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reblog if you believe fanfics are as valid as books that were published and sold by authors who write as their main careers. I'm trying to prove a point

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rereading my own writing is just a constant fluctuation between "damn, girl, you wrote this? (affectionate)" and "damn, girl, you wrote this? (derogatory)"

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Still thinking about Shen Jiu and Jiang Cheng, so what if it's Shen Jiu transmigration into mdzs after reading the novel and he sees aspects of Jiang Cheng and feels them and becomes protective of him. So when he becomes an npc, whether a Jiang disciple from the start or someone else, going from rogue cultivator to a loyal disciple, he becomes insanely protective and even possessive of Jiang Cheng.

Man the possibilities. If he's there before the massacre, Shen Jiu trying to prevent it, and failing that he would guard Jiang Cheng and Jiang Yanli so much. Hate Wei Wuxian, but being careful with it (he understand what it's like to have a shitty childhood, but he's also jealous because Wei Wuxian did have a better life after being a street rat, not like Shen Jiu, who was abused way more as a slave, and he blames Wei Wuxian a lot. Guy is a hater lmao), and oh, he would adore Jiang Yanli, only the best for her. Yu Ziyuan is a boss and Jiang Fengmian's a rat in his eyes.

And if it's after, during the rebuilding of Lotus Pier, Shen Jiu would support Jiang Cheng so fucking much. My guy might be filled with hate and anger, but he's loyal (at least that's what fandom wiki tells me, I honestly don't remember enough which is such a fucking shame), he's smart, he can rise to be a second in command easily.

He would be there for Jiang Cheng, he would try to save Jiang Yanli, would give a firm talking to Jin Zixuan, threaten Lan Wangji, Wei Wuxian, watch for Jin Gungyao and Nie Huaisang and be awkward as hell with Jin Ling.

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I need Shen Jiu to be a Jiang disciple so bad

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I am on my knees, begging you to please, Please do, I would be so grateful

Am I ready to dive into fnaf lore again just to get my sudden cravings for a fic about Glamrock Bonnie x Reader where Reader finds Bonnie and tries their best to fix him up satisfied?

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in the google doc. straight up "writing it". and by "it", haha, well. let's justr say. Nothing

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Playing The Great Ace Attorney 2, and while I'm antsy to meet Kazuma, Shamspeare is so funny to me. He's suspicious of attempted murder but when he's the one they want to kill, he's so bewildered and loses all his shakespearean lingo

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I still find it funny that if Zack Snyder's Batman and the Winchester brothers ever met, if Sam and Dean ever discover what Martha and Thomas Wayne look like— well, they will certainly have trouble comprehending the fact that John Winchester and Bela Talbot had a child together, who grew up to be Batman

The multiverse is just funny that way, is

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I fell into superbat again and rewatcged Zack Snyder's Justice League and the like and there's a criminally low amount of fics where Dick's death is pointed out (meaning I'm sure there are some, I just haven't found them yet). It's such a delicious thing though, to have them talk about it. Especially if it's with this trope I'm reading right now, where Clark and Bruce have this (accidental) soulbond and they share a lot through their minds, like thoughts, feelings, everything. And it would be so cool for Bruce to have a nightmare about it and Clark seeing it. Especially since Dick was never brought up. Like literally, we only know that Dick died a horrible death is because someone made an Instagram post (I don't remember who exactly, it was about the costume that was scorched and Joker wrote on it. That was only showed for like a second in the movie, too, so not surprised there's barely any fic about it, but come on). I just think it would be neat. Bruce still portraying himself as this cold unemotional being and then in his head it's constant anger and guilt and self blame and no one even knows. But Clark would, if they were forced to share their minds. He would and he would be absolutely horrified.

On another note I'm also trying to find a fic based on exactly one scene I remember from it (Clark went to this event, met Bruce and after a scan he saw how bruised up his body is and he becomes so worried, not knowing Bruce is Batman. I think at some point Bruce tells him he's into bdsm to cover it up lmao), wish me luck

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“I know this fic is probably dead—“ none of my fics are ever dead unless I orphan them. Just because they don’t update in years doesn’t mean I don’t have half finished documents and unpublished chapters that are only missing a paragraph that I think about every waking moment. If anything they’re undead because they’re all actively haunting me.

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Not me rewriting the purple eyed titan fic once again, making it impossible to post (cause I had to start from the beginning). Sorry levicheng shippers

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Doing logistics and guess what👉👉 that's not gonna work either👈👈 and I slowly descent into madness😎(😭)

I feel like I'm overthrowing a lot of things when it's come to my levicheng fic and that's why I make no progress and stop writing it eventually. Only to come back weeks later, try again and fall into the same hole. It's especially a problem because I'm not sure how to overcome it because I do want a lot of things that aren't feasible and I guess I'm impatient since I know I have other fics with them but like. I want some changes in scenarios that are small? Small and big at the same time but in the end it wouldn't change the story that much, yet it would. You know?

For example, Jiang Cheng's age. He's younger, around 17, maybe, so he can join the Warrior program like Zeke did, except that he would end up like Grisha, about to be executed but Krueger giving him the Attack Titan.

But I also can't stop thinking about older Jiang Cheng, of how horrified he would be to see Reiner, Berthold and Annie to come to Paradis Island while they are so young. Because I think, for me, him being older, already riddled by trauma from a young age and wanting to prevent the same from happening for others is who he is.

Like this, it isn't a big change. The story would still go how it should be, but it's not the same, because Jiang Cheng himself is not the same, his reactions would be slightly changed, and that makes an impact for me. So now i wonder if I should rewrite the roughly four chapters worth of story for things like this. Because older Jiang Cheng means a bit of a different person, change I'm his background and feelings

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I feel like I'm overthinking a lot of things when it's come to my levicheng fic and that's why I make no progress and stop writing it eventually. Only to come back weeks later, try again and fall into the same hole. It's especially a problem because I'm not sure how to overcome it because I do want a lot of things that aren't feasible and I guess I'm impatient since I know I have other fics with them but like. I want some changes in scenarios that are small? Small and big at the same time but in the end it wouldn't change the story that much, yet it would. You know?

For example, Jiang Cheng's age. He's younger, around 17, maybe, so he can join the Warrior program like Zeke did, except that he would end up like Grisha, about to be executed but Krueger giving him the Attack Titan.

But I also can't stop thinking about older Jiang Cheng, of how horrified he would be to see Reiner, Berthold and Annie to come to Paradis Island while they are so young. Because I think, for me, him being older, already riddled by trauma from a young age and wanting to prevent the same from happening for others is who he is.

Like this, it isn't a big change. The story would still go how it should be, but it's not the same, because Jiang Cheng himself is not the same, his reactions would be slightly changed, and that makes an impact for me. So now i wonder if I should rewrite the roughly four chapters worth of story for things like this. Because older Jiang Cheng means a bit of a different person, change I'm his background and feelings

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Losing the flow of writing is so annoying. I was reading back to my levicheng fic and rewriting a scene to lean into jc's touch aversion and it was going well, but then I read it again and my flow just dropped. Now the scene is dissatisfyong too and idk how to fix it

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Please I have so many ideas with levicheng and I want to cramp them all into the same fic but that's impossible so I'm stuck writing a titan JC when he's found outside the walls in his titan form, a JC who got forced to live in underground and Kuchel employs him as a babysitter and so years later Levi can reencounter him as a titanshifter after he thought JC abandoned him or died I want JC to remember being a sect leader, I want a modern au, I want stalker and pervert Levi, I want JL to be the titan and be the nephew assisting his titan uncle, I want him to be prissy and biting and protective, I want Levi to encounter them both underground and think he'll have to save JL from an abusive uncle only to realise that uncle is very much loving uncle just has a mouth on him, I want

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I had to ice the rewriting of my levicheng fic that I forgot the plot... where was I going... what were my ideas...

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Dreamt about someone changing me into a squirrel and I didn't know what to do, then Sans appeared (he was just coming home, got out his keys to open the door and everything) and I wildly started gesturing at him (he didn't notice) and asking for help (I was so small and there was some distance between us so I might have been screaming at him haha) and he jumped up, looking around, obviously spooked, and I don't know if he understood what I was saying but it felt like he did. In the end he just nope-d out, quickly escaping inside his cozy home, while I remained outside, defeated and cold😔