#tbh i'm sure i will get back to it and try redoing it in the future

[wixhing0nastar]

Okay, so I'm thinking about where Arcane's second season is going to go, specifically in terms of what's happening with Vi and Caitlyn, and I've got some thoughts about how the first two acts might play out.

This is largely based of the scenes from the trailer, which are all likely from the first act/first three episodes of the season, plus what we know about Vi leaving (again) and having her angsty goth phase during (I believe) the second act... plus I'm a league player and Caitlyn is one of my mains, so I know lore-wise where her and Vi's relationship goes.

Specifically, that of all the relationships in the show (romantic or otherwise) they're the only one we know gets a good/happy ending... most of the other ones get at best a lukewarm ending if not an outright tragic one.

So we know in the first act it looks like Caitlyn and Vi, along with a small team, are going into the Undercity to try to apprehend Jinx. This post actually did a really good job of picking out some of the details about how that's all going to go down, but I remember reading it over the first time and then wondering to myself how do we go from Caitlyn getting hurt and looking haggard from the fight to Vi up and leaving again?

And then I realized there's a component I've seen a lot of people forget about when trying to theorize about this... and that's Warwick's existence, aka: Vander's reanimated corpse.

An interesting fact about Warwick, part of his thing in canon is that he's attracted to/can smell Shimmer and attacks people who've been using it... like Jinx and Vi (remember the cure Caitlyn had to get for her stab wound... the one that had a drop of Shimmer in it?)

I think that things are going to go wrong because Warwick/Vander shows up on the scene and attacks everyone, specifically focusing on Vi and Jinx since they're the ones with Shimmer in their systems...

And I think that at least Vi (and probably Jinx) is going to see him and put the pieces together and realize what Singed did to him and that's going to cause Vi to have a bit of a psychotic break just like Jinx did.

Because while Jinx is the obvious one with mental health issues, Vi's also clearly got her own issues. While they were caused in part by blood loss, Vi has also had hallucinations and seen things that weren't there (Powder, their mom, Vander, and we know in this upcoming season; Caitlyn). 

And I think that Caitlyn is going to be struggling with her own grief after her mother's death and the weight of trying to keep everyone safe now that she's sheriff that she's not going to realize what's going on with Vi at first and she's too emotionally exhausted to keep trying to fight Vi and get her to stay (we mostly talk about the not breakup in the rain, but there were actually four separate times in the first season Vi tried to leave Caitlyn behind).

And that's the first act, paralleling the end of season one's first act where Vi's separated from her loved one. Then the second act starts, continuing to parallel the first season we have Caitlyn doing work and investigating and then something happens, too many variables to be certain, and she ends up chasing Vi down anyway.

And it's a pseudo redo of Vi (and Caitlyn) trying fo find Powder in the first season, only now it's Caitlyn looking for Vi who's hurt and upset and alone... and then we get a parallel reunion scene (with a possible heartbreaking "are you real" from Vi this time since we know she's hallucinating Caitlyn) and then Caitlyn drags Vi back topside to see a doctor and get the help she needs... no idea what's in store for act three though, total mystery there tbh...

But while I know the show has a unhappy ending, it's important to remember that the show itself isn't actually about Vi and Caitlyn's relationship (though it's a large part of it). It's about Vi and Jinx's relationship, it's their origin story after all, one that we know for sure ends in tragedy... while Vi and Caitlyn's doesn't... which gives me hope in that regard at least.

[suokumi]

After three days of work, I was finally able to finish this reference

This is my interpretation of Narinder's scythe from "The Rehabilitation of Death" by @bamsara

the process is under the cut

the description is taken from the fifth chapter of trod, the art used as a reference is by BamSara

the art used as a reference is by BamSara

the art used as a reference is by BamSara

the symbol work still needs more research that I will do later, as I couldn't find enough references online, I will take my sweet time gathering all symbols from the game myself another time

[bonefall]

Sketch Dump 3

Doodles from a class notebook, just making some thumbnails for some of the Bonefall concepts. Exploring traits I'd like to see and considering what works and what doesn't.

Today's characters are Russetfur, a bunch of Tigerkin, Blackstar, Firestar, a little bit of Snowfur and Whitestorm, a little bit of Redtail and Runningwing, Rosetail, and Thistleclaw. Plus the Dark Forest guys Fenneldust and Batear. As a treat.

I started off with Russet. I love her a ton, I wanted her to look kinda like an old lesbian who was the bouncer at a gay bar in her youth. Women should have thick eyebrows more often tbh.

I'm not sure if I'll keep the moustache or not, thinking about it. I think I like the smooth muzzle more, with some chin whiskers

Gorseclaw, the progenitor of the ThunderClan Tigerkin family, and his grandson Oakstar! Still working on what the "family trait" is besides long claws.

I shaded in the sclera to see if it sticks, but I may walk back on it to use it for the Dark Forest.

Up in the corner is Birchface, below him is Tawnypelt, and next to her is Brambleclaw. Tawnypelt's arm is brown and Brambleclaw's arm is golden. Mismatched sleeves.

Mr Executioner Blackstar, with his hood slowly being eroded away. You can't see his pupils until the white creeps up over it, around the time he's earned Life 2

Bonefall Firestar omg I love your work can you autograph me

I don't know if his scar is coming off like a mayoral sash but lord I'm trying

So I initially thought I'd just have Snowfur being a bluepoint wolf, but, then I had the haunting idea to make her kinda look like she was wearing a white wolf's pelt. Like she's pretending to be a wolf and covering up what she really is; a kind of huntER aesthetic.

And Whitestorm looks a lot like his dad but less sharp, more prickly.

I'm not satisfied with these yet though, I'm going to redo them a couple times

Tried another way to draw Redtail. A bit more serious-looking. Bonus Runningwind.

Draft 1 Thistleclaw and Draft 1 Rosetail!! Rosey has the same tail as Redtail and Squirrelflight. I also tossed a bone face onto her like her daughter Spottedleaf, to balance out her colors a bit. I'm happy with this one

However I was NOT happy with this Thistleclaw. He reminds me of Finchflight, too thick, too splotchy, looks like he has a shadowstache

I made him look more like Rosetail in this one and I'm happier with it. I like how they both kinda feel like sharp plants.

Aaaand now I'm satisfied. White face works a lot better, kind of a scruffy, sharp look with a beard.

Dark Forest Dudes

I imagine Batear is SUPER gay for some reason. He also thinks Firestar is incredibly attractive and wants his cat autograph, but I don't know what Batear did in life.

He's definitely not going to get any story in canon since he was only named in an author chat, so I'm happy to make up a backstory for him.

As for Fenneldust I have a fondness for fennel lmao. I like her name. I want to make a running joke that she dies a LOT, keeps getting used to demonstrate killing moves and stomped on by various Dark Forest entities lmao.

She definitely keeps trying to catch Shrewpaw's Pheasant.

[weebsinstash]

I saw one of post about Valentino and I was think that even though he has social media account but I think he would hate memes unless it hasvsomething sexual with it.

So seeing reader in lingerie, and forcing them to do that sad cat dancing meme with cat ear/tail and either post on his account or blackmail them not to post it.

I'm sorry your getting harrased by the kiddies and trying guilt trip you on someone else's actions,/consequences

Sometimes I think of kind of specific scenarios to write or at least share and I'm never sure what to post because I still kind of cringe at myself all the time lol

I've actually thought about social media stuff w Val like, quietly stalking all your photos or posts to see what you're up to when you're not around him, and I've also thought of the juicy possibility of like, what if this account was intended to be secret so you have a lot of personal stuff on there, ranging from you meeting up with friends to wearing cute outfits to hang out. It's such a deeper more candid and personal look into your life and things about you that he didn't know before and he's creepin for sure, maybe even creating another account to save and like all your posts in secret, or just screenshotting things

(Tbh an idea I keep having is, since he's a pimp that works in the adult film industry, he clearly isn't shy about watching others 'perform' and things like that, so imagine as a yandere he's of course one of those that saves tons of photos of you, and they don't even have to be sexual, although those are his favorites. Like imagine the Reader from the hidden camera room idea a while back just stumbling on to like Val's phone left open or a drawer of a desk in his office open when you go to drop off rent or he takes you to his house briefly to wait on him while he grabs sometjing he forgot and you stumble into like a closet with like a photo shrine on the wall, and this is how you find out 1) oh hes crazy and 2) there are cameras in your room)

Although that being said i constantly flip flop between "Valentino would happily watch other people wreck your holes for either punishment or his entertainment and or profit" versus "he's too possessive to stand sharing you either anyone else" and really, isn't both good. I've honestly been meaning to redo my fic Pet because I didn't like the end result and I like the idea of him using a leash. Because he's so tall he can't exactly pull you by the arm so a leash can pull you around and humiliate you, he probably has a fetish for that and seeing you all teary eyed and embarrassed 😩❤️

If he's openly following you he never likes or interacts with anything you post unless it's to mock or tease you in some way, like you'll post something about a thing you like and he'll just comment 'cringe' or something vaguely similar, kind of like how he speaks to Vox tbh. I also think of "what if Valentino forces you to spend time with him and it kind of backfires on him because you get along with Vox really well and makes him jealous" or it becomes some weird poly scenario where he is kind of excluded (at least by you, or maybe you hate both of them, friends with Vox initially but enemies after he turns on you and decides he wante you as more than a friend and is just as forceful as his boyfriend)

Like one idea I've had repeatedly is, Reader is doing her thing where she's kind of having to wait on the big boss hand and foot, and Vox is in a poor mood glued to his phone playing a phone game because there's a special event going on and it's gonna end soon and he wants all the loot, and at some point Val is taking a phonecall and Vox looks over and you're finally getting to sit down and, your phone makes a sudden sound effect and he KNOWS that sound, you're playing the exact same game. Valentino comes back and you're both just kind of shoulder to shoulder to show each other your phones and compare teams and equipment, i think its be neat if you both had some sort of unit or character or component the other was missing and thus have an incentive to okay together and just a cute coincidence, maybe you're even getting some tips from the self proclaimed master of media that you didn't know before.

I also still like the idea of "Val goes through your shit and sees your lingerie/walks in on you wearing lingerie" and he decides "oh thats some kid bullshit, let me show you some REAL hot girl shit" and suddenly you're being pressured/forced into wearing like, garters, crotchless panties, thin see through material that he can rip his long fingers through

Another idea is. Imagine Reader just being kind of the errand girl/personal assistant to him, and one day he's on a set and the main actress is late, and you know how he is with his money. He's got all these actors and camera crew paid for their time and they're missing the main lead? And then in walks you with Vals coffee or some benign shit he asked for and, a little voice in his head is like, hm, you're cute, you're around the same body type as the girl who was supposed to show up. Maybe they should just... switch genres a little, do some improv, amd work with what has been provided to them...

Also what if Val deliberately gave you like high end mascara that wasn't waterproof so that when he makes you cry or you cry while getting fucked you just have those big black tear stains. He's probably freaky like that, wanting lipstick rings on his dick n shit while taunting you and telling you you're a mess 😩❤️

[kailimepi]

Musing on bg3 mods and learning styles/requirements

Okay. I've spent the requisite hours browsing tumblr and ruminating on gender this morning. Now its time to work. Back to operation: Lythira's custom face/head. Gonna have to redo it from the start today but I managed to get an elf head onto a tiefling body and give it some cute spikey ears last night so I think now at least I've got some of the basics of this part of process down. It only took the better part of 8+hours, some tears and temper tantrums, and wanting to give up and never look at it again like half a dozen times to get the first couple of steps figured out(sort of). Real talk tho: the tutorials, guides, resources, etc for this are so very frustrating FOR ME. They're full of wonderful information from very smart, generous humans who're doing all this for free and I'm so incredibly grateful. However, the way they're laid out, the way folks just gesture vaguely to their general direction with a "these tutorials are wonderful and all you need and this is how everyone else figured it out so you should be able to too", the lack of a step by step-hold your hand through every single click and button press and explain every tiny detail as we go through the full thing is PAIN for me. I know I probably sound stupid to others to need that level of care but meh. Its not something I can help so oh well. And its NO ONES FAULT! I am not mad at them about it. I am not dunking on the people who've created and shared these things AT ALL. Again - I AM EXTREMELY GRATEFUL! THEY ARE FUCKING AMAZING! TRULY! It's just not the best FOR ME. I am struggling because of my own funky little processing center. My own special brand of fucking adhd bullshit. Which tbh is a whole thing in itself. I cried the first night I started trying to understand all of this because I realized just how hard it was going to be for me to make sense of any of it in a meaningful way. Got up from my desk after desperately trying to focus and understand for several hours and seeing the comments of "just follow this. just do this. just watch this first." that pointed to things that were equally as unhelpful to me and just crawled in bed feeling stupid and childish and defeated. If not for my husband's encouragement the next day when I was talking to him about my frustration, and his reminder that he's got some knowledge of what I'm doing and he'd always help me because he knows how my brain works, I never would have tried again I don't think. There may be what I'm looking for out there somewhere and I just haven't found it yet for sure. But man I've been looking. Anyway, I think because I love teaching, once I get it all figured out well enough that I'm comfortable sharing what I know, I might write up a guide in the language and style that I would have needed. I did something like it for my eye color presets that I plan on fleshing out more and sharing eventually. I've done it with plenty of other stuff in other games as well. It wouldn't be hard with the notes I take as I learn. Just take some time and lord knows I've got lots of that to spare. If it helps one other person who's like me and isn't a fan of everything mostly being video tutorials and prefers to be given every single step in order with lots of detail and explanation, then the time will be well spent.

[darkinerry]

Hi i’m a gif maker and i’m always trying to improve them but coloring is something i always struggle on. like i have no idea where to really start tbh. i saw you’re ofmd gif coloring post and just wanted to know if you’d be willing to share any tips and beginner level stuff on the color adjustment side of gif making?

Hello dear Anon :)

Hmm, well, I am by no means a pro at this, but sure, I can tell you what I know - or, at least, the way I do the colouring :) (I will assume you use Photoshop for your gifs?)

✨ Personally, I like to start by playing with the light -that is, brightening up the gif and enhancing the light & dark spaces -; and for that I use these adjustment layers:

levels (especially this one)

curves

brightness/contrast

And I just move the sliders/values this way and that, until I like the way the light in the gif looks.

Even with just the Levels themselves, the light in the image/clip can be enhanced nicely, like here:

I also use all three of these adjustment layers together in a gif- since they all work nicely with each other :).

✨ For the colouring itself, my main to go adjustments are:

Selective Color (that's my main one)

Color Balance

For them, -I don't know if it's a tip, but it's something I like to do ^^, and that is -> I create a new layer for every color (or tone type, with Color Balance): so I end up having several Selective Color & several Color Balance adjustment layers, each with only one color adjusted/changed. (Another thing I do, I put all adjustment layers into a group [or few groups]; so that I can toggle it off/on en masse and quickly see what effect I'm accomplishing).

And for adjusting the Selective Color and Color Balance, I will play with the sliders, one color at a time/per adjustment layer- ; move every slider to the left and to the right, several times, until I decide 'okay that looks good'. (And you can nicely bring out the colour with these effects)

✨ Hmm I'd also advice to move sliders slowly and bit by bit; both for the light effects and color effects. Moving them too fast/too far, makes you hit extremes quickly and ruins how the gif looks.

✨ I also redo the layers all the time, fiddling with the sliders, toggling layers on/off, just trying to get a feel for the image and which effects on it I like; so, I guess, my tip is:

don't be afraid to go back to previously added adjustment layers and change them or to move layers around or turn effects off -or to add several of the same adjustment layer type -> sometimes that's what works, having a few layers of the same type but with different settings on them.

✨ Also, before I even start adding adjustment layers, I use the option on the timeline called "Convert to Video Timeline", then I select all layers in the layer window/panel on the right, and right click the option Convert to Smart Object. That way when I add adjustment layers, I can just move cursor over the timeline, and see how the colouring looks at any point in the gif. :)

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I don't know if that helps you? I feel like all I said is, add adjustment layers and fiddle with the sliders until you like how the image/gif looks; but that's how I do it 🤷‍♀️ Others may have different methods 🙃 (I also do additional colouring in Sony Vegas, but that's a whole different thing, and it's not a requirement for gif colouring ^^.)

Here's the adjustment layers on one of my Ed gifs. As you can see, there's no logic or reason to it, just a mess of interspersed light and color adjustments. But in the end that's what worked for that gif 🙃

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(If someone has different or better tips, feel free to chime in ��🙂)

[versary]

so the workouts for the individual quarterfinals were released today and this year there are four workouts and we have a slightly longer window in which to do them and submit our scores (leaving the door open for redos, which historically there hasn't been time before unless you were willing to Hurt, e.g., i had to redo one last year because we messed up the rep scheme and fortunately it was a good one for me so the repercussions weren't that bad but i was still a bit cooked). today i did workouts 3 and 4 which are the one's i'll do the best in so i thought it would be good for me to to do them while i'm fresh and feeling good.

workout 3 was the only one i was initially excited about - i am very good at handstand push ups. my goal was to get to the chest-to-wall HSPU and try to get 1-2 reps there. i was worried about the toes to bar and rope climbs - i am good at them but pulling is a comparatively weaker movement for me (i can press all day babey) - so i went unbroken on the HSPU, broke up the t2b and made sure i took enough rest, and finished the first part in 4:50. i did the strict HSPU in 3 sets (4-3-3) and was measured on the rope climbs (ouch) and got back to the wall at 14:05 which, by the time i was like good to go, gave me about 40 seconds for chest-to-wall HSPU and i knocked out 7 in one big set and then rolled down. stoked. absolute dream performance for me. i had THEE dirtiest lat/bicep/shoulder pump afterwards - couldn't bend my elbow for about half an hour haha. i was so happy!

had a delicious coffee and then did workout 4:

this i was originally not excited about... the first two weights are fine for me, but 70 kg is my 1RM clean & jerk - i'd actually only jerked it twice before, once as a clean & jerk and once as single off the blocks. i was worried that i'd get to that weight and then get stopped. BUT i have been WORKING recently: if i can do this complex at 67.5 kg there's no reason why i shouldn't be able to get singles at 70. so i warmed up, did one single at 65, and then started. did the 38s as 6-4 in 0:53, did the 56s as quick singles and finished at 3:42 which left me heaps more time than i expected, so rested my minute and then in the last 5 minutes i worked my way through six (6) pretty easy singles at 70, which is way more than i expected! i've never EVER been able to hit that weight consistently, and to be able to power clean and essentially push jerk it (i was doing these weird fucked up split jerks) in a workout after already do so many reps is really a testament to a) the training i've been doing, and b) the change in mindset i've had which has lead to increased consistency and confidence at those heavier weights. i was PUMPED. i'm still riding that high tbh!!

i'll do workout 2 tomorrow and then 1 on saturday and then that'll be it for another year! 🥹

[eaglefairy]

I think, at some point earlier in this liveblog, I said that I've never played a game that felt so dedicated to making me dislike it while I'm trying to enjoy it, and however many hours later I am into x*noblade 2, this is still 100% true.

I think the worst part for me is that it's not just the gameplay or just the story/worldbuilding/etc I have problems with. It's both. The map and the menus are both far worse and less navigable than the first game (I'm about to redo my equipment soon and I am dreading that), and everything is so horribly explained that I genuinely gave up during chapter 3 on my first playthrough. (To be fair, this game at launch had a lot more issues than it does now, and a lot of things got fixed with the dlc and patches. Speaking of which...)

I sincerely dislike nearly every single aspect of the blade system. It was DEFINITELY one of the main things that made me drop this game back in 2017. I was failing constantly in battle because I didn't know what I was doing, so naturally I wanted to get more blades. But it was Gormott in chapter 2: the only option available to me was the gacha. But again: 2017, so I didn't have access to all the crystals in the DLC, so I could barely summon any blades! Not to mention how the game completely betrays you, the player, by giving you Tora as the third party member when he can only equip the Poppis. One thing that is crystal clear is that the core gameplay loop of this game is built around chain attacks (which aren't unlocked until chapter 3, by the way). This game's combat is at its best when every Driver is equipped with 3 blades, and that is literally impossible for Tora until over halfway into the game! Not to mention Tiger Tiger, which is a minigame from hell (and didn't have easy mode at launch, just saying).

Oh, but that's only the gameplay aspect! There's still blade designs and lore to talk about! Blade designs...okay. listen. I don't like how a lot of the blades look, I will say that upfront, and it is because of the designs of the female blades being so sexualized. However, that isn't actually my only problem with Blade designs. Honestly, I'm more disappointed that there aren't more cool animal blades. Like, we got Dromarch! And that's about it. There are some other monstery rare blades like Wulfric and Boreas, but the vast majority are just Hot Anime Tiddie Women and frankly I feel like that's a failure of imagination. And blade lore. I know I've said this a lot before, I'm waiting to say my full piece on this until I have full context, but the pieces I have are not looking good. (Thinking about how the first thing the party asks Vess when they meet her is "Where's your Driver?" still eats at me tbh.) Bonus points for synergizing in the worst possible way with the gacha mechanic: one of the thematic cores of this game is that blades are people and not just weapons of mass destruction, which is why I've summoned and discarded at least 100 of them in the past few days trying to get the specific one I want to optimize my build. As for the combat, I will give it this: I have warmed up to it significantly over time. Now that I know how pouch items work, what the intended flow of combat is, and have enough blades on my characters that I can always switch to have new arts refreshed, I'm enjoying it a lot more. That doesn't mean it doesn't have problems, though! I feel like Torna really encapsulates what this game's combat should've been; I had much more fun playing through that than I did the base game, for sure. Even though the way they did chain attacks in this game is fun and interesting, it just takes way too long. For context, chain attacks are extended by breaking element orbs that you've placed on the enemy in preparation. Element orbs are placed on the enemy by completing combos, which require 3 special attacks done in a specific order of elements to complete. There are 8 elements in the game, which means if you want to use chain attacks to their fullest extent, you have to do 24 special attacks. In order. While relying on the AI to pull up the blades you need on the party members you aren't controlling. This means that a lot of unique monsters and bosses have these oceans of HP to slog through because they need that much HP to just survive to the point where you can do a chain attack. Regular enemies thankfully don't suffer from the same HP problem, but they have a different problem (that crops up in 3 as well). Chain attacks just...aren't useful to fight them, the most common enemies in the game. Chain attacks may have been unreliable in 1, but when the enemy being targeted died the chain attack would swap to focus on a different enemy. This gave them utility against both bosses and packs of regular enemies. They don't do that in either of the following games, meaning that for a lot of battles that are challenging in a different way from singular tough enemies, one of your strongest strategies is almost useless.

Edit: forgot about this while I was writing but came back to say: my brain is not big enough to account for both driver combos AND blade combos. It just isn't, that or I just don't have the willpower to sort through everything to make sure I have at least one blade of every element AND at least one of break, topple, launch, and smash on all my characters. It's not happening. Will my gameplay experience suffer for it? I don't know! Just add it to the list of mechanics in this series I don't fully understand and we'll be good.

As for everything else...I don't know, man. The pacing is slow and bored me to tears in the beginning, the main villains are either very interesting or very annoying, I want to punt Tora into the sun at all times (and not in the vaguely affectionate way I feel about Issun in Okami), and the game is addicted to splitting the party all the time when frankly it should know that its at its best when there are 3 members with 3 blades who can do chain attacks. Honestly, I think my feelings on the game can be summed up by the words of many other people. People who, when asked if x*noblade 2 is worth it, tell the asker "it has a slow beginning but it gets good starting in chapter 5." Which is true, but...the game only has 10 chapters. That's not just a slow beginning, that's literally the whole first half of the game that you're writing off!

[dzpenumbra]

4/27/23

Okay so... I got to bed at around 2:30. And I struggled to get to sleep pretty bad. Like, tossing and turning and not able to actually fall asleep. I got there eventually, but was woken up by the sound of some really loud appliance, I still have no idea what it was or where it was coming from. This sound was at 5:50 AM. And I was supposed to be up for my apartment inspection at 9. I had an alarm set and everything.

I laid there for - no exaggeration - 2.5 hours trying to fall asleep again. No phone, no apps, just laying in bed with my eyes closed, trying to fall asleep. Doing breathing exercises, doing body relaxation techniques, visualization techniques, you name it. Everything I've learned over like 15 years of studying sleep hygiene techniques. And I just gave up and got up at like 8:30.

The guy showed up for the inspection at like 9:30, it was super quick, just an electrical inspection or something. He even gave me compliments about how clean my place was, which blew my mind. I started on a new abstract drawing, I'm gonna work on it more and I'll post it when it's done.

I went to take a nap around... fuck man, I don't even know. The whole day has been a huge blur, unfortunately. Temporally, at least. I put in the earbuds and put on some binaural beat thing for a 90 minute nap and... same problem. I "forgot" how to fall asleep. I've gotten this before, and it's like... it's a fucking torturous feeling. Being absolutely utterly exhausted... and not being able to fall asleep. And not knowing why, not knowing what you're doing wrong.

I napped successfully, though, and had some of the most intense dreams I've had in a long fuckin time. It was surreally like... norse-age, with these weird mutated people that were cutting off a water supply or something? I have no clue and that probably sounds ridiculous, but this dream was legit one of the most vivid I've had in ages. The colors, the sounds, the imagery; so memorable. I might try fucking with that binaural stuff to see if I can amplify how vivid my dreams get. You know... intentionally... like when I want it to happen.

I woke up at like... 2, I think? My car reservation was at 1, but was until 5. I made sure to book a big window just in case something like this happened, I just didn't expect it to be... like 4 hours of sleep total.

And I looked up like... more sleep techniques and the shit I was doing was literally what they train for people in the military who need to sleep while sitting up and shit. And it didn't fucking work. And it said on there, this might not work with people who have ADHD and/or anxiety issues. Welp, there ya go...

I showered and said fuck it and went. The walk to the car alone had my shins fuckin throbbing. I speed-walk a bit too much when I walk around the city, I'm just... 1). not used to urban environments and they still make me feel unsafe, and 2). not used to walking in shoes, tbh.

But that was remedied (and reminded, which is why I even noticed the speed-walking) by finally getting back into nature.

A quick stop at Walgreens first, to get the steroid cream the doctor prescribed me... a month ago... And they had to redo it, because of how long it took me to get there. XD So I sat there nodding off for like... 20 minutes...

But then I went to the park. And I got to hike barefoot again, and it was such an at-home feeling. I was out there until like 6. I think it was a total of about 3 miles of walking? I explored a bunch, they had some cool constructions like staircases and bridges and shit, very well-made stuff. There was even a beach right on the lake, it was very pretty and peaceful. I found some rocks that I brought home, I'm going to try to clean them up and see how they come out. There was a decent amount of sandstone there, which is actually pretty cool because it's super soft, so it's easy to carve. I'm going to see what working with it is like and then go from there, if I feel like trying to source more. It's cool how different the types of stone are around here.

For real, just being out in the woods alone, no music, no distractions, just me and nature, bare feet on the ground, wind on the skin, it was great. I missed it a lot. It's like... the polar opposite of how I feel when I'm in the city... XD

Driving wasn't as nerve-wracking as I thought. It was fine. Got the car back half an hour early, ordered a pizza. The car did cost a total of $50 for it being mine from 1-7... (I added 2 hours and I'm glad I did) which is like... ugh... But when you consider I never actually drive anywhere and compare that to buying a car, or paying lease payments? It ain't bad, especially when I don't even pay for gas.

So yeah, those earplugs I ordered were delivered this afternoon. Talk about fucking timing... -_- I'm gonna try them tonight. Like I said a few nights ago, I don't have to listen out for pets anymore, so... fuck it. Hope they work for me, I think if I can sleep with AirPods in, I should be able to sleep with earplugs in okay.

Definitely bed time. I can barely keep my eyes open.

[summerroseart]

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I'm so mad rn

My sister asked me to design a tattoo for her when I was 16. I did it, but I was still pretty inexperienced with anatomy and I could tell even then that it wouldn't make for a good permanent art piece. I told her I wanted to do it again when my skills were better.

Two years later, I go ahead and try again, digitally bc it gives steadier lines and I can adjust it etc. Turns out okay, but she didn't like it bc it was more detailed. Okay, don't feel like drawing it again bc I spent like 10 hours on it. But tell her she can let a tattoo artist take creative liberty or I can redo it sometime or whatever. Looking back it wasn't great, so that's fine actually.

I'm 21 now, fairly happy with my art skills and she again brings up the tattoo, saying she still likes the one from when I was 16 and wants to get it done before April bc she's getting married. I tell her I'll get the new FINAL one done, bc I still don't feel like doing it again. Takes me about 6ish hours, it's just linework, no shading, but i did vary the wight a bit to give depth, and I send it to her.

Yesterday she tells me she's at a shop and wants to get it cost/time evaluated. Cool. Resend her the design.

APPARENTLY the printer at the tattoo artist's shop didn't pick up all the details and so the guy had to hand cut the stencil. Not a problem if the dude is skilled but tbh that would've put me off for a bit. "Maybe this is a sign I should wait, yk?"

Now yes, some of the details were pretty narrow. I know that doesn't work great for smaller/midsize tattoos, so had I considered the artist she chose would have very low skill, I would've told her to have me make adjustments to the line weight so it was more uniform.

But I'm so pissed. the lines are ALL wobbly, the face is completely wack, the hair looks weird, and several details are uneven. It LOOKS LIKE THE ONE I DID WHEN I WAS 16, ONLY I KNOW FOR A FACT THIS GUY WAS USING THE NEW DESIGN.

My sister seems happy with it- she doesn't seem like she really cares too much about artistic skill level- so i haven't said anything negative to her, but I feel like crying bc I did put that much effort into it only for this guy's skill to not reflect it at all. I'm gonna need to make sure our parents see what I actually drew so I don't get blamed for this shit.

[sevilemar]

I admired my Ma a lot ( I still do) but I realized pretty quickly that we were different. I don't have the social skills or connections that my Mom does though I managed to be really hard working. It harder for me to connect with people and my Mom and Dad really emphasized that I needed to work on my social skills. I kind of had to 'train' myself to become more social. For example one Summer whenever I ran I would say hi to everyone I met on my run. Now its like second nature and I'll even wave at cars. I had to train myself to initiate or engage in conversation because otherwise I won't. I did do a work around though where I just keep asking the other person questions and I don't really have to talk. I'm really good at coming up with questions because I'm a naturally inquisitive person. I sometimes ask too many so my family (including my Mom) will limit the amount of questions I can ask. She always kind of made me feel like I did tasks or things the 'wrong way'. Like if I cleaned the dishes she would look them over and put them back in the water. It's caused me to not really want to help out unless she asks for something specific. I'll hover nearby in case she needs me to get something, but I won't initiate which upsets her. I like it when I can learn and do things alone because I feel like i can do them the way I want and won't be judged. My Mom provided for the family and made sure we had the practical stuff but I felt wasn't really there emotionally? She doesn't really see a need to like TELL us she loves us when she shows it. However since one of my main love languages is words I do need it. I tried telling her that but it always ends up with us being frustrated. I feel like she's more forthcoming in her verbal affection with my Dad and Brother though. I joke that she has a number one, two and three in the house and she doesn't find that funny. She doesn't seem very interested hearing about my interests. Or if she did listen it would be for a limited amount of time. So I had to get out as much as I can before I was shut down. She does try sometimes to ask but it never feels genuine after all those times of shutting me down. My Mom's still probably the one in the house I'm most connected to though, but still

Oh man, I feel ya on the training yourself to do human interactions. I would much rather sit in a tree reading a book as a kid, than be on the ground and potentially having to talk to another person. Still prefer that, actually, minus the tree. My aging body does not react well to sitting in trees for hours anymore. When I went to summer camps or on school trips, the letters my mum hid in my luggage always included an encouragement to go out and connect with people, and not hide behind a book so much.

I think overall it was a good thing. I was bullied on and off in school, so my experiences with social interactions were not always good, and mum's encouragements were stressful sometimes. But especially summer camps and the like, where nobody knew me from school, were a great opportunity to make different, better memories. If I didn't have these experiences, I think a) my childhood would feel a lot less happy, and b) I'd have even more problems connecting with people now. How do you feel about it?

Questions are great for making connections. Everyone likes talking about themselves, and as long as they talk, you don't have to. Although I find that if I ask too many without telling stuff about myself inbetween, people will close up.

The way your mum redoes your work does not sound very confidence-inducing, tbh. No wonder you prefer to learn by yourself. I have a badger friend who is very particular about cooking. Now, I'm not much of a 'sit by and watch other people do the work' person, so the best way for me is to ask him how exactly he wants the onions sliced, or the dough kneaded, etc. It fulfills my need to help, and minimises his discomfort with things not being done right.

It's not easy when your family and you don't speak the same love language. I think the only thing you can kinda do is learn theirs a bit? Like, identify what they use, and try to communicate with them through that? I think this might be a very snake sec answer, though^^

I'm not gonna get into your family dynamics, because I don't feel comfortable talking about it. I'm also not quite sure why you're telling me all this, nonny. I'm down to just chat like this if you like. It's kinda nice to find another who has similar experiences ☺. If you want more shc focus though, just let me know.

[thetaoofbetty]

I think after episode 14 we know bughead will be back. We saw that during those last 7 years Betty was constantly on jugheads mind and he kept coming back to her every time something happened to him, both good and bad. And although I believe the writers aren’t very smart or sophisticated this season, they wouldn’t plant those Seeds if they aren’t planning on getting them back together again

that's sort of the point, isn't it?

if you were just watching the show, what would you think is coming?

listen, it's all anecdotal but has no one else noticed the pattern of b/a aggressiveness and the ramping up of their theories and harassment every time we get good bughead stuff? just me? even just the promo of 5x16 has set them off.

(they definitely do it after anything b/a happens, including breathing the same air but it's particularly angry after good bughead stuff)

do you think they do that because they're confident in what's going to happen? i get harassed a lot. like, a lot. even when i was posting some of their troll asks, it was a small look at it. my inbox is actually filtered tbh (well, it was, x-kit crapped out on me and i have to redo it and find out who it unfollowed for me so if you see me creeping, no you didn't, ha) so a lot of it i wasn't even seeing so their time was wasted in the first place.

they jump on every little thing outside of what happens in the show because it's pretty much all they have. interviews, emojis, stills with no context all becomes a new headcanon because canon gives them pretty much nothing.

and sure, we can all make fun of the show's bad writing (we do) but we've already seen things that didn't quite make sense but now fit with more information. betty being standoffish with jughead on more than one occasion or looking nervous to talk to him now fits into their story because we know the why of it.

i can't say that i'd put betty and archie sitting next to each other and them smiling over their friend's baby down as foreshadowing. especially when it was the first time they were even near each other since 5x08. veronica made the same cooing baby love faces. is she also pregnant? what real foreshadowing do they think is telling the story of betty being pregnant? she had sex? she smiled at a baby?

i'm not being dismissive, i have no idea how they came up with this other than they all just decided they liked the sound of it. can anyone come up with a moment in the show that made them think it before someone on twitter decided that sex = babies? and sitting together 7 episodes after the last time they spoke isn't foreshadowing in my opinion so something other than that.

and sure, i'm biased but i could probably make a a decent sized list (with gifs because it happened onscreen) to show why i think bughead is coming back. and that's the crux of it for me, it happened on the screen and i saw it with my own eyes. no amount of b/as trying to diminish what we saw can actually erase it. so. yeah. i agree with you.

i've remained positive. i've never had a date i said i needed bughead to get back together by. i've said this show doesn't do slowburns and i've said that i don't enjoy the grimdark misery plot that they're giving us, especially when the heart of the show (the relationships between the characters—friendship and otherwise) is missing from the crazy plotlines. and i'm side-eyeing the supernatural hints because this show doesn't have good storyline follow-through but i've also always said this show isn't subtle.

because it's not.

[jabitha-endgame]

Hey! I'm a new Jabitha shipper and I wanted to say I really like your blog, Far by the best Jabitha blog in Tumblr. I really love the dynamic and chemistry of Jabitha and oh god, I'm so glad Jughead finally found someone who actually cares for him. Tabitha is far by the best character now and Jughead deserves her so much. But one thing didn't sit well with me. The fact that Tabitha asked him to move in with her at their very first date seemed very rushed if you tell me. Like, Riverdale's style has never been slow burn tbh but even for Riverdale's standards, I felt they moved this too fast. I just wished the writers had taken time to spin their story beautifully giving them all the love they deserve. Every couple has a different rhythm, sure, and Jabitha is definitely endgame, but moving in so quick, like first date quick, is just not a very smooth move in a relationship. Things could start getting awry and mess up although I certainly hope that's not the case for Jabitha. I think the whole fandom would agree on the fact that the writers are terrible and despite the fact that they finally chose the right couple, I wish they would have taken it slower, that makes the relationship much more beautiful. Your thoughts on this matter?

Thank you so much!! I'm glad you enjoy my Jabitha craziness! 😊

putting my response under a read more because it got really long

I think that by Riverdale standards, the writers have done everything right with this couple. Now like you said, it's not perfect, and maybe moving in together is a little fast, but to me that just shows how serious they are about each other (after an entire season of development). To me, it seems like the writers' way of having them explicitly committed to each other, Jabitha is real and it isn't going anywhere, they are starting to plan a future together.

It's not like they are immediately moving in together after having no relationship to each other. God knows you shouldn't try to rationalize the timeline on this show, but Tabitha said her lease would be up in the fall, and I think Jughead said they've all been back a year at this point, so they'll have known each other for over a year. Plus, he's already met her parents 😆, her grandpa loves him (and vice versa), and she has already seen him at his worst and continued to care for him anyway.

I actually don't even feel that it's that "fast", given that we've had all of this development with them throughout the entire season. Their "first date" comes after all this other stuff that has happened between them, and their romantic relationship didn't just start with their makeup/redo dinner date. (I put "first date" in quotes because Jughead and Tabitha don't call it that, they just say they never got to "finish their date" - this is something the fandom has prescribed to that moment to make it seem like the relationship is rushed in an effort to invalidate their decision to move in together. For all we know, their first date could have been Cheryl's key party, or when they were playing darts in the Whyte Worm, or when they went to the Pussycats concert together.)

As far as worrying about things going awry, Jabitha is more than solid at this point, there are no chinks in their armor. I don't see moving in together as something that could potentially break them up. What would the reason be? They don't argue, they have beautiful communication, and they take care of each other - living together wouldn't make all of those things change.

Personally, I see having Jabitha moving in together as more of a narrative setup to have these characters come together more often and be in the same place. However, given that Jabitha is a romantic relationship, it definitely can be inferred that this also means they want to be close(r) to each other and I don't think that's a bad thing for them at this point in their relationship. Jughead won't just be moving into her place (like Varchie tried), Tabitha's lease is up - they are going to find something new together, it'll be something new for them to share.

And as we've seen this season, moving people in together allows for those characters to start being in more scenes together - it seems to be a much more plot oriented choice than saying something about those relationships. Britta moved into Cherly's house and suddenly Britta is playing chess with Cherly, and working for her in the mines, casting a spell with her, and coming with her to the town meeting. Toni moves in with Fangs and they start to share scenes in their place.

Also, no one thought it would be fast for Varchie to move in together despite them being apart for 7 years, not being in a romantic relationship with each other since highschool, and Veronica just getting out of a marriage where she had to kill her husband. We saw Veronica wanted to move in with Archie, but rather than commit to her and their relationship, Archie wanted Veronica to move in with him and his 3 roommates!! If we compare the two different responses between Varchie and Jabitha - two romantic couples- one was clearly being set up for failure while Tabitha and Jughead are making each other a priority in their lives.

Because the setup for s6 is that Jughead is now going to work at the school (and presumably no longer at Pop's), and Tabitha will continue to work at Pop's, having them move in together and share an apartment gives them a space where their interactions will happen (since Jabitha is being built to last) now that they both won't be at Pop's all the time.

Having a "Jabitha home base" gives them a narrative space all to themselves (like Pop's used to be). In all honesty, it could be more of a narrative decision just to have those two characters be somewhere together often, now that they are working in different places.

Long story short, I think it's mostly a narrative choice to put them in a place to share all their scenes, but also it's a perfectly acceptable next step in their relationship given what we have seen all season!

[lilyfreshwater]

tbh most of ranboo's weird behaviour just comes from having very poor boundaries and him living in a fantasy world half the time. i think his friendships are pretty genuine and he's probably a nice enough person to know irl which is why he's so popular. but we've all gotten such a bad view of him in recent months because we've been exposed to him at his most dysfunctional. the oversharing ranmails, that strange period in january where he was acting like tubbo's stalker, emotional overreliance on certain friendships, self victimisation, all the spotify shit... the list goes on. i'm thinking of things like before the twitch rivals trip when him and tubbo hadn't been talking much, he was obviously building himself up as this person who was going to swoop in to get tubbo back. properly doing embarrassing shit like listening to loads of homewrecker songs and taking selfies to psyche himself up before tubbo landed. obviously the plan didn't work out and once tubbo got home and was with his bf again and reality hit he went back to the depressing ranmails. to me this wasn't a machiavellian plan it was somebody not quite living in reality and trying to live out a fantasy that was never gonna happen. i think it's the same with him encouraging shippers, he doesn't understand the boundary of somebody being in a relationship, he just wants fuel for his fantasy.

like i say i don't think any of it is intentional he just has such a warped view of what is normal behaviour and how he's coming across sometimes. which is why i'm tentatively positive that if he's still in therapy he can turn it around. hopefully his friends are a positive influence too and can help him. he seems to have backed off recently i wonder if somebody stepped in to try and create more boundaries around tubbo and his relationship?

one thing i do worry about if those boundaries aren't in place though is him manufacturing a way to end up in miami while tubbo is there in a redo of the la trip kinda way.... surely he must have learned from last time but....

there's no way that ranboo is gonna somehow end up in the US at the same time he literally just got back like that would not make any sense at all UNLESS he was trying to meet tubbo there in which case i hope he gets lost in miami. about the other stuff, i had an anon send me an ask essentially saying this same thing (was asked not to post) but they also theorized about ranboo having maladaptive daydreaming and not really being able to tell reality from what he imagined it to be in his head, which is what i think you're alluding to. given how mentally ill we know ranboo is, i think its a plausible conclusion to come to that he genuinely just does not understand the people around him beyond his surface level perceptions

[handonhaven]

Okay I'm sorry to vent like this. But I'm hella confused right now. So there's rumors that season is getting cut short and we'll only get 16 episodes. But the thing is no one is confirming anything. Not the CW network, show runners or the cast. So I don't know. There's three things that make this so much worse. One: I heard that filling for this season will wrap at the end of June. But episode 16 comes out at the end of June. So if filming does end at the end of June they would have enough time to edit that episode. I also like to add what would be the point of all these 3 week breaks if it wasn't to catch up on filming and editing. Two: I just saw that one of the writers for the show said that 3x20 is incredible. Why tell us that if we might not get to see it for months. And how would 3x16 play out for a final episode that it could hold the fans until season 4 comes out. And that would also mean that they would have to re work the last 4 episodes so it could fix into s4. And I feel like that would mean 3x20(turn 4x04) would be as great anymore. And three: it looks like legacies is the only show on the CW that got cut short. Which is making me hope that it was just a big mistake and we'll still be getting 20 episodes. Because why is it only this show is getting cut short but not the others, that doesn't make sense. I just wish someone would confirm something.

Because I'm really looking forward to seeing the development between Handon. And to Hope and Landon grow as individuals, as well as the other characters as well. And now I really need to see 3x20. And we won't be able to see any of that in just three episodes. So now it just feels like a big waiting game to see if that's true or not. And I'm not sure if I can handle it.

P.S. sorry if this feels all over place. But that's how my mind is right now.

I feel that, I found out about it last night and have been pretty upset about it as well. I just have no idea what’s going on. It doesn’t make any sense. I feel like these people just never know what’s going on with their own show. And why not say something? Just communicate? They’ve been telling us this whole time we’re getting 20, so if it was cut, just say so and explain what’s gonna happen going forward. Or if there was some kind of issue, say that it’s still being sorted out, something. But instead they all stay silent, no one knows what’s going on, and it just makes things worse.

And yes, I believe they’ve definitely filmed past episode 16 at this point, they’re still working on finishing the season. I’m not sure how much time they need to edit an episode though and whether or not they could be done in time for when the “finale” is supposed to air. And right? They’ve had so many breaks, and now we can’t even see the rest of the season?

But really? Well, that’s great. That means we might not see it until the beginning of season 4? With some mediocre finish to season 3? I hope they wouldn’t have to redo any episodes though, I’d rather them just keep it how it was supposed to be either way. I’d still want 3x20/possibly 4x04 to be unchanged. We all know how screwed up things have gotten, they don’t have to alter things to try and make it fit.

And yep, haha, seriously like why. Why does every other show get to finish but not Legacies? I’m hoping that means there was a mistake but idk. Are there really no other times for them to air the other episodes for the rest of the summer? If they can find times for all the other shows, why not Legacies? And how many times are they gonna do this, is this just gonna continue for the rest of the series where it keeps getting cut off with the end of each season getting moved to the beginning of the next? Because the CW apparently won’t give them any chance to catch up after covid? We were supposed to get 20 episodes for the last 2 seasons now and they keep cutting them, this is the exact same thing that happened last year. But it should not be happening again this year. And when the cast and crew have still been working to get it done when everyone was told there would be 20, how is any of this fair to anyone? I wish they would confirm something too. If it’s set in stone, then say so. If it’s not and still needs to be worked out, say so. Don’t just ignore everyone who supports the show when it seems like they’re not gonna deliver what they promised.

And I wanted to see all of Handon’s development too. Which we would still see, but it could be cut off and we’d have to wait. And there’s also a good chance the Handon reunion could happen after 3x16 too so we’d have till fall to wait, so yeah... I can’t even think about that, I’m not gonna make it. 😭 Yes I was really looking forward to the real finale too. Especially if Hope becomes a full tribrid or Landon gets his powers back. Will we get to see a proper finale ever again? 😑 Yeah, the next episode kinda seems like a filler episode with Lizzie and the cult thing, who knows what the two episodes will be after that, and that’s it? Can’t imagine it’s gonna end great. I mean, the fact that 2x16 (probably my least favorite episode) was the finale to season 2 still haunts me...

Yes, it seems we’re all just gonna be waiting. And they may never say anything. Or they’ll keep us all waiting just to confirm it. Idk if I can handle it either tbh. 😂 The only plus to this is we wouldn’t be waiting as long as last year. Like 3-4 months. And on another note, do you (or anyone else) know if Comic Con is happening this year or if the cast is going? Because I could survive if we got Comic Con content. 😭

And it’s okay! I’m all over the place too, idk how it feels like there’s always some kind of mess going on with this show, whether it’s in the actual show or filming/promo, but it’s pretty frustrating.

[mochi-marie]

hello! I would like to request a haikyuu matchup please :D (I apologize in advance if I write too much aksjk hopefully it'll make it easier to match me up?)

1) I'm a straight female and use she/her pronouns

2) I'm about 5'6", have straight brown hair (my friend says it looks orange-ish in the sunlight??), brown eyes, and I've been told that I'm kinda pale (but unfortunately flush easily lol).

As for things that make me stand out, I have patches of eczema littered all over my skin. I have a few on my hands and wrists and even though ik they're not a good thing and of course would much prefer not having eczema, I kinda like that it makes me unique. I also have round glasses (my eyesight is extremely bad ㅠㅠ), wear a lot of black, and recently have been wearing this tan overcoat everytime I go out bc it's big and comfy. oh, and I've always loved black low-top converse!

I'm overweight so I'm kinda insecure about my physical appearance, but I've been dealing with it for so long that ig I've come to terms with it and have just accepted that this is how I am (but I have been trying to exercise... >_>)

3) I'm a gemini, istp-t, and enneagram type 5. I think I treat people how they treat me; if someone doesn't talk to me, I probably won't talk to them unless necessary, and if someone is very friendly and nice to me, I'll be a bit more open and talk more. I'm usually pretty reserved and go with the flow, but around people I'm more comfortable with I can be very sarcastic and playful. I'm kinda a mom/therapist friend. I'm very lazy and an expert procrastinater (I do what's necessary in the most efficient way possible, unless it's something that I enjoy).

Some things I enjoy: cooking & baking, arts & crafts, reading, sketching, 80s music, watching anime/tv/movies (especially crime, mystery, and thriller), and photography (as far as taking scenic photos with my phone goes lmao). idk if this counts as interests, but I'm planning on majoring in business administration and accounting. and as for my clothing style, I currently dress for comfort bc I'm always inside, but if I get a chance to redo my wardrobe I'd like to dress in a style more like dark academia/comfy casual? I have no idea if those are the right words to describe it 😅

4) I'm pretty sure my love language is physical touch, but I also really enjoy receiving spontaneous gifts or stuff I've been wanting (and money lmao I'm a big saver)! I've never been in a relationship, but I know I would definitely have to be friends with someone before even considering a serious romantic relationship, so I would ideally be comfortable around them already. I have a tendency to bottle up my emotions and I'm honestly a bit of a tsundere, so I think I might be shy in voicing my wants/initiating things. as for my type, I would prefer someone tall, mature but able to be playful and can take a joke (I sometimes use "idiot" as a term of endearment sksj I can be kinda mean sometimes tbh), patient since I'll take a while to open up, and ideally ambitious and willing to take initiative (bonus points if they're able to keep up with my sarcastic banter!)

5) I definitely like to sleep in, but if I need to wake up early and I can do so relatively easily. ig you could say I'm more of a night owl. I'm in a constant state of tiredness (possibly fatigued but idk) lol. I could technically live without music but would 100% prefer not to. my favorite song is "eyes without a face" by billy idol. I've never really thought about what my ideal first date would be, but I would like if it was well thought out and personal instead of the typical movie and dinner I suppose.

thank you so much for taking the time to do this!! I apologize again for writing so much 😅 hopefully you'll be able to have some fun writing, and I hope you're doing well! and no worries if you're unable to get to my matchup; please prioritize your wellbeing <3

𝗻𝗼𝘁𝗲𝘀: i had such a blast reading through this entire thing!!! thank you for writing this much, seriously — i love it, it makes it so much more interesting and easier on my part to find a match!! <3

𝗞𝗨𝗥𝗢𝗢 𝗧𝗘𝗧𝗦𝗨𝗥𝗢𝗨

♡ . . . REASONINGS : filtering through the information, i have decided that, in my personal opinion, you are best paired with kuroo tetsurou!

starting off, the trench coat? comfy and casual dark academia fashion style? from looks alone, you seem like a pretty good match-up with kuroo. on the outside look in, i feel like you both would look like a really smart, cute, and sensible / mature couple! in all honesty, i think that kuroo would find your big glasses adorable ( and if you're prone to loosing them, he would find it sickeningly cute if you cling to him while you both searched for the glasses ). i imagine his breath hitches whenever his eyes lay on your figure in the setting sun, turning your hair into a pretty orange-brown shade that makes his heart beat a little bit faster. kuroo is used to being around more reserved people ( as he was once reserved, and now his best friend is rather reserved as well ), so becoming a friends-to-lovers dynamic would be easy. your playfulness and possible sarcasm seems to perfectly interact with his own, and considering some research about your enneagram and personality type, i think that your ( possible ) creativity and curiosity really intrigues him and keeps him curious and attentive with you. i feel that he might always be wondering what's going on in that pretty head of yours, curious to know what your next wonderful idea is or what your mind is thinking about. as an obvious friends-to-lovers trope, i think your relationship with kuroo would be very cute! i have a feeling that he'd love that your love language is physical connection, and would pick up on any ques if you're feeling cuddly and can't get the words out to ask for soft intimacy and cuddles! sarcastic banter? mature yet playful? i think your ideal type seems to perfectly match up with kuroo -- he would most definitely be able to take whatever playful insults you have to throw at him, and be able to throw some back. he knows when to be playful and understands if he ever goes too far, and will own up to any mistakes he may make. considering your hobbies and interests, i think your interest in crime shows / mystery and thriller movies / anime may really pique his interest, and he'd eventually be hooked right along side you. and he may not be the best in the world, but imagining the both of you together, baking or cooking something ( possibly late at night because of midnight cravings ) could be really cute!

𝗥𝗘𝗟𝗔𝗧𝗜𝗢𝗡𝗦𝗛𝗜𝗣 𝗛𝗘𝗔𝗗-𝗖𝗔𝗡𝗢𝗡𝗦

♡ . . . staying up late at night and ending up heading into the kitchen together to make a midnight meal doesn't happen too often, but sometimes all you both need is a look at each other as your stomachs growl after a food-related ad on tv. ♡ . . . would absolutely make you feel like a queen all day and everyday if he can help it! will exercise with you if you would let him, and would celebrate all achievements with you; big or small! ♡ . . . kuroo is surprisingly one of the most thoughtful boyfriends, in my personal opinion! i feel like the dates would be well planned, memories eagerly waiting to be made! ♡ . . . the banter between you both is so cute!! it can be sarcastic, but it's never hostile, always playful and light, a smirk plastered onto his lips in a charmingly charismatic way! ♡ . . . stay-at-home-and-watching-a-show-dates!! whether it be wide-eyed and open-mouthed concentration on crime shows, or close-cuddling while watching some thriller or mystery shows / movies / animes!

𝗥𝗘𝗟𝗔𝗧𝗜𝗢𝗡𝗦𝗛𝗜𝗣 𝗠𝗢𝗢𝗗𝗕𝗢𝗔𝗥𝗗

𝗢𝗧𝗛𝗘𝗥 𝗣𝗢𝗦𝗦𝗜𝗕𝗟𝗘 𝗖𝗔𝗡𝗗𝗜𝗗𝗔𝗧𝗘𝗦

♡ . . . akaashi keiji, iwaizumi hajime, miya osamu, daichi sawamura