#this dynamic is like catnip to me 😭

[crehador]

i'm being pandered to and i like it. i like it very much

[andorerso]

also something that really sticks out to me after watching andor and rogue one is just how much jyn and cassian choose each other and make each other better. like even with all the events in andor jyn does the one thing that even bix couldn’t do: she makes cassian truly believe in the rebellion! bix had to leave to do that and from the events of the finale it didn’t even seem to work… but jyn who cassian sees so much of himself in finally gets him to realize what the rebellion means and what it’s supposed to be and to me that’s what makes them such a delicious ship. they force each other to look at the darkest parts of themselves and better themselves and choose to be better and quite frankly bix literally never did that for cassian in the YEARS they known each other but jyn did it in literal DAYS (it feels like a day to me but i once read that R1 took place over a week or so) like if they had such a profound connection and inspired each other so much it just overshadows anything in cassians past if you ask me

I hear what you're saying but idk, to me, Cassian didn't need anyone to make him believe in the rebellion because he already did 😭 that was kinda the whole point of him

but Jyn definitely had a profound effect on him regardless. the way they challenge and inspire each other has ALWAYS been my favorite thing about them. there's a reason why the Eadu scene is what made me ship it officially. two people who are both so right and so wrong clashing together. that's like catnip to me.

and yeah, this is why Bix and Cassian fail as a relationship to me. especially when I compare it to Jyn and Cassian and see what it can be like. there's lots of different dynamics I like, it doesn't always have to be "they challenge and inspire each other". it can be that they make each other worse. it can be that they have good banter. it can be so many things, but they gave me nothing. I don't mean to insult anyone who liked their dynamic, good for you, but I genuinely mean it when I say it's one of the most soulless couples I've ever seen. I kinda have to wonder if the only reason Gilroy put them back together was so we could have the baby twist...

[thelonelyshore-if]

Hey found this if recently non-surprisingly and fell in love. As an older sibling myself the option to just jump in after Willow with no regard for yourself hit so hard, reminded me of a time when my little sister got herself in a precarious situation and my brotherly instincts kicked into overdrive. The whole I’ve gotta make sure they’re ok at the detriment to oneself. Especially if you don’t even have a good relation with your sibling, it speaks to complicated dynamics and familial expectations which is delicious. I’m absolutely looking forward to the whole mystery and horror, your writing is a delight!

Ahhh tysm for this ask, it's lovely 😭

I have my own share of brotherly instinct stories in regards to my younger siblings so I absolutely feel you haha. I'm glad that part could resonate!!

And yeah complicated family relationships my beloved. MC might not LIKE Willow but that instinct runs deep. Sibling relationships are like narrative catnip to me I can't resist. I'm very excited to keep exploring their dynamic as the story continues ^.^

I'm glad you're enjoying the writing!! I can't wait to dig deeper into the mystery and the horrors, as well <3

[impala124]

We Are : A show about friendship

One thing about me is that I'm a sucker for any media regarding friendship, add in a high school or university setting and then it becomes my own personal human catnip. So, it's no surprise that I really enjoyed this show. All the characters were likeable and the group dynamic was very fun.

Initially, I was expecting there to be a social commentary about how, even dreaming of making a career in the arts is for the priveleged few and the rest are forced to be cogs in the machine just for survival under the existing systems in place.

However, once I let go of that expectation, I began to appreciate the series for what it is. I just want to mention some relationship dynamics that stood out to me -

Peem and Q

Their relationship is the backbone of this series. Peem's conversation with his teacher about how he feels that his art is too simple when compared to Q's felt very honest.

Their conversation after Q finds out about Milkshake boy really tugged at my heart strings 😭 - Peem called out Q for acting out but he understood where Q was coming from.

Q and Toey

I really like how they included the backstory about Milkshake boy and Pencil Senior. It could've easily fallen flat like some junior being attracted to the talented senior who is mean to him. Also, sharpening his pencils - top-tier love language, Sir!!!

Tan and Fang

This couple is written for me. Let me simp in peace. Can we talk about how they met? Tan being a high school football player and Fang being the head of cheer for the opposite team - straight out of a Wattpad story and I ate it all up with a 🥄. Tan orchestrating a meeting with Fang and then not even trying to play it cool - he wanted everyone to know how whipped he is, and honestly, I love it.

I've heard some whispers about people thinking that Fang doesn't love Tan, and all I've gotta say is that those people better stay away from me!!

Notice how both Phum and Fang met their respective boyfriends by hitting them on their first meeting. They really said 'Fists at first sight!!!'😂

Chain and Pun

I legit thought that they were an established couple in the initial episodes. I love Pun, but, Sir, this is not how you snuggle with a friend!!!

And what is this?? You are sharing the space with your other friends!!! Control yourself.

My man Chain was very clear from the start - he was even ready to play Toey's pretend boyfriend without a moment of hesitation, just because Pun asked. If that doesn't tell you how down that man is, I don't know what will🤷‍♀️. Also Guin😍.

Pun, my beloved, also feels very strongly about Chain.

Let this look be the confirmation you've needed to believe that Pun wanted to be more than friends with Chain.

I wanted more of them. I wanted angst, suffering and resolution. Honestly, I wanted what WanBeer from Monster next door is giving me right now. Well, we can't have nice things now, can we? 😔

Random notes -

Beer is the only reason Phum and Peem are together. I wanted to know more about him. He is such a good friend to Phum and apparently he plays the drums too!! Hope that the fanfic writers have something for me here.

Kluen did nothing wrong. He just thought he had a meet-cute with Peem and wanted to see if it could become a full-blown romance. If anyone wants to spread hate against him, don't take it up with me.

The director definitely watched the dinner scene from Lady and the tramp one too many times and it shows😂.

Overall, I did feel like the show could've been edited down to 14 episodes to be more concise. It could just be me feeling that way because of the binging that I did lol.

[cyclogenesis]

im so curious what drew you to ryan reynolds was it an immediate upon watching thing or did it develop through time. honestly you've just about convinced me to also be weird about him

I love this question anon, yes please make me explain myself 🥲 I also have been looking at myself like "what are we doing over here guys" for the past few months so it's fair to ask. Doing the fic commentaries recently has reminded me that I really missed just writing down my thoughts Livejournal-style, so. In this essay I will, but it's actually going to be an essay (no, I'm serious) and I in fact will. 😭

I left DP&W thinking I was walking into a Hugh Jackman phase but instead we got home and rewatched Wolverine: Origins and then DP1 and Ryan's big brown eyes and murder twink smirk/sad boy journey enchanted me irreparably. And I absolutely had seen both of those movies before! And thought he was hot, you know, and liked him as an actor dating back to I think Blade: Trinity (which is a masterpiece if your qualification for a masterpiece is Ryan Reynolds shirtless and shackled to the floor. and that's my qualification for a masterpiece. can someone please gif the horny parts of that movie I Need them). I think probably the fact that he was a co-writer on DP&W is what tipped me over because writing talent is tremendously hot to me but also I don't know. You know? Sometimes the hyperfixations make sense and you're like of course, this is catnip to me, I am physiologically inclined to roll around in it, and other times you're like this? This? Are we sure? And the dopamine gremlins running around in circles in your skull are like "yeah! yeah! yeah!" and you gotta just be like okay. Alright, I guess we're gonna think about this and giggle a lot.

But I've had many an actor crush and few of those have resulted in deeply sincere RPF. So I went looking for Ryan/Hugh fic after watching a little bit of stuff with the two of them and being like oh there is a Dynamic here. And there wasn't much so I just kinda kept reading Wade/Logan but also like watching/rewatching Ryan's older stuff and looking at Ryan/Hugh things until like...

Just, okay. Here are a bunch of facts: The story is that Wesley Snipes and Ryan had disagreements on the set of Blade: Trinity because Ryan would ad-lib lines a lot and Wesley found that annoying. But Ryan's talked before about not actually being an ad-lib guy really - he just comes up with different things for his characters to say and like keeps these options back of mind while working, which is interesting. And the thing about the character of Hannibal King in that movie is that his like first line is about liking older men. And then for the rest of the movie he just gets beat up a lot (awesome!) while making these gay little comments like an aggro murder twunk. (Masterpiece.)

And then - then - he wrote the entirety of Wade's lines for Wolverine: Origins! Of which there are famously few, so they had to count. And I guess that's why one of those lines is about how if they get stuck in that elevator, all of his fellow team members are going to fucking gangbang him. Girl, are you good. 😭

Just wild to walk away from that and then spend the next several years working to get real Deadpool onscreen so he could continue to play and eventually write this bisexual-ass character, complete with all the horny Wolverine references even as he's locking Hugh down into a common law friendship marriage. I'm too lazy to grab the source but there's this one interview where Hugh talks about how he was filming in Atlanta one year (2018? maybe?) and had no plans for his birthday so Ryan flew down to Georgia from New York to take him out for a steak dinner. Like...like. I don't know. I'd do crazy shit if I were rich too, but. I mean. I don't know, I had to learn about this and now you have to deal with it too. GOD.

Listen, I don't really know how friendship works between men. I don't know what the hell boiling in the societal stew of toxic masculinity and compulsive heterosexuality does to a man's brain. I just think it's interesting to be really close friends with a guy for almost two decades, dreaming all the while about getting to work with him again, finally convincing him to do it, and then proceeding to co-write a script where your character flirts constantly with his, the two of you get to pounce aggressively onto each other over and over again in an extremely confined space in the most fighting as a stand-in for sex scene I've ever seen in my life, and then at the end your characters basically get a Happily Ever After.

And then you can't wait two fucking seconds before writing another project so you can work with him again, like!!! Am I making this up?? Am I tripping balls over here??? God!!!!

Have they tried kissing? Just to see what it's like??? Like at what point is it more awkward not to?

Jesus. Okay, I'm fine. Anyway, as I've said before, I walked out of DP&W asking myself and everyone else the question: Does Ryan Reynolds know it's legal to just be bisexual? And I still kind of think the answer is no. Somebody needs to tell him.

I also (and this is somehow more embarrassing than all of the preceding paragraphs, believe it or not) have a lot of sympathy for him - a guy who, I recognize, has a pretty great life! and does not need my sympathy! - because he's clearly really sensitive, in this way that has me like, oh honey no you don't have to respond to people picking on you, you're never going to convince them to be fair to you because they don't want to be fair to you. I have had bad times in my life where some people (strangers!) have just been fucking desperate to dislike me - to mischaracterize my actions, to deliberately misinterpret things I say, to belittle my work - and I am so familiar with how defensive that can make you feel, like if you just explain where you're coming from well enough you can make these people see that you're a human being just like they are, that you can make them understand. (And then quit picking on you. Because it sucks when people are mean.)

In a lot of understandable ways Ryan is so guarded but then also just this raw nerve! It almost seems like he's gotten more delicate as he's gotten older which is incredible. He makes his vulnerabilities so apparent in this brutally sincere way. I feel like usually when celebrities get shirty about something they sound like assholes but Ryan just sounds pleading. Like, the sort of desperate way that he talks about the movies he's been in that he knows are bad, because if you get out in front of it then it's like haha! You can't tell me I was in bad movies because I said it already! So it won't hurt my feelings now if you say they're bad!

I don't know, again it's just like I get it! It was a hard lesson for me to learn that some people are just never going to like you, and it's often going to be for completely unfair reasons that are based more on their own projecting than on anything you've actually done. It's frustrating as fuck. And if it is for things you've done, even something as morally benign as being in a bad movie, you have to let everyone know you're aware of it so they can't strike first. It's a lot to carry, that insecurity that no matter how successful you are, and how many people like you - maybe the assholes are right. So if you can convince them that they're wrong, and they're being unfair to you, maybe you can convince yourself too.

(Sidebar to explain myself because I have obviously been hurt before um lol: As a fic writer I approach characterization the same way whether it's media fic or RPF - I look at the canon, which in the case of RPF is interviews/social media/whatever art they make, and I extrapolate character based on what's in front of me. So whether the characters are fiction or not there's always going to be elements of projection/what I want to see as I filter things through the lens of my own experience. Please go ahead and bask in the irony of me, right here, trying to get out in front of any criticism I might get for projecting or being parasocial here or whatever. Sure I am. Guilty as charged. Love me or leave me. GOD lmao)

Also honestly watch or read any longer interview (the Actors on Actors with Andrew Garfield is fantastic, as is this one with Shawn Levy) and it's like immediately clear that he is REALLY smart and thoughtful - I just have to excerpt a bit from the latter sorry -

And going into the movie, we felt we had a lot to prove to Marvel and Disney. It’s the first big Fox property, after Disney bought the studio, to be R-rated. We had to write a movie that was a four- quadrant R-rated movie. That’s a hard thing to do. In order to do that, I’m not a big poetry person, but Keats talks about all the stitching and unstitching you do to make it feel like a moment’s thought. And that’s what is.

"Not a big poetry person" totally has a Keats reference off the dome like okay...but anyway. It's so enthralling to me how much of him is like right there on the surface for longer interviews like these. He's talked about having to put on a character to get through things like junkets, talk show appearances, stuff like that, and he's great at turning on the charm. But outside of that this guy is serious, and clearly feels the weight of various expectations like, all of the time, and puts a ton of consideration into his work and what he's creating.

He wants to make things people like and he wants people to like him and there's, to me, this really refreshing lack of ego in that, especially for someone in the position that he's in. And the people that he's worked with, from co-stars on down, have nothing but good things to say about him. (I read way too much celeb gossip on Reddit and I swear every time some rando hater wants to talk about how they think he's secretly a dick or whatever you'll see at least a couple of people pop up who've actually worked with him or know people who have and every time they're like No actually he's really nice. Great guy. And I knowww it's dangerous to ever believe a famous man is Pretty Good but, you know. Not idolizing, just hornily appreciating. In exhausting detail. I cannot stress this enough: You asked.)

So. Like. Okay. *falls over* Obviously he's been hot for decades (late 20s/early 30s being a highlight, but honestly the grey hair when he lets it happen now works for me baaaad), and his naturally lanky/never too over-the-top muscular body turns me into a slavering feral dog, but I also find him psychologically fascinating and I want to study him in a lab. I am deeply flattered that I've even almost convinced you to be weird about him too because I recognize that I'm reaching new heights(/depths??) of...whatever the hell I've got going on over here. Absolutely a part of this is me clinging to anything that occupies my brain in a positive way after the worst five months of my entire life. (Look at me! I'm like so don't be mean to me please 🥺. Sigh of determined self-acceptance.)

This will continue indefinitely. I'm having a ball in this bitch tbh, I love loving things, especially men with hipbones carved out of marble who look hot when they're sad. Please tell me if I've been in any way convincing. Thank you for asking and I'm not sorry this is so long. I had a good time.

[lostcauses-noregrets]

Lost help 😩😩 A sizable number of eruris also seem to enjoy zevi but I just can't get behind it 😭😭 I don't even get the appeal (can you actually explain it to me like actually actually 😭😭) My dislike for Zeke > content from authors I enjoy 😓😓 Zeke is so cold, heartless, and selfish. Like, his mind is stuck in his own selfmade diy echo chamber 😵‍💫😵‍💫 The Levi of my-own-interpretations wouldn't ever get with someone who doesn't value human life like Zeke. Some people may think "Well, Erwin doesn't value human life either" but we see Erwin suffering from guilt. If he thought of his comrades as anything less than human, we wouldn't see him being burdened by his decisions 😶😶He shoulders the responsibility of his decisions and is keenly aware that his decisions and commands sometimes lead to deaths of many. We literally him standing on a pile of corpses in his own mind 😩😩 If he saw his comrades as mere pawns in his quest for Truth, he wouldn't be affected by any lives lost. Idk it irks me when I see people equating Zeke to Erwin, and I see Zeke and Levi's relationship as hostile more than anything 😵😵

I’m not sure I’m the best person to explain the attraction of Zevi! To say I’m not a fan of Zeke would be the understatement of the century, and I have the #zevi tag blocked on all my socials. Having said that, I can kinda see why Zevi is catnip to some fans. Whichever way you look at it, Erwin, Levi and Zeke’s stories are entangled in canon and Levi and Zeke have a very powerful antagonistic relationship. Not only did Zeke kill Erwin, but he is the living embodiment of Levi’s vow.  That kind of relationship is a gift to fic writers. Added to which, Zeke, he is a really well-written complex character with considerable depth. For some fans it’s just a straight up case of hate shipping.  Hate shipping isn’t my thing, but it’s as old as fandom and I’m not going to judge anyone who is into it.  More often than not in Eruri fics Zeke is a convenient plot device.  He often appears as Levi’s abusive and / or manipulative current or ex partner. (I’ve never been entirely convinced by this scenario, but whatever.) This enables Erwin to ”save” Levi. In some cases he might be the knight in shining armour who rescues Levi from his abusive partner. In others, he enables Levi to see for himself what a piece of shit Zeke really is, giving him the motivation and courage to leave and move on. 

Although I try to avoid Zevi like the plague, I have read a few fics by authors I admire that feature past Zevi. One fic I love, which isn’t past Zevi, but which really gets to the heart of Levi and Zeke’s complicated relationship is When in doubt, use violence by no_tengo_porque Levi and Zeke have a really antagonistic relationship from the moment they meet, however they are drawn to each other for reasons Levi doesn’t initially understand. I won’t spoil it for anyone who hasn’t read it, but it’s a really interesting dynamic. 

Comparing Erwin to Zeke makes no sense to me at all though.  They are polar opposites in many ways.  Killing is a game to Zeke, and he actively seems to revel in it at times, whereas Erwin is plagued by guilt over every death under his command. Zeke is egotistical and remains stubbornly convinced that his own plan is the right one, while Erwin sees his own actions in the worst possible light and believes he is a fraud for pursuing his own dream (despite the fact it aligns with Saving Humanity.) They really couldn’t be more different. 

I guess at the end of the day we all interpret these characters differently and we all have our own preferences, likes and dislikes. I dislike Zevi intensely, but if other Eruri authors enjoy it for whatever reason, I’m not going to judge, I just quietly filter out those works and move on.

[funnywormz]

top 5 hotelpod characters

OH MAN THIS IS SO HARD. this is hurting me. ok

1 - the manager

i feel like this one is obvious for me lol. she is my number one of all time. my silly rabbit my scary girl woman creature thing. i love her so much. i'm always a sucker for characters who try to be serious and stoic but are like two seconds away from cracking and she fills that role very well. i think she is so cool and i love her so much

2 - the lobby boy

what can i say. he's gross and pathetic and a little scary without realising it and he's such a fun character. a guy of all time for sure. love that weird boy

3 - the auditor

she's been creeping up higher and higher on the favs list lately. i really like her a lot. kinda pathetic but also badass to offset it. she's probably expressed anguish the most openly out of any of the crew so far in her new crew episodes which is something i find rlly fascinating. also i'm not immune to weirdo women ever and the insect/fly motifs with her are like catnip for me i fucking love insects and creatures

4 - the bellhop

MEAT GIRL. she's crazy i love her. takes the most open pleasure out of the guests' deaths compared to any of the other crew members. she's just having fun and smiling and giggling and a little silly. my scrumply

5 - the owner/the concierge

OK I HAD TO MAKE THESE TWO TIE BC I GENUINELY COULDN'T CHOOSE. the owner is so fun he's so grumpy and i love the earlier seasons when he just terrorises the lobby boy for no fucking reason all the time. thinks he's the hotel's special boy. a Bird. i like him. cierge is so fun also i love the detached and bemused air he surveys everything with. a silly. currently seems the most well balanced of all of the crew but i know he is going to snap sooner or later and i look forward to it. he's also the most aesthetically appreciative of all the staff and i love descriptions from his pov bc they're always full of beautiful little details. i also love his dynamic with hop and how he's like....... the only thing keeping her from snapping the guest's neck the minute they walk in the room lol

sorry for not including madam hotel here 😭i love her too so so much but the crew are just so special to me i'm sorry............... if she killed me rn i would deserve it i'm sorry miss hotel......... i love u.............

[saltwaterconfessions]

okay y'all i'm over on twitter here and i make quite a few mini threads about headcanons or things i'm thinking about, but i wanted y'all to have them too!! so here's the collection from this past month.

oh god. it could be canon or au. gideon who carries tissues or a hanky for harrow's stress/necromantic overload nosebleeds....... yeah 😭

working this hc into my fic but y'all..... harrow painting her nails, sitting on the floor, minding her business. gideon coming home & plopping down next to her, offering her hands. harrow likes to get a little fancy w her nails - she's grown them out, she likes dark jewel tones but for gideon she does a straightforward black. takes her hands, preps her nails, bites her tongue on a joke about how short she keeps them, listens to gideon's stories about her day as she applies the nail polish. gideon won't care if the paint's messy but harrow makes them neat and pristine, carefully wipes away any excess. her own nails are almost perfect so gideon's should be the same. nothing but the best for her best friend ❤ meanwhile she's viciously ignoring her impulse to lean up and kiss gideon's temple or cheek or jaw. it's right there and gideon is just such a stunning person. harrow hurts when she thinks about it. this is what they have and she won't change it for anything. but God, the empty hollow of her wanting is. it's hard to manage. she knows how to live with the ache, though. it's fine. she's fine. (gideon loves her, of course, gideon is made of love and it colors every relationship she has. she would do anything for harrow. anything, but especially keep her feelings locked down tight. this is what they have and she won't ask for more. that'd be a dick move on her part.)

it ruins my life that all harrow ever had to do was OPEN HER MOUTH. TRY TO TRUST SOMEONE. ASK FOR HELP. COMMUNICATE. her relationship with gideon blooms as soon as they leave the Ninth. gideon's capacity for loyalty was ALWAYS THERE HARROW JUST DIDN'T DESERVE IT. it ruins me. this is also so fascinating to me because it's a duality. at the same time that their relationship becomes something New and Lovely away from their trauma, gtn is also a corruption arc and the cav/necro dynamic that gideon sacrifices herself for IS AWFUL. HORRIBLE. EXPLOITATIVE. and honestly this deserves like, a whole fucking essay, but the capacity for duality in this series is. like it's so stunning to me rn and i think it's so valuable. the text has room for both things to be true. (ALSO!! i do want to write about this at some point but i need to sit with it and figure out how best to express what i mean!)

im sorry to be problematic but i think possessiveness is sexy. the idea of harrow HATING cytherea from the very first second she gets her hands on HARROW'S CAV. harrow wanting to rip that bitch apart the whole time they're at canaan. resenting the fuck out of gideon's attachment to her. knowing the cav is dead but not knowing For Why. not being able to express her fears or gain gideon's trust until it's way too late. finally saying STEP OFF BITCH as her and her cav bring hell. it's just so fuckin g TASTY.

muir's use of character voice just. like i KNOW it's a very basic aspect of her writing style but i'm so enamored with it. gtn vs the end of gtn. the 2nd pov of htn vs the canaan chapters vs the end of htn vs the epilogue. as yet unsent. the catnip of her writing- IT GETS ME!

i will and first love / late spring by mitski are griddlehark songs

honey by halsey is a griddlehark song and i'm not a woman, i'm a god by halsey is a Harrow song but Spicy. maybe even a Harrow Nova song. first of all, "i am not a woman i'm a god" feels like a Gender Mood for our local "best necromancer of her generation." good enough reason for me! but secondly, the chorus is defiant in a way that feels like a Harrow who would push back against the war crime of her existence. a Harrow who doesn't carry the obligation to her House and role as the Reverend Daughter.