#theyre so DUMB nd STUPID i love them SO MUCH!!!

[elipri]

A follow-up to this post, it has been years since and Damian has become pretty damn good at concealing his thoughts and feelings. Partly due to him indulging in all of those sappy, lovey-dovey thoughts whenever there's a new moon.

Except one time he gets the date wrong.

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[mapleshmaple]

what would you do if sans woke you up at like 2AM and was like "do you think pigeons have feelings"

bold of you to assume im asleep at 2am on a good day/night and wouldnt be the one waking him up

gHJSDJGKSDMS NO BUT LIKE ID JUST BE LIKE “what??? oh, yeah, for sure, the fuck.” and either promptly pass the fuck back out or jsut have a sleepy back and forth with him about it because i love him

[opgeminiremade]

bts makes me so happy

[1eos]

I think you’re mutuals with ytphobia and i wanted to let you know shes a racefaker who claims to be mixed half black when shes CLEARLY not. Like don’t get me wrong I get mixed people can be white passing but the worst thing is that she LOVES to speak for black people as if she experiences half of the things we go through it pisses me off so much. I see her talk about how her “dark skin color” and “nappy hair” was an issue when she grew up and istg her hair is straight af and she’s NOT dark! She looks like your avarage Arab girl! If she considers herself dark then damn ion wanna know how she sees full black people

............this is the stupidest shit ive read in a long time. first of all i keep telling y’all malicious ass punks this but if u have a problem w someone on this website block them nd then blacklist their name instead of spreading around stupid ass lies. like ure outing yourself already saying ‘it pisses me off so much’. do u think i would believe a word u say with such a clear bias against the person? 😭😭😭fakfkakfkfakaf im supposed to believe she’s race faking when sarah literally has selfies up? like yall do know being light skinned doesnt automatically mean you’re white passing................do y’all even know what white passing means anymore? like are u REALLY black? or are u just so pressed ure saying whatever dumb shit u want? there are black arabs nd theyre not all gonna look like black americans bc..........theyre black nd arab like are u aware black ppl come in all forms w all kind of hair types or.........? anyways u need to get over whatever hate boner u have for a blogger on tumblr that probably does not know u exist. pls go get a life instead of being obsessed w sarah 😭😭😭😭😭😭

[legobatjoker]

omg ok very sory 2 complain abt like. ppl badly interpreting tswift songs (not in a realteing 2 taylors personal life way i like. do not give a shit abt tht lol) nd ofc songs nd music r like a lot more personal than like show or amth so ofc ppls personal expreince will relate more 2 how they interprate the song nd how they relate 2 it but like this has been bugging me 4 agess basically the other day i saw someone say that "afterglow has the same theme/meaning as daylight just less obvious" and like. litreally wtf does that mean likee. even as someone w their own personal interpretation or way or relating 2 daylight like beyond tthe personal aspect of my interpretation daylight is v clearly a song abt like. finding someone who genuinly loved u despite past relationships or ways tht either of u have messed up in the past nd afterglow is a song abt apologising after messinf up nd hurting the other person nd not wanting 2 loose them bc of it (stolkhome angst song btw. like not tht much but like kinda like. yea <3) like afterglow nd daylight r very different songs like i feel like if i was gonna compare daylight 2 a dif tswift song it wld prob cowboy like me nd like def not afterglow i do not know what tht person meant by that its so weird... i remember seeing a dif postalso abt atw the other day that also rly annoyed me but i am NOT going 2 get into that now oohh boy (i prob will some other day tho bc it rly annoyed me holyy shit)

oaky i lied im gonna get itno the bad atw post its so fucking annyoing sorry 4 complaining sm abt bad tswift song intepritations but oohh my god way so like. the psot (it wasnt even j an atw t like barely mentioned it but the way it did pised me of smm) basically said smth like "atw isnt "you damaged and fucked up me deeply" its "i dont know you anymore but i hknow all these things about you that i dont need too"" and like. ohh my fucking god it litreally checked i went all the way to check !! when the op possted it bc i thought the person putting this on my dash is j ignoring this inaccurate line bc they agree w the point of the genral post nd the og post is from pre ten mins atw nd theyre j talking abt the shorter version but no the og post was from !!! fucking de cem ber of last year !!!!! like mayb 2 give them the benifit of the doubt they cld have j been talking abt the shorter version but like no one consideres that 2 b the actual atw after the ten min version so seeing as they didnt specify i doubt they were and j !! thats suchh a like. bonkers thing to say like. yes atw is a song abt being deeply damaged and hurt by someone actualy wtf r u talking abt !!! like ig techinically its not entirly bc it does sometimes talk abt the good part in the relationship but thats only bc its talking abt how remembering both how the reationship damaged you and the few good part are painful bc of how much they hurt you likee. omg thats such a stupid thing 2 say like sorry 4 getting so worked up abt this but its j so dumb omg -__-

ok i actually hadnt heard afterglow and daylight befoee this ask so i j lostened to them and first of all ur 100% right ofc.. and second of all rlly into daylight now currently….. ALSO uhhh yeah whattt was that atw post on… like yeah its ab knowing a lot ab someone who damaged u deeply and holding those good and bad memories and j remembering. so much. but its also like?? very much ab that person damaging u and ab being fucked up in a relationship??? yeah mann

[geffenrecords]

tell me abt david and matteo gimme the gays por favor

   KYRS I OWE U MY ENTIRE LIKE THANK U.........ily 🥰

um yes okay anyway so matteo and david.....ah yes those guys....um yeah so last night i was thinking abt them doing dumb shit together bc you KNOW they do. dumbass gay ppl smh. but anyway theyre in loveeee and they adore each other and hang out all the time bc theyre also best friends!!! they love spending time together and doing just. bro things ig?? they go to places together all the time like it doesnt even have to be somewhere special....matteo could be like ‘hewwo boyfwiend....would u like to go to the grocery store with me’ and davids like ‘.......yeah..’ and they go to the grocery store together and do dumb shit and probably almost get kicked out bc the workers r homophobic....but also theyre just annoying......like fr.......like matteo thinks hes comedy central and will do dumb shit like climb shelves and or he’ll be like ‘babe do u dare me to scream’ and david has to cover his mouth and say NO bc he knows matteo will do it and then matteo licks his hand and now davids the one screaming 

or matteo will try to bottle flip shit.....fucking idiot get w the times 🙄 anyway u know tht one post thats like ‘why did i just witness my 15yo brother try to bottle flip a milk jug’ and someones like ‘how did it go’ and op responds with a picture of their brother lying on the floor in a puddle of milk? thts them. david send a text to jonas like ‘is matteo always like this’ and jonas is like ‘yes but specifically wdym’ and david sends him tht photo and jonas loses his shit

but um yea anyway another thing they probably do is go to school playground together if tht doesnt sound too weird......like theyll go to a school playground at like 4am and fuck around there bc david already has the edgy aesthetic instagram he probably take pictures of creepy things and then draws like. mothman over it or whtever.....gay ppl...........but anyway theyll sit on the swings together holding hands and r probably getting high while doing so and they just kinda sit in silence but eventually david will start talking about smthn and matteo just watches him so intently and softly and has the gentlest gaze as david rambles on abt fucking power rangers or whatever and then matteos like o yeah this is my boyfriend and kisses him and davids like ‘dude wtf thats gay i dont kiss gay people 🤨’ and matteo shoves him and calls him a dick and david probably fall off the swing but is laughing the whole time and matteo giggles as david lays on the ground and watches him and then matteos like ‘lets do smthn rlly gay’ and davids like we r NOT fucking on the playground and matteo makes a face and is like ‘NO mr horny....’ and then he walks over to the blacktop and david sits up and walks over as matteo plays some stupud fucking.....weeknd song or some shit and hes like ‘cmere dance with me’ and david laughs and theyre probably just stoned out of their minds and matteo starts dancing and keeps beckoning david over and finally david gives in nd walks over and they ATTEMPT to slow dance together but like i said. they are high as shit rn and also its COLD. mfs doing shit at 5am in the middle of january with their 45766 layers and stupid scarves.....u know how it is. and yeah they suck but david is laughing the whole time and matteos just watching him w so much love and he pulls him closer and puts his arms on davids shoulder and is like ‘I LOVE YOUUU........’ and david calls him gay and kisses him and then they kiss a bunch until matteo is like ‘okay im freezing my ass off lets go home’ and davids like ‘ugh fine 🙄’ and then they go back to matteos and watch some stupid movie and fall asleep under like fifty blankets and theyre so close together and probably have a death grip on each other liks okay sir neither of u are gonna float away while sleeping......but um yeah anyway theyre in love :-)

[littlebabycrybtch]

oh my god im sorry but i HATE reading analysis discourse so fuckgin much. its so annoying and unnecessary and cruel bc per usual ableists just Scream over everyone and manipulate the view by focusing on the wrong points. disrespect towards this issue is never gonna work and yall would get that if you actually listened to the way the (usually nd) people felt about it and why, but ur too busy mocking them so you look good for consuming the Proper Medias tm. i mean you literally have to know this isnt productive, yall keep going bc you get a kick out of laughing at ‘unintelligent’ people.

‘uu ur teachers didnt oppress u by making u read to kill a mockingbird instead of the hunger games” ok listen 1. media you dont personally care abt can still definitely hold depthful value and be analyzed. oh my god lmao. the people who prefer ~that kind~ of media arent stupid and dont prefer easy thinking, its your own fault for Not looking into it yourself and just assuming its worthless, literally judging a book by its cover. LITERALLY avoiding the analysis skills you claim to have by assuming anything you read in highschool = smart, valuable and anything mainstream = stupid and useless. most books inherently contain symbolism and morals, a lot of these people CAN understand it, theyre just criticizing the inaccessibility of the writing that was forced on them academically. the people analyzing those medias instead of your favs are still taking in lessons even if they prefer to do it in a different format, i mean for instance THG is literally about fucking classism and racism and war you dumb hypocritical tunnel vision bitch, young adult media usually has a Lot of real world parallels in it that very much pertains to how teens see the world, thats the literal POINT, just cuz ur too elitist and dont respect children enough doesnt mean some books are ‘too stupid’ to analyze with any real social value, and 2. A BOOK NOT BEING EXCITING... OR EASY TO UNDERSTAND... IS LITERALLY SMTH VALID TO CRITICIZE IN MANY CASES, ESPECIALLY IF YOU ARE GIVING IT TO CHILDREN.... if a kid says “this is boring/too long/uses words that i dont know, so i cant make any sense of it” that doesnt always mean theyre lazy or w/e, if its not a book made for kids (bc kids can understand mature themes but that doesnt. mean you can just throw all the other skills they arent experienced with yet at them, they still need writing tailored to them), Thats your first problem, but sometimes ur book is just fucking boring all together. a book can have as much symbolism as it wants, if its not there to open the mind and provide necessary depth, but to feel self important and make you feel self important for getting it, thats not a good book. and with books i do respect now like TKAM i remember outright saying, “i literally cannot read this and dont get it at all” at like 10 yrs old, and my teachers didnt do shit to explain it or help me or give me any skills at all, they were just like. :) keep trying!! according to your scores we know you can do it!!! so, i did not keep trying, i gave up, and i guarantee if it had been a few years later it would have been easier. if i had been given the opportunity to read stories with similar morals that were made for my age range that i WANTED to read, i guarantee i wouldve gotten so much more out of that. but i was literally DISALLOWED, bro if i grabbed a book that actually interested me, i was told i couldnt check it out at ALL unless it was in the ‘range’ i was assigned, which was college level since i was in 4th grade. so if you think i shouldve kept reading, im being unironic rn, you need to go get a degree, become a teacher, and if a kid or teen says to you what i said, sit them down and TEACH THEM without shame, and fight for better regulations of what reading levels can be pushed on what age groups. if lit analysis is this important to you, FUCKING TEACH IT PROPERLY, that is literally the ONLY REAL SOLUTION to the problem you have, NOT SHAMING the people who were ALREADY FAILED BY THE SYSTEM.

the problem is not ‘idiots think symbolism is stupid’ the problem has ALWAYS been ‘the education system is flawed and how and when children are taught certain skills is so corrupted and damaging, the children growing up with it cannot Help but struggle later in life, and your issue should be with the system”. like can i be real. learn how to Emotionally ~analyze~ posts from sad kids with mental illnesses saying smth as basic as “i wish i wasnt forced to read mature books as a child without any themes pertaining to me at all bc it hurt my already fragile motivations for learning :/” without your ass getting defensive over the classics. bitches stan ‘the door is red to symbolize anger’ but think thg is just a stupid dystopia love triangle book................ ur not even that smart like yall are just elitist like LITERALLY just elitist if you mock the values ppl see in other books and claim theyre too stupid to understand ~real books~. a fucking mickey mouse cartoon could hold the exact same moral lesson as a 1200 page novel written by a college professor of 30 years, like the Exact Same Conclusions CAN be drawn no matter how many words and analogies and metaphors are thrown on top!! for many those fancy details make it more enriching but its literally possible to get the same concepts from “EASIER” material, that is not Lesser it is ACCESSIBLE and it should be ENCOURAGED all the same. yall are gatekeeping and its stupid, if you actually want ppl to analyze media then you’d applaud how they analyze their passions even when you dont share it, not shame them for struggling with understanding other stories. this rly boils down to either ‘i hate ppls preferences and wanna make them feel stupid’ OR the ever so lovely ‘i hate whiny disabled ppl and kids who were pressured to the point of burnout, and wanna make them feel stupid’. its fucking exhausting. idc how you guys feel, you talk to hear yourselves talk and its all just talk and nothing helpful, your disrespect doesnt work bc its an echo of the root problem. for gods sake shut up already lmao

[transrightsjimin]

do u ever just see footage of bts up close, not like stupid sasaeng footage or anything, but just them in a variety show or live stage and not all whitened nd their skin is just glowing nd theyre joking around or laughing or whatever, nd u just truly want to cry like uve never seen a handsome person before until bangtan?? that was me watching that ep in 2017 of them on Knowing Bros today vxksgsjfsg?? and my god they looked so so radiant nd next to being rly funny nd kind im always just blown away by the presence they have like.... that older interview noting how ppl backstage were gasping at them walking by or how straight boys always fall in love w jimin for years now or how ppl always ask who the jin guy is like?? i dont just mean theyre handsome but they have such an impactful presence, like obv stage presence as they even have audiences to entire events dedicated to many artists hooked just to their performances for yearsss, but also just any other group activity, and how dispatch stated it couldnt find shit on bts bc theyre always together, and how staff who work on music shows nd dressing rooms etc always state they were so shocked by how kind bangtan is like... idk where im going w this post but i just love the group a lot and this all just throws me back to the first time i saw them irl up close arrive on stage, and how much they felt like a genuine group, contrary to the group i stanned before them who i guess had similarities in terms of musical background, concept, amount of members, unique songs, but then just not being a whole group on stage nd not giving off a kind impression whatsoever either. i sound rly dumb rn bc i know authenticity is a flawed concept and i know bangtan has more of a stage persona just like most ppl who know theyre being filmed, but there is just smth abt atmosphere, aura, stage presence, and all these stories from ppl working backstage w them that do make them so intruiging and familiar. like obv theyre immensely popular and usually not rly "approachable" bc they need to be protected from sasaeng nd whatnot, but theyre always rly down to earth nd humble nd just. chill i guess. ive given it some thought nd while a lot of army have super complex thoughts on why bts improved their lives nd motivated them to love themselves more and whatnot, to me its rly just bc theyre comfortable. whether its by listening to their albums for hours or watching a run bts ep, they just rly feel comfortable nd i guess thats enough for me.

[tumblunni]

Shit man i still remember how much i wept at that first impmon redemption episode

Where the poor fuckin dude CANT EVEN READ and youre reminded that even though beelzemon looks like such a badass he's really just a dumb teenager who had a supernaturally shitty childhood and kinda got carried away playing his self insert oc who has no consequences

And fuckkk how he finally goes back to the house he ran away from and he finds out that his lil kid human friends really did love him all along and they grew up a little and learned to share so he'd come back someday. And god its just so sad cos you know they were too little to know what they were doing was wrong but it still traumatized this poor dude for life! His first exoerience of what humans were like and they literally treated him like a toy. Man the animation and voiceacting in so many episodes really hammered home that he has fuckin ptsd from that shit, it was so fuckin brave of him to try and resolve this whole depressing thing. God it was just so damn sweet to see the kids spoiling him with all their toys and making him juice and fruit snacks and he's just like "guys...guys thats..thats okay..." Fucking voice crack gets me every time!! Lil weeping kids so happy they can atone for their one stupid mistake they made cos theyre fuckin five. Lil magical creature dude healing from the pain they inflicted on him with that big stupid accident. Fuckin family re-familitizing!

And aaaa how he did all this as like...his last day before assuming he would die fighting the d-reaper to save his friends. But instead their love for him heloed him unlock his real TRUE ultimate evolution and become fuckin amazing angel mode nd thankfully survive the final battle!

FUCKIN HELL the whole scene where the kids dont really understand whats happening and theyre scared and they dont wanna lose him again, but he explains that he made more friends who helped him get better and come back to see them, so he needs to return the favor now theyre in trouble. And the kids fuckin GIVE HIM A TOY GUN TO FIGHT THE BADDIES WITH!!! Ans that whole damn sequence where instead of the standard evolution animation we get this tiny fairy monster dude running off to his own death with nothing but a kids toy clutched to his chest, and then mid footstep he's suddenly back in his big scary villain form AND THEN he opens his eyes and theyre all purified colour and the fuckin toy gun transforms into a super evolution upgrade and goddamn ANGEL WINGS all with this really damn good dramatic monologue about how all he ever truly wanted was something to protect and it took him so.long to realize it and AAAAAAGH MY FUCKIN HEART

Ok guys seriously if this rumoured Vexen redemption is even 1% as emotional as that scene im gonna weep my entire eyeballs out their sockets

Who allowed this man to be voiceacting. His powers are too strong for the mortal world!!

[jooheonies]

nawar lover no.1 aka user shwhyuk uwu

bloodorangeki said: the lady formerly known as hyuccwoo, shreknu if u will,

send me a tumblr url and ill tell you what i think of them!

hhhhhh ok before i eben launch into this full love essay. i jst wanna say tht u truly are the light at the end of my tunnel sejung,,,,u make me so happy !!! Like i remember when i was losing my mind off of like three sips of pineapple cider and i legitimately felt like i was gonna throw up but then i was like … damn i can’t forget to text shannon and tell her about all this. and then i talked to u for a full hour or so while u called me a liddle babie nd i continuously whined…either way you truly have me under your spell you demon!!

okay so not to be. dramatic but youre so dreamy and pretty you remind me of rain and soft kisses on the cheeks and rose gardens and bouquets of flowers and soft sunlight on flower meadows and like! that feeling you get in your cheeks when you smile too much for too long and you get that permanent blush across your face! god that’s probabaly nonsense and not very cohesive but you have the same sort of colors…soft orange and light pink….you’re like a sunset on the beach right at the start of spring when theres barely anyone on the shore and the whole world feels really big and wide but even though youre all alone you don’t feel lonely because it still feels like the whole world(you) is poised right at the edge of your fingertips.

hhhh that also probably made very little sense but i dont care i love you so much and im very bad at expressing emotion (blame my virgo moon who hasn’t felt any feelings in over 18 years) but i still feel like always showering u in that sweet love and affection, despite the fact that im horrible with words and i have absolutely no consistency. I feel like it’s really rare to meet someone who literally changes your entire perception of the world but … damn here we are!! tlkaing to u is literally a part of my daily life its a part of who i am at this point :/

Anyways, friendships don’t really come naturally to me because I have a very weird perosnality where like. im simultaneously suffocating whilst also being very detached and it turns people off so quickly but..god we mesh so well i truly love you so much. i also tend to not write a lot whenever i make these posts bc im the kind of person who continously says how much i love you throughtout the convo (even thoguh ill ghost most ppl for a few days) so whenever i get around to writing these im like :// but what else do i say :// but this time!!! oooo i have so much to say i can never go into full loving hours with you bc you always turn things around and get me to start talking abotu myself and pretty soon we start talking about how i used to raise rocks as a kid instead of talking about how hot you are :/

so anyways firstly . those were just the intro pragaraphs im finally getting into my loving sejung essay :(( helloooo one of my favortie things about talking to you is how easily the conversation always flows ….us talking about shownus asshole and the questionable consumption of expired jello and orbeez at 3 am is most likely the more demonic things weve done while simultaenously being the more tame things…my head still aches when i remember that giagntic bruise i got from looking at that wonho+tentacles/changkyun+black hole sketch u made… god we somehow always go from topic to topic with absolutely no regard for cohesiveness and yet neither of us ever question it…we’ll spend hours discussing absolutely nothing …like that one night we stayed up for like three hours on rabbit talking about all the different mx stans and which member has the most stans internationally versus domestically and why….icons of developing complex sociocultural theories at 2am while occasionally mentioning “oh wow its late u should go to bed >:/” god its just that I always lose track of time whenever I talk to you…its like im so focused on that I Love Her mood that I don’t even realize its been 4 hours until I look down at my pile of unfinished homework and then back up at my laptop like. This was a Valid choice why would I pick ib math when I have a whole entire sejung talking to me. hhhh its just that talking to you comes so naturally and I always tell you all these quesiotnable things to which you always respond by first calling me a demon and then laughing about it and encouraging my stupidity. it’s also so so endearing that ill tell you about the dumb shit im doing and your first response is always to nag at me to be safe and take care of myself as if ill actually listen to you and clean a cut with alcohol, risking legitimate Pain… anyways sejung? queen of making me feel loved and noticed? MORE LIKELY THAN U THINK!!!!

hhhhh ok moving on now I get to talk about how. sexy u are damn….i remember back when we were first starting to talk and you sent me those pictures of yourself in that button up and I literally. I quite literally almost passed out in the starbucks while the barista was handing me my strawberry lemonade I truly almost lost it…nd right before that I was encouraging you to talk to the boba girl nd flirt nd be all spicie…but then u sent me those pics nd I was like for what reason would she have to impress boba girl when im right here … mouth open so wide in love that all the bobas are spilling out of my mouth :( not to be dramatic yet again when I know ive mentioned those selfies before but damn…those were so hot u unbuttoned like two or three of the top buttons and u looked so hot truly. raw me vore me behind each and every single boba store location hewwwooo u look so intense nd powerful im truly putty in ur hands not only would I lose my mind for u, I have already lost it

hhhhh im very much rambling and making very little sense rn bc its. 2:30 am and im sleebie nd I blocked all social media sites so id do homework bt I kept thiknning abt u so I was like hm the universe clearly wants me to write about sejung more even though ill have to post this in the morning bc tungle is blocked until then :// bt anaywas that also means I get to go into all the other thigns I love about u and all the things u remind me of :(( hhhh its so wild that I never actually aunch into full loving shannon mood bt I talk abt u so much w my friends theyre all. suspicious ,,,,

them: nawar u don’t actually like romance and u hate talking about people r u perhaps dating this girl??me, w hearts in my eyes laughing at smth ure saying on my phone: what

HHHH DJHFKSJDHF TAHST TRULY ME,,,,ALWAYS THIKNING ABT U,,,ALWAYS BEING BIG HEART EYES FR U,,,at any given moment I could be reminded of u :( I see a piece of paper nd im like huh I should do work then again is work necessary to live perhaps not but sejung is necessary to live,,,,me thinking abt u as I procrastinate every single thing ive ever had to do :D Like, ive never understood when people say that they hated a zodiac sign at one point, and then they met one person and they were like oh my god nevermind this sign is perfect but truly,,,I love geminis now ,,,I used to hate them almost as much as cancer nd now? geminis are all good ure so wonderful nd loving nd sweet u being a gemini saved geminis collectively,,

ill also neber stop talking abt how now matter how much I whine and demand attention, youre always jst,,,supplying it without any question like at one point people usually get annoyed, no matter how endeared they were by it at first, bt youre always calling me a baby (even though im older) nd giving me that sweet Love and Attention,,mmmmm my libra sun thrives under ur care :( hhhh also I feel it is important to point out I love. all of u,,,,like I don’t even usually care much for peoples voices or anything unless its like so deep it sounds like the grim reaper bc that’s wild u ,,bt anyways the first moment I heard ur voice I was. breathless I was so shocked like ur voice is so soothing nd warm its like. if the aesthetic of sunlight and honey and warm pies had a voice,,,hhhh im also not the type to really believe in things like fate nd destiny and soulmates and stuff bt that’s kind of what u remind me of ? in a? not weird way hhhhh so I feel like youre just so naturally in tune with people like nothing really catches you off guard and you roll with peoples different personalities and quirks and you always jst. mesh so well with everyone ure like the minhyuk of the internet,,,,nd like!! theres smth abt u that reminds me of balance and maybe its my libra sun always seeking peace and harmony in life but I always feel so relaxed nd steady whenever I talk to you its like . idk how to explain it!!! its jst so comforting!!!

I was originally gonna cut myself off at 1k but its too late for that now and im gonna put this under a read more anyways and its 3am now so I feel like. go Big or go Home!!! now im gonna launch into a long analysis of u! and ur smile!! first of all,,,its so rare nd wild to find someone who likes validating people more than being validated,,,,u finding my libra antics cute???hhhhh tahts so wild,,,,I could pout for hours nd u would call it cute,,,validating!!! nd the fact that you’ve read my writing,,,,excerpts from my demonic wips and youre stil friends with me?? you still talk to me?? damn that’s like. never to be expected any time I make someone read that tangerine fic they ghost me for a good month but I sent you pieces of that tentacle fic and YOU FUCKCING SKETCHED OUT THE LOOK,,,,,MY MUSE,,,nd also you tend to always steer the convo around to focus on the other person n dim a FOOL who almost falls for it every time,,,before I remember and make u tell me thigns…god ive told you so many obscure things from my childhood like that time I tried to eat a brick and yet you still,,,,talk to me,,,,who are u,,,,hhhh ure always so cute nd giving nd caring I feel like I could genuinely truly look like shit nd send u a selfie nd you would still be like WOW GORGEOEUS YOU LOOK SO GOOD THAT’S HOT!!! u,,,going out of ur way to make ppl happy :( anyways im a fool in love w u ,,,also not to be like. one of those old white boy text posts from tumblr but ,,,,hey girl,,,ladie,,,wamen,,,did u know? ur smile lights up my world? ,,,did u know? theres no such thing as u being anything less than perfect,,,why? because its impossible to be anything less than the essence of who you are. hhhh that’s the dumbest thing im ever written im cutting myself off that was too much this is like. 2k words so far and in all honesty I could continue but then id get gushier than that last line and nobody wants to see That,,,hhhh

this started out with. somewhat decent grammar like I used periods and I think I occasionally capitalized the first letter of the sentence but at this point its incoherent rambling it’s the inside of my brain every time I see u or hear frm u its like when spongebobs brain was on fire and all the cabinets and computers were going up in flames and all the little brain spongebobs were losing their mind that’s me right now losing my mind over you I wrote exactly 2k words in that whole essay,,,,im so fucking valid,,,,ananywas I love you if you couldn’t tell nd iim . somewhat satisfied at being able to vent all this love,,,smoochie,,smoochh,,SMOOCHIIE

[until-things-get-better]

its so hard to pretend i dont love you,, to hide it all day & not send you anything about it but,,, yyou feel smothered by me an d,,, honestly i know why, cause i need so much attention in relationships like this,, i need to feel loved back all the time an d,,,, even though i know you love me i , i dont see you enough & i dont hear from you enough to keep me sane every day,, ,  im,, , im always worried,,,,,,, that you dont want to do stuff anymore, , , that youre going to move on to someone better, ,, that youre going to find someone you want to bbe with and  ,,,,,,, i t scares me so much it makes it hard to sleep at night,,,, ,,, , it makes it hard to eat, , to wake up, to leave my house,,,, to do anything,, im scared. everywhere,. i love you a stupid amount, i. would do anything. i have done anything,, ive done everything in my life to stay with you forever because i love you and i dont want you to go away ,, i want to live with you and see you every day and sleep next to you whenever i want to a nd, ,, , i wanna cuddle with you and kiss your neck and do everything we’ve done so far and,,,,,,,,, man,,, im scared. i should be enjoying every moment of this time where you want to be with me again but. here i am scared when youre not near me,, scared when youre not accepting compliments from me,,, scared all day,,,, sending those dumb lovey texts was scary too but they always made me feel better,, they reminded me that things are working and were together and i can send these but,,, they were suffocating you and now by not sending them theyre getting stuck in my throat and suffocating me,,,,,,,,,

but. ill do anything for you. including this. so ill keep going.

[drashleighreid]

Odd numbers yo!

1. How do you define your sexuality?

i sit pretty comfortably w queer and gay because theyre so broad. i feel pretty ok w referring to myself as a lesbian too. 

3. At what age did you first come out?

i actually have no idea i feel like i started thinking about it and discussing it with friends at maybe like 17ish?? but it was never a ‘coming out’ per se... the most vivid ‘this feels like a coming out’ moment was probably with my host mom where i was actually anxious abt it and i was probably like 20 but id been pretty intensely open ab being gay w friends n on the internet before that. the concept of ‘coming out’ has never rly sat well with me and ive never felt the need to do it to feel any kind of closure. 5. How out are you? i mean i dont really hide it but i dont talk about it all of the time either. ive never really ‘had the talk’ with my family just because ive never really seriously dated anyone and i dont see the point behind telling them and making a big show about it just for the sake of saying something because i feel like that’s just exacerbating the idea that theres something wrong w not being straight and that there even *needs* to be that coming out moment it just feel unnecessary to me. but im not ashamed of it and i dont hide it. 

7. What is your current relationship status?

waiting 4 my chl*e beale tbh 9. Do you have any LGBT relatives?

a cousin i was really close to growing up is gay. 11. How often do you wear flannel?

sometimes lol i used to quite a bit but i havent for a while 13. Do you wear skirts and dresses? If so, how often?

yeah i usually wear skirts and dresses when i go out somewhere. 15. Do you have any tattoos? If so, what of and where?

not yet17. Have you ever been to a gay bar or a gay club?

yes many times lol19. Have you ever had a crush on a straight girl?

?? people have crushes on NOT straight girls?? wild. 21. Is your nose pierced?

it used to be a couple of years ago23. Will you wear a dress for your wedding?

yeah, sure. 25. Have you ever watched The L Word?

ive seen like the first season. i didnt get into it unfortunately. 27. How do you feel when someone uses the word gay to mean stupid, dumb, or boring?

ur so 2000 and late29. Have you ever been to a pride festival?

no ! :( 31. Have you ever participated in the National Day of Silence?

no33. Have you ever worn any men’s clothing?

yeah35. Do you consider yourself a feminist?yeah

37. Are you religious at all?im open to it but not really, no. 

39. What is your ideal first date?

coffee. 41. How outdoorsy are you?i like the outdoors, i love hiking and the beach etc but im also high maintenance and need 2 be clean and comfortable after it lol so camping n stuff isnt really my thing.43. How much makeup do you typically wear?i go through phases. im comfortable wearing no make up and dont usually wear much of it in day to day life. sometimes i just do my brows. sometimes i got that full face of poppin highlight and contour whom knows. 

45. Are you more feminine or more masculine?

id say more feminine47. Have you and a girlfriend ever been mistaken for sisters?

no lol49. Have you ever wished you were completely straight?there probably were times when i was just realising it and was scared where i did but not in recent years.51. Do you wear any combat boots, Doc Martins, or Timberlands?yes lol all three. ive been living in my docs

53. How athletic are you?

i enjoy exercising55. What is your opinion of septum/bull nose piercings?i think theyre fine. i wouldnt get one but i appreciate them on other people

57. If you are not a lesbian, about what percentage of the time do you find yourself attracted to other females? i dont actually experience attraction very often but when i do its always women and it always kicks me on my ass

59. Have you ever liked or dated a girl with the same name as you?nope

61. Are you a virgin?wow ! 

63. Have you ever been told that you are too pretty to be gay?

i dont think so65. Have you ever driven an SUV, Jeep, or a pickup truck?no lol i always wanted a jeep tho

67. Agree or disagree: Everyone is at least a little bit gay.hm... its hard to say. i def think attraction is more of a spectrum and some ppl are more closed off to the idea but i dont know other peoples experiences

69. Boobs or butts?

butts71. Do you have a favorite lesbian movie?most lesbian media sucks ass. i actually really enjoyed the movie ‘below her mouth’ tho thats the first one that comes to mind73. From 1-10, how attractive are women who wear glasses?ok i dont like this rating system tbh alsdjlakj it makes me uncomfortable the next few questions all get 10′s because all women are valid and beautiful 

75. From 1-10, how attractive are curvy/plus-size women?77. From 1-10, how attractive are masculine butch women?79. From 1-10, how attractive are tall women (i.e. around 6 feet or taller)?81. Has a girl ever dumped you for a guy? Have you?

no83. Do you wear any hats such as snapbacks or beanies?i wear beanies sometimes 

85. Would you ever date a trans girl?yes87. Have you ever had a crush on a woman who’s much older than you?L O L. people have crushes on people their own age ?? wild. 

89. Do you have any opinions on LGBT people in the military?no different than my opinion of anyone else in the military. no one should be discriminated against because of reasons like this is ridiculous. 91. Have you ever been told that you look gay (i.e. like a lesbian)?one time in highschool this girl told me i seem like a lesbian because i never ‘dress cute’. i wasnt her friend, never saw her outside of school, and we had a uniform and all wore the same thing but true, cool. 

93. Is there such a thing as “good” lesbian porn?

its out there but hard to find. 95. How often do you wear a bra?

always bc i am a big titted lass97. If you could live your life all over again, would you still be attracted to other women?

yes its my favorite thing99. What advice would you give a girl who is struggling to figure out her sexuality?honestly probably shit advice but dont stress so much. i know some people are more comfortable with labels and defining it all but i think its far more complex and fluid than that. my understanding of my identity is constantly changing and fluctuating w my life experiences and i learn more nd meet new people every day who open up new doors and help me understand more abt identity and life. honestly its calm just have a good time and try 2 enjoy urself beb do what feels right and comfortable and dont think so much. 

thank you for sending these and helping me procrastinate my life ! xx have a nice evenin lovely