#the technicals are always the worst though because you dont know what it will be and sure they give you a ''recipe'' and ''instructions''

[listen-to-the-inner-walrus]

"It's like the actively want the bakers to fail."

Oh no. Are they giving it an ol' Food Network competition try, then?

ngl i have no idea what the food network does xhsndnskwkx but if they set ridiculous challenges that dont fit the brief of the show whilst not giving them enough time to complete the challenges and then criticise them for not leaping over the double decker bus they used instead of a hurdle then yeah, thats what they do

[tauforged]

Do you have any tips/tricks on getting into warframe? I want to play bc the designs look cool and I'm sure the story is just as interesting!

(It is completely OK to info-dump!)

OH BOY OH BOY!!!!!!!!

ive probably said it better before, but cant find the posts because this website has the worst search function known to all mankind -_- so i will give you some bullet points that will not be all inclusive and i invite anyone else who wants to chime in to do so!!

while the devs are definitely trying to streamline new player experience, the story is uh. a lot! the game has like, what, 11yrs worth of content behind it by now? there's a lot! depending on your playstyle and how you progress through the game, it might take you a while to really get into the meat of it -- or you might speedrun all the main storylines in like a month. there are lots of side quests and secondary objectives you can dick around with as much as you like, which some people find fun and some people find annoying. i liek it :) but it can definitely be a lot

there have been a lot of time limited events and hidden lore entries that make some things pretty inaccessible to new players. they seem to be trying to get better about this but its still not ideal. the wiki is not always right (afaik, theyre still hung up on whether or not albrecht and loid were ~canonically~ together, which is literally just blatantly textual) but it can be a good place to find summaries of shit you've missed out on. ive never watched a single one of those 'warframe lore explained' videos so i cannot vouch for any of their accuracy. i dont really pay attention to the subreddit or the official forums either, but those might have information too? idk

i personally find that some of the quests are thrown at you wayyyyy earlier than they should -- heart of deimos is one that i strongly believe should be way more lategame than it is, since it builds on a lot of stuff that you probably won't know by the time you get to it unless youve been paying veryvery close attention or have been going wiki spelunking. i wouldnt stress about it too much if something seems to make no fucking sense, though. most quests are replayable if you want to go back to something with fresh eyes or different context

i have probably already spoiled you on a lot of the lategame stuff and for that im sorry! lmao this isnt really a game where spoilers will ruin something per se, but since ive been playing the game since like 2013 i went into everything blind as it was released and i always had a huge blast when the game dropped a bombshell on us, so i try not to rob anyone of that experience if i can help it -- not a huge deal though depending on preference

there's a lot of grinding and farming. i personally dont find it overly tedious as there's a lot to do and it's easy to mix things up and take breaks, but for some people it's a huge turn off, so just a heads up i guess. you can technically bypass a lot of the grind by buying new frames or weapons off the market if you really want to spend your money on that, but there's some things that are locked behind a reputation grind and such. and honestly, you dont Need to spend money on anything but some cosmetics

trying to play through everything solo might be fun if you enjoy a challenge, but i personally find it to be unsustainable. you're going to want to find a decent sized clan and you're going to want to either find friends to play with or hit up the recruiting chat for backup.

you can make platinum pretty easy by farming prime parts or rare mods and other such tradeable things and selling them to other players. i dont bother with this because im bad at keeping up on video game economies and it never interested me. but it makes being a 100% f2p player a lot easier when you need to buy inventory slots and such

there are over 50 warframes and countless ways to mod each one, and an absurd amount of different weapons -- there isnt really any one playstyle thats 'better' than any other. i perosnally pay next to no attention to the meta outside of keeping in mind what damage types are effective against which enemies. some people really enjoy minmaxxing the hell out of their shit. you can kinda just do whatever

don't buy plat without having at least a 50% discount login bonus unless it is an absolute emergency. the discounts are random but ive found they happen often enough that i can just wait around for one to pop up and replenish if i'm low. or dont bother idk i cant tell you how to spend your money im not your dad

mute region chat for the sake of your own sanity. nobody in there is as funny as they think they are. moderation is better in there than it used to be but it's still a wasteland

the most important part of playing warframe is having fun and being yourself :)

[miothejelly]

want to give your dogs a nice treat, but not sure whats healthy for them? heres a guide to fruits for dogs and what kind of ones are okay or should be avoided!

i love feeding my doggies off cuttings of my meals, especially the ends off fruits that i wont eat, but its good to know the effects of what you're putting in your dogs body. so heres some reaserch ive done, and the kinds of things i give my doggies.

as much as dogs technically dont have a need to eat fruit, they do have some good properties for doggie health. alot of dog food contains fruit because it gives alot of extra nutrients!

definitely NOT dogs safe :

- avacado causes vomiting and diarrhoea even in small amounts

- cherries can cause disruption to oxygen flow, even just a single fruit, and cause poisoning

- grapes or rasins are one of the worst things you can give a dog. they cause liver failure and poisoning so easily

- tomatoes are a risky game. the ripe red fruit is some what okay for dogs but its best to avoid them as a whole as they can be toxic. there are dog safe tomatoe treat alternative!

good in small amounts :

- bananas are full of vitamins, though high in sugar so good in small amounts

- cantaloupe is great for hydration, especially in the summer, though abit sugary

- cranberries are the same as cantaloupe, good hydration, abit sugary

- mangos are vitamin heavy though abit sugary for already chunky doggos. remember to remove the pit

- oranges are great, especially the peel of the fruit, though many dogs dont enjoy citrus at all and might be a little rough on the digestive system in large amounts

- peaches are high in vitamins and great in small chunks. too much can cause the same effects as cherries, so leave them as a nice little treat

- pears are super good. avoid tinned pears, only use the fresh fruit, and cut away the pit and seeds. but very good vitamins and potassium!

- pineapple helps break down proteins and is super good! avoid the skin, and similarly to pears, non fresh fruit pineapples are too high in sugar, its best to use it fresh!

- raspberries are an antitoxin that have anti-inflamitory properties! though in large amounts over about 8 ounces can be toxic.

- strawberries are great for helping whitening dogs teath and for overall oral health, though in moderation with how much sugar they have

the best ones :

- apples (removing the core and seeds) are high in vitamin A, C and fibre!

- blueberries are a huge antitoxin and promote cell reproduction even in large amounts!

- cucumbers are amazing treats, great amount of vitamins with little to no calories or fats. hugely recommended for chunkier dogs or diabetic pups that need a less sugary treat

- pumpkin in pure form is a great antitoxin that helps dogs with diarrhoea or upset stomachs! if you're getting canned pumpkin, make sure it has no added ingredients!

- watermelon, like cucumber, is great for hydration. remove the rine and seeds first, and you're good to go. lots of vitamins and potassium in a low calorie way!

low calories and sugar, specific for overweight doggos or diabetic pups :

- apples

- blueberries

- cucumber

- raspberries

- watermelon

good fruit for sick or old dogs that need some extra body help :

- apples (high in vitamins, low in calories)

- blueberries (antitoxin and cell regrowth)

- pineapple (helps digestion)

- pumpkin (antitoxin, helps cure stomach bugs, diarrhoea and constipation)

- raspberries (anti-inflammatory, helps with joints)

- strawberries (white teeth, oral health)

not every dog likes every fruit, its good to try it. if a fruit is high sugar, that doesnt mean its bad for you, bad in large amounts but a great treat that packs some good vitamins for your dogs!

i feed my dogs lots of fruits, as treats, as a nice summer cool down, to fix a stomach bug, or just because i have some left over!

fruit is great for your dogs, aslong as you know whats good and whats not, its always best to google the food before you give it to them. its safe to be mindful of what you put in your dogs body the same way we are mindful about what goes into ours!

[roseworth]

Opinions on Rose's Ravager outfits? Personally I always feel like she gets screwed over when it comes to outfits. I thought her original outfit was bland, but I'd rather have that than the weird pirate motif DC keeps putting onto her now.

HEAD IN HANDS i just wrote a whole response to this with details of every single one of her costumes then i pressed the wrong button and accidentally deleted ALL OF IT im gonna cry. so im sorry if i forget something because this is the second time im writing this whole thing :(((((

anyways overall i agree her costumes are usually bad. they either dont really fit her vibe or theyre boring or they have way too much going on. there are only a handful that i actually consider Good and most of them are really bad or just kinda nothing

but i put under the cut what i think of all of them:

original costume: BAD

this one falls into the bland category and its just.... not good. like the boob window is so unnecessary, i dont like the mask, and the colors are so nothing, and every detail sucks. i like the boots tbh but other than that. bad.

the same costume but different: better

i like this because it takes some of the good aspects of the other one and keeps them, but then makes it all a lil brighter and gives some more orangey accents. i wish she didnt have the mask at all, i hate it. but when she does have the mask i prefer it when her hair is sticking out the bottom, i dont like it when its all tucked in like in the first pic

the same costume without the mask: <3

im counting this as its own costume just because in the middle of teen titans she goes a while just not wearing the mask at all <3 its so disappointing when she puts it back on after going a bit without it

ok. new 52 time :/

NOWHERE fits: so fucking awful

technically not even ravager outfits but still. everyone point and laugh. the white and green does NOT look good on her and both of these costumes look terrible. especially the first one bc what the fuck is going on with that skirt thing

the ravagers: unfortunate serve

i fucking love this costume, i think this is actually one of my favorites of hers. i think it combines costume + armor really well, and i think that the color scheme really suits her. the art in this book was so fucking pretty and she looked so good every time she showed up. the unfortunate part was every other aspect of this book :/

her worst look: literally fucking terrible no redeeming qualities

girl take that shit off right fucking now i cant be seen with you wearing this. there is not a single part of this fit that looks good. i said the color scheme looked good in the last costume bc the red was kept to accents. there is so much red going on here and thats FAR from the worst part. lets go from head to toe. that mask is literally a travesty, i dont know who thought it was a good idea. the weird collar thing she has going on is so????? then she has the skulls on her shoulder pads, which are bad enough on their own. and why does she have a bazooka on her back. and why does she only have a skull on one knee?????? this is a fucking mess. kory attacks her on sight in this book and i fully believe its because this costume is so ugly she couldnt hold herself back. um. i like the fingerless gloves though i guess

rebirth: hesitant slay...

i hate the mask but other than that its?? fine???? this one used to be my favorite but i dont really like it as much anymore, idk why. i think its trying too hard to be armor and casual at the same time and ends up not looking good. i hate this mask soooo much though, i think the weird thing going on with her eyes makes this the second worst mask behind whatever was going on in the last one. and like you said i think this one relies too much on the pirate motif??? like i appreciate the reference to the eyepatch i guess but i would rather they just give her an eyepatch. like the skulls and the pirate thing seems way out of place and doesnt fit her vibe or the outfits vibe at all and it just looks weird. but other than that this look is. Fine.

defiance: eh

this one isnt technically ravager either but its still a rose costume so im rating it. its very ,,,, fine. like i dont have any problems with it but there isnt anything i particularly like about it. the whole point of the white costumes in this arc was because they were supposed to look wrong and out of place and all so i cant fault it for that, but theres just not really anything going on here its fine for what it is and thats all i can really say about it

willow: SLAY &lt;3 <3

i love this one, probably another one of my favorites. once again the black with red accents suits her so well. and the artist draws it so it doesnt even seem that horny despite the fact that its a lace up crop top and booty shorts <3 she looks so nice and i love the fit thats my girl (gn) ❣️❣️

stormwatch: yeah &lt;3

two screenshots just to point out the fact that she changes costumes halfway through this issue and i want to bully her for it. but this one is nice, its really simple but i think it works, plus shes drawn like an actual adult instead of a 15 year old so i cant complain <3 the skull imagery is very small and doesnt seem to piratey so i still dont love it but i forgive it. this costume is pretty good and i like it overall, its one of her better costumes

and yeah <3 i hope i didnt forget any but uh rose babygirl we have got to get you better costumes. i think the best color for her would be like a reddish orange bc i like the red for her but the orange is kind of Her Color (even though its only because of slade) and i think she should never wear that mask

[areyouafraid]

other metal artist thoughts

motorhead: i always liked lemmy's gravelly growly singing voice but he had a really weird... thing... with like WW2 nazi shit that. puts one off at best. im not going to offer further comment on that rn because it's "complicated" or so i'm told but best case scenario... why

slipknot: slipknot was the first "nu metal" band i think i really got into. i still like them and they seem like cool guys. i went and saw them at knotfest actually! i got a shirt

type o negative: real dallasheads know about my type o bias. i know peter said some kind of homophobic stuff but i forgive him tbh. i think he was just being dumb

system of a down: i always liked SOAD. my interest in it sorta tanked after serj did that NFT thing. i still dont really know what to make of that. you could argue it's technically not the worst thing an artist has ever done, but like. dude. how much fucking energy do those eat again? and they were supposed to be nature-themed too iirc like girl

rage against the machine: i like ratm enough... though it is a classic case of people projecting onto a musician. was it the drummer or the vocalist that hangs out with ted nugent? also tom morello has a radio show thing on siriusxm where he's kind of annoying

[elftwink]

so this is from someone who also actively plays in and dms campaigns with other systems but personally i love dnd partly because i like the number of arcane rules. i think part of what it is, is my table experiences have been so combat-lite that for me the system has just become tools for solving puzzles and situations. encounters are so few and far between with my usual dm that they become very intense and scary when they do happen, and you can maybe say well that's dnd guy cope to say that this combat sim is better without the combat, and that probably is true. the best version of dnd for me like if i were writing 6e would be to shift the game's mechanical focus away from combat, increase the prominence of utility/ roleplay oriented spells and skills, and encourage DMs not to rely on combat to fill space in the game

yes!! ik im being a hater in my posts rn but i also love dnd, and especially the magic and spell system. it's not perfect obviously, but i have yet to find a ttrpg whose magic system is as engaging to me personally as dnd is. idk it's like exactly the right amount of rules to feel very bound by them while still leaving wiggle room for creative magic choices (either by way of flavour which is whatever you make of it, or by way of doing something that is Technically covered by the spell but probably not intended, which almost always fucks extremely hard).

& also i agree that dnd is kind of too combat focused, and i actually do think it would be better with less (although i suspect that given theres a pretty large contingent of dnd players who play mostly or solely combat, i dont think this is a universal opinion lol), or at the very least if it didn't feel like it dominated the meta decisions you have to make. like when i take new spells i often have to deliberate between the cool utility spell i actually want to take that has no damage component, and the damage based spell that will keep me viable in combat. i wish often these choices were less at odds with each other, or at least if you had a character who needed to be carried through combat that they would have more utility in non-combat scenarios instead of just kind of feeling like dead weight (now i sound like someone who should try another system, lol. but its more varied spells in the existing dnd system that i want!)

also i kind of think dnd has a problem esp at the mid level with keeping combat high stakes and genuinely scary, which is a whole other post where i could ramble lol, but honestly in terms of per table solutions "do combat a lot less" sounds like actually an extremely good way to deal with it. the worst thing in dnd is when combat starts to feel repetitive and like a slog. if it happens rarely it just so so so much easier to avoid that. i could say much more about this but ive already been typing this ask for a gazillion years but the point is i'm stealing your dms tactics for next time i run a game

also to contextualize my baseless haterism posts, i just want to clarify that i don't care in any way if someone plays only 5e/dnd and refuses to play other systems. this is whatever. what annoys me is when such people insist this is because every other game on earth is worse than dnd at everything, somehow, even though they do not know the full rules of dnd and are not super interested in learning. there's a lot to be found there in dnd but you have to like, engage with it. your dm cant read it for you. & its always more fun to be at a table where everyone knows wtf is going on than with players who barely know enough to scrape by and treat the DM like a rules dispensing machine

anyway. your 6e ideas sound awesome, especially more utility spells pleaseeee wotc. life could be so beautiful

[sidesteppostinghours]

27, 28, and 29 for Cyrus (and maybe Caine if you want to answer for both :])?

OOOOO THESE ARE TASTYY. thank you for the ask!

27. What causes them to feel dread?  

oh man. its been a long, long time since cyrus has felt real dread. anything that makes him uneasy he covers up with anger. the last time hes felt dread it was when he woke up directly after heartbreak and realized where he was. i think the most direct thing thatd cause it currently is realizing argentine is awake. broadly though? itd be a situation that he cant solve. something that he cant think, talk, or run his way out of. if hes truly, entirely stuck? thats a reminder of the worst experiences of his life, and that feeling will hit him like a truck. technically not part of the question, but i wanted to add– he becomes a very different person when this happened. once the initial restlessness wears off he just. gives up. stops and counts the seconds till his doom. ortegas only ever seen him like that once before, during the psychopather incident– when cyrus realized what was happening, he closed his eyes, looking almost peaceful. it was extremely unnerving.

28. Would they prefer a lie over an unpleasant truth?  

cyrus has seen a lot of unpleasant truths in his lifetime, and hed prefer it if people didnt add more on his plate. that said, if he finds out you lied to him youll either get socked or meticulously verbally taken apart (cough chen if he ever told cyrus abt the pictures cough). telling the truth is the most important thing to him in any relationship. lying to him tells him that you think he cant handle the truth (bad idea) and/or that you dont trust him (worse idea). Yes hes being a massive hypocrite about this and he knows it– he wouldnt extend the same courtesy to another if he thinks its safer for them– but welp. thats cyrus in a nutshell so whats new ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

29. Do they usually live up to their own ideals? 

my perfectionist little son?? the guy that thinks suicidal thoughts when things dont go his way??? that precious guy?? of course he does. how else could you imagine his whole deal going./s but. yeah cyrus' ideals are impossible to achieve, at least by his standards. his goals tend to go fine, but his ideals are often wafty and they dont really have a set point where he goes "yeah ive done it". back in his sidestep days he fought for justice and to help as many people as possible. it hit pretty hard on him when he couldnt, and he always saw himself as a 'lesser' hero for it. currently, his ideals consist more of 'burn the whole thing to the ground and revel in peoples fear'. except hes not really doing that right either, considering,,,, *gestures to him saving civilians on instinct in the blaze fight and going soft for his loved ones*. of course that makes him more determined to live up to them anyway, because he lives to prove people wrong. somebody save this idiot from himself.

questions from here!

[yarrayora]

end of the year book stuff tagged by @carriagelamp

How many books did you read this year?

does comic books count? if yes then i didn't count, if no then i'm pretty sure just two (but comics should absolutely count btw)

Did you reread anything? What?

i always reread servamp all the time so i can write Essays. also i reread katekyo hitman reborn for nostalgia and crossover reasons. TECHNICALLY i reread dante's inferno even though i never finished it because i'm not used to classic so i have to repeat the paragraphs before Getting it

What were your top five books of the year?

GIDEON THE NINTH!!! also Superman Smashes the Klan. the rest of the top 5 is servamp, unfortunately

Did you discover any new authors that you love this year?

if i have never read tamsyn muir's homestuck fic before then it would have been her, but because i have that means she's an old fave-- oH i guess ryohgo narita counts? i knew he wrote durarara but i never truly managed to appreciate his writing until i read dead mount deathplay

What genre did you read the most of?

fantasy, duh

Was there anything you meant to read, but never got to?

too like a lightning by ada palmer. i keep forgetting i already have an e-book of it

What was your average Goodreads rating? Does it seem accurate?

i dont use goodreads thumbs up emoji

Did you meet any of your reading goals? Which ones?

yeah, finally reading original novels again. im trying to beat my ADHD so i can devour books the way i did during childhood

Did you get into any new genres?

new genre huh uhhhh... no. i know what i like

What was your favorite new release of the year?

i don't follow new release i just browse the bookstores and hope something speaks to me

What was your favorite book that has been out for a while, but you just now read?

gideon the ninth

Any books that disappointed you?

i dropped a lot of books and nothing this year has disappointed me enough for me to remember their titles

What were your least favorite books of the year?

bungou stray dogs look the light novels are still REALLY well written. i also appreciate how beautiful the translation can be. but the canon storyline fucking sucks. it betrays its theme when it comes to handling abusers by making this little girl who gets physically abused by her dad as a form of discipline to look up to him as a hero because dad's a cop

What books do you want to finish before the year is over?

i don't care about something like that

Did you read any books that were nominated for or won awards this year (Booker, Women’s Prize, National Book Award, Pulitzer, Hugo, etc.)? What did you think of them?

i don't follow book awards either

What is the most over-hyped book you read this year?

i tried reading blue lock and it's the worst sports manga i have ever read. i can't get over how stupid the premise is. soccer is a team sport you idiot (note that this book didnt disappoint me because i never had any expectations for it in the first place)

Did any books surprise you with how good they were?

oh yeah JK Haru is a Sex Worker in Another World. I went into it expecting a cheap smutty story but turns out it's a pretty feminist narrative about sex workers and how no matter talented a woman is as long as the environment around her is aggressively and violently patriarchal those talents that would make men a hero would make women accused as demons-- but that's okay because you don't need the power to slay an entire army to change the world. sometimes, eating at a cafe in a world where women arent allowed to go outside without a chaperone is more revolutionary than magic that can burn a horde of monsters into cinders

How many books did you buy?

more than five

Did you use your library?

there is no usable library around me

What was your most anticipated release? Did it meet your expectations?

i dont follow new release remember

Did you participate in or watch any booklr, booktube, or book twitter drama?

oh yeh i watch them from the sideline with popcorn and all, thats crazy

What’s the longest book you read?

dante's inferno

What’s the fastest time it took you to read a book?

back when i was a kid i read three pjo books in one day. i don't do that anymore

Did you DNF anything? Why?

i read reeeeeeally slow now so it's less not finishing and more like taking long breaks inbetween

What reading goals do you have for next year?

finish gideon the ninth so i can read the next one

[steelycunt]

☕️ the conventional attractiveness of different barry snotter characters cause obviously we know s is hot but people have varying opinions on the hotness of other characters. like was regulus also hot or was s the exception in his family. what about j and idk any other characters who you see interpreted as hot/not hot and whether or not u agree with the interpretations x

oh i always have a lot to say about this xx firstly reg was NOT HOT. canonically he was less handsome than s. like you know when you see twins or siblings and they seem to have similar features and obviously bear a strong resemblance to each other and yet one is clearly more typically 'attractive' in quite an obvious way. i think it does not make sense to his character for reg to be hot for any reason apart from people who want to babygirlify him (technically none of the blacks should be hot after centuries of inbreeding but well. we have proof to the contrary for s the rest of them dont get off so easily). r also? NOT HOT. he is not hot-coded nothing about him was hot unless youre s. he does not make SENSE as a hot character. and frankly people who think hes hot well to me that is a major warning sign that you Do Not Get him. again i think attempts to claim he was hot is just the result of people needing all their favs to be conventionally attractive because the worst crime a fictional character can commit is so-called ugliness. as for j!! i think he was hot-ish, but not super hot. he was a decent looking guy but nothing special. i think whatever he had going on for him was enhanced by an outgoing charming personality n that sort of cheeky chappy character. and also probably the athletes physique he develops as a result of his extracurricular activities lol. those are the only barry snotter characters i know though so as far as im concerned thats that sorted xx

send me a topic + ☕️ emoji and i’ll tell my honest opinion about it!

[minniepetals]

honestly take all the time you need - you deserve it. i’m addicted to cmar and i’d honestly wait forever for it. i’d also be completely down to start funding the continuation of it (idk if that was an option or if anyone else is open to that) but thank you in general for creating it as cheesy as it sounds. i hope you realize what it does for people because there’s something so unexplainably comforting about it and i reread it over and over on my worst days and will continue to do that until i get to see it again. idk obviously it’s dark and angsty or whatever but something about it feels like drinking a latte curled up in a freshly washed soft blanket on a rainy or chilly day or like when you get home from work or wherever after the longest day and you get to take a hot shower and then lie down and feel the relief of your muscles finally getting a break. anyways i didn’t think i had that much to say lollll thanks again for writing it in the first place when you don’t technically get anything out of it other than some random strangers telling you it’s so good or ranting about namjoon or crying about the cliff hangers considering you’re doing this in your free time and im sure it’s hard for people to really grasp how taxing it can probably be at the same time. i really really really appreciate it🫀🫀

i always get so excited when i see a long ask haha, so first off thank you for that.

you know i once thought about creating a choice for some exclusive readers to buy a certain membership where they'd be able to get cmar chapters earlier than it'd be posted on tumblr BUT i feel like i wouldn't be consistent enough and my slow updates in general wouldn't be worth the money.

funding the continuation of cmar does sounds nice because then that would mean me putting my sole focus on cmar during the month long break however there will always be a risk of me not being able to just write it up as fast as i want it to be. cmar's difficult to write after all, despite how much i know what's gonna happen in each arc -- though putting it on a break itself does pose its own risks because what if i dont wanna return to it you know?

but one of the biggest reason to opening up commissions is (besides financial reasons) for me to venture out of the cmar world because i MISS WRITING FLUFF. sorry lmao but cmar's just so centered around angst and trauma i wanna return to writing more genre even if that lasts for just a month.

also listen, i freaking love all the rants and wailings and cries that comes my way after each update (it fuels me lmao) so if you ever feel like you're talking too much, just know that i get just as excited knowing you have much to say about my works 💗

also are you my 🫀 anon because you kinda sorta signed off with 🫀🫀 but also didn't so i'm not too sure lmao

[tears-of-boredom]

for some reason i get so much more enjoyment out of listening to songs on cd than i do from like, streaming them. especially this one cd i have because its slightly scratched so the same song always sounds a bit weird but in different ways every time. its lovely. also i figured out the mode system on my cd player so now i know what symbol means that it will repeat the cd until i stop it. i get so much more attached to albums when i have cds of them. i dont like the songs from trash by alice cooper that much to be honest, but i still enjoy listening to the cd. i also have vertigo by metallica, and i really do not care for most of the songs, but it is so lovely to leave on when im on my computer. the experience of getting a snack from the kitchen and coming back to my room filled with the sounds of vertigo is really nice. and i kind of wish i had pablo honey by radiohead on a cd too. ill look into burning cds. though i dont have empty ones really. can you use dvds for it? or is the visual aspect of dvds ingrained into the disk? because i do have useless dvds around. technically the only disc station thing is my ps4. its really annoying how tech companies have just kind of dropped disc readers from laptops and pcs. anyways heres my opinion on vertigo:

enter sandman, kinda boring, i confuse it with my friend of misery all the time.

sad but true, eh. chorus is kinda good, otherwise too repetitive for me.

holier than thou is kinda fun.

the unforgiven is eh. not the worst ig.

wherever i may roam.. its alright. i like the intro.

don't tread on me. eh. not my thing.

through the never. its okay.

nothing else matters is actually pretty nice. probably my favourite out of vertigo. tbh it sounds kind of strange when its mixed in with these other, up-beat, songs, it stands out to me so much when its the only calm one.

of wolf and man, i like the intro although its short. its a nice song.

the god that failed is pretty good. the guitar solo near the 3 minute mark is great.

my friend of misery. i like it near the beginning. drags on too much in my mind. i like the guitar part around 4 minutes.

the struggle within. tbh for the longest time i thought it was "struggle with air" as in, choking or asthma. its good.

overall its not a bad cd, its just not the greatest either.

oh and funny thing so my cd is this version:

but i guess the "metallica" text was like printed in a different way to the snake, because the text has just faded to nothing. you can see a small bit of the highlights if you're looking for them, but until this moment when i googled the cover, i had thought that it was just dust. and now that i know what its supposed to look like, i actually like my faded one better. completely black except for the snake in the corner that is quite hard to see also actually.

[problematiquearts]

the Definitive strilonde robin preferences this is all objective opinion. ive got no narratives im pushing

Dirk: would fucking love Tim Drake. I dont think tim is his first robin at all, but tim would end up being his favorite in the end. tim is ride or die for his friends, a lil unhinged, and has that 'everything is my fault forever' kind of mentality that i think dirk would relate to too hard at first and then, ultimately on going to therapy and putting the work in, would look back on with a fond kind of exasperation. But in the end, he has a soft spot for Stephanie Brown that's a mile fucking wide. You look at that girl and tell me he wouldn't project Roxy onto her. When asked his favorite robin he will say Steph', but if you ask him who he relates to it's a Tim.

Hal: Damien. Next question.

Bro: lol his fave is Azrael Jason Todd, but only post resurrection Jason ala under the red hood 'the only way everything is good is if it's under my control' behavior. This is a man who would look at batjokes and call it relationship goals. Unhinged <3 He doesn't like any of the robins when they're robin, but Damien is the one he tolerates the most as robin, if only because he knows what it's like to be a hyper competent baby with a sword that everyone says he shouldnt have and he respects the murder. Prefers the injustice timeline where he kills Dick on accident and gets abandoned by the family for it because he's a jaded old fuck who assumes that the worst will always happen forever.

Roxy: Projects deeply onto Dick Grayson. Eldest Daughter Syndrome is a bitch when youre an only child and only she and dick grayson understand. real 'you are the only bitch here who gets me' hours. The silly goofs, the look at me all the time or I'll combust discowing suit mellowing out into the one with their shit together TM? the fact that their shit is still not together and the only thing in the fridge is dubious food and a wilted head of lettuce because they were going to eat a salad but kept putting it off is also in character. yeah Dick Grayson is her poor little meow meow (and she projects a lil onto the aforementioned Stephanie Brown for obvious reasons)

Mom: Ace the Bathound! She watched Kypto the superdog growing up and she counts him as a robin because what else would he be? (in truth shes doesnt have much of an opinion. but she does think it's funny how Bro would get pissy with her for saying it. she can be a little bit of a troll. for funsies) I think she'd like Lucius Fox for human batfam members. Alfred as well, she loves a charming man.

Rose: Her favorite batfam member is Barbara or Kate, but her favorite robin is probably Duke. I think his search for his family would probably just hit her too close to home not to immediately latch onto him. Plus he's really smart, like trained to take down the riddler smart? Like refused to be a robin and is only an ex-robin by technicality smart. (and rose would love arguing both that he does and doesn't count as a robin depending on who's asking because she would think it's funny)

Rosalind (alpha mom): Huntress, but the og Huntress would be a get for her. a little bit more modern and she's saying Kate as well. Jason is her favorite Robin, but only conceptually. She hates most comics he's in and has taken to writing her own version of him that using bits of canon she likes. as is the prerogative of all comic fans eventually. All blades Jason + magical pit rage as a metaphor for ptsd is her canon

Dave: Difficult one... I think, much like Rose, he's got a favorite batfam member but his favorite robin is harder for me to pin down. Cassandra's backstory gets to him. I think he'd have a soft spot for her and Harper Row? Terry McGinnis is his favorite though. No Doubt. hes the perfect age for animated series batman beyond to be his Go To batman that all other batmen must stack up to. Sorry, bruce wayne whomst? As for robins... hm. I think he might genuinely not care? I can't say one that sticks out to me as dave bait in particular. i dont know. I could see robin jason having his own appeal to Dave. A sweet kid that's put into terrible circumstances, becoming a symbol of protection and safety to people just like him would really appeal to him. I think Jason's death would fucking gut him though and I dont wanna subject dave to that :(

Davesprite: For Sure Jason now, but he says it's Tim. Tim being replaced as Robin probably fucks with him the first time he reads the "Bruce lost in the time stream" arc.

David (alpha bro): His fave is Selena Kyle (which is dubious on how in the batfam she is depending on the writer, but she is in his heart) I know this man still watches Saturday morning cartoons on the reg, so he also latches onto Terry as soon as he see him, but... (and this is sacrilege David, I could have you burned at the stake as a witch for this) ... he considers Terry a Robin.

[obscureother]

the f/orth.

Though this post is going to be kind of odd compared to other posts i normally put, the fourth has become important enough for me to throw out on there. we're going to ignore how it is technically the fifth now on central time, i got home late from the fireworks lolol.

this is your heads up for the very long post, though it does have relevance to f/os if that would be relevant to keep reading for you.

below the moon.

🌑

forgive me for the odd wording of the blog, i go through these weird things where fear comes from certain letters or words to me for these kinds of things. moving on. .

i was doing some thinking on the fourth of july. i realized that though im not very patriotic, there's still some part of me that does look forward to the fourth. dont get me wrong, america is cool, freedom, woo. but, im not really super into that kind of stuff for identity or waving flags or whatnot. not my thing, though there was always something about fireworks that entranced me and often left a mark on my goofy lil brain blob. ive got numerous memories related to them. those i wont go into because theyre personal and yall dont need to read through all that. the thing im getting to though, is that all those memories moreso related to family than patriotism or "freedom woo, eagles with guns," woh-woh.

one of those memories, the relevant one to this blog, is that of when i told my mom that i had f/os.

ok listen, so fictional crushes in general arent new to her. she's known about every fictional crush ive had ever, even the worst ones. (cough, looking at you, 🥞 + 🥓, cough.) Though mom didnt always care for those movies or those topics, those goofy characters i got into and wouldnt shut up about for months or even years at a time, she always supported me. she was the one who told me "someone's gotta love the villains." that it's ok to be into weird, morbid, dark shit or horror, or gore, or whatever. that even tho she didnt think robert englund was hot in the slightest, OR bela lugosi. . gerard butler, he was ok tho. she would always be there for the goofiness about them i had. she got me merch of them, movies, those things i related to them for. i've got a cool mom, guys. for those who need one, ill share but you cant keep her cos i need to keep the cool mom that bore me.

the thing that really gets to me sometimes tho (in a good way) is that, for a long time, ive worried that something was wrong with me. . like on the brain blob? because it took me a long time, but evidently she and everyone else think that i could be on the spectrum or something else is "wonky" (how i call it). the problem is the older i got, the more self-aware i became, the more uncomfortable and nervous i got because there's these things that go on that i dont know or understand how to respond to or handle. things i didnt used to have problems with before that i knew about, things i cant tell if just got developed later or came from college stress or what not. so when i suddenly started coping with pretending these fictional people existed around me, i was really tentative about it. of course im not delusional, but you dont really hear about anyone other than kids having "imaginary friends" (or something similar). im not a kid anymore. i used to have them like lots of others, but it was never to this degree. . because times were simpler, maybe. my brain blob didnt overthink, things werent so complex on the inside or outside of me. it scared me. i thought something was wrong, that i was losing my mind or something because they felt like they were becoming subconsciously ingrained in that wonky brain blob of mine. on top of other things, i was really nervous. i only ever talked to one person about it. shout out to the bestie who knows, you really helped me a lot through that kind of stuff while we figured out that, oh, we're not the only ones who pretend our fictional crushes/interests exist. therapist recommended? ok maybe its not so bad.

but for my mother, i was still scared to tell her. the f/os were becoming such a big part of the things i was doing, how i worked on the inside and they were involved for coping, comfort, things i would do behaviorally because i was communicating or interacting with them through the wonky brain blob residing in my skull box. i wanted to tell her, to share those things with her or to bring it up to a psychiatrist at some point (or both really, cos my mom would be there for that too. we've talked about it for a long time now.) but i was scared she would think i was fucking delusional, some loony to throw in the loony box to get better, yknow? that i talk to people, i pretend their real?? who, wtf??

but my mom, though after a long silence while i explained it to her how long i'd been having them and who they are, how they come to be, what they do for me. . she told me it was ok. that i wasn't freaking loony. that people cope differently, that people grow up at different paces or that its ok to resort to childish things for comfort because things are tough and so long as they help me, that it would be ok. that i know they're not literally real, that im choosing to pretend these people exist or however i do that, so long as im ok. for something so vulnerable, so scary for me, that meant a whole lot. that was on the fourth of july last year.

since then, my mom goes so far as to even interact with my f/os by touching their objects associated with them, to talk back and forth to them through me, to let me babble about them or talk about them. she knows some of their names, who or what they come from, how they work to some degree. the journal i have (the real f/o journal, not the tag), was one that she bought for me knowing it would be used for those f/os or for me to talk through it to them or draw things of them, do whatever i would with but that it would all be centered around my f/o for however it would comfort or bring me joy. she signed that journal for me, alongside the numerous "signatures" from those f/os and read their messages. she pointed and asked about the things they "wrote," smiled at their messages or the doodles of them. for that reason, i felt so safe with those f/os and what they were that i could go forward not being so fearful of myself. that it helped me to further bond with my mom about other things, to feel more of a closeness or security with her because of how good she was to me for those f/o things.

there was even one of my "worst" f/os present on that fourth of july. she knew who and what he was, i told her he was "sitting there" with me on the hood of the car when i told her that these odd fictional men lived in my brain blob and that they would "exist" through my daily life for the past few months. though she still told me that it was ok. that i would be ok, that so long as no one was getting hurt, those f/os would be ok to have for however long i would have them.

for those of you who get worried or embarrassed of having f/os for whatever reason that would be, know that its ok. no one gets hurt, no one gets effected by them. they're there for you, that's the most important thing of them. mom said so.

good fourth of july to you guys who celebrate it, be that for cool moms, friends, or whoever is there for you. the not-real ones, too.

[romanarose]

Hello there ✨️ love your work 💕 I'm a long time fan 🫶🏼. I've been on tumblr a few years now, but I'd never found the courage to post anything of my own til now. I've been feeling a little optimistic these days, and genuinely excited about posting some of my writing and sharing it with the people out here. Do you have any advice on how to start posting and interacting from scratch? Cause I'm low-key nervous abt it and it seems like my target audience has already formed a solid community I don't know how to get into 🥺

Wow, this might be the sweetest thing anyone has ever said to me wowie!!!!!!

okay let me tell my advice

The numbers don't equal quality. Certain things appeal to people more, like shorter stories, straight up smut, Joel Miller gets way more than when I write Marc. I think one of my best works was my Marc X Jewish!Reader series, Seattle, but it idnt get anywhere really even at the height of moon knight popularity bc people dont read OC's esp ethnic oc's. Put your heart into it and those who enjoy it will enjoy it. I had a William Miller series that averaged like 8-20 notes per chapter but I had a handful of readers I knew adored it and thats what mattered

This site is so much better with interaction. PLEASE DON"T ONLY INTERACT FOR THE SAKE OF GETTING FRIENDS WHO"LL REBLOG!! However, if you dont already, make sure you are reblogging stories and leaving nice words! Me personally, if someone reblogs regularly and leave nice words, espcially things that show they really paid attention, I usually just follow back bc I love friends. Im happy to get to know you!

Yes, it's hard sometimes to break it. It took a few months for me to get into the Oscar Issac writer circles, and then when I started writing Pedro it took a while too but I always reblogged and tried to communicate and I made friends. Isn't it crazy we can just.... become friends with our fav writers? Obvs Im not friends with all my favs but MOST of my favs became my friends <3

It's kinda annoying to me bc Im bad at it but aesthetics help. Title, a picture to catch eyes, summary, warnings, note. Try to make it look nice. Im really had at this LMFAOOOOOO. My lovely friends have made my best looking banners. If you have graphic design skills, use them! i wish i didn't have to but it does help catch readers when you have an interesting headers and everything looks pretty.

Few technicals. Use the readmore option. No one wants to reblog a LOOOOOONG story and clog up the feeds. Use as many correct tags as you can. Tag any triggering content. And I'm the worst at this but proof read. Im bad at proof reading, everyone who reads my work knows spelling, grammar, wrong words are a common issue I have bc Im bad at typing. When I still had word on my laptop I started typing in word and using text to speach to help me catch stuff!

Keep at it! IDK where you know my work, weather moon knight, triple frontier or tlou or whatever but all those fandoms right now are like.... a little less active. So don't be dissapointed if it takes a while. With TLOU, theres SOOOOOOO many amazing writers. With Moon Knight theres just less buzz rn. If you write for lesser known characters like Llewyn Davis or Will Miller, you probs won't reach the notes of established writers in Joel Miller. Just the reality. the point is keep going, find what you like and what gets people excited and go from there

This is the most important. Write what you want. I mean it. I love writing Will Miller because he's my special man <3 even though it's a small fanbase. My series Rooms On Fire, a lot have lost interest bc its a long series. That's okay! I love the series and it makes me happy to write it. I wrote a few Miguel O'Hara stories because, I'm being honest here, I wanted to capitalize on the hype. Guess what? They weren't good. I'm not proud of them. Since then, I write what Im inspired to.

THIS SHOULD BE FUN AND IF AT ANY POINT, IT"S NOT FUN STOP AND FIGURE OUT WHY

feel free to say hi off anon! I'm always happy to get to know new people. If you like Triple Frontier, I have a discord server that is pretty much open to everyone! I'm trying to revive it and you can share your works and meet knew people!

Anon or not, let me know if you have any questions!

[simcardiac-arrested]

BARNHAM THATS THE FUCKER! thank you. i didnt know he had a first name. i hope this was a fun exercise for you or something. as uhh reward or something idk. i dont quite really have something i can just go grab to give you. so heres a free space to ramble about a character from those games you like.

fuck yes free pass to autism. anyway i like both trucy and maya so i think i will talk about their parallels. they are both young girls at the start of their respective games and they go through So Fucking Much it’s incredible. but they still stay strong despite it all. maya loses her older sister at the ripe age of 17 and now has to live up to all these expectations of being a perfect spirit medium and perfect adult and now she has to be the head of the fey clan and master her technique. But she sucks balls at it all. obviously. she only has nick and pearl in her corner but that doesn’t even really help because all the time she feels like she’s failing them, like she’s not enough. she always tries to handle things on her own even if it’s to her own detriment. she defines her worth by her powers and her usefulness, and when she’s in court she feels like a waste when she’s next to nick. because he knows so much. he knows what he’s doing, he clearly doesn’t need her there. but the thing is that half the cases—hell, most of the cases in the whole ace attorney series would not have been able to be solved without maya. and yes, of course her powers are useful in solving cases, but that is not what i mean. i mean without maya. without her determination, because when nick gives up she Doesn’t. without her quick thinking, because when nick falters she Acts. without her strength, because maya is seriously So Fucking Strong. when her sister dies and she gets accused of murdering her, it’s devastating, but she doesn’t lose herself and she tries to help nick solve the case as much as possible. when her aunt betrays her and she is accused of murder again she is strong enough to stay collected despite everything. when she gets kidnapped it is quite possibly the worst few days of her life, and yet she never stops fighting, both for herself and for her family. and she always stays positive, always the light of everyone’s life—when she’s gone nick’s world practically crumbles. she is his anchor, and he couldn’t have gotten anywhere without her. On the other hand we have trucy, who technically becomes an orphan when she’s like, what, 8? 9? and that’s when nick takes her in, but that’s also when nick loses his damn job. and even though i’m sure nick has taken good care of her and loved her like no one else, i can’t imagine how it was like growing up for her. or no—i can, at least a little. because trucy is cagey. self dependent. strong. basically a full fledged adult at the age of only 15/16. she had to stay strong for her dad, obviously. couldn’t make him worry about anything. couldn’t make anyone worry about anything. when we see her in the game she is silly, whimsical, seemingly without a care in the world, seemingly not understanding the gravity of any given situation. but she understands it better than most. she knows how to be serious, how to be strong, she just does it in her own subtle ways. and she is definitely not stupid. she is one of the smartest characters in the games, even if we don’t take into account her ability to detect lies. she’s great at reading people and judging situations. she’s good at navigating life in general, all on her own. of course she still appreciates her dad, she still loves him, but the life of a daughter with a jobless single father who isolated himself from everyone for 7 years has not done her a lot of favors. just like maya, she is also the light of nick’s life, his second anchor, his most important person. and just like maya, trucy never allows herself to be weak, to be open, to be not enough. never allows herself to make others worry about her or, god forbid, pity her. just like maya, she is everyone’s support, everyone’s comic relief, everyone’s reliable adult in all but actual age. So anyway if capcom had let me work on ace attorney 4: apollo justice all these years ago i would’ve actually made trucy and maya interact on screen

[magicalslug]

evil vent below

Here's what fucking gets me:

[Post writing this i realize how horrible this all is. But also it's my writing diary where i can vent all my horrible thoughts so they never haunt me again so. Whatever. You get a peek into my heart and you'll see just how ugly it is. So that u can later see how much i work in eradicating that ugliness]

i am so jealous of my friend. So so so so so jealous. despite her overwhelmingly negative personality (to be fair, mostly on her bad days. she will tell you to your face unprompted how much she wants to kill herself but on a good day she'll be the sweetest and be a good friend) she managed to steal the hearts of everyone in the office. She is the most beloved coworker in all of the office honestly.

While being... Her.

Here's another thing: we are... incredibly similar in some aspects. First off, looks. Height even. We're on the same range of How We Look. We have the same ovaries problem even. Then it's her personality which is incredibly reminiscent of how i was circa 2016-2019(?) Then it's how much she doesn't seem to like herself. I can heavily relate, including her anxiety and pessimism. There's aspects of me i can't help but see in her.

So when she's so beloved by everyone i just.

My beef isn't that i find it hard to believe. My beef is that while being so similar, and me being a far more positive and cheerful contrast to her... then... i never managed to get so many people in the office to be ride or die with me. Mostly because I'm more reserved i guess. I wonder if people think I'm fake or anything, because i will smile and laugh even though i don't particularly want to and i just want people to give me A Good Grade In socializing, something that is normal to want and possible to achieve.

So i can't help but be jealous of that.

Because imagine? If i was so outwardly unpleasant on my bad days as she is, so negative and actively suicidal and i MADE IT everyone's knowledge??????

...would people... love me then? would people love the worst version of myself, which ironically would maybe be the truer version of me i can show them?

if i also joined in her suicide "jokes" would she love me too then? instead of being so cold with me when im just trying to be positive? would she stop hating me then?

I dont know if she hates me. I've convinced myself she does. Because... i could never treat someone else the way she sometimes treats me.

Like a nuisance in her life.

Even though i generally try to stay out of her way because the last thing i want is to bother her.

...am i fake? what kind of friendship is this? One where i cheerfully say good morning to her every day and i only receive a cold hello before she proceeds to ignore me most of the day? Where she'll avoid talking to me? Where she clearly isn't interested in what i have to say because I'm no longer part of that office branch?

...i don't know. I'm sure most of these feelings of mine are just my BPD blinding me to reality.

But still.

I can't help but be jealous.

Because i want to be loved.

But clearly putting on the best face i can and being positive and cheerful isn't... working. For anyone. Maybe i do come across as fake. Maybe everyone can tell i am a freak and a weirdo and some kind of bug no one has had the pleasure to squash with their foot.

...i dont know.

But i refuse to accept that me rejecting the idea that i have to hate myself is something bad.

I will never die, i will live forever. I say this because i will never let my suicidal thoughts take over me ever again. Not like they used to. Never again.

And i want to be happy! And cheerful! I do enjoy giving everyone a smile because i think life is wonderful, AND I'M DOING MY BEST to finally appreciate that!!

I don't care if i end up alone forever. I will always try to do what's best for me. And what's best for me is to never give in to my worst tendencies.

That should include obsessing over my friend. Who technically has only done me wrong once or twice. And I'll. Forgive. Sorta.

I can never forgive but i can try to move on. Because normal people don't obsess over these things! I want to be normal!

Sigh.

One day I'll leave this place. And live alone. And be happy with myself because i will have somewhere where to drop all my facades and just. Relax. Literally unmask. And rest.

The truth is, i don't know what makes me Me. What does Snaily-like means?

Being so fundamentally broken meant that i had to pick up the pieces and pretend to be A Person.

And that person is just a shell, i think. I do have thoughts and interests. But they aren't... Grand.

Or easy to perceive from the outside i think, which makes me boring.

Would YOU be ride or die for a boring person?

Why would you? What's the incentive there?

Love is something that has to be won, right?

People don't love you unless you give them a reason to. Unless you make yourself useful. Unless you make yourself loveable.

...

Those are bad thoughts.

All of these are bad thoughts.

In any case.

Back to the point.

1. It hurt me that this guy only asked me about my friend. Not even a hi for me first.

2. When that hurt me, it made me think about all of this.

3. Also i did end up telling him everything he needed to get her a good bday present. It was the right thing to do.

4. Now i just spent the last 15 minutes wallowing in my own mysery before going "ok we are done. Moving on"

5. Here's the part where we move on! We close this post. We forget this incident. And we forget we ever had these horrible thoughts in the first place