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caelstyx · 20 days

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Urgent Call: Help Tareq & Dana to Evacuate Gaza

Please consider donating to their gofundme.

Here is there story:

Please read the following statement from my cousin in Gaza sheltering in the church. I pray you can help some of my family members living in Gaza. -Luna Saba Tarazi

Urgent call: Help Tareq and Dana Saba to evacuate Gaza & start over

Introducing us:

‏My name is Tareq Saba, I am 30 years old, a Christian Palestinian. I have lived all my life in Gaza and I have been working as a project coordinator in the humanitarian health field at Caritas Jerusalem in Gaza for the past 5 years.

‏A life that we have dedicated all of our efforts to build despite the difficulties and obstacles in Gaza has suddenly changed overnight. After October 2023, everything has changed, and a lot has been lost. It seems that a life within these walls is now impossible.

‏In the following lines you will learn of our story which after you read, we humbly hope you will lend us your helping hand to start anew.

‏In a warm day on May 2022, Dana and I got married surrounded by our family and friends. We built and designed our house with love and attention to detail. We had a peaceful life and a wonderful home. We had many dreams for our future together, and we dreamed of having a child to fill our lives with joy.

‏Our story and the impact of the war on our family:

‏Nothing remained the same after October the 7th. We learnt the meaning of loss as we lost everything we hold into. We lost our house, our jobs, our “normal” lives, and our dreams and aspirations.

‏One day we received instructions to evacuate our house. We evacuated with only a small bag containing our important papers, some clothes, and a small amount of money. Soon after it got heavily bombed and turned to rubbles of memories. We didn't know that we would never return to the place that held our dearest memories. So yes, we lost everything from the largest details to the smallest ones. And we went through terrible situations that I never thought I would ever experience.

‏It has been over 150 days since we sought refuge at the Church of St. Porphyrius in Gaza, which was not spared from shelling. We survived death several times!

‏Every day is harder than the one before. We fear for our lives due to the lack of basic necessities such as water, food, electricity, medicine, and more. Even the water is contaminated, and diseases and epidemics have spread everywhere.

‏My wife, Dana, was pregnant when the place where my family and I were staying in was targeted by a missile. We remained under the rubbles until we were miraculously rescued. All members of my family, my parents and close relatives, were injured and were transported to the hospital despite the difficulty of access during the shelling, but nothing beats the heartbreak I felt when my wife was injured and we lost our unborn baby.

‏Many of our relatives and friends were killed in this inhumane and unjustified shelling. Only a few of our belongings, lost under the rubble, were recovered. Now even our only “safe” refuge was targeted, and we have no other shelter!

‏I always imagine my baby as a boy while Dana insists they will be a girl but it doesn’t matter, I only prayed they will turn out healthy and safe, but yet again even these prayers were brutally snatched from our hands in front of our eyes and we couldn’t do anything, that’s how helpless I felt when we lost our unborn baby. It is said that the stress, fear, lack of nutrition, contaminated water, and phosphorus caused the miscarriage.

‏We had suffered a miscarriage before, but the pain doesn’t cascade by time, for months we lived through depression. The night we spent under rubbles was a miraculous night, it was impossible to survive under the unforgiving pressure of ruins and then reach the hospital under the heavy bombing but we did and Dana went through a surgery and received treatment.

‏Our house was targeted and destroyed by more than one missile, making it unfit for habitation. It was the dream house that we worked hard to own and design as we dreamed. It became ruins! These are some pictures of the house.

‏It takes one to see death eye to eye to realise the beauty of life. We felt at any moment that we would die, intensifying the reality that our children deserve to live in a place where they don’t wake up everyday to the fear of death and all their demands are met.

‏Dana and I are now back to square one. We lost all the savings of a lifetime and everything we owned in this war. I spent over $80,000 to build and design the house. Currently, the dream house is destroyed, our belongings, clothes, even our memories and beautiful moments were stolen from us. Gaza itself has changed forever, we lost streets, houses, shops, universities, hospitals, and our workplaces.

‏We have almost lost hope, but I believe that we should not despair. With your help, we can succeed. We can stay alive and provide a decent life for my family in a better place. Honestly, this is a real struggle that no one should have to go through.

‏How your fund will help us start anew:

‏Your donations will give our family the motivation to work hard for a fresh start. We have managed to obtain a temporary visa to Australia, and we pray that, with your generosity and assistance, we can raise the necessary funds to leave Gaza.

‏$10,000-12,000 for coordinating the exit through the Rafah border crossing in Egypt.

‏$5,000 for accommodation expenses in Egypt until departure to Australia.

‏$6,000 for plane tickets to leave Egypt.

‏The remaining amount will be used once we arrive in Australia to cover basic expenses such as housing, furniture, food, clothing, and other necessities until I can secure a job in Australia.

‏We know that no one can predict the situation in Gaza. If we cannot travel, whether due to lack of funds, travel risk, or change in accessibility, then we will use the funds collected to meet our needs and rebuild our lives here.

‏Dear friends, we only share our true personal story, and we hope and believe in your support. Every donation, no matter how small, can make a profound difference for us. Our only request remains peace, security, and safety, without fear, doubt, or disappointment, and that tranquility fills our hearts and we have a better future.

‏Whether you donated or not, it is a blessing to know someone out there cares enough to know your story, so Thank you for your time. Keep us in your prayers.

#palestine #mutual aid

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umgeorge · 1 year

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george russell’s very [very, very] long interview with square mile

Interviewer: "In your first year with Mercedes-AMG Petronas, you bagged seven podiums and your first ever race win. That’s not a bad tally given the early performance deficit to Red Bull and Ferrari. How would you reflect on your first full season at Mercedes?" George: "I think when you reflect on seasons or years, you’ve got to be rational and objective with your performance, and if you’d told me at the start of the season I’d only get one win and finish fourth in the Driver’s Championship, I’d have been pretty disappointed with that, because I know the competence that Mercedes hold and I know how much I believe in myself.

But once we learned that we didn’t have a car to fight for a championship, I think I’ve got to be very proud of the job that we achieved to finish fourth, fighting almost for second in the Constructor Standings, winning a race with a car that was a long way off the pace. It was definitely a very good season."

Interviewer: "I think a lot of people were interested to see how Mercedes would respond to not having the best car on the grid. The thing that I took away from it was just what a team you were. There was no finger pointing, even on the weekends where a car wasn’t quite at his best; you were really supportive of the work going on back home in Brackley, and you seemed to really plug together." George: "Yeah, absolutely. I think years like that define teams, organisations, people. I think it brought everybody together stronger. We were all tested, but I think the way we sort of stuck together and powered through and supported one another, the ‘no blame’ culture within the organisation, it really helped the team to progress. We obviously wanted to go into this year with a car that was more competitive, but we’re kind of in the same situation again where we’re going to have to come together, dig deep within all of us to get through the relative difficulties." Interviewer: "I don’t want to get too bogged down in the W14, because the problems have been well publicised, but in your eyes what would you take as a success given where you find yourself in the 2023 pecking order?" George: "I think it’s too early to tell, but what I’m sure about within this team is everybody wants to win and they will do anything in their hands to be able to achieve that. Clearly, we aren’t where we want to be as a team. We’ve made some big gains off the back of 2022 in many regards, but ultimately our lap time isn’t quite reflecting the efforts and the work that has been put in. So we need to understand further and I think almost trust in the process, the amount of brilliant people within that team, just doing what they do best to find the performance, understanding what will make a car go faster, believing in themselves, because I truly believe Mercedes are the best in the business. It’s all about coming together to push forward." Interviewer: "I think getting that win on the board last year was crucial. From your own perspective, getting that first Grand Prix victory in Brazil, especially after the year you’d had, it must have been incredibly special. Could you tell me what your feelings were as you crossed the line? "George: "It’s the moment that any young racing driver dreams of achieving, but I guess you don’t really know how you’re going to feel until it becomes a reality. When you cross that line, obviously so many emotions go running through your head. I think also for me because it’d probably taken a bit longer than I would’ve hoped or wanted because of the situation that I found myself in and let’s say the challenges I went through with Williams before. But I think what I’ll always remember from that day, what was most special to me, is seeing how much it meant to everybody in the team. There were members of the team in tears of joy, the hard work and dedication, this is people’s lives that they put into the sport. And knowing that you’ve contributed towards their fulfilment and happiness and pride was such a special moment." Interviewer: "I think it’s very easy to forget in all the glamour of Formula 1 and the intensity of the sport, that there’s an army of individuals that have helped make this happen." George: "Yeah, absolutely. We’re a part of a 2,000- strong team whereby every single individual is contributing towards the performance. It doesn’t matter if you are directly related to the car development and build or if you’re in the marketing department or the hospitality department, every single member of the team is key to developing and helping us achieve the results for which we’re all striving. And obviously on a Sunday, if you are lucky enough to be on that podium to represent the team, there is a lot of focus on that one individual, but that is far from the reality. You can’t do any of this without a strong team behind you." Interviewer: "It’s a lot of pressure, though, on the driver. Carlos Sainz told me a couple of years ago that almost every driver on the grid comes to Formula 1 as a winner – whether that’s F2, F3 or another Formula series. You’ve crossed the line first plenty of times in your careers, but it’s only when you get to Formula 1 where that goes away, and you feel a sense of imposter syndrome. ‘Am I actually good enough to be here?’ Have you ever experienced that?" George: "I always believed in myself and always believed that, given the opportunity, I’ll be able to do the job. I think there’s probably six or seven drivers on the grid right now that if you gave them a championship-winning car, they’re capable of winning week in, week out. But ultimately, there’s quite often no more than two cars that are capable of winning a championship at any one time, and sometimes only one car that’s capable of winning a championship. So you’re talking about potentially only two drivers who’ve got a shot at that top glory. But as an individual, you need to make sure you are absolutely ready for when that one opportunity comes. If I take Brazil last year as an example, we didn’t really know going into that weekend that it was going to be our strongest weekend of the year. We thought it might be a stronger one, but we absolutely did not expect that performance. So it came as a bit of a surprise, and you as a driver have to make sure you’re on your A-game every single weekend, because that just might be your weekend or that may just be your year. You can’t afford any slip-ups. This is my fifth year already and it feels like yesterday when I was in Williams for my very first year, and I obviously got the opportunity with Mercedes a couple of years ago replacing Lewis [Hamilton]. We had a very dominant car there and, without a puncture, we would have won the race. So that was an opportunity of a lifetime and you have to make sure you are ready to capture it." Interviewer: "Let’s talk about Sakhir 2020. I think for people who follow the sport, we knew how good you were at Williams, but putting you in Hamilton’s championship-winning car was the acid test. Talk about the perfect audition! Could you take me through that weekend?" George: "It all came very suddenly. I got the phone call out of the blue, I think it was on a Wednesday night. First, they informed me that Lewis had Covid and Mercedes wanted me to replace him, and then it probably took half a day to get the contract sorted. Obviously Williams needed to find a replacement driver. It wasn’t a straightforward change, just to say, ‘Yes, you are in.’ And then it was a bit of a rollercoaster: learning a new car, working with a new team, understanding a completely different steering wheel, new operations. To put it in simple terms, if you get a new road car, it takes a couple of days before you know where all the buttons are, where the radio is, exactly what all the functions do. Obviously, it was the penultimate race of the season, so trying to unlearn everything I knew at Williams to then relearn, let’s say, the Mercedes ways and the Mercedes systems and protocols. It takes time. But all in all it was a pretty smooth weekend and I felt confident from the off. You just knew how good that team was and the car was probably the best car they’ve ever built, so in that regard it was quite straightforward jumping in and being able to do the job. We got into the lead into Turn 1, led the race for most of the duration, and then I think it was ten laps to go when I got the puncture and that was game over. It was pretty painful at the time, but I look back now and my life would be no different whatsoever if I won that race or the race ended up as it did. I’ve won a Formula 1 Grand Prix and I sit here today as a Grand Prix winner. I could be sat here as a two-time Grand Prix winner, but to me now, in life, you’re constantly climbing this ladder. I don’t think it ever stops. When I was at Williams, the step was to score points. And once you’ve achieved that, you want to score points more often, and when you achieve points more often, you want to achieve points in every race. And there’s the podium and then it’s a win. And once you’ve achieved the win, you want to achieve a championship. Of course I want to win two races, three races, ten races, but if I ended my career with one win or ten wins, but no championships, the difference is nothing. I want to win more races, but the ultimate goal is to win championships – and that’s everything that we’re working towards." Interviewer: "Do you think starting your career at Williams – we all went through that rollercoaster of emotions with you and the battle for your first points – do you actually think stepping into a car towards the rear of the grid gives you a bit of a unique edge over some of these competitors who maybe stepped into a very fast car?" George: "I think that’s something you would never know. It’s something I tell myself because I like to be glass half full and I want to take the positive out of every situation. But I could sit here and say I lost three years of my career because I was in a car that was right at the back of a grid and I couldn’t fight for wins. Or you can see all the positives from my time there. I look at those years now thinking, “Yeah, perhaps I did learn more racing at the back compared to what some of my rivals may have done being thrown in the deep end from the beginning.” Some drivers have been thrown in at the deep end early and it’s hurt their careers. For example, Max Verstappen obviously got his promotion after 18 months, but perhaps if he went into a team like Mercedes against Lewis Hamilton at the peak of his powers, it could have damaged his career. So you’ve got to look at it from both sides, and for sure Max was a greater driver after three or four years under his belt compared to where he was after 18 months under his belt. If you’re going up against a guy who’s absolutely in his prime and dominating in the car that he’s so used to, maybe he wouldn’t be in the position he is today. So I’ve got to be grateful for the people who have advised me and helped me and nurtured me to this position. In those three years that passed by, perhaps I could have been fighting a bit higher up the grid, but if I wasn’t in a Mercedes, I wouldn’t have been fighting for championships. So what’s the difference for me? At the end of the day, I want to win championships and if I was at the back of the grid or let’s say if I was fighting for top sevens, to be honest there’s no difference. Ultimately, I’m happy with where I am right now." Interviewer: "The transition to Mercedes was incredibly smooth. You immediately picked up the pace. I think you showed that in 2022 with how closely you and Hamilton were on performance. In the end, of course, you beat Hamilton in the Driver’s Championship. That must have been quite validating?" George: "For me, being teammates with Lewis is such a golden opportunity. Especially now that the car isn’t performing as we want, having him as my teammate has saved me in some regard, because if he had retired or left the sport when I joined the team, and we took this step backwards, people would be pointing the blame towards me! But I feel like now I’ve proven my worth and I’ve proven what I’m capable of, so there’s no pressure in that regard. I’m out there to do the best job possible and I think that is a very fortunate position to be in. I’m not worried about any statistics or making sure that I’m on Lewis’s pace or whatever because I feel like I showed that last year, there’s already been two races this year and I qualified ahead both times, and the pace was very close between the two of us in the race. What a position to be in to go up against the greatest ever." Interviewer: "Working very closely with Hamilton, what would you say is the one key learning that you’ve taken away?" George: "I think he’s a very good people person. He’s very good at getting the most out of the people around him, motivating the team. He’s very resilient, he’s always pushing himself further. And he has a lot of hobbies as well away from the sport, which I think is really interesting, because it allowed him to take his mind away from the racing and to be in a better head space for when he comes back. We’re obviously at very different stages of our career, but I’m definitely taking inspiration from how he conducts himself, how he approaches his racing and how he approaches his life. He’s very impressive." Interviewer: "That’s a very good segue into your work at the moment on mental health, which is clearly something that is very important to you. I think Hamilton has proven just how vital it is to use your platform and your voice for the power of good, and it seems you are doing the same. Could you tell us more about your mental health campaign?" George: "I think it’s an incredibly important issue. I started digging into the topic of mental health firstly for human performance, not to necessarily resolve any issues or to get anything off my shoulders, but it was to try and get more out of my professional life and my own personal performance. It was only after speaking with professionals and talking to people and taking advice that I realised taking care of my mental health was not only beneficial in my professional life, but it was also helping me on a personal level. I would walk away from a conversation feeling like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders. I felt in a better frame of mind and a better place to tackle the day ahead or the next challenge. It opened my mind and I probably started to see things a little bit better in others, and perhaps the difficulties other people are going through which I may not have recognised initially, as well as the challenges of having the courage to talk to somebody about it. That’s why I’m working on this mental health campaign with Meta, posting a number of videos on Instagram, to encourage men to discuss their mental health and to try and get help if they need it. I think especially in men, there’s an element of personal pride, particularly in the old way of thinking, of being tough and just roughing it out, but that’s not necessarily the best way. We all need to be encouraged that there is no shame in talking to somebody. If I can use my platform to have a greater impact than just racing, then that fills me with pride to be able to do that." Interviewer: "How do you think we break that social stigma around men talking?" George: "I think it’s about raising awareness. People in the limelight talking about mental health freely and openly gives others the confidence and encouragement to do it. How do we encourage more to do it? I definitely don’t have all of the answers – far from it – but I think the more we can talk about it, the more we can share our own experiences, I think that can only be beneficial." Interviewer: "Formula 1 is renowned as being an incredibly mentally taxing sport. In terms of your own mental health journey, how have you handled that and who do you reach out to when things are tough?" George: "I speak to my friends, my girlfriend’s incredibly supportive, but also my trainer, Aleix Casanovas. I travel the world with Aleix, he’s been with me since 2017 now, so it’s our seventh year together, and he’s done every single race with me since that point. Just having him there as somebody who understands the journey, understands the pressures, that’s incredibly important. Also for me, the change in my professional life going from becoming an F1 driver, but one nearer the back of the grid, slightly out of the limelight, to one now who is slightly more at the front of the grid in the spotlight. The things you say are now being picked up more by the media and perhaps words may have been twisted or changed slightly, people’s perception of you changes as well, so it’s just learning how to deal with that change, because it’s not easy. Last year, for the first time, I experienced some fans booing me on a driver’s parade. I’d never experienced that before. I’m a 24-year-old kid living his dream, just going out, working hard, trying to do his best, and you got these grown men booing you. I laughed it off, but it makes you think. It’s a funny old world. Many of us live on social media, which is an incredibly toxic place, especially in the Formula 1 sphere. For me, it’s learning and understanding how to deal with this but also recognising the challenges that young adults or teenagers in school go through with social media. It’s very difficult, and these sort of social issues are only becoming greater over time. So yeah, just circling back to your question, I talk with the people who I trust and love the most and they offer a huge hand. But to be honest, the one who potentially helps me the most is my psychologist, because he knows the questions to ask, he knows how to react to certain things I say because he is a professional. We use this example of, if you want to go to the gym and get fit, you may work out with a personal trainer or a fitness coach. A psychologist is a fitness coach for your mind. And the same way as a fitness coach knows what to do to train your body to help you get fitter, a psychologist knows those spots to tap into on your mind and to help you feel freer in ways." Interviewer: "I know Nico Rosberg credited his sports psychologist as being one of the reasons he was able to beat Lewis Hamilton in 2016, so I’m not surprised to hear that…" George: "Yeah, absolutely. I feel fortunate that I’ve found myself in this position to work with such a professional because it definitely helps me in my personal life. It doesn’t matter what position you are in, what stage of life you’re in, we all go through challenges, we all have personal issues, and life isn’t straightforward for anybody. It doesn’t matter how rosy it looks on the outside, there’s always something in all of us that is challenging. So finding ways and having this sort of mental maintenance, almost keeping things ticking over, rather than seeking out help once there’s a problem, that’s really important." Interviewer: "You are part of a generation of drivers who grew up together in karting. A lot of you knew each other throughout your teens. Do drivers in the starting grid ever sit down to talk, and kind of go, 'Today was a really shit day in the car,' or something like that?" George: "Well, firstly, we’re obviously all competitors. We’re all highly competitive. I wouldn’t say there are huge rivalries on the track, but once the helmet’s on, you’re all there competing to beat one another. But there’s definitely an element of understanding between all of us, whether that’s understanding a person who’s struggling for performance personally, whether it’s understanding the person who’s struggling in their team and the results aren’t there. Or even understanding the guy who’s winning and the stresses and pressures that come with that. One of the most mentally fatiguing moments of my year last year was actually when I won the race in Brazil because there were so many emotions that I went through during the race, so many emotions after the race, so much attention from the media and the cameras, so much love and support from friends and families and social media. It was almost overwhelming at points and it’s a completely different dynamic. That was quite eye opening for me, the pressures and the mental toll of winning a race. It’s not easy. I think between all the 20 drivers, we get one another: we’re just one of 20, we’re the only ones in this position. We don’t necessarily offer support because the friendships aren’t quite that close, maybe between one or two, but definitely there’s an understanding." Interviewer: "In terms of your role as director of the Grand Prix Drivers’ Association, I know it’s something you’re passionate about, could you talk more about what that actually looks like?" George: "I work with two of the key members, who are Alex Wurz, who is an ex-Formula 1 driver, and Anastasia Fowle, who’s the legal counsel. And I’ve got to be honest, they do the brunt of the work because they are truly representing us drivers. I think Alex and I are the eyes and ears on the ground, we’re the ones talking more directly among the drivers. We’d always get together, we’d always have a driver’s briefing on a Friday night before every race, between the FIA and Formula 1, but probably every four races, all 20 drivers would just stay together and talk about a given issue. Sometimes there are more issues at play, sometimes there’s nothing to discuss because there are no major concerns, but I think the main role is probably driver safety. Then secondly, it’s trying to improve the sport, improve the racing, which is something we all feel passionate about. Then probably making sure that the sport strikes the right balance between access and exclusivity. I think there are a number of things that are being proposed to the sport that may come at the compromise of drivers, so you have to make sure that there’s a balance. It’s something I enjoy doing; I enjoy being a part of it, and similar to the mental health topic, if I can look back in 20 years time – obviously my number one goal is to win world championships – but if I can look back and say that I’ve had a positive impact on the sport, whether it’s for the show or the racing or the safety, that’s something I can be proud of, too." Interviewer: "All that being said, are you happy with the direction that Formula 1 is heading in after the changes to the regulations?" George: "We’re in a really unique position at the moment in Formula 1 that the sport is growing substantially, crowds are being sold out week in, week out, which is absolutely incredible. Cars are changing, they’re faster, heavier. But things evolve and you need to move with the times and we all need to look out for everybody’s interest for the global benefit of what we’re all doing. Big-picture cap on, the sport is definitely headed in the right direction. I think Liberty Media and Stefano Domenicali, they are really great people to push the sport forward, the decisions are all being made for the right reasons, and the sport’s on the up. We just need to continue pushing. It’s an exciting journey and I can’t wait to see what’s next." Interviewer: "What does Toto Wolff mean to you?" George: "He’s been an integral part of my career. Highly intelligent, a charismatic bloke, he’s been a huge part of the success of the team and is going to be a huge part of the return of Mercedes after what’s been a difficult season. A huge motivator, an unbelievable leader, he gives everybody his time. It doesn’t matter if they are a chief aerodynamicist or working on the shop floor, he respects everybody. I think that’s why he still has such a team around him and so much trust. I feel fortunate to work with such a great guy.” Interviewer: "In your karting days, was the prospect of driving in Formula 1 this foggy dream or did you have total clarity that, one day, you would end up on the starting grid?" George: "I think when I was old enough to understand everything, it was absolutely clear to me that Formula 1 was what I wanted to achieve. At that age, I thought it was going to be easy. I thought, 'I’ll go out and win races, and if I win races I’ll be in Formula 1, then I’ll be a world champion.' As simple as that. It was probably only when I was 16 or 17 where reality struck me and I recognised winning probably isn’t enough. Sometimes you need to go above and beyond, especially when you’re fighting for 20 opportunities in the world out of the hundreds of thousands of kids who start out go karting at a young age, all dreaming of that one opportunity." Interviewer: "Both Lando Norris and Max Verstappen have recently been quoted as saying that you have the potential to be a future world champion. It must be nice when people are saying things like that, but what do you think you have to do in order to actually get there?" George: "Yeah, I mean obviously it’s always nice to hear positive things being spoken about you, but as I said before, there’s probably a handful of drivers on the grid right now who are all world champion worthy, some of which are already world champions, some of which haven’t won world championships yet and would definitely win a world championship if they were in the right car at the right time. As to what I can do to give myself the best chance, it’s just about continuing to work and keep on pushing, never giving up and ultimately making sure that I’m ready to fight when you’ve got that machine beneath you that’s capable of winning. I hope that comes sooner than later, but I believe I’ve got a good 15 years left in me and I’ve got to keep on working on my fitness, keep on working on my race craft, keep on working on how I work with my team to make sure that if my opportunity is tomorrow, I’m ready tomorrow. If my opportunity is in three, four, five, or even ten years, so be it."

#george russell #f1 #formula 1 #fic ref #fic ref 2023 #not a race #2023 not a race #between australia and baku 2023 #with lewis #tw max #tw nico

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suvarnarekha · 1 year

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Havan | Day - III

• Favourite Relationship •

♡ Nala and Damyanti ♡

@agnisuta | Havan 2022 | Day #3

Story Synopsis ~

King Nisadh of Ayodhya had two sons Nala and Kuvara. Nala wanted to marry Damayanti, the beautiful daughter of king Bhima. Damayanti did not know him, so Nala sent his swan to her. The swan flew to Damayanti's palace and finding her alone in the garden, sang praises of Nala. Meanwhile, King Bhima arranged for her swayamvara, where many princes gathered from whom Damayanti could chose her husband. Damayanti chose Nala and they got married.

When King Nishadh died, Nala became king. He conquered many other kingdoms and became famous. This made his brother Kuvara jealous. He knew gambling was Nala's weakness. Kuvara challenged Nala to a game of dice in which Nala lost everything. Kuvara became the king and banished Nala from his kingdom. Nala went to the forest and Damayanti, who loved him very much followed him. As they walked in the forest, Damayanti injured her feet. Nala did not want the delicate Damayanti to go through hardships with him, so when she was sleeping he left her and went ahead.

Further into the forest, he found a snake on the top of a tree that had caught fire from below. As he tried to bring it down, the snake bit him and Nala turned dark and developed a hunchback.

Nala asked the snake, "Why did you bite me? I was trying to save your life."

The snake said, "I am your father Nisadh. The next twelve years will be full of difficulties for you. I changed your appearance to protect you from your enemies. Whenever you want to get back your original looks wear this ornament."

Nala proceeded to another kingdom. Meanwhile, when Damayanti woke up she found a note from Nala asking her to go to her parents. As she moved ahead, she met a demon that threatened to eat her. Impressed with her fearlessness he came into his real form. He was actually a god, who told her that she would unite with her husband after twelve years. Damayanti proceeded to Achalpura kingdom where she became the queen's maid. Nala went to the kingdom of Samsumara and became a servant of the king.

Many years thus passed.

One day, King Bhima's men found Damayanti in Achalpura and brought her back to her father. King Bhima tried to find Nala but failed, so he made a plan. He arranged the swayamvaar of Damayanti knowing that when Nala came to know about the second marriage of his wife, he would certainly come to her. King Bhima was right. Nala came with his master, the king of Samsumara. A day before the swayamvara Damayanti saw the dark hunch back servant. She immediately recognised him. Nala also put on the ornament given by his father and regained his original looks. But the swayamvara had been arranged to Damayanti asked him to be present there. On the day of swayamvara she put the garland around Nala's neck and they were united. The twelve-year period was also over. With the help of King Bhima's army, Nala won his kingdom back and again became the king of Ayodhya.

One day, a monk visited Nala's palace and told him the reason why he had to undergo the twelve-year exile. in their previous birth also Nala and Damayanti were king and queen and they had thrown an innocent monk in prison. Their exile was a punishment for their karma of a previous birth.

After facing so many atrocities and hardships, Nala who had mastered the art of chausar, won his kingdom back. Nala and Damyanti got their lost glory and lived happily ever after ruling over Nishadh.

#nala and damyanti #Mahabharata #Mahabharat #hindublr #desiblr #love #eternal #Havan 2022

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tellthemeerkatsitsfine · 1 year

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Has anyone else had difficulty this year or last with finding themselves behind everyone else on starting to do things again, and this having the slightly unexpected (to me, at least of when it first started happening) of being behind schedule with the reactions? I’ve had this happen a lot since last spring, and even more since last fall when I started properly trying to do stuff again for the first time, and I haven’t heard many people talk about it. I guess because by nature it won’t be something most people experience. But I recently heard someone put into words a few things that have happened and that I haven’t been able to really articulate or attribute before I heard it sort of explained.

I’ve compared being around people after lockdowns (I don’t really mean “after lockdowns”, because I stayed home not just during government-mandated lockdowns but also any during time they recommended we stay home, but I don’t know a better way to put that, I can’t say “after COVID” because it isn’t “after COVID”) to alcohol tolerance. That if you don’t drink for months then you’ll be drunk after two beers. I’ve always found it difficult to be around people for too long, but had built up a tolerance to it out of necessity. After 2020 and 2021, I found that tolerance completely shot. When I tried for in-person interactions, I needed breaks much faster than I had in 2019, in a way that I think may have been accommodated better back when everyone was still getting used to it.

I stayed in something close to full lockdown mode until about May of 2022, but even then, I’d go out a bit and then get paranoid and stop, and there was a lot of stopping and starting until quite late in 2022. I felt okay when I could wear a mask, but not so much at sports practices, where masks are not practical, and even if we wore them, it would be pointless. There’s just no socially distanced version of this one, no safe way to do it in COVID conditions. You know how when people first got vaccinated, everyone made jokes about “now I can go back to licking doorknobs the way I did in 2019”? That’s pretty much what my friends and I actually did. “Oh good, now we can go back to gathering several times a week with a bunch of other people in a cramped indoor space, and taking turns to physically roll around in each other’s personal space and on a mat covered in their sweat, and then change partners to make sure everyone does this with everyone else before we all go home.”

My first few weeks back – really my first few months back, but it was a little at a time spread out across months as I kept stopping when it got too hard, and then starting again weeks later – were so difficult, and I think it was worse because no one else was going through it. I needed to come back slowly, a little at a time, while I got used to it and figure out where I fit. While everyone else had already done their processing and things just seemed normal to them.

I’d get panic attacks so frequently, and I don’t know how much was because I’d spent two years being conditioned to view that indoor close contact as a dangerous and scary situation, and how much was because my tolerance for human interaction was so low and it got overwhelmed within minutes. Due to what I think is a combination of those factors, I spent a lot of hours sitting in the change room freaking out, and then I’d go home and feel absolutely hopeless about the fact that the thing I loved before COVID was lost to me. I felt like I’d never be able to enjoy it again.

Things got better eventually, but so slowly. And they’re still not perfect, though they’re much much better than before. But I think I did resent a little how it was only weird for me, because everyone else was less careful than I was and went back to it long before I did. So everyone else did their “Yeah this feels weird” phase while I was still refusing to leave my house except to get groceries. And then I go back and to everyone else this is just normal, they’re already used to it, and I’m just trying to figure it out on my own.

I went to a tournament for the first time in November 2022, and that was weird too because I felt like it should be a reunion, but it wasn’t for everyone else. Before COVID all these people saw each other most weekends for most of the year, and then they went so long without it, and coming together again was a big deal. But that happened long before I joined, and by the time I got on board, they were all used to it again. So there was no sense of this one being a big deal to anyone but me.

I asked my friend what it was like at the first couple of tournaments, and he said it was weird but very good. Everyone had been hurting so much, and they were all so relieved to see each other again, even the ones who never got along. People from different teams that had always had drama were hugging each other and talking just because they were so happy to be back. Everyone was a little hesitant and a little rusty and a little uncertain. And I really wish I’d been part of that. I’m bad at adjusting to changes anyway, and I’ve found it harder to do once everyone else had already adjusted and this was only weird anymore for me.

A lot of people were very nice, of course. In some cases, the one thing that was new for the people around me was my presence, and that was something. I had some old friends who were very excited to see me back. And a lot of people were understanding of how often I needed to take breaks, especially at first but really I still do. I’m much more adjusted than I was, but not to how it was in 2019. The bar for how long I have to be around people before panic attacks occur is still lower than it used to be. And I still don’t really feel safe or comfortable in close indoor conditions with no mask.

Again, it’s just something I haven’t heard many people talk about, because by it’s nature, it’s something that hasn’t happened to most people. So I hadn’t even really put into words how much this affected my experience, until I heard it talked a bit a bit yesterday and said “Oh right, that’s what’s been happening.” But I figure if anyone else has experienced this, it’ll be people on this website. So I guess the point of this post is to say... anyone else know what I’m talking about with this? If so, sorry to hear that, and it’s not just you, and maybe it’s worth trying not to lose all hope for the future the way I did, because maybe adjustment does happen eventually and things can get better.

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itsyourchoicedevotionals · 2 years

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Point Of Giving Up

“Brothers and sisters, you need to know about the severe trials we experienced… All of the hardships we passed through crushed us beyond our ability to endure, and we were so completely overwhelmed that we were about to give up entirely. It felt like we had a death sentence written upon our hearts, and we still feel it to this day. It has taught us to lose all faith in ourselves and to place all of our trust in the God who raises the dead. He has rescued us from terrifying encounters with death. And now we fasten our hopes on Him to continue to deliver us from death yet again,” 2Corinthians 1:8-10TPT

Historians and Commentators can only guess what occurred in Paul’s life, which overwhelmed him to feel at the point of death. They agree, on the fact, the Corinthians had been aware of the occurrence. Beyond that is speculation— a severe bodily illness; perhaps the rioting at Ephesus which forced him to flee for his life to Macedonia, (Acts 19). My thoughts went to Acts 14, when they stoned Paul.

Have you ever said, ‘I thought it would kill me?’ There’s been many instances where I thought something would ‘kill me.’ I’ve voiced those words. Physically, I’ve floated down the tunnel of death to the most glorious Light and peace in a near death experience. Through Mom’s intercession, I lived.

Heartaches, finances, personal illness, Dad’s two almost-death experiences, family’s rebellions, children’s drugs, auto accidents all brought me to despair. Being totally overwhelmed more times than people can believe. During those storms I stayed in front of God in prayer. There was no other way for me to be able to endure. When a beloved relative turned on me, I hit bottom. Pain in that hole convinced me, it would kill me. For over two years, I couldn’t sleep over three hours before arising and returning to God about the situation. He brought us all through, restored relationships and gave us a future together. Praise His name forever.

The future is going to be rough and glorious. Matthew 24 promises persecution. Do you thrive on persecution? I don’t. Bill Gates and the Cabal want to kill off six billion, and tag the rest of us like dogs— aka mark of the beast. The Democrats are doing their best to: — remove our personal freedoms — tank the economy and escalate inflation — take away of our personal weapons and ammo all this since they got rid of Trump, etc.

Meanwhile, God promises us good. see Haggai 2:6-9, Proverbs 13:22TPT “… but the wealth of the wicked is treasured up for the righteous.” Psalm 23:1ESV “The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want.” Matthew 24:22ESV “And if those days had not been cut short, no human being would be saved. But for the sake of the elect those days will be cut short.” Psalm 55:22ESV “Cast your burden on the LORD, and He will sustain you; He will never permit the righteous to be moved.” Hebrews 13:5CEV “Don’t fall in love with money. Be satisfied with what you have. The Lord has promised that He will not leave us or desert us.” Isaiah 26:3NT “You will keep in perfect peace all who trust in You, all whose thoughts are fixed on You!”

Bottom line: Every single time, I was overwhelmed to the point of giving up, God stepped in…… Otherwise, I know I wouldn’t be here. When I came to my end, Jesus carried me through to a better end.

Really serious heartaches and troubles bring us to the place of decisions. Will we trust? Have we learned this truth— HE IS ENOUGH? Hopefully, you’ll decide without the difficulties. It’s your choice. You choose.

PRAYER: Abba Father, thank You for being enough. Help us to stand in this truth You are enough in the rough seas ahead, in the name Jesus Christ I pray.

#Jesus Christ #lord of lords #Word of God #Holy Spirit #God #it's your choice #devotional #give up #point #overwhelmed #despair of life #let go #trust #love #hope #faith

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having-trouble-feeling-feelings · 4 months

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the one about him

apr. 16th, 2022.

I feel that, as time passes and we mature, life becomes emotionally more difficult to deal with. Maturing means trying to understand new perspectives, other pasts and learning to reframe the behavior that other people have towards us. I've been going through this process for the last ten years, since I really grew up, but it hasn't made the feelings any easier to deal with.

"this is my house. if I want to go through your things, I'll go through them. if I want to go into your room without permission, I'll come in. whether it's to look for things in your drawers or to take advantage of the fact that you left in a hurry and forgot your computer unlocked. What's under that roof belongs to me."

it was the strange case of a man who never allowed himself or even bothered to talk. He never had the courage to sit down and ask me how I was, what was going on in my head, why I was behaving strangely. His way of entering my life was through invasive actions.

"It's my house and it's going to be like this. Nobody here crows but me", he said countless times during my adolescence. and it really was all his. the living room was his environment, the irritation got to the point that I couldn't sit on any of the four sofas, because I wouldn't leave him with a "smell".

the yard was his too. the kitchen was a feminine environment, so it was impossible for it to be mine, there was no logic. the corridors were under his constant surveillance.

my room could be a safe space, but, as I was always told, everything under that roof belonged to him. he was the owner of my sleep - whether it was knocking on the door to wake me up whenever he wanted, or making noise in the surroundings. he owned my privacy - with drawers opened and searched, cupboards raided, even my computer had been inspected in the only slip-up in years. he became the owner of my peace and quiet too - I couldn't rest, watch series or films, as I should have been studying. I couldn't play video games because I was glared at. he could not receive friends, as this interfered with his privacy.

On May 1st I bought my independence and went to live alone. I realized, within a few days, that I would never be able to give up what I had recently achieved, and it took me weeks to get used to the new environment.

As already mentioned, in the first weeks I felt every day that he would appear there, in my environment, to ruin something. to bring guilt, to make a defect, to criticize, SOMETHING would happen.

but nothing happened. This text is to tell you that, in almost a year, I don't know very well what happened to my father and the relationship we had. With more time to reflect, I realized that I am a person who still carries a lot of hurt and a lot of anger for everything I went through and for having taken so long to realize it. I can't feel close, I can't have much affection and, since the episode in which, even though he lived alone, he insisted on saying that "I wouldn't enter his roof wearing anything on my face, be it lipstick, moisturizer, foundation or even a sunblock".

Since that day we have only exchanged good mornings.

I never heard an apology. I heard adjacent requests, beneficial behaviors, requests from him for my visits to last longer. We don't talk about life, he doesn't talk about himself or ask about anyone. Like the elderly man he is, he lives in his cocoon, isolated from the world, cycling through forests and dirt roads. does not seem to carry any kind of guilt or difficulty. He doesn't seem to mind being alone, he even prefers it that way.

I feel like a bad person for not liking my father. There's simply no bond with him, there's no relationship, it's like a stranger who lived with my mother. There was also no serious case that would justify this - I feel that the episodes of emotional violence I suffered did not justify my disaffection, I feel guilty knowing that there are so many people with such worse parents and I am here, ungrateful.

our relationship has become a shell, empty, a hollow that has bothered me but is not within my power to be resolved. he has changed, he has definitely changed in this one year - but not for the better. found an alternative version, which in the absence of harassment, became just that: absence.

and yet, I can't help but feel guilty for also cultivating an absence, this time, of feelings.

#journal #father issues #getting older

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emeskei · 6 months

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Hi Blog! Hello everyone ☺️. I am Mhaire Shaine Kristel M. Adier, 18 years of age. A senior high student of Gaudencio E. Abordo Memorial National High School. And now, I just want to share with you my experienced last sy. 2022-2023. Enjoy reading! 🤍

*First, I want to share with you this picture.

✓ Actually, it was the first day of school when we were still in grade 11. Of course, when friends meet again for the first time, take a picture. Because I like to take a picture of remembrance, so that when the time comes I have something to remember when I see that picture again. It's also a time where, we are excited about the lessons, even if we feel pressured and nervous.

*Selfie with them.❤️

✓ This picture reminds me that two separate sections are now together. As a reminder, we took a group picture, again, another document that could be memorized. Today is a happy day because one of our teachers is with us. It's exciting because we will meet many more and our family will grow. At first it was refreshing because the people you used to only meet will now be in the same room with you. The one you used to just want to be with, now you're really with them and it feels good.

*Groupie!🥰

✓ First day with the other section. It's a little nerve-wracking and new, but it's okay, I still have solid friends with me. There's no obvious pressure there, of course that's what you'll feel when you meet new faces and new habits. Of course another adjustment will happen. In this picture, we were still quite at first, just observing. Obviously addicted to the picture, as well as the memory, so that one day someone will miss the perfect ones.

*Bonding with friends!🤍

✓ Just a little bonding and talking after doing the activity. Actually, group activity. When we were done, we decided to go to the beach to get some fresh air and bond while we still had time. Share of the fullness of life, laughter and teasing. Sometimes we also need to take a break from things that are quite complicated, give yourself time to relax even just for a little while. Enjoy and be happy!😊

*Long walk with them.

✓ It's more fun! longer hours, more to talk about and more to do. Sign that we have unity in our friendship. That time because we passed by Villa Fria, we went there on a trip to spend more time together and it was worth it because we got to know each other better. When I see this picture, especially when I'm alone, I laugh because I remember our laughter and teasing while we were going home, I miss it. Sometimes you lose track of time because of the fun, it relieves fatigue and stress.

*Milktea before exam!🧋

✓ This is the last quarter of our exam, so milktea with friends first. Relax, relax and relax along with a cooler, to cool down a little stress in the exam. I like to take a pictures of important events in life that are connected to me especially when I want to keep them as a remembrance. Because even the smallest things that make me happy are important to me.

*With honor!💗 (Fourth quarter)

✓ I want to say that I am proud of myself, of my whole me who is willing to face all the trials of life even when it is tiring and discouraging. I'm proud of myself because I remain strong and strong in all life's challenges.

📌 For students like me, let's not think about the difficulty, let's think that we can do it. Let's think about how we can get out of the hardships of life, it's just a challenge for us so let's always choose to be strong. Make the sacrifice our parents give us an inspiration, don't give up because I believe we can overcome it. No matter how hard we go through, it's worth it in the end if we work harder. God is good in all the time.

Thank you for reading! Godbless.😇❤️

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needy-duo-overdose · 1 year

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Everyone has been hurt before, no matter how much or how little, we all have. Imagine if you were in high school, where everything is confusing and you're still learning about the world. That hurt will only build more and more, and you have no outlet to take it out on. This is the reality for a lot of teens in high school. Books like Speak by Laurie Halse Anderson has been banned in many schools in the United States, making it the 4th most banned book in the country. People say it's because the book is inappropriate for teenagers in high school, or it has a bias against males. This is just an excuse to further bury the real issue. Around 1 in 4 girls and 1 in 8 boys will be sexually assaulted before they are 18. High school is the prime time to teach kids about sexual assault, to let them know they aren’t alone in their trauma. Laurie Halse Anderson's book could even save lives. Speak and other pieces of literature like it can be used to teach awareness to adolescents and help them overcome this disturbance in their life.

As stated earlier, Speak is a book written by Laurie Halse Anderson. It's about a young girl named Melinda, who was raped during a party in the summer of her 8th grade year by someone going into his senior year. Melinda goes through her freshman year being ostracized by the other kids in her school because she called the police at that party. She was silent as her and her friends drifted apart and end up acting as if they don’t know each other anymore. Melinda's former best friend, Rachel/Rachelle, tries to find herself and ends up dating the boy that raped Melinda. Melinda is stuck between saving Rachel or abandoning her like she felt Rachel had done to her at the party that summer. She ends up telling Rachel that Andy is a rapist. Melinda finally finds her voice at the end of the novel, threatening Andy and telling her art teacher about what happened to her on that night. This is a book about triumphing against everything that went against you and realizing that you must speak to heal.

Speak is a book that should never be banned in schools. Despite that, Speak has become the fourth most banned book in libraries and schools as of 2020 under the illusion of "it was thought to contain a political viewpoint and it was claimed to be biased against male students and for the novel’s inclusion of rape and profanity" (Admin, 2022). There is no bias against men in the novel, just a male antagonist that had done an awful thing to our protagonist. It's appropriate in the sense that adolescents need to learn that these things are real, and that it can and does happen to thousands of children and teens on the daily.

"Suicide is the third leading cause of death in adolescents" (Olshen, 2007). The cases have gone down over the years, but suicide among teenagers is still a huge problem. Sexual assault cases are proven to be one of the leading causes of suicide, and with the fact that 66% of known sexual assault victims are children (Snyder, 2000), there are many teenagers and children out there that are either considering or committing suicide due to sexual assault. These kids believe that they're alone, due to the lack of teaching about these topics. Speak and other novels like it can show these students that what they're going through can happen to anyone, and maybe even open their eyes to see that it might be something that has happened to their classmates.

Melinda was silent throughout her difficulties, and a lot of students in high school can relate to that. E.J O'Quinn, for example, is an author who connected heavily with Melinda. "Had [Speak] been available to me when I was Melinda's age, I'm certain my understanding of how we create ourselves in an unpredictable world would have been changed considerably." Melinda was "offered as a realistic model of what girls can do to maintain control of their own lives". O'Quinn felt as if they could have been so much more educated in their life if in high school, they were able to read Speak. Many other people have this realization, only much earlier in life, if they would read this novel.

Learning about literature like Speak is proven to open students up to serious topics like sexual assault and the PTSD that usually comes after a traumatic event like rape. It can teach them to be more empathetic and serious about the topics, since young teenagers often stray away from awkward situations by making jokes. Students might not want to come to face the uncomfortable feelings that make them cringe whenever they hear about something awful, but introducing them to this kind of topic in an easy way, like a class reading of the book, can lead them into a thoughtful discussion about the topic. As previously mentioned, books like Speak teaches teenagers to be sympathetic about this issue, and they might tread carefully when speaking about it, after realizing that their classmates might go through something similar. It changes their perspective. Speak is not just a story, it is a weapon that can connect others through their trauma. Schools don't want to accept the fact that most student will go through trauma in their lives before they leave high school. But if they would finally admit that fact, Speak is an amazing way to lead students into an understanding of just how serious this problem is. Imagine how many lives could be saved if we would become more aware of the dangers of lack of knowledge about rape in adolescents.

#essay #writers on tumblr #?#tw sa mention #tw su1cid3 mention #school essay #awareness #recovering from trauma

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theplaceinthedark · 1 year

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7/6/2022

The end of June and beginning of July are always a rough few weeks for me. A solemn reminder of a good man that was never able to overcome his Demons. There are so many times that I wish I could pick up the phone just to tell him about all the things that have happened since he left us. How amazing my son is, all the adventures we’ve had. All the things I’ve accomplished. I hope he’s up there watching. I hope he’s proud.

As much as some of us fight it, our parents have a mystical hold over us, the power to affect our thoughts and emotions the way only they can. It’s a bond that changes over time, but doesn’t diminish, even if they’re half a world away, or in another world entirely. It’s a power we never fully understand. We’re left only to wonder that when our time comes, what kind of hold will we have on our children?

This is what I wrote for my father’s funeral..

Rest In Peace Dad.. 2/25/1947 - 6/28/2013

“I’ve written a few words that I’d like to read here, but before I get started, I would like to take a moment to thank all of you for coming here today to remember and honor my father. It means a lot to me and to the family and I know it means a lot to my dad as well.

When we were making the arrangements for today we talked about who could stand up and talk about my dad. I was the one that volunteered because I thought I would be able to get through it.. Whether or not that is true will remain to be seen, so if I’ve over-estimated myself, please bear with me..

I have so many memories of my dad that trying to sort through them all to find “the one” to talk about proved to be incredibly difficult.. But what I remember most are all of the times we spent together working on things.. Whether it be pay phones or rental houses or any number of other challenges that we undertook, there never seemed to be a shortage of projects.. Some of them went smoothly.. ehh.. Maybe one or two.. But most of them ended up being a connected series of disasters that “eventually” led to the projects completion.

Because it always got done. If it meant installing pay phones in the middle of the night in the pouring rain (and getting shocked repeatedly in the process), getting covered head to toe in paint attempting to spray paint his house, or staying up all night working on a rental house to try and get it finished for a new renter, (with liberal helpings of food from Smitty’s of course) it got done. And if there is one lesson that has persisted into my adult life, it’s that whatever it is you undertake, no matter how big or small, you always finish it. No matter the challenge or the difficulty. it can be done and you have to have faith, no matter how misguided perhaps, in yourself that you can do it. In all my projects and especially in my daily work I always try to keep that with me, and I will always have my dad to thank for that..

I’ve spent most of my adult life working as a mechanic.. It’s something that I’ve loved to do from the beginning and still enjoy just as much all these years later. I’ve got my dad to thank for that too. I was reading through something he wrote right before my sister was adopted and in it he talked about how important it was to him to take the time to show me tools and explain how they worked and what they did. And while I think my mechanical ability probably exceeded his around the time I was 13, I certainly have him to thank for the fundamental knowledge that allowed me to grow.

Now speaking of cars, my dad and I always had a love/hate relationship with my automotive endeavors.. From the moment I got my first car I couldn’t help but tinker with it… He didn’t always get it I don’t think, but he was usually supportive of it… There are two distinctive memories I have involving my dad and my cars.. the first was the night of my prom, when my dad, trying to help me, out took my beloved Prelude up to the location of our prom so that I could have it to drive when prom was over.. All was good until a well meaning friend of mine saw him in it and for some reason, thought he was trying to steal it. I can only imagine how that conversation went… But I guess my dad showed him the error in his ways.

The other involved a car I built to take to the racetrack.. My dad grew up in a time where the cars were made of steel and had big v8’s in them and he never really got the idea that a little 4cylinder economy car could be fast. SO when I showed up at his house with a very unassuming little honda civic on a car trailer I don’t think he really knew what to think.. He gave me the expected hard time about how he was used to “REAL” cars and so on, so with a smirk on my face I offered to take him for a ride in it.. I’ll spare you some of the details and most of the uh.. language, but it ended up with him screaming at me from the passenger seat to SLOW DOWN and take him home! Where he promptly ran into his house while telling me he was calling my mom to tell her how crazy I was for driving something like that on the street. It wasn’t until a few days later that he finally told me he was amazed at how fast it was, but hoped (as only a dad would) that I would be careful in it and not drive it anywhere but at the racetrack.. (advice that I sorta listened to ;) )

There is a quote I came across a while back that says “The hardest part of saying goodbye is having to do it again every single day. Every day we face the same truth, that life is fleeting, that our time here is short, and to honor the fallen, we must live our own lives well.”

I think that is what my father would want. For me, for Holly, for all of you. He would want us to live our lives well. To take with us the memories of his caring, his thoughtfulness and his kindness. And to let that piece of him live on with each of us.

Thank you..”

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liyingrourou · 2 years

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揉揉再现神威，天时地利人和二赴大连抢救生命成功

揉揉再现神威，天时地利人和二赴大连抢救生命成功----霍老师隔空指挥弟子抢救危重患者纪实分类：

Rubbing and reappearing the divine power, Tianshidi Renhe successfully went to Dalian to save lives ---- Teacher Huo commanded his disciples to rescue critically ill patients through the air

Rubbing and reappearing the power of God, the time, place, and people went to Dalian to save lives successfully -- Teacher Huo commanded his disciples across the sky to save critically ill patients

The 53 year old pillar was about to collapse. His hooded daughter-in-law and her daughter begged for help. Last night, the apprentice arrived in Tianjin by taxi. He shivered at the airport until more than 7:00 in the morning. If the nucleic acid results were not uploaded, he would be refused to board the plane and isolated. Fortunately, the mayor's hotline was called, and the Third People's Court of Hebei Province passed the paper inspection results to him

The following is the patient's body state before kneading. The swelling and water accumulation are serious. The patient lies at home with vague consciousness.... The situation is very critical...

4.13 Comparison after the second visit to Dalian

After the first kneading, the patient urinates. Very good effect.

On April 13, 2022, Teacher Li Ying went to Dalian again for rescue

The patient stared at me in an emergency. I took my time to command Li Ying from afar in an orderly manner. I told Li Ying not to panic, to calm down, to ask her family members to prepare moxa to save her life, and to tell her that she would be ready in a few minutes. She was really conscious in a few minutes. When the patient was able to sleep quietly, her family members asked me, why are you so calm and unhurried? I said that I have seen too much. If my mood is chaotic, many things will be wasted... In fact, many deaths of critical patients have a lot to do with the panic of their families and improper rescue of 120, but you don't know many secrets

Last night, both of them were rescued. At present, both of them are stable. One patient is a renal tumor patient with acute hematopoietic dysfunction and massive dialysis hemorrhage who gave up treatment in Hebei Provincial People's Hospital. One was a patient with severe heart failure and rolling eyes who gave up treatment in a hospital in Dalian. After midnight manipulation and moxibustion, he slept soundly in the middle of the night and had removed the oxygen generation equipment in the morning. Curious, why does the plane take off and land more than half an hour in advance? Thanks to the advance, otherwise it would be useless to arrive in Dalian

In this medical case, besides the magic effect of kneading all the time, what is more magical is that the time, place and people are in harmony mentioned in the title of the medical case. First, the flight chosen by teacher Li Ying is arranged in the dark. Take off early and land early, which provides precious time for patient rescue. Otherwise, the patient will face unpredictable results. The full trust and expectation of the patient and his family have contributed to the miracle of this miraculous kneading rescue of critically ill patients. Later, we hope that the patient will recover as soon as possible with the help of kneading.

Apprentice Li Ying reports his illness:

Dalian patient turned from emergency to safety

Rescue from the previous night

Until yesterday, there were many hiccups, farts and sneezes

I had four meals yesterday

Three meals of millet congee

A Steamed Egg Soup

Good food, good sleep, good urination

Hiccup, fart and sneeze very loudly

Yesterday, the patient asked for today's big stick bone stewed with pickled cabbage and soybean stewed with pig's hoof

I spent four or five hours playing small videos last afternoon and evening

The cold below the knee and the cold and hot hands

The swelling of hands and feet basically disappeared

The symptoms of sweating are gone

No difficulty breathing

I took off the oxygen pipe yesterday morning

The patient talked with us for many days yesterday morning, afternoon and evening

Speak forcefully and humorously

The family's hanging heart finally relaxed

Rubbing is incredible

It's really invincible

Thank you for your praise!!!

As stated in the Song Dynasty's "General Record of Sacred Aid", "If you feel a little uneasy, you must massage and resist, so that all the festivals can be profitable and evil spirits can be discharged."

The following picture is the rescue record on WeChat

At 12:00 on April 14, 2022, Mr. Huo continued to instruct his disciples to carry out follow-up treatment and kneading

On April 15, 2022, Dalian patients have stepped out of the danger zone

twenty million two hundred and twenty thousand four hundred and sixteen

Kneading is neither traditional Chinese medicine nor western medicine

Rubbing is the best way to protect human life

If Western medicine is green

Traditional Chinese Medicine

Rubbing is

Experienced

See

Only then can we know how powerful it is to infuse enthusiasm into life

-------Li Ying

Right hand unblocking and left hand welcoming

Press firmly without loosening

Qi Transportation Dantian Walk between Fingers

No distractions to save lives

Cosmic assimilation energy accumulation

Surprise the sky and move the gods secretly

One thought of good and evil determines life and death

The technique is just to follow the shape

Huo Chunqiao

The desire of the practitioners is very important. Ordinary massagers are thinking about whether they can get a card for them while massaging, and whether they can add a charging item. If they just wander around in their small minds, what will be the effect? Each of my disciples first contacts the critically ill patients. The first is to practice bravery and the second is to practice nihility. The key is to remove all distractions. The technique is not important. The problem of money is not for the disciples to participate. They only know that they are dedicated to the patients. Anyway, you are indispensable. As long as you are greedy, someone will be there immediately

- Mr. Huo

Li Ying's heart is too pure, without any distractions

Qigong World is called Mind

Buddhism is called Faxin

Common people call starting point

Politicians call motivation

Invisible energy

Always better than tangible

No comparability

- Mr. Huo

For critically ill patients, the hospital only conducts intravenous infusion (the added trace elements are not enough to destroy and consume diuretics).

Teacher Huo's kneading really replenishes people's yang

Really and quickly help patients recover their own immune system and self healing ability

Hospital diuretics destroy human ecological balance

Teacher Huo's kneading reshapes human ecological balance

How close are you to the doctor in this life?

some people

Go around

It's destiny to be a doctor

Zhu Danxi and Fu Qingzhu

Later, Zhang Xichun and Yue Meizhong

some people

Sick bed

Shuttle hospital pharmacy

Prolong one's life with illness

some people

Medicine Aristocratic Family

Every family member is a doctor

Love hate entanglement that cannot be solved by medicine

This is only because, hit that one

揉揉再现神威，天时地利人和二赴大连抢救生命成功----霍老师隔空指挥弟子抢救危重患者纪实

53岁的顶梁柱要倒塌了，他蒙圈的媳妇带着女儿求救，昨晚徒弟坐出租车到的天津，在机场瑟瑟发抖的冻到早上七点多，核酸结果没有上传要被拒绝登机并隔离，还好打通了市长热线电话，河北省三院把纸质的检查结果传过去了……

以下是患者揉之前的身体状态，浮肿积水严重，患者躺在家里，意识模糊。。。。情况十分危急。。。

4.13二次到大连揉后的对比

第一次揉完之后，患者就有了小便。非常好的效果体现。

2022年4.13日李英老师再奔赴大连抢救

患者危急时刻大瞪着眼不动了，我不慌不忙有序远程指挥，告诉李英不要慌乱、要稳住情绪，叫家属准备艾条救命，告诉家属，一会儿就好了，果然几分钟有知觉了，等患者后来能安静的睡着了家属才问我，老师你咋那么稳如泰山、不慌不忙呢？我说我见的太多了，我的情绪要是一乱，好多事都会前功尽弃…… 其实好多危急患者的死亡，都是跟家属慌乱、120的不当抢救有很大关系的，只是好多秘密你是不知道而已……

昨晚两位抢救，目前都还算稳定一位是河北省人民医院放弃治疗的肾肿瘤急性造血功能障碍、透析大出血的患者。一位是大连某医院放弃治疗的严重心衰、翻白眼患者，经过半夜的手法、艾灸抢救，后半夜睡觉安稳，早上已经撤掉了制氧设备。好奇怪，怎么飞机还有提前半个多小时起飞、降落的情况？多亏提前了，否则就是到了大连也没用了……

本医案中除了揉揉一直以来的神奇效果外，更为神奇的就是医案标题中提到的天时地利人和，首先是李英老师选择的航班冥冥之中安排好的一样。提前起飞，提前降落，为患者抢救提供了宝贵的时间，否则患者将面临不可预测的结果，患者与家属对霍老师的充分信任与期待，促成了此次神奇的揉揉抢救危重患者的奇迹再现，后续我们希望患者在揉揉协助下早日康复。

徒弟李英汇报病情：

大连患者由急危重转危为安

从前天晚上的抢救

到昨天一直很多有打嗝放屁打喷嚏

昨天吃了四顿饭

三顿小米粥

一顿蒸鸡蛋羹

吃的好睡得好拉的好尿的好

打嗝放屁打喷嚏打的非常响

患者昨天要求今天吃大棒骨炖酸菜黄豆炖猪蹄

昨天下午加晚上刷了四五个小时小视频玩

膝盖以下的冰冷的和双手的冰冷热乎了起来

手和脚的肿胀基本消失

一身一身冒汗的症状一点都没有了

呼吸困难没有了

昨天上午就摘掉了氧气管

患者昨天上午下午晚上都跟我们聊了很多天

说话铿锵有力幽默的很

全家悬着的心终于放轻松了……

揉揉不可思议

真可谓天下无敌

感恩恩师赞叹揉揉！！！

宋代《圣济总录》所言 “ 凡小有不安 , 必按摩接捺 , 令百节通利 , 邪气得泄。 ”

以下图片为抢救纪实微信记录

2022年4月14日 12点霍老师继续指挥弟子进行后续的治疗揉揉

2022 4.15大连患者已经走出危险区……

20220416

揉揉既不是中医也不是西医

揉揉能为保护全人类生命的一种最好方式

如果说西医是绿皮

中医是️

揉揉就是

经历了

见识了

方知它对生命灌注热情的威力有多大

-------李英

右手疏通左手迎

按压有力不能松

气运丹田指间走

心无杂念救性命

宇宙同化能量聚

惊天秘密动神明

善恶一念定生死

手法只是走外形

霍纯桥

做手法者的愿望很重要，普通按摩者，一边按摩一边想着能不能给他办卡、能不能加个收费的项目，光在小脑子上转悠了，哪会有什么效果？我每个徒弟都先接触危重患者，第一练胆，第二练虚无，去掉所有杂念才是关键所在，手法不重要，钱的问题不叫徒弟参与，只知道一心一意为患者着想就可以了，反正也少不了你的，只要一动贪念，马上有人……

—霍老师

李英的发心太纯正了，没有一点杂念

气功界叫意念

佛教界叫发心

常人叫出发点

政界叫动机

无形的能量

永远胜于有形的

没有可比性

—霍老师

重症病危患者，医院只会静脉输液（补充的微量元素，还不够利尿剂摧毁消耗的）。

中医霍老师的揉揉真正补充人的阳气

真正快速帮助患者恢复自身免疫系统，快速恢复患者的自愈能力

医院利尿剂摧毁人体生态平衡

霍老师的揉揉重塑人体生态平衡

你与医的这一世情缘有多深？

有些人

兜兜转转

命中注定，要一世为医

前有朱丹溪、傅青主

后有张锡纯、岳美中

有些人

病榻常卧

穿梭医院药房

带病延年

有些人

医药世家

家亲眷属个个为医

与医解不开的爱恨纠葛

这只因为，命中那一颗

『天医星』

究竟何为天医星

天医贵人是八字神煞之一，是掌管疾病之事的星神。

命逢天医贵人，为喜用且得生旺，主一生身体康健，并适合在医学、哲学、心理学等领域任职。

天医贵人的查法

正月生见丑，二月生见寅，三月生见卯，四月生见辰，五月生见巳，六月生见午，七月生见未，八月生见申，九月生见酉，十月生见戌，十一月生见亥，十二月生见子。

以月支查其它地支，见者为是。如农历三月出生，八字中见地支“卯”，即为命带天医贵人。

图片来源：素问轩

命带天医的人，有三种结果：

一、自己长大成了医生；

二、家里的近亲有医生；

三、自己是个老病号，老是要去看医生。

八字天医贵人是四柱八字的神煞不直接参与吉凶，它是一种古人的哲学思想，是一种神秘事物的向往和另一种吉凶的描述；断命吉凶是看五行生克制化，那么天医星入命的人什么样呢？

天医星入命的人的特点

1、对学习医术方面有天赋

天医者，顾名思义，命带天医的人，对学习医术方面有天赋，在这方面学习能力强，容易成为名医或者良医。

就算不从事医师行业，命带天医的人其实不少，但是从医者并不多。不过有许多命带天医的人对医学有特殊��好。而且其出身家族、家庭，从医或从事敎育工作者不少。

2、天医的衰旺决定身体健康状态

四柱逢天医，如不旺，又无贵人吉神相扶，不是常患疾病就是身弱无力。

若生旺又有贵人相生助，不仅身体健壮，而且特别适合医务工作及心理学，哲学等。

3、容易成为医术高明的医生

命书曰：“天医拱照，可作良医”。命带天医贵人者，大都与医院颇有缘份。

如果天医贵人所临地支为八字喜用，且得生旺，命主不但身体健康少病，而且很可能会成为一名医术高明的医生，同时对哲学、心理学或命理学特别感兴趣，有可能会从事这方面的工作。

4、天医临地支为忌且被刑冲克害

但如果天医贵人所临地支为八字所忌，且被刑冲克害，则命主一生体弱多病，经常会跟医院打交道。

5、根据天医择日

天医贵人也可用以择日，假如日逢天医贵人星，这一天特别适合去求医问药，可遇良医、良药。

例如天医贵人在戌，便可向西北偏西的方向去看医生，如果医生又属狗，则效果会更好。

天医的吉凶不是固定的，要看天医在命局中的旺衰（另看神煞与日主之生克）

如月支是丑土，那么子水就是天医，若命局中只有一位子水，其他干支都不是水，且都克子水、耗子水、泄子水，那么这个天医肯定弱极，说明命主不是常患疾病就是身弱无力。

再比如，月支是酉金，其他三支中有申金，申金是天医，若命局中土金多，申金得生扶，则命主身体健壮，并且适合医务工作及对心理学、哲学感兴趣。四柱逢天医，如不生旺，又没吉星相助，主身体不好疾病多。若生旺有贵人相扶，适宜做医务工作，或从事心理学哲学工作。

在历史的长河中，我们发现天医星对人的一生确实有一定的影响作用。比如确实有许多医家因幼年体弱多病，而立志于岐黄仁术，无论古代还是近现代都有，如古代有孙思邈、李时珍、胡慎柔等，近现代有岳美中、刘度舟等。

对于学医的朋友，可以通过天医星来判断，自己是否有成为名医的机会，自己在这方面是否天赋异禀，还是要靠努力来勤能补拙；

生病的朋友，也要通过查看天医星，方便找到一个能治好你的好医生！

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7/6/2022

The end of June and beginning of July are always a rough few weeks for me. A solemn reminder of a good man that was never able to overcome his Demons. There are so many times that I wish I could pick up the phone just to tell him about all the things that have happened since he left us. How amazing my son is, all the adventures we’ve had. All the things I’ve accomplished. So hope he’s up there watching. I hope he’s proud.

This is what I wrote for my father’s funeral..

Rest In Peace Dad.. 2/25/1947 - 6/28/2013

Thank you..”

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Before you quit: Find God’s Word

I recently introduced a new, short series of posts on how to regain your footing when you are faced with these thoughts, ”I’ve had enough. I’m ready to quit!” We’re using the story of Elijah, who utters those words to God, immediately following his most triumphant victory as a prophet. This post focuses on finding God’s word.

In our language, Elijah was suffering from burnout. Elijah made it back to health through embracing these three mentalities:

Rest to Restore

Receive God’s Word

Respond in Faith

To be blunt, you need a Word from God. So how do you put yourself in a place to find it? It began with rest – not just slowing down, but resting to be restored. It continues by beginning a journey to find God’s word.

God’s Word: The Journey is the Destination

“So he (Elijah) got up and ate and drank, and the food gave him enough strength to travel forty days and forty nights to Mount Sinai, the mountain of God.” -1 Kings 19:8

There are two aspects of receiving God’s word.

The journey to find it.

Know what you’re looking for.

Too often, we skip over the value of the journey. I’m sure you’ve heard (and possibly used) the phrase, “The journey is the destination.” When it comes to hearing God’s Word, there is some truth in that phrase, so don’t skip over the length of time it took Elijah to travel to the mountain of God — Mt. Sinai. Elijah traveled 40 days and nights.

The number ‘40’ is used 146 times throughout scripture. Here are a few of those times:

Noah was on the ark for one year, but it rained for 40 days and 40 nights, flooding the earth.

Moses spent his first 40 years in Egypt, then the next 40 years in exile and the final 40 years setting his people free and wandering the wilderness.

Moses went up to Mt. Sinai to receive the commandments of God. He spent 40 days and 40 nights on the mountain.

After being spit out of the great fish, Jonah preached 40 days in the city of Nineveh.

Jesus fasted in the wilderness for 40 days and 40 nights before he was tempted by Satan.

In scripture, the number 40 is generally a reference to temptation, trial or waiting. Usually this waiting takes place in the wilderness. Not only is the length of the journey important to note, but so is the location the journey takes Elijah through.

The Wilderness is Sacred

I have a vivid memory of standing at my kitchen window in the Spring of 2009. It was the early days of the Great Recession, and my family and business were victims of that financial reset. We had bet big on a conference we put on for photographers that January. We wrote the contract with the hotel in early 2008 when everything was still booming. We didn’t foresee the crash coming later that year.

The recession did come, and we lost money…a lot of money. Bankruptcy was a possibility. That spring of 2009, I stood at my kitchen window feeling completely alone. I knew the potential facing me.

I was in the wilderness.

The wilderness is crushing. It’s a very scary place to be – not just because of the difficulty of traversing it, but because the isolation the wilderness brings with it. I found myself with questions, so many questions. While just months before, I had all the answers to what life was throwing at me, now I had none. Not only did I not have answers, I didn’t feel like I had anyone to turn to who did have answers. I felt alone.

You never want to enter the wilderness. It is crushing, scary and isolating.

Yet, you shouldn’t avoid the wilderness either. Too often we skip this step. We rest and recover (to a point), and then jump right back into action. But do we know where we are going? Do we know what we are actually doing? The journey through the wilderness takes us to God’s Word, but it’s more than that.

The wilderness itself is sacred.

The Destination is Transformation

It is in the wilderness where we find God. The process of journeying through the wilderness with God shapes and forms you to be more like Jesus. This is true of my journey through the wilderness of 2009 and 2010. I never want to go back to that time, but I am thankful for it. It shaped me. I am more like Jesus because the crush of the wilderness. It happened to Elijah. It happened to me. It’s what happened to Moses too.

As I stated above, Moses spent 40 years in Egypt (a spiritual wilderness), another 40 years in exile (a physical wilderness) tending sheep and being restored. Then after God sent him back to Egypt, Moses spent the final 40 years of his life wandering the wilderness outside the Promised Land. If the journey is the destination, then the destination is transformation.

Transformed from Nobody to Somebody

This is how the great 19th century preacher, D.L. Moody put it:

“Moses spent forty years in the king’s palace thinking that he was somebody; then he lived forty years in the wilderness finding out that without GOD he was a nobody; finally he spent forty more years discovering how a nobody with GOD can be a somebody.” –D. L. Moody

Moses was transformed into the most humble man to ever walk the earth (Numbers 12:3). It didn’t happen overnight, and it didn’t happen in the palaces of Egypt. The transformation from pride to humility happened over years of wilderness living.

In my last post, I shared how to be restored, we need to recognize our identity is found in Jesus. We are first a child of God, and then a father, mother, preacher, teacher, doctor, lawyer, man, woman, husband, wife. The journey in the wilderness also forms our identity. We recognize our NEED for God, who allows us to be more than we could ever be on our own.

The search for God’s Word includes a journey of transformation, but it also means finding what you are looking for.

What are you looking for?

Elijah makes his 40 day journey through the wilderness to Mt Sinai. He finds himself in a cave where God asks him this question, “What are you doing here, Elijah?” No response is recorded in scripture, but it’s a fascinating question isn’t it?

Why are you here? What are you looking for?

You may not know it, but you are looking for God’s word. Elijah doesn’t answer, but God’s word is what he is looking for. Finding God’s word is one of the deepest desires of the human heart. Like the journey, God’s word transforms us. It gives us purpose. It heals us. It is the Spirit of God alive and at work in us.

You need God’s Word.

On Mount Sinai, an interesting experience happens to Elijah. God repeats what happened weeks before on Mount Carmel where Elijah faced down the prophets of Baal. On Mount Carmel it was a firestorm that consumed the sacrifice and a windstorm that blew in a massive rain at the end of a three year drought. Now, on Mount Sinai, God again sends a windstorm followed by an earthquake and then a firestorm.

Elijah couldn’t put words to it, but he was looking for a fresh word from God. Elijah thought he would find what he wanted in a mighty act of God. What he found was God moved in the wind, rain and fire, but God’s presence wasn’t in any of them.

Elijah finally finds it in God’s still, quiet voice. It’s where the Spirit of God rests. Many times we want power from God – the fire, the wind, the shaking. We think that is how God speaks and moves. Those things are powerful, but it doesn’t mean God’s presence will be in them.

It’s a small, quiet voice that shapes us, gives us purpose, provides direction. It’s what Elijah was looking for. It’s why Elijah was on the mountain.

Now that God has Elijah’s full attention, God again asks, “What are you doing here Elijah?” Elijah repeats the complaint that sent him on this journey:

“I have zealously served the Lord God Almighty. But the people of Israel have broken their covenant with you, torn down your altars, and killed every one of your prophets. I am the only one left, and now they are trying to kill me, too.” ‭-1 Kings‬ ‭19:14‬ ‭NLT‬‬

Let me interpret: “I thought I was somebody. I’m by myself…alone. Who am I? I’m a nobody.”

God’s Word: Truth + Command

In response, God finally speaks his word to Elijah. This response has two parts:

1. Command.

“Then the Lord told him, “Go back the same way you came, and travel to the wilderness of Damascus. When you arrive there, anoint Hazael to be king of Aram. Then anoint Jehu grandson of Nimshi to be king of Israel, and anoint Elisha son of Shaphat from the town of Abel-meholah to replace you as my prophet.” -1 Kings 19:15-16 NLT

2. Truth.

“Anyone who escapes from Hazael will be killed by Jehu, and those who escape Jehu will be killed by Elisha! Yet I will preserve 7,000 others in Israel who have never bowed down to Baal or kissed him!” -‭‭1 Kings‬ ‭19:17-18‬ ‭NLT‬‬

God is molding Elijah into a somebody. Yes, Elijah defeated the prophets. Elijah even raised a boy from the dead (1 Kings 17). But God still has more to do, and his plans includes Elijah — this is the command. And Elijah has been alone, but he didn’t need to be — that is the truth.

God’s word to you will be the same. He will give you things to do (a command), but he will also show you how things really are and will be (the truth). When I was in the wilderness in 2009, I heard God speak to me in that still, quiet voice. He spoke the truth to me – I was not a failure; I could find freedom from the chains of the debt I found myself in. He also gave me things to do. He gave me a vision to start a blog, to lead people through what God was showing me – in life, business and family.

God was molding me into someone who was a somebody – not because of my success, but because of God’s presence in my life.

The Test: Respond with Obedience

After resting and waiting, Elijah receives a call. Elijah finds a new purpose.

The real test to mark Elijah’s restoration and transformation is to see what he will do with the word spoken to him. It was my test in 2009, and it will be your test too. It will define your move from nobody to somebody.

You’ve been restored (you’ve experienced God’s grace + found your identity as a child of God). You’ve received God’s word (you’ve journeyed and been transformed through the wilderness + and you found what you were looking for – God’s word). The final part will be our final post…

Now it is time to respond with obedience.

#1 Kings #Egypt #Elijah #freedom #God #God’s voice #Jesus #Jonah #journey #Moses #Mt Sinai #Noah #nobody #somebody #Truth #wilderness

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stuckinapatriarchalbullshitland · 3 years

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Enzo anon here - the more this era is progressing, my theory about gaymila being used as damage control and for profit seems to be happenening.

I have some thoughts that I know many other CS share, i think it would be good to summarise what i’ve seen on different blogs into one post as well as adding my own theory. So this will be a long one but i hope you guys find it insightful and Stuck thank you again for giving me a space on your blog!

Let’s look back on CC2 and the aftermath of its release. A quick disclaimer : I’ll only be addressing her situation in terms of the social/PR aspect as we have no idea what other factors might be at play such as contracts and money etc.

It’s fair to say that C was and is not in a good place reputation wise. Señorita was of course a smash hit but was mostly used to promote S. Her fans complained about C almost becoming a double act with S. These fans understandably signed up for C, not S and so subsequently most of them unfollowed her on SM and stopped paying attention to her to escape the constant Showmila. For the GP, Showmila became a mockery and so it’s asking a lot from her fans to stay when she was constantly embarrassing herself to the point that it made it uncomfortable for them. Of course with this comes the racist controversies also involving Normani which brought back the entire 5H feud. This put C even further than she already was against LAND and so the narrative that she was hated by the other girls for being obnoxious and attention seeking was further reinforced by her being racist towards N. All of this made/makes Camila extremely easy to hate, to the public she seems like a privileged straight girl who has never once had any sort of difficulty or obstacle in her life.

On the CS side of the fandom, many having left after having enough of the Showmila circus, leaves very few CS to fight back against the narrative. Even more leave after Lauren’s bombshell of a podcast. For example, this graph from google trends show how searches for “camren” or “camila cabello camren” are/were decreasing.

We know that CS are a very large part of C’s fanbase so who are we left with ? Many solo C stans all have converted into SS accounts and again even then S takes the main focus, not C. So… its not looking good, having people being fans of yours only for your relationship is a risky move business wise. We’ve all wanted Showmila to end for a long while and we definitely can all agree that the end is long overdue, infact a lot of us believe that had there not been the pandemic they would’ve broken up a while ago. So where does C stand now? Well, in my opinion, after this entire circus (which unfortunately is still ongoing) C is in a very vulnerable position. How does she promote her upcoming album with so much of her fanbase gone? Perhaps a big break up album? That option doesn’t sound great when she most likely will get the short end of the stick narrative wise and be further disliked by the little fans she does has left. If Camila doesn’t have Shawn anymore, the SS will most likely all disappear leaving her with a very limited amount of people who have the guts to actually publicly support her. Another option she could have is to keep riding on this relationship until people get bored, only that’s already happening and Showmila does not have the punch it once did to get a second Señorita. What about a fake pregnancy or a marriage? God we hope not and I really believe that Camila would do anything in her power to avoid that as we’ve seen how extremely unhappy she seems just being his girlfriend. For all we know Shawn might be very against this idea too and even if they did go along with it would it really be enough to promote CC3 ? After a few weeks the excitement would have died down again and leave them both back to square one. Not to mention that C getting married/pregnant would make even some of her most dedicated fans leave for good and would still not be enough to get her out of the racist accusations.

This is where my theory comes into play, however i think her team will only follow through with this if they are smart and if they aren’t actually sabotaging her. This past year I watched as Taylor Swift released her two albums and broke numerous records and achieved incredible success. I do not think this success would’ve been achieved had it not been for the insane rise in speculation over her sexuality due to her new songs. T is of course a household name, she’s earned her place amongst the top artists of this generation but people were starting to get bored hearing dramatic songs about her oh so difficult love life being a straight white girl. This is why when folklore and evermore came out there was so much buzz and excitement about T possibly being LGBTQ to the point that it found it’s way to the GP. People were wondering what these gay songs with gay lyrics were and so they went to listen for themselves. Eventually tons and tons of extra streams and talk generated from people who would’ve otherwise never paid attention. Myself included. You can see below on google trends the massive increase in online searches for “gaylor swift”. The gaylor side of tumblr also expanded as there had never been so many songs with so much queer interpretations to analyse and discuss and more and more of the GP were getting curious enough to read the blogs. Regardless if you think Taylor is gay or not, the general public discussing it was an essential part in improving her image for Gen Z and promoting her albums thus creating $$$ for her team and label.

Keeping this in mind, I believe that C might (not having many options left to salvage her career/reputation) take a page out of TS’s book and have an era that will attract more LGBT fans than ever before. We’ve seen how camren is slowly coming back. Even just by C liking a picture of L’s it was enough to bring back out a whole lot of fans who had abandoned her. Her team see this, they know this, they are aware. If talks of Camila being gay will generate more $$$ they will use that to their advantage and push out the new gay narrative as much as they can. I don’t think she will explicitly come out any time soon, and i don’t think that they will “confirm camren” but this era will definitely set her up for it in the future like the way it has for TS and it will give her a stable fanbase for a long while, which at the moment she is in dire need of.

Although C would’ve probably liked her relationship with L to remain private I think she may have no other choice but to use it more than she ever has before to save herself. Sadly no amount of self improvement and apologies will ever erase her racist past, it will follow her forever and people will never stop talking about it, unless there’s something more interesting to discuss. That’s the way the internet works, a photo of camren together in 2021/2022 would generate more buzz than anything Showmila related. Not only would all of the CS who left come back but all the anti-CS would be talking about it too and an entire wave of new fans would be interested enough to join. There would be no room to talk about Camila Cabello being racist when Camila Cabello is actually gay/dating Lauren Jauregui is the new talk.

Of course this entire process will not be instant but we can see that they are building up to something like that. Perhaps Camren being public friends again which would still generate a ton of talk as it did back in the 5H days. She will not instantly break up with S and then be seen making out with L the next day but I do think that although it wasn’t her or her teams plan to use her relationship/sexuality, i think she has no other choice if she ever wants to gain favour with the public again. Let’s not forget that the rest of 5H seem to be on their way to having new music out very very soon and just as camren worked to promote 5H in the old days it will work again in 2021/2022. This would encourage her team even more to follow this route as it would suit everyone, even if they no longer are a group they will always be connected.

We shall wait and see what happens, of course circumstantial situations may arise to cause them to switch up their plans but for now all this 5H, camren and gaymila interactions are no coincidence. That’s for sure.

This concludes my very long post! thank you to anyone who took the time to read this, thank you again to Stuck and if anyone has anything else to add that i might have missed or any questions don’t hesitate! I love hearing what everyone else has to say. To clarify these are all my personal thoughts and speculations and I am not claiming to know anything for certain.

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Wow, I didn't expect to be a window into another great submission from my dear buddies, but Enzo, I loved your post. And I really totally agree with you in what you mentioned.

The truth is that it is true, Camila has been selling her LGBT + agenda of hers since 2020 and even long before because I always had the theory that she would be let out after having a big heterosexual PR circus. This PR circus with the diva is that circus and what we have been seeing, because it checks all our theories.

As for Gaymila, she has always been there. More crushed with the fucking circus shit maybe, but she's always been there and one thing I want to emphasize is that most of Camila's fandom other than SS or homophobic, would accept Camila out of the closet, ALWAYS AND WHEN NOT WITH LAUREN.

That is why I think Camila would have more followers if the aforementioned are left aside, because they would have no problem supporting her and we would be more, considering that those clowns are partly paid fans and bots.

I don't think she will even give him permission to leave her, but if she does it is because that would also be part of her contract. Of her agreeing to do all this theater of the absurd with the circus, as long as they let her out at the end.

The fucking shit hole that is the industry knows that it has to please its LGBT + audience because we are the ones who support artists the most. The main audience for them may always be heterosexuals, but when they get bored and look for something else, the ace up their sleeve will always be the community and with the examples that you have given my dear Enzo, that is proof of it.

The thing with Camila is that she's never been in the closet. They forced her into a closet and that's different. Camila always felt good being herself and they have tried to cover that with different types of circuses since she was in the band because it is what suits business.

What we are seeing now with Camila is that, a double agenda, that of the circus managed by the idiots behind it and Camila's own agenda that lets us see Gaymila from time to time.

And when I talk about an agenda, I do not do it in a negative way but as something that she must have already planned.

My theme now is that it will come in that aspect. I don't think I'm waiting for a circus engagement or a lavender marriage, but I do hope that Camila can set Gaymila freer every time. Unfortunately, everything else is still very screwed up and this circus just represses it more and more.

The problem is that as long as she does not regain some control over her career and her image, no matter how small, nothing will change.

#submission #enzo anon #love you buddy

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h0neyjaehyun · 3 years

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Hi! How are you? Hope your week has been nice :D

Can i send in a request for Talia? Promt 1 no. 78, 77, 84 with Winwin if you don't take request then please ignore :>>

ANYWAYS HAVE A GREAT DAY ILY💚 -🐥

Title // Miss You

Summary // Lets just say Winwin couldn’t be more obvious.

Month / Year // July 2017

Prompt 1

77. "You came all the way here just to tell me this?"

78. "I want to see you again."

84. "Is this the part where we confess our undying love for each other?"

Italics // Chinese

Note // I’m just going to leave this here :), anyway I do take request! You can send as many request as you want! I don’t mind, and thank you I hope you have a great day as well. Also THIS IS FROM THE HELP OF NCT- NARI please I had so much difficulty with this and Joy helped a lot.

Winwin had missed Tali, it was when Tali had been with Blackpink for the comeback of As If It's Your Last and she hasn't been home with them for 2 weeks. They have gotten closer over the year thankfully, and he had missed her. She comes by practice every once in awhile well to practice but she has to leave right after.

He rolled around in his bed not being able to sleep. He looked at the time on his phone and pouted as it was late, he walked to the kitchen to get a glass of water when he heard the door open. He looked over confused since he's pretty sure everyone was here and went to bed if not on their phone in bed.

He heard heels which made him even more confused until he saw light brown hair walk past the corridor. Running her hand through hair then shaking her head slightly. He stood still frozen not knowing what to do as the girl still has yet to notice him.

He cleared his throat unwillingly, which she turned to, just to see him looking at her wide eyed. She smiled and waved.

"Hi Sicheng." He smiled at the sound of his name come out of her mouth. He took a deep breathe of relief.

"Hi Talia." His arms opened wide for her to come and give him a hug which she happily did. She giggled which gave him butterflies in his stomach. She took a step back and looked at him.

"Its been a long time." She sighed.

"Yes it has and you are in a fancy outfit." He scanned her up and down to see she has a white shirt with pant suit with black heels with the addition of the blazer.

"Uh yeah, I came to say something to you actually." She walked to the refrigerator grabbing some green grapes.

"Yeah? What is it?" He asked wondering what made her come all this way. She smiled at bit.

"You know that stylist that called you a name for the past what couple weeks?" She asked cleaning the grapes under the fosit.

"Yeah?" He squinted at her suspiciously.

"Well, she just got fired." She turned to him and gave him a flat smile.

"You came all the way here just to tell me this?" He raised his eyebrows at her. She huffed at sat down her bowel of grapes.

"Yes? It great news, she's not gonna call you those names anymore." She smiled while he still eyed her suspiciously.

"That’s not what you said a month ago when she called you fat." He pointed out grabbing a grape.

"Well, she was doing her job at the time." She mumbled pouting a little turning to the counter to eat her grapes. His head snapped to look at her, she mumbled doesn't mean he didn't hear that. He walked up to her and grabbed her face making her turn to him.

"You listen to me missy, you are perfect! You can sing, dance, rap, and you are so pretty. Everyone wants to be you!" He exclaimed, he found it absurd that those words affected her so much. She's literally perfect. Tali looked off to the side and gave a shy smile from all the compliments.

"Is this the part where we confess our undying love for each other?" He asked teasingly.

"Ah Sicheng." She whined, pushing him away by his chest away from shyness. He smiled at her, he's glad he made her smile. She looked back at him and shook her head.

"You've grown confident, that's good. On that note come on lets get you to bed." She pulled him to his room.

"All of sudden?" He asked confused.

"Yes I have a schedule early with you come on." She finished dragging him to his room with Yuta.

"Where will you sleep?" He whispered as he got into bed slightly laughing as Tali tucked him in like he's a child.

"To Marks room." His face faltered a bit from disappointment but regained a smile and nodded. But that didn't go unnoticed by Tali.

"Night Tali." He whispered as he closed his eyes.

"Night Sicheng." She whispered back closing the door. She turned and her face turned into confusion. She quietly walked to Marks room in the process of taking off her heels in the front door as she forgot to earlier.

She was in the front door of Marks room still puzzled. She couldn't figure out why WinWin was acting like that. She remembered back to his teasing comment of confess their undying love for each other.

"No, I must be overthinking things."

She shook her head. No way WinWin likes her....does he? She was now confused, she always couldn't tell the difference between guys being nice or they actually have a crush on her. She's oblivious to that and she knew that, that’s why she has Karma, Hyunjin, Allen, and Chan for that as they are her protectors from men who try to take advantage of her niceness or just men that have a crush on her and know Tali just doesn't get the hint and doesn't like them.

She sighed and walked into Marks room who was surprising to her, still awake.

"Tali?" He looked up surprised. She smiled at him.

"Hi Mark."

"Do you have to go?"

"Yeah its my friends birthday, if I don't I will get a sad friend, and with him." She turned to Winwin with a chuckle.

"I don't to deal with that." She smiled at him. WinWin looked at her a little sad that she was gonna go. They saw a car pull up and the window roll down.

"Get in here you know how he'll get if we are late." Karma yelled while Tali rolled her eyes.

"I know I know. Bye Sicheng" She turned to WinWin giving him a hug, he hugged her tight.

"Yeah, bye" he gave her a flat smile as he watched her get in and leave.

"Well that was interesting." Karma smirked, raising an eyebrow at her.

"Yeah I noticed too." Chan snickered as he started to driving.

"What?" Tali questioned but also knowing what they mean.

"He likes you~" Hyunjin sung as he was tapping handle of the car. Tali groaned while they chuckled.

"I know." Tali huffed puffing out her cheeks.

"We know you know, we noticed that too." Hyunjin looked back smiling deviously.

"Im not dating him." She commented.

"Obviously." Chan mused, teasing her which he always found fun.

"I look single to you or something, I take offense to that." She said offended glaring at him.

"No no, its just your not gonna date till like what 2022?" Karma bet looking at the two other boys.

"Hm.. I say 2018." Hyunjin stated confidently which the other three looked at him like really, you really believe that.

"What? I have hope that our Butterfly will find love." He stated with such confidence that it bewildered Talia since she doesn’t have that kind of confidence in herself.

"Well I say 2020 maybe? Maybe 2022, when Tali is 23 and ready to date probably." Chan said parking and looking back at her.

"Who do you think she'll date?" Karma asked. The boys looked down in thought.

"Maybe one of h-" before Hyunjin could finish Tali's phone dinged. Tali got out her phone and looked at the contact name while Hyunjin just glared at her phone for interrupting him. Her eyes widen a little which didn't go unnoticed by them.

"Well who is it?" Karma asked impatiently.

"Its WinWin the guy that we think has a crush on me." She bit her lip.

"Well first off we KNOW he has a crush on him, so what does it say?" Chan hurried up Tali.

"Ah, it says...I want to see you again, so hurry up."

"Ooooooh TALI HAS MORE PEOPLE CRUSHING ON HER." Hyunjin shouted, while the other two laughed. Tali huffed.

They all know Tali doesn't like Winwin like that, she's not really ready even if she did like him like that. Still doesn't mean Tali doesn't have a bunch of guys crushing on her. Those 4 (Karma, Hyunjin, Chan, Allen and sometimes Miguel) can spot who has a crush or a thing for a Tali from a mile away. They have made bets which boy is gonna confess first or who will get Tali's heart.

Its like a game to them since they were in middle school and when they met Hyunjin when he join the company he joined the betting. Tali has been rejecting people left and right they even have a notebook who has a crush on Tali. X is for rejected, O is for who still like her, / is for unsure probably has a thing, and highlighted in green with their names written beside them means they have either a chance or betting they won't get rejected at least a date.

Does Tali know? No, will she ever know? Probably not.

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macybeckham7 · 4 years

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Olympic Dreams - James Maddison

In the skating world everyone who was anyone was raving about the uprising star that was YN YLN. She was the perfect figure skater, she had grace and elegance along with the strength to do all the difficult jumps and lifts. She was perfect doubles and even better as soloist. Everyone dubbed the 19 year old to be go to the Winter Olympics 2022 and get Team GB atleast two medals.

YN dream for a young age was get into the Olympic program. Wanted to follow in her mother’s footsteps. At a young age she always felt alive on the ice, had no fear and always was the first to try a new move without a thought. Her coach and mother always stood on the sidelines and winced at all the near misses, but she always go up and brushed herself down and tried again. Practice always saw YN the first one on and the last one off.

Her whole life has been dedicated to skating, her eyes on the next upcoming competition and going out their and smashing it. Also being the skater to beat and making a name for herself, people often saying she’s the Serena Williams or Lebron James or CR7 to the figure skating world.

Nine months ago anybody would say YN had her world at her feet, most likely to be on the plane to China with her spot in Team GB. She was in a relationship with James Maddison, who met at an event and they instantly just clicked. With him being an athlete he understood the grind, he understood the rollercoaster of emotions and he just knew she needed him. He would be her medic and always look after her, and he was always her ice bath buddy because ‘nobody deserves to go to hell and back alone’. They were eachothers biggest supporters, they even taught eachother their sport. Her favourite member was getting James onto the ice, he had a strong grip on her waist as they did a two person train, she skated faster as she held onto his hands and all she could hear was him shouting and swearing. Definitely showing her he wouldn’t be hanging up his boots for skates, anytime soon.

Thursday 23rd of September was when YN’s whole world came tumbling down. Rehearsals with the three of them on the ice was normal, the coach telling the pairing where they need to clean up more. While YN and Isaiah listener fully.

James sat high up in the stands and watched eagerly.

He has already been in complete awe when she skates, how elegantly her body moves and the sheer power she has for the jumps. He loved watching her as a soft smile sits on her face as if it just can’t naturally to her.

He felt himself grimace as the pair didn’t do a lift correctly, Isaiah managing to put her down gently as YN put her hands out on the cold surface. The coach called out for them as the duo talked it out before they went from the top. They got through the dance, James smiling like a Cheshire Cat as they managed to nail the one-hand exit with Isaiah holding her above his head.

It all went wrong in a blink of moment without YN falling, her knee caught Isaiah head and she went down cold.

James jumped from him chair and raced down as her coach instantly skating towards her lifeless body.

...

YN felt her heart rate raise as James parked the car in the training rink car park, her mind instantly going back to last time she was here.

‘Hey, you’ve got this’ James says softly as he takes her hand and gently squeezes.

Her eyes water. ‘I don’t think I can’ she whispers.

He could see just how distraught she was and how traumatised she still was. The last nine months have been tough on her as she nursed her injuries and was back on the road of recovery.

‘Hey you are YN fucking YLN, she can do anything she puts her mind too’ he gives her a goofy smile.

He climbs out of the car and walks round to her side, he opens the door for her as she rubs her knee and climbs out. James holds her hand as they walk in together, her eyes look around the training centre where she had so many good memories but all it was painted with painful ones.

In her head she could see hear the ambulance sirens and the medics and James’ voice as they put her in the back to get her to the hospital.

She walked into the changing rooms, she changed in her normal skating outfit her black leotard, her cardigan, her tights, her little skirt and her leg warmers. She took a deep breath as she put on her sparkling white skate boots. She walked to the mirror and looked at herself, if you were to tell her she would be back she would of laughed, with her injuries she thought her dream was over. She ran her fingers through her hair before feeling the scar, she turned her head to see the 4cm war wound.

She quickly tied her hair up and walked, her eyes fell on James, she took the guards off the blades and walked to the edge.

She put her foot out and everything froze. Her breathing fastened as she felt her heartbeat in her stomach. Her eyes scrunched closed as she replayed the moment she hit the ice.

‘So what does that mean?’ James questions the Doctor.

She cleared her throat trying to stop her emotions. ‘It means there’s a 50% chance I could get back to full fitness and an even slimmer chance I could get back in the rink, right?’

The doctor gave her a sympathetic look and nodded. James spoke to the doctor more as YN zoned out. She completely breaking down as the doctor left them.

‘It’s all over J, all my dreams crushed in that moment’ she broke down with James instantly pulling her into a hug.

‘It’s not over, you are YN bloody YLN, you will show everyone that you’ll fight and beat the odds. 50% chance that you’ll get back, no that 100% and you will be at the Olympics’ he confidently. ‘Chilly and I are pretty excited to go to China and you are not getting in the way of that’ he joked making you laugh.

‘Come on’ her coach appeared infront of her. ‘You’ve defeated the odds, don’t let yourself get in the way now’ she puts out her hand which YN takes and gets back on the ice for the first time in nine months.

They skated around the rink, with her coach keeping a close eye on her, she was instantly like duck to water. She still had some stiffness in her knee but she was able to skate. A few weeks went by and her difficulty level of spins and jumps increases, everyone could see that she had lost that sparkle in her eye, it was as if she had put on the safety breaks, and she often looked like bambi on ice.

YN let out a frustrated moan as she puts her hands on her head as she just slides across the ice. She directs herself towards James who is calling her over.

‘Don’t push yourself too hard, I know you are blind-sighted because of all the pressure on you and the dreams, but is this all really worth it?’ He questioned. ‘You are not fully back and you are working towards tryouts to get on the team?’

She started to get aggravated by him.

‘Is all this worth a gold medal? One more bump to the head and then-’

‘DON’T!’ She shouts. ‘If it was the other way round you’d do anything to go to the World Cup! I can do this, and I’m going to do it’ she states. ‘I can get whatever I put my mind too, remember’ she mutters before skating off.

James letting out his frustration as he kicks the board making everyone look at him.

....

Fast forward to February 2022 and YN was at the Olympics, living her complete Olympic dreams. James and Chilly was there supporting her just like they planned.

Her leg shook slightly as she stood in the changing room with James, they were holding each other as he tried to control her emotions. The last few months have been hard work and James saw that first hand, whenever it went bad they would argue just because he was trying to look after her. But it never went down well, but she knew he always had her back.

‘You’ve got this’ he whispered as his arms tightened around her. ‘You’ve beaten the odds, show the doubters wrong’

He gently caresses her cheek as he sees her eyes glisten and sparkle.

He leans in and kisses her. ‘Now go get that gold medal’ he smiles.

It was the second day of the competition and YN and Isaiah was still in the running. They were the last to perform so they knew exactly what to do. As they appeared on the rink the audience cheered waving the England flag.

James was on the edge of his seat, he felt sick to his stomach as he did the whole routine with you. He felt himself stop breathing at every lift and solo turn. He relaxed a little more every time you both executed your skills so cleaning and perfectly. Everyone was so awe struck of the two skaters we they gave the perfect story, his eyes landed on their coach and he could tell she was pleased. By the end of the routine James had tears in his eyes, as YN tried to keep her emotions in check.

There was a bit of a wait until the scores came in, YN instantly fell to the ground as she felt her heart burst as they got a 159.31 which had just taken the gold medal from the Germans.

James ran down and engulfed his girl, she wrapped her legs around him as he spun them around.

‘You done it’ he gushed. ‘I love you so so much!’

Her lip quivered as she realised that all her hard work has paid off.

#olympic dreams #james maddison imagines #james maddison blurb #james maddison

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