#the idea of all my f/os knowing each other would be interesting

[solitaireships]

okok two things i wanted to ask:

have you ever thought of an au where all your fos are put together in one big au? :0 i've sorta seen some modern aus around here and there where people do it so i'm curious if you've ever done that before!

i'm curious: how different is the role swap au to the actual canon between shepard and hoffman? does it all play the same in the end? different? (@eveningshards)

Hey Haze!

I haven't really thought of something like that tbh! I've been asked a couple of times on twitter about how I think James and Bruce would interact if they met each other, and tbh that's always something I've struggled to kind of think of, like I for some reason just cannot imagine characters from different media interacting with each other i say like i haven't written a ship fic for james and miguel. Like it seems cool in theory, but idk if it's something I'd be ever able to come up with ideas for

With the role swap for Shepard and Hoffman, in some ways it follows canon fairly closely, but in other's it's different. Namely bcs Shepard is not as brutal as Hoffman is, even when she's a serial killer. She would be very committed to the ideology behind Jigsaw, and that means that every test she makes is a legitimate test where it's hard to pass, but still possible to. This means there's no reason for John to basically put in his will to kill her if she gets out of hand the way he did for Hoffman, and it also means that the events of S.aw 3D would be very different from how they were. Maybe that means that movie would actually be good lol

But I do think that in the end, she would end up being in trouble with the law. Not bcs Jill tells the police tho, instead it would be because one of the people who managed to survive her traps ended up figuring out who she was. That or Perez didn't get killed during the equivalent of the scene where Hoffman's exposed, idk for sure since this is still a very undeveloped au like all of mine are lol

Either way, she ends up having to go into hiding, and that's how she meets Hoffman, paralleling how she ends up meeting him when there's an active manhunt for him within their canon. It's probably slightly lower stakes than her saving him tho considering she never gets locked away in the bathroom like Hoffman does bcs of the aforementioned not having her murder be part of John's will

But from there, things are pretty similar to the standard Shepard and Hoffman dynamic, just flipping things around to match with their differing roles of serial killer vs "I can fix them". But also Hoffman has more "damn she's a serial killer. Kinda hot. If she kills again then I guess I support women's wrongs" vibes bcs he can be inclined towards evil as a treat

[justfrankie3]

Do you have some lore about how you met all of your f/os? I would love to hear it! :]

Hiii Joker!! I'm glad you asked!!

Hate to disappoint you but I'm just one of those shippers who doesn't have any lore yet. it's all in a working process 😭

It just all happened you know. I met them and boom!! Love!

I did have some old lore with Marvin but after I gotten 3 more f/os it just doesn't work anymore to me cause I like to imagine a whole multiverse since I'm poly with them

But here is the old lore I written with Marvin how we met I did post it here before in like last November for f/ovember I changed it a bit in December so here:

We first met in a coffee shop. Ever since I kinda stuck with him. We became friends. Marvin found my species interesting since I'm half dog and alien. He kept asking me questions about me. I didn't mind that. He was always confused about why I'm not afraid of him like the earthlings are. I had no idea. He wasn't scary to me. I found him cute. But of course he got mad and embarrassed when I said that. When he told me the reason why he was here on earth I found it funny I mean how can a little guy like that destroy the whole earth? I never told him that though. I showed him all the cool things earth has so maybe that would distract him from his evil plans. I showed him the mall, the arcade, the museum, and many more fun places. Hope he gives this planet a chance. Cause I find the place interesting. I was only trying to help the little guy from not being so evil anymore. We hangout every day. He stayed with me at my place and I showed him my favorite hobbies. He was very interested. We had our laughs. Somedays he went back to his home planet Mars I missed him a lot...that's when I realized I had a crush on him...whoops

I had this in my notes lol

Now heres an idea that I wrote for Irep some changes will probably be made soon if I get ideas for the lore

Irep: We went to the same school together. We weren't exactly friends to him but I did see him as one. His evil ways still annoyed me too.

Reminds me of this screenshot edit I keep forgetting to share but this is a perfect time to share it! I should make a full reference of little Apollo

The after we graduated we went on our separate ways. Then on a random day I ran into him and we couldn't believe we met up again. We caught up on everything with each other. Later on I gained feelings for him but I was afraid to since I was already with Marvin. I always wanted to tell Marvin that I was Polly I wanted to have relationships with others too. But I had the fear he would think that meant I wouldn't love him anymore. But I talked to him about how I had feelings for Irep and being Polly! He approved it So I introduce Marvin to Irep!! And it all worked out!

And I'm still working on Lore for Ember and Chick at the moment 😔

I hope you enjoy what I have for now :D

[turigirl]

Could you tell us either abt ur ocs or your f/os? :-)

hi anon i love you

my ocs that ive been thinking about most lately have been those under the tag "fine & mellow" :o) theyre a 60s girl band! ive read a lot about the dynamics of popular bands, specifically in this time period, and i think the love-hate relationship that usually results is really interesting.

i think if i ever illustrated it in some way (art or writing or etc) id want it to be a comic. maybe a webcomic, maybe a physical comic. im not super sure on that.

id want to include things like interviews, magazine covers, album covers, photos of them, etc, played as from a real band (as real as a picture of furries can be). i have a list of album names and song ideas for each one (some being existing songs to pretend are theirs, some being "original" songs. meaning i made it up)

the band is founded in 1959 by dominique dalmatian, who is the main character. she's reserved- not shy necessarily but cautious of every new person she meets. she has bpd (projectionn of my symptomsss) and depression that creeps in slowly and immobilizes her. and she plays bass! she has a strong work ethic and will push her feelings (and others') aside to finish her work, in this case being f&m's albums.

fine & mellow is the name of the band, by the way, to be clear. it's named after a jazz standard and slowly becomes more and more ironic.

there are other guitarists before, of course, but the most important one is laura labradoodle. she's peppy and brings a lighter tone to their music as well as a more romantic light. shes a brilliant songwriter, despite it being really just a hobby. shes a full time photographer when they recruit her. when she joins in 1962, the band as a whole changes. she and dom write songs together, becoming closer and closer. that relationship and how it bends and breaks is especially what i would focus on. there's something so heartbreaking about getting so close, hearing a part of the others soul, only for something to backfire and send the band into a downward spiral.

clears my throat. so anyway, the drummer is named lolly lamb, and she stays from the beginning (until she's pushed out by jackie, who you'll hear about in a sec). she adores 40s and 50s fashion and has a seemingly instinctual sense of beat. drumming for f&m started out as a favor for her friend and ended up becoming so much more for her, and the rest of them.

in early 1964, after a couple months of no creative breaks, laura brings in... a hairdresser. her name is jackie jackrabbit, and she stares at the other two like they've grown new heads. but she's laura's friend, and they know the moment she sings with them that they've got something special. jackie is a little snobby and a little blunt, but manages to fit in fairly well. she can't play an instrument, but her singing ability more than makes up for it, and laura hands her a tambourine a few months later.

they release an album in july, and it seems to be the domino piece slowly falling into place. after months of arguing with jackie, lolly leaves the band.

they hire a session drummer, LAYLA, but she quickly becomes their permanent drummer for their next albums. layla (stylized in all caps) is the stage name of susie sloth-bear, a drummer who first got famous as a model. but she was good, playing as a session drummer across the states.

but the making of their next album with layla is FULL of arguments, and they go on a 5 month hiatus. the hiatus gave them the new material they were looking for, but they struggled to work together in making them. most of the songs on the next album would be mainly played by one individual member. only layla collaborated with the other three. the damage was done, and their 1967 album, fittingly titled "kill the lights," would be their last.

so that was kinda long, huh? i still don't have everything set in stone, but here's a summary probably way longer than you expected. they also all have refs! which are on my toyhouse (link). i would upload them here, and someday i might get around to it, but i dont have the energy to write ids for all of em. so. ill leave it at all this. if anyone has any questions, though, id be happy to answer :o) im still workin out the kinks!

[preyhabits]

Here's an idea: what Monster High doll would you assign to each of your f/os? Based on who they would choose themselves or what you would give to them, doesn't matter.

– villain-in-love

*clenches fists* oh my god, your mind!! I fucking love this idea, why didn't I think of this??

Just to note.. I'll probably assign them based on the MH characters that I know from my childhood. I don't know all of them 😖

HABIT - As I commented under my other post, I think he'd like Clawdeen! Mainly because she speaks her mind and can be pretty sassy, and I think he'd love that she's a werewolf. Maybe some runner-ups are Twyla (rabbit and dream motifs, which also suits HABIT's) and I guess Spectra could also work since HABIT is compared to ghosts a lot, but I don't know if he'd care for her personality. And I know I have 3 already.. but I'm going to throw Venus in too. I think he'd love her sense of style a lot.

Evan - I think he'd also love Clawdeen, to be honest. Again, werewolf, Evan is basically my werewolf bf. He also loves zombies, so I think he'd like Ghoulia too! Evan is a collector of many things as well (mainly knives), so he understands the appeal. He might jokingly ask how i can sleep at night with their eyes on me, but he doesn't judge. He would 100% play dolls with me, gives everyone their own goofy voices and personalities.

Kappa - I have no idea how this 1960s cultist dude would even react to MH dolls. Hmm... I think if he had to choose a fave, it would be Sarah Screams, since her fashion is 60s inspired, so in his head, she's dressed the most "normal" djdndn. in a similar sense, I think he'd like Viperine for her style, and I think he'd appreciate that she's inspired by Ancient Greek mythology.

Josef - Another Clawdeen fan here.. she's just that iconic. Of course, he would choose a werewolf. Maybe he'd also like Clawd?? I think he would be so cute about my interest in collecting. Genuinely interested in them and wants to know what I enjoy about collecting, the different characters, all of their names, ect. I think he would appreciate the concept of dolls based around classic movie monsters too!

Bo - I would literally tie this man down to a chair and force him to learn the entire MH lore. So he will be well-versed. He doesn't have a favourite character because "dolls are for girls!!" (It's Honey Swamp). But honestly, despite anything he says, i don't think he would mind my interest in doll collecting. I think he'd scrape some money together to buy me one for my birthday, or something. The only problem is that the sweltering heat of Ambrose might melt them :(

Jay - DJDJF HE DEFO WOULD PLAY DOLLS WITH ME.. gets super into it, puts on the voices and everything. Roleplays the most outrageous scenarios. His fave would have to be Venus, of course, because "she defo grows weed."

Beetlejuice - I mean... this man has two collector dolls now. He chooses himself!! Fjdng he's self-absorbed ^^; I think he'd own them and put them on his desk or something lmao

🥃 - his masculinity complex is genuinely too threatened by the idea of playing with dolls djdnd. I think since he's also very traditional/from the 1950s, the concept of monster high in general would bother him. If he had to choose, it might be Cupid because "she's at least an angel, not a damn demon like the rest of 'em."

🎪 - also from the 1950s, but not as headstrong about traditional values. It's actually interesting to think about the fact that a lot of the OG horror films were coming out during this time. I wonder what he would make of MH's concept of having the daughter of the classic monsters from these movies that would've been coming out at the time. But anyway... since he's from the circus, I think he'd like the Freak du Chic line the most. I think he'd like Gooliope, or really any character included in that line.

🛻 - he wouldn't normally bother with dolls, but he'd nurture my interest in them for sure. I think he'd probably be one of my f/os who is most-likely to spoil me as a collector, lmao. As for his favourite, hm... its tough to say. I think it would be whoever I like the most, so Draculaura, Elissabat and Twyla.

[louiesselfshipramblings]

Thoughts on the media my f/os are from!

The MCU kinda sucks these days. The last good thing they put out was GotG Vol. 3, and you know that was all Gunn. Granted, the series's highs are still very high—Iron Man, Avengers 1, all the Captain America movies, Thor 1, Thor Ragnarok, the Guardians trilogy—and there is occasionally some good. And of course I have a soft spot for the Hawkeye tv show. It was good!

The Legend of Zelda is still one of my fave series, and while I did enjoy Tears of the Kingdom on initial playthrough...man, this game sucks. And not even in a bad game way; it's just so derivative. Which like, yeah, sequel literally built off the back of BotW, but there's no innovation. It has all the issues BotW had, but worse. Like, I'm biased of course, but Purah's redesign is legit one of the best things about the game. Like, it's not bad, I like it, but man...and the story! Jeez, what a waste of time...

ENA is weird cause like, I knew about, then my friend showed me it, and I thought it was neat. Still a cool idea and such. It's just I kinda joined when the "original" Ena was ending and stuff with DreamBBQ was starting. My pref is still towards OG Ena, but I'm excited to see where Joel G takes things.

I have an interesting relationship with Sonic the Hedgehog; I don't play his games too often, but I love the lore, and side material like the comics and shows. Sonic Lost World is not a game I played, but I heard negative things about. Basically a Mario Galaxy clone...but Mario Galaxy is good, no? Considered by many one of the best games of all time? I dunno. The main thing is the Deadly Six...like I love Zeena, naturally, but the others. Eh...neutral. There's a reason my sona is Mobian and not zeti lol.

I was originally gonna watch the One Piece anime, but I eventually decided to go with the manga cause I heard it was paced better, plus I always wanted to read manga. Overall, I like it! It's very good. Simple at points, yet powerful too. I just wish Oda was a lil less horny, or at least reeled back the likes of Sanji and Brook. And drew women differently. And fixed Usopp's design. Yeh. Aside from that, it's good.

I haven't played Overwatch! I just think Sombra and D. Va are pretty. Mei, too. And Venture is kinda snazzy. It looks fine. Blizzard sucks but you knew that.

JoJo's Bizarre Adventure was my first real anime (outside of like the Pokemon anime), and it was good! David Productions really nailed the art style and colors, especially the color choices! Might check out the manga some day, but very excited for Part 7 to be animated!

Moon Girl & Devil Dinosaur is the perfect show to watch if you're a Marvel fan and fed up with the MCU. Creative, striking, and actually progressive when Disney isn't banning episodes like the morons they are. I need to watch a few more episodes, but the show is VERY good. Track down that banned one if ya can, it is WORTH it!

I've been a fan of Five Nights at Freddy's since I was a wee lad...never played an entry lol. Yeh I was more into the lore with MatPat, Dawko, 8-Bit Ryan, Razzbowski, those guys. It was fun! I still enjoy it but it def fell to the back burner. The movie was good, prob gonna see the sequel.

For the record I would totally give Danganronpa a chance, but ugh I just cannot do visual novels. There's just not enough "game" for me, if ya get me. No shade to people who do enjoy em, more power to ya. Just not for me. From the gameplay of 1, 2 and V3 I've seen...seems okay. Outdated at parts, and kinda on the nose with its 'hope v despair' theme, but each seems a solid mystery with a colorful cast.

I was late on the train for Kid Icarus: Uprising, but damn when I hoped on, did NOT regret it. Some of the greatest writing, voice acting, voice direction, story, and characters yet to be put to a single Nintendo game! The greatest come back for ANY Nintendo franchise! Gameplay is kinda standard but plays well. A sequel would be nice, but honestly a port to the Switch would be lovely as well.

For five bucks, Pseudoregalia is a steal. N64/PS1-looking 3D metroidvania with great music and solid controls. Plus the main character is my wife. I've been meaning to finish it, but I've been busy...will one day tho!

Indigo Park is another game I haven't played, BUT I did watch MarKatoto play through all of chapter 1, so that counts right? Anyways, cute looking game. Charming. Nice atmosphere. It doesn't feel like it's trying to crib FNAF's style, which is to its benefit. I have high hopes for the game moving forward, especially when compared to slop like BanBan, yuck.

The Mario + Rabbids games, both Kingdom Battle and Sparks of Hope, are the most not-me games I ended up likely. XCOM-esque real time strategy where Mario crosses over with Ubisoft's Rabbids? But it works! I still need to play the DLCs all the way through, but again...busy! Maybe some day...

The Wild Robot truly is a triumph. A phenomenal film with gorgeous animation, amazing voice work, a simple yet effective story, and just an air of coziness to it. It's a nice film. Can Chris Sanders just direct every movie from now on?

I got into Doki Doki Literature Club when mascot horrors were in their peak. Ya know, Hello Neighbor, Bendy, Tattletail, that stuff. Again, like FNAF and Indigo Park, I never played it myself, but seen it played enough to know it well. Maybe it doesn't have the best presentation or execution, but I still feel it's effective at what it's trying to do, all while still having a lovely cast of characters and a very cute art style. Would check out DDLC+, but again...visual novels.

Pokémon...ugh. What a franchise. Most profitable franchise in the world, backed by one of the most beloved and successful gaming companies of all time, all to releases, well...Scarlet & Violet on release day. Gen 7 was the last game I considered good, and maybe I'm biased. Last game you could have every mon in. At the very least, I still love the series for its ideas and designs, and I am looking forward to Legends Z-A. Legends Arceus was surprisingly good, so with how long Z-A is taking, not to mention FINALLY being the long coveted third Kalos game, I'm hopeful.

[ofironandivory]

cw: mentions of throwing up, periods and melting in the last paragraphs

I mean this in the best way possible but you need to stop this ghosty.

you can't keep making every single one of ships the epitome of romance, it's making it hard for me to choose favourites😔

I followed you during your sir pentiolous phase, and I only knew a little about him but you two were soo cute together!! I literally started blocking other shippers who shipped with him bc you 2 are just canon to me and I hated seeing him w anyone else.

then when I thought you couldn't get any cooler there was the muichiro phase and I thought "YES!! FELLOW DEMON SLAYER SHIPPER!!" and I was so sure this would be my favourite ship of yours. it was the first media that I not only was very familiar with but was also obsessed with it!!

so even after you got into mouthwashing, I was just chilling on the side lines knowing my otp. but then viktor came along..

and I was thrown for a loop!! I thought your ships couldnr get anymlre iconic, but viktor and emerie are so slay it makes me insane!! they're so powerful that 50% of my willpower to watch arcane came from the sole purpose of being able to understand and support them better!!

and they truly have it all, theyre obsessed with each other, they're bad influences in each other, they'd kill for each other, they're both super hot and have flavors of gay sex I didn't even know was possible, they're so angsty I throw up anytime either of them are mentioned, I need to every fact about them ever!!

okay rant over🤡 this is all very light hearted and half jokey. basically I'm obsessed with your ships and the dynamics you come up with them and hate (/j /lh) viktor and emerie (fucking LYING like a chump) for dethroning muichiro and erena as my favourite ship of yours.

I probably could've just sent you a normal ask saying I love your ships but I guess I was feeling quirky. I blame my period.

anyways enjoy the rest of your day (melts into a puddle cutely)

@i-put-the-s4p-in-s4pphic

No need to choose, in my opinion! All my friends' selfships are my OTPs >:3c

I go through some cycles with my F/Os, but some of them feel way stronger than the others; like Zebruh and Viktor! I have tattoos of both of them (though I won't share them here because body dysmorphia go brrrr)

My main objective when I make self inserts is to make them as similar to me as possible, while sticking to the universe's rules! As well as having a dash of Rule Of Cool, of course XD

Lucky for me, god decided to give me a backstory similar to the ones I'd write for my 2012 DeviantArt OCs, so it's quite easy to take bits and pieces to make it all fit into the narrative just right >:DDD

It's honestly so fun to re-theme my blog around which of my darlings I'm focused on but I honestly hope that my focus on Viktor lasts for a good while! Everything about him is so interesting to me and every time I think about him I just find more and more ideas for my selfship and self insert!!

I would love to learn more about your own selfships, but do forgive me for being shy/afraid to ask every now and then! I just don't wanna seem overwhelming and RSD drives me crazy about stuff like that smh

[signs-of-blossoming]

SURPRISE SELF SHIP ASK !

What would be your f/os reactions to you sudden appearing during their job ? Be it going to a live or just dropping a snack for them during practice

omg yippiee thank u for the ask!!! answer got. a bit out of hand bc nothing brings me more joy than writing notes on scenarios from my head so... a bunch of text under the cut TwT

Arisu is usually a very rare guest at lives (to begin with, they are too much of a working class hero to have that much spare time and money to attend idol performances often...), but finding a couple of spare minutes between customers to drop by practice rooms was much easier and... Arisu becomes an unstopable force when the opportunity to take care of ppl they care about arises at the end of the day. What that means is that Arisu coming over with a quick snack and a couple of drinks during practice wouldn't be that surprising in the first place :3c

Madara encounters that part of Arisu pretty early on in their relationship (in the broad sense of the word), before they became romnatically invloved in any capacity. I still have not posted anything about my grand specific vision on how Arisu and Madara first met, but for the purpose of this answer all that matters is that Arisu takes interest and in some way personal responsibility in ensuring Mama's general well-being,,, so they became an unofficial audience for a lot of MaM training sessions :] Lives, of course, are a different matter entirely. Working for ES (even if not for anything directly idol-related, but Cinnamon is nothing to sneeze at too hehe) does eventually pay off, so when Arisu strats getting their hands on Live tickets - free or discounted, no less, they don't even need to think whether to go. Madara doesn't expect to see this familiar face in the front row, but it is a welcome surprise - even more so when it becmoes clear Arisu knows every song by heart by now and is singing their heart out :D So for the entirety of the Live Madara seemingly smiles a bit brighter too :D (and Arisu managed to smuggle him some Cinnamon pastries to snack on after too teehee)

Tatsumi and Arisu meet each other personally and start talking at a later point, and by then Arisu had even been at a couple of Alkaloid Lives (at first because Hiiro is Rinne's otouto-kun. means hes Niki's otouto-kun too. means hes Arisu's otouto-kun by proxy too!!) already. But a more important point of connection is Arisu often listens to Tattsun's radio show - it makes for a great podcast material when work is slow or they are stuck with something boring and menial task. They even end up sending a couple of anonymous letters asking for advice, all signed as Tama (alternative reading for "Su" in "Arisu" btw), which kickstarts a personal exchange of letters between them. With Arisu still using a pseudonym, because a semblance of anonimity allowed them to be more honest,,, and more personal in the letters. I just think the idea of Arisu and Tattsun being just casual friends at first, while Arisu as "Tama" quickly becomes very close to him and they end up sharing a lot with each other, a interesting concept okay. That is, until Arisu finally braces themselves masters up all of their courage. And show up to a recording of another episode of Tattsun's advice radio show (tho they wait just until the recording is over) with their next "Tama" letter in hand to give it to Tatsumi personally.... I think Tattsun would take the sudden news that his mysterious panpal had been his aquintance all along pretty well - even if for a bit both are a bit embarassed about the whole situation. They do grow super close as a result (and continue the letter exchange teehee)

Special bonus Niki - he expects Arisu to be there during his job actually .! its them against the world (having to work instead of discussing best sauces for braised pork tenderloin)

[hollow-prey]

boring ramblings about Ar.cana stuff

Alright. So. Ever since I finished Julian's route the first time and realized that, despite knowing what happens, it still stresses me out a bit upon replaying it, I have wanted to search for lighter, lower-stakes content with him that still scratches that particular indulgent itch that the main Arcana game provides, but have ultimately been too shy/cowardly to do so. Part of the reason is because I'm a shy, easily-flustered idiot, and part of it is because wherever there's Julian content, there is also canon x canon content with him lurking just around the corner, waiting to jumpscare me (particularly Jul.ian/As.ra stuff). I'm not a sharer (block and ignore team), and I definitely do not enjoy canon x canon stuff with any of my f/os, so I know I'm not mentally or emotionally strong enough to deal with the psychic damage that J/A content would cause. I'm such a wimp about it that whenever I log into the Arcana app, I cover part of the screen with my hand so that I don't see any Jul.ian/Asra art in the promo pop-ups that appear when you open the app (it's caught me off guard before, and now that I know it's a possibility, I'd rather try to avoid it if I can).

But sometimes some of the promos would intrigue me, advertising different Arcana stories and events and such, and I would be curious to check them out; but again, I was too shy and scared for my own good. I thought they were accessible through another part of the app, and so I finally decided to follow the link for the "texting Julian" promo.

Enter the Dorian app, or the broader hub for the company? team? that I believe originally created Arcana, featuring a bunch of different unrelated, original sims and stories from different artists and writers. I finally actually opened the app today to check it out and immediately felt like I was out of my element. Lots of attractive dating sim men, clearly aimed at more mature audiences, and even though I'm ficto, my ace ass was like "I should not be here". But I pressed on because I was here to find Julian, and I had no idea what else this app of dating sims had in store for me.

Good news is, I found the Arcana section after scrolling a bit, so I know where all these mysterious side stories I've heard about through the pop-ups in the Arcana app are hiding.

Bad news is, I saw at least 3 separate stories/thumbnails featuring Clearly Romantic Jul.ian/As.ra art, all of them falling under the "Modern Arcana" AU-branch-whatever you want to call it. I'm not entirely sure how this works if you (the player) are still. you know. a player and active participant in these stories and can interact with these characters, and all these stories are supposedly built around being able to date the characters...yet it seems to be implied that these two are dating each other in this AU thing. And if that's the case, I'll never find out because the implications and art of the thumbnails alone are enough to make me not want to open any of the Modern Arcana stories to find out. If I know there's even a possibility that I'll see Julian in love with and kissing someone that isn't me, why would I torture myself by opening up the story to confirm it?

Even if I want to check out the other Arcana stories, I'll still likely take some form of psychic damage just trying to avoid the thumbnails I don't want to see.

I also have no idea who exactly creates these stories; I'm pretty sure the original dev team has done some of them (extra psychic damage if they're the ones behind Modern Arcana pushing J/A on me) but idk about the others, and I worry the experience won't be the same.

I ALSO did not realize until I opened the app and started looking around that Dorian is like...an interesting visual novel-social media app hybrid. Like people can comment on the scenes in the stories you read. People can befriend you and see your profile and all this stuff and I'm like "!!!!! do not perceive me. please do not perceive me. I don't need more randos on the internet being able to see the indulgent dating sims I check out and possibly being able to see the choices I make in them"

idk. hopefully I'll muster up the courage to check out one of the Arcana stories that calls to me and see what's up, and hopefully it won't make me curl up in flustered embarrassment like a pillbug, but we shall see. That's for Ellie on another day, possibly after a potent edible or some liquid courage.

[cherry-bomb-ships]

F/ovember FAQ

I wanted to write out this little post of any general questions about this event. Please give it a read if you're interested in participating! 🧡

What is F/ovember?

F/ovember is an f/o takeover event spanning for the entire month of November, from the 1st to the 30th, where self shippers are encouraged to give their f/os control of their blog for the month.

What's an f/o takeover?

An f/o takeover is a one-person event that used to be pretty popular in the self-ship community, where bloggers give their f/o(s) control of their blog (a.k.a. you essentially get to roleplay as your f/o) and invite their followers to ask their f/o(s) questions, typically about their self ship.

I've never done an f/o takeover before! What are the rules?

That's the beauty of this event; the simplicity! The basic guideline is that your f/o is the one answering questions, but the rest is up to you! That being said, there are two rules that I encourage everyone to follow:

One, if someone sends you an ask, send one back to them if they're participating as well! It's good ask karma and you might make a new friend out of it too!

Two, please do not write your f/o saying mean or hurtful things about you. If it's a lighthearted jab or part of your lore, then thats a slight exception, but they would never say anything genuinely hateful about you, I promise 💝

Do I have to keep up the takeover for the entire month to participate?

Not at all! You're encouraged to have the takeover on your blog for the whole month, of course, but you can do it as long as a week, a weekend, or even just a single day. You can even do it for a week, drop the event, and then pick it back up later in the month if you'd like to!

What if I want to do the takeover with only a few/one of my f/os, or do the takeover with only a certain type of f/o (platonic, familial, etc)?

Then do it!! You're allowed to use as few or as many f/os as you want, and any type of f/o you want! You can even switch which f/o or what type is answering questions from day to day (i.e. having a day/week for all platonic f/os).

Who is running/moderating this event? Who is allowed to join? How can I sign up?

I came up with the event idea on my own (my name's Ruby if you don't know me, hi :3), so I suppose that technically makes me its sole moderator, but that is only in the most loose of terms. This is being held on each person's individual blog, so there is no type of sign-up process required! However, that also means there's not much I can do against someone joining other than blocking them and advising others to do the same.

That being said, I would appreciate if anyone who matches my DNI section of my Carrd, especially pr*shippers and c*mshippers, does not interact with this event or use the tags for it either. This is event is not for you.

I am a pr*shipper and I'm gonna interact and do the event anyway! You can't stop people from just using a tag!

Okay. Have fun on the blocklist, freak :)

No one is sending me any asks! I feel left out :(

I'm really sorry to hear that. While there's no solid way to guarantee asks in your inbox, there are a few things you can do to increase your chances. You can try making a promo post for your takeover, and be sure to tag all your posts related to it with "f/ovember", as well as other tags like "f/o takeover", "fovember", and "self ship community" so people who frequent those tags can see it. You can also try sending asks out to other self shippers who are doing a takeover, as they're likely to send one back. In addition to that, I'll be trying to send an ask to everyone participating, so if I missed you then please do not be afraid to send me a quick message about it!

Are you participating with an f/o takeover as well?

Yes, I am! I'll be trying to run my takeover for the entire month with all of my f/os available to answer questions!

I have a question that wasn't answered here, or need some more clarification on something!

No problem, friend! My inbox is always open for any inquiries you may have about this event or takeovers in general!

[platonic-qpr-selfshipping]

Interest Check for an Aspec Selfshippers Digital Zine!

YES YOU READ IT WELL

I wanted to celebrate Pride in this blog somehow and what's better than doing so with other aspec people of this beautiful community by building something with our own works! I am excited to organise this but for now I'm just sharing this Interest Check Form with you to have an idea of everyone's interests, know your opinions and think about how it would work the best according to them. If enough people want to participate, the form to actually do so will be posted in Pride Month as the project is expected to start there. It would be a summer-long thing that will be available to download for free by August or so.

Here is the link to the Interest Check and also some other information that you can already find in it:

"Hello and welcome to the Interest Check of this future zine! The project is planned to start in pride month and be finished by the end of summer, so it's a summer-long project for all aspec selfshippers to enjoy and celebrate! Here are some main ideas about how it will be organised to give you a bit more of information in case you want to ask something related to these:

- I don't plan to choose a specific topic apart from Aspec selfshippers. I'd like this to be a zine for us all to freely contribute with whatever makes us happy, especially since it's our first time organising this. Maybe in the future we could choose something else for other similar projects, but for now I'd like this one to be like a welcoming white canvas for us all!

- Proshippers cannot participate. Please refrain from answering this form if you are one of them.

- NSFW content will be welcomed as long as it's tagged properly! It would be great to dedicate a part of the zine for these works if enough participants would like to contribute with NSFW pieces.

- Participants will need to have Discord as it is easier to organise something like this there than in Tumblr itself.

- I am planning on adding info of what characters' each piece is about so those who are uncomfortable sharing f/os can easily avoid other selfships with them. As it will be easier to do this at the beginning of fics and not so much in illustrations, I thought of adding these in the index, too. If you've read until here, I would appreciate to know your opinion on this and any other ideas you think would be great to add/change!

- Also this will be a free zine!!"

I also wanna thank @lost-in-azalea-forest and @wurufuluv for supporting my idea and already helping me with these first steps in organising it all, I really hope we all can enjoy this!

[justrandomselfships]

Justrandomselfships F/O themed selfship and F/O asks

Yup I'm doing it. Selfship asks but asks are themed after my F/Os... All of my F/Os. I copied some of them from my old post buuut I edited them and added a lot!

♊- How often do you talk about your feelings?

♍- What do you think about the way F/O dresses?

♌- Do you gush often? Either about your F/O or to your F/O... What about them?

♐- How strong is your F/O?

⭐- Is there anything S/I or F/O does that never fails to make the other one smile?

🐾- How many nicknames you have?

🕸️- Who does housework more often? Or are you balanced on the matter?

😘- Is either of your ship a smooth talker?

⌚- Does your F/O respect rules given to them in certain situations? Are they punctual?

🔊- Did you ever hear F/O sing? How is their voice?

🎹- Does your F/O play any instruments?

🍖- Is your F/O a good cook?

🔧- How often do either of you come up with crazy ideas?

🥊- Do you and your F/O have a good relationship with your lover's family?

💙- Is your relationship a secret? Or are you rather open about it?

🗺️- Do you ever travel together?

🐦- Do you have any secrets? How heavy/important they are? Do you ever plan on telling F/O about it?

🌪️- Do you have any regrets when it comes to your relationship (whatever type of relationship that may be)?

🦎- What animal do you associate your F/O with?

💌- How serious are you about your relationship?

🍵- How well do you know F/O when it comes to food? Do you know their favorite and least favorite meals?

🖤- Are there any odd interests your F/O indulges in? Or is there something unusual they are really fond of?

☕- Is there anything special one of you prepares that the other one loves to eat/drink?

🐲- Do you have any secret codes?

📓- Is there anything your F/O tried to mimic from your behavior?

🎶- How often do you vent to each other? Can you literally talk to them about anything that bothers you or are there some topics you rather avoid?

🦌- How predictable is your F/O?

🔮- What is your F/O's laugh like?

🍽️- How clumsy is your F/O?

💯- Is there one thing that you dream F/O would do?

🐍- Do you help each other with your work if it’s possible?

🔥- Are your dates chaotic and exciting? Or rather calm and quiet?

🐙- How often does your F/O talk about their interests?

💛- Be honest: how much attention and time do both of you you need?

🎮- Is there anything F/O got you interested in? Have they dragged you into any hobbies?

💄- How much does your F/O care about their looks?

❗- Does either of you discuss any insecurities of theirs with their lover? You don’t need to elaborate it’s a simple Yes/No question.

🐸- What is the cutest thing about F/O?

👾- For how long have you known your F/O (either actual time or S/I lore time is fine)?

⚡ - How much does your F/O plan ahead? Or are they more act before think type?

🌹- How F/O responds to affection from you?

❄️- How much do you know about F/O’s past? How much do they know about yours?

👹- How often do you get in trouble?

🌸- How well can you read F/O?

⛰️- How smart is your F/O?

🍀- Is your F/O lucky? Other than lucky to have you of course.

🥩- How talktive is your F/O?

🎨- Who is more likely to pay for a date?

🧁- Does F/O like sweets?

🎬- When you’re at work do you call F/O often during breaks or not?

📔- How hardworking F/O is?

♠️- How would you feel if F/O suddenly forgot about you due to amnesia?

🐶- Is there an embarrassing memory you wish F/O would forget about? Do they have any memory like that?

🍰- Is your F/O an animal lover?

🎍- How often does your F/O take a break?

👑- Is your F/O hungry for adventures? are you?

🧪- Who gets embarrassed more easily?

🍪- Are there any secret hobbies you share? Of course they wouldn't be secret if you just said them so you can think of it as a Yes/No question.

😱- Do you tease each other often?

🍓- Did your F/O help you change your mind about something you weren't fond of in the past?

💖- How many languages do you and F/O know?

💅- How empathetic is your F/O?

🍴- How much are you willing to sacrifice for each other? Did either of you give up on something in order to have a relationship together (whichever kind of relationship that may be)?

🍎- Who is harder to wake up? You or F/O?

⚔️- Does either of you have anything they're willing to only admit to to their lover

[libertys-lovers]

Staying up late, listening to bittersweet songs, & rereading the Dramatics™️ journal is quite a recipe for… emotions~ / pos

I had this section in here where “Kara” and I wrote lil essays about what we liked about each other. And ya know, reading that’s a big mood-boost anyway. But… I forgot I did something very specific with Kara’s entry.

This might sound minor or… idk… odd to specifically add, but I did have Kara say that some behaviors I had were weird. I’m excitable, I’m clumsy as fuck, etc etc. But, ya know, his responses also turned those into positives! My excitement can be jarring, but it’s interesting for him to see contrast to my spaced-out or quiet moods. I’m clumsy, but it gives him opportunities to be a gentleman which he enjoys!

I think… I think my point is that he finds parts of me “weird”, but that doesn’t mean he finds them “bad”. At the least they’re just quirks he notices about me, and at the most they actively improve his experience with me in one way or another.

I never really liked ignoring my insecurities in my self-ships, or if I ever did I don’t remember those times well. I understand that my F/Os would find parts of me weird or silly, or maybe even childish! But, it’s how I think they’d handle those thoughts that help. It’s not that they love me despite those, but rather that they love me so they love those lil’ quirks too (or at least don’t mind them).

I’m not sure how much sense this all makes, but my basic gist is that incorporating my insecurities/oddities into my S/Is or ships genuinely helps me feel better about them. ‘Cause if I have to imagine why others would like them, then I can get a new appreciation for them myself! It also just makes my self-ships a bit more realistic, and funnier depending on the circumstances! The idea of Kara getting softly jumpscared by one of my excited ramblings coming out of nowhere is very amusing to me BWJSKDK

[tuff-and-fluff-archives]

💝💖 F/ovember: A Month-Long F/O Takeover Event! 💖💝

So I posted about this earlier and quite a few people seemed interested, so here's an introductory post for the concept! Basically, my idea was that for the entire month of November, ALL of my f/os would be open to answering questions on my blog, including romantic, platonic, and familial f/os as well as crushes!! So I decided to go through with this idea, and for the month of November, I'll be having a huge takeover with every single one of my f/os!

💝💝💝 And I invite the entire self ship community to join me!! 💝💝💝

I think it would be super fun for us all to let our f/os have our blogs so that we can all get to know each other a bit better! The best part is, there's really no strict rules for this event! You don't need to do anything super complicated for this event; you can do your own takeover in any kind of way you want! Give the blog to one f/o or all of them, run your takeover for the whole month or just a few days, go in-depth with your answers or just give casual answers! Either way, this month let's focus on loving the characters who make our lives a bit more cheery! I hope to see y'all participating!

(Also don't forget to practice good ask karma: if somebody sends you a question and they're also doing a takeover, please send them one back! Spread the love!! 💝💝)

[rosesloveletters]

💌 - Use this ask as an excuse to talk about your f/os as much as you want. :o)

Thank you, dear anon, for sending me this sweet ask and giving me a space to talk about my f/os as much as I would like. I would normally use this ask to talk about Jakob & Will, but I've already answered so many asks for them like this that I would prefer to discuss my paternal f/o a bit, since i've hardly posted about him before. Because of this, i'll be putting my gushing below the cut so as not to clog anyone's dashes with unnecessary self-ship postings about characters they didn't follow me for.

That being said, i'll now answer your ask:

for anyone who does decide to read this, my paternal f/o is terry benedict from the ocean's eleven trilogy, but i often refer to him as 'daddy' since that's literally what he is to me. i have only shared about him briefly on here a couple of times before, but i wanted to use this ask to speak candidly about our relationship and how he has become so important to me, perhaps more so than most of my other f/os.

last year, i had quite a rough go of it with my actual parents and it got so bad that there was a point when i genuinely believed that we would not be able to repair our relationship and that things would even out and return to normal. i don't feel like going into a lot of detail about my family life since i treat that as highly personal information, but for a while now i have felt somewhat isolated from my actual parents; it's been nearly impossible to connect with them in terms of the things that are highly important to me. i feel as though there is a lot they are missing out on because i believe the idea of me they have in their heads is incorrect and they couldn't be bothered to learn who i really am. if i try to talk about the things i am interested in or love very deeply, they either will pretend like i haven't said anything and not respond/continue or add to the conversation or they'll cut me off mid-sentence and start talking about something else entirely. this really has begun to bother me much more deeply within the past year and i've stopped sharing a lot with them of the things i'm doing or put value upon.

i feel very isolated because my thoughts, views and ideas on things can be drastically different to theirs and my handling of certain situations also differs very strongly most of the time. a very close friend of mine even told me yesterday that she had no idea how i was related to my actual parents because we're polar opposites, so it isn't just me who feels this way; i'm not internalizing this and perpetuating a false belief or anything like that because other people see it too when they're around my family enough (from the outside looking in, you'd never know my family was like this because everything seems completely normal.)

whenever i watched ocean's eleven for the first time, i didn't know terry was my father, only that i felt a very strong connection with him and the feeling was not romantic at all. i knew that i needed to be close to him and i could not say why, until i had watched the film at least two more times and it finally smacked me in the face: this man is my father.

it wasn't forced or planned or anything like that; the familial connection presented itself to me and suddenly, a lot of things about myself started making sense. I am very quiet and observant, something which neither of my irl parents can relate to or exhibit, but this is a very visible trait that terry and i share. even the ways in which we handle our work is very similar and reflected within each other; both of my irl parents hate being busy, but i don't. most of the time, i am not busy, but whenever i am, i love it. terry and i keep things very professional and we both keep to ourselves. our own thoughts and feelings are quite similar and we share much of our individual lives with each other.

i love him more than i can ever put in to words because he is a parent that i can actually connect with and feel like that connection is both reciprocated and valued in the ways i wish for it to be. my emotional needs are met, something i cannot quite rely on my irl parents to be able to do, nor can they seem to find the ability to listen to me or appreciate the things that are important to me and that i feel strongly enough about to speak of with them. terry gave me something i felt was missing from my life and suddenly things have started to make sense for me. he changed my life; i was very lost for the majority of the end of last year, but everything shifted when i discovered our connection.

there aren't many days that we don't spend in each other's presence and i already know so much about him and his life (i'm so deep into creating ocean's eleven lore, you don't even know.) He altered my existence in beautiful ways i never thought i'd ever experience and i think this just goes to show how important it is for selfshippers to have f/os that make them feel this way, no matter what the media is they're indulging in as long as it is safe and respectful and does no harm to anyone. i was terrified to ever share anything about terry, but i am over that now. he is someone whom i live every day for and someone i can count on to make me feel better when all i want to do is cry. not only does he love me because i'm his daughter but also because he loves who i am as a person and that's more of a meaningful gift than anything materialistic.

when i tell you that everything changed whenever he came into my life, i am legit not even joking. everything that was weighing me down suddenly felt like it was lifted off my shoulders and whenever i felt like i needed a parental figure with me who could meet my needs in the ways i needed them to be met, i'd spend some time with him and i'd be better in no time. i've not felt a stronger fit with any f/o before, except for jakob and will, who are my mains for a reason.

i finally know where i belong and why i never felt like i fit in anywhere - because i hadn't met my home yet. i hadn't met my family and now that i have, i feel like i just discovered a part of myself i never knew existed, but that has cleared up so many gray areas. i am now more myself than i have ever been, all because of one man whom i look up to and admire for everything that he is because he made a name for himself in the world. he worked for every bit of wealth that he had and i am honored to be related to such a hardworking, talented, intelligent, strong-willed, disciplined person who loves me more than any amount of money he has.

i will always love my daddy, no matter what, and i'll spend as much time with him as humanly possible because i've never felt better than when i'm with him. i finally feel like i've got a family home, a place to be, someone who i can relate to on a familial level that respects me as an adult person, meets my needs on a daily basis and gives me something i could never have in my real, day-to-day life. i don't have a big family irl and that is something i've always felt somewhat shortchanged on, but there's nothing i can do about it. with terry, it's just us and that's perfectly fine for me; he gives me more than enough love and all i really need is the connection that i share with him (one of his closest friends is also a f/o, but i won't get into that right now bc it's a long story that is mostly based on lore i've created.)

I don't need anyone in our family other than terry because he is what i wish my real family was like. he's who i wish i came to every day and could ask for advice, for guidance, for help, for ideas, for love... I look for little ways i can bring terry into all the tings i do because i want to make him proud and i've never cared about making anyone proud of me before, if that tells you anything about our bond. i've felt like a disappointment for the majority of my life and i am not even proud of myself on most days, but terry gives me a reason to try to do better and feel better and work harder and push myself. i'll never be capable of working as hard as he does or taking control of things like him, but he makes me want to learn how to try harder to meet these goals within my life and do better for myself. When i look back at the accomplishments i've made and how hard i've worked at jobs in my life, it makes me realize how much like him i already am and can be when determined.

i never thought i'd have any reason to have a parental f/o, let alone one that genuinely fit the bill, but terry meets all of the 'requirements' per-say. i love him so very much, so so much, more than words can ever describe and more than my emotions could ever express. the only way i know how to make him proud is to be more like him and to be the best version of myself that i can be. i value more parts of myself now because i know where they came from. selfshipping, for me, is ultimately a way to help me feel a bit better about myself and a huge form of self-love for me because i struggle with that massively in my daily life. terry just gives me what i need from a familial standpoint and i never want to know a world without him at this point.

perhaps it is silly to care about someone so strongly, but i do. i am me because of him and if i love him this much, then i can afford myself a bit of the same affection, right? I don't have to hate every aspect of myself because he would love me for who i am. he wouldn't want me to be anyone else so why should i try to change who i am to please others? i ask myself these questions because it's so hard to care about myself when no one irl seems to. i think that's why i feel so alone most of the time, because even the people i have in my life don't realize how badly i'm hurting and how alone they sometimes make me feel.

i realize that the things which are important to me are only important to me because they mean something for me, but i lack the kind of relationships with people who respect that i feel that way and listen to the things i speak about and value me for it rather than hoping i won't say anything or quickly finding a way to change the subject. what i want from the world, from my family, is to be treated the way that terry treats me. my daddy keeps me safe and makes me feel loved, valued, needed and never lets me feel as though i'm simply taking up space. He finds a place for me in his work (even though he'd prefer that i enjoy myself rather than spend my time working) and i help him as much as i can. i want to honor the Benedict name and be the best daughter i can be, which is something that i aspire to every day.

i can't imagine a world without terry and i can't believe that i ever knew one. i live to make my daddy proud and to be loved by him, for who i am now and whoever i become as the years carry on.

[starleska]

ratigan for the character thingy? i know nothing about this little guy but he looks interesting

ooh excellent choice anon!!! thank you very much for sending this in - i'd be delighted to let you know a little more about Professor Ratigan ;) also, here’s a great clip of him in action!! so, for context! Professor Ratigan is the main antagonist of the 1986 Disney film 'The Great Mouse Detective', which is in turn based on Eve Titus' 'Basil of Baker Street' book series. The books and film follow the Sherlock Holmes tradition, wherein the protagonist is the eponymous Basil, a mouse who takes on the role of Sherlock Holmes. I'm not too familiar with the books, but in the movie, Professor Ratigan acts as a parallel to Sir Arthur Conan Doyle's Moriarty. he's a flamboyant, volatile, intelligent rat with a penchant for crime and villainy, and he also 'hates' (see: is very gay for) Basil with a passion. an interesting quirk of Ratigan is that, in the movie, he hates being called a rat, and insists on being referred to as a mouse. now without further ado, here are my answers: how i feel about this character oh lord, i adore him 😳 i have a terrible weakness for villains with excellent dramatic flair, as well as scientists, engineers and characters with high intelligence and arrogance to boot. he's deeply self-centred, believes himself to be the world's greatest criminal mind, and is also prone to invading the personal space of others and violence - qualities which make me weak at the knees. his design is fascinating as his movements are so fluid, and i love that disarming, sharp-toothed grin. not to mention his voice is to die for; Vincent Price delivers an unforgettable performance that makes Ratigan the absolute stand-out of the movie. i think he's the reason so many people adore this movie - he's just a perfect foil to Basil, and one of the great Disney villains 😭😭 all the people i ship romantically with this character of course i ship Basil/Ratigan!!! the tension between these two - whether you consider it romantic, sexual, or something Other in the way of the Sherlock Holmes tradition - is palpable. you can tell these two have a storied history - they behave with each other almost in the way of ex-lovers, and i don't think that's just my queer goggles on;;; (i'm also a filthy self-shipper so the idea of being pinned to a wall by Ratigan is 😳😳😳) my non-romantic OTP for this character like almost all of my f/os, Ratigan/Therapist. he desperately needs some psychological intervention, firstly to work out whether or not all that deep-seated anger comes from his constant maligning as a biological rat. i talked a little bit about this idea in this post earlier, as i love to rub my trans little hands all over everything haha my unpopular opinion about this character you know, i haven't been in the fandom long enough to know what opinions are or aren't popular!! so i'm gonna give this one that's adjacent; personally, i think The Great Mouse Detective's story and pacing were a bit all over the place. especially in the second half, there's a lot of 'empty space' where the plot could have moved much quicker, and it isn't that long a movie in the first place. i do think that the animation, performances and pure charm of concept are what make the film so beloved, rather than the story itself;;; one thing i wish would happen/had happened with this character in canon oh, how i wish we'd gotten more time with Ratigan as a whole!! given his Moriarty parallel, i was hoping we'd see some more examples of his criminal genius. given that his intellect is supposed to rival that of Basil, i would have liked to see Ratigan doing the engineering, or having a scientific moment - instead, he kidnaps Flaversham to do it for him. i understand we needed a reason for Olivia to be there (and she is a sweetie!), but still, there was a lot of undeveloped potential for Ratigan. basically, i wanted to see him flex those big brain muscles more 🥰

[leahseclipse]

Difficult day

Pairing: Spencer Reid x fem!reader

Summary: (based on a prompt) Spencer and Reader give up coffee and help each other by trying to find ways to keep each other awake.

Warnings: Mentions of murder (not real, just ironically, don’t worry, nothing dangerous there.)

Word count: 2.3 k 

A/N: Hi there- so uh, this fic is rly meant to be a silly little one, so it's a bit whack,(and not rly written well to me) I just wrote it bc the idea was there and I felt like writing it at 1am……………...so hope u enjoy a bit lmao (also i never drank coffee once, so I just researched stuff online and wrote it)

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          Deciding to start the day without coffee probably was a bad idea to think about, it just hit them while they were talking, and Spencer sort of announced the idea.

“Hey, why don’t we try to give up coffee, and see if we can survive without it, you know.”

What a...excellent idea.

She’s now looking like a zombie, wandering around, and can’t resist the idea of closing her eyes. 

 Y/N has been up since 6AM, and it’s about...11 now. Which felt more like a whole day.

The worst of all, is that she couldn’t even bug Spencer about it either, he decided to do it as well, but at least, she has a coffee-deprived friend to support her.

The real problem, is that, Hotch might not be happy with the consequences, which are...sleeping at work, so, not working.

What a great day ahead of them, yay.

She’s probably making a fuss about it, as after a bit of searching, it only lasts about a few days or so, but right now, she just wishes it could stop right now.

She already knows that as soon as Spencer is going to walk in the room and launch the subject, a mountain of facts is going to fall, and she wouldn’t even be aware of how long it’s, and when it’s ever going to stop.

Because, even if there’s four facts (which isn’t about to happen), he develops each of them in the form of essays, which seems like a whole conference.

Y/N doesn’t mind, it’s not annoying, she likes to hear about it, it gives more knowledge and stuff, but when it ends to be an essay long, especially when she doesn’t happen to have drunk coffee, things get complicated, in terms of focus.

Such as, being slightly, just a little, really not much irritated, but mostly tired as hell.

Working is not in her plans at all. Sleeping is.

Taking a day long nap, as much as possible, but, fucking work, has decided to annoy her, as much as it could, with a wonderful surprise: a pile of papers, that you have to read, think about, write about- as you think about it, make sure it’s well described, filled out, so your boss doesn’t bug you with it, causing you to re-write it, which...makes you lose motivation, as you have to go through the whole process, which makes you...even more tired.

She seriously has no idea how she’s going to make it through the whole day, and strangely feels like the coffee machine has been mocking her since she arrived.

All she wants is to hide it with whatever is in the room, or smash it against a wall, but that isn’t...possible, as not everyone is doing ‘their challenge’, if that can be seen as one, because to y/n, it’s more of a torture.

If Spencer didn’t have that pretty face to protect, she would punch him in the nose as soon as he’d appear in front of her.

That wasn’t even her idea, she didn’t think that when she mentioned it, he’d take it seriously, resume the subject and make it real.

She really regrets talking about it, because he didn’t just skip it or talk normally, no, Spencer doesn’t do that.

He really had to take it as far as he could.

Now she possibly wants to kill him, but unfortunately remembered that he’s going through the same thing, and will probably want to either kill her, or attempt something less violent, such as making her talk about a subject that interests him on purpose and make an essay out of it.

And, of course, steal all ways of distraction, and make sure she can’t go, because he also ‘tortures’ her by asking questions, and when she can’t answer, he develops it even more which makes the rest of the essay late, and last longer.

Again, it isn’t in a mean way, just annoying her as well.

They often do that, find ways to annoy each other, it’s kind of a habit they picked up throughout the years, they both find it distracting and can be a nice way to distract each other when work happens to be quite annoying.

But, never has she thought that he’d take the joke to the point of what keeps her awake. 

That sneaky bastard even left a box of tea on her desk, and she would have probably thrown it out if it wasn’t so expensive.

If only he wasn’t doing it as well, oh, how she would have grabbed a knife from the kitchen to throw it at him.

Also, also, as if it couldn’t get any better, one of them had to stay awake, in case one happens to fall asleep.

Double the dose of fun.

She can’t wait to see him cross...the door.

Strangely, as soon as she told it, Y/N saw a well known face make his way through the bureau.

She even had to keep her from standing up and possibly strangle him.

He didn’t even stop to talk to other people, just said ‘hi’, and basic stuff you say when you arrive at work, and arrived at the conference room.

It happened to be empty, so she took the occasion and settled there.

“Oh, you’re already there? Thought you’d come in later.”

“I came early, because I knew that I’d ignore my alarm and possibly arrive an hour later than you...or not at all.”

“Okay. How are-”

“Dead. What about you?”

“The same.” Spencer said, as he sat up. “So, about it-”

“...knew it.”

“...why don’t we discuss so, you know, we distract ourselves from...the fatigue, and...all of the other effects that come with a coffee withdrawal?”

“Do I look like I have the energy to do that?”

“...no.”

“Then why did you ask?”

“To distract ourselves, as said.”

“My head hurts, I want to sleep, I’m pissed off, how do I even do that?”

“By trying to avoid bright lights...oh, yeah, that doesn’t work.”

“As figured.”

“So...if I understood well, we’re screwed for the rest of the week?”

“Exactly, genius.”

“Great plan.”

“It was your idea.”

“Can’t deny.”

“You could have chosen something else than fucking coffee Spencer.”

“I didn’t have any idea but that.”

“Come on. You always have a ton of stuff in that brain, and just on that day: nothing.”

“My brain lagged.”

“Oh, I forgot your brain is a computer now apparently.”

“It is one, I am my own computer, I just have a system that can fail, like a regular computer.”

“Which OS are you on? Genius OS? Because your ‘intelligent’ system sucks right now. I prefer Windows.”

“Hey, when we agreed to do that, insulting each other wasn’t part of the thing.”

“It’s the only thing I have in mind, because if I don’t do it, I’m either killing you, or sleeping to try to calm down. I could also do both. Murder, then sleep, and I just pretend someone walked in and killed you while I was sleeping.”

“...that’s not very nice.”

“It’s the nicest thing I’ll probably be saying today, so, enjoy.” 

“I didn’t know that included you being rude. I’m also tired, but I don’t act meanly.”

“Oh, sorry, did I hurt your feelings?”

“...yes.”

“Too bad.”

“Rude.”

“ ‘s not.”

“If you continue like that, you’re going to be the one keeping watch.”

“We agreed on the other one doing it if one of us falls asleep. None of us are, we’ll see when one of us sleeps.”

"Is this a contest or what? You know that the minute one of us puts his head down on the table, they'll be out if nothing wakes them up?"

"Yeah, I know. But if that's a contest of who can stay awake longer, you're going to lose, you've been on coffee much longer, prepare to suffer."

"You look dead, you're the one that's going to sleep first. I almost caught you dozing off when I walked in." 

"No you didn't."

"I did."

"...no."

"You're lying. That small "no" gave it all away."

"I talk like that in general. It's nothing."

"You talk like that just today. The only thing that hasn't changed is your squeaky voice."

"I don't have a squeaky- I have one."

"Told it."

"Oh, shut it."

"You'd be too sad.without my knowledge."

"No...I wouldn't."

"You're smart because of me."

"Mhm. 'f you tell so." She says, propping up her chin on her hands. 

"You're already giving up five minutes in. You're very strong."

"Am not. I'm just...putting my hand on my hands, just that."

"Just that."

"Exactly."

"You don't know...how to lie properly." He said, stretching up a bit. 

"You're going to be sleeping in a bit too."

"Don't you know me by now? I'm stronger than you."

"Hm. Elevator accident."

"That doesn't count."

"You had a small voice."

"I was just scared, okay? I- I don't like being in small spaces for too long."

"Says the 'strong man'."

"Okay, I'm not as strong as I said, but just a bit more, because being at your level equals being weak."

"Hm. Okay." Y/N lazily responds, as a pair of heels begins clacking onto the floor, the sound growing closer, until a familiar face comes in.

"Is there a meeting I wasn't informed of or what?" Garcia asks.

"No, we just sat here. Trying to stay awake, and y/n is that close to sleeping."

"Shut up, you were about to as well."

"And you're just here like that? Imagine if Hotch even found you guys."

"Yeah that'd- y/n. Y/N." Spencer raised his voice, trying to get her attention.

"Let me." Garcia interrupted, walking to her as she shook her. "Y/N, wake up and stand up, you two are going to follow me."

"Hm…? Where?"

"You're going to stay in my office for a bit, but just for today. I'm taking a risk by doing that."

"Do we get to sleep there?" Spencer asked.

"Just for a bit. Not all day, I'm doing you guys a favor here, you're going to have to find a big way to thank me if Hotch finds out and yells at me."

"Deal." Y/N answers, quickly stretching as she stands up, lazily walking to the exit along with the two.

*

It's been just half an hour until Hotch begins to wander around, wondering why he can't find either of them anywhere.

He just saw them walking in, and now, they're nowhere to be found.

No one else saw them since, and the only person left to ask would be Garcia, she's been in her office all day.

Just when she begins to make her way back, a stern voice calling her name interrupts her.

"Garcia. Did you see Reid and y/l/n?"

"No, I haven't seen them all day..must be doing work." She answers.

"They're in there, aren't they? They're nowhere else."

"...maybe?"

"They're supposed to be working, and I doubt that's what they're doing right now."

"But Hotch, leave them; this is how true love starts in fanfiction. Don't you see it?"

"Fan what…? I really have to get you drug tested some day."

"Fanfiction you know, it's stories that people write, it's all cute, in some they fall in love and all, so, that's why you have to leave them, they fell asleep on each other, and it's so cute."

"Garcia, I thought you agreed to stop reading that stuff at work, didn't you?"

"...I read them on breaks." 

“Fanfiction or not, love or not, they’re not supposed to be sleeping, so, please don’t force me to break that door to come in.”

“Don’t yell, they were really tired, so I...offered them to stay. Mostly because I wanted to help, but also because they’re so cute, I couldn’t resist seeing them sleeping together.”

“That depends on how quick they can wake up.” Hotch announces, stepping to the entrance of the room.

When they both step in, you’re both sitting on chairs and Spencer is sleeping against y/n’s shoulder, while her head is on his.

As soon as Garcia wishes for Hotch not to wake them up, he steps further in the room, clearing his throat as his foot tapped against the tiles.

It didn’t take much for them to wake up, everyone knew that when Hotch’s voice was to be heard, you definitely had to be awake if you wanted to avoid a sermon. 

"I'm awake, I'm awake!" Y/N stated, as if it could make the situation somehow better.

"Reid." Hotch said.

"I'm there, I- oh, did I...fall asleep on your shoulder? Sorry for that."

"As much as I'd like to reassure you, Hotch is behind, so that'll have to wait."

"Oh...sir." 

"Care to explain?"

"Well uh...I don't think I actually have one."

"...we didn't have coffee for a day or two because we decided to stop so, yeah."

"Does this even look like a valuable reason?"

"No." They both admit.

"If I see this happen again, you're aware of the consequences."

"Yes sir." Spencer responds.

"Absolutely." Y/N answers, as the eyes of the group follow Hotch leaving the room, a sigh exiting their lips. "That was...the worst moment of my life."

"You two are disappointing, I was so excited to see a real life fanfiction, but you had to get caught."

"Garcia it doesn't exist, stop reading these. It's not like we're in love."

"It's because you don't know how to recognize true love y/n. You're a newbie."

"What do you mean?" He asked.

"Fairy tale stuff, you know. The couple falls in love, eventually gets married, has kids , and everything ends well."

"I think we should talk to Hotch about getting you to take a drug test or other." Spencer pointed out.

"We should."

**