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[yoyok-era]

Christmas Tree | The SVU Squad

SVU Squad ♡ A Very SVU Christmas - Series Masterlist ♡ 0.3k ♡ Ao3

When Olivia had walked into the squadroom that morning, the last thing she had expected to be met with was the Christmas tree, which was significantly bigger than the small one they’d had last year.

It stood in the middle of the room, desks and chairs moved aside to accommodate it. She watched as Carisi awkwardly side-stepped it to get to where she was standing, calling out her name as he struggled.

“Does anyone wanna fill me in on how that invaded?” She asked, a smirk pulling at her lips. Her eyes trailed over the tree, from the base to where Amanda was standing on a ladder, trying to set up the lights.

Fin smiled at her. "Funny story, actually. I thought I'd buy a tree for me and Phoebe–a real one this year– turns out, the apartments a bit too small for this one. So, I thought I'd bring it down here." He shrugged, placing a hand on Amanda's ladder as it moved.

"Muncy and Velasco went out to buy some decorations, because as it turns out, we only have 5 ornaments and a star." He continued. "Wanna pitch in, Cap?"

Three hours later, they'd finally finished decorating the tree. Every flat surface was covered in boxes upon boxes of baubles, ornaments, and tinsel. To say that Muncy and Velasco had gone all-out would've been the understatement of the century.

The squadroom, which had looked fairly empty the night before, now looked like a Christmas miracle had happened. They'd gone all out and decorated their desks too; Amanda's a classic red and gold, Muncy's in varying shades of pink, Velasco's in blue and white, and Fin's a chaotic combination of everything.

Olivia's office had fallen victim to the Christmas madness as well, tinsel lining the windowsills and lights surrounding her desk. She'd eyed Fin questioningly as she looked up at the piece of mistletoe that hung above her office door.

He'd shrugged, smirking at her. "Thought I'd put it up in case Stabler comes by."

Olivia rolled her eyes, but didn't comment, instead going back to watching the rest of her squad as they decorated. She could get used to this.

[goldensugarywaffles]

WIP Challenge

Rules: “post the names of all the files in your WIP folder regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. Let people send you an ask with the title that most intrigues them and then post a little snippet of it or tell them something about it! And then tag as many people as you have wips. (You can make your own post or reblog this one!) I have deemed that this isn’t just for writing either. Sketch titles? Comics? DND campaigns? If you have an unfinished project, it counts!!”

If it wasn’t for @jiminiesfavouritecolourisblue tagging me, I probably would have forgotten about all the wip files I have collecting (metaphorical) dust.

1. Curiosity Killed the Cat (Chapter 6)

2. Only for You

3. Hide and Seek

4. Pretty Please

5. Guilty by Association

6. Kiss Me Please

7. Awkward Silence

8. Mafia’s Girl

9. A Trapped Rabbit

10. Oops I Summoned a Succubus!

11. Dionysus is my Roommate?!

12. A Beginner’s Guide to Hybrid Care

13. You’re Pretty, I’m Cute

14. How to Live Among Vampires

@jjungkookislife @sunshinerainbowsbts @minniepetals @angelicyoongie @bibbykins @m-yg93 @purpleyoonn @readyplayerhobi @juju-227592 @hangsang-jh @tito-the-mermaid @thedarkwinterrose @sybilwriting

[reesewestonarchive]

Fact swap: the most tone-deaf member of the Semliki crew is Arlo. He still does the shanties though, mostly with a bit of a toneless rhythm. (@sybil-writes)

!! I love me a character that can’t sing and does it anyway; it’s a lot of ‘eh I’m gonna do it anyway’ confidence that I can get behind (also, arlo? what a name!)

he’s still apart of an in-building wip, but kerouac’s tone-deaf too. dude plays drums but he can’t sing even a little

send me a fact about an OC for a fact swap

[purpleyoonn]

my fic reading list/recommendations

This is just a place where I will come to post the fics that I love and am currently reading or have read in the past that I continue to re-read from time to time. I have had asks in the past of people wondering what im reading or what my favorite fics are so here you guys go🥰 

I will continue to update this as time goes on!

*Each summary is written by the author and I take no credit for them*

*All credit goes to the amazing authors and their amazing works!*

*Most of these fics, if not all of them are poly bts x reader or oc!*

Hybrid:

Filtering Light by @sybilwriting

pairing: park jimin x reader x jeon jungkook

summary: the reader is a bunny hybrid with a past that has left her traumatized and struggling to heal. some things can be helped with therapy, but some things can only be fixed through realizing you’re not all of the things that hurt you—you are, in fact, just loved.

- I am not sure if the author is continuing with this story or not, but what they do have written is amazing! I love the way the author writes, it tugs at my heartstrings. The descriptions the author includes helps you to visualize almost everything so easily, its like actually being in the story. Hybrid mc pining and crushing on Jungkook in the beginning is so cute that my soul practically melted when reading it for the first time. 

Dance To This/Call Me Yours Series by @hollyhomburg​

Dance To This: Seokjin didn’t expect his new potential owner to be blind, but with the threat of being sent to a breeding clinic looming over his head, he’ll do anything. 

Call Me Yours: You were happy with your life, with your loving relationship with your hybrids, Namjoon, and Yoongi. But you never would have imagined that more love was hidden right next door, just over your garden fence. Not that human Hoseok will ever get the courage to confess his feeling for you anyway. His hybrids, however- starry-eyed bunny Jungkook, Bratty calico cat Jimin, and shy tiger Taehyung- don’t have any problem at all.

- I just have a soft spot for this authors fics. They always seem to be found when I need them most. The relationship builds slowly but is so sweet to read. It starts with Jin being adopted by the blind mc, and while it is kind of a gradual slow build...the wait is worth it. This is definitely one of my comfort fics.

Choco Bun by @nunchiimagines​

Pairing: ceo!mythical hybrid!bts x poc!curvy!hybrid!coffee shop owner!reader

Summary: When you moved to Korea after finishing college to continue pursuing latte art and baking, the last thing you were expecting was to open up your very own coffee shop under BTS Corp, Korea’s biggest entertainment service company for idols, models, singers, and more. Thanks to your hard work, creativity, and approachable personality you managed to become friendly with some pretty big named individuals as well as up and coming talent. As exciting and fun as it was for you, you slowly began to realize how much your 7 bosses weren’t particularly fond of this, acts of jealousy, pettiness, and aggression poking through in the most unsuspecting of ways. But what could 7 big named dragons want with a little foreign bunny? 

- This fic had me hooked from the very beginning. Like dragon bts with a curvy poc mc?? GOLD. Everything about this fic is a tease, and the author writes the teasing/pining relationship so well. The author builds the relationship between the boys and the mc with the perfect amount of comfortability and pining(which is like, my favorite thing). 

Their human mate by @isthiswhatithinkitis (also on ao3 under the same name) 

Pairing: Hybrid!BTS x Chubby reader

Summary: You work in a bookstore you own and live in the apartment right above the shop, it's a good thing that you own the building! You have your grandparents' passing to thank for that, not that it's a joyful event, you just owe them the life you now live.Now that you live alone, you have a lot of love to give but no one to give it to and it can be hard sometimes, that is, until you meet a cat in the street. Not just any cats but a hybrid it seems, a big fluffy Maine Coon that starts following you as soon as you meet eyes and its own shine purple. It's a good thing that you got more chicken than usual today because of the day's promotions, you'll have one more person to feed from now on, not that you mind, it's exciting to you, especially when the human version of the hybrid calls you his mate! It should stop there, yet these hybrids that claim you as theirs just pop out of nowhere one after the other and goodness, were hybrids always so horny?!

- this brings out just like, a warm feeling whenever I read it. I love reading fics with a plus sized mc, and when they aren’t particularly bothered by it. I love the developing dynamics between he boys and the mc, and I can’t wait to see how the author brings in the other boys and how their presence changes the already ever-changing dynamic within the mc’s home. 

Supernatural:

Before I Leave You by @hollyhomburg

Summary: Someone always has to leave first; They just didn’t expect Yoongi to come back with a new omega (who’s clearly been through some shit).

- This story continues to completely rip at my heartstrings in the best way possible. Every twist and turn leads to more emotions and absolute happy tears from my end. This is my absolute comfort fic and helps me when I’m having a bad day and need to feel smol. Everything about this fic resonates so deep within me that I truly wish I could hug this author and tell them all about my feelings of bily. 

If you want to be absolutely torn down and built back up (in the best most sweetest way possible) please read this fic!

Best Of Us by @bts-trash-blog​ 

Paring: Rap Line X Fem!Chubby OmegaReader

Summary: Being an Omega is hard, it could be so lonely. The hardships that you would sometimes feel seemed to much, always expected of things you could never fully reach. Always seen as a piece of meat to some, seen as weak and stupid. So you worked your ass off to finally work at your dream job. And the world all changed when you ran into one of the bosses. And couldn’t help but end up falling.

- Yet again, I truly love the representation of chubby!readers within fanfics as they are kind of hard to find. This author does a really good job of depicting the struggles I feel an omega chubby!reader would face within the werewolf au. This fic also features an omega Namjoon which is something I have yet to see, and I absolutely enjoy the way the author writes him.

Alpha Goes First (KSJ) by @hollyhomburg​

poly!bts x reader but work is centered around Jin

Summary: Each pack has its own set of traditions and standards and as the newest omega in bangtan’s pack- you have more than a few things to learn. things come to a head when the youngest alpha tries to breed you before your pack alpha does. Seokjin doesn’t like that one bit.

This was one of the first things I had first read when getting into the poly fic world for bts, and I quickly became obsessed. The author does such a wonderful job of building the angst between the characters that you can truly feel the anguish of the mc at times. The visualizations are amazing and breathe so much life into the fic. If you like dom!Jin, I recommend this. 

Rose & Thorns by @minniepetals​

Paring: dragon!bts x reader

Summary: a lone rose, a little broken, until Jungkook came along and the two of you saved each other. and in doing so, Jungkook showed you a world where he shared with his six other mates.

- Despite the intensity (the good kind) of the series, it is such a sweet and wholesome kind of thing that you cannot rush through. Each scene has so much thought put into it, that you almost have to reread the entire chapter when done to make sure you don't miss anything. This is definitely a series you can get lost in and not regret it in any way. The relationship between the mc and Jungkook is “no holding back” and is the sweetest kind of love to read about. 

Of Fire and Love by @hollyhomburg​

Pairing: Dragon!Yoongi x Human Reader

Summary: When Dragon Yoongi finds baby Jungkook in the wreckage of a house he burned down, he can’t bring himself to kill the child. Months after someone drops a baby at your door, you start to notice something- or someone, lurking at the edge of your farm. Why does the man you catch glimpses of have horns?

- This is my absolute comfort fic, the one that I come to when I am having an awful day or just need some reassurance. I can’t even begin to explain my love for the author’s writing and world building. Everything about this fic is beautiful and so incredibly well done. Every time I read it, I feel as though I am actually within the story, with possessive dragon!yoongi holding me close.

Iridescent Love by @imnotlauriane​

Pairing: wolf!bts x human/wolf!reader

Summary: From a fated meeting to a life filled with wonders, the path of discovery is much, much harder than what I had prepared myself for. Especially when my identity, the only one I knew of ends up being a total lie.

- i didn’t even realize that this fic was on Tumblr until a couple weeks ago when ive been reading it and loving it on ao3. The absolute genius plot and storyline makes my heart crumble and rebuild itself every chapter. I love. going back through and re-reading it while I wait for the next chapters release. While there is some dark underlying themes to the story, it truly is a sweet and heartfelt moment after moment kind of book. 

Yearning For You by @imnotlauriane​

Pairing: vampire!bts x vampire!reader 

Summary: Watching everyone around me meeting their fated, their mate, seeing the yearning in their gaze as they stare at each other, I want that too, so dearly, whoever they are, I would love them without hesitation, with all of my heart.

- Another fic I began to read on ao3 that I didn’t realize was also on Tumblr. This fic has the perfect amount of pining and angst and omg the fluff. The plot so far is gripping and I can already begin to see hints of foreshadowing as I go back and reread. I really can’t wait to see what comes next for the mc and the boys. 

The Comforts of Creatures by @interesting-interludes​

Pairing: ot7 x fem.reader

Summary: you’re a prisoner here, but you can’t remember why. you can’t remember much of anything. not where you came from, not who you are, not even what you are. what happens when a pack of terrifying monsters breaks into the facility where you’re being held. not to kill you, but to…protect you?

- I love the premise of this. The first chapter drew my attention immediately! I love the way the author writes the angst and trauma the mc is going through, and is able to draw a picture in my head of what is going on. Like you’re in the scene as it’s happening. I also love that the boys aren’t the stereotypical creatures, the descriptions depicting otherworldly beings or types of demons. I’m super excited to see where this goes!

Finding A Place by @LittleShyGirl and @orphan_account on ao3

Pairing: Poly!BTS x reader with some centering around Yoongi

Summary: As an isolated, lonely omega raised by humans, you have little understanding of how other wolves live. When you take a promotion to become a member of the BTS staff, your world collides with the Bangtan Pack and you realise you have a lot to learn.This is an OT7/YN fic, with a Yoongi/YN focus.

- This is one of my comfort fics and I often find myself going back and re-reading it when im in need of the comfort. There is a lot of trauma healing and mentions of abuse. Please remember to read the tags and warnings. I love the way the author/s write the bond building and growing between the boys and the mc. How it isn’t just all the boys immediately going for the mc. Their is time to build their bonds. 

-There is a second part to this already and I highly recommend both works!

Yandere:

The Household Bunny by @bibbykins 

Summary: You were a cam girl and OnlyFans creator all the while you were a senior in college. A series of events leads you to be living with seven men under the same roof of one renovated motel. Entering the life of rich, and touch starved, men as a less than rich, but similarly touch starved, woman is bound to hold some shenanigans

- (I actually really enjoy going back and re-reading through the drabbles within these “series” and tend to go back through this when I’m feeling like cagey and anxious. I can relate to the mc a lot and enjoy reading about chubby characters)

- This is a mature fic and not recommended for anyone under 18. Please adhere to the warnings the author has set out. The content is explicit and not appropriate for anyone younger than the above age.

Non!Idol Au: 

Once, Forever by @imnotlauriane​

Pairing: NamJin x reader

Summary: “We let you leave once, but now we’re keeping you forever”.“Please, we worked so hard to change for you, come back?”.

- The absolute heart wrenching first chapter drew me in. I am a huge sucker for angst, as you all should know by now, and was immediately drawn in by the mc (spoiler) leaving when she didn’t need to. I can already tell the boys are going to be absolutely feral in their need to protect and care for the mc, especially knowing how she lived the past years within the fic after leaving. Another amazing story by @imnotlauriane​. 

Soulmate Au:

Plato’s a Dick by @2seokLove4me and @Za_Alek on ao3

Pairing: Poly!BTS x MC

Summary: BTS as we know them in a Soulmate AU. Soul mates are identified by a mark on the left inner wrist. Most soul marks appear from puberty to age 25. Soul marks can be triggered by life events. Life is full of surprises and challenges. What happens when a mature (50 years old) American wakes up in South Korean, in a body age regressed to 25. Soulmate bonded to the biggest musicals act on the planet? How will her family react? How will she balance her past with the new future? Life is never what we expect but this is asking a bit much. The Universe has a keen sense of humor.   How do the members of BTS react?

- Where do I begin with this? I am completely hooked on this fic and the idea around it. I have yet to see a fic where the soulmate bond is between bts and an older woman (albeit aged down for the bond). I love how realistic the relationship dynamic is and that everything is a continued learning process. This is my current comfort fic! 

cherry blossoms by @animesugas on ao3

Pairing: Poly!BTS x Mc

Summary: Everybody has a soulmate - that one person that is meant for you. Problem is, you don’t know who your soulmate is until after you touch for the first time. Some people go their whole lives without meeting their soulmate, and Rae Lee Bang thinks she will be one of them. What happens when Rae bumps into the 7 most famous idols in the world and discovers that she has not only one soulmate, but 7? (set in an alternate timeline where the pandemic never happened, the MOTS tour happened & their little break happened)

- yet again, I love the dynamics between the boys and the mc. the introduction of the mc as the little sister to Bang Chan was also a cool touch! Their is some trauma the mc has, but im glad that she is open with the boys, and they are able to help her begin to work through it. I am looking forward to what the author has planned!

[lveclouds]

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[dionysusrage]

outfit tag game :)

INSTRUCTIONS: find pictures that describe your fashion sense and tag six people. the people you tag have to ship you with a kpop idol(s) based on your style and then do the challenge themselves.

thank you to @minyfic and @taesinferno for tagging me! <33

these are from my pinterest tbh and i’ve also recreated these looks so 😤

i guess my closet consists of purely jeans and pants and jackets. color palette is black with a few pops of color here and there bc of peer pressure

tagging: @jiminrings @jungkooksbroski @joheunsaram @cutechim @joonscypher @sybilwriting (anyone else is free to join too!)

[minisugakoobies]

Are you familiar with a jimin fluff where reader sleeps roughly which earns her two bruises on her left leg and one bruise on her right leg? Jimin is worried for her and her bruises, im the one who lost the jimin fluff drabble lol, im desperate, so pls tell me if ur familiar with this scene (this is the first scene in the one-shot/drabble)

Anon, I think I found it - is it this drabble from @sybilwriting?

I’m still going to do a rec list, but I hope this is what you were looking for! 💕

[yoyok-era]

Look at us, you and I (back at it again) - chapter two

Elliot Stabler x Olivia Benson ♡ Law and Order: SVU ♡ 0.8k ♡ Ao3

[Series Masterlist]

"Do you think she'll recognise us?"

It's one of many questions Noah's been asking as he paces in the waiting room at Mercy General. After almost four hours, Elliots surprised that the boy still has any energy in his legs.

It's nearly two o'clock in the morning now, and the doctors haven't said anything yet. Most of the squad and the stabler family has taken up residency in the waiting room, running on crappy coffees and vending machine candy.

Jet looks down at her phone, frowning down at the screen before replying, "You're kidding, right?" She raises her eyebrows pointedly, shaking her head when Noah looks up at her. "You look the same way you did back then, just taller."

Noah nods, taking a few more steps before asking his next question. "Do you think we'll recognise her?"

The silence in the room is heavy as the question falls on all of their shoulders.  Nobody really wants to answer it, even though it's been on everyones mind since Elliot got that phone call.

It doesn't take long for someone to speak up. "We'll know soon enough, I'm sure. Right, El?" Fin asks, turning towards Elliot, who's sat on one of the plastic seats in the corner, head in his hands as he rubs tiredly at his eyes.

His gaze flits up from where he's hunched over. He scans the faces in the room; Joe, Kathleen and Fin are standing against a wall, Lizzie and Vincent are sitting in the seats next to them. Amanda has her arm around Jet's shoulder and Carisi has his around Eli's, and Muncy's coming in with a new batch of coffee for everyone.

Noah's standing in front of him, eyes wide with expectation. "She's gonna be fine, right Dad?" The boy's eyes shine with hope and fear, his bottom lip trembling as he curls in on himself, hugging his arms to his chest. "I can't lose her again." His voice is thick with unshed tears, his face wet with them as Elliot stands and opens his arms, pulling the boy into his chest as he cries softly into his shirt.

They don't break apart until a nurse walks into the waiting room, asking about the family of Olivia Benson. Her expression is grim, and she looks at him and Noah with a sympathetic smile as he states that they're her partner and son.

"She's hypothermic and frostbitten, but she's awake,"  the nurse informs them, speaking far too slowly for Elliot's liking. "Three fingers in her right hand are broken, but otherwise it doesn't look like there's any major injuries.. She also seems to have some cuts, bruises and scrapes covering her body and most likely a concussion. We've also found evidence of prolonged torture."

Noah flinches at the word. Tortured. His mom, Captain Olivia Benson, tortured for who knows how long. Elliots arm comes to wrap around his shoulder, giving him a comforting squeeze.

"We told her that her family was here. She's asked to see her son and her partner before we perform the rape kit." 

Her words echo inside Elliot's head, the image of Olivia bleeding and beaten, pale and weak haunting his mind. He shakes his head, clearing it of the thoughts as he stands up. He takes a shaky breath, giving Noah's shoulder another gentle squeeze.

"That's us."

o0o0o0o0o

The oxygen is crushed out of Elliots lungs when he sees her, pale and shaking under a layer of blankets. Her hair sticks to her forehead with dried blood, butterfly stitches covering cuts and scratches on her face. The small amount of skin he can see is covered in welts and bruises, and his heart squeezes painfully as he approaches the bed.

A drip line runs into her wrist, attached to a machine at the end of the bed that keeps beeping rhythmically.  The machine gives off a steady hum as its readout shows the numbers changing slowly, indicating that the machine is working overtime to keep Olivia alive.

She doesn't move, doesn't blink, not even when Noah settles at the edge of the bed.  He reaches forward, brushing a stray piece of hair from her forehead. 

Elliot's stomach twists when Noah reaches forward, laying his palm flat against Olivia's cheek. Tears are streaming down his face, leaving smudged tracks down his cheeks as his lower lip trembles.

"Hi mom," he whispers, his voice catching in his throat. 

Elliot watches as Noah leans forward, pressing a soft kiss to Olivia's cheek, resting his forehead against hers for a moment before he pulls away.

Elliot's throat closes up, and the lump in his throat threatens to choke him. He swallows hard to ease his throat, before clearing it. Noah's eyes flick up to meet his for a brief second before returning to his mother.

"How long?" It's so quiet he almost misses her question.

Elliot slips his hand into hers, frozen fingers meeting warm ones. 

"4 years, Liv."

Her hand tightens slightly within his own, and a sob escapes the confines of her throat. He doesn't say anything else, simply squeezing Olivia's hand in reassurance. 

[goldensugarywaffles]

Writers who fics really hit at 2AM (and in general tbh):

@jjungkookislife @bibbykins @angelicyoongie @minniepetals @luxekook @jiminiesfavouritecolourisblue @m-yg93 @adonis-koo @purpleyoonn @chateautae @readyplayerhobi @untaemedqueen @sybilwriting @agustdakasuga

[yoyok-era]

Look at us, you and I (back at it again) - chapter three

Elliot Stabler x Olivia Benson ♡ Law and Order: SVU ♡ 1.0k ♡ Ao3

[Series Masterlist]

She asks for Fin to stay with her during the rape kit, and Elliot has to hold back his tears when she mumbles something about Fin being there for the last two.

So he stands in the hallway with Noah, holding his son's head against his chest as the boy sobs, mumbling quiet "I know, I know"s into his mop of hair.

"She's so broken, she's not herself." Noah whimpers, gripping his dad's t-shirt tightly as they stand. "This isn't fair."

Elliot's lips quiver and he blinks hard against the sting in his eyes. "I know. And the sad reality of it all is, she probably won't be herself for a long time. But she has us to help her get there."

Noah sniffles once, rubbing his nose as he looks back up at his father. He wipes furiously at his eyes with the back of his free hand. "Yeah," he hiccups. "Yeah, you're right."

There's silence between them for several moments, Noah's breaths slowing down and his grip on his father loosening until he stops clutching him so tightly. When he pulls back, his eyes are red and puffy, and he looks like he's aged three years.

"Thank you, dad." He smiles sadly up at Elliot, before slipping past him into the bathroom to wash his tear stained face.

Elliot stands for a short while longer, looking around the empty hospital corridor as a fresh wave of tears fill his eyes before he makes his way to the chapel.

The last time he was here was a good 7 years ago, when he'd prayed for Kathy's soul to be safe after she'd died. An overwhelming sense of deja vu overcomes him as he kneels in front of the altar, placing his palms against his closed eyelids and praying silently for Olivia to find peace.

He stays kneeling there, silent prayers flowing through his mind until he feels a hand on his shoulder.

Slowly, Elliot lowers his hands from his eyes, blinking hard as he turns his head towards the source of contact. His eyes go wide when he meets Amanda's.

"Didn't think you'd know where to find me."

"Katie had a suspicion. I told her and Joe to go home. Lizzie's gone too. Noah wouldn't be convinced." Amanda sits down beside Elliot quietly, her hand resting against his shoulder as she stares up at the ceiling.

After a few minutes of silence, Amanda glances at Elliot, raising an eyebrow at the sight of the silent tears streaming down his cheeks. "How is she?"

Elliot's voice cracks when he speaks. "I've never seen her like this. Ever. I know I wasn't there for her in 2014, but this…. this can't even compare to the case files I've read."

Amanda nods understandingly, understanding what he means, despite her having no idea. "She'll be okay, Stabler. We all will."

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Her hospital room is quiet. Calm. There's no nurses running around, no doctors barking out orders. Just a peaceful silence, only broken ever once in a while when one of the machine she's hooked up to beeps.

Fin is sitting in a chair next to her bed, one hand stroking her hair while the other holds on to hers. He's talking to her softly, filling her in on the things she's missed. Her son, her squad, everything.

"Elliot adopted Noah about 6 months after you went missing. We all thought you were dead, but they didn't declare that officially till about two years later. He's been doing good with the Stablers, he hangs out with me and Phoebe after school on Fridays. He's got a boyfriend now, Vincent. Nice kid, they've been dating about a year," He speaks quietly, her hand giving his a light squeeze every once in a while.

"Muncy decided to come back about a month after you went missing. Decided the DEA task force wasn't for her. She went over your case every second of every day, dedicated herself to following in your footsteps."

He pauses, watches as her face scrunches up in pain, and adjusts the dial on her morphine dosage.

"She and Velasco dated for a while, but they ended up deciding they were better as friends. He's dating Kathleen now, you know, Elliot's daughter? Joe got shot and Katie was the attending nurse. Straight outta one of those romance books you always used to read."

The corners of her mouth twitch upwards in a smile, as Fin continues to speak.

"Let me think… Lizzie opened her own bakery, Dickie and Jet are working on making a video game together. Oh, Amanda and Carisi had their baby. A little girl, her name's Maggie. You're gonna love her, she's a carbon copy of her father."

"And Elliot?" She finally speaks, her voice raspy and dry.

"It's been hard on him, you disappearing and the whole search to find you. He's the one that convinced the brass to keep the case open. They wanted to close it after a year, but he knew you were out there somewhere."

He tells her quietly, watching her nod slowly.

"Knowing him he's gonna be standing over you like he's your bodyguard the minute I leave this room. I gotta say, I don't blame him."

She lets out a soft chuckle, and Fin beams at the sound. She can still laugh. That's good.

He turns his head as he hears the door open, watching Noah and Elliot walk in.

"Speak of the devil." He winks at Olivia. "I'll leave you alone now, babygirl. You did good. Proud of you." He smiles at her, giving her hand one last squeeze before he leaves the room.

The door clicks closed behind him. He watches through the frosted glass as Noah climbs onto the bed and Elliot takes a seat in the chair he just stood up from.

Noah snuggles against Olivia through the thick layer of blankets, and he watches as they both close their eyes, the exhaustion of the day taking over.

After he's sure they're both asleep, Elliot leans forward and rests his head on the edge of the bed as well, his hand staying wrapped around hers the entire time.

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A Fathers Love | E. Stabler & J. Slootmaekers

Elliot Stabler & Jet Slootmaekers ♡ Law & Order: OC ♡ 0.8k ♡ Ao3

summary:

Jet, in her fever-induced delirium, reveals some truths about her past.

Elliot knew that there was something wrong with Jet the minute she had walked into the office that morning. He could see it in the way she carried herself, the way she stumbled as she walked up the stairs, the way she slumped over at her desk as soon as she sat down.

He'd made her a coffee, placed his hand on the back of her neck as he put the drink down on her desk. "You're burning up, kid."

Elliot watched as her eyes flicked to him, then away, before returning to look at the black coffee in front of her. She didn't respond to the comment, just continued to stare down at the steaming mug. After a moment's hesitation, Elliot spoke again. "Jet, are you feeling alright?"

"Yeah, yeah, just tired is all. Late night." She'd brushed him off, like she did whenever anyone asked her about things that bothered her, but Elliot saw the slight tremble in her fingers, the way she gripped the edge of the table in an effort to stop herself from slouching any further into her chair.

"Let me know if you need anything, okay?" He gave her shoulder a squeeze as he walked away, leaving her to get whatever work she needed done.

He'd found her asleep at her desk by the time he got back from the lead he'd been chasing with Reyes, and his concerned tripled. Her face was flushed when he'd woken her up, the bags under her eyes a stark contrast with her pale complexion.

Even now he could feel the heat radiating from her forehead through her clothes, could hear her rapid breathing. "Are you feeling alright? You don't seem too good."

The girl looked up at him with wide, frightened eyes. "I… I'm fine, Elliot," she said, voice trembling slightly as she stood up. She swayed, gripping onto his arm as she blinked the dizziness out of her eyes.

"Alright, I'm taking you home. Try not to collapse on me, okay?" She nodded, letting him lead the way as he walked them to his car.

She could barely stand up as they made it to his apartment, but when she did she immediately sank down onto his couch. Elliot pulled her shoes off her feet, set them aside, and went to check his kitchen for any medicine he might need. There was a small stash of ibuprofen, some water, and a glass of orange juice waiting for him.

"Here, take these. They're gonna help with the fever." He sat beside her as she swallowed the pill, wrapping a blanket around her shoulders. She let out a soft sigh as she nestled against the arm rest. Elliot smiled sadly at her. "Go ahead and lie down until your temperature goes down." His voice was soft and gentle, a comforting, familiar sound. She nodded sleepily and snuggled deeper into the couch cushions.

"I'm sorry about this," She mumbled, reaching forward to wrap the blanket tighter around herself.

That caught Elliot off guard, making him pause mid hair-stroke. "What do you mean?"

Her mouth tightened briefly, then relaxed. "My parents would get mad at me when I was sick. Cause one of them would have to stay home." She paused for a second, then spoke quietly. "My dad got really mad once, when I puked on this new carpet. Hit me across the face. My mom always said I went flying into the wall. Kinda funny, actually."

Elliot blinked the tears out of his eyes, surprised at how easily Jet opened up to him. He had never heard about her life prior to today, never knew what kind of childhood or family she'd come from. He wondered briefly if all of this was just the fever-induced delirium speaking, then decided it wasn't important at the moment. "Did he hit you a lot?"

His question made her stiffen a bit. "Me? Nah. My sister protected me, always took the most of it," She paused, her face contorted in thought, then shrugged. "She had this plan for both of us to get out. It worked for me, and when it didn't work for her, she killed herself instead. I think I was 15 when that happened."

Elliot nodded slowly, absorbing the information. Then, after a moment of silence, he spoke. "That's horrible, Jet. I'm so sorry you had to go through that."

She shrugged, still curled up in the blankets. "It doesn't matter anymore. What matters is that I moved on. I have other people now." They lapse into silence again, his fingers threading through her hair as her eyelids started to droop.

"No one's ever done this for me before." Her voice was almost inaudible.

"I'm glad I get to do it for you then."

She hummed softly, nuzzling her face deeper into the pillow. "Me too. Thanks, dad."

His chest tightened at her words, the vulnerability in them more than evident. "You're welcome, kid." His hands stroked her head gently, a silent comfort to her feverish mind.

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my tears ricochet | E. Stabler x O. Benson

Elliot Stabler x Olivia Benson ♡ 942 ♡ Ao3

part 1 | part 2 | part 3 | part 4

“We gather here, we line up Weepin' in a sunlit room, and If I'm on fire, you'll be made of ashes too Even on my worst day, did I deserve, babe All the hell you gave me? 'Cause I loved you, I swear I loved you 'Til my dying day.”

Her brain feels like it’s on fire as she stands in front of him for the first time in 10 years. He’s here; he’s back. 

And his wife has just been the victim of a car bombing.

The silence is loud as they stare at each other. She wants to hug him, to hit him, to yell and cry and scream because it wasn't fair then, and it certainly isn't fair now, but she can't do anything but stand there and look at him.

“They tried to kill her.” He’s the first to break the silence, shifting his gaze to the ambulance behind her. “They tried to kill Kathy.

“Go,” Her voice finally obeys her. “I’ll meet you at the hospital.”

She can't keep her head on straight as she drives behind the ambulance. She hears Fin talking to her through her car speaker, but she's too out of it to register anything he's saying. He hangs up eventually, and she's alone in the too-loud silence again.

10 years. 10 fucking years. Where has he been all this time? New York? Somewhere else? Why is he only showing up now? The questions race through her mind faster than any of the traffic lights that flash by outside. What will happen now that he’s here? Is he staying? Is he leaving again? Can she handle him leaving again, now that she knows he's been here?

She eventually stops her car in the hospital parking lot and watches as they unload Kathy from the ambulance. They wheel her into the building, and Elliot stays with his wife, holding her hand and massaging her shoulder. It's the comfort Olivia wanted from him in 2013, and now she's watching him give it to someone else.

She doesn't enter the building. It feels like an invasion of Elliot and Kathy's privacy somehow, if she goes in. She's not close to them like that, not anymore.

She sees Kathy in her head. The Kathy from 15 years ago, flatlining in the back of an ambulance with a brace around her neck and a baby on her chest. She can still smell the blood.

"-iv. Liv?" The voice from behind her pulls her out of her thoughts, and she turns around to face her sergeant.

"You okay?" He says, too tentative and too careful. A stark contrast from how he'd been when he called her earlier that evening. 

She doesn't answer his question.

"I followed Elliot here. I barely talked to him. Kathy just went into surgery. How did this happen? Why?" She gestures vaguely toward the ambulance, tries not to let her voice reveal too much of how she's feeling about the situation.

Fin is quick to reassure her, and she's grateful for it. "Rollins is at the scene. A uni told her it was a rental car parked on the street. Kathy went to get in, and the bomb went off. Arson thinks it misfired and threw her clear." He speaks slowly, watches her for her reactions. 

Sometimes she thinks he knows her too well, and its times like this when she's proven to be correct.

"A rental car, what... where are they in from?"

"They've been living in Italy, Elliot had to come in for some type of a task force meeting, and he and Kathy decided to make it a trip,"

Italy. 4000 miles across the Ocean. 10 years.

"He just called me out of nowhere and told me he was coming," Fin continues. "I may have spoken about your award. I thought enough time had gone down between you two."

She ignores the guilt starting to claw at the inside at of her stomach, diverts the conversation. "Okay, a task force? Who's he working for?"

"NYPD. He's the international liaison in Rome. 

"Since when?" If he was still here in 2013, if he was here during Lewis then–

Fin knows what she's referring to. He doesn't answer solely because they're thinking the same thing. "Look, this is all I know. You're gonna have to ask him."

She turns around at the footsteps behind her, takes in the disheveled man walking towards them. He looks older than the last time she saw him, the bags under his eyes darker, his shoulders slouching, his hair shorter than she remembers. But his face is the same; the nose and the eyes, the way he walks.

He hugs Fin first, who tells him that he's there for him, and then turns to her.

"How's Kathy?" Is the only thing she can think to say.

"They're still working on her... burns, concussion, fractured pelvis," he sighs, puts his detectives mask on, and turns back to Fin. "What do we know?"

Fin gives him the rundown, and for a fraction of second Olivia feels like she back with the old squad talking about a case before reality comes back to her and there's a mountain of distance between her and her old partner.

"She shouldn't have even been driving... I got a call. I slipped away. I gave her the keys.... She was worried we were gonna be late for your award. I meant to give you a call–"

"–It's okay, Elliot, please." she stops him, and her voice sounds shaky. 

"Tell me she's gonna be okay." His eyes are filled with tears, and she has to be careful about her next words because if his tears fall then so will hers.

"Kathy's a fighter, you know that."

She stays outside when his kids arrive, tells them that she's there for them if they need anything, and stays outside as the family she's no longer a part of walks upstairs. 

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my tears ricochet, pt. ii | E. Stabler x O. Benson

Elliot Stabler x Olivia Benson ♡ 475 ♡ Ao3

part 1 | part 2 | part 3 | part 4

I didn't have it in myself to go with grace And you're the hero flying around, saving face And if I'm dead to you, why are you at the wake? Cursing my name, wishing I stayed Look at how my tears ricochet

She's restless as she sits in the waiting room, foot tapping on the ground. Seeing Kathy there in that hospital bed, seeing Elliot there with her; it's sending waves of anxiety through her mind that she's not equipped to deal with right now.

She looks up when she sees him approaching her. "She's asleep," he whispers, coming to a stop next to her.

She takes a deep breath, lets it out slowly. This is the first time they've been alone together since he's been back, no case or fear for Kathy's recovery looming over them. The awkward tension between them is thick, cuttable, even. 

"Want some water?" he asks after a beat of silence, and she shakes her head.

"Back at the station, I put you in a bad situation," His voice is soft when he speaks, uncertain. He turns to sit beside her. "I know it's not the way it was back in the day when I had free run of the place. Know it's your house now."

He's tired, and he's emotional, and this is going in a direction that neither of them have the capacity to deal with right now. 

"Liv, I'm sorry."

"Elliot, we don't have to do this," she's quick to shut him down, to  end this conversation, but the look he gives her makes her stop herself before she gets started.

"Are you sorry for leaving? Or are you sorry for walking..." breathe, she reminds herself. If she breathes she'll get through this faster. "For not giving me the courtesy of telling me?" 

"Both."

The silence hangs between them, heavy as the pain and guilt they both feel. Neither one is really sure how to proceed, how they should address this whole situation. 

"I thought if I talked to you about how-"

"-You walked away? Because that's what you did, Elliot." The anger is coming out now, the feelings she buried ten years ago coming back to the surface twice as hard. "I had to find out from Cragen." That's the sentence that makes her voice crack, the one that makes this all real.

"You were the most, the single most important person, in my life, and you just. Disappeared."

He's quiet for a long time before he speaks again, his voice soft and full of regret. "I was afraid, that if I heard your voice, I wouldn't have been able to leave."

They stare at eachother for a long time, revelling in the lowest point of a ten-year old chasm between them before she finally gets up,  moves past him, heads towards the door.