#to keep going. to not doubt myself“

[captainaudax]

the way pietreczko always looks at his gf for encouragement is kinda cute i shan’t lie

[zo1nkss]

So you know how this season has had a lot of mirroring plots from season one and characters that are like mirror images of each other in how they act/handle situations/what they're going through?

Well I realized something. Charlie and Chris have grown a level of trust with each other atp. And I was thinking about Chris sneaking around after Pete passed out, and trying to keep an emotional distance between them because he doesn't intend to catch feelings, and kind of acting shady but also baring his intentions to Pete willingly and without hesitation. And so far mostly we've been considering that he's got nefarious intentions, or at least that he's not who he says he is.

But like. What if it's neither of those things. What if he is who he says he is, and his intentions are not nefarious - if a little secretive?

What if Chris is a mirror reflection of Charlie in s1?

[lazzarella]

Also, kind of odd, maybe, but one of my favourite things this ep was the way Fadel gave Style most of the water and food and gave it to him fairly easily (if not gently lol), while Bison used the food and water to taunt Kant? I guess because it's a nice illustration of their mindsets and their characters at this point and I love little moments like that (I've really enjoyed all the ways we see how differently Bison and Kant react to the same situations)

But I loved it even more once Bison is the first to break down and believe Kant vs Fadel who very obviously wants to believe Style but is still trying not to, or something. Anyway, it just felt like a nice contrast to me, and I don't know how to elaborate on why, but it stuck out to me and I wanted to mention it, I guess

[ur-ghostgirl]

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[kyouka-supremacy]

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[stjernec]

This Sebagni fanfiction in my brain is going so crazy. If only you guys could read my thoughts and I didn't have to put it down on paper.

[saedyne]

gooooooooood morning everyone!!

they announced what.

[faunandfloraas]

Seungmin saying they changed song by so it would be easier for people to watch and listen and then me seeing people going "Yes! It's good it's on tiktok and shorts now" and I'm like. Oh. You're all so fucking stupid <3

[pinkseas]

god. being told "yeah i like being your friend :) i love talking to you i like it when youre around yeah you can join us yeah we want you here yeah we care about you" by people who very clearly very blatantly do not gaf about you will srsly fuck a girl up for Years 😭😭😭

[pleasedontcareaboutme]

It's missing my father hours rn so imma just dump a bunch of pictures here and cry

( sorry i don't know the source of anything I just had them on my phone)

(also dont read the tags i just need to let it out lol)

[1singulargrape]

I'm going to start tweaking if I don't get this out of me

[shrips]

isabella, lucia, antonia, ysabel

even though lucia is sort of the central character and she doesn’t interact that often w characters like isabella or ysabel, each of them has a pretty important dynamic with andrea that shapes the narrative around her. so a bit on each of those relationships

ISABELLA

isabella is betrothed to andrea when she is eight years old. the five year age gap between them makes it easy for him to treat her as uneducated and annoying. though he does mellow out somewhat as he grows older, andrea never quite lets go of this dismissiveness towards her (and all women. lol). isabella is at an age when she is beginning to entertain ideas about love and romance for herself, and recognizing that she will never win over andrea, seeks out attention from others.

lucia’s penchant for gossip is what eventually spells disaster for isabella. she parrots a rumor that she’s taken one of her peers as a lover, which andrea is predictably slighted by. he and a friend pursue and brutally assault isabella’s companion (still a teenager), killing him. he says nothing of this to isabella or lucia, though both have their suspicions.

isabella is devastated at the loss of her companion. when andrea seems to show little sympathy for her loss, she dares to suggest that he was involved in the death, which he refuses to engage with. grieving and distraught at the idea of spending the rest of her life at andrea’s side, she kills herself at the age of sixteen.

LUCIA

lucia unwittingly catches andrea’s attention when he is teetering on the edge of puberty, but it isn’t until several years later when he’s sixteen that he finds the conviction and an opportune time to proposition her. she’s four years his senior, but his status is significantly elevated over her own.

it is pretty cut and dry that he rapes her but neither of them recognize that. at most, lucia is aware she’s being coerced, but she plays the game, says what he wants to hear, and hopes that he’ll leave her alone afterwards. he does not, and continues to pursue her, but in a manner she thinks of as sort of gentlemanly (despite that fact that he assaulted her). against her better judgement she does not raise the issue to her mistress. she finds him at times inconvenient, not particularly attractive, and temperamental, but overall tolerable and sometimes even charming. most importantly, he seems to be sincere in his affections for lucia. her standards are low.

she entertains him for around a year before she is absent for a five year gap following antonia’s marriage.

his etiquette is polished during lucia’s time away, and when she returns and he seeks to engage her again in a relationship, she is more easily won over by his adult behavior. following isabella’s death and antonia’s grief, she chooses to leave the household and join andrea in hopes of escaping the constant gloom. while initially thrilled with her status, ysabel’s arrival irritates her immensely. she works tirelessly to keep andrea’s attentions on her and away from his wife, whom she finds beautiful and docile and is extremely threatened by. she succeeds, but with increased attention comes scrutiny, and andrea becomes more and more critical of her with time as he is made aware of her “flaws.”

whatever modicum of independence she had serving antonia she loses in andrea’s household, though it takes time for her to realize this. as his grip tightens with time, she goes from flattered by his obsession and entertaining the idea of loving him to downright restless and fearful of him.

ANTONIA

antonia is a year older than andrea, and though their interactions are infrequent, she dislikes him from the jump. she finds his callousness towards her sister infuriating and resents him for the relationship he eventually begins to develop with her father. andrea, always quick to pick up on a slight, recognizes this and their relationship becomes one of subtle jabs and backhanded comments to set the other off.

neither of them have the self-awareness to recognize how remarkably similar their personalities are. even lucia interprets their behavior differently due to their respective sexes.

after isabella’s suicide, antonia retreats into her apartments and lives like a recluse, allowing little company besides that of her maids. she is miserable and volatile, and lucia finds herself walking on eggshells around her. the comparative levity of andrea’s household prompts lucia to disappear overnight, to antonia’s distress.

YSABEL

ysabel is betrothed to andrea following isabella’s death. with her father a part of the newly established spanish rule, she is a shy girl in a foreign country with few companions and a weak grasp on the local language. she’s seventeen at the time; andrea, twenty-three. compared to the long betrothal period of andrea and isabella, he and ysabel are wed briskly within the year.

despite her reserved personality, ysabel is optimistic about the marriage. andrea is brief but polite, educated, and (she thinks) handsome. he gives her respectful distance after their wedding, which she thinks is to allow her to acclimate to his household. eventually, being a horny and repressed teenager, she begins trying to subtly indicate to her husband that she’d like his attention, but her signals go unnoticed or ignored until she begins to suspect that he’s not interested in women at all.

at this point, andrea has already taken lucia as his mistress, and he conceals her from ysabel as long as he can manage. the eventual revelation is devastating to ysabel, but seemingly explains his disinterest in her. she grows to loathe lucia and blame her for andrea’s lack of affection, whilst lucia similarly resents ysabel for having been given the privileged status of “wife.” when ysabel eventually becomes pregnant, she hopes that it will inspire some loyalty in her husband; she is carrying his family legacy. alas, it is not the case. while he is generally gentler towards her during her pregnancy, he still leaves her wanting for attention and intimacy. she has andrea’s first child, a daughter, a little over a year into their marriage, followed by two sons in the two years following.

unlike lucia, ysabel grows emboldened with time. though her disobedience is subtle, she begins slowly and quietly trying to wrest a degree of freedom from andrea’s hands

[darkwood-sleddog]

uuuuh....first non rainy weekend in 12 weeks and i should be happy but the air quality is so bad and after my last time getting covid oh boy does my chest feel like its been through a cheese grater.

[twopoppies]

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[thatfriendlyanon]

can i PLEASE stop crying over EVERYTHING

[fluffydeoxys]

the urge to talk about OCs unfiltered superseded by various degrees of shame and the overwhelming internal voice of booooo be quiet (throws tomato)