#sun conjunct chiron

[zeldasnotes]

CHIRON IN THE HOUSES ⚷

What your placement makes me think of

CHIRON IN THE 1ST HOUSE: Afraid of being seen as weak, people commenting on your appearance, hiding behind makeup, forcing a tough phacade, extreme competetiveness, surrounding yourself with tough people, comfortable in a small pond so that you can be the big fish, projecting your selfhate onto others, picking other peoples appearance apart, picking your own appearance apart, acting arrogant as a coping mechanism, analyzing, forcing confidence, body dysmorphia, being seen as a target, afraid to go places alone, having a unique feature people comment on.

CHIRON IN THE 2ND HOUSE: Poor kid in a rich kids school, growing up poor, growing up in a family with no money or the opposite growing up in a rich family where money is everything, childhood messed up your moral compass, low self worth, body image issues, not feeling at home in your own body, being used for money, born in the wrong body, growing up in a single parent household, possessive, afraid of loss, experiencing a lot of loss, greediness or completely rejecting the material, not taking care of yourself properly, afraid of change, afraid of never finding stability.

CHIRON IN THE 3RD HOUSE: Bullying during early school years, being compared to a sibling, having a lisp, stuttering, difficulty with expressing yourself, passive aggressive, asthma, communication issues, feeling unwelcomed in your neighbourhood, issues with cousins, speech therapy, having a twin, having a sibling you are expected to ”live up to”, feeling afraid to talk, strong need to be seen as intelligent, outsmarting people, feeling insecure about your social skills.

CHIRON IN THE 4TH HOUSE: Being the black sheep, suppressed childhood memories, feeling rejected by a family member, being the family scape goat, walking on eggshells at home, extremely intuitive, afraid of people being angry or irritated with you, a mother with bpd, a narcissistic mother, generational trauma, trying to heal your mother, a family of broken women, emotionally unavailable parents, constantly hearing parents fighting, having to pick sides between family members, feeling stuck at home, issues renting or buying a home, having to constantly move.

CHIRON IN THE 5TH HOUSE: Experiencing mom/dad shaming, shamed for having kids later in life, shamed for having kids too young, shamed for not wanting kids, teen dad/mom, strong need to be creative or rejecting your creativity, custody battle, having to co-parent with someone you dislike, baby trapped, growing up too fast, ashamed of having fun, afraid of expressing yourself, inability to just let got and have fun, insecure about your style or art, not getting along with your own child, using your pain as entertainment or art, feeling a need to constantly perform.

CHIRON IN THE 6TH HOUSE: Hard time with routines, door dash addict, inability to take care of yourself, obsession with routines, overworking or inability to find work,a job that drains you, a need to constantly be of service, constantly getting sick, your needs being ignored growing up, working with healing others, being overly criticized by a parent, workoutschedules, bad experiences with pets, dieting, hypochondriac, never feeling clean enough, growing up in dirty surroundings, among hoarders.

CHIRON IN THE 7TH HOUSE: Feeling like there is a wall between you and others, fear of rejection, early experiences with rejection, rejected by your first love, no social life, afraid of never finding ”the one”, early experiences with betrayal, people pleasing, ”you havent met anyone yet?”, getting into your first relationship later in life, attracted to wounded people, trying to save bad people, scared of being left for someone else, trying to be perfect, obeying to be liked, connections with others ending badly.

CHIRON IN THE 8TH HOUSE: Afraid of opening up, experiencing constant loss, afraid of loss of power, growing up around someone who asserted power over them, a wound surrounding sex and intimacy, being left out when it comes to inheritance, afraid of not being in control, people trying to control you, freaked out at the thought of ”doing it”, a bad or traumatizing first time, ”doing it” as a selfharm method to take back control after trauma, having to take money in the form of donations, external help, scholarships bc of your family being low income, ashamed of having to take money from others.

CHIRON IN THE 9TH HOUSE: No faith, painful memories from school, the only kid with your cultural background in the whole school, feeling no hope, being forced to convert to another religion, afraid of traveling, never been out of the country you were born in, changing schools, afraid to go to school, bullying in school, not feeling accepted by your inlaws, not feeling free, feeling stuck where you grew up, feeling like you have no roots, being mixed race and not feeling at home with any side.

CHIRON IN THE 10TH HOUSE: Being a part of a family with a bad reputation and therefore being born with a bad rep, being forced into a career, not getting the recognition you deserve for your work, scandals becoming public knowledge, people still talking about that thing you did years ago, being known for something painful, an absent father, not being able to live up to who your father wants you to be, seeking validation from the public, afraid of public humiliation, being slandered.

CHIRON IN THE 11TH HOUSE: Struggling to fit in, prefering to hang out one on one instead of a group, being left out or blamed by a group, toxic friendships, wanting to save the world, misunderstood, deep understanding of the unspoken undercurrentsin group settings, uncomfortable in a group setting, bullying on social media, being exposed online, lack of hope, feeling that nobody gets you, not belonging to any group, strong need to contribute to society, powerstruggles with a stepparent, evil stepmom or evil stepkid kinda energy.

CHIRON IN THE 12TH HOUSE: Absorbing other peoples energy, living in solitude, sleep disorders, the people you least expected turning out to be an enemy, feeling a need to please the collective unconscious, hypersensive to your surroundings, feelings loneliness no matter how many people are around, feeling like you belong in the underworld, repressed memories, zoning out, constantly sensing emotional undercurrents, pushing things under the rugs, medication, bad experiences with addicts, psychic attacks.

CHIRON ASPECTING INNER PLANETS:

SUN/CHIRON: A fragile ego, inflated ego, absent father, putting on a false persona, defensive, acting arrogant when you feel insecure, a dad who left, deep understanding of why people do what they do, not knowing how to express yourself, identity issues, having a healing energy, trying to help everyone.

MOON/CHIRON: Extreme sensitivity, hiding your sensitivity, trying to find parental love in a partner, being shamed for your sensitivity, betrayal from women in the family, emotional scars, seeing through anyone, a bitchy mother, surrounded by bitches, having triggers you cant explain, rejecting and suppressing your emotions, nurturing issues, ”with women comes pain”.

MERCURY/CHIRON: Healing or wounding people with your words, verbally undressing people so that they feel as naked as you, penetrating people to the core, therapist, harsh criticism, wordplay, saying the thing everyone thinks but doesnt say, constantly putting your foot in your mouth, peoples words cut you like knives, you cut back.

VENUS/CHIRON: Extreme fear of rejection, connecting women with pain, female rivalry, low self esteem, attracted to wounded people, plastic surgery, wanting to look perfect, people pleasing to be loved, feeling unworthy of love, ”the bar is in hell” being treated like shit and accepting it bc you love them, feeling ugly no matter how much people tell you youre beautiful, betrayal by women, brutal rejection from a love interest that affected your self esteem deeply.

MARS/CHIRON: Suppressing anger, turning the anger inward or overcompensating by being overly aggressive, surrounded by aggressive men, surrounded by toxic masculinity, feeling uncomfortable around men, afraid of anger, extreme anger from men, feeling like you are not ”man enough”, the dark side of being a man, shamed for your sexuality, rejecting your mascuiline side or acting overly masculine.

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[divine-mystic-princess]

Astrology Observations on Myself pt.4

🌙 Lilith in the 5th house: When I was little I had a lot of sexual encounters with friends. Boy, girl, didn't matter and I had NO awareness of sexual orientation back then-- they just were attracted to me and wanted to explore "taboo" things

♉ Taurus ruling over the 5th house: Whenever I make plans with my friends, the to-do list is literally to eat and spend time in nature playing with flowers LOL

♈ 4th House Ruled by Aries: No one can tell me how to decorate my house, where to live, or what to do in general LOL it's all MY decisions and I go after what I want when I want BUT with Libra MC there's hellah people pleasing tendencies so it's a challenge.

♋ Mars in Cancer: Crying is as easy as breathing. Honestly, I've come to terms with this placement and see it as a gift now, especially as a woman. I don't make a move until my intuition and emotions have guided me to do so ~ it works out a lot better than forcing myself to do something.

♂️ Mars in 7th house: Aggressive sex and slapping, biting, and wrestling is definitely a thing with lovers. Also being first to initiate sex or romantic connections is a theme even as a feminine woman.

Sun conjunct Chiron: pray for us 🫠

Sun and Chiron opposing Saturn: pray harder 😭

♌ Leo ruling the 8th house: something about the magnetism here really triggers people's insecurities. Seeing people's darkness easily with solar leo energy lighting up the house of darkness. NOTHING IS HIDDEN FROM US-- including our own insecurities to shine and be seen* 👀

[astroismypassion]

Astrology observations 🔭🔭🔭

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🔭 It’s funny how Capricorn Lilith becomes such a teddy bear when in romantic partnership. They let go of their hardest thing to do and that is control. They control everyone else, but find it hard to have the same control for their partner since they like them too much. So it’s like they become soft around them, their partner IS their weak spot.

🔭 I don’t know for you guys, but I’ve seen a lot of Sun conjunct Lilith and Sun conjunct Chiron relationships turn south. For example, if you are Taurus Sun and the other person is a Taurus Lilith. Or one is Scorpio Sun and the other has Scorpio Chiron. They always seem to start well and then completely turn, that you wonder if they even liked each other in the first place.

🔭 If you have Pisces Moon, your mum probably bakes great desserts. 👌🏻

🔭 I previously talked about 12th house shows what kind of shoes you like to wear:

Aries over the 12th house

- red shoes

- shiney shoes, shoes with glitters

- running shoes

- Timberland shoes

- chunky boots, biker boots

- wedge sneakers

- thigh high boots

Taurus over the 12th house

- tried and tested shoes, loafers, moccasins

- dance shoes

- espadrilles

- penny loafers

- Fred Perry

Gemini over the 12th house

- shoes from siblings

- oxford shoes

- Vans, Converse

- white sneakers

- plain black shoes

Cancer over the 12th house

- your mother’s shoes

- Keds, Vans, Converse shoes

- slip ons

Leo over the 12th house

- skate shoes

- flip flops

- Vans shoes

- orange, gold shoes, yellow shoes

- leopard prints

Virgo over the 12th house

- oxford shoes

- Jesus shoes aka Birkenstock 😂

- minimalistic sneakers, either all black or all white

Libra over the 12th house

- sandals

- sneakers/trainers

- Balenciaga dad sneakers

- wedge sandals

- leopard print shoes

Scorpio over the 12th house

- shoes with snake pattern

- real leather shoes

- creeper shoes

- Uggs

- flats

- platform shoes

- thigh high boots

- black and red shoes

Sagittarius over the 12th house

- cowboy boots

- ankle boots

- desert boots

- chunky shoes

- gladiators

Capricorn over the 12th house

- golf shoes

- shoes one of your parents liked to wear or actually wore and were passed down to you

- boat shoes

- flats

- vintage shoes, thrifted ones

- velvet shoes, blue suede shoes

- matte, faux black leather shoes

- pointy shoes

- chelsea boots

- cowboy boots

- Wellington boots

Aquarius over the 12th house

- Camper shoes

- silver shoes

- cowboy boots

- Converse shoes

- clogs 😂

- Clark shoes

- Dr. Martens shoes

- Crocs 😅

- silver shoes

Pisces over the 12th house

- ballerina flats, dance shoes

- flip flops

- wedge sandals

- purple shoes

🔭 Neptune in the 2nd house: you best earn money when in isolation!

🔭 People with many planets in 11th house will be highly impacted by a work association. Like you work in a tech company for example, right? You could belong to a computer science association, club, book club and will be hugely affected by that.

🔭 All Earth Moons need steady daily routine that to others seems a bit repetitive, but it helps others. Because, if they don’t have that, they start disassociating.

🔭 Neptune in the 2nd house: you attract partners and people with potential emotional problem.

🔭 Leo Lilith, Lilith in the 5th house or Lilith at a Leo degree: people would react very strongly if you were to express that you do not wish to have children. Or on the contrary, you could have children young and later regret it that you didn’t go after all the other things you still wanted.

🔭 A lot of Cancer Suns might feel like underachievers at times, because they understand that when you get sick, ill it is your friends and your family that will take care of you and NOT your job. And they really invest a lot in their friendgroup, it makes them also feel like they belong somewhere.

🔭 Virgo Mars (especially if they also have Virgo Lilith) are so good with dirty talk, because not only they have big vocabulary that they can think of on the spot, but also because they know no shame. They are outspoken, because they are not that easily embarrassed by words.

🔭 Virgo Lilith or Lilith in the 6th house: it will be hard for you to get work phone or a work computer and/or work from home

🔭 I’ve talked about previously that 4th house shows your life after retirement.

Aries over the 4th house: you might be really physically active, like join a run club, be more active and DIY, work on your home, disputes with family members or close friends, a lot of cleaning around the house

Taurus over the 4th house: investing money from savings, indulging more with said money from savings

Gemini over the 4th house: reconnecting with siblings, buying more property or renting it, moving to another city, but within the same country, gardening

Cancer over the 4th house: cooking more, perfecting a craft, socializing with friends a lot

Leo over the 4th house: spending a lot of time with grandchildren, start an Instagram creative outlet, “the fashionable grandma/grandpa”

Virgo over the 4th house: travelling a lot, learning, constantly reading, reading the morning paper, going to get coffee with friends, someone else comes and does chores for you

Libra over the 4th house: buying more clothes, marrying at a late age, like marrying for the first time or again at 45 or 65, falling in love and feeling like a teenager again, baking desserts, socializing, doing chores for other people, enjoying saved up money

Scorpio over the 4th house: issues with your mother, inheritance, investing money

Sagittarius over the 4th house: moving to another country, reading books, watching documentaries, socializing, having get togethers in your home, being a lunch host

Capricorn over the 4th house: spending more time with your parents, have a hobby that earns you money and doing it from your home

Aquarius over the 4th house: living abroad, finding a partner who is also your best (and probably only) friend too, spending more time with family, but online or talking to them through a videocall

Pisces over the 4th house: a lot of money issues, people you live with trying to throw you out of the home, potential support from other people, helping other people, you doing chores for others and them giving you food, having a lot of free time

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Astrology in my life (1)

Sun harsh aspect Chiron: often have problems with their father, often do not receive support and support from the father. The image of the father is blurred, or addicted, scary, … the bad sides of men are obvious, causing them to have bad impressions of men when they are young, they are confused and difficult to express. his masculine aspects and with other men in general. They may exhibit passive-aggressive expressions, distrust, and fail to develop a healthy masculinity. But this can be changed if they are taught and learned the relevant lessons

Moon harsh aspect Pluto : is as dangerous as Sun hash aspect Pluto but it is not so obvious. It works on the surface below and within the emotional spectrum. They are emotionally intense people, may find themselves overwhelmed with emotions, and can look like a balloon about to burst if their inner mood is not deflated. They can be caught cursing in their heads about something that upsets them. They may have had bad experiences with the women in their lives: bossy, dominating, coercive, compulsive, aggressive, cheating, treating them badly and unfairly. They know whether the truth about words and other people's thoughts match. For example: an old woman treats men better than women, when men are present, they will change. the attitude of treating them like sisters and close friends, even though they weren't like that before…. They are often prone to mental health problems + My advice from this angle is: find out how your mother or other important women appear to influence you. That can be the source of the hate and understanding that the way they treat others speaks for themselves, not because you deserve it. With this angle it can be difficult for you to share your feelings, making activities outside of society open, because the darkness of Pluto is here, you may need to use methods. stabilize your mind such as mindfulness meditation, yoga, healthy feminine connections with yourself and others, this angle gives you psychological analysis and helps people who have been abused The mind behind the door can pass

What is the difference between a square angle and a conjunct aspect? here's one of my observations about this: the conjunction angle is easier to let the leaf go with the flow, and the square angle has a tension with what they feel that makes them feel uncomfortable so they It is easy to accumulate stronger emotions in people, so sharing and listening will help them reduce stress. Square angles help them find many ways to handle small things, they may learn something, process and share with others. The square angles will still be there and they will always find themselves in repetitive situations until they find peaceful solutions to their inner peace.

Jupiter in the 11th house can try being active on social networks, they can meet a lot of kind and interesting friends, knowledge and variety they can learn from the internet

With the 8th house moon, try looking at your mother's chart. Maybe you will be surprised with the angles in it

[hausofneptune]

(repost) [the astrology of pedro pascal] - soft sun aspects (major) | sun conjunct chiron

hey y’all! in this series we’ll be covering major soft/positive aspects (conjunctions, sextiles, and trines) to pedro’s sun. minor positive aspects to his sun (quintiles/biquintiles and septiles) will be covered in an upcoming series, as well as the rest of the major and minor aspects to the rest of his planets and asteroids in his chart! i also want to note that when it comes to these aspects, they have to be examined through the lens of the entire chart, as they’re influenced by a myriad of factors within it.

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sun conjunct chiron (within 8.7°)

in this aspect, the planetary bodies influence one another and their energies are amplified. with conjunctions, the energies can manifest in beneficial or disruptive ways depending on the planets in contact. in this case, a conjunction is being made between a planet and an asteroid. like i’ve mentioned, the sun is representative of the self. it represents how we show up in the world, our ego, and our self esteem. chiron’s energy can best be understood through the context of its Greek mythos. Chiron was a centaur who was rejected and abandoned from birth, who then grew to become a scholar and a mentor to heroes such as Achilles and Aristaeus. in astrology, chiron is notably referred to as the “wounded healer.” it is representative of the strength we find through our pain and vulnerabilities, and our ability to empathize and pass on wisdom through our suffering.

with the sun conjunct chiron, there is some type of wound involved with self expression. in early childhood, there could have been a strong desire to express oneself, but those around them may not have understood them or seen them for who they actually were. this can result in the native shutting down and restricting parts of their character and identity. there are also cases where the individual may not even be aware of this wound. they can appear perfect from the outside but internally struggle with emotional paralysis. innately, they may feel isolated, and crave connection while feeling too lost to find it. there can be challenges or blocks to one’s self expression, identity, or ego. people with this aspect may not even fully resonate with their sun sign. instead, they could wholly identify with the archetype of the “wounded healer.” the story of Chiron resonates with their identity and influences how they move throughout the world and interact with others.

they may also feel like their lives are inherently painful. in the natal chart, whatever chiron hits will be the area of the life/personality that feels like a “sore spot,” and for those with this placement, their very existence may be something that they struggle with. their egos can be bruised a lot more easily, and setbacks and rejection hits them harder than it does others. they feel things intensely and have a tendency towards suffering, so much so that when they fall in love or become attached it could invoke feelings of pain or resentment. they tend to be sensitive, to both their own struggles and to the struggles of others. 

these natives have an inherent desire to support others, and have a knack for recognizing others’ weak spots. they may feel like they want to fix and save everyone around them, similar to the sun conjunct ceres aspect pedro also has in his chart. while this can be an inherently positive trait, it can become counterproductive if they haven’t put in the same amount of energy towards healing or bettering themselves. if there’s a resistance to confronting their internal strife, or if it’s channeled in a negative way, they may struggle with repetitive patterns of anger, depression, or addiction. this aspect can also manifest physically as chronic headaches, accidents, illnesses, or issues with the circulatory system. despite their hardships, these individuals end up with a great amount of power when they do take the time to heal and understand themselves. it’s worth acknowledging that self-mastery through chiron can feel like a lifelong journey, as chiron returns only occur once we hit 50 to 51 years of age.

this aspect invites the native to reflect on the pain that has shaped them, and to embrace their path to healing. they’re being called to understand how their past experiences have impacted their sense of self, and use that wisdom to achieve a greater sense of self-realization. they must work to understand that their resentment, fears, and pain are not something that limit them. rather, they’re catalysts for their own personal and spiritual growth. through doing so, they enable others to do the same and bring about positive change to the lives of those around them. the journey towards mastering pain should not be expected to be linear, as it’s a multifaceted process and should be treated as such. the ever-changing ebb-and-flow should be welcomed, as they will never encounter a challenge that they won’t have the ability to power through. 

as always, if anyone has any of the placements or aspects mentioned in this post i’d love to hear how it personally manifests in your own life and how it impacts your personality, or if anyone has anything to add in general feel free to reach out and let me know!

[seafoamreadings]

sun on chiron

this window of a couple days is good for heart healing, and that can be the physical anatomical heart or the metaphorical emotional one. it is also great for consciously working with one's ego identity, or self-perception, and self-image issues in general. turn poison into medicine.

[elminx]

Energy Update: Sun conjunct Chiron 4/4/2023

Oh yeah so tomorrow, just barely ahead of the full moon, our Sun is going to conjunct Chiron.

Aries pain can be a lot to process. This wound may be where you haven't stood up for yourself -or - where you were left out all alone in the wildness BECAUSE you stood up for yourself, depending on the path that your life has taken you. Aries is sign #1 so the wounds that are coming up now are around being ourselves, whether we are comfortable with that (or not). Aries often forgets to find time for connections and belonging because there is always where they are going. If you suffer from the great loneliness, these next couple of days are wise ones to set yourself up with your best support system - even if it's just a warm blanket, your cat, and that movie that always makes you chuckle. There is also a schism between Aries, the sign that governs the self, and Libra, the sign that governs our Others. I think that it is the widest crevasse of all six of the sun sign pairs. Aries will never understand why Libra wishes to spend so much time socializing and connecting, and Libra will never understand Aries' independence. The full moon will bring these themes to a head as it does every year, with the added flavoring of those Chiron wounds and a feisty Jupiter.

Aries, of all of the signs, knows the difference between being alone and loneliness. This will be a big theme of the week ahead as each of us has to grapple with some part of this balance point.

If you can dip into Aries's desire for exploration to dig in and see where you are in this very human need both for independence and interdependence and into Libra's natural tendency to balance things out to find a spot of harmony, there's a lot to be gained through this lunar event. There always is when Chiron is in play.

Like all lunar events, you will be more likely to be affected by it if you are (by sun, moon, or ascendant) the same sign as the Sun (Aries) or the Moon (Libra) or if you have any personal planet within 5 degrees of 15° (so from 10-20°) in any sign. It will be strongest for those with a square (Cancer, Capricorn) or trine (Gemini, Leo, Sagittarius, Aquarius). In any case, emotions will be unpredictable as people grapple with their own core wounds, so stay home if you can or tread lightly if you can't. If you don't have space for other people's shit right now, the next couple of days are ones to sit out as much as you can. You may need space to deal with your own shit as well.

As I said, Drminx prescribes a warm blanket, a cuppa hibiscus tea, and a purring kitten as medicine to cure the state you're in. Treat yourself with kindness if you can.

If it's too hard it'll be over by Friday. I promise. Do you like my work? You can support me by sharing this post, tipping me over on Ko-Fi, or commissioning an astrology report written by yours truly.

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[3] personal astrology observations

[!] this is mostly an introspective view into my chart; in no way, shape, or form am i saying that any of this is fact or set in stone, nor am i saying that i am a professional astrologer. these are just presences that exist within my chart that i've felt manifest themselves in real life. simply put, take what resonates and leave what doesn't :)

— the observation that venus in the 9th house and sagittarius mars natives are far more likely to be attracted to foreigners and/or meet their future partner/s in a foreign country is true!

[nothing, just felt like confirming, esp as someone w both these placements 🤭 like, i honestly am more likely to be approached (in a romantic setting) by a foreigner both in-person and online!]

═ sun square neptune is the aspect of daydreamers. they're always thinking about an idealized version of the future or dwelling on the past. rarely do they ever think in the present. it is often easier for them to drift off into a daze either thinking about what could have been or everything that could be.

☰ chiron in fifth house indicates pain associated with creative passions and self-expression. one may have had negative experiences that have led them to feel insecure about these aspects of life; thus leading them to distance themselves from openly expressing themselves creatively. they may take great care to keep their works of art private, tone down certain parts of their personality, and may even feel ashamed to explain themselves when others ask them about certain aspects of their creative and self-expression because of negative feedback they could have gotten in the past.

but with such pain comes empathy and understanding. once developed, these natives are the first to take notice and are the fastest to lend a sensitive ear as well as a supportive hand as soon as they see others going through the same struggle.

☱ sun-lilith in harsh aspects might have been told to cover up more by both peers and grown-ups, even when wearing "acceptable" clothing when they were kids. this placement can indicate an individual that was more sexualized from a young age, which can lead to them either being hypersexual or overly-reserved sexually in adulthood.

☲ lilith in the 7th house can indicate an individual that struggles to commit and open up about who they are to their partner/s. people with lilith in this house may have had bad experiences with marriage (perhaps witnessing bad divorces or tumultuous long-term relationships between their parents) and therefore might be turned off by the thought of marriage and/or long-term partnerships.

and though this doesn't mean that the native will be a lone soul forever, it does make one more likely to have these sort of relationships at a significantly older age in comparison to other signs.

[tw: mention of domestic violence in my personal experience, i have witnessed my parents go through an incredibly bad separation (tons of emotional abuse, infidelity, and a situation actually involving domestic violence) which has honestly made me quite hesitant to get married, even as i approach my mid-20s.]

☴ the cancer rising urge to cry when someone you care about is crying or in distress in general.

☴ a few asteroid notes:

note: asteroids are less impactful to one's personality, physicality, etc. compared to personal planets. they tend to only be relevant to one's chart if they are either in a tight orb (0-1°) or have major aspects to personal planets, preferably conjunctions or oppositions.

✢ messalina (545) known as the most promiscuous woman in rome, empress messalina is still recognized today as a symbol of uncontrolled, violent, irrational, and impulsive behavior. this asteroid reminds me very much of lilith in that it is representative of dark feminine energy and having this prominent in one's chart can be indicative of an individual that is not afraid to use their sexuality to their advantage or to create harm unto others in different aspects of their lives, but especially in terms of romantic and sexual relationships.

✢ anagolay (3757) is an potentially hazardous asteroid named after anagolay, the tagalog goddess of lost things and the daughter of the hermaphroditic goddess of seasons, lakapati. she is culturally-recognized for her ability to find not only physical objects but also abstract possessions like lost opportunities and faded memories. having this prominent in one's chart can suggest an individual that is very in-tune with cycle of nature and the subsequent passage of time. they may be more sensitive to bouts of nostalgia where they dwell on things that could have been and the way that things were. may also just indicate a person that is hypersensitive to losing physical things, though.

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Astrology Observations No.27:

*just based on my observations, pleas only take what resonates

(Trying to write more posts and answer more asks lately, everything has been so busy omg- hope you all enjoy what I can put out there tho! c:)

-A perspective but I think Libra placements (big 6 but especially Venus and mars) are attracted to harmonious/balanced appearances, like I think having that glow from confidence in your aesthetic and it fitting you and things like that can make you just as attractive to Libra placements as conventional measurements of beauty

-Sun Conjunct Venus makes you really charismatic and you probably attract a lot of people by being yourself, and sometimes these natives can be people pleasers especially if they’re trying to impress others

-Quietly I associate your mars sign and your MC the most with the work you’ll do. Mars because you can’t divorce your passion from your work (says the Capricorn). And MC because it’s what you’re known for and that’s often tied to some sort of work/action. North node is tied in there too but it plays out so long term it can be harder to summarize. (I can do a post about the general fields that placements tend to go towards if folks are interested?)

-Aries and Sagittarius Mercury tied for most likely to accidentally blurt out your secrets

-Chiron Venus aspects (especially square, opposition, and conjunction) may find themselves undoing a lot of pressure around their looks or being especially hard on themselves over their perceived flaws/imperfections

-The sign over your 5th house may denote if you have many or few casual romantic connections (Saturn/Capricorn pointing to fewer one end of the scale and Jupiter/Sagittarius pointing to many at the other end of the scale, depends on Venus and mars too)

-You may find yourself accidentally pouring your heart out to water moons (especially cancer over how emotionally in-tune they are and scorpio over traaaaumaaa oml)

-I feel like Sagittarius can feel less mutable because Jupiter makes some of the forms of expression so big (ex. A Sagittarius Mars can get so mad at you and blow up, Sagittarius Mars/Venus typically date many partners, Sagittarius moons can express their emotions in a big way- I probably feel this way bc I’m Sag Pluto, the extremes lol)

-I’ve noticed that Venus dominants can seek more attention compared to like Leo/sun doms

-Fixed Venus can become codependent on their partner, putting heavy exceptions on their person for them to be their everything if underdeveloped— but if developed they can be very loyal to their person

-Mutable Venus aren’t quite commitment-phobic but they tend to be looking for a really special combination of traits to actually settle down with (when they’re monogamous), otherwise they get distracted very easily (or they treat their romantic options, and sometimes friends, like very temporary things- for better or for worse)

-Cardinal Venus are most likely to really go after what they want romantically, I think out of all the Venus modalities they have the most accurate idea of what they want at heart, from the start. But on the shadow side of this, they may be manipulative or try to conform their partner into what they want. (may play out differently for moon opposition/square Venus)

-I feel like where ever Venus is heavy in your chart may be how people assume you’re gracious but in a somewhat shallow way (ex. Venus conjunct mercury, people may find your voice and expression charming but assume you’re not that smart)

-Venus/Saturn aspects/ Capricorn Venus tend to have a lot of unrequited love interests and crushes that don’t reciprocate their affections when they’re younger but as they get older they tend to get the most affection from suitors that are older than them (be careful out here! Sometimes these old folks don’t know anything and they have bad intentions- girl when I say I had to take my own advice)

-Leos (big 3, especially sun & Asc) often know the right thing to say to charm you, it’s like when they want to they hit that sweetspot dead on. So do Libra’s (big 3) but they tend to approach things less directly, like compliments that really sit with you and come onto you in quieter, sometimes less serious way (if they have both in their big 3 then they’re just -a charmer- and idk I take that at face value 80% of the time lol but I’m a skeptic)

-I find that Pisces and Sagittarius placements (big 6 but especially sun for identity and moon for emotionality) often get VERY into spirituality at some point in their lives

-People with Jupiter in Virgo tend to work very diligently, almost too hard sometimes and they can be prone to burning themselves out from this behavior (something something don’t burn the candle at both ends- hypocritical from a Jupiter in Capricorn person lol but still)

-We talk about how Scorpio placements observe every detail about you, but I like Pisces placements (big 6 but especially sun, moon, Venus, and mars) have told me things about myself and habits I have that I’ve never noticed about myself. They’re super observant they notice a lot. I think they have this in common with their sister sign, Virgo. But I noticed Pisces will use their intuition in their observations instead of just analyzing. (I.e. you do x when you’re angry, is it because you feel defensive? Or I noticed you light up when you talked about him, you must really like him)- can also apply to Neptune Conjunct your big 3 (especially moon), and big 3 in 12th but it’s a bit more second nature to them than Pisces

-The season of your Venus sign is the time you’re most likely to indulge in self care and purchases for yourself (Sag season started and all of a sudden I was like I need makeup now, even though I hardly wear it in the winter lol)

-The season of your mars is the time you’re most like to take major actions (starting a business, going on solo adventures, etc)

-The season of your sun is when you’re most likely going to receive the most public recognition (also when the sun is transiting your MC/10th house)

[astroaid]

Solar Return Observations 1

Accuracy dependent on ENTIRE chart. This is simply experience with the transits.

🍊 SR Asc in Libra, SR venus conjunct pluto

This was the year my entire body and aesthetic changed. Complete different style & became very active.

🌷 Sun in SR 2nd House

This was the year I got my first job.

🍊 SR moon conjunct natal moon

This was in my 6th H. I began to realize the importance routine and diet has on my mental and physical health.

🌷 SR Jupiter conjunct Natal Uranus in 5th H

In my natal Jupiter is in my 11th house. The year my SR Jupiter conjunct my natal uranus in 5th H, I ended a few friendships abruptly. It felt very freeing.

🍊 Chiron 7th House

Chiron is slow moving. When it transits a house it is likely in that house for years. When chiron entered my 7th, many friends began to be openly aggressive and jealous of me. This was the first year chiron was in my 7th, the years after (it is still there) I am very careful with who I let into my circle.

🌷 SR Saturn conjunct natal Neptune in 5th

This was the year I was moved to become disciplined and get out of my head. Real life responsibilities and relationships required me to get better and do better. I became disillusioned with relationships too.

🍊 SR Jupiter in 4th House

This was the year my brother was born. Jupiter is known to expand what it touches. 4th house is family and home.

🌷 SR Asc in Taurus

This year was stagnant. Not much memorable occurred. Life was comfortable, no new problems occurred.

🍊 SR Saturn in 7th, SR Venus conjunct natal Pluto

Broke up with long term boyfriend. But met a new guy who had very saturnian qualities.

🌷 SR Venus and North Node in 7th House

Met and began dating first boyfriend.

Transit Observations

- Mars & mercury conjunct in my 3rd house, I got a speeding ticket 😭☹️

- Saturn conjunct Moon my mom had to get tested for cancer. Fortunately, she did not have it though.

- Lunar Eclipse in 4th house, roommate’s mother died. Lunar Eclipse are like full moons to the extreme, bringing fated ends.

[inthestarsme]

Solar return observations pt. 1 ✨

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Hey guys! I hope you've been having a great christmas time! I'm starting a new little series, bc honestly, i haven't been observing anything new when it comes to birth charts lately, but i've really been into solar return charts, which is why i really wanted to make this. As you might have seen, i had already posted another observation which included some observations on solar return charts, which i deleted bc some of the things i shared didn't resonate with me and i only want to give you content i can truly stand behind. But i am mentioning this, bc i'm going to include some of the solar return observations i made in this post, so don't be confused if you think you might've already seen this on one of my posts.

If you do not know about solar return charts, i would recommend you to look it up beforehand. I am not the best at explaining this kind of stuff, but there are other astrology pages who have amazing introductions for people who are getring into solar return charts. Please look them up and then come back to this!!

Before we start: these are just my personal observations. I am by no means a professional astrologer, and i don't want you coming for me because you disagree with me on the meaning of something. If you want to correct me, feel free, but i will not tolerate any hate or disrespect (which means you will get blocked).

‼️Trigger warning: mentions of bad relationship experiences, bullying and mental health struggles ‼️

Sooo let's go!

Jupiter in the 8th house conjunct neptune in 7th house: Altough of course this can show different in every persons life, for me in the year i had this placement i didn't meat my rich husband who was my wonderful soulmate. Instead i only dated one guy who in the beginning seemed very great but turned out to just be using me for intercourse In general the guys i've met who were interested in me seemed quite stable and good people, but turned out to actualy be known by close ones as f-boys. So if you have this placement in your solar return chart, please beware. It might look better than it is, as neptune is also about illusions and in the 7th house of relationships, this can mean you might not see who the person truly is, and with jupiter ok the 8th house, it could be because they might be using you for sexual endevours, or you might be more into sexual endavours than usual and thus might yourself give another person the illusion you might be into more to get access in that way (which: please don't do that. there is people out there who are willing to give you that without you having to betray them. it's not fair to someone who is trying to actually build a relationship).

Neptune conjunct the Descendant with Chiron in the 7th house: Adding to the last observation: the year i started dating my first boyfriend who was very toxic and completely used and betrayed me was the year i had neptune, the planet of illusion in a very hard conjunction to my descendant. Also, like chiron (the wound we cannot heal but which can heal others) would indicate sent me into quite a mental health crisis, which i didn't even realize until about 2 years later. it really messed with me, so please be careful if you have this placement. i still learned a lot about relationships, and i feel like i now would never again get into a relationship without being 100 percent certain about the persons intentions and so on.

Saturn, Pluto and Uranus in the 4th house: Whilst Pluto and (especially) Uranus can totally mean you moving because they are very much about change, i wouldn't say the same about saturn in the 4th house. Saturn is usually more about restrictions and difficulties because of that. Of course there could be difficulties with your landlord for example, which might cause you to move, but otherwise, i think saturn here is more about not being able to move freely in your home or you feeling bound to your home for some reason. This can of course vary in interpretation depending on other aspects and planets, it could also be about problems with you family. It very much depends.

North node conjunct uranus in any house: Whatever house this placement is in, you might experience some significant change in the area or might learn something about this area of your life which will change it significantly. For example, a friend of mine had this in his 7th house and during that year, after a lots of years of being in an polyamorous relationship, they went back to a monogamous relationship because some things had appendd which made them realize for them to keep on having a healthy relationship, a monogamous relationship might be better. I also had this placement in my ninth house and during this year some things happened which significantly altered the way i handle my studies in college.

Stellium in 12th house (with sun and moon): You might be going through a phase where you are in more solitute and a lot of things you didn't know about will come to light. I am currently experiencing this, and i could totally feel the shift. I feel it kind of was like my last solar reutrn year i had so many experiences with traveling and meeting new people, that i kind of feel like an "experience fatigue". it felt like i was making so many new experiences, and focused on making more and so on, that i forgot to put meaning and intention behind those. So now i just want to slow down and still make experiences, but also focus on my inner world, on learning new things about myself and also work on some mental health stuff. also, i feel like there has been a lot going on behind the scenes on how people view or say about me which i don't or didn't know about, like for example one year a go, a comment i made on youtube got about 6000 likes and people were bashing me so hard in the comments and i didn't even notice until now 😭 idk, i hope whatever is going to be revealed isn't too harsh (the comments were bad but honestly, i didn't mind. it's not the first time i've gotten hate on social media lol). the 12th house is generally not considered to be very positive, but for now i feel like it is mostly about me time and discovering new things about myself.

Sun square pluto: I read something on the tumblr page "lavishlyleo" about this placement being a very difficult placement which can last for a looong time, and i looked it up: i've had this placement since i was about 14 years old. now, i've had quite a rough childhood, but me having to deal with that and having to process it and simultaniously starting to experience more bullying and so on started about this time. i think beforehand i knew my life wasn't the greatest, but i could still move through it and be very happy and content because i had a great friend group and a lot of other good stuff going on. the fact of me having to realized how the things i have gone through were so fucked up and how they messed with me was soo much harder tbh. but now this placement has been easing up a bit and will go away in about two years and i have honestly been doing so much better that the years beforhand, especially when it comes to my social life! i am so excited on seeing how life will be as soon ad this placement finally goes away.

Chiron or lilith in the 11th house: As these two are more harsh and about experiencing some bad stuff to also learn and develope, having this in the 11th house may not be a good sing of you keeping your friend group because and maybe losing those. Or in general just having bad experiences with groups of people.

I will leave you with this now. As the year progresses, i will see how certain placements play out in my and other peoples life, so i can give you some more observations i made. But i hope you enjoyed this!

Sending out love and please keep safe! Until next time byebye 🩵

[zeldasnotes]

”Be grateful for triggers, they show you where you are not free.”

CHIRON NOTES 4

MORE ABOUT CHIRON ➔ CHIRON IN THE HOUSES

• Ive seen Chiron in the 5th house in the charts of people who were involved in a very nasty custody battle.

• Chiron in the 2nd house might feel like everytime they get money some issue pops up so that they have to put money on that. They might get the biggest paycheck they ever got in their life and that same day their car breaks down or their dishwasher breaks so they have to put that extra money into that.

• Chiron rules scars. So of you have Chiron conjunctions your scars might take a very long time to heal.

• Chiron in the 3rd house might have been teased for their accent.

• Be careful with what you say to people with Chiron in the 1st house because its common for people to comment on their appearance. They are just as sensitive as anyone else. People are just way too ruthless with what they say to Chiron 1st housers. I know some people with this placement and ive noticed that people can comment on their appearance when its uncalled for.

• Venus conjunct Chiron gives very outstanding artistic abilities because here the sense of taste is super sensitive.

• Chiron in the 6th house can be very envious of other peoples work. Might experience people who do the exact same job as them getting more clout etc.

• Chiron conjunct Mars in a mans chart can make him feel like hes not ”man enough” while Venus conjunct Chiron can make a woman feel shes not ”feminine enough”. And Im talking feminine and man enough according to societys standards.

• Mercury conjunct Chiron can have a hard time with communication. Some people with this aspect likes to argue and disagree just for the sake of disagreeing. And if Pluto is involved can be very combative with how they write and talk. Chiron can create a need to outdo others where its placed. But it can also result in the opposite, someone whos afraid to speak up. But a lot of times these people can be very: ”Nope you are WRONG! GOTCHA!” (Other aspects to Mercury can change this)

• Chiron Square Neptune can make you daydream too much. Having a sense of reality might be an issue for you which hinders you from getting things done. Dreaming just feels so comfortable.

•How you handle Chiron in synastry depends a lot on how you handle you own natal Chiron wound. Some people can be VERY triggered when someones Chiron touches their Moon while some wont.

• I also think what planet of yours the other persons Chiron is important. I dont want someones Chiron touching my Venus because I do have a lot of unresolved Venus issues within myself. But I have no issues with someones Chiron touching my Moon.

•People with Venus conjunct Chiron no matter how beautiful have this one thing that people commented on during their younger years that can later become an obsession. They might have grown up with acne and later became obsessed with skincare.

• A lot of people with Chiron in the 1st house likes to walk around with sunglasses on so that people cant see if they look insecure and afraid.

• Mars conjunct Chiron in synastry can make you feel healed by the touch of the others body. Seeing or touching eachother can make you go ”wow”.

• Chiron in the 9th might have had to change schools a lot. Or might have just hated school and didnt want to go there.

• Sun aspecting Chiron is common in the charts of people who have a father who left the family. The ”dead beat dad” placement.

©️ 2023 Zeldas Notes

[vigilantetarot]

👒👒👒 Astro Facts 👒👒👒

👒 Sun in 2nd house people are even possessive of their friend. They don't like to share them with anyone else. But they have to learn to share their friend with others.

👒 Neptune sextile Pluto in natal makes you unafraid to challenge the accepted way of thinking and doing things. You can destruct unchangeable habits.

👒 Sun trine Moon in natal people are full of life and can be very creative. They seek to be a member of a group.

👒 Capricorn Venus people's love is the deepest love. They are probably the most loyal ones. Capricorn Venus wants long-term relationship. For that reason they won't be attracted by people who are indecisive and inconsistent.

👒 Venus conjunct Sun in a birth chart indicates a person with many friends and enjoys a life of relative comfort. They have the ability to attract what they desire.

👒 Chiron in 3rd house in a birth chart means your siblings can be more problematic than you but you may be the one who is treated more negatively.

👒 Sun sextile Moon in a birth chart means you accept yourself with the way you are and you trust yourself.

[marsfa1ry]

astrology observations

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sun-moon conjunction in synastry is quite overrated imo. i had this double whammy with someone and underneath the comfortability, there was too much mirroring energy. it was so overwhelming tbh

undeveloped scorpio moon they can be so full of jealousy, destructiveness, and energy vampires it’s draining 😵‍💫 also this is coming from a scorpio stellium ;-;

pluto 10H and as a sagittarius’s generation, every person with sagittarius in personal planet i have encountered tried to one up me, one way or another, consciously or subconsciously, the energy is always there 💀

venus-mars conjunction natives are just 💋 their masculinity and femininity energy flow beautifully and it shows whether they feel that way or not ( :,( )

scorpio venus as a scorpio venus, i feel like the only venus sign that can make me feel like my feelings and energies are being reciprocated are scorpio venuses

neptune-mc (esp sextile) i noticed that a lot of celebrities have this aspect in their charts. plus with venus-jupiter then it’s easier for natives to manifest fame

1h mars natives looks soooooooo good in casual sporty outfits 🧎‍♀️ on my knees

11h chiron how’s it like feeling like an outcast all the time in your surrounding 🥹 i feel you. but it’s okay you’ll eventually find your people ⭐️

mars in virgo degrees (6°,18°) help with being more self-discipline when it comes to native’s passion and achieving goals

© @marsfa1ry

[malachiteclouds]

🌟natal astrology observations part 1 🌟

✫ every gemini moon I've ever known has a terrible habit of lying completely unprovoked, especially if their mercury is also in an air sign. however, I think it just comes from a place of playfulness and excitement rather than deeper deception or manipulation.

✫ people w chiron conjunct/square/opposite jupiter are unbelievably dogmatic if they don't make a conscious effort not to be. they have this air about them that screams "you will never fully understand a concept unless I am the one to specifically explain it to you".

✫ (tw: dv) every person w chiron conjunct mars that I've met grew up in a HIGH crime neighborhood or had a lot of DV in the home. especially if it is in the 3rd, 4th, or 7th house.

✫ the 12th house represents your experience in the womb. ex: jupiter in 12H probably had a very lovely time in the womb, mom probably ate all the right things, sang to you, and lots of love and warmth. mercury in 12H might've had a mom who was overthinking or maybe very stressed during pregnancy (if you are more interested in this idea, read The Development of the Personality vol 1. by Howard Sasportas).

✫ men with lilith conjunct/square neptune tend to have SUCH a skewed image of women/femininity. they tend to have crazy "post-nut clarity", they'll see women as completely flawless until they get off then they hate them with their whole hearts.

✫ you will 100% know if a person w pluto conjunct venus is in love with you or not. they will go to the ends of the earth to prove their unconditional love. for them, love has to cost something for it to count- there needs to be some type of sacrifice.

✫ sun/ascendant conjunct pluto are polarizing as all hell. you either love them or you hate them, and honestly, that is determined by where the overlay is for your chart- people project on them a lot.

✫ saturn in the 8th or 12th house are the types of people to spend their whole time inebriated/under the influence trying to convince other people they aren't faded. there's this weird need to prove that they have everything under control and can handle their shit. IMO, psychedelics would be pretty rough for them (or at least extremely transformative).

✫ venus opposite saturn feels immense dissatisfaction with indulgence if it has not been worked for. the type to play hooky and regret it the moment they call out.

✫ sagittarius moons are almost always louder about stuff they have no clue about than their area of expertise. always assumes you want their unsolicited advice and get upset when you don't 💀

[hausofneptune]

aspects/placements i love (and hate!) in my chart pt. 1

[astro notes no. 003]

hey y’all! i felt like going through some of my personal aspects/placements and describing the “positive” and “negative” ways they’ve manifested in my life, so here we are. this ended up being longer than i thought it would, so i'll end up doing a part two since i really enjoyed making this!

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venus conj. neptune in aquarius (1°03’) in the 1H

this is one of my favorite placements. i feel like this + my pisces sun can make me appear to others as “ethereal” at times, but if i’m keeping it a buck, it also makes me extremely evasive. i have a good amount of aquarius influence in my chart as well, so all of this combined definitely makes me feel like i have to put in effort to not come off as too impersonal, especially towards my loved ones. 

having neptune in my 1H also makes me feel like people perceive me to be someone that i’m not. like even my close friends and family, i don’t feel like anyone actually understands who i am, and i don’t think i’ve ever had a relationship (platonic, romantic, or familial) where i felt like i was seen for who i actually am, or where i was able to connect to somebody on a deeper, spiritual level. i can also over-romanticize people and situations at times, but i’ve grown out of this habit… for the most part.

i’ve always been an extremely creative/artistic person. i’ve been drawing, painting, writing, and singing since i was a kid, and i even sell my artwork now as an adult. i’m extremely imaginative, but i do have to be careful to not get too in my head and forget to participate in reality, if that makes sense. i’ve also had issues with dissociation and memory loss throughout my life. i feel like my lived experience has more to do with that, but i can see how the Neptunian influence in my chart could play a role in it as well.

venus opposite north node in the 7H (1°40’)

there are some placements that convince me that the universe was tryna be funny when it made my birth chart. this is one of them. i have so many things in my chart that can make it challenging at times to form meaningful, trustful relationships with other people, and it’s interesting to me the fact that my spiritual growth is something that’s supposed to be found… through my relationships with other people. i try not to victimize myself too much and look at things from an objective lens, but i would be lying if i said it didn’t feel like people find it convenient to have me in their lives only when i allow them to view me in a way that makes them feel the most comfortable.

like i mentioned, i can be very avoidant, it’s something i’m working on. but i know that it’s possible for me to have fulfilling connections with other people, and obviously with this placement it’s something i need to work through my aversion to, seeing as my self-development and spiritual growth is something that’s extremely important to me and deep down i do want to want to experience having meaningful, healthy relationships. 

sun sextile lilith (within 3.0°) in the 11H / chiron in the 11H

let me tell you, most of the people i’ve been friends with over the years, regardless of gender, hypersexualize the fuck out of me. especially the men i’ve been friends with, majority of them had feelings for me that i never reciprocated. i was actually friends with a girl in high school who’s moon fell in my 8H, and in hindsight she had a very unhinged, borderline obsession with me. she would speak to me, and get mad at me, as if we were in a relationship together, and did not understand any type of boundaries that you’re supposed to have with someone you’re friends with. i don’t hold it against her now as an adult, but we definitely don’t speak to each other anymore.

i’ve also encountered issues in regards to the relationships i've with women, mainly when i was younger though, the women i’m acquainted with now i have healthy, normal friendships with (thank god). but i’ve had friendships with girls where they secretly didn’t like me, they were secretly attracted to me, or both. and i don't mean this in a weird, misogynistic, "pick me i'm different!" type of way at all, this is just a pattern i picked up on with some of the women i've met throughout my life.

in regards to having chiron in my 11H, my sore spot is most definitely my friendships. on top of feeling misunderstood and objectified in the friendships i’ve had, i’ve also experienced trauma at the hands of people i thought were my friends. and i always do my best to exercise being mindful and self-aware, and i’m definitely not on some “i’ve always been the perfect friend and people hurt me regardless, boo-hoo, woe-is-me” type shit, because i’ve definitely hurt people in my lifetime. but in terms of how these placements have manifested, i’ve always encountered difficulty in connecting to others, and i’m just now getting to a point where i feel comfortable enough to even attempt to try making new friends again. 

and this is what i mean when i say: astrology is a tool that you can use for shit that is more important than your appearance and future partner! it wasn’t until my 12H profection year when i started studying traditional astrology and learned how to read charts, that i actually began to understand myself on a deeper level and gained the confidence to end friendships that no longer served me and made new ones that actually do. 

chiron in my 11H also makes me feel inclined to take on a “therapist” role in my friendships, something that can be good or bad depending on whether the boundaries are there or not. i tend to attract people who like to trauma dump on me (that’s my moon in the 8H influence too), and i have to actively put boundaries in place and make sure people around me understand that i have to be in the right mindset to hold space for them. there aren’t a lot of pisces sun stereotypes that i can relate to, but being an emotional sponge is definitely one that i can. unfortunately. 

moon and ceres in virgo in the 8H 

LMAOOO this one might be a little heavy. i apologize in advance. feel free to skip this one if you don’t want to hear about parental/maternal loss or my mommy issues <3

my relationship with my mom is without a doubt where a lot of my emotional avoidance comes from. that plus my moon being in the 8H makes me very guarded when it comes to emotional vulnerability, even with the people i’m closest to. without telling a bunch of strangers on the internet too much of my business, here are the sparknotes:

my home life growing up (and to this day lowkey) never felt stable

it never felt like i could feel my emotions without them “consuming” me, this was mainly an issue in my youth, i was around 12-years-old when i started going to therapy and taking antidepressants  

my mom battled a chronic disease her entire life and passed away when i was a teenager 

i’ve always craved to have deep, spiritual connections with people, and ever since i was a kid i’ve been extremely intuitive and had the ability to read a room and everyone in it without anyone having to speak, but i typically attract people who are either emotionally unavailable, or emotionally unstable in some way, probably because i come off as “closed off” on the surface. 

in terms of my relationship with my mom, i love her but i could never be vulnerable with her about a damn thing, like i never really felt “heard” by her. she was a taurus sun, scorpio moon, with an aries stellium, as soon as she had her mind made up about something it didn’t really matter how i felt (pluto also falls in my 10H, and i definitely viewed her as an “authority figure” more than a mother at times). y’all remember this scene from lady bird where her mom tells her she wants her to “be the best version of herself she can be” and she asks “what if this is the best version?” - it was very much so that.

and i don’t want to give the impression that my mom didn’t love me because she definitely did. i think it was just a matter of what a lot of us eventually come to understand about our parents; that they’re products of the environments and the people they were raised by. and in my mom’s case, she did her best with the cards she was dealt and showed up the best way she could. it doesn’t make my feelings any less important, but it helps to maintain the balance between recognizing her humanity, and also validating my own frustration and trauma regarding our relationship. 

venus conjunct ascendant in aquarius (2°40’)

i didn't wanna end this post on a depressing ass note so i'm adding this last aspect lmfao. honestly i struggle with some of the venusian energy in my chart because i honestly never really felt "pretty" growing up. it might be neptune in my 1H that effects my self image, because it wasn't until my 20s that i actually started to genuinely recognize my beauty. i feel like growing up i only viewed my beauty through the lens of the "male gaze" (it didn't help that i felt objectified from the boys around me), or through the lens of euro-centric/white beauty standards, and in adulthood i'm finally approaching the way that i view myself from my perspective.

i do notice that i attract people very easily, both in a friendly and romantic way. i know this aspect has to do a lot with love and romance, but honestly, i'm not too concerned about being in a relationship at this point in my life (with the way the economy is set up i think we all got bigger fish to fry rn but that's neither here nor there-), but like i mentioned i've always been an artist at heart and the art that i create plays a really big role in my identity. i've always found it easier to express myself through my paintings or my writing rather than my words.

aesthetics and comfortability are pretty big for me too, more so now in my 20s. this aspect has a lot to do with sociability and being inclined to uplift and help others, and i can relate to the latter but when it comes to other aspects in my chart i do struggle with being "outgoing" and coming across friendly, but we'll get to that in part two.

as always, if y'all have any of the aspects/placements mentioned in this post let me know how they manifest in your life and personality, and if you have any insight or questions in general feel free to reach out!