#tldr i love u all. thank u <333

[dabisbratz]

AGH okay hii there (・・; idk if u remember me, but i was the anon from a while back who asked how you got into impact play and was! really nervous cuz i didn't know if it was my thing, but i wanted to broaden my horizons yk? your reply helped me feel a bit better (thank u btw<3) , but since then i've sorta realized that it's DEF not my thing and i wanted to ask,, do you ever feel bad about not wantin' the rough stuff, if that ever happens? like, do you ever fear that it'd make ur partner/playmate like you any less?

i guess i'm askin' cuz i've been having that problem, and idk what to do about all the pressure to like pain and degradation n stuff :( nd i really look up to you as well!

i know this is a MUCH bigger question than last time, and professional or not, i wouldn't expect ya to give me advice for this kinda thing, so again, i'm hopin' i'm not crossing any boundaries,,, so so sorry if i am, and obvs ignore this msg if that's the case! or maybe i can try sending it off anon later, so u can answer it privately, if that'd make u more comfy? either way, i rlly hope ur havin' a wonderful week, and i'm glad to see that your writing is getting more attention :)

hi bubs !! absolutely do remember you, how could i forget ?! :D v’never been physically sexual with anyone before, but can tell you v’absolutely felt less-than when someone else’s ideas weren’t somethin i was into. t’the point id jus go with it even f’i wasn’t a fan. . which is !! a big nono!! that being said, f’youre with someone who makes ythink you have to fulfill every fantasy they have— darker or not— they’re not the one. n that makes them a terrible, terrible person !! it’s neverever your fault, n it doesn’t n shouldn’t effect how much they love/care about you! you like what you like, n that’s great !! don’t let someone pressure you into doin somethin you don’t wanna do.

n that leads m’to mnext point ! there’s nothin wrong with not bein into pain or degradation or anythin . . . jus intense. cause they’re exactly that, yknow? like . . m’actually not into intense impact play !! i like gettin slapped/spanked but mnot a fan of kickin or punchin or stuff like that.. n the funny thing is, m’only into it if the person doin it is super soft n sweet right after ! anythin you do (with a partner or not!) does not have tbe somethin intense n crazy n rough tbe a good time. what matters s’if you feel good— if they feel good too! n being rough most definitely is not the only way to feel good !!

anywho, yshould definitely talk it through with your partner!! communication is everythin. it’s important t’have boundaries set n placed— respected too. any type of. . play time ! should be guilt free, n it’s much better when everyone’s on the same page!! sorry f’it sounds like mramblin. . there’s so much i wanna say but it’s kinda hard tput into words. . tldr: i do! but we shouldn’t, so it’s important to talk about it t’diminish that feelin of guilt/inferiority !! no need to apologize, sweetpea!! mglad i could help, even if it’s jus a lil bit! <333 n thank you !!!

[theeflowerofcarnage]

If you’re willing pls some details on your bg3 character? They’re so gorgina. I love her. I wanna give her a lil daisy or smth and put it behind her ear. If possible. If not we’ll work something out. Your taste in screenshots is so good and I love seeing other ppls games. Especially when we have more than one in common.

What’s her class? Her name? Any subclasses 🤔

Any reason for The Gale romance, or is it one of those unexplained there is no reason types? Either way they’re cute.

Where does her expertise lie, any backstory you’ve thought of and decided on and willing to share?

What’s her favourite pass time, what’s her usual response to difficult situations be it emotionally or in a fight? Does she believe in a high power?

Much luv, if you decide to answer or not I appreciate your posts no matter the game popping up on my time line <3 just an interested individual passing thru swat me like a fly if necessary and carry on 🤞🏼 I’m glad it seems like ur having a good time, hope ur doing well !

First of all thank you SOO much for asking ❤️❤️❤️ I didn’t think anyone would be that interested <<333 this ask made my day

n ive been thinking over it a lot since getting into act 3, ((im not a dnd expert  sooo consider the follow some silly musings I have on her backstory/abilities 🙈)) 

Tldr is-

Dark Eyes is a Mephistopheles tiefling, she used to be a cleric but I changed her class later to an Archfey Warlock, she is an outlander and worships Kelemvor!!

She was born at sea! her parents were human & lived as merchants. They loved her despite her unexpected infernal heritage, they called her 'dark eyes' for her unusual appearance. She had a relatively happy childhood, she always felt at home in far off places. While sailing to the Sword Coast thier ship was capsized by a storm, her parents and the crew died but she survived, washed ashore near a temple dedicated to Kelemvor. From this point on, her life was marked by a quiet melancholy and deep religious fervor. Her near death experience exposed the capricious nature of fate.

she fully embraced the path of a Cleric of Kelemvor and traveled extensively over all of Faerun giving the last rites to the dying and aiding the departed, until the day she met a dying dryad in a forest, taking pity on her she guided its spirit to the realm beyond gaining the favor of the Faerie Queen Titania, ultimately sealing her fate as an Archfey Warlock.

Among the Fey she was reborn as 'Nemeth' a name given to her by her first lover a Leanan sidhe being. Under the guidance of these fey beings, she embraced life with reckless abandoned, danced among dryads in deep elder forests, and sung the songs of the rusalkas. She inspired poets and was the bane of mortal men, she learned to act in accordance to her own whims rather than being a martyr  - to me she is always very fickle and easy to displease, I've had her hex people for saying rude things to her (looking at u lord whitburn) on the surface she is seems distant but she still has a soft heart, where others fight she likes to wait things out, let others expose themselves, charm and decieve (in a way her and Raphael would get a long very well if they weren't enemies in game hehe)

On the gale romance- well, that was a complete accident what can I say his dorkish nature is bewitching!!

they definitely play off each other well!! If it weren't for Gale she really wouldn't be trying so hard to save others. Being a warlock, she knows better than most that, to give into raw power is to become infinetly more vulnerable to the greater beings that wield it- She wants Gale to understand this!! Despite being a warlock, she still gives patronage to Kelemvor, it’s a big reason why she does not like Mystra's influence over Gale - to her Kelemvor is impartial, fair - he doesn't keep his devotees on a leash and does not interfere in mortal affairs, he is the washing away of these things, the cleansing of all desire. She wants Gale to see that his life is his own- only if he lets go! Anyways in my head she and Gale adopted the tiefling Arabella and sent her away to wizard school or whatever the equilvalent is

[itoshi-s]

zari ! ! i wan hear how u n' rinnie met ^V^ ! don't spare anyyyy detail i wan hear all da juicy stuffs :3c

COCO < 333 thank yew 4 asking beloved cuz i am so excited to talk abt this hehe it makes me blush just thinkin about it !!! >_<

the very first time we encounter each other is at a local cafe in paris !! he's a pro player for psg, i'm here for my internship after moving out to continue education in sports psychology. simple as that !! and we both need some pick-me-up coffee to start the day. rin stands in line behind me when i order a latte and my favorite croissant - and it just happens to be the last one. i joke around with the cashier on how it must be my lucky day then,, and right as i say it rin sighs and tells whoever he's on the phone with that they have just ran out& he has to get something else. i turn to look at him and tell him that it's okay, i don't mind getting something else instead - and i recognize him and get all sheepish 😭 cause he IS so tall and intimidating and looks way too annoyed for his own good, and it is THE rin itoshi after all. he lifts the phone from his ear and shakes his head before insisting i take it, it's fine. ryusei might as well just not get his daily sugar dose this time, it's not a big deal, he thinks. he's not going to make a fuss out of it. i ask if he's sure and he nods, and because i want this interaction to b over already i just go thru and buy it </3 i tell the cashier to pack it to go & she's a bit surprised cause i'm usually the regular sitting in the corner and studying for hours on end,, but i tell her i just need something to sweeten up my day in case my first day at work turns out worse than expected !! she gets all excited and we laugh a bit and rin's a bit on the rush, but he doesn't mind, and it feels a bit funny to him, but he doesn't pay that much mind to it. but just when i'm about to walk away &wait at the end of the bar he turns to me& tells me good luck :( you already know i nearly trip over my feet when i go to walk away akjsfhask by this point i am a mess!!!!!!

now when we PROPERLY meet each other it's barely a few hours later, at the training centre, and i step out of the office after signing all the remaining documents i need to go through w/ my internship. i don't really know my way around the building that well yet &take a few wrong turns, so when i can't find my way out to the field where i'm supposed to meet the team for the very first time, i go to ask a guy that happens to walk past. and of course it's him :,3 i only ever notice when he turns to me & we're both surprised - he has every right to be, me not so much cause ... i knew where i was signing up lol - and he tells me he's going that way too, has some dumb meeting with their health team, so we can walk together. "why'd you think it's dumb?" i ask and he shrugs a bit. "it's not like we really need it. what, you one of them?" rin looks down on me and it just sorta clicks - the first day at work, now me looking for where the meeting takes place - and he smiles a bit. "i see. well there's nothing to be scared of. ryusei, maybe." he deadpans & i nearly cry 😭 cause WHY would u bring up the one (1) most unhinged man among all of u akjfdhsl and then he adds, "he wasn't too happy when i told him you took his croissant."

........tldr; we meet bc of work but it's sweet & perhaps fate played a part in it too :3 he's not too keen of having a psychologist gf cause he's scared i'll end up analyzing him LOL i'm just like.. no babes i've a whole football team 2 look after whenever something goes wrong my world doesn't spin around u . (it's a lie. it does. we're obsessed w each other) KJASHDK COCO I HOPE I GAVE ALL THE DEETS ....... i'm feeling a lil silly 4 how long this turned out but welp :,3 i love love looooove our lore &love talkin abt it even more !!! MWAH

[boxwinebaddie]

can we have an uncle nina mental health update? :)

yes, of course, my love, my light! you are sooooo STINKIN' cute for sending this, oh my god! seriously, i know it's lame of me, but the fact that as a silly little person on the internet and in this large vast universe ( me, not you, you are an angel not of this earth, darling ) care enough about me to check on me <333 *soft, glistening eyes emoji* if you were a chapstick in the pcu, you would probably be birthday cake ( because you are so, so, SO sweet and also i am so happy you are alive, thank you for being born ) or something equally as honey-ied and candied!~ mwah mwah mwah MWAAAAH!

but, my dearest, darlingest, nonnie, i am happy to report that i am doing...much, much better! :) <3

last week, i actually called a national holiday entitled "be nice to nina day" because i cried three times from stress and my roomates were very, very lovely to me, haha.

i cleaned my room! which is...actually a very, very big accomplishment as is being alive! so anyone whose room is clean or...if you are breathing and with us, you have done so much, have come so far, and i am very, very, VERY proud of you! i did a lot of chores -- currently i am reinventing my living space!

i am a thrift store fashion girly, so i bought this little clothing rack i just set up!!!! ( is it...perhaps...too personal that i am posting pictures of my room...tbh i think even posting on my tiktok with my face in it for five seconds in a story is probably not a good idea but!!!!! besties i am CUTE!!!! i think omg help crying hkdlash ) i feel like my taste in clothing and decorating tells u everything u need to know about me also say hi to my beautiful cat the pep mascot!!! gods angel!!! she has no braincells but my god her heart is huge and she is so so pretty and angel so we love her so much! my super best friend!

doing fun makeup! wearing zany crazy deranged girl things! been out thrifting and on roadtrip adventures! my friend and i are hanging out tomorrow and shes making me DINNER! beautiful legend! icon! masterchef! i am stoked!!!!!! nina touched grass! crazy!

i bought frozen costco salmon and made sashimi...which i had to have my roomate cut for me w/ his fancy sushi knife...i am...useless in fact and so scared of knives help...AND IT WAS SO GOOD! *giiiiiirrrrrllll dinnnnneeeer* currently having a glass of box wine! TRUE TO MY USER NAME I AM A BOXWINE BADDIE! BALLIN ON A BUDGET! UR EMBARRASSING AUNTIE! UNCLE! bleached my roots ( my hair is fried but listen im embarrassed would yall still love me if i had bangs IM DISGUSTED but my...ends...good luck charlie sahdlkhsa )

im going to try and answer some comments ( which...if they are extra zesty its the box wine help ) answer some of these ask memes at some point ( GUYS I LOVE THOSE LIKE IF U WANT A ONESHOT @ ME I AM HAVING A BLAST FKN PEP STAN AND KYLE ARE SO MISERABLE I WANT TO LAUUUUUGH HSKHDSL ) and.....hopefully write more of pep 13....

which....oh my god i love pep 13. i suffered thru all of 12 for 13. i love u 13 ( i also love 13 in house md...olivia wilde kiss me on my mouth challenge ) im so fkn excited to write it but U KNOW! HEALING ERA UNCLE NINA SO PLEASE GIVE ME SOME GRACE AND TIME...which u all have!!!!! seriously i held off on responding to comments bc they have been so sweet and kind i like actually cry every time ( gonna hold a be Mean to nina day bc u guys are too nice to me ) *happy tears emoji*

but....tldr: yes i am doing much better, taking care of myself, fixing my envrionemnt, relationships, my life as a whole...and finding in this peace that i am...getting excited to write again.

sorry i know none of this was terribly relevant, i just wanted to vent and if you are curious about me! maybe this is funny for you, haha! but i love you very much, i hope you are doing well too, darling!

i'd say i hope i heal...but i think i'm going to be just fine soon.

-uncle nina in her healing era <333333

[arowrath]

i think the question "what does fix the problem" is a really long and complicated one but i had a lot of thoughts i wanted to try and like ... sooooort of organize??

i think the biggest thing is feeling the emotions, not shaming them, thanking them, letting them know you've got it now, letting them pass, moving onto the next moment even when it sucks still. i think that all sounds kind of dumb and stupid phrased like that sldkfj but. learning to let the feelings exist without trying to fix them has taken away some of their power, in my experience!!

part of the Then Vs Now thing is sitting down and going okay. what am i feeling?? what parts of it are from Then?? what happened Then and how did i feel about it Then?? how is Now different?? can i thank the Then feelings for trying to keep me from experiencing Then again?? can i tell them i have a handle on it Now?? can i tell them i'm proud of them and that i know Then was hard and that i love them and that we did it and we're here and Now is also hard but we can do it??

and then another part is going okay. what am i feeling Now?? in the short-term, how can i use those coping mechanisms if i feel like i absolutely cannot short-term stay experiencing the Now emotions?? but when am i ready to sit down and give myself grace for the Now emotions??

i think sometimes it is like. at least for me there is So Much Shame. around feeling sad and guilty and so so scared about both Then things and Now things. and so letting myself feel the sad and guilty and so so scared and sort of imagining holding them and going "yeah that is sad, that is scary, of course i'm ashamed these things happened!!" sometimes helps the most. because i cry or i panic for ages and then i get through to the other side and idk, i come out of it and i feel a little better and more like i'm a person who can survive Now. and Then. and who will with every time get a little bit better at saying "thank you" and "i love you" to myself about those emotions :0

i think the tldr is that it doesn't ever get fixed or solved but you get a lot better at learning how to sit with it and how to center joy and love alongside it maybe?? this doesn't help with therapy and also i don't know all the things and this is SO LONG !! but wishing u the best of luck no matter what u talk about and u have got this <333 - that one frozen anon guy

thank u frozen guy :(<333

[versadies]

hi dan!!

hope you're doing well. i got added to the evermore taglist some time ago but i've been following the series for a while now. i honestly need to get better at reblogging/commenting on my fave creators works. . .but i wanted to share some of my thoughts on evermore! usually anything that involves exes and past feelings and a heck-ton-of-angst is not my thing. . .but after my sibling introduced me to your series, i got really invested. we would discuss theories and speculate abt what caused ayato to break up w yn. actually no. we'd just trash talk him (LOL)!! i enjoyed (and continue to enjoy) the slice-of-life kinda parts in evermore, esp. when y/n tours around the city and gets to enjoy the mondstat scenery. it was comforting to read and your writing gives off this very pleasant vibe similar to a handwritten letter.

the evermore plot twist shocked me a lot! jean being diluc's fiancé was smth i expected (bc there is no such thing as a smooth road for y/n and relationships @-@) yet didn't. but. . .i also didn't want y/n to end up diluc or even ayato after reconciling w him. y/n has to find happiness alone first. which sounds contradictory,,but it seems like bad news to find a new love at your ex's wedding XD (???). diluc also gave me sm mixed signals, but he clearly does like y/n. this is all opinion soooooo hopefully i don't get thrown into the dadaupa gorge!!

i hope u continue writing and don't get discouraged by the mixed reactions to the plot twist and anything else u might have in mind for evermore and other works!! it's ur story and ur story alone so only u can tell it!! it's incredibly brave to share anything u write w the world. u interact w us a lot and provide such a good content!! we'll (your pen pals) will be waiting patiently for any updates and will be grateful for anything u post, me included.

thank u dan !

TLDR: i'll support evermore til the end. <3

im at a loss for words 🥹🥹🥹 i gotta thank your sibling for recommending you evermore, they got good taste /hj 🤪🤪🤪 i love how its universal for readers of evermore to trash talk ayato (/j) — im glad you enjoy the slice of life parts of this series; ngl i think youre the first person to mention about that unless my memory’s cranking 🧍‍♀️🧍‍♀️🧍‍♀️ im also flattered and happy that you think my writing is somewhat like a handwritten letter — esp since my blog theme is letters :DDD

you’re very right ab how there is no such thing as y/n and smooth relationships, they fr need a break ✋😭😭😭 youre also right about them finding happiness alone !! that’s exactly why i decided to make diluc taken (+ wouldnt it be weird to instantly have them together after a 1 week trip???) — as for your mixed signals about diluc,,, who knows,,, maybe there’s a reason for everything 🤫🤫🤫

dw comrade, ill still continue writing and keeping all of my ideas for evermore :>> your kind words def made me more motivated to write and it made me so happy to see your supportive words and your support 💖💖💖 ill continue to try my best with evermore and future fics, ty again comrade <333

[metfell]

met!! hello!!! for starters it's still so cool were mutuals. it's wild to me when an artist I like follows me because I'm like woah!! that's them!! *pointing at a big light up sign style* but genuinely you are so cool and your art is a huge inspiration for me. Your character designs are something I always go back too. I absolutely love the way you color (with markers??) some times I'll just look at a piece for a long period of time bc I genuinely get entranced 😭?? but yeah!! also you have some of the coolest idea my god!!! all of your enderman headcanons and ideas just make me vibrate fr fr speaking of minecraft!! I also love seeing your builds!! like the knifetrick one and the ones on your survival worlds. it always gets me in the minecraft mood :D I love just seeing how much you care about your friends it's something very admirable and always makes me feel so happy!!! you're a very neat person and I hope people tell you that tons because you deserve it <3 thank you for being such a wonderful energy to be around

HI IVE BEEN SO BUSY I CAN FINALLY SIT DOWN AND ANSWER THIS <333

firstly THANK YOU OMG its so strange that ppl will tell me im like this cool popular person hehe im just a little guy ^_^

secondly YESSSS ive been like trying to work on character design and how i color for years just by myself with a lot of tutorials. whats funny is i had a friend a few years ago literally in character design courses who would come and rely on me for help because he said i just Understood How It Works. which is cool lol i am NOT trying to brag but it does make me feel good every time someone says my designs just Feel Correct lol!!

thirdly OMG YES I LOVE BUILDING SOOOOO MUCH i didnt think i was that good at it a few years ago but i kept watching people like fwip and grian and really tried to mimic how they build things and analyzed why they did it and why it worked, and now id say im pretty good :3 i need to fucking terraform holly's and my base soon bc its gonna look SAURRR GORGEOUS

and then finally thats so sweet to hear <33 i really love everyone in this friend group they've been with me through thick and thin, and i think even if we drift apart one day its not gonna be out of malice itll just be because we're all doing amazing things, and i would love to see all my friends happy and successful :) i really do love them all though thunder cam and asriel are all incredible artists holly is an amazing writer and literally like a brother to me thes literally owns c!quackity like FOR REALLLL the way pup writes casino is fucking insane its like perfect.

tldr thank u so much this is so sweet to get ive been waiting to reply to this just so i can say how grateful i am that u think so highly of me <3

[spacecowboysfrommars]

FAM WHEN I SAY I'M SCREAMING I-

I-

no actually no I'm whispering whatthefuckwhatthefuckwhatthefuckw

my BOYS

TOGETHER

MY BOYS

Congrats I'm returning to tumblr (once again shh) for the sole purpose of SHRIEKING AT YOU ABOUT THAT LAST CHAPTER OF TWWW

Oh my GOD.

SPOILERS IF ANYBODY HASN'T READ IT YET (though like fr what are you doing if you haven't? fake fans) ANYWAY

Tony opening up to Nat?? Nat understanding and bringing up her sister???? NAT FIGURING OUT HOW TO FIND PETER (which like GOD they're all so stupid but like wow what a solution hiding in plain sight wtf). Tony not waiting even a second for backup he's just like FUCK this I'm finding my kid?? Osb*rn's little drama??? PETER STANDING UP TO HIM??? FOR TONY??????? my child BETTER take that as a healing experience and not feel guilty for removing such an evil waste of space from the surface of the earth. man dESERVES to rot in hell thanks bb. The part where Peter ends up like hugging Tony so hard and they're both collapsed on the ground and peter's trying to crawl closer into tony's chest (which you KNOW is my favorite shit like that's my shit right there)????

FAMMM!!!!!!!!!

T-TTTTTTT

(spoilers over)

the ONLY lil note i'd mention is like, you say "shaking like a tree in a hurricane" kinda a lot, and it's such a kickass line that maybe u should save it for only the most kickass moments. but otherwise this is a fucking masterpiece

I can't wait for the epilogue <3 <3 <3 I despise you <33333

(in the lowest of keys, any chance you've already written it and would send it to me privately early? in addition to kicking myself off tumblr I'm probably gonna kick myself off ao3 starting tomorrow :( just because I have truly zero self-control and therefore cannot be trusted with nice things while also having Responsibilities. i'd just...be so sad if I couldn't read the epilogue :( and I'd also be a lil bummed if i had to break my "no ao3" in order to read said epilogue because then i'd probably be like, "well, next month I guess :D" which is NOT a good idea lmaoo. no pressure if you can't or haven't written it yet or don't want to tho)

right so tldr I cannot STAND you and I value and adore you so much. You cannot be trusted with my heart, and yet you hold it in one hand and in the other you've got thro's motherfucking hammer full of your words and you're holding it with a DEMONIC amount of glee

UGHHHHHHHhhhhhhhHHH <3

HZHSIWJWBDJWISHSBD

LOVE YOU

ok so I would absolutely be okay with privately sending you the epilogue, but my private messages on Tumblr aren’t working whatsoever, and I’m unable to see messages or send anything) I’ve emailed the support team but never got a response) so if there’s any other way I can work out sending it to you, that would be great (maybe in your AMA?)

P.S so happy that you’re prioritizing your mental health at the moment (even if I miss ur regular blog updates terribly) because Responsibilities are important. Take all the time you need <333

[choerrypuffs]

i have been doing okies thank u so much for asking <333 how are u, hows life going for u? :3

but expanding on what u said, jaes characterization in electric bugaloo is definitely one of the best ive seen (esp for a free fic on tumblr) !! there is so much depth to his character, from the way he thinks and the innate care he still has for his sister, but at the same time hes unwilling to let go of his evil (what he deems “good”) deeds but at the end u can truly see that hes not heartless and is truly just a human but yet !! it makes u wonder how hes used that + the charmspeak to manipulate others and use their sympathy. so yes like u said, a villian is much more dangerous when u start to sympathize with them 😭 tldr; jaehyun evil but also not really but like very evil actually

also yes renjun is such a tsundere even to his members 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫 but i loved how u charaterized him to consistently think “im in love w yn im in love w yn omg hug kiss mwah yn” and then be completely stoic on the outside. i was a bit frustrated at first bc i was like “just kiss her !!” but ykw thats just him and ill have to deal with it 🤞😔 #touchygfproblems

i hope u have a wonderful weekend lovely <333 also im sorry if im basically blabbering in ur inbox about ur fic and i totally dont mind talking about something else i just really really like the way u write lmao (/ω＼) and i rarely get to talk about tumblr fics so in depth (with the author too !!) so this is (⁎⁍̴̛ᴗ⁍̴̛⁎) very nice

- morknon

ahhhh i’m so sorry for this late response, my love!! i’ve been doing great 🤩🤩🤩 my birthday was on the 26th so my friends and i went to an anime convention and just had a fun girls trip for the weekend 🥰 i’ve also downloaded the sims 4 bc it was on sale for $5 and now all i’m doing is downloading mods and playing dress up DJSJJS 🤧 how have you been, lovely?

omg pls thank you so much i’m so honored that you think so highly of my characterization of jaehyun you are too nice 🥺 i really did try to cram in as many layers as possible in the fic like a smushed onion or something 😭 bc i didn’t really give him any development in jeno’s fic which i regret </3 but you’re so right!! my goal was to humanize him bc i think it’s much scarier for the characters and the audience when the villain seemingly still has sound of mind y’know? and i wanted to people to think about what they would do if they were put in y/n’s position (obviously bc y/n is a self-insert but you know what i mean HDJSJS 😭) ! it’s also been super fun to see everyone’s reactions bc a lot of people feel sorry for jaehyun and even forgive him despite what he did, in fact, the scenes with jaehyun are actually the most talked about (from what i’ve seen in reblogs and asks) even more so than the romance 😳 it makes me really proud that so many people empathize with him bc that means i did my job properly :’))))

YESSS renjun’s characterization is my fav to write!! i just love a tsundere whose love language is acts of service 🥹🫶 if anyone has seen the anime “my sweet tyrant” renjun is literally akkun like pls 😩 OMFG I KNOW THE FEELING I’M SUPER TOUCHY AND CLINGY TOO 💔💔💔

please don’t apologize, my love!! i should be thanking you for taking the time to talk to me about my fic 💞💞💞 it’s every writer’s dream to engage with their readers about what they liked or didn’t like about their fics so i’m really happy you enjoyed the fic enough to write such kind feedback <3333333 thank you so so so much again 💖💓💘💝💟💕

[miaxeu]

MIA STOEGER AND DIWA ESTANISLAO ( @diwaeu​​ ) LEAVE EONIA UNIVERSITY EFFECTIVE IMMEDIATELY

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when a car accident back in west hollywood leaves her mother in critical condition, mia decides to put an early end to her first year in eonia and returns to california. her friends are informed of her leave in advance, and she breaks up with her boyfriend, knowing a long distance relationship between them would only do more harm than good.

i know you would wait for me if i asked you to, iker. we might even try our luck against both time and distance, but i know you too well, and i wouldn't dare do you the disservice of subpar love. please believe that i would do anything to see you happy and so i do the only thing i can — i release you.

her time spent in the university has taught her to take extra caution and to exercise maturity when dealing with matters concerning her own safety. although it’s far from a complete turn, she has taken strides in making peace with her identity and the tradeoffs it involves. due to the risks, mia stoeger officially gives up acting for the foreseeable future.

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with the increased political tension regarding territorial disputes, the looming collapse of marine life in the west philippine sea is more imminent than ever. over 40,000 acres of reefs have already been destroyed due to china’s artificial island-building, dredging, and clam harvesting, and fish stocks have also declined by up to 75 percent over the last 20 years.

urged by her friends involved in environmental activism, diwa decides to move back home. she realizes the current situation in her country is in need of more direct action than a degree in law that sets her thousands of miles away. she leaves ( in tears ) filled with promises to keep in touch and to always have a place for any eonian in the philippines should they ever come visit.

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ooc note :

if the last line in the ikea bit sounds familiar, no it doesn't 😌 ( jk it's carol bc the xmas vibes still linger. ) oh and see here for the article that supports the numbers prompting diwa’s yeeting bc it is, unforch, indeed a truth

anyway, thnks fr th mmrs, friends ! it's truly been a blast, but im afraid rl has been urging me out for a hot minute now, so off i go. i apologize to any plot / dynamic this’ll unintentionally affect, but pls know ive cherished every bit of my stay & i take no pleasure in the disruption this may cause. i wrote these lil tldrs to make sense of how my characters wld leave in a way that does them justice, but it's totally up to u if ud like to follow em ! id just hate to throw off any muse or their chara development with my leaving, so here are some tidbits that cld hopefully help if that were to be the case

i rlly enjoyed and adored writing these two, and i know it's only been possible bc i wrote them in this fantastic group with all of you. special thanks to the admins and thank you all for cultivating an environment that allowed them to thrive & i am wishing u n ur muses ( whom i luv v v much ) nothing but the best ! don't forget to drink em agua, babes katya out <333 v extra dramatic exit as per my dio kid’s request

[hongism]

i am but an empty shell after reading that chapter. you continue to blow me away with every update like it jUST KEEPS GETTING BETTER FUCK DUDE I CANT

but i didn’t realize how much i missed moc san until the flashback and the daydreams :((( like san come home please :((((((( on god if anything happens to him i’ll personally come and kick you in the shins <3

but anyway. this chapter was so beautifully written and i was fully immersed the whole time and really didn’t want it to end. when i reached the authors note i physically reacted bc i just wanted to keep reading 😫😫

the way you’ve set up this whole universe makes it seem so real and it’s just cjsjajsGOD i can’t believe this is an ateez fanfic because it SO well written and planned out. like ive literally read published novels that are nothing compared to moc gOD I LOVE IT SO MUCH like i truly can’t express the love and attachment that i have for this story/universe. i could literally scream from a rooftop about how good this fic is like it’s just bubbling inside me and i just fksjdjajndsh god ok i’ll stop.

tldr; great chapter. 1000000/10. left me feeling empty inside but in a good way :))) love u <3

comecome let me be an empty shell with u okie it KEEPS GETTING BETTER THO!?! thank u that is SO TOUCHING i appreciate it and im GLAD it keeps getting better AAAAAAAAAAAA T-T

i don’t think i realized how much i missed moc san until it came to writing those scenes either like damn it hit i miss him a lot and im ready to bring him back pls no shin kicks i promise u’ll enjoy what i have planned hehe oki

im so <333 pls you’ve got my heart oifjsiodjfosid scrambled im so glad you enjoyed the chapter and thought it was beautifully written that is !!! always the highest compliment i could ever receive and im always so beyond grateful every time u guys flatter me ;-; and i just ofijaoisdjfosf cannot express how much it MEANS TO ME i feel truly lucky and blessed to have been able to create this for you guys and share it with you guys i’ll never stop thanking you guys aoisjdfoijdf lORD im gonna just BRRRRRRRR all the way to the next chapter ;;;----;;;;; i LOVE U !!!!

[sohyuki]

kith for u too mint <333 !!! (/p)

AND YES OMG it's been AGESSS and im so happy ur online aHHH :DDDD

ALSO. YOUR LATEST FIC. can we Please talk abt it bc it deserves all the attention in the world and a million reblogs and likes and comments and just yes it is perfect and i will literally give a more detailed explanation on why i love it tmrw (its late and my brain is tired now HWJJDJA)

DOUBLE ALSO i just noticed that your header pic in your mobile theme is LITERALLY KAWORU AND SHINJI ⁉️ if it's not just ignore this but omfg what are your thoughts on evangelion ??? im so happy i finally know someone else who's watched it 😭

wait wait this ask is getting SO long but i have like a million things to tell u oml and we need to start talking more again so so sooooo i will most definitely dm u on discord tmrw when i can (if thats okay w you HWJJDKAJD)

tldr; i missed u tons & i love u mWAHHHH <3 a billion hugs for you hehe >:)

OMG OKAY QUILL I'VE BEEN WAITING THE ENTIRE DAY TO ANSWER THIS >:((( BUT WORK + I WANTED TO SIT DOWN AND WRITE MY REPLY PROPERLY SO HERE I AM NOW !!

JFHKJADHD :(((( thank you so, so much for liking my latest drabble *cries, sobs into pillow* your tags were so lovely i've read them like a dozen times now /srs and please don't worry about a detailed explanation (though that would literally give me a heart attack /pos) what you've said so far is just AAAA thank youuu :(( ilu

I'M GONNA PUT THE EVANGELION STUFF UNDER THE CUT

okay EVANGELION.

first off, YES MY HEADER IS SHINJI AND KAWORU!! i have a lot of Thoughts about evangelion but also nothing at the same time because sometimes i was like "what the fuck is going on, am i dumb or am i dumb" and sometimes i was like "i am god. i am a genius. my brain is working at 1000% i can see every equation." IT WAS A RIDE.

i honestly didn't understand episode 25 and 26 AT ALL. i had to search up an explanation for it because i was so confused and i did read that you would be confused with these eps specifically. and then i watched end of evangelion and it made a little more sense? it still goes over my head (because im dumb af) but i enjoyed evangelion a lot tbh!! also, the 90s anime retro aesthetic is like my soul so i was having a blast.

I ALSO THINK THAT ITS SO STINKY THAT THEY MADE KAWORU, THE PERFECT BOY, SHINJI'S BISEXUAL AWAKENING, AND THEN just,,,,killed him in the same episode. like that's insane. why would you do that. i wasn't attached to kaworu in his episode but it was like the side effects ?????? like it only hit me after he died that i liked him as a character sm (or this could just be the shinji kinnie in me screaming) >:( absolutely insane that they killed him

i liked misato and ritsuko a lot too!! i liked that evangelion didn't filter their creative vision. like they didn't shy away from a lot of mature themes and i enjoy shows that do that. i like it when they expose every facet of the characters, which is something you don't get a lot nowadays (the same goes for writing tbh) because everything is so rigid (imo) and that was also why i knew this was one of the reasons evangelion is a classic.

JADJSDJAHD OKAY THAT WAS LONGER THAN I EXPECTED. but yes!! omg if you are free, i would love to talk more on discord!! that is completely okay with me!! i didn't want to disturb you which is why i haven't messaged you in a while but i hope you're taking care of yourself >:(

tdlr; evangelion was a ride and i love you and miss you and mwah!! <333

[authenticaussie]

I usually always love your fics and ficlets, but holy, when I read the "a jealous kiss" I wanted to slap Ace so badly, even though Marco was the one who "cheated" because what happened was really not deserving of a simple kiss. I might have missed something, but yeah. Anyway, keep up the amazing work!

Just to be safe slap all of them.

(Trust me they totally deserve it).

and Never Be is…..complicated. It has a lot more plot than the simple drabble I posted haha, but it was an experiment in biased narration so you don’t find out a lot of reasoning behind Marco+Ace’s actions (and what they talked about when Ace stormed off) until ages later. It’s just.  A huge throw together of miscommunication and dumbasses being Dumb and nOT TALKING TO EACH OTHER (protip guys, your significant other(s) will appreciate you discussing things with them instead of suppressing your feelings and then making a really big mistake) and it’s totally okay for you to side with one character over another bc that was the point!! ;u;

tldr never be is a weird exploration/experiment in morality and grey situations where technically no-one is in the right and Ace and Marco are Assholes. 

I’m glad you thought it was good though!!! thank you so much ;u;

[hongism]

I keep forgetting you’ve planned MOC to be so long that we have so much damn time to explore all aspects of the crew’s dynamics and watch the relationships (platonic/romantic/etc) naturally blossom. And it’s just very exciting especially with the way you keep teasing us with what’s coming and how this next chapter will def be lit as hell. I love how none of the crew is perfect or completely one-sided, so tldr they’re morally gray and all got their own issues, just ugh the dynamics! Also I saw something mentioning scary homework on your end so good luck with that 🥺! Also Happy Pride Month, time to be extra bi teehee I ordered these cute earrings that are ✨subtle✨ so I can be sneaky bi and also officially get my ears pierced !! I’ll make sure to send a pic when they come in if you’d like to see them hehe. Overall I hope you’re surviving summer classes and that you’re getting enough Joongie in your life. PS Who wouldn’t want to be Wooyoung’s trophy wife 😫😫😫

honestly i forget sometimes too bestie don't worry you're not alone 😔 we truly do have SO MUCH TIME ! to explore all the relationships and develop them and honestly i have to THANK U GUYS SO MUCH for being patient bc im sure it gets frustrating to have to deal with such a long story but you all are !! so patient and gentle and kind and im so thankful that u guys are so kind to me <333 but INDEED i think my most favorite part about writing mists is writing these morally grey and ambiguous character who don't have these definitive and clear moral compasses !

and hAPPY PRIDE MONTH 😚 be extra bi and PROUD 😤 and getting your ears pierced too HELLO YES !! pls do send pics earrings are one of my most favorite things on earth i ADORE jewellry so much <3 i am surviving summer classes ! i dont wanna jinx it but it's not ! bad ! so far ! you know i can never have enough joong in my life, i think he knows it too tbh he plays too much 🧐 but listen i am a proud independent woman who can and WILL work for herself buttttt being a trophy wife for a bit wouldn't HURT