I am someone who exclaims, 'it's quite chilly today, isn't it?' as I take another sip of my iced coffee. I am also someone who would rather press the glass of iced coffee against my eyes (or the warm mug of jasmine tea) to provide some relief instead of just use the eyedrops the doctor prescribed (and which sit in my drawer of unorganized medication).
I am someone who wants to talk about the film I just watched and the book I just read to the person who recommended it to me. But I won't text them because they are my friend's boyfriend and I am so very careful of boundaries when it comes to other people's. I am someone who is learning how to be that way about my boundaries too.
I am someone whose helix piercing doesn't seem to heal no matter how many months or years go by and someone who has not yet decided on a tattoo though she decided she wanted one a decade ago. I am someone who will let you cry and talk even if we are not close because my awkwardness is not important in front of another person's grief, pain, or sadness and I am someone who will make that allowance for others even if they won't make it for me.
I am someone who will buy you sunflowers and also someone who will buy myself sunflowers because my mother taught me to be a giver but also to satisfy my own desires and not wait around for others. I am someone who wonders why she is writing this and also increasingly using third person to talk about herself but will let herself do it because writing is the one aspect of her life where she does not restrict herself.
I am someone who wonders if there is a person, a guy, out there who will love such a person? I am someone who wonders if there is a person, a guy, out there that I will love? What kind of guy will he be, what kind of guy will he have to be? I have been told I have high expectations and I struggled with it as a teenager and in my early 20s and still some times now I struggle. But I accept it now — I am someone who has high expectations. And it is not a judgement. And it is not a warning. It's a fact. And like most other facts, it doesn't have to be changed, only understood and worked with.
I am someone who will "maintain" me and find others who would love to do so too. Now, too, I have some of those in my life. And so, am I not someone who is lucky? Am I not someone who is loved? Am I not someone who is understood? And am I not someone to whom being understood is a prerequisite for being loved? And yet am I not someone who understands that's not the nature of most love? And am I not someone who is accepting of that as I am of many things? So, then, isn't it okay when I am not accepting of a few things? Am I not allowed to be someone who is not agreeable? Of course I am.
Because whoever it is I am, however it is I am, I am human too. Flawed, fickle, faceted.
And if I am someone who understands that about humans, am I not someone who is also forgiving?
I am.
I am.
I am.
The coffee is over and so is this funk.
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oh yeah also have this personal comic I drew in like three minutes
Obligatory tag @savedatateam
The video in question
ID under the cut
[ID: A three panel comic. The first two panels show a person laying on a sofa long ways with their shoulders up and their laptop on their lap. In the first panel they're thinking, "Ugh. Depressed Again..." and in the second panel they are looking slightly down while clicking on their laptop. The third panel is a screenshot of a youtube video on pause titled "The WILDEST Stream We've Ever Done | Dread Hunger Stream Highlights." by Save Data.]
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I kinda want to stream sometime next week as an attempt at a little break in the middle of working during valentines day-- mostly drawing my ocs for my yan vn and accepting whb requests-- but like. I'll only be able to stream for like 1-2 hours before having to go to sleep... is it even worth it....
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Mark Stream on Sunday, March 5th!
Hello Friends! Just a reminder that on Sunday, March 5th, 11:00 am CST, @TsubasaNoYuki will be streaming Mark's route. Come join us for a chat, some laughs, and maybe some cringe!
And who knows, a special guest may appear too. 👀
Twitch: https://www.twitch.tv/tsubasanoyuki
Time conversion: https://www.timebie.com/std/cst.php?q=11
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( Tag Dump! Current Verses and active AUs edition )
Verses:
[ noman's land;; ] - former default canon verse tag
[ unmade;; ] - current default canon verse tag
[ mirrored;; ] - former multiverse tag
[ across the trigun-verse;; ] - current multiverse tag
[ one way ticket;; ] - canon characters displaced to the Trigun verse
[ uprooted;; ] - Vash displaced to other universes without change
AUs:
the one from nothing;; ( Pokemon AU ) - Pokemon Sc/Vi AU
show me the world outside;; ( Remade AU ) - alt. path Trigun AU
punkSMP;; ( streamer AU ) - streamer AU, mostly designated for shenanigans
[ Stream Offline ];; ( Modern Day AU ) - modern AU, takes place in the streamer AU
Bridge of a Dying Planet;; ( Lobotomy Corps. AU ) - LobCo. AU, prequel
Rabbit on a Bridge;; ( Limbus Company AU ) - Limbus AU, takes place after LobCo AU
Peace & Love on the Planet Earth-1723;; ( Spider-Verse AU ) - Spider-Man/Spider-Verse AU
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I have the fortunate ability of understanding Spanish but I have been so busy lately that I haven't been able to watch Quackity play Karmaland I'm crying so hard
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