whiskeyswifty · 1 year ago
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ninatastic · 5 years ago
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@kay-licious how dare u (thanks <3) @silent-calling youre doing amazing sweetie
1. Are looks important in a relationship?
I wouldnt call it a key factor but it’s important to feel attraction towards your partner
2. Are relationships ever worth it?
sure! If it’s a healthy one definitely :D
3. Are you a virgin?
nah 
4. Are you in a relationship?
yeh!
5. Are you in love?
I’d say so!
6. Are you single this year?
no
7. Can you commit to one person?
yes
8. Describe your crush
it me bf
9. Describe your perfect mate
same as above c: 
10. Do you believe in love at first sight?
no, only when it comes to animals c;
11. Do you ever want to get married?
thats a dream of mine tbh
12. Do you forgive betrayal?
I guess every healthy person would say no but yes, I’d absolutely do (only the first time tho, after the second time you gotta ask yourself if it’s really worth it)
13. Do you get jealous easily?
in regard to my bf: I used to but it’s a hell of a lot less nowadays. In regard to people in general, sometimes, especially when im not doing well mentally
14. Do you have a crush on anyone?
me bf
15. Do you have any piercings?
just have my ears pierced!
16. Do you have any tattoos?
no but maybe soon
17. Do you like kissing in public?
only if its sweet forehead or cheek kisses, or quick kisses on the mouth or hand kisses
20. Do you shower every day?
yes though I gotta admit I really have to force myself. Not because I like being stinky but because everything is kinda difficult sometimes
21. Do you think someone has feelings for you?
bruh I sure hope my bf does;;
22. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
nah
23. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?
I’ve been in a relationship for 5 and a half years now, I think so
24. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?
it is possible but who tf knows
25. Do you want to be in a relationship this year?
idk, to be frank: I think my life would be a bit easier if I wasnt in a relationship, or if I hadnt been in a relationship for the past 1-2 years. And I often feel like im more of a burden to my bf than anything else. But thats a different story
26. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?
as in losing touch with me? I guess so
27. Has someone ever written a song or poem for you?
a song yes and it was awkward as hell ajhajdfha and people have done drawings for me which is <3<3<3<3<3<<3<3<33
28. Have you ever been cheated on?
Yup
29. Have you ever cheated on someone?
very very unfortunately yes, and just like a bunch of you guys I was this close to killing myself. I was in a very bad place which I know is not an excuse for this. I still think about it even if it’s been a time since then but I think I cqan never forgive myself because of that
30. Have you ever considered plastic surgery? If so, what would you change about your body?
often but im too much of a scared cat dsfskjf  idk though, I would love to be much more petite size wise
31. Have you ever cried over a guy/girl?
oh often
32. Have you ever experienced unrequited love?
yeah;; I’m not exactly pretty or popular, so puberty was hard
33. Have you ever had sex with a man?
hell yeah
34. Have you ever had sex with a woman?
:( no
35. Have you ever kissed someone older than you?
yeh!!
36. Have you ever liked one of your best friends?
Yeah and it’s difficult to be normal then aaaaaahhhhhhh
37. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?
some of my friends have a strong disliking towards my current bf but i dont know if you can call it hate
38. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?
yeah and it ruined me for a while
39. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?
uuuuhh not really I think
40. Have you ever written a song or poem for someone?
whenever I write bday cards I always put a poem in it :D
41. Have you had sex so far this year?
hella
42. How long can you just kiss until your hands start to wander?
depends on how thirsty I am
43. How long was your longest relationship?
5 and a half years and counting
44. How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had?
2-3
45. How many people did you kiss in 2011?
uuhh I was 14, no one 
46. How many times did you have sex last year?
HELLA
47. How old are you?
22 my dudes
48. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?
I#d try to play it cool because internally I’m panicking, someone help me
49. If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, what is your favorite thing about him/her?
I love about my bf how you can ALWAYS count on him when shit gets down, even if he hasnt talked to a friend for a good while and they’re like “hey I need you”, he’ll be there in a sec Also that he is still able to surprise me
50. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept?
jsdfhsjdfks GO AWAY, I’d say while closing the door and shutting the blinds quicker than lightning
51. Is there a boy/girl who you would do absolutely everything for?
yeah, but that’s probably because I have bpd and depressions
52. Is there anyone you’ve given up on? Why?
yeah, I tried to help them on all occassions, so much that I ruined my own life partially and made myself sick. But whatever I did or said, they apparently want to suffer, so i gave up trying. 
53. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are?
yeah my abuser probably
54. Is there someone you will never forget?
unfortunately yes and fortunately yes
55. Share a relationship story.
uuuuuuhhhhh; I dont really know what to write here. Guess I’ll never forget when my bf held a kitten (which was only a week old) in his hands and he almost cried because he loved the baby so much. Haha, he was afraid of crushing it though because it was much smaller than the palms of his hands
56. State 8 facts about your body
I gained a lot of weight since last year which is why I avoid posting or taking pics, but according to everyone else you dont see it that much (?); my hair is getting its natural curliness back; I fucked up my knee so I’ll have knee surgery next year; I bruise easily; I have a shit ton of scars; I love my super green eyes; I have thicc thighs and if I’m very emotional I get red spots all over my body
57. Things you want to say to an ex
to my first ever bf: fuck u lmao to the second bf I had: I’m so sorry for everything and I hope that you found your place :)
58. What are five ways to win your heart?
uuuhhh be sweet and understanding, be funny, be somewhat smart, dont be a mean asshole and be nice to other people (especially kids) and animals and also be able to be fascinated by small things 
59. What do you look like? (Post a picture!)
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60. What is the biggest age difference between you and any of your partners?
my current bf is 8 years older than me
61. What is the first thing you notice in someone?
how open and nice they are? Idk I always choose my ppl to hang out with according to this
62. What is the sexiest thing someone could ever do for/to you?
even though I’m a switch I have a big preference for being the sub, so if someone can dominate me and yknow do stull like carry me princess style or something im all like !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
63. What is your definition of “having sex”?
everything that comes after kissing imo
64. What is your definition of cheating?
I think as soon as you try to pursue someone emotionally that already counts as cheating
65. What is your favourite foreplay routine?
kissing, grinding, I love when someone talks dirty to me
66. What is your favourite roleplay?
if it aint too much of a tmi i’d love to admit that we have a collar and a leash so (not thinking about pet play uughfjhjsdfkhsd, just yknow someone is able to drag me to them like this or being held in place while being taken from behind is p nice)
67. What is your idea of the perfect date?
something something being outside in the nature and also good food 
68. What is your sexual orientation?
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69. What turns you off?
super super wet kisses where also my nose somehow gets stuck in someone elses mouth Like dude r u a vacuum cleaner sdfhsdkjhfks
70. What turns you on?
being manhandled
71. What was your kinkiest wet dream?
idk I dont really have a lot of wet dreams and usually theyre not very kinky but rather sweet and slow 
72. What words do you like to hear during sex?
I like dirty talk, so imma leave that open 
73. What’s something sweet you’d like someone to do for you?
i love to get flowers, or lil stuff that reminds us of our friendship or something, self made/home made stuff is always !!!!!!!!!!!!
74. What’s the most superficial characteristic you look for?
probably hands? I love it when girls have super slender hands and when boys have rough and big hands
75. What’s the sweetest thing anyone’s ever done for you?
I already answered that c:
76. What’s the sweetest thing you’ve ever done for someone?
I have a few stories I’m proud of! But I really love this one: When I was little I grew up in a village in which like 300-400 people lived (maximum) and next to us lived this sweet older couple who always gave us sweets and vegetable for our parents, or they brought us stuff from when they went on vacation. The man is now constantly sick, he suffers from parkinson and you see the early statges of dementia setting in. A while ago he wanted to go and get the German version of fish and chips with his wife but due to him needing a ton of surgeriesw constantly he wasnt able to go out with his wife. When my mom told me this I was like wtf u cant just tell me this, I’m too soft. So I went and got fish and chips from the best market around us for him and flowers for his wife, despite the fact that I havent seen them in YEARS. When I arrived at their front door both of them hugged me and cried a bit
77. What’s your opinion on age differences in relationships?
not bad if everything is consensual and if there’s a power balance thats equal 
78. What’s your dirtiest secret?
I think the leash thing is one of the kinkiest things we’ve ever done tbh
79. When was the last time you felt jealous? Why?
yesterday a bit when my bf went out wth friends and had a few beers while I was stuck at home with the thought that I can never have a beer again dkadfjahdf as stupid as that sounds but I always enjoyed these chill evenings with a beer and friends
80. When was the last time you told someone you loved them?
this morning when I cuddled my cats :D
81. Who are five people you find attractive?
my bf and many videogame and anime characters, also my best female friend is hella attractive, also some of my friends are to die for
82. Who is the last person you hugged?
my bf!!
83. Who was your first kiss with?
my first bf sdfjsdfs
84. Why did your last relationship fail?
it didnt really work out, it seemed as he was more interested in saying “hey im in a relationship!” than in me, hah;;
85. Would you ever date someone off of the Internet?
yeah, sure
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elementalgypsyheart · 7 years ago
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Creeping Flames
Summary: There was always something...off about Nana Kuromori. It was nothing she did specifically just a weird creepy feeling about her. Is it little wonder her son is the exact same way and seem to just natural scare people off without doing anything? Not like Tsuna care though. Who need normal human friends when he can just play with Grandpa Slendy’s Creeps?
(Or the one where Nana is the half human daughter of Slenderman and Tsuna have some interesting friends and family that make the Mafia seem like Saints).
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Chapter 1: A Princess? Or a Psychopath?
The small town of Kiri-no-Yama all agreed there was something wrong with the Shrine Priest Granddaughter.  It wasn’t something the girl did herself, at least at first, just something off about her. Then again there was always something off about Nana Kuromori. Perhaps her wrongness to their senses began with her mother Senhime and how she came to become pregnant with Nana.
Senhime Kuromori was known as the town beauty. She was a traditional Japanese beauty and ideal wife. Being small and slender, fair skinned, big doe like caramel brown eyes, and long straight shiny caramel hair. She carried a perfect mix of gentle and submissive air around her and was well known to be an excellent cook and housemaker. Yes Senhime was many ideal spouse and had many suitors after her hand, all of which she turned away.
That was the odd thing about Senhime. Despite all the suitors she had and how it was the norm of the town for men and women alike to marry as soon as possible to have as many children as they can Senhime was not interested. Not to say she didn’t want children or a husband, in fact she told everyone who listened on how she wanted such, but she always said she could not accept anyone suit for she was already married….to the Kami of the forest surrounding their town.
Most scoffed at the idea. Saying how she should stop living in dreams and be an adult and do her duty as a woman. Others though….the more older, superstitious, and traumatized ones recalled legends and faint childhood memories of something living in those woods, praying on the unwary who venture into it depths believed her and made sure to leave her alone. For if such a creature have claimed her as their they had no wish to anger it by interfering and as if to confirmed their choice on leaving her to be in peace some of the more… forceful suitors for her hand disappeared only for their mutilated bodies to be found much later.
On one particular bright Spring day Senhime was seen entering that dark foreboding forest by a young village boy working the fields. He said how she enter with nothing but the clothes on her back and the shoes on her feet deaf to all his calls toward her. The boy told his father when he could no longer see her which led to all able body men to go into it depth to search for her yet...no one could find her. It was like the girl had vanished into thin air. Most curious was how the girl parents reacted to the news of their missing daughter. Both Hirofumi and Masahime where sad but expective of the news as though they knew this would happen. Neither one bother to look for their child saying, ‘When she want to she will return home and no sooner’, and left it at that to the bafflement of most of the town.
Indeed true to their word Senhime returned one warm Autumn day looking almost exactly as she did when she left. Only she came back not just with longer hair but with her stomach having a barely there bump. She had come back pregnant by an unknown man….or thing child. A once words spread of the girl scandalous state. Most of her suitors lost interested in a ‘sullied’ girl while others thought they could pressured her into accepting their suit due to her predicament. They, like others before them, suffered a gruesome end.
As for Senhime she was ecstatic with her pregnancy. She often sang and spoke to her unborn child. She seemed to practically glow with motherhood. Oddly enough she took to sitting as near as the forest as she could while still being in town whispering it seem to the trees once a day. What unnerved many was the realization of how….quiet everything became when she did this. No bird chirped, no leaves rustled, and no insect buzzed when she whispered to those trees. Not Even the wind dare make a sound. As soon as stopped though all sounds would start again as though someone had unmute them like a TV.
Senhime went into labor at the stroke of midnight on March 31st. For reason she nor her family ever explained she opted for a home birth instead of going to the small town clinic. Even odder? Neither the town Doctor or either of the two Midwives attended the birth but a strange dark reddish brown haired man was seen that day. To be precise he was seen leaving from the direction where Senhime family Shrine and home was. Whatever the case at 2:44 PM on March 31st Nana Kuromori was born.
Nana was a beautiful child...inhumanly so. Oh there was no doubt she was Senhime daughter. They shared many of the same features but Nana was paler. Much more paler than her mother, bordering on an unnatural shade in a human. Her lips contradictory was a dark red than her mother’s own...almost looking like fresh blood. Her Caramel brown hair and eyes despite being exactly the same as Senhime seemed more darker somehow on her.
As Nana grew the more things seemed off with her. Like something trying to act human but couldn’t truly pull off the act. As a baby she hardly cried or made any noise. Her gaze was too intelligent for most people comfort. They watched as she grew and learned and then began acting like those around her. Yet her laughter were too hollow, her grin too wide, her eyes too calculating, and the air around her too sinister to truly pull off an innocent little girl act.
Even more unnerving where the ‘mysterious’ deaths that happened around her. Anyone, no matter their age or gender, who crossed Nana and her family ended up dead. The matter of how changed always. Some were impaled, others torn apart. Some died by fire while others by water. A few were stabbed and one memorable occasion they were found hanging….by their own entails. What they all had in common where how the day before they had mistreated Nana and her family. Each time Nana had an...almost pleased expression when news of their death reached her ear.
Time passes in Kiri-no-Yama and people passed on to the afterlife. Some more violently than others. One of these deaths sadly was Senhime. Nana was 12 at the time and her mother had went into the forest to take a walk after breakfast. Hours later near lunchtime Nana was playing with one of her many toys that she somehow owned despite neither her or her family ever buying any toys for her and not having anyone else in her life gifting them to her when the screams reached her ears. Curious due to the fact no one had crossed her family went to see what had caused the screams. What she saw will forever be engraved into her mind and will awaken a deep hatred and desire for revenge in her towards the one who did it. The screams had belong to her grandmother and the caused? It was Senhime barely covered and mangled body. Her body had been torn open and cut into pieces. Her face was contorted into pain and horror, her eyes gouged and her tongue cut out. The only clue on who Senhime killer was? He comes carved into Senhime back.
For weeks afterward NO ONE but Nana dared enter the forests for it had a much more angry and sinister feel to it. Nana would enter during the day with murder in her caramel eyes and a frying pan in hand and would be back by nightfall covered in blood and pan dented but a bit more calmer than before each day. Those weeks were the only time Nana true self that everyone suspected was there were confirmed. Only no one was quick to point out the truth of the matter in fear of turning the angry and bloodthirsty girl onto them. After those terrifying weeks past everyone pretended they never saw or knew the truth of the monster hidden among them.
By the time Nana was 18 both her grandparents had died. Her Grandmother barely a year after her mother, her old heart unable to take the burden of her mind from how she found her daughter dead body. Her Grandfather managed to hold out a few more years before he too passed away in his sleep. Nana by then had not only learned but surpassed in the skills her mother had before her and thus was able to care for the shrine on her own. Still despite being a much better catch than her mother in looks and skills she had no suitors for they all recalled those dark day when she shed her human skin. It would seem Nana would never married or have children...until he came.
Iemitsu Sawada was a stranger in town. Just passing through on business when he meet Nana. Despite his instinct and near dead Intuition all but warning him to get FAR FAR AWAY from Nana he ignored it and chose to pursuit the shrine beauty. Everyone watched in bated breath as the stranger pursued the town deadly beauty. It came to many surprised when the man not only didn’t end up dead but had convinced the girl to marry and leave with him. Whatever the case may be Nana Kuromori became Nana Sawada and left Kiri-no-Yama behind for Iemitsu hometown of Namimori. As the two left the small town hidden in the misty mountains surrounded by tall dark trees with an old Shrine at the edge the people of Kiri-no-Yama sighed a collective sigh of relief for the first time in nearly 20 years now that their monster was leaving them and becoming Namimori own murder.
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defini-te · 8 years ago
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all of the vaguely nsfw asks?/ >:))
Thank you anon >:’D
1. Are looks important in a relationship? Yes, but not more important than personality. A decent looking guy can become attractive to me, but no amount of personality will make me attracted to someone I can’t find remotely attractive :/2. Are relationships ever worth it? With the right people I believe so3. Are you a virgin? No4. Are you in a relationship? I think so 5. Are you in love? no (not yet I suppose)6. Are you single this year? no lmao7. Can you commit to one person? yeah8. Describe your crush. a human male with arms and legs. And some beautiful eyes. 9. Describe your perfect mate. Someone I can have fun with, trust and be comfortable being myself and honest with. Someone that can help me be a better person but also someone I can help in the same way. Also physically attractive to me and finds me attractive.10. Do you believe in love at first sight? No lmao11. Do you ever want to get married? Sure…no hurry though.12. Do you forgive betrayal? If they’re sincerely sorry, never repeat it and make amends I will. Unless if it’s cheating lmao.13. Do you get jealous easily? Honestly no. I’m pretty reasonable by default.14. Do you have a crush on anyone? Well, yeah.15. Do you have any piercings? Ears only16. Do you have any tattoos? No i’m afraid of pain ._.17. Do you like kissing in public? Yes, provided it’s nothing more than a quick kiss. Forehead and cheek kisses aaaa20. Do you shower every day? yes21. Do you think someone has feelings for you? I would bloody hope so22. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now? neh23. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat? yes wtf24. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?  ..no25. Do you want to be in a relationship this year? Well yeah.26. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you? Yeah. And look what happened lmao woops27. Has someone ever written a song or poem for you? no28. Have you ever been cheated on? Yes.29. Have you ever cheated on someone? No. I’m not a fucking animal.30. Have you ever considered plastic surgery? If so, what would you change about your body? Jawline thinning surgery, or a nose job.31. Have you ever cried over a guy/girl? Yes. Cried once over the shock of being ghosted. Cried many times from an emotionally abusive ex.32. Have you ever experienced unrequited love? No. I’d be on the other end of it more often tbh. I wouldn’t let myself love someone that doesn’t feel the same to me.33. Have you ever had sex with a man? Ye34. Have you ever had sex with a woman? noh35. Have you ever kissed someone older than you? Ye36. Have you ever liked one of your best friends? No37. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated? Does it count if my friends eventually started hating him?38. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to? Yes. Didn’t expect to like someone with mental illness and a different socioeconomic class than me. Also didn’t expect to like a charming salesman that approached me either. WOOPS.39. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have? No40. Have you ever written a song or poem for someone? I’m about as artistic as a brick wall, so no.41. Have you had sex so far this year? Yes :)42. How long can you just kiss until your hands start to wander? like 3 seconds.43. How long was your longest relationship? 1 year 2 months. Pity it was a toxic one.44. How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had? 445. How many people did you kiss in 2012/2013? Just 1. Oh the joys of high school infatuation.46. How many times did you have sex last year? many to be honest.47. How old are you? 1948. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say? Thought you really seemed to like me. Thanks for being honest about it, bye.49. If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, what is your favorite thing about him/her? Hard to pin point one thing at this stage. I’d say fun to be around and seems genuine and affectionate.50. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept? NO. BYE BITCH. It’s more likely he’d knock on my door with incessant talking and logical fallacies.51. Is there a boy/girl who you would do absolutely everything for? Myself lol52. Is there anyone you’ve given up on? Why? My most recent ex. I’m sure he could have gotten better, but the damage of the past is done. My feelings for him are completely gone to the point where I cannot stand the tiniest sliver of his presence. Therefore, there’s no way I could stay with him and have the patience to wait for him to improve.
That’s just the thing, isn’t it. Our relationship constantly had a power imbalance that would tip from one side to the other, never balancing in the middle.
Another reason I gave up was when I realised we both deserved better, and I couldn’t feel comfortable being honest with him and too used to hiding things and lying to him.53. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are? Nope54. Is there someone you will never forget? Yeah I think so. Not in a good way.55. Share a relationship story. Uhmm we went from google imaging photos of expensive cars because I didn’t know what a Bugatti was, to scrolling through photos of horses for 5 minutes and making comments on them.56. State 8 facts about your body. I’m 5′2/1.58cm, my second toe is longer than my big toe, I can twitch my ears, I can roll my tongue sideways, I look younger than I am, my hands are always cold, I can place my hands flat on the floor without bending my knees, I have resting bitch face.
57. Things you want to say to an ex. Good luck with life. Don’t talk to me or see what I’m doing with mine.58. What are five ways to win your heart?
1. Make me laugh abruptly and unexpectedly.
2. Listen to what I say and respect my intelligence and agency.
3. inspire me to actually improve in any way.
4. Be attentive and genuinely enjoy spending time with me.
5. Intend to stick with me, and make that obvious to me.
59. What do you look like? (Post a picture!) if you want one that badly pm me or something.60. What is the biggest age difference between you and any of your partners? 7 years 61. What is the first thing you notice in someone? Their general demeanour and how they carry themselves. I would’ve said their looks but I’ve realised I don’t aggressively scope them out first thing due to shyness.62. What is the sexiest thing someone could ever do for/to you? Oh man, I’m not too sure. I’d say a lot of sensual touching would be involved and dirty or sweet talk whispering.63. What is your definition of “having sex”? Bumping your genitals together LMAO64. What is your definition of cheating?
Physical cheating - Any physical contact with sexual intent, including sexting, with someone you’re not in a relationship with, and without their permission.
Emotional cheating - Having romantic feelings or strong attachment for someone you’re not in a relationship with, and not doing anything to control them.65. What is your favourite foreplay routine? Making out, touching, I guess.  Lel.66. What is your favourite roleplay? idk67. What is your idea of the perfect date? I have many. A night in where we watch movies, cuddle and cook something together. Or we go somewhere scenic and watch the sunset/star gaze. 68. What is your sexual orientation? Straight69. What turns you off? Lack of initiative, arrogance, possessiveness, excessive awkwardness, clingyness/neediness, extremely loud voice, sense of entitlement, bad oral hygiene (or hygiene in general), inattentive, very untidy, passive aggressiveness.70. What turns you on? Initiative, respectful, smells nice, sense of humour, consideration, affectionate/sensual, honesty, kindness, appreciative, intelligence.71. What was your kinkiest wet dream? uhm idk.72. What words do you like to hear during sex? henlo u wan sum fuk73. What’s something sweet you’d like someone to do for you? I low-key fantasised about someone buying me a new e-reader. Not because they’re just buying me a new device, but about the sentiment behind it. They’d know how much I enjoyed reading and wish to encourage me to pursue it once more. They’d know that reading off a computer screen saps my concentration and I prefer to find my books electronically and online.
there’s another reason I’d find it particularly touching, and it’s not something I would tell them. My controlling ex didn’t let me read and uninstalled the program I used for reading off MY computer without telling me. So if a better boyfriend did the opposite and encouraged me to read, and wanted to see me enjoy things I’d probably fall in love with him right there.
But this is a tad bit idealistic, so I’m not expecting.
74. What’s the most superficial characteristic you look for? Nice arms? Handsome face? IDK75. What’s the sweetest thing anyone’s ever done for you? Take care of me when I was sick.76. What’s the sweetest thing you’ve ever done for someone? Take care of them when they had a mental breakdown. 77. What’s your opinion on age differences in relationships? If you’re on the same page and can work together, who am I to judge.78. What’s your dirtiest secret? Apparently I’m good at blowjobs o//o Thought I was average at best, i’m still shook.79. When was the last time you felt jealous? Why? When I was with my ex, probably just him hanging around that dumb bitch and trying new things with her. Why did I even put up with that lmao.80. When was the last time you told someone you loved them? I don’t remember.81. Who are five people you find attractive? Me, myself, Moi, I, and shrek.82. Who is the last person you hugged? My mother.83. Who was your first kiss with? With a boy I met off a friend when we were 15. He’s studying dentistry now lmaoo84. Why did your last relationship fail? Controlling behaviour, cheating, isolation, me being sick of his manipulative bullshit and wanting to do normal things without fucking consulting him first. Also I didn’t take initiative or put as much effort because I felt like nothing I’d do would make a difference, and that he’d tell me what to do anyway so why act.85. Would you ever date someone off of the Internet? If I’m able to meet them regularly, yeah why not.
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obsessedbybucky · 8 years ago
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do all the questions :x (now i'm the small dick with a lot of balls)
Here I did them all bb
1: Let’s start with a tricky one; what is the real reason you are confused right now?There's this guy I've been talking to for more or less three weeks and I've gone to see him at his job and chill with him and all and he looked interested. He even asked me to come hang out by his place this morning. It was the single most boring morning I've ever had. We didn't do anyhing, kiss/sex/etc, and all he did was talk and drink and smoke and play with his tattoo things, idk man. Then he tells me he's going to sleep and I'm ???? Ok??? So I left, and before I left he told me he would text me when he woke up. He didnt. Idk man.
2: Do you ever get “good morning” texts from anyone?The only person that's ever done that to me was one of my best friend's ex I fucked on his birthday. He was sweet. My best friend was happy for us but it didn't work so
3: If your significant other smoked pot, would you care?Nah fam
4: Do you find it easy to trust others?Very
5: What were you doing at 11PM last night?Sleeping and I received a text from my friend saying her significant other was just being diagnosed with cancer.
6: You’re drunk and lost walking down the road; who is with you?Me, myself and I probably
7: What would you do if you found out you had been cheated on?Probably nothing lmao
8: Are you close with your dad?Haven't seen him in a decade
9: I bet you kissed someone last night, right?Damn I wish
10: What are you listening to?Some NSYNC
11: You can only drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life - what is it?Mcdonald's Caramel Iced Coffee
12: Do you like hickeys?Never had one
13: What time do you go to bed?Around 9 am
14: Is there someone who continuously lets you down?544444444444444rThis is kinda sad but my best friend. Also Lucas but fuck Lucas.
15: Can you text as quickly with one hand as you do both?Not really lmao
16: Do you always answer your texts?Depends on who's texting
17: Do you hate the person you fell the hardest for?Yeah man. What he did what unnecessary and uncalled for.
18: When was the last time you talked to one of your best friends?Some hours ago
19: Is there someone that makes you happy every time you see them?Probably my best friend. And up until yesterday morning, it was the guy from question 1
20: What was your last thought before you went to bed last night?"I hope he really will text me later"
21: Is anyone else in the room with you?Nope
22: Do you believe what goes around comes around?Yeah man
23: Were you happier four months ago than you are now?Yeah, I was at the peak of my happiness
24: Is there someone you wish you could fix things with?So many people man
25: In the past week, have you cried?I don't remember tbh
26: What colour is the shirt you are wearing?Grey, black and blue
27: Do people ever call you by your last name?When I was younger
28: Is anyone ignoring you right now?The guy from question 1
29: Do you have a best friend?I have two
30: Would it be hard seeing someone else kiss the last person you kissed?Yeah, even though it was a whole month ago and I know he wants nothing to do with me
31: Who was your last call/text message from?One of my two best friend
32: Are you mad at anyone?So many people tbh
33: Have you ever kissed someone older than you?I only ever kissed one person that was younger than me
34: How old will the last person you kissed be on his/her next birthday?23 or 24, I'm not sure
35: How many more days until your birthday?92 days
36: Do you have any summer plans yet?Not really
37: Do you have any good friends of the opposite sex?Not really
38: Are you keeping anything from your best friend(s) now?Yep
39: Do you have a secret that you’ve never told anyone?Yep
40: Have you ever regretted kissing someone?Ah man, so many times
41: Do you think age matters in relationships?Depends, really
42: Are you available?As fuck
43: How many people have you had real, strong feelings for since high school ended?at least 5, not sure if there's more though
44: If you had to get a piercing (not ears), what would you get?I want my lip piercing back
45: Do you believe exes can be friends?Hell to the nope
46: Do you regret anything?So many things man
47: Honestly, what’s on your mind right now?The fact that my best friend's significant other's got cancer and the dude from question 1. In between these questions I went to a McDonald's to get some iced coffee and I wanted to get some cigarettes and he works at the gas station next to it and I knew he finished at 7 and it was past 7 so I went to go there but I saw him so I noped the fuck out and I told my sister to get my cigs for me and he told her he saw me nope the f out on my way there. it's been 45 minutes, I thought he would text me to ask me why but nah. He just doesnt give a fuck man, depresses me.
48: Did you ever lose a best friend?Yeah
49: Was your last kiss a mistake?Not really, he was the most gorgeous person I've ever kissed. Even though he was a real asshole afterwards, 18/10 would do it again
50: Why aren’t you pursuing the person you like?I don't think he likes me, he actually made it pretty clear.
51: Has the last person you kissed ever seen you cry?Yep. Some awkward story, let me tell you
52: Do you still talk with the person you LAST kissed?He works at my job so if we work together he talks to me, idk
53: What was the last thing you ate?Cookies
54: Did you get any compliments today?No, which is a shame bc look at me, i'm gorgeous
55: Where are you going on your next vacation?Back to Montreal bitchessssss
56: Do you own anything from other countries?Yeah, some things I bought when I was in New York. The other things are from ebay and shit.
57: Are most of your friend guys or girls?Girls
58: Where have you lived most of your life?Charlevoix, Quebec, Canada, which is disgusting
59: When was the last time you took a long drive?Last weekend
60: Have you ever played Spin the Bottle?No???? And I dont know why???
61: Have you ever TPd someone’s house?Nope
62: Who do you text the most?My best friend
63: What was the last movie you saw?Begin Again I think, of Me Before You
64: What’s preventing your current boyfriend/girlfriend from going back to their ex?Have no bf/gf
65: How many boyfriends/girlfriends did you have in 2011?Lmao under 0
66: Is the last person you kissed younger than you?Nope
67: Do you curse around your parents?I do
68: Are you happy with where you live?Kinda
69: Picture of yourself?Nah
70: Are you a monogamous person or do you believe in open-ended relationships?I don't even really believe in relationships tbh. I'm 18 and never had any
71: Have you ever been dumped?We weren't in a relationship but it did felt like I was dumped real hard
72: What do you most like about making out?The touching and the kissing, idk, I just love everything about it.
73: Have you ever casually made out with someone who you weren’t seriously involved with?Lmao always
74: When you kiss someone for the first time, is it usually you who initiates it or the other?Them
75: What part of a person’s body do you find most attractive?The stomach. If they have abs, there's 96% chance I'd bang them
76: Who was the last person you talked to last night before you went to bed?My best friend
77: Had sex with someone you knew less than an hour?Lmao yeah
78: Had sex with someone you didn’t know their name?Happened once
79: What makes your heart flutter and brings a big cheesy smile to your face?When someone kisses me
80: Would you get involved with someone if they had a child already?Yeah why not
81: Has someone who had a crush on you ever confessed to you?Yeah, awkward
82: Do you tell a lot of people when you have a crush?YEAH LMAO
83: Do you miss your last sweetie?No, fuck that fucktard
84: Last time you slow danced with someone?Never
85: Have you ever ‘dated’ someone you’ve never met?Nope, except when I was like 11
86: How can I win your heart?Be attractive and give me compliments.
87: What is your astrological sign?Taurus
88: What were you doing last night at 12 AM?Sleeping man
89: Do you cook?Does mac and cheese count?
90: Have you ever gotten back in touch with an old flame after a time of more than 3 months of no communication?Yeah omg weirdly
91: If you’re single right now, do you wish you were in a relationship?Sometimes yes, but then I remember I'm a hoe that wants to fuck a lot of people so
92: Do you prefer to date various people or do you pretty much fall into monogamous relationships quickly?Let's put it like that, I've only ever had sex with the same person more than once once, and I did him twice.
93: What physical traits do you look for in a potential interest?I'm very superficial tbh, I like twinks. I love it when they're small.
94: Name four things that you wish you had!A beautiful person to fuck withAt least 2k$A penis and no boobs sometimesFriends tbh
95: Are you a player?I am
96: Have you ever kissed 2 people in one day?I think the most I did was like 4 different people in one evening. Wasn't even playing spin the bottle or anything
97: Are you a tease?yeah
98: Ever meet anyone you met on Tumblr?No :(
99: Have you ever been deeply in love with someone?Nope
100: Anybody on Tumblr that you’d go on a date with?Yeah
101: Hugs or Kisses?Kisses
102: Are you too shy to ask someone out?yeah
103: The first thing you notice about the opposite sex?The ass or the stomach
104: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you babe?yep
105: If a sexy person was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was in relationship, would you go for it?Yeah I'm a hoe
106: Do you flirt a lot?yep
107: Your last kiss?Okay so I was out at a bar with some friends and when the bar closed, I got my cellphone and I saw this dude from work texted me and I answered and he replied instantly back. Some friends wanted to go up to this dude's hotel room and I didn't wanna and I couldn't find a taxi. So I drunk called the dude and asked him to come and get me. Which he did. Lots of shit were said during the hella long car drive and once we were at my place, I don't really remember if I kissed him before the bj happened but I definitely kissed him before he got out of my apartment. So yeah.
108: Have you kissed more than 5 people since the start of 2012?lmao way more
109: Have you kissed anyone in the past month?The dude from 107
110: If you could kiss anyone who would it be?Justin Timberlake or Dylan O'brien tbh
111: Do you know who you’ll kiss next?I thought it was the guy I saw yesterday morning but now idk
112: Does someone like you currently?I don't think so
113: Do you currently have feelings for anyone?Nah
114: Do you like to be in serious relationships or just flings?Flings bc hoe
115: Ever made out with just a friend?Yep
116: Are you happier single or in a relationship?Single I guess, never had any relationships.
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scottymcgeesterwrites · 7 years ago
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What AIM meant to me
It’s 6:44 AM right now and I just CANNOT go back to sleep.
It’s very rare that I can’t sleep because I typically sleep like a log. It’s only when things are on my mind that I cannot sleep.
This is going to sound pathetic but what makes me restless is the recent news that AOL Instant Messenger, affectionately known as AIM, is going to discontinue for good this December 15.
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I officially stopped using AIM around 2009, my sophomore year of college. The only times I really used it after that was to contact my mom, who was/is one of those mothers who still thinks AOL is the only way to log onto the Internet. I used to log some AIM conversations automatically. Thinking about AIM’s coming end, I went back to my archive and went through a whirlwind of emotions. I even found a download of AIM to reinstall it and look at all the old screennames.
Unfortunately, of course, I don’t have EVERYTHING. I had hoped to find some ancient conversations from middle school but I didn’t start logging conversations that far. I did have a previous username because way back then my first crush blocked my dumb awkward ass, so I tried to get around it by creating another screen name. I always tried to get friends to talk to her to see what she thought of me, instead of actually talking to her myself. Unfortunately, AIM’s password recovery system doesn’t seem to be working anymore, at least, not for me.
AIM was special for all of us. For me, I met so many people. When I was awkward in school, I found many friends online. We created many chatrooms and started many projects. It was fertile ground for sharing imagination. I “borrowed” many screennames I thought were cool and used them in my stories. I always asked first of course if it was okay for me to totally rip their screenname for a character in a story; they didn’t care.
I met my ex on an AIM chatroom way back in the middle of high school. I have a friend who recently changed his name to Kay. We always had crazy ideas and philosophized about the meaning and nature of life.
I had this idea that I dubbed “The Social Engineering Project.”
The idea was to create this one chatroom and see how many connections you can make . You invited a friend and told them to invite one other friend, who in turn invited one other friend too.
The result was a massive chatroom of (very confused) people. I met my ex on there for the first time. I put her screenname aside and messaged her, “Hey. It’s crazy in there, ain’t it?”
It’s funny thinking back to the origin story of your friends. Friends you met online and chatted with only to never see them again. Friends you still talk to. Friends who became really close friends whom you still hang out with.
Like all memories of exes, mine is full of regret. I haven’t yet talked about my ex in this new writing blog. To make a long story short - I obsessed over this girl. I would obsess over her for the next 4 years - from the end of sophomore year of high school to the end of sophomore year of college.
The situation was very complicated, but I’ll keep it brief. Someone raped my ex when I first met her. I was there for her, consoled her. In time, we fell in love. My mother somehow checked my computer, went through my AIM logs, and wanted me to stop talking to her. She and dad believed that she was bad news - that she got herself raped, that she whored herself out.
So for the next 5 something years, I battled my parents. With the aide of some friends, I’d try to see my ex again and again - all fruitless attempts like Wile E. Coyote and Road Runner. I’d get grounded countless times, to the point where I had my computer taken away, then my Internet. I once jumped out of my second-story window to use my next-door neighbor’s wi-fi. I literally sat next to his house with my laptop without him knowing at around 3 AM. I was obsessed with the idea of being my ex’s knight in shining armor. Whenever she needed something, I was there. She was torn between two countries and eventually chose the one further away, and she moved on with other guys, but I still pursued her wanting to prove my worth. I felt many negative emotions those years. Resentment at my parents. Confusion over my ex’s behavior. Anger at my ex’s rapist - to the point where I stalked him and stood in his backyard ready to beat the shit out of him. Frustration at the housing crisis and the government. Overall - I felt cheated. I developed trauma that still hasn’t fully resolved. I still live with my parents and I hesitate every time I bring up my current girlfriend and wanting to hang out with her. My heart races because I recall the screeching arguments we had over my ex and the turmoil that spread for so many years in the household.
This whole experience fucked me up - as you can imagine. As I relived these memories on my AIM logs, I once again thought about how I would change things if I redid those first two years of college.
I was such a pompous ass during my first two years of college.
I would relive and redo all four years of college in a heartbeat. Imagine how awesome it would be to know everything and go through it all over again? I could say, “BYE BITCH” and forget about my ex and go out and have crazy sexy fun at parties. I could get straight A’s. I could cash in on the housing crisis months before it happened. I could have filmed so many things.
Currently, I have a YouTube channel called Untitled Independent Film Group. I basically grab my friends to film skits and short films. We don’t have many videos right now - but way back in freshman year of college, I always wrote down film ideas. I wrote so much but filmed so little - at least not until junior year of college. I was such an ass my first two years. I thought little of people who drank and partied hard, mostly because my ex’s rapist did what he did at one of those parties. My impression of people who partied was, “You’re all goddamn sick and you’re all goddamn rapists.” I put myself on a high horse and wanted to hunt down frat bros and beat the shit out of them. I wish I had let go of all the anger the second I stepped into my freshman dorm for the first time. All of that distracted me from starting my dreams early on, from filming, and it wasn’t until much later, right now, when the party is over that I seriously returned to filming. Now it’s much different. I can’t just walk over to someone’s dorm and say, “Hey, let’s film this.” I have to text or call and wait for a response. We have to schedule. Then we forget about it and wait for months until I remember to bring it up again. We then film it and it takes longer than I planned and then afterwards we are tired and go home.
I still have energy in me ready to burst as if I were a college student. I often find it suppressed. I often find myself in a room of friends who are ready to go to bed at around 11 PM or 12 AM. Meanwhile I’m itching with energy like, “Hey guys, let’s play Kings. We haven’t played that in a long time. Or let’s play this or that or the other thing.” Adult life sucks for me not because I lack the energy but because everyone else seems to. I still have a quarter of a college student in me that never fully came out. That seems to be how it worked. I guess that’s why Miley Cyrus is the way she is right now. She said something once about how she used to be an angel but now she’s living through all the suppressed craziness she would have let out back then. I think I’m a male Miley Cyrus is what I’m trying to say.
In a way, I’ve experienced life in reverse. I used to be super serious and much more nobler. I read back through these AIM logs and can’t believe I was such a pompous asshole. I had such a strict view on life. Now I’m just a fuck-up.
The thought of going back is fun at first, like playing a video game the second time around only this time you’ve unlocked many secrets and know many different paths.
But experiences are fucked up. You think about how you could have changed them but then if they didn’t happen, the positive things going on right now would have most likely never happened. I wrote a fantasy story that came out of my experiences with my ex. Everyone loved it. Where would that story be if I had let her go earlier on? Probably nonexistent. Heck, my feelings now about regrets in college drive some of my current stories. What would I have to inspire myself with if I didn’t have those regrets?
My stories have a recurring theme - they all warn the readers not to be stupid. Don’t dawdle with people who don’t appreciate you. Don’t waste your time. Take a chance. Don’t act high and mighty. Don’t stick around a place you hate for so long. What are you doing there? MOVE!
In the beginning of college, I was practically convinced that I would run away before graduating and “walk the Earth” and save the day. It was a big debate and source of conflict among my Internet friends, in forums and chats. The older kids would always say, “DON’T. You idiot. You have no idea how important a college education is.” Other said, “Go ahead. Bohemian life all the way.”
Now here I am. I’ve been at the same job for the past 5 years. Oh yeah. Saving the day all right. Saving it so hard.
I tried to bring back the whole “saving the day” shit after I graduated college. Nobody took the bait. It wasn’t like high school or college where you could rally people and say, “FUCK THE SYSTEM.” I created a secret forum once dedicated to sticking it to the man. It’s gone now - all because of some petty drama between two founding members. We had like a secret password and everything in order to enter the forum.
They always warn you not to dawdle on the past because it wastes time. I find it encourages it. Right now, I’m brimming with energy. It’s strange too because I’m excited but also very sad. The second I finish writing this I’ll write EVERYTHING that comes to mind and finish AS MANY of my stories as I can. Who cares if they suck right now? Just write. For God’s sake, man. Write away, right away. You never know when you’ll die. Your words will be lost and forgotten - or worse, you would never get to say what you want to say. I always get like this when I dwell on the past. HURRAH - act now! Push back! And then it dies down because nobody else is as enthused as I am. Take it from me - the hardest thing about being a leader is getting people motivated. You have to make them believe they can do it. Forget it if they actually can or can’t - make them believe. How can I make the enthusiasm last in me when nobody else carries it on?
Of course - I have to apply that belief to myself too.
What can I do now? Hm. Well, there’s Discord - growing in popularity and better than Skype. Yes. I can see it now - a new age is coming. I’ll start something new! Another Social Engineering Project! Another age of Internet friends to stick it to the man!
Thank you, AIM. You were the conduit of many things - all the school drama and all the late-night conversations with good friends. Without you, online chatting wouldn’t have been where it is now.
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