#themarryingkind

[devinicole78]

#irresistibleb #17Days #1999 #themarryingkind #callmyname #god #iwannabeyourlover

[cheldowell]

We ALL are, ladies! We each have superpowers: gifts, talents, personality traits that makes us unique and beautiful! Tag a woman below who is a lovely rare breed of woman! 👈👇💄 ▪¤▪ . . . . . . . . . #actor #ladies #women #girlboss #picoftheday #quotes #quoteoftheday #bestoftheday #daughteroftheking #rare #special #unique #mompreneur #momboss #womeninbusiness #lady #girly #christianwomen #ladypreneur #homeschoolmom #mindset #perspective #loveyourself #selflove #selfacceptance #selfworth #relationships #themarryingkind

[nlane89]

#dinnerofchampions #myboyfriendsmissingout #justkidding his #lunchtomorrow #brotime #homemade #beefstew #michelobultra #kitchenqueen #oneoftheguys #themarryingkind

[jeffybruce]

@jeffreyfelner2 with @make_repost ・・・ John Rawlings #wakinguptofashion #photographer #image #fashion #style #socialites #babespal #manalapan #vivamexico #gloriaguinness #socialclout #bestdressed #muse #themarryingkind #loelsgirl #onceuponatime #whatalife #lifestylesoftherichandfamous #international #hautecouture #orangeisthenewblack #chezelle #athome #holdthatsmile #gotit #click https://www.instagram.com/p/Bu6F8fgnVDst9c2BaYEhtKKvOFyGvlFFND_0wQ0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=vdckv3n2oipw

[devinicole78]

#thegreatestromancethatseverbeensold #themarryingkind #dearmrman #truth #unapologetic

[isthislifelegit-blog]

I literally just keep fucking myself over.

My night was going fantastic until this happened. This is when I fucked myself over for being too overanalytical and wanting to know things. Fuck me bro. Also, I was drunk at this point, so, no, I wouldn't have said this if I were sober. I would have kissed him and pretended like I wasn't that interested, as I've been doing for the past fucking entire length of whatever the fuck this shit is. 

Me: Hey, wanna walk me out to my car?

Him: Yea. (*puts beer down and takes the lead, not taking my hand as he once did, just going by himself, drunkenly*)

(*A few seconds tick by. I'm staring at everything but him. Could I seriously be any more obvious? As much as I want it to be, my life is not a fucking movie, but I play it like everyone in the world is watching.*)

Him: I feel like you just really want to tell me something.

Me: Haha what are you talking about?

Him: Like your aura or something (*yea, he really said aura*) just tell me.

Me: (*I pause, just like in the movies, for effect. And because I'm not sure if I should lie and say I just want to be friends, or if I should just get it over with. I choose my fate unwisely.*) So who's this amazing girl. Just tell me it's not me. 

Him: It's you!

Me: haha no really, promise me it's not me

Him: (*Looks down. Goddamnit. He feels bad about it, but proceeds to tell me about the cute bartender who just kept giving him free drinks and whatnot. Which I completely AGREED with. Hell, I'd have slept with her - not that he did - for free drinks. But then he says that he didn't do anything with her. Like it's something I ought to know - to be proud of. *)

Me; I don't care! I promise, you can do what you want. I just don't want to be here... stuck (*the fuck? I literally just said stuck.*) If you want to go off and have fun - 

Him: I have five weeks leave, I don't want to do anything!

Me: (*Breaking from this point onward and trying to cover my ass*) That's fine! I'll have fun, and you have fun, and we'll have fun together.

Him: Sounds good. (*At this point, some words were exchanged, but I have no idea what.*) ...you're coming at me... blah, blah, blah

Me: I'm not! I'm not trying to haha I promise

Him: haha yea ok I can't even stand here because you're falling over (*which, actually, I was only falling because 3 in heels and that fucking pavement don't mix*) How drunk are you?

Me: Haha not drunk enough

Him: Well, I'm going to go back inside

Me: Alright, man, (*yes, I called him 'man' to calm the situation down, not that I didn't just fuck up my entire relationship with him*) I'll see you tuesday.

Him: Haaaaaaa

_________

That's how the last seven minutes of a great night ended. I should have left before he even got here. Seriously, now he thinks I'm some jealous psycho who's totally in love with him. I'm not! I don't know whatthefuck love is like. I don't give a fuck what it's like. I'm fucking 19 and there's no way I some serious ass relationshit right now. Would I date him? I hate myself for saying it, but yes, in a heartbeat. Should I? No. He's not right for me. He'd corrupt me and make me believe things that weren't true and fuck me over in the end. 

I want to believe that he really does like me, but doesn't want to legitimately fuck up because he knows what his dad, my dad, and their best friend would do if he did. Which is stupid, actually. I realize I'm my dad's "little girl" and the uncle Chuck and uncle Don, I'm "steve's little girl" but that fuck? Really? Let me grow the fuck up and leave my romantic tendencies out of it. If I know I'm going to get screwed over from the get-go, let me be an idiot and try to be the right girl. 

"The marrying kind." Seriously? Like that's some kind of fucking compliment? No. Guys want the dating kind, the fucking kind, the fun kind. Not the marrying kind. They want the marrying kind when they're ready to get married. But how the fuck am I supposed to have experience if no on worth marrying will even date me? Literally so fucking ridiculous. 

Whatever bro. I'm going to keep doing me and everyone else can go do themfuckingselves. 

_____

Something I wrote today:

"There are all these images about girls getting all depressed over guys. I used to be like them. I've cried so many tears over bros, but now I can't stand it. Now I'm the douche that breaks hearts. I ignore texts, cancel plans, flirt relentlessly. I leave before I am left. It might seem to you a little pathetic, but I get what I want and drop it before I get too *attached. Does that make me weak? Pitiful? Bitter? No, because I have the fucking time of my life and never get hurt. I just of works that way, so gtfo if you've got a problem, bro.

*I got attached to Charlie, and now I'm vowing to myself that I will be this bro. I will be the epitome of all debauchery. Step the fuck off, mothafuckas. 

[jeffybruce]

Francois Karrol #wakinguptofashion #photographer #image #fashion #style #muse #themarryingkind #coco #lavieparisienne #proustian #diaghilev #balletrusse #onceuponatime #glamour #1000words #theritz #candelabra #soigné #sapphic #misiasert #imagesweneversee #strikeapose #hauteur #bringinit #holdit #click https://www.instagram.com/p/Cb412rquVsCSNQL3KgeGkRPTw32MeHDYpu0baE0/?utm_medium=tumblr

[jeffybruce]

@jeffreyfelner2 with @get_repost ・・・ Cecil Beaton #wakinguptofashion #photographer #image #legends #icons #fashion #style #1936 #prescient #monavonbismarck #socialite #muse #bestdressed #clotheshorse #balenciagawhore #philanthropist #ilfortino #couturehound #themarryingkind #onceuponatime #heiress #breakingthrough #drama #shadesofgrey #farawaylook #bejeweled #imcomingout #partingtheway #holdit #click

[jeffybruce]

Douglas Kirkland #wakinguptofashion #photographer #image #fashion #style #inimitable #theyonlymadeone #awardwinner #philanthropist #actress #icon #leaderofthepack #themarryingkind #diamonds #lookintomyeyes #jewelry #laliz #glamour #editorial #totalpackage #themthereeyes #onceuponatime #gesture #holdit #littlesmile #click https://www.instagram.com/p/B0lCLeCH6rqDnC5H4ufKKmKQ9c0FYNN4Wm1O780/?igshid=1cv9g8bfg314i

[jeffybruce]

Cecil Beaton #wakinguptofashion #photographer #image #fashion #style #highsociety #monavonbismarck #balenciagacult #chapeau #pearls #couturecollector #moreisbetter #fashionicons #lepenseur #themarryingkind #1939 #societychronicles #1000words #1000stories #onceinalifetime #onlythebest #trendsetter #onceuponatime #holdthatthought #click https://www.instagram.com/p/BzK8S0aHme11dI9l3IikMEygLMOhzNlAvVCDZU0/?igshid=1nxty0grjmu5i