#these are online characters for fictional characters lmao uhhhh

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Man the last few days have been stressful, have more OCs??

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and i'd like a milkshake~!

holy god, okay

2. Crops, floggers, or paddles?

honestly, i really like paddles

3. What fictional characters are you most into right now? And/or what fantasies do you have with them?

pretend i'm putting one of those really bad censor bars over her eyes when i say n*mi arish*ma and like. anything? everything. with her. god.

5. Are you a monsterfucker? What’s your favourite monster?

of course i'm a monsterfucker, come on. i don't know if i have a favorite? it changes from moment to moment. do i want the knot? something that can mesmerize me? something that defies reality? fuck.

6. Do you think you’re a top or a bottom? A dom or a sub? Or a switch/verse?

i'm a sub and a bottom, let's not fuck around

7. What is your favourite sexual scenario you’ve ever come up with?

literally, i don't think i can answer this. i have so many goddamn favorites, i can't even pick one. purity backfires is up there, though.

8. Are you into more taboo kinks (watersports, feet, cnc, etc?)

lmao that feet is called a taboo kink here. but yeah, i like all the ones listed, and a lot more, a lot!

9. Are you into pet play? If so, what type of pet are you?

moo!

10. What do you think your favourite position would be?

i'm really into the idea of being fucked from behind

11. Do you have something you haven’t tried yet, but you still KNOW you’ll like?

lactation play, full stop

15. Is there a thing that people do that makes you go absolutely crazy?

uhhhh. hypnosis play's a big one, also just being willing to play in whatever brain space i happen to be in at the moment

16. If you could have sex without any consequences or restrictions at all (eg. no matter how risky it is you can’t die or be hurt - more than you want to be, that is, wink wonk - and you could fit comically huge things inside you without issue), what would you do?

god. i'd just go full fucked-up free use hedonist mode i guess? lmao

18. What title do you think you prefer? (eg: sir, puppy, master, slave, etc)

uhhhh. i don't know honestly?

19. If money wasn’t an issue, how many sex toys would you have and what would they be?

so many! lots of bad dragons, lots of things for nipple play, does a breast pump count?

20. Do you have any kinks or fetishes you really didn’t expect to be into?

a lot of them? like. i never thought i would be into feet or piss, but here we are

21. What is a popular kink that you hate/don’t Get™?

macro/micro does nothing for me

22. Have you ever tasted yourself? Do you like how you taste?

yes and yes! <3

23. Do you shave or let it grow?

i let it grow, i like it

24. Are you into humiliation and/or degradation?

oh yeah, majorly, big time

25. Do you pretend someone is with you when you masturbate? (Eg. showing off for an imaginary dom)

hmmm. depends on the fantasy, but not usually, i think?

26. How often do you masturbate?

a few times a day!

29. What’s the horniest you’ve ever been? What did you do about it?

horniest i've ever been is the past month or so, i think! and i've just been kind of enjoying the NEET life and getting off whenever

30. What’s your favourite kind of lingerie?

hehe, cowprint

31. Do you like to be overstimulated?

yes in theory, not sure in practice!

34. What’s your favourite part of your body?

i'd love to say my tits, but it's my legs and my lips!

36. Do you have a partner, or multiple partners? (this is just a free chance for you to gush about them if you do 💖)

i've got some fuckbuddies, both irl and online, but no one i'd call a partner! i do love spending time with my fuckbuddies though

39. What’s a kink you only like in specific contexts/circumstances?

god, everything? i'm like a kink roulette wheel depending on mood, phase of the moon, etc.

41. Do you like anal?

i haven't yet, but i really want to!

43. What are you looking forward to most about having sex?

i love giving head so goddamn much oh my god

45. How much self control do you have? Can you edge/deny yourself for a long time?

lmao no i cannot edge on purpose, i am here to cum.

49. What is your main masturbation fantasy at the moment?

reality warping! being able to change the world to suit my tastes~

sorry it took so long! the milkshake is probably spoiled...

[kiisaes]

QUESTION: how did your bakudeku journey begin?!?!

uhhhh hmmm good question anon LOL

technically i've always been interested in bakudeku as a dynamic i guess? i started watching mha in 2017 when s2 was airing, so when i watched the first season i was like woah! these two characters sure are connected! (this was before i realized they were narrative foils lol) i entered the series with zero knowledge of the fandom, i just saw the show online and wanted to try it out. therefore i didn't know bkdk was so universally panned at the time and i ... liked it!

but then i heard people saying that bkdk was abusive so i was like oh uhhhh u know what?

by 2017 the most prevalent ships were tododeku and kiribaku, not bakudeku LMAO since s2 introduced us to more interactions within those ships! and so i guess i felt pressured to ship tododeku and kiribaku way more than i could ever ship bakudeku. the whole "bakudeku is abusive" argument was very VERY active during this time, and i didn't want to get harassed online for liking a relationship that was deemed abusive, so i tried avoiding it as best as i could. funny thing is, though, i didn't even reach s2 in 2017 — i dropped the series after s1 bc i guess i just ... didn't want to continue??? i'm not really sure myself but mha's fandom was already pretty big then, and i was informed of kiribaku way before i even encountered any of it in s2 and s3. anyway, that's why i felt inclined to ship kiribaku far more even when i didn't see too much of it in the series yet

i picked up the series again in 2019 bc one of my friends wanted me to, and that's when i finally watched s2 and s3. during this time i was a far more active shipper in the fandom (in 2017 i technically didn't ship anything bc i didn't actually get anywhere LOL). my otp was tododeku and i liked kiribaku just as much. bakudeku was still, well, THERE but i was very scared of calling myself a bkdk so i tried to talk myself out of ever shipping it. bkdks got a horrible rep bc they were so-called "abuse apologists" (which is ridiculous lol but i digress) so i didn't want to involve myself with that whole thing. instead i played it safe and shipped the tamer deku and bakugou ships at the time. BY THE WAY i still really like tddk and krbk haha they're just not my main ships anymore

and oh yeah this was even after watching deku vs kacchan part 2 LMFAO idk what the hell was wrong with me in which i watched that episode and felt NOTHING??? even after that ep i was like lol cool. anyway tddk—

i just really tried programming my brain into disliking bkdk for a hot second. which is super ironic bc during this time i was also reading a lot of mha doujins of practically any ship, and yes, that included bkdk. but after while i kinda just got ... tired ??? of hating bkdk? like idk it seemed a little pointless to aggressively advocate AGAINST a relationship when it's just a fictional ship, and a narratively important one at that. so in october of 2019, to test the waters, i drew this:

and i got a grand total of ........ ZERO HATE COMMENTS!!!!!!!! granted i had like no followers on twitter and i don't think anyone cared on my instagram (the two sites where i posted this), plus i explicitly said this could be either platonic or romantic, but i felt ... free. i felt free!!!!!

i continued to ship tddk as my main ship, but i just felt a lot better knowing that i could ship bkdk and not get immediately cancelled on the internet for it LOL. i guess at this point i started to feel more inclined to ship bkdk bc i DID like them. i really did like them!!! they were my favorite characters when i first watched the anime, and it became such a chore to hate their relationship when it was objectively a great one to analyze and indulge in! why should i keep lying to myself just to seem "morally superior" or whatever by not shipping an "abusive" fictional ship? like what was my end goal here lmao

i chose to appreciate them in secret bc idk, i was still subconsciously afraid of haters, until i decided u know what? fuck it. i don't fucking care anymore, and thus i drew this little doodle in december of 2019 which ended up ruining my life forever:

bc u know what happened after this little doodle? a little lock opened in my brain and this small little devil on my shoulder went, "hey. hey guess what? u've crossed the threshold. u've accepted bkdk into ur heart. u can draw bkdk now. u're FREE, min. u're FREE!" and i guess i took that to heart bc after that i started shipping bkdk at an EXPONENTIAL rate. i was no longer chained by my fears. i just didn't fucking care anymore and it was AMAZING.

i still tried convincing myself that i liked tddk more, but at this point i was just lying LOL i most certainly enjoyed bkdk far more, and honestly probably would have from the start if i wasn't such a fucking pussy. AGAIN i still like tddk to this day but bkdk has cemented itself as the main ship sorry todoroki

so yea ...!!! that's the min bkdk story ヾ(´▽｀*;)ゝ” if u wanna know when i started openly shipping bkdk, as in posting bkdk art frequently and under a clear romantic lens, i'd say ... march of 2020?

[surveys-at-your-service]

Survey #441

“all alone, he turns to stone while holding his breath after death  /  terrified of what’s inside, to save his life he crawls like a worm from a bird”

Have you ever watched a movie in class/school that made you cry? Yep, a few. What’s the earliest you could go to bed at night and feel okay about? If I'm having a really bad day, I can tolerate as early as 7:00. :x What is you favorite type of lunch meat? Honey ham, probably. What time of the year do you dislike the most? Summer is disgusting. It's too hot, too humid, too many bugs, and I just hate it. Do you put ketchup on your scrambled eggs? No, that sounds gross. What is your favorite color to wear? b l a c k Are you an overachiever? Oh, hunny. What physical feature do you wish you had (i.e. freckles, curly hair)? Maybe uhhhh big eyes. What fictional character (i.e. Bambi, Scarlette O'hara) would you marry? Darkiplier bc he is merely a misunderstood soft boi. How long have you gone without shaving (girls- legs, armpits; boys- faces)? Legs: It's been nearly a year. Pits: not that long, considering I shave them every time I get in the shower. What is the meanest thing you have ever said to someone else? I'm sure it would be something in one of the letters I sent Jason. Or Dad. Idk. Did you ever go through a phase where you wrote bad poetry? The phase never ended lmao. What is your favorite thing about your life? My loved ones. Save all the animals that die during road kill or save 1 human from a fire? Sorry, but I'm picking the animals. Have you ever painted a picture of somebody? Yes. How many real bfs/gfs have you had? Two. Did you enjoy your past relationships? Yes. Except for when I was with Tyler. Name a comedy that you like. White Chicks. Could you wait until marriage for sex? Yeah. What’s the best Nirvana song? I'm not sure, really... Maybe "Drain You?" What was the last thing that impressed you? No clue. When was the last time you were in a pet store? Several months ago when I went in to get more rats for Venus. What nationality is your last name? Irish. What’s your favorite kind of chips and dip? Plain, rippled Lays in French onion dip. Who was the last boy that you saw cry? I don't know, actually. It may have been Sara's dad, which was years ago. Does your mom know you do surveys? I mean no, it's not like it's come up in conversation. Have you ever had a serious injury? When I was a kid, there was this one time I was running down the road with my friend, and I tripped; I was a fast runner, so I skinned the everliving FUCK out of my knees to the point there was even pus. I was SOBBING, and it took weeks to heal; I had the scars for years. What was the last thing you achieved? Losing weight at the gymmmm. Staying dedicated to going. Would you enjoy being famous? No. I couldn't take all the eyes on me and even ONE person's negative judgment. What’s under your bed? A big box of my art supplies. Do you enjoy travelling? Yeah. I wish I could do it more. Have you ever belonged to a club? If so, what was it? No. When was the last time you drank strawberry milk? Not since I first tried it at elementary school. It was absolutely disgusting. Have you ever managed to collect all the fast food toys in a set? I doubt it. Do you have a clock in your room? No. Did you have a good driver’s ED teacher? No. If I'd listened to him while driving, I could've gotten myself killed while merging onto the highway. People are assholes and didn't want to move over. Which of Britney Spears’ songs is your favorite? Probably "Freakshow." Does mind over matter work for you? Not usually, no. Are you paranoid? Oh yes. What is the best thing about winter? Everything!!! Literally the only BAD thing about winter is the dry skin/lips. I love the cold, Christmas and all that comes with it, the decor, hot chocolate, snow, getting all cuddly... Everything. :') Have you ever been truly in love? Absolutely. Are you currently planning a trip? No. A trip to Illinois is just a wish right now. How many plants are in your home? None, I think? What is your favorite possession? Excluding my pets (because I don't like calling them "possessions"), probably my laptop. Have you ever felt like you were too nice and way too often overlooked? I have before, yes. What movies have tripped you out? Off the top of my head, the only entertainment media in general that has ever truly "tripped me out" was the first time I played the Silent Hill game. The movie didn't affect me to that level because I already understood the concept. When I watched Jason play it for the first time, I was SO confused and just blown away by the concept that I did loads of research and just thinking about it all. That franchise is just cool as shit, okay. Did you rollerblade as a kid? Do you still rollerblade? I LOVED rollerblading. I haven't done it in years, though. Would you ever settle into a relationship that wasn’t right for you? Do you know friends who are in relationships just so they have someone to sleep with at night? NO. I will NOT settle. Being genuinely in love with my partner is too important to me for me to ever do so. I don't know if any of my friends are in that situation. Would you take a dirty picture of yourself for someone you are dating? With my current body? FUCK no. If I was happy with my body, the answer is still probably no. I'm too self-conscious and awkward with that kind of stuff, and besides, I really don't think I want a picture like that to exist of myself to avoid potential trouble. Do you use earplugs or a sleeping mask when you sleep? No. What summertime treats do you love? We have this local slushy place that is FUCKING BOMB. It may sound basic, but they have SUCH a vast variety of flavors and goodies you can top it with that it's truly just so amazing. How picky are you when it comes to choosing who to kiss or not kiss? I am VERY picky. I have to be really interested in you. Save for how things were with Tyler... I just felt like I was supposed to. What do you hate most about moving? I. Hate. The process. Of moving. It is just so, so stressful to me. I have a very hard time confronting big tasks, and that's exactly what packing and unpacking entails. Do you feel that having sex anywhere but a bed is more exciting? Not necessarily. Do you drink 5 hour energy drinks or any other kinds of energy drinks? No. Has anyone ever whistled at you? I don't think so. Do you like scarves? No. Is your father homophobic? Possibly. I don't actually know. I honestly don't think he took Sara's and my relationship seriously, so that may be a sign. Do you take gummy vitamins? The only vitamin I take now is vitamin D, which isn't a gummy. Have you ever applied make-up on a guy, for any reason at all? Ha, yeah. I gave Jason a makeover once. Who would you like to meet before you die? MARK. I am so determined, alsdjfkaj;wek;rj. I just want to hug him and say thank you and ugly-cry. If your dream was to be a model, and a big opportunity came up, but you had to be nude, would you take it? No. Even if I had the body of a model. What’s the most ridiculous conspiracy theory you’ve ever heard of? The fuckin' flat earth theory, probably. If Heaven and Hell exists, where you going when you die? Well, considering I have an, uh, very negative opinion of the Christian god... Who is the person that you are afraid of losing, above everyone else? My mom. The day she passes is a day I am inexplicably horrified of. What is one thing that pisses you off pretty much everyday? My life. If there anyone you know that you feel should consider therapy? My mom really could use it. Do you like any of the songs on Twilight, or the actual movie/saga itself? I love "Supermassive Black Hole" by Muse, but idk if it was actually written for the movie. How old was the first person you kissed? He was 18 when we first kissed. Will you be a strict parent one day? I never want to be a parent. If I hypothetically became one, I don't think I'd be strict, necessarily, but very protective. Last person to stand up for you? Probably Mom, idk. Have you been to a baby shower? Yeah, a few. Who were you with the last time you went to the movie theater? My dad. What’s your favorite high school memory? Just... a lot with Jason. Do you like relationships, or do you prefer to be single? I prefer being in a (healthy) relationship, but I won't get into one just for the sake of having one. What is one adventurous thing you’d be willing to do? Hmmm... scuba-dive, maybe? What subject at school did you absolutely hate? Math. Italian food or Chinese food? Italian. I don't really like (most) Chinese food. Do you like to make flash cards when you study? I rarely did that. Has anyone ever told you that you’re a good singer? Yes, somehow. Do you ever watch TED talks, live or online? No. I dare you to write the name of a person you strongly dislike. Ashley. What do you think about Marilyn Manson? He's one of my favorite musical artists, but he's a disgusting dick personally. Biggest trouble you’ve ever gotten into at school? Nothing, really. I was a very well-behaved kid. Do you own one of those “professional” DSLR cameras? Yeah, I have a Canon. Does it bother you when you see a 6th grader with a bunch of gadgets? No. Did you buy yearbooks every year in high school, or did you not bother? Not every year, but most. Do you have Restless Legs Syndrome? No. Jalapeños: yay or nay? I loooove them. Did you ever play Minecraft? Nah. My niece is getting into it. Did you ever have a Club Penguin account? Were you a member? I did have one. I wasn't one of those premium members or anything like that; I just had a basic account. Do you know anyone that seems to not have any common sense? Bitch me. It's extremely embarrassing. I 100% got it from my dad. What do you think is the biggest injustice that was ever done to you? The manner through which Jason broke up with me. It left me traumatized. What type of person angers you the most? Abusive people that think only they matter and have no consideration for how their actions affect other people. If you could change your appearance, how would you alter it? I'd lose a shitload of weight, for one. My teeth would be whiter, my eyes bigger and bluer, I'd want my hair colored/able to hold color far better, I'd lighten and lessen my body hair, make my skin clearer, thin my eyebrows... I'd change a lot. What are your feelings on feminism? MANDATORY. Absolutely necessary in a misogynistic society. However, I do believe some people take it way too far to a point it is anti-man and puts women on a holy pedestal. It is about equality. Describe your first relationship? Perfect, until it wasn't. Describe your last relationship? Wonderful and healthy, but distance and our health were issues at the time. Can you honestly say that you always practice safe sex? My history with sex is confusing and complicated and I really don't know. Why do you think your most favorite film touches you so deeply? Thinking about it... it's probably because of how Simba runs from his problems and bad memories, but returns to confront them and is victorious. That's how I want to be. What do you want people you meet for the first time to think about you? That I'm nice and clearly sincerely cared about them and their feelings. Do you feel protective over someone? My sisters, nieces and nephews, Sara... What perfume/cologne do you wear? It's called "Blush." Where did your vehicle come from? I don't have my own, but Mom's came from a girl at the dance studio. She ran into a deer, and the front got fucked up, but the sweetheart paid to fix it up to being operable so Mom had her own car. The front bumper is kept intact with zip ties and duct tape, but hey... it works and has for many, many years now, lol. What was the color of the bridesmaid dresses of the last wedding you went to? Ummmm... I actually don't remember. What is your favorite way to eat chicken? As tenders, probably. It is your birthday. You hope the cake is: Red velvet. This year for my bday, our controlling-as-fuck family friend bought me my birthday cake without consulting ANYBODY, and I was so fucking annoyed. It was a very kind gesture, yes, but um, can I have a say, please? What do you wear to bed? Usually men's pj pants and a tank top. What were you doing at 8pm last night? Sleeping, actually. I was extremely tired and went to bed early.

[couldbeasong]

1-60 for the ask meme

Ope sorry I did not see this until today. I think I know the one? If it’s not the one you meant just lmk lol

1. Selfie?

You can have this picrew but I wish to be unperceived.

2. What would you name your future kids?

For female names I like: Harmony, Slyvia, Edelweiss, Bethany, and Opal

For male names I like: Uriah, Aiden, Kai, Levi, and Luke

3. Do you miss anyone?

My grandpa and Midnight (old dog)

4. What are you looking forward to?

Going on vacation in a few weeks, the end of the semester, and seeing @calligraphywitch tomorrow

5. Is there anyone who can always make you smile?

@calligraphywitch and my other girlfriend. They’re hilarious lmao

6. Is it hard for you to get over someone?

Romantically? Not really. You kinda gotta just accept it and move on. In the past, always being like: this will never work because of reason xyz helps.

Friendship wise? Absolutely. It depends a lot on the emotional investment I put into the relationship, but I find myself still missing people I haven’t talked to since High School or Middle School.

7. What was your life like last year?

It was weird being a freshman in college and trying to survive. I had a lot of family problems going on along with one of my best friends from High School being on her death bed for a while. A bit of a crisis of faith as well. But we survived, God willing! I miss pre-pandemic times tho

8. Have you ever cried because you were so annoyed?

Ask my brother. I’m sure there’s been an instance.

9. Who did you last see in person?

My grandma across the room from me!

10. Are you good at hiding your feelings?

I hide them so well I can’t even find them!

I like to pretend they aren’t there and repress them a lot but idk if I’m good at hiding them from others per say.

11. Are you listening to music right now?

I’m in a zoom meeting for class, so I guess my professor's voice?

12. What is something you want right now?

Freedom

13. How do you feel right now?

Kinda tired, kinda nauseous, kinda bored. Idk I probably need to drink some water.

14. When was the last time someone of the opposite sex hugged you?

Uhhhh idk about a week ago? My last hug was probably a week ago too XD

15. Personality description

I like to think I’m funny

16. Have you ever wanted to tell someone something but you didn’t?

I work in customer service- everyday (:

17. Opinion on insecurities.

Everyone is insecure about something. It’s kinda fascinating how even though all of humanity is exactly the same (in terms of our struggles and insecurities, we don’t vary) we still judge others for having them. Confidence is seen as a virtue and the most attainable goal. Society profits off of your insecurities tho so be aware of what they are and don’t let yourself be scammed.

18. Do you miss how things were a year ago?

Certain aspects perhaps. But 2019 is gone. It performed and then it left. It can’t hurt us or help us anymore. There’s little use in dwelling on that and wishing for 2020 to be 2019.

19. Have you ever been to New York?

No, but I swear Ima go one day and see a show on Broadway.

20. What is your favorite song at the moment?

I have like three I’m cycling between rn

When You’re Home from In the Heights

Wake Up by Jenny Owen Youngs

Together by For King and Country

21. Age and birthday?

Old enough to know better and October

22. Description of crush.

He’s super great and super intelligent, not to mention super in love with God. Frankly, he deserves better than me. I gotta lot of self-improvement that needs to happen, but we’ll see what happens XD

23. Fear(s)

Heights, drowning, spiders, super dark streets and rooms, not being good enough

24. Height

5′5″ respectfully

25. Role model

It’s changed through the various stages of my life. Rn tho a few of my Christian online friends

26. Idol(s)

I mean I stan Brian David Gilbert, but I don’t idolize him lol

27. Things I hate

Cheesecake, sickly sweet stuff, when someone grabs the receipt out of the printer even though it’s way more effort for them to do so than for me just to hand it to them and it throws me off of my rhythm, fudge

28. I’ll love you if…

You exist (and even not then because fictional characters just hit different lol)

29. Favorite film(s)

Tangled, Ella Enchanted, Enchanted, Howls Moving Castle, Princess, and the Pauper

30. Favorite tv show(s)

Brooklynn 99, Parks and Recreation, Ouran High School Host Club, My Hero Academia, and Bojack Horseman (I’m going through a phase with it rn lol)

31. 3 random facts

Blue is my favorite color, I own almost nothing in blue, people are better at identifying members of their own race better than members of other races.

32. Are your friends mainly girls or guys?

Girls- they’re easier to talk to and approach. Tho I stan and love my guy friends. They are kings.

33. Something you want to learn

Everything? Idk I have an insatiable desire to learn and it switches. Consistently, I want to learn how to make my own clothes, play either piano, guitar, or violin, and detail cars.

34. Most embarrassing moment

Uggg I’m not talking about it and neither is @calligraphywitch

35. Favorite subject

I really enjoyed Statistics as much as I have hated it. My all-time favorite class I have ever taken tho was AP US Literature

36. 3 dreams you want to fulfill?

Graduate grad school, get married, travel overseas

37. Favorite actor/actress

uhhh probably Chris Pratt or anyone who was on Parks and Recreation. Tho Broadway actors, I love Christian Borle

38. Favorite comedian(s)

John Mulaney

39. Favorite sport(s)

I miss playing softball and volleyball so prolly those

40. Favorite memory

There are too many to count. But usually, involve good conversations under the stars after 2 AM.

41. Relationship status

Have a picrew of my sister and me. Keep scrolling and mind ya business (jk ily anon)

42. Favorite book(s)

The Bible lol but fictional book wise, I will always love the Warrior Cats series. Red Queen was pretty lit. The Hourglass Door gave me a love for time travel aus lol. And Library Wars is near and dear to my heart.

43. Favorite song ever

You can’t ask me thisssss

Idk Hope is what we crave by For King and Country

44. Age you get mistaken for

24-30 it depends on the context

45. How you found out about your idol

@calligraphywitch

46. What my last text message says

No xD not disney

47. Turn-ons

When you have a musical playing and the end of one song is the start of another so they bleed into each other. CHILLS or when a line of poetry just expresses how someone feels. OR when different parts harmonize just right

48. Turn-offs

When my computer deletes my homework right before it’s done

49. Where I want to be right now

In a little cabin in the woods

50. Favorite picture of your idol

51. Starsign

Scorpio

52. Something I’m talented at

Reading peoples emotions

53. 5 things that make me happy

Music, Friends, Deep Conversations, Hugs, and God

54. Something that's worrying me at the moment

So much to do so much to see

55. Tumblr friends

Friends and mutuals include:

@calligraphywitch @an-assortment-of-forks @repentance-brings-healing @synthetic-blanket-hairs @loneallegiance @boywiththewand @knightof-cups @a-lil-strawberry @linkedwolf @indygo @obnoxioushair

There’s plenty more than that and I love you all ^^

56. Favorite food(s)

Tacos, Crab Ragoons, Salty Foods, RICE

57. Favorite animal(s)

Wolves and cats

58. Description of my best friend

Artistic, beautiful, supportive, hardworking. She is hilarious and an amazing person. There’s so much to the many reasons I love her I just can’t do it in words

59. Why I joined tumblr

Back in the 7th grade, my friends all had one and helped set me up with one. And that’s that.

60. Ask me anything you want

You want nothing ig lol if you want to submit one I can answer it still

[cat-boy-will]

Offical intro post maybe?

idk i just figured i prolly should

hi

im Will,, aka doomerboy , doomboy , emoboy , catboy , eboy, wojak, wtv tf else

pronouns in order of most to least preferred:

Nya/Nyan/Nyas

He/Him/His

Kit/Kit/Kits

They/Them/Theirs

🖤/🖤self (online only ofc no one rly uses these but itd be nice if you could occasionally)

uhhhh im a DID system memetive which is an introject from a meme

kinda like a fictive but for memes

introjects are alters who form as something from the outerworld btw so fictives are fictional characters , factives are real people , there can be pet introjects , memes (me) , stuff like that

idk where i was going with this but hi

ive only been around forrrr,,,,a month as of writing this i think

idk exactly how long ago Nov 14th 2020 is from today

anywhoo we're a polyfragmented system whichhh,,,as of writing this means 250+ alts according to the hosts,,,,,,,,yikes but ok /hj

im very gay and also very disabled lmao,,,,,lets see,,my brain isssss,,,,,depression , dyslexia , gender dysphoria , body dysmorphia , insomnia , frequent night terrors , sleep paralysis ,,, so lotsa fun /s pls use tone indicators and be patient w/ me and expect me to completely misinterpret ltrly everything

general tw for this page uhhhh,,,,idk im not a trauma holder so idk what might be triggering for people im just here to hold emotions lol,,,anyway dont yell at me if u get triggered,,ill try to put content warnings and trigger warnings on shit so dont blame me if u ignore em,,,,but lmk if something triggers u so i can add one if there isnt one,,

,and no i dont include discomfort,,idrc if something just makes u rly uncomfy,,,im kind of a low empath but damn i got a lotta my own emotions huh,,i care a lot ab ur triggers tho plz tell me if something is triggering bc triggers are so uncool

anyway idk what u expect from me but it better not be much bc i will NOT meet ur standards

no im not satire and no i dont support endos sry,,,i just wanna vibe n maybe make friends idk

im high as shit goodnight folks

[hinamie]

tagged by @warmyukis tysm !! ilu and your blog hh <3

I won’t tag anyone but feel free to do this if you’d like !

1. name: hina 2. nickname: this is exposing me since hina is just the name i go by online ghdfsg most of my nicknames r based off my real name ,, but q @catzai calls me hinabean sometimes and i love it a lot it makes me heart warm  3. zodiac sign: taurus  4. height: 5′5″  5. languages: english, french (i always feel like a fraud when i say i can speak french bc i don’t try hard enough to like Actually speak,, but i can read pretty well and understand if u talk real slow!)

6. nationality: canadian born and raised babeyyyy  7. favourite season: spring and also early fall before the leaves get soggy and the weather gets depressing  8. favorite flower: orchids or buttercups or cherry blossoms !! 9. favourite scent: coffee beans omg every time we open a new bag @ work i am compelled by an otherworldly force to stick my face in it and inhale 10. favourite colour: maroon (to wear) and pale pink (to look at!) 11. favourite animal: cat!!!!!!

12. favourite fictional character: i hav so many i feel bad tht i can’t list everyone but for the sake of this i’ll go with shorter </3 miss u bby :’(( 

13. coffee, tea, or hot chocolate: uhhhh it’s a tossup between coffee and tea i drink sosososo much of both lmao it just depends on my Moode,, hot chocolate is good but im lack toes and tolerant and it’s one of those drinks that almond milk rly doesn’t do justice :(  14. average sleep hours: oh god my sleep schedule is beyond fucked but when it Wasn’t i averaged about 6.5 hours! 15. dog or cat person: cat !!! !! who am i if not a cat person 16. number of blankets you sleep with: 3,, one duvet one ??? decorative slightly stiff top blanket?? and one fluffy throw blanket which i love dearly 17. dream trip: i don’t get much of an urge to travel but i’d love to go to france with my friend group !! also want 2 visit japan one day :’) 

18. blog established: 2012 gjhdfgjhsfgdjn  19. followers: 21.4k lmao idk what y’all r still doing here but ty <3 20. random fact: i’ve been playing the same fucking anime rhythm game for 7 years 

[stillthesunkenstars]

tag game

tagged by @sparklingdocta ,tysm!!!

name: ivq online, ivy irl

nickname: ...rat??? Bc I call myself a rat often enough

zodiac: virgo

height: 167cm

languages: chinese and english tho I suck shit at writing in both

nationality: y this so nosy lmao (anyways chinese

favourite season: autumn

favourite flower: uhhh idk but I do like the smell of osmanthus (??? I found the English name on wikipedia) and osmanthus candy are some good good shit

favourite scent: ikea vanilla candles, metal, gasoline and smoke are some of my guilty pleasures,,, I don’t really care about liking smells otherwise?

favourite color: Black, crimson, #bca92a, #1d4852, #9c9d95 look idk their names ok

favourite animal: snails and cats

favourite fictional character: uhhhh😳👀 I simp for brax obviously, benny Jason and Bev are close seconds, and I would die for saria and ifrit arknights

coffee, tea or hot chocolate: tea all the way, coffee is like shitty tea I don’t like it That much but it does the job of keeping me awake

dog or cat person: cat

# number of blankets: one in summer 2 in winter

dream trip: i would love to go to Versailles??? For brax reasons of course, also going to japan during winter sounds rly ideal

blog established: around 2017

followers: 376 on art 366 on main😔😔 tbh I just don’t get it why do my art blog have half of the followers I have on lofter and I had this blog for about for twice as long as I have an account there

random fact: i have a rly short attention span and my last post (art) is like. Literally the first time I settled down and painted?? Holy shit

now tag 20 people!

Uhhh if you want to do this pls feel as if I’ve tagged you ;D

[isa-ghost]

Achievements Unlocked?

The last decade has COMPLETELY shaped who I am now and the fact that it ends today and essentially sends me off into the next one where turning 30 is the end is something I can’t wrap my head around and not just bc it’s barely 9am as I’m writing it. Ten years hasn’t felt like ten years and all the shit that’s happened during those ten years feels like it’s happened in the last like,,, 3.

Basically this is just me going How The Fuck Did All Of This Happen In A Decade and highlighting the big things that shaped who I am now.

Uhhh this is long I’m gonna-

2010/2011 (Shit’s A Blur):

I started noticing aesthetic interests I had.

I developed my love for the outdoors and exploration.

I started realizing vaguely spooky things were really intriguing to me.

I got SUPER into Harry Potter.

Which lead to me creating my first two Ocs.

I started switching from drawing animals/landscapes to drawing people.

I made my first cluster of friends I hoped I’d have forever. (Spoiler alert: only still have one of em).

2012:

I started identifying with punk rock & emo culture/aesthetics.

I made my first cluster of online friends (Spoiler alert: don’t talk to any of em now)

I got into YouTubers.

I got into anime.

I made my first “blog.” It was a Facebook page for a fictional character.

I discovered my favorite band.

I made my first online friend I hoped I’d have forever (still have em so far!)

I met my future wife.

I started roleplaying with Ocs.

Which lead to making more.

I started drawing digitally using bases. Which started my improvement.

I made my own first little community via my FB page.

Which lead to an rp group of more friends I hoped I’d have forever (still got a handful of em!)

I discovered my other favorite bands.

I started using Skype.

I got into more anime.

My parents were officially fully separated. 

Which began the very start of realizing my dad was verbally abusive.

Congrats Isa, You Need Glasses You Dumb Fuck. Hooray astigmatism.

I graduated 8th grade.

2013:

I was essentially forced to move in with my dad for high school.

I started high school.

Officially became total anime trash and started watching them like crazy.

I THINK I hit 100 Ocs at some point this year. Just kept makin them from here.

Met my first cluster of irl forever friends (spoiler alert: only have 1 now).

Learned having Ocs was Not Just An Isa Thing, Holy Shit I Thought I Was Just Weird.

Promptly fell in love with learning about other people’s Ocs.

Realized Wow, I Kinda Can’t Stand My Dad And I Don’t Trust Him.

Had my first boyfriend. *gag* He was nasty.

Experienced my first long distance relationship. It lasted 3 days.

2014/2015 (Shit’s Also Blurry):

Got another long distance boyfriend. First relationship I genuinely liked the person.

I realized talking multiple people through the lowest points of their lives and keeping them from harming themselves was a sign I should maybe get into psychology and do that as a job.

I started getting interested in researching mental disorders.

Realized Okay Yeah, I Lowkey Hate My Dad

Realized I had A Concerning Amount Of Symptoms Of Depression. Fuck.

Realized Huh, Girls Are Pretty Too,,,

My friend taught me about bi and pansexuality. Casually started identifying as pan. Didn’t know shit about LGBT+ stuff.

Was shown a video by my friend. Decided Wow I Really Like This Screaming Potato Guy.

Acquired one more forever friend I still have.

Got slapped in the face by Gravity Falls.

My mom moved out of the rural town I just spent the last like 8 Years Of My Own Character Development In, Dammit

I realized money and finances Fucking Sucks.

Had the,, probably worst year of my adolescence. Angry, depressed, sick of my dad. It was Not Great. Almost started self-harming, only didn’t because I’d be a hypocrite if I did after helping my friends stop doing it.

Homestuck invaded my life around here I think.

Decided I’m Gonna Live With My Online Friends One Day! (spoiler alert: nope).

Was kinda forced by my dad to move out of the apartment I lived in and therefore forced to transfer schools.

Got to meet my future wife irl for the first time. Wow that was,, so gay before we even realized.

Okay Hold On, This New School Is,,, Really Nice.

2016:

New school. New me. New friends. New everything. Fuckity shit fuck.

Okay wait they have an anime club like my other school did we good.

Met another two forever friends that I think really are forever friends now.

Angry Shitty Depression Time Died Down A Little.

Somehow learned about evilsonas. Huh, Does Jack Have One? ... Ok Cool, They’re All People’s Ocs. Meh.

Started learning how to drive. Oh My God This Is Fun.

Lost my second ever pet and was... very confused when I wasn’t as traumatized as I was the first time I lost a pet.

Boyfriend kinda Thanos snapped from existence bc his irl life was hectic.

Experienced what it’s like to have a friend that died.

Wow my irl best friend is hot. ... Okay I Think Boyfriend’s Absence Is Bothering Me. *proceeds to ignore that*

Gets into some more bands.

Knock Knock, You Have Separation Anxiety, Isa.

Finally decided to try out high school things like homecoming. Ooh That Was Actually Fun.

The beginning of the worst end to a friendship I’ve ever had starts. Not Handling It Well.

Discovered Fooster. Cue hyperfixation on new favorite YouTuber and more new friends.

Wait What The Fuck What Just Happened To Jack’s Camera,,,, OH MY GOD HE ISN’T-

HE IS. OH FUCK HE IS. MMMMHELLO KNIFE MAN.

Totally forgets he exists for the next like 10 months.

Realization I Really Fucking Love Halloween.

Discovered what asexuality is and immediately identifies because I thought I was just weird.

Hmm maybe I should start watching this Markiplier guy

Big Sad Times, My Friends Graduated. Next Year Gonna SUCK.

Tried out Dungeons & Dragons. Fuckin loved it.

2017:

Ah fuck I’m a senior in high school this is gonna be a trip.

Discovered I like photography.

Literally where did this school year go it’s so blurry.

Was convinced to end the relationship with boyfriend. He’s still a good bean.

Hey uhhhh online best friend do u big gay.

WE big gay.

Found a book I really like that isn’t Harry Potter, damn it’s about time.

Ok But This Book Really Fucked Me Up, I Love It.

OH FUCK WAIT I’M GRADUATING HIGH SCHOOL.

Oh that wasn’t so bad.

Actually had to be PUSHED by my friends to have my first kiss with my girlfriend at my graduation party because I was too busy going [dkasjdjf] about having her physically in my presence at all.

First super memorable vacation. Wow I Fucking Love Traveling.

Got to meet another online friend!! I am,, incredibly lucky about being able to do that, this was like the 4th friend I got to meet.

[That one motion blur conspiracy theorist meme] SABRINA IM TELLING U JACK IS UP TO SOMETHING HIS TWITTER IS FUCKY

Gets punched in the throat with Kill Jacksepticeye on the way home from vacation and remembers how much I fucking love Anti

TIME FOR COLLEGE. I made a mistake.

TIME FOR COMMUNITY COLLEGE. Much Better.

Friend I Still Have From High School 1/2 introduced me to Bendy and the Ink Machine. HYPERFIXATION TIME BABEY.

Let’s,,, lets try Tumblr. Jack exists there a lot. And so does good art of everything I’m interested in.

Wait Who’s This Baby With The Mustache, JACK EXPLAIN

Okay there’s More Going On Here, lets get active in the community.

WHY THE FUCK IS THERE SECURITY FOOTAGE. THIS IS SKETCH. THIS ISOH MOTHERFUCKER ITS ANTI

Isa: Become Theorist

The rest is history, really, all stuff I’ve posted about on here. xD

And knowing me I’ve left out other highlighted bits but remembering all of this is,,, really exhausting lmao, I’m surprised I jotted down as much as I did in Relatively Chronological Order.

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GET TO KNOW THE BLOGGER.

Can be used to get to know a bit about the person behind the screen!

TAGGED BY: @skulldxddy​​ AYYYEEEE TAGGING: @pcrticlvcid​, @flos-timore​, @ofspoons​, @chainsxwsmile​, @builtperil​, uhhH YALL

1. FIRST NAME: Adrian

2. STRANGE FACT ABOUT YOURSELF: I collect hats. I own 54 hats. I wear like 4 of those.

3. TOP THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU FIND ATTRACTIVE ON A PERSON: This HARD. On one hand bein ace doesn’t mean I can’t think people are attractive, on the other I experience all things in extremes so most people are really boring to look at to the point I never remember any details about their appearance (”like my hair cut?” “you.... you got a hair cut?”), or they’re very very noteworthy and I can no longer function in their presence (cause i wanna stare at them but thattts weird). 

But lemme tell ya, I compliment people regularly, so here’s 3 things I notice and point out about people: Cool Hair, Unique Aesthetic (fashion, be it a singular accessory or every goth/gnc i ever meet--), Height (tols impress). 

4. A FOOD YOU COULD EAT FOREVER AND NOT GET BORED OF: Sushi probably.

5. A FOOD YOU HATE: Mushrooms. Neurhg,,,

6. GUILTY PLEASURE: the devils lettuce................ And idk K-D.rama? 

7. WHAT DO YOU SLEEP IN: Depends on the temperature. COLD: Leggings, pajama pants, sweater, beanie. HOT: shorts tanktop.

8. SERIOUS RELATIONSHIPS OR FLINGS: uHGHUHGH,,, every relationship I’ve ever had was short and terrible. let’s go with fliiings! thats what I need in my life. a commitment free cuddle buddy. 

9. IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN THE PAST AND CHANGE ONE THING ABOUT YOUR LIFE, WOULD YOU AND WHAT WOULD IT BE: You know there’s a lot of shit in my past that can’t be stopped, but RECENT PAST? WHY DID I SPEND ALL MY SCHOLARSHIP MONEY LIKE I DID. I COULDA MADE HELLA SAVINGS!! I WAS GETTING 5K A SEMESTER!! AND I SPENT IT! ON! FOOD AND SHIT! i had a job at the same time, my parents were still working, I do not see why I was spending any of that semester money man I smh I oughta kick my past selves a ss.... 

10. ARE YOU AN AFFECTIONATE PERSON: I yearn to be. I’m incredibly repressed and insecure currently, and I’m not sure if that’s going to change when I’m less depressed or if I’m gonna have to rebuild that skill. But I used to be the kind of person to hold hands with my best friend, snuggle during sleepovers, give hugs and kisses, sit close and link arms, generally just be super cuddly-- It’s how I like to be, but I think at some point I just started to assume people didn’t like it so I stopped. SUCKs Butt. 

11. A MOVIE YOU COULD WATCH OVER AND OVER AGAIN: I watched mimzy over and over again as a kid, but nowadays, none, no, I can’t, I don’t have that aTTENTION SPAN--- 

12. FAVORITE BOOK: UHhhhhhhhhhhhh,,,,,,,, i have not read a book in a while, my old favorite book might not be as good as I remember. 

13. YOU HAVE THE OPPORTUNITY TO KEEP ANY ANIMAL AS A PET, WHAT DO YOU CHOOSE: Raccoon. 

14. TOP FIVE FICTIONAL SHIPS [IF YOU ARE AN RP BLOG, YOU CAN USE YOUR OWN SHIPS AS WELL]: Lets go nonxs based on my recent media consumption--- Chel.lDOS (redemption tailoring), Zifeng/Yanuo, Kirk/Spock, HarleyQ/KickinAss, UhHhh, okay and ClayJack my ultimate Jack ship I will crave for infinity...

15. PIE OR CAKE: Cake. Cheesecake specifically, but CAKE. Pie only has so many flavors I’ll actually eat. 

16. FAVORITE SCENT: OOHhh GoDdd... I’m doing aromatherapy right now (another strange fact), so there’s a lot of good scents in my life... I really like sweets? Like I have a cotton candy body mist, and I like my smores candles.

17. CELEBRITY CRUSH: UHhhh....... UHHHHHH????? That feeling when you are so far out of the cult of celebrity.... Like I know some, mostly ones from Marvel, but I wouldn’t call em crushes. Can I say Whoopi Goldberg in the Sister Act? She was really pretty in that movie (so was the red haired nun). And I really liked those movies as a kid. 

18. IF YOU COULD TRAVEL ANYWHERE, WHERE WOULD YOU GO: The easy one to say would be Japan.... but to visit some of my online friends would be even better! Honestly, I find just going grocery shopping with my friend to be an adventure, I am sure visiting any of my friends in their hometowns, be they cities or small towns, I would find every day exciting. I have deep puppy energies. 

19. INTROVERT OR EXTROVERT: Introvert. I get so tired, my friend has told me to take a nap mid-party before. But like, as you hear, I love parties. I super love socializing, but oof I do get drained. If I could sit with people, no-energy, no-obligation, free to chat or chill, that’d be the dream. And I have a lot of those with my best friend, except with the minor energy obligation of transportation and sometimes other people....

20. DO YOU SCARE EASILY: Incredibly. I’m a huge baby, incredibly squeamish, easily startled, easily paranoid. I’m scared of the dark still, I don’t watch horror movies unless the monster is sexy. 

21. IPHONE OR ANDROID: fuck em both, i still have iphone

22. DO YOU PLAY ANY VIDEO GAMES: I’m primarily a simulator/rpg/sandbox kind of gamer. Animal Crossing, Minecraft, WoW, Starbound, Sims 4... Yeah. I can’t even play Mario or Left 4 Dead very well but like I like them?? Game with meee, I don’t do that much, it would be fun tho,,,

23. DREAM JOB: If I’m god damn honest I hate the idea of a job deep down in my soul. Call it bein’ lazy but man I want my life to involve somethin more than making money to survive, that’s all I’ve ever done and I’d like to stop. But being able to help others, being a resource, brightening peoples day, being involved in something that enriches the world somehow. These kind of things make a good fit for work, and if it pays good, and I can build a routine around a solid schedule, then I guess I could live with whatever. 

24. WHAT WOULD YOU DO WITH A MILLION DOLLARS: Do the math for how much I need to survive for the rest of my life, bare minimum style, then cushion that a little. Buy myself and my friends some nice things. Start giving money to strangers. Funnel it into important things that need to get paid for. Quit my job, travel, get extensive therapy, join fucking causes I wish I had the physical & mental resources for now, finally be able to put my passion into things again. Lmao money can’t buy happiness my a s s.

25. FICTIONAL CHARACTER YOU HATE: hmmmmmmm........ hate it such a strong word. I just keep thinking of characters I LOVE to hate or like characters who are obviously hateable (intolerable villains). But I wanna pick one I genuinely dislike, deep down, for reasons. 

Lum.py from HTF,,, I just don’t like his design next to the rest. I mean I haven’t watched HTF in literal years but he came to mind.

26. FANDOM THAT YOU WERE ONCE A PART OF BUT AREN’T ANY LONGER: The Walking Dead / Game. Zombies just don’t really ??? click with me unless they have a gimmick now.

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GET TO KNOW THE BLOGGER.

Can be used for RP and non-RP blogs to get to know a bit about the person behind the screen!

1. FIRST NAME: i go by masha online :v

2. STRANGE FACT ABOUT YOURSELF: when i was five years old, my family and i lived in a nursing home :oc or a. i guess technically it was more of a. oh. i mean it was a nursing home, but it was one that was specifically Set Up to handle seniors and Others with. erm. psychological issues coughs

i still remember some of the residents, and i also remember occasionally helping out with some of them, too. you know. in Very Small Ways bc i was just barely Not a literal toddler lmao

3. TOP THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU FIND ATTRACTIVE ON A PERSON: uhhhfjfkea;gerrr???? i’m automatically drawn to noses for some reason, particularly if they’re. A Certain Shape. also eyebrows/eyelashes thinking emoji and uhhhhh idk i guess maybe hands/wrists?? idek dude i’m frickn asexual as hell lmao

4. A FOOD YOU COULD EAT FOREVER AND NOT GET BORED OF: so i usually say dumplings of any sort and from any cuisine (potstickers, ravioli, empanadas, pirozhki, steamed buns, u name it), but i was recently reminded that scotch eggs are A Thing and

inhales

5. A FOOD YOU HATE: HOMINY......... CAULIFLOWER............. whispers asparagus hhhhh i also can’t do stewed tomatoes oh g o d

6. GUILTY PLEASURE: right now it’s probably dollmakers and watching hetalia mmd videos on youtube lmao lies down

7. WHAT DO YOU SLEEP IN: whatever clothes i wore the day before finger guns

8. SERIOUS RELATIONSHIPS OR FLINGS: i mean probably neither, but if i had to choose, i’m. a little bit. ??? toward flings 6_6

9. IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN THE PAST AND CHANGE ONE THING ABOUT YOUR LIFE, WOULD YOU AND WHAT WOULD IT BE: g o d. the two biggest things i can think of are that i wouldn’t have dropped out of school rip i guess maybe in the long run it wouldn’t have changed much in the way of my schooling, but. idk. maybe i’d still have a friend or two rip

the other is that i wish i’d managed to live alone longer than i had

10. ARE YOU AN AFFECTIONATE PERSON: to those i know well, yes

11. A MOVIE YOU COULD WATCH OVER AND OVER AGAIN: fjife;a kung fu panda 2 lmao also honestly a lot of the x-men movies fall under this for some reason

12. FAVORITE BOOK: a little princess, house of leaves, on the beach, and almost anything by h.g. wells, but especially war of the worlds. also i can’t not mention the secret garden and little women

13. YOU HAVE THE OPPORTUNITY TO KEEP ANY ANIMAL AS A PET, WHAT DO YOU CHOOSE: i mean, i admit i am the type of person who is inordinately happy keeping dogs as pets bc they pretty much hit every one of my Needs for a pet, but the idea of owning like. something really really Big and fluffy Sends Me ngl

WAIT LET ME COME IN DAYS LATER AND ADMIT THAT HAVING A PET SEAL WOULD PROBABLY BE MY DOWNFALL

14. TOP FIVE FICTIONAL SHIPS [IF YOU ARE AN RP BLOG, YOU CAN USE YOUR OWN SHIPS AS WELL]: oh lord UHHHH don’t judge me ok but my favorites are probablyyyy 

) beerus/whis (dragon ball) ) euroshipping kaiba/bakura (yugioh) ) sora/kairi/riku (kingdom hearts) ) i think it’s called stormshipping now?? fubuki/manjoume (yugioh gx) ) bad friends trio OT3 (hetalia)

y. yeah. tried to go with a Variety of different fandoms rip

15. PIE OR CAKE: whichever one cheesecake counts as >8| but honestly probably pie, bc i frickn love pumpkin pie, chocolate silk pie, lemon meringue pie, cherry pie, key lime pie, hershey’s cookies & cream pie-- i mean the list is practically endless lmao

16. FAVORITE SCENT: SO MANY. cucumber melon, aloe vera, lysol, rubbing alcohol, BLEACH......... sweet pea, gardenia, actual rose, actual vanilla, ginger, white tea g o d you will find me literally standing in the soap and body wash aisle for a good thirty to forty-five minutes just smelling what they offer there lmao......................

17. CELEBRITY CRUSH: idk uhhhh weird al? lmao

18. IF YOU COULD TRAVEL ANYWHERE, WHERE WOULD YOU GO: I WANT TO GO TO RUSSIA SOMEDAY but also i’d love to revisit sorrento and capri and florence and assisi 

19. INTROVERT OR EXTROVERT: in the middle-ish but leaning somewhat heavily toward introvert :v

20. DO YOU SCARE EASILY: i am a very Jumpy person lmao but. other than that, it really depends on what you’re doing to scare me thinking emoji history has shown me i tend to keep a cool head in emergencies

21. IPHONE OR ANDROID: telegram. ya whippersnapper *tapdances out*

22. DO YOU PLAY ANY VIDEO GAMES: at the moment? no orz but i still consider myself fans of games like animal crossing, kingdom hearts, twewy, uhhhhh monster hunter, super smash brothers, MARIO KART.... and also majora’s mask is probably my all-time favorite game thinking emoji

i’m also a big fan of star fox and any number of survival horror games, but they’re generally too Difficult for me to actually play rip

23. DREAM JOB: god for probably like ten years or more i’ve dreamed of being a comic creator lies down i’ve pretty much given up on that one tho. but i’d also just Love being able to do something related to drawing-- especially in animation. i also will always mourn not being able to be a teacher bc i love the act itself of teaching, but. well. mornings and me Do Not Mix. so. when i’m feeling more practical, the truth is i want very much to be a hospice nurse

24. WHAT WOULD YOU DO WITH A MILLION DOLLARS: l o r d firST THING-- get my education squared up and out of the way >:u and probably also pay off my student debt i already have. hrmmm. maybe buy a house. definitely move out, that’s for sure. take my mom to italy and/or ireland

25. FICTIONAL CHARACTER YOU HATE: iiiiiii. er. i mean, i can’t think of any off the top of my head?? i don’t tend to hate characters tbh scratches head the most i get is neutral toward them lmao

26. FANDOM THAT YOU WERE ONCE A PART OF BUT AREN’T ANY LONGER: well. i kinda tend to cycle through old fandoms, so i can’t really think of any that i was once part of that i also have no interest whatsoever in going back to

i guess there’s some that i hesitate to get drawn too deeply into, just bc of their reputations or. honestly sometimes just bc i’m Just Not That Into It lmao

i could maaaybe put star wars here? bc it was technically my very first fandom back when i was like ten years old and the phantom menace had just come out fjfie;ahg YES I AM THAT OLD SHHH i was really into it at the time, and i still enjoy the universe itself and all, but. i can’t say i’ve felt compelled to really Join The Fandom

tagged by. whispers stolen from @sakuraari​

[niyes-lahiffe]

Get to know me!

I was tagged by the fantabulous @orangebunnit​ like FOREEEEEVER AGO IM SO SORRY LMAO and I thought this would be a good opportunity for my followers to know me better!

Are you named after someone?

Nope! My mom just really like the name Rachel lmao but I was going to be named Taylor. The only reason she didn’t name me that was because my aunt said SHE was going to name her daughter Taylor and then she ended up naming her child Hannah haha rip but my brother married a Taylor so it was destined anyway lol

When was the last time you cried?

uhhhh probably listening to You are The Reason again hrjkthekrhjke

Do you have kids?

Unless you count my fictional children and my adopted sophomore kids, no

Do you use sarcasm a lot?

pffffft no yes

actually when I’m talking irl I use sarcasm quite a bit but I don’t use it a lot online bc 1. it’s kinda hard to interpret sarcasm through text and 2. I try to keep it positive

What’s the first thing you notice about people?

I’ve never really thought about it rhjthg probably their hair? yeah the hair

Eye color?

it’s kind of hard to describe haha they’re green-gray-blue?? mostly green

Scary Movie or Happy Ending?

HAPPY ENDING ARE YOU KIDDING I AM SUCH A SUCKER FOR FLUFF. Literally all I write is basic shenanigans and plotless fluff

Any Special Talents?

I’ve developed a knack for baking and I would love to get better! And I guess I’m the only artist in my family haha so I consider that a talent

When were you born?

July 14th ;)

What are your hobbies?

weeeelll I like to write and draw and I also really reeeally want to get into editing but I currently have no programs on my computer for it rip but hopefully soon!

Do you have any pets?

two beautiful cats who are complete nuts and I love them to death

How tall are you?

5′5, literally the most average you can get lma o

What sports do you play/have you played?

I played soccer for 5 years in elementary but no man I SUUUUUCK at ALL sports. I’m not athletic in the slightest brhtberjhtg

Favorite Subject?

My fave was always art growing up but I’ve kind of...avoided taking it now bc I like to work at my own pace and it’s just a hobby, i’m not interested in making it a career or anything. Art is complicated. As of now, I took a digital media class and it was so fun. That’s really what got me into wanting to edit heh

Dream Job?

BRUH I WOULD LOVE TO BE A VOICE ACTOR!! I want to become a character for a cartoon that would be so much  f u n

aaaand I’ll be tagging anyone that wants to do it ;)

[abigailht]

😈😈😈 you know what i want. coz bitch, if I’m about to answer all of these fucking questions you can be damn sure I’m gunna try and make you answer them all too! Operation Ultimate Nosey commence!!! XXXX

Oh God, no you didn’t xD But I shall not refuse since I gave you the same monstrous ask, wahhaah (you better do it!)

of course here will also be the answers to your asks @desushoard and @scramblingminds and that anon xD cause apparently, I’m answering them all! xD

keep reading if you want xD this is gunna be very personal (and probably boring, lol)

Autumnal Asks

lantern - how did you meet your best friend? What were your first impressions of each other?

I had so many “best friends” in my life, cause I’m not 12 anymore, lol. One was a childhood friend. One I met at 7th grade, she saved me from having to sit alone in a new class when she asked me if I want to sit with her while I was standing around, unsure of what to do, cause I had no friends. Another I met online, we hated each other from the beginning so much, we would fight all the time in the forum and everyonen would hold their breath xD then we turned into bffs when we found out we had so much in common. classic teenagers, lol. now we don’t talk anymore really. Then I turned 20 and… I don’t think I have thought about friends in “best friend” terms anymore. As you can see, I sadly don’t have one friend that stayed in my life permanently, as they romantisize it in tv shows and movies… well :D

frost - if you could give some advice to your younger self, what would you say?

STOP BEING SILENT. STAND UP FOR YOURSELF. DO WHATEVER YOU WANT. What I regret the most is that I didn’t pursue things because of anxiety and insecurities… ugh. 

maple - is there a hobby / skill that you’ve always wanted to try but never did?

SEWING! and design. I mean… I did sew little things, so I can’t say I have never tried… but I didn’t pursue it. It would be so cool to design and sew your own clothes! 

harvest - what fictional character do you most identify with? Why?

Daryl Dixon. Lol. Because we are both insecure, anxious, emo potatoes who go through long periods of times hating themselves for no real reason… sighhh *hugs daryl* Also I headcanon him as gray-ace, which I identify myself as… soooo, if you write him emo AND gray-ace, chances are that I’ll be all over your characterization lmao. 

fireside - if you had your dream wardrobe, what would it look like?

The Instagram of a Hipster XD 

cider - a food that you disliked as a child but now enjoy?

Pumpkin! Hated it until I turned 20. Now I LUV it. 

amber - share an unpopular opinion that you may have.

That people under the Asexual umbrella belong to the LGBT community XD 

fog - how well do you think you’d do in a zombie apocalypse scenario?

I’m a doctor, so I’d be valuable and expect others to protect me! XD altho if you go by tv-shows and movies, doctors die first for dramatic value. so… y’all better protect my ass! But I’m not very athletic, so I’d die trying to run away because I’d have an asthma attack after 1 min of trying to run away and give up. (so you better PROTECT ME! XD)

jack-o-lantern - if you could look like any celebrity, who would you choose?

Emily Didonato!

spice - have you ever encountered a house that you believed to be haunted?

Nah.

orchard - share one thing that you’d like to happen this autumn.

Me being able to draw again. Me being able to sleep again. Getting healthy…

crow - which school subject do you wish you had an aptitude for?

P.E. XD I was good with all the other stuff, I was an A student lol ~ except for P.E. xD

bonfire - describe your dream house.

Like the ones I built in Sims 2 + 3. Big, spacious, has a pool, has a fireplace, has room for hobbies and a gym and a little cinema and a huge garden.

cinnamon - if you had to live in a time period different than the present, which would you choose and where?

A time in which there is no racism anymore and women and LGBT have equal rights and people are paid what they deserve and wealth is spread more equally among the folks and not just owned by the 0,0000001% of humankind (who are white and most probably male).

Find that time, beam me there, Scotty. Thank.

cobweb - (if you’ve graduated) do you miss high school?

YES. It was easy, easy, easyyyyy. I hated the social aspect of it cause I mostly didn’t have many friends… I was the nerd outcast and people were racist partly, so mostly I pretended to be reading LOTR or something in the breaks so I didn’t have to feel bad for no one talking to me xD BUT so much free time!!!!!! and so EASY. So definitely: YES.

cranberry - what’s one physical feature that you get complimented on?

I guess it’s my eyes. They are fanfic-green. Lmao.

maize - share the weirdest encounter you’ve had with a stranger on the street.

uhhhh only a negative encounter comes to my mind, and I don’t wanna talk about it. 

quilt - how do you take your tea (or coffee)?

with my mouth? like what kind of question is this XD I don’t put anything in it. no sugar or milk or anything. black coffee or just plain tea. 

pumpkin - do you think that humans are inherently good or bad?

uhm. I think they are both. I think the more powerful, the more the bad side of them comes to the surface… I think humans are both and have to work for being good. they have to make active choices. nice people are admirable because they CHOOSE to be nice. that’s tough work, and not many appreciate it, and you still end up being blocked on tumblr, lol. being a dick is easy. and chances are, that bad people will make it farther in life because they have less scruples…

moonlit - are you a neat or messy person? Is your room / house orderly?

Messy xD I try to be neat… buuuttt…

flannel - have you ever gone on a bad date?

I have never gone on a date in the first place. No one wants to date me, lol. So… no xD

cocoa - if you could have any type of hair, what colour and cut would you have?

CURLY BIG AND VOLUMONOUS. I don’t care about the cut or colour. I have alopecia… so… I just want BIG HAIR T_T (okay, NORMAL hair would do it too. I’d be perfectly fine with just normal hair T_T)

ghost - is there someone that you miss having in your life?

Friends who drifted apart from me over time.

THERE, scraming lady @neekanoo, I DID IT!! Now it’s your turn!!! :P

Let’s turn this from Ask meme into a Tag meme, shall we??? XD WAHAHAHAHA I KNOW ITS A LOT AND I DO NOT CARE! Don’t do it if you don’t wanna

I am tagging: @desushoard @toorational @canoncannon @bisexualstarbucky @scramblingminds @vbabe14 @d-j-marlowe @greyhoundsgirl @tpayne-legendary @captainameriqueer @syrabylene @its-me-theicequeen @iiloulouii @maren-believesinsherlock @youremyfanart @lasvegasfabulous @desus-trash @anxiety-instinct @oneofthegoodthings @merrymerricat @sergeant-barnes @just-whelmed @fuzzydaddygrimes @fullm3tal-bucky @remuslupinsmiled @citofonaremeedes @jendavisjendavis @drcloyd @desus-shipper idk who else, if you see this and want then do it and tag me back ok! XD 

[kyuji]

Rules: Answer the twenty questions and then tag twenty people you want to get to know better! Tagged by @snockpuppet <3

Name: Ichi [tho I somehow want to change my name lately;;]

Zodiac Sign: Sagittarius

Height: 167cm

Languages Spoken: German, English

Nationality: german

Favorite Fruit: banana, raspberry, mango

Favorite Scent: charcoal, freshly dyed hair, patchouli, dead matches

Favorite Color: a lot of red tones, pastel red/pink, mauve [lmao], dark green

Favorite Animal: cats and birds

Coffee, Tea, or Hot Chocolate: coffee!

Favorite Fictional Character(s): Jesse McCree, Gladiolus Amicitia, Ardyn Izunia, Enji Todoroki/Endeavor, ... ah, look at my cc and f/o lists I guess;;;

Dream Trip: I'll stay at home;;; joke, maybe a quick weekend trip over to France or Italy. Also: Japan. And Ireland!

When Was Your Blog Created: uhh 2011 or 2012??

Last Movie Seen: hmm... the second half of Kung Fu Panda, lmao

Songs You’ve Had On Repeat:

Tove Lo - True Disaster Make My Story - Lenny code fiction The Apprentice - Gorillaz Daddy Issues - Trisha Paytas

Favorite Candy: kinder choco fresh. and quarkis!

Favorite Holiday: Halloween! bc I love autumn and spooky stuff!

Random Fact About You One: I got... DADDY ISSUEEEEESSS~~

Random Fact About You Two: Am I too depressed or lazy? Either way, I am living in this room since 2012 and I still haven't unpacked everything. My room is filled with moving boxes.

Random Fact About You Three: I have two moods: Being too pinchy to buy myself anything to eat bc I'd rather save my money and spending money I don't have on merchandise and things I don't need. Whenever I'm a specifically bad mood I'll order so many useless things online.

Tagging: uhhhh........ @konferminzeinhorn @valphire @azur--a @dokiquents @kimbleefucker @d0nna-ake @nyandereofficial @rennuee @dragongambler @miinyya this is enough for now!!!!

[surveys-at-your-service]

Survey #299

“you look so beautiful tonight  /  reminds me how you laid us down and gently smiled before you destroyed my life.”

Ever done any drugs? Besides alcohol, no. How many people have you kissed? Three or four. What’s your favorite show to binge? I could only ever willingly *binge* Meerkat Manor and not get bored after like, two episodes. Do you watch porn? No, it's never appealed to me. What’s one of your fantasies? Being financially stable. :^) Do you have/would you get your nipples pierced? I've lightly considered getting one, but I really doubt I ever will. What’s the most overrated movie? /shrug. Let people like what they like. Tag someone you want to talk to but have been too shy to message. I'd love to get to know my Facebook acquaintance Courtlynn better; I've wanted to for a long time. I think we could be fantastic friends. We'll like each other's stuff regularly and occasionally leave comments, but we don't really talk. Do you like paper books or ebooks better? Paper ones, by a long shot. I just really like the feeling of a book and being able to clearly see how far in you are. I enjoy the smell and sound of turning pages. If you could live in a fictional world, what world would you pick? Probably Wonderland, realistically. I would say Azeroth, but too much world-threatening shit goes on every day lol. If money was no object, what would your wardrobe be like? G O T H Do you still have feelings for any of your exes? Yep. Do you drink? Very, very rarely. Almost exclusively during celebrations or on the once in a blue moon occasion we go to a sit-down restaurant. Do you read erotica? No. It would make me super uncomfortable. What color was the last candle you lit? I don't remember at all. Do you own a treadmill? No, but I want one. Have you ever signed up for a gym membership? Well, not exactly me. Mom and Nicole both had memberships to Planet Fitness, and I was able to come as a guest. It was just cheaper that way. What color was the last fish you had? That I owned or ate? Either way, idr. Is there a garbage can in your room? What color is it? No. If you play The Sims, do you download custom clothes, hair, etc? I don't play it. Does your animal sleep with you? Roman does, yes. He legitimately spoons with me lmao. Sometimes he'll move to the bottom of the bed, other times he'll sleep through most of the night there. Have you ever had to wear a hairnet? Yes. What is your favorite song to play on Guitar Hero or Rock Band? "Hotel California" by The Eagles on expert is so much fun and just feels good. The ending solo is just great. When you drink chocolate milk do you just buy the jug of it or the syrup that you can put into the milk? Almost always just the chocolate syrup. Do you own a robe? What color is it? No. What’s the worst abuse you have done to your phone? I know I've thrown it across the room once. Well, not my current phone, but a really old one. How did you meet your first love? High school. Well, you could maybe say Facebook. He sent me a friend request and I literally only accepted it because I thought it was another Jason. We talked via messenger some and then we ran into each other at school, and tbh I kinda knew I was fucked from there lmao. Have you ever worn the opposite sex’s underwear? I don't believe so, no. Have you ever kissed in a pool? Yeah. Are there any hobbies you have that you don’t perform in front of others? I absolutely cannot write in front of others, and I HATE drawing when people are watching. What do you do when you simply don’t know what to do? Odds are I'll probably be scraping the bottom of the barrel to find something in WoW that sounds even remotely fun, or I'll browse Facebook. How did you find out about your current favorite band? He's one of my mom's favorite singers/bands, so I grew up with some of his music, and when I was getting into rock and metal, I decided to go through her music case and listen to some of it. Ozzy's Black Rain album set the adoration into motion. Where are you most likely to go when you need clothing? The Internet or Wal-Mart, depending on what kind of clothes I need. When was the last time you tried to do something yet failed? I should have an answer for this very quickly... yet I'm unsure. I don't think anything *major* has happened in a while. Oh, this is a tiny thing, but I did look really hard for the pencil sharpener so my niece could finish coloring her drawing, but I couldn't find the damn thing for anything. Do you think your life is comprised more of success or failure? Lots and lots of failure. What’s one personality trait that’s not strong in you? Uhhh outgoing, ig. Are you a difficult individual to get to know? Considering I hide a lot about myself to try and be accepted, yes. When was the last time you opened up to someone and about what? Literally yesterday to my mom about this unreasonably massive fear I've had lately that she doesn't have much longer in her. I'm terrified she's going to get COVID or her cancer just comes back faster than we hope. To whom do you feel the most important? My mom. Is there something you want but might not ever have? Many things. What’s something you’re working to obtain? Mental stability. Do you tend to enjoy your dreams? No, considering they're usually violent and rarely just psychotic nightmares. Are there any projects or goals you’ve recently abandoned? Hm. What in life serves to keep you going? The hope it'll get better, and I'll reach a point of actually being happy and content with my life. What was the last good news you received? Nicole's trip to Maryland to bring back a baby was successful (if that sounds weird, she's a child social worker). He has a heart condition where if his heartbeat or something like that was irregular, she'd have driven all the way up there for nothing; the baby wouldn't have been able to take the ride. Are you more inclined to appreciate sweet or savory foods? Sweet. Are romantic relationships important to you at this point in your life? I mean I'd like to be in one, but I highly doubt it'd be successful, just given where I am in life. I'd be signing up for heartbreak. Who was the last person to apologize to you for something they did? I don't know. Probably Mom for something minor, like just bumping into me or something. Are you wearing a necklace, and if so, who got it for you? No. What’s the most embarrassing thing you’ve done lately? Lately? Uh. I don't know, but I can guarantee to you it wasn't long ago at all, considering breathing embarrasses me, pretty much. Do you ‘think out loud’? Sometimes. Do you take gummy vitamins? No. How do you know the majority of the people you know? Former schools. Hell, or maybe various online locations. I just might have more online friends and acquaintances than in-person. Is there a random object you own that has a huge personal significance? I've talked about my pebble from my partial hospitalization program enough. Can you play electric guitar? I used to be able to play a little bit; I took guitar lessons for a short while in high school. Best I could do was the intro to "Crazy Train," but I'd still occasionally mess up. Are you one of those people who chew two pieces of gum, not one? Usually. Do you believe in ghosts/supernatural occurrences? Yes. Without the aid of mascara, do you have long eyelashes? Yeah. Is there a kind of music you listen to that helps you release your anger? Yes, usually songs that are also angry. How does it make you feel looking at pics with your ex and someone else? The only case this has ever happened was with Jason and his gf after me. There are no words to describe the fucking hatred I felt. I haven't seen pictures of him with an s/o in a long time, and I absolutely never plan on seeking them out ever again. What song are you listening to right now? "Rest In Pieces" by Saliva. If you’re not in college, why? I couldn't handle the stress anymore. Just couldn't. Do you own a studded belt from Hot Topic? I have a good number of old ones from high school, actually. I wore them all the time. I could never fit into them now. Favorite fictional character? Um, Darkiplier, duh. Most recent thing you are looking forward to? I think it's finally set in stone that I'm getting my tattoo redone soon. Thanks to my laptop saying "ha fuck you," it's not as soon as I originally planned since I had to pay to fix it, but Mom seems fine with helping me pay for my birthday. Not a guarantee that it'll happen on that date of course, given scheduling, but yeah. It should fucking finally be happening. How many stairs can you climb before you wanna pass out? This is too embarrassing to even answer lmao. Have you ever kissed someone with braces? No. Would you ever consider adoption? I don't want kids, and even if I did, I probably wouldn't. I feel like I'd personally need the "wow this is a part of me (and/or my s/o)" connection. Do you ever go hunting/fishing? I would never go hunting, and the only occasion in which I'd fish again is if Dad asked me. I don't like the idea of fishing for fun anymore, but that's like... always been our bonding experience, and I wouldn't tell him no. Do you know anyone who plays guitar? Knew. What are you currently sitting/laying on? My bed. Who are your godparents? I don't think I have any. Do you have any friends who are famous? I have two friends who are parts of bands, but idk how successful they are. I don't think either are like, huge. Nova Mortis if you're into heavy metal and I think Toukan does rap? When was the last time you stayed at a hotel? Hm. I have no idea. What side of a heart do you draw first? Uhhhh I think the left? What is your mom saved as in your phone? "Mama Bear." Do you want your tongue pierced? I had snake eyes for a while, but I took them out because I kept chipping my teeth. I miss that piercing, it was so cute, but it wasn't worth ruining my teeth. Ever made out in a pool? It's possible very briefly, idr. Do you like to have long hair or short hair? SHORT. SHORT. SHORT. Do you change your phone background a lot? Not really. Would you get back with your last ex if you could? Yeah. Have you ever been strip searched? No. Has the person you like ever seen you in your pajamas? Yes. What is your least favorite type of chocolate? White chocolate is way too sweet. Did anyone see your last kiss? It was at an airport, so probably. Do you want a boyfriend or girlfriend? I mean, I do, but I don't really know how smart it would be right now. Is there anyone you wish you could fix things with? A few. Who IMed you on Facebook last? My friend Girt. Were you kinda scared of the goths in high school? Hell naw man, I looked up to them lmao. What size is your mattress? (single,twin,double,queen,king) Queen. Do you like spaghetti? Hell yeah. It was my favorite food as a kid. What about lasagna? No; I don't like the cheese at all. Have you ever been stung by anything? What was it? Mosquitoes of course, as well as a bee once. Maybe other things, idk. Have you ever worn contacts? (even just to try them out) Yes, but I changed to glasses because I had too much trouble putting them in and taking them out. Have you ever had any suspicious moles removed? No. Have you ever been screened for STDs? No. Did you have your tonsils taken out? No. Did you have your appendix taken out? No. Do you have any collector’s glasses or cups or mugs? What is a "collector's" glass or mug? Were you your parents’ first born? No; I'm the middle child. Do you have a child? Is the father still with you? No. Were you born perfectly healthy or with some (or a lot) of health issues? I was born healthy. Good 'ole days. Did you ever catch any bugs or insects with your friends as a kid? Ohhhh yes, my neighbor and I loved doing that. My favorite was catching fireflies with my sisters, though. Would you prefer to travel around the world by yourself or with a friend? With a friend. I'd get lonely. Do you know anybody who has been diagnosed with cancer? A whole lot, sadly... I'm despising that disease more and more every day that goes by. I know far too many people who have it or have died at its hands. Have you ever had to take care of an intoxicated person? No. Do you and your boyfriend/girlfriend fight a lot? N/A. Do not stay in a relationship where fighting is common. Would you ever share a site password with a family member or partner? I mean sure, depending on the site and person, and the reason they (may) need it. Has anyone ever told you they couldn't trust you? Hm... I actually don't think so? Who in your family has the prettiest eyes? Idk, I don't see enough of my extended family to know. What is an odd food item you would like to try, or have tried? I'm sure there's something I'd like to try, but nothing I think about with consistency, really... Most "odd" food I find unappealing anyway. When/if you drive, do you go the speedlimit? When I did, I certainly always tried to, but I was bad at maintaining a stable speed. I went up and down too much. Are you an aggressive driver? Or more passive-aggressive? I was dangerously passive at driving. Describe a hairstyle you had as a little kid? Well, I had long hair with bangs. What routine of yours would you most hate to break? Probably stopping getting a soda first thing in the morning... That is like so deeply ingrained into my day and is a motivator to get up in the first place. I want to change this to where I'm not allowed to grab one until I've had a full cup of water, but yeah, that hasn't happened yet. Has jealousy ever ruined one of your friendships/relationships? Honestly? I think it's possible that Jason totally split on me because of it. We were in this very unstable "friends" position after the breakup and hung out very briefly and awkwardly twice (which I'm pretty sure he didn't want), and I think one of our last attempts at conversation was who a girl he was talking to via Messenger was. No, before any assumptions are made, I didn't snoop. He showed me something on his phone and I just inevitably saw the little Facebook chat icon of a girl I didn't recognize. I don't even remember his answer. I just know it wasn't too long later I was blocked and everything. What is one restaurant you would NOT recommend? I personally am not a Chili's fan. What was your last conversation about? Mom and I were just talking about what a mush the cat is, haha. Who is your favorite person to debate or discuss with? Yo fuck debates, I got mad anxiety over that kind of stuff. Are you more likely to praise or insult yourself? Why? Insult. I don't even believe myself when I try praising, so it's not worth the effort. I have a billion and two reasons. Do you enjoy cloudy days? Why or why not? Honestly, not very much anymore. I've found that it actually does affect my mood. I like some cloud coverage, though. Would it bother you to be forgotten after death? Yes, even though when you think about it, most of us will be. I want to do stomething so badly; not even particularly something major, but just contribute to things and causes that matter and slowly change the world for the better. It's especially likely I will be forgotten though at some point because I don't want kids, so my blood isn't carrying on. Do you tend to prefer healthy or unhealthy snacks? Ugh, unhealthy. Has anyone ever asked you for diet advice? I think so, back when I started recovery and lost like 60 lbs fast as fuck. I wasn't even dieting though, just... came off awful meds. What age is your youngest aunt? Ummmm I have no clue. Do you like bowling? Yeah, it's fun, but I'm not good at it. Do you like roasting marshmallows on a bonfire? Totally. Do you prefer sweet or sour fruits? Sweet. How're your dancing skills? Rusted to the point of just not functional anymore lmao. What brand of batteries do you usually get? I don't pay attention to the kind Mom gets. Are any of your friends pregnant or have kids? A lot of my FB friends have kids. At least two are pregnant, but I only consider myself remotely close to one. I'm beyond worried about how she's going to be as a mom. Where's the strangest place a fast food restaurant was located? I've certainly seen some questionable placement in busy areas, but none that are super odd. Do you stay up all night on New Years Eve/Day or go to bed after 12am? I don't care nowadays; I just stay up until I'm tired like every other night.

[brellas]

@catfish-and-the-koenig​ tagged me for this thank u arianna !!!!! 💖

Rules: answer the 20 questions below & then tag 20 bloggers that you want to get to know better.

Nicknames: uhhhh no nicknames irl but ppl online call me brella/brellas still cause like. that me username lmao

Height: a little under 5′5″ but not by much lol

Orientation: pansexual ;o 

Nationality: the good ol usa babey.... my background is mostly scandinavian tho like norwegian and danish....... i’m white af

Favorite fruit: peaches, strawberries, canaloupe, tomatoes, plums..... most fruit tbh

Favorite season: summer!!!!!! 

Favorite flower: i can’t choose tbh but in general i like rlly fluffy flowers or rlly tiny meadow-like flowers tho if that makes sense!!!! also i lov white and pastel flowers the most 

Favorite scent: i love how uhhh summer smells?? like that sweet fresh humid air filling ur lungs..... bonus points if ur by the beach and u smell the salt in the air too mmmMMM

Favorite color: i’m a bitch for pink. pink owns me

Favorite animal: cats, cows, farm animals in general !!

Coffee, tea or hot chocolate: tea!!

Average hours of sleep: i get either 3 hours of sleep or 12 hours so average that out and it’s 7.5 :-) such a normal amount of average sleep aha :-))))

Cat or dog person: i’m both but i lov my cat so much i’ll say i’m a cat person

Favorite fictional character: oh so many,,,, allura, tamaki souh, marinette dupain-cheng, adrien agreste, usagi tsukino..... in general i lov rays of sunshine i guess hnfkghd

Number of blankets you sleep with: one comforter, maybe a fluffy blanket if it’s cold

Dream trip: france in general?? i wanna see the coast the country the city the ART....... also i wanna go to japan especially tokyo and then i wanna go explore the nature there too hgnjkhg i lov nature

Blog created: like late 2011 or 2012.... i was a baby......

Number of followers: hmmmmm like almost 500 now..... i nvr rlly cared abt getting followers or posting consistent content so yeah lol

Random fact: uhhhhh so this is new but,,,,,,, i’m taking a break from college so i can get a job n focus on making art i wanna make instead of wasting my youth being medicore in classes i don’t care abt or need!!! and i’m pretty excited n scared but mostly happy tht i don’t have to go back to school anytime soon lol

i tag @agardenintheshire @amna000 @sunsetwish @birdinator @nightingem but feel free to ignore !!