#things pat missed

[arabian-batboy]

She’s living my dream right in front of my eyes.

[darlingsart]

Haven’t posted anything on this blog in a while so have a little wip I’ve been working on! Achilles and the kids barging into Patroclus’ study while he’s (trying) to work lol

[lucky-clover-gazette]

at the end of the day, rogue is an episode that depicts queer adventure and joy. for some people, it's just a filler episode with yet another random doctor-side character romance (like voyage of the damned or the girl in the fireplace). but as a gay person, i personally appreciate rogue in a way i can't quite put into words. it is so amazing to watch, as a lifetime fan of the series and person invested in queer representation in popular media.

but i also do recognize that if an episode like dot and bubble was written about homophobia, it would make me feel bad. it would be a Good Episode, praised for its realism and clever storytelling, but it wouldn't be fun for me, as a gay person, to watch.

what i would like to see next, in addition to dot and bubble, is a story that depicts adventure and joy specifically with fans of color in mind. yes, dot and bubble did a good job of pointing out racism, and making the audience think harder about what they're watching. but that's almost more for a white audience, than for the people of color who recognize racism because they actually experience it.

i'm crossing my fingers for more stories like rogue, written by and for people of color, in the next season of doctor who :)

[draculiza]

ready for castlefest 🏴‍☠️

[heftmanrhamm]

Pat Butcher Dress Up!

See below for Pat in other outfits

The many looks of Pat

[kalgalen]

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[ornstein]

His face looks like when someone who's got a terrible sense of humour tries to tell the joke of the century but it's so lame you don't know if to either laugh or mock the person or smile pitifuly at them in solidarity.

[beeholyshit]

I'm so emotional rn

[42kio]

pspspsps colors

[dutybcrne]

Imagine if the remaining Khaenri'ahns, due to the influence of the curse or affliction of Abyssal energy they've been exposed to are able to see like. Warped visions of their old comrades/people via the leylines or in domains from first glance, where it would take others direct exposure or even special abilities to even begin to see them-

[hinderr]

session 0 sal and penelope skiesly you are so special to me

[mahuhumaling]

the last thing Pat wants is to let Pran slip through his fingers again.

— a drabble inspired by this fanart where Pat stays awake after the end of epsiode 4. he sits up and looks at Pran who has his back turned, asleep.

why does Pran drive him away? does he not care, did those 3 years apart mean nothing to him that he can just push Pat away so nonchalantly?

all he wants is to be back in Pran's life again — whatever that takes.

maybe it's easier to fall back on the kind of relationship they had before, instead of anything else because it's familiar: the genuine moments hidden beneath fake hostility, the teasing, the way Pran's whines don't quite reach his eyes, the way he relents at the end, as if he can never really hate him.

but now.

now maybe he's gone too far. he says he hates him, and for a minute Pat believes it.

maybe there's a pink painted line he crossed, an invisible road sign he missed, an alarm he slept through.

either way, hearing it stings. right there, in his chest. sharp. quick. the kind that makes him double over.

Pat replies with something, anything, to retort. it comes out flat, sounding more compensating than a diss.

he lays back down when he sees Pran roll over, closes his eyes even though surprisingly he's not that fatigued from the rugby game, and feels Pran tug the blanket back to his.

Pat lets him.

he stays awake, his mind not shutting down and his body still jittery.

but he has his eyes closed and feels his chest rise and fall from the breathing.

Pat opens it again and sits up. when he lays his chin on top of his crossed arms, the only thing he sees is Pran's back. he feels relief wash over himself.

at least Pran gets to rest. he knows that shoulder is still hurting him.

Pat doesn't get it.

what would it take for Pran to look at him like he did before? to talk to him as he did back in highschool?

he doesn't get it.

there's still something sitting on his stomach, heavy, unidentifiable. he can't figure out what.

but maybe if he sleeps it off, he eventually will.

maybe tomorrow, he thinks as he inevitably dozes off, succumbing to the night.

maybe tomorrow.

tomorrow when he wakes up, he'll realize why.

[seariii]

Hum...

[ohbutwheresyourheart]

after spending all of season 2 gleefully imagining hannibal getting his comeuppance... I think mizumono broke me

[airenyah]

remember that one ep11 scene that everyone decided was the break-up scene after the ep 12 preview (derogatory) dropped? i think the reason why that scene managed to trick us into believing that that was the break-up talk is because for a terrifying moment pran thinks it's a break-up talk

Edit:

#i have a half written meta about this in my drafts #it's been sitting there for month but i keep forgetting to finish it

well i've gone and done it, here's the meta

[kavehater]

I mean this from a social perspective not a health one : why does everything feel weird right now. Like yes I’m heartbroken about the reality of my position in the lives of my so called friends but now I just feel confused. I don’t understand why I’m not important and why I can’t change to be important to others, nor what makes a person important either.