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stitchlingbelle · 2 days

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Why Lucy?

Ok, other people have probably come up with this already, but: we speculate about the Harkers being something supernatural by the end of the book--

--have we considered that Lucy might have been something supernatural from the beginning?

Leaving aside the inevitable Doomed By the Narrative foreshadowing she gets, Lucy begins sleepwalking and more before the Count arrives in Whitby. It is strongly implied that her sleepwalking is something beyond the usual: "there is an odd concentration about her which I do not understand; even in her sleep she seems to be watching me..."

Also before her first encounter with Dracula, her dreams and moods are uncertain--and significant-- enough to feature heavily in Mina's diary: "Lucy is more excitable than ever, but is otherwise well..." And again, it is stated that she is unusual: "She was restless and uneasy all the time, and I cannot but think that her dreaming at night is telling on her. She is quite odd in one thing: she will not admit to me that there is any cause for restlessness; or if there be, she does not understand it herself."

Mina ascribes Lucy's problems to her innate nature: "Lucy is so... sensitive that she feels influences more acutely than other people do..."

Lucy seems more aware of her attacks than Mina later is. (Or that Jonathan was, if you subscribe to that interpretation.) She reports not just the material things she witnesses (hearing the flapping of Dracula in his bat form, as Mina saw his mist form), and not just the fear and nightmares all experience, but "distant voices which seemed so close to me, the harsh sounds that came from I know not where and commanded me to do I know not what..."

And her recollection of her first attack while sleepwalking is neither a blank, like Mina's first, nor a grounded account, like Mina's last-- instead, Lucy reports an out-of-body experience: "my soul seemed to go out from my body and float about the air. I seem to remember that once the West Lighthouse was right under me... and I came back and found you shaking my body. I saw you do it before I felt you."

Finally, Lucy's struggle against her impending transformation is different from Mina's. When Mina begins to turn into a vampire at the end of the book, she can't abide garlic, but Lucy quickly grows fond of it and says "there is peace in its smell". Seward reports that "whenever she got into that lethargic state [in which Dracula controls her]... she put the flowers from her; but that when she waked she clutched them close." Lucy somehow feels and responds positively to the garlic's powers, even as her body transforms (her wound healing and teeth growing, and her vampiric nature attempting to ensnare Art).

Finally, Lucy herself, at the beginning of the novel, believes herself to be unusual: "[Seward] has a curious habit... as if trying to read one's thoughts. He tries this on very much with me, but I flatter myself he has got a tough nut to crack. I know that from my glass. Do you ever try to read your own face? I do... He says that I afford him a curious psychological study, and I humbly think I do."

I think there's an argument to be made that Dracula picked Lucy because she was the easiest for him to reach-- that she was sensitive, not in the emotional sense, but in the sense of being clairvoyant. She can hear him, and therefor be compelled to obey him, before anyone else. The strangeness around her before the Count's arrival isn't just foreshadowing for us-- it's Lucy's own second sight warning her that doom is at hand, and giving her the power to struggle against it for as long as she possibly can.

#The novel is interested in the theme of modernity triumphing over superstition #and therefor walks an interesting line of incorporating psuedoscience like hypnotism #while leaving out most trappings of the then-popular Spiritualism movement #I doubt Stoker meant us to read Lucy as an occultist #but he's dead and we do what we want #dracula daily

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oceanatydes · 7 months

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THE NEW MARRIAGE PROPOSAL SCENE???

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jessamine-rose · 26 days

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*lovingly tackles Aine*

Read my Yandere! Pierro longfics first ♪( ´▽｀)

Last week, my beloved mutual @ainescribe surprised me with Savior! Darling fan art and AHAI9232@2-!/! CRYING SCREAMING I WANT TO LOOK AT THIS ART AND WORSHIP YOUR VERSION OF SAVIOR THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR BLESSING ME WITH YOUR ART—

*clears throat* Anyway, now that I finally have the time to properly sit down and comment on the fan art, I’ll do just that. Feedback will be in the tags and it will be unhinged. Once again, thank you so much to Aine for drawing this <3

#feedback #fan art #ainescribe #AIIINE ;-; once again. thank you so much!! it rlly means a lot to me that you enjoyed my writing and felt inspired to draw this :'>#and as someone who loves fashion and character design. it's so so interesting to analyze your version of savior #there's so much symbolism and visual storytelling in each sketch/ outfit and i shall now proceed to pick apart each detail as best as i can #her snezhnayan fit.....god i love it. it's regal. distinctively snezhnayan. and draws attention to her--and you just know that was pierro's #intention when he dressed her in those garments. IT'S JUST SO...!! savior's wardrobe scrubbed clean of her original culture and preferences #replaced with the foreign garments of her captor's nations.....in line with this. i love how her kokoshnik and khaenri'ahn earrings are big #and attention-grabbing. you can't look at her without taking note of those accessories. it begs the question:: how many times has savior #looked at the mirror after being dressed up in snezhnaya and was unable to recognize her own reflection?? :'>#also shoutout to some details aine shared with me: 1) the face marks are inspired by weeping angels 2) the kokoshnik was traditionally worn #by married noblewomen BUT the veil was normally for unmarried women so savior's outfit can be seen as a form of compliance + rebellion #(though later on in history it became accepted for married women to also wear that veil. also my apologies if what i said is inaccurate)#lastly shoutout to savior's expression!! very poised and mysterious....due to her emotional state or pierro's rules on how to act as his #spouse in public?? we'll never know~ the first drawing hits even harder when you compare it to the next one!! such an interesting contrast~#savior in her plain attire. casual and domestic with a smile on her face....i'm guessing this is her pre-fatui version?? she looks so warm #and friendly. and i can definitely understand why pierro fell for her smile <3 #also i fucking love the caption. sorry pierro but you are cursed to be a loser/ simp/ pathetic man in all of my fics and AUs xD #NOW ONTO GODDESS! SAVIOR AAAHHHH!! i love the greek goddess motifs. she looks so regal and awe-inspiring but in a different way from her #snezhnayan attire--archaic. divine. and more suited to her personal style.....yet both versions of her look so painfully isolated :'>#her blank eyes. emotionless face. and veil give me the vibes of a spooky victorian ghost...or would a statue/ portrait be more fitting??#the lack of a necklace is also an interesting design choice given what happens in the fic. and now i realized i forgot to comment on your #version of her snezhnayan necklace oops. similar to the kokoshnik and earrings. the size + grandeur makes it impossible to ignore #that and big jewels = expensive af. ohhh and i love the sparkles on her veil!! pierro rlly spared no expense in dressing up his wifey <3 #it's also funny how all of these outfits are similar to my own version in terms of 'savior wore grand clothing during her glory days as a #goddess -> wore simple attire after her decline for practicality and to blend in with humans/ disassociate from her old identity -> is now #dressed in even grander clothing as the harbinger's spouse. but it's used to reinforce her new identity and pierro's control over her'#tldr:: your design is so creative and i can see the effort you put in analyzing her character and depicting her based on your interpretatio #thank you for being my mutual + reader and i hope we can share even more harbinger/darling brainrot in the future :>

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dairyfreenugget · 5 months

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(Going insane boinkinh one AU in my head)

Hey hey hey

May I interest you in

(Slowly slides my FaaF AU towards you but void just Disappears without a trace one day before the accolade)

Teehee

#thylacines can talk #faaf au #i love this au very yummy. a very fun twist on how Flower's dynamic with their parents would progress afterwards #the vessels live but the void exits their bodies in quite a violent manner (extreme pain and literally throwing up an entire person worth of #void). Flower was on guard duty and theyre found barely conscious in a pool of rapidly evaporating void. passes out seconds later #PK also had the displeasure of experiencing extene pain and burning as void forced its way out through his skin <3 And his moulds all melted #and evaporated. after the initial shock wears off theyre hit with “Oh No #the vessel“ and rush to find them. Well somebody else was already looking for the royal pair about this #Flower wakes up dazed and in pain in their father's workshop. their stomach hurts their throat burns and they feel lightheaded. the entire #place is considerably brighter than they remember and in they can hear two faint voices in the background but theyre too preoccupied with #examining their now pure white hand in shock to focus on anything else. until they hear their mother say “My wyrm they're awake” and #suddenly their parents are by their side. Now the two have no idea what void leaving their body might have done to them. Are they still #hollow? are they still dead? do they understand anything are they sentient? or was what was done pernament even without the void? do they #have the mind of a child if their sentience was restored? or do they remember anything? So WL stays by their side and helps them sit up #while their father goes to grab his tools. She's trying to keep them calm and comfort them but theyre still too disoriented to pay her much #attention. Until their father checks their breathing and they yelp audibly from the cool metal contacting their skin and suddenly they seem #much more alert. theyve never experienced true coldness before. PK quickly apologises and tries to be gentler with them. Theyre breathing #properly and they have a heartbeat. And he just pauses for a long while just. listening to their heart beating. Many emotions to be had #after the exam's over he asks them point blank how theyre feeling. And Flower looks up at him still seeming a little disoriented. and then #they lower their hand to their stomach and mutter 'My tummy hurts...a-and my throat burns'. It's to be expected after the way the void #left their body. so he goes to grab them some water and meds and they also ask for food and a mirror. And after he returns they just stare #at themself in the mirror and pull on their bangs for a while then blurt out 'I have your eyes' when PK asks if everything's okay. And he #and he almost chokes up as he replies 'Yeah...Yeah you do'. Flower eventually spins a lie that they remember everything but its all distant #and blurry. Like they were not aware until now. They figured it'd be better to not break their hearts #And now the three have to figure out how to be a family while PK is also scrambling to find a new solution to the infection #oops i meant to only give a brief rundown in the tags which is why it was in the tags. but i got too invested KDHDKFB

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hall0wedwyrm · 5 months

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Something I love about the Monsterverse is how they took one of the titans who started as kind of an antagonist, and made him THE protagonist. Kong having a character arc is soooo good I love it. The whole idea of him being misinterpreted as an antagonist but is revealed to be a protector of Skull Island and the Iwi... man.

and in GvK where he slowly grows into this role too. Reluctantly going along with the humans, but becoming a bit more trusting of them, and actively helping.

AND in The New Empire, the choice to make him a main protag is SO GOOD!!!!! Following his pov as his discovers others of his kind, and Suko and his personality really shines too. he's a pretty tough guy, but he's also willing to jump in if something is wrong (shown when he openly fights Skar King) AND THE SCENE WHERE HE HELPS THE OVERWORKED APE IS SO AAAAAAGH he's soooo empathetic,,,,,

anyway yeah just thought I'd share this I've been thinking about it a lot

#I love them giving the big monke a great personality....... instead of having him as a kind of like #blank onesided guy.... he's got so much emotion.......#and also this goes for Godzilla if he gets an arc like this I'd be so happy #I know the director said he wants to give Goji this treatment and I'M IN.#especially if it's another KOTM deal where he's got a big guy to face #and needs to get his act together #godzilla x kong: the new empire #kong

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starbuck · 8 months

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seeing films live has really impressed upon me how strongly laughter functions as a response to intense discomfort for many people. it’s really interesting!

#i’m notoriously silent and blank-faced when watching movies #and i’m also used to watching them alone in my house #so seeing them with groups of people is just SO much #the only other movies i’d ever really seen in theaters were kids movies when i was a kid #which were pretty formulaic in terms of reaction type and intensity #so getting to hear people’s reactions to more complex stories is… Something #because people laugh at the jokes - of course #but they also laugh at other times #which seems to be a response to almost like… emotional confusion??#just not knowing HOW to feel #often because the characters are also emotionally conflicted and freaking out #so the intensely awkward ???????????????? signals beget a ????????????????? response from the audience #which is expressed physically through laughter #and it’s just… idk #i like it

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aroaessidhe · 1 year

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2023 reads

Winter’s Orbit

standalone space opera/romance

when his cousin dies, an imperial prince is rushed into marrying the widower - an ambassador from a planet they have a tenuous treaty with - to control rising political hostilities

neither thinks the other is happy with the circumstances, but they have to put on appearances for the public - and when they find out the death might have been murder and they’re implicated, they start to uncover a web of treason within the court and empire

arranged marriage, politcs, set on a wintery planet

#Winter’s Orbit #aroaessidhe 2023 reads #i enjoyed this a lot!#it’s not 100% for me and I think maybe it relied a little too much fanfic romance tropes at points but like. that’s not inherently bad #there were some things that i wanted more of like. jainan’s relationship with his sister?#we see them about to talk for the first time in 2 years but then don’t actually….see that talk?#or anything else between them til the end of the book. i was like hold on I get not seeing That scene but surely she's gonna come up again #asfkadjfh theres a survival bit in the middle which im like. survival 101 stay where you are!!!!! oh my god unfamiliar snowy landscape coul #be SO dangerous. if there’s a storm. whiteout!! also dangerous wildlife apparently???#the book does raise this and have valid counter arguments as far as the worldbuilding goes #(they’re in a blank spot of cell service which is rare so hard to find them) but akjdhsgkjsf i can’t help but be like. noo.....#but also space opera setting that’s on a very wintery planet - i feel like is not that common! i like that #definitely has a hefty amount of miscommunication but like….it’s the kind that’s because the characters come from such different #emotional contexts rather than silly reasons. i don’t mind that tbh. though they maybe could have talked about things a bit earlier

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ourhouseishaunted · 1 year

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70% of my trigun thoughts are abt how plants (independent and dependant) work and what they symbolize and their relationships with other characters and the world and stuff and the implications of independent plants coming with the earth forces and what it says about how earth has progressed since SEEDS left the planet, 20% of my thoughts are "hope those guys (meryl milly vash livio ww knives) are having fun" and 10% is rotating trimax Rem Saverem around in my head at all times

#i think abt rem a lot for a character that is like important but also isnt materially present in the story much #like idk her relationship with grief and regret and the idea of her looking at the shambles of her life and having to say #'well at least i can start over since theres nothing left for me' multiple times (after alex dies and she joins seeds #and after failing to keep tesla alive and getting a 'second chance' with vash and knives) idk its just so fascinating to me #and her idea of a blank ticket to the future and what it means in terms of how vash shapes his worldview in trimax #where it seems to be about how. death stops all future potential of a person. if they die they can never get better they dont learn #they cant change and experience consequence #like smth i find fascinating in trimax is that vash doesnt kill people but he will let somebody that person has hurt punch them in the face #and he thanks ww for killing to save the colony that one time. hes not opposed to killing/consequence entirely #i think it comes down a lot to how rem behaved in the aftermath of him finding out about tesla. how the potential for things to get better #would have died with him or rem and it would have just stayed horrible #idk idk im Rambling im turing things around in my brain #also man my main complaint with the manga is i wish it focused on the dependant plants more. they clearly experienced a big emotional #struggle esp in the final volumes and i wish we got to see more of it #but also i just like the wacky small town hijinks esp in the 98 anime i love when the main cast is just goofin around. i think they should #get to goof more #trigun #.txt #Dont Look At This Post Man its EMBARRASSING nobody should let me talk abt anything #the secret special bonus tjoughts are about chronica bc she fascinates me but i cant draw her good the way i can draw meryl and rem :(

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animatoriii · 2 months

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Cynth & Co! (old pages from 2021) THEY'RE GETTIN NEW REFS I SWEAR I'm just uploading old work The original 5 pager of Cynth & Co. For a brief little synopsis, Cynth & Co share one body. Cynth (the host) is trying to create bodies through biomedical magic and transfer everyone's consciousness. Not everyone seems to be on board...

#animatorii #asynchronic #ambrae #dnd tow #cynth #peter #pressure #cierca #nina #original character #oc #Cynth is your classic “blank stare...” kinda character #she doesn't really emote much. and has a monotonous tone. their personality is no personality #(there's more to him than that I apologize Cynth my beloved)#Peter has anger issues man. calm tf down #he hates Cynth with every fiber of his being #he also swears every other word in every sentence he speaks #Pressure is old man kibby #wise old blacksmith. Who doesn't take shit. Also is so tired of the rest. Please gosh give him a break #Cierca is precious I love her sm I love this hopeless romantic #She's bubbly! And real sweet. And a bit ditzy too girl. girl help. girl stop. girl #then there's BABY GIRL #sorry Nina #bb girl is the CEO of business what can I say #she will cry #She's also a bit of a brat #but she's cute too #2021

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taikk0 · 2 years

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JUST SAYING ONCE I LEARN TO PRONOUNCE MY T'S PROPERLY ITS OVER FOR YOU BUTTNUGGETS

#IVE ALWAYS PRONOUNCED T'S WITH MY TONGUE AND I HAVE NO IDEA HOW TO FIX IT ITS BEEN THAT WAY FOR SO LONG #BUT ONE DAY. I WILL PRONOUNCE MY T'S SO GOOD YOULL THINK IM A WHITE PERSON #WHAT SUCKS TOO IS THAT IM BILINGUAL WHILE ENGLISH IS MY FIRST LANGUAGE I SPEAK TAGALOG MOST OF THE TIME BECAUSE OF MY ENVIRONMENT SO I-#-HAVE NO PROPER WAY OF PRACTICING IT BC FILIPINOS PRONOUNCE T'S DIFFERENTLY BC OF THE LANGUAGE AND UNLESS IM IN AN ENGLISH SPEAKING-#-SETTING THERES NO WAY IM GONNA BE ABLE TO PRACTICE CONSISTENTLY 💔💔#even worse i slur over my words all the time. i have a stutter. i have VERY frequent voice cracks and when i try to suppress them i sound-#-ver odd. PLUS ADHD #idk if adhd might be one of the causes or of it gets added to the pile but dude i actually need help 💀💀#but another problem is i dont think anyone would see the point in it #i communicate just fine its just that i have so much trouble communicating verbally (vocally?) in a way that isnt unnatural and in a way-#-that properly articulates what i want to say and how i say it. often i have so much trouble showing varied emotion to prove a point when-#-im referring or talking about something that isnt reactionary #LIKE DUDE WHY IS TALKING SO HARD 💔ALL PEOPLE CAN TALK WHY DO I HAVE TO SUFFER THROUGH ALL PF THIS THIS SUCKS #which might be why i prefer writing what i want to say bc unlike talking the way i speak has nothing to do with it. i get given time to-#-think. and with an adhd brain writing what you want to say is so much better because typing it out involves the conscious decision to-#-type it all out and it acts as a filter #BLEFGGGH SORRY I KEEP BLABBERING ON THIS WSS SUPPPSED TO BE A SILLY LITTLE POST IDK WHY I WENT HAM IN THE TAGS #anyways umm yeah i dont like talking. i like communicating and maybe socializing tho. but not talking. does that make sense???#there r also times where i straightup cant speak at all. i want to speak and i want to say things but my brain feels too busy or ig blank-#-but not empty and i cant form words or sentences and all i have are thoughts and feelings #anyways i think asl is neat and i want to learn it not just for my benefit but also for accessibility #also filipino sign language if im up for it #man there is something wrong w my brain 💀#mikyomix rambles #yeah this one was a true ramble but only in the tags

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immamapletreekid · 9 months

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playing pokemon black... started tearing up at skyarrow bridge

#THE SKYARROW BRIDGE THEME MAKES ME SO EMOTIONAL BUT IM NOT EVEN SURE WHY?????#POKEMKN MAKES ME SO EMOTIONAL AND I DO KNOW WHY!!!!!#god i wish i could have played it growing up... i have a ds but no actual cartridge and pokemon gamws sell for crazy amounts #i want to olay it on the ds for the full experience #one of my goals in life is to have my own copies of pokemon bw and platinum...#pokemon makes me cry. i love pokemon i love running around collectijg friends and battling cool people #idk i think 7 year old me tjougjt it was so cool how adults in games were so much kinder and cooler tjan real life adults #imagine being a gym leader and archeologist?!?!?!! a member od the elite four who fucking. shoots a guy w hyper beam point blank #i love lance hes insane #IMAGINE BEING CHAMPION OF HOENN! BEING HEIR TO THE LARGEST COMPANY IN HOENN! AND BEING A ROCK ENTHUSIAST WHO CAN SPEND HIS DAYS TRAVELLIMG T #HE WORLD LOOKING FOR RARE STONES!!! STEVEN STONE IS LIVING THE LIFE I WANT #but also i get so sad bc. when i first got into pokemon i was several years younger than the protags #when i first watched pokeani i was younger than ash!!!!! and now i am old :(#never going to br able to go back to spending summer vacation curled up at home going through 7 volumes of pokespe a day...#never goijg to be able to waych anipoke during winter break under a pillow fort again...#never goijg to be ahle to experience listening to n's farewell and the striaton city theme and skyarrow bridge theme and eterna forest and #littleroot town and nimbasa city and cianwood city and #so many other pieces for the first time again #rambling finished i guess first days of class make me cranky and sad #going ti go back to playijg pokemon black again...going to walk around castelia city and scream #rambling about stuff #rambling about pokemon

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wovenstarlight · 2 years

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ageswap anon here again, thanks! i swear you have the best writing and concept ideas. what hyj up to? does he awaken this time around is he ageswapped with yoohyun and if so how does that affect th han bro relationship ? also if he is ageswapped. what's his relationship with shj?

HEH. HEHEHEHE. i haven't decided abt awakening (and if there's a regression plot) yet but yes he is ageswapped with yoohyun (hyj 20 hyh 25) and when i tell you things are strained. they didn't get any better at communication when hyj learned from hyh's reticent -_- ass. hyh hasn't totally cut hyj off but they're very distant for a long time... and neither of them is taking steps to bridge the gap because. well hyh because he created it intentionally and hyj because. hm. theres a long line of dominoes there but lets just summarize it as he doesn't think hyh wants him to

re: hyj and shj. lmao. they both have similar senses of humor still i guess but hyj mentally relegates him to the position of "mha and byr's junior/little brother/nephew/purse chihuahua/???" and deals with him in much the same way you might handle a friend's younger sibling you end up having to babysit when you hang out with them. i think just for funnies shj has baby's first crush on hyj but because he's, again, Baby (he's 15... a middle schooler.... a very annoying middle schooler......) nothing comes of it. shj just very energetically bothers hyj every time he sees him and is subject to relentless teasing from mha and byr once they pick up on it

#answered #anonymous #star.txt #my sranks #sranks ageswap #byr is hyj's idol (in both the Wow i respect her and the merch collecting ways lmao) and mha is his bestie #so he doesn't actually want to upset shj because he knows he's important to them #but the kid is. kind of relentless. good lord #* disclaimer that hyj's interactions with shj+mha+byr mostly flourish after the eventual han brothers reconciliation #once hyj's running in the high-rank circles. mha met him before but they weren't that close back then #i think canon+ageswap people seeing the other versions of the han bros would be absolutely thrown off #because (and this is going into headcanon territory now) canon hyh is actually more expressive? having picked up hyj's habits as he grew #but not only is ageswap hyh kind of blank faced all the time. ageswap hyj is Also a Lot more unreadable #because he grew up with Guy Who Doesn't Do Human Shit Like Emoting Much as his role model #so while he emotes its distinctly less. emphasized? less of the 100% emotion faces canon!hyj makes sometimes. tops off at 30%ish #he loosens up and gets more expressive after growing close to mha especially #+ once the bros reconcile he starts acting particularly spoiled & clingy around hyh. which of course hyh encourages by spoiling him rotten #case of both of them thinking that the other cared way way less than they did. and once they realize they were wrong. Hoo boy #decade of doting to make up for

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thatmightyheart · 2 years

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I don't know if I can be boring but I wanted to know if you have any tips on how to improve in terms of art, what to practice and how

ahhh sorry you're asking the wrong person, i don't practise as much as i should and i actually don't know much about art at all, technically...?? i can't really tell you what to do since that can be whatever you're interested in... after all there are countless resources on the internet for figures, colour, perspective, everything...

sorry anon but this is way too broad a question, i think there's nothing for it than to pick up a sketchbook and start sketching? like from life, or find any reference images that catch your eye?? the more you draw the more peripheral skills you pick up... (e.g. clothed figures = poses + clothing folds, still lifes = shapes, colour, shading, etc...)

#um also don't draw stuff for the sake of posting online for numbers or whatever that's a one-way street to bad brain emotions #also inevitably you'll draw the worst sketches humanly possible and you have to go ''wow... so ugly<3''#and close the sketchbook knowing that shit is between you and god #sorry i don't actually have any practical advice anon #like i genuinely wasn't taught much i just draw anime boys standing around. on occasion anime boys kising each other #blank ass backgrounds type beat #so #anon #postcards

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darabeatha · 1 year

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#also WHAT IS THAT EXPRESSIONNNN #its not a smile filter; its a real thing #reminds me of t.outa's face expressions; t.outa lit has an upside down smile as sad emote #;dl #tw: injury #tw: blood #;m.octezuma II #standing.png to add to the blank #WHAT are thooooseeeeee -points at his huge futuristic-like guns-#i find it funny in a way; if they went with the road where he's the one meant to represent tezca on earth as in being the teotl Ixiptla #him using guns like t.ezca makes a lot of sense + the jaguar outfit #it adds even more sense considering that this person reached their 'peak' point during the festival of toxcatl in honor to tezcatlipoca #tho prob doesnt make much sense historically wise for mocte to take on such role; its just a f.go plot point #but what do i know about lb plots truly-#anyways there's so much i want to talk about him bc theres!! so much!!! and AUGHGGHHHHHH #the point remains the same in any case;;; that he stands #as one does #wow my side standing mocte got screwed

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castleinthemist · 8 days

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only on ch.5 of FDC: 2 but damn, this shit's so engrossing...i know the snes version most likely got some bells and whistles visually but, while the presentation is really simple, it does so damn much with what it has.

#i love how much you can convey with an emotion/expression with a two pixel difference. hell yeah #ayumi's worried expression and blank face is literally like two pixels difference it's so good #it also very easily puts into sharp perspective why aa is like that lol #the command menu in this manner is really interesting to engage with too...it's not the clearest but i can understand the like #underlying logic as to why you pick commands in certain orders or repeat commands

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ozlices · 1 year

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i genuinely sincerely cant believe i was called a manipulative person with a victim complex by a person who acted like my savior for "rescuing" me from that house, only to have zero remorse abt kicking me back into it. esp throwing it on me a singular month after i endured even more trauma in that house. like. bruh i literally have zero idea how to even begin to process this.

#mine #the place we were looking to move fell through & my parents said they'll help me keep looking bc they know this is worst case scenario #for a multitude of reasons but im just. like. idfk #i rly do not want to hold onto bitterness or a grudge but there's no way i cant w having to move back there.#like she rly told me to my face so many times she was glad she could help me get outta there #and then a month after i went through the most traumatic night of my life there #tells me that the very real probability that i have to move back there 'isnt her problem'. after... just. idk.#boosting her ego sm over ~saving me~ from a place she sent me back to like ?????#then again idk what im expecting from a person who told me my trauma-fueled meltdowns & breakdowns were triggering For Her #and tried to also act like my moon-given savior for just simply holding me three (3) times #during said melt/breakdowns during the multiple years we lived together #and then proceeding to ignore me and laugh w her partner in the other room while i screamed in agony.#like... yeah. i understand. they're a LOT. but also. the thing that gets me the most is i was transparent from the jump #abt everything involving me & my trauma & my trauma reactions.#i let her know point blank that i was moving out w the intention to process & recover from a shitload of trauma & baggage.#i made it clear id have intense emotional reactions cause i was having to learn to navigate stuff.#like. it's not like i just threw her into a cage w me and told her to just deal. i warned her. from the jump.#bc thats all i could do and she said it was fine. she was glad to help me start healing.#and then ever since then it's been a constant string of even MORE trauma being laid on top of what i already had #and now it's ending with like. so much trauma i genuinely have zero clue how to begin to process it.#it's just... v wild. and exhausting. and like i said. i rly do not want to stay bitter #but i literally dont know how to avoid it w shit ending up like this.#like literally straight up how dare u ever praise urself on my behalf when it was all leading to this. fuck you.#and also having the gall to make ME the manipulative asshole w a victim complex in this scenario like. bruh.#you cannot be serious... what the actual fuck man

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