#tho it may be my delusional self speaking

[barb-being-mentally-ill]

Day 3: Marriage/ Tears

I decided to go with tears, my mind immediately went to that one scene in the finale, it’s clear that Optimus is distraught over Megaton’s death but it’s like totally skipped over

I thought it would be neat to give him a stereotypical shot of a single tear falling down the characters face. Long ago I saw someone depicting cybertronian tears as this vaguely energon looking substance and just ran with it 🤷

Here’s the lineart and a little sketch of me bothering Optimus

Below there’s a snippet that describes the illustration 👍

Optimus watched Megatron's body fall in disbelief. His battle mask slipping away as a tide wave of pain and grief overtook him.

Megatron died.

His enemy, his…, his other half was gone and with him a piece of his spark. Liquid formed in his optics and fell down his cheeks, the Prime cried for the first time in eons

[fourstarsoutofnine]

(Sorry i haven’t been active or updating a lot I know that’s a bad impression since I just got here but there is so much going on rn in my life😭 here’s this small thing for compensation)

Chain as Taylor Swift songs/albums(ft. Ravio and Malon)

Once again being self indulgent. More content that caters to myself bc apparently the creative juices only work for a small amount of time and only what provides serotonin to me currently. I’m out to break hearts so a ton of these will be sad. You’ve been warned.

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All of the chain:I think they all can identify with Innocent from Speak Now. I didn’t wanna keep adding it to each of theirs so here’s just an overarching statement that they’re all Innocent.

Time: never grow up. Like most, if not all, of the links, he had to grow up far too early and be what Hylia chose him to be—and I can hear him telling this to his future children:don’t grow up too fast. He had to and he never wants that for his baby. He wished he never had to grow up so fast, even if he had to save the world. Just because he had to doesn’t mean doesn’t mourn for his lost normal childhood. As for an album I think he’d be the fearless album.

Twilight:as an album he’s so evermore. I almost said debut but no no no. He’s evermore. Uhh as far as a song tho, idk I may be swayed by the fact it has the word cowboy in it, but I associate cowboy like me with twilight so heavily. Another song could be right where you left me if you squint and are delusional for MidLink.

Sky:HE IS SO LOVER! Both the song and the album! Omg! /shaking you by the shoulders/ this boy is so Lover ugh oh my gosh. Bright and beautiful and loving, accepting, kind while still having those notes of sadness, longing, and serious thoughts. The album Lover feels like a hug from a friend, and that’s what sky embodies.

Wind:can I interest you in The Best Day? Also You’re On Your Own, Kid. Also A Place In This World. He’s very much the younger taylor albums, like fearless. A good many of them read fearless to me and I couldn’t tell you why. For wind it’s because it seems like shiny and new and ready for what the world throws, but still a sense of hesitance.

Wild:Epiphany, This Is Me Trying, or Peace. He’s so folklore coded to me. The depictions of death and inability to save lives in epiphany, the heartbrokenness of this is me trying, one who’s making desperate attempts to be who they need them to be, and the sadness of Peace—cannot console and bring peace over the heart of someone who’s broken, but by Hylia if he isn’t gonna be there the entire time for the person.

Warriors:I think Change from Fearless. I also see him as Mirrorball, specifically because I feel like he puts up such a front and feels like he always has to stand tall and strong because of who he was as captain of the guard—but also since there’s so many young and impressionable men in the chain he feels like he has to be a good role model, especially for wind, and keep his head up about everything and make them smile and feel reassured when times are tough. As an album, probably Midnights. It feels like a start of something new and I think Wars embodies fresh beginnings—he just gives that vibe to me idk why. It might be because he left the scene of planning for wars to being out on his own adventure aside from what the army gives him.

Four:this one was hard. Four was really hard to pick for. Uhh—I think Seven maybe but I’m not sure. As for an album I feel like he’d be pretty Folklore as well. Could be just me projecting tho as if this whole thing isn’t. Four is so complex to me that it’s really hard to pin down. I chose Seven because it feels like a conversation between best friends. I’ve also seen that it’s meant to be listened to as someone speaking to their inner child to tell them everything is gonna be okay and that they’ll be together in the future and things are good now, and that interpretation gripped me by the throat and forced me to put this song for Four, so.

Hyrule:my dear sweet Hyrule and his imposter syndrome get anti-hero bc that’s the imposter syndrome anthem. He doesn’t feel like he’s a big hero, or even deserving of that title, so he feels a bit like a lost cause and that song is the perfect depiction of that. As an album, idk why but he’s reading very debut to me ?? I couldn’t tell you why, it’s just a vibe I get.

Legend:ohhhhhhhh my gosh. Okay. Get ready for this—I have So. Many. For him. Can you tell who’s been giving me brainrot recently? Anyway, first I’ll say his albums would be folklore and evermore. They’re so tragic to me and what is Legend if not a tragic, guarded little man(said with so much love, he’s my comfort character). As for songs, we’re Starting off strong with Labyrinth, then wildest dreams(cough) Then sad beautiful tragic, Cornelia street, anti-hero, i could go on. I won’t. We’d be here all day😭

Ravio:my tears ricochet. Idk I just thought of the idea that he gets stuck in Hyrule if dink is defeated and he can’t get back to Lorule so the part that goes “I can go anywhere I want, anywhere I want, just not home” hurts :)

Malon:WHOOH! Okay a happy one: Christmas tree farm and Fearless! And Malon is also such a fearless album girlie to me idk. Another song would be Superman. She loves her sweet hero husband and will always be there for him when he gets back <3

I hope you guys like this as much as I do😭 sorry if you don’t, I’ll get back to our regularly scheduled programming soon, it’s just been hard recently to do larger things. Sorry for everyone waiting on requests to be completed, I promise I haven’t forgotten you.

[jadzio]

Hey, I know it's been a lil while, and that you're busy, but I've been wondering about something. In the past, you have mentioned that Velvette is your favorite character from Hazbin, and I'm curious - what's the reason for that?

It mostly surprised me because of how little screentime she gets (I believe she has roughly 4 scenes, where she got to speak). I have also had instances where I came to really love side characters that the story didn't put much focus on, but I also don't recall any of them ever making it to my number 1 spot, so yeah.

But I will admit that I enjoyed her quite a bit. Her VA did a great job, and I do like the fun archetype of the 'snooty self absorbed rich girl that is also pretty short I guess' (with Pacifica from GF, Qiyana from League, and Disgust from Inside Out being some other examples I liked).

And Resepctless is a bop, of course. Plus it also strongly implied that Velvette is somewhat delusional (as Vox was shown to be the backbone of her group, being the one with biggest influence, that also sorts situations out - while Zestial didn't loose any relevance, judging by the way folks on the street reacted to him), which could be a fun thing to explore in Season 2.

I wonder if there's anything more to your enjoyment of the character, or if it's just the stuff I already said. After all, we all have our favorite tropes and archetypes, and a character would often become my favorite for simply fitting into the ones I like!

But I suppose there's no harm in asking :3

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I may answer a bit late, but hey at some point I will claw out some time...

Velvette is my fave from hazbin, but Beelzebub is my fave from the whole hellaverse.

I dont think she is delusional tho. I think that line was just either puffing up your coat to appear bigger and more threatening to the other overlords or all the v's i think thinks of themselves as the most important. We see a lot of vox, but id say that its vel who keeps things running the most. She isn't running and wasting time on simping for someone who won't even look at em (I mean angel for Val and alastor for vox). She feels like she needs to pick up crap after their toxic yaoi and feel the consequences the most.

And I think zestial might have lost some influence. I mean if u only take what folks from the street think of him, I mean they acted like that when they've seen alastor too, but its harder to argue that he remained in the same power as before. I think most sinners would reacted that way, cause 1 overlords, 2 who knows what they are up to, 3 they are known to take souls so u know u can still think lowly of someone and still be scared of them if they have a granade in their hand. Sides Val might have said that cause maybe v's have millions of souls due to the powers shift and more of the new sinners coming to them for technology., while zestiel might have had only a few thousands, strong ones, but less in numbers. Maybe she thinks those old souls can't do much anymore as opposed to their millions. also situation just had changed, they've discovered that angels are not immortal. so she wants a new approach to the situation and not be dragged by old unchanged ways of ye old. Also also all that was to prode and poke at carmila to cause her to outburst. I think she is smarter then u give her credit to. she knows its Carmilla and is trying to get out more info in the way she knows how. also it might have been again puffing up your coat to bring more overlords to her side.

But to answer ur question, I think i need to go back to queen bee. My love for her started for a beautiful design and its still a big part of it ofc. But... Idk how to describe it. She kinda awakened/opened some part of me if even just a lil (not like sexually i already know im pan/furry don't at me). Some part that been hidden away. one thats more spunk and free in her expression. More femme but in this specific way. This all didnt change my life in a dramatic way, but it pry open the door for other stuff to influence it.

And thats where Vel comes in. Trough that opened door, a lil bit. She also has an amazing design. But she is also spunky and not afraid to speak her mind and have a lil fun with it. She is respectless and a lil but of a bad bitch and Idk that kinda resonates with me a lil. I sometimes wish I had that confidence to flip off other plp (when deserved obvi) and dress in unusual ways.

overall idk you can all attribute my interest in them both to excellent design. but that's my theory on why

[dms-saggicorn]

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#never really had the nerve to share my ocs so i guess i was spared the critical and down right brutal comments of deviantart

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

How do you feel about the possibility of Sundrop/Moondrop (FNaF: Security Breach) as being interesting/hot as a yan.? 🤔 yay or nay??

Gotta say at 1st Sundrop was kinda horrifying with his unhinged voice and forever cursed smile and dead eyes

buuut after reading some very convincing *ahem* "literature" some fun cute animatics and animations I've eased up on the dude and think he could make for a great delusional Yandere! Don't think I'd want to be his Y/N personally tho.

As for Moon drop...he's scary with a kick ass voice and would make for a great and terrifying rough Yandere 😱 The rough Yanderes are scary and quite mean so I wouldn't be down for him either :p (not that I'd have a choice tho I guess 😭😭)

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8 notes - Posted July 12, 2022

#4

Ok ok ok here's that one final request I finished awhile ago for @calefee apologies for the wait:

She is a very pretty character but god the details were killing me a bit ngl lol but the ending result is pretty good I'd say! Thanks for requesting 💜

If anyone else wants to request go on ahead as well!

11 notes - Posted November 30, 2022

#3

Did you see Angry Boy Pedro’s new update on Twitter? He can play guitar.. I’m like OH THAT’S HOT, THAT’S HOT.

Ngl Pedro? Not a fan. I don't like to be punched in the face >:( or batted to the face???? No bueno buuuuut that being said Anony, Guitar? That would indeed be a weakness of mine for sure 👀👀 so maybe he ain't so bad...Still a 💙Peter💙 Simp for life. Him being able to sing tho...might change my mind...slim chance but still a chance UnU

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Oops my hand slipped

I did NOT mean to have this piece be this good??? It was supposed to just be a sketch lol was fun to draw the angry man :)

Might not like him very much but he does look cool.

19 notes - Posted May 2, 2022

#2

Aaaaaand done! This was A LOT of fun to draw! They're talking bout their boyfriends obviously ;) ;) ;) while drinking some grape juice and apple cider! (alcohol is a no no ;3) once I get my damn Kofi thing fixed I'd love to do a commission for you if you'd like! That and any one of you Anonies since was so fun to draw another Y/N sona 💜💜💜! Welp until next time take care!

44 notes - Posted May 19, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Kk Just like last time for that one sad Anony part 3 (yeah that one Anony probably not sad anymore...maybe but it's easier to call it that trust me lol)

You can't escape the sins of your past edgy self YB. No one is safe

This one is so silly lol until next weeks comic ;D

60 notes - Posted May 8, 2022

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[crazy-bxmbo-bxtch]

𝕐𝕒𝕟𝕕𝕖𝕣𝕖 𝔸𝕥𝕥𝕒𝕔𝕜 𝕆𝕟 𝕋𝕚𝕥𝕒𝕟 H𝕖𝕒𝕕𝕔𝕠𝕟𝕠𝕟𝕤

I'm only writing for the characters I know, I'm rewatching the series.

Hange\hanji has they\them pronouns

～(^з^)-☆

Eren: Possesive, he may have anger issues, and just because he chokes you does not mean he hates you...he just is a little upset at the moment.

He first met you while training, and he was stunned by your beauty and dedication. You always distracted him, but he pulled together just fine. When he is in his titan form, the obsession is still there, always looking for you. He'll put you in his mouth and rest you on his tongue. NOT SWALLOWING.

"When this is all over, you are going to marry me. I mean it."

Mikasa: She is very patient with you. She knows how it feels to be taken against your will. Scared, confused, but not to worry, you only there for her to love on.

Protective as hell, you think you can handle a fight, ha, don't make her laugh, she loves to hurt people in your favor. She is prepared for anything in order to protect you.

"Y/n, c'mon, let's go to bed, im tired. This bitch thought she could talk abou you behind our backs, that cunt."

Armin: Bro is a top tear. TOP TEAR. Manipulator. He out thinks you by using his intelligence, and it fucks with your mind. He could convince you that you have known each other from when you were younger. And you would believe it.

Don't even try to ask for help. you're not gonna get it. Man can catch you by surprise with his strength. He can whip ass when he needs to. And whoever gets in his way can catch his hands.

"Y/n, don't you remember the promise you made, we are supposed to be together forever."

Jean: this arrogant ass mf, always following you, like bitch personal space, do u know her? He'll befriend you so u have no suspension of him being a creep.

Is he pervy, yes, and he's aware that he is pervy, i mean, it was no accident when he walked up and just so happened to trip over air and grab your chest. But he thinks ur dumb so...

"My bad, didn't mean to bump into you, I'll be more careful next time."

Sasha: I can personally see she wants someone who can and will feed her, so prepare to be the house wife of her life.

Very obsessive. Likes to spoil you, tho. Whether it's a massage, a special day out, or a special day in the room... she loves you to bits and peaces.

"I'm home, look Y/n, i killed a deer, this will taste amazing for dinner."

Connie: Mans is delusional, thinks you love him back, he wants to build a family with you, he adores you.

Now he can get cocky, so you just gotta ingnore him till he gets all mad and begs you to look at him. Works every time.

"Y/n, c'mon, you can't be this angry right. I didn't mean it."

Annie: Agressive, always watching, but you never know. She love to see you smile, you are her weakness. And her only reson for living.

She always looks to your needs instead of her own. Loves to just listen to you speak. It warms her heart to see you taking about something so passionately .

"Hey, Y/n, what are you doing? Please tell me, it seems interesting"

Crysata/Historia: As Crysta she was kind careing sweet, and always looking after you, very submissive and would do anything you asked her to.

As Historia tho, she takes the lead and is in charge of your whole life. What you eat, wear, when you sleep, when you wake up, its all up to her. You have no freedom except your thoughts.

Crysta" Y/n we sould get to bed, you need energry for tomorrow"

Historia"Bed NOW, this is the sceond time I've told you. Next time i wont be so nice"

Yamir: Cocky as hell, and bitchy, always bossing you around, makeing fun of you becase you can't be on your own without screwing up.

Always by your side. Wants to marry you, be with you the rest of your life, there is no escape.

"Why did you even join the force if you can't do shit for your self"

Levi: Agressive and awkward, he does not know how to express his feelings, so he could give you a compliment and you would think it's an insult.

Does favors on the down low. You could ask one of the cadets to do something, levi over hearing it, does it. And no one knew who it did. Especially if it's a personal favor.

"Wow cadet, seems like your not a complete fuck up after all"

Hanji/Hange: always has you with them at all times. They just can't get enough of you, they have many nicknames for you.

Thinks you are the cutest thing to have ever walked this earth. So adorable. They have you wrapped around their finger, with their charming smile, you can't scence the crazy...well except their natral crazy.

"Ah, Y/n my dear, you are just the cutest thing, such a sweetheart.

Erwin: In charge. That's it, no back talk. Wants you by him at all times. At meetings he would have you sit beside him or in his lap as he does paperwork. Asking your opinions, and praiseing you.

Don't disobey he is fond of punishment. He can always put you to bed early. And not let you go outside for a day. It won't bother him.

"Y/n, how do you feel about this, for our next expedition. No, you cant come this time, im sorry."

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REQUESTS: open

I will only write who is on this headcanons list for now.

[gg-astrology]

Hey love💕 what are your thoughts on Scorpio Sun - Virgo Moon?

Hey there!! 💕💕 Aaaah I’m going to do my best ok!💕

[Below Cut: Scorpio Sun - Virgo Moon 🦅]

The first thing that came to mind is ‘Keep Calm and Carry On’ ksnkgjndkn

I’m so sorry I brought that back but it’s!!! true!!! 

Scorpio/Virgo keep their level-headedness on every single day 24/7 without letting it rest/stop

Sometimes it can be too much to the point where they neglect their emotional fulfillment, in order to find momentary gratification in productivity/instant results instead

Y know like you have so much energy/vitality with Scorpio backing you up, but where does it all go? What direction?

Virgo as a mutable searches far and wide for things to put those energy into, productivity/efficiency, it can sometimes comes slower than what they need in the immediate.

Thus when anxiety builds up, these Scorpio/Virgo people starts to not stay still--- they need an outlet, something to pour themselves into. They start searching/looking for things to invest in, even if it’s impulsive or drain them in the long run (not what they want to do)

You’re naturally thorough and careful, but also a slave to your impulses. Sometimes you do things that after a while, makes you groan and realize you didn’t want to do it at all (you only did it because it was ‘good’ in the moment) 

Exasperation is a Big Mood but besides that, you have great focus/concentration ability on the things you ARE genuinely interested in.

You’re able to pour hours of energy and vitality into something and come out of it-- organized, making sense, able to explain it to those around you because you are practical above all else

Your natural intuition (able to pick up on other people’s intentions/motives) serves you well with Virgo grounding you -- you don’t spiral into paranoia immediately-- there’s an element of ‘nah that’s delusional’ that the earth moon brings. Even tho sometimes you let yourself indulge in your obsessive working nature, you tend to hold yourself back abit when it comes to people (an observer above all)

While you may let others have benefit of the doubt most of the time, you know exactly what you want. Your belief, your person, your credibility. You’re very well aware of the assets you have, and anyone who comes to terrorize/impose or even slightly besmirch your reputation gets slapped back into place immediately.

You like your space, and your lil cozy corner where you are just who you are. People who think they can impose, speak for you or make you out (’out of hands’) to be someone you aren’t annoys you greatly. You don’t take kindly to those who takes advantage of your kindness, consciously or not. 

Even an honest mistake you reprimand others to not do it again or there’s consequences (which you’re rather demonstrative towards showing, so they know there’s realism/you’re backing what you just said up) 

Scorpio/Virgo can be reserved, detached but still sharp/astute and perceptive. They’re logical, often discerning and inquisitive. You know when to ask questions and when to go off and do your own work. 

Your independence is based on your self-sufficiency, the ability to intuitive know when’s a good time/not so good time to ask someone something or bother others. You do well on your own, but that doesn’t isolate you from people. You just...y know. Like having your space. As everyone should too.

You don’t like being too overly dependent on others even if you like company occasionally, and you try to embody/teach that to others who may be too heavily reliant on 1) themselves (overly into themselves) or 2) others (become stagnant/stricken when others leave them, can’t do anything by themselves)

You like simplicity, but also with sophistication. Like the kind of effortlessness that is the result of hard-work and perseverance. You’re classy and have tastes, even if you don’t necessarily show it off or broadcast it to people around you ( ‘not their business, if they take the time to notice/care then they’re worth being around’ ) 

Although you’re rather deft and critical, you’re also subtle and can be tactful if you so wish. It comes with the y know-- reserved nature, but when you’re blunt oh boy you’re way too blunt.

You don’t know when to hold back, how to soften the blow. With Virgo in there, most likely you’re rather dense/oblivious to how ‘approaching others gently/nicely’ can be a better method than just-- sticking to inherent honesty and not mincing your words. You have to learn how to bring your ‘precautionary’ behaviour here, how to have tact. Because you can’t just choose to be tactful on one thing and then when you ‘drop it’ you have 0 at all. 

It’s not 0 to 100 all the time, or rather 100 to 0. You have to learn how to balance it 50/50. It’s going to cause you some frustration since you don’t like learning how mutables work (adaptability/flexibility) but boy will it save you some good relationship/feelings and deals you might not blow if you don’t do that. 

I...I guess essentially you’re self-sabotaging yourself? Most of the time you keep your mouth shut completely, and then when you open your mouth to ‘speak your mind’ you’re ‘too harsh’. Learn how to balance or have y know-- tact and self-control. You can’t just be ‘one extreme to the other’ all the time. You have to learn how to be open while closed, how to be closed but open. 

You mostly have a problem with too much self-examination, picking up on your own flaws and inherently ‘subduing’ your sensuality for the sake of ‘practicality/guarding yourself’. You have to learn how to accept yourself, or atleast not find faults in yourself all the time (and become obsessive at it)

It’s like picking on your pimple. Don’t do it. You have to learn how to work with it, how to heal and soothe it instead of agitate it. You’re only going to hurt yourself, and your relationships because that’s why you keep people at the distance. You make your ‘critical’ nature your main function-- picking faults in others because you do that to yourself.

So learn, how to not pick at your own faults so you can learn how to not do it to others too. Or the other way round, but just...take the time to examine how you treat yourself ok?  

Ok! 💕💕💕 I hope you enjoy!! 💕💕

[achoolou]

Even if we assume Ronaldo or Leo are gay, do you believe they're being forced into the closet? Do you expect Ronaldo to reveal those kids aren't his? The difference between closeting and what larries made up for Louis is huge. You can believe whatever you want but at the end of the day Freddie is growing up. Sooner or later Louis will be seen with a grown child who's capable of understanding everything around him. How will you explain that? Will Louis lie to the kid?

Leo and Ronaldo aren’t “forced” into their closets and play along with it to have the success they have rn and want. they also know they would not be as successful if they didn’t stay in theirs.That opens a whole other discussing about if the closet isn’t inherently forced to begin with.By societys structure, upbringing, the very core of our all minds trying to be accepted by others and strangers.Even the most complicit to their own Closet (those with a deep self hate and inner homophobia) are forced into that by what is being presented to them from birth as the normal and good way.

I 100% believe this are ronaldos kids. Being gay doesn’t hinder you from having kids. He used surrogates. Other gay ppl did very well sleep with their wifes and produced them etc.

Before i start with Louis i want to make you aware once again that “Larries” aren’t a monolith. Everyone speaks for themselves. And as much as i hate some larries invasive and line crossing posts about this matter it isn’t all of us. And if you come swinging brushing us all over the same brush i will automatically not take you as serious for you lack the ability to differenciate different peoples behaviour and blame ppl for where it’s due.

Like being totally of topic. being a muslim immigrant this hella reminds me of my own treatment in that. People who aren’t capable to see shitty behaviour for shitty behaviour but broaden that onto everyone in that group just don’t have a clue. And i will automatically will find you dumb at least on this matter.

The whole pregnancy thing has been very weird and has been treated weird. That is the main reason people go way over board trying to explain why it is all fake. It was handled bad and there are justifiable reasons to side eye it.

I will not speculate on this matter. How can i when i don’t have any insight in this matter. Hell if i know what went down bts at those times.Like it is not on the insane part to consider the “worste case” of Louis might have been shitfaced and slept with someone despite being gay and there is freddie now.Do i believe that tho? No i don’t. I wouldn’t love Louis any less but i don’t think that is what happened at all.They could handeled this whole pregnancy way better and less suspicious if they wanted people to be convinced. People have legit reasons for side eying babygate beside being delusional and wanting larry to be real. That is fact.Only to name one of the pap screaming “this is for the sun” them aligning into a pic before taking pics of Louis and brianna used for the whole babygate press BEFORE she was even pregnant at that point…It’s shady. Larry aside. It was shady

What i hate tho and agree on is that Freddie and Louis family etc are living beings. And people crossing all lines and interacting with them on social media with this speculations is simply wrong.

Everyone had the right to write about their opinions on the internet. Even if actual human beings are involved. Freddie isn’t and will not be the first kid to be able to read nasty stuff surrounding his birth. That is the Price ppl pay for “fame” and being known. If he wanted to be a part of that or not. His family made the Decision to let him be seen for him.

If anyone goes onto any pics and out of their way to direct anything at the individusl itself it shows what gross people they are.

They may be larries but they are just gross people in the first place. Larry does not make you do the fucked up shit on the internet. Your personality does

[shawnjacksonsbs]

Here's to Christmas Spirit, and maybe the strength to keep it around after Christmas, plus two.     12-13-20

"I’m a greater believer in luck, and I find the harder I work the more I have of it.” - Thomas Jefferson I feel like I know it's more than luck . . .but yeah, what he said. Go work hard for it. These are the days. And they are of no more or less consequence than other years just because it's 2020. I stay grateful that my year was minimally affected, as of yet. My heart goes out to all who weren't as fortunate. I wish I could do more for them. Focusing on the top of my gratitude list, which is my family and currently its place inside this holiday season. It's also the only time of year that I come close to living paycheck to paycheck, which I'm also grateful for, on both counts. I suppose, comparably speaking, the money spent this year is about the same as the last several years, but this year we made or helped make a lot of the gifts going out this year. Which, to me, is so much cooler as they actually hold pieces of our hearts inside. It's not the money or the gift itself that's even that important to me. It's literally the amount of heart that goes into it, and that you can project how it will make their soul smile when they open it. It's such a wonderful time of the year for me these days. I played a huge role in how I got to this point and why. Sure there is some luck that goes along with it, but I changed my outlook on life, and I work hard every day to ensure my minimal material, but excessive love lifestyle. Its forever changed my place on this Earth! I never want to be on that other side again. Trying not to dwell on the slight depressive days that always seem to follow the holidays home every year, but planning for those days in slight advance I'm hoping will help get through. Family, friends, and sharing kindnesses and love while yelling to the world the way I got out and maintain what it is, is how and what truly keeps me here. I am sorry if you're struggling. Reflect on the why(s) with a sincere heart, and change where and what you need. Regardless, don't let your children go hungry, cold, or without gifts because of a temporary inability to provide. Hands are out to help you up, especially this time of year. My messenger is always open. Always. I may not have every means of opportunity but I always have eyes and ears. I remember way back to being lost and lonely at this time of year. The holidays almost always meant I was going to get so high and stay higher than at any other point throughout the year. Man, I'm glad I don't have to cover up feelings of guilt, shame, or regret with drugs anymore. Giving up the self-induced drowning was the greatest gift the universe ever saw fit to give me. I'm still living a far better life than I feel I deserve. I try so hard to never take any part of it for granted. Happy holidays to all who celebrate any of the festive, end of the year, days this season. Hannukah already started so . . “And what happened, then? Well, in Whoville they say – that the Grinch's small heart grew three sizes that day. And then – the true meaning of Christmas came through, and the Grinch found the strength of ten Grinches, plus two!” That's the strength I'm looking for, plus two. The stuff to hold onto after the holidays when the days seem a little colder, a little grayer, a little sadder. But what's that? That's the whole thing ain't it? It's not sadder at all really. It's just a little less happy, so maybe focusing on the remaining leftover happy is how we do, huh? I'm looking for my own answers. You let me know if I find them. Gently tho, ok? And I'm not delusional. I know that I'm not going to bring joy to millions of people around the world, but if I can put a smile in the soul of a handful of people that gravitate toward my life, and my way of loving. . . well then I win. I had a loved one share something with me the other day that I thought was really cool. It was a quote about how life has to be looked at backward, but has to be lived forward. What a great tool for teaching us how to reflect and accept. I think I'll start to end on that note. And remember kids, "Unspoken expectations are premeditated resentments." So find gratitude, limit those pesky little expectations, and always love with your whole heart. Kindness will gently insert itself into your everydays without much notice. Oh, wait, what was it that you needed to hear? Maybe just say it to yourself and move forward. Stop waiting for someone(s) else to tell you how awesome you are. If you don't already know that you are, just be patient with yourself and learn it! You are fucking awesome. Approval is cool, but not necessary at all. Your heart is, and always will be, the real fucking honesty that you really need. Now you know the drill. Go out into the world and be kind, share your love and laughter with those around you, and watch as we change the world for the better, one smile at a time. Until next week; "Greatness takes time and you know this. If a string is in a knot, patience will untie it." - Cisco Ramon

[spideyxchelle]

PLEASE please please do a part 2 for that jealous peter fic!!

i have SO many headcanon requests to get through, fam, looool. but y’all were really about this jealous!Peter Parker headcanon (like you all attacked my inbox) so here it is. don’t worry if you sent me a headcanon, i will get to it…scout’s honor. [part 1]

prom is indisputably terrible 

after the incident™ Peter and MJ don’t speak

he doesn’t know what to say to her now that she knows he’s a jealous asshole and he suspects she doesn’t want anything to do with him anymore because, well, he’s a jealous asshole

Ned doesn’t have it in him to be pissed off but he’s the Ned version of pissed, which is basically like profound disappointment. truthfully? it’s almost worse. 

MJ and Mark stop sitting with them at lunch all together. Mark tries, honestly he does, to talk to Peter about everything that went down between the three of them but Peter is a little shit and doesn’t want to hear it.

so there goes THAT friendship. 

its not that Peter is purposefully self-sabotaging himself and all of his relationships but MJ gets. under. his. skin. 

like, she is everywhere, okay? he has hundreds of pictures of her on his phone and tons of Polaroids of them on his wall and her favorite teas in his cupboard at home and a smattering of her clothes in his closet from when she would crash on his couch from one of his missions.

but because his jealousy is so ridiculous and stupid it feels like one day she’s on team Spider-man and the next day she’s not…Ned doesn’t say anything but he knows that he misses whenever he’s pulling guy-in-the-chair patrols. 

and for all of these reasons and more he nearly doesn’t go to his senior prom…but May is having none of his crap. she’s already been on his case about MJ’s absence as of late. she tells him she’s not going to stand for him missing another hallmark of high school. Spider-man can take a night off, she insists. 

so he puts on uncle ben’s old suit (it still smells like him if he inhales real deep) and takes the car (the crappy one Mr. Stark bought him and by crappy its a 2012 Audi r8 and its kind of his baby) and picks up Gwen

yes, Gwen. see, after MJ forcibly tears herself out of his life, Peter falls easily into step with Gwen. she’s smart and funny and sweet and reminds him of Liz. she’s always looking at him like she sees something inherently good in him. and its a nice…..especially when, lately, he feels like such an a-hole because of everything that happened. 

he doesn’t protest when Gwen tries to hold his hand in the bleachers in gym class or when she asks him to dinner or when she kisses him after their third date. it’s a warm and comfortable feeling between them. 

but she’s not MJ. MJ makes Peter feel like he’s awake. she’s real and tangible and human and perfectly imperfect. she makes him feel like his genuine self. and in a world of superheroes having her made everything….i dunno…better. 

he doesn’t have MJ, tho. that’s Mark’s girlfriend. not his. 

so Gwen is great. or that is what he has to tell himself every time she leans in for a kiss. 

when they get to the gym covered in tacky streamers and a cover band of epic-ally terrible portions, Peter waits for MJ to say something ridiculous and hilarious and boom. it hits him, like it does sometimes, that MJ isn’t there to say anything. because he screwed it up. 

he frowns. Gwen notices and sweetly asks if he wants to dance. and he does, because its a high school dance and that is how that’s supposed to go. he’s going to go through all the motions because Gwen deserves to have fond memories of her senior prom. he’s not going to hurt Gwen the way he hurt Liz. 

after a few dances, he goes to grab some punch of MJ…NO…Gwen. he’s here with Gwen. and crosses to the table for some refreshments. and it would be just his freakin’ luck that Mark is there, too.

he tries to stand tall but he’s not exactly a giant like Mark is. its fine. his ego isn’t wounded. it is. 

the two of them do that awkward dance where they’re polite but its not exactly friendly. “nice night” “oh yea, real nice” “traffic wasn’t bad” “no surprisingly light” “yep.”

but Peter spends nearly every moment of his life thinking about MJ. every moment. and so he can’t help himself. “how’s MJ?”

Mark works his jaw like Peter annoyed him by just asking and Peter has a petulant thought - good. 

Mark lamely gestures to the dance floor where MJ is and Peter is 95% sure Mark says something but he doesn’t hear him. because MJ is there. and she’s beautiful. 

no, that word doesn’t feel right. she’s way more than beautiful. she’s the human equivalent of a supernova. she’s that radiant. with her hair dreaded in a suit because…of course she is. 

Peter knows he must look a certain way because Mark says Peter’s name meanly, like he’s been trying to get his attention for longer than the last five seconds.

“what?” “dude,” mark crosses his arms, “that’s my girlfriend. knock it off.” 

peter rolls his eyes because who does this guy think he is?? this MARK. Mark is a dumb name. anyway. “i didn’t do anything.”

“you’re looking at her like you wanna.”

“you’re delusional,” peter tries to dodge this conversation. 

“MJ told me.” and Peter’s heart stops. because she wouldn’t tell Mark he’s Spider-man. even if they weren’t friends anymore she wouldn’t throw his identity under the bus. she never would. she couldn’t. Mark keeps talking, “I know that you’re jealous. said she spoke to you at your aunt’s over the weekend”. 

and peter is so freaking relieved because she didn’t throw him under the bus. and he feels so stupid for the little hopeful flutter his heart does because she still cares, she’s still taking CARE of him. even though they’re not talking. 

screw this. Peter turns to Mark dead-on. Mark is taller than Peter but he’s not some frightened kid. he’s Spider-man. “yeah, I’m jealous,” he admits with no shame. “you’re with the most amazing girl possibly on the planet. you’re the guy who gets that….that….” he fumbles to find the right word, “masterpiece of a person. so, screw you Mark. of course I’m jealous.”

“Peter?” Gwen’s bright, little voice interrupts and Peter’s frown deepens. because shit. how much of that did she hear? 

he closes his eyes and turns around to face her. “Gwen-” he tries to explain but she’s having none of it. Gwen is spectacular in her own way. and she isn’t going to take any of his excuses. for a moment he can almost imagine another universe where she’s enough for him. but in this world she can’t be….not when MJ exists. 

she gently tells him that she’s had a really good time the last few weeks but she deserves to be a masterpiece in somebody’s eyes. and if she isn’t that to peter then….she’s going to go and dance with her friends. she even gives him a kiss on the cheek that feels like a goodbye. 

and he feels awful. 

in the midst of all of this MJ wanders over and Peter feels so silly that he can, like, sense her presence. and he doesn’t think that has anything to do with his superhero…ness. oh no, she’s just MJ and he’d know her anywhere. 

when he faces MJ her face is unreadable. Mark throws a casual arm around her and she shrugs it off. “don’t do that,” she chastises him, “don’t stake your claim. it’s pathetic.” Mark shrinks. and Peter nearly does the tango from sheer excitement. 

“MJ-” Peter attempts.

“don’t.” and his heart clutches. because this is how their last conversation, no, their last fight went. and she’s stunning and powerful and he would battle a crocodile for her. he’s pretty sure he read that in Hamlet and it always sounded like a stupid metaphor to him. but now he gets it. 

“I’m not,” she takes a deep breath, “I’m not ready to deal with this, Parker. “

and she leaves. and he hates that she keeps doing that. 

he abandons the dance all together after that and sits on the roof of the high school. he spends over an hour loathing himself. he’s gotten so good at it. he analyzes all of his silly, stupid mistakes from the last month or so and wishes he could go back to a time before Mark got here. back when he could have told MJ how he felt and then this night would have been so different. 

AND THEN HE FEELS EVEN WORSE because of course he’d be the guy that it took her dating another guy for him to come to his senses. its so dumb. he’s so dumb.

later, MJ finds him on the roof and sweeps her dreads over one shoulder and sits beside him. they both hang their feet over the side of the building. he doesn’t speak. doesn’t do anything, really. if she wants to talk to him she will. he’s in self-pity mode. 

eventually she does speak, “you’ve been a real shit, Peter.” “I know” “and I really enjoy hanging out with mark” “I know” “and he was your friend too” “I know, okay?” “and your suit is a little big in the shoulders”

he has to crack a smile at that because, GOD, its just so Michelle he can’t stand it. “MJ…” he turns to look at her, “I should have asked sooner.”

“you’ve never actually asked,” she corrects him

he runs a hand through his messy, wind-torn hair, “doesn’t matter now”

“it always matters, Peter,” her voice is quiet. he watches every twitch and emotion on her face. he could watch her for hours. and he briefly wonders if this is how Uncle Ben used to feel when he looked at Aunt May. 

“why?” he whispers.

“well, for one,” she rolls her eyes, “I deserve to know things. I’m Michelle Jones. and secondly….it would have made a difference. it can still make a difference.” 

“you have a boyfriend” 

“I did” 

………

“did???” “did”

“what,” his voice cracks, “what happened??” he tries not to sound eager but this is the best thing that’s happened to him in months. like, he almost can’t breathe. he might faint. no, wait, he’s good. but still, this is overwhelming. 

“Mark broke up with me. Said I was only dating him because I couldn’t date you. Something about how he deserves to be someone’s masterpiece and at best he was impressionist painting and not even a good one”

“he didn’t say that,” Peter says on autopilot because his brain cannot function. “he didn’t,” she smiles just slightly, “i took creative liberties.”

“was he right?” Peter gambles just by asking. but he waited too long the last time and he’s not going to go two for two on being the stupidest man alive. 

“yea.”

HIS HEART SOARS!!!!

“but-”

his heart drops.

“-I’m so mad at you, Peter. so mad. you were such a dick to me.”

he tries to touch her hand, to hold it, to offer her some comfort but she pulls it away like he burns her. and he wonders when he broke her trust so much that even this kind of casual intimacy is a burden for her. 

“I need some time” she stands “maybe a few weeks worth of it”

“and then?” Peter knows he must look like he’s putting expectation on this moment and that’s because he is. because he wants so much with her. he wants everything. this feels like the real deal. she feels like she could be it. the period at the end of his life’s story. 

“I dunno,” she sighs, “I just don’t know”

but he doesn’t push her. he doesn’t even try and speak. because he can wait and he can hope. and he can even try and rebuild all of the trust he broke. and he can do better. no, he will do better. because she deserves it.

ALL OF THAT doesn’t make it any easier to watch her walk back down to the school gym. 

but the little bit of hope that she leaves behind with him is enough. 

for now. 

[survivormoheli]

Episode #1 - “I had to unblock two people in my tribe” - Tara

The cast is revealed: https://survivormoheli.tumblr.com/tagged/reveal In addition, it is revealed that there are no idols in this game, instead a system of twists: https://survivormoheli.tumblr.com/post/171711080313/idol-system The buffs are also revealed: https://survivormoheli.tumblr.com/post/171739691688/premerge-buffs

Immunity: https://survivormoheli.tumblr.com/post/171711113378/tribal-immunity-1-duolingo During the immunity challenge, the Ouani tribe quickly dominates, with Raffy and Bryan each having extremely high scores very early on. Sima, having a native French speaker in Eric K, also finds quick success despite having a few players with very low scores. In addition, Raffy discover's Jay's method of assigning usernames, and tracks the scores of the other tribes to remain dominant.

Results: https://survivormoheli.tumblr.com/post/171745790728/duolingo-results After immunity, Bryan, having earned the highest score, got to choose a member of the losing tribe to recieve an extra vote. He chose Becca, and she decided to cast two votes against Phoenix to try to keep herself in the game. Matt, having the lowest score, seems to be an early target, but manages to twist the votes against BEcca by working with Phoenix and Richie. Back on Ouani, Tara, Raffy, JG, and Bryan bond and form an early alliance. At tribal council, Becca goes home in a 5-2 vote.

Tribal: https://survivormoheli.tumblr.com/post/171778863148/tribal-council-1-moya

Eric A

I am really nervous to start out this season. I did really poorly on my last season and I am scared I will do poorly a second time. I just have to play a more social game than I ever had before, and hope for a better result. But I know that as long as I try, I will be proud of myself.

tara

omg hi i'm tara and i'm rly excited to b playing with BRYAN!!!!!! i had to unblock two people in my tribe p exciting but i'm excited to see the cast reveal!! 

JG

HOLY HELLLL!!!! LETS GOOOOO! 3 Tribes of 6? OMG SHOOKETH TO THE CORE! I am in all caps but I am literally shaking. This is a chance for redemption with me and Tara. Then there is Rafael who I voted out in Kuang Si as well as Andreas, in actuality those two were the ones who tried to flip the vote the vote me on me during Kuang Si when I was almost tribe swap f*cked. Don't know the other two but that can change, this should be really interesting! BryanOMG FUCKING WOOH TO THE MAX! IM SO HAPPY TARA IS IN THIS GAME! I was so sad when i met her and she said she wasn’t gonna play another org. BUT HERE SHE IS IN ANOTHER ORG! We are gonna slay. And Oml Ratfy is here. It’s very scary. BUT ITS OK CUZ WE ARE FRIENDS! I’ve never met the other people on my tribe tho. IM SO EXCITED FOR THIS GAME! Tara is amazing. Lav her. 

Eric A

5 minutes in and Akito forgot the series name. Ok Akito, ok.

Tim

Show me support I'm so anxious!

This is gonna be outdated in like a few months but. "My FBI Agent watching me play in another ORG

https://scavengertim2.tumblr.com/post/171711065049

Matt J

Survivor time! I am so excited to be playing, my tribe seems really cool and I’m definitely looking forward to getting to know them better.

So the first challenge was posted and we have to learn French. I’m definitely shaking in my boots a little because I couldn’t learn Spanish and am bad enough at English! My tribe mates have already started the challenge so I guess it’s time to step it up or go home.

Rafael

Immediately I see a lot of familiar faces. Bryan is refreshing as we tend to work well together. I would love to work with him. Tara is a blessing and an angel on Earth. She's so sweet and I would give arm and limb for her to work with me. Like that's someone I want to honestly work with the entire game. But her personality is liable to other people wanting the same. JG is someone who I've only known through him voting me out. But I've gotten over it. We can probably be a strong duo that no one would see coming. Andreas.... I don't know. He's not someone I had a real connection with and is definitely an outsider to me. Then there's Elliot. He's a newbie, so maybe easy to control? The thing about him is that he has not been online yet. He does live in the UK so he's probably sleeping, but I hope he will do the challenge in the morning.

After a lengthy call, my relationships are definitely tight with JG, Bryan, and Tara. Bryan and I still have a strong friendship going on. All four of us talked a lot through the night, and Tara even brought up the possibility of forming an alliance. It was in jest, but it seems like everyone was really digging the idea. It ended up being JG and I as the last members on call. He expressed a desire in working with me throughout the game as a power duo and I am here for it! This is exactly what I wanted! I'm very excited to work with him. He also talked about working with Tara and using Bryan since he saw how close he and I were. JG's insight could be beneficial to my game as I tend to be a very delusional and oblivious person at times. I am already putting myself in a good position so I cannot wait to see what happens! This tribe is definitely drinking the Raffy Kool-Aid. Time to just utilize them to further my position. 

Rafael

I'm speaking to Andreas right now. He brings up a very interesting point that I have noticed about the games I have been in. People are scared of me. They are scared of how I play the game. In this community, to those who know me, I'm considered a "dangerous" player. I'm honored to hold that status, but it's also annoying at the same time. Like I never really get the chance to play differently if I wanted to. I always have to stay the social player to stay. People need to want to keep me for my personality. They already see me as a threat. Note to self: need to cool it on the strategizing for now

Rafael

Why is Tara such an angel? Like she literally just spent time playing 20 questions with me. We just talked about ourselves and got to know each other more. This girl is sweet! But also playing an amazing social game currently. I can see her being a threat later down the line, but I want to keep her around. Plus I don't think people would go for someone like her this early in the game.

Andreas

What's up Mohelians. It's Day 1 and oh boy, my Tribe is lit! Have you ever ordered something at a restaurant, waited for an uncomfortably long time whilst growing hungry, ONLY TO RECEIVE SOMETHING YOU DIDN'T ORDER? Yeah? That's my tribe. I've played with Raffy and JG in my very first ORG and we were in a very awkward situation where naive, inexperienced me betrayed Raffy, heavily blindsiding him, only to be eventually be blindsided by JG myself. But that's okay. I hope to get a chance at a fresh start with Raffy. As for JG, we'll see. I know he's a really fun guy, but I don't really trust him game-wise. As for the other people: Bryan and Elliott haven't replied. And I've spent a good few hours talking with Tara about <everything>. Game-wise, idk if I can trust her just yet, but she's very easy and a lot of fun to talk to and I reveal everything about me, because that's a wise strategic move, right? Anyway, Day 1 tl;dr: I wanna work together with Raffy and Tara. But let's see what happens. :)

Eric A

So day 1 is down, which has been the most nerve wracking org day I played in a while, even though nothing happened. Akito seems to want to work with me, which is good for me because I never get approached, like ever. I approached all the others on my tribe too, just to introduce myself. I think I would want to work with my clone and AnnMarie the most. My clone (Eric K.) and I seem to get along well, especially with the connection of us having the same name. I feel like I have more connections to him than Blake or Lynn. I also like AnnMarie because she seems to be outgoing and fun, at least by what she has said so far. I think she is a trustworthy person as long as I were to approach her early in the game. But you never know in Survivor. You have to go with your instinct, and I intend on doing just that.

Akito

Oh my goodness no idols! I am loving this season already. Now I can only focus on strategy and socializing which is perfect! Let's hope I do a good job doing this though.

Tim

Things are quiet over here at Moya but this challenge makes me want to jump!!! From a bridge!!! The truth of the matter is that my Mental Health had continued to deplete from learning French

JG

This challenge is gonna drive me crazy oops , I used the wrong tense! IT IS DRIVING ME CRAZY!!! I hate tedious work and this is literally just doing the same thing over and over. It's like the song that never ends, its OK the first time and you can tolerate the second time through like the fifth but after that you're just waiting for someone "accidentally" knock you out.

I really am getting good vibes from Raf,Tara, and Bryan. I'm less cautious about Tara being tight because apparently she JUST met Bryan a day or two ago. Crazy how things work out! If I'm being frank (I know it's not my real name) I would be down with doing a four person alliance consisting of me, Tara, Raf, and Bryan. It appears we are the most active so far and granted the other two were in different time zones but still haven't seen much. I started to talk to Elliot and he seems cool. Not sure what vibe I am getting yet. Also I was successful in my night one goal that is the same for every game. GET THE  TRIBE ON CALL!!! This is a way for me to bond with people and feel them out as well try to read between the lines of past relationships. People are more likely to say something they didn't mean to than to type it. I really think at the very least we should get second and if not then I will probably push for Andreas to be voted off! Sucks to suck, I guess.

J.G.

This challenge is a chienne! Probably the only French I'll remember after this.

Elliot

I've been using duolingo for two hours and while i still don't know french i think i may be forgetting how to speak english please send help

I've been using duolingo for two hours and while i still don't know french i think i may be forgetting how to speak english please send help

Tim

We are gonna lose smh!!!!

Becca

Okay so far I love my tribe and everyone is awesome! I’m pretty hyped!

Elliot

I spent like 6 hours gaining 1000xp only to take one test and get 900xp i genuinely learnt fucking french and w a s t e d 7 hours of my fucking life I'm so upset oh my god

Tim

https://scavengertim2.tumblr.com/post/171745654689 my eternal mood.

Tim

So Phoenix is playing sorta fast? Making an alliance based on nothing fjsksks just trying to get majority to vote with them because they are gonna score low djsksks.

Lynn

I honestly thought we were going to tribal because I had to work most of the day and felt like I didn’t do the most I could have but i’m proud of the tribe. 

Blake

Im estatic we didn’t go To tribal! I see that AnnMarie may be a slacker so if we plunge on our next challenge she may have to go home.

Tim

Im not saying ANYTHING this time around. Not even gonna ask for a name. Anyways sidenote... Bryan really wanted that advantage huh sis outdid himself.

Matt J

Well we are going to tribal, that sucks. I definitely could be going home tonight but I hope I have built strong enough relationships with people to stick around. Now I need to talk it over with my allies to see who’s going home. I want Phoenix or Dani gone for one simple reason: they never tried talking to me. I’m just hoping that they are not gunning for me for the same reason.

richie

whats up whats good we in this bitch!!! its day 2 in this game and we already lost the first immunity challenge and we're going to tribal because i'm literally destined to be on the worst tribe in every game i play its just what i deserve!!! this is a small tribe theres only 6 of us and i like everyone ive had at least somewhat of a conversation with everyone at some point in the last day nothing spectacularly life changing/bond making/best friend creating/social game dominating but at least something..... a couple hours before we lost immunity i was talking to phoenix for the first time they were the last person i had any interaction with and then he's like "Hey, I was wondering if you want to work with my alliance?" and instantly in my head i was like *omarosa voice* YOUR alliance? tell me about your alliance... since you just said that "my alliance" is what you just said..... so that was ridiculously poor wording on phoenix's part because it was like hey i have my alliance want to work with us.... so obviously i said yeah bc you cant say no and i wanted the tea so he adds me to the chat and its phoenix/tim/dani and i can see the chat history where they were already together in this alliance chat and phoenix says "Yo I'm talking to Richie, should I ask him if he wants to join the alliance so we have majority?"....................... can you make it any more obvious that i'm at the bottom of this alliance and i was brought in after it was established so yall would have majority and im just supposed to be grateful and compliant? okay....werk!!! unfortunately matt and becca got the worst scores in the challenge so if i wanted to do something about this the best i could do is either force a tie or try and flip tim to the other side but thats super risky to work with people who arent going to help us win and we just end up losing over and over....ill probably go along with whatever this alliance says and build up 1 on 1 relationships with them to try and up my ranks on their individual totem poles until we can swap or something but its been 5 minutes since we lost so im sure shit will go down that will change everything before tribal but i guess we'll see~! Rafael

Winning immunity is the greatest thing. I did not want to go to tribal in the first round! Bryan's reward was very interesting. Becca getting it might be a sign that he wants to work with her. Plus, it could be a detriment to Tim.

Tim

So Matt really screwed his own game up huh. Anywayss Phoenix is getting a bit crackdt and wild. Id love for Matt to stay but he threw my name out there yikes. (Not to vote out but in a negative way). I wanted Bec gone because she did worse on the challenge but we'll see .wink wonk

Tim

Also im becca scrambling and akig everyone to align with her and playing dumb because "um tehehehe this is my first org" im like yeah sis I get it lol you have some game potential but we'll see how that turns out. Im not a fool I see through that! Luckily Matt screwed himself over now hes gone and not her.

Tim

Im really looking forward to working with Richie and Dani and Phoenix but Im weary on Pho.

Tim

So my analytical skills have kicked in. Becca really saved herself by aligning with Matt who is also in jeopardy but he takes the fall by targeting someone who scored in the challenge instead of pressing the weight onto bec.

Matt J

So I’m pretty sure Becca was going to be going home but after using my amazing survivor skills, I put the target on me. What can I say, I play hard lol. I’m like 100% positive that Dani, Phoenix, and Tim are all working together. They were gonna target Becca since she did slightly worse than me in the challenge but then I opened my big mouth lol. I’m going to have to let Richie take control of my fate and see if he can pull any strings for me. The smartest move for him and Becca would be to turn on me though and if that’s the case, I have no hard feelings or regrets.

Bryan

Omg hey so. Little check in. OUR TRIBE WON THE FIRST IMMUNITY WOO! Not only that but I got first place overall with all the players so that was nice. The reward for getting first place was the i got to give an extra vote to someone on the losing tribe. I didn’t know anyone on the losing tribe and i had never met anyone so i gave it to Becca because feminism. Also another thing. I absolutely love the group of me, raffy, JG, and Tara. I feel like we all really connect and being on call with us four is a lot of fun! Me and raffy were talking about it and we felt that this group could really do some damage together. Anyways. Sorry this was so long. Peace out yo. 

Akito

We won a challenge!!! but also seeing that I did 3rd best in tribe puts me in a good reason. I didn't do too well and I didn't do too bad. As long I average scores in the tribe I am in a decent spot. Right now I have to focus more on socializing and trying to make strategic moves now. Because I wanna gun for big comp threats, because they can easily beast their way, but at the same time you don't want to make too many big moves or do things too early too soon. Pinpointing the game and looking forward the future and thinking one step ahead and trying to see what works and all that. Building the bridges in relationships is key and I wanna put my trust in others so I can be able to maneuver that trust into an advantage in the game.

tara

bryan leaksss so much like i can't do anything w him bcos the whole tribe will hear about it. which sucks bcos i like bryan but like he has a big mouth!!! so talking to him is bad for my game. everyones attacking the foreigners too and its kinda rude!! i think i need to stick w them otherwise the kuang si alliance is gonna take over yikes! 

Andreas

Bonjour mes amis.

I really don't like how my tribe works. It's one thing that I am unable to be around when people are active. I get it. I'm European. I sleep when you are active. But do you really need to focus camp life on skype calls? There's barely anything to start a conversation on! Arghh!!!! Anyway, with tryhards like Raffy, JG and Bryan, I don't see us losing a challenge anytime soon, but I do really feel like I'm at the bottom of the tribe. I was still only able to connect with Tara and I hope that we don't go to TC and get a swap soon.   This has been proven to be quite the opposite of a chill ride already as people are realling putting everything on the line. Let's see how the next rounds go.

AnnMarie C.

Being in Sima tribe is an experience a lot different from other games I've had. I barely know anyone here, and they're all so quiet, I guess because of the challenge and because we won. I hope it changes soon. Not the winning part at least but the talking part. I feel TERRIBLE about just doing 270 xp for the challenge. 270!!!!! That's nothing. Having (French)Eric in the tribe though? He was like a gaurdians angel for us in this challenge. I also love how there are 2 Erics. I guess that happens a lot in ORGS. Two tims, two bryans, two erics, but I cannot wait until there are two AnnMaries! I think that would actually end up terribly. Anyways, the beginning of Moheli for me was lack luster. I was expecting getting to meet all these great people, having interesting conversations, and throwing down at this challenge, but it's quiet. Really quiet.

Rafael

JG, Bryan, Tara, and I were on call last night again! I really do think that this is a solid group of people. We get along really well together, and it is a group that I think no one will see coming. There is something that bothers me though. Tara is very likable. She could easily put herself in a position to control the game. There is also JG who is not dumb. He knows how to play this game. I do not doubt their loyalty, I'm scared of the power they could hold and the moves they could make. This could make them frontrunners from the beginning of merge and I want to win! That's thinking too far ahead though. I just need to relax and keep an eye on things.

Eric K

I'm super happy that the Sima tribe isn't going to tribal! i loved the first challenge because I'm french so it wasn't hard to go through the whole Duolingo course. I was really hoping to get the highest XP but I guess somebody else beat me out on that.

Matt J

So there’s not much time left before everyone has to vote and my time in this game is dwindling down. The only smart choice for my tribe is to vote me out. I didn’t do very well in the challenge and I talked a lot of strategy for someone on the chopping block. Last night I wanted to work with Becca but she wants to vote out Richie so now I’ve washed my hands with Becca and my only chance of staying in this game is if everyone votes for her.

Dani

There's either one of two things that are happening right now in this game. I have either formed a great majority alliance and am set for any future elimination, or am about to get completely blindsided. Hopefully it's the first lol.

Tim

Its already drama on the first vote ugh! Like ugh It was simple vote Bec because she did the worst in the challenge! 

Matt J

So it turns out in a shocking turn of events I actually might not be going home first. It turns out that Becca may have rubbed off on people worst than me but of course I still won’t be surprised if I’m voted off lol. I do really trust Richie, and I’m starting to trust Phoenix and Dani as well. Tim has definitely rubbed off on me wrong, I’m hoping we won’t have to come back to tribal but if we do, Tim’s got to go.

Tim

Me @ this no idol twist: https://scavengertim2.tumblr.com/post/171775006444