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merlinemryspendragon · 4 months

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Bridgerton - S3E02 “How Bright the Moon” // S3E03 “Forces of Nature”

#bridgertonedit #polinedit #tvedit #perioddramaedit #romanceedit #dailypolin #dailybridgerton #bridgertonblr #cinemapix #dailyflicks #filmtvtoday #bridgerton #polin #colin bridgerton #penelope featherington #bridgerton spoilers #edit #my gifs #my toxic trait is being unable to make up my mind on how i prefer to color gifs #though it's a struggle regardless #anyway let me wax poetic about the journal scene/hand cut scene for a bit (not depicted here but related)#the scene that (imo) started changing colin's perception of pen #having colin's writing focus more on his inner struggles particularly with intimacy/connection #and then following that up with having him share an intimate moment with someone he already deeply cares about #who cares for him in return and uplifts him #ugh I love it #i can forgive that the scene wasn't as long as it was in the books (because I do really love the deep talk they have in the book version)

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naamahdarling · 23 hours

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#fucks me up that there are two whole new animals in the house that i barely know #who depend on me for everything #barely recognize me as a friend or helper #and are so incredibly incredibly fragile #i got worried for junie today because her spay incision had some swelling #and it's normal to have some and i have seen it before #but after what we just wemt through i got upset and rushed her to the vet #who said it was fine and thankfully we have free office visits #but i was so upset even though i knew it was probably normal #i look at them and i see adorable cuddly sweet TEMPORARY things and i feel like something inside me got broken somehow #and i was right all along that after it was all over i would come back but not quite as myself #i just hadn't fully understood the extent #we are keeping them and it sort of had to happen when it did but i think it was too early for me #they are so cute and when they do cuddle it's so sweet and obviously i would fight for them as hard as i would for Fancy #because that's just how the deal works and it isn't about you at all it's about how they each carry a little world inside them just as we d #and that deserves equal respect and care regardless of my personal affections #but i look at them and i see little creatures that don't belong here and are foreign in some fundamental way #and that they will be gone in just a little while and things will go back to how they were #which is impossible #we will settle in and i doubt anything i am feeling is abnormal but I'm really struggling and i feel so bad about that #i don't know #it's just a lot to deal with #and i feel very lonely and sad about it #and under it all the sick feeling of having JUST held all three lads as they passed and the VISCERAL reality of it #and knowing one day if everything goes just right i will be holding them too #dear god life is so fragile and every living thing is just as mortal as any other

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moe-broey · 4 days

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Every day I get dangerously closer to doing Heel Math. Which not only hurts my brain, but also makes me feel like I'm betraying myself........ there's NO WAY Moe stands at 5'6" in the hooves. No fucking way. Is Sharena 5'4" with or without the heels? She HAS to be One Inch Taller than Moe. Because Moe is 5'3". Don't even get me fucking STARTED on Alfonse allegedly being 5'11", something I've been taking as gospel from the art book, but there's no way. He has to be 5'11" WITH the heels. He Has To. There's NO WAY he's a whole ass 5'11" AND cunting it up on the battlefield to hit past 6 feet. That's fucking ridiculous. Do I do whatever I want forever, using the official heights as guidelines? Do I finally succumb to Heel Math. To try and capture the general height differences ACCURATELY even when everyone is wearing their shoes. LIKE if Moe is wearing 3 inch hooves and Alfonse is also wearing 3 inch heels the balance of the universe is maintained. The worst part of this is referencing my own shoes, from flat but thick soles to heel-heels, and I feel like Moe's hooves have got to be closer to 3 and a half if not 4. I pulled out a measuring tape and everything. But there is NO WAY. NO WAY. THAT THANG IS STANDING AT 5'7". ARE YOU FUCKING INSANE??????????????

#moe tag #i have. like the opposite of height dysphoria. where being 5'3 is so intergral to my being that like #it feels like a betrayal. it is fun to wear heels sometimes but at my core. I AM ONE OF THE TALLER PEOPLE IN MY FAMILY #MY DAD IS SHORTER THAN ME. WE'RE ALL SHORT. ALL OF THIS IS IMPORTANT TO ME #all of this. i have to wrestle w. when drawing The Hooves. which are INTEGRAL to MOE #in the v beginning i thought about making moe a solid 5 feet so the heels could add up to 5'3.#this too feels like a betrayal though. to me. esp if the universe is expanding. don't you worry about that though (yet.)#i'm CRAFTING..... behind The Scenes.....#something that only really matters to one person BUT. IT'S IMPORTANT... TO ME... AS WELL...... it means everything to me...#regardless if anyone feels so inclined. would you indulge my heel math thoughts. i'm STRUGGLING OUT HERE!!!!! 😭😭😭😭

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daily-hanamura · 1 year

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#persona 4 #p4 #persona 4 golden #p4g #hanamura yosuke #yosuke hanamura #this scene gets to me because it reveals how a lot of yosuke's talk about getting a gf or meeting a girl and all of that is just... talk #on the one hand it's atlus needing the best friend character to fill that role of “lets check out girls!”#on the other hand it also reads to me as another facade of yosuke's struggle to meet his idealised conception of an average teenage boy #see it's funny because even in the first instance the role is always a bit deeper than it is #slight spoilers for p3 and p5!!!#but in junpei's case regardless of his flirtations he doesnt actually reciprocate or is even a potential LI for femmc #in ryuji's case when ann turns on the charm and offers to go on a date with him he tells her off and says that she should be like herself #i think that theres always a surprising level of nuance to be found with that skirt-chasing stereotype atlus likes to give us #i think yosuke's narrative here quite closely parallels junpei's in that theyre actually super devoted people #and yosuke has found an attachment to saki in the way junpei had with chidori so of course hes not willing to compromise on it #its such a mixed thing because even though he knew saki's kindness to him was probably faked yosuke's loyalty to her was already set #yosuke strikes me as the type of person that if youre nice to him once he'll follow you for life #i love that nanako was the one that responded to yosuke with like “oh like homework?” and yosuke gently plays along #its evocative of his tendency to shoot his mouth off only to quickly cover it up with a joke #but yu is there in the room as well listening and empathising and i think it was a moment that really #revealed to us (and yu) yosuke's underlying motivations and beliefs #even if it was sandwiched between the moment of yosuke trying to look at yu's prn #or perhaps especially because it was sandwiched between that moment the juxtaposition becomes more salient #that such talk from yosuke functions as a distraction from the anguish and ennui he feels about losing saki #he's good with his queue

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stuffed-x-arts · 9 months

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I think they like to play card games sometimes. Often they drag in others to supsrvise for cheating. (it won't stop them from cheating but it means they've gotta work harder to be sneaky about it and that just adds to the fun!) Cheated has a score-count for everybody. for every different game they play. him vs opportunist. him vs cold. the whole group playing. contrarian is often banned for bringing other card games to the table. he also never gets to supervise despite often asking to. Hero volunteers to supervise a lot but often doesn't catch the cheating so he's denied the role. Cheated, skeptic, opportunist and cold are the best. Broken is also surprisingly good sometimes. Even when he has the best hand he worries he'll screw it up somehow, and his downer attitude tends to convince the others he's gonna lose too. erm thats all i think

i just know these two have the potential to end up breaking into a fight over their silly card games. After cold left and the two eventually got tired of their games and went their separate ways opportunist stuck his leg out so cheated could trip over. they push each other down the stairs, maybe.

#i dont know anything about poker #beaks are forever the bane of my existence #opportunist is Always ready to cheat but cold sees no point calling him out on it unless he actually does it #i know they play other games too #cheated has been caught off-guard by broken pulling out a good hand too many times he's started to catch on #i started this months ago #i only just finished it now #i love these birds though #i miss the narrator #i hope to draw these guys more but its so hard im shaking the bars of my cage chewing at them #what do you do when youre an immortal entity?#play card games i guess #cheated and opportunist both have specially decorated decks #ive got more drawings i should make for this fandom but it is a Struggle.#regardless i hope u guys have fun with the silly birds and princesses !!!#slay the princess #stp fan art #voice of the cheated #voice of the opportunist #voice of the cold #these are just headcanons ok believe what u will. have fun. take care <3

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fabuloustrash05 · 1 year

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Feel free to give your reason for your answer in the comments or reblog. Either a short and sweet answer or go ham and do a long essay! I'm curious to know everyone's opinion.

Also please do not hate on other people’s opinions or starts fights. Lets all be respectful!

#Personally I say Raphael #I feel he had the most noticeable change and growth throughout the series and the best overall #He becomes more responsible taking charge in S3 when Leo is injured becoming the temporary leader for the group #he learns to respect Leo as his leader (though he would still question Leo when he makes poor decisions that involve self sacrifices)#He also grows to be more open about his feelings and emotions to others other than just anger #Look at how open he was when it came to his love for Mona Lisa #he had no shame to admit he loved her and I don't think S1 Raph would've done that he would've been a tsundere #I always say that him losing Spike gave him the push he needed to start trusting his brothers with his emotions & being more open with them #not to mention he took responsibility to be Chompy's caretaker #and though he struggles at times Raph is the one who always puts his brothers first because he loves them regardless how much they annoy hi #tmnt polls #tumblr polls #tmnt 2012 #tmnt #teenage mutant ninja turtles #tmnt leonardo #tmnt donatello #tmnt raphael #tmnt michelangelo

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seawing-vibes · 1 year

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Hiii by the way I am participating in ArtFight this year <33 I will be on team vampire 👍

#vampire so I can evilly attack all my friends that will be werewolf #I will def do friendly fire though so feel free to hit me regardless of team !!!#stilll updating oc refs tough .. Kenny took so long to finish <- struggles so much with bipedal creatures but desperately wants art #of my bipedal creatures #either way !!! have fun everyone whos participating !!! good luck !!!!! dont get burnt out !!!!!!!

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lionblaze03-2 · 4 months

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sometimes I think about writing and singing music not because I’m an incredible singer but because no one has my fucking voice, especially in popular music, and its disheartening to be born a girl, told you’ll only get girl roles or try to voice match other girls, or ‘sing with the girls’ and then only be able to match male voices because you’re a fuckin tenor and not anything higher. I can’t think of any girl Broadway roles I can hit all the notes on. Most songs I love I have to pitch down for myself or use falsetto for singing along to. It bothers me a lot less now because I’m an adult who’s more secure in myself but as a teen in kids musical theatre it FUCKED with me, BAD style. And I know for a fact that even now when I hear people with a voice like mine singing I get excited and immediately invested in their work because they’re like ME, finally, for once. A brother in this world of being afab and having the voice of a recently pubescent boy forever. Maybe I should be that brother too.

#Using randomly gendered words because that’s me now but hey #Regardless of if you were born afab and are a girl 100% or if you were born afab and are someone else #It STILL sucks to always be grouped along with ‘girls’ just because of your voice and realize #You CANT hit that. You can’t hit the mark for ‘girl’. You’ll never achieve that without like. Hrt #Just say THE VOCAL CLASS. Like. Sopranos sing with this. Tenors with this. Bass with this. Etc #Then it doesn’t hurt! But nooo instead they’re looking or ‘sing with the other girls’ and you fucking can’t #And it gives you a crisis at age 14 #Anyway all I know is when other people who were assigned female at birth and aren’t on something they changes ones voice #and just happen to have born with the same deep ass voice as me. It makes me proud to hear them use it #Because not enough people do. It’s like we’re all collectively embarrassed or something #I see so many sad posts from teenagers posting their dream roles and the reason they won’t get it is ‘girl’#and it’s like. I remember being that kid. Never able to get a female lead because of my voice. Never able to get a male lead because of gir #Even though my voice and appearance could easily swing male. Nope! You’re GIRL. So you’re doomed to background forever :)#I got 1 lead role and it was when I was at my most feminine and was also for a villain that was a fat hag #I LOOOOVED playing her im aunt sponge forever. BUT. Never getting one again after that… showed me. Something #More gender blind casting and more songs just written for tenors please #doing just ONE of those things would probably solve the issue #But both please because I’m greedy and I want what I couldn’t have for every kid today #(And also me in the future in adult community theatre. Haven’t had time/too intimidated so far but I WILL go back)#And before anyone questions the language on this post. I STRUGGLED with how to word it #TERFs begone. I love trans people. I am nonbinary and some form of intersex (pcos).#I just word it this way because of like. Where we all start #Whether we stay GIRL girls or realize we’re somewhere in between. It crushes us either way to have the ‘wrong’ voice to do anything #Because it did me at first. And I’m otherwise GLAD to be confusing #I’ve come to love my deep voice it baffles others and they never know what to call me it really helps the whole ‘what am I’ presentation #But. In terms of certain things. Like being in theatre in the deep south #It certainly does not help and can be disheartening #Especially back when I was younger and more self conscious #lion’s lair

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theradicalace · 1 year

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i listened to "the tornado" by owl city for the first time today.... adam young literally never misses

#ace rambles #it's such a poignant metaphor for struggling with mental illness and i have no idea if that was intentional but regardless #i will be looping this until i have wrung every drop of dopamine out of it #owl city #the tornado #coco moon #literally though you have not lived life until you hear this man SCREAM out ''THIS WAS MY PRAYER. SAVE ME FROM THIS TERRIBLE NIGHTMARE''#it is life changing

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abeinginsand · 1 year

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Keep thinking about TJ purposefully acting like Beary/Barry in order to calmly interact with the teens while they played verbal among us...

Consider TJ, Grant, and Nicky discussing some plans and come to the conclusion that they need Terry to use some disguise and a dash of appearance magic to pretend to be Barry. Its to get some information/infiltrate on another plane.

But they haven't told Lark or Sparrow yet! Frankly, they've been avoiding bringing it up, thinking maybe they could try and do this thing without them knowing. No need to start a fight, right? Especially from Lark. They assumed he'd have the strongest reaction. So, they keep procrastinating--TJ most of all. The day of the 'show' arrives. Nicky and Grant have gone on ahead of him as he finishes preparing. He's taking awhile with the prep due to anxiousness--performance jitters maybe or could be that sinking feeling in his stomach? Either way, he's finally adding the gilded head piece--a sleek crown of shimmering gold. And that's when the twins walk in to the storage room. They immediately spot someone dressed a lot like a certain cult leader. Lark stops at the entrance and glares over to who he assumes must be Terry--sure there's all the shitty fabrics that evil geezer used to wear on him. But he can still see the familiar brown watch Terry likes to wear on the person's left wrist. That one that TJ had the rest of them carve their names into (on the inside of the watch band). He's about to bark out a question (mostly like a 'what the fuck are you doing' sorta question)-- Except, his sibling casts something first: "Poison Spray"

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twilightarcade · 3 months

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Talked to my cousin who I haven't seen in years

#wordstag #holy fuck........ she's like #If my sister lived across the country. I actually don't know where I would be without her.#gave me a bunch of life advice and such.. was really nice to hear her voice again. I cried.#I kind of miss my cousins I should talk to them more. Especially the ones around my age #This cousin in particular though she's in biology! Medical biology specifically. That's like mecore if I wasn't a coward #I honest to god wish her the best. From the bottom of my heart. I should've gotten her phone number...#she said she would have to take a trip up here to say hi to me.. what I wouldn't give to drop everything and go down there right now #lowkey was struggling today but like. Crops watered sheets changed water drunk. So on and so forth.#I'm gonna Do It. For her in particular.#you've gotta collect people who genuinely wish you the best then Do It For Them; yknow?#would be rude to not... many such cases. I ♡ my friends and relatives and acquaintances and colleagues and everyone #Honest to god though I miss them . Like everyone down there. Never really knew a lot of them personally #but it always felt like home yknow? It's nice to feel at home. I Do wonder how her mom is doing..? I forget if it was her mom or #just her grandma. Regardless I hope she's doing well.#Man. What If The Course Of My Life Was Drastically Altered And I Spent My Childhood Years There Instead?#often a question I ask myself. Don't think we're ever gonna get an answer. Can only imagine...#can't help but feel a distance from any one culture yknow? But that's a whole different post topic we don't have time for that right now #anyways. Talk 2 yr friends and family. Literally life saving at times. Sometimes they're genuinely excited to talk to you? Like on god?#People spectacularly don't immediately forget you and what sort of impact you've had on them... wild stuff.

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dyketubbo · 6 months

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its such a pain trying to navigate being critical of the psychiatric field as it is today because ill nod along to a post talking about how psych wards are horrible and so many therapists and mental health professionals are actually just downright awful and make their patients mental health works and then ill look in the notes and see people go like yesssss and medication is terrible and we should just get help Instead like. um. in an ideal world youd get both buddy. im sorry but even in a better world where society doesnt make you want to kill yourself all the time and your therapist actually listens to you you will also likely still have to take that medication

#not that medication is a fix all #because 1. it is an excruciating process to find out which meds work for you #and 2. some peoples lives just suck so fucking bad theyll still want to die regardless of meds #but like.. that doesnt mean we need to Replace medication. medication should still exist you cant seriously be anti-medicine #yes i stopped wanting to kill myself when my life got better not just when i got on medication that actually helped #but also that medication actually helped me go to sleep at night and i had less urge to actually Act on any suicidal thoughts that i had #when i was on meds while still having a terrible life #and now i havent been on meds for a while and even though my life is better now and i have proper support #i still struggle. i cant go to sleep at a normal time. my memory is failing me. i struggle w hygiene #no medication didnt magically make me better. but it helped. and i dont like the trains of thought #that can come from 'medicine bad actually you Just need support from people'#like hey.... hey thats not a good way to think actually.. you need both #mask mews #also like. some people struggle with shit that they cannot fucking live with when they arent medicated #like. some people have vivid horrible hallucinations. lol.#do you really think that a life without medication is good or are you bitter and misdirecting your anger

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relicsongmel · 4 months

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You know, I've held for a long time the belief that canon!Denise eventually surpasses Sylvia and is just a notch above her in terms of battle prowess despite being younger. But the more I think about it the more I realize Paldea!Denise blows Sylvia out of the WATER with how strong she is to the point it's not even a contest

#mel's musings #forest for the tree #little songbird #first of all. dena started 3 years younger in this au. she got her sprigatito at 15 whilst syl got oshawott at 18 #she's got FIVE rivals as opposed to syl's three. one of whom has a reputation for being a battle maniac #(honestly. nemona alone does wonders for dena's growth as a trainer but I'VE STILL GOT MORE)#dena literally has battle studies on her academic record and has studied at two different schools for it #she's fluent in both singles and doubles strategies and beaten elite and champion ranked trainers in both playstyles #plus she's got 4 legendaries AND access to terastallization. syl would get WASHED #to be fair to her though. she certainly would not go down without a fight #she's got 2 legendaries herself plus a mega gardevoir she can communicate telepathically with #and she's significantly more adaptable than dena when her strategies don't go as planned. whereas dena tends to get boxed in her mind a bit #meaning if she manages to catch her off guard it's even possible she could pull a win from her in some circumstances #but after she spent so long wearing herself into the dirt gaining the strength she needed to beat team plasma #and trying her best to live up to everyone's expectations for her as the hero of truth (to say NOTHING of her expectations for herself)?#she's just not the grinding type anymore. she's simply content to live out her life with her beloved pokemon #and if she gets stronger as a side effect of that then cool! but it's not her main focus and she wants to keep it that way #paldea!denise was never forced into getting stronger the way syl was. and she's less beholden to others' expectations in general #and having that agency means her natural inclination to gain knowledge and grow isn't stunted by feeling like it's her only option #so she doesn't have the same reservations about striving for strength as her cousin. but that's not to say she's inherently better for it #point is. both girls had different circumstances behind how they got to where they are and the struggles they faced along the way #but regardless of that they're both content with where they ended up. they're living their best lives and that's what matters #sobs. they're so everything ;_;

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moe-broey · 30 days

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OKAY OKAY I'M GONNA POST SOME OF MY RAMBLINGS FROM THE GROUP CHAT BC. I'm SO EXCITED about what I fucking scored (these are just snippets I Talked. A Lot LMFAOO)

Okay. Context. Just one pic that doesn't do it full justice bc it has cool little details too (ESP: little straps near the waist that button/unbutton, EXTREMELY USEFUL AND IDEAL to carry my noise cancelors with) (will hit image limit so just saying Dude Trust Me)

Okay. GO

LIKE. LIKE. I went on a whole ass journey about this. The vest I'm talking about in that last screenshot is this really gorgeous handmade green/beige blocked w flower print (it's like. Femme Masc. To me) that I got at a craft fair, for reference! Something I Barely wear/honestly save for special occasions bc 1) the Collar I did not factor in The Collar BUT. I FIXED THIS. WITH SAFETY PINS. Honestly I don't know why I didn't think to do that sooner. And 2) It's... incredibly difficult to pair w my usual jacket. If not impossible.

THIS... CAN CHANGE.... like something I said that I cut out here is The Potential. Of customizing this jacket Intentionally. So that I can layer it in both directions -- worn on top of things ofc but FOCALLY. Easy to wear Underneath something.

IDK IDK I'M JUST SOOOOOO PICKY ABOUT MATERIAL AND HOW THINGS FIT so it's like INSANELY COOL. That I scored something Like This that fits Perfectly to my preferences AND is really good material ESP when I've been wanting to start a new punk jacket For Forever...... again, with more intention this time! I don't have any clear plans or ideas. But I am thinking about The Purpose of it, what I Want from it, and exactly How I want it. And going from there!

#i am merely tolerated in the group chat. (KIDDING...... everyone has their own stuff going on LMFAOO)#this is literally all i've been thinking about all day though i'm SO EXCITED. SOOOOOO EXCITED #'the high of buying things' or whatever okay but what about going extended periods of time not bothering to get anything new #bc you just don't feel like it and are way too attached to your safe clothes anyway but. BUT. THE MAGIC. THE HIGH #of a chance encounter. finding one to two Perfect Things. in the most random ass way possible. and CHERISHING THAT SHIT #riding that high for weeks. idk i just don't like leaving the house or making unnecessary purchases LMFAOOOOOO #'unnecessary'.... mileage may vary on that. REGARDLESS. even IF i do something impulsive it is w So Much Purpose LMFAO #NOT LIKE. POSTURING ABOUT IT. i'm just autistic and picky and am only interested in a few select things. which i go crazy for.#due to the autism.#EITHER WAY I'M SOOOO EXCITED. another reason i really wanted to make a new jacket is so i COULD make it more masc-leaning #i def feel like my style/tastes have evolved since my first run. i still love the aesthetics of my first run #BUT... I WANT... I NEED.... something maybe five degrees less cutesy. femme masc but in a different direction. Green.#LIKE maybe the word i'm looking for is subtle??? subdued???? just more refined. IDK IDK...#oh maybe more overtly edgy. grungy. GRUNGY...... maybe that's what i'm aiming for...#but again no solid plans YET. i also still struggle to conceptualize patch designs for some reason. STILL.......#i'm just very excited about it!!!!!!#my projects #to be.

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connectjump · 2 years

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thinking about wangxian where lwj is unable to handle his injury after the BM and wakes up in the past. he makes it his goal to become wwx's friend, to make sure that he has a happy and full life.

to keep him safe, to keep him whole and himself until the very end. so lwj learns more about wwx, allows wwx into his space & just tries to hold onto wwx's warmth whenever he can. lwj shows a bit more of himself, a small smile or a joke here or there, anything that will make wwx smile, or laugh.

fast forward to just a moment where lwj gets to hold this worlds wwx close. to feel his warmth, to hear his breathing, see that boyish smile up close on those full lips (he could kiss him, lwj WANTS to kiss him so badly, but this time wwx will know it's him) and lwj freezes.

he's trying to save wwx, but this wwx isn't his wwx.

the wwx in his world wasn't even his.

he has no right to see this worlds wwx as his.

lwj tries to shove down the memory of the peony he has pressed in his last life, how he held wwx's hand trying to heal him, eyes burning while he admits his feelings.

self-restraint. lwj removes himself from wwx's space, missing wwx's warmth like the hopelessly in love fool he is and walks away.

lwj doesn't notice the look of absolute confusion, doubt and sadness that takes hold over wwx. nor does he hear the smack wwx settles across his cheek and the warbled tone of "he doesn't like you... nobody would like me."

#mdzs #wangxian #papaya mumblings #I LOVE THESW TWO!!! SO MUCH!!! but i also love absolutely LOVE the tension #of misunderstanding one another and just not seeing how ing love theh are #lwj seeing this as a second chance ti save the man he loves but also telling himself that this isnt HIS wwx is so bittersweet #and wwx just slowly falling in love with lwj then tells himself there's no way lwj could like HIM because #lwj loves him truly but... this is wwx but not the wwx he couldnt save but one he can and will save #so the tug of war with lwj mentally with just how close he can be to this worlds wwx also horribly confuses this wwx #the mental struggle od lwj wanting to love wwx as he should be loved but not letting himself beacuse this wwx isnt HIS wwx #but lwj IS wwx's lwj regardless even though this wwx soesnt know thr mental hoops lwj is going through he still very much falls for him #in every universe and in any setting thesw two will always fall for one another and love wach other

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fantastic-mr-corvid · 5 months

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i love it when shit happens in my life that dredges up old wounds and coincidentally im re-experiencing the media i intrinsically link it to cause then i get to remember exactly why i love it and find it so meaningful all over again. there's a fucking reason ill always say Berserk [& RGU] both came into my life at a perfect fucking time and holy shit they fucking resonated with me so hard and as much as life can suck ass and lovvves kicking me in the balls when ive just recovered from last time i a least get to remember how & why i love something so much.

#thebirdspeaks #ive been trying to make a coherent post about Berserk and specifically the duality of Casca and Guts as victims post eclipse #because there are issues but also it resonates so well with me regardless #i cant word it pretty but i think its something about Casca and Guts both being victims and responding in opposite ways #and because they are so tightly linked you can almost see them as one victim experiencing the duality of victimhood #as an internal struggle made into two separate people #i flip flop between who i relate to more in relation to my own trauma #and there is plenty to criticize with the writing choices around Casca dont get me wrong #but as much as people criticize her mind breaking and turning into a shell of herself that needs constant help as something entirely negati #i sure as fuck was not given that space and care to be broken #its very nuanced but i think so few people write victims sympathetically that as much as turning into a mess can appear overdone #being cared for and given space and help and being allowed to be a burden is a powerful thing #and i find the expectation to be strong in the face of what you went though is much more common and damaging to me #anyway as many issues as i have i think Casca being allowed to be a victim as much a she was is why i love Berserk so much and while i thin #it could be better if some things were changed #but im not sure if it would have hit as hard and meant as much to me when i was wobbling between mindless rage and want for revenge #and just being broken and tired and weak and scared #reading Guts protect Casca like he did #showed me that that part of me could protect and is better off channeling the mindless rage into protecting whats important to me and what #needs it #letting me demand protection and love and sympathy for my weakest self in my darkest hours #i know im far from objective & my opinions are not universal #but the fact Casca is allowed to be a victim so fully and not just a hashtag girlboss who struggles her way out #well i wouldn't call Guts a girlboss but actually i think that's why it worked.#because between the two they cover the two ends of the common depictions of victimhood: forced to stay strong and allowed to be weak #anyway im about to hit tag limit i love you f you read this far and if you think this is horseshit then please don't say #if you think im right and sexy about it pile the love on meee<3

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