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sizzy-ling · 2 years

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S2 is going to start with Dimitri and Christian drinking because they are dumb simps who miss their wives, calling it now

#vampire academy #i nmed a s2 of this stupid show #i need dragozera to reunite #the universe ows me that much #va #christian x lissa #dimitri belikov #rose hathaway

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just-a-carrot · 3 months

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reunion 💕

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britneyshakespeare · 2 months

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you know someday i'm gonna feel so good when i have my student loans paid off

that ain't gonna be soon, trust me, but i think about it

#i've been saving so much for it that i paid off over like $2k in the last 2 or 3 months #it's just thinking about how the amount of interest goes off that drives me literally crazy #and my monthly amount i owe is like just under $120 #which to some people as a regular bill is more manageable than others. but as i have an irregular income #as a substitute teacher it's something that gives me a LOT of stress.#which is another reason i've been overpaying. in case something happens/i can't get a lot of work #it defers the next due date.#that way it's not urgent but yet i still *feel* it all the time #debt is a crazy kind of thing #and to think that my loans are from COMMUNITY college. two years. publicly owned #when i start taking classes again soon. i currently have enough saved that if i take like ONE class #i can pay out of pocket. and i think im only gonna take one class to start anyway #which will also help with the deferred payments #see i just fucking hate having to think practically about money like this #tales from diana #idk how ppl leave high school and go straight to live in a dorm room at a private university for four straight years #and rack up tens to hundreds of thousands of dollars in debt.#first of all that lifestyle was not accessible for me to begin with. even when paying it was such an abstract put-it-off thought #as it is for so many 18-year-olds who are told not to worry about where they apply.#but i had under $12k to repay when the student loan debt was unfrozen last fall #and it's been weighing on me soooo heavily since then. i think about it every damn day #it's like the money i make isn't even mine. it goes straight to mohela and food #keep in mind i also live w my parents & am on their health insurance so someday there'll be moooore bills!!!!

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aq2003 · 7 months

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i think twelve and clara are starting to make sense to me but i don't think it's what moffat intended or how the ppl that like them see their dynamic

#they are so obsessed with each other but not as people but the ideas of each other.#twelve's whole character to me feels like the grieving immortal that no longer has anything as a buffer #between him and the weight of the universe. so he sees clara as this culmination of every one of the companions he's lost before #and that adds up. what w/ eleven meeting versions of clara and seeing them die. that adds up w/ clara's presence in heaven sent #faceless and just telling him what to do. she is the companion he cannot fail this time (but he also #cannot reconcile how one of the reasons he keeps someone like her around is /because/ she's mortal)#meanwhile clara bc of her time in the tardis and how she was treated by eleven. thinks herself to be more than she is #she thinks she's owed so much in her life and she thinks she can handle all of it. like ten in waters of mars #so she views twelve and the life in the tardis as an affirmation of what's so extraordinary about her #which is also how she sees danny. i think her character really sings if this is the main idea w/ her relationships with others #bc it's how the doctor acted around her when he first met her. not seeing her as a person but as an idea a mystery a means to an end #so of course as someone who becomes more and more like the doctor as time goes on it makes so much sense that this would be so central #just like how w martha's doctorfication arc it was about self-sacrifice and violence and death. bc that's how ten acted around her #twelve and clara still have the standard traits of doctor and companion of course. the doctor saves the companion when they're in trouble.#the companion remembers to care when the doctor forgets. but they're going through familiar motions as they #start to lose more and more of themselves by being around each other. bc they don't really see the other person #and that's why their dynamic is so obsessive and toxic #dr who #12 era #now this reading has made both characters make a lot of sense to me but also this has tanked my enjoyment of hell bent #in how clara's arc resolves. i won't elaborate more on that until i actually get to it on the rewatch though

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virtuaquarium3d · 6 months

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The Story of Lard Beepus and The Tragic Tale of the Super Bonus Universe are Fucking Old. AAAGAH

#dbz #dragon ball #dragon ball oc #LBCM #the story of lard beepus #the tragic tale of the super bonus universe #2024 #doodles #Sometimes (often) i get self consious like ''Man these things are so old but theres so little to show for it''#Cuz like. i barely update. i havent even finished the beepus revamp chapters #Nobody would know Just How Much these dumbass trollfics are to me. Esp with the sbu #But then i remember i do not owe beople being really fast like sonic the hedgehog and these are trollfics so i do whatever the fuck i want.#Some Day.#oc: WHISper #oc: lard beepus #oc: clavicle #oc: belle #oc: comic mischief

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sigsfigs · 4 months

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DONOSPRING! They're so cute I dont believe they wouldn't still be together..

anon dont say this to me i 100% agree im wld go on a whole rant about how its totally out of character for donospring to end up the way they did and sk/ttlespring being the way it is ... but i dont want to upset people bcs in the end its not that big of a deal i just love donospring so much and i miss zelda and to this day im still really sad she was played by brennan in the seven which meant she was only an aid to the other pcs and not a full pc herself ... in my head theyre still together nothing bad happened

#i was a high schooler once i know relationships dont always last forever #but for gorgug and zelda to have such a beautiful arc through sophomore year and then unceremoniously break up with no mention of them ever.#brennan when i catch you #jk they dont owe me anything if its the story they want to tell thats okay im not entitled to the story i wanna see. thats why fan creators #have so much power... why complain why get into fights why argue if you can just make the universe u wanna see. donospring stays together au #sorry thats so peaceful but i dont have it in me to argue with people over things.. i just love donospring... i love zelda donovan...#but just so you know how i feel about it. skuttlespring is muted for me. my own peace. i dont like it at all #anyway more donospring fanart coming soon probably #take a shot every time i say donospring #ask

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kariachi · 1 year

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Anyway I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again- Ben, Gwen, Argit, and Alan could’ve made for a good team.

#ben gwen and argit also works as i've said before #i don't think ben gwen and alan would've made as good a team #i don't think he would've played off them as well where we're introduced to him #he'd need to get his footing first and i think he would struggle with that working with them #meanwhile argit i think he could play off of well and especially since for this #we would most likely be working with a more rooters-arc-esque argit?#i think that sort've argit would be better for helping alan get his feet under him than the tennysons would be #no insult to them but they tend to be strong personalities and having so much more experience than alan?#and being morally grey-ish characters treated and being declared in universe to be porally upstanding?#i think he might get overwhelmed with them and find himself struggling to really build his confidence #especially since as i've said elsewhere he's one of the most moral characters we get #being able to work off somebody who's morally grey openly and actively? who also has no heroing experience? but still has morals and cares?#('even i know you never try to change a partner' 'don't give up on him we owe him that' damn near everythign from the rooters arc-)#i think he'd have an easier time there #also you can't tell me you don't want that scene where the sheriff decides alan is gonna work for him #only instead argit snatches him from him in open refusal to allow it despite hardly knowing the kid #in what the show would probably use to show how immoral he is but could be better used as an early show of the morals he does have #and how the cops lack these basic things even this guy who sold his own mother understands

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arihi · 2 years

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Holding an ambient dread in me today. There’s always the scramble to try and figure out what’s causing it for me, especially because I’ve got no internal monologue and I often have to talk out loud and in depth into every little thing that’s happened just to figure out why my feelings are the way they are.

Admittedly I can think of a few things, but they’re not particularly important in the long run. My tendency is to figure out why as if it’ll solve it, or so I can intellectualize the feelings away, but emotions are so rarely cut-and-clean addressed like that. Having been so preoccupied with my past in the past, or dreading the future, it’s grounding to settle down and have moments of silence in the present. I’m on the couch typing this on my phone, the sunset is shining down on my face, whereas usually I’d hate it I’m just letting myself sit in it. Once I’ve figured out a few potential causes, it’s not that important to dive deeper and think myself into anxiety spirals. It’s okay to have an idea of it, and not rationalize away how you’re feeling. It’s okay to feel off, sometimes.

#introspection #it me #I think my main thing at least today is holding very little good will for others #I’m struck by how selfish and ignorant and outright malicious people can be #but it’s not as if I’m any arbiter of people’s behavior no?#on the one hand acknowledge how people are flawed and morally complicated in their actions #on the other hand acknowledge that I myself am also only human and that I don’t owe any grace or forgiveness to others either #and acknowledge that I extend a level of empathy to others that isn’t always warranted or fair #(what is fairness anyway?? lolol big question for another day)#basically yeah people are complicated and you’re not an impartial judge #but also you’re not supposed to be. You’re just an individual and you’re allowed to hold bad opinions of people #I say a lot but the best thing you can do for yourself is let go of the idea of universal fairness/standard of good as judged by others #and let yourself also be complicated and flawed and extend even a fraction of the empathy you grant others for yourself #I’m also very aware that my avoidant tendencies latch onto any perceived flaw in a person to justify my distance and that’s me personally #so it’s a balancing act of how much good will do I extend this person to make up for what I know is a flawed tendency in myself #and also knowing when to let it go and let myself justifiably dislike somebody #ANYWAY it’s not just people hating I also miss home and some other personal stuff has been on my mind #but it’s easier to vent this out in the notes as introspection as there’s an easier internal discussion to have on this #as opposed to more touchy and hard to broach topics like culture and intersectionality #and the flaw of communities whose individualistic tendencies make them festering pits more than any community outreach they attempt to be #the sun has set by now as I’ve word vomited in the tags #and I do feel better for it all

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deathtodickens · 1 year

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This animation class is kicking my ass but I made a dancing llama and that is all that matters.

#early retirement things #in pursuit of arting better #only fifty more years until i have enough patience to animate bering and wells #lol jk that is not happening by my hand #the point here was to create an animated symbol instead of an animated symbol on top of a looping background and #the background loop is where my brain fumbles because i'm sure there is some easier way to do this but i am mostly figuring it out on my ow #because the instructor is very much the “i won't insult your intelligence by assuming you don't know everything i'm talking about already”#ype and i am like “no please explain it to me like i am five”#also their subtitles cover the area of Animate where all the frames are so i cannot even see what they're doing half the time #plus working 60 hours a week because im trying to be rich lol #did i mention my kitchen is still under construction #its fine and im sure the universe has a plan but right now i am juggling more than i am comfortable juggling #it's not even a bad or stressful thing it's really just an i don't want to be doing all of this at once thing #the end

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minakoainosupremacy · 2 years

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I’m sad, I’ve had a bunch of fun cool ideas sitting in the back of my head since like new years which I wanted to use for rare pair week, but like life has been kicking my ass so I didn’t have time to even start anything and now it’s over :( guess they will just keep living in my head until next year

#this is if I’m also not dying next year… which is unlikely #don’t do what I do. don’t work full time and do school full time. especially when you’re doing a dual graduate degree program. I’m in hell #brain screams #it especially makes me sad cause when I started writing fics in the summer it made me SO happy to be writing again!!!#especially about sailor moon!!! one of my special intrests and fav shows of all time!! it makes my brain SO HAPPY!!!#as I keep telling myself - just cause I don’t make these things now doesn’t mean I can do them in the future. my ideas will still be there #I can write the fics I want and finish the YouRube videos I’ve started. I can make silly little doodles and comics and short animations #I can take my Venus plus on hikes and exploring and to wonderful places!! we can go to museums and cafes and concerts!!#we can go to the ocean and climb mountains and get lost in the forest and get muddy and wet and cold and sit by campfires and climb on logs #I can take my not fully fleshed out idea of using her and my other plushes to make a sort of live action stop motion skit video!!#I want to be creative and free and have fun and live my life and pursue my passions!!#but rn… all i do is work. work and homework and class and homework. until I’m so fatigued I can’t walk and I can’t sleep and I can’t think #to be real watching the anime and having the codename: sailor v and stars arc of the manga is like one of the few things getting me through #when I’m so tired I can’t think I have those as comforts so I’m not sitting on the couch wanting to die #I find so much comfort in existing in the space of this fictional universe and I draw strength from the characters #like sailor moon helping me get through some of the hardest fucking shit I’ve ever done in my life. and helping me remember to love myself #also lowkey helping me fight off my depression and ed and substance abuse issues #I just both get so much joy and comfort from this space but also I feel I owe it so much gratitude for kinda helping me from crumbling #I want to also contribute to this space cause it gives me joy to do so and cause i want to give back and contribute to others joy as well #like it’s a combo of I love this and want to and also as a form of gratitude i want to and also to help others experience joy I want to #but… I don’t have the time or energy now. and if my life keeps going on like this. will I ever? I’ve never let myself slow down.#idk if I ever will :( oh well

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quatregats · 2 years

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#not to have a breakdown about grad school apps at 6am but uhhh i am in fact having a breakdown about grad school apps at 6am #when am i going to work on them??? hate having a job and a life #would much rather sit in room all weekend and read theory and produce a nice cohesive thing #also i owe my recommenders at least a draft of the statement of purpose and look who doesn't have one!#less than a month out from when it's due!#am beginning to think that mayhap i should pause another year #but also is2g if i'm not in the university world for another year i think i'll go insane #i miss it so much i didn't realize how understimulated job life makes me feel #and i feel like as jobs go mine does make me use my brain a fair amount yet here we are #ah well. we have to reshuffle priorities once again #and also i need to speedrun this anthropological theory ahaha #no but i think it's going okay it's okay it will be okay i can do it #perce rambles #apologies to european followers who are living their normal early afternoon lives having to see my feral 6am-posting

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sheerioswifties · 2 years

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Finally finished Loki and Dr. Strange/Multiverse of Madness and I've concluded that we definitely branched off into another timeline at some point in 2012 and then again in 2016 into a really weird one and why can't superheroes be real and come fix it

#random musings #ot #mcu #movies #Dec 9 #also i was ready to be so mad at them making Wanda a full on villain #also was very confused bc i thought originally/in the comics that Wanda is a nexus being ie she is the same in every universe so that kinda #...really threw me off maybe someone who knows the comics can explain #but oof i feel so much for her what she went through #also her makeup was so interesting the subtle changes throughout the movie just #anyways I'm also now sad about the actors /characters who are no longer in the mcu like #i still hadn't accepted it #and I'm so excited for the new additions but like #i miss iron man and cap and vision and freaking! !! Natasha #sorry I'm ranting in the tags again #if you've read this far you owe me a marvel related ask/comment :)

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gallifriendly · 2 years

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ok but what actually gets me about the power of the doctor is that ryan and 13 didn’t get to see each other one last time

#they owed each other so much. man.. even if they meet again it won't be 13 huh. that's the tragedy for me #but can u imagine in-universe coming home to graham and hear u missed out on that adventure because you were in the wrong volcano lmao #doctor who #ryan sinclair #the power of the doctor #doctor who spoilers

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red-revival · 8 days

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1 week until I'll have doubled my life expectancy whoooo🎉🎉🎉 here comes the complicated emotions...

#complicated feelings. a lot of complicated feelings. I'm very happy but it feels weird #i didn't expect to live more than half as long as this. I tried multiple times NOT to live more than half as long as this.#but I'm here and I'm alive and now I just have to. keep going. i guess. not that I know how to do that. considering the years most people-#-spend learning how to be a functional person were spent desperately trying not to die no matter what my brain tells me.#idk. the idea of moving on and living a life feels so alien to me it may as well be another universe #idk how to live without fighting my brain constantly. it feels weird not having to anymore #antidepressants are awesome and I love being on em and the ones I'm on are working great!#but I feel so lost. idk what to do if I'm not fighting my brain 24/7 just to keep breathing #and its also like. grief. every celebration of surviving depression I have will be full of grief #I shouldn't go into detail. but I miss my little cousin. he saved my life and he'll never know that #I'm going to learn how to live. even if I don't know how and even if I feel lost I owe him that much.

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