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(66) Soul meetup
Designs from @kuro-is-silly @sainteclectic @peachphernalia @bluestarlett and @purplekittybanan
Apologies for design (especially color) inaccuracies, had to do a lot of sleuthing/searching and then color theory totally smacked me in the face. There was unfortunately a bit of guesswork involved but hopefully it cooks regardless 💪
#hmsdoodles#everyone’s designs are so cool I was struggling who to choose#I don’t do ‘big pieces’ like this so I was stressing#very fun regardless though#super cool how everyone can take the same character and design him differently#chonnys charming chaos compendium#cccc#chonny jash#cj soul#cccc soul
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Divided minds of the same thought (Patreon)
#Doodles#Clinical Trial#Damned#Lee Smith#Angel Martinez#Struggling and Suffering - as one does at the Institute hehe#Uughhhghh I was so excited and enjoyed writing this chapter ♪ Lee's so creepy! He's not even Lee Smith anymore and he's still so creepy!!!!#And Angel's having a rough one of it too with blaming themself for what happened :(#The Angel I've been writing took the Accept-Reject route and stayed to watch#More specifically to plead with Lee not to do it but that's technically non-canon :P#Safe to say they feel pretty conflicted about what all happened#They both want each other - Angel specifically wants to be wanted - and they are in the Worst place for it#Worse than the original? Uhhhhh...... No comment lol#(Personally I think so because Lee isn't just a part-time medical practitioner that Angel could back out of if they were desperate)#(Here they're stuck and Lee does Everything in his power - which is more than if Angel was out walking free! - to keep them in proximity)#(He also doesn't know that Angel wants him in return - regardless of how conflicted Angel feels it's just! It's creepy!!! Which is the idea)#They're so fun to write ahhh they both are! Their internal worlds so different <3#And while these two are so fun to write - it honestly is the fact that I Also get to write about the Institute as well ahhh <3 <3#Getting to write about my headcanons and favourite elements ahh#Getting to explore one through the other! How they'd react to the Institute - how the Institute would push them around ahh#It's so so so incredibly fun I love the setting and I love these two it's so enjoyable to investigate >:3c#And on top of that I've also both been going through my other fandom playlists and pulling from there As Well As new songs!#Their playlist is shaping up more than it has any rights to hhh#Shock of shocks but ''Want you to want me'' (minor key) has been moved into the rotation lol#Definitely not thinking about Lee's Ahem fantasy~ (lol) in regards to that or anything either lol#I think I have to just admit that Flagpole Sitta is just a Damned song generally - though some lines fit Lee particularly well#Running underground with the moles indeed
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4/28 i dont know how to use the pencil brush but It's Okay sorry i'm still catching up technically because i keep getting lazy 💤 <-previous next->
#only 1 for today even though i was supposed to do two because i decided to do this at like 11 pm like some Accursed Thing#i'll rb in the morning not because i like it but because i'm full of some kiind of evil that makes me think that struggling#while working on something regardless of quality makes it worth an eye resting upon it#the stanley parable#the stanley parable ultra deluxe#employee 432#nonsensescribbles#doodle32
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Here's a fun little headshot I did of this dragon for someone on fr :)
You can also drop your own dragons here for a chance at some free experimental art! It's mostly just my art gallery, but I love seeing cool dragons regardless!
#flight rising#flight rising art#fr abberation#I have struggled. so much with drawing abberations. this is the best I've done lmaoo#I had a lot of fun with it though! love how it turned out#just fyi I probably will eventually get around to drawing every dragon put in that thread regardless of my style prefs#I just love when people love their dragons to not <3 it just may take me... eternity#hope you all are having a wonderful holiday season and a great NoTN!#I hatched my first ever gen 1 xyy :)
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stg, being an enjoyer of jane twdg is like being forced into an expert-level course on the way misogyny manifests in video game spaces.
god forbid a woman be complex or difficult or provably mischaracterized (see tags) at the end of her arc to service the culmination of a man’s storyline.
#“kenny was harrowed by loss in his family” so was jane. that is part of them literally being foils.#“kenny teaches clem more!” literally untrue a lot of clem’s combat style is rooted in what jane taught her (targeting the knees & basically#everything clem knows about knife combat- jane is also mirrored with lee in this sense as like was previously stated knife combat later goe#on to become a major element of how clem fights only outweighed by her use of firearms)#she teaches clem the gut trick & we see the innovative thinking that comes with being more independent & proactive influence the way clem#handles sticky situations & deals with feeling disempowered. like this is going to sound odd but the fact that her behaviour mirrors jane#at her best (even though her relationship with aj is more maternal the way she approaches him much more as an equal & capable of holding#agency over his own life is much more reminiscent of the way she was treated by jane & luke positively + the rest of the adults negatively#than how kenny or even lee treated clem [though lee did start to view her this way after the train] + her people reading skill.) & at her#worst (isolating herself + becoming cold + the fact she is [based on player choice] willing to leave aj behind for both their survival +#struggling with her need for community vs her sense of distrust in their lasting stability + her tendency to be unfeelingly pragmatic to a#fault except when it comes to aj + the fact that clem- at her worst is self-serving & somewhat uncaring in comparison to kenny’s possessive#hot-headedness etc) indicates that on some level- regardless of a player’s second season ending- clem considered jane to be a better#behavioural role model- this isn’t to say kenny was unimpactful but rather that his impact was different- where behaviourally we see elemen#of lee luke jane & even carver in clem’s later behaviour kenny’s impact is more so that of a cautionary tale- somebody clem cared for who#she witnessed lose himself entirely to his worst character flaws due to an inability to cope with the world she now lives in- something he#even admits to her in multiple endings iirc. kenny becomes the fate clem must strive against at all costs.#similar can be said of the ending where you go with jane regarding how it analogies clem’s fears & low self worth as a result of being#unable to maintain what she had with aj (in a manner that mirrors jane’s story in that she’s choosing to leave behind a living relative due#to no longer being able to be what they need- again depending on player choice*)#*my exact memory of the third season is hazier tbh. iirc it is dependent on player choice whether she is complacent with the decision to#make her leave the new frontier.#like the way the ending was handled was sloppy & jane was mischaracterized as a result of being shoved into a conflict that we know for#certain was not intended to go to her. calm down & just enjoy your man without being weird & misogynistic dear god.)#(also if you like clem & jane you will like holly robinson & selina kyle dc)#twdg jane#jane twdg#twdg
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Do you conlang? I was wondering if you had naming languages (or possibly even more developed ones) for pulling the words you use. I tried to search your blog but didn't find anything, wouldn't be surprised if the feature is just busted tho. Your worldbuilding is wonderful and I particularly enjoy the anthropological and linguistic elements.
Ok the thing is I had kind of decided I was not going to do any conlanging because I don't feel like I'm equipped to do a good job of it, like was fully like "I'm just going to do JUST enough that it doesn't fail an immediate sniff test and is more thoughtful than just keysmashing and putting in vowels". And then have kinda been conlanging anyway (though not to a very deep and serious extent. I maybe have like....an above average comprehension of how language construction works via willingness to research, but that's not saying much, also I can never remember the meanings of most linguistic terms like 'frictives' or etc off the top of my head. I'm just kinda raw dogging it with a vague conceptualization of what these things mean)
I do at least have a naming language for Wardi (and more basic rules for other established languages) but the rudimentary forms of it were devised with methods much shakier and less linguistically viable than even the most basic naming language schemes, and I only went back over it LONG after I had already made a bunch of words so there's some inconsistencies with consonant presence and usage. (This can at least be justified because it IS a language that would have a lot of loanwords and would be heavily influenced by other language groups- Burri being by far the most significant, Highland-Finnic and Yuroma-Lowlands also being large contributors)
The 'method' I used was:
-Skip basic construction elements and fully move into devising necessary name words, with at least a Vibe of what consonants are going to be common and how pronunciation works -Identify some roots out of the established words and their meanings. Establish an ongoing glossary of known roots/words. -Construct new words based in root words, or as obvious extensions/variants of established words. -Get really involved in how the literal meanings of some words might not translate properly to english, mostly use this to produce a glossary of in-universe slang. -Realize that I probably should have at least some very basic internal consistency at this point. -Google search tutorials on writing a naming language. -Reverse engineer a naming language out of established words, and ascribe all remaining inconsistencies to being loanwords or just the mysteries of life or whatever.
I do at least have some strongly established pronunciation rules and a sense of broad regional dialect/accents.
-'ai' words are almost always pronounced with a long 'aye' sound.
-There is no 'Z' or 'X' sound, a Wardi speaker pronouncing 'zebra' would go for 'tsee-brah', and would attempt 'xylophone' as 'ssye-lohp-hon'
-'V' sounds are nearly absent and occur only in loanwords, and tend to be pronounced with a 'W' sound. 'Virsum' is a Highland word (pronounced 'veer-soom') denoting ancestry, a Wardi speaker would go 'weer-sum'.
-'Ch' spellings almost always imply a soft 'chuh' sound when appearing after an E, I, or O (pelatoche= pel-ah-toh-chey), but a hard 'kh' sound after an A or U (odomache= oh-doh-mah-khe). When at the start of a word, it's usually a soft 'ch' unless followed by an 'i' sound (chin (dog) is pronounced with a hard K 'khiin', cholem (salt) is pronounced with a soft Ch 'cho-lehm')
-Western Wardin has strong Burri cultural and linguistic influence, and a distinct accent- one of the most pronounced differences is use of the ñ sound in 'nn' words. The western city of Ephennos is pronounced 'ey-fey-nyos' by most residents, the southeastern city of Erubinnos is pronounced 'eh-roo-been-nos' by most residents. Palo's surname 'Apolynnon' is pronounced 'A-puh-lee-nyon' in the Burri and western Wardi dialects (which is the 'proper' pronunciation, given that it's a Kos name), but will generally be spoken as 'Ah-poh-leen-non' in the south and east.
-R's are rolled in Highland-Finnic words. Rolling R's is common in far northern rural Wardi dialects but no others. Most urban Wardi speakers consider rolling R's sort of a hick thing, and often think it sounds stupid or at least uneducated. (Brakul's name should be pronounced with a brief rolled 'r', short 'ah' and long 'uul', but is generally being pronounced by his south-southeastern compatriots with a long unrolled 'Brah' sound).
Anyway not really a sturdy construction that will hold up to the scrutiny of someone well equipped for linguistics but not pure bullshit either.
#I actually did just make a post about this on my sideblog LOL I think in spite of my deciding not to conlang this is going to go full#full conlanging at some point#The main issue is that the narrative/dialogue is being written as an english 'translation' (IE the characters are speaking in their actual#tongues and it's being translated to english with accurate meaning but non-literal treatment)#Which you might say like 'Uh Yeah No Shit' but I think approaching it with that mindset at the forefront does have a different effect than#just fully writing in english. Like there's some mindfulness to what they actually might be saying and what literal meanings should be#retained to form a better understanding of the culture and what should be 'translated' non-literally but with accurate meaning#(And what should be not translated at all)#But yeah there's very little motivation for conlanging besides Pure Fun because VERY few Wardi words beyond animal/people/place names#will make it into the actual text. Like the only things I leave 'untranslated' are very key or untranslatable concepts that will be#better understood through implication than attempts to convey the meaning in english#Like the epithet 'ganmachen' is used to compliment positive traits associated with the ox zodiac sign or affectionately tease#negative ones. This idea can be established pretty naturally without exposition dumps because the zodiac signs are of cultural#importance and will come up frequently. The meaning can get across to the reader pretty well if properly set up.#So like leaving it as 'ganmachen' you can get 'oh this is an affectionate reference to an auspicious zodiac sign' but translating#it as the actual meaning of 'ox-faced' is inevitably going to come across as 'you look like a cow' regardless of any zodiac angle#^(pretty much retyped tags from other post)#Another aspect is there's a few characters that have Wardi as a second language and some of whom don't have a solid grasp on it#And I want to convey this in dialogue (which is being written in english) but I don't want it to just be like. Random '''broken''' english#like I want there to be an internal consistency to what parts of the language they have difficulties with (which then has implications for#how each language's grammar/conjugation/etc works). Like Brakul is fairly fluent in Wardi at the time of the story but still struggles#with some of the conjugation (which is inflectional in Wardi) especially future/preterite tense. So he'll sometimes just use the#verb unconjugated or inappropriately in present tense. Though this doesn't come across as starkly in text because it's#written in english. Like his future tense Wardi is depicted as like 'I am to talk with him later' instead of 'I'll talk with him later'#Which sounds unnatural but not like fully incorrect#But it would sound much more Off in Wardi. Spanish might be a better example like it would be like him approaching it with#'Voy a hablar con él más tarde' or maybe 'Hablo con él más tarde' instead of 'Hablaré con él más tarde'#(I THINK. I'm not a fluent spanish speaker sorry if the latter has anything wrong with it too)
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2025 reads / storygraph
Vagabonds!
contemporary fantasy (with some horror, scifi)
many lightly interconnected stories about various queer/trans people in Lagos who are considered vagabonds/outsiders
a fashion designer and her magical daughter, a driver for a powerful corrupt politician, the romance of two lesbian sex workers, fairygodgirls who deliver books to people who need them, a spirit of the city observing it all (and many more)
explores the rich world of queer life and resilience and existence in Nigeria
#Vagabonds!#eloghosa osunde#aroaessidhe 2025 reads#magical and beautifully written! very good!#explores a lot of different kinds of queer characters and narratives many with fantasy/supernatural elements#but also some horror/scifi and some stories are barely supernatural at all -#though of course many of the realities of the world we live in can feel magical/horrifying/dystopian so they fit together pretty seamlessly#it’s not quite a short story collection but not quite a traditionally connected narrative#I did lose track of some of the characters/stories a little#I think that’s just something that happens when I listen to books like this (big cast) as an audiobook. but a fantastic experience#also omg Pet reference! love that book#also - was pleasantly surprised to find an ace-coded character (& an aroace one maybe going by one paragraph in Gold’s chapter?)#in Wura- when her lover is explaining to her disbelieving therapist that their relationship was never sexual.#It’s only briefly explored but it’s nicely intertwined with the characters.#I find that most books like this that attempt to encompass the entire queer community tend to leave out aspec people -#or they just have a token mention but everything else is very allo-romance focused.#This book focuses just as much on the platonic/familial; community; and individual queerness; which I really appreciated#[not to say that this book necessarily encompasses the Entire community - i don't remember significant intersex or trans man chars?]#[but def mentions at least. it's mostly sapphic/lesbian focused overall. a lot of diversity regardless]#queer books#sapphic books#struggling to come up with ways to describe some of the stories since there's so many and i read this a week or 2 ago so i just grabbed the#ones from the blurb sorry lol.
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#persona 4#p4#persona 4 golden#p4g#hanamura yosuke#yosuke hanamura#this scene gets to me because it reveals how a lot of yosuke's talk about getting a gf or meeting a girl and all of that is just... talk#on the one hand it's atlus needing the best friend character to fill that role of “lets check out girls!”#on the other hand it also reads to me as another facade of yosuke's struggle to meet his idealised conception of an average teenage boy#see it's funny because even in the first instance the role is always a bit deeper than it is#slight spoilers for p3 and p5!!!#but in junpei's case regardless of his flirtations he doesnt actually reciprocate or is even a potential LI for femmc#in ryuji's case when ann turns on the charm and offers to go on a date with him he tells her off and says that she should be like herself#i think that theres always a surprising level of nuance to be found with that skirt-chasing stereotype atlus likes to give us#i think yosuke's narrative here quite closely parallels junpei's in that theyre actually super devoted people#and yosuke has found an attachment to saki in the way junpei had with chidori so of course hes not willing to compromise on it#its such a mixed thing because even though he knew saki's kindness to him was probably faked yosuke's loyalty to her was already set#yosuke strikes me as the type of person that if youre nice to him once he'll follow you for life#i love that nanako was the one that responded to yosuke with like “oh like homework?” and yosuke gently plays along#its evocative of his tendency to shoot his mouth off only to quickly cover it up with a joke#but yu is there in the room as well listening and empathising and i think it was a moment that really#revealed to us (and yu) yosuke's underlying motivations and beliefs#even if it was sandwiched between the moment of yosuke trying to look at yu's prn#or perhaps especially because it was sandwiched between that moment the juxtaposition becomes more salient#that such talk from yosuke functions as a distraction from the anguish and ennui he feels about losing saki#he's good with his queue
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goodness i have never felt so seen by a character .. i think im going to enjoy this show a lot ^w^

#── 𝒚. ♡#warning minor spoilers !! im only on ep 3 but im really enjoying this show so much!#it has everything i love; magic & fantasy plus that medieval feel to it all i cant believe it’s taken me this long to watch#while i was watching i found myself really loving freiren’s outfit an odd amount but could not figure out why ..#until i realized ‘omg.. her and amé are matching🥺’ they’re twins chat!#in another world amé ended up being a catalyst user instead of sword lol#no but back to the reason of being seen aaaajsnwk freiren’s struggle in not being able to know more about people is so real#even with himmel whom she travelled with for 10 years she felt as if she knew nothing about him which i dont believe is the case ..#since throughout the eps we’re seeing her memories of their past adventures and she’s remembering him in the little things ..#which proves likes bestie.. YOU KNEW HIM😭but that really volumes spoke to me#i’ve known people irl and moots on here for quite some time but sometimes i find myself wondering whether or not i really /know/ them#we’ve had conversations about any and everything but somehow it just feels like it’s never enough. like im still learning about them ..#but then i notice the little things.. seeing a cute teacup at work and i think ‘ayame would probably like this one’ seeing a cute shade ..#of soft purples whenever im looking at makeup palettes reminds me of moevie a yaelokre songs comes on my shuffle and my instantly goes to ..#artemis and so much more things that remind me of people i consider dear friends#they seem like such insignificant details in the grand scheme of things and perhaps that’s where i ( and freiren ) feel as though ..#we truly never know much about the people who we’ve come to know the longest and by the time it’s too late ..#we suddenly feel regretful for not getting to know who they were as a person and such#especially now where life happens and sometimes i dont have the energy to speak/catch up with friends sometimes i feel sadden after the fact#but watching this show and seeing the few memories freiren keeps of himmel and the others really made me realize that even ..#when it feels like i know nothing about my moots/friends irl just the fact that im able to think of them in the little ..#things in life serves as enough proof to show that there was some kind of connection there whether it was strong or not ..#or whether it lasted for years or maybe even just a couple of days#oop uh.. SORRY! i did not mean to ramble like that lmao my mind just decided to wander a bit T_T#anyways i love my friends very much and you all mean the world to me regardless of whether or not we talk often <3#p.s himmel and freiren is so amethos coded gawwddddd … i wanna write a drabble abt that now-
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brennan trend of characters who view their bodies not necessarily as themselves but as a Tool they can use to earn favor from / a place with other people (often as an Apology for who they are) has me thinking about Zelda's Ending of All Things vision again
#N posts stuff#eg: Sean who is most at peace Explicitly when he allows other people to order him around -> tool for others to use#or Nikhil who includes himself in the worldview of 'every living thing is Inherently selfish and cruel' and so uses his body for Sex#bc that's an act that can bring him some pleasure while also getting him Favors from other people bc he doesn't think anyone#would be willing to help him / be decent to him otherwise -> bargaining chip to earn favor#or Hob who views himself - as his superiors say - as a 'blunt instrument' wielded best by other people who are smarter than him#his entire self-perception is cornerstoned by his ability to follow orders regardless of what he wants -> tool for others to use#following this thread we have Zelda - whose Vision is defined only by a concert where she is just Tearing Through iterations of herself#we know she struggles w/ self-image and self-deprecation -> pondering the potential that Zelda ALSO sees her body as#something of a Tool she can use to gain favor / friendship bc she doesn't feel capable of offering any Social benefit to others#her body as a Shield she can put in front of her friends and a Weapon she can wield to defend them - regardless of the damage#she risks posing to herself -> Zelda tearing bloodily through her own body w/ no regard to the consequences bc What Else Does She#Have To Offer? ; so she can't stop Attacking and also can't stop Taking The Hits -> this building into the scene the maidens glimpse#Zelda who kills / dies for her friends bc she isn't worth anything outside of that -> bargaining chip to earn favor#interesting though how Zelda does not necessarily seem to Confront this as much as she Flees from it; due to the nature of#the gameplay focusing primarily on the Player Characters as opposed to Zelda as an NPC#the others find some degree of Peace w/ their vision but Zelda leaves snarling 'i Super don't like it here' as she flees from it#anyway i Will write a fic about this one day but first we have to Ponder it more lol
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True and real

Good fucking morning and happy Monday.
#Finally some relatively good news#Though this is pretty obviously them realising their office is drawing to a close and trying to look more presentable#Oh well regardless of the motivation at least she’s out.#Finally they’ve realised that the far right they’ve been trying to pander to is only a small part of this country#The majority of the people are too busy struggling to look after themselves and their family to care about hating minorities 24/7#No matter how much the media tries to stir shit up#The protests across the country no doubt influenced this decision which is so good to see
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GOD he might as well be wearing lingerie to the fucking battle field. Or leather gear. Either way HE'S A FUCKING WHORE‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️
#okay i thuink i'm starting to understand 👍 tthe directuon to take here........#GOD THE. THE LEATHER COMPARISON THOUGH. AM I FUCKING STUPID. AM I FUCKING BLIND?????#alfonse has ALWAYS read as queer man to me i will confess early on it was def my insecurities showing BUT#i'm a lot less strict/insecure about it now esp bc it makes me ask okay if there isn't an easy way out actually#WHY isn't he compatible w mani when he loves moe. fascinating thought exercise that i still struggle to capture tbh#BUT. BUT. REGARDLESS. he's been a kinkster this whole fucking time. in plain fuckinh sight. you have Got to be KIDDING ME#idk if this will mark any permanent changes to my artwork BUT. it is... significant........#wait okay sidenote ramble time. i had an extremely funny pride themed art idea of moe shari and alfonse#modern setting ect ect. sharena is STYLISHLY rainbow vomit glitter bomb that will haunt you forever wherever you go#moe is decked out in leather harnesses/gear (probably not full leather though bc The Sensory Issues....) but it's Got It#and alfonse. is the normalest guy in the whole wide world 👍#OBVIOUSLY. the joke/implication/what we know about alfonse broadly as a character is. he really Fucking Isn't#but he's giving 'straight' (dubious.) guy at pride.#i. don't know if this realization effects that concept.
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I need to actually put it in a reblog here as a reply, because it's important to understand why "water is wet" studies are so important. Even though it's something we know, "water is wet" studies are so important (not just on this topic but on various others like the one time there was one about validating a trans person's gender identity helps their mental health) because it gives a credible source to our lived experience.
It's not even a, "maybe neurotypicals didn't know this" case. Perhaps they do, perhaps they don't, that's ultimately irrelevant. The part to focus on here is that these studies validate our lived experience in a manner that's very hard for them to undermine or invalidate, you know?
These studies may seem "ridiculously obvious" in their conclusion or "superfluous" in that, you could just talk to ADHDers the world over and understand that we've been saying this for decades. But it gives us the tools to fight against the ableist monster that is society instead of just beating our heads against the walls, hurting ourselves more than said walls.
I don't want to say that's the point of this study, because I don't know the people involved nor their motivations. But that's the point of why "water is wet" studies are so, so important. It gives our voice and experiences legitimacy, credibility, that cannot be discounted, because it's right there, with sourced material, with the scientific method in effect, with the conclusion echoing what we all know and have been saying.
So please don't discount studies like this, ever, nor discourage "water is wet" studies from being conducted, because they're important weapons in our fight against ableism and for the rights and accommodations we need to move through our societies.
Scientists once thought that ADHD symptoms were always present. But previous research from Rapport, who has been studying ADHD for more than 36 years, has shown the fidgeting was most often present when children were using their brains' executive functions, particularly "working memory." That's the system we use for temporarily storing and managing information required to carry out complex cognitive tasks such as learning, reasoning and comprehension.
Here’s full study: https://www.eurekalert.org/news-releases/478386
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#adhd#video#yeah the passivity is what kills#boredom is not just stressful it can literally make me pass out regardless of how much sleep I've had#and i don't just mean meetings but i've fallen asleep healing in ff14 araids as well esp when i know the raid like the back of my hand#in meetings there's a big difference in my ability to retain information depending on whether I'm allowed to actively participate in/with it#if I'm required to passively take in information my colleagues need to nudge me because i will quite literally struggle to stay awake#let alone take in the information#if I'm allowed to engage be it by asking questions by presenting information by reacting to information given#or by debating with my colleagues about the information presented i will not only stay focused and engaged throughout the 1 to 4 hr meeting#but i will end the meeting feeling energised#accomplished even#and my colleagues apparently love when i engage with the information and start discussions#the love when i inevitably take charge of team meetings because i include everyone and address people specifically on their opinions#simply because that's also engaging to me and it makes people feel seen and heard and as though their views are important#like my adhd and my self-awareness makes me a fantastic leader in that regard not to talk myself up or anything#but presented with passivity is death#and my brain literally just shuts down#it was also a big big issue for me in my school career#i would fall asleep in class or drawn or write just to get some sort of stimulation#(and then of course get scolded by teachers for 'not paying attention' like bro maybe be more engaging idk I'm trying to survive your class)#anyway.....
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Sure you wouldn't do it. But would you be okay with it if somebody else did it instead of you?
#shower thoughts#this is about how i went through a traumatic experience I imagined that i should've filmed#for legal reasons and then getting off at thinking “except I wouldn't post it online 😇 like others do”#and then thinking wow mecces thats kind of holier than though of you#and realizing i wouldn't do it myself but i have enough malice to let someone else post it in my stead#mh.#ok so long story short my dog bit a small dog#hers was running off leash and my dog is known to be unsafe#i think i met her before but regardless#im upset about everything and i feel very guilty even though im rationally safe on the legal side#and this is the incident that made me decide#i gotta put a muzzle on her#forever every time we leave the house#I'm so so so fucking sad i dont know how else to say it#this has been a life long struggle for her and it cant go on#shes never bitten a dog before like tonight#but she was always unpredictable in her behavior#like this fucking problem is so much larger than i am and i just wanted to have a fucking dog#i guess im better for having her but it's so depressing not to know how to help her#i dont have the funds to get a dog expert involved are you kidding me???#im learning that shit myself! im desperate to figure her out! i read the books and do the stuff its like my second job#bit of a personal tag rant but oh well#not me talking about my daydreaming and then immediately trauma dumping#💀 i need to let yall know I'm contacting the police myself#if you care
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Hhhhh I need my drawing energy to replenish quicker so I can fully show my appreciation for the blorbos I've accumulated over... basically the past year or so. The Estelle doodle collection was almost there but I need more.
#writing on a stickiy note#i mean i also have a thing i want to finish first so that's the priority of my drawing energy allocation#but like i miss drawing my favs...situations and other drawing priorities made it so i could only focus on the latter art-wise#i want to draw like i did when i had the category 5 CR-S01 blorbo event#just so much enthusiasm and joy behind every drawing regardless of level of polish#and it spread to other drawings i did at the time too it was great#and i almost achieved that feeling again with aforementioned estelle doodles but it's not quite back yet#it's only a matter of time though bc with (thing i wanna finish) some concept sketches went faster than expected#and part of that was the process actually felt pleasant and i wasn't agonizing over details even though i had to create them myself#probably helps I'm out of the situation that made doing anything a major struggle#and I'm pretty much recovered from that so i finally have the capacity for hobbies again#anyways rambling too much i fear I've gone on a tangent but hard to tell in the moment
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thinking about true form!sukuna who has such an obvious size kink. That man is literally huge and is slanging around two awfully thick and long cocks like it’s nothing. No matter your height or size, everyone is small to him regardless. He’s a tall hunk of muscle, what can you expect. And when he sees you, his new supposed wife, he can’t help but smile, and it’s not a happy smile, it’s an evil, twisted smile. He’s thinking of all the ways he can bend you, toss and hold you down while you take his cocks in your tight holes. He’s thinking about making you watch the way he bulges out of your stomach, pressing your hand down on it just so you know you’re not hallucinating. He wants to watch you struggle taking him down your throat, trying so desperately to fit your pretty little lips around his cock, and gagging on it when you’re not even halfway down. He’s sick for thinking it, he knows, but he doesn’t care. You greet him with respect, kneeling and avoiding eye contact with him, anticipating the day with him as his new bride. You’re just so clueless as to what is going on his head though and he finds it funny how shy you act when he’s gonna have you stuck in a mating press by the end of the night.
And of course, he kept his promise, putting you in all kinds of positions for hours on end, using you like his personal fleshlight. “Ah, my lord! Please!” You cry out, sweat clinging to your skin as he so easily hooks his arms under your knees and moves you up and down on his cocks. “You’re so big! I can’t take it!” You mewl, eyes squeezing shut as you feel another orgasm approaching. Sukuna doesn’t care about your poor attempts at mercy, he’s so entranced by the sight of his thick cocks stuffing your holes to the brim, stretching you out with every inch. You look so small in his hands, so easy to break and he’s obsessed with it. He’ll go all night just to ruin you and fulfill his fantasy.
#—☆classyrbf#jjk#jjk x reader#jujustu kaisen#jjk smut#sukuna x reader#sukuna smut#sukuna x reader smut#ryomen sukuna smut#ryomen sukuna x reader smut#ryomen sukuna x reader#sukuna smut drabble#ryomen sukuna smut drabble#jjk x reader smut#jjk smut drabble#sukuna drabble#jjk sukuna
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