#tis my first vent and reflect post of 2024

[silentxxsoul]

I’m a few days from moving on from arguably the worst year in my professional career, mostly from a mental health standpoint and the sheer amount of stress induced health issues I’ve had. Actually, there’s no arguing it. While it was successful on paper, this was hands down the worst year of work I’ve ever experienced, and I’m ashamed at how much it bled over into my life.

I can see the light on the other side though, and if I think on it enough, I guess I am a little proud to have come this far. But, fuck I hope that I never have another year like this ever, ever again.

I can’t wait to move on, meet new people and try new things. I can’t wait to reward myself with a few short stretches of vacation. Especially after working 70 hour weeks for a month between US Thanksgiving and Christmas.

I can’t wait to get back into fandom, to finally get back into being creative. Just being able to sit down and write or draw or do some little home improvement/craft project and just… let all the negative emotions go.

[maristrologistic-blog]

My First Post :) & this Week's Aspects

Being a Lunar Aquarian and a Rising Scorpio makes me really aware of this week’s astrological aspects, on a deep, subconscious level.  & I’ve been postponing my posts and videos about astrology for so long -  for weeks and months I’ve been giving myself excuses of why I can’t do it and been telling myself I lack the knowledge and skills… I don't have the time.. etc. But this time …  I’ve decided to just go with it and just start somewhere. I came to the realization that my first astrology post doesn’t need to be perfect, it doesn’t need to be long, it doesn’t need to be related to deep analysis of the planets and houses inside the horoscope of a certain celebrity that I couldn’t care less about; it doesn’t have to talk about why Donald Trump won the elections and it sure as hell doesn’t have to be just another post of how astrology can benefit you and try to explain it to the sceptics that know nothing about it and dare criticize it. I will leave all the above topics… and just focus. I’ve been ranting and ranting and got no real content. My first post is… Forgive me for saying this… is for me. & having my Venus in Leo I can take any subject and make it about me… Sorry for that. I just need this, I need to vent and sketch up some of my feelings and basic knowledge into words… The Sun entered the sign of Aquarius, (which happens to be my Moon Sign), and the Moon is in Scorpio (which happens to be my Rising Sign) … and yes, I am perfectly aware that the current Moon phase has to do with crisis of the consciousness and things being all over the place… Which makes me need to vent, write and analyze everything that has been happening in my life, or at least try to understand it in a way…  So, tolerate me, just this once  Let’s get Down to Business … This Week’s Aspects: As previously mentioned, the Sun entered the Sign of Aquarius. The energy of this sign is intellectual, thoughtful, unconventional. The Aquarian wants to know, to learn, grow and expand, so that he/she can benefit the public, the society, the community and … the planet as a whole, by providing futuristic solutions to current problems. So, during this time we can feel this energy as inner drive to learn more, be more, help more. We will be passionate about learning new things and reading all sorts of interesting information, we will want to share it with others, as our hunger for knowledge increases. We will feel innovative, new ideas might come to us and rush us to pursue them, they might come as uninvited guests late at night, as the creative spark ignites... The Aquarian influence can be felt, as we strive for freedom and aim towards liberation. To liberate ourselves from the constraints and restrictions...,from the past and from those aspects that no longer serve us... To the above, add the fact that the Moon is ... in Scorpio - Which will lead to expressions of emotions and actions with passion and drive. Scorpio is all about mystery, transformation and change. We are likely to become more aware of the ties that need to be cut, or the paths that no longer serve our journey.. Our feelings will be heightened and more intense. Both Mars & Venus are in the elusive sign of Pisces, originally ruled by Neptune.. [ & Neptune itself is in Pisces at the moment.. and will remain there till 2024 :)] Both Neptune and Pisces rule the deepest realms of the subconscious mind..  Therefore, it is wise to spend some time listening to our higher self and to that inner voice within.. if we only allowed it - that voice could guide us, be our light inside the tunnel... In the labyrinth of our thoughts, it could put some order inside the inner chaos...  if Only the constant stream of thoughts could be stopped just for a moment,.. a peaceful tranquil moment... for that inner voice to be heard... In order to achieve this, you will need some time for yourself... Deep Breathing is a good idea.. Meditation and Visualisation Practices are also favorable, walks in nature, spending some time close to water is also a good idea to recharge our spiritual batteries… We got the Moon,Venus and Mars in water signs.. therefore it is an emotional period. There is a tendency to analyze and think/reflect back… & it is okay, as long as we don’t go down the rabbit hole and find ourselves feeling drained and depressed.. But I hope that the Aquarian energy will help us focus on the future ... and speaking of the future … the Chinese New Year is almost here, So, we got another chance to start over and stick to the promises we made to ourselves… & I will dedicate a special post about what to expect in the Year of the Rooster and how to prepare for it. Until then - wish you lots of happiness and joy … Have a wonderful day/night. Namaste. ©Borislava Zo™