#and then JACK TRYING TO CALL BELLA

[ohbutwheresyourheart]

after spending all of season 2 gleefully imagining hannibal getting his comeuppance... I think mizumono broke me

[the-unofficial-village-idiot]

Hannibal cupping Will's face in his hand and slashing his stomach and hugging him and running a hand over his hair is something that can actually be so screaming and crying and throwing up

[lilpotatjj]

hellooo i hope you're doin fine, i was wondering if i could request a bella ramsey nsfw alphabet? thx ❤

A/N: Never even heard of that BUT, here we go sweety thank you so much for this beautiful idea. Hope you like it, if not I'm ready to get punched :P

NSFW Alphabet Bella Ramsey (18+)

A = Aftercare

Bella will definitely make sure that you are well afterwards. Enjoy being together and cuddle with her. She is quite affectionate and doesn't want to let you go.

B = Body part

Your hands are her favourite toy, because you can make her happy in many different ways. Whether you're drinking or gaming, the way you move your hands can drive them crazy at any time.

C = Cum

Bella is quite open to everything, especially when it comes to sex. Since she is rather inexperienced, she wants to know everything and find out by trying it out. Once you've come all over her hand, she won't stop right away, will use it to tease you further, only to lick her fingers with satisfaction afterwards.

D = Dirty Secret

Bella would do anything with you even bondage games and test how far your pain threshold is. She only finds it difficult to talk about it because she is far too shy, the reason it's her secret.

E = Experience

Bella is rather inexperienced and wants to try out a lot. She knows exactly what she wants and she shows you that clearly. Giving up is not an option, because she is very patient.

F = Favourite Position

Especially because she is still inexperienced and rather shy, she loves it when you show her the ropes. Bending over her and being submissive is exactly what she loves the most. Surrendering to you completely and you tease her, showing her how experienced you are. If your relationship moves on she will often change the tables.

G = Goofy

Bella knows exactly what she wants and likes to play over her shyness with jokes. But the more you bring her over the edge, the more serious she becomes, cause sex will never be somthing she takes lightly.

H = Hair

Bella loves her long, well-groomed hair, but now she feels so much better with shorter hair. It's neat, but she doesn't mind if it gets messed up. No matter if it's wildly messy or slicked back. Nothing that can't be tidied up again, in keeping with her rebellious character.

I = Intimacy

Despite her inexperience, she likes to be spontaneous, not everything has to be planned and even light actions like kissing on the neck can drive her crazy. Her rebellious nature tempts her to overshoot the mark too quickly. She is rather shy at first, but this will soon subside once you get started.

J = Jack Off

Rather rarely as she prefers it when you take over and she can let herself go in your presence.

K = Kink

Bella loves to submit to you, to just be the object of your desire, but that doesn't mean she doesn't like to turn the tables on you. If your relationship lasts longer, she will quickly become more open and want to be a bit more rebellious. Sometimes it degenerates into corruption kink from both sides.

L = Location

Due to her shyness, she is rather reserved for special places. which does not mean she is not interested. try it out, yes, as long as it is not too public.

M = Motivation

The way you talk and she looks at your lips can drive her crazy. Kisses on the neck and chin make her change her mind too quickly and take away some of her shyness. She loves it when you give them pet names.

N = NO

Almost nothing, you shouldn't necessarily have eaten a garlic sandwich beforehand but otherwise she is far too open to everything. She is non-binary and does not like to be called a young lady. she loves all other pet names, so be careful what you say to her in the heat of the moment.

O = Oral

She loves it when she gets to do it and is always trying things out. Nevertheless, she also wants to be spoiled by you. Quite a balanced relationship.

P = Pace

Bella likes it rather fast and rough. She likes to lose control and can be quite naughty. But only if your relationship has been going on for a while, otherwise she is rather shy and cautious, careful not to scare you.

Q = Quickie

Bella loves quickies precisely because she is so spontaneous and gets horny quickly. Once started, all she cares about is that it doesn't happen at trafalgar square.

R = Risk

Bella is open to almost anything, but it takes a while and your relationship has to be solid. When she gets more confident she will open up to you and show you how far love can go.

S = Stamina

At the beginning of your relationship, Bella had enough for once your done. The more often you have sex, the more rebellious their will be to make a long night out of it.

T = Toy

She doesn't have one herself, but would be more than open to trying anything, including bondage with ropes. If you have any, she's dying to try them all.

U = Unfair

Bella herself doesn't like being teased at all. however, she loves to let her own rebellious way out on you. To continue to annoy you, especially if you have already come once or twice. You usually have to force yourself to stop her sometimes.

V = Volume

First always rather reserved, shy moans, which quickly become more intense when Bella really gets going. Once you start moaning too, that only heats Bella up even more. Pet names are distributed and not too little.

W = Wild Card

Bella is non binary and is often attracted to women I would say she is lesbian but I am not ruling out bi. (just my thoughts) When it comes to trying things out, she tends towards women.

X = X-Ray

Bella has a beautiful slender body with nice but really light curves. She is small but that doesn't mean that she is incapable of doing the filthiest things to you.

Y = Yearning

She is young, open to try everything, curious to go beyond her limits without losing sight of you. If it suits you, then it doesn't matter how often, as long as her self-confidence has been established.

Z = ZZZ (… how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)

Depending on what you've done, she's not going to get tired anytime soon. If the day was long or the frustration big, it can sometimes be a long night.

[nightwhispcrs]

— valentines ball mini event starter call under the cut ; dont be shy !! 3 starter cap per mun , pls . if you want to plot anything for our event thread / if any of these blurbs give you an idea , dm me after requesting the starter ! otherwise i will be writing them random .

**if we have blind dates , i will dm you about plotting and which of us writes the starter , so please don't request those here .

adam newman , 33 yrs — ( 3/3 ) dru , maggie , olenna

adam will be his usual flirty , gossip-y self . coming from the soap opera world , the relationship drama the revolves around valentines day is his wheelhouse , so feel free to unload your tea on his ear at the bar and let him help you form revenge plans . ( date : olenna tyrell )

arnold novak , 28 yrs — ( 2/2 ) jester , shen wei

being on a blind date with a stranger is one of arnold's worst social nightmares , so please distract him with anything you can . a dance , illicit substances , some gossip , or whatever else your heart desires . he will however be very engrossed and excited to view the exhibits and will probably be using them to avoid social interaction . it's canon that he's a BIG fan of butterflies , so catch them there . ( blind date : shen wei )

charlie dalton , 26 yrs — ( 1/3 ) neil

they're having the time of their life . still in denial about the feelings he has for his best friend , so charlie will be running around being a menace . probably trying to break into anything and everything that they shouldn't , and probably carrying around a couple flasks of mysterious liquor . ( "platonic" date : neil perry )

craig manning , 23 yrs — ( 0/2 )

on a date with his boyfriend , but craig can either get involved in some chaos or lend an ear to someone who needs it . he's sober , so can take care of anyone who's been a bit .. less than sober . you may find him around the insect exhibits ? fell like he'd think bugs are interesting . ( date : j.t. yorke )

eli joseph stock , 22 yrs — ( 1/2 ) auden

on a date with their partner , but will be quietly strolling through the exhibits as well . probably spending most of their time in ocean hall . they're from a beach town , so feels like home . a bit skeptical of valentines and pda in general , but will withhold judgement to themself . ( date : auden west )

fred flintstone , 40 yrs — ( 1/2 ) meredith

he's pining for nigel and in denial . also , seeing his dinosaur pets as skeletons is scarring and upsetting , so he's really having a hell of a time . ( blind date : meredith grey )

irina denali , 28 yrs — ( 3/3 ) bella , vic , cindy moon

moody and broody but still a beauty . she'll use this as an opportunity to dress up and look absolutely stunning , and she'll be quietly observing everyone's relationship drama . being 'immortal' yet having died , mummies kind of freak her out so she'll prob be over there . ( blind date : belle french )

jack shephard , 35 yrs — ( 1/2 ) hannibal

if anyone needs medical assistance , jack can help ya out . otherwise , he'll probably be sipping a gin beverage as he strolls through the exhibits . it's rare he spends time just hanging out in museums for fun . the polar bear will prob trigger some memories from back home ... you might catch him trying to hide a spiral . ( date : michael corleone )

katniss everdeen , 22 yrs — ( 3/3 ) rue , a-xiang , peeta

please let this person live and have a good time for a night . i might allow katniss to just have a nice time and enjoy a romantic evening , in love once again . i don't trust the admins with a peaceful evening *eyes emoji* but ... we'll see how things pan out . ( date : peeta mellark )

lee jordan , 28 yrs — ( 2/2 ) wei wuxian , hongjo

distract lee from the very secret feelings he's rekindled towards draco . let him get caught up in your drama , or run around with him causing trouble as he whines about how very very single he is . expect him to pry about your love life for his podcast - he loves gossip . ( unofficial hate-date : draco malfoy )

max goodwin , 34 yrs — ( 1/2 ) carlisle

my medical director doesn't get much time to relax , so he's enjoying this night . max is very very friendly and will be genuinely interested in meeting and getting to know knew people . a very curious mind , expect him to share some good advice while gazing at the exhibits .

michael guerin , 31 yrs — ( 3/3 ) qingge , childe , tatia

being at museums like this is kind of horrifying for michael , because as a secret alien , michael's biggest fear is that the government will find him out and he'll end up himself as an exhibit in this place . also he's single and lonely - what's new - so he'll be drinking his worries away and gawking at the "human origins " . ( blind date : tatia )

monica geller , 27 yrs — ( 1/2 ) laurie

looking hot and stressed . don't think for a second that monica has forgotten how violent and chaotic balls of the past have been in washington . she'll be doing her best to stay present , but she's going to be waiting for something terrible to happen at any moment . ( "platonic" date : laurie strode )

naomi pierce , 34 yrs — ( 2/2 ) junyi , kendall

girly is looking like a 100/10 and will be happy to share some champagne and relationship advice . events , galas , museums , etc. are commonplace to her so she's in her usual public-facing-mask element . she probably wants some of the gems on display . ( date : kendall roy )

parvati patil , 22 yrs — ( 1/2 ) cho

she's feeling mischievous but doesn't know where to place that energy . eeriely familiar feelings of a ball are haunting her , but parvati doesn't have her memories of hogwarts back yet so she won't know why . will probably take this opportunity to make new friends or flirt . ( blind date : cerridwen )

ramona flowers , 25 yrs — ( 1/2 ) ellie

ramona is , of course , very open to being messy and kissing someone other than their date . they're very open to anything , actually , and they're not above putting some graffiti on some priceless artifacts . ( blind date : tigris snow )

reid oliver , 37 yrs — ( 1/2 ) brennan

dr . reid thinks this entire social event is a huge waste of time , but he is a biggg fan of the free food . for someone who makes as much money as him , a neurosurgeon , he really should have a better palate and spend money on quality food , but he loves free stuff . plus he's looking pretty good in a suit . ask him for a dance if you want , but he'll definitely deny you /: sorry he's a dance-hating bitch . ( blind date : brennan sorrengail )

richie jerimovich , 42 yrs — ( 2/3 ) nat , bellatrix

i bet you've never seen a man this drunk and messy looking this good in a suit before . if you want him to stop rambling about his former drunk adventures back home , just kiss him or something . ( blind date : bellatrix black )

robin buckley , 24 yrs — ( 2/2 ) nancy , maya

they're very excited to be on a date with a very pretty girl !! you might catch her freaking out in the bathroom about it tho . she's also very very impressed by all of the pretty things on display . plus she's looking cute in her vintage dress . ( blind date : maya hart )

roman roy , 36 yrs — ( 2/2 ) tatum , tyrell

will be judging everyone's attire , relationship , and the quality of the alcohol at the bar . but he'll look good while doing it ! he really doesn't understand consequences of actions , so feel free to pull my chaotic man into anything . ( date : tyrell wellick )

tucker mccall , 45 yrs — ( 1/2 ) ceres

mr. wildcard homewrecking gossip king himself . will certainly insert himself into anyone's relationship drama given the opportunity . if you want to flirt , gossip , or have any deep conversations about the meaning of life , he's your guy . ( blind date : ceres vurith )

zahra bankston , 40 years — ( 2/2 ) alex , qui-gon jinn

she's the director of national intelligence , so i promise if you're doing anything stupid , zahra already knows and it isn't getting past her . she's enjoying this time to bump elbows with washington's elite though , so whether she actually says or does anything at this very moment is another story . also , you bet she's looking absolutely incredible . ( blind date : qui-gon jinn )

zoe rivas , 24 years — ( 1/2 ) annabeth

wrapped up in a beautiful gown , zoe will be ready to mingle or invite you to dance . they'll probably be in the darker rooms centering around electricity and the night sky because it's more calming and beautiful than the main floors swarmed with the entire city . ( blind date : abigail mckinnon )

[yanderelovlies]

I wrote this with the thought of he is trying make it seem like he IS Sunny Day Jack and his "friends and family" were real and not just actors.

Jack wants three kids thats the minimum. However if you let him dick you down to his pleasure you will for sure have more then three. He doesn't mind though he loves kids.

If you only have 3 kids your eldest daught is named Jane by Jack's request. It reminds him of his "sister", and wants his daughter to have her name so he never forgets. If it wasn't for the clown makeup permanently on her face you wouldnt be able to tell she was your kid. Jack has never said, but he always gets uncomfortable if you ever bring up Jane's out of place brown hair and ruby eyes.

The second born is also a girl who's VERY much a daddy's girl. Mommy/other parent?? We don't know them sorry. Her name is Isabella (bella or belle for short), and along with her obvious attachment to her father she also got his looks. She is almost an exact carbon copy of him. Isabelle is the princess of the three, and she won't let you forget it.

The youngest is just baby boy, and his name is Danny. Because he is just a baby it's hard to tell who he will mainly take after. However, look wise he is a healthy mix of the two of you.

Stay at home dad for life. Since he can't get a job to provide for everyone he stay with children and take care of everything else. Which means is also very excited to see yoh when you get home. Him and the kids have what time you come home memorized so that can stand by the door to greet you, and give/receive kisses.

I won't lie it isn't always sunshine and roses. Due to the kids unnatural birthmarks there have been many calls from school, and doctors. It frustrated Jack to no end that he could stop the teachers from yelling at you about "letting their children wear makeup at that age" or how "their hair shouldn't be dyed at that age." . He never took the frustrations on his family. No he comforts his family, and when all is quiet at night he handles the issue.

100/10 dad material

[socvinc]

Sometimes i just sit down and think for a while about Bella and Molly. Like. Man!! In some ways, they’re almost exactly alike- Hannibal is so deeply ingrained in both of these women’s lives and marriages, despite how the connective tissue isn’t even meant to span to them in the first place. They’re used almost as a means to an end! They were caught in the mix. Bella because Jack is the director of the BAU, and even further Will’s boss. Molly because, well. She’s Will’s wife, and Hannibal is an incredibly jealous and possessive person. Like, to an unreal degree.

Of course, Bella’s cancer itself obviously can’t at all be read to be a byproduct of Hannibal’s actions (as the dragon’s attack on Molly *definitely* can), it’s just circumstance. But, how Hannibal flips a coin against Bella’s suicide could be considered a direct narrative foil of Molly’s situation. Sure, arguments can be made for if Hannibal did or did not intend for Molly to survive the Dragon breaking into her home, but it still stands that she survives purely on her own wit- having herself sent Will away, she’s completely within her own agency in those scenes. Will’s not even an influence at all, and Hannibal obviously can’t play such an active role from his jail cell! Even being used as a means to an end to draw Will closer to Hannibal, she has a very active hand in her survival of that situation! It’s not terminal, and there is so many ways something could have gone wrong for either Molly or Walter as the Dragon approached.

Bella’s near suicide, on the other hand, is the complete opposite- her health is rapidly deteriorating, her husband is willingly absent chasing what could practically be called a shadow on the wall, and the ending is always going to be the same; she will die. She’s been dead since the beginning. So, for her. the question is who’s hand it will be! The thing growing in her lungs, or her own?? Death is inevitable, here- so, she overdoses in Hannibal’s office. Bella’s suicide, to her, was a means of freedom; saving herself the slow suffering she was set to endure, and the indignity of those around her (especially Jack) watching it. ‘Remember me as I was, not what I have become.’ But it doesn’t work! Hannibal tosses up a coin on her survival, playing an extremely active role in it- on a whim, he completely decides to pull away her agency and reverse her overdose. Used as a playing card for Jack and Hannibal’s game (alongside Will and Hannibal’s, if you zoom out a bit). Both of them are unwilling participants.

Of course, there’s more than a few discrepancies here. Molly never met Hannibal, and until (presumably) the very end he was nothing more than a shadow hanging over the wall of Will’s life. Bella was Hannibal’s patient and spent multiple sessions speaking on the matter of her life (and eventual death) with him. Jack and Will are obsessive over Hannibal, but Jack was trying to let go of him in season 3a, stating that he only went to italy to follow Will, not chase Hannibal. But Will never let go, not really.

[tina-mairin-goldstein]

✏️"what are your current WIPs about?"

Thanks for playing with me, @kaylinalexanderbooks!

I have several WIPS right now, so this could be interesting.

Caraval- A Hannibal (NBC) sort of crossover/rewrite of the book Caraval by Stephanie Garber. It's also omega verse, with Will being an omega, Hannibal an alpha, and so on for the various characters who appear. Will must play a magical game that plays tricks on the mind and involves magic to find his sister (Abigail) over the course of five nights, searching for clues so he can find her before the other players and win. Hannibal, who initially brings them to the island where Master Legend hosts Caraval, teams up with him. As they play, Will realizes the game is far darker than it appears and that it is a race against the clock to find Abigail, because it is far more than a game.

Long list, so the rest are under the cut.

2. For Remembrance- A post-fall Murder Husbands story for my collection, Words Are Not The Only Way, centering on my chosen flower (rosemary) and its meaning. Won't say too much, but there is amnesia and rosemary plays a part in trying to help the amnesiac person recover their memories.

3. All Night or a Hundred Years- A Fantastic Beasts story from the POV of Percival Graves, who has been locked up in the dungeons of Nurmengard for a long time. Leta, rather than dying, is secreted away by Grindelwald in the dungeon as well, and she is helping Percival remember what it is like to be human and giving him something he hasn't had in a long time: Hope. They are getting to know each other and trying to figure out if they can escape, and how. Percival is close to giving up, but Leta won't take it. This one is on hiatus, however, because writer's block is a bitch.

4. Untangled- A Fantastic Beasts version of the Disney movie Tangled, with Newt as Rapunzel, Tina as Flynn, Grindelwald as Mother Gothel, and Theseus as Maximus, along with a bunch of the other FB crew members taking roles. Currently paused in favor of Caraval. Things are switched up in this, because Tina has the case of beasts instead of Newt. It's cheerful and fun and I sort of don't want to finish it because of that, so I'm being slow.

5. The Third Day- A Hannibal (NBC) rewrite of the HBO show The Third Day. Will is getting divorced from Molly and is grieving Abigail, who died under mysterious circumstances several years earlier. He meets Mischa in the woods, where is trying to hang herself, and takes her back to the place she lives, where he becomes trapped for three days and nights. Hannibal, Alana, Jack, Bella, Margot, Mason, and several other characters star as the residents trying to either run Will off the island or keep him there as he uncovers mysteries tied to himself and Abigail's death, as well as all the weirdness on the island.

7. Beloved- This is being scrapped and will be rewritten as a sequel to another story, His Shadow Suspended On Dust. Initially, it was a thirty-years post-fall story about Hannibal getting sick and Will taking care of him and living through his last days with him. Some of the original will remain, but it will be heavily rewritten, and there will be another story, called When the Snake Slithers By, between it and HSSOD.

8. The Lone City- A Pokemon anime rewrite of a favorite book of mine, called The Jewel by Amy Ewing. Starring Mairin, it centered on girls being sold off into surrogate slavery for the ruling class of the island, who became so inbred they can no longer safely carry their own children. Sort of a magical Handmaid's Tale, but with Pokemon twists. It was going to lead to Mairin uncovering the truth, falling in love with Alain, and escaping and so forth, but it's been on hiatus due to computer trouble, and I don't think I'm ever going to actually go back to it since it 's been more than a year.

9. Han+SPN- Temporary title, an attempted Hannibal/Supernatural crossover co-written by @ sarcasticsciencefictionwriter. Sam and Dean are driving through Maryland one night and Dean hits Will, who is a ravenstag, with Baby. Will is pregnant and fleeing hunters who are coming after him and Hannibal, who is half ravenstag, for being cannibals and want to kill their baby as well. The Winchesters learn that ravenstags only take what they need and chose harmful people as their victims (i.e, the rude), and end up teaming up with Will to save Hannibal from the hunters after Bobby, who saved Will when he was a fawn, tells them to. Currently paused because I didn't come up with much an outline and Sarc can't work with that. I'm playing with idea that Sam and Dean might have to deliver the baby.

I believe that is all my WIPS, unless you want to count the to-be-written finale to my collection, the Price of Godhood, where Will is Persephone and Hannibal is Hades, which will be about Will going to the world above on the first day of spring and saying goodbye to husband for six months.

Thanks so much for the ask! I've never done this before and I was so much fun! Feel free to hit me up again!

[highfantasy-soul]

why the fuck did I just see an instagram post from Zoe Saldana - from 2 days ago!!! - that reiterated the FALSE claims about the Oct. 7th attack? Just a bunch of unsubstantiated allegations. Stick to the facts - Israelis were killed, some taken hostage but there's no evidence of babies being beheaded or even of rape. Of course that doesn't mean the lives lost that day mean anything less, but spreading such misinformation is never a good idea. It leads to more false assumptions about 'the enemy' to dehumanize them and make them out to be the worst kind of monsters - the kind we 'don't negotiate' with. This leads to people like Zoe thinking that carpet bombing civilians is 'actually necessary' since we're dealing with such a 'horrific' group of people.

The hostages that have been released actually talk about relatively kind treatment by Hamas. Can you say the same for the Palestinians (including children) being held in Israeli prisons?

The pearl-clutching at lies spread by Israel and yet deafening silence to the actual footage of Palestinians being slaughtered is telling.

People like Zoe (Adam Sandler, Amy Schumer, Aubrey Plaza, Bella Thorne, Ben Stiller, Chris Rock, Courtney Cox, Ewan McGregor, Gal Gadot, Gwyneth Paltrow, Justin Timberlake, Jack Black, Jerry Seinfeld, Jeff Goldblum, Jessifa Biel, Josh Bolin, Jud Apatow, Katy Perry, Kristin Chenoweth, Lana Del Rey, Madonna, Paul Rudd, Regina Spektor, Seth Meyers, Taika Waititi, Zach Snyder, and many more who signed the 'No Hostage Left Behind' post) are speaking loud and clear:

They only value certain hostages.

She thanks Biden for his 'unshakable moral conviction'. What does that conviction look like? Denying aid to Palestinians. Funding the Israeli military so they can continue to commit war crimes. Refusing to tell Israel to turn back on the power and water to the besieged Gaza Strip. Spreading more lies fed to him by Israel. Refusing to call for a ceasefire. Telling Israel that they have every right to do whatever it takes to 'destroy' Hamas - which means slaughtering every single person in Gaza. How is any of that getting the hostages back?

So many celebrities signing their name on a post riddled with lies.

Come on, people - at least use facts to try to back your case, pro-genocide as it may be.

Don't support indiscriminate murder of civilians and in the same breath claim you want 'freedom for Israelis and Palestinians to live side by side in peace". There is no 'peace' in apartheid. There is no peace in genocide, in mass relocation, in discrimination and denial of basic human rights. There is not peace in that.

[triviareads]

Could you suggest any books where the heroine is a widow who discovers how good sex is with a new lover?

Her Protector's Pleasure by Grace Callaway: She's a lady, he's a cop; what's really great here (apart from Ambrose basically pouncing on Marianne like every 10 seconds) is that because Ambrose knows Marianne's husband was shitty and abusive towards her, he makes sure to check in with her during sex (specifically before a blowjob I believe, because Marianne's late husband forced her to perform them).

Pippa and the Prince of Secrets by Grace Callaway: Pippa's late husband was another shitty man who shamed her for seeking pleasure during sex, so when Pippa gets with Cull (The Prince of Larks lolol), she's finally able to be fearless in her sexuality (so fearless that they use the first sex swing ever invented... at least I'd like to think).

The Viper by Monica McCarty: Bella's husband dies midway though the book from what I remember, definitely after she's met the hero Lachlan. They don't get off to a good start; they both have immense trauma they're dealing with (Bella's husband was abusive and they had huge political differences) but when her and Lachlan do get together, it's probably some of the sex scenes in the Highland Guard series.

The Recruit by Monica McCarty: Mary is the widow of a philandering traitor when she comes across Kenneth (Kenneth! who knew a hero named Kenneth would do it for me!) having sex with another woman— truly one of the great historical romance voyeur scenes, and Ken has excellent follow-through with Mary too.

Wicked Again by Kathleen Ayers: Marissa has been widowed thrice and she's had lovers before the hero, but she chose purposefully dull "age-appropriate" men (she's 49) before the hero Haddon, who's 40 and fabulous in bed (the book starts with them having sex, which made me very happy).

An Island Princess Starts a Scandal by Adriana Herrera: Similar to Wicked Again, Cora has had relationships with other women since she was widowed, but sex with Manuela, who bargains with Cora to to take her to all the lesbian haunts in Paris in exchange for her land, is a *revelation*.

The Duchess in His Bed by Lorraine Heath: Aiden is the owner of a sex club and rumored to be a great lover, and Selena is 100% trying to take advantage of that... so she can get pregnant and pass the baby off as her recently-deceased husband's child. Classic bonkers Lorraine plot, and it WORKS.

Between the Devil and Desire by Lorraine Heath: Classic fire-meets-ice; Jack is a former street urchin turned gentlemen's club owner, and Olivia is a widowed duchess (her husband was much older) and Jack is named as Olivia's son's guardian so now they need to live together.

The Earl Takes All by Lorraine Heath: So uh, the heroine is not aware that the man she's sleeping with is not her husband, but rather, his identical twin as the husband died in a gorilla attack but, the sex has gotten way better since her "husband" came home, and he's a lot more jacked.

Lost in Your Arms by Christina Dodd: Another instance where her estranged "husband" is recovering from his injuries, and is suddenly giving wayyyy better sex than he ever did before, and is also way taller and jacked...

The Scandal of it All by Sophie Jordan: Graciela's first husband was a cheater and called her "cold" in bed, and now she finds herself inconveniently attracted to her step-son's best friend (who is younger! le gasp!). Colin's always had a crush on her and his vibe is very "I'm not a boy anymore; I'm a MAN".

Duchess by Day, Mistress by Night by Stacy Reid: Georgiana's first husband came to her "the third week of every month for three years" so Rhys is understandably a revelation for her sex-wise, being the bit o' rough hero that he is.

The Raven Prince by Elizabeth Hoyt: She's a widow and the hero's secretary, and decides to disguise herself as a prostitute to have sex with him. I'll never stop recommending this book because the sex scenes in this one are that great.

Thief of Shadows by Elizabeth Hoyt: This one has an older, more experienced widow and he's a virgin(!!!!!) so like, yes Isabel is surprised by how good the sex is (hell she cries at some point), but also, Winter is wayyyy more shook.

I know Scandalous Desires by Elizabeth Hoyt is another good widow romance but I've yet to get around to reading it (rereading it? honestly, 2020 is a fever dream).

Cold-Hearted Rake by Lisa Kleypas: Kathleen's (abusive alcoholic) husband of three days dies and the new heir to the earldom, Devon, arrives to take charge and they immediately antagonize one another even as as he's chasing after her and dragging her into carriages and stuff.

Devil's Daughter by Lisa Kleypas: Kind of the opposite of Cold-Hearted Rake; Phoebe's late husband was sweet but very ill all the time before he passed away, so a lot of the plot is Phoebe being afraid to move on, especially with a more unorthodox, forward-thinking, and comparatively vigorous man like West.

The Harlot Countess Joanna Shupe: Simon and Maggie kinda had a Thing back in the day, but then Maggie was compromised and forced to marry an older man and now the two of them have hella beef, BUT their chemistry is amazing and the voyeurism scene might be tied with the aforementioned Kenneth/Mary scene.

From the VIllian I'd Like To F... anthology:

Seven Sinful Nights by Nicola Davidson: Estelle is a recently widowed duchess who's sold off to Blake, a gambling hell owner, to pay off her BIL's debts and is thrown in the deep end of exhibitionism, voyeurism, and sex toys galore.

Lady Viper and the Bastard by Eva Leigh: This is a cusp rec for me because Violet has been widowed for a while and I think she's had good sex, BUT obviously none are on the level of the chemistry she shares with Ian (and their shared propensity for excellent roleplaying is unmatched).

I was gonna include The Conquering of Tate the Pius by Sierra Simone but I think Adelais has had fulfilling sex before she met Tate lol... but would absolutely recommend.

Erotic Romance:

His Countess by S.M. LaViolette: Another case of a prim and proper widow falling for her late husband's slutty disreputable heir; Gideon allows Alys to explore all her fantasies (bondage, having sex with other men, etc.) after their marriage of convenance.

Passion by Lisa Valdez: This book literally starts with Passion's post-mourning sexual awakening when she's groped by a stranger in the Crystal Palace, and they have lots and lots of cervix-hitting sex. Don't worry, it's better-written than the way I'm describing it.

Modern:

Wrong to Need You by Alisha Rai: He's her late husband's brother, and he's back in town and she nearly has sex with him without realizing who he is; a fabulous start and there's sooooo much guilt and angst.

Sin and Ink by Naima Simone: Another late-husband's-brother book, more angst and guilt with a side of stomach licking(?) and really good sex.

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Bend Til We Break - Chapter 15

previous chapters

A couple days go by and I don’t hear much from Quinn. He will text me occasionally mainly about baby stuff but acted differently. Well obviously I just ripped that guy's heart out by kissing his brother. I’m sitting in my apartment late one night when my phone rings, I run over thinking it may be an emergency, why else would someone be calling at 12:30am. I flip my phone over to reveal Bella’s contact.

“Bella? Hey”

“Hey, um I hate to ask this but can we bring Quinn over” she asks and confusion takes over me

“Uhhh- What’s going on?” i ask, “Why couldn’t he of called himself?”

“He doesn’t have a phone right now” she says and I can hear Brock in the background trying to calm Quinn down

“Is everything okay?!” I ask getting up off the couch, “I’ll meet you somewhere” “Yeah maybe that will be better” Bella says, “oh um- Y/n- He is- drunk” she says almost sounding defeated.

“Where are you?”

“We just went out for dinner at Earls- and Brock tried to stop him and Elias even asked the bar to cut him off- I just don’t know how he kept drinking” she says 

“He got drunk at Earls?” I say grabbing a coat as I leave my apartment, “I’m on my way, who is all there?”

“Brock, Elias, Anthony, Andrey-” she starts

“So the usual big bunch?” I ask as I start the car

“Yeah”

“Okay, I will see you soon” i say hanging up and making my way

I drive through the Vancouver streets and find myself thinking back to Quinn and I’s first fight. It was a year after Quinn and I had met. We were at the football darty getting ready for the big game. I for the darty with Hanna and Victoria, our other friend without Quinn. Long story short, Quinn wouldn’t come around me the rest of the day then we ended up getting in a huge fight the next morning. 

We didn’t talk for a whole week and Quinn ended up trying to drink himself to death. Or at least it seemed like it. I remember the call I got from Josh begging me to go over and please talk to him. But that was a long time ago and I don’t think this time is going to be as easy as last time talking to Quinn. 

I finally pull up to the bar to see Bella standing beside Anthony’s girlfriend with Anthony and Andrey as Elias and Brock are nowhere in sight. I hop out of my car and make my way over to the small group.

“Oh my god, Y/n. I’m so sorry I didn’t know what to do and he is upset- well about you” Bella says

“Did he say why?” I ask scared he told everyone I kissed his younger brother

“No, but he smashed his phone when Brock told him to just call you” Anthony’s girlfriend spoke up

“Where are they?” I ask looking around, “wait- does he even want me here”

“His actions and words speak differently about that” Anthony says

“They are around the corner” Bella says just as three of them appear around the building. Once Quinn gets close enough to see me, I walk up to him. 

“Hey, I’m taking you home” 

“Home? My home right?” he slurs

“Sure, if that’s where you want to go” I say agreeing with a highly intoxicated Quinn

“Yeah, wouldn’t want to-” he hiccups, “go back to yours” he slurs, “my brother might be there” he says and I close my eyes as the awkwardness from being around all of these people. 

“Jack is in New Jersey Quinn” I say red in the face

“What about Luke?” he hiccups, “or that too young?” Quinn says and I feel a tear sting my eye and I turn and look at Brock.

“I’m sorry, I don’t think I can help you” I say to brock

I turn towards my car and hop in the drivers seat. In a month and two weeks is my due date. I am way too tired to deal with this right now. My passenger door opens and Bella jumps in. 

“I’m sorry” she starts, “I swear to you all night he talked about missing you and wanting you here”

“It’s okay” I say, “It’s happened before”

“Wait, what- recently?” Bella asks me

“No, why do you ask that?” I ask her

“Well he has been drinking a lot this past week, and you guys were pretty solid before summer”

“He has been drinking?”

“Y-yeah” Bella studders, “Like he isn’t an alcoholic but he just seems miserable” 

“Ugh, he’s done it sophomore year” i say, “we got in a fight and we didn’t talk for a week and Josh Norris was his housemate at the time so he called me to come talk to him. When I got there Quinn acted like he didn’t want me there but ended up letting me in. It’s different this time. I don’t know what to say to him” I explain

“So, Jack?”

“We kissed over christmas and I told him” I say, “I don’t regret telling him”

“Well do you regret kissing Jack?”

“I don’t know. Sometimes but then I see Quinn act like this and then I don’t”, Bella doesn’t reply just nods, “I know I’m in the wrong but I don’t think Jack would act like this. Or Josh”

“Josh?” she questions

“I found out he loved me while I was dating Quinn in uni, so now I keep wondering what that could have been like” Bella nods

“Damn girlfriend, that’s heavy. But I don’t think you should get caught up in all of this. Every relationship is different behind closed doors. You never know, Josh could have been worse” she advises me. I just nod watching the group on the sidewalk chatting while Quinn sits on the curb.

“Ask Brock to put him in the car, I’ll take him home” I say

“Are you sure?” she says and I nod, “Brock and I can ride back with you if you need”

“I’ll be alright”

Bella gets out and makes her way over to her boyfriend, asking him to put him in my passenger seat. I watch Brock and Andrey make their way over to Quinn, each grabbing a shoulder, lifting him to his feet and basically dragging him to my car. They put him in the car and Bella appears. She grabs the seatbelt and reaches over to hand it to me. 

“Y/n?” Quinn asks and I look at a worried Brock

“Bells and I can jump in” he offers

“She already offered, It’s okay”

“Brock, get in. There is no way Y/n and the twins are dragging him up to bed” Elias says behind the huddle in his sassy tone. Bella looks at me for approval

“Okay, yes get in” I say not even realizing the good point Elias just made. 

“Did you choose me?” Quinn says drunkenly looking over at me using his shoulder to keep his head up. Bella and Brock both hop in the back. I choose to ignore his question

“Everyone in?” I ask awkwardly

I start the car and drive towards my place. Bella tries to lessen the tension in the car, and asks: “So what are we naming them?”, Quinn however bets me to answering her

“Carson Eleanora” he answers and I look at him confused for a second before looking back at the road

“That’s beautiful” Bella says

“What’s the big guys name?” Brock says confirming that I wasn’t the only one that thought Quinn said it as in the girls first and middle name

“Carson” he says

“Oh!! So Carson and Eleanora?” Bella checks

“Carson for a boy, we don’t know the girl yet” I say and now the whole car is confused. 

We turn into my parking area and Brock speaks up, “You to go in, I’ll grab Quinn” he says. I tell him the code to the apartment building and make my way up with Bella. 

Bella and I enter the apartment and walk into the nursery. Bella looks around the room smiling. “It’s so cute” she says 

“A work in progress” I reply, “One crib has been a pain in the ass, but that doesn’t have to be ready for a long time. And I don’t know how to color the walls, or furniture”

“I thought you guys went shopping a lot though?”

“Yeah, we have lots of clothes for them” I say chuckling, “They will be in my room in there bassinet for a while though so I’m not too worried” I continued and we hear a scuffle in the hall followed by a loud yell

“FUCK OFF BOESER!” Bella and I’s eyes go wide to the sound of Quinn’s voice, “I’M NOT GOING IN THERE! SHE DOESN’T WANT ME” We hear again as we make our way to the hallway. Bella opens the door just in time for us to see Quinn’s fist connect with Brock’s cheek.

“Brock, no!” Bella says after Brock pushes Quinn hard to the floor

“What the fuck Quinn” Brock says, and I make my way into the hall, and I look over to Brock, “He refuses to go in there”. I shake my head and bend down to Quinn. 

“Please Quinn, just come in the apartment” I plead not even realizing I was crying

“No, you didn’t cho-” he slurs but I finish

“Yes, Quinn I choose you now please get off the floor” I say trying to just get him into my apartment. Quinn nods and tries to get up himself but stumbles a bit

“Brock” Bella says hinting for him to help and he leans down helping Quinn up onto his feet and into the apartment. I follow along close behind, opening the door to the bedroom.

“You sure?” Bella says as Brock stops and looks at me. 

“Yeah, I’ll probably be up all night anyway” 

Brock enters our room and set Quinn on the bed. Quinn falls asleep almost immediately after realizing he was laying on a bed. Brock comes out and sits on the couch, Bella and I sit on the couch with him. 

“I don’t really feel right leaving you” Brock says and Bella nods

“Why don’t you come to our place” Bella suggest

“Really guys, I am okay” I say 

When they leave a little bit later Bella tells me to call if I need anything and left. I layed on the couch the rest of the night thinking about everything tonight, Quinn, the babies, their names, what I was going to do if this is how he is going to continue drinking when he is upset, what I’m going to do in the morning. I finally drift off to sleep around 4am. 

My sleep wasn’t long at all as I forgot to turn my alarm off. The alarm sounded at 9am and I decided to get up and make myself tea. As I stand over with the tea pot I try to decide if I should wake up Quinn or let him rest. After the water is hot enough I pour it into a mug and toss in a tea bag. I then decided to open the door and check in on Quinn. 

I open the door as quietly as possible and peek in. I’m facing the feet of the bed and can see Quinn’s form still laying in the sheets. I back up to shut the door, when “I’m awake” from Quinn’s mouth fills the room. I make my way over to the side Quinn was facing and sit on the edge of the bed then set my cup on the bed side table. 

“You feeling okay?” I ask, “I’ll go get you Tylenol and water”

“No, it’s okay” he says and I reach my hand down and run it through his hair

“I’m so sorry Quinn”

“Don’t apologize” he says, “I just want to know if it was revenge or something” 

“Oh course not Quinn” I say slightly offended

“Then why did you tell me?”

“Because I’d rather you find out now then 4 years later. I thought I owed you that” 

“You don’t owe me anything” he says, “Not when I owe you the whole fucking world”

“Quinn, please” I say and he sits up on the bed, “Can I drive you home? Or to Brock’s so you can apologize to him?”

“Why?” he asks confused

“Brock’s? You clocked him last night” 

“Shit!” Quinn says quietly, “Yeah sure” 

I get dressed and grab the keys to my car and we head over to Brock and Bella’s apartment. The ride was silent until I pulled in front of their place. “You're not coming in?” Quinn says as he notices I did not move.

“No, Brock said he would drive you back. But um- Quinn?” I say and Quinn just looks at me waiting for me to continue, “I think you should give up on me” 

Quinn just nods his head and opens the door. “I’m still going to be in your life Y/n” he says hoping out, “I’ll be fine, just please. I’m begging you, not Jack” he says, shutting the door behind me and walking into Brock and Bella’s.

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It’s Nice to Have a Friend: We Tell the Truth (Chapter Four)

Authors Note: There is some retcon of the Gwen storyline, she won’t die. Solely because I am a selfish girl and can’t put Peter through that. 

Pairing: TASM! Peter Parker x Reader

Content Warning: Flash Thompson, attempted sex talk from readers mom, bloodied nose, underaged drinking, fist fight, mentions of throwing up. I’m sure I forgot something, if you catch anything let me know!

As always please like and reblog!! It helps the writers an insane amount. Love you guys!

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(Senior Year)

For the rest of the school year Peter put (Y/N) in the forefront of his mind, walking her to and from school and even to work when she started shifts at the coffee shop a few blocks over. Always lingering around a couple minutes later, only one person there knew how Spiderman liked his coffee before patrol. 

“Here you go Petey..”

“You make me sound like a common household pet.” He laughs, sipping the hot liquid. 

“I was thinking more of a common house spider.” She joked low enough for only them to hear. “I can go back to calling you tiger.”

Peter pondered the ultimatum for a moment before his phone flashed violently.

“Gwen or work?” She nodded to his backpack where the alter ego hid.

“Work..” He stood still for a minute before looking at his phone, before jumping to his feet. 

“After this I have to go to Gwen’s for dinner and then I’ll be here to walk you home.” He rushed out, as he slung the bag over his shoulder.

“Don’t do that! I’m walking you home.” He argued seeing her mouth open to talk as he flung himself out of the door. 

Peter Parker was a jack of many trades; who knew juggling was one.

After his nights patrolling when (Y/N) didn’t need a walk home from work, the route to the rows of townhouses didn’t seem like such a long swing back suddenly. Which may have been why he found himself waking up in her bedroom more often than not. Wanting, no needing, to see both of his girls. He had them on a schedule: Fight whatever this week's robotics project gone wrong was, see Gwen, give her at least two hours and then make it to (Y/N)’s. Which usually by the time he got there he was dragging himself through the cracked window; finding a place to rest on the bed next to her. He never intended to fall asleep as long as he would, for the last three months Peter was having what May fondly called ‘the never ending sleepover.’ He hoped Gwen understood that he wasn’t trying to skip out on her. He hardly ever found himself waking up in Gwen’s room anymore, maybe she didn’t mind. After all, it was her who was insistent Peter fix their relationship. 

It was a Friday when he woke up on (Y/N)’s floor, having rolled off the bed at some point in the night. He laid on his back as long as he could, his hands tossing his recently cut hair as he stared up at (Y/N). Her arm dangling off the bed, her face pressed into the side of the mattress- that’s definitely how he ended up on the floor. His hand reached for hers, his fingertips tickling her palm; she stirred in the creaky bed rolling towards the wall. Peter checked the time on his phone, jumping to his feet. He slid his shoes on, shoving his suit into the backpack before he headed next door.

“You’ve got thirty minutes to meet Gwen and I outside, you better start moving your ass.” Peter says ruffling her hair, pressing his nose to the side of her head as a sweet gesture.

“Get out, and bring me some of May’s fresh orange juice please.”

“She’d have my ass if I didn’t” 

Peter made his way downstairs, jumping the last few steps. 

“Morning Mrs. (Y/L)!” Peter greeted (Y/N)’s mother coming in the front door from her late night shift. 

“Peter, nice to know you were on guard all night.” Bella laughed awkwardly at her daughter's friend. Peter saluted her with a laugh as he moved out the door, rushing next door. 

Upstairs (Y/N) stood looking in her bathroom mirror as she brushed her teeth, her hair clipped back to keep it from her face as she spit the toothpaste into the sink. She left her hair clipped back pulling a few pieces out to look a bit more presentable. (Y/N) rubbed under eyes, as she walked to her room to get dressed looking in her closet coming across an old baggy shirt of Peter’s. She slid the shirt over her head and tucked the front into her jeans. Bringing the fabric to her nose inhaling his scent, her eyes closing with a sigh before heading out of her bedroom.

“Peter was in an awful big rush this morning to get out the front door.” Bella said, sipping her coffee as her daughter came into the kitchen grabbing her backpack from the chair. 

“You caught each other? Tell me you’re not gonna scold me for having Peter out of everyone in my bedroom. He’s been sleeping here almost every night for the last three months.”

“Yeah why is that?”

(Y/N) shrugged, not wanting to sell out she had been the one nursing Spider-man back to health.

“Making up for lost time. Is it a problem? I can ask him to stop.”

“No, no I know you’re smart. And I’m glad you’re fixing your relationship, I just want to know that you’re being safe and smar-”

“No! No it’s not like that. He has a girlfriend! Peter and I are just..it’s complicated. But we’re not like that with each other.” (Y/N) defends, her face burning looking at her mother. She couldn’t help but wonder if Peter had been getting the same talk from May. “I don’t want to talk about this. I don’t need the sex talk I’m good I’m eighteen years old momma. I know how it works.” (Y/N) says, closing her backpack and looking at her mom giving her a thumbs up.

“Great, good, noted. I’m going to bed.”

(Y/N) kissed her mom’s cheek, heading for the front door seeing Gwen sitting on Peter’s stoop. 

“And he gave me thirty minutes to get out of here.” (Y/N) laughs. 

Gwen smiled at (Y/N), nodding at her comment. “Sounds like him.” She says standing up intertwining her arm with (Y/N)’s, who looked at their intertwined arms; shocked at the contact. It wasn’t until earlier in senior year that her and Gwen had started to hang out exclusively without Peter. She knew it wasn’t the physical contact that bothered her, instead it was the green little monster a part of her held against Gwen. She loved Gwen, they were friends- it’s normal to be jealous of friends, right?

“Are you coming to my party tonight?” 

(Y/N) tilted her head before realizing, tonight was Gwen’s valedictorian party. “I know graduation is still a few weeks away but my mom is insistent that the family take off and celebrate in a cabin upstate after so I just want to have it before.” Gwen rambled, her arm clutching (Y/N)’s forearm. “Say you’ll come please, please. I won’t stop..I’ll get Peter to beg too.” 

“Okay, okay!” (Y/N) laughed, grabbing her arm back. “I’ll be there just do not let me fall victim to Pete’s puppy eyes.” Clapping her hands together, Gwen let out a squeal turning to look at Peter who was wandering out of the front door two to go cups in hand.

“You beat me!” He says “You were half asleep when I left. How?”

(Y/N) goes to open her mouth, Gwen tilting her head at Peter. “When you left? You slept at her house?”

“It’s not like that!” 

The two yelled in perfect sync, Gwen let out a laugh nodding. “I didn’t think it was. I just…wasn’t expecting that.” 

Wonder sat in amongst the three, trading looks amongst each other. Did any of them realize what was actually happening? In the last year it was hard to deny the fact that Peter and (Y/N)’s feelings had grown for each other, and Gwen Stacy was not stupid. She was number one in their class after all. Gwen smiled, her hands wrapping around (Y/N)’s forearm again pulling her friend into her side, Peter admired the girls starting to walk up the street with them. 

“I got (Y/N) to agree to come to the party tonight! It’s gonna be so fun, my family is gonna be gone and…”

She hadn’t meant to tune Gwen out, she had gotten caught up looking at the shoes Peter was wearing. They were an old pair of red converse (Y/N) had drawn all over sophomore year, on the white tip of the shoe sat her first initial a poorly scribbled black heart next to it. How long could she really wait? She had spent the last five years waiting, and not to be dramatic- but anymore may kill her. Peter must have caught her staring as they stood at the crosswalk, his foot nudging her’s with a playful grin on his lips. 

This felt wrong, it felt dirty, Gwen was right there and she was here playing footsie with her boyfriend. (Y/N) zoned back in on Gwen, nodding as she had finished her ramble about the party. “It sounds great, I’m looking forward to it.” 

Once the trio had reached the doors of Midtown high they had rushed in their different directions, not after Peter and Gwen traded a parting kiss that made (Y/N)’s stomach plummet. Soon Gwen heads for her calculus class and (Y/N) makes her way to chemistry. Peter trailing behind her like a puppy dog, his fingers nudging at her wrist, wishing he could hold her hand. 

“You okay? You seem kind of off.” Peter said as they made their way to the back of the lab, sitting at the table. (Y/N) thought for a minute “It feels..I feel bad. Like I have this neverending  icky feeling in my stomach.” 

“I’m not sure I’m catching on.” 

Peter thought for a minute, watching the classroom fill with other students. “Oh.” Realization hit him like a ton of bricks. He pursed his lips together looking at his notebook in front of him, his fingers twirling the pen around them lost in his own conflict. Finally bringing her eyes to meet hers.

“It’s just different now. Knowing we both..” (Y/N) looked hesitant on saying the words out loud, afraid their peers would hear. If they did it would surely be all over the school by lunch. “...love each other but we have awful timing, and there’s Gwen and. And she’s so sweet, I can’t help but regret every touch or look between us.” She sighs rambling in a low voice, not wanting to end up the hot new topic of their classmates.

“I know I’m sorry I put you in this position. I thought clearing the air would..I don’t know help me figure out what I wanted to do. But I honestly just haven’t had the time.”

(Y/N)’s hand came up to hold his shoulder, her thumb rubbing slowly. It was her duty to comfort Peter, he had a bad habit of being too hard on himself. None of this was his fault, but expressing that wouldn’t change the guilt he felt, but her role was to lighten the load the best she could.

 “It’s not fair to either of you. She gives me this look and I can’t help but wonder if she-”

“Knows?” (Y/N) cut him off, Peter looked at her nodding his head. 

“If she did, I’m sure she’d tell us.”

“Ms. (Y/L), Mr. Parker, is there something you want to share with the class?” Mr. Cosgrove questioned having, evidently, started class while the two were deep in discussion. (Y/N) shook her head, dropping her hand off Peter’s shoulder. “Good back to what I was saying.”

From the next lab table over, Peter felt the glare of Flash Thompson staring him down. Had it not been for his spidey sense he would have sworn there was a red dot firmly planted on the back of his head. 

Throughout the rest of the day everything moved smoothly, (Y/N) and Gwen had their free period together sitting together in the courtyard flipping through graduation things (Y/N) had agreed to help Gwen on.

“I don’t want to weird you out, and I’m sure Peter would flip if he were here, but Flash is staring you down.”

(Y/N) looked over her shoulder acknowledging her sworn enemy since that day in December. She had never tried to hate him too much, there was no telling what the guy’s home life was like- besides, he brought her Peter.

“Yeah I don’t know what that’s about he’s been doing that everytime he sees me today.” She says turning back to Gwen. Working on a rough draft for the banner, she passed the design off to Gwen for approval. “It’s weirding me out.”

“Maybe he…finds you attractive.” Gwen looked up at (Y/N), awaiting her reaction. (Y/N) stuck her tongue out with a fake gag, causing the two girls to burst into laughter. “I always thought he had a thing for you?” (Y/N) asked

“Yeah I tried that, glad I got out of it. But is there..anyone?” 

Subtle Gwen, really subtle. 

(Y/N) casted her eyes down in response, breaking into an awkward laugh. “Oh my god who?” Gwen pushed lightly, the situation felt like (Y/N) was standing on the edge of the cliff, if Gwen pushed too hard (Y/N) might through herself over.

“No one special..just some guy that comes into my work.” 

She lied, but this was the way she could admit to Gwen and hopefully rid herself of the nervous stomach bile that built up in her throat everytime. 

“He’s sweet, and he keeps me company during my breaks even when he’s..busy..himself. He constantly keeps me entertained, there is not a moment where I’m not laughing around him. We’ve become really good friends, he remembers everything about me. Brings me my favorite candies without me asking, tells me I look nice. He just understands me.” “As well as Peter?” 

(Y/N) nodded, her cheeks felt like they were on fire. “Just like Peter.”

Silence washed over the table, it wasn’t a tense one; it was comfortable. (Y/N) closed her eyes taking in the sunlight, before the sound of a cardboard box hit the table ruined her moment. Opening her eyes to a box of sour patch kids resting in front of her, Peter’s lips pressed to Gwen’s forehead. 

“All for me?” (Y/N) laughs while opening the box, popping a blue candy in her mouth. “Call it a bribe for keeping your promise to come tonight.” Peter teased, reaching into the box taking a couple red ones. “And because you’ve been pretty sour today.”

(Y/N) mocked a laugh, “Bite me.”

Peter tilted his head playfully contemplating the proposition Gwen laughed, taking one out of his hand, chewing on it as she finalized the banner design. (Y/N) half expected her to start telling Peter all about the mystery boy. Out her work crush and tell Peter all about, well; himself. But it never happened instead she immediately started planning when they should meet up and start on the banner. 

“Principal Conway says it’ll feel more authentic if it’s handmade. But I know he has a back-up one already prepared.” She complains. “I have to go dress shopping tomorrow so how does Sunday sound?” 

“Perfect, can we do it at my house?” She asks “It’s just-”

“Don’t worry! We can do it there. Thank you for agreeing to do this, you're a great friend.” 

(Y/N) smiled and squeezed Gwen’s arm sweetly before making her way back to the building. “I gotta get to art.” She says ruffling Peter’s hair as she passes by, before disappearing into the crowd.

“Lookie here, Puny Parker has two girls all over him.” Now there was a nickname Peter had not heard in ages. 

“I thought you left that back in middle school Flash?”

“Yeah, I thought you did the same thing to (Y/N).”

Peter stood up quickly, what was this dude’s problem today? The lunch table jarred under him as he stood to Flash’s height. Flash was no longer the short, asshole he was in middle school. Instead, he was a tall dickhead. “Keep her name out of your mouth.” He said blankly, staring Flash in the eye who could only give a smile that held something mischievous behind it. 

“Mhm, I’ll see you tonight at Gwen’s? I have a story to tell everyone.” He said, whispering the last part under his breath before leaving for the field house. 

“You invited that dude?”

“My mom made the invitations.” Gwen looked up at her boyfriend, her hand pulling him back to sit next to her. “Pay him no mind, help me with this list.” Peter nodded, the only thing lingering in the back of his mind was what story Flash wanted to tell so badly

“Gwen’s killing you for making us both late!” (Y/N)’s voice came out louder than usual as she talked over the wind gusting past her and Peter as they swung from buildings. “We won’t be late, it is insanely faster this way! You’re the one who took forever to get ready!”

“Wow! Dated insult!”

Peter laughed as they landed with a thump on Gwen’s fire escape. “You look fine, stop worrying. Gwen isn’t gonna complain, you know that. She’s just happy you agreed to come” Peter says, reaching out tucking (Y/N)’s hair behind her ear, cradling her face. 

“Pretty girl..come on.” 

He trailed his own hands through his hair, pushing Gwen’s window open letting (Y/N) go in first. (Y/N) looked around at Gwen’s room, her fingers dragging over her desk as she picked up the framed photos. It looked similar to one she had framed in her room from the spring formal from Sophomore year, but in her place stood Gwen. 

“Don’t snoop.” Peter tsked at her, taking the photo from her hands, setting it down. 

“How do you not feel out of place here? They’re loaded Peter.”

“Ya get used to it.” He mumbled as he dusted himself off, and closed Gwens window. Shoving his backpack under the bed in case he needed to rush out. “C’mon it’s clear.” He says poking his head out of the door motioning her out behind her. The two snuck into the party, (Y/N) pulled self consciously at her dress looking around. 

“There you two are!”

 Gwen greets (Y/N) first, pulling her into a hug, before sharing a kiss with Peter. “I didn’t see you guys come in..I didn’t see you guys come in.” She repeats, looking at Peter with wide eyes. “I know the city never sleeps but can we not do the..spider..stuff tonight?” Her plea came out in a whisper. 

“Yes ma’am” 

(Y/N) looked around the penthouse, most of their graduating class having shown up. “Missy!” (Y/N) yelled, waving at her walking over. “Hey..what’s up?” (Y/N) asked, sitting next to her on the couch. “Nothing really, Conor is talking about the battery project he’s working on for physics.” Missy responded as Peter followed over, sitting next to (Y/N). 

“Oh yeah I saw that at the science fair, it's really cool. You made those- uh- little tyke cars run on a potato battery!” Peter joins the conversation. He passes his drink off to (Y/N) letting her drink on it, his eyes scanning the room. Flash Thompson was against a wall talking with his friend group as he and Peter locked eyes. Peter stared at him down, and Flash’s lips curled into a smile that let Peter know something was about to happen. 

“You okay?” 

(Y/N)’s voice pulled Peter out of his head, he looked at his friend before nodding. Something bad was about to happen but he couldn’t tell what it was. This feeling wasn’t coming from his spider-sense, this was coming from somewhere deeper, his stomach twisted as he stood up. Flash pushed off the wall walking to the center of the room. Before Peter could reach him Flash was already standing on the coffee table getting everyone's attention. (Y/N) moved alongside Peter, standing behind him enough to see over his shoulder.

“I have something I wanna say!” Flash yells over the crowd making eye contact with Peter and (Y/N), before looking back over the crowd. (Y/N) swallowed hard her hand grabbing Peter’s shirt.

“Gwen Stacy is, out of all of us, the only one who deserves this. She has gone out of our way to help most of us, even you Parker. You're her favorite charity work.” He jokes taking any moment to dog Peter he can. 

“Don’t forget about tutoring you!” (Y/N) yells at him thinking it’s all light hearted, the crowd laughs even Flash lets out a breathy laugh.

“She saved your reputation (Y/L)! Got you all buddy buddy with Parker again.” Flash feigns shock. “Which oh my god brings me to my next thing.” Flash laughs looking at Gwen. “Get down, you’re drunk, you're making a fool of yourself.” Gwen sounds as if she’s talking to a toddler as she attempts to talk him down off the coffee table. 

“Your boyfriend and new best friend..are in love with each other.” 

The party falls quiet. “That’s right! Peter and (Y/N)..” Flash hiccuped through a laugh. “Are in love..have been for years. Which makes sense once you think about it Parkers a bitch and so is (Y/N).”

“I’m gonna fucking kill you.” Peter says, grabbing Flash off the table, throwing him to the ground. Flash recovered fast enough, landing a punch straight into Peter’s gut. The two boys moved around, throwing punches, everyone moving out of their way. 

“Stop it.” (Y/N) and Gwen said grabbing at them trying to break them up. Peter shoved Flash off of him, his nose bleeding. “Get off me.” Peter said, yanking his arm away from (Y/N)’s grip, the sheer force of his strength rocking her back into a group of girls. Their drinks spilling on her dress, Flash laughs, signaling the others to join in. 

“Babe.” Peter the slip comes out under his breath as he’s reaching down and pulling her up, seeing the tears on her cheeks. He goes to wipe them but hands pull her away from him. Gwen pulled (Y/N) away from Peter, shaking her head at him. 

“You are an insane person.” She says pushing past Flash as she escorts (Y/N) to her room. “Get out..the party is over! Everyone thank you for coming, please show yourselves out. Expect you Peter.”

Gwen and (Y/N) disappear into her room, the blonde sits her friend down on the bed pulling her into her side. “I’m sorry Gwen, I’m so sorry.” (Y/N) apologized as her friend held her closer, letting her cry. Saving her the embarrassment of crying in front of everyone. 

“Oh..you guys thought I was clueless.” Gwen laughs her head on (Y/N)’s. “I knew, I can’t be mad at something I was aware of.” Gwen laughs, wiping at her own eyes before wiping at (Y/N)’s. 

“You knew?”

“As someone who had the honor of knowing how Peter loves, and knowing what it’s like to love him. I knew the night you made up.” Gwen rubs her shoulder, pushing (Y/N)’s hair out of her face. “It’s all been really messy, but I’m going to England. After graduation I got this opportunity and I can’t pass it up. I was gonna tell Peter tonight after the party. I was gonna give him to you.” Gwen laughs teary eyed. “Kind of like a dog.” 

“He is a dog isn’t he?” (Y/N) laughed, her tears still pooling on her cheeks.

“Our dog.” Gwen says, she looked at the stained white dress. “Here I might have something that fits you.” Gwen stood up shuffling through her closet, pulling out some options 

“These are my cousins, you're about the same size. She left them when she slept over..if you wanna go change.”

(Y/N) nodded, grabbing a top and bottom before disappearing to the bathroom. Gwen had walked out to the living room, seeing Peter cleaning the mess up. “You owe her the biggest apology. That is embarrassing, you acted no better than Flash.” Gwen scolds Peter, her arms over her chest. 

“I don’t..I was gonna tell you.”

“No, not that. I knew! Okay, I knew all along. I see the way you look at her, it’s the same way you look at me Peter. You know who you want to be with, but aren’t gonna make the decision for yourself.” 

Gwen holds Peter’s hands in hers pulling him into a hug. Peter opens his mouth to speak to her, but Gwen pulls back looking at him. “I’m going to England..Oxford- I got the scholarship. So, I am no longer your girlfriend. I’m your best friend.” Gwen points down the hall towards her bedroom. 

“She is going to take over my role as girlfriend, no arguments. She is who you deserve to be with.”

Peter laughed, even in complete chaos Gwen had everything planned out. She wasn’t gonna let him mess this up again. “Take her home Peter, and apologize.” “I love you.” Peter says, pulling her in kissing her head. “I love you too Parker, go get her.”

The subway ride back to Forest Hills was quiet, (Y/N) and Peter both stayed quiet, the two of them not sure what to say. The quietness continued as they walked to their houses, Peter wrapped his arm around her holding her close. (Y/N) shrugged his arm off her shoulder as they sat on the stoop of May’s house, Peter sat next to her his eyes admiring her. 

“I’m sorry. For acting out like that, I’m not embarrassed by you. I never have been, I never will be.” He says, his hand swallowing hers as she holds it on his lap. “I love you. I'm sorry for making you wait” 

(Y/N) took her hand away, her head falling onto his lap resting there, his hand found its way to her hair. “I know you’re not. You don’t owe me anything Tiger.” She laughs, lifting her head up looking at him. Peter smiled pressing his nose to her forehead, (Y/N) laughed, closing her eyes letting out a nervous breath.

“Will you..finally, be my girlfriend?” Peter asked, his voice shaking.

“I thought you’d never ask.” (Y/N) grinned, looking up at him. Peter kissed her head, his hands cupping her face. (Y/N) let out a happy squeal as Peter dropped his head down bringing her into a deep kiss. She gave in kissing him back, her hands holding his forearms in the kiss.

From inside the house May and Bella looked at their children, before closing the curtain.

“Took them long enough.” Bella laughs, joining May on the couch. “Oh I know.”

“Ben would be so proud of him, but also upset it took him all of high school.” May laughs while sipping her wine. 

“How long before they’re married?” May asks, nudging Bella with her knee. “I hate to think, we’d need to pull a few more late shifts to pay that.”

Outside, Peter and (Y/N) lounge on the stoop, her head back in his lap. The couple looking up at the stars, falling victim to a butterfly effect that somehow ended them up in a similar position the night they realized they loved each other while camping in the backyard. 

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This is it! We have one more chapter to go before it’s all over I can’t believe it. I am however encouraging you guys who are in love with Peter and y/n (who needs a nickname for this series) to come chat about them with me in my inbox! Or just Peter in general: headcanons, blurbs, anything I am all ears.

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[worst-ships-poll]

competition info:

current bracket (will be updated as we go):

complete list of character names and their respective fandom under the readmore below.

submissions:

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poll info:

this poll is literally to cause tumblr drama because I’m bored. feel free to start discourse in tags or replies. I’m not a mod of my posts and I’m not monitoring my posts. do your thing.

reiterating this poll is for fun, and while I’ll try to keep it organized, I am not going out of my way to make a tumblr poll bracket I’m doing in my free time 100% bias-free or 100% optimized.

I reserve the right to add or remove ships to the initial bracket at my discretion, or to not answer all asks, or whatever else makes it more fun, short of actually changing results (I will let the people decide.) basically, if you have a problem with something about the way this competition is run, I don’t care.

I feel like this should go without saying but I do ascribe to the idea that some ships are inherently morally bad and deserve to be hated. I won’t post about all my opinions on the ships, but if a ship is predatory/offensive/has bigoted shippers I will join in calling it really bad, and I will not be accepting or starting anti/pro-shipper discourse here. it’s 2023, grow up and stop shipping incest.

polls will be posted in batches from their respective level on the bracket and will last a week before moving on to the next set. i.e. all of the first vs. polls will be posted at the same time until a week passes and they’re done, and then the winning ships will be noted and we’ll move on to the second level of the bracket and all of those polls will be up for a week, etc.

posts will be tagged via batches (”batch 1“, “batch 2″, etc), ships, and fandom.

I will be trying to seed it properly based on ship prestige, number of submissions, and common sense. if you have an issue with it after all of that, send a text form complaint to 1-800-YOUR-MOM to file necessary feedback.

full list of ships and characters with their fandoms and rankings:

(struck out listings are ships that have lost in the bracket so far)

1. Dean Winchester/Castiel from Supernatural

2. Kylo Ren/Rey from the Star Wars sequel trilogy

3. Ciel Phantomhive/Sebastian Michaelis from Kuroshitsuji/Black Butler

4. Midoriya Izuku/Katsuki Bakugo from My Hero Academia

5. Thor Odinson/Loki Laufeyson from Marvel/MCU

6. Keith Kogane/Lance McClain from Voltron Legendary Defender

7. Merlin/Arthur Pendragon from Merlin BBC

8. Derek Hale/Stiles Stilinski from Teen Wolf

9. Jiang Cheng/Wei Wuxian from Mo Dao Zu Shi/The Untamed

10. Pannacotta Fugo/Giorno Giovanna from JoJo���s Bizarre Adventure: Golden Wind

11. Sam WInchester/Gabriel from Supernatural

12. Draco Malfoy/Harry Potter from you know what

13. Sam Winchester/Dean Winchester from Supernatural

14. Tony Stark/Steve Rogers from Marvel/MCU

15. Axel/Roxas from Kingdom Hearts

16. Edward Cullen/Bella Swan from Twilight

17. Onceler/Onceler from The Lorax

18. GeorgeNotFound/Dream from Minecraft Youtubers fandom

19. Rhaenyra Targaryen/Daemon Targaryen from House of the Dragon

20. Kaeya Alberich/Diluc Ragnvindr from Genshin Impact

21. Alina Starkov/The Darkling from Grishaverse/Shadow and Bone

22. Tony Stark/Stephen Strange from Marvel/MCU

23. Blackbeard/Stede Bonnet from Our Flag Means Death

24. Uchiha Sasuke/Haruno Sakura from Naruto

25. Dirk Strider/Jake English from Homestuck

26. Dabi/Hawks from My Hero Academia

27. Phoenix Wright/Miles Edgeworth from Ace Attorney

28. Catra/Adora from She-Ra and the Princesses of Power

29. Sans/Toriel from Undertale

30. Jack Zimmermann/Eric “Bitty” Bittle from OMG Check, Please!

31. Obi-Wan Kenobi/Satine Kryze from Star Wars: The Clone Wars

32. Kai/Lloyd Garmadon from Ninjago

rankings was done via a combination of counting the number of submissions and balancing fandom/ship popularity and/or exposure. ship names for the bracket image were found via websearching, I did my best to find accurate or relevant ship names for all of them when applicable.

[vhunny]

I have some creepypasta ocs I would love to share with you guys

First is epione.. when she was alive her name was Isabel but mainly called izzy! She forgot her name after a demon forced her soul up into hell so she called herself Epione or hells angel

The next is bella the slaughter, sense I learned nina is not actually Jeff's fangirl just basically Jeff's rival I made bella course bella read some of the creepypasta stories ben drown was her favorite but she never simped for any of them. She surprisingly never came across jeff the kills. After killing her parents and 3 of her bullies in school (she actually had 5 bullies but killed the 3 that fucked up her life sorta) she was in the mansion and actually hated jeff due to hearing Jane and Jeff's past. That stopped after well a long while. Bella has a carved smile but it's stitched, it never healed but it's to try and keep her mouth wounds closed which they are never completely closed. The stitches will like teeth when I draw her lol but their not.

I do ship my ocs with creepypastas such as eyeless jack and jeff so if you have a issue with that just don't look at my content

My favorite creepypastas are eyeless, sally and im starting to enjoy others like homicidal Lui

[odettecarotte]

Re: the Kristen Stewart Rolling Stone shoot

It's giving JD Samson. I guess even the gays can have a lil Y2K revival.

(I haven't even read the article. I am purely responding to the images before I go to work LOL.)

The #tag comments begging/joking about Kristen going on T, in her response to her own longing for "a little mustache, a happy trail" are very understandable. You all want to push her gender fuckery from fantasy into reality, from metaphor into the concrete, into what Saketopouou calls "the more and more" of gender OVERWHELM and of course that is HOT!!!

But even before Bella starts microdosing testosterone (or maybe she's already started, more power to her!), let us just pause, and fully appreciate this image in this moment. What if we take KStew at her word? What if this photshoot truly is "the gayest thing ever," in the grand tradition of Deep Lez aesthetics and a certain flavor of lesbian gender (which could never be TERFy because it is so clearly distinct from cis women's genders, is a creative response to different kinds of pain points, both fucking with and getting fucked over).

It reminds me of this passage, quoted in Sexuality Beyond Consent:

"I was female-assigned at birth," writes the queer theorist Kathryn Bond Stockton. "Though [my own sense was that] I was a boy… mistaken for a girl. And though I was, to my mind, the ultimate straight man seeking normally feminine women, I turned out a "lesbian," against my will-though in accord with my desires. As for my girlfriend she grew up, to her mind, normally feminine, as a rural Mormon raised in rural Utah. In her twenties, after her male fiancé died, after she didn't go on a mission, after she walked across the US for nuclear disarmament, she met lesbians and wished she could be one, so cool did they seem to her. But, she figured, she wasn't a lesbian. Long story short: I didn't want the sign ["lesbian"] but was pierced by it; she quite wanted it but didn't think she'd gain it. We have [both] been dildoed by th[at] sign. We've been pleasured by it, as it's come inside us-I've had to try to take it like a man. (2015)

Close up on Kristen Stewart on the cover of Rolling Stone magazine. She's rubbing her clit underneath a jock strap. Read Sarah Tomasin Fonseca's essay in "It Came From the Closet" for a little foray into the erotics of jacking off into stolen male underwear. A truly young and otherwise disempowered dyke might steal underwear from a male relative, now we can buy what we like at the store, but the relationality is always there. Although the jock might get the most attention, Kristen is also wearing a pointelle thong in pure white cotton from Cou Cou Intimates, a brand which profits from Millennials sexualizing our girlhoods. They advertise to me on Instagram and I get skin shivers at the ability to choose, buy back and own the thong versions of underpants we wore even before men in AIM chatrooms asked us our bra sizes (when we were 11). And Kristen is wearing this delicate piece of panty in the men's locker room.

Part of the power of dyke sociality and sexuality is exclusivity. A "woman's" right to refusal can mean prioritizing other dykes, and asserting the irrelevance of straight men. And yet, in the realm of the sexual unconscious, we all know about each other. We all must deal with each other. In the words of Avgi Saketopoulou, we are all acting ON each other.

Much as the fetish clothing in the gay male leather scene comes from the uniforms of the armed forces, police, and working class, before it is transformed and inducted into delightful and perverted hiérarchies, Kristen plays with sartorial signals which might have their base in other genders, but which she uses to construct a gorgeous dyke existence.

The juxtaposition with men, not just with masculine trappings or locations, which are more easily taken over, was unsettling for me! I was scared for her! The image of her on the floor, mouth open: She's On Our Backs! But she's not, she's on the cover of Rolling Stone, the largest subscriber base is probably white Gen X men. Kristen on the floor lies in both the power and powerlessness in non-normative dyke sexuality. She's wearing an outfit that might make more sense in a leathermen bar -- decadent black leather vest, exposing jock strap -- in front of an objectified Black man. Who is he, and who is he to her? (Who is he to the dudes who subscribe to Rolling Stone?) He is jacked, with sweat (or more likely oil) artfully dripping down his washboard abs to the visible bulge in his gym shorts. A leather bar is a place to find danger, but this man is not at the leather bar. Together, they are in the men's locker room, a dangerous place for a queer or a woman. However, they seem disinterested in each other and Kristen is not afraid. She's skinny and milky (a weakling in many genders) and sitting like a neurodivergent queer, doing "hysterical clowning" with her knees up and posture hunched in front of a mirror in the men's locker room, next to a faceless white man with perfect posture and impossibly large biceps, and she also doesn't look afraid.

Her bangs have been cut with blunt scissors, messed up and sweaty. Nothing says queer like deliberately fucked up at home haircut. Finger in mouth, which reads submissive in straighter settings, but in queer orality, its giving top (if not dom) energy.

OK gotta go to work now, just wanted to blast off some associations before work!!!

[hmspogueobx]

Everything to me (Paul Lahote)

Chapter Eleven: Made for it

"So how often do we do these bonfire parties?" I whisper in Leah's ear as we walk out towards the blazing fire. Leah lets out a snort.

"Apparently all the time. But my mom said this time Billy's gonna tell the tribe's story. Like a sort of initiation for all the newer pack members."

Now I'm really excited. I've heard the stories before from Uncle Harry, but not since I became a wolf and knew they were real. Leah and I take a seat beside Paul and Jared. I try to jack a hotdog from the pile they have between them, but my hand is swatted away by Jared.

"Get your own hotdog women!" He declares.

"Oh I'm sorry, I didn't know all 30 of these were for you!" I sass back, knocking him over and swiping one while he's down.

Leah nudges me and I grab a hotdog for her thinking that's what she wants, but when she doesn't take it from me I look and see her gaze fixed on something. Or someone. Jacob has come strolling in with none other than Bella Swan. I start to move towards her in the hopes of getting rid of her; she already controls most of our lives at this point, she has no right to be here too. This is sacred stuff. I'm stopped by a sharp look from Sam.

"I told Jake he could bring her. Sit your ass back down little one."

I shuffle backwards and take a seat between Paul's legs. Paul leans down and plants a kiss on the top of my head. I feel his chest rumble as he laughs.

"Just listen to the story, feisty." And I'm swept away by the deep majesty of Billy Blacks voice.

The following weeks pass pretty uneventfully. We patrol, we eat some delicious meal that Emily and I make, we sit outside Bella's window all night, we repeat. The only out of the ordinary thing is when I'm patrolling with Jake one night and I see in his thoughts that Bella broke her hand punching him in his face. He won't be living that one down for a while. My new nickname for him is hardhead. It's then that he decides to ask me to come with him to Bella's graduation party. When I immediately refuse, he gives me massive puppy dog eyes and says he needs me for moral support, or to defend him in case Bella attacks again.

That's how I find myself climbing the steps of the Cullen's house, hairs standing on end at being in their home. Teenagers are crowding every inch of the place, dancing and having a good time. A part of me longs to join them and celebrate my nearing graduation, but I can't let me guard down with vampire stench in the air. Jacob's spotted Bella and we make our way through the crowd to her.

"What are you doing here?" She snaps.

"You invited me, remember?" Jake says calmly.

"Was my right hook too subtle for you? That was me uninviting you." She says bitterly.

I let out a snort at this and give Bella an uncommon smile, earning a smile back. "Serves him right. He was being a total ass."

"Thanks Luce, I was getting to that. I am really sorry though Bella. But I brought you something. A graduation present. Made it myself" At this, Jacob reaches in his pocket and pulls out a small hand carved russet wolf. It's a really sweet gesture.

"Wow, you made this? It's really pretty. Thanks." Bella then loses her focus and with an "I'll be right back" Walks away from us.

"Well isn't she a hoot." I mumble.

She joins the fortune teller leech on the stairs and the panicked look on her face calls to the protectors in us. Needing to know where the danger lies, we move to catch up to them.

"What's going on?" I ask.

"You're not going to Seattle?" Bella asks.

"No. They're coming here."

We're ushered into a private room on the top floor of the house. The blonde one who seems to be in charge introduces himself as Carlisle and the other two as Alice and Jasper.

"They'll be here in four days." Alice says.

"This could turn into a bloodbath." Carlisle mumbles, worried for his family.

"Who's behind it?" Edwards directs to Alice.

"I didn't see anyone I recognized... maybe one." Alice thinks back to her vision.

Recognition springs across Edwards' face as he sees into her mind. "I know his face. He's local. Riley Biers. He didn't start this."

"Whoever did's staying out of the action." Alice exclaims.

"He must be playing with the blind spots in your vision." Carlisle suggests.

"Either way, the army's coming and there aren't enough of us to protect the town."

They've been bantering back and forth so quickly that I was struggling to keep up, but that certainly got my attention.

"Excuse me?" I blurt out just as Jacob asks "Hold up, what damn army?"

Carlisle explains that an army of newborn vampires is coming after Bella. I have never been so nervous while also being so excited. This is what we're made for man. Jacob tells Bella exactly that, clearly trying to get a rise out of her.

"Look at us, getting along. This is what you wanted, remember?"

I look at Bella with a glint of mischief in my eye.

"This is gonna be fun."

[inkabelledesigns]

18 and 25 for the writer's ask meme!

25. What is a weird, hyper-specific detail you know about one of your characters that is completely irrelevant to the story?

For Searching the Depths, I had it in my old drafts that there was a secretary that knew Sammy had a sweet tooth and kept candy in her drawers specifically for him. It has absolutely no bearing on the plot whatsoever, but it's a really nice detail and it's still a part of the world lore, regardless of whether or not I choose to call it out again later.

18. Choose a passage from your writing. Tell me about the backstory of this moment. How you came up with it, how it changed from start to end. I'm going to put this under the cut, because it's a little long, but oh boy I have so much to say about this. I'm going to give you a dialogue exchange, also from Searching the Depths, for a chapter that's a long way from being released, something that happens within the ink realm that absolutely tears me to shreds.

Bella cried out. "I didn't know it was REAL! I-I never would've messed with it if I had, I swear-" 

"Kid, why are you apologizing? You did the right thing." Jack asked. 

"We don't know that!" Sammy hissed. "We had a plan, a way out! Now everything is thrown out the window! We have to start from square one and we're running out of time!" 

The more he barked, the more she shrank away from him, unable to meet his gaze. 

"Things weren't any more certain before and you know it." Jack crossed his arms. "Even with the same events repeating over and over again, Joey STILL had all the power. If it's not his story anymore, then he's not in control. And that gives us a fighting chance!" 

"Oh please, like that'll stop him." Sammy huffed. "From where I'm standing, our future is more uncertain than ever!" 

"Well then we'll just have to do our best and make it better, won't we?" Jack held his hands on his hips. "Sam, come on, look at her. She didn't mean for this, ease up will ya?"

"I'm with Jack on this one." Bendy piped up. "If we're really gonna play the blame game, I'm the winner here. None of this would be so dire if I hadn't gone meddling." 

"My lord-"

"No, Sam…it's true. I wouldn't even be your lord if I hadn't poked around where I shouldn't have." He sighed. "But I was a young idea back then, I had to grow up, make mistakes." He looked at Bella. "Same goes for you."

She sniffled as she looked back at him. "This is more than a mistake. This is a critical error. I can't- I helped do something even worse than what you were already going through, that's- it's unforgivable."

"...He tricked you, just like he did all of us." Jack looked at her sadly, connecting the dots. "Found someone desperate to exploit. You…at least you tried to make something good out of it. It's more than I can say."

This entire sequence is so near and dear to my heart. I have been trying to find the right way to introduce the concept of Bella finding out she's trapped in a story for the longest time, but one of the things that's changed within my drafts is that it's her draft of the story that she's in. I realized along the way that I'm not interested in writing the story of BATIM beat for beat, I wanna put my own spin on it and have some events that aren't in that original. So having a naive artist mess with the cycle without realizing she's affected real people on the inside until it's too late? Now you're talkin'! And now that the ink has claimed its newest victims, there's so much in store for everyone in its grasp.

This conversation was originally very exposition-y, some parts of it still are, with Bendy as the one to explain what's going on, but it's grown so much to be so much more. For one, Jack got an upgrade to main character trio status. He wasn't even in this scene originally. Two, Bendy and Sammy got a major characterization glow-up that I am so grateful for. I love how angry Sammy gets here, his frustration in this and the text that surrounds it is really fun to write. He's an interesting mix of his human self and his prophet self, and having Jack know how to navigate this angrier side of him is great. They bounce off of each other REALLY WELL. Also Bendy, gosh, Bendy has so much more to lose and so much he's already lost when it comes to this. He mirrors Henry's feelings of thinking this is all his fault (something something like father like son), but instead of trying to take on everything by himself, he's being open and honest about his feelings and relying on his allies for things he can't do alone. He's shown a remarkable amount of growth as I've gotten to know him more.

I can say the same about Bella. She's another character who sees herself as a responsible party and grows paralyzed when she's not sure how to fix it. She has a significant lack of belief in herself, which was important to show early on, but with these three by her side, she'll learn that she can be so much more. This is a character that life just kind of happens to, she feels no control over her situation, and it's true, there's a lot she doesn't have the power to do. But there's a lot she can do with what she has, and I can't wait for her to figure that out and forge her own path with these guys. She may be helpless and crying now, but that's not gonna be the case forever.

Thank you so much for the ask! This was the first one in my box, but I had to really think about it before I was ready to answer. I'm still accepting submissions for the writer's ask game if any of you wish to join me for some fun!