fat bitch!! no wonder nobody likes you!! you're not worth shit!!! if you're ever so fuckinf lucky as to be in a relationship it's going to be toxic because you're stupid and that's the best you can do - and you don't deserve any better

[misanthropic-deity]

binch take my url

Mutual Love//not accepting

Roleplaying/Writing

My favorite muse(s) of theirs and why:

dis bitch,,,,DIS FUCKING BITCH!!!!!! OKAY SO I’VE BEEN FOLLOWING THIS ASSHOLE FOR YEARS! AND IM NOT TALKING ABOUT THE MUN HERE! GODDAMMIT CONCEPTUAL DEATH FUCKS ME UP!!! They’re just so????  WELL THOUGHT OUT AND EVERYTHING MAKES SENSE AND YET IT DOESN’T AND THEY’RE SUCH AN ASSHOLE BUT I LOVE THEM!! I love their meta, I love their interactions, Conceptual Death is a true masterpiece and I love them so much as a character and as somebody who basically reviews OCs. 

My favorite interaction/thread of theirs:

Anything, really anything- Kaddy writes beautifully and every idea we come up with, no matter how small inspires me. Althrough I am partial to the current one we have going on www ! 

My thoughts on their unique characterization/interpretation of their muse(s):

FUCK.ME.UP!!! Conceptual Death is brilliant, they’re a complete asshole but they’re fiercely protective of the one actual joy in their world and honestly?? I can’t fault them for that, no matter how unintentionally toxic they are, Conceptual Death is horrible, but has some redeeming qualities, Least to me anyway www!

My thoughts on their writing style as a whole:

Am I reading a beautiful novel or is Kaddy trying to fuck me up and send me into the forth dimension? There’s a think line and I love it. 

Situation(s)/Plot(s) I’d love to see their muse(s) in:

One where Kid fully rejects them and tries to fight back against Conceptual Death and escape at any cost, break them both? yes please~ 

Someone else I love seeing them interact with:

Honestly I like watching Conceptual Death with everybody, Kaddy’s really nailed them down man, im shookth 

Anything else I want to say about their roleplaying:

BEAUTIFUL, MAGNIFICENT, SPLENDID!  GIVE ME MORE!

If We Know Each Other

What I Think Are Their Best Qualities:

Strong, somewhat intimidating on the outside, But strong and very loyal on the inside? Kaddy’s a good person and honestly I love our 2AM bants, they are so smart as well, smarter then I shall ever be. They’re also a huge goober over their dogs (which are beautiful dogs btw) and it’s always good to talk to them about it! If our timezones weren’t so bad I would chat their poor ear off! 

What I Think Are Their Strengths:

Making me feel comfortable is a good one, Kaddy hasn’t made me feel bad ever I don’t think- They’re also creative and smart and the way they write gives me so much life. They also have a nice sense of humor, even if most of their jokes are dry and witty remarks back to something and they still haven’t laughed at any of mine yet (one day...) I’m also comfortable talking to them about matters I don’t chat about to anybody. Overall?? Kaddy’s a wonderful person whom I find so interesting and magnificent no matter what! I’m gonna stop before saptown hits tho- 

A Memorable OOC Interaction Of Ours:

‘Kaddy grasping at straws for that shinifam name’ 

Why Others Should RP With Them:

Conceptual Death is an amazing OC whom can adjust to any situation and still treat you like utter shit and let your muse know just what they are, and it’s amazing? Kaddy’s writing is amazing, and I don’t feel bad praising them so highly for it because it’s the truth! They’re just...Awesome- 

How Others Should Approach Them:

Don’t be scared of them, bring up that you’re interested in chatting to them and don’t make any stupid jokes that aren’t funny! 

Other Roleplayers I’d Recommend To Them:

This asshole basically knows everybody I rp with as well- Danggit !

Anything else I want to say about them:

KADDY YOU’RE A BEAUTIFUL PERSON A ND EVERY CONVERSATION WE HAVE IS TREASURED TO ME!  YOU’RE A GOOD PERSON, INSIDE AND OUT AND IM GLAD THAT I WORKED UP THE COURAGE TO SPEAK TO YOU AFTER SO MANY YEARS OF FOLLOWING YOU!  

If We Have/Plan To Interact Together

A plot I’d like to write with them:

Anything they have in mind I’ll plod along with, although perhaps something to do with Death’s meta and jumping through existences before crashing down into the material plane. 

A muse I want to introduce to them:

Trash OC man, Conceptual Death wouldn’t need to make him feel shitty about himself because he already knows he’s utter trash!

A ship/broship I’d like to propose to them:

God maybe Conceptual Death x Being a good parent who knows how to set boundaries for their child??? MAYBE??????

A thread with them I’m excited about:

Oh the current one we have going on for sure, Death not being able to form that bond between him and Kid?? Priceless!! ! 

Anything else I want to say:

You’re a great person, and I want to thank you for even existing, you inspire me to be a good writer. Kaddy I’ve followed you for years and nothing you do is boring to me, you are BRILLIANT and MAGNIFICENT