sennamybeloved · 1 year ago
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★ dear selfshippers with winged f/os: imagine grooming/preening your f/os wings for them. it isn't something they'd trust anyone to do other than you. they trust that you won't hurt them, and additionally, they secretly (or not-so-secretly) enjoy being doted over by you.
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I've had this thought for a while that Neteyam was like, a justice warrior as a child. He's always taking the blame for Lo'ak and he's so up in his siblings business at all times. I think that would've manifested as much much more annoying when he was a child. I think Neteyam could totally be a little shit in his relentless quest to do what's right. Here is what I mean:
-The first time it happened, Jake was scolding Kiri for wandering off after a bug when his back was turned, causing him to have a full like two minutes of panic where he thought he'd have to tell Neytiri he lost a child. She was located fairly quickly after, but Jake was full of terrified parental adrenaline and insisted to little Kiri rather forcefully that she never do that again. Neteyam, who had been helping him look, then said "It wasn't her fault, don't yell at her." To which Jake (who really wasn't yelling) found himself trying to genuinely reason with two toddlers that the rules were in place for their safety. When Neteyam understands the purpose for the rule, he backs off and respects it. This remains true; once he gets it he follows it.
-Neteyam's insistence for justice knows no bounds. One time Jake saw Spider hit Lo'ak in the head with a spoon and instituted Spider's personal 'table-Lo'ak-can't-climb-up-on' time out all the while ignoring Neteyam's outraged arguing that he was being completely unfair because Jake was directly ignoring that Lo'ak had tripped Spider before the spoon incident and Jake was always playing favorites. Jake had not SEEN the tripping, and it didn't excuse the spoon thing.
-It's literally so hard not to argue with Neteyam sometimes. Neytiri is better at it because she had more experience with kids than Jake, but even she falls victim to it sometimes. He just literally refuses to mind his own business in all situations. That and 'worry about your own self' are human phrases that have become almost more common than any Na'vi one in their house. "Sempu, Kiri is trying to sneak a piece of fruit after you told her not to-" "Neteyam, mind your own business." "But you said she can't have any yet!"
-One time Spider told Lo'ak that he could borrow his datapad that Norm gave him for his lessons. Lo'ak insisted Spider said he could have it forever. No one was quite sure exactly what the truth was, but all hell broke loose when Spider took it back, causing Lo'ak (and Justice Warrior Neteyam) to insist he stole it. Jake told Lo'ak to leave it, as Spider can't steal what he owns, obviously. Cue Neteyam being ten times more outraged on Lo'ak's behalf than Lo'ak even was. This time when Jake tells him to mind his own business Neteyam says "well, you aren't!" Jake struggles, he reboots, and when he's back online he says to his eight year old son, "I didn't think I had to explain what was different between me and you here."
-Regularly Neteyam is not involved in a situation but will get put in a time out as well because he wouldn't let it go. Sometimes though, he can be talked down. If you get on his level and explain the rules and why someone is in trouble clearly, he's usually chill.
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skwivr · 1 month ago
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#hey like. not to be really annoying i shouldn't be doing this aged 32 but i'm really struggling#every time the weather gets cold i feel like i am entering winter with more and more despair#i am really struggling this time#every day is a struggle to get through#i'm losing my hair#i'm losing my reasons to live#i keep putting on a full face of makeup and clothes in my room at like 2am just to desperately try to feel human#i keep saying i don't know if I'll survive the winter and people keep laughing but I don't mean it as a joke#i'm sadder than i've ever been and everything feels like it's falling apart#whenever i get the chance to confide this in people i get told that i'm strong and i'm a survivor#and that i should do some shit to make me happy#and yea i can stave it all off for a few minutes with like a trip out or some makeup or something but it all feels like bandaids#for a serious wound that's going to go septic soon#like this isn't a way to live a life#i don't want to 'be strong' or a 'survivor' anymore i want to be fucking happy#i'm tired and promises of brief happiness between ever worsening pain feel almost patronizing at this point#i woke up the other day in the middle of the night and as soon as conscious thoughts hit my brain i almost doubled over#if i had been not on the first floor i think i might have jumped then and there#i want to be loved and feel like my love is worth something#i want a clean apartment of my own and a career that doesn't feel like it's designed to kill me#i'm 32 and still essentially feel like i'm living my life like a teenager#i want sun and suncatchers and healthy plants and a wardrobe that fits my clothes#and i want the will to actually get up in the morning#i endured all of this for so long on a delusional belief that things were going to magically get better#but i realize now they won't#i became aware of the bounds of my cage with no means of escaping them#i'm sick of living each day oscillating between numbness and grief i can barely eat i can barely work i can barely laugh#and no one's coming to save me#i'm agonized by the idea that this is maybe what life always is for everybody#is this how it's supposed to be
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bijoumikhawal · 26 days ago
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got bad financial news and I'm going through the seven stages of grief about it
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rosetinted--clouds · 3 months ago
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Weather be damned, it's spooky season now
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prettypangolins · 1 year ago
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curious, as I was looking at cars today and an 'upgrade' option for one included faux leather on the seats and I don't think I managed not to pull a face. the dealer was super surprised at my dislike of this option (I did say 'ah, I don't really like that'), but my dad reassured me afterwards that he hates them so much too, as does his gf
but the fact that the guy who sells cars to lossa people seemed to think *not* liking the leather option was weird... I wonder...
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sleepcults · 7 months ago
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i genuinely thought i wasnt gonna see ghostkid so to see them AND shoot them is so fucking amazing
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lifeinkinder · 1 year ago
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Little Man had his regular cardiology appointment yesterday with the local cardiologist (who has officially become his primary cardiologist even though that wasn't actually supposed to happen until after he had his surgery).
He asked me if surgery hospital had let me know the plan for surgery and I was like nope. So he explained that to me the when and the rationale behind why it's then instead of at 6 months. Surgery will 100% happen at 8 months - so we're looking at the end of November/beginning of December. On the one hand, that's an amazing timeline because if there are no complications, I'll use maybe 10-15 days of sick leave and FMLA time (I only have 19 days of FMLA left, so I won't have to juggle that). On the other hand, if there are complications, we'll likely spend on first Christmas in the hospital and that'll suck.
We talked about his intake and how he's still only averaging 14-17 oz a day which at almost 5 months is not ok. And he was like, who are you seeing for nutrition here, and I was like no one. And he was like ok, who at surgery hospital. And I was like, we haven't seen nutrition at all since he was in the NICU Which he apologized for. But like I don't blame him because this was the first appointment where he was officially the primary cardiologist So we have a nutrition consultation in a couple weeks.
I also mentioned the few times he's been crying where his lips have turned blue. And I was like I know he's not supposed to cry at all, but it's hard because he's a baby. And he was like, he can cry. I was like no, Dr. B said he shouldn't cry at all, his heart can't handle it. And he was like, that's for babies in heart failure. It's okay for him to cry. Because like you said, he's a baby and it's part of life. So basically I've been obsessing about my baby crying and feeling like an utter failure when he does cry and I can't get him to calm down for the last like 3.5 months and it wasn't necessary. Basically, he's not worried about the blue lips because it's not constant and it self-corrects within seconds so it's not a tet spell.
He doesn't go back until October because he's doing so well. Which going from every 2 weeks he was being seen by cardiology to now we're at 2 months without a visit unless something happens, which is amazing. That visit should be his last visit with our local cardiologist before surgery. Because he'll have a handful with the cardiologists and the surgery team at the surgery hospital before.
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emometalhead · 1 year ago
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Why is college so expensive? 😭😭
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theevilcactus · 1 year ago
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whennnn is nick goode birthday does anybody have any headcanons for this i want to do something in a fic
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erraticroses · 1 year ago
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#tw eating disorder#like a massive tw#like an i personally wouldn't read this because it would trigger me massive tw#after some events in my life happened i started working out to feel like i have agency over my own body and to not fall back into my ed#but#when does working out stops sucking mentally? like i feel both great and bad at the same time and#i know it's because exercise was a big part of my ed and now i ser my body changing and i know i can make it change a lot more#in a way i kinda want it to. is like having a charged gun at all times but the metaphor falls short when i realize some thoughts are..there#like not there *there* but there. tangible. every time my body changes#and it makes me sick because i want to be normal i want to recover i want to have healthy goals and want to experience#having specific body goals as a normal person and i just... can't. because i always take it a little bit too far.#i want to be able to focus on the healthy goals i have like having more stamina. being faster. being stronger. feeling like my body is mine.#and to not focus on that part of ne that tells me i should look like a walking corpse and it's so frustrating.#because im technically closer to feeling good in my own skin than I've ever been (without the risk of dying i mean)#technically the healthiest I've been since the lowest point of anorexia. and there's still a part of me that tells me#i should send all that progress down the rain and get the results i subconsciously never stopped wanting#and it's sick. fucked up. i hate that mental illness and how it just won't fucking go and at the same time i feel like#if fully recovered i would lose a big part of me. and that's fucked up. because i shouldn't want that. I'm doing better now.#why do i still crave bones and dizziness and lightheadedness and crying in winter because it's too cold#why do i still crave being in pain because sitting hurts and no energy to leave the car and my losing more years in that hellhole#it's sick. fucked up. twisted. i don't want to be ill anymore but i relapsed and saw triggering content today and realized#it was never impossibly thin bodies what did it for me. never the look of a magazine model. it was bones. always have to take it too far#fucking sick and twisted. i know i have to continue to choose recovery and being happier. but damn how much i hate anorexia#what it did to me and what it still does to my mind
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viscountess-aberowen · 1 year ago
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Hey! Another historical fiction fan :) I also write (am going to write) fics for books, starting with a Winter of the World fic. It's still a WiP (but reader insert, pairing with Werner). The Century trilogy is so addicting.
I'm so happy there's more of ussss!! In AO3 I'm pretty sure there's only like another person and I who've written fics for that trilogy! Any and every fic is welcome :D
If you ever want a beta readers or just somebody to talk to about the story I'm all ears <3
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wolfiemcwolferson · 1 year ago
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in more logan gets too personal on the internet
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honorable-c-note · 1 year ago
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To HYDRA, Bucky was nothing more than a weapon. He was like a loaded gun, constantly being used and triggered both literally and figuratively, put away until they had a job for him.
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pocketanimals · 2 years ago
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He is beauty, he is grace...
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clementine-treat · 2 years ago
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spring better come soon bc i just ordered the cutest boots??
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