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elftwink · 1 year

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one of the most infuriating things that happens in discussions about trans people is like, when a transphobe talks about how its just SOOOO easy to access gender affirming care, it's so easy to get on hrt or get referred for surgery etc... some of you dense motherfuckers respond to this by saying "no!!! it's not easy!!!! its so hard!!!" & listen. i KNOW that it IS HARD for many of us. and in many places it's getting harder. but tell me this: isn't the goal, eventually, to make it easy? not just easier than right now, but genuinely easy for a transgender person to access the care they need on whatever timeline they want, no matter how fast or slow? so if you spend all your time right now combating transphobia by insisting that transition is difficult and taxing and traumatizing, what are you going to do if and when it's none of those things? if there is no endless suffering and million hoops?

when someone says "it's too easy to transition" in order to justify their own transphobia, and you say "no it's not", you're also saying "if it were, your feelings would be justified". which is already kind of a terrible implication without taking into consideration that what most of these people mean by "too easy" is "possible". they mean that you can transition and they don't want you to. point blank. when you say it's difficult, they think "good. it should be harder". it will never be difficult enough to not be easy to them.

i am literally so sick & tired of all of us throwing each other under the bus in order to advocate for a future that is fucking miserable and awful. when someone tells you their nightmare scenario is transgender people being happy, you should not be responding to that by reassuring them that actually, transgender people are miserable and always have been and always will. when someone complains about how easy transition is you should say "good". we are never getting out of this fucking crab bucket if we're not only pulling each other down but also telling other people that pushing us back in would be fine if we were a little closer to the top.

#good idea generator #one thing i vividly remember is like. back when i read discourse blogs for fun (never do this btw this did irreparable damage to my psyche)#i saw an argument between a t*rf who had detransitioned and a trans person #where she was complaining it was too easy for her to transition and he was accusing her of lying about her transition #because he was like 'its not that easy. it cannot be that easy it never is you're lying'#but the thing was she and i had had nearly identical transitions like very similar timelines #the only thing she had that i didnt was parental support from the outset (my parents are cool btw we have long since worked it out. im js)#and it was infuriating to me that the person on my side who was arguing for my community was essentially saying #that i should have had it harder. that it wasnt possible for it to be like that #especially considering i dont think my transition was 'easy'!! certainly 'easier' than some people #but like 'easy' is so subjective and in this context mostly reliant on your own feelings and experiences #and i was not having a very easy time when starting my transition i would say #also her argument was bad in other ways made me furious that he resorted to accusing her of lying #like great now she'll run back to her t*rf friends and theyll all talk about how we live in an echo chamber #we have to stop telling people it's their moral duty to argue with bigots because some of you are terrible at it

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hella1975 · 1 year

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end of march is crazy for writing like i have a 1.5k essay im doing today and tomorrow, a 2k word essay im doing wednesday and a 1k word research proposal im doing friday. and in the remaining week of the month i am WILLINGLY going to finish taob (~10k OPTIMISTICALLY) and make a solid start on tams (~5k-10k depending on how well writing goes). like yes girl write around 20k words worth of MULTIPLE PROJECTS in a handful of days there is no way this can end badly at all

#'hella no one is pressuring you to post anything if you arent able to or are overwhelmed by the barrage of uni work you have atm' stfu #i cannot stress enough the moment i give myself a self-imposed deadline for a fic it HAS to be met #like you guys could beg me to chill out and i simply would not cave #also i just got back from dnd and it was such a good session like i have actual friends there now #and the DM from today actually messaged me on facebook afterwards saying how much he enjoyed playing with me #and he said i brought a lot to the table and my interaction was 'better than some people that have been playing for 5+ years'#I GOT A GOOD GRADE IN DND SOMETHING THAT IS BOTH NORMAL TO WANT AND POSSIBLE TO ACHIEVE #and next week is the first week im going without my mate bc she's away so i was a little nervous #but then this guy that's basically adopted us was like 'omg i'll make sure we're on a table together so you at least know me!'#which was nice enough on its own BUT THEN this dm that's been playing for over 40 years who always chats with us after #was like INSISTANT that we go on his table next week which im SO buzzing for bc he's like a veteran player he knows SO MUCH #and it felt very cool that he was actively inviting us like i dont think that's something he does often #hehehe im having fun with the freaks and weirdos <3333 #hella goes to uni

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iloveyouitisruiningmylife · 11 months

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spending my whole life trying and trying and trying and trying to be good enough for people who don't give a fuck about me

#im so tired living seems pointless why am i doing this what is the reason #the firm i work at is going thru a merger so it's releasing all the interns except 2 #i went into her office and said that id like to stay here bc my dad said so bc i got in cause he was friends with the head #and she said ill think about it based on performance ive not decided yet #and this other guy he went in to tell her that cool he'll leave and she told him that she was hoping that he'd stay #he literally does nothing but play games on his phone he doesn't work at all #i have no idea what he has that i don't #but just. im stuck like this forever right never ever good enough for people i like or care about #not for parents they have a diff fav child not for ex gf not for bestie who has a boyfriend much better at loving her than me #not for that one guy who rejected me in interview bc i don't read the newspaper and didn't know the date of the finance act #im so fucking sick of this i never even wanted to this fuckinh course and obviously even my best isn't enough and ofc im not good enough #for anyone in this field and ill just struggle and struggle and struggle all my life just to earn some fucking money so i can live away #from my sociopathic parents #and the worst part is that i can't stop feeling like maybe it IS me yk maybe i am the problem maybe im not trying hard enough #but how else am i supposed to handle this i prioritize my studies and lose all my friends i prioritise my friends and fail in d #exams #and the trauma keeps on coming every fucking day bc sociopathic parents but i jsut push it down and say not rn i will cry at night anx then #never cry #i wish someone would just tell me that idk you're wrong you're not made for this you really do have some mental illness and you're really #trying your best and do something that's easy and that you love doing #oh god this is now a ventpost #mes

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carfuckerlynch · 13 hours

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hahaha apparently people I used to be friends with are spreading rumors that I'm "predatory toward trans men" sure hope this won't have any consequences!

#odhran.txt #my friend who i trust said that theyve heard people saying that about me but when asked to elaborate they wont #which is SUPER cool. so yr just gonna say im a predator abd then not offer evidence or substantiation?#ALSO. im trans men. its called being t4t. what the fuck is wrong with you #genuinely i think its because i talk about boypussy/wanting to suck tdick/gay sex. which is hilarious bc these people #ARE trans men. they ARE t4t. and i have seen them put theur sex toys on their public instagram stories #all of which are completely fine and normal things to do. but its pretty infuriating that theyd say something like that about me #for doing not dissimilar things to what i do #my friebd told me that they stand up for when people say this. which i rsally appreciate

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kordbot · 7 months

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the one thing that no one told me about college is that there are people who like you

#showed up for dnd earlier today and had a couple people from my friend group be like ''kordian is here!! :D''#like there are people who just genuinely like my company. and are excited to see me. im literally a part of a group rn #im so not used to that this is awesome did you guys hear about this #we had 2 dnd groups in our room today and we were just making our chars and bc this is my first time I was just kinda--#--going around asking my friends who played before for advice bc my friend whos dming was busy #and i got some help from the other dm bc his group was mostly done and afterwards he told our dm that he has really cool players #so like. i got a good grade in player today sunglasses emoji #also we went to get food afterwards and when we were leaving another one of my friends said im looking very handsome today U_U #i dont think anyones called me handsome before. woah. did you guys hear about having friends this shit is awesome

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iknaenmal · 11 months

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okay. today i will go on a difficult mission. i might not come back (will ask i friend if they want to hang out)

#IN MY DEFENSE ILL SAY THAT SHES A REALLY COOL FRIEND OKAY ?#shes like. so easy to talk to and shes so cool and she is so funny and shes the only person i know irl who is into homestuck!!!#well kinda #and she has had an extremely good impact in my life as in !! idk she has made me more confident? idk how to explain that #THE THING IS. i met her less than a year ago but shes extremely important to me and i love talking to her #and i would love hanging out with her more #SO. today. im gonna tell her that im gonna go watch spiderverse this aaturday and im gonna ask her if she wants to come #i will see her today bc we both go to a club for neurodivergent people #but im not gonna ask her there that would be stupid. also i would feel bad for not inviting the rest of our clubmates (? as well #i already do but hngggn. idk #anyways im gonna ask her later when i come back home it will probably be p late but thats okay #or hm. i usually stay longer than im supposed to stay and she does too i could ask her then but i probably wont :/#WELL WHATEVER.#honestly im p sure i wont actually ask her.. the idea is nice but i dont have enough skills for that i think. oh well we will see #ikna talks #oops sorry for rambling. sorry sjssnsjskl

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whumpy-wyrms · 3 months

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I LOVEEEE ART

#okok #i drew something i am soooo insanely proud of #NOT NORMAL ABOUT IT AT ALLLLL #maybe i will reblog it on here. idk #i’m super proud of it i need everyone to SEEE IITTTTT #and honestly do i Really care about people here knowing my main art account? i’m not sure anymore #like idk telling everyone irl about my silas and aspen ocs really just made me think and. huh #what’s the point in keeping everything a secret #like whump ain’t even weird it’s just horror who cares if people know abt this account right #unless i’m wrong and like idk #what am i talking about i have no idea i just spent the last six hours drawing something reeallllyy cool #maybe i’ll reblog it here cuz like also #i have more mutuals here. i have more friends here and im more active here #what even is a main #anyway it’s furry art if that changes anything #🦇🦇🦇🦇🦇#BATS <3 #anyway ITS ALMOST 1AM????? FUCK??????#wyrms says stuff #i reblogged it on Aspen’s blog so it’s there if anyone wants to see :3 #oh yeah @dead-aspen-tree don’t follow it cuz it’s mainly cringe /j #it’s cool art i am very proud of it haha #anyway gn tumblr im eepy

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sage-is-in-fact-very-tired · 3 months

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ask game asks for u :D

13, 17, 80 /nf

ask game asks for me :DD!!!

[13 - Do you believe in reincarnation?]

mmmmmm. honestly. no idea. its definitely a cool concept, but the thought of it definitely makes me get to far into my own head and i dont particularly enjoy that. thinking to much about existance and stuff like that (actually words ive definitely said at least once "why do we see through our eyes") always gives me anxiety honestly :// - cool concept and thought sage just thinks to much

[17 - Did you have imaginary friends? Do you still have them?]

yeah. i did for a period of time. elementary school sage was. very fuckin lonely, so i made some guys up. we had conversations. could not tell you their names. they were fun honestly; i never talked to them outloud unless it was funny, so all the conversations had were in my little brain and-

nope! no longer got those cause i got real real friends now :DDD

[80 - Is your music organised by mood or sensation or do you just listen to everything at any time?]

bold of you to assume my music is organized *at all* /lh /silly ; its honestly just whatever i wanna listen too, with the cavat of "i usually listen to a song on loop if im doing anything and only turn it off once that thing is over so i dont really bother organizing playlists-"

#see the imaginary friends stuff stopped pretty much when i hit middle school cause no more recess and more people to talk to all the time #and like. not saying i didnt have friends in elementary; im just saying recess was a terrible time cause all my friends had *other* friends #and couldnt play with me #and granted there were like. 3 or 4 who wanted to play but said game was actually just harassment and-#oh boy thats a separate story in and of itself-#and for the record; reincarnation is cool and itd be funky if it existed #i just cant think about it too long cause then i get to existential-#and music wise. man none of my playlists are organized at all-#ic and q and ash exist but theyre not organized-

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undermostcorgi · 3 months

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drawing other people's dnd characters based on the image i made of them in my head and NOTHING ELSE because i'm evil

#my art #dnd oc #friend oc #bell #must stress again that this is entirely headcanon i doubt this is what he actually looks like LMAO #he keeps that mask on at all times so we have not seen his face and probably wont for a while #but my brain was like oh he's returned (undead) so like #what if he was a silly zombie lookin fucker who SLAYED. HARD #(i love how he turned out but i also. dont want to post it in the discord because i KNOW im so wrong about how he looks)#(and i didnt feel like asking ethan about it bc idk if he could really say yet)#(plus i really hate sending art to people specifically to ask for opinions ESPECIALLY of their own characters i get so scared)#(which is why i usually just draw my own characters lmao but i love my friends' characters so i wanted to try)#also something about it feels a bit unfinished? i didnt put a ton of effort into it since i really just made it for fun for me #i think his expression is just a bit flat but i didnt want to make it too exaggerated really so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯#also also sorry for long tags but this is slowly becoming an art blog isnt it LMAO #hope yall are cool with that i like having somewhere to post everything

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vse-kar-vem · 1 month

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how to write vent post title that does not come off as self-pitying and or accusatory (because it's NOT !)

#sorry tumblr is like a diary to me idk what i'll do w this blog after i (sigh) inevitably move on #either way #im convinced everyone hates me again :3 but realistically no one cares about me even enough to hate me im just stupid and self centred 💔#if anything me TYPING these posts is actuvely turning people against me #again with the assumptions that people care enough to read these 😭 fhskfbhsjfkg #i hate that i care so much what people online think of me cuz irl it's like. whatever #but here there are so many cool people who i admire and would love to be friends with im always hyperparanoid of everything i do #and still i manage to overstep and come off as annoying #like obvs you're allowed to hate me even if you're someone i look up to like that's your perogative #but i hate worrying about IF anyone hates me #oughgh this is easier irl because usually people send off pretty clear signals if they dont like you #but online (esp with how prickly this fandom is) i don't know whether im being insecure and reading into things or whether people just don't #like me (which again is fine i would just rather know if anyone gets it)#i figure art is the one way i can get people to like me 💔 which sounds kinda pathetic because irl i KNOW im liked and capable!#fandom has just become such a big part of my personality that i cant detach my self worth from it #and i do love art and drawing and such i hate that even if i know people my stuff EYE dont and it doesnt mean anything or act as a signifier #of my friendships #wow .... i really am my own therapist ..... i should shut up #the industrial revolution and its consequences (jofandom)#i think these posts are half self exploration half ... almost self harm? because sometimes im so derogatory about myself on purpose in a #'you're worthless' way. but at the same time it's cathartic and i always feel better having probed at my feelings and gotten them in order #not to do a complete 180 but it's MY post and JO LONDON IN *12* DAYS!!!!!!!! AHH i'm sooo excited if it doesnt live up to my expectations i #may cry a little. and there will be another vent post from me !#sometimes i wonder if anyone actually reads these 😭#vee rambles

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assmaster-8000 · 7 months

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why don't clothes fit me the way they do on a skinny cis guy (<- isn't a skinny cis guy)

#being trans masc is so frustrating because i forget i got the level 1000 gyatt #go forth and find a beautiful trans woman bodily curves of mine #i have so many cool pants that would give away im kweer if i wore them not because they're from alt fashion subcultures #but because my ass and thighs and hips are too femme apparently?!?!?#when will people stop associating allat with women or something #my cis male friends have the biggest fucking asses for some reason AND THEY KEEP ON TWERKING INFRONT OF ME WHEN IM MINDING MY BUSINESS #no but *im* the female and a girl apparently #i wanna go out in tight fitting clothes until i realise i actually have a female body like whatttt #ain't that crazy #im not saying those bodily attributes are inherently femme or indicators of being a girl or a female cause just. no #im just saying that many people think that way #and it's hard trying to be perceived as masc while trying to dress the way i want to #'why do you care about how others perceive you?' because being perceived as a girl makes me feel bad like what #its different from your personality being perceived differently #im aware my gender is something i define but i can also want others to perceive me as a guy too #i cant change the minds of everybody but in the end i still am a masc identifying person and i want people to easily identify me as one #transphobes and people who blatantly refuse to perceive me as one is something else entirely #and if adhering to the binary gender norms is how i can be validated in my gender then so be it #because gender is a social construct and mine is affirmed and solidified through social interaction #other trans people wont do what i do. others do. that's fine. gnc trans people are fucking sick /pos #but unfortunately i do not have it in me to NOT care about how others perceive my gender #because it matters a lot to me and being perceived as a girl hurts

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crescentfool · 6 months

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i think something that is important to me to remember is that there are small ways i can do things to spark joy for myself and others without waiting for someone else to do it... (conjures up little sparklies from my hands) life is so whimsical!!!