#this is covid's fault

[jewishcissiekj]

just misspelled second genesis as secomd gemesis... how can I blame this on the American education system (I'm not American I'm just bad at typing)

[fatherforgivemeforihavesinned]

MY LIBRARY CARD IS EXPIRED???????

[sneverussape]

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[religion-trauma]

eh this is a vent blog i can do whatever SO

LONG COVID FUCKING SUCKS BALLS

when i first heard it i was like "huh, that must suck. but it only lasts a few months so its not that bad"

AND THEN A YEAR WENT BY and scientists were like "oh fuck some people still have it. uh. oh no. it can last a while"

but I DIDNT KNOW THAT! I was living my life! And then I got covid for the second time. and it never fucking left. I haven't had my lungs be pain-free for a whole day in FUCKING YEARS

and the worst part? my general family doctor thinks its not a big deal. at least, that's what he ACTS like. he's like "oh i'm sure the constant pain ur in is just long covid. and i can't do anything phsycial that's immediate like medication sooo deal with it :) just exercise more :)."

next visit, 6 months later: "oh it's not gone? weird. it'll be gone in a few months. exercise so you can get stronger and banish it"

next visit, 6 months later: "ur still in pain and tired all the time? uh. exercise more."

next visit, 6 months later: "still?? u need to eat better and exercise more. ok bye."

me, next visit: "ya know what? it's been like 2 years. he's not gonna listen. i wont bother bringing it up"

so i stopped bring it up. i'm tired of him saying "exercise!" while i have repeatedly presented him symptoms that make it hard to do exercise anywhere near consistently. like. what even COULD he do if this turns out to be chronic? i know what he WOULD do. exercise exercise exercise. no other solutions offered, no advice on HOW to exercise with chest pain, just exercise.

[gayvampyr]

we should be allowed to redo college and get a whole new GPA. just start from scratch. get a second chance. it’s not fair

[tiny-xander-adventures]

he’s on a sticky note!

[deadlydelicious]

Now I know they were constrained because of Covid but I think my perfect Supernatural ending would be a sight flash forward, with a camera tracking through the bunker, bustling with hunters coming and going.

We start by finding Sam standing at the big map table back in his season 14 premier role as mission control dispatching hunters on jobs, but this time he's got a baby strapped to his chest. Eileen comes in, covered in a bit of blood spatter clearly just back from a hunt, and she gives like a quick kiss to the baby and to Sam.

The camera continues tracking showing Garth in the library with Claire and Patience, deeply embroiled in some sort of research/story exchange trying to one up each other. We continue on through the halls, alternate Bobby and Charlie walking past geared up for a hunt, down past the kitchen where Donna and Jody are standing round the counter drinking coffee and laughing. We keep continuing through the space seeing all these hunters gathered in this home base, laughing and living and bonding

And then we go down to the basement, where we find Dean. We see him only from the back; alone, on his knees, facing a wall that's been covered in some sort of sigils. He's murmuring quietly, clearly in the middle of some sort of incantation, and we have arrived just as he finishes with a flourish of sparks and smoke from the bowl at his knees. We then cut round to show a centered close-up of his face as he stares forward, a worried look on his face, watching the wall. It holds on this tight close up, hanging on his expression as he waits in trepidation. Then suddenly his face is lit by a bright glow, and we see his expression crack into a teary smile as we hear Castiel's voice say "Hello Dean".

And cut to black

[cloud-ya]

Your ChatGPT IT class story is absolute insanity what the fuuuuck? But good on you for refusing to engage with it until you were forced to 🫡 respect

yea fuck IT classes are just so half-assed and dysfunctional here, like school system is awfully outdated and just doesn't fit the technological development nowadays. it's always do one thing, show it to teacher, get a grade and call it a day because what else can you learn there. I remember having an entire 45 min long class just about creating a new folder and then making more folders in that folder

[3-aem]

i genuinely yearn for the days when i did video game development and did not even care that they were working me to the bone because i had such a pathetically massive crush on my manager who very gay but believed in me a lot. and that was my entire braincell and also i always woke up at 6am rather than fall asleep…at that time

[divinekangaroo]

I tend to write a lot because for me, the pleasure is in achieving flow-state. Yeah there’s a place for research and analysis and thinking and structural conceptualisation, but at the guts it’s that joy of flow. And then I post, which is a mental tick box to stop thinking about that particular thing, and move on to the next thing. One reason of many why I prefer fanfic environments to original fic is the low stakes of the outcome, there seems to be a recognised appreciation for process and iteration - nothing is perfect or final or ‘the full and complete representation’, it’s only an angle as a certain point in time of a ficcer’s interest area and the next along the line could be something very different

the issue atm is that flow is very difficult to achieve in the 2hr window I have for writing; it takes me a good 30-45 mins of re-read, mild editing twiddles, looking stuff up, finding comparative research/a few interesting journal articles, before my brain clicks into write-mode. Then it takes another thirty of fumbling to get into flow. And then, if I have failed to lay groundwork to point that flow-of-words in the relatively right structural direction, I have a small collection of words that are a dead end and can’t be used. The shortness of the flow state and low certainty of having a usable output in exchange for that time is frustrating

I miss my ability to stay up to 11pm writing. That’d give me a 4 hour window, but I am sooooooo tired. So tired these days. So much for needing less sleep the older you get.

[mercisnm]

Who would like to sample my supply? Who's prepared to pay the price for a trip to paradise?

[seahorsepencils]

what the actual fuck?

[bri-does-art]

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[badolmen]

covid :(

[coulson-is-an-avenger]

sometimes u gotta pull back from a 1k outline of jarthur smut and go hm. have i started an act of hubris i shall not survive.

[ilkkawhat]

what fucked me up so bad to where i feel bad for putting my health before work