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kim hongjoong 𖹭 fem idol!reader

DESTINY.

synopsis: idol!reader is very open about her love for ateez kim hongjoong, scandal breaks, they end up together. (feat. bang chan of skz being wise.)

content: eventual smut mdni, cringe/crack, angst if u squint, strangers2friends2lovers, reader uses she/her pronouns, slow burn?, this is shit, choppy storyline lots of time skips and anticlimactic, fluffy?, lots of use of the pet name 'baby', cuddling, big sexy hongjoong, swearing, not proofread, lowercase intended. explicit warnings: in the studio couch, handjob, p in v, no prep, vanilla, unprotected, creampie, sub/dom undertones?, virgin/inexperienced reader

guide: italics in dialogues are used when they speak in korean. chat fonted dialogues are comments and exchanged texts. long blocks of dialogues are used during lives because they're not really doing anything apart from speaking!

zuzu's note: main masterlist. the girl in the picture is just a reference/icon to get the overall vibe of the "idol aesthetic." also, because it's difficult to make things neutral, i created your group and fandom's name, and also put in a groupmate's name in as placeholders because it's difficult to write without mentioning them lol.

you spent two years honing your skills as a trainee at a modest, struggling company before rising to fame as the leader of your own group, DESTINY. your impressive duality on stage, seamlessly transitioning from intense, commanding dance moves and mature raps to the charming, feminine aegyo concept, quickly won over fans. your first award was hard-earned for your sultry debut song titled "Sit." (in which you would subtly imply that you want to sit on someone's face).

you, in particular, gained a significant international following because of your hilarious bedroom lives where you would often deliver sassy comebacks to fans, showcase your impressive english language skills, and share random chatter that fans couldn't help but love. Initially, you became known for your goofy on-screen personality. however, as your talents and stage presence shone through, it was no surprise that people fell for you.

DESTINY has cemented their status as THE 5th generation girl group, making waves in the music industry. numerous renowned idols you adored in the past (one of which, was Kim Hongjoong) have taken notice of your group's bold lyrics and praised your distinctive style and captivating concept.

one day, you decide to hop onto instagram to go live and have a casual chat with your dedicated fans, also known as fates, during a brief pause from rehearsing the dance routine for your upcoming comeback album titled "idgaf." despite having beads of sweat clinging to your forehead and being slightly winded from the dance, you maintain a casual conversation with your viewers;

"so, a few days ago i was on my phone and i was watching these uh, these compilations of other idols talking about me—" you pause to catch your breath and slightly chuckle at how ridiculous you sound. "someone made one of those cute videos on youtube." you repeat in korean. "my favorite part was when they showed ateez reaction to me casually rapping that one part in WORK during one of my lives..." you took a deep inhale and looked away as you thought about it some more. "hongjoong-sunbaenim was sooo, aaaagh! he was— i mean, okay, so, don't like, make a big deal out of this, but i had a hugeeee crush on him for so long, so long, like, before i debuted, i swear, his charizzma is unmatched!!! aaaaaGH, he COMPLIMENTED MY RAPPING IN THE VIDEO! and then i began to wonder if, like, was my rapping even good? damn, i could've done better if i knew hongjoong-sunbaenim would watch it. he was also, actually my inspiration as a leader and a producer..."

you continued chattering on, unaware that your manager would soon reprimand you for discussing that particular topic, citing potential negative consequences. however, it wasn't a major issue, since your fans actually valued your candidness. sure, there were a few hateful remarks scattered among the positive comments, but many responded positively, with remarks such as:

"help she's so real 😭"

"waaah, wishing i was hongjoon rn"

"she can't have hongjoong! he is dating atiny" — "she is atiny tho?" someone replied.

"totally ship them" and it was all enough to make your day.

it's not too long before you come across a reel on instagram that many fans tagged you in; hongjoong reacting to a clip of you simping over him on your livestream. your heartbeat picked up its pace and you sat up properly, raising the volume on your phone as you mentally prepared yourself for the video.

"yahh, i already saw this." he says and you pause the video. fuck. you play it again. "honestly, i thought it was a bit cute." you blush and kick your feet until he speaks again. "it's rare to see junior idols showcasing their admiration for their seniors, but it's really nice, i really like it... especially when they admire me," he shows a heart to the camera. "y/n, if you're watching this, please continue to show your love and support to ateez!"

you were a little disappointed because he seemed to spin it off that you were just a supportive junior/atiny, but you decided to brush it off.

weeks pass and the topic dies down until a photo of you and hongjoong chatting while he signed your album at their fansign event was spreading around the internet and rumors began — you didn't think it would be hidden since it was a public event, but you also didn't think that it would be a scandal. it's your first time being able to chat with hongjoong at all and the dating rumors are just ridiculous. your manager gives you the go signal and you decide to address the rumors by going live in your iconic bed, the lights are dim and you're bare faced, wearing glasses —

"helllooo..." you adjusted the camera at the foot of the bed and you laid on your stomach in front of it. "yesterday... i met kim hongjoong-sunbaenim of ateez..." you paused as you thought about what to say next — you didn't want a script, you wanted to stay yourself: authentic and genuine.

"and today, i was very disappointed because many fates say that we are dating and expressed their hatred for the idea... i would like to point out that i only admire him now as my senior and inspiration for being an idol! i would like to address that, honestly, the dating rumors are a bit ridiculous just because i said i had a crush. it was my first time meeting hongjoong-sunbaenim," your tone was a bit defensive and pouty, you paused as you fiddled with your earring and stared at the camera, snivveling.

"it was my very first time meeting him, it was awkward. more awkward than if he was with a regular fan, maybe because i am an idol and i expressed my admiration for him very publicly, but he was very kind and considerate about it. he really expressed his appreciation for me as his junior and atiny and that was the extent of our interaction. i hope you guys don't spread rumors like this again even if it's true, it would be private business and you shouldn't gossip about someone's love life like this. if you guys like it so much, i suggest you guys focus on your own." you make a light joke of the situation, slightly hoping you don't get hate for that as well. soon after that live, you posted a selfie you took with hongjoong at the fansign event with the caption "forever atiny! 🫶" and you decided to stop and stray away from the whole hongjoong topic because you didn't want to cause him any more trouble.

luckily, after that, many fates decided to come forward and be more open as they showed a lot of support for you and hongjoong.

"this is ridiculous! she shouldn't have to address those dumb rumors, please respect them! they are idols, your baseless rumors could ruin their career."

"i feel so bad for her and hongjoong. i love their innocent chemistry and i believe they should interact more often! male and female idols should be able to interact without being "accused" of dating. like she said, even if they are, it is none of our business! so sad that she'll probably have avoid him after this. so disappointed in whoever made the rumors."

months later, your group and ateez both were in Chicago, USA for your comeback world tour at the same time and while you were there, you decided to attend their concert and you screamed at the top of your lungs and went along every fan chant like a pro, you were far away from the stage so there were no hopes of being noticed — since it was convenient, your managers decided that your group and ateez should collaborate on dances of your comeback title songs, and naturally, you and hongjoong were paired together by your managers in hopes of using this dance as a warning for fans not to mess with the two of you. much to your convenience, the title track of your comeback album is "idgaf."

"hongjoong-sunbaenim!" you slightly jogged over to him and the staff and group members and bowed as deep as you could, your manager and fellow DESTINY members following close by.

"there's no need for that," hongjoong waves you off as you came back up and you chuckle slightly as you awkwardly look around the silent room — you often gossiped with your members about how you'd 'let hongjoong do things to you' among other questionable remarks, and right now you silently hope they wouldn't say a word about it. "i already learned the dance earlier, it's really good! i heard you choreographed it? " hongjoong attempts at small talk and you nod politely in response, holding your hands together, noticing the ateez members behind him glancing at you guys, whispering, and chuckling.

"yes, it took me a month to perfect the choreography before i taught my members." you explain, but before hongjoong could continue, one of the staff unknowingly interrupts your chat.

"okayyy, let's get started! in your positions, please."

you guys complete the dance on the second take, and once it was posted, the fans absolutely adore your chemistry (just as you did) they fawn over the idea of you and hongjoong together (just as you did).

after the posting of the dance, you have a casual live featuring your group mate, nina, who also spoke english. the theme; "doing face masks in my bed and eating ramen." during that very live, you receive a notification while your friend talks to the viewers. you picked you your phone to check what it was, your heart almost literally stopped.

kim hongjoong...

was...

following you back on instagram.

your eyes almost popped out of your head and you let out a really long high pitched screech.

"what? " nina looks at you, befuddled but laughing at your odd reaction. after a few seconds you still don't respond to her as you kick your feet. "ya, what is it? " she attempts once again and lean over your shoulder to check your phone but you slam it down on the bed. you slowly turn to her, trying and failing to contain your smile as you whisper so the audience couldn't hear.

"hongjoong-sunbaenim is following me on instagram..."

her eyes widen and she smiles. "are you sure?" she asked in a high pitched voice and you nodded frantically, showing her your phone. her smile widens and the two of you couldn't hold it in anymore — you both begin squealing and grabbing each others hands live and the fate's comments kept coming in.

"what are you two talking abouttt???"

"i didn't hear what she said!"

fans would soon understand what you were screeching about and this time, instead of dating rumors, it was "feeling" rumors. fans would gossip and speculate about how you two obviously had feelings for each other, other speculations include your "random chemistry" with hongjoong to be a marketing strategy — to always put you two together to gather more attention, likes, and fan reactions.

what they don't know is that they are correct on both accounts; because you and hongjoong so obviously had feelings each other the staff would always put you together.

the tipping point.

hongjoong posted a picture on his story of a ticket purchase to your world tour comeback concert.

the concert is coming to an end.

DESTINY is singing the encore, which is also your last chance; ever since hongjoong posted that on his story you made a plan. but you told everyone that it was in the heat of the moment when you did it. that's what you told yourself — the adrenaline, your sore muscles, your vocal cords beginning to strain, the screams of fate, the sound of your heartbeat, the thought of hongjoong. your lines in the song were coming close — before the beat drops, you skip toward the center and you raise your hand, microphone close to your mouth, you screamed.

"HONGJOONG-SUNBAENIM!" you scream out, your voice echoing through the arena. "this one's for you!" the fate fans erupt into a frenzy of deafening screams and cheers. the stunned expressions of the DESTINY members are captured on the iphone cameras held by fans. "FATE! let me hear you FUCKING SCREAM YOUR HEARTS OUT!" you shout, launching into the chorus of the song. as the beat drops and the intensity kicks in, everything around you becomes a hazy blur, and for a moment, your mind goes blissfully blank.

as the concert reaches its finale, the members of DESTINY retreat backstage to catch their breath and decompress. you immediately seek refuge in the nearest chair, plopping down and exhaling a loud, tired sigh.

"ya, y/n, what were you thinking?" nina sits on the chair next to you. "we don't know what could happen now."

that was the worst possible feeling to have as an idol. the anxiety of what comes next.

...it reminded you of the time mingi swore to jongho on a live.

"it's not that big of a deal," you say as you chug and finish an entire bottle of water. "it's to feed fate's hunger..."

"yaaah, how you think hongjoong-sunbaenim would react? " she ponders and you shrug, choosing not to think about it. despite your nonchalant demeanor, you completely regret it. 'how would everyone react?' sure, you constantly openly express your admiration for him everywhere else, but onstage was something else, 'what happened to professionalism?' you sigh and put your hand on your forehead. you're going to get in a lot of trouble with your manager now.

that nonsense yet iconic line would get you the title of the "most ballsy k-pop leader of the 5th generation " which is also the headline of the hit article that would later accuse you of being "too forward" with your "poor attempt" at bringing modern media and standards to korean culture and k-pop. back then, your line at the concert would not be acceptable, but now there are so many of your fans — your fates defending you, supporting you, and fighting all of the haters and closed fates who openly express their distaste and negativity for your unprofessional behaviour. you still believe that you deserve at least half of it.

it's no surprise that hongjoong doesn't share or post any public reaction to your iconic line of 2024, unlike you, an immature newer idol, he has been in the entertainment industry longer and is an expert on how to maintain professionalism, especially when it comes to dating scandals. agh, he probably lost his respect for you after that moment.

another few weeks pass. to your surprise, even after your unprofessional behaviour, DESTINY was invited to an award show, and during one of the performances, nature called, so you got up to head to the bathroom. in one of the hallways, the smallest of small chances and the most cliche of cliches happened. you and hongjoong stood in front of each other at the hallway that led to the bathrooms, you bow deeply and greet him softly, a bit embarrased you hunch in shame. "hello..."

"y/n-ah! " he's surprisingly relaxed, he raises a hand forward and you awkwardly double check it before high fiving him and he puts it back in his pocket. "how are you? i've actually been a bit of a fate myself these past few weeks and that thing you said at the concert wasss, wow."

'okay, so he addressed the elephant in the room just like that. was it even the elephant for him? it seemed like a koala, or... a chipmunk or something.' goes through your mind. you awkwardly chuckle and push your hair away from your face. "yeah... i'm sorry if it made you uncomfortable, i've regretted it ever since—"

"no! you don't have to be. it was cool. really cool. i liked it." he says. his cute, reassuring smile remains and you can't help but smile back.

"really?" you ask, you don't how pathetic you sound asking it but hongjoong liked how it came out of your mouth — your personality now is so soft-spoken and different from the "ballsy 5th gen leader" the internet made you out to be, he adored the duality. "i was actually super nervous, i was afraid you would think i ruined the face of my group or something and unfollow me on instagram..." you ramble nervously.

"ya, i would never! " he said and took his phone out. "i am a certified fate from here on out, you and are- are the fate-inies." he handed you his phone. "i was actually wondering if we can exchange contacts?" you look at him, shocked painted across your face.

"really???" you ask and don't hesitate to grab his phone. "of course!" you try your best not to sound too eager but of course, you fail. hongjoong laughs at your innocent reaction and you return his phone. he smiles, satisfied, and lifts it up and shaking the screen in front of you.

"i'll text you," he says casually. "will you reply?" you nod, trying to contain your smile because you don't wanna scare him away.

"of course! why else would i give you my number?" he makes way for you in the small hallway and mumbles a farewell as he waves his hand and he begins to walk away, you turn and watch him until he's out of sight before you run to the bathroom, slam the door behind you and scream your lungs out in the mirror. you totally lost the urge to pee and you return to your groupmates immediately after, already gossiping about what went down. later that night, DESTINY wins an award, you celebrate, and head back to your dorm, wash up and fall on your bed where you would receive a text from hongjoong.

hongjoong: "yo! congratulations on your win! i was very happy when DESTINY was announced and saw you onstage ㅋㅋㅋㅋ."

you bite your nail, thinking of your response.

you: "hi! tysm! congratulations on your award as well. it's expected of ateez-sunbaenim, i already see it coming ㅋㅋㅋ"

hongjoong: "ah, don't be like that. it's hard to live up to expectations"

you chuckle at his response. his typing style was different than you expected. you got ready to type out another response until he messaged again.

hongjoong: "btw, when r u available? we should celebrate our win together. as leaders."

your heart skips a beat... or two. is he asking you out?

you: "how about tomorrow night?"

hongjoong: "oh, no can do. ateez celebration party tomorrow with a few close friends."

you sigh and you're about to put your phone down for the night when you reel another vibration.

hongjoong: "unless u wanna come? ur more than welcome"

you: "idk, it might not be the best choice. will there be other female idols there?"

hongjoong: "uhh, ur being kinda dubious. do you want there to be female idols?"

you: "yes pls"

hongjoong: "then there will be female idols there. why? are you going to choose them over me?"

you: "ㅋㅋㅋㅋ only if the entirety of blackpink are there."

hongjoong: "it might seem crazy what i'm 'bout to say..."

hongjoong: "sorry but lisa was all we could book 4 the night"

you: "U FR?!"

hongjoong: "no"

hongjoong: "ateez is not made of gold. lisa-sunbaenim is also busy with more important matters"

hongjoong: "ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ"

hongjoong: "...are you still coming?"

hongjoong: "..."

hongjoong: "y/n?"

you: "yes! it sounds great"

hongjoong: "great. i'll send u the details, see u there ;)"

...is that a fucking winky face? you swear this man is the bane of your existence.

you go to the party alone — and surprisingly, it isn't the small gathering you expected, there were so many recognizable faces, not just of idols, but actors. the venue is a large vip lounge of an underground club in the city. the interior was obnoxious and practically made of gold —you look around and see choi san leaning on a wall, alone. he's a familiar face that you're comfortable talking with. you make eye contact across the room and you walk your way toward him confidently. "hello, sunbaenim!! congratulations on your win~" you give him a soft smile and he smiles back, taking a sip from the glass in his hand — is that brandy? you watch as he silently puts the cup down on the table next to him without so much as a thanks to your greeting, he puts his hands on each of your cheeks, and you wonder if his drunk until you're flustered as he forcibly turns your head 90° to the right.

"hyung is over there."

you easily recognize your hongjoong.

he is chatting with who you recognize to be bang chan of stray kids but your eyes just lock in on him — everyone else around is suddenly blurred and he's the only one you see. you focus on the way his lips move as he speaks, the way he softly nods — this is him when he thinks you're not watching and it's so damn hot, him being himself. the mere fact that he breathes is hot. damn, you're so in love. san chuckles at how you already forgot he was next to you, he conks you in the head and walks away.

you walk toward hongjoong and excuse yourself to their conversation. "y/n!" he says enthusiastically and places a hand around your shoulders. "bang chan, i'm sure your familiar," hongjoong says casually and he makes eye contact with someone in the room — getting distracted, he walks away. of course, it's his group's celebratoon party, you weren't the only guest he would tend to. you awkwardly look up at bang chan and wave.

"hi, sunbaenim! i really love maniac and superbowl, amazing songs!" you give him two thumbs ups and he giggles bashedly, almost blushing — you knew bangchan to alwayd be a flustered mess, he never knew how to react to compliments. "also, i subscribed to your bubble once, wowwww." you tried to make small talk and he laughed once more.

"yeahhh, i can get pretty crazy there. you know, i would also watch your lives sometimes, you're funny!" he says, and you smile.

"you really think so? aaah, i know i have a lot of cringe moments, especially when i first revealed my crush on hongjoong."

"oh yeah, no, it wasn't cringe at all! everybody in the industry already saw your chemistry from before you mentioned it. i totally support you guys haha." he speaks casually and your eyes widen.

"wh-what? support our what? what do we have? what chemistry?" you ramble and bang chan chuckles.

"relax, relax — it's nothing, just, we see your flirting here and there and you two would be so cute together. but, if you want my advise, i wouldn't recommend going public with it, honestly. DESTINY— it's DESTINY, right? you guys just debuted, i don't think having a public relationship with an idol older than you is the right career choice this early on." he says and you nod along, you totally understood where he was coming from but when you stayed silent too long for comfort, bangchan tilted his head. "hey? did i say something wrong?"

you snapped your attention back at him. "hm? yeah, i mean NO! i completely understand what you said and i agree. plus, there's nothinggg between me and hongjoong, we're just... i don't know we're, okay, so there might be a little bit of a thing, but it'll take a long time until it actually becomes something~" you giggle and bangchan giggles as well and the two of you are just a giggling mess and hongjoong comes back to join your group.

"hey, what's all the giggling about?" he moves his head to look at you, then bang chan, then you, then bang chan — "isn't this your first time being acquainted? why are you two having so much fun without me? " then bangchan just smiles, then looks at you, then hongjoong, then you, then hongjoong.

"i'll get going nowww~" he says in a goofy tone and walks away.

"what's with him?" hongjoong mutters and looks at you. "have you eaten? eat! there's plenty of appetizers and foods around—"

"hongjoong-sunbaenim," you interrupt him. "ah, no... hongjoong-oppa." you look up at him, and he stares at you, expression blank but clearly flustered at the new title he got from you. "what are we?" you decide to live up to your title as the most ballsy kpop leader of the 5th generation and he chokes on air, eyebrows raising and eyes blinking repeatedly as he processes what you said.

"um," hongjoong looks around the room nervously, maybe concerned if anyone overheard what you just said. "i... like- hm? huh? i-" he can barely get a word out and you tilt your head, maybe you shouldn't have been to forward, it was wayyy too soon.

"sorry, you don't have to answer." you say calmly and he lets out a very obvious sigh of relief and you chuckle.

"felt like i was trying to defuse a time bomb." he laughs, holding a hand over his chest and you smile as not to ruin the mood, but your next question would do just that for you.

"but... be honest, this is more than a friendship, right? " you can see his smile falter ever so slightly and the silent pause is way too long for comfort. maybe you shouldn't have asked.

"...we'll see where it goes, yeah? " hongjoong smiles. you nod in understanding and he pets your head ever-so-softly as not to ruin your hair. "let's go, let's enjoy the party."

later that night, he takes you to your dorm in the same car he is being driven home in — he waves goodbye and you bow politely. "i'll text you!" hongjoong says, loud enough for you to hear. the car drives off in the distance and you smile and wave. "i'll reply!" you yell back.

your relationship lasted in the talking stage for a few months. rumors were nonexistent because you and hongjoong didn't have to express your attraction to each other through lives and posts and stories anymore, fans assumed it was because the staff felt the tension between you two died down and stopped using it for clout, little did they know that it all began hiding behind closed doors through hundreds of flirty texts and phone calls, cute selcas, handmade gifts, ordering food for each other, occasional video calls, and personal dates throughout your busy schedule. you were practically dating now but you and hongjoong never had a label.

"so, what are you guys? " wooyoung would ask.

hongjoong takes a moment to answer as he scrolls through his laptop. "...we're in a situationship."

"aren't you a little too old to be afraid of commitment?"

"ya, bastard—"

it wouldn't take too long for your "situationship" to spread among other idols and since everyone else was pretty closed off or "careful" it was the gossip of the industry.

about 6 months into whatever you and hongjoong had; you two were alone together in the living room of his dorm, everyone else was out and about, busy tending to their own lives leaving you two were finally alone together. one of the few moments you treasured. you laid comfortably into his chest as you both focused on wonka (timothee ver.) playing on the flat screen tv. hongjoong subconsciously pets your hair every now and then and you nuzzled deeper into his chest but there was a lingering thought in your head that you have been meaning to ask.

"hongjoong-oppa..." you mumble. hongjoong humms in response — you feel the vibration of his voice against your ear that rests just above his chest. you shuffled to look at him, he glances at you, seeing that you're a bit serious, he pauses the movie and he sits up a bit. "...is it still to early to ask what we are?"

hongjoong's expression doesn't change. it makes it hard for you to read him and how he feels about the question you have been too scared to ask these past few weeks. hongjoong doesn't respond however, just looking at you with clueless eyes. you sigh, expressing your disappointment and gently push him back into his position on the couch and laid back on top of him.

"nevermind." you murmur. you don't wanna force him into rushing the relationship or do anything he's uncomfortable with, but you don't want to wait too long either. shouldn't the two of you always be on the same page? you sigh again the more you thought about it, but your thoughts were interrupted as soon as hongjoong pushed you back up into your position.

"no," he simply said. "it's not too soon. in fact, it's a little late." he began and you started listening to him, pout evident on your face. hongjoong takes a deep breath. "the truth is, i have been thinking about this topic... me and some of the members would talk about it, and they kept telling me to "put a label on it," but my response was always that i was too scared." you looked at him, brows furrowed. "i really like you, y/n. it scares me." he whispers.

"...you don't... have to be scared." you say softly.

"i know, i know—" he rubs his forehead and he lets out a deep sigh. "but a label makes it so official, y'know...? "

"i know, oppa, but if our relationship, is not going anywhere then we might as well stop now." you can feel the anger in you bubbling up. "i don't date around, you know. you said yourself that you wanted to see where this would go, it's been months and after everything we've done together, i still can't believe we're not even called boyfriend and girlfriend," you pause to take a breath and calm yourself down. "i don't want to force you anything, but i just, i can't help but think that you don't want to continue this but you're too afraid to tell me. i don't want to wake up tomorrow and you change your mind and decide that you don't want me anymore, i need to propose an ultimatum." you pause, licking your lips nervously. "if you don't want to be my boyfriend now then maybe you shouldn't be my boyfriend at all."

you rambled on like you usually do, but hongjoong doesn't want to interrupt you, he never wanted to, he loves listening to you talk, but hearing the words that came out of your mouth upset him.

"...y/n, don't get me wrong," he began. "i want to be your boyfriend and i want you to be my girlfriend, i want a label, but you have to understand that it's hard for me..." he explained calmly, voice soft.

his words don't change how you feel, and you frown. "then why? what are you waiting for—? " your words are interrupted when you feel his lips smash into yours in a soft and wet kiss, it's almost aggressive but eventually, it melts into a tender, passionate connection before pulling away. you look at hongjoong, a little dazed but befuddled. that was the last thing you expected but somehow it calmed your nerves, unlike his words. you look away from him as a blush creeps into your face — that was your first ever kiss with him. "why'd you do that..? "

"because, y/n," hongjoong softly squishes your cheeks and guides you to look into his eyes. "you're beautiful. not just physically — your personality is beautiful, your passion is beautiful... you're a wonderful person and i am very lucky to have you." you're glad that you're looking at him because you can see the sincerity in his eyes. "...and i love how much you care and i- i know that i am ready to have a label, it's just that i told you... i'm scared... but, i guess, we don't always jump into things prepared..." he says and your expression softens. you wrap your arms around his neck and pull him just a little bit closer. "y/n... can i be your boyfriend?" he asks softly.

"of course. what's wrong with you?" you playfully hit his chest and pull him into another short kiss. "i literally had a breakdown about the fact that you didn't wanna be my boyfriend and you're still asking me if i want you to be my boyfriend?" you laugh, hongjoong leans in, another small kiss.

"ya, don't tease me." he mumbles against your lips and you smile mischievously.

"or what~?" you ask, suggestively tilting your head as you look into his gorgeous eyes. hongjoong simply chuckles at your boldness and pecks your cheek, pulling you in for a proper hug and he whispers in your ear.

"don't push it," you were shocked at how deep his voice became. "i might not be able to contain myself..." he says casually and lays back down as if he didn't just leave you wet. "...right, let's continue the movie." he grabs the remote from the table and unpauses it. you just sit there, high and dry.

it's been a year since you and hongjoong have been together, fans are still unaware but catch on to random hints and slip-ups here and there but usually they are too far fetched to be considered a "soft launch" (like you accidentally calling hongjoong "oppa" on a livestream), and only ateez and DESTINY know that your relationship is official official (even your managers don't know, which made it super difficult to go on dates.)

their reactions include but are not limited to:

"finally. you two were beginning to be insufferable..." — DESTINY

"NO WAYYY!?!? THAT'S SO GREAT!!!" — Ateez

"oppaaa!" you yell loudly as you enter the dance studio hongjoong and a few of his members were practicing in. it was late at night and not many people were in the building at the time, you ran over to him and jumped in his arms.

"hi, baby! what are you doing here so late?" he kisses your cheek as he carries you by your thighs against him and you look into his eyes.

"why? can't i see my baby while he's working? " your arms are wrapped around his neck and you kiss his nose, he smiles and scrunches his nose, nuzzling it into yours like a rabbit.

"ahh, come on, you know you're my baby!" he says in a sweet aegyo voice and you giggle. he puts you down and seonghwa walks by.

"come on guys, seriously, i think i might barf..."

"i know, 'oppa, you're my baby, not just that — i want your babies~'" san decides to join in and mock you two with a skit and feigning a high pitched voice. pretending to be you and that seonghwa was hongjoong, playfully hitting his chest.

"ya, stop that, you weirdo—" seonghwa chuckles and hits san back.

you both ignore them, already used to their antics. you hold hongjoong's hands, looking into his eyes. "oppa, wanna go get a snack?"

"totally! let's go." he lets go of your left hand and holds on to your right as he leads you out the dancing studio and into the corridor. "so, where are we going?"

"what? why would i know? i thought you knew." you say, dumbfounded.

"why should i know? you're the one who suggested that we go out for a snack!" he exclaims.

"okay, okay! sooo... let's just go back to the dancing studio? " you turn around and hongjoong pauses, his smile remains the same.

"...actually, i have something else in mind." his voice is soft yet deep — you tilt your head in curiosity as he leads you to the end of the corridor and to the elevators, clicking the down button.

"...soo, are you going to tell me or..?"

"let's hang out in my studio."

this was undeniably the smartest idea Hongjoong had come up with since the beginning of your relationship (considering your surprise). it was incredibly rare for the two of you to get some precious alone time together, so you vowed to savor every single moment. laying on the couch in your favorite position (with you comfortably sprawled on top of him), a soothing silence enveloped the room, where the sound of your synchronized breathing patterns filled the air.

"'joong," you mumble, almost falling asleep, eyes closed. you shift on top of him and feel something rather peculiar down there. your eyes shot wide open. "'joong?!" you playfully hit his chest and sit up. "ya, i thought we were just chilling!"

"sorry! sorry- i couldn't help it, you were positioned so-" he pauses, staring at you as you urged him to continue with a smile and furrowed brows. "nevermind, nevermind, lay back down. it's chill, i promise."

"no," you suddenly say.

"no???" hongjoong questions. "wh- what do you mean?" he tries to laugh it off.

"i mean no, you said it was my fault. i have to help you," you innocently said and slid off of him, going on your knees on the floor.

"woah, woah, woah, wait- no, y/n, i can't let you do that," hongjoong attempts to pull you back up, but you refuse, your hands rest on his thighs, looking up at him with sparkling eyes, eagerly waiting for him to say yes. it's difficult for hongjoong to say no to that expression, he curses under his breath, throwing his head back and closing his eyes. "ahh, shit." he grumbles. "have you ever even sucked a dick, y/n?" he looks down at you, and you shake your head.

"no," you innocently respond. "but i can learn with you right? it's difficult for me to have a sex life, y'know, with our schedules and all."

"yeah, yeah…" he looks away, hand covering the flush of his cheeks.

"…wait," you suddenly stood up. "is this your way of telling me you've been sucked off before?"

"was that your way of telling me you've never been fucked before?" hongjoong quipped.

"is that your other way of telling me you've fucked someone else before?!" you shot back.

he chuckles, "c'mon, baby, this is a good thing!" he runs his hands up and down your arms, attempting to soothe your annoyance, although he's not quite sure whether you're joking or serious. "i could teach you a thing or two, you know? how does that sound, sweetheart?" he stands up and spins around, gently guiding you to sit on the couch with him. despite your earlier irritation, you can't help but giggle as he showers your face with kisses, eventually kissing your lips and coaxing you to lay down on the couch as the make-out session intensifies. he climbs on top of you, grinding his hips into yours, you whine into his kiss. "you like that?" hongjoong mumbles in between kisses, abruptly pulling away to rid of his clothing, prompting you to get rid of yours.

you were practically drooling over his cock, already waiting for him to trace it to your entrance as he wrapped his hand tightly around himself, but he didn't. instead, he leaned back on the other end of the couch, head thrown back as he pumped himself hard. as much as you were disappointed, you gotta say, what a fucking sight. the kim hongjoong was masturbating in front of you, to you. eager, you leaned forward and wrapped your hands around his hand that pumped his cock, wanting to make his job easier, hongjoong stared at you blankly for a moment, considering what he should let you do, slowly, he guided your hands to wrap around his thick girth, urging you to pump up and down, occassionally squeezing at the tip, watching as his precum escaped.

"fuck," hongjoong cursed under his breath. "ah, shit, shit, wait," he pulled your hands off of him. concerned you might've hurt him or done a bad job, you pulled away and watched as he ran a hand through his hair. "sorry, i was just so close to cumming." he mumbled, covering his face with both hands in shame.

you tilt your head, confused. "that's a good thing, though."

"no, no, i wanna make you cum first, baby…" his hand met your cheek, stroking it gently. "you want my tongue or fingers?"

"mmh, cock…" you mumbled, laying on your back and spreading your legs, showing your pretty, tight hole on fully display for him to use. "i want your cock, hongjoong…"

"fuck," hongjoong cllimbed over you and eagerly placed his tip at your entrance. who the hell was he to say no to his innocent baby? he stuck two fingers inside you, collectine some of your arousal to wrap around his cock as lubrication, "fuck, will you be able to take me?" he slowly pushed his tip inside, already struggling as your poor pussy hole fluttered around him. "baby, i don't think it'll fit-" he almost laughed.

"it'll fit!" you whined, grabbing his bare forearms. "i've fingered myself thinking about this moment many times, baby, it'll fit, make it fit, please, i want this, rip me apart, baby-"

slowly, hongjoong bottomed out inside you. the stretch stinging you — he almost came at your mere words and he didn't want to hear another second of it, so he patiently settled inside you for a moment, letting you get used to the sensation before he couldn't take it anymore. he might accidently cum inside you with the way your tight virgin hole squeezed around his long, fat cock. his pace started off slow, he pulled out at his tip before harshly slamming back inside you. you whined. "j-joong," you blubbered. "not too hard."

"okay, baby, i'm sorry," hongjoong leaned down, placing a kiss on your lips before slamming back inside you, slowly and gently. he set the vanilla pace. fuck, fuck, fuck, he was fucking you so good. you hated the thought that he had done this with other girls, but then again, if he didn't then he probably wouldn't have had the skill to fuck you like this right now.

"aah- faster," you whined and hongjoong complied, wanting nothing but to please you, to make your first time memorable. he thrust harder into you, his cock hitting your sweet spot you never even knew existed. "aah! ahhh~!" you involuntarily whined, you had never felt so good in your life, you never felt this before, the desire to reach your climax and the desire to never want this feeling to end. "i-i'm cumming, 'joong-" you whined as he fucked harder into you, abrupt thrusts, his head rested in the crook of your neck, letting out soft groans, his warm breath against your skin.

"cum for me, baby, that's right," he groaned as you squeezed tightly around him, creaming around his cock. "fuck, fuck, that's right baby…" he whispered, reaching his climax as well and painting your insides whiter than they have ever been.

"mmng…" you moaned, you couldn't get a word out even if you wanted to. too fucked out to form a coherent thought, hongjoong stayed inside of you until he softened. he pulled out, placing a kiss on your lips and nose.

"fuck, you took me so well, baby, you know that?" he made his way to face your pussy and began pushing the cum back inside your small hole. "mmh, your first time, you had a creampie? what a dirty slut you are, hmm?" he whispered, kissing the inside of your thigh before grabbing your discarded panties from the floor and sliding it back up your legs. all you could let out was a helpless whine, hongjoong dressed himself up, climbing into the couch wiht you, cuddling your naked, fucked out form into his fully clothed one. "sleep, baby, i'll clean you up at my dorm tomorrow, m'kay?"

"y'sure..?"

"yes, baby, don't worry."

[jina1028]

Safe Place

Park Jisung x fem!reader

Categories: idol Jisung, older reader (mention of 'noona' once), kissing, making out, marking, oral (m rec), unprotected sex (don't do it irl), creampie, cuddling, really slight dom/sub dynamics (?)

A.N. reader being older is not essential to the plot (what plot?), so if you want just ignore it since it's just randomly mentioned once.

To me the term 'noona' is just a nice way for a younger man to address a woman they're comfortable with, there's no sexual connotation and in this case is justified by the fact the story takes place in Korea. I just thought Jisung would feel nice having someone older to take care of him, hence the little mention.

Plus I'd like older readers to feel more included just adding that little word, if you're uncomfortable or doesn't apply to you just change it with 'y/n' I guess.

Note that english is not my first language.

Enjoy~

~♡~

Your phone suddenly made a dinging sound, letting you know you received a message, making you stop on your tracks while you got up from the sofa to get some water. The sound repeated a couple times. You let out a sigh before reading the name of the person who interrupted your plans and opened the message with newfound interest:

Jisung P.

'Y/n'

'Are you free right now?'

'If you're busy it's ok, I don't want to disturb'

You smiled, you found him so cute when he sent those shy messages, imagining him gnawing on his lips while staring at his phone screen, instant regret on his features thinking he's somehow annoying you, even though you reassured him before that he can message you whenever.

You start typing, unknowingly making him jolt with surprise and apprehension when he sees the dots on his screen.

You

'I'm free'

'Wanna come over?'

Jisung P.

'Can I?'

'I'll just make a quick stop at the dorm to wash up'

You

'Sure, let me know when you're downstairs'

He sent you a little thumbs up emoji and you started to make yourself as pretty as possible. When Jisung asked for your attention it meant he needed to be taken care of, and those times you wanted to spoil him by looking the best for him. So you put on some cute, soft make up and wore your lilac, lacey lingerie, then hid it under some simple sweats and t-shirt to surprise him more when you would strip.

In an hour he was at your door, you let him in examining his tall figure, hiding his face under a black mask and hoodie, dark hair almost covering his eyes.

You greeted him "Jisung! Everything ok coming here? No one followed you, right?"

"Yeah, there were a couple of sasaeng outside the company building but they couldn't follow me much in the traffic, we're good."

You led him to the sofa, letting him sit down while he yanked his mask off and let his head rest on the cushions on the back, exhaling a nervous breath. You brought some water and snacks and sat down on the other side of the sofa facing him.

"What were you doing before coming? Did something happen? You seem nervous."

"Do I?" he chuckled "I was at dance practice. It was stressful, I had a little argument about some moves and changes in the choreo. I'm not satisfied, the comeback is approaching and I feel like where we're at right now is not enough, I don't know..."

He started telling you about his concerns and you let him talk, quietly listening and occasionally humming letting him know you were paying attention.

"Sorry, I guess I'm just rambling, didn't mean to bother you" he interrupted his monologue, looking over at you with apologetic eyes.

"No, it's fine, I like when you open up to me! You know you can tell me anything, I'm not the type of person to judge."

He smiled at you, soon breaking eye contact and sheepishly thanking you.

After a moment of silence you scooted closer to him, the movement making him shift his attention from the palms of his hands to your face, unconciously looking at your lips, then back to your eyes when he caught himself staring.

"Jisung, why, of all people, did you call me so urgently tonight? Tell me."

The boy fidgeted with his hands, biting a little on his lower lip while you rested your hand on his shoulder.

"I missed you... I need you."

You closed the distance between your faces until your lips slightly brushed. You wanted to test how much he was desperate this time: enough to ignore his own shyness and press his round lips to yours with an almost inaudible whine.

Your hands flew to his hair, making a mess of it with your fingers stroking and pulling his locks, while his large ones grasped your waist. Your teeth pulled on his bottom lip and a swipe of your tongue soothed it while Jisung eagerly opened his mouth to chase it with his own, tangling them, wet sounds filling your ears.

You pushed him against the back of the sofa to straddle him, experimentally rolling your hips once on his lap, earning a small groan and feeling his member getting hard against your crotch. You started rolling, picking up a slow, comfortable rhythm. His hands grabbing at whatever he could to try and ground himself, while your lips left his mouth to place wet kisses along his jaw and his throat and neck, nibbling at his side when he let out a low moan.

"Stop it-" he was interrupted by his own gasp "you'll leave a mark like that" he struggled to end his sentence between soft hisses and gasps.

"Just tell your stylists to put make up or a band-aid on it" you replied making him snort.

"That's what I told them last time, had to tell everyone I had a bruise."

You suckled some more before gliding your tongue on the purplish mark you just made.

"Well, technically that wasn't a lie."

You detached from his neck to admire the state he was in and you almost purred at the sight: disheveled hair, glossy half lidded eyes, wet, pink, puffy lips, a soft shade of pink dusting his cheeks and a darker one on the left side of his neck.

You took a mental pic. "So pretty" you complimented, making him smile and blush more.

You smiled back and took the opportunity of this little break to get up and take his hand to guide him to your room. You pushed him down on the mattress.

"Let's get rid of some clothes" you suggested, standing in front of him, slowly raising your t-shirt to reveal your lilac bra, watching his reaction as he seemingly stopped breathing. He only let out his breath when you finally removed your pants as well.

You smirked "I'm not getting on the bed until you strip down too" arms crossed as you watch him scurry to satisfy your simple request, your eyes traveling on his slim body, reaching him and stopping his hands when they came to his boxers.

You gently pushed him to sit in the middle of the bed and slid his boxers down yourself while he timidly rised his hips to help you.

"Now relax, baby, leave everything to me."

Jisung whined at the use of that little nickname and let his head plop on the pillow, closing his eyes, waiting for your next move, for you to take care of him.

You reached up to his lips for a chaste kiss, leaving a trail down his neck, chest, stomach, feeling every rise and fall of his breath, every tremble and shiver, every little gasp until you reached his erection, stiff against his stomach, so big it reached his navel.

You grazed it with your fingers, tracing every vein up and down a few times, savoring his little hisses every time you reached the underside of his tip, swollen and red, and finally circled it with your fist, not being able to close your fingers around it because of the size.

You started stroking it slowly and languidly, paying attention to every little reaction, then you approached with your mouth, lightly fanning your hot breath over it and observing the way he shivered at the sensation, soon taking a lick on the tip to elicit a moan out of him.

You loved to hear his voice, you found it so sexy, so you used every tactic you knew to make him produce any sounds, his voice going straight from your ears to your pussy every time.

You started a nice pace, licking and sucking, taking as much as you could in your mouth, slowly bobbing your head, circling what you couldn't reach with your hand and building up the rhythm based on his reactions.

You tried your best to keep your pace and look up at him, he was too pretty like this, face blushing, eyes squeezed shut, nose occasionally scrunching, so cute, lips parted, red, swollen from all the kissing and his own biting, letting out the most beautiful sounds, his shyness even now urging him to keep quiet but failing for the most part. And the dark mark you painted on his neck.

You kept sucking and pumping, tasting his salty precum, oozing out of the tip with every suck and every twist of your fist.

You could tell he was close when he started slightly humping his hips to meet your mouth, a hand snaking at the back of your head, resting in your hair, still not wanting to hurt you by forcing you on him despite you devouring him like a starved woman. So polite.

With a last suck you popped his cock out of your mouth, a whine leaving his own.

"Not yet, baby" you gently warned him, you were still not over. You climbed up his legs and straddled him once again, stroking your still clothed pussy on his length, the drenched fabric of your lace panties adding to the sensation.

Jisung's hands flew to your hips, helping you rub your clit on his shaft, his eyes wandering from your face, to your nipples peaking through your bra, to his cock appearing and disappearing beneath your swollen pussy, back up to your eyes again.

"Y/n, please, I'm close."

"Alright, hold on a little bit more, mh?" you caressed his cheek. With one hand you moved your panties to the side and with the other you spread his precum on his cock to lubricate it and aligned his tip with your hole to slowly sink down, biting your lips at the stretch. After a few moments of stillness and heavy breathing filling the room you started rocking your hips on his, wet sounds and low moans and grunts bringing you slowly but inevitably to your orgasm.

Your clenching signaled him you were close so he grabbed your hips and started pistoning up into you, hitting your sweet spot hard with each thrust, eliciting choked moans and little squeals from you.

Jisung was so lost in the feeling of your wet, hot pussy engulfing him, squeezing him, swallowing him, that he lost it the moment you reached your high with a whine and without a single thought in his head he came hard, spilling his hot, white seed inside of your clenching pussy. He kept shallowly rolling his hips in yours as he came down, little moans and gasps finding their way to your ears. He was ecstatic.

You kissed him slowly and finally you both stilled, then it hit him: this was the first time he came inside of you, the first creampie in general, actually. Wasn't this supposed to be something really intimate? Did you expect him to pull out like the other times? He guessed so, what if you got angry? Was he worthy, for you, of cumming in your pussy? He just knew he loved it and the possessive feeling that came with it, he was yours and viceversa.

He finally voiced his worries, "Noona, I'm sorry, I didn't warn you" his voice was low, his eyes looking up at yours with knitted eyebrows, silently pleading for you to not turn away from him for his mistake, as much as he would've liked to do it again and again.

You smiled, reassuring him, "Jisung, if I didn't want you to come inside I would've told you to wear a condom, right? Come here" you said softly, inviting him in your arms. Jisung slid his hands around your waist and used his weight to push you on your back, resting his head on your chest, inhaling deeply the sweet, fruity scent of your perfume mixed with your own. You started stroking his soft hair, relishing the feeling of his big hands pressing on your back, his breath on your skin, his lashes tickling you while his eyes fluttered shut.

"Stop worrying when you're with me, you know I'm your safe place."

Jisung already started dozing off listening to your heartbeat, but still managed to say one more thing before letting your soothing caresses lull him to sleep:

"I know."

[leclerc-s]

big reputations - part two

series masterlist // previous // next

AN INTERVIEW WITH DANIEL RICCIARDO (EXCERPT)

comments

user1 nah, the interviewer was so wrong for this. you know he wanted to say himself.

user2 daniel's blushing over this. i just know it.

user3 fernando is probably giggling over all of this. we've all see the tiktoks he's posted.

user4 daniel dragged his best friend along to see his future gf at a concert.

user5 this man is giggling like a schoolgirl over a woman who's not even his girlfriend.

user6 daniel, baby, this isn't like you. what about our farm, our six dogs, 3 kids, 2 goats, 12 chickens, and 4 cows?

↳ user7 babygorl, delulu is not the solulu. not this time.

↳ user8 girl wants to raise a whole ass fucking zoo

↳ user6 i've grown up in the country, i am surrounded by animals

↳ user8 that explains it

user9 the interviewer heard we wanted the tea on what happened at the eras tour and she was not going to stop until she got answers. too bad daniel is good at keeping secrets

user10 oh this man so desperately wanted to say himself but had to stop from doing so.

alex albon i get asked about the eras tour one more time i will lose it!

max verstappen someone's bitter they didn't get a chance to go. alex albon YES! I AM! IT'S ALL LILY WILL TALK ABOUT! WE DESERVED THE RIGHT TO GO!

daniel ricciardo well that's up for debate. i waited ages in line to buy those tickets. did you?

alex albon YOU TOOK MAX AND P?? BUT NOT ME OR LILY?

daniel ricciardo i only had three extra tickets??

lando norris THREE? WHO WAS THE THIRD??

daniel ricciardo kelly? penelope's mom?

lando norris oh. i forgot about that.

charles leclerc you forgot penelope had a mother?

lando norris i plead the fifth

logan sargeant YOU'RE BRITISH?? THAT DOESN'T WORK ON YOU! lando norris I CAN BE WHATEVER I WANT TO BE! logan sargeant OF COURSE YOU CAN YOU'RE A COLONIZER! lando norris AT LEAST WE DON'T HAVE SCHOOL SHOOTINGS! logan sargeant YOU CAN'T USE THE SAME FUCKING COMEBACK EVERY TIME ASSHOLE! oscar piastri okay, we are not doing this again logan sargeant YOU STAY OUT OF THIS KOALA!

lewis hamilton can you three be mature?

logan sargeant in the words of the colonizer, 'i don't wanna mature'

fernando alonso por dios, estan locos. (my god, they're crazy)

sergio perez obvio, no estan nada normal (obviously, they're not normal)

george russell i don't speak spanish but all i understood was normal.

alex albon because it's spelled the same way in spanish and english

carlos sainz they're talking shit about the three stooges.

george russell thank you siri!

kevin magnussen so daniel how's your hand?

daniel ricciardo thanks for asking kevin! at least i know someone here cares about my wellbeing.

daniel ricciardo i'm currently texting with one hand because i have to go into surgery soon. it's only a broken bone. if i don't make it back don't let fernando date daphne jones!

max verstappen glad to know you have your priorities straight.

daniel ricciardo of course.

¡leclerc-s speaks! you cannot convince me that logan and lando haven't had a similar argument at least once and poor oscar was stuck as mediator between them.

¡disclaimer! this is in no way making assumptions about the people involved in this story, this is all fake. it is a fanfiction please don't take any of what is said seriously. this is all for entertainment purposes and as a creative outlet for me. enjoy!

[shoyoist]

please expand more on the shoyo tiktok gym thing 😭 i am going insane ONLY IF YOU WANT TO OF COURSE >:)

content: gn!reader, timeskip and final arc spoilers. established private relationship (that gets revealed). tiktok thirst traps :P just fluff. i rambled a lot lmaoo. note: hehe of course!! for you & me lan<3

— . ｡˚ ♡ hinata shoyo tiktok baddie era let's gooo!

hmmm so shoyo decides to try tiktok out because of all the hype the jnt receives during the olympics. they're the monster generation after all — atsumu and suna have been gaining quite a lot of traction on their pages, and they ask shoyo to cameo in their videos often, by popular demand. so he decides to give it a go!

of course, as soon as shoyo launches his tiktok and posts a video (just a short one of him sitting on the locker room bench at practice, introducing himself while the rest of the jnt are walking around and chatting in the background) he blows up instantly. @n1njashoyo gains over 30k followers within a day, and his first video gets a 100k likes in a couple of days. his account becomes big news everywhere.

he's one of the most popular members of the team globally, so it makes sense. he's known as the cutest player on the jnt, and in brazil/argentina he's so famous as “ninja shoyo”. people start tagging him in edits and fancams, and he sometimes duets them to praise and thank them.

lots of “hinata senshu notice me please 🥺” comments on his videos, and he replies to some of them with “hi !! 👋🏻” because he's just the cutest ever fr <33 he also responds to most japanese commenters and people that comment in portuguese because he understands them better.

his posts are mostly workout routine videos, different kinds of warm-up/cool-down stretches, high protein meal plan discussions—and he also films (and ocassionally goes live during) his evening runs and practise sessions. he has a series of form correction videos on volleyball, and a series of videos on resistance workouts that target specific muscles.

and every time he posts a clip where he's shirtless, doing curls or just anything with the weights, the videos are so clean and zoom in on his muscles so nicely<3 people start commenting things like “hinata sen do you have a camera man?” and he replies to one of them like “yes i do! :)” and they start telling him “senshu i think your cameraman has a crush on you...” little do they know v_v.

he doesn't respond to those comments, and the rumours about him having a lover away from public eye resurface. some viewers from brazil (where he lives at, since he's a player for ASAS) say that they “know something the others dont” etc etc.

and it builds up until about six months after shoyo launches his tiktok, one night he posts a thirst trap. low exposure filter, dim blue lighting, he's shirtless and standing infront of the mirror in just a pair of sweats — and behind him, someone is wrapping their arms around his waist. the video ends as soon as you fully lock your arms around his waist, and it drives his fans crazy.

the fangirls start posting about how their dream husband just announced that they're no longer single, comments like “gf reveal???” “hinata sen WHO IS THAT” “mr. hinata shoyo EXPLAIN” fill nearly all his recent videos.

after that little stunt, he disappears from social media for a bit. he had posted the thirst trap right on the brink of off season, and he stops posting on any of his socials for a couple of months.

then one day he makes a sudden, quick comeback — he drops a long video of himself and you, his beautiful partner, relaxing at a beach resort and enjoying a sunset dinner together at the beach. he clinks his glass of cherry wine with yours, takes a sip and grins at you all dopey before leaning in to give you a kiss. there are matching golden bands on both your ring fingers.

and the caption? “5 stars ⭐ food is good !! :)”

[suvidrache]

Hord NSFW Alphabet

age in bio when interacting. minors do not interact.

Word Count: 605 | Read it on AO3 | Tag List

A: Aftercare - What they're like after sex?

Considering there isn't much in Stone Aged Europe. He doesn't do much. You can take care of yourself. (He doesn't know what you need or want.)

B: Body Part - Their favorite part of themselves/you?

Everything about himself. He's the best there is. If he had to pick a part, his face. He prefers your legs. No further explanation.

C: Cum - Taste, texture, etc?

It's a slightly white color, and slightly salty.

D: Dirty Secret

If he's in the mood and you aren't around, he'll get himself off while thinking about you.

E: Experience - How much experience do they have?

He has none. You're his first time. However, he is insecure about not having done it with anyone previously because no experience means he may not be the best at it.

F: Favorite Position

Missionary and doggy style.

G: Goofy - How are they: serious, funny, etc?

He's serious, there isn't really anything to be joking about or laughing.

H: Hair - Shaved, not shaved, color?

Not shaved, a darker red than the hair on his head. He may trim it occasionally, but only if he feels like it.

I: Intimacy - How are they romantically?

He's not very romantic. He doesn’t know much about this whole relationship thing. As time progresses, he gets better.

J: Jack Off - How often do they masturbate?

If you aren't around to help him out, then he'll do it occasionally.

K: Kink - Their kinks?

Praising him, due to lack of experience there isn't much else known. You'll have to find out!

L: Location - Favorite place(s) to do it?

The shelter, because anywhere else and there's a chance you’ll both get caught and he wouldn't want that.

M: Motivation - What gets them into it?

You make suggestive remarks and tease him. Although, he doesn't like it if you tease him too much.

N: No - Will not do/turns them off?

He won't do anything that hurts one another, anything that gets you both caught.

O: Oral - Giving, receiving, skill?

He prefers receiving, and as time goes on he begins to give more. He isn't very skilled, but he gets better with time.

P: Pace - Fast, rough, slow, etc?

He starts off slow and hard as he's still learning, but he begins to pick up pace and you tell him to.

Q: Quickie - How often?

Unless he's busy, he's ready to go at any time.

R: Risk - Willing to take risks/experiment?

Unlikely.

S: Stamina - How long/many rounds can they go?

2-3 for about 45 minutes.

T: Toys - Do they have any/will they use them?

No. This is Stone Age Europe.

U: Unfair - How much do they tease?

He teases you quite a bit because you like him, your face reacts to what he says, and he knows it sometimes leaves you unable to think of a comeback.

V: Volume - How loud are they?

He isn't very loud, but he isn't quiet either. You're going to know how you make him feel.

W: Wild Card - Something random?

He may act like he could care less about you. However, he cares very deeply and begins to regret some of the things that he has said about you.

X: X-Ray - Size, appearance, etc?

He's about 7½ inches, some noticeable blue-green veins, and only some stand out, uncut with a slight upwards curve.

Y: Yearning - How high is their sex drive?

Only slightly high, he would do you every day of the week if he could.

Z: ZZZ - How quickly do they fall asleep?

He falls asleep as soon as you do, or right before you do.

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Tag List: @eli-chris, @unlikelypersonalknight1

[peraya-clownery]

"Dear April, please be good to me." This is not exactly the title of this Peraya fan work, but you get what I mean. 555555 :P

Something to share at the start of April, given that the 19th day of the month is coming so soon that the Perayas are going gaga over the "Krist" Perawat Sangpotirat × "Singto" Prachaya Ruangroj's grand comeback as the onscreen couple people loved since their SOTUS era (c. 2016). Like, has anyone seen those fan projects strewn around the GMM Grammy Building?!? :O (See Twitter hashtag #419thatTIMEhascome for the oh-so-sparkly Peraya fan projects this year!!! ^_^;)

Anyway, this was based from a Twitter user myumyukrist0206's post featuring Krist and Singto dolls wearing bread frames. And yes, hello to sticker-riddled fan works! :3 (Thanks to @breadartjournal for the "S" and "K" stickers, and I got the "Good Job Lion" and the "Way To Go Turtle" from a Shopee shop that sells teaching materials.)

P.S. It is a frustration for me to have Krist and Singto dolls in my arsenal, so I can only draw their doll faces at the moment. Besides, I have been very much into lions and turtles since I came across these two sparkly Thai boys. 555555! :P

P.P.S. Sometimes I wonder if I should create a stan account for Krist and Singto on some social media platforms, though. This may have been around four years in the making, and the idea of naming the account after the infamous "Pussy in Bio" comments from Twitter porn bots sounds like a good idea, 555555. :P (Well, Krist on Instagram literally has a "pussy in bio," and they're four of them living in his house, making a lot of trouble! :P)

[ox1-lovesick]

you're now the ceo of the biggest label in kpop. you're going to debut a new group soon, and need to pick your members fast. put your mutuals in a group together and give them positions and roles :p there are no limits to your creativity, let's create the leaders of kpop!

THIS ONE WAS SO FUN i was gonna make a group name fandom name and everything but no one else did that 💀 let's get it

♡ @yv17 : sub vocalist, lead dancer

nora just gives dancer? i know you said you're more of a vocal but i just know you've got a natural talent for dancing??? probably one of those unintentionally funny members like sunghoon, they're just saying what comes to mind and everyone's laughing 💀 "nora being unintentionally funny for 20 minutes" things y'know

♡ @hoonfever : main rapper, lead dancer

i just know mei is good at rapping i feel it in my liver. you may not know it yet mei but i can smell it 🤕 also a really good dancer??? very powerful yet smooth dancing like you just can't take your eyes off her??? "mei outdancing your faves for 15 minutes straight"

♡ @lov3niki : main dancer

this is given tbh, kim's been dancing since she was 5??? and not those zumba classes that are taught by the middle aged aunties who work minimum wage with 5 kids like actually dancing??? i can't even imagine the skill. god tier stage presence every moment can be turned into an edit,, she always looks good no matter what she's doing, fans are obsessed

♡ @haknom : lead dancer, vocalist

i just know kayla can dance don't even try 😭 definitely a smooth kind of dancer like karina or soobin. moves so clean but is also very versatile and can do sharp choreography with ease??? doesn't get very many vocal moments but WHEN SHE DOES 🧎‍♀️🧎🧎‍♀️🧎🧎‍♀️🧎 I'm floored

♡ @tzyuki : leader, main vocalist

appointing ej as leader because i think she's the most sane of all my mutuals 💀 an eunbi type of idol and leader, complete goofball but she can be scarily strict if need be. i also just know ej's good at singing??? has a really unique voice and tone that you can recognise from light years away you always know it's her singing even if you don't stan

♡ @blurredplatform : leader, dancer

also being one of my only sane moots i think lirin would make a really good leader, definitely less authoritative than ej but she knows how to bring out the best in all the members and encourage them when need be (a soobin type of leader) <3 definitely knows everyone inside and out, probably better than they know themselves

♡ @soov : vocalist

rei is just lost. she just never knows what's going on. always in her own world, the others can be talking about comeback promotions and she wasn't even aware a comeback was in place. it's kind of sad but it's also really funny 💀 ironically funny but never funny when she tries 💀 her jokes just tend to fly over everyone's head 😭 although she's a bit clueless she's a very talented vocalist, i see rei with a very soothing voice who does well with adlibs and backing vocals 😋

♡ @hyeki : main dancer, lead rapper

the keeho of the group. alayna's humour is for the elite only 😭 everyone's either scratching their heads or embarrassed whenever she opens her mouth 💀 definitely a shuhua kind of idol, enjoys messing with the fans and occasionally fights with them purely for amusement 😭 i do think alayna is a really good dancer though, good at popping and locking as well as great fluidity 🫶

♡ @astrozuya : lead vocalist, all rounder

i pondered for years trying to give luka a position i just think he could do anything and everything??? although i do think vocals are his strong point and he would mainly get vocal lines in songs. very friendly 😋 has an endless collection of darlings like yeonjun 😭 he's just so easygoing you get along with him immediately. major seungmin or soobin vibes

♡ @deeznutsriki : lead vocalist, sub rapper

sree my favourite shahrukh fangirl 😋🫶 i see sree as a really good vocalist, very good at vibratos and runs although she could probably have any position ? another very comforting idol who gives encouraging words and always wishes fans for their religious holidays, exams seasons and such 😋🫶 literal sweetheart must be protected and everyone loves her

♡ @i6wonsz : rapper

ELFIE MY BAE HRU elfie is a rapper and i will not hear anything else. a versatile rapper too like aisha, eu, yeonjun or hongjoong. her raps always go viral and are edit audios for months on end 😭 could definitely be a singer too i see elfie as an idol who adapts easily and learns quickly even if she hasn't been trained in said area. probably the one filling in for other members if they can't perform and such

♡ @gfksn : sub vocalist

MARI 🧌 VOCALS ARE HEAVEN ON EARTH has such a sweet voice like daniel or hanni, it's smooth and relaxing you could fall asleep listening to her sing. probably gets lines in the bridge or a build up, definitely the bass of all backing vocals and adlibs her voice is so easy to layer on and makes everything sound 100193830x better

[fff777]

watched nct dream( )scape countdown live! this is my reaction part 1

so i know now that it's supposed to be read "dream escape" and not "dreamscape." the e has escaped.

i've been waiting for the subtitles for a while. i tend to prefer the youtube subtitles over the live subtitles as the live subtitles tend to be delayed and that distracts me from actually understanding who's saying what

i've never been big on noise music but i admit the dissonant 'noises' that are layered under smoothie are catchy and hype

they're back to their regular seating assignments except chenji are switched

renjun: click like, subscribe, and turn on the notification bell already in youtuber form

jaemin's just revisiting a lot of old favourites, huh. first was white hair and now he's back to calling everything and everyone sexy.

they all commented on jaemin's white hair

is it just me, or is chenle shy about making extended eye contact with the camera? he kept looking away while introducing himself

already on our chenji bullshit

chenle complimenting jisung's hair. you know...i'm thinking that chenle compliments jisung more nowadays. he still definitely teases jisung a lot but we're in soft chenle era now.

jisung changed his hair five times this comeback??? rip your scalp boy

haechan literally every time. dramatic ass.

they started discussing smoothie right after broken melodies comeback live :o

chenle randomly talking about poison and sos performances. he is the kind of guy to say it aloud when he's proud.

haechan explaining how this comeback was them just pouring content on us. the way he showed it did look like a meme and all the other guys were like "where have i seen that before" and he was like damn i thought i was being original.

their 2024 schedule is packed like tetris TAT

chenle: did we start 30 min earlier because we talk too much

reading comments and of course haechan reading the one that's like "mark show abs please"

production for this album took two years as in 2023 to 2024

jisung made a dumb pun and was like let's move on and haechan is like the hell we will, say it again you coward

jaemin liked it :P

talking about how the speaker voice sounds like chenle again

woo so i wasn't wrong when i said this was definitely a version of the chewing gum concept (the boarding school photos for icantfeelanything)

so the members did a survey/quiz for the writers and that's how they came up with a concept

commotion on the east wing over there because apparently haechan keeps throwing jisung's picture

jaemin hugging bunny stuffy and jisung hugging cat stuffy

dream: meetings are hard

once again bringing up the fact that renjun provided a lot of the ideas for the concept. the concept with the guys looking prim and proper in their uniforms but with beaten up feet.

the guys wanting haechan to talk about something and haechan threatening (renjun) that he'd reveal it.

renjun participated in more meetings a result of being more involved in the concept

jisung's calves were very sore for practising ballet for two days. haechan said that jisung practised ballet ten years ago when he just became a trainee.

mark overexaggerated his surprise that there was a body double for the ballet

chenle: jisung can totally ballet like that in real life though

renjun the one to bring up jeno's muscles

chenle: as soon as jeno's back muscles came up i posted it on every socmed platform jisung: you seem to enjoy the muscles the most

renjun and jeno practised shooting guns, but jeno said the recoil was just acting. so i guess it was just a prop gun but like, without blanks.

haechan: y'all looked cool from the side and cute from the front (about renjun and jeno shooting)

mark: what did you think about doing your scene in one take? renjun: i didn't for real though renjun said he was just focused on getting it right

haechan: the binary system was a numeric system created by a person called binary it's giving "the triangle instrument was named after joe triangle"

the guys getting mark to say his english line in unknown again

i'm convinced mark just tries to see the romance in everything and i don't blame him, gotta do what you gotta do to get by. basically he turned his and haechan's teaser into a bit of a meet-cute, saying how his character thought it was interesting that haechan's character wasn't copying the binary numbers down and he thought haechan was cute.

jeno: it was very fitting to give haechan the role of the student who didn't pay attention in class haechan: it's called method acting

they're sitting in a row, so whenever chenle is talking to the group, he turns his whole body from side to side

jeno on jaemin and chenle fencing: it's a fight between two cats

jeno casually leaning his arm across the back of the sofa

jeno: wouldn't the pill have melted in your mouth? chenle: yes, but it's a movie jisung is amused

renjun impressed by how chenle was able to make spitting out the pill look cool

jaemle did not practise fencing until they were at the actual site of filming

now they're talking about the smoothie individual teasers

haechan was splashed with coffee when the robber kicked away his table but he remained professional. the guys were impressed (y)

jisung really liked mark's teaser >3 now that i'm watching more dream stuff, it's always fun to see in what ways mark and jisung are on the same wavelength

so renjun plucked the flower to make a ring instead of protecting it

cat stuffy transferred from jisung to haechan

lmao haechan making jisung say the line on the prompter and the guys all clapping and cheering. losers lol.

chenle: jisung's cringe defences are growing weak

markren getting in position to watch jisung do something cute

jaemin yelling at jisung again for not doing kyu on the mouth

more markren with the popcorn (popping that corn, if you will)

jisung did kyu a second time and he still didn't touch his finger to his lip lmfao

the third time he did touch his lip but he didn't make the kyu sound X'D why is this so hardddddd

he finally did it after the fourth time. like pulling teeth i swear.

group kyu

haechan once again standing up for his monologue

on this day, renjun has decided to be benevolent and grace haechan with a response

first song: icantfeelanything

markno protecting renjun's tummy

party over in east wing again

this was jisung's favourite song :3

jisung: we have the opportunity to write lyrics for this song mark: so what did you do, jisung jisung: it got rejected

mark explained that it was blind test. so i guess some of the guys wrote lyrics and submitted them without their names

jisung didn't have time to finish his lyrics ^^;;

chenji squabbles again! jisung was saying he used to eat less sweets and now he's eating more. now chenle is saying that jisung actually used to eat a lot of sweets so is jisung saying he's become numb to sweets and is eating more because of it?

jisung @ chenle X3

jaemin: we can never grow numb to nctzens' love jaemin: gremlin laugh i wonder if this is his way of being embarrassed/cringed out

second: smoothie

renjun standing up to dance once again. he just feels music with his whole body eh

renjun censoring the dance

they did basically leak the entire dance lol

jisung: can you say this to jeno? things about behind the scenes stories? haechan: you can ask him yourself jeno: you can ask me yourself jisung thought haechan was the mc so that was why he was so awkward about it lol

jeno recorded "smoothie" for around an hour. he was saying how the word smoothie starts to sound like something else ^^;; like when you say a word so often that it loses its meaning.

third song: box

haechan: hey siri haechan: hey google haechan: hey bixby

mark: roar

jaemin kept whispering into chenle's ear when chenle was saying the best places to listen to box...they're trying to promote tds3 ^^;;

chenle: i'd like all 7 of us to be in a box together at least once

fourth song: carat cake

haechan's cute head bop during carat cake X3 you can't see it bc it's a screenshot but it was cute

lmao renjun just learned on this day that learned the meaning of carat cake and that it was not carrot cake lmfao

mark: haechan, what have you been tempted by lately? haechan: you mean seduced?

oh noooo haechan was on a diet so at renjun's birthday party he only ate chicken breast and an apple ToT that is so sad ToT

fifth song: unknown

jisung said that this song sounds a bit like jbiebs :P

jisung (lightly) scold mark for spoiling the dance, but it wasn't shown on camera anyway

mark and jeno worked on lyrics for the rap of this song.

this next part was really cryptic where the guys were discussing new things going on...except none of them really said anything lol

[dryfrooot]

list 5 facts about a favorite sim of yours, and send this to simblrs whose sims you adore ʚ♡ɞ

(don’t know if you’ve done this yet but i thought i’d give it a try🖤)

AWW i adore your sims tooo🙇‍♀️🙇‍♀️ this is my first time doing this so ty for the ask!!

here's one of my favorite sims, kyra :P

she's reeeally awkward. During game tournaments she usually barely uses vc, she used to crack some atrociously unfunny jokes, and she was humbled each and every time... The only two people who are truly comfortable with and are used to her awkwardness and her inability to pick up on social cues are her best friends Salem and Benson, and her sister, Lea. They consider themselves as the best trio ever and Salem loves her dry, corny jokes.

Oswald (its a rlly goofy name im sorry) is the landlord of where lea and kyra live. Before her grandparents passed, she would visit them in Copperdale with her dad. He they weren't close but she had interacted with him pretty frequently since he lived on the bottom floor and was friends with her grandparents. After running away with her sister, Oswald accepted them with open arms, and they would often celebrate holidays together. He gave them the upstairs apartment where their grandparents used to live in, and although it's in poor condition, she considers it home than just a place to stay.

Kyra's childhood was really confusing and messy because of her mom's erratic behavior and her father's passive demeanor. Even though her mother is family oriented, her narcissism and struggle with regulating her emotions, has strained Kyra's relationship with Kyra. In one of her mother's fits of rage, years of pent up rage and frustration lead Kyra to gather everything she could, along with Lea, and run away. Since then, Kyra has been doing her best to protect Lea from the painful past. Lea doesn't remember much, but she has a sense of longing for her mother. Once in a blue moon, their father, torn btwn his his inability to confront his wife's destructive behavior and loyalty to his kids, comes to visit and provides them with clothes or leftover food, but he's the only one who knows where they are, being the only shackle to the life they left behind.

Kyra currently works at a local coffee shop, also taking a few odd jobs here and there to make a quick buck. Her coworkers are Lou Howell and Vanesha Cahyaputri. Her and jacob don't really get along too. everytime they're on a shift together he's never on the register to make sure he doesn't steal any money. He likes to poke fun at her whenever he's bored because of her slow, and pretty pathetic (😭) comebacks. She's on good term's with Vanesha due to the fact they both have immigrant parents where they'll share stories they laugh/gossip about together during their lunch break.

Kyra's also saving up to major in computer science and aspires to become a game dev and implement her and her sister's drawing skills to design the characters and other thingamajigs. They go to the library or the boba shop to whenever they can to catch up and talk about their dream game. Salem and Kyra struck up a conversation with a musician performing at the romance festival, (where Kyra also got played by Akira Kibo but that's a whole 'nother thing…) Benson, and he quickly became apart of their friend group. As they hung out more, he soon got tangled in her with her love and passion for this game, and wants to help that game come to fruition and be a music composer for her game.

[alexbkrieger13]

Their is just something about CGH that makes her seem so arrogant. Maybe cause she’s overlooked so much during awards or rankings she got a chip on her shoulder, idk but based on past comments online and this she just rubs me the wrong way.

Also I think it’s easiest for players of Ada’s status to walk away and then comeback to the national team. She has endorsements, plays for Lyon with high salary and is a known star. Where as others can’t just say okay yea the conditions aren’t great but I’ll pass on the national team checks, or don’t know if they would ever get picked again and a dream of theirs to go to euro or wc. So I can def see the egos of these players when they come and go as they please. And yea maybe they are great but being a great players doesn’t mean the team is going to be great. When you have all these other camps and stuff and you’re working with a set of players you can’t always just put in a star and expect the same. Not saying you can’t ever but I can see why other factors can add into it all and coaches choices. I think it’s clear they have locker room issues cause this is 2 coaches not getting what they should out of this squad. And I know nothing about the coaches to discuss other things regarding them except the W-L-D record.

Weirdly I also find Ella maser and SBG to be a bit annoying and arrogant. I’m not defending Lyon at all with the pregnancy stuff but I also thought some of her comments were iffy. Like how Lyon said okay we can trial this with the nanny or whatever it was and she was upset they said trial and not definite. But I don’t see anything wrong with that when it’s a new situation. And can argue the history of women sports/pregnancy etc but the current matter of fact is that it is a new thing and anything new is always going to have a learning curve. The rest of the issues with holding pay etc yea fuck them. I mention them only cause P is such good friends with them and could be the most arrogant person and is not at all. Always so humble. Anyways this is my sitting on the train rant for the day :)

We do love a good rant on here. I definitely agree I think Ada was in a very privileged position when she decides to leave the national team because the profile she already had and with that the income she could do that whereas other national team players in Norway realistically wouldn't have been able to do that at the time that she did. There's definitely not just one single issue with this team you there has to be multiple they've continued on from when Martin left to where we are now both on and off pitch and some of them are fixable but it doesn't seem like they're going to be fixed anytime soon

[baekhvuns]

Yessss EXO comeback without THE Kai makes no sense?! BUT NOW BAEK, XIUMIN AND CHEN SUING?! LET'S FUCKING GO AND KILL SM!!! Though I read it may affect the comeback, I'm so here for this. It's fucked up what SM has been doing... and now they're like "someone's manipulating our artists to sue us!" It's all on you bitches 😭😭😭 everyone should fucking sue, I can only imagine how bad it is for literally everyone if they're treating their senior artists this way. Every day I wake up to more SM bullshit 🤡🤡🤡🤡 they want people to sign contracts for HOW LONG, 18 YEARS?! https://twitter.com/taeikai/status/1664074788002734080?t=NaBQvrarA3_yX7Rc4RBv6w&s=19

Lmaaoooo https://twitter.com/theeeoniy/status/1664075788797489152?t=y5Tw5SwAEBtKaTDOXbRzWg&s=19 Now this.... https://twitter.com/theeeoniy/status/1664111611836243968?t=0aBOTQbxYNQmd-Xaenysrw&s=19

Okay but I laughed https://twitter.com/mikhaylacl/status/1664083113469947904?t=NgDdZL2skoG5Ck7fvDDdIA&s=19

But about Kai again... he was always there doing the most, whether in EXO, solo or even in S*p*rM, just like Taemin. Damn they're very similar in thie regard 😭🤧 and BTS law is the worst thing that has happened for real, DON'T GIVE ARMCHAIRS MORE POWER WTFFFF

And Suho wedding singer? Seonghwa better sings at OUR wedding 😊

YESSSS I WAS IN THIS AREA AND KEY WAS SO CLOSE TOO AAAAAAAA we waved at each other, uwu https://twitter.com/mingblinger/status/1662430887315664899?t=Uic4HfL4kahn0dMUNSRqiA&s=19

But CHOI MINHO?! https://twitter.com/TttxxxtttBlue/status/1662437298766741504?t=5JemyryO7lo0kQmV9DwJGA&s=19 Like... https://twitter.com/mingblinger/status/1662822383231574019?t=TmI-_w1N3BDFFRFQ6lGLvg&s=19

They saw Jesus fr https://twitter.com/butteringcandy/status/1662424918708097028?t=eX7z5yPgT6E1il2L4t4_iA&s=19

This is the song, it's a bside https://twitter.com/otjmkfive/status/1662424320092561408?t=GRq3xZwh4fpEAM2yzWZpKA&s=19

To think fuckass SM wanted them to perform for 5k people EVIL https://twitter.com/flyingone_/status/1662469667938783233?t=jHgLSdwPZY2_mFMJCbGYeQ&s=19

Omfg, no bc some True Beauty stans got mad at OP for tweeting this, like they didn't even say anything awful and also BE SERIOUS THAT WAS UNHINGED https://twitter.com/bloodbendin/status/1659619348120494080?t=OTvASuuv3VxfGZDnUjQ6YA&s=19

I checked the Yoona x Junho drama and I'll be waiting!

I'm sorry Hwa you're gorjus, but once you opened that mouth to reveal chrome silver teeth I jumped 😭😭😭😭 he took the flexing a bit too far. sometimes he's trying too hard with the bad boy persona and I have no choice, but laugh, cause he's so NOT intimidating to me 😅 maybe if they gave grillz to Joong or Mingi it'd be more tolerable, though barely anyone in kpop can pull that look off. Perhaps Taeyong cause he's a weird guy, so paired with silly fits it's kinda a vibe. But SEONGHWA? The mother, the MILF...the vampire, the demon???

Their lore was previously used in a more versatile way even though they were doing pirate concepts for a while, now they're what??? I wanted space cowboys tbh. I feel like the lore is well put together, but also the plot has been kinda lost and idc anymore. I hope they overthrow the government soon so we can smile a little 🙂 I

Taeyong bestie how are you doing ahsgzgzhgabzbzhzgxhxhagaxjds https://twitter.com/mrkyomi/status/1664081703437205504?t=gT-lcqwq9WWej-u2USVN3w&s=19 makes sense why he copyrighted all his tracks. But also uhmmmm

https://twitter.com/taeyeweon/status/1664202682922577921?t=HUXeZEXkzenNjUO-9ACvJA&s=19 💀 the qrts are killing me. The MV teaser?! He's so weird and cool

PLS I WILL EAT HIM AND I'LL FIGHT KQ FOR NOT INCLUDING HWA https://twitter.com/nobodylikehwa/status/1663874270986944513?t=1L4uBdkvfsVhW0ZFBLksOg&s=19 Uhm?! https://twitter.com/thinkingabtpsh/status/1663875558826995715?t=1D37uR0avocuC279tOqfDw&s=19

https://twitter.com/kbs_super/status/1664195076698914819?t=Yh5wmCgy_IMX_jd4xMhbTA&s=19

Me in middle school getting to know kpop cause of SM's artists mostly https://twitter.com/oluwatoge/status/1664089893063016449?t=zHceqprfykF-Hma24Nz9fA&s=19

Fuck them kids, but Skz and Atz on the Return of Superman! Woosanhwa... I just know some of you will get baby fever ajhxhaysuagahsgafasf, not me, but y'all stay safe!

I also rode Ateez's chilli pepper train, lmao KQ is spending all their budget on the promos. And I went to a mini fan meeting with Skz and got gifts and locked eyes with Lino 👀

Heh tenelkadjo new fic alert... NERD?!?! - DV 💖

hello!!!

Yessss EXO comeback without THE Kai makes no sense?! BUT NOW BAEK, XIUMIN AND CHEN SUING?! LET'S FUCKING GO AND KILL SM!!! Though I read it may affect the comeback, I'm so here for this. It's fucked up what SM has been doing... and now they're like "someone's manipulating our artists to sue us!" It's all on you bitches 😭😭😭 everyone should fucking sue, I can only imagine how bad it is for literally everyone if they're treating their senior artists this way. Every day I wake up to more SM bullshit 🤡🤡🤡🤡 they want people to sign contracts for HOW LONG, 18 YEARS?! https://twitter.com/taeikai/status/1664074788002734080?t=NaBQvrarA3_yX7Rc4RBv6w&s=19 /// Lmaaoooo https://twitter.com/theeeoniy/status/1664075788797489152?t=y5Tw5SwAEBtKaTDOXbRzWg&s=19 Now this.... https://twitter.com/theeeoniy/status/1664111611836243968?t=0aBOTQbxYNQmd-Xaenysrw&s=19 /// Okay but I laughed https://twitter.com/mikhaylacl/status/1664083113469947904?t=NgDdZL2skoG5Ck7fvDDdIA&s=19

NO LITERALLY HOW U GONNA DO THE CB WITHOUT THE FACE??? UNBELIEVABLE ALL OF IT ON SM, the lawsuit.. would’ve never thought it be baek to file a case against them, aND THE WAY I SCREAMED YELLED WHEN I SAW IT DHQJDKWHEJQ no bc how incredibly inhumane???? manipulating the then 11 year olds, gaslighting the now 30 year olds??? wow,, 17 year contracts excluding the ones u get if u wanna promo outside??? no mf wonder exo never went outside of korea 😭😭😭😭😭 THE WAY ALL THESE MEMES HAD ME HOLLERING ONE SECOND AND BREAKING DOWN THE OTHER BUT ANON????? WE WON!!!! EXO (+1) SM (OUT) PLAYING THAT ONE RONALDO VIDEO WITH STEREO HEARTS PLAYING IN THE BACK

THEY THOUGHT !!!!! SM, THEY REALLY DID FBWKHDKW tried to pit exo cbx against exo but they uni reversed 🔫🔫 and filed a investigation to get EVERYONES contact to be looked at??? my president is byun baekhyun actually, advocacy for sm artists <3 the way taeyong’s tolo is so chaotic w everything leading up to it 😭😭 AND THE MEDIA PLAY??? SM IS A HELLHOLE ITS LIKE 2009 AND 2014 AGAIN

oh wow, oh wow oh wow the audacity now they’re threatening exo to not speak??? im actually so— no words wow how disgustingly low can they drop

SCREAMING 😭😭 THE FUNNIEST THE TLS BEEN SINCE A WHILEE ive been laughing and giggling every day 😭😭 the “@.aespa BITCH ARE THEY PAYING YOU????” SCREAMS 😭😭😭😭

felt.

But about Kai again... he was always there doing the most, whether in EXO, solo or even in S*p*rM, just like Taemin. Damn they're very similar in thie regard 😭🤧 and BTS law is the worst thing that has happened for real, DON'T GIVE ARMCHAIRS MORE POWER WTFFFF

imagine how kai’s contract looks like, 21 pages longer bc of his solo activities 😭😭😭😭 aND NOW IMAGINE MARKS???? OH LORD FBWMFJKWDHA ,, FUCK THAT LAW MAN i saw this the other day but they deleted now but,,, the way- got nothing nice to say so i will not

and people did tarot on exo’s and those did not lie once,,, now some say irene and jisoo may also 😶 THE CARDS KNOWWWWW

cbx is the messiah of kpop atp 😭😭

“love” “sincerity” two words ive never heard sm say abt exo

jaejoong will always have the last laugh, he was at taeyeon’s concert and he better sign her and every sm artists 🤚🏻 jaejoong is MY president

ok not even kpop but benz leaving, zlatan retiring, , jennie the idol premiere, mclaren downhill, ferarri ruining their driver’s mental health— oh what? (i just saw this) how they keep him but lose cbx???

????? o everyone’s leaving

🤨🤨 sm media play at it again oh it’s on sight pls visit the sm building to give them a TALK OH ITS ON SIGHT

And Suho wedding singer? Seonghwa better sings at OUR wedding 😊 /// YESSSS I WAS IN THIS AREA AND KEY WAS SO CLOSE TOO AAAAAAAA we waved at each other, uwu https://twitter.com/mingblinger/status/1662430887315664899?t=Uic4HfL4kahn0dMUNSRqiA&s=19

LMFAOOOO IF SEONGHWA EVER RECREATES THAT IT IS MY LAST STRAW,, FBWMDBWKBDKWBDKW HOW DID IT FEEL TO BE THIS CLOSE 😭😭😭😭 OH MY GOF HES SO PRETTY

But CHOI MINHO?! https://twitter.com/TttxxxtttBlue/status/1662437298766741504?t=5JemyryO7lo0kQmV9DwJGA&s=19 Like... https://twitter.com/mingblinger/status/1662822383231574019?t=TmI-_w1N3BDFFRFQ6lGLvg&s=19 /// They saw Jesus fr https://twitter.com/butteringcandy/status/1662424918708097028?t=eX7z5yPgT6E1il2L4t4_iA&s=19 /// This is the song, it's a bside https://twitter.com/otjmkfive/status/1662424320092561408?t=GRq3xZwh4fpEAM2yzWZpKA&s=19

minho’s dilfism at peak omg, MY TURN WHEN ME WHEN ME WHEN!!!!!!!!! omg taemin’s face it’s been so long 🥹🥹🥹

wait the song is 👁👁 kinda hARD LIKE AN ANIME SONG,, SUMMER ANTHEM!!!!! why does onew look like he went back to 2009 😭😭

To think fuckass SM wanted them to perform for 5k people EVIL https://twitter.com/flyingone_/status/1662469667938783233?t=jHgLSdwPZY2_mFMJCbGYeQ&s=19

no bc the audacity??? want shinee to do what cbx are doing, if they lose taemin and taeyeon, sm’s over and gone, im betting ppl will speak up for sure in the next few weeks as their contracts get looked over

Omfg, no bc some True Beauty stans got mad at OP for tweeting this, like they didn't even say anything awful and also BE SERIOUS THAT WAS UNHINGED https://twitter.com/bloodbendin/status/1659619348120494080?t=OTvASuuv3VxfGZDnUjQ6YA&s=19

true beauty fans, who’s left out of them? everyone’s a hwang inyeop fan, NO BC WHATS SO WRONG ABT THE TWEET ITS SO CORRECT?? like kdramas literally show kimchi slapping 😭😭

I checked the Yoona x Junho drama and I'll be waiting! /// I'm sorry Hwa you're gorjus, but once you opened that mouth to reveal chrome silver teeth I jumped 😭😭😭😭 he took the flexing a bit too far. sometimes he's trying too hard with the bad boy persona and I have no choice, but laugh, cause he's so NOT intimidating to me 😅 maybe if they gave grillz to Joong or Mingi it'd be more tolerable, though barely anyone in kpop can pull that look off. Perhaps Taeyong cause he's a weird guy, so paired with silly fits it's kinda a vibe. But SEONGHWA? The mother, the MILF...the vampire, the demon???

the drama looks super nice hopefully it can get the numbers 😭😭 LMFAOOO HE’S IN HIS YOUNG RICH AND FLEX ERA 😭😭😭 no ur so right broski is a villain not the mr intimidating rapper mingi fbwkddj PLEASE I WANTED MINGI WEARING GRILLS AND DOING HIS GROWL WOULDVE COLLAPSED,, taeyong has the face for it but he went to the braces route,, THE MILF GBNWFBEK vampire, milf, victorian prince, demon and now onto mr grills 😭😭

Their lore was previously used in a more versatile way even though they were doing pirate concepts for a while, now they're what??? I wanted space cowboys tbh. I feel like the lore is well put together, but also the plot has been kinda lost and idc anymore. I hope they overthrow the government soon so we can smile a little 🙂 I

you’re right, atp i don’t even look at the lore anymore im just trying to get w the music, hoping for some good sounds on this album 🤲🏻 begging to hear good music it’s been a while since rover dropped 😭😭 LMFAOOO NO YEAH NEED SOME SMILING IN LIFE RIGHT NOW

Taeyong bestie how are you doing ahsgzgzhgabzbzhzgxhxhagaxjds https://twitter.com/mrkyomi/status/1664081703437205504?t=gT-lcqwq9WWej-u2USVN3w&s=19 makes sense why he copyrighted all his tracks. But also uhmmmm

LMFAOOOO ITS THE WAY EVERYTHING AND EVERY CONTROVERSY IS DROPPING DURING HIS SOLO 😭😭😭 no literally get that bag, it’s the way he pushed for his rights too,, hope baek mentors him to speak up against the sm mistreatment and contracts

https://twitter.com/taeyeweon/status/1664202682922577921?t=HUXeZEXkzenNjUO-9ACvJA&s=19 💀 the qrts are killing me. The MV teaser?! He's so weird and cool

will be seated for his comeback, cannot wait for a new sm sound my ears are

PLS I WILL EAT HIM AND I'LL FIGHT KQ FOR NOT INCLUDING HWA https://twitter.com/nobodylikehwa/status/1663874270986944513?t=1L4uBdkvfsVhW0ZFBLksOg&s=19 Uhm?! https://twitter.com/thinkingabtpsh/status/1663875558826995715?t=1D37uR0avocuC279tOqfDw&s=19

the yunho slapping 😭😭😭😭 YEAH SAY UR RIGHTS SEONGHWA, and

park seonghwa with kids. need him to mess something up <3 ateez hello baby is closer

Me in middle school getting to know kpop cause of SM's artists mostly https://twitter.com/oluwatoge/status/1664089893063016449?t=zHceqprfykF-Hma24Nz9fA&s=19

no bc i need to put the blame on someone who made me stan exo and turns out it was me 😔😔

Fuck them kids, but Skz and Atz on the Return of Superman! Woosanhwa... I just know some of you will get baby fever ajhxhaysuagahsgafasf, not me, but y'all stay safe!

WE WILL BE THERE! WE WILL BE THERE MY FIC DREAMS ARE COMING TRUE IM GONNA SEE THE MR AND MISS PARK DUO 🫡🫡

I also rode Ateez's chilli pepper train, lmao KQ is spending all their budget on the promos. And I went to a mini fan meeting with Skz and got gifts and locked eyes with Lino 👀 /// Heh tenelkadjo new fic alert... NERD?!?! - DV 💖

AAAAAAAA DID U HEAR THE TRUCKS CALLING FOR CHILLIES 😭😭😭😭 mingi skz fan meet….locking eyes….me when. I HAVE NOT READ IT YET BUT IM ON MY WAY 🫡

omg???? i know they’ll be most likely nominated for cupid but their song lovin’ me is so good i tear up, their vocal colour is so pretty 😭😭😭

😶

ningning????

[dancehallqueen37]

adding a post to the queue as a surprise for future me

hi i bet you've either changed your pronouns or your sexuality again i hope whichever one you chose makes you feel more comfortable :)

right now you are obsessed with mcyts but you're slowly reverting back into your sanders sides phase

instagram loves the comeback they kinda hate the mcyt art lol... twitter is the complete opposite

did you ever cosplay tubbo and dream? you're currently excited about it and even want to make a tommy and/or wilbur cosplay as well i hope you ended up doing it

how's life btw? it's not super great right now but it'll maybe get better soon

update this with some stats if you can so we can compare! right now you have 163 on twitter, 1121 on Instagram, 126 on tumblr, and 64.9k on tiktok

i really don't know what else to say i just want you to be happier than i am right now lol

bye bye for now

- toby / hyphen (December 10, 2021)

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this never posted so ig i'll answer it now?

hi past me i didn't change my pronouns necessarily just added new ones to the ever growing collection :p

i'm still obsessed with mcyts i just moved servers (hermitcraft is pog you should've watched it sooner) and yeah no sorry sanders sides is pretty much dead

instagram is actually pretty cool with the mcyt stuff now they really like my ranboo art :D

...uh no they're not the greatest people so i don't think it's going to happen i might cosplay virgil again though i miss him

it's going alright i'm getting a tattoo in a couple weeks and i'm having a great time drawing

lol ok you just hit 500 on twitter congrats, we dropped a bit on instagram (1053), tumblr is like 130 something i think i never pay attention, and tiktok is 63.4k.

you are happier i promise <3 it can only go up from here

- toby / hyphen / speed (April 29, 2023)

[dojae-huh]

"Listen to the shippers. Many of them are happy to consume BL or ship their oppas, but just try insinuate their bias is gay..."

Agreed. I remember joining the fandom and some fans were vocally against this blog. I understood their reservations then about not really knowing them personally and how its not our place to label them but when I realized they're the same ones who often joke, on twt of all places, about "little gay jaehyunie is back" or "someone's possessive/jealous/crushing hard/obvious about their feelings", make threads about shippery moments, consume/make fanfics and fanarts (some with straight up p*rn) I found their hypocrisy/irony a little uncomfortable.

For real, sometimes fans would police others just so that they can advertise they are on a "higher moral ground" (well, until they are faced with the facts) but it's almost always less about how the idols would feel but more for their ego boost.

In connection with this, seeing the various reaction upon the news of jh's choice to take on such a role, I find it laughable when some point out how the story is filled with "controversy and taboo" as if half of the fanfics on ao3 aren't lol like come on where is the energy that "art/books/movies are means to explore topics that are otherwise seen wrong by society"

On the other hand, I am still overwhelmed by the openness jaedo are allowed(?) this comeback. I hope there's some good news about a project for them soon.

All the best to your new place and work btw 🎉

Online bullying is another widespread hypocrisy. People cancel idols for rumours and then make a 180' turn on the spot and write anti messages to/about other fans and group members.

You put it nicely, anon. Most online policing is for ego boost. Volunteering, participating in projects like Zooniverse, helping people in real life (school, workplace), donating to projects, sometimes signing petitions, creating free educational material are real good deeds. But those take a lot of time and resources. Policing, on the other hand, is easy and brings the satisfaction of self-importance and self-righteousness right away.

People accumulate stress, anger, insult in daily life and then release the toxins on others. To pretend that they do nothing wrong, that they stay good people, to excuse vitriol comments and accusations, they find something "to protect", something "morally right", and give themselves a pass to bully or express their rage. You know, "for the greater good".

I've watched the movie. And the fans who say "it's filled with controversy and taboo" either have read only the summary or are incapable of understanding the story where the viewer needs to pay attention to the dialogue and fill in the gaps in narration. I would surprise you, but there is no real teacher-student romance even. The topic I see being discussed and frowned upon the most.

Hehe, but now I get why Jaehyun loves the movie.

Thank you, I need luck...

[rogue-barnes-16]

SOMETHING ELSE

Request: May I please have a Roger Taylor imagine where you have really bad anxiety and he doesn’t know but he comes to see you having a panic attack and helps you and lots of fluff???

Pairing: Ben!Roger Taylor x Reader

Genre: angsty fluff

Tags:

Requested by: @serpentwithatardis

Permanent taglist: @notexactlythatgirl @thisismysecrethappyplace @sofreakinmanyfandoms @pizzarollpatrol @bubblycypress87 @sinviix @loislp @lovenaturefirst @dyanna-corona @2ptonpt @goodnightmode @disneyprincessbuffyannesummers @mannls @cutie1365 @catch22inareddress @mybooradley @sebastianisasnack @butifulsoul125 @unlikelygalaxygiver

Warnings: anxiety attack, some language

A/N: it took me soo long to finish this, I'm really sorry, I'm falling behind due to the exams. Also, I hope you enjoy, and about the rest of the requests, they're coming <3

ROGER'S P. O. V.

Y/n wasn't exactly shy.

She wasn't exactly quiet.

She wasn't exactly distant.

Y/n was something else.

I didn't notice that something the first time Deaky had introduced her to the group as a potential second vocal and piano player. At that moment she was just a melodic voice and a pretty face.

She soon became a member of the band, though, and the more time she spent with us, the better I got to know her, and the clearer it was for me that she was something else.

However, and even though I really tried for a while, we never turned out to be close friends —mostly because she seemed to avoid spending time with me alone—. Maybe she didn't like me that much, maybe I had rubbed her the wrong side.

"That was amazing" I commented when Y/n finished singing her part for Bohemian Rhapsody. "really beautiful"

"Thanks, Roger" she gave me a small smile whilst taking off the headset to give it to Freddie, who was the next to sing. "Your falsetto was very impressive"

"Thank you" I replied, helping Freddie with the microphone. When I turned to look at Y/n again, I saw her putting on her jacket. "Where are you going?" I asked confused.

"Oh, I need some air" she answered, grabbing her cigarette pack, along with a lighter. "too many hours in the studio"

"wait," I walked to the bench to grab my jacket "I'll go with you, I could use some air" before I reached the bench, though, we heard the door shutting and when I turned around, Y/n was nowhere to be found. "I... What the-" I shot a glance at Freddie, who was already looking at me. "why does she always do that?"

"why do you care that much, darling?" Freddie teased with a knowing smile on his face. When I stayed shut instead of replying with a snarky comeback, he let out a chuckle. "she told you, Rog. She needs air, give her a break."

After Freddie's teasing, I realized I really liked Y/n in a way I hadn't liked any girl before. Her amazing self was enough to attract all my attention like a moth drawn to the light.

It was due to the amount of attention I paid to her every day, that I felt terribly disappointed with myself when I finally got to know what was that something else in Y/n.

It was after our first press conference. It was more intense than we expected, and, even though most of the questions were for Freddie, a surprising amount were for Y/n too, related to the fact that she was the only girl in the band.

"Y/n, some people say that John was your boyfriend and that's how you got in the band." I first looked at Deaky and then at Y/n. "is that true?"

"who said that?" she asked, quite confused.

Before the previous reporter could keep talking, another one took their place. "Y/n, it is said that you're not attracted to men, what do you have to say about it?"

"I thought we were here to talk about our music?" Deaky asked, noticing that Y/n was getting uncomfortable.

"are you romantically involved with Roger Taylor?"

Y/n took a deep breath, trying to calm herself. "is there any bloody questions related to our songs?" I growled at the microphone.

"Is it hard to be a girl surrounded by men?"

"are you the one choosing the band's outfits?"

Another deep breath. Y/n rested her forehead against the palm of her hand while her foot tapped fast against the floor.

"do you get jealous when your band mates are seen with groupies?"

"are you open about being with more than one of your band mates?"

"fuckin' hell" her breathy whispered was too quiet for it to reach the microphone in front of her, but it was enough for me to hear it. "fuck fuck fuck fuck-" her breaths turned short and shaky.

"Y/n" I called her name, trying not to seem worried when I saw her eyes shutting and her jaw clenching. "Y/n..." the moment I put a hand on her knees to stop her leg from bouncing, her eyes opened widely.

"Okay, seems to me like you're in the mood to waste your opportunity to interview us" Freddie stated, hitting the table before getting up. "c'mon darlings, let's go"

"Lead the way Freddie" Brian stated, getting up to follow Freddie out of the press conference room. Deaky did the same, and Y/n and I followed him closely, leaving behind us the reporters' protests. "I already hate this part of our job."

"it's only the first" Deaky reminded Brian. "what are you planning on doing when-" he stopped talking when Y/n jogged past us and got into the bathroom. "shit."

"is she Okay?" Brian asked as we stopped walking to stare at the bathroom she had gotten in. "should we wait or...?"

"I... Think we should give her space" Freddie stated, gesturing us to keep moving to the exit. When they realized I wasn't following them, they stopped off once more. "Rog-"

"no" I plainly stated, making my way to the bathroom.

"she needs space" Deaky warned me.

I scoffed.

Space. She needs space. She needs air. She needs to be alone. She needs a moment.

"she needs a bloody friend, John" I retorted, stalking to the toilets' door. "you can go, but I'm staying." before they could reply anything else, I entered the toilets, closing the door behind me. "Y/n?"

I heard her before I saw her, since they were huge toilets.

I heard her gasping for air a couple of times before I rushed towards the noises. "Y/n-" her forehead was resting against the tiles of the wall, her chest going quickly up and down "are you-"

Her legs gave out and she felt on her knees, pressing one of her hands against her chest with her eyes wide open. "I c- I can't... I can't b-breathe" she tried to take a deep breath and she ended up gasping once more. "I-I-I- I'm I ca-"

It suddenly hit me, she was having an anxiety attack.

As soon as I realized that, I kneeled besides her, pulling her forearms for her to face me. "Y/n you have to- try... Try to breath deeply" I tried sounding as calm as possible, not wanting to make it worse with the fact that I was freaking out.

"I c- can't I-I'm sorry I-" she tried to do as I told her but she ended up gasping harder. "My chest hurts! Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck"

She attempted to bend over and I made her sit up again, caressing her cheeks "Y/n, love, deep breaths okay? It's- it'll be over soon. Just- just take deep breaths" I moved closer to her, and, not knowing what else to do to calm her, I pulled to my chest.

"I can't-" she repeated, this time letting out a frustrated sob. "I'm sorry- I'm- I c- I'm sorry" she gripped the hems of my partially open shirt, attempting to hold onto something.

"You're gonna be okay" I whispered, rubbing circles on her back and trying to pull her even closer to me, something that was proven impossible when we only ended up almost lying on the floor. "it's just a moment, you'll be okay. Can you try to br-" she nudged her face against my chest and I couldn't feel her fresh tears on my bare skin, which made my heart break. "can you... Try to breathe deeply again?"

She nodded and I let one of my hands comb her hair. "o-okay... J-just... I-" she shifted slightly to rest only her forehead against my chest, before starting to take slow breaths.

I planted a kiss on the crown of her hair while she finally managed to slow down her breathing to an average rhythm. "see? You're okay" I whispered, letting her exhausted body rest over mine.

"I'm sorry" she mumbled, loosening the grip on my shirt. "I'm really sorry... It's been a while since I had one as strong as this one."

I stayed in silence, processing what she had just told me, before speaking. "you... You have... Anxiety?" She nodded against my chest, not daring to look at me. "why didn't you tell us."

"I... Deaky knows" she whispered, shifting her position when I moved us to rest against the cold wall. "but I asked not to tell you all." she sighed. "I thought I had it under control. I didn't want you to see me... D-different?"

I moved her to be able to face her. "different as if... Fragile" she nodded at my guess, shunning my gaze. "Y/n? Does... Do you avoid me because of this?"

"I don't avoid-"

"you do" I argued, rapidly regretting it when I saw her shying away from me. "I'm sorry- this- this isn't the moment to talk about it, I'm sorry" I apologized raising my hands in surrender. "I just- I... Fuck I shouldn't be saying this but I- I really like you"

"I-" she opened her mouth a couple of times before she spoke. "I know... Freddie told me" I opened my eyes widely, feeling my cheeks reddening. "Sorry"

"fuck... See?" I questioned passing both my hands over my face. "I shouldn't have said anything, I knew you were avoiding me. I'm sorry... Can we pretend this didn't happen?" I dared to look at her and I saw her with her lips parted and her eyes dug into my form, making me blush even harder because bloody hell, she was so beautiful.

"You're blushing"

"I know, can you not say it out loud?" I groaned, covering my face once more. "shit." I felt her hands tugging mine, moving then away from my face before her lips brushed against mines. "what..."

"I didn't want you to deal with... This" she said, letting go of my hands, only for me to hold hers. "that's why I... Was avoiding you. That's also why I didn't say anything. Also because I don't think I'm your type and you're-"

"my type?" she whispered a doubtful 'yes' while my hands moved to hold her hips, rubbing circles with my thumbs over them. "I've never liked a girl the way I like you, Y/n. I don't know what's my type, but you for sure are above all that shit" it was her time to blush. "If you want to try... I'm down for it."

She started to chew her lower lip and I leaded one of my thumbs to her lips, to stop her from doing that. "I mean... Even with the anxiety thing?"

"yeah"

"well then..." she inhaled deeply before nodding. "okay. We can try... Because I really want to."

A smile former on my lips and I leaned on, capturing her lips on another kiss. "thanks for giving me a chance" I whispered, looking at her eyes.

She smiled back and rested her forehead against my chest once again, this time feeling peaceful instead of distressed.

[kyunsies]

Hi mädch!!! It’s been awhile since we’ve talked, I feel like so much has happened! First of all, I just want to say that I’m sorry you’ve been having such a crummy time recently, i wish i could give you a big hug 🥺🥺 Great job on your exam today though, I’m sure that’s a huge weight off your shoulders, you’re doing so well!! I’ve also been feeling pretty burnt out recently, I feel so exhausted all the time… i’ve taken a nap every day this week, and I usually hate napping. I’m trying to be more social to combat that though, and I’m excited because a bunch of my friends are planning to have friendsgiving on friday! I’m making sugar cookies and we’re going to decorate them together, it’s going to be so fun 🥰 Also I talked to my best friend today for the first time in like a year and he told me he missed me and we made plans to maybe meet up in january after I graduate 🤩 ALSO I’m LOVING all the comeback photos so far, I can’t wait for the song to actually come out! I don’t like listening to teasers or album previews beforehand bc I like to be surprised so I don’t have a fav yet, but I’ll be sure to come gush about it as soon as I hear the full album!!! Stay healthy okay? I love you so much

-💜💜💜

hello angel !!!!! i've missed you so much and i've been thinking about u lately ;_____; !!!! it's always nice to hear from you okay? pls don't worry about the time passing !!!! you're graduating so soon !!!! and finals are coming up, so i understand <3 sldfjs recently it's just been very stressful as always, i'm just worried about every little thing bc i just want to finally graduate and get out there with no hiccups you know? you feel the same way i'm sure :( we're so close babe!!! you closer than me :P ALSO I'M GIVING U THE BIGGEST VIRTUAL HUG PLSSS :( i wish i had the opportunity to meet u in real life hun, i just have a feeling we'd be close and care for each other idk ;_____;

anyways LDKFJ thank you so much about my exam!!!!! honestly, i really need the good grade,,,, not like i'm failing the class or anything, but any cushion before the final is greatly appreciated godDDD why is everything so stressful huh? omg burnout is ,,,,,,, so real right now i totally understand :( just keep on pushing thru bub i know it's a lot but we are SOOOO close, just hang on a little bit longer for me okay !!! you are so capable just remember that !!!

FRIENDSGIVING !!!!! i haven't had one since freshman year aww, that sounds so nice !! i'm sure your sugar cookies will taste super delicious <3 AND LSDKFJ i hope u get to see your best friend :( i'm glad you still keep in touch, i've lost all connections with pretty much everyone from hs bc i don't go to uni in michigan as u know slkfsl but i have a really good friend up here who has already graduated but she's a nurse at the hospital near school and literally love her so much, i wish we were friends as children ya know?

AND ANYWAYS OMG YES THE CONCEPTS AND THE ALBUM !!!!! i'm honestly so excited !!!! i know some ppl were a little :/ about some of the concepts but like, mx always ALWAYS delivers regardless of the concepts like you KNOW they're going to produce amazing music <3 i did listen to the previews bc i couldnt help myself LDKFJS and ofc changkyun's song has me FEELING the feels but we'll just have to wait and see !!! can't wait to gush about it with u bub!!!!! stay happy healthy and positive for the next couple weeks okay? we lean on each other <3 have a wonderful rest of the week and i'll be here to scream about the album when it comes out okay !!! LOVE YOU MISSED U <3