"don't write problematic sapphic fics beca---" SSHHH HONEY MOMMA'S WRITING A CHEATING FIC WHERE HER BLORBO DOES A LINE OF BLOW OFF HER GIRLFRIEND'S SISTER'S STOMACH AND THEN HAS AN ORGY WITH THE BAD GUYS
guys i have been in a state for days. i am giddy i am gasping for air i am broken inside i am blushing i am sweating i am twirling my hair i am suffering i dont know how to deal with the very real possibility that nandor has loved guillermo for years and has been restraining himself, feigning aloofness, keeping his distance, because all these years he understood that maybe guillermo would never be ready for vampirism - and maybe hes been so depressed in the latest years because hes finally found someone he wants to spend eternity with, and he strongly suspects he will spend eternity missing them instead
This is a nice speech from Sam, but it feels like it was written by somebody who didn't really watch the show.
It pretty clearly wasn't "just one more job" in season 1. Not after Jess died, at least. They were looking for their dad and Sam wanted to kill Azazel. He probably had hopes of returning to school, but he wasn't just going aimlessly from hunt to hunt. He had a specific mission that season.