#studying psych & neuroscience is all well & good but i think i’ve done too many awful things for me to ever be a good person
Text
hey alexa, play “bodys” by car seat headrest
#vent#tw suicide mention#tw death#today is the anniversary of me cutting my mom out of my life#and i’ve been feeling profoundly guilty for it all day#i can’t help but feel it’s all my fault#i never should’ve said those things to her#i don’t think i’ll ever forgive myself for that#i don’t know if i ever could#how am i supposed to come to terms w that?#im just so exhausted#it’s not even that i want to die necessarily#it’s more that i wish i could just stop existing#for a year or two#or maybe i just need a diy lobotomy#who knows#i think part of me is also worried that i’ll never be able to undo the bad i’ve done in my life#studying psych & neuroscience is all well & good but i think i’ve done too many awful things for me to ever be a good person#i think i’m a bad person at heart#im my core#i don’t think any amount of morally good things will ever redeem me#every chance i’m given to be a good person i throw it away#i don’t understand how i can fuck up so badly all the time#i made my FP upset and i want to blow my head off abt it#i know he doesn’t care bc we talked abt it#but still#ugh
1 note
·
View note
Last Seen Blogs
outlanderx
Outlander_X
yung-paperboy
yung-paperboy
lady-sci-fi
The Musings of Lady Sci-Fi
axsizeinadiavasis
Αξίζει να Διαβάσεις
grapestones
[Insert meme here as well]