One vision recording; Queen x reader
*Author’s note*
Hey all okay so since I’m completing my final semester at college, I thought that since I’ve got some time off until tomorrow I’ll give you guys a special treat. For I have in store and ready to go TWO chapters of the Rock Angel at the ready. I just completed this one today and I’ve had the next one I’ll post up done for awhile.
Also I want to say that the song I have written for this specific chapter is just how I envisioned the song. I KNOW IT DOESN’T RHYME CAUSE I SUCK AT RHYMING THINGS. So please no hating on the song. And as inspiration for this chapter, for those who do know or may not know the One vision documentary, just have a watch of that and just imagine you reader-chan as being apart of the workings of One Vision. Happy reading my beauties :)
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*Sept. 2nd, 1985. Munich, Germany*
Seven months pregnant and here I am in Germany. Now I know most of you are probably thinking ‘Woman why aren’t you at home?’ ‘Didn’t you ask for maternity leave?’ And to answer that, yes I did but I only had a few more songs to record on my newest album ‘Mother Love’. I wanted to make sure my last album was perfect before my maternity leave in the next 2 months.
Right now my tummy looked like it was going to pop as Jack and I had taken the 9hr train ride from London to Munich since at this point I could no longer fly anymore without causing any harm to the baby.
I was told the Munich studio had better equipment and better sounding for what I was looking for in this album so here I am at the Musicland studios.
Currently I was in the process of recording my next song “Through and through (a Mother’s love is eternal)”.
“Alright Rock Angel, you said you wanted a full run of this song?” asked the sound engineer Mack.
“Yes. I wanna try to get this song done in one go. I’ve gotta meet with the Munich zoo by 6pm to do the filming shots Beck needs for the music video.”
“Alright, this is Rock Angel’s ‘Through and through’ take one. Full run through.” I heard Mike’s voice speak as I placed the headphones over my ears and I heard the vocalization of the soft choir before I heard the piano playing.
I counted the beats and began singing the song.
*First verse*
They say I am the mirror of the
Woman you once were.
But each day that passes, I forget day by day.
The feel of your arms, the smell of your hair,
And the presences of your warmth.
I’ve suffered the loss of you for oh too long.
For growing up,
Without a mother’s love and care.
I fear you’ve gone and left me,
At the moment of your untimely parture.
*Chorus*
A Mother’s love is eternal
Even as time passes by
Torn between life and the light of heaven’s gate
Even through all the grief
I somehow still felt your love.
For a Mother’s love is eternal
Through and through.
*Second verse*
I just wish you were still here by my side.
Cause I don’t know how to be the mother you were to me.
I wish I could hear your voice in my mind,
But all I hear is the sounds of the wind.
How were you when you were in my place?
Was there ever any spark of fear or doubt?
To be the greatest Mother
Your child had ever known.
The piano took over for the brief break and I counted down in my head the beats till I came in once again. This time I could feel my hormones acting up once again as this verse was the hardest for me to write.
*2nd Chorus*
Ooo but a Mother’s love is eternal
Even through all the struggles you face.
It’ll drain every ounce within you.
Make you bleed, and scream and cry.
But even through the pain,
The love is worth it in the end
For a Mother’s love is eternal
Through and through.
As the break happened once more with the lute guitar and piano I could feel the tears in my eyes. Then I just let go as I gave this final verse my all, even allowing some tears to fall down my face by the end.
*Final verse*
Yeah!
A Mother’s love is eternal.
And I vow to do my best
Cause a Mother’s love is eternal
So never forget my child
I may stay, I may go
But no matter what the future brings
A Mother’s love is eternal
Through and through.
Through and through.
This song was very special to me. Because it not only spoke for my fear and doubt of going into motherhood for the first time, but I also wrote this in honor of my mum who I wish could still be here to help me through raising my first child.
So singing this song was definitely emotional for me and with my pregnancy my hormones were kicked into overdrive as I could even feel tears fall down my face, especially once I got to the final chorus.
Shakily exhaling and wiping away the tearstains from my cheeks. I looked up to the ceiling almost as if asking for my mum’s strength to just help me get over this. It was then I heard an applause from the other side of the recording booth. I looked up and saw my boys all standing there, all of them with tears brimming in their eyes.
“My lovely Rock Angel, you once again have broken my heart with your angelic voice.” Freddie said speaking into the mic. I took the headphones off of my head and walked out of the booth. I opened the door and the moment they saw me, they were just in awe.
“Oh lovie. I swear every time we see you, it’s like you’re glowing more and more every day.” Roger praised as he came up to me and took my hands in his gently swaying them side to side.
“It’s like you’re brighter than the stars in the sky.” Brian said.
“What I feel like is a balloon about to pop.” I said irritated. They awed at me as Roger leaned his forehead against mine and he said.
“You do not, you’re carrying precious cargo in there. Dominque, Veronica and Chrissie all went through it. Mary’s going through it, and even if you did look like a balloon then you’re the cutest balloon out there.” I grinned mockingly at him and said.
“Thanks for trying dad.” He grinned and pecked my cheek.
“So I heard a little rumor that you all are involved with a movie?”
“Yeah we were asked by the director Russell Mulcahy to do some of the music for film. Originally we were asked to do one song but after viewing what they’ve got so far we had to do more.” Explained Brian.
“What’s the film called again?” I asked and that’s when Deacy answered.
“Highlander.”
“Ahh, well I can’t wait to see what you all have done. And now I leave you guys to record your songs now.”
“Ohh can’t you stay for a while and help us, like the old days (y/n) darling?” Freddie begged.
“I wish I could but I’ve got to get this song over to the Munich zoo so that I can get some footage for the music video for this song.”
“Getting some animal footage?”
“Yeah Bri. And no worries Rog I’m not going near any big cats or bears if that’s what you’re worried about.” I said already looked at the worry in his eyes.
“Care to give us an idea what the music video will be about?” asked Deacy like a kid trying to bride their parent getting a cookie before supper.
“Spoilers Brother mine.” I mocked as I playfully gripped him under the chin. I then took notice of his new hairstyle, which was much shorter, kinda like how I first met him but slightly different. “You know I kinda miss the fluffy afro look on you.” I teased.
“Haha hilarious sister dear.” He playfully pinched my nose. I pushed his hand away and continued to tease.
“But I guess there’s only room for one poodle man of Queen.” I looked towards Bri who gave me a playful glare which caused Freddie and Roger to laugh.
“Alright (y/n) it’s ready.” Mack said as he held a tape for me. I took it from him and thanked him as I gave him a friendly peck on the cheek.
“But if you guys are still here tomorrow I could pop by and see how you all are getting along.”
“We’ll be here at 9am sharp when the studio opens, I could pick you up at your hotel.” Said Roger.
“Perfect, I’ll see you at around 8ish?” he nodded and I saluted the guys goodbye. As I was just about to walk up the stairs that would lead me back up to the main floor of the studio, I felt someone come up behind me and ask.
“Need a hand?” I smiled softly and said.
“Always to the rescue, ehh papa lion?”
“Just need to make sure our future lioness cub will be okay. Her mum can be reckless sometimes.” I scoffed in playfully offense.
“And you’re not?”
“Well……”
“Uh-uh-uh-uh-uhh yeah that’s what I thought.” I said as the two of us walked up the stairs. Then I had to address the elephant in the room, “And how do you know it’ll be a girl? Not even Jack and I know what our baby’s gender is.”
“I just have a feeling. Good sense of rhythm. Loves Queen music, especially Radio gaga, to which you said was the first time she had started becoming active. I have a feeling she’ll be just like her mother in every practically perfect way.”
“You’re just not wanting the baby to look like Jack are you?”
“Now that is not true.” I just rolled my eyes at him as we finally reached the top. “In all seriousness though love, please be careful during the video shooting. Please.” He pressed his hand to my cheek and I nuzzled into his palm as I felt his calloused thumb stroke my cheek.
“Don’t worry Rog. I’ve signed all the agreements and I’ve got the best zookeepers to keep an eye on me while we get some of the interactions. There’s only one animal who will need to be watched over, other than that I’m holding a small ape in my arms most of the time.”
“Okay, just don’t go near any lions alright?”
“Don’t worry Rog, you’re the only lion I go near.” He hummed a chuckle before leaning his forehead against mine.
“You’re an even sassier woman when you’re pregnant did you know that?” I grinned cheekily and kissed his nose and said.
“I’ll see you tomorrow dad.”
“Till then my beautiful mama lioness.” He gave me one final kiss to the forehead before I went to sign myself out of the studio and hailed a cab over to take me to the Munich zoo.
A full afternoon into early evening shooting later, I was back at the hotel room with Jack and he said.
“I think the filming went well.”
“Yeah, that mama elephant really was tender towards me. Guess she knew the both of us were in the same boat together.”
“I can’t wait to see how it all comes together.”
“Me too, now we’ll just need to wait for the National Geographic to get back with some of those other footages I asked for.” I lay down on the bed and Jack lay down beside me.
“Now you said Roger will be here around 8ish?”
“Yeah, do you wanna stay here and see the boys record their new song?”
“As much as I love too I can’t. Someone’s gotta book our flight back to the states from London. When do you think you’ll be done?”
“I don’t know. You know how much of a perfectionist Freddie is. But I’m told they’ve already recorded some of the song and now they’re just trying to get all the clever bits into it.”
“So hopefully it won’t take too long.”
“Here’s hoping.” He flipped the lights off encasing our room into total darkness and I felt him wrap his arm around my lower abdomen almost like he was protecting our baby and I felt him kiss my neck lovingly.
“Goodnight my mama lioness.”
“G’night daddy lion.” And with that the two of us fell asleep together.
The next morning I woke up to see a note from Jack saying that he was already in bound for England. That he had gotten the first train ticket back to get all our stuff back home packed and call the airlines to get a special accommodations for us on our one way trip back to LA.
I got around, ate some breakfast and when I left the main lobby I saw Roger standing beside a cabby. He waved to me and I waved back and he allowed me in first before he climbed in and told the driver to head for the studio.
Once we got there it was time to go straight to work, just like the old days when I was still an intern with Miami.
As the minutes ticked by, Mack stepped out leaving Rog, Brian, Fred and I to discuss some lyrics for the middle part of their song “One Vision”.
“Well I mean ‘one goddamn something decision’ is good, I like that.” Suggested Roger.
“No, no well—” Brian began humming the tune trying to put the words to the rhythm of the song and continued, “No it doesn’t work.”
“It won’t fit.” Freddie argued.
“Yes it does.” Roger then sung out the rhythm of how he imagined the words. Freddie closing his eyes trying to hear what Roger was saying as Brian and Rog continued to mutter the tune.
“What about real decision?” I suggested as I twirled a pencil between my fingers.
“No, no darling it won’t fit. See it goes….” he then began singing the tune and I nodded and said.
“I know. What I’m saying is what if you do, ‘one flesh, one bone one real decision’.” Freddie looked to me and he said.
“I like that.”
“I agree, it fits.”
“Alright fine, can’t argue with her.” I grinned at Roger. As we continued to debate of lyrics, I talking with Brian and Freddie while Roger was quietly writing.
“And I mean it is awfully nice, but it’s—it’s sorta…..it’s risky.” Freddie warned.
“Well you have been known to take risks haven’t you Fred?” I came back at him. He ruffled my hair making me chuckle and Brian said.
“So it’s ba-bum, ba-bum, ba-bum, ba-ba-bum.” Brian muttered out as Freddie joined him on the tune. I looked at Brian’s lyric sheet to see what we’ve got as Roger piped in.
“How about this?”
“I mean it’d be cool if you could somehow mold this entire verse into like—one sentence.”
“Yes darling I completely agree, we need to try and get all these lyrics into one solid formation.” Freddie said as he leaned over between Brian and I.
“Like it’s an actual story.”
“What about that?” Roger suggested. I took his lyric sheet and read over it as Freddie was going over the tune once again.
“Ohh Freddie, Freddie Freddie-o let’s go with Rog’s verse.” He then came over and spoke out Roger’s lyrics.
“Made one true religion. Yeah that’s good. That’s nice.”
“I think we should also but ‘true vision’ in there somewhere.” Suggested Roger.
“No, no I don’t think that fits. I mean ‘one true religion’ is one thing but ‘one true vision’ is another. And I don’t think it fits.” I said skeptically.
“It fits lovie.”
“Oh yeah sing it then.” I then clapped the rhythm as Roger began muttering the tune before finally softly singing out while looking at me with those baby blue eyes of his.
“One true vision.” At that point all of us laughed.
“Of course it fits like that!” exclaimed Freddie sarcastically. All of us laughing as Roger continued to brag. I ran my fingers through his hair as I leaned against his shoulder still laughing.
“I mean you stopped and—he was still looking for the next word.” Brian said through his laughter.
“Darling a complete idiot!” joked Freddie.
“Oh my god Rog you’re unbelievable.” I sighed as I tried to calm myself down.
“Ahh but you love me for it.” He teased as he leaned his head against my shoulder and I pressed my head on top of his.
The day continued to go on and now the boys were starting to record some more of the song. I sat with Mack behind the sound mixer as all four of my boys proceeded to record the new bits or just improve some lyrics. Of course I lost it as Freddie actually sang ‘one dump, one turd, two tits, John Deacon.’
As Freddie continued to improve the lyrics and pull words out of his arse I couldn’t help but think this song was going nowhere but yet it somehow did work cause Freddie just made it hilarious. Mack placed his head along the console and groaned.
“Is there no end to this?”
“Mack, you don’t know the half of it.” I dragged on as we watched the boys continue to record.
The next day we were now getting in just the bass parts and some of Freddie’s vocals. I was outside along the consoles sitting next to Mack as Deacy was actually outside holding his bass wearing the headphones as he played his bass for part of the song where the bass could truly shine in the song.
Deacy was playing and bopping his head like a chicken, something I like to call the Deacy-chicken head-bop when his head gets into the rhythm but not his body. Mack leaned into my and whispered in my ear.
“And Fred said it was to be all that?”
“Yeah that’s what he told me.” He nodded and made sure to note that down. Once Deacy was done, he tucked one of the earmuffs of the headset and said.
“And then we just add the guitar bit?”
“No it’s….meant to be all that?” Mack responded as he pointed to Deacy’s bass.
“Oh it’s meant to be all that? No guitar vibrato at all?”
“Fred said that by the end of that the bass was gonna take over that part of verse.” I explained as I leaned against the chair and gently swayed it from side to side. He nodded and that’s when I felt a kick to my stomach and I moaned softly as I stopped swaying and held my stomach. “You okay?”
“Yeah she just kicked. Guess she still don’t like gentle swaying. Last week when Jack tried to slow dance with me back at the hotel after a stressful day, she wouldn’t stop kicking me. Guess she’s not gonna be much of a slow dancer.” He grinned and said.
“Michael was the same way, as was Joshua. So the baby’s been actively kicking?”
“Oh yeah, mostly when Queen songs are playing, I think they’re ready to meet you guys.”
“Well we can’t wait to see who the future munchkin’s gonna be. And you said you wanted it to be a surprise right?”
“Yeah, after Kelly’s story I’d rather not go through in having to either return or sell all the wrong gender stuff and waste my money buying new stuff when I already need to get the main supplies like food, diapers and all that baby proof stuff.”
“Well you know Veronica and I can donate some of the babyproof stuff to you guys to use.”
“You’d seriously do that?”
“Yeah, we’re gonna hold off having children for a bit. Now that Joshua is walking a bit more we don’t need most of his old baby proofing stuff, he’s not as curious as his brothers are so we’re good to go.”
“Thanks Deacy.”
“You’re welcome (n/n).”
Now it was Freddie’s turn to get behind the booth and do some vocal recording. He wanted to do the voice split since he had already done the low vocalizations of the ‘whoa, whoa, whoa’s’, he wanted to now do a high range of those.
“Mack, Mr. Beach is on the phone he wants to discuss with you some business matters of the song.” One of the assistants said peeking in through the door. He groaned because he knew he couldn’t leave since Fred was about to do the recording and he didn’t really trust anyone else to work his consoles.
“You go on ahead Mack, I’ve got this.” I told him.
“You sure you got this?” he asked me wearily.
“Absolutely, who do you think helped them edit ‘Don’t try suicide’.”
“Let her at it Mack dear. Like us, she knows how to work those keys. Work your magic darling and don’t make me sound like shit.”
“No promises Fred.” I teased as I spoke into the mic. He playfully flipped me off and I told Mack to go on and talk to Miami. He nodded and then left the booth and headed towards the lounge room to talk with Miami. “Okay Fred so where do you want to go first?”
“Take me to the second part of the second track my lovely angel.” I pressed a couple buttons and heard Freddie’s voice play through the system and I watched him count the beats by squeezing his fingers into his palms, like he was operating a pump before finally going into the ‘whoa, whoa’s’. However they both were in the high range so he immediately stopped and he said. “No, no darling it’s the wrong part, take me back to the first track.”
“Yeah sorry about that.” I rewound the tape and pressed the play and I heard Fred’s voice sing out, ‘One religion. One man, one soul one god religion.’ He then proceeded to record the right now and as I heard both low and high ranges mold together, it sounded better. When that was done he asked me.
“How was that?”
“Sounds great Fred.” I told him.
“You’re not just saying that because it’s me right?”
“No Mr. Perfectionist.” I drawled out.
“Don’t take that tone with my little missy.” He teased. I playfully stuck my tongue out at him and fast forwards the tape. “Okay so the next track are we gonna do the second track or the first track?”
“Well according to Mack’s notes he wants to go to the first track.”
“Okay then darling fire away.” I then played the track and watched the master at work once more.
I bopped my head to the rhythm and couldn’t help but admire such talent. I’ve always admired Freddie’s voice and I just can’t believe how lucky I was to be mentored by the best singer of my generation, I owe him everything and I hope we can continue this partnership till the end of our days.
The ‘One vision’ recording continued for another day till finally at almost 2 o’clock the song was complete. All the editing and wiring of placing each sound in the right order was done and now Queen had their next hit single in the works.
I was just about to head back to my hotel to rest up since I had been working so hard and waking up so early to help the guys.
“And where do you think you’re going darling?” Freddie asked me. I looked up to see all four of them looking at me.
“Uhh back to my hotel, why?”
“You’re not staying for the after party?” Fred continued to say.
“Well Fred, I—haven’t really been a party person since the pregnancy. People kept offering me drinks and I couldn’t cause of munchkin here.”
“I’ll ensure you get some water or juice. Please darling everyone whose involved with this song is invited, plus all of our crew on tour. And you’re still counted as apart of Team Queen.” Begged Freddie as he came up and kneeled before my groveling. I turned to the other three for help but they just looked at me with that ‘might as well indulge him love’ look.
“I don’t know Freddie……” I sighed before he interrupted me.
“Even if it’s for a couple of hours. You don’t have to stay for the whole thing. You’ve helped us a lot with this song and it’d be wrong not to invite you when we know the truth.” I looked at him and cupped the side of his face.
“If you stop with those puppy dog eyes of yours I’ll go.” He cheered and immediately shot up before kissing my cheek and said as he proudly strutted out of the booth.
“Let’s go my darlings!” I shook my head.
“If it’s so hard to say no to that man, I can’t imagine how hard it’ll be to say no to my own kid.”
“You’ll learn love.” Deacy said as he wrapped an arm around me.
“Fred is just on a whole other degree of spoiled. He’s even worse than a toddler if he doesn’t get his way.” Said Brian. We all then followed him and headed over to Queen’s hotel which surprisingly was just a couple blocks away from my hotel and proceeded with the after party.
There was food, press, drinks and hundreds upon hundreds of people gathered around to celebrate another hit record song made by Queen.
I was sitting outside near the pool trying to get away from the crowds when I saw Brian come out from the pool. And god had I not spent as much time around these boys as I have, I wouldn’t have recognized him because now his full on curly hair was all flat along his face from the chlorine.
“Have a nice dip, drip?” I said as I threw him a towel.
“It was refreshing.” He said as he began to dry his hair. “You doing okay?”
“Yeah I’m fine. Just trying to avoid getting my bump smashed or hit by someone in the crowd in there.”
“I get it. Especially when a few have had one to many drinks, they’d end up falling right over in total disregard to anyone’s safety.”
“Yeah which would cause Rog to turn full papa lion and kill the person who’d bump into me if the fall didn’t.” he chuckled knowing that that statement was true. I placed a grape into my mouth and chewed on it as I said, “Plus I don’t want press finding me.”
“They’ve been giving you trouble?”
“Well not here here. But—insecurities and all that.” He sighed and said as he came over my pool chair and began to rub my shoulders.
“You remember what I’ve told you about your looks right?”
“Well Bri, some press are kind to me but one magazine sure wasn’t. It was….back in the early stages of my pregnancy. Some sexist arsehole took a photo of me and Jack shopping for groceries and printed out in bold print ‘ROCK ANGEL GAINING WEIGHT!? Young adult artist putting on several pounds as she struts with husband Jack Kline looking like she swallowed a beachball.’ Luckily thanks to Miami and with the release of my pregnancy announced, we sued the bastard and got him fired but—I can’t imagine what the press here would say seeing me now like this.” I felt Brian kiss the top of my head.
“They need to realize that you are creating something that none of those bastards can. You are in the final stage of giving life to a whole new person. That’s something that most press and paparazzi’s can’t do. And if we had heard of this incident months ago, you can be sure the lads and I would’ve found that publicist and gladly gave him a talking to.”
“Oh I know what your ‘talking to’ implies Bri. Especially if Rog is the ringleader.” He leaned his head against mine and said.
“Some men can be bastards, especially to female celebrities and singers. But just know that you’ve got five men who think you are an absolute vision.” I smiled and placed my hand on top of his right hand.
“How come you always know what to say to help me feel better Bri?”
“Could be my cleverness.” I looked up at him with my best Deacy funny look and he just smiled at me softly laughing.
“You are so full of shit you know that spaceman?”
“Sometimes, but at least I got you distracted from your body insecurity, right?”
“That you did.” He stroked down my cheeks much like how you would a dog before he pecked my nose and pressed his forehead against mine.
When party was over by nightfall, I grabbed my bag when Mack came in and he said.
“(Y/n), your husband’s on the phone for you.” I followed behind him and he handed me the phone and I said.
“Hey Jack, how did booking the flight go?”
‘Not good I’m afraid.’
“Why? What’s going on?”
‘Well I explained to the airfare about your pregnancy so they asked me how far you were along. And apparently they can’t fly us back since you’ve entered your third trimester.’
“What!? Why not!?”
‘They said it just poses as a greater risk for the health of the baby.’
“Well what are we gonna do? We can’t go back to the hotel because the press finally got whiff of where we were and almost made me go into premature labor with their constant hounding, Dr. Williams is in LA with all our medical records, and we can’t afford to stay in that small motel room with the baby!”
‘I know baby, we’ll figure it all out. Just calm down okay, you’re stressing again.’ I took a few deep breaths. ‘That’s my girl. Are you and the boys done yet?’
“Yeah. We just finished. We’re gonna head to the train station and get on the next train back to London.”
‘Okay, when you get back we’ll talk about our next plan okay. I promise everything’s gonna be fine.’
“Okay.” I muttered softly.
‘Have safe travels my beauty. I love you.’
“I love you too Jack.” I then hung up the phone and pinched the bridge of my nose as I muttered, “Fucking hell.”
“Everything okay poppet?” I turned to see the boys all looking at me concerned.
“Well if you count being stranded with no other place to go and no doctor knowing of your medical records just 2 months before you go into labor umm….I’d say I’m doing great.” I sighed.
“What are you talking about?” asked Freddie.
“I can’t go back to the states. I’ve gone over to my 3rd trimester and they won’t let me fly back.”
“Now correct me if I’m wrong but did I hear you say that the press almost made you go into premature labor?” questioned Roger. I nodded and said.
“Yeah, I don’t know how they found me but they came out of nowhere and just ambushed me while I was coming home from shopping. I nearly had a panic attack from all the hormones and anxiety of my pregnancy.”
“Those fucking leeches. It’s bad enough they stalk every famous face but to ambush a first time mother, it’s unforgivable.” Freddie sighed angrily.
“I just don’t know what to do guys. We’ve got nowhere to go now.”
“Not true, you can stay with Dominque and I. We can set up one of the spare bedrooms into a nursery, we still got Felix’s old crib that can be refurbished.” Roger said as he came up and took my hands in his. I smiled and said.
“Oh Rog, thank you for the offer but we can’t do that to you and your family.”
“It’s no trouble. No one knows where my house is, and it’ll be nice for Felix to have a little playmate for a while.”
“Actually there is another place you could stay at.” Suggested Brian. I turned to him and he continued, “I’m still kinda in the works of moving some stuff around but, just recently I bought a house up in Surrey that acts as my home studio. It’s got 2 bedrooms, 2 loos, and plenty of space for a baby. At least until you can fly back to the states with her.”
“Ohh Brian I…..I couldn’t ask that of you.”
“It’s no trouble at all love, really. You need a private place to relax in your final days before your maternity leave, somewhere where the press cant cause you any stress.” I considered it and said.
“You sure it’s no trouble?”
“I wouldn’t have offered it to you if it was.”
“C’mon love what more do you have to lose?” said Roger. I thought about it some more till I finally said.
“Okay. I’ll call Jack and ask him if it’ll be okay with him.”
“Once we get back to London, I’ll take you both up there so you can see the place.” Brian said as he wrapped his arm over my shoulder.
I called Jack shortly after and told him the news and he agreed to come up to see the place with Brian and I. We then all took a cab up to our hotels to check out before all heading back to the train station.
After arriving back in London early the next morning, we met Jack at the station and he, Brian and I headed on up to Surrey just a few miles outside of London.
Going through Surrey it felt like we had gone out to the country until finally we came upon a grand castle-like house.
“And here we are.” Brian said as he pulled the car up along the gravel driveway and shut the car off.
“Oh wow Bri, this is—amazing.” Praised Jack.
“Thank you Jack.” We all got out of the car and I just stared at this beautiful ‘private kingdom’. It had a gorgeous front yard. “So will it do?” I heard Brian ask me as he came up to me.
“Oh it’s big enough for an entire classroom. You sure you don’t mind us staying here for a bit?”
“Of course not I don’t mind at all. C’mon let’s get you two inside.” The boys carried in the luggage and the inside looked even bigger than it did outside.
“Oh wow.” I awed.
“Right bedrooms are right down that hall, kitchen’s just down that way and the studios upstairs. And of course garden is just through those backdoors.” I walked towards the back and I was just in awe at the very large and peaceful garden.
There was nothing but greenery as far as the eye could see, trees surrounding the perimeter, and a beautiful fountain at the center.
“Brian this….this is beautiful.”
“Yeah quite romantic when it comes to getting out of the busyness of the city. The perfect place for you and Jack to relax, and a quaint little place for the future little Kline.” He said as he came up and pressed his hand to my stomach as he mentioned my baby. I nodded and I said.
“You think we’ll do a good job?”
“I believe you will love. You’ve already had practice with the lads and I.” we both laughed and he continued, “I know first time parenting is frightening. Believe me love everyone’s been there. Anyone who says they weren’t afraid is lying. And if you or Jack need any help, never hesitate to call us for advice or to come over and help out.” I nodded and snuggled my head into his chest.
“Thank you Brian, for everything.”
“I’m always here for you love.” He said as he hugged me and kissed the top of my head. After doing a bit of unpacking, Brian left Jack and I alone and right now the two of us were out in the garden.
“God this place is even more beautiful than our place. Maybe we should move here to London.” Said Jack.
“You sure?”
“I mean with our baby about to come, plus any other future child we have. Sure we may have a big backyard but American homes hardly have the beauty like England does.” I smiled and said to him.
“Kinda have to agree with that, but I didn’t want to say it at the time. Why must you Americans keep expanding your territory?”
“Greedy bastards wanting more malls and homes. They need to see that having a good countryside backyard is just as beautiful, especially if you use it right.”
“Well let’s just see how raising this child goes first, and if we have anymore then we’ll talk about moving back to England. I know the boys would be thrilled to have me back in England again.”
“Especially Roger.” We both chuckled and I said.
“Roger would probably move into the house with us to ensure that I wouldn’t leave England again.” He sat up from his chair and came over to me and wrapped his arms around my shoulders, his hands placed over my baby bump as he kissed my cheek lovingly.
“I can’t wait to meet our baby.”
“Just 2 more months and they’ll be here.”
“But that’s soo long, can’t they come out now?”
“If you want them premature and unhealthy than sure.”
“Noo!” he whined.
“Then you’ll have to wait. But I do have to ask cause I know the guys are gonna press me on this matter.” He looked to me and I looked up at him, “Whose gonna be the Godfather?”
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Their love shouldn't have been so intense. Niall shouldn't have been able to bring her to her knees like this. Niall wasn't quite sure what he did to deserve her but there's nothing in the world he wouldn't do for her.
flashback to where it all started, Soren or Ren for short was 26. she was a journalist at The Rolling stone- in fact the youngest yet. she was incredibly proud of where she was and she definitely didn't take it for granted.
Ren prided herself in capturing the real essence of what music should be. She covered the section on Music reviews- Ren's Review. the name alone made her sick but it's what made her money.
Ren, however hated phonies, and that was exactly what Niall was. the music industry grew up without him. it was now 2017 and he was still whining about a girl that so clearly broke his heart. how many times could one person write about it? it worked for the classics but as Niall overused the same four chords and same sad lyrics, Ren thought her head would explode.
It wasn't anything personal- except for the fact that he was a complete douche to his fans and barely gave anyone an ounce of respect- also, he refused an interview with her. refused. Ren was both annoyed and angry and feeling lots of resentment towards the male race when she wrote the article. did she mean everything she said? of bloody course she did. would she take it back? absolutely not.
when Niall’s management called her, Ren was already not in the mood. Niall was washed up, plain and simple. as if her opinion changed the worlds opinion of him? probably not but he was whiny anyways. she'd even sent an early copy before publishing it.
With unbridled ambition and stubbornness, Ren agreed to meet with some people on the behalf of Niall. Ren internally scoffed because if he was so upset why couldn't he meet with her instead.
"hello, i'm Janice," the woman introduced herself. "i'm the media head. this is Dane, Mr. Horan’s image consultant."
"nice to meet you both," she smiled, shaking their hands. they sat down at the table and ordered drinks.
"so i've heard Mr. Horan has an issue with the article i've written?" Ren asked, glazing over the menu.
"yes we were actually hoping you could make a few changes," Janice said. "just so it doesn't totally ruin his career."
"look," Ren closed her menu. "it's the truth. I guess it's not blatantly clear but then again your management team has yet to master what promo really means. Niall’s image, as hard as you've tried to preserve it, has gone to shite. until his music is real and meaningful, my opinion won't be changed and i will still publish the article."
"is there any price?" Dane asked, pulling his check book out. "you name it and-"
"save it Dale," she picked her menu up. "i'm thinking about the steak, what about you?"
"oh-uh it's Dane actually," he replied meekly.
"right," she nodded, looking him up and down.
Niall was livid. he read the article. he reread it, even. everything was a lie. Anger coursed through him the more he read the word.
washed up pop star
the same three chords used over & over again
unoriginal lyrics derived from horrible writers
how long can he use the same worn down archetypes without people noticing?
does he even care about his fans who have done nothing but support him through thick and thin times?
Niall was already on the phone with Janice as he went out the door. He headed straight to the main office ready to tear this Soren Maude a new one.
Janice advised him to keep calm, to let it blow over except he was insulted and pissed off. Soren had absolutely no right to criticize him when he didn't even know the half of it.
Niall marched right into the office of Rolling stone ready to butt heads with someone.
"i need to speak with a Soren Maude, please," he demanded, arms crossed over his face.
"I'm sorry Soren isn't available right now," the receptionist said. he looked right past Niall as if he didn't even exist.
"i need to speak to him now," Niall insisted.
exasperated, he sighed. the bloke picked up the phone. "Ren, Niall Horan is here to see you. he won't go away."
the receptionist hung up the phone and went back to his computer. impatient was what Niall was.
"so?" he asked, getting angrier by the second.
"so you better lose your attitude real quick," he looked up at Niall. "Ren will knock ya head off. first second on the left."
Niall shook his head and grunted. he couldn't wait to meet this Soren. He sauntered down the hall with everything he had to say on the the tip of his tongue.
"I need to speak with a Soren Maude," Noah said as he approached the open door.
"that's me," a small brunette with glasses said. she only came up to niall's nose and well, how could he yell at her? "can i help you with something?"
"i uh- um yes," he faltered. "you- you wrote that article about me?"
"yeah," she nodded. "is there a problem?"
"yeah," he nodded, eyebrows furrowed. "what's wrong is that it's complete slander!"
"it's not slander if it's true," she closed a folder in front of her. "and everything i wrote was true. your lyrics are weak. they're overused and repetitive. four albums with the same thing over and over again. your fans are disappointed, Niall."
"you have no right!" he exclaimed. "you don't know anything about my fans!"
"I did research before publishing it," she stood up. "I talked to your fans. i talked to music majors. do you know what makes song great?"
"relatableness and a good hook- my songs have great hooks!"
"no Niall," she closed her door. "a good song makes you feel, it makes you think- you can see yourself in a good song."
"and what makes you so qualified?" Niall asked, eyebrow raised.
"i went to school for this," she looked him up and down. "are you trying to discredit my credentials to make yourself feel better?"
"well I just don't see how someone like you gets to decide what's good and bad," he crossed his arms over his chest.
"someone like me?" she asked. "like a young woman?" she asked. "like my opinion is invalid- tell me, Niall. if this Soren you came looking for was in fact a dude how would you react? very different i presume."
"no that's- that's not true," he stuttered, taking a step back.
"like hell it isn't," she leaned on her desk. "besides you don't even write your own songs anymore so why is it such a big deal? i know it isn't your fault. your team is sticking you with the same image you've been with since you were eighteen but the least you could do is put a little heart into it. put real feelings, emotions. songs are supposed to be relatable but not so much that every song sounds like a boring top forties."
"it's not as easy as you think," he turned away. "it's not like you know anything about the industry anyways. thanks for the bloody great review, i really appreciate it".
"Niall-"
Niall shook his head, heading for the door, slamming the door behind him. the worst part was that everything she said, Niall knew was true.
As Niall mulled over Ren's so boisterous opinion, he found that accepting it was harder than he originally thought.
Niall came to his conclusion a week later. he cried a bit, got angry, got proper pissed drunk and then his mind was clear and made up. he needed to see her.
This time, Niall waited patiently for Ren to return from her lunch break. she came walking in with a tall brown haired lad. they looked awfully close and somewhere deep within Niall, he felt jealous.
"Niall... hi," she greeted here. "who are you here to see?"
"uh you, actually," he stood up. "i was hoping we could talk."
"yeah sure," she nodded. "i actually have some running to do for my boss. want to come?"
"uh i guess," he nodded, a little confused.
"great," she smiled. "let me get my coat."
Ren returned a few minutes later carrying a box. she handed it to Niall and took a bag from the receptionist, who Niall learned was named Jamie.
"let's go," she told him, already waiting for him in the elevator.
Niall noticed how fast Ren was. she was always moving so fast, Niall almost couldn't keep up. almost. he was taken aback by it. she was like a flurry of brown curls and papers. she was a hurricane, personified.
"where are we going?" Niall asked, getting into the passenger seat. he was mildly impressed by the Mercedes she drove.
"we need to go to the post office to drop that box off- bloody Tomlinson can't meet deadlines to save his arse- there's people to do this you know?" she shook her head. "sorry that's off topic- you wanted to talk?"
"right yeah," he nodded, sitting up. "so i wanted to talk about the article you wrote."
"look Niall i won't unpublished it or change it or make a statement," she sigh exasperated. "i meant it and i just refuse to take it back."
"no i know i don't- i don't want you too," he shook his head. "i wanted to talk to you about how i could write better songs? like tips i guess?"
"my opinion shouldn't change what you think about yourself," she furrowed her eyebrows.
"i know it doesn't but like i've been feeling this way for a while, you know? like i've been in this mental block- my music is nothing i'd ever listen to. it's cringy. i want to write meaningful music."
"you don't have substance," she told him. the car pulled to a stop. "you need feelings, emotions. take a word and run with it. brain storm. really dig deep. your biggest fears. a feeling you've had. something that is real- i cant stress that enough. stop singing about the girl you couldn't get and start singing about the way that girl makes you feel. like gut wrenching heart break or love so deep it'll bring tears to your eyes."
Niall nodded, "i think i know what you mean."
"get with some good writers," she encouraged him. "like Julian. he's sick to work in the studio with. he's a friend. i'll ask him about you. don't be afraid to be vulnerable, yeah?"
"okay," Niall nodded. "i'll try.“
hey it's Niall.. i had some lyrics i wanted to run by you, if you're willing?
Ren bit her lip, setting her phone down on the table. did she really wanna get into this?
come by my office around two Ren wrote back hesitantly. she clicked send and held her breath.
"so what are we going for?" Ren asked, sitting up.
"dunno," he chuckled, scratching his neck nervously. "i just wrote down some things."
'Lips so good i forget my name. i swear i could give you everything.'
'i don't need my love baby you can take it. you can break it...'
"i didn't quite finish that thought though," he pointed at the last one.
"s'good," she nodded.
'if tomorrow won't be mine, baby won't you give it to me one last time?'
'I ain't up for debating, Ain't enough for the taking, you got the whole world shaking'
'I keep on holding tight now, cause your body's telling me don't let go'
"these are all really good," Ren nodded, handing him the crumpled piece of paper back. "i really mean it- they could really be something."
"you think?" he asked nervously.
"for sure," she nodded. "i really mean it," she repeated. "here let me- i'll send these to Julian."
"think he'll help?" Niall asked.
Ren nodded with a smile. "his producer Liam is aces."
to Niall:
scheduled a session with Julian & a few writers be there or be square
Niall chuckled, shoving his phone back into his pocket. a square was what he wouldn't be.
Wolves. wolves came the easiest. the more he read the lyrics, the more he fell in love with it. recording in the studio was the best feeling in the world. it was coming so easy to him.
as Niall ran through the melody one more time, Jamie called him in to record it one last time. he was certain this would be the best one.
as niall poured his heart out, he hadn't even noticed Ren walk in. only when he stepped out did he notice her. she wasn't in her usual work clothes. she wore a pair of jeans and a sweatshirt but somehow it made her even more irresistible.
"that was amazing," she smiled. "those lyrics are really good- when'd you guys finish?"
"a little while ago," Julian answered. "niall's killing it in here!"
"i got chills!" Ren laughed. she shook Niall by his shoulders. "you gave me chills!"
"so i made you feel then?" he asked, amused.
"yes!" she laughed.
Niall felt pride wash over him. he made her feel.
Niall couldn't stay away no matter how hard he tried because well... after she saw him record, something changed. something within Niall changed. he didn't see her as the girl that wrecked his career, more as the one that opened his eyes.
it seemed that Ren couldn't stay away either. she showed up more and more often at the studio. she encouraged niall and acted like she really wanted to help him. Harry Styles had also popped in quite frequently, helping Niall out. They met while Niall recorded wolves and he offered his advice. Ren and her were good friends through the business. She considered him to be a good friend.
"harry," Ren whispered as Niall recorded the guitar parts.
"hm?" he hummed, sitting back. "what's wrong?"
"i um," she coughed, nervously adjusting her glasses. "i think... i think i may fancy Niall just like a tiny bit."
"you think?" harry asked, eyeing her cautiously.
"like a little bit," she nodded.
"what are we gonna do about this?" harry asked with a chuckle.
"well like he seeked me out for help, you know?" Ren mumbled. she sighed. "he's like billionaire popstar- shags upteen girls a month. he wouldn't-"
"don't finish that sentence," harry warned.
"he wouldn't want a girl like me," she rushed out.
"ren!" he shouted, shoving her.
Niall emerged from the recording room just as Ren laughed against harry. he set his guitar up and sat down next to harry. "what's so funny?"
"Ren is being intolerable," harry rolled his eyes. "see, she fancies this bloke-"
"h, no," she whined, covering her face with her hands.
"she fancies him and doesn't think the feelings are mutual- isn't that a load?" Harry asked.
"definitely," Niall nodded. he looked Ren up and down.
Ren's face burned red. she shook her head, grabbing her purse off of the table. "right well i've to go- early meeting."
"i'll walk you out," Niall offered, standing up.
the elevator ride down to the first floor was silent Ren felt anxious the whole time. it probably had to do with harry's transparency and her inability to control her embarrassment.
"so i hope you get the whole bloke* thing sorted," Niall told her as they walked towards the doors.
"yeah," she coughed awkwardly. "thanks. me too."
"so big meeting," he commented, nodding.
"right, yeah," she nodded. "you sounded great today."
he smiled, "thanks."
Ren shuffled around her apartment. she balanced a glass of wine in one hand and a bowl of popcorn in the other. she tucked her phone under her chin, heading for the living room. the buzzer rang maker her curse.
she set her things down and pushed the intercom. "yeah?"
muffled, "its Niall."
Ren, furrowed her eyebrows and unlocked the door. "come on up."
Ren paused the television and unlocked her door. when Niall knocked, she took a moment to breath. she opened the door with a smile. "hey."
"oh am i- am i interrupting?" Niall asked, eyes widening like he hadn't even thought of it.
"no no just r and r, come in," Ren opened the door for him to come in.
"want some wine?" she asked, offering him her glass.
"ah no," Niall chuckled. "i drove.. but um i was- have you been online lately?"
"as in..." Ren trailed off.
"as in have you googled either me or you in the last *hm twenty four hours?" he asked, sitting down across from her.
"um no," she raised an eyebrow. "should i?"
"no uh definitely not!" he rushed out. "just- there have been a few reports of things between us as more than just colleagues."
colleagues. ouch.
"oh," she replied quietly.
"i didn't want you to get freaked out or anything my PR. they needed a story i guess," he shrugged. "i just wanted to clear things up and i hope this didn't mess anything up with that bloke of yours."
"oh no..." she trailed off. "it didn't quite work out."
"that's shite," he frowned empathetically.
"yeah..." she sighed, sitting up. "so was there something else or..."
"no that's it," he smiled. "sorry for dropping by so late i was just worried."
"yeah s'fine," she nodded. "i've a show to watch so."
"right yeah," he nodded. "and thanks so much for hooking me up with Julian and Harry. they're brill."
"yeah," she forced out a smile.
and something about it sounded suspiciously like a goodbye which maybe she wasn't exactly ready for. she frowned as he left. how could a person be so oblivious?
it was the American Music Awards. this was important- for The Rolling Stone. they sent Ren on the red carpet to snag some words from a few newer faces. it was fun. it gave Ren an excuse to dress up and drink champagne that was way too expensive.
Ren saw Niall down the other end of the carpet. he looked amazing. Ren frowned, looking away. Louis nudged her and scolded her with a look. she sighed. "sorry."
"look there's Andra Day," he pointed to her. "she'd have a few words to say."
Ren approached her with a warm smile and a hand shake. "I'm Ren and this is Louis. we're from rolling stone mag and i was wondering...."
Niall was making his way through the interviews and photos. he saw Ren when he least expected it. all train of thought was lost. Ren laughed, squeezing Charlie Puth's shoulder. he narrowed his eyes. of all people.
Charlie pulled Ren in for a hug. he rubbed her back in a way that wasn't exactly as platonic as he'd hoped. Niall remembers the charlie puth article well. she raved about his melodies and the riffs- the riffs. she just loved his riffs. if you asked Niall, his music was only alright.
Janice nudged Niall and shook her head disapprovingly. "Niall cut it out."
"just look at them!" he scoffed. Niall shook his head. "disgusting- he's always jumping on the next girl."
"it doesn't matter," Janice, told him, voice stern. "you can't date. especially not her."
"and what's that supposed to mean?" he asked, eyebrows furrowed. the fact that Ren has a higher IQ than most of the girls he's dated said a lot to Niall. she was different.
"she's got virtually no status, babe," Janice shook her head. "you don't need that."
"so all you care about is what makes money?" Niall asked. "really? it's been five years and you can't-can't even throw me this bone."
"money is first- always," she fluffed his hair and sent him down to the next interviewer that was waiting.
Ren was sat two tables to the left of Niall. the table was handpicked because no way would Liam, Harry and Niall have been put together by chance.
Ren shook her head. Louis laughed, handing her his glass of champagne. "y'alright?"
"look at him, Louis. flirting with Selena gomez," she shook her head again.
"it's called being friendly," Louis told her, sitting up. "and don't freak out. nothing's certain."
"except the fact that they're leaving together tonight," Ren scoffed, putting her phone down.
Louis continued to watch Selena and Niall. it looked friendly. if there was some sort of attraction, you could tell. Louis shrugged. he stirred his water, watching the rest of Niall's table. Liam was talking on the phone completely ignoring everything.
“Let’s go say hi,” Louis suggested. He’d worked with each of them two so they were well acquainted.
Harry greeted Ren with a kiss on the cheek and shook Louis’s hand. He immediately dove into a story about who he’d seen with way too much detail.
"ren," a voice interrupted them. ren internally rolled her eyes.
she looked up and smiled. "hi."
"you look amazing," Niall said, standing up. he hugged her and kissed her on the cheek.
"thanks," she replied, stepping back. "anyways harry are we still on for brunch tomorrow?" Ren asked.
"of course," he grinned.
"Harry and i always have brunch after these things. he helps me do best and worst dressed for my blog," Ren smiled. "actually Louis you should come. it's hilarious. We've made bets on who it'd be. I say Taylor momden but Harry says Gaga- but she looks amazing in everything- even the meat dress."
"Right," harry laughed. "who do you say?"
"i gotta say my girl Mariah," Louis shook his head. "she's my queen but no."
"brunch tomorrow?" Niall asked.
"wanna come?" Harry asked him. "it's a lot of fun."
"sounds ace," he smiled. Ren cringed.
Ren dreaded brunch. she purposely invited louis because she knew harry and Louis got on well and he was an absolute riot. now she felt like harry was plotting against her and Ren didn't quite like that feeling.
Ren and Louis were the first ones there. She ordered a coffee, and shifted in her seat. “god i hate harry," Ren shook her head. "Niall just dropped me you know? as soon as i gave him the smallest info he was like great thanks but i don't really need to talk to you anymore- if he even tries it i swear."
"what are you gonna do?" louis asked. "blush and look away- don't fool yourself Ren."
Ren rolled her eyes at Louis. She pulled her ipad out as Harry sat down. Harry sent Ren a bright smile. she rolled her eyes at him.
"cheer up, buttercup," harry grinned.
"i'm angry at you," she muttered.
"why?" he laughed.
"you invited Niall!" she cried. "you know my feelings on that situation."
"he wanted to come," harry defended himself. "would you have told him no?"
"yes," ren huffed. "louis here is special so i invited him. he's got sass and i feel like i need to write something with sass."
"everything you write has sass," Harry snorted. "and that's not an exaggeration."
"figures he'd be late, though." Ren rolled her eyes. "typical snobby pop star."
"heyyy," harry frowned.
"no you're different," Ren promised him. "your a nice genuine human being that didn't lose himself in fame. you're you. it's refreshing."
"what's refreshing?" Niall asked, greeting them. he smiled brightly.
"harry," Ren shrugged. "he's a genuine human being. it's refreshing to meet one of those."
"yeah i know what you mean," Niall agreed. "it is refreshing."
Ren looked away, smiling at louis. she breathed out a sigh feeling the tension settle over them.
"right so best dressed?" Louis asked, setting them all back on to the task at hand.
"right," ren nodded. "so you've all got best dressed people?"
Niall nodded as did harry. "what if they're not celebrities per say?"
"then what are they?" Ren asked, leaning forward.
"well i mean..." he trailed off, setting his phone on the table.
It was a photo of Ren from the back. her head was turned only slightly. her dress flowed down effortlessly much like her brunette curls.
Ren sat back, shock settling in. "me?"
Niall nodded. "yeah."
Louis and harry exchanged a look. Niall stared into Ren's eyes. she looked away too quick for him to read her eyes.
"right well i can't exactly vote meself as best dressed," she chuckled nervously, looking away.
Niall smiled watching as she became flustered. she nervously tapped on the ipad until Louis offered his opinion.
Ren would totally take the piss for this later from louis.
"Niall Horan has had a rough couple of months. Rolling stone magazines, Soren Maude tore him a new one right after his newest album, Take Me home was released. According to a source Soren and Niall continued to work together especially on this song. here's your exclusive first listen to Niall Horan's newest single! here's his newest sound, Wolves."
Ren's eyes widened as the first riff came across the radio. she was shook. Niall's voice was clear and bright and everything she didn't know she needed. Niall's new sound was transforming right before her eyes and the thing was, it was all because of her.
Ren'a phone rang making her jump. she grabbed it off of the table, answering. "hello?"
"Ren!" a voice shouted. "Turn on the radio!"
"i am i am!" she yelled.
"doesn't he sound amazing!" harry exclaimed.
he really does, ren thought and it was the purest thought she's had all day. Ren smiled to herself. she was proud of Niall.
Niall opened his door. the delivery man handed him a large basket filled with fruit, cheese, wine, and a t-shirt. it had a card stuck to it: congratulations!! he furrowed his eyebrows. "who's this from?"
the delivery man looked down at his sheet. "uh it says The Rolling Stone!”
Niall smiled. "thanks a lot."
Ren had just returned back to the office after meeting up with Charlie Puth. they first met a few months ago and he offered to take her out for lunch. how could she resist?
it's like Niall just knew. he knew when Ren was moved on. it was the only reasonable explanation why he was even there. media caught wind and Niall had to be the first one to tell her why it's a bad idea.
"is the boy Charlie?" Niall asked, following Ren into her office.
"no," she replied hesitantly. "why?"
"because you went to lunch with him," Niall stated plainly. "i don't think you should hang out with him."
"and why not?" ren asked, raising an eyebrow.
"because he's... he's got a record, Ren. he talks to like a million girls and he's not quiet about it. you'll end up plastered on his twitter page by the time you wake up."
"you don't even know what you're talking about," Ren huffed. "it was business and i told you the thing with the bloke fizzled out."
"yeah but i know you don't give up that easily," he smiled. "besides i just- Charlie Puth?"
"What i hate more than someone telling me who i can't see is someone that thinks they're entitled to dictate my life," Ren turned around. "Niall don't start with me."
"i'm just looking out for you!" he cried, sitting down, exasperated.
"no," Ren shook her head, crossing her arms over her chest. "if you can parade Selena Gomez around than i can do whatever the hell with whoever the hell i want."
"Ren that's not even- it's not the same," he shook his head. "you don't understand."
"you're right i don't!" she laughed humorlessly. "i don't understand why you think you have a right to tell me who i can or can't date or see or whatever."
"fine but don't say i didn't warn you," Niall stood up.
'spotted! Charlie Puth and writer Soren Maude getting cozy in a sweet NYC cafe. Bye Bye Bella! Could Soren be Charlie's next GF?'
a source close to soren says that the two have been getting pretty close after she wrote an article about him last fall. the source also says that Soren expects this to get really serious really soon! Now nothing's confirmed but if Charlie's tweets are anything to go by, we should expect a confirmation soon! we look forward to seeing more of these two!
Ren clenched her jaw, tossing her phone down onto her bed. this had Niall written all over it.
so niall was called into his managements office early the next morning. he was a bit weary granted he leaked some information to the media- it wasn't exactly true but nonetheless.
Niall hesitantly sat down. Janice and Dane, along with the rest of his team stared at him as he situated himself.
"glad you could join us," Janice raised an eyebrow. "so you've been busy, huh?"
"look it wasn't- i didn't plan on doing it," he mumbled.
"i could care less about that bloody article," she huffed. "the real problem is that we miscalculated- big time."
"erm what?" Niall asked, confused as to what was going on.
"it seems that soren is a very prominent figure in the media world- her social media has nearly sixty thousand followers and she tweets about real stuff like the syrian refugees and- and global news. she's socially aware and as we try to strengthen your image, Soren is the way to go."
"Janice is right," Dane nodded. "you don't have many friends or even people you could say are on your side so an in with Rolling Stone would do wonders for you."
"soren and i aren't really talking right now," Niall told them. he shook his head becoming frustrated with himself all over again.
"make it work, do you hear me?" Janice warned. "your image is vital for your next album coming up. your single was perceived well but it was the one that would make the most money. if Soren writes a good review than we're set."
"but she won't," niall corrected her. "no matter if we're friends or not, she cares about music. if my music sucks she won't tell the world it's good. she isn't like that."
"then we'll just have to make her do it," Janice shrugged.
"you're gonna pay me how much to write a good review on him?" Ren asked, eyes wide.
"Niall's image is important. you write this review and the media will get off your back, simple as that," Janice shrugged.
holy hell, ren thought. desperateness lingered in the air. Ren momentarily thought about abandoning her values for that lump sum. Ren left undecided and distraught. what was more important?
Ren set her tablet down on the table and anxiously clicked her pen. needless to say, Ren's boss all but forced her into it. She threatened to give Louis Ren's job.
Niall sat down across from her. he smiled. "hey."
"i'm still pissed at you," Ren told him. "but i'm being forced to do this so it's whatever. let's just get this over with."
"okay," he nodded, shifting in his seat.
Ren clicked the voice recorder on and propped it on the table. she sighed heavily, rereading the questions that were prewritten for her.
"so with a new album coming out, you've also decided on a new sound. how do you describe this new sound?" Ren asked.
"Well a good friend of mine pushed me to really challenge myself with the writing. she inspired me to use my real emotions not just the ones i thought people wanted to hear. I really owe it all to her because over the years i'd lost my love for writing almost giving up completely and now i have a lot to be thankful for."
Ren sat up and clicked the recorder off. "seriously cut the crap."
"it's not crap. it's the truth," he replied, tone biting.
"you do talk some shit don't you Horan," she shook her head. ren turned the recorder back on and sighed.
"so fans have been dying to know about the inspiration behind these songs? are they just from feelings or real life experiences or what's going on there?" Ren asked.
"quite a few of them are based on real situations i've been in though i can't reveal any names yet. I think the biggest inspiration behind this album is the concept of home, you know? like as i travel and move from place to place there's no where that really feels like home anymore and thorough these songs i don't know they just- they feel like home."
and wow. Ren wasn't expecting that. she begrudgingly felt herself become more and more captivated by him. Ren mentally cursed himself because this wasn't supposed to happen.
"right," she breathed out. "so how do you think your fans- or really anyone that listens to the album will react?"
"good hopefully," Niall chuckled. "i've poured everything into this album so i'm really nervous to see how people respond."
Ren rolled her eyes as she read the next question to herself. "fans have been going crazy over photos of you and Selena gomez last month. any juicy details you wanna share?"
"no," he chuckled. "Sel and i are good friends. we collabed last year and got to know each other. she's a really great singer- amazing vocals."
Ren sighed again. "so there's been a small leak with a few of your songs how d'you feel?"
"i actually had no idea," he laughed. "but wow first i'd like to know how?"
ren shook her head. "really couldn't tell ya."
Niall reached forward and clicked he voice recorded off. he raised an eyebrow at her. "what's wrong?"
"these questions are shite!" she exclaimed. "this is clearly only a pr stunt. i cant- i'm sorry i cant write this."
"it's not that bad," he shrugged.
"i write for the rolling stone, Niall," she shook her head. "if this gets published like it's a gossip magazine then everyone's in trouble."
"well it is a Pr stunt," he clarified. "and this falls back on both of our managers."
"no," she sat up. ren turned the voice recorder on and opened a new page in her notebook. "in a past interview you mentioned that a lot of your music was inspired by classics like The eagles, Fleetewood mack, sinatra- why do you sing pop which is clearly the opposite of them?"
Niall chuckled wryly. "right so those are really who i grew up listening to and i guess i've always had dreams of becoming someone like them not necessarily being exactly who they are and i guess Pop is where i can succeed."
"okay," Ren smiled. "so do you have any advice for someone just starting out?"
Niall smiled. "the Industry is hard to break into so the most important thing to remember is don't give up. someone believes in you even if it doesn't seem like it. usually it gets harder before it gets better but it's all worth it when you get to do what you love."
"is this what you love?" ren asked. "i mean there have been times where you've felt discouraged? where it almost seemed like you'd give up?"
"yeah, actually," he cleared his throat. he sat up. "this happened about two years ago my mum she lost her battle to leukemia and it was probably the hardest thing i've ever gone through," he shook his head. "when she was gone it seemed like there wasn't a reason. for life. she was my world, you know? but as time went on i found that life got easier."
"you never- songs never came from that?" Ren asked.
Niall gave her a look. "my team said it wouldn't sell."
"so most of your career has been dictated by what would sell?" Ren asked.
Niall sighed, "you know you can't publish any of this right?"
ren shrugged. "just maybe i will. now answer the question."
"then yes. i'd say the sound i have now is mine- like properly mine. i wrote with some really amazing people and i guess basically i've produced this on my own without my team breathing down the neck. from the singles to-to the artwork, it's all really mine."
"so music is obviously your life..." she nodded.
"right," he agreed.
"but will there ever be a day that you just decide this isn't for me anymore? will you ever want to settle down and stay out of the lime light?"
"yeah of course," he nodded. "i probably won't quit altogether because performing is what i really love. i think a quiet life would be nice but only if i've got someone. it'd be nice with someone else but not alone."
"alright," ren breathed out. she turned her recorder off and slipped it into her purse. "thanks- i think i can make a proper article out of this now."
"ren please don't do anything to destroy my career," he gave her a worried look.
"i will consult my boss and he'll let me know what's acceptable. your people didn't blacklist anything so as far i'm concerned, it's their arses i'm burning."
"okay," he laughed. "stay for lunch?"
"i uh can't," she gave him an apologetic smile. "i've prior engagements but by all means let Rolling Stone pick up the tab."
"thats the least of my worries," he chuckled. "but thanks."
Niall's jaw clenched as he saw the photos of Charlie and Soren walking around new york. it wasn't fair. he angrily clicked through the pictures only stopping when he came across one of the two kissing, clearly unaware of the paparazzi snapping photos.
something's gotta give now.
as it turns out the only reason his team set up their interview was to get photos of them together. Niall was almost as mad at Ren.
so now, Ren was caught it this messy love triangle created by the media. Niall's fans boarded her twitter with all sorts of responses. it was then that she decided this wasn't gonna work.
"we have to talk," Ren announced as she walked into the recording studio. Liam, Julian, Harry and Niall all blinked at her like she was crazy.
it wasn't proper recording etiquette to barge in like this. is really messed with the flow which ren could honestly care less about.
"ren we're recording," liam told her. "well about to- you're really disrupting the creative process."
ren set an article from the sun down in front of Niall. "this has got to stop."
"what?" Niall asked.
'Soren Maude has been making waves with all sorts of boys the past month. she's been spotted with both Charlie Puth and Niall Horan in span of two hours. will she be our next Taylor Swift?! We've got our eye on you Soren! Ladies hide you man because she's not stopping now!'
Niall frowned, "well i can see where the problem lies now."
"the fact that i am dating neither of you. the fact that they're using my assumed sexuality as grounds for humiliation?" she cried. "does any of it make sense! no!"
"you're not dating Charlie?" Niall asked.
"no!" she cried. "i've told you over and over. i'm helping him with a song he's working on."
"so let's figure out how to get you out of this then," Niall nodded.
"how about..." Ren pulled her phone out and went straight to twitter.
'just a little disclaimer, i'm not dating. either way it doesn't constitute for scrutiny'
'a female can sleep with as many blokes or women she wants!!! it's not the medias job to scold us!!!!'
ren shoved her phone into her pocket. "there."
"okay well that was very poorly handled," Niall sighed. "my team was using you."
"using me? for what?" Ren asked, affronted.
"they thought that my name circulating with charlie's would be like good for business or something," he shrugged. "and they wanted me to go along with it- i refused but like now they're gonna be pissed."
"this is just unbelievable!" she exclaimed.
"o-okay," Harry stood up. "air?" he asked. "lets go walk it off, yeah?"
Ren shook her head, anger coursing through her. She loathed the industry. it's like being a woman meant being a walking target. being used!! like she's an object!!!
Harry guided Ren out the door. she shook her head, "harry I'm pissed. i'm so pissed. do you understand what's going on? i'm like- i'm * fuming!"
"i know," harry nodded. "i get it. it's frustrating but you can't change it. no one can. you just have to accept it because at the end of the day who you think you are can only be changed by those who affect you."
"okay shut it, harold," Ren huffed, looking away. "what do you know."
"a heck of a lot, actually," he chuckled. "just try to relax."
"i can't relax!" ren shouted.
"why does fake dating Niall hurt so much?" harry asked, confused. "like i don't understand why you're freaking out so much."
"because like- he'd never go for me, Harry," ren shook her head. "and now it just confirms that because i see the way he is. he doesn't want me, Harry. His fans definitely don't either so it being out there is just complete shite."
"you don't know that!" harry cried. "you have to tell him."
"i cant," she pulled away. "no way. ever. Niall can't know i fancy him."
Niall emerged from behind the big black doors of the recording room. He gave Ren a smile. "i talked to janice and things are... what's going on?"
"nothing," ren sighed. "i'm- im going."
"wait no," Niall grabbed Ren's hand. his eyes softened as he looked down at her. "what's wrong?"
"boy troubles," Harry answered for her. he shook his head empathetically.
"anything i can help with?" Niall asked, rubbing his thumb over Ren's knuckles. "you look really upset."
"no it's-it's nothing," Ren breathed out. "i'm fine. i just need some sleep and-and a glass of wine."
Niall nodded, "you'll text me if you need something, yeah?"
"i guess," she nodded, brows furrowed. "why're you being so nice to me? i just ruined your pr stunt and yelled at you."
Niall shrugged, "PR always fixes itself and well... you always yell at me. you don't mean anything by it."
"okay," ren replied quietly. she was still confused because here they were, Niall holding her hand. they were crossing the lines. Ren specifically draws lines and it was completely unfair that he-he just crosses them as if they don't even exist.
"and i think if this bloke, whoever he is doesn't recognize how amazing you are, than he definitely isn't worth it," Niall told her. he dropped her hand and smiled softly.
the irony. ren only hummed in response and muttered a quiet "thanks."
"so text me okay?" Niall asked, taking a couple steps back toward the doors. "i really mean it."
ren nodded, turning away. she let out a heavy sigh, slumping against the wall as Niall disappeared back inside. harry squeezed her hand and frowned empathetically. "text him."
Ren wound up at Louis's tiny apartment in Brooklyn. she was deeply distraught over the weird night she was having. Louis always knew how to cheer her up.
Louis opened the door and greeted her with a big hug. she relaxed against him, breathing out a deep sigh.
"everything okay?" Louis asked, smoothing her hair out. he rubbed her back, letting her hug him.
Ren pulled away only when his cat, Winston rubbed against her leg. she picked him up, kissing him on the head.
"i'm okay," she replied quietly.
"harry texted me," Louis told her, getting two wine glasses out of his cupboard. "says Niall did a number on you today."
"he held my hand, louis," she cried, setting winston down. "what does it mean?"
"like how'd he hold it?" louis asked, pouring her a glass of wine.
"like harry said i had some stuff going on and i said i was fine and then i tried to go but he grabbed my hand he rubbed my knuckles and proceeded to hold my hand for like two whole minutes."
"that's a tough one," louis nodded. "he really did wanna hold your hand, though. i think he was trying to like break the boundaries, you know? like you guys have always been pretty professional so maybe he wanted to show you he was interested without kissing you or something."
"no Louis," she replied quietly. she sipped her wine. "don't give me false hope."
Ren was seated right next to Niall at the showing for Harry's new movie Dunkirk. she was upset about it and somehow she thought it was the workings of Harry himself.
"you look great," Niall told her, looking her up and down.
"thanks," Ren smiled. she looked away. louis squeezed her hand reassuringly.
"okay?" Louis asked.
"perfect," she replied dryly.
Niall leaned forward, looking at ren. "guess what."
"what?" she asked, crossing her legs. she smoothed her dress out and tried not to focus too much on the way Niall looked at her.
"janice talked to your boss. next year when i tour, you're coming with me," he told her.
"um what?" Ren asked.
"it's part of a miniseries where about me and touring and the fans- it'll be so good," Niall smiled. "i'm really excited."
"no one even thought to consult me?" she asked. "like it's my career not hers, not yours. i don't even get a say?"
"i figured you'd be okay with it," Niall replied quietly. "i mean if you don't want to then we can cancel, i guess."
"that's not the point!" she exclaimed. "it's my life you're messing with. don't you have any consideration. i don't want to work with you, alright? it was a mistake to do it in the first place."
Niall winced. "ouch."
"look i don't think you get it," she sat up. "i cant work with you because... because."
the lights went down and the opening credits started. Ren mentally cursed, sitting back in her seat. she lost her chance.
"ren," Niall whispered, tapping her on the shoulder.
"shhhh!"
ren shook her head. "not now."
instead of focusing on the movie, all Ren could do was think about telling Niall. it was a pure moment of weakness because as the lights came back on she felt fear more than anything as Niall looked at her expectantly.
"no i can't tell you," ren took a step back. "i'm sorry
i-"
Ren couldn't do it. she was overwhelmed by Niall's big blue eyes. she shook her head stepping back again. "i'm sorry," she repeated before heading for the door.
Ren really didn't know what she got herself into. She didn't know how much longer she could act normal as she fell for Niall more and more with each passing day.
Ren all but blocked Niall from her life only turning towards his music for comfort which she really wasn't proud of.
the fall rolled around and soon enough Niall's album was out on full display. just listening to it, Ren's heart broke. he sang about heart break and love and home and things he wished he had. some songs brought tears to her eyes because she did that. she inspired that and she pushed that away.
Ren felt the self loathing coming on as she rolled out of bed. all of the thoughts were jumbled around in her head. her migraine was excruciating. the rain pounded down on the windows. Ren frowned, pulling a clean cup out of her cupboard. she turned the kettle on and slumped down in a chair.
Ren clicked through her notifications. she found twitter to be annoying these days. her follower count has gone up but the many of them are just dying for her to tweet someone even remotely related to Niall.
Ren shook her head, setting her phone down. she poured herself a cup of tea and started to get ready for her day. she had meetings lined up from nine up until seven when she could finally leave.
Ren flipped through her wardrobe only settling when she found a t-shirt dress that would come across dressy but in reality she could care less. Ren threw on a jean jacket and a pair of boots and deemed herself presentable.
and so it began.
the lot of Ren's meetings focused upon her image which was annoying. Her boss, Louise wouldn't let it go. especially after her blow up with niall- in front of a lot of important people.
Ren drug her feet all day. she sat through HR meetings and tech meetings and lectures about what good interview etiquette was. apparently co-writers were spotted getting friendly with a few of their sources.
Ren all but cried when she got into her car. it was definitely one of the hardest days of her life for some reason. Louis begged her to come out but Harry had already asked to look over some songs with her.
reluctantly, ren agreed. she brought louis along because really, life is hard without her person with her.
Ren nearly collapsed on harry's couch. she whined at harry to take her shoes off of her aching feet. harry with a roll of his eyes agreed.
only then did she realize that harry wasn't alone. Niall emerged from the bathroom, greeting her with a bright smile. "long time no see, eh? how's things?"
"fine," ren sat upright. she cleared her throat awkwardly, smoothing her dress out. "and with you?"
"good," Niall nodded. "will i see you at the album release party tomorrow?"
"dunno i might have plans or something," she shrugged.
"lies," louis shook his head. "we'll be there."
"sick!" he grinned. "i'll mark you two down."
Ren knew one day eventually she'd thank louis and harry for their interjections but right now, she was beyond aggravated with them.
"so here's a few songs i've been working on," harry handed her a couple of papers. "let me know what you think."
Ren read them over trying to forget how intensely niall was staring at her. it was distracting and Ren was sure her face was deceiving her as a hot blush made its way over her.
Ren shifted in her seat. Niall watched her.
"so these are good," ren nodded. "i really like the vibe you've got going on- little bit of heartbreak, little bit of john mayer. it works."
"thanks," harry smiled.
and niall thought it was so interesting how everyone around Ren just seeked her approval. he was a little curious and somehow proud because well... he didn't really know why. Niall got her approval sometimes and that made him proud too. with harry it seemed a bit different because he was much more experienced than Niall and he seemed more put together but as it turns out, Ren keeps people put together.
"what'd you study in uni?" Niall asked before he had time to stop himself.
"i studied journalism with a minor in songwriting. i ended up getting my bachelors in it a few years ago," ren nodded. "so i do know a little bit about music."
"i never knew that," he replied quietly. "so like you could potentially have a career song writing?"
"i guess," ren shrugged. "i would never, though. because writing is really what i love."
Niall nodded. "okay."
"so how about some drinks?" Harry asked, standing up.
"i'll have a red!" Ren replied almost immediately.
"do you have any white?" louis asked, sitting up. "red gives me nightmares."
harry laughed, nodding. He went to the kitchen to start the drinks.
"i'll help harry," Ren stood up. "Niall, a drink?"
"a beer is fine," he smiled, nodding. he watched Ren walk away flustered. she shook her head as she walked into the kitchen.
louis laughed, shaking his head. "i swear some things don't change. Ren was a proper nerd in high school. couldn't talk to blokes to save her life. even now."
"so who's the boy?" Niall asked, raising an eyebrow.
"ah," Louis laughed. "the million dollar question. i won't spill her secrets."
"is it someone I know?" Niall asked. "so i can make sure he stays the hell away from her."
louis let out a strangled groan, rubbing his face. "i can't tell. she'll kill me. i'm sorry."
"well if you tell me than i can promise you that you'll have harry wrapped around your little finger by the end of this month," Niall raised an eyebrow.
Louis was torn. he stood up. "a drink, Niall?"
Niall laughed, "come on!"
louis chuckled, sitting down. "Ren is special especially to me. she- she needs to do this on her own because like this bloke she likes is very special to her and her finally saying who it is would be like her overcoming a fear or obstacle or something. Ren needs this to better herself in a way."
"yeah but... she's so vague about it," Niall shrugged. "and i just don't see why it's a big deal if I know. you know and harry knows and even liam knows. i know we're not like best friends but i don't get why it has to be a big secret- oh." Niall's eyes widened.
Louis's eyes widened too- his in fear for what Ren would do to him. "Niall you can't- i didn't tell you! i did not utter those words to you, do you hear me?"
"she..." Niall trailed off. "i didn't think- i didn't think she fancied me. she's so standoffish sometimes and it really messes with me but fuck, louis. do you know what this means?"
"that i'm absolutely dead," Louis cried. "that i'll never get my person. that Ren will kill me before i even get to fall in love!"
"no!" Niall laughed, sitting up. "everything's gonna work out!"
Ren and Harry came back seconds later. Ren handed Niall his drink and sat back down across from him. Harry handed Louis his with a wink. (louis was melting)
"so what did i miss?" Harry asked, settling back in his seat.
"nothing much," Niall shrugged. "louis and i chatted about the album party."
"yeah?" harry asked. "should i bring a present?"
"for what?" Niall laughed.
"dunno," harry shrugged. "congratulations? i like to give gifts."
"gifts aren't necessary but i appreciate the thought," Niall smiled. "just bring yourself and i'll be thrilled."
"are you excited for the party?" louis asked, sitting up. "heard Beyoncé's gonna be there."
"yeah she is," Niall chuckled. "she's a good friend. i stayed with her and drake a few years ago. they're fuckin wild."
Ren finished her glass of wine and stood up, heading back into the kitchen. she came back with the bottle this time and promptly sat back down.
"rough day," harry explained.
Ren shook her head, "you've no idea."
"everything alright?" Niall asked.
"did you know that ignorant newly hired employees have caused lots and lots of pain for our office," Ren shook her head. "because of the habitual flirting, HR has decided that the sexual relations between interviewers and interviewees has been banned and so we sat through a three hour seminar on why it should be banned."
"so like... anyone you've ever interviewed?" Niall asked. "like you couldn't shag someone you interviewed."
"arse if i know," Ren shrugged, pouring another glass of wine. "i was watching netflix as the stupid bloke went over it."
"and apparently my image is hurting magazine sales," ren shook her head. she paused, chugging the glass of wine. "and so i've been put on temporary leave until things settle down."
"i had no idea..." Niall trailed off. "my team... they... it wasn't supposed to hurt you."
"well it did," she shrugged, pouring the last of the wine into her glass. she frowned, shaking her head. "the hell, harry? it's gone."
"i think that's enough anyways," Harry nodded. "remember what we talked about?"
"oh bugger off!" Ren shouted, leaning back. "i can drink as much as i very well please."
"yes well i was informed that you didn't want to embarrass yourself tonight," harry raised an eyebrow. "or did you just lie?"
"i don't bloody care!" ren cried. "i'm nearly fired, the boy i fancy barely even looks at me, my mum refuses to talk to me, what have i got to lose?"
Harry sighed, "ren."
ren finished her last glass of wine and grabbed her purse off of the table. "lou grab my shoes. i'll drive you home."
"no way in hell are you driving," louis stood up. he took her keys from her and tossed them to harry. "sit down, we're gonna be here for a long time."
"louis!" she whined stomping her feet. "i just wanna go home."
"i'll-i'll drive you," Niall stood up.
"no!" ren whined, trying to push him away.
Niall sighed. he picked Ren up, throwing her over his shoulder. he grabbed her shoes and her purse and headed for the door.
"let me go!" Ren shouted, kicking her feet. "everyone's gonna see me bum!"
Niall shook his head, opening the front door. "i'm taking you home."
"how do i know you won't kidnap me?" ren asked, voice softer.
"i promise," Niall told her. he set her down next to the passenger side of her car. he unlocked the door with an arm wrapped around her waist partly because he didn't trust her, and party because it was way too much fun to make Ren blush.
Niall buckled Ren in and closed the door. she looked angry but maybe it was just because Niall had taken her liberties away for two seconds.
Niall got in the car and sighed. "where do you live?"
"not telling," ren turned away, lips curling into a smile.
Niall laughed, "Ren, tell me."
"i forget," she shrugged, still smiling.
"you're not even drunk enough to forget," he laughed. "tell me."
"just drive and i'll tell you," Ren told him.
"i don't believe you but fine," he laughed, starting the car.
needless to say, ren was hungry so was it really her fault that she got her house and mcdonald's mixed up?
Niall shook his head, laughing. "ren this is mcdonald's."
she gasped, unbuckling her seatbelt. "what? i was almost positive this was my apartment."
"your hungry?" Niall asked.
Ren nodded, sitting up. she smiled so eagerly that like Niall couldn't possibly say no. Niall chuckled. "very well."
for a brief moment it felt like this was what he was meant to be doing. and then Niall felt a pang of sadness hit him because the chances of this happening were slim.
"you have to put your shoes on," Niall told her, handing her shoes.
ren rolled her eyes, begrudgingly taking them. "don't boss me around, alright?"
"whatever you say," Niall chuckled.
Niall and ren walked into Mcdonalds a few moments later. he thought for sure they'd be recognized. then they were.
"can i have two number ones, uh extra fries," Niall ordered. "ren what do you want?"
Ren laughed, leaning against the counter. "funny."
"no," Niall laughed. "uh also a chocolate milkshake, a large soda and hm... ren anything special you'd like?"
"i want a chocolate milk," she straightened up, smiling.
"how old are you," Niall asked, eyebrow raised.
"i'm twenty six!" she cried. "twenty six year olds and everyone can enjoy chocolate milk!"
"whatever you say," he laughed.
"what's this stigma with chocolate milk?" ren asked. "anyone over the age of seven is ostracized?"
Niall laughed, "for a second i was fooled that you were actually sober but now i'm not so sure."
ren rolled her eyes at him. "i need to call Louis."
"why?" Niall asked.
"to tell him where i'm at. i'm sure he's wondering why in the hell you've kidnapped me," ren shook her head. "he's gonna be pissed."
"the only one pissed is you," he laughed, taking her phone. he shoved it into his pocket. "we're gonna eat and then i'll take you home."
"sir, your order is ready," the cashier said, pointing to the food on the counter. "was there anything else you needed?"
"no i think we're good," Niall smiled. "thanks though."
"no problem," he smiled.
"and hey, i uh i saw you taking some photos just- don't post them for a while, yeah?" Niall asked.
"oh i uh- okay," he nodded.
"thanks," Niall smiled, handing ren the empty cup (as she was begging to hold something)
Niall knew he rags would get their hands on this and somehow he really didn't care. he knew ren would but that was just a problem to worry about tomorrow.
sure enough, when Niall woke up the next morning, their faces were plastered on the sun. Niall couldn't find it in himself to be bothered by it.
Ren looked more drunk than he realized as they walked into the restaurant. there were some good photos, he wouldn't lie. most of them was Ren hanging off of Niall or ren stealing Niall's food or Ren falling as they tried to leave.
ren rolled over, eyebrows furrowed. she smelled like fast food. for a moment she was confused before the events of last night came rushing back to her.
louis sat down next to Ren and chuckled. he leaned over and pulled a french fry out of her hair. "rough night?"
"just tell me how bad it is," Ren mumbled, pulling the sheets up to her chin.
"well," louis pulled her phone out. "i found it to be very endearing- Niall did too however the general public thinks it was hm unclassy? trashy? not cute."
"well i had a bad day," ren grumbled.
"fixed it," louis announced with a smile.
'bad days make for even drunker nights LOL soz.'
"wow you handled that with grace and nonchalance," ren snorted, sitting up. "oh bloody hell. niall's party is tonight isn't it?"
"it is," louis laughed. "and we're going now get up you've a meeting today."
"with who?" ren asked. "i got fired."
"you got fired?" louis asked, confused.
"well after last night i'm pretty sure i've been deemed unfit to represent the magazine," Ren shrugged.
"well it's with niall's producer, Liam and the sales director," Louis shrugged. "dunno. the meetings in a couple hours. shower yourself you smell like fast food."
Ren grunted, getting out of bed. "you're a really great friend, Lou."
"thanks peaches," he kissed her on the head. he frowned, pulling another french fry out of her messy curls. "seriously, ren did you bath in them last night?"
Ren laughed, "i wouldn't be surprised, honestly."
"so you are credited with helping Niall with six songs?" Jim, sales director asked.
"yeah i guess," ren nodded.
"yeah there was Wolves, Where do broke hearts go, erm Olivia, Never enough, Girl Almighty, and Better than words."
"right," Ren nodded. "yeah six."
"so here i have your royalties," Jim said, handing her a very large check. "i just need you to sign this paper stating that you've indeed received them and from here on out we can't be held accountable for the money."
"um okay," ren replied dumbly, she sighed the paper hesitantly.
Liam gave her a smile, "ya alright?"
"uh yeah," she chuckled. "i just- i didn't expect this."
"enjoy," Liam smiled. "go on a vacation. treat yourself."
"i think i just might," Ren chuckled. "thanks so much."
"no problem," Liam smiled. "will i see you tonight?"
"uh maybe," she shrugged. "dunno if Niall wants to be seen with me after last night."
"oh please," liam chuckled. "trust me, it's funny more than anything. don't worry about it. people will forget about it by next week. come. it'd mean a lot to niall."
"yeah i might," ren nodded, sitting back in her chair. and she just might have the time of her life tonight.
Louis and Ren showed up together. She wore a blue dress that louis said fit her in all the right places. she wasn't entirely convinced but that wasn't the point. Ren wanted to have some fun and Louis promised her a good time.
as soon as Harry spotted Louis, he dragged him away to talk to everyone. Ren went to the bar, ordering a martini. she sat down and drank it slowly. she was too sober to properly have fun especially with all of these important people around.
Ren spotted Beyoncé dancing with her husband and even Selena. Ren tried not to be jealous as she talked to Niall. he looked very interested in what she had to say.
Ren rolled her eyes, ordering another drink. Charlie sat down next to her with a grin. "drinking all by yourself?"
"yeah," she chuckled. "my friends went off. I think? not sure. i shouldn't have come."
"Niall horan parties are where it's at," Charlie told her.
"i guess," Ren shrugged. she looked around. "i feel like everyone's staring at me."
"oh," he chuckled. "the article?"
"you saw it too?" ren all but cried.
"yes," he laughed. "i can assure you they're all looking at you because of that dress and not that stupid article."
"right," she chuckled, standing up.
"charlie!" a voice shouted. ren cringed. she thought she was ready but really, she wasnt. "glad you could make it."
"wouldn't miss it for the world," charlie grinned.
"ren," Niall greeted her. "feeling better?"
"uh yeah," she forced out a smile. "i suppose."
"good," Niall smiled. "you look, great by the way. new dress?"
"yes actually," Ren played with the hem of her dress. "i seemed to have received quite a bit of money recently? know anything about it?"
"ah," Niall chuckled. "the royalties. they're treating you well i hope?"
"they are," ren nodded. "to a new dress and a fresh manicure," she held her hand up for proof.
"good i'm glad," Niall nodded.
"so..." charlie cleared his throat. "ren wanna dance?"
Niall watched her intently waiting for her answer. he held his breath. Ren looked torn. she frowned, setting her glass down.
"i uh-"
"come on you love this song!" charlie exclaimed. "remember when we-"
"charlie no," she shook her head. "i'm not really in a dancing mood."
"well come find me later," he told her, kissing her on the cheek.
“so you slept with him," Niall commented quietly.
"months ago before I’d ever met you- before I even wrote the article,” Ren told him. "i didn't sleep with him again it was just stupid i don't know why he'd bring it back up i told him it was..."
Niall wondered why Ren was so desperate to get him to believe her. well he knew. Niall wanted Ren to figure it out herself, as Louis had said.
"i believe you," Niall nodded, eyes softening. "charlie's a great guy and if you wanted to dance with him then i think you should."
"no i don't," she shook her head. "he'd just complicate things more. i'm trying to clean my image up, you know?"
Niall nodded, "yeah i get it."
"yeah," ren nodded. "i actually brought you something."
"no you didn't have to..." he trailed off.
Ren waved him off, reaching over the stool to grab the gift. she handed it to him with a smile. "it's nothing big."
Niall opened it carefully he smiled when he finally got all of the paper off. "ren."
"you left some of your notes behind and i was gonna give them back but i figured this was a bit nicer," she shrugged.
Ren framed a few of the lyrics they wrote together. it wasn't anything big but niall's heart swelled because Ren took the time to make it and she was excited to give it to him.
"thank you," he smiled. he pulled her into a tight hug. "this means a lot."
"no problem," she replied quietly.
"you know this album couldn't have happened without you," Niall told her. he set the picture frame down on the bar.
"that's not true," she shook her head.
"no it is, though. you were always there to push me and help me find these things within me. i've written the most vulnerable music because of you. i don't think i can ever repay you for that."
"Niall all of that was in you... you were just too afraid to go against the brand your team made for you," ren shook her head. "but i'm really proud of what you've become."
"thanks," Niall smiled. "so i was hoping you'd consider touring with me."
"i don't know," ren sighed. "there's some things i really have to do... for myself."
"it'd mean a lot..." Niall told her, voice filled with hope.
"at this point i'm not even sure i have a job anymore," ren shook her head. "and i've been doing a lot of thinking. i got a job offer in london to write for the Daily Mirror."
"but... Ren that's a tabloid," Niall furrowed his eyebrows.
"i know," she nodded. "but it's good money and-"
"but you have money," Niall argued. "the royalties- the money keeps coming from them."
"but the money is coming from you, Niall. i cant live a life knowing that where i'm at is just because of a few songs. it's like i owe you something."
"but working for a tabloid is like-is like a slap in the face don't you think? these magazines that have put you through hell, you're gonna go and work for?"
"i don't know what else to do!" she cried.
"take a break," Niall told her. "i can give you a job. a good one."
"but do you understand that you giving me a job is like- it's not what i want," she shook her head. "every time we end up sort of friends you-you always do stuff like this. why can't you just leave things be?"
"because i'm running out of excuses to see you!" he cried. "i try and i try but it's like- it's like you don't even care. i reach out and it's good for two seconds before you just close in on yourself."
"it's not as easy as you think," ren argued. "you're not exactly the easiest person to talk to."
"what's that supposed to mean?" Niall asked, offended.
"you're like- your mister popstar. you've got girls that follow you around and fans that would kill me if they could! you're not approachable and the signals you've sent me are confusing!"
okay. so Niall needed to send her explicit signals, ones that couldn't be confused for friendliness or platonicness. easy enough.
Ren was staring at niall, eyes wide with frustration. she looked like she was ready to burst. niall smiled.
"what are you smiling at?" she asked angrily.
"you," Niall replied softly.
"we are in the middle of a fight!" she yelled. "wipe that smile off of your face and argue back!"
in one swift motion, Niall stepped forward and cupped her face with one hand, her hip in another. she was nervous. Niall smiled one last time before catching her lips in a hesitant kiss. with her back pressed against the bar, Niall kissed ren the way he's imagined it so many times before. their lips moved together in sync and Niall thought this, this is what kisses are meant to be like.
Niall licked into Ren's mouth, tangling his hands through her hair. Niall was almost frantic as he kissed her. it was like the last four months of self control were coming out in full blast. Ren's soft fingers brushed against his neck and then his chin.
Ren pulled away with a blissed smile on her face. she brushed her thumb over niall's lips and kissed him one more time for good measure.
"let me... let me take care of you," Niall whispered. "write my book."
"what?" ren asked, eyebrows raised in confusion. "a book?"
Niall nodded. "i've read your articles and you've got an amazing writing style and my team has been on me about producing something personal that my fans will appreciate and i've been tossing the idea of a book around and- i want you to help me."
ren crossed her arms over her chest. "is this an excuse to see me?"
"yes," he breathed out, pulling her in by the hips. Niall kissed her again, this time more languidly without much purpose but to kiss her.
Liam pulled Niall away from Ren. "Niall."
Niall frowned. "what? i was in the middle of something."
"speech," Liam told him. he gave Ren an apologetic look. "sorry. the people are getting anxious."
Niall kissed Ren chastely on the lips. "this isn't over, understand?"
Ren raised an eyebrow, looking up at him. "are you telling me what to do?"
"yes," he told her. he kissed her again. "i am."
"you're lucky you're cute, you know that?" Ren shook her head.
"stop flirting!" Liam yelled, laughing. he had to physically drag Niall away from Ren because she was such a distraction to Niall.
a few days later, Ren found herself unabashedly at a cafe in new york city. they were sitting outside as the warm september air kept them cool. anyone could see them.
"so i don't know much about book writing," Ren told Niall. the waiter set a cup of coffee down in front of her. she smiled, "thank you."
"just think of it like a big interview," Niall offered. "it'll be easy."
"no it'll be a lot of headaches and a hell of a lot of coffee," Ren chuckled.
"yeah but like there's no deadline so it's finished when it's finished," Niall told her. he opened the menu with such nonchalance that Ren really wanted to kiss him senseless. "so you can come with me on tour."
"why do you want me to tour with you so bad?" Ren asked, leaning forward.
"because i feel guilty," Niall finally admitted. "because where you're at with your career is partly my fault. i mean, my team literally drove you to drink and i feel like i need to repay you for it."
"you don't need you to repay me for anything," Ren chuckled. "trust me. i've given you a lot of shite the past couple of months."
"i don't mind that," Niall shook his head. "but please think about it."
"i will," ren nodded. "but i'm not making any promises."
"and you'll write the book with me?" Niall asked hopefully.
Ren let out a deep sigh. her lips curled into a smile and she rolled her eyes. "fine."
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