#tw angry actions

[quietwingsinthesky]

Dean is such a paradox for me because on the one hand, I have been actively triggered by him in the show, there are moments where, intentionally or not, the writers managed to create a portrayal of manipulation and abuse and control issues that it sets off actual alarms for me. And on the other hand, I would not have him any other way. There is something — not comforting, that’s too soft a word — about knowing where Dean’s actions stem from, having seen and learned all that we do about his childhood neglect and parentification and the trauma he goes through repeatedly in the show, and that he doesn’t come out clean. He comes out a goddamn mess who ends up hurting the people around him in reaction to his own pain!

There’s a reality there that’s. Almost nice, actually. Distressing to watch, but it is a fucking mess, it’s a good mess! He’s got zero healthy coping skills and a healthy relationship with say, his brother, is terrifying because it leaves him open to abandonment!

I’m not sure I’m wording this correctly. There is a way to be a good abuse victim. Take the pain, martyr yourself on it, and then, even if you have no support or idea how to, then you have to become a Good Person who never hurts anyone the way you have been learning to your entire life. Simply toss everything that shaped you out the door and emerge a saint with a tragic backstory. And Dean is not that. And that’s so fucking good. Everything that he has gone through continues to effect the way he treats the people around him, and he can’t fight the behaviors he might recognize as harmful because he also sees them as protecting him (or protecting Sam by keeping Sam with him.)

And sometimes, idk. It feels good to see a guy who didn’t heal the “right way.” Who mostly didn’t heal at all, just keeps the wound open because it’s easier that way.

[watermelinoe]

rape is just a thing that may happen during war. we're not saying it didn't happen. it may have occurred. rape is not uncommon in war. it's not a weapon of war, there's no proof it's a pattern of violence against women, it's just something that happens for some reason.

[punktkachuk]

i’m here to whine about tiktok again but the uwu babygirlification of a man who used to (allegedly) inhale the scent of rotting animals will never not be funny to me. and it’s always the 15 year olds

[ourmondobongo]

I'm sorry, but

Isym x Mappa portraying crystal clear suffering Levi:

Isym x Mappa portraying resigned Captain Levi helping to kill the kid who he wanted to save until 5 minutes ago:

[tinyfantasminha]

Okay I really didn't want to bring attention to this but I am BEYOND enraged.

Yes we are all aware about Ugi's tracing and awful takes and tbh I couldn't care less about this pathetic tracer, but I just got sent an anon submission on her personal info and address and I'm like?!?! What the fuck?!

I cannot stress enough about how doxxing and other kinds of harassment absolutely enrage and disgust me. I just cannot believe that some people would resort to literal CRIMINAL ACTIONS just to have a ''gotcha'' moment and feel their ego stroken for ''giving a problematic person what they deserve''. I've already blocked people solely because their takes and opinions on another person are disturbingly violent, even if the person they're talking about is somebody I hate as well.

It baffles me that some people (most of the time teenagers/young adults, worringly.) really do believe they have the moral ground when they're the ones showing violent, harassing, disturbing and sometimes criminal behaviour towards the person they claim is the problematic one. The lack of emotional intelligence in young people to deal with things that upset them on the internet nowadays is horrifying.

It doesn't matter how much you think a person ''deserves'' it, your disgusting fascist behaviour is NEVER justified. Doxxing isn't justified, harassment isn't justified, sending death threats is NOT, EVER, JUSTIFIED.

If you in any way condone these actions or has participated in it, get your miserable ass OUT. OF. MY BLOG. I don't want you here.

[softchonk]

Okay Ima need everyone to stop with all the negativity about the new htttyd movie. That cast list JUST came out and everyones pissed off. No, the movie isn't going to suck because you personally don't like the casting. Maybe at least wait tilll the fucking trailers out to lose all hope for a movie. Jesus.

[fleetstreetpies]

TW: mental health problems, psychosis, open and graphic discussion of my hallucinations and delusions, mental health meds, mental health med side effects, medical inaction, medical malpractice.

Content under the cut.

Good god it’s happening again. It’s getting REALLY bad again.

I’ve been on a mood stabiliser for about a year now, and I’ve been VERY open with my psychiatrist about a lot of the complications I’ve faced, like needing my dose increased, nausea and headaches from increasing my dosage, persistence of mania, night terrors, delusions, etc. And now the delusions and hallucinations are worse than they were. They’d gotten better for a while but now here I am and good gods, I want it to stop so badly.

I want to not see things and people melting slowly. I want to not perceive that people have been replaced by near identical clones. I want to not perceive that some people are just my mother in elaborate disguise. I’d make it all stop or go away if I could, and when I was a younger man I tried, though when I tried I fully thought that I was God and could control the universe with just my thoughts.

I’ve been trying to talk to my psychiatrist about it. I need to get my mood stabiliser increased, sure, and I know that. But I also desperately need to get on an antipsychotic. And I think she thinks I’m malingering.

Do people actually think that folks with these problems are faking this? Malingering is relatively rare, and by all means, infuriating for all parties. But do the professionals genuinely think that we’re malingering? Because I’d bet (if I had money and were a gambling man) that it’s way harder to fake than you’d think. People who do that whole malingering thing unequivocally baffle me. Antipsychotics are extremely expensive and I cannot believe people would genuinely be willing to buy them and fake it for sympathy. I can’t afford 880 dollars per refill no matter how hard I try because I can barely make rent in a month (at least I get my meds through the school pharmacy where they cost way less).

So what even is the point of some other person faking it? To sell their prescription drugs for a profit on a black market? To gain sympathy? To get some kind of disability benefits?

I just need for my psychiatrist to fucking listen to me for five seconds and to actually fucking help me for once in her goddamn life when all the other doctors or professionals in their white coats and clean blouses and blazers won’t. I need help because they all fucking refuse to help me and my psychiatrist is supposed to help me. They took a vow to “do no harm”, but that vow is useless when their own inaction or bias is the cause of the harm. It’s pointless and futile! Why take a vow when you don’t even listen to the people you swore to help?

Medical inaction is ableism. Medical inaction is malpractice. Medical inaction is to be complicit in the deaths of so many mentally ill people.

Doctors say “do no harm” but they leave the mentally ill to suffer and die because “what if they’re faking it?” That’s a poor excuse to deny people adequate (read: potentially life saving) treatment and healthcare.

Shame on the pharmaceutical industry, shame on doctors, shame on malingerers, and shame on everyone complicit in the ableism, incompetence, inaction, corruption, and denial that kill.

Shame on you.

[chaoticstateofaffairs]

Ok so I wanted to share something that happened yesterday...well, two things. I did try and commit suicide. I won't hide that. I did try and I did send out letters to the people I love and care for dearly.

I also went to the doctor. I saw a rheumatologist yesterday and there is a possibility I have lupus. She had 5 vials of blood drawn for a multitude of tests and also some urine, some results have already come back and they aren't good. It shows there is something attacking my body and that there is an inflammation issue.

I have fucked things up on so many levels and now I'm finding out I may be sick, so neither Cat nor I will be as active nor as talkative. We both have things we need to work on separately and together. We are still here for anyone who cares, we just need a good bit of time. ♥️

(We are still talking, it just may take a bit of time to reply. ♥️)

[oddishblossom]

Hey I have a question? How do you produce such high-quality gifs. It's so cool and I've been trying but it usually just doesn't come out well

Thanks! I’ve been making gifs for about 2 years, so I’m by no means a pro. Sometimes it feels like I’m just throwing things at the video until it looks the way I want it to look.

I didn’t use any guides, so it took a lot of trial and error to learn. Just to compare, here’s the first gif I ever made!

My advice for starting to get into gif-making is, you gotta really choose a media or character you love because the process is time consuming and it can be frustrating if it doesn't end up the way you wanted right away. Plus, you’re gonna stare at the same picture for like a loooong time. Over time, I’ve gotten a lot faster at making sets. Like that killua x start over gifset only took me an hour to make, but I barely edited that one. I normally spend a few days on each set.

I still don’t completely get photoshop, so I don’t feel like I can give a tutorial for it. But I do make a lot of gifs on my phone so here’s a more in depth look at that.

For starters, I always get video footage in 1080P. Either download or record the footage you want to turn into gifs. I’m gonna use Killua as an example. Here’s a picture of what the clip looks like before I’ve done anything.

I find that the shorter the clip, the easier it is to make it smooth and crisp. This clip is only 5 seconds long. I try to keep my clips 5 seconds or shorter. I can do longer clips, but then I’d have to shorten the frames used and the speed of the gif (frames per second), which I don’t like doing. Next, I crop it. You want to crop before you start editing.

After that, I can start recoloring. There’s a couple good apps I like using for this. VideoDay and InShot are pretty good, but they’re pay to use. The free one Apple provides in the photos app is good, too. I’ve got a different coloring style for most of my sets. But I mainly focus on making dark colors darker, making colors more saturated so they pop, and brightening the video. On VideoDay & Inshot you can find this setting under Filter. Then go to Adjust. This is what it looks like after boosting up the contrast, saturation, brightness, shadows, and definition. Mess around with different settings until you come up with something you like.

Now, I recolor it a second time with filters. Sometimes I use Inshot or VideoDay, but I mostly use the app ImgPlay. ImgPlay is what I’ll be using to actually turn this video into a gif. I use different filters depending on what colors I want to stand out. CL2 and HW3 are a couple favorites. For this set I use HW3. Then I added more contrast, saturation, and sharpened it as high as it could go.

Now that it looks pretty, time to make it move smoothly. Through a lot of trial and error, I’ve found that these settings work okay. I have it set to 90 frames for this clip. For frames, I usually try to keep it within 80-90 frames (or 30-80 if it’s a shorter clip). If I push it past that, like say 100 frames, it’ll start to look blurry once I condense it.

For speed, I either use .04 seconds or .05 seconds. For frames per second, I always go with 20 FPS at least. This will push up the frame count, so you’ll need to make the clip shorter. You can do that by using the slide bar or that little area with 9 squares in the top right corner.

Now it’s time to export! Just click on save and GIF size. Set the loop to infinity and size to 10 MB. Tumblr has a limit on GIF size, so it needs to be 10MB or under. You can also click on GIF dithering to make the colors blend a bit more.

And we’re done! Hope it wasn’t too confusing and that I explained myself clearly! There’s a lot more cool effects you can do once you get the hang of video editing. This is by no means a strict guide or anything! Heck, even I don’t follow this exactly and I try changing things around, seeing what works and what doesn’t. Gif-making can be super fun, so I hope you keep at it! 😊💖

[strangcmatters]

@lighthouseborn sent : [ horny ] ― how high is their sex drive? do they have a lot of sex or is it a more occasional thing? is sex, in general, important to them?

Her sex drive is high, but not unusually or unhealthily so. She’s pretty much always interested, and if she’s not it’s for easily discernible reasons – significant anniversaries, high pain days, early period days. She’s not particularly opposed later in her period, though she won’t seek sex out while still bleeding; she’s just in pain and feels gross for the first 2-3 days and wants to do nothing but eat her weight in chocolate under a heating pad. After that, if her partner is amenable, she won’t say no. She does have a few friends on retainer when she hits a dry spell or has any particular itches that need scratched, and meets up with a lesbian couple once a month to keep certain kinks satisfied. (Jack’s the best rigger she’s found in a long time, and Lainey’s flavor of dominance hits all the right buttons.) She’s more interested in friendly arrangements than one night stands, but if someone her type is interested in taking her home, she’s pretty much guaranteed to go along.

She has sex regularly, but not necessarily a lot; usually around once or twice a month, though she’d often prefer twice (or more) a week. Between the shop and her particularly submissive proclivities, though, she won’t suffer boring sex when she does find the time, and tends to frequent places she knows her interests will be served, like the dungeon where she meets with Jack and Lainey. Even if she found a partner willing to satisfy her appetite, she’d still frequent the dungeon – she learned the hard way that D/s and committed romantic relationships don’t work well together for her. As such, sex and romance aren’t necessarily tied for her, and she doesn’t care much about having one without the other, so long as all parties involved are good with it. If someone isn’t, she’ll respect it, but romantic relationships likely won’t survive the demand of sexual monogamy.

[catgender-sasuke]

@ the old bitch who fucking rapidly reversed her car into our passenger door, wedging my foot between the cracked open door and the frame of our car, nearly crushing my fucking ankle and foot and showed zero remorse: I hope you never know a single moment of peace and go straight to hell like you deserve, you wretched cunt <3 may you be left to rot in an old age home alone and suffering like you deserve <3

[saetoru]

i feel like if everyone stopped swarming into the inboxes of the troll plagiarizers they wouldn’t find as much entertainment in the whole thing

[yelenadelova]

i hate how so many people on the internet see a situation in which a younger woman is dating a much older man in a situation where grooming likely occurred and they choose to hate the woman in the situation??? like making fun of and blaming the girl for the situation isn’t the hot take you think it is?

[nosecondivelived]

mfs will have a cross in their profile picture and a bible verse in their bio and then bully a child

[voiceshearingyouloud]

My psychiatrist thinks that my PTSD kicking up is what fried my nervous system into giving me CFS again so that’s great, and makes me incredibly angry. On the drive home my dad out of nowhere said he thinks about how much shit I’ve been through and how tough I am or something and I wanted to ask him if he knows how many times I’ve nearly killed myself over his and my mum’s actions. But I didn’t, I just got home and then cried.

[javic-piotr-thane]

...look. i know the boss (Barry Beans, apparently) is supposed to represent all the ugliest things about capitalism journalism these days.

but that doesn't actually make listening to him better / more bearable, but worse.

knowing he represents a whole host of actually existing people who don't care when revolutionary tech that could save them is developed if it's developed and/or used by a demographic they personally find distasteful (here, gays and drug users (or gay drug users)).