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Ares Grey | College Professor | Hopeless

[blackfemmecharacterdependency]

Today is Black Femme Character Dependency's 3rd Year!!!

A History: Funny enough, it began for friends. I was one of the oldest people in the Henry Danger fandom and had a lot of Black friends there who, when the show ended felt like the Black female character hadn't really gotten what they wanted out of the finale, but I was more concerned about if we'd still gather and stuff if we didn't have any common fandom to unite through.

After a few conversations about Black female characters in general (and us not having too many fandoms all in common), I decided that I'd make this space as a gift to my friends where they would be able to have Black female and feminine characters collected in one safe space to reblog or discuss without having to worry much about fandom racism or "colorblindness."

So frequently, some of the things I reblog are not of fandoms I'm a part of because its stuff that friends asked for, and I do the drudging through tags to find rebloggable content for them.

Then so many other people began to follow, which is pretty dope, though at the end of the day, it's still a place where me and my homies can have things that pertain to these types of characters that are often widely overlooked or underappreciated within their fandom spaces.

I copy and pasted my response from messages between myself and a follower. I thought today could be the perfect day to answer this question for anybody who wishes to know.

[crownofgildedlilies]

oh, don't let your sunshine burn me!

in which: a son of hephaestus discovers a problem he can't solve. mainly, a daughter apollo who doesn't realize just how much her smiles hurt him.

pairing: leo valdez x daughter of apollo!reader

warnings: not proof read, slight cursing (otherwise, n/a)

tropes: friends to lovers, fluff, pining

word count: 3k

notes: my inaugural fic post on this blog. how special. plz enjoy. feedback is much appreciated.

Leo Valdez was going to lose his mind.

Or maybe a limb. Maybe that would get your attention. He wasn't going to pretend that he wasn't that desperate for you to turn your focus to him.

Stupid Garrett from stupid Ares. Why did he have to go and nearly get his head chopped off by Clarisse while sparring, stealing his thunder?

He should have done more than let his finger slip while hammering away in bunker nine. An exciting injury would have earned the most prized reward of your attention, for sure.

"Are you sure she's too busy?" Leo asked Will for probably four times too many to be considered casual. The blond only rolled his eyes and shoved an icepack into Leo's chest, nearly knocking him back a step, snapping him from his far too obvious admiring of you.

Even from across the infirmary, three hours into your shift, you stole the wind from his lungs. He was convinced you were a favorite of Apollo's, what with the way you glowed and lit up every room you were in.

Which is how he ended up in his current predicament. Absolutely desperate for any hint of your sunshine smile sent in his direction.

"Positive. Now, get out." Will confirmed, checking things off on his clipboard. Leo figured he was probably recording basic information like the patient—himself—had all his limbs, both eyes, ten fingers, and was practically drooling at his half-sister. Leo darted another glance across the room to you, still diligently assessing moronic Garrett from Ares who had been brain dead enough to accept Clarisse's offer of sparring.

Why were you blushing so much?

Something awful and too familiar twisted in his stomach, and all Leo could hear was Piper's voice telling him that he better make his move on you soon, because you were too sweet and too pretty to remain single much longer.

"When's her break again?" Leo asked, ignoring the way Will tipped his head back and closed his eyes, like he was praying for the strength to not hit his patient while under his care.

"And you can't ask her yourself because...?" Will prompted, dragging out the final word and forcing Leo to snap his attention towards the son of Apollo, his jaw practically open in shock.

"Because then she'll know I'm totally into her!" Leo whisper-shouted, waving his hands around as if to emphasize his point.

"You come in here everyday with a new injury asking for her to fix you up." Will pointed out, voice flat. "If she hasn't figured it out yet, I'm not sure she will. You should probably just be direct and ask her out."

Leo narrowed his eyes at Will, but on a rare miracle, he was at a loss for words. Maybe Will had a point. Leo was never exactly good at being subtle about his many, many, crushes, and if you hadn't realized he was hopelessly in love with you yet, then maybe he was safe from feeling the sting of your rejection.

"You're not going to talk to her, are you?" Will sighed, tilting his head slightly as he studied Leo, who, despite having already been given the magic remedy of an ice pack, remained perched on the side of a cot used as a medic's bed.

Leo shook his head side-to-side so quickly Will was a blur of blond hair and orange t-shirt in front of him.

"No can do." Leo said solemnly. "She's miles out of my league. Not even I'm stupid enough to think I have a shot with her."

"Well, at least Garrett isn't as oblivious as you," Will shrugged, shooting Leo a pointed look he didn't understand. The ugly feeling was back in Leo's stomach as he darted his attention towards you and the gods-damned son of Ares.

You were laughing, and Leo wasn't the cause.

Jealousy flared up in him.

You, on the other hand, were completely ignorant to the conversation occurring on the opposite side of the infirmary, far too engrossed in charismatic Garrett from Ares who was retelling the story of how Clarisse had knocked him on his ass and sent him to get bandaged up.

For a child of the war god, he was surprisingly graceful in his defeat.

"Next time, at least bring a shield with you." You smiled at Garrett, checking off the final few items on your clipboard. No major injuries towards his limbs, nor his ten fingers, neither of his eyes had been affected, and he was able to hold a proper conversation with you. "Otherwise I've got nothing else for you. Just an order to take the rest of the day easy."

"I can manage that," Garrett relented, which, for a demigod, was a pretty big ask. Taking it easy was never really an option when one of your parents was a god or goddess. "Hey, any particular reason Valdez is looking at me like he's going to send one of his inventions after me?"

Your heart skipped a beat, but you forced yourself to act casual as you turned around slightly, finding that Leo had in fact found his way into the infirmary and in fact was staring at Garrett like he might make a good snack for Festus.

You had been starting to worry, thinking that maybe he wasn't going to show up that day.

"Dunno," You shrugged, ducking your face into your clipboard so you didn't have to look at Leo, or Garrett, or Will—who was sending you a look that was both pointed and annoyed at the same time. "But you're set to go."

"Perfect," Garrett jumped off of the examination bed, acting like he hadn't been carried in by two of his half-brothers, a sly grin on his face. "You sure that's not jealousy on Valdez's face?"

"What? Why would Leo be jealous?" You were ashamed to admit you stumbled over your words, your face turning a vibrant shade of red, as you considered the implication of Garrett's words. That Leo might have been into you, enough that just the sight of you talking to Garrett might have been enough to turn his mood sour. "We're just friends."

"Sure," Garrett grinned wickedly, the kind of grin only children of Ares could ever create. The kind that told he totally didn't believe her rushed dismissal of his words. "All I want is an invitation to the wedding. Talk to you later!"

Garrett darted off before you could swat at him with your clipboard, your face flushed with embarrassment. Gods, were you really that obvious in your crush on Leo?

Sure, he came into the infirmary just about every day you were working, with some minor injury or another for you to tend to. And maybe you took a little longer to heal him than you did when Percy or the Stolls came in, were a little sweeter, but were you so transparent that even Garrett from Ares knew what you felt?

"For the love of all the gods and goddesses, would you please just go talk to him?" Will grumbled, borderline exhausted, as he appeared at your side. You jumped, nearly lost in thought, and narrowed your sunshine stare at your half-brother. "He won't leave until he gets the chance to brag to you about his latest made-up injury."

You didn't have to ask who Will was talking about. Leo was still watching you from across the room, rather impatiently. He'd managed to find a few loose bolts and washers and was currently inventing something you couldn't comprehend while he stared very pointedly at the ground by your feet, having averted his stare the moment you darted yours in his direction.

"Shut up," You mumbled to Will, but regardless you dashed off across the room with what felt like permission to engage in your favorite part of the day.

You had received Apollo's gifts of healing, not his poetic words. And every day you cursed that fact, because never could you put into words just how much being around Leo Valdez made you feel centered within yourself. It was like his very personality gave you permission to the version of you that was nearly lost to time and circumstance and the tragedy of being a Greek hero.

"What's the problem today?" You grinned, the smile your half-siblings claimed shined brightest in the camp plastered on your face almost of its own accord as you stood before Leo.

"My hand, Doc." He sighed, playing along and holding up his left hand while the right shoved the ice pack Will had already given him behind his back. You snorted a laugh, and Leo's grin broke out from the solemn facade he had attempted. "I don't know if I'll ever be able to work again if you don't help me."

"Well there's only one solution," You nodded, pretending to read something off of your clipboard—which was still filled out with Garrett's information.

"Anything you recommend is good with me," Leo leaned closer, trying to read over the edge of your clipboard, which you quickly tugged close to your body.

"Right, I've got it." You grinned, dropping your face closer to his, almost like your heart was in control of your body instead of your mind. Leo nodded, and you would have sworn you saw his gaze shoot to your lips for the briefest of seconds. "Amputation. Mr. Valdez, I'm afraid we're going to have to take your hand off."

"But, that's my pretty hand!" Leo protested, playing into your joke quickly. You couldn't even pretend to hide your smile, laughter falling past your lips just as easily as breathing.

"Then I'm afraid there's nothing else we can do for you." You shook your head, grinning widely at Leo, who was—for a guy with ADHD as severe as him—giving you his full attention. "You're free to go. I'll see you and your pretty hand at the bonfire tonight."

"Glad to hear you agree that my hand is pretty." Leo slid off of the examination bed with a grin that had you flushing and looking over the contents of your clipboard simply for something to do with your eyes. "See you later, Doc."

Waving, you sent Leo off.

Over the course of the following week, Leo had found himself at the infirmary—during your shifts only—six more times.

Three smashed fingers from equipment you knew for a fact he knew how to handle properly. One cut to his arm from a piece of scrap metal. A paper cut.

On Thursday, he came in complaining of a serious burn.

"Doc, you'll never believe it. My whole arm caught on fire."

Will hadn't let him into the infirmary, claiming that Leo needed a better lie than that to come visit, since everyone already knew he was fireproof.

Leo came back fifteen minutes later with a second paper cut. Will took his break an hour early, claiming he needed to for his sanity.

But then you didn't so much as catch a glimpse of Leo for four straight days.

You felt more than a little pathetic, jumping every time the door to the infirmary opened, hoping against hope that it would be the curly haired son of Hephaestus you so adored.

On the afternoon of the fifth day, the door opened and you couldn't stop the way your body instinctively twisted around from where you words repacking first aide kits that were left in various locations around camp.

But it wasn't Leo standing at the door, but Piper.

You weren't the closest with her, but you were friendly. So you didn't think she was there for you, at first, until you saw her talking to your half-sister Stella and pointing towards you.

"Hey," Piper's voice had an edge of seriousness to it that snagged your attention, halting your efforts of resupplying. "I was wondering if I could ask a favor of you."

"Okay...?" You trailed off, not sure what she could have needed from you.

"Would you be willing to talk to Leo for me? He's in Bunker Nine, convinced he's going to make some big breakthrough on whatever machine he's currently working on." Piper explained and you nodded slowly, not seeing the problem. From your conversations with Leo, he always seemed to be in the middle of some big breakthrough. "He hadn't come out in four days. It's not healthy."

You frowned, trying to recall the last time you'd seen Leo at any of the meals. And when your mind came up blank, you settled on your answer to Piper's request.

"I'll talk to him."

You had never been to Bunker Nine.

As much as you talked to Leo, pretty much everyday, it was always in yours and shared spaces. The infirmary, mainly, but every once in a while at the dining pavilion or at the camp bonfires.

But you could barely focus on any one thing in the bunker. Half-finished projects littered the space, along with countless tools, scraps, and blueprints tacked haphazardly against walls and bulletin boards.

Since it was nearly dinner, the bunker had cleared out of all but one of its occupants. Perched over a table, working so diligently he didn't hear you approach, was none other than Leo Valdez.

Without thinking of the consequences, you dropped the canvas bag you had brought with you on his worktable, startling him so much he jumped in surprise and nearly sent his latest project clattering to the floor.

"Gods!" He shouted, wide eyed and hand pressed to his chest as if he could physically calm his racing heart. You couldn't help the way you grinned, a little lopsided, wholly endeared by him. "Sorry, were you trying to kill me? Because, if so, mission almost accomplished!"

"Actually, the opposite." With a confidence you didn't really possess, you leaned against the worktable next to him and started pulling tinfoil wrapped sandwiches out of the bag. "Everyone's convinced I'm your appointed caretaker, since you don't seem to do it yourself."

Leo had the good sense to seem chastised by the glare you sent him following your words. It wasn't like he could deny it, anyways. How many times had he ended up on your patient list?

"Did Jason put you up to this?"

"Piper," You confirmed, pushing a wrapped sandwich across the table towards him. Next out of the bag was a metal bowl, the bottom slightly charred and filled with paper scraps and twigs. "Light this for me, will you, please?"

"Well, when you ask so nicely," Leo grinned, a ball of flame forming in his palm and igniting the twigs in the bowl. Without needing to be told, Leo unwrapped his sandwich and ripped off a chunk to throw into the flames.

You copied his actions. And if you made a wordless prayer to Aphrodite to ask for a little assistance, that was no one's business but your own.

"I've..." You hesitated, darting a glance to Leo before focusing on your sandwich, biting down your declaration that you've missed him in the infirmary. He had already started eating, only further proof that he had been skipping meals while holed up in the bunker. "How come you're always getting hurt, Mr. Clumsy? I thought children of Hephaestus are supposed to be good in the forges."

You would have sworn you saw Leo blush, but your attention quickly darted away from him the moment he lifted his eyes to yours.

"You sure you wanna know the truth?" Leo asked his voice a kind of serious that was almost out of character for him. You nodded, slowly, and forced yourself to meet his eye. "I've been getting hurt on purpose."

"Leo Valdez!"

"Wait, let me finish!" Leo held up his hands to defend himself from your words and your glare, the healer in your absolutely hated the fact that Leo would have done anything to intentionally cause himself harm. "I did it because I got an excuse to see you."

"What?" For a child of Apollo, you sure didn't have a way with words. Distantly, you cursed the fact that you were a gifted healer and not a poet, because you knew what Leo's words meant and yet you couldn't get your own to function. "Wait—"

"I know this sounds stupid," Leo dragged a hand through the dark, disheveled curls atop his head. "But Will wouldn't let me in to see you if I wasn't hurt! So I... maybe... lied, a little bit."

You frowned, in thought. Thinking back, you couldn't remember Leo ever actually being hurt beyond the occasional cut or scrap. You'd always been so caught up in him and his visits to notice.

"I swear I'm not weird. I just really like you." Leo winced, no doubt taking your silence in a bad way.

And you weren't one of Apollo's poetically gifted children, so you simply pressed your lips against his and hoped he got the message.

It was a short kiss, a good first kiss, you noted with no small satisfaction. Your lips tingled and your fingertips were buzzing—and Leo looked like he had just won the lottery.

"You're sweet," You smiled, a thousand watt one that maybe Leo adored as much as your half-siblings did, and nudged his sandwich closer to him. "But you're banned from the infirmary unless you're actively dying. And for real!"

Leo paused, and you could practically see the gears turning in his head, trying to create a scenario that would get him past the barrier of your totally official and absolutely within rules ban.

"I can make that happen,"

"No, you can't," You tried to shoot him a discouraging look, but your smile was far too wide to deal any real damage. "Or else I'll go to tonight's bonfire with someone else."

"Nope!" He shook his head quickly, hair bouncing with the movement and expression light with an impish grin. "You kissed me, Doc. You're stuck with me, now."

You smiled, silently deciding you wouldn't mind being stuck with him.

"That's what I thought."

Leaning over to press a second kiss to the corner of his lips, you pretended not to notice the sparks dancing in his curls.

[stargirl-writes]

denial

pairing : force healer jedi! reader x anakin skywalker

word count : 1.5k

masterlist

summary

anakin skywalker confessed his love for you. except, you turned him down, reminding yourself of your duty to the jedi. weeks would have passed and you're reaching a breaking point where you can no longer deny how you felt about him.

tags : angst, mutual pining, fluff towards the end,

warnings : pretty much just denial of how reader feels, and angst with a happy ending (!)

notes : hi lovely people! this is the first thing i'll post under this blog! thank u for taking interest in my little imagine, i hope you like it!

likes, reblogs, and comments are highly appreciated !

It has been a few weeks since Anakin Skywalker told you he loved you. For a moment, the cruelest thing to do seemed like the sweetest thing he could say.

For you both know that the Jedi Council will forbid you to delight in this feeling.

No attachments, live to serve the good, clear lines. No devotions.

You didn't understand how loving someone can be so corrupting, after all, the Jedi Code taught you compassion for all things. That in itself is an act of love. Living so detached from things just makes it all feel... meaningless.

Why hurt for love? Why hurt for not loving?

But now, ever since Anakin told you he wanted you, you are held by a ravenous grip that left you feeling breathless. Suffocated.

Because the truth was simple: You wanted to hoard Anakin in your heart and keep him there. You wanted Anakin.

Of course, you didn't mean it. Anakin Skywalker is the only one who truly knew you. He shredded down your walls to find you where you're most vulnerable and loved you anyway. He wasn't scared of the things about you he didn't understand. Things you, too, find difficult to accept.

But caught by the abruptness, you could only tell him "We can't" before storming out of the room that one night.

You were perplexed, because for the longest time you have resigned yourself to the idea that you were the only one feeling it.

And now he says he loves you. All along.

He loved you.

He loved you despite, despite, despite...

And you turned him down.

Because you can't....

You were bound by duty first. And your duty is to serve the Republic. You can't have Anakin, not if he is supposed to be the chosen one.

You still cried in your sleep; angry and tremendously sorry you turned the closest thing to love away.

You can't take the Republic's only chance of surviving this war. He was meant for something larger than you are. Larger than both of you. You understood this, but it didn't really make it hurt any less.

It fell into this odd... silence between both of you.

You'd catch yourself looking for him in every room you find yourself in. A force of habit. His force signature used to be a warm beacon of light to anchor you, now every time you sense Anakin, your heart aches.

Haunted by the images in your mind of what could be if you allowed him to love you. Terrified that you've allowed yourself to want to share a lifetime with him.

You can't. You wouldn't.

You shuffle in your bed, unable to find a spot so you can comfortably rest. You were becoming more frustrated, for your mind just won't turn itself off.

You grabbed your robe and pulled your hair away from your face, tying it back.

With a sigh, you sit up. It would be futile to attempt any sleep, dawn was already breaking from the windows of the Jedi Temple.

Force healing is something that not every Jedi practices, for it requires a deeper state of discipline and precision. Besides, there are medical droids that can take care of the wounded.

The council had briefed you on your mission for today, you're stationed at the med-bay to overlook the casualties after the recent attack on Kamino.

You valued healing; no matter how forgotten it may have been for the Jedi Order. So, this mission is equally important to you as fighting in the front lines.

The halls of the temple were still quiet, deep in sleep. You wander around, not really knowing where to head.

You hear a shuffle from behind, and instinctively, you turn.

You halt at a balcony— entranced by the rising sun. You breathed deep, wondering when all became so complicated.

A pair of blue eyes meet your doe-eyed gaze. You surveyed him, he looked like he just came from battle, his robes were covered in dust, and his eyes were glossy as if he had been awake for some time, too.

"Anakin" you breathed out, realizing it had been the first time you addressed him after the night he confessed.

"[Name]" He answers, sounding tired.

Your heart thumps, unsure, and half-terrified that if he calls your name again, you might fall to pieces.

"How did the mission on Kamino go?" You say, trying to find any topic other than—

Anakin steps forward, leaning against the balcony. You hold your breath. Being so close to him felt like all air vanishes.

"It went alright" Anakin answers, his gaze falling into the horizon.

Your eyes trail on his arm, noticing the dried blood, a gash maybe, you step forward, wanting to get a closer look, your healing instincts telling you something was off.

"You're hurt" You say, your hand carefully moving his robe.

Anakin sharply turns at your touch. Then his eyes bore into yours. You lifted your fingers, realizing you may have startled him.

Anakin always had you. Part of the reason you were persistent in learning healing. Because the anxiety of him hurting never settled, and you wanted to be equipped to take care of him.

"Let me do this, it won't take long" You insisted, because you knew Anakin too well, and he'd not get it checked until someone else forces him to sit down at the med-bay.

The wound started closing and after a moment, it was like it wasn't there in the first place.

Anakin nods, his eyes never leave yours.

You felt it, a ripple through the force. A very specific frequency. A jedi might mistake his hurt as that of a physical one. But you have memorized him too much to read through his pretenses.

The wounds hurt, yes. But he is carrying a lot more pain than he lets on.

So, you continued. Your fingers graze over his skin, channelling the force, willing it to heal the gash.

You withdrew your touch. The silence lingered. It's a silence that makes you feel mad, because it feels like this is how it'll always be for you and Anakin now. Delicately dancing around the elephant in the room.

The silence amplified the voice screaming in your heart.

You may as well just say it out loud because your force signature is latched with it. It involuntarily pours your heart out.

I love you. I love you. I love you.

"Anakin" you began, your lips opening and closing unable to find words to express how you felt.

He turns his head, standing straight, he had an expression you recognized. Some sort of braceness, like he was already anticipating for you to break his heart again.

"I'm sorry" was all you could say.

Even if you would've ran away with him if he asked you to.

Clear lines. No attachments. You'd cross them all if he asked you to.

This was the right thing to do, you think...

"Don't" Anakin shakes his head "Don't... I know you don't mean it" His eyes fall to his feet.

"No, I do" You answer swiftly— no longer able to deny how much it had hurted you too.

You felt tears threatening to cascade down your face. You've heard it said that love turns people soft, but you have never felt more broken now that you have loved something you can't have.

"Anakin, when I said we can't, it's because I can't take you for myself. You're meant for larger things. Only with the Jedi can you fulfill your destiny" You rambled, verbalizing the thoughts you convinced yourself to believe in at night.

Anakin's eyebrows furrowed, but you continued "It doesn't mean I didn't, that I don't—" You halted, your heart and mind tearing you apart.

"[Name]" he calls, "You are no small thing in my life" He tucks a loose strand of hair to your ear.

"I meant it when I told you I love you." His palm presses on your cheeks.

You thought you could crumble beneath his touch.

These weeks, the small amount of time you spent trying to convince yourself that his feelings will eventually pass, never faltered the way how you felt. His absence felt like half of you was missing. And now, he was here, insisting softly.

You can't hold it in anymore.

So, in the absence of words, you pressed your lips against his— slowly, gently, slipping into the intimacy you only ever shared with him.

I love you.

You say between the kisses, hoping it'd suffice for you can't quite bring yourself to say it just yet.

Nothing in the world belonged to you, just this love you were overpouring with. And this kiss— it felt like the beginning of something eternal.

Whatever that may be.

© to @cafekitsune the dividers!

[samlakes]

i've always loved the concept of just sharing appreciation with people for the sake of doing it, so i'm doing it right now.

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forehead kisses for all of you<3

[rodolfoparras]

RODOLFOPARRAS END OF THE

YEAR APPRECIATION POST

Hello sugar cubes!

Since the year is coming to an end I wanted to take my time and make an appreciation post for everyone who’s shown support and appreciation for me and my blog!

@its-ares thank you so much for being one of the very first people to follow me and for showing so much appreciation and support for my work when I first started out!

@lieutnt one of the writers I looked up to and admired when I first started writing on tumblr, when u first followed me I thought you’d done it by accident but I’m glad it wasn’t, forever ur #1 fan 🔈

@miguel-owhora genuinely consider you a friend you feel so familiar if that makes sense?, always so supportive and appreciative of my work always so kind and sweet to me

@bonesnmore also known as 🚹 anon will forever and always appreciate the period where we’d be absolutely unhinged about any and every kink and any and every cod character (especially graves) I’m so happy you decided to make ur own blog and it’s been absolutely amazing seeing you grow your following 🫶🏻

@alligatorstomachacid always so much fun to spitball ideas with you, i always feel like someone is listening or reading my posts bc you’re always there to talk to me about them 🫶🏻

@agoofyannoyancetolaw also known as ⚰️ anon who checked in on me daily and is always so supportive and appreciative of my work I absolutely love seeing your work on my dash 🫶🏻🫶🏻

@gazmialmagemela also known as 🐻‍❄️ anon literally such a sweet and considerate person both off anon and on anon I’m so glad you started your own blog bc as I once said you are so skilled at writing such vivid stories and I absolutely love seeing you grow

@thegnomelord I have to mention the person I co parent with who’s an absolutely amazing writer and deserves sm more appreciation and support

I started my blog in March I think but had properly started

gaining followers in June and these are the people that

basically made me fanboy when they followed bc it felt like

such an accomplishment

@yourftmfriend ✨ @pastelclovds✨ @odetodilfs ✨ @astroknottt ✨ @fatigueeed ✨

Skilled writers and artists that deserve so much appreciation and support

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Last but not least I want to thank the beautiful council aka my anonies who have been nothing but appreciative and supportive of me and my work may all the good you have given me return to you 10x and here’s to another year of sexualizing old men (price)🎇🎇🎇

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Happy new years sugar cubes!!!

[feudalconnection]

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Best Action/Adventure

“Undertow” by @violetasteria

“in a barbie world (and Kagome is not happy about it)” by @noprobllama92

“Million Dollar Man” by @inussunflower

Best AU/AR

“Intensive Care” by @elkonigin

“When It Rains” by @dawnrider

“The Art of Falling in Tandem” by @shikonstar / ShikonStar (BitterNovember) on AO3

“Inextricably Knotted (an InuKag + Jane Eyre AU)” by @ssukidesu

Best Canon Universe

“A Mother’s Love” by @heynikkiyousofine

“Coming Home” by @ruddcatha

“Red” by @sagemcmae

“Under the Moon” by Catzchen (AO3)

“The Bond” by @wbficaholic / wonderbug (AO3)

“食べたい” by @shade-without-color / streamsofstoriesandcolour (AO3)

Best Angst

“Pictures of Happiness” by @memilylove

“willow” by @lavendertwilight89

“Erythema Kiss” by @timetravellingpaperbag

“Watching the Stars with You” by @acb6293

“Harvest” by @sereia1313 / Sereia13 (AO3)

Best Dark

“Supersum” by @elkonigin

“Erythema Kiss” by @timetravellingpaperbag

“Web of Obsession” by Bunnygirl2101 (AO3)

“The Legend of Illethai Mobre: The Barrier Between This World and the Next” by @nikkxb / monophobian (AO3)

“Slavery” by Marulover (AO3)

Best Drama

“The Highest Bidder” by @clearwillow / BrigidTheFae (AO3)

“Here With You” by @somekndofnature

“The monster in law” by @arisukingdom

“Someone I Used to Know” by LadyGrainne (AO3)

Best Humor/Parody

“Intensive Care” by @elkonigin

“Go Away Dad!” by @neutronstarchild / NeutrInu (NeutronStarChild) on AO3

“Language of Love” by @mitsiepitsie-blog / Mitsje (AO3)

“A Most Peculiar Family” by @inuyashamybeloved / InuScarlett (AO3)

“Laundry Duty” by @chierafied

“Of Ice and Butt Paste” by @jeremymarsh

Best NSFW

“Coming Home” by @ruddcatha

“Just for a Little While” by @fawn-eyed-girl / Fawn_Eyed_Girl (AO3)

“Thy Thralldom Come” by TheMondayChild (AO3)

“Blow like the wind, suck like a vacuum” by @lynnnexus / Lynn_Nexus (AO3)

“in a barbie world (and Kagome is not happy about it)” by @noprobllama92

“Sprinkles and Spanks” by Catzchen (AO3)

Best One-Shot

“Champagne Problems” by @skyelara and @violetasteria

“The Prom Conundrum” by @inuyashamybeloved / InuScarlett (AO3)

“All I’ve Wanted” by @fuedalpriestess98 / FeudalPriestess98 (AO3)

“Long Awaited Twitterpated” by @mrfeenysmustache / AshMish111 (AO3)

“Under the Moon” by Catzchen (AO3)

“Kuchinashi flowers, for you” by @matsuharuu / matsuharu (AO3)

“Sprinkles and Spanks” by Catzchen (AO3)

Best Character Portrayal

“Reflections on the Jewel” (Midoriko) by @fawn-eyed-girl / Fawn_Eyed_Girl (AO3)

“Like Salt to Sugar” (Sesshoumaru) by Chiaztolite (AO3)

“Born for Each Other” (Inuyasha) by @serial-doubters-club / Hakomorebi (AO3)

Best InuKag Romance

“Punch Drunk Love” by @neutronstarchild / NeutrInu (NeutronStarChild) on AO3

“Take me Home” by @skyguyy

“Dapper Dog” by @dawnrider

“When We Were Free” by @timetravellingpaperbag

Best SessKag Romance

“Second Chance” by Shippooo (AO3)

“Red” by @sagemcmae

“You and Me Equals Three” by Chiaztolite (AO3)

Best Romance

“Interlude” by @mrfeenysmustache / AshMish111 (AO3)

“Steeped in Sweetness” by @sereia1313 / Sereia13 (AO3)

“Mistakes of Lovers Past” by Karolinemeow (AO3)

“Merry Matchmaker!” by @flowingsakura

Best Fluff

“(Im)Moral Support” by @shikonstar / ShikonStar (BitterNovember) on AO3

“Long Awaited Twitterpated” by @mrfeenysmustache / AshMish111 (AO3)

“Born for Each Other” by @serial-doubters-club / Hakomorebi (AO3)

“A tropical Christmas” by @arisukingdom

“Behind Blue Eyes” by @sesshomarusamas-blog / Actuallysango (AO3)

Best Serial

“Many “Lovely” Moments” by @moongoddesslee

Best Ficlet

“How We Met” by @heynikkiyousofine

“Love Language” by @ruddcatha

“Embracing Age - Who Moved My Foot Cream?” by @maggie8317

“Anniversary” by @mynightshining

“Beauty and Femininity” by @mynightshining

Best Plot Twist

“Reflections on the Jewel” by @fawn-eyed-girl / Fawn_Eyed_Girl (AO3)

“Language of Love” by @mitsiepitsie-blog / Mitsje (AO3)

“Lover” by @lavendertwilight89

Best Completed

“The Highest Bidder” by @clearwillow / BrigidTheFae (AO3)

“Punch Drunk Love” by @neutronstarchild / NeutrInu (NeutronStarChild) on AO3

“IZON SHŌ” by @anyara

“Festival of Moons” by EnchantedInk_AG (AO3)

[aresfanclub]

AN ARES APPRECIATION BLOG! BECAUSE WE LOVE THIS GOOFBALL!

(Started 29th feb)

[queen-of-deans-booty]

Choose Your Own Destiny

Pairing: Dean Winchester x Female!Reader x Sam Winchester (NO Wincest)

Word Count: ~300

Warnings: fluff

Request by anon: Hey can i request a hcs where the reader is a archangel created by the grace of Michael and Lucifer basically her daughter and Dean and Sam fell in loved with her? 

Summary: Dean is so much more different than his brother but you love both of them equally.

Square Filled: college!au (2019) for @heavenandhellbingo

Author’s Note: any and all comments are appreciated <3

x

Lucifer and Michael have always wanted more power, no secret about that

They loved God so much that when they found out he didn’t love them as much as they did, they ran off and created a little plot point of their own

You

With both their graces and a touch of a human soul, they created you, another archangel that’s more powerful than all of them combined

You were the one thing they needed to get a bunch of angels on their side to overthrow God

If God isn’t in power anymore, then Michael and Lucifer can take over and do things their way

They never expected you to want to go your own way and live your life the way you wanted to

The first time you saw Sam and Dean, your entire life changed. You finally saw that there is more to life than creating armies and taking over Heaven

There is something about Sam and Dean that attracts you, that calls you to them. You’re not sure if it’s their auras or their personality, but you didn't want to be without them

Due to being so powerful, you were able to hide from Michael and Lucifer who tried everything they could to find you

All you’ve ever known is Heaven and fighting ars you have no business being in, and Sam and Dean showed you there is more to life than that

Despite their objections, you got yourself into college just so you can learn and become a better person

It was obvious their feelings for you, as they did almost everything for you, but it was hard to choose between them

So you didn’t

They both taught you how to date which means they were your firsts--first kiss, first time you had sex-first date, first time you held hands, etc.

Dean is more romantic than Sam since he likes to take you on long car rides, often gives you flowers, and usually stays the night with you after having sex

Sam likes his own space so after he fucks you, he’ll go back to his room, he likes taking you on jogs in the morning, and you two like to have reading dates in peaceful silence

Two very different men who love and treat you like a princess, something your dads will never do

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[hades-bat]

Today I visited Hadrian's Villa in Tivoli and I got to meet the lovely Ares❣️ ~the original statue is now displayed in the Villa's museum, there's a plaster replica in its original location.

[neptunianmars]

practices to bond with your deities

i'm most familiar with Greco-Roman deities so i'll use them for examples, but feel free to ask me about a specific deity! which Greco-Roman deity you should work according to your birth chart indications

communication

say "good morning" / "good night" - this is not only out of respect but developing a habit to include them more and more in day to day life

talk to them - whether you're expressing gratitude, praying, asking for advice, or even just talking to them about your day, this will show you are thinking about them and looking up to them. if you feel uncomfortable or can't talk out loud, a journal works just as well

write to them - speaking or journaling, writing is an art form they will appreciate. make journal entries to them, write them a poem or a song. it doesn't have be a fancy, even just phrases here and there will make a huge difference

document your experiences - after spending time with them, write down how it went. keep track of what they seem to like, what they tell you, even small details that don't seem to stick out because when you go back and look, they might stick out then or you might notice patterns

share your food - giving your deity a small portion of your food each time you eat is a way to communicate your honor and respect to them, and also learn what foods/drinks they enjoy

divination - this is more than just tarot cards! there's other forms of cartomancy, there's dowsing, numerology, etc. i personally use astrology <3

connect with their energy - doing activities that appeal to your deity regularly with strengthen your connection with them. for example, my deities are Diana/Artemis and Luna/Selene, so I spend a lot of time in nature, especially at night under the moonlight

honoring

research them in great detail - to get to know your deity, learn everything there is to know: names and epithets, symbols, attributes (plants trees, stones, animals, planets, week days, etc.) domains, family, popular stories and myths

cook a full meal - you can decide on a meal that is associated with them (like steak for Mars/Ares) but you don't have to, either way just dedicating time and energy to make an entire meal just for them will say a lot

altar - this is probably what you will hear the most, but don't feel heavy pressure. it doesn't have to be huge, fancy, or expensive; you can start out with literally just a candle and some leaves. slowly over time decorate and personalize it to your and your deity's liking

offerings - this is more than just sharing your food with them, it's actually giving something solely to them. have you ever been in the mood for a certain food even though you weren't hungry at all? that might be them hinting that they want it. gifts that you think they'd like or you felt called to get, including crafts you made yourself

share your worship - i want to say this is 100% not a necessity, so don't feel stressed if there is no one you can talk to about your deity work. i have no one to talk to about it, but i share freely on this blog and am trying to make friends online who i can share with! not only is sharing a way to show respect and love for them, but others can give you ideas of devotion and connection

creation/digital

going digital is a great way to worship and connect with your deity, especially if you cannot be open about it

make a playlist - include songs that remind you of them or that you'd think they'd like that involve their domains or stories/myths

art - literally any form of art they will appreciate. music like singing or songwriting, drawing, painting, sculpture, literature like reading books they'd like or writing stories, poems, songs, etc., dancing, theater or acting, or literally anything else. you can get specific, like learning an instrument for Apollo

exploring - exploring areas you think they'd like or just new areas in general. you might find points of interest they'd enjoy (like crossroads for Hecate), or see/hear their sacred animals, or find things that coincide with their stories/attributes/symbols

spending time with them through hobbies - the best way i can describe this is through examples: going to parties/celebrating for Bacchus/Dionysus, cleaning and taking care of your home for Vesta/Hestia, gardening for Ceres/Demeter or Proserpina/Persephone, taking care of the ocean for Neptune/Poseidon, the list goes on and on. anything that involves their domain

pinterest board - kinda self explanatory, making a pinterest board (or a physical picture board/wall if you prefer) with images of your deity and their symbols/attributes.

phone background - setting your phone background as an image or your deity is not only a sign of honor and respect, but will help you develop the habit of thinking of them regularly. can also spark conversation with others without being direct about your worship!

[blackfemmecharacterdependency]

I put a Skara avatar in my AR Studio, keeping with the design/hc she has a prosthetic leg.

[eeunoia]

ENHYPEN Mini Series

E N H Y P E N as Greek Myths

ARES & APHRODITE

pairings: park sunghoon x reader

synopsis: finally fulfilling your dreams of getting married, you thought you will have a peaceful life, not until you’ve came across with your ex-boyfriend, park sunghoon.

word count: 10k

important note: i originally planned to write enhypen as greek gods but then i didn’t find some love stories that i like so i end up using some love stories that aren’t greek gods. also these are like modern versions of greek mythology love stories.

warnings: grammar errors, not proof read, a bit suggestive, curses and foul words, members drinking liqour and cheating. let me know if i missed some!

note📎: i hope you guys liked it! it really means a lot to me whenever you let me know what you think about them, re-blogs and comments are well appreciated. btw, i love you guys and thank you for supporting me up until now. have a nice day/night! 🤍

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“You’ll come, right?” Sunghoon tilted his head at the sudden question from his best friend. He twist his head and looked at him with confused face.

“Are you kidding me? I wouldn’t miss it for the world, dude.” he smiles and gave him a light tap over his shoulder.

His friend smirked and chuckles. He seemed relieved after hearing from him that he won’t miss their wedding. Sunghoon couldn’t believe that he actually asked him that. He’s his best friend, of course he will go.

His smile faltered as the thought of his friend finally settling down finally sinked into him. The memories of them enjoying their college life was almost as clear as the water for him. Those wild things they do together, troubles they cause, hearts of girls they broken.

Suddenly, your familiar pretty face flashes through his mind. He can’t help but to furrow his brows and clench his jaw. He shouldn’t be thinking about someone who’s not present. They should be celebrating because finally, Jake will be married to the love of his life. Sunghoon thought to himself that there’s no point to having such a foul mood.

He enjoyed the night with his friends, all of them rooting for Jake. He’s opening a new chapter of his life. Some of them even joked that things will start to change once he put a ring on his girlfriend’s finger. His life will shift in a very different way.

“Having fun?” Sunghoon have his smirk plastered as he wrapped his arm around his friend’s shoulder.

The light’s flickering around are hurting their eyes a bit, but that’s the least of their concern. Tonight will be the last time they all get to enjoy Jake’s freedom before he actually commit to one woman in his entire life.

Jake twists his head towards him while holding a glass of liqour over his hand. His friend smiled playfully, “Very. Thank you for joining me in this memorable night man.”

Jay, one of their best friends approached and did their hand shakes with a teasing smile. “Now you wouldn’t cry like a baby because of it, right?” he said with a taunting tone.

Sunghoon laughed together with Jay while Jake hit his friend over to the shoulder. Heeseung, who’s the one busy getting their drinks finally arrived at their vip room they all rented for their friend. The man cheered, showing a very mischievous smirk.

“Jake, my man!” he shouted and even asked the star of the night to stand up beside him.

Sunghoon chuckled and rolled his eyes before tapping his friend, encouraging him to do what Heeseung asked him to do. They cheered together as the oldest of them even recite some speech which they find hilarous and nonsense at the same time. As they all tease and goof around like they normally do, the door to their v.i.p room opened.

“That’s what I’m talking about!” Jay cheered and even stood up.

Sunoo laughed together with Ni-ki while Jungwon just shakes his head, a playful smirk spreading across his handsome face. Girls, entered the room as a sensual music started to play as a background music.

“What the hell Lee Heeseung?” Jake exclaimed and even covered his face, embarrassed, after some girls surrounded him. They started dancing around him as they all cheered and laughed at how awkward and stiff Jake looked.

Heeseung lets out a bark of laughter while watching his friend. Jay is now beside him, clearly enjoying the view as well.

“Dance with me too, ladies!” Jay shouted.

Sunghoon rolled his eyes and finish his drink. The special number finally ended and now, the atmosphere is more calm. Some of the ladies chose to stay and accompany some of their single friends while Jake went back to sit beside Sunghoon.

He scoffed, “Seems like you had the best time of your life.”

Jake lets out a sarcastic chuckle, “Fuck, Heeseung hyung really did take it to heart when my Dad told him to give me the night of my life before my wedding.”

Sunghoon chuckles while handing his friend another glass of liqour. Jake accepted and smirked at him.

“Cheers to you, brother. Congratulations.”

Jake smiled while looking at his friend’s cold blank eyes. He is smirking and his words may sound cheerful, but how come it came out a bit lifeless. Sunghoon was never like this. He used to be someone with a lot of fun, someone who live his life to the fullest. But all that changed, after you.

“Thank you.” Jake and they both bottoms up. Together, they groan at the awful taste and grabbed each a lemon to ease it down.

Laughing at one another, both of them soon looked over to their friends who’s having fun and enjoying the night. As Sunghoon silently watch the scene, Jake can’t help, but to look at his friend.

“Have you heard from her?” he asked, a bit hesitant.

He saw how Sunghoon’s expressions changed. “From who?” he then grabbed another drink to shake off the nervous feeling. Jake knew he pretty damn well know who he was talking about. He’s just too scared to talk about her again.

“Y/n.” Jake said that made Sunghoon halt his hand from pouring another drink for himself.

Its been years every since he heard your name again. He thought he was okay already, but he was wrong. Completely wrong. A lot may think he already moved on, but what they’re not aware of is that he was left stuck. He was left unmoved from where you left him. Feelings not changed, questions unanswered and promises not kept. He was just there... hanging.

Sunghoon clenched his jaw and glanced at his glass, “No.” he answered shortly, cutting any possible other additional questions.

Jake felt bad for his friend. Ever since you left, he didn’t have any other serious relationships. He may appear that he’s doing well, but something in him changed.

“Didn’t you try to search for her?” he asked, couldn’t help himself.

Jake doesn’t really care if Sunghoon gets annoyed with it or what. He just wants the best for his friend and he knows talking to you or getting to fix whatever’s between the two of you will help a lot.

“I don’t w-want to.” he uttered, letting out a sigh after stuttering through his own words.

Jake pursed his lips and tapped his friend’s shoulder. “Okay. I hope soon, you two get to talk about things.” was the last thing he said before he was called by Heeseung to open some of their gifts for him.

Even if the party goes on, what Jake said played through Sunghoon’s mind like a broken record. He’s not very sure if how he will act the moment he saw you again. Will he cage you in his warm embrace? Will he finally say the things he wanted to really tell you before you left? Or will he just stood there, being a scaredy cat to approach you?

He grunt and shut his eyes for a while before finally pouring another drink for himself. He needs to chill and forget about these things. If he kept you in his system, he won’t be able to get some sleep later.

The night continued and soon the mood became lighter for him. As they finally call it a night, they were laughing and striding their way over the hotel’s lobby. Heeseung and Jay have to support the very drunk Ni-ki.

“You sure you guys can handle him?” Sunghoon asked smirking at the younger one who’s even mumbling incoherent words.

Jay laughed and nodded his head. “You?”

“I’m good.”

“Are you going with us to Yeonjun’s party after Jake’s wedding?” Heeseung then asked while they placed Ni-ki carefully at a chair.

Sunghoon pursed his lips, trying to remember the days properly and if he have schedule for that day.

“What day is that again?”

“Saturday dude.”

Sunghoon smirked, “Can’t.”

Jay was quick to react and boo him, “Why not?”

“Have to go home this weekend.”

Jungwon who just walked closer and happen to hear what he said smirked, “Since when did you really went home when they asked you, hyung?”

He shrugged his shoulders off before putting his hands inside his pocket, “My brother will come home with his wife.”

All of them that hears furrowed their brows hardly, confusion reflects their expressions.

“Seungyun hyung already got married?” all of their tones were surprised.

He can’t blame his friends. He was actually surprised when he heard about it himself. Well, his brother was always family oriented and someone who’s looking forward to having family.

He fished the key to his ferrari before he glanced back to his friends having this blank face, “I guess so.”

Heeseung snorted at the way Sunghoon responded. They all bid goodbyes and went inside their own cars. Sunghoon lets out a sigh right after finally being alone.

He sighed and rested his back to the chair of his car. He raised both of his hands and face palmed. He had fun, but he won’t deny that he got pretty tired. Not to mention that you’ve been brought up in the conversation a while ago. Something that rarely happens.

Sunghoon huffed and as he opens his eyes back, it directly darted at his wallet. He reached over it and opened it to see the only picture you two that was left to him. You were clinging to him happily, having your biggest and prettiest smile. On the other hand, he was smirking and trying to make it seem like he’s annoyed.

Sunghoon scoffed and flicked himself in that picture, “Why you have to be so denial that you’re the happiest when you’re with her?” he mumbled to himself and bite over his lower lip.

“Now, we got to suffer because we lost her.”

“Sunghoon, I’m glad you’re home.”  his Mom was the first one who greets him the moment he arrives. He didn’t react and just accept her hugs. It was supposed to make him feel warmth, but nothing came along with it.

When she pulls away, she cups his face and stares at him. He admits its been a while ever since he left the house and live on his own. After that, he rarely comes home to visit his parents. He’s not so sure if its because he’s too lazy to drive or he plainly just wants to avoid them.

“Its good to know you still know your way home.” his cold eyes slowly trailed towards his Dad who popped out from his office.

His Mom twists her head at his direction and tried to tell him off. Sunghoon smirked, unbothered at how bitter and sarcastic his father’s tone was. He was used to it. It was always like this every since he was a child. His Dad was always cold towards him.

Back when he was a child, it bothers him a lot. He wonders what he did wrong for him to act like that, but slowly he grew tired of trying to figure that out. He just put to his mind that maybe he’s just really like that and there’s nothing he can do about it.

His Mom on the other hand, is much better. She does give him affection and attention from time to time. But she’s more in favor to his older brother. Before he envy him a lot because of it, but just like with his Dad, he grew tired of it. Sunghoon learned that life can be really unfair and he learned it in a hard way.

“Hello to you too, Dad.” he said, a bit taunting. His father’s eyes darken and jaw clenches.

“Your mother asked you to come home a lot of times and you only came now? Don’t you have any remaining respect towards us?” his Mom lets go from his arm to go approach his Dad to calm him down.

Sunghoon stopped himself from saying more words to prevent a much heated conversation to escalate. He doesn’t want his Mom to be stressed out and besides, its just a waste of energy.

He rolled his eyes, tearing his gaze away from his father. He turned his back and started making his way towards the staircase. He can still hear his Dad trying to call his name while his Mom tries to shush him. He ignored it and strides towards the familiar hallway of their mansion.

As he made his way over his old room, he noticed that it brings up a lot of memories. His placid face remains as he was certain none of them was good memories of him. These decorations, picture frames and walls were the ones witnessing how this household turns him into someone cold. Someone who’s used to pushing people away from him.

He threw himself over his king sized bed and stared at the ceiling. His mind was blank. He may be labelled as one of the hottest uprising bachelors of his batch, but none of that matters because he knew what he wants.

On the other hand, you are making a last checkings through the things you just packed because you’ll be having your flight tomorrow. Finally, you’ll be able to meet your husband’s family. It may sound really odd why you married without any of them attending, but things just happened pretty quickly.

Your hand halted from what you were about to do as you suddenly had a flashback of the things happened these past months. Slowly, it is really sinking unto you. How things between you and Seungyun escalated very fast. Somehow, you’re getting a little overwhelmed.

You shut your eyes and lightly shakes your head, “No. What are you saying, y/n? Seungyun loves you and you love him. He finally gave you the assurance you wanted.” you mumbled to yourself. It was more like a chant, making your mind process all of that to prevent you from overthinking.

Your head twists over to the door of your shared room when it opened. A smile appears across your face seeing your husband walks inside. “Hi.” he greeted.

“Hello.” and your eyes darted over to the thing he was holding. “What’s that?” you asked.

He smiled and walked towards you. “Time for a little review for you, sweetheart.” he said as he finally settles down at the edge of your shared bed.

With confused eyes, you stare at him. He chuckled, finding you adorable. He taps the space beside him and so you obliged right away. After sitting down, you saw that he was holding a photo.

“Are they your parents?” you asked very curious as your smile grew even bigger.

He nodded and you noticed how he gulped. “Also, I want you to know that I have a younger brother.” he twists his head to look at your face.

With puzzled look, you kept your stares at him. You couldn’t even make up for words to say after hearing about it. You understand that you two are just starting, but to actually telling about his brother just right now was a little bothering for you.

“Why d-didn’t you tell me about it earlier? How old is he?” you asked and licked your lower lip, brows furrowing.

He sighed, he expected for you to react this way. He admits that what he did is just a bit awful. You’re his wife and he should’ve said so right away. Its just... both of them don’t get along that well. He was always indenial by the fact that he envied him for living the life he wanted. The life not controlled by their parents.

“Same age as you.”

You stayed silent. It didn’t actually occurred to your mind that his younger brother would be the same age as you. Yes he is years older than you, so it will actually made sense if he have a sibling around your age but you just don’t know why for some reasons you thought it would be a kid. You shut your eyes and sighed.

“I’m sorry. Its just... the two of us don’t get along well.” he said consoling you and even gently reached for your hand to caress it.

You opened your eyes only to see his apologetic ones. It soothes your heart, feeling bad for looking upset for this matter. His reason is a bit understandable. Sometimes, siblings do really don’t get along well. You’ve heard a same story as well before...

Shoving that thought away, you sighed again and pursed your lips for a while as you think about the words to say.

“Its fine. I just don’t want anything to ruin our stay in your hometown.” you explained. He nodded, completely understanding it as well. In the short period of time being around you, he noticed how you hate it when things are beyond your control. You’re not too fond of uncertain things.

You flashes a smile after he dropped a small kiss at your head. “Can you at least show me a picture of him so I would know what he looks like? Is he as handsome as you?”

A small smile spreads across his face as he tries to pull his phone our from his pocket to show you a picture of his brother.

But the smile over your lips faltered and your mind instantly went blank the moment he showed you the picture of him. Park Sunghoon. Your ex boyfriend.

“Hey,” he noticed that you’ve spaced out.

Finally snapped back to your senses, “Y-Yeah?”

“Are you okay? You look a little pale.” he said worried.

You gave him a fake smile, “U-Uh, yes. I’m okay. Maybe I’m just tired because of all the packing.” you reasoned out and your eyes dropped at his phone once again.

There, flashes Sunghoon’s photo. As always, he looked so ethereal with his visual. Even in photos, he refused to flash his pretty smiles. Its been years ever since you last saw him so you’re pretty sure he changed a lot. He became more bulky as well and you won’t lie, all those years that passed just do him all good. He seemed to be doing really well.

“H-He looks nothing like you.” you mumbled.

Definitely. The main reason this news a shock to you was because you can see no hint of Seungyun being related to Sunghoon, more or less his brother. You couldn’t even tell any similarities. Even with their personalities, no traits are the same.

Your husband chuckles, “We’ve been told. He looks so much like my Dad while I take after my Mom.”

You didn’t say anything more and just lets your mind wanders off. Slowly he slid his arm over your waist and pulled you closer to him. You rest your head over his chest as Sunghoon slowly gets into your system once again.

After years of avoiding and trying to get over him, you ended up seeing him again the moment you return the country. Destiny do play dirty.

“I’m nervous to meet your family.” you speaks out your mind.

You are already nervous meeting his parents, but right after knowing that his brother was your ex boyfriend, you wanted so bad to back-out.

“It’s going to be fine.” he assured you and again placed a kiss at your forehead.

You really hope so.

“Where are you going?” his Mom asked while he slowly went downstairs. His hands were inside his pockets, wearing his placid expression he stared at his mother.

“We’ll be going to have dinner together with your brother later. We already reserved in his favorite restaurant.” she added.

Sunghoon almost let out a snort, “Of course you did.” he mumbles to himself, his mother failing to hear it.

She tilted her head, “What did you say?”

He smirked, “I said I’ll be there in time, Mom. I will just go somewhere real quick.” he said and even gave her a kiss at her forehead.

Gladly, she really did let him off. Sunghoon wanted to get some fresh air because he knows the dinner later would be very stressful for him. When he moved out from that house, he found freedom. It was hard for him to go back from time to time because it reminds him of the suffocating and cold childhood of his.

When its dinner time, Sunghoon drove towards his brother’s favorite restaurant. He was sure he already prepared himself for the things that about to happen. He expected the worst. But he surely didn’t expect what he just saw the moment he walked over the table where his family was sitting.

Its his brother and beside him was the girl he was longing for. He felt his whole body paralyzing, air leaving his lungs, words unable to come out from his lips. He was beyond surprised.

“Sunghoon! Son, you are right in time!” his mother looked so excited as she stood up to greet him and make him sit as well.

He can see his father’s piercing gaze by the side, but it was the last of his concern. You, is what bothers him the most. Why... are you here?

He saw how nervous you looked the moment his mother said his name. You kept your eyes over at your plate while his brother looked at him, watching his every move.

“This is y/n! Isn’t she very pretty? She’s your brother’s wife!”

Sunghoon chest tightens at what he just heard. His ears ringed and he couldn’t help but to show a displeased expression. He don’t how to react exactly, his emotions were all in a mess.

He felt betrayed, hurt and angry. But out of all those emotions, his heart aches seeing you this close, but felt like you are far from him at the same time.

When you lift your head and met gaze with him, he almost lose it. Those eyes... those eyes that only used to look at him with love and affection now stare at him with sadness.

He opened his lips, about to say something but you flash him this small smile.

“Hello, Sunghoon. Nice to meet you, I’m y/n.” you introduced yourself.

From there, he understands that you wanted to act like you two don’t know each other. He clenched his jaw and drained all his emotions from his eyes. He pursed his lips and nodded his head before the waiters finally served the food, breaking any possible topic to arise.

The dinner continued and you can feel the intense atmosphere, but you know its only between you and Sunghoon. You kept your eyes darted at your food and gazes over his parents whenever they ask you something.

It was obviously an awkward one for you and you are not having it. And having him stare at you are not helping at all.

You sighed and stood up, your husband and his Dad were having a conversation but interrupted when they noticed you.

“Where are you going?” Seungyun asked.

“Bathroom break.” you whispered and then looked at his parents. “Excuse me.” and smiled at them.

You finally lets out a sigh of relief the moment you arrived at the bathroom and got yourself out from that suffocating table.

You stared at your own reflection and instantly, the look over Sunghoon’s face flashes back through your mind. He looked surprised for a bit while, the first time you’ve seen him show that kind of face. You don’t know, but when he dangerously gaze at you the moment his mother announces you are his brother’s wife makes you feel something over your stomach.

You shut your eyes and tried pulling yourself together. You knew seeing him again would make you feel things, but you also know you need to resist it. No matter what happen, you have to keep your acts straight. You aren’t the same y/n who’s crazy in love with Sunghoon. That was years ago, you are so much better than that.

Finally, made up your mind. You planned to walk back to the dinner. You gave one last glance at your reflection before opening the door to the bathroom so you can go out.

Your eyes grew big when you saw Sunghoon’s figure leaning by the wall just in front the women’s bathroom. You are about to ignore him, but when he saw you walking out he suddenly walked towards you.

Panic consumes you as he pushed you back inside and went together with you, closing the bathroom’s door along with him.

“What do you think are you doing?!” you panicked.

His eyes darted at you dangerously, he licked his lips and clenching his jaw. He seemed so upset.

“I see you end up marrying my brother, huh?” you got a little startled when you heard his familiar low voice.

You sighed, “Please, Sunghoon. Don’t make things complicated.” you begged, because you know him very well. Sunghoon enjoys thrill, that’s one thing.

He scoffed, “Its already complicated the moment you married my brother.” bitterness lured through every words he says.

“You think I wanted that? I didn’t even know you’re his brother, not until last night!”

He let out a sarcastic laugh, “Oh so you’re telling me that you married someone without even knowing his family background?!” he argued back, disappointment can be heard from him.

“That’s not something my y/n would do.” he added. Your heart skipped, but you tried to look pissed about him.

“Well, there’s no your y/n anymore, Sunghoon.” you fired back that left him silent.

He took a step forward that caused you to take one back. Another one, and you took one as well until your back met the cold walm of the bathroom. You gulped nervously as his manly familiar scent invaded your nose.

Your heart aches as memories drown you the moment you smelled him. It reminds you about alot of things.

You thought it was already so much, but when he raised his hand and grazed his hand over your face, it made you feel millions of electricity. The same exact thing he makes you feel back when you’re still together.

“A lot of years may had passed, a lot may changed, but I can still clearly see her right in front of me.” he uttered lowly.

As you stare over his eyes, you are amused. This is the very first time you will see him like this. You always thought the Sunghoon you knew shows limited emotions. He isn’t the type who gets emotional as well, but seeing him like this sure sooth something inside you. His eyes flickered longing, sadness, and a lot more that it made it difficult to tell each one by one.

He sighed and leaned in. Your heart thumped in fear, but also couldn’t find the will to push him away. He gave your cheeks a soft kiss as he whisper something that made you almost cry.

“I missed you. I missed you so much.” he whispered.

Your eyes watered as he leaned away. Even before you can say anything, he sighed.

“You’re maybe here for the worst reason, and that is being my brother’s wife, but at least I had found you now.” he smirked and tilted his head.

“Sunghoon, please...” you said, finally finding your own voice. “Don’t do anything that will make things bad. I know we didn’t end well and trust me when I said I felt sorry for us, but I can’t do anything about it anymore.” you added, trying to make him understand your situation.

He nodded his head, but his smirk remains. “You’re right. I was really sorry for what happened to the two of us, y/n.” he said and you almost thought you two are on the same page already. You almost let out a sigh of relief, but then he talked again.

“You are right too, you can’t do anything about it anymore.” he then sighed. “But I can.”

“What?!” all of Sunghoon’s friends all exclaimed the moment he told them about the news. He seemed unbothered as he was busy using his phone.

They all met inside this bar and get themselves a vip room for this meeting. He needed his friends opinion so he asked for them.

“Wait wait wait. So are you telling me your brother’s wife is your ex-girlfriend?” Jay asked, can’t still believe it.

Jake was silent and just watching his friend. He was surprised about the news too and honestly, he’s very worried for Sunghoon. He knew what he feels towards you and how bad he wants you back. At this point, he knew he will do anything just to get you back.

“Yes.” Sunghoon answered shortly before he turned his attention towards his Heeseung hyung.

“Hyung, you know a lot of good laywers right?” he asked. Heeseung nodded his head with a confused look.

“Hyung, don’t tell me you’ll steal your brother’s wife?” Jungwon was the quickest to catch what playing through his mind.

Sunghoon chuckled, but kept his eyes over his phone. “Jungwon, you’re so smart.” he commented that left his friends speechless for a while.

“Dude, no you won’t. Tell me you’re kidding.” Jay said, he can already imagine how chaotic it would be if he really do it.

Sunghoon seemed unbothered. He already expected some of his friends would go against about it. Its not the right thing to do, after-all.

“Oh trust me, he will.” Jake answered and even tried pouring another drink over his glass.

Jay glanced at him then over to their other friends. They look concerned, but none said a word except from him. He furrowed his brows, a bit confused.

“Am I the only one thinking this is a bad idea?” he asked.

Heeseung lets out a sigh, a heavy one. He have a lot of thoughts inside his mind ever since he saw Sunghoon’s face when he tells about you and his brother. Its been a while ever since he’d seen other emotions over his friend’s eyes. It may sound funny, but he couldn’t find the heart to go against him.

“I know you’re worried, Jay. This is wrong.” Sunghoon started. He settles his phone down to their table as he roams his eyes over his friend.

“But I wouldn’t just stand there and let her be with my brother. I wouldn’t do the same mistake I’ve done before.” he said sincerely. Jungwon glances away with a small smirk before taking another shot.

“Maybe you’re just stuck at the idea of y/n and you, Hoon. Maybe its just the what ifs thats taking over. I’m sure y/n won’t want you to do this.” Jay tried to stood his point.

“Just give her up, man.” he added.

Sunghoon clenched his jaw. “She didn’t gave up on me easily, Jay. It was me who pushed her to her limits.” he smiled, but it was obvious that he was in so much pain.

Jay was speechless. All this time, he thought his friend was doing fine. Turns out he was wrong. He was in pain and they didn’t even notice it.

“If only I didn’t let her leave that night. She was asking for just a small assurance that it will always be her but I couldn’t even give it to her because of this goddamn pride.” his jaw clenched. “I was too indenial to admit that someone made me fall in love.”

Everyone was silent after Sunghoon lets out what he truly feels. Jay sighs, eyes fixed at his glass of liquor. He feel bad for his friend, he feels a bit angry towards himself for not noticing.

Heeseung sighed, “I’m not saying I support your decision, Hoon. But as your friend, I will just be here for you.” and he claps him over his shoulder.

“Me too, Hyung.” Jungwon.

“Go get her, Sunghoon hyung.” Ni-ki.

“Sunghoon hyung, you’ve been through so much. Hang in there,” Sunoo smiled, tears forming at the corner of his eyes.

Jake who’s beside Sunghoon taps him over his shoulder and so he turns to look at him. He gave him a small smile and nodded his head.

Everyone then eyed Jay who’s still silently looking at Sunghoon. When he noticed their eyes on him, he rolled his eyes and sighed heavily.

“Fuck it. Just so you know, even if I’m against this I want you to be happy.” Jay said that made Sunghoon chuckle.

“Thanks, guys. Thank you.”

Its been two weeks ever since you met Seungyun’s family and you almost disagree when he said that you guys will stay at their mansion for two months while he do his business around this town. You don’t want him thinking about it weirdly so you just agreed.

You know Sunghoon hates going home so you’re sure he won’t be there most of the times. You are right. For the two weeks you’ve stayed there, you haven’t seen him again yet.

“I’ll be back later at dinner, sweetheart.” Seungyun kissed you at the top of your head before he finally left for work.

Most of the days you are left home together with his Mom. She’s very nice and she seems to like you a lot. The only thing that refrains you from fully thinking that she’s a great person is because of the things Sunghoon had told you before. The way she neglects him because of his own brother. She really is very fond of Seungyun. Very very fond.

His father also talks foul behind Sunghoon just like how he told you before. Your heart ache for him. Before, you felt so bad because of the treatment he received from his family. After encountering about it yourself, you mentally wanted to give Sunghoon a tight hug.

If only the situation is not complicated.

You snapped back to reality when someone pulled a chair in front of you. The person sat and the first thing you saw was his playful smirk. Your heart instantly raced.

“S-Sunghoon...” you uttered his name, it was like you’ve seen a ghost. You aren’t sure if he’s really there or your mind created him out of too much longing for him.

“Hey, pretty. Seems like you have a lot going on inside that pretty mind of yours.” he smiled and stares remained darted at you.

You pursed your lips then gulped nervously. Seeing him right in front of you right now just makes the situation even more hard for you.

You love Seungyun, otherwise you wouldn’t agree on marrying him. But you know that Sunghoon has always been your greatest love. The moment you ended things with him, you knew you wouldn’t find a love that will be greater than what you felt with him. This peaceful marriage life you are hoping to have are all starting to get messed up having him close to you. Its dangerous specially if deep down, you know you still have feelings for him.

“What a-are you doing here?” you asked, trying to dismiss any topic that will put you in trouble.

He smiled, “Visiting.”

You nodded and was about to grab your book so you can leave, but he talks again.

“You know you can never avoid me, y/n.” he started and from your book, your gaze trailed towards him.

His smile was no longer there, his eyes softly looking at you. “We both know its still there. We both know its still me.”

You gulped, heart thumping hardly. You shake your head, denying it.

“You’re wrong. I love your brother.” you said, now you don’t know if it was to convince him or to convince yourself as well.

He lets out a scoff, “That’s like a knife stabbed straight to my heart, baby.”

You teared your eyes off from him. You aren’t sure if you can stay near him without spilling anything about your feelings.

“You know that ring won’t stop me from getting you back, right?”

Your steps halted and you turned your head towards him. Horror in your eyes were present, but he seemed unbothered. Actually, he looked really relaxed.

He stared at you as you were left speechless because of what he just said. Your emotions were playing you, like you’ve lost control of them anymore. You just snapped back to your senses when Sunghoon stood up and walked towards your direction.

You’re still spacing out that you can’t even react to it. “By the way, Mom’s asked me to tell you that you two will bake something. She’ll wait for you at the kitchen.” he said and smirked before starting to walk away.

After he was gone from your sight, that’s just when you managed to take breath properly. You didn’t even realized you are holding your breath. Sunghoon’s effect on you will surely be cause of your death.

After the conversation with Sunghoon, you are way more bothered. You always find yourself thinking about him and those memories you two shared together. You knew it was wrong, specially because you’re already married, but you just couldn’t help yourself. Like you’ve said, he was your greatest love.

Sunghoon was determined to show how he really want you back. From giving small hints during meals together with his families, to occasionally trying to take to you. All those talks, he was just teasing you. Making you all flustered and blushing from the things he said. Mostly its about how he intense his feelings are for you. It was almost unbelievable. If it was before, you wouldn’t even think that he would say those words.

“What? You’ll be gone for a week?” your tone was so surprised when you heard from Seungyun that he will leave together with his Dad to go to this business meeting with him.

You stood up and watch him pack his things. Your heart were hammering in worry. Worry that if he went away, Sunghoon will be more bolder of his moves and you won’t be able to stop yourself.

Seungyun sighs and pulled you into a tight embrace. Your heart aches, because you know how nice he’d been for you. He was so sincere for his love and when you asked for assurance, he gave it to you without thinking twice. You hate yourself for having this feelings for his brother, but you can’t do anything about it. You’re left with just avoid him.

“Yes. It will be just quick. For the mean time, use your time to reunite with friends or do something with Mom.” he suggests with a smile.

You pouted, “Can’t you just take me with you?”

He sighs and blopped your nose once, “I wish I can, but that would be an exclusive one.”

You nodded and sigh in defeat. You understand that works can be like that. After staying with him like that for a while, you helped him pack up and both of you cuddled up together, caging each other with warmth.

The next day, you didn’t want to leave your room even for meals. You tried reasoning out, but you know you can’t just keep on doing that because soon his Mom will be suspicious of it and will start to ask question.

You sighed and went out of your shared bedroom. You tried to not make it such a big deal and you are determined to avoid Sunghoon, but all of that dissipated when he was the first one you saw when you walked inside the dining area. It was lunch time.

You gulped and was about to turn back, but he already saw you. “Have a seat. We’ll eat lunch together.” he said and even settles down a dish at the middle of the table.

Your brows furrowed in curiosity if he’s the one who cooked it. “Where’s your Mom?” then you tried roaming your eyes around the house, trying to search for their helpers. “And the helpers?”

Sunghoon shrugged his shoulders off, “Mom went out. The helpers are doing their errands.”

“They didn’t help you?” you tried to act normal and started walking towards the chair in front of his, making sure you have enough distance.

“I asked them not to.” he said and even if he’s bothered that you didn’t took the sit near him, he shuts his mouth and even started putting food over your plate.

You blushed, “I c-can do it.”

Sunghoon shakes his head, “Let me take care of you.” he said seriously and you were once again caught off-guard.

You just let him and soon you two started eating your meal. Surprisingly, the atmosphere was a lot lighter and his food tasted so good.

“For how long did you knew my brother?” he finally asked. You sighed, already expecting it.

“A year and a half.” you saw how he nodded his head as he reach out for his glass of water, eyes darted at you.

“And you’re married for how long now?” he asked, you can even sense the bitterness tone over the word married.

“Five, five months.” you answered again. He nodded his head again before taking a sip over his glass.

“Just recently, then?” he said like as if he’s implying something. You sighed and rolled your eyes.

“Sunghoon, just stop it.” you started. “I know how much you enjoy thrills, but not this. You know how much I dreamt of having someone to be there for the rest of my life. Someone I can build a family with.” you say, eyes pleading.

He didn’t talk right away. “I know. And I’m sorry for what I did back then. I wished I didn’t let pride took over me and begged you to stay.”

Your eyes soften when you heard about it. God knows how much you wished he didn’t let you leave that night. If only he knows you will not hesitate to stay even if he hurts you so much if he just asked you to. You love him very much. Sadly, you still do.

“Its all in the past now. I already forgave you.” you shut your eyes and sighed. “If that’s the reason why you’re doing all of this then stop already. I forgive you.”

You stood up, “Please don’t ruin this for me.” and with that you left the scene.

You wiped off the tears away from your face and tried rushing your way back to your room, but even before you can do it an arm suddenly pulled you inside a room.

You hitched your breath as Sunghoon pushed you over to the wall, dangerously pinning you. His face leaned closer, your lips inches apart. “I was wrong, y/n. i can’t live without you.” he uttered before crashing his lips over yours with no hesitation.

He leaned away to look at your dazed face, gently he wiped those tears away, “so pretty. Very pretty and all mine.”

You both stared at each others eyes and you don’t know, but it was already too much for you. Even before you can stop yourself, your body moved first before your mind can think about it. You leaned kissing Sunghoon in the lips. He smiled, heart fluttering because of what you just did.

Sunghoon reached over the lock and locked his room before he carries you over his arm, lips still connected. He carefully placed you over the bed, and as he pulls away you even tried to go after his lips. He chuckled sexily, “Easy, baby. I’m not going anywhere.” he said as he enjoys how drunken in love you looked beneath him.

Sunghoon couldn’t even put it into words, the feelings he have right now, how beautiful you looked, all of it. They were perfect together. For him, this moment is what he’s longing for. Having you this close and intimate is what he needed the most in life.

Sunghoon took off his shirt smoothly before he leaned closer to you, not breaking eye contact with you.

“Let’s take this off, okay?” he asked softly and referred to your clothes. You nodded nervously. He smiled and leaned in to give you more kisses.

“God you look so beautiful, y/n. You’re making me crazy.” he whispered over your ear and even bite over it gently.

You shut your eyes, feeling so hot all over your body. Soon your lips were kissing passionately once again, “I missed you so much.” he said in between your kisses. His kisses slowly moved over to your jaw, down to your neck.

“I love you, y/n.” was the last thing you remembered he said before you get drunk over his kisses and the pleasure he’s making you feel.

You paced back and fort inside your room the next day. After what happened between you and Sunghoon, you felt very guilty. Guilty not just because you knew it was wrong, but also because you know it was what you wanted as well. You let it happen.

Sunghoon was not home the whole day, you heard from his Mom that he was in a meeting. You spend the whole day chatting with his mother and some other things to keep you occupied. Your mind still wanders off over the things he said and the things that happened. You are torn right now, you don’t know what you should do.

You are very certain that you have to talk about him and to decide about it sooner. And so when he arrived, you told him to meet you by their garden at night time.

“Last night was a mistake. I want to say sorry and I hope we keep our relationship casual.” you said glancing away. The pissed look over his face slipped away from you. he covered it and pushed himself off from the wall and walked closer to you.

“No.” he said. With furrowed brows you looked at him only to be surprised at how close he is already to you, “I’ve already made a mistake once letting you go. I won’t repeat it again.”  then he cupped your face.

Your eyes formed tears right away. “B-But I’m scared. What will they say about you when they knew about this? What will we do?”

Sunghoon sighed, a bit relieved that you’re just scared that’s why you are pushing him away. “I don’t care about what they will say about me. You’re all I need. If you’re beside me, it will be enough.”

Your eyes softens and a tear left your eyes as his words caress your heart. “T-They will be mad at us.”

“I will protect you. I will be just here.” he assured you.

You stared at his eyes and you can see that he’s very sincere, way far from the Sunghoon you’re together with years ago. His eyes screams longing and desperation to have you.

“I love you, y/n. Please tell me you still love me too.” he pleaded softly.

You sniffed and tip toed to give him a peck over his lips. “I l-love you, Hoon.” you finally let it out.

It made Sunghoon’s heart thump as he leaned again giving you a kiss at your lips. “I promise, everything will soon be okay. Just trust me, okay?”

You nodded while resting your head over his chest. After that, he walked you back to your room and he went over his.

Two weeks had passed and you did nothing, but to secretely spend it with Sunghoon. It was scary, of course. A lot of eyes are watching around you, but you managed to still sneak out. Despite the situation, your heart was full.

Sunghoon smiled and kissed your hand, “You look so pretty.” he complimented you before pulling you into a warm hug.

“So pretty and mine.” he mumbled.

You pouted, “When are we going to tell them?”

“Right after my brother’s back. I’ve already talked to some lawyers that can help us.” you leaned away and looked at Sunghoon’s face.

“Thank you for doing all of this for me. I know its very complicated and it may cause a lot of mess, but thank you for trying.”

He smiled, “No.” he cupped your face. “Thank you for giving me this chance to make it right.” and he leaned in to give you a soft passionate kiss.

“What the fuck is happening here?” you jolted and quickly moved away from each other the moment you heard that voice.

“S-Seungyun...” you said nervously.

He looked so angry. Sunghoon moved and put you behind him. Seungyun clenched his jaw and trailed his angry eyes from you towards his brother.

“You...” he started and you almost didn’t recognize his tone. He was raging mad. “You did all of this! You are trying to steal my wife from me!” he shouted and went in to give him a punch.

You screamed and quickly went to stop him. “Seungyun, stop! Please! Its not his fault!” you said and he looked at you with disgust over his eyes. He just couldn’t believe what’s happening behind his back.

“How can you do this to me? And with my own brother?” a tear left your eyes, hurting seeing him this hurt. You may not love him as much as you love Sunghoon, but you do still care for him.

He pulled his arm from you causing you to stumble back, he even almost hit your face because of how hard he pulled off. Sunghoon quickly stood up and held him over his collar. “Watch it, asshole.” he angrily said.

You held his arm, stopping him. “You’re the asshole here! What? You’re too insecure that you even stole my own wife from me?!” his brother shouted back.

You are about to say something when their Mom arrived in the scene as well. “What’s happening here?! Sunghoon, Seungyun!” she said panicking.

No one glanced at her, just you. Seungyun and Sunghoon were busy shooting glares at each other. Their Mom went in between and made Sunghoon let go from his brother.

“I sensed something was wrong so I cut my business trip shortly.” Seungyun said and lets out a scoff. “Turns out you two are cheating behind my back.”

Their Mom’s eyes grew big for a while before she turned her head towards your side. Her eyes reflects Seungyun’s.

“Sunghoon, is that true?!” she asked.

Sunghoon held your arm and slowly pulled you behind him, shielding you from any judging eyes his family may give you.

“She’s mine first.” he started. “She’s my ex-girlfriend.” he revealed.

Seungyun was left speechless after hearing about it. None of you talked. Their mother walked closer to your side and your eyes grew when she slapped Sunghoon’s face. “I’m disappointed in you, Sunghoon! How can you do this to your own brother?!” she said.

Your heart ached hearing his mother say those words to him and him taking all the blame. “I-Its not his fault, Ma’am. I was—” her raging eyes turned to you.

“You slut! How dare you seduce my sons! You’re so ungrateful!” she screamed and raised her hand to hit you with all her might.

You shut you eyes, ready to accept her rage. You heard the sound it made, but you can’t feel anything. When you open your eyes, you saw shock over her face and Sunghoon’s cheek all red. You can even saw a small bruise beside it because of her ring.

“Please don’t hurt her. I can take it all, just don’t hurt her, please.” he plead.

He stood in front of you, protecting you. It made you tear up.

“Are you really choosing that girl over your own family?!” his mother asked.

“Family? Since when did you treat me as your son, Mom? I was only there whenever Seungyun hyung was not around. You only see me when he’s not here.” you can see that she was taken aback.

“Y/n was the only one who made me feel loved and I was too stupid to let her go years ago.” he said and slid his hold from your arm over to your hand to intertwin your fingers.

“So when I get the chance to have her back, I took my shot.” he glanced at his brother. “I’m sorry if its in the wrong way and I understand if you will get mad at me. I will take it all, just don’t mess with her.” he said.

He sighed, “If you want to take it to legal court, we’ll be there. The divorce papers will be ready by tomorrow so it will be delivered to your office.” he said before finally pulling you to leave that house.

When you arrived at his place, you were both silent. He went to the bathroom and you quickly followed. He was looking for a first aid kit.

“Let me help you.” you said the moment he took a hold of it.

He turns his head and nodded. You walked inside and made him sit down. You started cleaning his wound while he silently watch you do it. His heart thump in worry. You’ve been very quiet ever since you left the mansion. He’s scared that you’re regretting your decision.

“A-Are you regretting it?” he suddenly asked and you furrowed your brows when you heard it.

“What made you think that?” you cupped his face.

“You’ve been very silent.”

You sighed and put his arm away so you can sit over his lap which he willingly let you. “I was just overwhelmed because of the things that happened a while ago.” you said clinging your arm over him for support.

He slid his arm over your waist, making sure you’re not going to fall. “I know. It must have scared you when my Mom started screaming.”

You pouted, remembering the scary scene. It did scared you, but having him beside you at least made you feel braver.

“It did. But at least we don’t have to hide anymore, right?” he gave your cheeks a kiss before nuzzling his nose at the crook of your neck.

“I love you so much, y/n. I will do everything for you.” he mumbled, that made your worries go away.

“I love you, Sunghoon.”

“Do you want me to go with you?” Sunghoon asked when he stopped his car at the parking lot of his brother’s company.

Its been 2 months already ever since it happened. Things were rough. A lot of people knew about it and started speaking ill about the two of you. But none of it was your concern, just like how Sunghoon predicted it, it eventually dissolved and got forgotten.

Now, you suddenly received an email from Seungyun that he will finally sigh the divorce papers. You got surprised because he was very certain that he wouldn’t do it a month ago. It made you wonder what changed his heart to do this.

“No. I can do this.” you said and leaned in to  give Sunghoon a light kiss.

He nodded his head, “Call me if anything happens.”

You chuckled and rolled your eyes before unlocking the door of his car, “Its Seungyun, Hoon. He won’t do anything bad.”

He pouted, “Just making sure, love.”

You giggled and nodded before finally waving at him. You went inside and told the lobby about the reason of your visit. She told you to go at the top floor to his office.

His secretary was the first one you saw. She flashes her smile, seeing you after a long time after the issue sure means a lot to her. What happened between you and her boss sure made her sad, but she knows things happens.

“He’s already waiting for you.” and she opened the door for you after she announced to him that you arrived.

The atmosphere feels heavy as you take steps closer to his table. He was doing something over his laptop when you entered so he didn’t look at you.

“Good afternoon, Seungyun.” you greeted him making him look at you.

He didn’t show any reaction, but you can see how he seemed very tired. It was obvious that he was drowning himself with work. Somehow, you felt bad.

“Heres the file.” you said glancing away as you hand him the folder.

He accepted it after staring at it for a while. He didn’t said anything and started reading the statements. “My lawyer also includes there that you’d get to keep your own assets all by yourself and that I wouldn’t get any of my shares.”

His head lift and brows furrowing at you, “Y/n, I know we’re separating but some of it was bought during our marriage. You’re considered as co-owner of some properties.”

You bit your lower lip and shake your head, “I don’t think I deserve it, Seungyun. I appreciate it really, but I will feel better if we settle it that way.”

He stared at you before finally signing it. The silence were suffocating for you. After he finishes, you accepted it and stood right away. You bowed at him.

“I know I’ve already said it a lot of times and this won’t even make your pain go away, but I’m sorry things have to end this way, Seungyun.” you said sincerely.

“I know you’re disappointed and mad, but things probably better this way. You deserve someone who will love you as much as you love them.” you flash him a smile.

“I wish you genuine happiness.” and you turned your heals to leave.

You’re already near the door when he talked. “I was indeed disappointed and mad.” he started.

You turned your head and looked at his way. “I’m disappointed because you didn’t told me right away. I am mad, but I’m mad at myself.” he said that surprised you.

“I’m mad at myself because I failed to see what my younger brother truly feels and how hard things were for him ever since. I was so drowned with my envy towards him that I failed to notice how he’d been through a lot.” he said and you saw him trying to hold his emotions to himself.

“You’re probably wondering why I suddenly decided to sign the papers.” he said and you nodded your head.

He flashed you a small smile, “Ever since that night I knew about you and Sunghoon, he always came to see me. To talk and convince me to let you go.”

Your eyes grew big, because you didn’t know about that.

“I d-didn’t know about that.”

He nodded, “Well, that’s Sunghoon. He’s not someone who will fully let you know about his efforts.”

“I was in so much pain that I made sure that I won’t let you have what you want thay easily.” he glanced away.

“But what shaken me was his last visit.”

Your heart raced, waiting for what he was about to say next.

“My brother is full of pride. He’s not someone who will beg for something. He’s not the type of person who will let other people step on him. He knew he was all that and that he can get everything he wants all by himself.” Seungyun said, and you saw how his eyes formed tears at the corner.

“But that day, Sunghoon begged me. He told me about how much important you are to him and that how he much he loves you.” he said and sighed. You saw him gulped as he looked back at you, your eyes have tears over them as well hearing about this from him.

“Sunghoon kneeled. Can you imagine that?” a smirk spreads over his lips as a tear stream down. “The oh-so-great Park Sunghoon kneeled here in this room.”

Your eyes were big, tears continuous flowing out from it.

“I can still remember the exact words he said that day.” he sighed. “He said, ‘Please, hyung. I know I hurt you, but Y/n is all I have. Please give her to me and you won’t heard anything from me again. I won’t ask for anything else. She’s all I need. I love her so much.”

You heart was overwhelmed by the things you’ve learnt from him. All you can think about is that you want to go back to Sunghoon and hug him very tight.

“Please don’t leave my brother, y/n. You made him feel alive.”

You smiled and nodded before finally leaving to go back to Sunghoon. You are crying at the elevator, but you didn’t mind the stares. When you arrived by the parking lot, he was leaning by his car patiently waiting.

When he saw you, he stood straight smiling. It slowly faded when he saw you crying. “What happened? Did he do something?” he asked, starting to get worked up.

You shake your head and quickly caged him in a tight embrace, “I love you so much, Sunghoon. Thank you for your efforts.”

He was stunned, but slowly he gave in to your hug. He gently made you lean away so he can cup your face.

“I love you more, love.” and he leaned in to seal your love with a kiss.

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Sometimes, its really easy to just let time pass by and take things for granted. I was scrolling through the Ares tag on your blog, and it just really hit me how amazing of a place you've created here on Tumblr. I remember discovering your blog like 5ish years ago and finding Aphrodite. A lot has happened since then, but I find myself truly grateful for this space you've created for us here on Tumblr.com. For me, and a lot of others, you've helped people gain understanding and forge relationships with themselves and their Gods. I know that if I'm feeling confused about something diety related, I can nestle myself into your tags, and find the answer(or the right question!)for whatever I'm searching for. Thank you for all the paragraphs of colored texts and purposeful italics. Thank you for your vulnerability and metaphors. For the gifs and stories and sources. Thank you for sharing your doubts and grief with us.

Thank you for everything. And I am so very proud of you.

This ask made me cry.

I've been having a hard time connecting with Apollo (a usual occurrence, my connection with him is weakest due to circumstances in my childhood beyond his control) but he does his best to send me signs and I hope it's okay to say I could feel his energy in this lovely message as if it was radiating healing energy. I believe he pointed at this ask while I was in the middle of being frustrated with my inability to hear him as well as I can hear the other gods. The "I'm so very proud of you" hit the hardest.

I'm actually planning on printing this ask and putting it on my altar as a reminder that despite how frustrated I'm feeling with my own spiritual life, others appreciate how I've helped them with theirs. It helped break the internal toxic monologue that happens in moments when I feel spiritually incompetent so thank you for breaking that, shining a light and giving me hope. I really needed it.

I appreciate it so much!

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Thank you all so much <3 (long post incoming, thank you if you read it!)

Before I begin, YES I KNOW THIS IS SWEET AND SILLY BUT LET'S BE HONEST IS IT REALLY A POST FROM MY ACCOUNT IF IT'S NOT SAPPY AND SWEET AND CHEESY? PLUS IT'S IMPORTANT TO ME, BUT ANYWAYS! IF YOU DON'T WANNA READ, IT'S A MILESTONE CELEBRATION POST WITH A DASH OF MY GRATITUDE FOR THIS ACCOUNT AND YALL AND ALSO SELFSHIPPING AS A WHOLE.

I normally don't take the time to mention numbers, especially in terms of followers or interaction. This is mostly because I'd rather focus on creating content both my followers and I enjoy, but today is a bit different. I woke up, checked my blog, and saw that there are 3000 people following me. For some, it may be silly to post about, but for me, it means the world.

When I began posting in January of last year, I had no idea if I was even going to keep this blog for long. Truthfully, I was still figuring out my place in selfshipping. I'd created f/o blogs in the past, but I never really kept them. This time, I'd promised myself that for once, I'd try to consistently post and create content that would bring me joy, whether anyone saw it or not. I added tags so that I could possibly find more people who felt the same way I did. I posted to not only create a space where I felt less alone in my personal bond with my f/os, but to also find others who may feel similarly. Over time, I've been able to create and post things that not only I enjoy, but that have also positively impacted others.

And while I didn't think I'd be on this blog for so long, I'm so glad I did. I am so glad I stuck with it, because there ar people who have followed me for my content and have enjoyed it. From the bottom of my heart, thank you. Thank you for letting me post and gush and get all excited about my f/os. Thank you for sharing and reblogging and interacting with my content, and telling me how much it means to you, even though you aren't obligated to. Thank you for making me feel so welcome and appreciated in this community. Thank you for each and every interaction. I cannot wait to keep creating new stuff, I can't wait to have more great experiences, but most of all, I can't wait to see what the future has in store.

If yall think I should do something special or have any ideas, let me know! Thank you all so much again.