#thc last episode

[nattaphum]

STOP THEY ARE SO CUTEEEE

Translation:

Apo: *talks to camera* he was asking, between him and Cha Eun Woo, who is more handsome?

Job: just now… what did you say Po?

Apo: of course dude, that you are more handsome ahahah

Job: Oh hell! It's freaking a lie. Such a sincere you are *talks to camera* can you see any truth?

[dylanconrique]

i'm so glad i had an edible left.

[woodsfae]

B5 S03E19 Grey 17 Is Missing previous episode - table of contents

I'm not sure how this episode is going to go, because prior to this I have always watched B5 high (I started this saga while taking hydrocodone pain meds I was allergic to post-wisdom teeth removal) or sober (which I quickly stopped doing, because the recaps were a dry and stale recounting of the plot in a most unpleasant way), but now I can't have THC for awhile (pre-op instructions for what will hopefully be my last surgery for awhile) and so I am experimenting with liveblogging while tipsy. 

So far I thimk that tipsy b5 blogging may be the era of run-on sentences. play video. 

Harry Sanders says in response to the question "are you a telepath,": "sure." 

I am guessing that Mr Sanders is not a telepath. But I am a huge fan of people fucking with Zack Allen. Queer icon Harry Sanders tries to flirt his way into the job. sadly, he fails.

Unnamed maintenance worker gets sucked into a maintenance tunnel with random wires trailing out of it. That probably won't be relevant later :)

Someone, I am assuming Sinclair, spoke of Delenn "with great reverence" to his Minbari friend regularly. I LOVE THAT OMG. *shipping intensifies* 

Harlan Ellison consulted on this one, too?? That's so cool. My Eepectations just went up. Minbari With The Nose thinks that Delenn should take over as Ranger One. Are they going out of their way to not say his name? 

Calling a gun with bullets a slugthrower is a pretty amusing thing to share with Star Wars. I once read a crossover fic where Han Solo (iirc) went on smuggling runs to B5 to pick up kyber crystals, which the B5 people have been using for mere data storage. 

"I swear it's like the Centauri triangle in there - something's always going wrong."

I only support Garibaldi's casual racism because actually, everything IS always going wrong with the Centauri....but has the Bermuda Triangle myth been supplanted with a centauri space equivalent?? And what makes it a triangle in 3d space?

Stephen Franklin is looking rough. Withdrawl. Withdrawal? Sad plotline. Space AA is not my favorite plotline. Also, Mr Dr Franklin, maybe don't compain about people following you around when you haven't even left Babylon Five???? That's a cry for help if ever I saw one in metaphor. If you wanna be alone like...barter some medical attention for a ride to an abandoned planetoid. 

Gray 17 is a level of b5? Cool. I thought it was going to be a person that disappeared. And it is several of them at least. But there's also thirty official grey levels but only 29 accessible. I like it. 

Delenn looks extra pretty today. 

Why does this Minbari know about siren songs? Convergent cultural evolution, or does this guy like Earth ancient-greek sailor myths? 

It's genuinly hilarious (and apropos) for a Minbari Ranger to think it pollutes the rangers for humans to be admitted. This warrior class Minbari thinks it's heretical for Delenn-of-the-clerics to consider taking command of the Rangers, which he thinks are the rightful domain of the warrior caste. 

hm. Where'd he go. That won't come up later, either. 

Garibaldi is leaning into one of his strengths: investigation. He's counting the seconds the elevator takes between Grey levels. Grey  like the grey council, or pure coincidence?

ALSO. no minbari has killed another minbari for a thousand years?? I find that very hard to believe. Domestic violence? manslaughter?? What kind of statistical fuckery are they employing to make that something Delenn can say without winking??

Delenn: "I want your word that you will not tell [Sheridan] about [the warrior class dick threatening to kill me]. Your. Word." 

*cue Lennier hinting unsubtly about Delenn's life being in danger*

I did not expect Level 17 Grey to come up. Where is the missing number if Grey 17 is missing, it goes to Grey 30, but there's only 29 levels? This mystery is deeper than I expected it to be!

 The missing floor, once Garibaldi rules-lawyers the lift into stopping there, is trashed. And it says Grey 17 in a different place than the other floors. AND there's what looks like a technical diagram for a trash can where the other floors have their designation signs. Idk what this means, but it's a data point!! 

Well. I would drop kick that puppet if it talked to me on a trashed level. But Michael Garibaldi let it DART him. like a SCHMUCK. Don't let it do that. hit the follow button for more HOT TIPS FROM MICHAL. (pronounced like McCalll, not like Michael).

Lennier!!!! YES HE IS TELLING SOMEONE. But not Sheridan. Love his rules-lawyering. Super cute. My guy. Lancelot (purely platonic version).

I would kiss Lennier all over his sweet face. And he would not like it. I am sure. 

Garibaldi has recovered-ish from his darting of unknown substance. FUCK THAT PUPPET. burn it with fire or smth. 

Who is this council of lost persons?? Jim Henson's dream?????!

"My name is Jeremiah. Welcome to the end of the world." 

YES PLEASE. This is good plot, and I like it. 

Delenn is really beautiful this episode. I think the red/blue rich, saturated colors particularly flatter her. But she is always unfairly pretty and generally lickable.

Delenn's mother entered the sisters of valeria soon after Delenn was born, and she's only seen her twice. TWICE. And Delenn's father died ten years ago. She does not mention siblings. How old is Delenn? If it isn't a plot-relevant spoiler, please let me know if you know it. 

Her thoughts on missing her father are both relatable and wistful. It made me thoughtful about the same topic. 

Jeremiah says the reason the Minbari almost defeated the humans in the war was because the Minbari are closer to the truth than humans. AND we have learned that the people on Grey Level 17 is because they hacked the system and detached themselves from the rest of B5. Isolationists being isolationist on a tiny little level of a space station is illogical and funny and very, very human.

The Minbari offended by Delenn running the Rangers is called Neroon! That's super familiar and I think I've met him before. He says "During the war I killed fifty thousand of you....what's one more?" Well my dude. I bet you didn't kill fifty thousand humans in one-on-one combat. And I'm gonna go ahead and bet on Marcus's staff-fighting prowess over his. 

GET 'IM MARCUS.

This is a well-choreographed and filmed staff fight. 

Jeremiah on Grey Level 17 actually is super aligned with Delenn's philosophy on the universe. But is far more freaky about the practical side of the philosophy. tbh. I think Jeremiah did LSD one too many times. 

Garibaldi isn't super serious about his threat because his choke hold lacks a fulcrum...Jeremiah could break it anytime he liked if he knew how to identify what wrestling hold he was in....signed...someone whose father wrestled in highschool and taught them from a young age to identify and break choke holds by neck-feel....

GO MARCUS GO GET NEROON. 

Neroon: "Why? You must have known you could not win....so why do it?" Marcus: "For [Delenn]. [...] In Valen's name." 

LANCELOT MOVE OVER, GALAHAD HAS ARRIVED

Jeremiah: "Listen. Listen. The only way out is-is to find a purity of thought. A purity of belief! That is the door! The door of the mind." 

Hm. This dude is craycray. And his further speech does nothing to dispel the notion. What is screeching?? 

If Sinclair was Entil'Zha, wthen what was this Minbari Ranger going to designate Delenn?

Damn it, Neroon lives. Bring! Back! Galahad! fuck u neroon. You don't deserve a capitalized proper noun name.

wtf is this thing hunting on level 17 grey?? I don't recognize its silhouette. 

Michael Garibaldi (paraphrased): HOW DO WE HURT THIS THING??? *looks at .38 bullets in hand*

Me, reliving my misspent youth: IF YOU GRAB THE SHELL OF THOSE .38s WITH PLIERS THEN HIT THE PRIMER WITH A BALLPEEN HAMMER U CAN SHOOT IT

(yes I did this shit for fun as a child and I am EXTREMELY LUCKY I did not have a mishap of a permanent injury variety)

hmm. Garibaldi sorta used my childhood fun trick but with a pipe to protect his fragile hands.. UNLIKE ME AND MY PLAIN PLIERS AND HAMMER

Neroon kicked Marcus's ass but Marcus is going to recover -a relief. But Neroon!! FUCK OFF. 

"you are more noble than I" - Neroon (paraphrased)

THAT'S A GALAHAD MOVE. psych. Marcus got you with his ideological purity and ironic wit!!

The murderous thing on Grey level 17 was a "zarg." OK. Please, if it isn't spoilery, remind me what that is. 

This episode feels a bit more disjointed than they usually are, but I liked it. And fuck Neroon!!! Get behind Delenn or shut the fuck up. 

*a perfectly good episode. but also. GET BEHIND DELENN OR STFU!!

onward

[kfedup]

Y’all.

I tried a new-to-me Indica THC-CBD-CBN capsule for sleep last night because my neck was jacked. I took it at 8:45 and watched the latest episode of The Morning Show, read for a bit and was out by 11:00. When I tell you I slept like an indigo velvet lake, I am trying to describe how deep, dark, and delicious it was, but also? I’m still a little stoned. These new caps are for emergency sleep only. Hoo boy.

[raelle-writing]

It’s largely the shipping that is causing the issues. I like both PheeNon and PheeJin for different reasons. JinNon would be cute too in different universe. PheeNon is the classic high school/first love romance . It’s sweet, innocent and full of butterfly’s and idealistic. We always hope for the first love to be the one but it’s rare that it is. It’s something that we’ll always remember though regardless of how many loves we have for the rest of our lives.

Just based on what we’ve seen so far PheeJin is more adult, sexually charged and intense. Some would say it’s morally wrong for them to be together but sometimes I like couples that are so wrong, they’re right. It seems like they can read each other well and therefore they know what the other person needs. So there is potential for a long term relationship. If the feelings are real.

I agree with you, and I honestly don't understand it. I have ghost ships that aren't even really seen on screen together from other shows. Just enjoy your ship? And especially when it comes to PheeNon I'm like - the show is billed as TaCopper's show. They earned it when they won THC. Why are you kicking up a fuss like that's "taking away" from Barcode? It makes no sense to me, particularly since Codey has Wuju Bakery coming out next month.

I liked PheeNon, they were cute. I also liked the potential of JinNon. PheeJin is and has been my main ship the entire time so of course I'm biased, but I agree with you. PheeNon was very much first love, high school love, puppy love. They stepped past each other's boundaries. They lied to each other. They hurt each other and broke up. I think PheeJin has was more potential for a longer lasting relationship IF (and these are big ifs):

They can learn to talk to each other

Phee can get over Jin taking the video

Jin can get over Phee getting close to him with an ulterior motive

I also don't even think it's wrong for them to be together tbh. For the most part, they're the least-awful of all the characters. I wrote a meta previously about how the two of them were parallels in episode 7 in how they reacted to Non. I think both of them's biggest sins were reacting in anger to a situation where they didn't have all the context. They both deserve the opportunity to heal and move on and learn to love again, even if what they did in those moments was bad.

Anyway, thanks for the message! I agree with you, and I wish this fandom was a little less tiresome but at least it hasn't entirely ruined the fun!

[trivialbob]

Last night at an off-leash taproom I tried a can of THC beverage. I’ve had some edibles before, but not a THC drink.

The taste was adequate. Not terribly flavorful. Think LaCroix fizzy water.

The sensation was pretty much what I’ve experienced with gummies. I’ll drive a car after one or two beers, but I don’t want to with THC, so Sheila drove us home.

Back in my living room I sat at watched TV. I felt pretty relaxed. As with gummies, I felt a bit dizzy for a short time. Then I probably giggled a little bit too much at two episodes of Schitt’s Creek. Falling asleep was easy. I had dumb dreams though.

We brought Sulley with us to the taproom. Our two older dogs don’t really get into the off-leash taproom. All they do is hang out in a corner or under a table so there’s no point paying for their admission (people free, dogs pay).

When we first arrived it was chaotic. An enormous Mastiff chased Sulley to the top of a wooden play platform. It startled Sulley, who quickly jumped off the platform and ran to a corner. The Mastiff also jumped down, landing on his big, fat, slobbery face. The impact splattered a puddle of dog drool on the concrete floor. That dog hit the floor so hard that several people came over to check on him. Cartoon stars circled his head, but I guess he was OK. Later he was chasing another Mastiff. No humans ended up with broken knees that I know of.

[shijuruiburning]

truthfully I havent recovered from my fucked up panic attack meltdown from last weekend, but I'm doing my best to keep shit together.

I've been struggling immensely with suicidal urges and thoughts - debating contacting a hotline. But I've had poor experiences with wards because unlike the "typical" suicidal individual I'm very quiet, obedient with the doctors, don't cry/scream/hurt myself. so I'm not taken seriously and it seems like a massive cry for attention or a way to avoid work (???). Both times I visited I was released within 24 hours, both stays being overnight. I just slept a lot because they took away my glasses and I couldnt do anything since, well, i can't see. One visit they kept me on a hospital bed in the hallway and released me in the morning after giving me a paper for the suicide hotline in Montreal ... so they really did not care.

Zoloft only helps so much, my episode happened due to missing doses when I was extremely sick. I dont want to rely on THC since it's a depressant, alcohol is out of the question. Psilocybin is iffy because being in a bad mental place will put me at risk for a bad experience and I could end up feeling much, much worse OR do something dangerous. If it DID go well then I could temporarily cure myself but it's not worth the risk.

I dont want to sleep all day when I'm off work, been trying to draw and read. I'm currently rewatching the entirety of adventure time as a distraction and that's been helping somewhat. Keeping everything clean and proper so my living environment wont add onto such feelings.

Living my life normally! but with the constant urge to slice my arms up and bleed out blasting in my brain. It's ... not pleasant. There's something so saddening about being depressed for so long that youre "high functioning" or whatever term you want to use, that people believe you're completely normal because you're still independent and have too much dignity, or whatever. Refuse to acknowledge you're struggling. I hate it.

[nattaphum]

Mileapo in the last episode of The Hidden Character

First outfit:

Second outfit:

Third outfit:

They’re matching 😍😍

Mileapo together ❤️

During his performance Mile asked everyone to jump but Apo was too busy filming him ahaha

Apo following Mile’s every move on stage

Apo caressing baby samoMile 🥹

[zmpl]

Do you still smoke weed? If so what kind? I gave it up because it made me so paranoid but I’m so stressed recently I’m craving that euphoric, relaxing high without the “there is something deeply dark and nefarious going on with my general practitioner’s office” feeling, so I’m considering trying delta 8 my friend suggested. I don’t know if it even works but my normal meds aren’t keeping down my anxiety even Ativan

no i haven’t gotten high in a while. the last time i did i ate an edible that was too strong and it triggered a psychosis episode. when i have to take my ativan to curb my panic attacks it gives me a light, drowsy, euphoric feeling but i would never use it other than its intended medical use, benzos are really addictive

you could try CBD with very low THC or no THC at all. it won’t get you high but it might help with your anxiety

[brokenfoxproductions]

I really hate whenever people paint medical marijuana patients as just people who are using their health as an excuse to get high.

Whenever I was first recommended medical marijuana, I was 20 and had been in recovery for opiates and completely clean off of anything that had not been directly prescribed to me, at that point, for 4 years and I had had a previous incident where I had recreationally smoked with friends and it went horribly wrong because it interacted badly with a medication I was prescribed at the time.

My doctors began suggesting medical marijuana as an option for my seizure disorder because I had bad side effects or bad experiences or even severe anaphylactic allergy reactions to every other medication that they had tried since I started having seizures at 11 years old, and I was actually really nervous and scared about the idea and I had to be talked into using CBD for a while first to be convinced that it would be safe for me.

I spent one entire year using CBD products before I gradually started adding in low THC products and I noticed that the higher the THC amount I had in my system, the longer I would have in between my seizures and the less my PTSD would flare up and cause panic attacks or severe flashbacks.

Shortly before I turn 21 I got a medical marijuana card for the first time and I was able to experience my first year for seizure free in an entire decade. I remember crying whenever my neurologist told me that I was allowed to get my learner's permit for the first time because my seizures were actually under control and that he considered this to be the most effective treatment that he had ever seen.

Prior to being on medical marijuana and whenever I have stopped using it, my seizures present as episodes of multiple grand mal seizures that can last hours to weeks at a time, during which I have an average of 3 to 5 grand mal seizures a day along with anywhere from 5 to 12 petite mall or staring seizures in that same day. Whenever I am able to access medical marijuana treatment, the episodes in which I have seizures are usually limited to a single 30-second seizure every 3 to 6 months.

If we're being completely honest I'm still not super fond of the fact that this is the only treatment that I have found that works because it's not super convenient for me. I have to pay for it 100% out of pocket because it's not federally legal, and it's extremely hard on my lungs as someone who has had pneumonia multiple times and suffers from lung scarring due to ground glass capacities for mold exposure and because I have Barrett's esophagus which causes me to cough up blood on a regular basis. These long issues get exacerbated whenever I smoke flower products, which I tend to use as a default despite the fact that it doesn't work as well on controlling my seizures and PTSD because it is generally the cheapest option that still gets my needs met, but it's extremely harsh on my lungs and causes me to cough up blood and Gunk a lot.

But I would rather cough up blood and Gunk on a daily basis then have my entire day in a seizure fog not knowing what's going on or how badly injured I really am until I come out of a fugue state.

Also unpopular opinion but, while I absolutely do not support people who are pregnant smoking for recreational reasons under any circumstances, I'm not afraid to admit that I made the decision during my most recent pregnancy to smoke while I was pregnant and as a result my daughter was born 100% healthy and a full 10 lb, and I only had two seizures during my entire pregnancy with her, whereas I chose not to continue using medical marijuana while I was pregnant with my 5-year-old and I had multiple seizures a day with him and was on bed rest the entire time and almost went into premature labor due to my seizures three different times, leading to an emergency C-section after 9 hours of unmedicated labor while he was stuck sideways because I had a seizure after my baby shower that induced labor. I think that if you have a medical reason to stay on a medication, and your doctors agree, it's not anyone else's business and shouldn't be stigmatized. You're not their OBGYN, fuck off it.

People might not like it but my life and my children's lives have been changed for the better by these medications and these products. I'm able to be a parent and have a functional life and work and to be able to actually be a relatively normal person compared to being stuck in a hospital bed for the majority of my life because of this medication. I frankly don't care about all the hippie bullshit of it not being a pill or being natural or whatever the fuck, what I care about is that it worked and that it's made me able to live instead of just being miserable.

I would rather have the stigma of having people think I'm a pothead and being involved in 420 culture and having people judge me that I'm a "stoner parent" for smoking on my back porch during nap time or whatever then to have 5 to 10 seizures a day that are giving me concussions and putting me on bed rest and making it wear unconstantly having broken bones and scratches and bruising and other horrible fucking injuries that make my life unlivable.

If you really think that stigmatizing a fucking plant that has been used in medicine for thousands of years is actually going to help someone like me who has had seven different doctors tell me that this is the only thing that my seizure disorder responds to, you are literally just missing the entire point.

[libertarian-druid-in-greater-vt]

So, I'm trying THCO for the first time, 6 hours before work. Just a trial run, but damn do this shit hit hard and fast.

I don't recommend it if you're just turning 21 and smoking for the first time. This shit is for veteran stoners. Shit you not, 1 hit and I'm couchlocked within 15 minutes. Like, holy fuck.

This is shit that shouldn't be happening at all to a vet stoner with standard weed. Effects easily 4-5x stronger than d9 THC. Already did pre reading on what to expect, and I likely won't have to worry. As long as my coworkers aren't horribly ill, I won't be called in. And they've got strong immune systems from years on the job. You've sort of got to have a strong immune system to work as a janitor. Ofc, being salaried also means they need to work 35 hours a week to get a full paycheck. Otherwise, that week becomes an hourly one. And considering what they make, if they somehow were sick, they'd work massive overtime to not only make up the hours, but get paid overtime since our policy is anything over 35 hours is time and a half rather than the standard 40.

But back to the thco, I gotta say, the decision to only take one hit was a good one. Because now that it's had time to kick in, roughly 25 minutes now, it's kicking in hard. The addition of nicotine via salt based liquid nicotine was a good call for a day off.

And the last episode of dbza, good watch at this level. Think I'm gonna go for hellsing abridged next. TFS just works out too well when stoned. No real need to pay attention, and just funny.

Will post updates if anything interesting happens. I heard tale of this causing some hallucinations in rare cases. So could be interesting. And I may be experiencing minor auditory hallucinations, or there's birds outside. I think the latter more likely.

As I'm about to post this, my legs went numb.

[sentimental-apathy]

I need a new psychiatrist. I’m so frustrated. I’ve basically been without medication for my bipolar depression and insomnia for almost 3 months now. Olanzapine was making me gain weight and tbh it had kinda stopped helping me sleep so I was at a loss. So he prescribed me topamax and ziprazidone. Topamax is supposed to help suppress my appetite and the ziprazidone was supposed to treat my bipolar depression. But my main issue is insomnia. I keep getting treated like I have schizophrenia when the only times I’ve experienced symptoms of that is when I go into psychosis due to severe insomnia. I don’t have schizoaffective or schizophrenia. I have severe insomnia and depression and occasional/rare manic episodes that worsen the insomnia. However, it’s been over 2 years since I experienced a “manic” episode and I believe it was partly induced by using too much thc. So anyway. The ziprazidone did not help me sleep whatsoever so I stopped taking it and talked to my psychiatrist again. He prescribed me a medication called Lybalvi which is olanzapine and samidorphan combined to help you sleep, treat bipolar, and also reduce weight gain. Problem was Medicaid wouldn’t cover it. My psychiatrist never called me to explain what was going on or to try and put me on something else, I just ended up waiting over a month trying to get hold of them to see what was happening and if I’d get the medication or not and eventually I was just like ok fuck this and made a new appointment because I wasn’t getting anywhere and I still was struggling to sleep well. So at my last appointment a couple weeks ago he was really discouraging me because he was acting like he didn’t know what else to do and like he couldn’t think of any more meds to try for me and suggested abilify when I’d already tried abilify twice and it doesn’t help me sleep so what’s the point? I asked if he could prescribe me Caplyta because I’d done research on bipolar depression medications that help you sleep and it was suggested. He said he’d never prescribed that before so he didn’t want to prescribe it to me and instead recommended I try Vraylar. I was disappointed but said ok. Later that day I’m notified by text that my prescription isn’t ready because they’re having insurance issues. Again. So at this point I was fuming. Anyway it’s like a week and a half later and it finally got approved by Medicaid so I picked it up yesterday and took it last night with my other meds and guess what. I couldn’t sleep. In fact, even tho I was really tired, I felt utterly restless for some reason and my thoughts kept going to weird places, kinda like I was dreaming but fully awake and tossing and turning, unable to stay still. So I looked it up. Apparently vraylar can cause restlessness and insomnia. Like. Wtf. This psychiatrist is so inept at this point it’s ridiculous. I’m telling him over and over during every appointment, my mood is fine but I can’t sleep, not sleeping, trouble sleeping, my sleep schedule is all over the place, please help me with my insomnia and instead of treating that or listening to me he keeps prescribing me schizophrenia meds that I don’t fucking need, that don’t help me sleep. I’m so frustrated and mad right now. It’s ridiculous. I’m gonna have to find a new psychiatrist. Not looking forward to it. Meanwhile I’ve been trying to find a job, applying to some different positions but haven’t heard anything back. I’m so anxious and nervous that I’m gonna get a call and then start working but still be struggling to sleep and then I’ll have to work while getting no sleep and that usually leads to me having a breakdown so I’m just really anxious in general about everything. I’m really struggling mentally right now. I’m super depressed but my insomnia is the worst. I don’t know what to do. I’m so frustrated.

[oonajaeadira]

Hi beauty ❤️ 3, 4, 7, 20, 23, 28 and 30: do you love "The Simpsons" ?

Hello, kitkat!

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a specific color that gives you the ick?

To be honest, I don't think I have one. I really love color. I mean, I will admit that I'm not a fan of most greens unless it's really blueish or pastel. The darker/muddier it is the lesser I like it...olive green is probably my last choice of paint color. Yellowish/greenish browns maybe? Camel? Remember Pedro's crochet sweater top? That's probably a color I could say makes my face involuntarily frown. So maybe it's not always a color that puts me off, but an ill-fitting combo. Like camel and cherry red. 🤮

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mythical creature you think/believe is real?

Depends on what you define as "real." Do you mean corporally walking around this Earth and can be shot and hung on a wall real? Because then the answer is none.

But there's a chance that reality is always being made and remade. Maybe it's parallel universes. Maybe it's the Big Bang over and over. Maybe we're all living in a computer simulation. Nothing is really real or permanent or proven. And yet, our brains can make the most wonderful things true. In that case, all.

What do I believe? I don't even know. I am a true agnostic in the purest sense. My spirituality is Shrodenger's Box shaped. Nothing is real. Everything is real. Possibilities are endless and I love them all.

You know, I have never done drugs and there's a THC gummy in my kitchen pantry that I've been saving for the right time. If this is me stone cold sober, I bet I'm hilarious when I'm high. And I bet acid would allow me to see through walls.

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what animal do you look forward to seeing when you visit an aquarium?

Whenever I go to the zoo, I will admit that I'm okay if I miss the aquarium because I'm not a water girl. But. Once I step inside, I'm like WELL OF COURSE I WANNA SEE ALL THESE WATER FRIENDS. My favorites there are the sea dragons. I could watch them all damn day.

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favorite disney princess movie?

Tangled. I will not be taking questions.

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do you wear jewelry?

Yes. I feel naked without earrings and rings. If it's not overkill, I'll also add a necklace, bracelets, and/or enamel pins. Sometimes I'll add them BECAUSE it's overkill.

I love jewelry, but I hate getting it as a gift because it's also the one thing I'm very very picky about. And I have certain metal allergies. So if someone buys me jewelry, there's a good chance they either bought me something I can't wear....or, if I can, then they spent too much money on me.

Fortunately, I really love beaded/stringed bracelets! (Best bet!)

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last meal on earth?

Gods, I hope it's tacos.

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do you love "The Simpsons"?

Love? No. Casually like? Sure. I've seen a handful and found them amusing. I liked it a lot when I was younger, but I kinda lost track at like season 7 or so. It boggles my mind when someone quotes an episode and is like, "do you remember that one?" And I'm like....whaaaaat. You know there's over 700 episodes, right? Mando is my favorite show and only has 24-ish episodes and I need to go rewatch that to remember everything. You expect me to remember "that one episode" of a show that's been running for a literal legal lifetime? And when I tell them I don't watch The Simpsons, they look at me in shock, like I don't drink water or breathe air.

If an episode is on in a waiting room, I will find that preferable to many other waiting room channels. I appreciate that the characters have remained recognizable for decades and you don't have to know all the episodes to enjoy the fact that Homer is going to reliably fuck up or that Marge is gonna mmmmmm at him or that Lisa is disappointed in the ignorance around her but still has lessons of her own to learn. Maggie's gonna suck on that pacifier forever (or until she grows up and becomes a raging punk, right?)

I like them. But there's too much of it for me to love. I have a Star War to obsess over....

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weirdly specific and unrelated asks

[aneysuuchwandiaries]

I just had the scariest night of my life.

Before our AZ-UT trip last weekend, I was already feeling sick with all the change of weather we’ve had in OC lately. I can no longer cancel the trip given that we already booked up all our Airbnb stay and Antelope Canyon tour which was quite expensive, to say the least. 

I was able to manage all my nagging flu symptoms until that one Sunday evening. We arrived in Vegas from Utah at 9 pm and desperate for relief, I turned to my friends for help. One offered flu medication, while another suggested CBD gummies to ease my discomfort and ensure a restful sleep during the journey home.

Optimistically, I ingested both, hoping for a reprieve from my symptoms and a chance to rest. Yet, what followed was far from the tranquility I sought.

It was about an hour passed the time I took the gummy that I felt a creeping numbness spread through my body, a sensation both alien and alarming. Dismissing it as mere paranoia, I tried to focus on the road ahead, but my mind had other plans. Soon, hallucinations danced before my eyes, a series of vivid images and surreal sights.

Cartoon characters from childhood memories grinned at me while rainbows with eyes winked knowingly as if privy to see me. Every object, every shadow seemed to take on a life of its own, morphing into grotesque caricatures of themselves.

The mere fact that we were driving back from Vegas at nighttime and that we still had 4hours ahead of us was enough for me to comprehend. I wanted to believe that it was due to my first time taking CBD gummies and maybe I would feel better in the next couple of minutes. 

Minutes later as I tried to be in denial of what was happening, I could now feel my palpitation. I could feel my heart beating fast, and I started to panic. Given that we were still in the middle of the desert, I started to feel anxious about what was about to happen combined with the sound of the running engine at 80mph and the unappealing music from the radio. I asked my boyfriend to roll down the windows a bit so I could breathe some air. The next thing I knew, I was shaking and I wanted to vomit. I told them to pull over the car at the nearest town, and I’m glad we went to Thermometer; a town before the 90-mile desert stretch. No exits, no towns. Just the vastness of the desert. 

We parked at the grocery store and I started to vomit when I got out of the car. I can feel both my arms and legs shaking not because of the cold given how cold it was in Vegas but because it was like my body’s involuntary response from the palpitation. I asked if they could call 911 and so I can go to the nearest hospital. At this point, I was already panicking that breathing fresh air didn’t help.

My sister’s boyfriend studied the CBD gummy I took and the moment I went in the car again, he said I only took a 15 mg THC gummy with 0% CBD. Meaning, the reason why I was intoxicated and high was that I technically only took THC gummies and the fact that I also took flu medications at the same time. When taking THC,  it was known to give you temporary psychotic episodes which was similar to what I just had to go through. 

I thought I was on drug overdose, but my brain function was typically heightened by the 2 things I took that night. 

We stayed at Thermometer for 2 hours more at 1 am, and I feel like I could not go through the same ordeal of seeing things in my head while in a running vehicle. So many things triggered my panic attack that I could no longer feel my hands and feet. I asked them to pinch me so hard but a little to no effect. Good thing my boyfriend, who is an RN, was there to manually check my pulse using his two fingers. He said my pulse rate was 190 then went down to 120 in 20 minutes. 

After 2 hours of staying there, we decided to move ahead because we no longer felt safe in the area. Bea saw 3 men coming our way, maybe trying to break in at least but realized that there were people inside. It triggered my palpitations again, and I was trying to calm myself down.  

What I realized from this experience of getting high was how my brain works marvelously. 

Back on the road again, I can feel my heart beating fast. But I don’t know how these two things transpired that suddenly I can hear 2 people inside my head. 

The name of the other entity was Eva, and the next was Duffy. 

Whenever my brain gives me a snippet of my adult problems, like working later today, and I couldn’t call off, Eva would address them. I don’t know how she did it, but I know I calmed down each time I addressed the thoughts to Eva. She felt as though she was my adult alter-ego. I talked to her whenever I lifted my head straight. 

Duffy, on the other hand, addressed my childhood nostalgia, and she made me calm way more than Eva did. Talking to her is when I put my head down. This area where Duffy exists usually was where I could feel my heartbeat slow down. Especially when I see more familiar things in my head from the past, like how my school paper looked back in 2nd grade and even forcing myself to play the soundtrack of DN Angel in my head. These two imaginary people in my head were the reason why I survived the 3hour drive from Vegas to California. If they weren’t there, I would have a panic attack again. It was as if my mind was helping me cope with what stressed me out the most. 

I know all these things I mentioned sounded silly and crazy, but it did happen. I never thought I would live this day to tell the tale of me getting high unintentionally. And you know how I don’t even have bad habits like smoking and drinking alcohol but getting high was a new thing for me. It was the first time in my life that I felt like I had a close life-and-death encounter. I felt like dying that night, but Eva and Duffy were like my cruise control - they kept me sane and protected from my toxic thoughts. 

Although it was one of the scariest nights of my entire life, I think the whole ordeal of getting high like m*f* was fascinating, to say the least. 

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i did not have time to watch the last episode of THC yet and just saw the spoiler that Perth was the one to be kicked out first?? fuck this. he was the best part of the show. i'm not watching THC further