#transformersintroject

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ON A MUCH BRIGHTER NOTE. heres my OTHER source. im using my signoff tag for all of them whenever they come up. hi. transformers jumpscare. i was able to talk a whole lot about This source to some friends lately and its been making me both long for home and yet come to peace with a lot of things.

BUT ive also been indulging. i dont usually care for our bodies appearance [shocker, i know!] but i mean... ive got nail polish now, and painting my nails a nice red [and sometimes blue, iykyk <3] does certainly bring me back. siiiighhhh... wishing i was skilled at makeup honestly. though i was never fond of humans, i gotta admit, they do have some pretty nice inventions.. we had something similar on cybertron i suppose, but that wasnt exactly my area.

usually, i mean. i do have some rather nice glow in the dark frame paint... it even comes in the most perfect shade of blue to match a certain someone! really it was quite the fascinating paint, it was completely transparent in the usual light, and yet glowed in the dark and under blacklights, too. honestly if you stepped a single foot into my medbay when the lights were low you could probably spot me from across the room thanks to the paint alone! ahhhh, i miss it. sometimes caring for my appearance is familiar and maybe a bit relaxing, if i think about it. maybe i should try harder again? hmm..

ah well! practice makes perfect now i guess.

-- knockout, transformers [partial introj] [#♦🧪]

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Hoohh okay okay ok, this got long and I'm super sorry for that. So! Um.

Hi D! D-16!! Or do you go by Megatron now? I mean, if you do then that's great, but um, I'm gonna call you D here, if that's fine. Wow, where do I even begin..

First. D, I'm... I want to say sorry. I'm sorry for being so reckless all the time. I dragged you into trouble more times than I can count, and I ruined.. a lot of things for us because of it. I want to say I was just excited and curious, but that doesn't really excuse it does it? I should've listened to you - you had my back, and I just never really seemed to realize it. I never had your back, did I? I'm so sorry I took your help for granted. You did so much for me, and I just sorta.. threw it back at you, I guess.

Second, I miss you. So badly. I know you probably aren't as... I guess "stuck" as I am? I don't know if that makes sense. As an introject, as myself, I'm still... just Orion. I don't actually really remember everything near the end, past trying to tell you to stop. I don't know if it's a side effect of, like, system/alter things, or maybe dying sorta messed with my memory, but REGARDLESS. You're probably not stuck like I am. You probably have long since moved on. And that's fine! But... I can't. I miss you, D. I miss you so much that sometimes it hurts, like a deep rooted pain in my spark. You were my best friend, my everything, my reason to keep learning. For me it was like one day you were there, and we were laughing and sharing our energon, and the next day you were gone, and I was alone. It's definitely weird not having you with me all the time. It's hard, too, sometimes.

Lastly, for what it's worth; I forgive you. I mean it. I know you didn't mean to shoot me, and I know you definitely meant to let me fall, but... I don't really blame you for any of that. I probably should, but it's kinda hard to. I forgive you, D. I forgave you the second it happened. I don't blame you, and I don't hate you, and I definitely don't just, never want to see you again; in fact, there's no one else I'd rather have by my side. And -- I know it's gonna be hard, but if you at all feel any guilt, ever at all one day... please don't. Don't blame yourself. Don't feel guilty. Not for this.

I don't know where you are now, D. I don't know if you're doing any better or worse than you were back then, but for your sake and my own peace of mind, I hope you're doing so much better. I miss you a lot. Take care out there for me, okay?

-- Your best friend and favorite troublemaker, Orion Pax. 💙

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