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Ramón: Psyched ready to change mc’s life!
Edmc: Prim and proper. Has never got their hands dirty a day in their life. “Ew.no, absolutely not “ I imagine mc wrinkling their nose in disgust.
Be a shame if Ramón tripped and fell and grabbed onto MC to catch himself but they both toppled down and MC's face just happened to land on a conveniently placed semi-conscious human body bleeding scandalously from the neck.
A real shame.
#wickedrosie22#answered#oc: ramón#neon byte if#he wouldn't#haha unless?#they'll thank him for it...#right?
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I believe Bobby is coming back from the dead because I think we deserve to live in a world where Kenneth Choi gets to act his ass off by playing a simultaneously relieved/joyous and angry/furious Chimney, who feels like he has to thank Bobby, but also scream at him until his throat is sore because it wasn't fair to make that decision! he's going to say they should have played rock, paper, scissors and Bobby will chuckle because he thinks he's joking like silly haha Chimney, but Chimney is like "no, we should have discussed it, you died and I didn't even get to say thank you. you died and I owed you a debt I didn't even know about. you let me carry that" and he has to wrestle with the guilt of knowing that Bobby would do that for him, not just theoretically, but actual concrete proof that Bobby would die to save him. which they all know on some surface level that they'd die for one another, but it feels like such a far-off concept until it isn't. but Chimney also has to deal with the gratitude because Chimney is also so incredibly thankful that he didn't die. every step of the way he wanted Ravi, Bobby, Buck, and Athena to commit crimes, because he loves his life and he wants to keep living it. he's so overjoyed that he got to go home to his wife and kid, and that comes with its own guilt because how can he be so happy to be home when Bobby DIED. does that make him a monster? that on some level he's HAPPY that Bobby did that? and now he has to FACE Bobby. so he tries to be the Before Chimney who gets people whimsical gifts, but how do you give someone balloons about choosing your life over theirs? and he spirals because he's different now and Bobby is here and he has so so much he wants to say but all of it feels contradictory and unfair and he would normally go to Bobby for advice. so he does. he goes to Bobby and he says "what would you do, if you were in my position?" and Bobby just says "whatever you need to say or feel, I understand" and that just makes Chimney even more upset because what he needs is for none of this to have ever happened. its like they all got a re-do, but kept the memories and the feelings and now he has nowhere appropriate to put them. anyway, Bobby lives and we get Chimney angst yay <3 forever and ever.
#911 spoilers#911#bobby nash#Chimney Han#Because I think realistically Hen and Eddie will have the LEAST complicated emotions about a return#They'll just be like RELIEF JOY DISBELIEF CAN WE GET A HELL YEAH#Although I'm sure OFFSCREEN Eddie will have to explain to Chris like:#This is not a doppelganger this time this IS Bobby I know I'm sorry our lives are like this#Buck will be like “NO. I was SOOOO good I was THERE for THEM like you asked” and fully crash out from being so so so Buck Brave#and then no longer having The Task to focus on he's going to lose his damn mind being like I THOUGHT BOBBY WAS DEAD#Hen will just be like thank FUCK you are NOT allowed to die ever again#and then in my head Athena is like “okay bet. retire.”#you made us watch that shitty ass helicopter chase we are owed Kenny Choi getting real meaty scenes as penance#although imagine how fun it would be if like Bobby DOESN'T retire#he comes back after a bit and the team is like....so wary around him#They listen because he's their captain but they're also like is he saying this to get us away from him because he's hiding a mortal wound??#and Bobby is like “guys trust me” and they're like “oh yeah no for sure but also are you currently dying?”#and then the 118 goes to group therapy together#sorry I have the day off and this got away from me#the show that exists in my head and in my head only#I call this: some things are easier to say to a headstone
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Oh, look who I found in my bed.




Features include:
Removable shoes and jacket! And pants... (nothing to see under though)
Jacket! With zipper (not working), fluff on the hood (not fluffy), pockets (unusable)
He has gloves
Stupid cute little empty eyesockets that stare into your soul when you wake up covered in sweat at 4 am
Goop leaking out of eyes (don't worry it doesn't stain anything)
Perfect size to be squeezed (demonstrated in picture above)
No, the red thing is not a button, don't press it
It is recommended not to leave him in the kitchen, or anywhere with easy access to sharp objects. For no particular reason of course.
#my stuff#utmv#sans au#killer sans#killer!sans#crochet#amigurumi#<thank god for autocorrect because i didn't know how to write that word#i've been working on him on an off for a while now#he has problems but it's fine#they'll be corrected in the next version#other than that i'm pretty proud of how he turned out
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hi!! I think your art is *so cool* o(≧∇≦o)
do you think you could draw more moshang? either post canon or that au you did last time?? (baby mobei has my heart and all I own)
(˵ •̀ ᴗ •́ ˵ ) oh! how about return to childhood—moshang flavor?
don't question this king, shang qinghua, he knows what he's about
#just because junshang is going to throw a fit and doesn't know how to capitalize on a good thing doesn't mean mbj is the same#svsss#moshang#mobei jun#shang qinghua#mbj#sqh#return to childhood#he's finally small enough to fit on sqh's lap!#he's going to have sqh carry him *everywhere* until his qi evens out and he becomes full-sized again#maximize the spoiled prince vibe - sqh is going to be exhausted by the end of this he is not having as much fun as sqq#anyway the demon court is just going to have to bite their tongues and deal with it otherwise they'll have a full sized mbj come after them#though tbh this would be a fascinating au because yeah... just like with lbh there's probably enough people who'd be willing to gun for mbj#when he's small and severely weakened#but i love the idea of his throne suddenly being to big for him so he just makes sqh assist (cuddle)#anyway anon thanks for the prompt!! i am SO happy to draw more moshang and welcome any and all suggestions#either just about them or about the childhood!au#i really should play with the concept more... i have not been able to get into a writing mood lately but it'd be nice to finally write#a svsss fic - i've got at least a couple for both mdzs and tgcf after all#until then though: art!
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in the future, do razzle and shrimpo finally be a couple? if so, how did they find feeling for eachother, if not, how come? (i love your art smmm btw)
I mean… kindaaaaaaa???
Yes, the two eventually come to terms with sharing Glisten, and in turn, they learn to tolerate and (occasionally) enjoy each other's company. And after some time... they start considering possibilities. Possibilities of being together. The only real problem is... they're both super stubborn and both suck at being romantic.

Shrimpo: HAAAAAAAAAAAACKK Razzle: Tuu! Ew!
More yapping below cut (I've been itching to talk about these two for so long brooooo):
As ya'll know, Glisten is very romantic. He showers his partners in gifts, he's good at cuddling, he's an amazing kisser, the whole 9 yards. You know what Shrimpo and Razzle have? Nonna that.
Whenever one of them tries to be romantic in any sorta way towards the other, the other is always super unimpressed (because they're so used to how Glisten is). Also, they both are awful at any sort of physical contact, with Razzle trying wayyy to hard and Shrimpo being very bad at physical contact in general. If either of them had any sort of romantic energy at all, they would not be in this situationship lol.
As for Glisten and Dazzle, they are both in the back rooting for them to sort out their situation and kiss already. Glisten is attempting to play matchmaker, but his boyfriends are dense and dumb, so all his subtle hints are flying over their heads. Dazzle tries to be "involved" in pushing them together, but she's so anxious and quiet that nothing she attempts to do works (except for the occasional bump that gets them to touch faces very briefly).
Eventually the two manage to work out their feelings just enough to admit that they feel something past tolerance and even friendship on occasion, but they don't officially get together (yet).
Howeeeeeeverrrrrr…

Shrimpo: Hey, Razass. You dropped this.
They get a baby cuz I said so.
This is Ripple, and he's an angrymask kid. He's a stuffed animal crayfish with one of those plastic faces similar to those Labubu dolls. He is horrifically anxious and scared of literally everything. Also he's like, super lanky.
Shrimpo does not like him. He was not directly involved in his creation and does not like how much of a wimp Ripple is. Razzle loves Ripple dearly but they're so loud and obnoxious that Ripple is nervous around him. Ripple's favorite is Dazzle if that wasn't obvious enough lol, she gets him.
Anyways yap sesh over. I will gladly yap about it again. And again. And again. And-
Have a good one gang!!
#koy chats#thanks for the ask^^#thank you for the compliment<333 it means a lot#guys guys guys these guys are so stupid at romance i love them#gonna throw hammers at the both of them#eventually they'll probably become a couple but that's gonna take a while sooooooooooo you get this instead#and if you guys were curious about how Glisten feels about Ripple? he loves him like his own son#she/they for dazzle plz#dandy's world#dandys world#dandy's world fanart#dandy's world oc#dandy's world shrimpo#dandy's world ships#shrimpo the shrimp#shrimpo x razzle#razzle x shrimpo#ripple the crayfish plush#raul riptide the crayfish crawfish plush#fankids#dw shrimpo#dw shimmer#dw ripple#dw razzle and dazzle#dandys world razzle and dazzle#razzle and dazzle#katiekatdragon27
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Fascinating how Edward's response to distressing events is to immediately get a hand on his nearest fellow lieutenant. Almost like he's afraid they'll be taken away from him or something.
#Terror Lieutenants#The Terror#And then they were taken away from him! :)#hodglittle#nedving#Edward Little#hi everybody here's your weekly Lieutenant Throuple propaganda#Starky's Original Posts#We should make this more of a thing in fics. I know we write George as physically affectionate based on vibes and I always support that.#But we should also acknowledge The Handsy Groper over here.#Hodge gives the other two a billion cutesy pet names and tells them he loves them a trillion times a day.#Meanwhile Edward only ever calls them John and George but has a hand on at least one of them at all times.#John does neither of these things but they will each find a little drawing in their pockets later when they're alone#or they'll discover he did some task for them without them knowing.#did u know that um. love is real. just for these 3 weirdos though specifically.#OKAY thank you for suffering through my infantile loveydovey nonsense we can all get back to the usual violence and gore now
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Finally, we have selected a full team!
Makya "Mechi" Jones, our colony founder. A knight with everything from a well-used mechlink and a variety of technomany psycasts to a love of coffee and a collection of silly mugs and t-shirts.
Kwahu Jones, Mechi's first clone, closest friend, and fellow knight. He comes equipped with a mechlink of his own, staticlord psycasts, and the fascinating ability to tie his hair back out of his face when he's working!
Ivy Jones, formerly known as "Wombat", beloved ward of the colony after being delivered to our doorstep by sightstealers (not storks). Ivy is a gifted socialiser and is getting pretty handy with her deadly fleshwhip (his name is Henry), and perhaps has a future as a frontline combatant after she's of age.
Alistair, the Jones boys' beloved android. Alistair isn't awakened yet, but that hasn't stopped him from becoming an integral part of the colony. Alistair is responsible for everything from fabricating a steady supply of components and bionics, to sweeping the floors when the mechaniods are busy elsewhere. Also, everyone loves him because androids are exalted in their ideology, so just being around him is enough to make everyone happy!
Marc-Daniel "Jut" Crowley, a mysterious mangled creepjoiner who made a name for himself by almost single-handedly taking out a sanguophage and her army of thralls with his melee ability and psychic gift of "make people explode with his mind". Jut is easy going, cheerful, and very good at mining when he's not stabbing things or stubbornly refusing to speak anything except French.
Tune in next time as we pop out to find a mechlink for Tokori or Lansa, then have our grand colony tour so everyone can bid Sparks a fond farewell. Then, at long last... The first step to finding The Archonexus!
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#rimworld#gracie plays#A Mechanitor's Message#art#my art#traditional art#rimworld art#unpolished art#comic#I love Jut. I'm so glad we're bringing him along.#I have my fingers crossed that we'll meet the others again someday though#that would make for some fun interactions#in the meantime#the gang at Sparks will have a blind healer and a necromancer AND a Man in Black to keep them safe#and Lansa and Flapjack#they'll be there too#Thank you everyone for voting <3 <3#I was absolutely not going to be able to choose the Away Team on my own#Now if you'll excuse me#We have a mechlink to find!#see you all next time as we approach the “Season Finale”!#have a fabulous day ❤️❤️❤️
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drawings of @gutztism's idea 😼 get horsed
#my art#skyrim#elenwen looking perfect even as a pony she;s always slaying My queen#i saw U say that ulfric wud be an alicorn and at first i wasn't sure about it (nords would probably just be pegasi); but then it hit me....#the greybeards done facked up and gave him a horn#elisif would have the regular smaller pony build while elenwen should be c*lestia/l*na sized maybe#it doesn't matter if she's a pony.. they'll all still look elongated and mutated as altm*r LOL#imo elisif would only have a horn (mer attribute obvi) before becoming high queen but it'd also still be fun -#- for her to be an alicorn pre-reign and just be.... INEPT#at everything#cus nobody is training her to fly or to use magic#she'd 100% be too scared to fly 😢 i want her to try and fall flat on her face -#- and cry about it after like a baby#rikke is the only one supporting her thru that DFVOUOT5I5#she probably used to fly alongside/with torygg's help but not anymore Thanks a lot ulfric#sorry this is getting too meta#also i forgot elisif's braid wtf
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It just bugs me when the fandom treats Tails as a baby who has sonic as his daddy. Tails may be younger than sonic, but that doesn't make him a helpless diaper baby that needs sonic to wipe his ass. Tails was living on his own even before he met sonic..he has multiple workshops and creates glorious inventions and kicks badniks ass.
So sick of the infantilization of Tails.
I don't have much to say other than
100%
I'm not really broken up about people making fanon aus or whatever. But the amount of times there's like a new Tailstube or whatever and someone goes "OMG see! This is the proof that Tails is a 5 year old baby boy that Sonic is actively teaching to read and is practically parenting! All sega needs to do now is make him stay home and go to school and act more like Sonic's kid brother!!🥰" while Sonic and Tails are chilling in one of Tails multiple homes that Tails owns and allows Sonic to crash at
Or the amount of animations/comics that give him Cream's speech patterns, make him naive af and oblivious to "adult" things like *checks notes*...kissing(?), a gremlin baby child who can't stand losing games to Sonic, actively say "it's basically canon that Sonic actually owns Tails' shit", claim (incorrectly) that classic Tails was an infant child that Sonic picked up and started raising, etc, meanwhile everyone glazes up op talking about how so super canon that is and how that stuff basically canonically happened...
It's just kind of staggering. To me it could not be more clear of a case of people needing their fanon to be "basically canon" so they can feel like they're justified for liking it and so they can justify alienating people who don't share the same headcanons as their illusionary majority
#sonic the hedgehog#tails the fox#miles tails prower#i just be ramblin#fandom wank#I'm sick of the Tails infantilization as well#People are so possessive over their baby boy Tails headcanons they'll call you terrible names about it if you say it's not canon sometimes#Another one that gets me is when people do it while giving characters autism headcanons#Tails is one of many characters where people will go ''Dawww look the lil autistic baby boy toddler who thinks he can build planes because#big bro Sonic bought him a book on mechanics. he's too young to touch real planes so big bro sonic and big sis amy let him play with toy#planes at home while they're out on adventures with big bro knuckles and Sonic is out flirting with uncle shadow🥺''#I like neurodivergence headcanons but man when people headcanon a character as autistic and then heavily infantilize them it feels a bit🤨#I've also hated seeing it happen to movie Tails because people legit just make up scenes that didn't happen or point at him having reaction#that are no different from movie sonic or movie knuckles and act like he's somehow uniquely naive and childish and the two have to take car#of him#It's like for some people Tails only exists as this ideal cute baby brother who exists for everyone to take care of#Although I'm ngl I think some of this attitude is definitely fueled by people who (without necessarily saying so) benefit by infantilizing#him so they can either feel morally good shipping him with the characters they want or so they can keep him out of the way of other ships#between main cast members (with the plus of bullying people who like those ships they don't)#anon interview#anyhow thanks for the ask anon!☺️
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Ok. Ok. I honestly have no idea how Chani and Paul's relationship will be handled in the 3rd movie, and honestly? I don't care. I'm confident that however it's handled (so long as it's not some extremely OOC plot with her forgiving him and going back to him willingly, but I'm pretty confident it won't be that) it will change my brain chemistry.
But hold on. hOld on. Because as much as I love the thought of there being a lot of heat and tension and Feelings Feelings (99.9% of which are NOT positive) between the two of them, and it's likely that's the direction the film will go, I'm also somewhat intrigued by the alternative. That there's...nothing. Maybe not at first. But after twelve years, if Denis intends to keep the time jump as written, things fade. No hate, but no love either. As if they'd never known each other at all.
Because it's been twelve years. Nobody knows exactly how old the two of them are supposed to be in the films, but my personal headcanon is like 18/19. Meaning if Messiah keeps that time jump, it would put them in their early thirties. That's...a lot of time. That's a big difference in psychology, in emotional processing, in just...ways of life and ways of living. It's strange to me to assume that both of them would be exactly the same people - on their own or in regards to each other - after all that time.
And of course, that's not to say they'd forget each other entirely. Scars don't fade that easily. Everything Paul went through leaves a mark. Watching your lover succumb to the clutches of power and essentially becoming somebody entirely new, becoming your people's oppressor after swearing to fight alongside you in your rebellion as an equal (and for all you know, that was his plan all along) definitely leaves a mark. But twelve years is still a long time, longer still for people dealing with the level of shit these people deal with in day to day life. Whatever both of them could be up to for all that time leaves marks too, and adds to the pile of shit.
Especially, I think, for Chani. Because her anger and defiance against her oppressors began long before she met Paul. That is her purpose. Paul changed and grew along with her and because of her presence. He is forever touched by her and her memory, and won't, I don't think, ever be able to let go of that. And while Chani's rage and despair and pain at what he did is very real and very much not something I can see just fading away, I could also see her almost using what happened as an excuse to go back to whatever "normal" was before Paul for her. Almost as a coping mechanism. Because Paul did, in her eyes, essentially become a different being after the Water of Life. He's not the man she fell in love with. And maybe it would be easier for her to, rather than engage with that anger directly at him, just...let him fade into the background. He's not him anymore. He's just another evil to defeat.
I've just...realized I kind of have mixed feelings about the thought of her spending twelve years nursing her rage at Paul specifically. Of course it was a betrayal - probably the biggest betrayal she's ever known - and that kind of thing doesn't just go away. But she hated the empire before he was emperor. There's a depressing kind of power in going "ok, I guess it's no different than before, I'll just keep on going the same way I was before any of this happened." As if the months she spent with him were nothing, weren't even real. Just...the thought of Chani as an adult going on day to day with whatever she's doing to fight for her people's freedom, trying desperately to forget that the man who now holds that freedom in a yoke was once one she loved and trusted. And it getting slightly easier every day. Her dreams of her people's political victory mattered long before Paul came into the picture and will matter long after he left. It's not about him, it's still about the emperor. Whos is not the man she loved.
idk I *love* Chani's Feelings after part 2 and all that could come with that, I love it but part of me is also like...if they really do spend 12 years apart does she really have nothing better to do with her time (ESPECIALLY if it turns out she has a child) than plan her revenge against him specifically? Like. as the Emperor Of The Known Universe, yes, because he is at the top of the food chain of oppression she's spend her life trying to bring down. But not as Paul. Not as the man who betrayed her. Because all of that is wrapped up in personal, vulnerable feelings that I feel like to her would seem like a waste of time. She will not give water to the dead, and Paul is dead to her.
And all this would be more tragic because I'm sure, I'm sure that with Paul it's the complete opposite. He cannot forget her. He cannot have a life where he doesn't think of her. And a part of him would be still trying to protect her from his position probably, maybe even hoping in some distant part of his mind that she'll one day come back. Twelve years of grief and guilt cutting a hole in his chest versus twelve years of practicing how to forget.
And then. Again, I doubt this is the route they'll go because it's not as dramatically interesting, at least I'd love to see it in a fic (maybe I'll do it), but it would be so unusual to me to see them meet again, and their story not end in revenge or reconciliation. There's no forgiveness, there's also no surprise killing or coup or anything. Maybe Paul thinks it'll go one of those ways, but instead it's like Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, for lack of a better comparison. His relief at her being alive, the indescribable regret, love that is still there, all of that met with...nothing. Because Paul, kid, it's been twelve years. She's moved on. She's fighting her fight, and you are her political enemy and that is all you are. She can't even hate you, because *you* aren't the one betrayed her. For there to have been betrayal, that would mean she had to have loved and trusted you, and she never did. She loved and trusted Usul, and you're Emperor Muad'dib. The two do no equate. She will never love you again. But she can't hate you, because she doesn't even see you as a person - let alone one she used to love.
@fuckyeahisawthat idk if you have a counterpoint or thoughts or whatever i just wanted to tag u
#dune#idk just spitballing here#paul atreides#chani kynes#paul x chani#dune messiah#ramblings. so many.#again idk if this is a prediction or not it's more just a route i don't see a lot of people take when theorizing or writing fic#and i think it could be interesting and REALLY tragic if played right#the thought of paul being so so overwhelmed with emotions upon seeing her again#thinking maybe this is it. maybe they'll reconcile and he hasn't lost her forever. maybe this time he can make things right.#maybe she'll just kill him (and he would thank her)#and she's just like. actually i haven't thought about you in terms of being a human person i used to love for literal years.
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What's Denzel's Signature Spell/Unique Magic? I'm curious.
Denzel's unique magic is 『Bad Beat』
It's a high-risk high-reward type of buffing spell. It increases his own magical abilities for a short time, allowing him to deal more damage. The tradeoff is that once it's used, his energy crashes hard, leaving him fairly vulnerable and tired for an extended period.
A bad beat is a poker term for someone who has a good hand but loses anyway, something that his unique magic embodies. If he uses it, he could be stronger and could win but if he's in a position where he's going to use it he's probably desperate and going to lose anyway.
His unique magic is a sore spot for him. He's fairly insecure over having magic that is, in his mind, worthless and almost a guaranteed loss. He hasn't used it properly since it manifested and there are very few people who actually know he even has unique magic.
#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland spoilers#twst oc#oc: denzel blackwyrm#thank you for asking something about my boy!!!#I've missed him so much and I've tossed around some ideas in the past#note if I write fanfic that is NOT what the header will look like they'll be much prettier#just had to whip something up on the fly since I wasn't expecting anyone to ask about my dear wyrm
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i would like to hear your thoughts ❤️
gahhhh okay no one throw rocks at me, this is buck x oc
adam has been a nurse for a long time. he's dealt with trauma after trauma, met so many firefighters and paramedics but none with a bigger heart than evan buckley. he's seen him around a few times, the station 118 is pretty well known in their hospital for being a bit a problem station. people are constantly getting stabbed and struck by lightning, evan buckley in particular seems like maybe he pissed off god personally. they exchanged a few words here and there, laughed at a few of the others jokes, but every time they lock eyes, buck makes quick work to look away and bite the inside of his cheek. adam specializes in hurt and believe him, buck seems... hurt.
it isn't until they bring in a young kid, probably 16 or 17, with bruises and cuts all over his body. he was beaten until- well, until it was pretty touch and go for a minute there. two of them hang back in particular, hen and buck. he's talked to hen before, back when she was going through med school, she told him about her wife and kids, how hard she was fighting for them, how draining it was. adam joked about that sounding familiar, he remembers med school well enough when he was single, he couldn't imagine it with a partner and a kid.
the two of them were standing together, watching the kid be carted away, both biting their cheeks and clenching their fists. hen whispered something to buck and patted his back.
"i know, it's just- god, that was brutal." buck wipes his face.
"that's why we look out for each other." hen squeezes his arm and walks away.
"does he have anyone to look out for him?" buck says to himself
interesting, he doesn't know the full story- just that that kid looked like he was in a hell of a lot of pain. and judging by the rainbow bracelet around his wrist, he's guessing he knows why.
he's about to work himself up to go talk to him. there's something about his eyes, wide and sad and so deep in thought he wonders how he pulls himself out.
they lock eyes again. adam gives him a tiny wave and an awkward smile. buck looks like he's been caught with his hand in the cookie jar and returns the nicety before bolting out the door. hen notices and looks back, processing something in her head. she smiles but it doesn't quite reach her eyes.
then buck shows up at the hospital later in his civvies, rubbing his hands together.
"hey!" adam says just a little too loudly, cringing.
buck jumps a little, like a scared deer, adam absolutely does not think it's the cutest thing in the world.
"uh, h-hi." buck is still whining his hands together.
"adam! sorry, i don't know if i ever gave you my name or if you remember-"
"i do." buck smiles, "yeah, i remember."
"good." and then he just stands like an idiot for reasons he cannot grasp before remembering he should probably speak now, "are you visiting someone?"
"do you remember that kid from earlier? the one had the um-"
"the kid that got hate-crimed? yeah i remember. he's stable now. he had a rough night, but he'll pull through."
buck visibly releases a weight off himself, "oh, good. i just wanted to check in on him. i don't know, it was a rough call, it was driving me crazy not knowing."
adam put down his clipboard, nodding, "yeah, i mean, that stuff definitely hits home for me, for sure."
"it doesn't for me," buck says and oh, shit, i guess he's not queer, fuck did i read this wrong, "i mean! like- when i came out, i had so many people that cared about me. my sister, my-well- my dad, my best friend, my boyf-" buck cuts himself off and deflates again, "sorry. i just hated the idea that he didn't have that, you know?"
"no, i get it, don't apologize. that's-thats really sweet. visiting hours are almost over but i can see if he's up for it, okay?"
bucks nods, and maybe adam is a fool with a dumb little crush but he swears he blushes a little. he feels his heart bursting a little about it. he came back to this kid, felt the need to check in and ask about him, because he didn't have something that he did.
"pull it together," he whispers to himself as he walks away.
buck keeps coming back, too. visiting the kid as often as possible, playing cards, and giving him fun facts from some documentaries he's watched. adam perks up whenever he hears one that he's watched. he lets it slip that he watched the same one, went on the same wikipedia binge. buck does that smile softly and look away like you're about to throw thing he does. adam occasionally joins in on the conversation whenever he gets a free moment. and then eventually, the kid gets discharged and buck is there to see him off. it turns out he has an aunt out in texas that's far more accepting than his folks here. he swears he sees buck tear up a little as he walks out the door, waving back at both of them.
and adam fully expects buck to go back to being a first responder he sees a few times a week and exchanging awkward, stolen glances.
but he doesn't stop coming. buck shows up the next day with two coffees in his hand. adam waves at him and buck breathes like he's psyching himself up and walks over.
"you said you liked chai lattes, so, um, i figured-i figured you would-"
"thanks!" adam decides to put him out of his misery, "are you visiting someone?"
buck ducks his head and scratches his neck, his smile looking less tortured, "hopefully, if you were free, you."
"i was about to go on my first break, if you wanted to go for a bit of a walk." adam suggests.
"that sounds great." buck clears his throat.
"great, gimme just a second, alright?" he walks away and hears buck mutter what he thinks, "i used to be better at this."
a few weeks pass by like that. buck hovering just on the outskirts of his life, very careful not to step too far in, but still present in a way that drives him crazy. he can't stop thinking about him but he only gets him for fifteen minutes now.
"do you wanna go out for dinner sometime?" adam asks, trying to sound as casual as possible.
buck gasps, like audibly, like a woman fainting after meeting the beatles, "i-uh, i should probably get back, sorry."
oh, he watches him go. and then stop in his tracks. and then turn back around, "can i get your number actually? or instagram or something?"
trying to contain his excitement, he nods, because of course he nods. when a hot, sweet as fuck, puppy dog eyed firefighter offers you their phone number, it's a crime to say no.
eventually, they do end up on a date- or at least he thinks it's a date. he can't be sure. the wine certainly feels date-eske but he really can't be sure because buck is barely looking at him in the eyes. he picked his very best "possibly a date" outfit and went in with low expectations for anything other than a really pleasant, really awkward evening. he decides though that if he gets to spend it with buck, it feels worth the awkward tension. especially because sometimes, he can coax him out of it and he looks so- vulnerable, an open wound. he's like a starry sky that hides behind a cloudy night.
adam doesn't remember what he says but eventually they start talking about things that should probably be save for the 40th date, not the maybe, jury's still out first.
but adam definitely knows he says, "you seem like you've been hurt." because the moment he does, he wants to punch himself in the face after buck gets this horrified expression like adam just said he likes kicking dogs in his spare time.
then, the moment passes, and he clicks his tongue, "i used to be better at hiding it."
"it seems like maybe it's a good thing you don't."
buck shakes his head, "i also used to be better at this," he gestures between them, "dating, flirting, having a crush," which does get buck to smile and adam gets to see that twinkle in his eyes again.
"oh okay, so this is a date, noted. and- you're not terrible at it, it's pretty adorable, actually. and i'm hardly one to judge. i'm very familiar with hurt."
buck keeps smiling, "well, my hurt is a 40 year old firefighter-pilot who broke up with me a year ago, so- i don't know how familiar you are with that kind of hurt."
"oh, i am all too familiar with that kind of hurt. does this hurt have a name?"
buck sucks in a breath, adam gets the sense that he hasn't said it in a while, "tommy. tommy kinard."
adam feels like buck is cracked open right now, "are you not ready to move on yet? cause, i'm okay with just being friends!"
"i really don't want to."
"be friends? damn, okay-"
buck puts on a hand on his for a second and adam's heart flutters, "no, i don't want to be just friends. tommy was- well, i loved him. i mean, i-"
"still do?"
"god, i'm really cursed to fuck up first dates, aren't i?"
"it's okay. i mean, i like you. i've liked you for a while, you know? and i've had my own tommy, the one that got away, one i'll never stop loving. i think-" it hurts to think about but he knows it would hurt more to forget about it, "i think what our tommys have in common is that we never let them go, or stop loving them, but we-" he sighs, thinking about his own heartbreak, his own first love, his own missed connection, "we take the love we have for them and we can let it grow into love for others too."
bucks bites his cheek. adam briefly wonders if the inside of his mouth is scarred of all the biting, "i guess i'm scared of giving him up. like if i stop thinking about it or if i like someone else, he'll disappear and everything we had will just- vanish," he chokes out.
adam hums, "it won't. that's the great thing about tommys, right? they stay with you, you never stop feeling that love. you just- build on it and give it to the next person."
buck has tears in his eyes now, adam thinks he might too, but god he's looking at such a beautiful man, with such a big heart and he can't help but thank whoever tommy is for giving him so much love that he's overflowing with it.
"sorry-"
"don't apologize, this got heavy really quick and we're only half way through the bottle of wine," they both laugh into their glasses.
"i guess i'm a little- hurt, like you said."
"i'm a nurse, buck, i kind of specialize in hurt. and if you're willing to try, i'd like another date, one that i actually know is a date beforehand."
buck really does blush this time, "i can do that."
buck leans in and kisses him on the cheek on the way out, oh god, he's a gentleman too, i'm so screwed.
down the line, when they're celebrating their engagement in the same park they used to walk through on adam's breaks, he thinks to himself, not for the first time, oh, tommy kinard, wherever you are, whoever you're with, thank you for loving our man, and thank you for letting me love him just as much.
#okay i accidentally worked through a lot of my feelings for tommy during this lol#this was also not supposed to be this long#i got slightly carried away#i also cried a lot while writing the tommy part#tommy i love you so much and while i think the writing was dumb if buck ends up with someone else thank you for loving him the way you did.#i think in this universe tommy is with sal. in my head. and buck and tommy meet up later and talk about how important they were#how they'll never stop loving each other#and adam loves tommy too#i've been thinking about adam since before buck and tommy lol he's evolved since then#at first he looked a lot like christian keyes cause i was watching legends of tomorrow. but now i'm watching roswell nm and i imagined#michael for some parts of this for some reason#so which ever floats your boat i suppose#evan buckley#legit i put it all under the read bc i do understand if ppl are feeling fragile about it and dont wanna see buck moving on
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I think one of the great problems that faces people who are in the industry – within which they have to express themselves – is learning to ignore entirely anyone else’s opinion, especially complimentary opinions because the luxury with being assaulted is that you know instinctively that you’re not to take that onboard because that would affect – in a negative way – what you’re doing. But the same thing could be said for compliments, but they come in sheep's clothing. They invite you to give your sense of self-esteem to someone else because as soon as you start relying upon compliments, then you are giving away your own... I can’t think of the word, but you should be the crux of your own opinion. –Grian Chatten from Fontaines D.C. on Live with KEXP [x]
#every time i hear him speak in an interview i gain a new level of appreciation for him and the band#they are truly refreshing in their outlook and approach to things#his analogies and metaphors are so visceral. comparing compliments and criticism to an 'assault' of sorts is very interesting#that seems to be the age-old question about art though isn't it?#is it good because people like it and connect with it and that's how you measure its success?#or is it successful to you because you're proud of what you've created regardless of how it's received?#people will be quick to praise when they like something that you create but they'll be even quicker to criticize when they don't like it.#and then get angry when you don't do what they want or expected of you#like in the interview he did with nme when he said when people start to think they know you creatively - it feels like flies settling on yo#idk i find it good reminder for everyday life. you can't let people's perceptions & expectations of you dictate what you do#cause it's true. then you start relying on other people to determine your value and worth.#grian giving me life lessons and not even knowing it. thanks babe#fontaines d.c.#grian chatten#interview#kexp 2019#mine
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Ooooooh I love these asks!
What's a book, movie, or show you think Nik/Price would like? Either together or separate?
You know what, I think they should watch Brokeback Mountain together, bawl their eyes out (okay I think only Nikolai would cry, Price would keep it inside but he's a mess still.) and then feel the need to go hike and camp in nature and make love in a tent after they're done.
A nice couple activity, you know?
#cod#nikprice#ask#nekro yapping#I watched this movie too many times as a teenager and now I'm obsessed with queerness and cowboys put together what can I say#I think they would enjoy it#seems like their vibe ?#Also you know what#this is me projecting but I think Nik would enjoy horror movies#Price likes the classics. He likes a movie that moves him even if he wouldn't admit that#they'll make love in a tent but skip the beans trust#ANYWAY#thank you Hannah !!!#<3
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Yarnaby Adventures in London!!

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#seriously.... the most incredible stretch of days i've ever had in my whole life <3 i can't thank everyone who made it possible enough#which is why i bought them all copious amounts of cadbury chocolate aaaa#it was fun bringing yarnaby out and about to oxford circus aaaaa.....#my british friend's kid looooves ppt and she's getting her own yarnaby plush in a few days.... i let her play with mine in the meantime 🥹#i am still so emotional after this stretch of days... they'll be replaying in my mind forever#seeing alan again meant the world to me truly.... going to save up to see him and my friends again.....#it's those goals in life that really keeps you going despite everything <3#yarnaby#poppy playtine#flygon used boomburst
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Things could be better, if you were to ask Ishida (Patreon)
#Doodles#Original#Yanderapy#More little half-started ideas that haven't quite made it to their full concept yet! Huah!! Finding the focus for it has been hard#Which he helped express lol thanks Ishi <3 Not that he's happy about it lol#First one is again kind of early on in their relationship - Ishida's bringing up something he knows Micchan likes#He's heard him talk about cats! Let's talk about cats! You like cats! Why aren't we talking about cats!#Micchan isn't trying to ignore him he's just focused on other things#They'll get it worked out but there was meant to be dark comedy in here somewhere!#Hopefully I'll come back to it - I want to! I'd like it expressed how it is in my head#The good of note-taking haha#Angy Ishi is having a bad day poor lad#He's usually fairly composed and able to put on a happy face so once it gets up over that edge you Know he's in a bad way#Stressors and things just not going well#The best comfort is some Mitsu hugs of course#Which he's happy to give but he's always worried <3#Unlike you! Want you to be happy or at least better!#Just act as his battery he'll be back to his usual self soon enough#Sometimes it really does just come down to support while low ♥ Watch over him as he recovers :)
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