#thank u so much jenn

[peculiarbeauty]

@keepmovinjunior

thanks, this is the best gift i've ever received.

[jennicatzies]

ummm hi crazy showing up here its northpearl 😭😭 so i did deactivate my account cause i realized i cant be healthy and have an active social media at the same time UNFORTUNATELY like im just not built that way…… i know im always acting silly goofy but it was ruining my life tbh…… i do miss u and the bffs on here already though if u guys ever make a discord server lmk (i was gonna join one b4 i left but the link expired 💔) SORRY TO DROP THIS IN UR ANONYMOUS JENN 💀 ur ivan the terrible inspired art is so mf good im rbing from beyond the grave

HERE COMES THE GENERAL [ NORTHPEARL ]

PEARL GIRL HELLO!!!! AHHH that is So valid, your wellness comes first so ofc I respect that decision. take ur time 🫂

I would say I could dm you the link to a SICK server I'm in but alas. Anon. Oh well come in tho I Will clap and cheer

Also thank you SO much my guy AGHGHH I lost my mind a bit doing that art 🙏🙏

[redstringraven]

TMNT’s 40th anniversary ask game ~ May I ask for number 22) , 26) and 35) ? Lots of love <3

TuT!!!! THANK u, cherry. loves of love to you, too 💜✨

(please excuse that this ask is visually a bit more of a mess. i wrote too much again for tumblr to be chill with my usual formatting. why am i like this.)

TMNT's 40th anniversary ask game!

22.) what is your favorite kind of pizza?

terrible news, everyone: i'm a pro-pineapple bitch. you may block and unfollow me now; i forgive you for being incorrect (/lh). i tend to be pescatarian if i can help it (i'm flexible due to money, and also i hate inconveniencing others especially if i'm a guest), so i prefer pizza without meats. i'm happy to eat any kind of veggie combination with the exception of banana peppers. never liked those for some reason. i also really like mushroom and eggs as pizza toppings. i'm kind of just an egg fiend in general; i love the taste of a well-made egg.

26.) what is one of your favorite pieces of TMNT fan art?

these things keep asking for one, but i'm gonna continue responding with however many i feel like. because it's not my dad. the scarf, by @hamsterandturtlesoup weakness is a sickness and a virtue, by @tatortart various candid illustrations by richard chen vis dev by kellan jett

35.) which character relationships are your favorite to write/draw?

...since we're both OC people, i'm gonna take this as an opportunity to gush about canon and OC relationships: two of my favorite brotps. because they're character relationships i adore writing with all my heart and soul.

mikey, gwyn & ash i mentioned previously that @plantdonutwrites (jenn) writes for mikey in our RPs, so i consulted her for mikey's perspective on this brot3. i will paraphrase her answer in this paragraph:

"all his life, mikey's been used to only having his bros as company; they're family in a way that puts the rest of us to shame. but as they grew older they met all sorts of people, some became an extension of that family. raph has casey or maybe angel when he wants to dip for a bit. don has leatherhead or the professor (bree, too), and leo has usagi even if he's not 'as regular' (and min-ji, too). his brothers have their separate circles of friends, but, against all odds, mikey doesn't seem to have that (at least not until cassia shoved her foot in the loneliness door). then he bonded with gwyn and ash... but then they left. he realized that it wasn't just that they didn't treat him like 'the annoying brother who tags along' but because they'd actually become friends, and they were friends who didn't humor him. they liked the comics he talked about, they love klunk, and they're interested in his art and ideas. it meant a lot to him to have that--to know what it was like--and when they weren't around, he really felt the difference. in an odd way they helped him become a more empathetic person, too."

it's harder to answer in ash's perspective because she has a lot less agency than gwyn and, because gwyn's paranoid/won't let ash out of her own hands much less her line of sight, ash doesn't get a lot of one-on-one time with mikey. she's interacted with him a LOT more than she's interacted with most people--which absofuckinglutely means something--but since she does consider herself 'dead' and is at peace with the possibility she'll be a literal shapeshifting weapon for the rest of her sentience, i think a lot of his meaning to her (right now) is very rooted in what he means for gwyn. THAT being said.

mikey is gwyn's first real friend. like. ever. in all the time she's been alive. very much in the same way that the brothers only had each other for most of their lives, gwyn only ever had ash. her community considered her a parasite and an omen, so she was essentially outcast. gwyn grew up feeling she wasn't wanted, had to earn any love she received, and when ash died and became trapped in the weapon, all that transpired and followed afterward re-enforced that. i haven't talked about darach a lot--deliberately--but know that he's a masterful manipulator in more ways than one. if ch'rell was brute force and intimidation, darach is more like the pot you put a frog in and slowly turn up the heat. you don't realize you're being boiled alive until it's too late. thanks to his influence, gwyn's been tricked, back-stabbed, cornered, and watched people suffer 'because of her' countless times. when i said she was paranoid, i wasn't really being hyperbolic. she has SEVERE trust issues. ...then came mikey. someone who, unknowingly, had already given them a taste of his character.

gwyn and ash had heard of mikey's rematch with kluh during their travels--that the match was made mortal, that mikey had not only won but had spared kluh's life when he had every reason not to. darach wouldn't approach someone like him, they figured. and as time passed, mikey continued to not just be open and kind with them, but again and again he's emphasized to gwyn that they just... CARE. to quote him "we don't keep you guys around for any benefits other than being able to know you". which, in so many ways, is unheard of for gwyn. she still struggles to believe him sometimes, but she trusts him. mikey is her first and best friend, he's someone she admires, and he's proven time and time again that ash isn't the only person capable of loving her, and that she's worthy of that love by just being herself. i had to spend a lot of this answer on exposition because OC, but... i earnestly can't emphasize enough how much mikey's come to mean to gwyn. he asked her not to leave again without them, and she promised she wouldn't. that promise to him has kept her from running away and isolating. even though she's terrified--for herself, for ash, for them--she trusts him. writing them makes me so happy. it's been such a delight to see their relationship evolve and the influences they've had on each other and their worldviews. i love this brot3 so goshdang much.

min-ji & raph min-ji belongs to jenn and, oh my god, i love her relationship with raph so, SO much. when we rp, jenn's obviously writing for min, and i write for raph.

again! consulted jenn! her answer paraphrased below:

"raph's pretty much the first assertive person in her life that had her back early on? her home life is complex; her family DOES love her but sometimes that love can veer controlling and toxic (responsibilities/obligations). raph was a type of personality she'd never been around before, and he cared about her well-being in a way that was unconditional. hanging out with him more helped her become more assertive and in touch with parts of herself she was forced to suppress to be more palatable to her family. she's found that being angry about something that happened to her, or something that was said to her, doesn't make her bad or a burden. raph doesn't expect her to shy away from her flaws or nuances. he lets her be a person."

as for raph's end, it's kind of hard to put into words. but i love that min-ji has become one of the very few people he will allow himself moments of vulnerability around. like. instead of it just happening, he makes the choice to let a wall or six down. they've created a mutual safe space between each other.

i think this has cultivated from a lot of things. min was much more timid when they met--raph even made a bit of a point, initially, to not interact with her so much because she was skittish and on-edge thanks to surrounding events. but through the events of our writing, he's watched her grow in self-confidence, be more open, and allow herself to 'take up' more space. she's also survived two major threats to her life, now, both of which have scarred her physically and emotionally, yet she persists and continues to extend kindness to people who, in his opinion, don't deserve it. but that's HER business (while he makes his feelings known, he stays out of it unless she signals him otherwise). she may not be a fighter in a literal sense, but he sees her as an equal. like, he's still protective of her in dangerous situations since she's not trained to fight--obviously--but... i dunno, i guess it's more like "i've been through shit; you've been through shit; if i say things look bad right now, you won't like it but you also won't give up". he doesn't feel a pull to coddle her if things are looking grim, i guess is what i'm trying to say?; he'll shoot straight with her because he knows she IS a fighter. even if she doesn't fight. does THAT make sense?

like i said, it's hard to put into words. but i think it's a combination of min-ji's emotional strength and kindness as a person, as well as the fact she's not an immediate family member, that make it easier for him to let those barriers down around her and have severely needed moments of vulnerability where he doesn't dismiss pain or fear or anything else he might be feeling. he knows min would never lash out at him, physically, emotionally, or however else. min-ji is kind, and she's strong, and she's safe. he trusts her, values and respects her judgment and input. much in the same way his presence lets her feel like a person, she's extended that grace to him. just in a different way. i love getting to write interactions between them. there's always something warm and comforting in their exchanges, light-hearted or more melancholic. it's nice. the love is very much there.

[seeingivy]

method acting asks

so it's insane im still doing these btw im glad people enjoyed readign that as much as I did writing it

marco and maya are twins!!!! i'll say they're fraternal. i am stockpiling your request AS WE SPEAK!!!! AND AH IM SO GLAD U LOVED IT THANK U THANK U

correct. they also watch the bachelor and do not stand for jenn tran slander. devin I hope you die.

@um-no-ok THIS IS SO FUNNY. oh louis and olivia how I love you. TWILIGHT HOW I LOVE YOU.

@najaemism this is literally a fake tweet that I would write. I think writing tweets for my fic made me realize that maybe I do have what it takes to be on stan twitter

they are so perfect and beautiful and I love them and im obsessed with them and I am ready for OR3 NEOW

@dreamy-carat this is actually eren and y/n before they break up and then stan twitter (maryam) is making sad edits of it after the fact when they start fighting. yup.

@lilabardsss he was the first lady of the guts tour!!! that's literally eren and y/n right there i'm telling you. eren has one job and its y/n's boyfriend

@leave-rae-alone don't worry!!!I have too!!!!! and dont' worry you haven't betrayed me - I miss you so so much too!!!! im so glad those chapters watered you becuase they watered me too!!!!!! nom nom nom nom.

[literaticat]

With Algonquin closing, ive been hearing talk that YA is dying, YA writers are ditching YA to write adult, and only unicorns and super trendy YA books will get bought now. As a debut author, this is making me feel SO doom and gloom about my career even before it’s started! Do you have any thoughts? Thank u Jenn !

Not to be mean, but baby where have you BEEN?

YA has been "Dying" for like, the better part of a decade, and has been fully rigor mortis, toe up with a tag on it, authors "ditching YA", etc, for several years. If anything, YA has recently experienced something of a reanimation -- the former corpse has officially got a pulse again and is breathing, though perhaps still a little clammy. The hotness of 2024 is complaining about how MIDDLE GRADE is dead. Keep up! ;-)

In reality, everything is cyclical. Categories or genres or trends or whatever boom, they get oversaturated, sales fall off, eventually they come back. And people ALWAYS say that "publishing is dying" that "only trendy books will be able to be bought now" or whatever whatever. I was reading DEAR GENIUS, the collected letters of Ursula Nordstrom (highly recommend btw), and there was this whole part in there about bookstore people complaining that TV was destroying the publishing industry, nobody would buy books anymore, authors should just pack it in, etc. It was literally the same conversation, and that was like 70 years ago.

(For a bit of a reality check, you might check out this post from the pinned FAQ: I heard that traditional publishing is DEAD, is that true?)

As for your opening premise, I think it is faulty, AYR closing hasn't really got much to do with the other stuff.

To be clear: I love Algonquin Young Readers. I have sold many a beautiful book to AYR over the years; they were my special favorite. (Don't tell the others!) Their founding publisher, Elise Howard, who I aspire to be for real, is an absolute Dear Genius herself and a wonderful editor and person (and now, agent)!

I am very grateful to have been able to work with the whole team there for the past decade, and I am sad that the program Elise started and Cheryl Klein and the others continued will be coming to a close, and that two wonderful editors and a terrific marketing person will be looking for new jobs (but I do hope/believe/feel strongly that they will all land in good spots, they are really great!) -- HOWEVER.

Algonquin was bought by Little Brown several years ago. And whilst Algonquin the brand is closing now, those books are not disappearing, they are just being folded in to LB. In other words, the backlist books will still be in print, and the frontlist/forthcoming books are still going to be published, just with a different publisher name on the spine. Also Algonquin only published like... 2, maybe 3 new YA books per season? It's a small list! (Small but mighty! -- but still, very small!)

So.... I'm not sure what, if anything, the news of their closing says about the larger world of YA books? In other words, obviously it is NOT GREAT, it’s a sad loss, we loved that publisher, it's good for the publishing ecosystem to have a variety of publishers so fewer is not good, capitalism and massive corporate conglomeration and whatnot are sucky things, it's awful when nice people are out a job -- but there's zero reason for you to take that news as like, an OMEN about YOUR CAREER or something. It has nothing to do with you. Unless your book was coming out from Algonquin, it won't affect YOU at all. (And even if your debut WAS an AYR book... hopefully those effects would be minimal at the end of the day, as those books are still coming out!)

[jeannereames]

Hi there! I've really enjoyed your blog-- there's a lot of good information on it. In fact, I just wrote a novel set in ancient Thebes, set in 335 BCE, right before Alexander's attack. However, I'm a little scared to write the sequel, because Alex is going to show up in it as a major character. He is SO famous, and there's so many books about him, that I hardly know where to begin.

So, do you have any specific books you recommend, like any good starter bios or anything else that would be good for this specific setting? (Specifically against the destruction of Thebes and right before the invasion of Persia.)

Thank you so much!

Some Useful Bibliography on Alexander (and Thebes)

Thank you! And sorry for the delay. The queries in my inbox tend to be feast or famine. LOL

In terms of information on Alexander, I would start with the brand new Cambridge Companion to Alexander the Great, edited by Daniel Ogden. It has many of the leading scholars. On Alexander and the Greeks in particular, see my dear friend Borja Antela’s chapter. This is now what I’d consider the best intro resource on Alexander for the interested non-specialist, especially as it’s reasonably priced. The bibliography will help a lot. For Macedonia itself, Carol Thomas has Alexander and His World (which I’ve used teaching) and Carol King has Ancient Macedonia. Both are good, one-book introductions.

If you’ve not already, you’ll want to consult Mark Munn’s chapter “Thebes and Central Greece” in The Greek World in the Fourth Century, Larry Tritle, ed. Paul Cartledge also has a book Thebes: The Forgotten City of Ancient Greece, but he’s a Spartan specialist. Lately, publishers have had him write on other subjects—not always to good effect, as per his book on Alexander, imo. But I’ve not read this one so can’t comment. I think Thebes is closer to his usual bailiwick.

James Romm did a book The Sacred Band., although like Cartledge Romm is all over the place. Same cautions apply. And I’ll also offer the counter-proposal that the band was not pairs of lovers, by David Leitao, "The Legend of the Sacred Band," in The Sleep of Reason by Martha Nussbaum and Juha Sihvola, eds. His view is not a homophobic diss; it’s a source problem. Plutarch is our sole source for the lovers bit, and he’s notoriously unreliable on some facts, especially when he has an ulterior message.

The more I study Plutarch, the less I trust him. LOL

Last, another friend and colleague, Jenn Finn has written a bang-up chapter on the destructions of both Thebes and Persepolis, for the upcoming collection I edited, so I got a preview. “Urbicide, Memory Sanctions, and the Perso-Macedonian Dynasty.” I’m not sure when the collection will be out, but certainly not before late 2024, and more likely 2025. She might be willing to share the draft, however, if you need it immediately. She’s at Loyola U. in Chicago. As always, Jenn does fantastic work.

[thedevilinmybrain]

Hey Jenn, I recently went thru something similar w my husband and uscis. You will be fine. Submit all their forms, and during the interview they just want to make sure you're a real couple, not a scam. So if you have pics showing u two thru the years, and other things about your relationship, you'll be ok. Don't stress. My lawyer told us to compile a physical photo album with pics that showed us, us w friends, us w family, and we brought letters, and sentimental gifts too. if you have anything joint in both your names, bring it. even like a spotify account. if you don't have anything joint yet, the sooner you get it the better :) You'll be fine! I found it way less dramatic than tv makes it out to be, and tbh the officer barely even cared to scrutinize anything bc it was obvious we were a real couple! Wishing you both so much happiness <3 it will all work out <3

Thank you so very much. This really makes me feel confident. I've been working on the packet all morning and I'm like, so anxious about it.

[jennifersbod]

happy birthday jenn!!! to me, u are my most famous mutual 🫶🏻 I hope u have a wonderful day!!!! 💞💞 do u have any special plans?

omg that means so much to me 🫶🏻😭 thank you! i mostly celebrated last week with my long term bestie; we went on a mini vacation and it was lovely. but today i’m seeing a mystery movie at amc with my mom and splurging on food 😅 (and maybe perusing a book store i can’t afford 👀💀)

[finallydelight]

Oh my god it’s your birthday!!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY JENN!!! I love you!!! You’re really amazing and I always get super excited and happy whenever you update or when we just talk it’s always the highlight of my day really! I hope you’re always happy and healthy!!!! 🥰🥳🤗🤗🤗🤗 lots and lots of hugs lovey😘

THANK YOU NAFI ! oh my darling dear, thank you so much for this beautiful message !! 💘

you’re the best person, and so sweet !! 💗 I love talking to you too and it always brightens my day ! sending you all my love and so many virtual hugs my dear !! 🫶 love u x

[trickarrows-bishop]

EPISODE SIX OF HSMTMTS REACTION LIVE BLOGGED BY ME BECAUSE THE LAST ONE WAS FUNNY TO DO AND I WANNA DO IT AGAIN

again, get ready for this to be iNSANE xoxo

woah maddox you cant just appear on my screen and expect me to be ok like HOLD ON NOW-

no one told rina oh ur JOKING-

this'll be like. the worst. especially for ricky oh fuck.

miss jenn's mother's problematic twitter account??? did you mean miss jenn's mother's problematic X account ???

"bigger things" GIRL. miss jenn. no one. and i mean. NO ONE. puts on a show like you queen. stfu (respectfully ily)

"I WAS PLACING A VERY CONFUSING PHONE CALL" so true. i too am confused tbh

OH WAIT MADDOX IS RIGHT THERE WHAT

wait why wasn't jet there. huh.

MADDOX U INTERESTED BAE???

maddox stop hiding it and go kiss her i am TIRED.

BENJAMIN??? love that for him fr

"hahahah... oh u weren't kidding D:" i LOVE MADDOX TOO MUCH SHE BETTER NOT FUCK ASH OVER FFS

MISS JENN WE ARE NOT EXITTING SORRY WE HAVE TWO MORE EPISODES AND THIS ONE SOZ NOT HAPPENING BABES WE GOT A SHOW TO PUT ON XOXO

KOURT THAT FIT GDAMN

anyways she kinda spoke facts. although. im still scared of spiders. nothing can get rid of that fear

all the kourt x ashlyn shippers are about to make this scene their personality and i understand why tbh

FUCK ASH DIDN'T HAVE FRIENDS ??? IM SO IN LOVE WITH THIS SHOW WDYM ASH DIDN'T HAVE FRIENDS LOOK AT HER SHE'S LIKE. PERFRECT. FUCK

maddox stop being gay and just KISS ashlyn im so OVER this yearning (i literally do this.)

BENJAMIN !!UR STILL HERE!!! DONT U FKING DARE LEAVE ILY

BRO FR LOOKING LIKE AN EMOJI WAIT A MINUTE

go on benjamin SHOW EMOTIONS !!!

"i am jennifer !! you are?" "unsettled." i LOVE HIM LIKE A SON

nah that boyband faze for jet makes sense tbh like i can see that

AAWWWWWW BENJAMIN :(

can we pls get a new plot because we did in fact save the musical in season one within an episode. like. i KNOW i can probably skip this episode and not miss much

ALL OF THESE FLASHBACKS TO EPISODE ONE JESUS CHRIST AND UR NOT SHOWING NINI LOL I AM HURT

fuck homophobia AND ILYSM MISS JENN <3 I LOVE HER FUCK

not the mention of CATS BOY THAT AINT A GOOD MUSICAL WHY WE LYIN

SEB ????

FUCKING HELL CARLOS

"give him a chance carlos" MOTHER FR

now why are the whole ass drama class on this what the fuck LMAO

NATALIE RETURN OH MY GOD IM SHAKING LMFAO

this is so out of character like bro no ?? that's not making sense

NORTH HIGH WHAT NO

HE'S PLAYING THE **** SONG CARLOS COME ON

so real of richard bowen he said GAY RIGHTS !!!

SEBLOS GETTING BACK TOGETHER WOHOOOOO

GAYS WIN FR

the longest lasting relationship being seblos is so SO funny to me

YES GO TO HIM CARLOS

THANK GOD FOR THE GAYS

cant wait to cry to this song jesus christ

stop they're so in LOVE I CANT DO THIS

GAYS WON GAYS WON GAYS WON GAY RIGHTS GAY RIGHTS GAY RIGHTS SEBLOS SEBLOS SEBLOS SEBLOS

"us?" FUCK THIS IM SO FSKDAJGHFAKJSDGHFKDAS

now why am i not seeing seblos kiss HUH

"oh so she thinks im a leader?" GIRL STOP IT LMAO

rina scene before they even canonically met alr ???

NINI MENTION !!!!!!!!!!!!

"uncle buck?!" reaL REAL I LOVE THAT MOVIE HE NEARLY DRILLED INTO A GUYS HEAD

"good luck skater boy" hmmmmmmmmmmmm anyways

okay now give me a maddox flashblack

FR IT IS MURDER SHE WROTE SO REAL ???? I LOVE MURDER SHE WROTE !! (im an old person at heart)

GIVE ME MISS JENN BACKSTORY

MISS JENN BACKSTORY WOHOOOO

no WAY ALISON ???

SHE RECOGNISED HER HOLY FUCK WHOAAAAA

not the story of the girl at frozen puking again LMAO

"you should do it" DON'T TELL ME IT WAS ALISON WHO DID IT

"i always thought mrs darbus deserved a power ballad" REAL I LOVE HER

no NO NO GIFTS ??? UR NOT ACTUALLY LEAVING

QUEEN?

NO ??? WHAT THE FUCK

MISS JENN TF? NO GIRLIE.

NO

NOT THIS GOOD THING WE HAVE TWO EPISODES LEFT >:(

"i just got here tho :(" maddox ur so funny but NOT NOW

JET DONT BE AN ASS??

how r we gonna move on from this cuz i-

why am i not crying but was crying over the caswen scenes ffs

OH NOW A SONG ???

emmy ???

EMMY !!!!

my daughter fr

11 mins left oh maybe i'll watch it all tonight HEHEHEH

come ONNNNNN EMMY IS SLAYING AGAIN

THIS IS ALSO WHERE I FIND OUT THATS NOT HOW U SPELL HER NAME

MADDOX AND ASH IN THE SAME FRAME IM DELULU

maddox dont look at ash like that cuz ill run w it.

SHE SUNG AT EAST HIGH WOOOOOOOOO

WHAT THE- ALISON READ?

WHA- UHM- BRO-

maddox IS the stage management

SHE WAS ABOUT TO SAY ILY ??// KFHS

WAIT MAYBE I CAN BE A RINA

I DIDNT THINK WE'D GET TO THE ILY FOR RINA SO

HE GOT IN WHOA LETS GO RICHARD

NO SHES ABT TO MOVE OR SOMETHIN I STG NO

ALR THAT EPISODE WENT QUICKER??? IDK MAYBE I JUST WASNT SHOUTING ABT MADLYN AS MUCH LMAO. conclusion:

show's still gay? YUPPERS seblos? YUPPERS maddlyn? ...hopefully yuppers???

[chocosvt]

Hello miss choco the genius! I just finished reading best friend's brother && it was so good!! I totally can relate to what the OC had with Jennifer or Jennie or Jenn-E shshshshjs. I used to have that kind of friendship too, walked thinly on cracking shell, trying to fix my friendship with her. But now, we managed to stay in touch with loads of fights istg. My friend is exactly like Jennie's personality, except she doesnt have a brother Joshua (poor me jk). Thank you for writing this long a$$ 37k of masterpiece, and make me reminisce the journey of my friendship. BUT THE SOLE REASON OF MY READING IS JOSHUA BECAUSE WHO CAN RESIST JOSHUA HONG AS YOUR LONG TERM CRUSH TURNED INTO BOYFRIEND THOUGH 😭😭😭

– 🍓

i know :(( don’t we all have that one childhood / middle school friend we wish we were still in contact with? 🥹 i feel like friendships around that era are so delicate bc you think you’ll be connected to that person forever and then one day you’re just never speaking anymore! whether it be from a fight or the fact u just outgrew each other :/

i was actually rly lucky and met up with an old friend from high school a few days ago for a smoothie!! it was so lovely to see her again actually i was having my reader jennie moment 😍

thx yew so much for ur sweet comments i rly appreciate it! 💕

[pessimisticfvck]

Jenn, there were so many things you couldn’t change. The relationship between you and your dad? He fucked up big time, and I mean BIG TIME. The fact that you’ve talked to him since the incident is a testament to you and how much you’ve healed. The relationship between you and your Mom was toxic, but there isn’t anything you can do if your parents are abusive. It’s not surprising you turned to dr*gs and such, and i don’t think you should blame yourself for them too much. You’re in a different (&

”(2) I hope better) place now, where you’re not in danger of being SAed. You survived horrendous situations, and while the behavior may not have been the healthiest, it certainly wouldn’t have happened is all the other shit didn’t happen. Don’t be ashamed of yourself.”

you’re absolutely right, i couldn’t have changed but oh god how i wish lol. i’m happy i have a better relationship with my whole family now, but the past will always haunt me in a way you know? i’ll never know the feeling of living carefree teenage years :( i wouldn’t necessarily say my mom was abusive in any type of way, my dad emotionally though, which contributed to my mom not knowing how to react so she stepped back and was scared to defend me at some times. but it’s not like that now, not with mom or dad <3 i feel like growing up and becoming an adult changed everything for the better in a way.

thank u for this ask and yes i sure do feel much better nowadays compared to then- specifically the substance abuse days. i however opened up to the girl i talk to at the psych clinic how i’m getting concerned about my alcohol consumption again, so i have to start focus on that again, i can’t remember the last time i drank without completely blacking out and waking up with no bruises and nothing broken, tragic😭

pls take care, you’re amazing🤍

[redstringraven]

raphneth 5, 8, 9, 18, 27 👀

;-; gurgles softly... thank u, the jenn 🖤🌷

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OTP Relationship Asks

5) what is their love language?

from the 'basic five' they share quality time and acts of service. both enjoy existing in the same space as each other, whether they're sparring together or raph's watching tv while gwyn draws or works in her journal. and both tend to be people of action, doing small gestures like quietly checking each other for injuries after a patrol, randomly bringing home food/snacks for each other, taking care of a chore when the other's stressed or tired, etc. and also bigger gestures like... idk... risking their lives for each other. the usual.

outside of the 'basic five', one of their love languages is taking naps together. neither of them are people who trust easy or like appearing 'vulnerable', so the act of sleeping in the same space as one another is a big gesture for both of them. and raph's snoring doesn't bother gwyn that much; it actually almost tethers her to the present and makes it harder for her to slip into a night terror or experience sleep paralysis.

9) how are their personalities different?

i'm answering this out of order for a reason. gwyn has a habit of playing chameleon; she'll shift and alter aspects of her surface personality in order to better meld or interact with the people she's around--both for potential ulterior motives and as a survival tactic, so she draws less attention to herself by becoming an 'outsider'. it's gotten to the point she's lost connection to her own identity and often doesn't know what she, genuinely, likes, doesn't like, or sometimes even feels. it gets muddy.

raph, on the opposite end, is 10000% him. you can take it or leave it. he knows what he likes, doesn't like, and you're going to know, too. he can also be unwavering in his opinions (sometimes to a fault), whereas gwyn is much more willing to weigh the room before voicing where she might fall on a matter. whether she goes with the flow or voices her honest opinion depends on her company.

8) what’s one way their personalities compliment one another?

following up on the previous answer, raph's unapologetic honesty and NEED for honesty sort of forces gwyn to be more aware of herself. once he starts picking up on inconsistencies in her behavior, he starts digging and asking more pointed questions. never to the point of crossing a boundary, but always so gwyn has to pause and actually listen to herself instead of the room to judge what answer or reaction will keep her in good graces. while mikey and bree might inspire gwyn to be more genuine to who she really is under all those masks, raph's teaching her to be and helping her find her way back to who she is. no more bullshit.

on the other hand, and maybe because she's put on so many masks in the past and interacted with a wide variety of people, gwyn can be better at identifying and putting words to emotions, which is something raph struggles with. she's in a spot where she can not only understand his anger (she carries a fair amount of her own) but is capable of finding the roots--what the anger really is, be it sadness or worry or stress or excess energy. raph feels safe venting to her without the fear of being judged, and he knows that after the venting is over and he's settled down, she'll walk through it with him.

18) what song fits them perfectly?

"tender" by yvette young... i feel so much

27) what random everyday object/activity makes them think of each other?

gwyn catches on pretty fast that raph loves cereal, not just as a breakfast thing but also for just snacking on. she makes it a bit of a habit to snatch him a box when possible and sneak it into the lair pantry for him to discover later. red flowers and cardinals also make her think of him.

it's not really an 'everyday' thing, but during their trips to the farmhouse any and all firefly sightings will make raph think of gwyn. because they glow, and because she loves them. don't get him wrong, they're still bugs (which means they're The Worst), but she says there's a similar creature in liáfsini who acts as a guardian spirit for those lost in the woods. as for a more 'everyday' answer, any time he spots april watering one of her house plants or is asked to water them for her. gwyn enjoys gardening, and he wonders if he should ask april about getting some plants for the lair.

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😭😭😭 you guyyyyyyys, 10 minutes surpassed 800 notes 😭😭😭 For one, all of you who liked and reblogged are going to HORNY JAIL, secondly, that was the first piece of writing I posted in three years???? And it’s doing really really well???? And third, that makes the post the most liked fics/one shots I made PERIOD!!! In the history of borrovvedyoongi! Thank you very much and I appreciate every single one of you from the bottom of my heart.

I almost gave up this blog all together because I didn’t feel good enough about my writing, I didn’t post enough simply because I didn’t finish a single plot ever, and there were times when I put so much time and effort into something only for it to get less than 30 notes. I threw in the towel and felt low about my skills for a long while.

It wasn’t until I started actually pushing myself to write a little bit everyday to just try. I was also inspired to write again because of sweet Pookie bear Anton <3 love that chronically online Korean American idol <3 It doesn’t matter how many notes I get. It doesn’t matter if the stuff I post is complete dog shit, because I worked hard on it, and it’s mine.

I would like to also thank @melobin and @moonlighthoon for encouraging me to write. U r my motivators fr fr.

A bunch of debauchery is in the works!! I’m going to post old stuff that never got to see the light of day but I completed, first. During the 9 years I’ve had this account I’ve had all sorts of ult biases and muses that changed. The material might be absolutely haywire. My b.

Thank you for reading,

-Jenn

[labradorite-princess]

All of the book questions!

You're so cute!!!!!!! Thank you so much for asking!

do u prefer a standalone or a series?

Series.

I want more info

2. ur fav genre?

I've really been into horror lately!

ur least fav genre? why?

I don't really like non-fiction

That being said I have not read many books of this genre.

3. a book which had a tv adaption that was better than the book itself?

Avatar The Last Airbender

4. enemies to lovers or friends to lovers?

Enemies to lovers

5. ur fav book trope?

Werewolves!

6. ur least fav book trope?

Love triangles

7. the best protagonist u have ever seen in a book and why?

Answered

8. if u were stuck on an island and could only have three books w u what would they be? (series would be counted as one cuz as i said so)

Twilight

Harry Potter

A Court of Thorns and Roses (I have yet to read this series so I'll have something new to read)

9. the worst book u have ever read?

This is a hard one!

An Abundance of Katherines

I couldn't even finish the book

10. the best book u have ever read?

This is a hard one too!

I can' pick just one!

Ik it's a cop-out.

11. a book/book series u wish u could read for the first time ever again?

Answered

12. ur fav author( if u have any)?

I don't really have a favorite author

I just read books that are interesting to me

13. an overrated book?

Dirty Wolf by Aidy Award

I had such high hopes! And some things felt rushed or overlooked.

14. an underrated book?

Alex, Approximately by Jenn Bennett

Such an amazng book!

15. the book that made u fall in love with reading?

Twilight

I'm gonna add a TMI here so please don't feel like you have to read this part.

I didn't get into reading until the summer of my fifth grade year.

I have a learning disorder that makes reading hrd for me.

I was even held back in second grade bc of my reading skills.

At one point I had 3 differrent tutors. I saw them all separately.

16. a book to get u out of a reading slump?

Circus at Devil's Landing

17. a book with a strong female protagonist?

The Golden Boys by Rachel Jonas & Nikki Thorne

18. a book u came across randomly but ended up loving it?

If You Tell by Gregg Olsen

19. do u prefer audio books or e-books?

E-Books

20. hardcovers or paperbacks?

Paperbacks

21. a book that u hated at first but now love it?

Haunting Adeline by H.D. Carlton

22. a book u used to love but now hate?

Willow by Julia Hoban

23. a book genre u haven't read? why?

I haven't read many mystery books.

Idk why.

24. a book that had u bawling ur eyes out?

Where The Red Fern Grows by Wilson Rawls

25. ur fav quote from a book?

I can't think of anything rn...

26. a 'fanfiction' trope that u like to see in books?

Supernatural

27. the last book u read? did u like it?

Circus at Devil's Landing

I loved it!

28. do u annotate ur books?

I do not.

29. give any 3 book recs to ur followers!

I'm Glad My Mom Died by Jennette McCurdy

The Family Across the Street by Nicole Trope - I have only read the first few chapters and it seems like a v good book!

The Black Farm by Elias Witcherow

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Tag 9 people you want to get to know better!

I got tagged by @revlischarm, thank u!

Currently reading:

I’ve been reading “The Ruin Of Kings” by Jenn Lyons! It has a really interesting story and a world I’d love to explore more of, but... the book is set up in a very strange way. For each chapter, the story jumps back and forth across the timeline; one chapter takes place months in the past, the next chapter takes place months AFTER that, and then it keeps jumping between those two points.

At first it was very cleverly handled -- but now we’re 300 pages in, and it has sadly long overstayed its welcome; it’s doing nothing but causing problems for the narrative now. It’s getting hard to understand what’s going on. Things aren’t getting fleshed out properly. And the deeper developing lore is getting confusing, because it’s told in fragmented pieces. Honestly, I wish the gimmick had been dropped; the great story would have been so much better if it was told linearly.

I still really like it, though. I’d definitely recommend it, if you’re able to get past the gimmick!

Favorite Color:

I like many colors! Out of them, blue and purple are especially pretty to me. Purple just has this magical quality to it. It can be dreamy (when it’s closer to blue) or ethereal (when it’s closer to red, violet.) It also pairs very well with the color black!

Last song:

Just Like Fire by Pink! I just discovered that song recently, it’s fun.

Last Movie:

I don’t know if this counts as a MOVIE, but I’ve been watching Lego Monkie Kid with a friend recently (I’ve seen it all, this is me showing the series to them), and we just got to “Revenge of the Spider Queen”. It’s not the longest thing, maybe it’s more like a “special”, but still. (I don’t really watch too many MOVIES, especially when I can’t take breaks in between them.)

Sweet/Spicy/Savory:

Savory, definitely. (I have problems with spice. And I do like sweet things, but I like savory much more.)

Currently working on:

I’m thinking on some AUs for Monkie Kid! I’m having a lot of fun with the ideas I have, especially for OCs. Probably fics here, too. (I’m still trying to practice some style first and get some of my thoughts organized, but I hope to start posting things for them soon.)

Tagging:

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