#taeyeon accident

[authorhjk1]

Can you tell me how does each member of SNSD likes to be eaten out, both pussy and ass? Also give a very brief description of how they each of them like it. OT9 of course, please and thank you

Taeyeon

Taeyeon is usually the one to just ask for it. Or rather not ask for it. At least not verbally. Whenever you lie in bed, or on the couch, Taeyeon sees it as an opportunity to take her rightful place on your face. She loves to ride your face, while you eat her out. But she isn't rough or anything. As long as you make her cum, there is nothing to worry about. She can get a little impatient from time to time, but you make up for that, when your hands reach upwards to cup her breasts.

Jessica

Jessica likes to get bend over by you, before you eat her out. The way you seem to dominate her, but then kneel for her makes her wet everytime. So the two of you are equals and yet you're the ones on your knees. And yet she is the one who is begging you for more. Jessica melts away when you play with her ass at the same time. While you eat her out, your hands knead her cheeks, pull them apart, occasionally dip a finger inside her puckered hole. Not too much, but enough to tease her.

Sunny

Sunny is someone who needs a lot of foreplay. You can't just bend her over and slip your tongue inside her pussy like with Jessica. You have touch her first. Kiss her, let your fingertips glide over her thighs. And then you lie her down on a bed. Taking her feet, kissing them, before you slowly make your way up her legs to her thighs. Take your time there, move upwards, before retreating again, just to hear her gasp.

When Sunny starts begging, you know you're almost there. Spread her thighs apart, kiss them, until you reach her center. Slowly make your way around her lower lips, already tasting a hint of her juices. The moment you place your tongue fully on Sunny's lips should be the moment she already falls apart.

Tiffany

Tiffany likes to be taken care of. Similar to Sunny, but not with such a long build up. She loves it when you become very handsy in public. She always pretends to dislike it, saying it's inappropriate. But she can never hide her satisfied smile. It makes her feel so sexy, knowing you can't keep your hands to yourself. And once she spreads her legs, you make Tiffany's core your second home. You take care of her, give her lower lips and clit loving kisses, before you let your tongue slowly invade her pussy. Let your hands softly stroke along her thighs, making them shake and her moan.

Hyoyeon

I think most of the members aren't that much into having their asses eaten. Or at least, they don't get off as much to it as Hyoyeon. She likes it when you bend her over. Just like Jessica. The only difference is in the hole you get to lick and take care of. Hyoyeon doesn't mind if you get a little bit more rough, spreading her cheeks to get your tongue in as deep as possible. Maybe give her cheeks the occasional slap. Let your finger dance over clit, while you eat her out.

Yuri

Yuri loves it when you eat out her ass. She'd never admit it of course. She usually doesn't ask for anything sexual anyways. But it all started when you slipped a finger inside, while you were eating her pussy. Despite hiding her face in the sheets in embarrassment, you could clearly hear the loud moan that escaped Yuri's mouth. And as you fingered her ass, more moans echoed through the room. And when you first let you tongue glide over her hole "on accident" Yuri let out another deep moan, coupled with a needy whine. Despite not asking for sex, Yuri is usually not very shy or embarrassed during sex. But as soon as you let the tip of your tongue dip into her rear end, Yuri hides her face, while streams of moans leave her lips.

Sooyoung

Sooyoung likes to be rough and in control. And not only during sex. But also when you eat her out. She loves to ride your face. Her hands in your hair, pulling on it, while she pleasures herself, using your body. You're only allowed to touch her, when she tells you it's okay. Otherwise, you have to keep your hands to yourself and eat her out the best you can. Sooyoung loves to suffocate you a little with her thighs, when she gets closer. She likes it when you then suddenly go faster, making her bite her lip and moan out loud.

Yoona

Despite being one of the tallest in SNSD, Yoona likes to feel small. She gets off on the fact that she is way smaller than you are. Whenever Yoona asks you to eat her out, you usually pick her up. You place her legs on your shoulders and pull her up, until her pussy is right in front of you, while she sits on your shoulders. Once or twice, Yoona almost hit her head on the ceiling. But usually it works without any problems. Sometimes you just stand in the middle of the room and eat her out. Then, Yoona always leans forward, trying not to fall off while your hands keeps her steady, grabbing her ass. Sometimes, you lean her back against the wall, so you can let your hands wander, feeling up her body, while eating that delicious pussy.

Seohyun

Seohyun is a little like Sooyoung. But she is rough in innocent and needy way. She is just a needy little maknae. If she wants it, she needs it. Which means that you need to jump into action quickly, when you're in public. Because if you don't, Seohyun goes full maknae mode. Pouting, acting cute, sitting in your lap, clinging to your arm. Whatever she needs to do to feel your tongue inside her. And once you finally do place your head in between her thighs, Seohyun bucks her hips wildly in your direction, while she lies on her back, almost as if she is riding you. Begging you for more, needing that sweet release, which only you can give her.

[uchinagai]

Pride Posse

Giselle

Majors in music w winter, rina and ning. Very popular because of her looks at her university. sweetest soul if you become friends with her... somehow; it's easy over the internet, but in real life, thoughts and prayers. went through a horrible first wlw heartbreak and has been avoiding dating women even tho no man has managed to get her attention. Loves attention on her ONLY.

Minjeong / winter

majors in music at the same uni as Giselle Karina and Ningning. always compared to Taeyeon or a puppy. very quiet, unlike her friends and people she hangs out with, and everyone wonders how she even managed to befriend Giselle, not knowing they came from early childhood. recently joined stan Twitter, so still confused puppy over things.

Jimin / Karina

majors in music. rumored nepo-baby around the campus (she, in fact, is but won't ever admit to it). spoiled her friends a lot and takes her Twitter life more seriously than the assignments she needs to turn in. "secretly" favorites Minjeng, and everyone obviously notices because they aren't very lowkey.

Ningning

majors in music. hates stan Twitter more than anything but is still somehow surrounded by a group of them. comes from a rich family so befriending her is really out of the limits unless her friends introduce her to someone. really reserved person but still craves for an amazing wlw experience.

Yunjin

She majors in architecture and loves it more than anything. got on Twitter by accident and met Giselle there. became super close, and they even hosted a small sleepover with her. She is a hilarious and silly person. slowly falling into brainrot humor.

yeji

She majors in history and absolutely beats herself up for it every single day. As soon as she finishes the semester, she'll definitely switch to music. She met Giselle with the help of Yunjin and is the least active member with Hyunjin. She always gets teased by others claiming that she and Hyunjin are siblings due to their same last name and facial similarities.

Hyunjin

majors in literature and is the calmest person ever. He doesn't understand the point of stan Twitter, so whenever the topic comes up, he disappears into thin air.

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[sierrawr]

Summary: You go to your office only to heard a bad news from your secretary, Choi Soobin. The worst part is the bad news are related to the hit and run accident that happened 4 years ago. Meanwhile, the good news is that you might have received an information that will marks the start of a chaos.

TEASER | TEASER 2 | CHAPTER 1 | CHAPTER 2 | CHAPTER 3 | CHAPTER 4 | CHAPTER 5

Pairing: Attorney! reader × Undercover Police! Jay Cameo: Secretary! Soobin Cameo: Secretary! Soobin Triggered Warning!: None Word count: 1203 words Inspired by: Kdrama "Why Her?" and "Siren" by Taeyeon Song Recommendations: Cold As Hell by Taeyeon

The sound of click-clacking of the shiny, black pearl coloured heels that you wear is heard along the corridors. You walk straight towards your office room while the staff around you give a 90-degree bow as you walk past them. Once you have reached your office room, someone knocks on the door while you settle down on your executive seat.

"Come in!"

Soon enough, a guy in his 20s finally shows up in front of you, wearing a complete set of a dashing gray colored suit with a neatly tied red tie.

"Report."

You did not hesitate nor stuttered, and he didn't waste any time to deliver what he's got. He professionally scrolls down the tablet that he is holding at the moment. Known as Choi Soobin, the guy is your secretary that your father appointed to you almost 3 years ago.

"You have no scheduled meeting this morning until the afternoon. However, there is a new case reported last night, and I am afraid to say that it might involve you and the whole Yang's family."

Your eyebrows frowned upon hearing the report from Soobin. As much as you want to lash out and curse him, you know better not to do that under any circumstances given the fact that your family and the Choi share a long history together and even secrets from the darkest to the dirtiest ones that they keep burried together through the years. But, of course, that's another story for another time.

"What do you mean? What does the case have to do with me?"

Your pupils dilated as the memories of that night that occurred a few years ago suddenly play inside your head like a projector.

'There's no way '

Your heart whispered as your heart beat furiously. It pounds so fast that you lose your composure as someone always has a poker face with little to no expression at all on your face, which is a rare sight to see for your staff and family but not to Soobin as it is the second time for him. The first time he saw your face making that very same expression was a night that he won't be able to forget at all, forever.

"Unfortunately, it is exactly as what Chairman Yang expected back then. The police finally found the major evidence of the incident from 4 years ago last night. It's all over the news right now."

You didn't even notice that your breath has become unstable if it weren't for Soobin who kneels before you as he tries his best to distract you from his report just now. Thankfully, the intercom button is not that far from where he is standing, which made it easier for him to contact one of the staff outside of your office to ask for mineral water for you.

"Mrs. Oh, please bring a glass of mineral water to Director Kim's office and make it as soon as possible!"

Despite the obvious panic and anxiety that filled the whole room, Soobin managed to calm you down as he protectively held you in his arms before Mrs. Oh entered the room to pass the glass of mineral water to him. With closed eyes, you take a deep breath before you drink the mineral water and break free from Soobin's arms that were holding you just now and fix your "image" by glaring at Soobin as if you are blaming and warning him to keep his mouth about what he had seen earlier.

After all, you are THE Serena Yang, the heiress of the Yang conglomerate family from the Young Group that has power over the politics, business, government internal affairs, and even the laws in South Korea. Not to mention, your father is Chairman Yang, who is rumored to step down sooner or later as the current president of the Young Group, since he will be one of the candidates in the upcoming General Election aiming to be the future Prime Minister.

When that happens, you know very well that it's either you or your younger step brother, Yang Jungwon, that would be the heir or successor of the Young Law Firm. Long story short you can't let yourself be seen as a weak, soft-hearted girl to the public and not even Soobin is granted that privilege, to see you in your vulnerable state ever since that night from 4 heard ago happened.

You believe that only when you act cold-hearted, you get to be the bigger person and hold the power to your opponents as most of them have a hard time figuring out your true emotions and feelings. As a result, not even one person, and neither your family, is able to break that wall that you built. It's a mistake that you let your guard down for the second time as the news is quite unexpected and dangerous to you. It traumatized you.

"How much did they find out so far? How did they find the evidence when everything was taken care of?"

You walk closer towards Soobin and take a grip of his red tie that was neatly tied before you ruined it by pulling it.

"Did you lie to me and my family?! Were my family and I being deceived?! Are we that low and easy to fool for you and your men?!!"

Soobin makes eye contact with you as he keeps his calm demeanor while grabbing your hands that are still gripping onto his shirt to take your hands off of it. As soon as your hands are out of contact with his tie and shirt, you turn around and take another sip of the mineral water to cool yourself down from lashing out at Soobin again.

"No, of course not at all, Director Yang. I promised you that every single thing was taken care of that night. Chairman Yang's men also have made sure of that and give your family the evidence. Everything is buried safe and sound until a guy that I believed is the older brother of that girl appeared. The police investigated the case again per the guy's request and when they discovered her body.. The case is reopen officially now."

At this point, you know that you have to brace yourself for the worst-case scenarios that could happen to you or your family if the truth prevails and comes to light.

"Older brother.. you said?"

You immediately reach for the daily newspaper that Soobin put on your table earlier and take a look at it while Soobin continues with his explanation.

"Yes. Unfortunately, it turned out that the girl had an older brother. And he was also the one who insisted the police reopen the case and do an investigation of it again."

Being in distress and feeling like you're trapped, you let out a piercing scream before you tear up the newspaper that you have read a few minutes ago.

"Run a proper background check about the girl and make sure you find out who her brother is and identify his identity with details. By hook or by crook."

You grab your Birkin handbag before you make your way out of the office room, leaving Soobin all alone inside.

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DETAILS:

1. The name of female lead

- is chosen because the I wanted the main female character to have the same aura and vibe as Serena Serenity (from manhwa "Serena").

2. The surname and the company name

- Originally to be used as Kim family and Sunoo was supposed to be the little step brother

- But it changed to Young family to give off Crazy Rich Asian family aura. And it's a coincidence that it sounds identical to Yang, thus, the Yang family and Young Group (the company's name). And, yes. Jungwon is officially the little step brother of the household.

3. There are some of the hints (the night incident from 4 years ago) that started n this chapter so you better take noted of it from here and good luck finding each pieces before the siren caught you.

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[la0hu]

@bourgeoix tagged me for first 10 songs on my on repeat playlist:

through the valley by shawn james (found through a weird western community playlist on spotify, NOT through tlou)

house of the rising sun piano cover from westworld (i hallucinate an animatic for my novel to this)

koi no disco queen from the yakuza 0 soundtrack (THIS SHIT SLAPS)

flicker by enhypen (combed thru their discography the other day)

to.x by taeyeon (it's just good pop. sometimes that's all it needs to be)

知らないままで by ロクデナシ (i listen to a lot of this japanese piano pop idk what to call it)

as you like from the yakuza 0 soundtrack (OKAY this one actually slaps MORE than the other track if you can believe it. i got my housemates to admit this song is excellent)

close your eyes by isaac hong (dk why this is here)

slump by stray kids (😭😭😭 literally how i don't remember listening to it in the past month)

i need the light by enhypen (another good bside i found)

tagging @goraturtle @pinejay @hyumjim @ttathinker @turnip2001 @gotchaforce @dontdotha @greffis @pastperfectcontinuous

also drafted this on my side blog by accident instead of @huua but i'm too lazy to copy over lol

[rosesnthornz]

🌹— a guide to … LEE JANG-MI

🌹 — BASICS !

BIRTH NAME ! lee jang-mi

ENGLISH NAME ! cecilia chiara cynthia rose williams

IGBO NAME ! amarachi okoye

NICKNAMES ! lia, chichi, tia, mimi, rosie

BIRTHDAY ! july 15th, 1997

ZODIAC ! cancer

BIRTHPLACE ! busan, south korea

HOMETOWN ! seoul, south korea + london, england + los angeles, california

ETHNICITY ! korean-nigerian

NATIONALITY ! korean-american

SEXUALITY ! bisexual

🌹 — PHYSICAL !

HEIGHT ! 5’5” 1/2 (166 cm)

WEIGHT ! 116 lbs (52 kg)

BLOOD TYPE ! o-

PIERCINGS !

— eyebrow piercing

— snakebite piercings

— tongue piercing

TATTOOS !

— see here !

🌹 — CLAIMS !

FACE CLAIM ! wolftyla / tyla parham

VOICE CLAIM ! chlöe bailey (english) + ailee (soloist / korean) or taeyeon (snsd / korean)

DANCE CLAIM ! lisa (blackpink)

🌹 — CAREER !

STAGE NAME ! lia williams + lee jang-mi (이장미)

COMPANY ! interscope records + yg entertainment

OCCUPATION ! singer-songwriter, producer, actress, model, choreographer, radio show host, businesswoman

DEBUT DATE ! october 16th, 2015

TRAINEE YEARS ! 1 year (july 2014 — july 2015)

YEARS ACTIVE ! 2015 — present

SURVIVAL SHOWS ! girls’ planet 999 (2021 / as a mentor) + queendom 2 (2022 / as a judge) + street woman fighter 2 (2023 / as a judge) + universe ticket (2023 / as a judge)

FANDOM NAME ! rosies

COLORS ! #800020 + #36013F + #000000

🌹 — BACKGROUND !

LEE JANG-MI was born on july 15th, 1997 in busan, south korea to DAVID OKOYE and LEE CHUN JA. the former was a former olympic swimmer and united nations diplomat who hailed from one of the wealthiest families in nigeria. the latter was one of asia’s most well known singers, as well as an actress and a former beauty queen, and she also happened to be a SAMSUNG heiress. shortly after jang-mi was born, she and her parents moved to seoul in order to be closer to her maternal grandparents. the family would spend most of their time there, although they would briefly reside in london, as well.

despite the family’s picture perfect life, tragedy would strike a mere nine months following jang-mi’s birth. in may 1998, they would travel to italy to celebrate chun ja’s 31st birthday, which fell on the 25th. just four days later, however, both of jang-mi’s parents found themselves in a devastating car accident. unfortunately, the accident took both of their lives. chun ja was pronounced dead at the scene, while david fell into a coma, and later succumbed to his injuries a day later. jang-mi and her grandparents were quick to return to korea, and she was left in their care as her parents’ sudden deaths made international news.

up until jang-mi’s first birthday, she was raised by her grandparents and occasionally by her aunt, lee chaewon. however, her grandparents were already retired, and the grief of losing their eldest daughter and son-in-law made it hard for them to properly raise their granddaughter. chun ja’s youngest sister, bae eun-ji, already had a family of her own, and she was unsure if she could split her time amongst three children who were all under the age of five. meanwhile, although chaewon was unmarried, she was almost always working, and she didn’t want to leave jang-mi in the care of a nanny most of the time. and on top of that, her paternal grandparents resided in nigeria. as a result, jang-mi was regrettably put up for adoption. after a few months in a foster home, she was eventually adopted by a couple from southern california. she was given an english name, cecilia, and her middle names were taken from what her parents wanted to name her (chiara), her mother’s own english name (cynthia), and the meaning of her birth name (rose). and although the world knew of jang-mi’s existence, no one would know what became of her for the next seventeen years.

from then on, jang-mi was raised in california along with her older sister, who was also adopted. she grew up with a particular passion for music, and frequently listened to artists such as WHITNEY HOUSTON, MARIAH CAREY, DESTINY’S CHILD, AALIYAH, ASHANTI, AMERIE, ERYKAH BADU, THE SUPREMES, S.E.S, WONDER GIRLS, SNSD, KARA, 2NE1, MISS A, and LEE HYORI. at the age of fifteen, jang-mi began posting song covers and the occasional original song onto youtube. she began working at a nanette lepore boutique a year later, but shortly after she started her job, she was cast off the street by a representative of IMG MODELS, and was encouraged to enter an open casting call. although jang-mi failed to get a job, she managed to work her way into advertisements and editorials.

in 2013, she was encouraged to participate in that year’s MISS TEEN CALIFORNIA pageant. although initially skeptical, jang-mi would end up participating, and surprisingly, she won. the resulting exposure gave her acting and modeling opportunities like never before, and instead of participating in MISS TEEN USA, jang-mi used the attention to get her music career off the ground. she began starring in off-broadway productions, performing on the streets of los angeles, giving out her demo CDs to the people that would stop to watch her, posting her street performances to youtube, and writing as many songs as possible in her free time. meanwhile, her youtube channel was garnering a significant amount of traction. during the summer of 2014, her covers of PARAMORE’s “still into you” and of LEE HI’s “rose” would go viral. the former got her invited to one of the band’s concerts, while the latter caught the attention of YG ENTERTAINMENT. the label invited her to audition, and wanting to get closer to her home country through music, jang-mi accepted.

jang-mi sang ALICIA KEYS’ “no one” at the final round, and to her surprise, she passed auditions. she signed a 2-year contract with YG, and as a result, she had to quit her job, place her modeling career on hold, and move to south korea. she didn’t stop posting to her youtube channel, however, using it to record her progress as a trainee. jang-mi trained alongside the future members of BLACKPINK, and was actually meant to be one of the group’s members, renowned for her powerful vocals. while training, she had background vocals on the songs of other YG artists, wrote songs for them and what would become BLACKPINK’s discography (including the “WHISTLE” demo and “PLAYING WITH FIRE”), and had small roles in a few dramas. jang-mi was particularly hard working during her time as a trainee, and would even spend her days off in dance studios or at karaoke. however, a year into her trainee, she began having doubts, particularly about how she would be received in a country such as south korea. those doubts turned into stress, and it forced jang-mi to leave the company. returning home, she felt as if she had accomplished nothing.

jang-mi’s brief depressive state after leaving YG only pushed her to work harder, however. after returning to california, she didn’t return to her job, and instead focused most of her time on music and getting into university. in september, she was contacted by record label FUELED BY RAMEN, but she declined their contract offer, as it made her feel better to have control over the earliest aspects of her career. jang-mi formed the band ROSES ‘N THORNS with some of her high school friends, began uploading her original work to SOUNDCLOUD, and immediately started working on what would be her debut album.

in mid-october, jang-mi’s debut single “REWIND” would be released, and her album of the same name would drop at the beginning of november. going by the name LIA WILLIAMS, she spent her time touring across california in small venues and performing at local music festivals. in january 2016, however, a representative from INTERSCOPE RECORDS would attend one of jang-mi’s concerts. she was told about a potential record deal with the label, and just days later, she was singing her music in front of executives in INTERSCOPE’s headquarters. and instead of taking a month like she expected, jang-mi was signing a deal within a couple of hours, with JIMMY IOVINE reportedly saying that no one could leave until she was signed. and immediately afterwards, jang-mi got to work on her major label debut album, FRUITS OF MY LABOR, which would go on to catapult her into mainstream success.

fast forward to 2019, and wanting to begin a career as an idol in korea, jang-mi began looking for agencies to sign to. initially, SM ENTERTAINMENT, SOURCE MUSIC, and RBW looked to sign her, but she declined all of their offers. eventually, in june, she signed with YG—the same company that she trained under five years prior. two months later, her debut album was released, and its lead single topped charts across asia. jang-mi is now one of YG’s most successful soloists, and not only is she one of the best selling artists in korea, but she’s one of the highest selling artists in the WORLD, renowned for her performance skills, lyricism, and impressive vocal ability, garnering the title of “PRINCESS OF POP.”

[aettuddae]

hmmm ngl ive only been into kpop for like a year and me getting into it was kinda an accident(?) 😭 one of my closest friends that i met last year said she liked it and i rlly wanted to be her friend so i said she can show me some songs!

i only ult like one group (aespa) because more than one is so overwhelming to me! but i REALLY like red velvet, exo, nct (dont really listen to dream tho), and snsd

some groups i occasionally listen to is like ive, shinee, blackpink (dont know if u can tell but i really like more of the wacky weird(?) music 🤥)

i also had a BIG newjeans & loona phase when i was first getting into kpop! yeah funny enough what got me into kpop was newjeans and 2 baddies by nct 💀 and then i kinda jumped around from group to group until i discovered aespa

also i was thinking like this new group has ten, xiaojun, AND lilly in one group like i know they be singing DOWNNN in there songs and since they have a neo vibe i would probably would stan them too if they were real!

how about ur biases? do u have any in groups u dont rlly care about cause i lowkey do 😭😭

hmm…chuu can do it reference? 🤔🤔

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of course, getting into something because of someone else can happen 😅 but you stayed ! it's a weird, but fascinating world idk

yeah, it can be really hard to stan multiple groups, i think i do it as a mechanism to shut the voices (kidding, i just have a lot of love to give 😔), but i imagine it's more carefree (? to only stan one, it's all about having fun, at the end of the day. but also, anon, YOU HAVE TASTE 💋 we basically listen to the same groups

i got you so fucking bad in this take, because i also like the "weird" sounding music. no shade AT ALL, but if i want tik tok jingles i can listen to western artists, the cool thing of kpop are the particular sounds and concepts !!

the difference between newjeans and 2 baddies by nct what the hell were you on back then

i thought about it so much, when picking the positions for the group, since i wanted kyuin to be the main vocal i was like "this is a group full of main vocals how is she supposed to be even better?" 😭 there's also like three main dancers.. crazy. from what you tell me, i too imagine you would quite like them if they existed

yeah i have biases in groups i don't care about, but it's very sporadic.. i would say gyuvin and matthew from zb1 and minji from newjeans.

for my ult biases, karina (no shit i didn't imagine), taeyeon, sehun and yoohyeon from dc. also, kazuha (no surprise). fun fact, minjeong is kinda my bias of aespa too.

what about yours?

[ladyluck1668]

Share your thoughts about anything that you've watched, read, or listened to lately this past quarter!

i must warn you that i've been busy ever since school started which is why i haven't watched or read much, so i apologize if my list seems short! orz

watched:

haikyu!! to the top parts 1 and 2 - i watched season 4 of haikyu!! sometime in january and it was so GOOD. i found yet ANOTHER character that i love - kita best boy - and another school that i love - my inarizaki babies (*￣3￣)╭. i'm still bitter that we're not getting another season but i can't wait for the 'battle at the dumpster' movie when it comes out internationally! －O－

one piece live action - i watched the first few episodes of the one piece live action in 2023 but i hadn't gotten around to finishing it until sometime in january! i'm not very far into the manga, but there are a lot of things that were in the manga that made it to the live action and a lot of things that were not in the manga that were added/cut out/changed in the live action. overall, it wasn't horrible but it wasn't good, but it is a lot darker than the manga. and no one asked for this, but the mihawk portrayal is scrumdiddlyumptious - mans looks FINE (￣﹃￣)

one punch man season 2 - i FINALLY watched season 2 of one punch man in the beginning of february and it was nice! i preferred season 1, but i enjoyed seeing saitama's goofiness and meeting new characters! ヾ(＠⌒ー⌒＠)ノ

aggretsuko season 1 - i rewatched season 1 just recently because i missed watching it and it was so relatable, it hurts. a lot of what retsuko went through is what i'm currently going through and it's just been reassuring to feel represented. \^o^/

read:

i also have not read any books, lol, but i've been reading a lot of fanfiction! because i watched season 4 of haikyu!!, i went back to my haikyu!! phase (i never left). some of my favorite fanfics include:

arankita - falling petals - derelictstar

thoughts: 1) stan true love, stan arankita. 2) my heart (;´༎ຶД༎ຶ`)

kuroyaku - boyfriend jacket - pratintraining

thoughts: this is so stinking cute! read to see yaku being the BEST boyfriend and for kuroyaku fluff (❤️ ω ❤️)

kuroyaku - get a little bit genghis khan - pratintraining

thoughts: the banter and jealousy between kuroo and yaku is so on-point and hilarious - another must-read (^///^)

atsuhina - timmy play your trumpet (let the people go beserk) - farozaan

thoughts: this is one of my favorite atsuhina fics and for a good reason, too. i feel like this is more msby 4-centered than it is atsuhina-centered, but this is a hilarious read - i laughed so many times o(^▽^)o

listening:

i've been mainly on my taeyeon grind, lol, but there are some other songs that i've been listening to! they're older songs, but they are still bops nevertheless. ᕦ(ò_óˇ)ᕤ

taeyeon - why - i was in a melancholic mood (does anyone else think that 'why' seems like a sad song?) which explains why this song has been on repeat for awhile now! it might be an older taeyeon song, but it's still a banger nevertheless! ƪ(˘⌣˘)ʃ

exo - she's dreaming - i stumbled upon this song on accident, and it is SEVERELY underrated. this is officially one of my favorite exo ballads and everything about this song is just PERFECT. it's honestly such a shame that it was never performed live. `(*>﹏<*)′

teresa teng - tian mi mi (sweet honey/sweet on you) - i grew up listening to this song periodically but i didn't know the official name of the song until i was scrolling through instagram and found it. it has been on repeat for almost 2 months now and i don't mind - it's such a sweet (pun fully intended lol) song! (づ￣ 3￣)づ

[jamieanovels]

10 songs, 10 people tag

thanks for the tag @eccaiia & @mjjune <3

Rules: list ten songs you’ve listed to recently

Here's mine:

5am Paradise by Old Sea Brigade

Heart Line by Frank Tedesco

CUPID by KARA

I Tried by Daniel Seavey

I Miss When I Smelled Like You by girlpuppy

Circus by TAEYEON

Teir Abhaile Riu by Celtic Woman

Accident by WOODZ

Ashes and Wine by A Fine Frenzy

Nobody Gets Me by SZA

soft tagging: @kaiusvnoir @thegreatobsesso @minutiaewriter @kaatiba @ahordeofwasps @muddshadow @saltysupercomputer @eli-writes-sometimes @thetruearchmagos @thewriteflame

[demonlullaby]

SPOTIFY WRAPPED 2022

Should have probably posted this when everyone else was, but better late than never lol

Happy 2023!

TOP SONGS OF THE YEAR

MANIAC - Stray Kids

CHEERS - SEVENTEEN

hellboy. - CVLTE

Ruby - WOOZI

Same Scent - ONEUS

Hard to Love - BLACKPINK

HOT - SEVENTEEN

Lonely St. - Stray Kids

Wrecked - Imagine Dragons

Hang on to Yourself - Palaye Royale

Ash - SEVENTEEN

Blood // Water - grandson

Good Boy Gone Bad - TXT

Shut Down - BLACKPINK

DON QUIXOTE - SEVENTEEN

Bones - Imagine Dragons

Feelin' Like - PENTAGON

CHIQUITA - Rocket Punch

Shadow - SEVENTEEN

VENOM - Stray Kids

begin - YooJung (onlyoneof)

HIJACK - WOODZ

March - SEVENTEEN

PLAY - LUCY

Sparkling - CHUNGHA

Enemy - Imagine Dragons

_WORLD - SEVENTEEN

FEARLESS - LE SSERAFIM

Crazy Like You - CHUNGHA ft. BIBI

Pale Blue Dot - LOONA

Anyone - SEVENTEEN

Save Yourself - ONE OK ROCK

Nightmares In Paradise - Palaye Royale

Better and better - WOODZ

Rock with you - SEVENTEEN

Done - WJSN

DICE - ONEW

Broken Heart of Gold - ONE OK ROCK

Darl+ing - SEVENTEEN

As You Wish - WJSN

Flip That - LOONA

maybe - Machine Gun Kelly ft. Bring Me The Horizon

California Dream - CHUNGHA

Last Sequence - WJSN

Lost At Sea (Illa Illa 2) - B.I

0X1=LOVESONG - TXT

KULT - grandson

The Great Mermaid - LE SSERAFIM

I hate you - WOODZ

LOVE DIVE - IVE

RUN2U - STAYC

Accident - WOODZ

FREEZE - Stray Kids

I think I'm OKAY - Machine Gun Kelly ft. YUNGBLUD

Heart Burn - SUNMI

Stupid O'Clock - VICTON

Until We Go Down - Ruelle

Pretty Psycho - PURPLE KISS

Heroine - SUNMI

MAGO - GFRIEND

XXX - CHUNGHA

BOP BOP! - VIVIZ

Me Myself & I - 5SOS

TOMBOY - GIDLE

BTBT - B.I

Gasoline - KEY

Dirt on my leather - WOODZ

LA DI DA - EVERGLOW

Any - Stray Kids

MAISON - Dreamcatcher

Thursday's Child Has Far To Go - TXT

DON'T MESS WITH ME - BVNDIT

MIROH - Stray Kids

Eden - OH MY GIRL

Lonely Boy - TXT

Blow - Jackson Wang

Modern Life - WOOSUNG

Labyrinth - GFRIEND

La Luna - ICHILLIN'

Doom Du Doom - P1Harmony

Beg For Me - Red Velvet

PUMA - TXT

Charmer - Stray Kids

Can't Stop This Party - Seori

Queen of Hearts - TWICE

9 and Three Quarters (Run Away) - TXT

Thunderous - Stray Kids

Nerdy - PURPLE KISS

Feel Good - IRENE & SEULGI (Red Velvet)

Opening Sequence - TXT

WHO WE ARE - RAVI

Stay Tonight - CHUNGHA

Can't Control Myself - TAEYEON

Devil - MAX CHANGMIN

So Far Gone - ONE OK ROCK

Love Me Out Loud - CHUNGHA

Copycat - Apink CHOBOM

Beatbox - NCT DREAM

VISION - Dreamcatcher

Mixtape : OH - Stray Kids

TOP ARTISTS OF THE YEAR

SEVENTEEN

Stray Kids

CHUNGHA

ONE OK ROCK

ATEEZ

TWICE

ITZY

BIBI

5SOS

TXT

DAY6

Dreamcatcher

NCT 127

Palaye Royale

SUNMI

KEY

Red Velvet

LUCY

TAEMIN

WOODZ

GIDLE

DPR IAN

The Rose

KANG DANIEL

EXO

EVERGLOW

Fall Out Boy

Bastille

LOONA

ONEUS

LE SSERAFIM

Imagine Dragons

Xdinary Heroes

B.I

YUNGBLUD

Rocket Punch

PENTAGON

BLACKPINK

BAEKHYUN

WJSN

ONEWE

PURPLE KISS

SHINee

Seori

A.C.E

HyunA

Halsey

Måneskin

Machine Gun Kelly

p!atd

[constelllctions]

 — TAEYEON KANG has been living in Port Leiry for ONE MONTH. They currently work as a BARTENDER AT THE HERON CLUB, and are 30 years old. No one is sure if they’re actually a WEREWOLF. They tend to be quite HARD ON HERSELF and SELFLESS, but can also be WARM and LOYAL.—

TL;DR — Taeyeon was born and raised in Daegu, South Korea. She became an orphan after her parents died in what seemed to be an accident, which landed her in an orphanage. Her presence there caught the eye of one of the benefactors and his son, and once she hit puberty and started turning into a werewolf, it became clear why it had. Taeyeon was practically adopted into the family/pack, and although she received the best education and a steady job at the Min family company, they were also very psychologically abusive and controlling with her, especially Woo Young, the son of the benefactor, who was completely obsessed with being with her. Said obsession reached its limit when Woo Young tried to kill Taeyeon's then fiancé, which made the young woman start plotting her escape not only from the Min family, but also, from South Korea altogether. In secrecy and after saving money, she managed to fled to the US, where she hopes to find not only a new home, but also, protection from her old life.

‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎( FULL BIO )

possible connections: people who knew her through the Min family, new friends, neighbors, regulars at the heron club, family figures, people who dislike her, shared hobbies (taeyeon loves running and swimming), one or two roommates, flirtationships, you have a crush on her and she doesn't realize it...

[baekhvuns]

Am I Y/N now? 😭 Idk if I should feel honoured or worried

We definitely should know less about each other it's aimed at Harry and lots of others who overshare lmao. Uhmmm, but would Meghan be with someone bigoted and racist in the first place? Let's hope not. Calm down, mate. We get it, she changed you alright

Heeeey I was about 6 or 7 years old when that accident happend and my grandma was next to us chatting with a friend 😭 there's another story with me and that friend, always me who had to fight for her life tho. So we had impromptu football goals at our playground, basically just 4 tall stakes. But they were placed in an inconvenient place, so my friend and I decided to move them... we were 7-8. I was holding the bottom, but my friend accidentally let go of the stake so it crushed my finger and it started bleeding 😭 gross but the nail came off 💀

SM I'M AT YOUR DOOR WTF LEE SOOMAN OPEN UP BITCH. They're gonna ruin SuperM now?! Seriously the backlash will be strong so wtf. And why didn't he come back with WayV then?

I saw bits and pieces of LSF at GDA and some of it was live, like No Celestial! They did well overall, they're fun to watch

Me getting mesmerised by Hwa's vocals unknowingly, sounds about right 🥰 his vocals is really flexible, I love it

Yeah unfortunately idols/trainees parents are also to blame, they're greedy or don't care enough. My friend's sister wanted to become a trainee at 12 and their parents were on board, cause they knew nothing about kpop, but my friend and the rest of the family was like??? That's not happening

Yeosang is joining NCT didn't you know?

Yes his name is Baek Dohwa when I saw it I wheezed and then someone called him Hwa once and I??? Yes it's the eyes, the black haired guy Eunhyuk has Tae's eyes and fluffy hair.

Wet shirt 👀 I think that's the other guy, or maybe I'm forgetting something, but things are escalating there too

But listen this and this. And

I once heard a remix of The Boys and I am the best and ascended 😵 can't find it now, but goddddd I think that person also mixed 4Minute's Crazy and f(x)'s Electric Shock

Why are these men exposed?! They need this

They're probably having fan calls in their car like 💀 I just saw a video from yesterday from a person who's already had over 15 fan calls already tell Hwa "see you tomorrow" seriously and I thought me winning 4 calls last year was too much 🤡

Sometimes I have a thing for Rob, sometimes I don't, Damiano is cool and hot, young Keanu, so beautiful 🥰 I suddenly don't know any white men, pls 😬 I'll have to think harder. Probably some British white actors........ I had a Tom Hardy phase when I was 17-18

The collabs for that show are so random, but if they somehow come true I'll be levitating. Suga and Taeyeon?! I'm sorry, but HOW

I'm stealing that choker wtf Park Seonghwa hand it over! What a neck it's definitely necking ☺

Devastation...

Uhm anyways. I'm looking disrespectfully

Ahhhh finally the first episode is out! (Seonghwa coded) - DV 💖

hi hello!!

Am I Y/N now? 😭 Idk if I should feel honoured or worried /// We definitely should know less about each other it's aimed at Harry and lots of others who overshare lmao. Uhmmm, but would Meghan be with someone bigoted and racist in the first place? Let's hope not. Calm down, mate. We get it, she changed you alright!

bestie first off what did we wake up too, bale and lloris retirement, zidane disrespected, barca back, mourinho brazil, busquets with alnassr, martinez porto’s coach ????

ur the yn! the one who’s always HURT 🔫 u best believe that the pairing with this yn would carry all sorts of bandages in case <33 yEAAAHH i keep seeing his # on twt and theres somethings he’s said that are on point but and time i click it i just never wanna see anyTHING again, the contradictions, getting diana’s spirit to come????? the hair loss reactions 😭😭😭 let’s hope tf not but he is royalty, 2 sides to every story i guess! the palace clearly isn’t in the position to say anything so we only know harry’s side! i doubt they’d say anything too, tho i think that’s good bc once ur in front of the camera its hard to get away from it fbfb i wish the obsession with them is gone atp but this is so funny 😭😭

Heeeey I was about 6 or 7 years old when that accident happend and my grandma was next to us chatting with a friend 😭 there's another story with me and that friend, always me who had to fight for her life tho. So we had impromptu football goals at our playground, basically just 4 tall stakes. But they were placed in an inconvenient place, so my friend and I decided to move them... we were 7-8. I was holding the bottom, but my friend accidentally let go of the stake so it crushed my finger and it started bleeding 😭 gross but the nail came off 💀

i am sorry but what the fuck

anon, u need a supervisor 24/7 i AM DBWKDHWK tell us more

SM I'M AT YOUR DOOR WTF LEE SOOMAN OPEN UP BITCH. They're gonna ruin SuperM now?! Seriously the backlash will be strong so wtf. And why didn't he come back with WayV then?

NO SRS IM SORRY BUT what did he contribute, bro has 3 lines in a song 😭😭😭 the backlash will be crazy but a lot of ppl are begging for his return,,, makes me wonder if anything about his scandal was even true with the way twt’s acting! him not being in it would only save his face tbh 😭😭

I saw bits and pieces of LSF at GDA and some of it was live, like No Celestial! They did well overall, they're fun to watch //// Me getting mesmerised by Hwa's vocals unknowingly, sounds about right 🥰 his vocals is really flexible, I love it

tbh lsf’s performance make me forget about the fact theres even lipsync or not going on BC THEIR PERFORMANCES EAT EVERY TIME!!!!! theres this hunger to perform on stage and it SHOWS,, need them to have a concert bc im ready to anti ti ti fragile, wait have u seen this lsf performance?? this is better than any group out there tbh <3 his vocals are so flexible, he fits in every vocal range!

Yeah unfortunately idols/trainees parents are also to blame, they're greedy or don't care enough. My friend's sister wanted to become a trainee at 12 and their parents were on board, cause they knew nothing about kpop, but my friend and the rest of the family was like??? That's not happening //// Yeosang is joining NCT didn't you know?

ayo???? AS THE FAMILY SHOULD!! no bc i see like those singing shows whenever it’s on and it’s like catered to younger contestants (7-17 type) and during auditions they be sending 3yo’s???? they haven’t even started talking and they sent them out for singing 😭😭😭😭 YEOSANG IS THE NEW NCT HOLLYWOOD MEMBER??? iM SO SURPRISED! MORE PROMOS FOR HIM! AND TEASERS LIKE THIS

Yes his name is Baek Dohwa when I saw it I wheezed and then someone called him Hwa once and I??? Yes it's the eyes, the black haired guy Eunhyuk has Tae's eyes and fluffy hair. ///// Wet shirt 👀 I think that's the other guy, or maybe I'm forgetting something, but things are escalating there too

But listen this and this. And

i was about to answer the above paragraph and my finger slipped to the atrocity u linked there. the way i froze, anon. what IS GOING ON WHAT ARE U DOING ! ON A MONDAY !!!! UR SENDING THIS AND EXPECT ME TO NOT SCREAM BC THAT IS LITERALLY PARK SEONGGWA DVWNDHWKDHWK IM DBQKHDWKHDWKHDKW

wet shirt. seongjun. and u never told me tHIS WAS HAPPENING IN THE WEBTOON FOR FREE

I once heard a remix of The Boys and I am the best and ascended 😵 can't find it now, but goddddd I think that person also mixed 4Minute's Crazy and f(x)'s Electric Shock

ARE U TALKING ABOUT THIS

omg did u hear all the the boys remix’s 😮‍💨🤲🏻 the t r x sends a nostalgia 🤌🏻🤌🏻 CRAZY AND ELECTRIC SHOCK??? do u rmr this remix and the twiceblackvelvet remix that broke everyone WAIT HOLDON HAVE U WATCHED THOSE MULTIFANDOM EDITS this one 🤚🏻 what an era tbh

Why are these men exposed?! They need this

They're probably having fan calls in their car like 💀 I just saw a video from yesterday from a person who's already had over 15 fan calls already tell Hwa "see you tomorrow" seriously and I thought me winning 4 calls last year was too much 🤡

YEAH COVER THEM UP !!!!! COVER THEM UP RN 🔫🔫🔫 at least we get moments like this 😭😭 bro is tIRED,, 😭😭😭 i wish they’d do this once in a while, i want hwa to do this so bad

Sometimes I have a thing for Rob, sometimes I don't, Damiano is cool and hot, young Keanu, so beautiful 🥰 I suddenly don't know any white men, pls 😬 I'll have to think harder. Probably some British white actors........ I had a Tom Hardy phase when I was 17-18

i watched harry potter again and mr pattinson had me BY THE NECK !!!! damiano is so very attractive, he sometimes looks like princess diana 😭😭😭 i would’ve thought that tom hiddleston would have been in ur list for sure BUT TOM HARDY?? THATS A NEW 👀👀 i would add the chat noir from miraculous ladybug too tbh <3

The collabs for that show are so random, but if they somehow come true I'll be levitating. Suga and Taeyeon?! I'm sorry, but HOW

no ur right, it’s so random,, but pairing taeyeon and suga would probably be a another iu and suga type of music tbh fbwnfh

I'm stealing that choker wtf Park Seonghwa hand it over! What a neck it's definitely necking ☺ /// Devastation... /// Uhm anyways. I'm looking disrespectfully /// Ahhhh finally the first episode is out! (Seonghwa coded) - DV 💖

HE IS SO PRETTY IN THAT NECKLACE bro is so fine, the blond, the blue outfit and the sparkly necklace 😩😩😩 my new religion

this man is crazy and i would like every inch of him and this is the same guy

STOP THE FIRST EP LOOKS SO GOOD STOP IT SHKWFHWKHDKW

i also want to say what us wRONG WITH AUSTRALIA????? I WAS SENT A VIDEO OF A SNAKE, BLACK SKINNY SNAKE IN MY FAMILYS HOUSE AND THEYRE NOT EVEN PANICKING????? FHWKHDKW HOW IS UR FRIEND LIVING THERE????????????£|€\¥|!£]

anon, what the hell

[kidleadertaeng]

Taeyeon x Rainbow

[sierrawr]

SIREN (TEASER) - JAY'S FIC

Synopsis: A hit and run accident that happened 4 years ago shocked the community nationwide. However, the case is quick to be closed. Now, 4 years has passed, but the case is suddenly reopening again. A police officer named Jay requested to meet you to discuss the case, and you started to have a nightmare about hearing the police siren that you are afraid of ever since then.

Pairing: Attorney! reader × Undercover Police! Jay

Genre: Thriller, mystery, slow-burn, Kdrama spin-off

Inspired by: Kdrama "Why Her?" and "Siren" by Taeyeon

TEASER | TEASER 2 | CHAPTER 1 | CHAPTER 2 | CHAPTER 3 | CHAPTER 4 | CHAPTER 5

"He is the kind of siren that I'm less afraid of. He is dangerous, but I feel comfortable by the danger. It excites me even more."

-Serena Yang-

"Even if you kiss me forever, you can't have me. You should have known that, Park Jongseong."

-Serena Yang-

"I keep sinking down and fall into it more. She lures me to get closer to her as if she's a siren like the one in the sea. I can't believe she did that to me!"

-Park Jongseong-

"Funny how the words shares the same spelling but different danger to different people."

-Park Jongseong-

"Silence will do us good instead of the damn siren. Bury it all and don't leave anything behind. Both of you have to remember this, as long as you have the money, nothing and no one will get in your way."

-Chairman Yang-

"Your heart is taken without a notice. I pity you, Park jongseong. You are so pathetic and dumb."

-Choi Soobin-

"You pleaded me, but I just stared at you. I have to survive too. I'm sorry, 누나."

-Yang Jungwon-

© 2023; sierrawr on Tumblr.

[peachynicsy]

SNSD Taeyeon involved in 3 car accident. Her car rear ended a taxi, which caused it to hit an Audi. She was taken to a hospital via ambulance due to chest pains.3 other injuries, police investigating incident Hoping not just Taeyeon, but the other two drivers are safe and recover quickly. 😥

[just-some-random-blogger]

On A Thread

Seventeen CEO!Joshua Hong (Hong Jisoo) x Nurse!Reader Summary: If our love was a piece of string, it was like he took my hand, handed me the scissors, and told me, "cut it." So I did. Word Count: 3k Warnings: Break ups, fluff (if you squint real hard), angst, classism, elitism, exhaustion, toxic relationship i guess, tyPoS bye, etc.

A/N: i really wanted to write angst and it was supposed to be short but 3k is short i guess WTF>SHHFO WFH. Anyway, parts of the premise and a lot of their dialogue towards the end was prompted by some prompts i reblogged before posting this, so you can check it out if you like <:

It was never supposed to be this way. He and I were never supposed to even meet. But we did. And I opened my heart to him.

That may have been the worst thing I've done thus far.

He was like a rose. His fragrance was all consuming. And he grew around me, choking me with his thorns.

The worse thing was, | could not escape him.

Because he wasn't just an ex, he was the food I ate, the clothes I wore, and the serum on my skin; he was the head of the corporation that practically owned all the eye can see.

He was Hong Jisoo of SVT Group, Joshua to his friends, Josh to his closest friends, and... a burning memory now to me. He was the CEO that was second to none that he practically had the nation in his chokehold.

He was a lingering presence that made me shudder, especially on this gruesome night after hours. He was in everyday brands that always had a buy-one-take-one promo, as well as designer brands whose prices seemed to only grow higher.

And I'm honestly thoroughly offended that he ripped the sacred place I had into his iron fists. How dare he shop in the low-lit supermart by my apartment this late at night, knowing what he did, when he could well afford all the exclusive supermarkets near his private village.

Was he that spiteful, when he seemed so relieved to have gotten me out of his life?

What could he possibly need here that was so unavailable to him in his luxury shops?

And how he dare wear the suit ensemble I praised him too many times in when he wore it?

I stood there across the isle, gripping the handle of my shopping cart, looking at him like I was back in school, trying to understand what in the world my teacher just wrote on the board.

I watched as he reached towards the shelf, looking at macaroni, cocking his head, probably wondering to himself if he owned that brand or not. He's done it once before, asses the products while shopping, then put down notes of it on his phone.

It never bothered me, but then again, I suppose maybe it should have, since it was like every waking hour was lived only for his job.

Still, Jisoo had his hair combed and gelled back to a precision I used to love watching unfold. His suit had not a single wrinkle, even after the entire day. His tie was pinned down by something more expensive than my laptop and his collar was cuffed by something more expensive than my entire wardrobe of clothes.

That was who he was. Immaculate and poised. Perfectly polished to a T... and I, I turn to my imitation crocks and fuzzy socks, was this.

I was scrubs and late night shifts and messy hiar buns and convenient store coffee and sweat and tears. We were worlds apart.

Worlds apart.

I did myself a favor and pulled my cart back, moving the opposite direction of him, although I had nothing to so in the laundry soap isle.

This all happened because I was doing my cousin a favor. She was an event planner and currently looking for an new assistant. I used to work with her part-time before becoming a registered nurse, which was why she was quite adamant on getting my help.

She promised a day's pay and Michelin star food from the event itself if I helped her in exchange for me sacrificing my rare day off. After a couple days of persuading, I told Taeyeon I was in, although my heart and body longed for an entire day of sleep.

At the time, I was glad I went to the party, because there had been a choking accident that I was able to remedy. It was of a man who I would call my friend, Yoon Jeonghan, that nearly suffocated on live squid.

And of course, at the time, I was also glad I came because I met the him.

But there have been so many times after our brutal break up were I wondered what would have happened if I turned Taeyeon down and slept in that day. But then I worry that Jeonghan might have not have someone to help him fast enough. So then I wonder what it would be like if Joshua had a call that hindered him from thanking me personally for saving his friend. Maybe then we wouldn't have fallen into small talk, and I wouldn't have told him about this milk tea shop that I loved so much, and he wouldn't have gone there persistently just to have a 'chance' encounter with me.

I couldn't turn my thoughts of him off, even as I ticked my list into completion.

I was on autopilot when I walked towards the register, but then my heart dropped when I saw Joshua standing there in front of the cashier, fishing for his thin wallet in his suit's breast pocket.

My entire body was suddenly pulsing with adrenaline.

I cleared my throat and headed for another lane, although the customer there only begun checking out her items.

It was dreadful when I saw in my peripherals the cashier turn to me, wave, and call out for me to move to her lane, since she was done checking Joshua out.

Fuck, shit, bitch, fucker, fucking shit, what the fuck-

I sucked in a breath and turned to the middle aged lady, beckoning me over to her. I sighed and moved my cart with disdain. I kept my eyes on a bag of chips I got as I made my way.

I avoided all eye contact and started unloading my items for the cashier that I gave but a quick glance and smile to while handing her my reusable bags.

I robotically brought my stuff out.

Dear goodness, maybe I was being too obvious about this.

I sighed as I brushed off the feeling of eyes burning into my skull.

Please don't talk to me, please don't talk to me, please don't talk to me, please don't talk to me, please don't-

By the time I'm halfway through my task, I bravely glace forward, praying he wasn't just stood there watching me.

But I was faced with no one but the woman punching my items and and a man bagging them.

I began to feel heat trickle up my neck and cheeks.

Did he not see me?

Suddenly, I felt so conflicted, hurt, angry by the idea that my presence wasn't even acknowledged.

I scoff lowly at myself and felt my shoulders deflate. The tension in my muscles relaxed, but not in a relieving manner. I suddenly, so stupidly, felt my eyes begin to glass as well. I rub my them, thinking about how horrible and exhausted I felt.

I thought about how much I wanted to go to sleep, and how much I wanted to get a hug, and how I had no one to give me one.

I sniffle and release a breath, smiling at the cashier when she tells me my total. I pay her, then get my things, automatically telling her to have a good day as well, though I clearly meant none of it.

With my two bags in hand, I step out of the supermart and look up to the sky, out of habit. It was a bare night sky, with no stars nor clouds. Boy, was I glad I didn't have work tomorrow.

It was instantaneous when brought my sights back eye level. There I saw, across the street, the dark grey car with tinted windows and shiny silver wheels that seemed cleaner than my apartment as it reflected the street light.

He was there, hands in his pockets, leaned back on the side of his million dollar car.

We made eye contact and he raised a hand at me.

A hand? What was I supposed to do with that?

My brows furrow involuntarily.

I nearly choke when he straightens his stance and asks, "do you need a ride?"

Do I need a ride?

Wow.

Do. I. Need. A. Ride?

From. Him?

How could he ask me that?

I grip my things and ready to leave, but-

Oh crap, he was walking towards me.

My entire body was burning to run, damn, my brain was yelling furiously to run. But it was like I was stuck in a conundrum of unfathomable cause and I was frozen in place, unwitting, completely helpless.

Suddenly, he was in front of me, looking down at my form as if I was a pathetic juvenile incapable of doing something so simple.

His smooth skin was offensive to me, and so was his too familiar cologne that made my stomach drop for far too many different reasons that I should work on nullifying.

Jisoo corrects himself, "let me give you a ride."

I look at him. He watches me. He then moves even closer, to get the bags in my hand. That seemed to be the only point I had the will to move. It was the tipping point for my reason to return.

I pull back and quickly retort, "no."

Jisoo halts as I recoil from him and give him a look.

It was then I have the spine to gather myself and walk past him.

I am foolishly held back by his question, "why not?"

I clench my jaw and turn to him, blinking far too much, "I feel like I can't breath when I'm around you."

For the second time, Jisoo corrects himself, "please, let me drive you home."

I turn away from him, shaking my head, "what are you even doing here?"

He moves back in front of me, digging his hands back into his pocket, "they have a chip here that isn't available anywhere else."

I snort. I don't believe him.

"Believe me, I've looked."

His sentiment makes me realize that I've been awake for 20 hours and my head feels like it was about to fall off. It made me recall how obsessive he could get about his ideas or when he liked something, how he literally bought two industrial boxes of candy that I introduced him to because he enjoyed it so much.

I involuntarily yawned, eyes misting. I felt like dropping down and crying and sleeping right this moment. Now that I was faced with the option of not walking, I didn't want to walk at all.

But then my misty eyes were cleared by the image of his face, with the very soft features that tore me to pieces.

"I'll let you drive me if you promise not to come back here."

He was surprised by this. I was too tired to care or explain.

We both new he had absolutely no reason to even go do something as trivial as shopping for groceries since his literal assistants had assistants.

And yet here he was, shocked by my softly spoken demand.

"Okay."

I blink at him with tired eyes and make my way to his car.

In no time at all, Jisoo was driving me back home. I really didn't want to, but I easily fell asleep on the passenger side since the smell and feel as so familiar, and again, I was about to pass out. It helped that I felt kind of warm as I hugged my bags in my arms.

Josh had always been a good driver. There were times were I would doze of and kind of surprise myself when I woke, that I was actually in a car and not on in a chair at home.

But then I shot awake and yelped when the car suddenly halted and Jisoo barked profanities as he honked at someone caught in his headlights.

He quickly brings the window down and screams, "HEY, GET OUT OF THE ROAD!"

The evidently drunk dude raises the can in his hand and nods, scurrying off the road.

Jisoo sighs and closes the window, continuing his route. He turns to me with a pinched expression, "sorry about that. Go back to sleep."

I shake my head, "it's okay. I'm glad you didn't give him a ticket to the ER."

"The bastard might give himself one though," he clicks his tongue.

For a while, there was only the sound of the car in the atmosphere. I appreciated it, though there was tension.

When we reach a red light, Joshua pulls up the break and leans back. I look to to the window to my right.

"Do you still work the same times?"

I freeze.

"You don't have a shift tomorrow, right?"

Why is he talking to me?

"They replaced that microwave in the pantry, I would assume."

I turn to him and nod.

He turns to me just then, nodding back, "Dr. Lee would appreciate it-- or, maybe she hasn't seen it yet, since she might have already given birth."

What are you doing, Jisoo?

Stop it.

He sighs, placing his hands on his steering wheel, "you didn't answer my previous question."

I knit my brows and shake my head, "I don't have work."

"Good. You look exhausted."

"Thanks."

He doesn't respond.

I turn back to my right, letting a moment pass. I continue, "for the ride. Thanks. For driving me home."

He turns to me and opens his mouth, silent for a second, "I don't know what else I can do."

I knit my brows, holding back a laugh, But I can't help but chuckle in a way that sounds empty and pathetic in my ears.

For some reason, he goes on and says, "I really did want those chips."

I finally turn back to him and see him looking at me. "I didn't say you didn't."

Joshua's face hardens, "well you asked me not to come back there."

I chuckle again, "what else did you expect?"

He doesn't answer, as the red light turns green.

I get it. I really did. As much as I had things on my mind, he had things on his. But it was completely uncalled for and unfair of him to say this in his car as he's driven me home and pulled up in front of my apartment.

In the silence, I decide to just turn for the door and leave.

"Maybe I shouldn't have met you," he muttered, I think to himself as I was about to go, but it wasn't soft enough. I heard him, and it stabbed through my aching heart like a burning dagger.

I turn to him, dumbfounded, even more awake that I was a while ago. My eyes were suddenly brimming with tears that began to fall without my consent.

"What?" I whisper brokenly.

Joshua turns from his lap to me in bewilderment. In this moment he sees me crying, he's realized what he's done. His own eyes begin to water, and yet he persists, "if it were my choice, I never would have approached you."

I scoff, feeling my chest unimaginably tighten, "except it was."

"I talked to you for Jeonghan."

"Yes, and you kept talking to me!" I whine. I sniffled and wiped my hears with my wrist, "you gave me your card, which I never called, and went to my favorite milk tea house."

Jisoo turns away.

I chuckle in disbelief and shake my head, gripping my things and turning to the door, "I'm tired of cleaning up your messes."

"You are so naïve," he mutters lowly.

"How am I naïve huh? You liked me just as much as I liked you!" I snap back. "Don't pretend like this is my fault."

Jisoo turns back, his own tears were streaming down his face, "so it's my fault?"

"No!" I quip, "it's no one's fault!" I groan, "it's everyone's fault! It's," I break into a sob, "it's how it is..."

And how exactly was it?

It was this. How he had a car that could buy me my dream house. How his shoes cost more than my rent. How I refused to buy new shoes though these cheap, fake crocks were about to say goodbye because my mom brought it for me. How his friends became my friends because of how often I meet them, and how lonely I felt after we broke up because I realized I centered my world around him.

How he thought minimum wage and contractualization was fair. How he argued healthcare couldn't possibly be free.

He was kind and caring and romantic, but he was calculating and very clear that I was always going to be second to his career. All the dates for his work events came easy to him. He knew exactly what date it was because of it, and yet he would never seem to find it in him to recall that I asked him to pick up something for me, or that we were supposed to spend the night together.

"My mother was right about you," he said. I nearly vomited at the idea of that wretched woman who hated me for being with his beloved son. I felt betrayed because after all the time I've spent with him, defending him from his own mother that even he could never seem to satisfy, he was taking her side.

He took another jab, right in the jugular, "you really would ruin my life."

I scoff and chuckle dryly, "so far, you have only proven me right." I unbuckle my seatbelt and open the door, "forget it. Just like you forget everything else."

"Wai-"

I step out of the car and give him one last look, "I hope one day you love someone who isn't as worthless as me."

I slam the door and shiver as the cold creeps up my spine.

Joshua watches helplessly as he watches what looked like a lifeless body walking away. He groans in frustration and slams his hands on the steering wheel, accidentally honking the horn, making the walking figure jolt.

He freezes when he realizes his nth mistake of the night.

He breaks into a long string of profanities and shakes his head, nothing but denial leaving his lips, "it was never supposed to be this way."

He wants to jump out of his car and run after what he had been crying about for days, but he let the emotions he bottled up get the best of him tonight, and now he's said everything that's on the tip of his tongue without the proper context.

He is defeated and resentful of no one but himself, "I don't think you're worthless. Why would you tell yourself that?"

[snsdconfessions]

Maybe Taeyeon actually thinking about Tiffany after her departure while driving and that’s the reason for her accident.