#ugh. im soooooo not normal about any of them

[apricustar]

get to know your mutuals!

thank you to @ranbling for tagging me :)

favorite color: PINK!!! as a kid my favorite was VERY HOT pink, but nowadays i think i like softer shades a bit more...

currently reading: sigh i started the year SO well with close to 16 books read in january and then school started again and i dropped the ball.. i'm in the middle of quite a few right now actually though let's see i have lancelot by giles kristian, the boy who was raised as a dog and other stories from a child psychologist's notebook by bruce perry, blue sisters by coco mellors, the spear cuts through water by simon jimenez, and why be happy when you can be normal by jeanette winterson ALLLL waiting for me... for when i have the brain capacity to read again... i'll probably end up restarting each of these or starting something else entirely whenever that ends up being.. but anyway so currently nothing beyond my awful textbooks :(

last song: troublemaker by beach house (my favs!!!!)

most recent film: a complete unknown !!! i liked it quite a bit actually

most recent series: 911... not even a copout answer i'm rewatching it both with my mom (we're at s8e9 together) and on my own (i'm at s6e3) and honestly when i finish my individual rewatch i'll probably restart it again :o i'm not great with starting new things... i just rewatch.. and rewatch.. but i have really wanted to start the Pitt i keep seeing everyone talk about it so if you've watched it and recommend it lmk...

sweet/salty/savory/sour: UGH I can't pick! I'm a BIGGG snack person... and i love salty snacks... but a sweet treat?? i can't live without those!! and i love sour candy the most... so... all......

tea or coffee: definitely both! I drink coffee more often but tea is very soothing

currently working on: jesus i wish i could say something fun but really i'm trying to decide what of the million things on my to-do list i get to look forward to doing tomorrow... but in the fandom sense i am also battling the brain rot because i have several post ideas for this blog right and these typically come to me while im getting ready for bed (remember when i predicted buck going to confession? yeah that came to me while i was blow drying my hair and i had to turn the blow dryer off and cobble a few random sentences that barely made sense before the idea left me) so my notes app is a MESS !!! i need to sit down and flesh them out soooooo i suppose... in a more fun way... i'm working on: something i feel could happen with buck in s9, something to do with eddie's ptsd and his parenting of chris, and chris in texas (this is something that's more of a fic i've been working on since chris first left for texas so. there's a lot, but it's not really written it's more ideas? ideas that i think might be better written up the way i write up my ramblings on here over a fic idk??)...we'll see when any of these come together as of right now it's just stuff like 'eddiechris across the years,' 'sock moved back,' 'maddie hospital note,' 'face to face -> imp that it is done this way,' 'go home together' like girl please its 3am what are you on....

no pressure tags! <3 @buckleyanddiaz @malewife-cas @eddiedisasterdiaz @srue-on-fire

[lexalith]

I AGREE ON EVERYTHING.

my man thanos knew what he was doing when he was trying to kill mg (Siwan (smoking hot btw especially in that suit) did an incredible job with his performance i hated that piece of shit with my whole being every time he was on my screen) HOW DARE HE KILL MY QUEEN HYUN JU LIKE THAT SHE WOULDVE FYCKING WON, AND THE BABY??? WHAT KINDA MONSTER WOULD KILL THEIR ON BABY OR EVEN THREATEN TO EW

DAE HO COULDVE BEEN GREAT REPRESENTATION OF PTSD BUT NOOOO LETS JUST MAKE HIM A LIAR (which didnt even make any sense cuz how tf would he know that jung bae was in the marines and how tf would he even fake the tattoo) AND MAKING GI HUN KILL HIM WAS INSANE (s1&2 gihun could and would never) incredibly out of character especially since he couldn’t bring himself to kill player 100 later on so it made 0 sense for him to be after dae ho like that, they could’ve made my boy die with dignity possibly sacrificing himself in hide &seek in favor of gihun bc he knows that gihun wants to stop the games but noooo let’s just make him go crazy

minsu is so cute my boy did not belong there with these monsters at all and him feeling guilty about semi the whole season :(

final game was honestly trash it would’ve had soooooo much more emotional intensity had the players been people we already knew (couldve had, min su, hyun ju, dae ho, gihun and possibly player 100, 202, 226, nam gyu and myung gi as like the villains) but noooooo let’s have 4 main characters and then 4 random nameless nobodies as finalists like ew wtf it didnt make any sense and whenever one of them died i didn’t give a shit cuz who even are these people

also i don’t like the fact that there was only one winner sorry like 1st it’s the same exact as s1 and 2nd they were mentioning multiple times the possibility of there being more than one winner so why not make that happen? would’ve been very interesting in my opinion

ALSO WHWRE THE FUCK WAS THE CONFRONTARION BETWEEKN GIHUN AND FRONTMAN, youre telling me that gihun didn’t even ask why? I WAS SO HYPED FOR THE CONFRONTATION AND IT WAS LITERALLY TRASH

YOU’RE TELLING ME GIHUN DIED NOT KNOWING THAT THE FRONTMAN WAS ORIGINALLY A PLAYER WHO WON THE SQUID GAMES AND TOOK A DARK PATH AFTERWARDS?? YOU’RE TELLING ME THAT GIHUN DIED NOT KNOWING THAT FRONTMAN AND DETECTIVE ARE SIBLINGS??? YOU’RE RELLING ME GIGUN DIED NOT KNOWING THAT IL NAM OFFERED THAT SAME EXACT KNIFE TO INHO AND HE ACCEPTED IT? UGHHHH

AND DONT GET ME STARTED ON JUNHO AND INHO’S ENCOUNTER CUZ THAT WAS ABSOLUTE TRASH, SO MANY QUESTIONS LEFT UNANSWERED, why did frontman insist on junho being saved by the captain just to order him to kill junho 3 years later?, why did frontman give junho the child? what will he do now that the korean squid games are over? will he have a normal life? we don’t know shit

also junho im sorry youre hot asf but fucking useless like this aint the same junho from season 1, he had all this arc built up for 13 episodes just for him to do nothing at the end, he didn’t confront inho or the vips and he was too late to stop the games literally useless.

also can we talk about how almost every single woman’s worth/personality on that show is centered around motherhood, player 149 kills herself after her son dies (which is understandable cuz she was already old so i guess i understand her) also jun hee dying right after her baby is born cuz apparently her character arc also only revolves around motherhood, guard 011 aswell her whole character revolves around her missing child and her looking for them, like hellooooo, is the director aware that there is more to a woman than motherhood? ugh

at least the dad reunited with his ill daughter…

SO SORRY FOR THW YAPPING IM JUST SO FRUSTRATED RHIS SEASON COULDVE BEEN A MASTERPIECE AND IT JUST DIDNT LIVE UP TO THE EXPECTATIONS ESPECIALLY SINCE SEASON 2 WAS SO UNEXPECTEDLY GOOD (i say unexpectedly bc i thought it would flop and that s1 would be untoppable (which it is) but still s2 was soooo much better than i expected so i thought they would eat up w s3 aswell but i guess not.

🍒

I ALSO AGREE WITH EVERYTHING you said 😭😭 siwan was INSANE as mgflop. his acting is something elseeee, but they always give that man the weirdest roles istg💀what you said about daeho… so real. i’ve been defending him with my whole chest since s2 dropped, back when everyone was calling him a coward. i was in the TRENCHES for him. and then i watched the first two episodes of s3 and felt like a straight up clown🤡 some people say he lied about lying, but idk. to me, they just made him out to be the “bad guy” out of nowhere so that the audience wouldn’t hate gihun for killing him. and that’s where it lost me because exactly, gihun would NEVER. like yes, he changed a lot, i get that. but his whole character has always been about protecting people and trying to save as many as he could. the idea that he’d snap and kill daeho (someone who lied and acted out of FEAR) is just off.  poor writing.

another thing you mentioned: the random ahhh people in the last game 😭😭 like PLEASEEEE who were they. i couldn’t care less about those randoms omfg. the final episode should’ve been stacked with main characters, that would’ve been way more emotional and interesting. and WHY were there no women in the last game? it’s literally always the same. saebyeok didn’t make it to the final game in s1 either. what are we implying here guysss???😍 it’s honestly so frustrating.

AND THE CONFRONTATIONS?? gihun–inho and junho–inho… like WHAT WAS THAT. where is the FLAVORRR. so unbelievably disappointing. not even a single explanation to anything. nothing about how it started, or why inho ended up being the front man… nothing. the writers thought they ate but they’re fasting😐 bc wtf. i wanted more from the inho–junho dynamic. i love the doomed brothers trope sooo much, and i ended up looking like this: 🤡 when the only thing junho said was “why”… like WDYM “why” GO AFTER HIM OR SMTH. UGH. junho’s face card did save him this season because you’re so right, he did absolutely nothing for the plot. 

and while we’re on the topic of characters who did nothing for the plot: noeul and the dad she saved. like don’t get me wrong, i love them and i’m glad the dad's daughter survived and everything, but… GIRL… idk. imagine the impact if noeul had tried to save someone more vulnerable or bring someone useful, or even just worked to expose the island. but no. still did more than junho tho...💀

and YES omg. every woman’s arc in this show ends in motherhood. idk what the deal is with the female characters in this show, but like i said, they never make it to the final game either. and idk about you, but i’d like to see a baddie fighting as a finalist, period.

[scoundrellyfeline]

great homestuck rereading discussion T+20 (Mar 2)

first last next

cw: flashing, gif with snake, overighting files by accident (its okay i got a replacement)

SF 15:58 >

SF 15:58 > im going back in

SF 15:59 > another years in the future segment!!!

SF 16:00 > lets go :33

SF 16:01 > i guess ʬ⩔ got inside? probably a good thing what with his extremely hot dark skin(?) and the desert heat (is it skin? is this a future human? an alien? a mutated cockroach???)

SF 16:02 > theres been a breach! a breach!!! everybody run for your liiiiives!!!!!!!!

SF 16:03 > dawww look at the lil fella

SF 16:04 > wait what?????????????????? this thing is the mystery bossy voice????? huh???????????????????????

SF 16:04 > is this mind control?

SF 16:04 > wait thats the house symbol of the game

SF 16:05 > soooooo what are those other screens?

SF 16:05 > can wv turn them all on?

SF 16:05 > will the other screens show more john stuff?

SF 16:05 > mind. blown.

SF 16:05 >

SF 16:06 > ok back to the main stuff

SF 16:06 > ok more game faqs

SF 16:06 > SO MANY WORRRRDDDDSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

SF 16:06 > :<<

SF 16:07 > guhhhhh

SF 16:07 >

SF 16:07 > look at that stupid length

SF 16:07 > lolll you cant even read the text on it its so small rip

SF 16:08 > these should hopefully be easier to look at

SF 16:09 > ok lets look at all of this i suppose

SF 16:11 > the key making analogy is nice

SF 16:13 > i think that was a really good explanation behind some of the stuff so far

SF 16:13 > ok whats next?

SF 16:14 > gog all of these are amazing and epic. so freaking cool. though i am definitely starting to get more worried for roses wellbeing

SF 16:15 > wait was that path to the mausoleum there before?

SF 16:16 > it appears so

SF 16:17 > rose charge your gosh dang battery!!!

SF 16:17 > ...i need to go

SF 16:44 > ok im back

SF 16:45 > the red of the generator really pops

SF 16:46 > [EB: what? oh man, you're going to use that? EB: that sucks, what a stupid idea! TT: We have to hurry along. I'm running low on battery power. EB: but the cake mix... ugh, that's so dumb. TT: I doubt it matters. TT: We might as well just use any old crap lying around. EB: fine. EB: i GUESS.] thatd be so funny. john: eternally tormented edition

SF 16:46 > thats what he gets for not liking cake

SF 16:49 > [The SPRITE is playing hard to get! You guess that's what you get for originally prototyping it with something that engenders mischief and pranksterism!]

SF 16:50 > [DO THE POTTED VEGETABLE INSTEAD. IT LOOKS DELICIOUS.][Pipe down, you. This is Rose's decision, not yours!] narrative infighting lol

SF 16:50 > so i guess wv likes to eat plants? ...how does one even find plants in a desert?

SF 16:51 > we got some news!

SF 16:51 > fathers day flipout?

SF 16:52 >

SF 16:52 > :PP

SF 16:52 > wait a sec let me go back and grab that gif from apr fools so it can finally move

SF 16:55 > +even more belatedness because im posting it on the "same day" as June 21

SF 16:55 > ...i wonder how many more of these there are

SF 16:56 > i think this is the widest smile weve seen from john yet

SF 16:59 >

SF 16:59 > how sneaky

SF 17:30 > i made some hard boiled eggs

SF 17:39 >

SF 17:39 > ok im going to read and eat

SF 17:40 > nyaoooooom

SF 17:41 > if the house shook i cant imagine thats the best thing for all the harlequin figurines

SF 17:44 >

SF 17:44 > well cant say im TOO surprised

SF 17:44 > also theres some eyes in the back there

SF 17:44 >

SF 17:44 > also eyes here

SF 17:45 > wait i did say something about checking those logs didnt i?

SF 17:46 > ...hmm no timestamp

SF 17:47 >

SF 17:47 > wait let me check the computer time

SF 17:47 >

SF 17:47 > so... is john outside the normal flow of time or something???

SF 17:48 > blehhhhh lets go back to tha future

SF 17:49 > [INSPECT HAG ASH INCIDENT.]

how respectfully stated wv. anyways, the sprite has indeed dissapeared

SF 17:49 >

SF 17:49 >

SF 17:50 > so is the clown sprite now a clown dust sprite? how does this work?

SF 17:50 > will it talk with wind noises and honks?

SF 17:52 > so if the grist counter thing is at 0/20, but it takes 100 grist to move, does that mean that john will get upgraded in the future?

SF 17:53 > [TT: I can't find it anywhere in the house. TT: No time to worry about it.] completely vacated the premises i guess? isnt it supposed to be a guide of some type? a piss poor excuse for one if you ask me

(hit the image limit once again >:<<, part 2 of this madness)

[foxstens]

im so fucking mad

so i have access to three bosses currently and i can't beat any of them. nor do i like them enough to want to keep trying.

there's this lady who kinda reminds me of isidora but worse. because a lot of her attacks can be parried but not all and its kinda hard to figure out which ones you can parry and which ones you can't because it doesn't follow the rules of isidora's fight. and there's no walls on the side of her arena so if you fall you die instantly. she's the aggressive kind of boss who chases you and has very short openings. i usually struggle against these types of bosses but especially here because i don't like her.

then there's this guy who seems like??? a blacksmith?? but he also doesn't have any dialogue and his attacks are pretty erratic. i think he's probably the easiest of the three i can fight right now, i got close to beating him a few times but he just isn't dying for some reason. some of his attacks are also really hard to parry or avoid, and i also just don't like the fight. at all. he does lead to a very very very important upgrade though ugh.

and lastly, there's the one i'm mad about. this boss is so fucking cool, he's in a great area, he looks cool, his music is great, he really fucking reminds me of my favourite boss in blasphemous 1. except. he has three fucking phases of which i hate two. IT'S SO FUCKING HARD. the first two are easy individually but then in the third it's just both of them at the same time and it's soooooo fucking hard when these attacks don't mesh together at all and you can't fucking avoid theeeeeeeeem.

and like. the game is being kinda stingy with upgrades. movement upgrades are fine, they come at the right time and i love the platforming. but so far i got one fervour upgrade which is not a lot considering the fact that death is much more punishing here. as in, after you die and you recover the guilt fragment, you don't actually recover all of your guilt and you gotta go to an npc to purge all of your guilt periodically. WHICH IS A FUCKING STUPID SYSTEM WHY THE FUCK

i also only got one additional flask, and two health upgrades which i had to look up because they were in annoying ass spots. by the way the game has a lot of instances where it just looks into a room with waves of enemies. when you get items for it i don't mind, but sometimes you don't even get anything it just happens in normal ass rooms and i don't get it it's so fucking annoying.

and most of all, i haven't found any weapon upgrades. i even looked them up and turns out, none of them are available until i beat at least one of these bosses. WHAT IN THE NAME OF FUCK. i'm even unable to use the weapon i like against these bosses because it barely does any damage. i guess the reason people are finding this game so easy is bc everyone uses the flail but i don't like it??? it's hard even when using the sword, BUT WHAT IS THE POINT OF HAVING THREE WEAPONS WHEN THEY'RE SO UNBALANCED

maybe i should wait for patches or smth idk, but that could take years and by then i'll probably be spoiled about everything. i'm just so frustrated rn like i wanna love it but all of these things are so much more annoying than anything in the first game. and like i said previously, i have yet to come across an area or boss i love, so basically the only thing i truly love about this game at the moment is the platforming :'(

[yuukei-yikes]

You make me want to rewatch the anime...wonder if i can force my husband to watch it with me(he showed me it but it was like...highschool its been sooo long)

Since everyone has autism/hj? Do u have any headcanons for special interests?

I FUCKING LOVE THIS ASK also husband?? HUH?? KAGEFANS ARE MARRIED ALREADY??? huh...well...kagepro IS 12 years old HUH...HAHAHA *holds head* (happy late kageversary, btw)

everyone is autistic. yeah.

ayano's is 1000% all the superhero shit. comicbooks. i like to think of her as a huge spiderman fan. i think she'd love the guy. BUT YEAH comicbooks, superhero franchises in general lol

kido's is music! i imagine them as the kind of person who basically studies a whole album when it comes out LMAO i also think theyre the kind to be embarrassed abt talking a lot so theyre probably online a lot and is instead active in there. they rotate hyperfixating on different bands but music in general <3 also i think they hyperfixate on cooking sometimes and they will just cook and cook and cook one thing after another. it used to be a problem when they only lived with 3 other ppl but now there's like 10 more and also haruka so <3 no more wasted food!!!!

fuckgn. seto. animals. ANIMALS. ANIMALS. ANIMALS. i love ppl with animal special interests bc its literally the fucking BEST thing to talk about ever. and mary is plants. theyre both into each other's things too so their talks are so awesomely autistic i think seto and mary just talk for hours and hours and are always asking each other questions and if seto had a long day marys just like tell me abt why birds are fun colors like blue but not other animals :) and seto's like :DDDDD

momo and kano..... hmmm.. everyone else's seems so obvious. but them... like i see momo getting hyperfixated with a ton of different shit always rotating from lets players to toy collecting to makeup to lost media and etc etc but i cant think of like the One thing. kinda same with kano i feel like his thing is that he doesnt know who he is or what he wants so he wouldnt even Have his one thing. i think he'd be super into makeup tho. bc thats awesome but not only cutesy makeup but like special effects insane kinda thing. hes like whoa ppl change so much without any powers......... lol special effects makeup artist kano real

takane. lol. god theyre all so fucking obvious. coding. and i love takane but programmer ppl are SOOOOOO ANNOYING god this bitch would be insufferable. but the autism makes it awesome so its ok theyre not annoying <3 obviously videogames too. UGH harutaka indie game developers is so real to me. also this one is more my hc but erm technician takane is real he is real to me <3 the dan out of wifi bc this bitch took apart the router AGAIN just bc they like looking at the insides. the dan is complaining until the wifi is back AND its faster bc takanes improving and hacking shit. she helps shintaro build his epic pc

shintaro ohhh mygod have u ever met a more autistic bitch than this. he is everything. music!!!! like kido!!!!!!!!! i think kido and shintaro are an underrated duo. in the novels they hang out so much. wait im getting off topic ERM pianist shintaro is real to me idc. also super into collectibles of anime figures lol. also videogames!!! and lost media. i think he'd be one of those people super excited that a secret burgerking commercial never translated from english was found (momo too, they bond over it)

hibiya with the doll making shit. doll costumizing. also psychology post-shitshow bc hes 12 and hes like whoa. this wasnt normal *studies abt how this will affect him and his friends* i talked abt this in a hibiya ask i got lol but yeah also his whole thing abt making dolls. ofc it comes from something creepy but i still think its a cute thing he knows how to do i think he'd love using his new smartphone to find out abt doll costumizing communities and he sews mini mekakushi dan for everyone <3

i bestow to haruka the autistic honor of dinosaurs. FUCK YEAHHHHHHHHHHH also art/drawing ofc. and cartoons/animation. ppl who like to draw like cartoons okay. he'd be into that. idk if into animating himself i rather see haruka as a painting kinda girl. AND OFC VIDEOGAMES. srry to harutaka again but harutakas autism coexists so harmoniously ...domestic harutaka... these bitches have NO real schedules and are staring at their computers drawing/coding for days. it stinks in there. they make an autistic game together born from their autistic and disabled love. heart<3

i cant think anything for hiyori so hiyori experts feel free to add. maybe idols n stuff!! back to music heh

[poems-of-a-lover]

nick watches spiderman (cont.)

im gonna make another post bc i have a feeling im close to hitting the text limit on my other one but we're still on the first movie!! im gonna try and get thru this movie soon bc i HAVE to get to the second ones before my demons get me

okay where we are rn ben just died and peters in his evil era tryin to find the guy who did it

like hes just goin up to random dudes and beating them up bc he thinks its The Guy when its not

and every time i watch this movie i forget if they find him or if the plot point is abandoned bc peter has bigger problems by then KJGSHLKGJHSKH guess we'll remember together

peter falls thru a roof and these guys just let him go. like they leave him there. to be fair what were they supposed to do but still.

this is where we get the inspo to make a suit!! he sees a wrestling poster and is like "that could be me =D"

agh i wanna look like him so BAD bro i wish that were me

shoutout to him STEALING FROM OSCORP to make his web fluid thats so funny

this handstand moment is apparently judged by a lot of fans as him becoming spiderman but theyre SO wrong that doesnt happen until later in the film in my opinion

like thats just my opinion but other ppl can be wrong ig /lh

also how did he get this police radio. how do any of the spidermans get their radios. did they take them from officers. can u buy them. whats goin on here.

omggggg its captain stacyyyyy he'll be important later

like. incredibly important. GKJHSGKJSHGKJ we'll get to him in a minute.

"spandex.....spandex.......everything.......spandex......" i love peter so much

HE'S MAKIN THE SUITTTTT HES GOT THE SUIT NOW!!!!! THE SUIT OF ALL TIME!!!!!!!!!

i love this suit sooooo much its so textured and i love the logo its so fun

this car thief scene is rlly the scene of all time i love it

so many good peter lines from this scene

"seriously? u rlly think im a cop? a cop in a skin tight red and blue suit? yknow, u have got the mind of a true scholar, sir" PETER PLEASE BE NORMAL

this head tilt. the peter head tilt. in this context its kinda menacing but hes so me coded bc i also do the head tilt thing KHGSKJDHGKJ

the first time i saw this scene and for a while after i thought he told the cop "i just TOOK 80% of ur job" after he took the gun but he actually says "i just DID 80% of ur job" bc he webbed the criminal and i was so disappointed bc i rlly thought he was making a solid dig at the police force but hes just being petty KJGHSKJGHKSJ

ugh him talking to may here makes me sooooo sad. "u dont have to wait up for me, yknow" "yes i do" SHE LOVES HER NEPHEW PLEASEEEE

shes so worried for her nephew. seeing him hurt just destroys her. this boy is all she has. she lost her husband, her brother, her sister in law, and seeing her nephew come home at god knows what time just beat up and wounded must be so heartwrenching and she cant do anything bc he wont talk to her. i love tasm may shes so interesting.

"aunt may please, please go to sleep." "i cant sleep! dont u understand? i cant sleep! peter, listen to me. secrets have a cost, theyre not for free. not now, not ever." SOOOOO TRUE QUEEN. I SENSE A THEME.

AND THEN HE JUST WALKS OFF. LEAVES HER THERE. AJHGJSKGJAGFSJHF

oh yeah they're pushing curt to start human trials when they cure isnt ready, oscorp is so incredibly corrupt and its done so well in both films

"people die. even norman osborn." AKJGHKJSAGH SOOOOOO TRUE. YES. I HATE NORMAN SO MUCH.

also sorry for just quoting this movie so much it has so many good lines that i could talk about for the rest of my life

oh yeahhhhh this guy wants to start human trials??? at the veterans hospital?????

ugh theyre talking about plot that we dont learn until like the second film so its not important yet but its such a cool thing later on

PETER AND GWENNNNN I LOVE THEM

she really cares about him and it makes me so happy

shes inviting him to dinner!!!! with her family!!!!! its a family hes never met eating a meal hes never heard of but still its with the girl he really likes so hes gonna just deal with it and show up anyway

ugh normans doing things /neg

hes doing human trials. on himself. lets see how this goes HGKJSDHGKJL

oh hi peter. dinner date time.

he brought gwens mother flowers???? KWHGKSJGHSKJHGK theyre a little messed up bc they were in his bag while he was swinging but still!!! he brought flowers for this girls mom hes so sweet

"you must be peter" "dad this is. peter." thank u gwen

oh yeah i failed to mention that the captain of the police department is gwens dad if u didnt catch that from his last name

curt has his arm back!!! the cure worked!!!! hoping and praying that nothing bad happens and he just gets to live a normal life and be happy from now on

he has to go catch the one guy that i forgot the name of (edit its dr ratha) from going to the veteran hospital but the cure is backfiring so hes like. goin thru it. lizard moment.

anyway peter cant cut fish corrcctly

hes never had a fancy meal like this!! hes a little dumb!!!

uh ohhhh theyre talking about spidermannnnn yikes

this is what it feels like to talk politics with relatives

"if i wanted the car thief off the street, he wouldve been off the street" "so why wasnt he then?" PETER. CHILL. UR TRYING TO DATE HIS DAUGHTER PLS BE NICE

"its called strategy, im sure ur aware of the term strategy? maybe u learned about that in school?" MR STACY U ARE ALSO NOT HELPINGGGG

"i think he stands for what u stand for, sir. protecting innocent people from bad guys." banger line right there skajfhksjd

peter still apologized and said that he didnt mean to insult mr stacy but still ksajdfhkjsd cmon peter be nice

BIG PLOT HOLE HERE. peter webs gwen and pulls her closer and she goes "youre spiderman?" before he kisses her. HE HASNT GOTTEN THAT NAME YET. NO ONES CALLING HIM SPIDERMAN YET. WHERE DID SHE GET THAT.

ugh it gets me every time like where did that come frommmm

peter pulling away completely and turning around when her mother catches them is so funny hes trying to be respectful

uh oh crime time

HE JUST JUMPS OFF THE ROOF. BYE.

so yeah curt connors is now a giant lizard monster thing trying to find dr ratha and?? kill him???? okay yeah kill him he just threw his car off the bridge

peter has this moment of either going after lizard or helping save this mans son and he goes to save the kid and i love peter so much

hes also very very good with kids. he convinces this little boy that his mask has special powers to help the kid get out of the car safe and its so sweet

like this kid is terrified and honestly so is peter but hes staying calm and convincing this kid that this mask will make him stronger so he can save him. THIS is the moment i was talking about. this is when peter becomes spiderman.

the moment he gave that kid back to his father alive and safe is when he became a superhero. thats also when he coins the name. but this exact moment is what made him into the actual hero rather than just having the name. he gets home and he stares at his mask bc now he knows he has an immense responsibility to save peoples lives and keep them safe.

i love this movie

oh yeah mr stacy issued an arrest warrant for spiderman after the bridge attack thats so silly of him.

more petergwen lets goooo

"does it scare you? what you can do?" "no." "...youve got to lay low." "no, cant do that." "youve got to. i mean, why?" "because of last night. those people on the bridge. whatever was attacking them wouldve killed them. so i gotta go after it." "thats not your job." "maybe it is." SUCHHHHH A GOOD CONVERSATION. UGH.

OKAY IM GONNA. LEAVE THIS ONE HERE. ive finally got motivation so im gonna keep it going in a reblog like right away but im gonna stop this post here before it gets too long skjhfksjd

[fairytaehl]

firstly, i love everything you have to say so dont ever shorten what you have to say for any character limit. im on mobile so apologies for how long and blocky this is.

its ok, im not able to look at any episodes rn really so my memory is foggy (hence why i havent replied to your other post yet.)

i think hes def cognizant, bc he knows miaomiao, and knows who hes fighting and why. its not just blind rage, but is an absolute lack of self control, except when shes concerned. he has enough awareness to even cry at miaomiaos reaction in ep 18, so maybe not completely there, but id say 80% there. less than the water demon, because trying to kill the marquis is a *lot* worse than trying to kill a demon. also, i genuinely did not notice either of those things about his hair?! i cant say i have anything that comes to mind. maybe with how he sees himself, maybe with his completion towards becoming the HDC?

thats so interesting, i never considered anything like that. we dont see him in the form enough to really gauge something like that tbh. i actually think itd be a little weird LOL. was it only while in demon form that his hair length changed?

oh that is sooo cute. i do really enjoy what they did tho. like im such a sucker for moments where the one person A is weak for has to calm them down (esp in monster-type fiction), and they did it well given how fresh their crushes were.

i LOVE that. its perfect for them, esp ziqi. hes so in love with her that he'll always know her... ugh, im weak. it does make me feel bad for mu yao to not be considered in these types of things but i digress... the hairband thing still lowkey confuses me, especially with washing his hair.

bickering childhood friends to lovers is good!! i liked their characters but it doesnt go more than that for me. while that wouldve been fun to see, i dont think im sad it was cut.

YES ep 19 was soooooo good i was so happy seeing them argue and jest and force each other to drink like 🥺 my brokenhearted babies. youre both terrible at love and did this to yourselves but i feel bad for you LOL. i have to say tho, i dont know what itd be like for them to actually get along??? itd be, dare i say, weird...

i agree 1000%. yes, they do wait outside to tell her they wanted him to tell her himself and stuff, that was all we got. i kind of think mu yao in the drama brushes it off. like it obviously is a shocker, and she feels awful, but she also just wipes her tears away and makes jokes like normal. its sad that we couldve gotten more character depth and relationship building between them; miaomiao kindly choosing to brush and style her hair this time as she lets her talk through her feelings, and/or being found out alone at night by fuyi who comforts her with a hug and listens to her and understands her concerns.

we really dont get any crazy character development from any of them, which is fine given how lighthearted the whole series is i suppose. again, i think i like the way the drama handles that ep 8 scene more? id personally rather not be frustrated in that sense if thats what miaomiao says yet he still does that. its understandable, sure, but if hes going to do it anyways, i think her curveballing the conversation like that encourages his decision. whereas, imo, if she says all that in the novel, id expect his % to go up, and therefore decrease the chance of him doing that, so id not like it storywise perhaps.

i think, in the drama, they go from being in no-mans land to just being together, so it doesnt really give miaomiao that chance to scold him or to see the ebbs and flows of his behavior.

haha, thats such a good question about fu zhou!!! in the drama we dont get that intense, but its still a bit hard to draw a line as to wear mu sheng ends and fu zhou begins, something i wish i could properly comprehend if i had the mental strength.

you make a great point about fu zhou and therapy, too. i think miaomiao would likely be his encouragement for something like that, or at least to watch videos and read forums online and engage in such discussions as he heals from his childhood. in regards to mu sheng being self-aware, i wonder if ziqi was transmigrated before her? which brings up even more questions.

i used to think 32 episodes was a lot, but now it doesnt feel like it when i hear how long novels are LOL. i also think that theres a big shift in the storytelling once we get to the capital tbh. the exposition dumps killed me 😭 while nice, not so necessary. we definitely do lose any type of emotional connection, which sucks, bc i think seeing miaomiao and ziqis journey to the different places, expressing his worries and feeling hopeful because of her, wouldve been just perfect. i think we lose these types of things when we probably needed them most, tbh.

hello!! im watching lgief currently, and the brainrot is getting to me and I had to get this question out of my stomach! honestly, if you were to have mu yao and liu fuyi meet miaomiao and ziqi in the modern world, how do you think you would want them to meet? honestly, i want to be optimistic and say that the mu yao and liu fuyi they meet have the same memories as them, like living in the novel, but it’s probably not true.. (i would still like to believe that anyway bc its not like we have anything else to work with except for muyao’s counterpart being the girl miaomiao defended from the bullies.. lol)

WAIT IM SO GLAD YOU MENTIONED THE MU YAO COUNTERPART WITH THE GIRL MIAOMIAO DEFENDED. on rewatch i realized it and i was like 👀 Now thats something. but i also genuinely dont believe it means anything unfortunately 😭

i did recently come upon a new fic that combined the worlds of moonlight (the modern drama ysx and dyx did together, featuring ysz) and lgief, which was interesting since ofc, it has ysz, which could make it more "believable" of them all being transmigrated. however, i dont know how fond i am of that idea. and, while i do think itd be sweet to have the 4 of them reunite in the modern world, i think theres a bit of intimacy that comes with just miaomiao and ziqi being the only ones who remember it.

still, i could go either way. in my case, with just miaoqi, id like to think that miaomiao pushes ziqi to go out more and meet people, and i see the irony in the two/three of them staring in moonlight, that it almost makes it hard to not consider the idea of ziqi meeting liu fuyi at a bookstore or an authors convention of sorts, which could also contribute to the concept of having seen his face before and it being imprinted in his mind when he considered the look of liu fuyi, perhaps. as for mu yao, i could see her as a nurse or other who attended to him pre surgery (im pretty sure guo xiu was his surgeon) or maybe a worker at a library? a bit unsure about her. and in either case, miaomiao could be with him during one of his follow up visits, or when he goes to the library, and meet her and strike up a conversation.

this is on the spot, so the details arent really clear, but i hope thats a good answer for you! feel free to send me whatever, i love lgief a bunch.

thank you for asking!

[kinktae]

The penultimate part🥺 I’m not ready to say goodbye, Bitchin!Jungkook has definitely been one of my fav characterizations of him that I’ve ever read. Thank you so much for sharing your work with all of us💖

bitchin 9 asks bc i suck

sapphireprinces5 said: bitchin’ pt9 was just so beautiful?? the way you explained the emotions and interactions between the characters was just amazing!! I felt myself hanging on every word wow excited for the end but will miss bitchin’ so much 🤧

Anonymous said: TAEHYUNG AND YARA SIGN ME UP GURL!!!!

Anonymous said: Like I just feel like if Jk really liked y/n he wouldn’t have slept with Kiri, you know? It shouldn’t matter that he didn’t know how y/n felt. And it’s obvious that he has feelings for y/n so I just hope that’s something y/n addresses when she talks to him. Don’t settle for less girl! Get you a man who will fight for you regardless 👏 (btw this is not me criticizing how you wrote it in any way! I’m just so invested in the characters and am thinking about how I would feel in this scenario :) )

Anonymous said: I KNEW SOMETHING WAS GONNA HAPPEN WITH YARA AND TAE I FELT IT SO DEEP IN MY BONES IM SO HAPPY FOR THEM 😭😭😭

Anonymous said: Hi! I just binge read bitchin in a day and can I just say that I loved it! I really love the female characters as well, you’ve written them so beautifully 🥺 if I was y/n I wouldn’t be concerned so much about Jk not sleeping with Kiri if he knew the way y/n felt, but rather the fact that if Jk didn’t want to sleep with Kiri, he wouldn’t have, regardless of y/n’s feelings or not. IMO y/n’s feelings shouldn’t be the issue here, but Jk’s should! If I was y/n’s bff that’s what I would tell her LOL

Anonymous said: OH MY GOODNESS! YES !!!! YESSSSS Y.E.S Muchas graciaaaas!!!

Anonymous said: tae and yara are my new ship)

unknowntalesx said: okay but like tae and yara thooO they got me all smiley being like oh yeah bayyybeEE das what im talking about 😏 ALSO OKAY NOW THAT I AM MORE LUCID KIRI GOT FUCKING WRECKED I LOVED THAT SHE GOT A DOSE OF HER OWN MANIPULATIVE MEDICINE I AM 😤😤😤😤😤

Anonymous said: im not ready for bitchin to end )):

Anonymous said: I SCREAMED WHEN Y/N TOLD KIRI THE TRUTH. YES QUEEN. STAB AND TWIST THE KNIFE!

Anonymous said: ROSE AHHSHSJSKSD FUCK U I’m all hot and bothered with anticipation for pt 10 now 😩😩😩🥵

sydney--chan said: We really stan y/n for using her big ol brain to rock kiris world oh my god I yelled also I say what's your damage all the time bring that shit back

Anonymous said: a tae x yara spin off series or one shot...... haha jk..... unless..... 👀

Anonymous said: Fuck kiri's scheming ass. I'm glad YN ripped her a new one

Anonymous said: AAHHHHHH once again, I love this chapter so much!!!! I was screaming at Yara and Tae part. Seriously!!!! I am SURE she felt that spark when he kissed her. Is she going to be the one falling for the guy while he wants something casual now? Or maybe Tae will fall for her as well? Ahhhh so cute! I feel like that would be a nice spin off yk (no pressure, I swear). And Erik, woah I didn't expect him to be like that. To be so nice and wise. Great character development indeed! It was really nice (1/2)

Anonymous said: To see their interaction and the way he opened her eyes (for some reason I couldn't help but picture him as Namjoon). Ohhh the Kiri part tho!!!! I felt really petty but in the best way lol. Anywaysss I am really excited for the last chapter (really sad too) and I am sure it is going to be the best because you are a genius! Thank you for sharing another amazing chapter with us! ♥♥♥ (2/2)

Anonymous said: OKAY I absolutely adored Bitchin part 9 😻 I always thought that it was also OC fault for what happened between her and jk, he obviously was the main jerk but she never actually admitted her feelings to him and he doesn't read minds so??¿¿? Really loved that she came to understand it. And I was rooting SO MUCH for yara and tae MAN I AM CRYING THEY DESERVE IT 🙌🏻

Anonymous said: you came through with the tae x yara content we all needed omg thank you!! if anyone’s gonna make yara fall in love it’s tae lol

Anonymous said: I honestly lowkey hate bitchin’ jungkook right now. I thought I’d get over it but I just can’t imagine how hurt and disgusted Y/N was when she found out that jk and kiri were together just hours before they were like ugh. It doesn’t help that I’m also really interested in Erik’s character development now so it would’ve been really interesting to see how he’d fit in Y/N’s life. 🥺

Anonymous said: jungkook and y/n wANT what yara and tae have

Anonymous said: TAEYARA YES FINALLY OUR WISHES HAVE BEEN ANSWERED 😍😍

Anonymous said: just want to let you know you’re an absolute angel and all you create is nothing short of perfection. *sends you all of the love*

spring2787 said: I jus came from a 4 hour long class and it's finally here... Thank you so much dear 🎂 💜

Anonymous said: Is yara me ? Like when she said that boy act like they understand the no string involved but then fall in love , dude I felt that , that's literally the story of my life lmaoooo Like the number of time a dude told me yeah I'm okay with that and then acted shocked when I told him I didn't feel anything for him is impressive lmaoo Anyway I'm so eager for the last chapter!!!! you did an amazing job!!

kuhweenbri said: The way I already finished but anyways girl I absolutely loved this part and now I’m excited for the next part 😭😭 will we be seeing more of T-ara??

Anonymous said: OMG YARA AND TAEEEEEEEEE. NOW I UNDERSTAND WHAT YOU MEANT BY FANSERVICE. JSJSJSJJSBXBSBSB But on a serious note, this fic just keeps on getting better. The fact that there's only one chapter left still hasn't come home to me 😭 but thank you so much for blessing us with this!💜💜

Anonymous said: YO! bitchin is flippin brilliant! you have done so well! jungkook broke my heart in part 9! im emotional but also so ready for part 10! please take your time. have a lovely day

Anonymous said: i don’t normally talk to writers on here but bitchin is really bitchin, i haven’t read a fanfic in so long that makes me excited to read the next part and maybe it’s because i’m so used to all of the aus being recycled but bitchin is truly a breathe of fresh air to me for some reason, maybe because you fleshed out the right hand mans for both characters idk or the it being a different time period, but i just wanted to say you are smashing bitchin dude and i love it!!

shy-kpop-girl said: BITCHIN': I just caught up on 8 & 9. Shocked & angry at JK. Because regardless of whether he knew y/n' feelings it was a dick move to sleep with Kiri one night and y/n the next morning. And it wasn't like he came over to talk/tell y/n about Kiri & things escalated because he went right at it as soon as she let him in. Even tho it was hot. 😳 But Erik. I wanted to hate him but dude surprised me with his reasoning. I loved that dialogue! Once again your writing is amazing & I love this story!

Anonymous said: Bitchin is the best fanfic on tumblr. And no one can change my mind. You’re doing amazing!! Much love xoxo

Anonymous said: “Think of life as one big puzzle and everyone you meet is shaped differently, right? Yet somehow… they fit. We find those that complete us. And they’re not necessarily opposites but—“ MAAM that part hit SOOO different omg your brain!?! Outta this world! Like this is whole ass literature!!!! I stg Bitchin’ is the best thing on this app and I meant that w my whole chest.

Anonymous said: I'm not ready for Bitchin to end. It's soooooo good 😍😍😍

kmultifandom said: Since there's a cast for bitchin I wanna audition for y/n because i wanna be a biologist and I have some similar personality traits *mic drop* Also great work, I seriously love it. No other fan fiction I have read was so close to my actual self and that impresses me even more and make it like it 10 times more djksksks

Anonymous said: how will I live when bitchin ends agghhh I haven’t even read 8-9 cause I’m waiting for the happy ending before I’m heartbroken and left waiting for the last part

Anonymous said: you know what would be super fun and crazy 😛😛🙈🙈 if you dropped bitchin’ pt 10 right now 😳😳 haha just kidding .... unless 😏😏

Anonymous said: lets gooooo!!!!!!!!!!! bitchin pt 10 better haunt me for the rest of the year

Anonymous said: I feel like I’m going to get so emotional once Bitchin’ part 10 is released. It’s like I’m sending off my non-existing kids to university because I won’t be able to see Bitchin!Jungkook anymore 🥺

Anonymous said: I can’t believe Bitchin’ is for real ending 😩 it’s soo gud 

Anonymous said: Can’t wait till bitchin PART 10 Probably gonna fall asleep before u post but I’ll try to stay up for it 🥺

Anonymous said: i love your writing honestly and i just really want you to be happy. your writing is immaculate and i really want you to know that you are talented and skilled so yeah. sorry if this is out of nowhere but i just really want to show appreciation to writers because they don't get enough and you are definitely my favorite writer:)) hope you have a good day!!

Anonymous said: okay but if Bitchin' goes on for 50 chapters that would be good too.. just sayin'.

tpo-quinn said: Bruh, I can already feel that I'm gonna cry from the last chapter of bitchin'...I CAN'T WAIT!

leojjeon said: so i've re-read bitchin ready for chapter 10 an I am feeling all sorts of emotions. it's fair to say it's my favourite series I've read!

Anonymous said: y did i forget bitchin would have an end like 😳😐we’ve been on this bitchin journey w u for so long i’m sad it’s over

Anonymous said: What what what?? Bitchin is ending??!!! Didnt it just fucking start like all the drama and tae&yara!!!! Omg girl!!!

Anonymous said: ur the absolute fucking GODDESS of writing angst, ive never ever waited for a ff to be updated before as if it was a new episode of my fav show coming out. thank u for writing and be so active, muah ur amazing

Anonymous said: a moment of silence for our loved bitchin who will die soon 😔 gone but not forgotten, she will always be in our hearts. all the best rides come to an end 😭

[ktrxs]

3.7.19

I have no fucking clue why but my body sucks.

I’ve been doing amazingly well at waking up at 4:30/5am and going to bed early for THREE nights. and then on the 4th night, I do everything right. I'm in bed by 8pm. but I just could not goo to fuckin bed, mate.

this happens every fucking time I get to a schedule that I LIKE! I have gotten so much shit done in the last 3 days, it’s unreal. And I was tossing and turning last night and had to watch a sleep meditation video TWICE in order to go to sleep. Ugh.

But this was the second time I used the sleep meditation. the first time? I was OUT. I don’t even remember how far along I got. This time I did a different video and it didn’t really work. I found the first one this morning and I’m going to try that again tonight.

I normally fall asleep listening to American Dad.

These days, I NEED something to listen to. It’s scary when I’m not distracted at night. I become a sobbing mess when my thoughts take over and I definitely wouldn’t get any zzzz

So... yeah. I wish it can be silent. but then Mamie and death anxiety takes over.

But it’s cool. mediation is cool I guess. Also, YO AMERICAN DAD WHY YOU AINT CUTTING IT NO MORE?!?

Since Tuesday, I almost have a post almost done, I'm adding a section to my ebook, I finished my Pinterest course, added a feature to my site where I can control the sidebar from each page and honestly feeling great about all of this.

I love it when I actually work. I make progress on things that I’ve wanted to make progress on. I need need need to keep this up. I will fucking drug myself to sleep if i have to.. not really but something needs to help me sleep.

I like waking up early because i get some sun. and im more motivated when brandon is at work AND i somehow squeeze exercise in like what is this productivity?

Something that I haven't done this week is read. But can you fucking blame me? that game of thrones book is about 3 books in one. I crammed that in for 2 weeks and I’m still not done. I’ll finish the other book I'm reading probably Saturday but holy shit, mate.

also, i have not been eating the healthiest this week. It’s like tradeoffs. You get work done and exercise but not eat right. or you take the time to cook and lose the will to work. IDK.

I need to meal prep a bunch of shit. 

I’m going to make soup today. A shit ton. And then eat it a shit ton. And all will be merry and good. I guess. until tomorrow when i need more food lmao.

But it sucks because half the sink is frozen and it’s difficult to do dishes when only the hot water works. A lovely scalding sensation is what I crave.

I need to clean my house. I need to WORK

i want to finish writing this post and then work on the ebook. I need take pictures for the ebook so im doing that today.

It’s soooooo cute. So, when im ready to exercise, I put all the babies down for a nap in the room and shut the door. I’m not fucking around. I literally put cats down for a nap.

After an hour and a half I go to open the door and all the cats and on the bed together sleeping. and rumples on his hay chilling. One or two sleeping heads pop up and I tell them they can come out if they want. But hardly no one comes out. They;ll stay in there to finish their sleeps.

It’s so cute.

I don’t like them out and about when I’m exercising. My bike trainer spins and some of them try to bat it, but if they do they get a bad rugburn. And then when im on the treadmill, I swear to god cookies jumps on there with me and is shocked when we all go down. like he didnt realize the thing was moving.

And then if im doing some doing something like running teah and frappe get so pissed for some reason like im threatening them and they start to attack me. and baby breadstick wants to race me and i trip over him and you know what?

It’s just best that they get a nap.

[starryeyedhoe]

answer all of them >:3c (if you want)

minus 1, 6, and 11 bc I did those already 2. What’s going on between you and the last person you kissed?They sent me a picture of their cat last night. Otherwise, nothing 3. If your boyfriend or girlfriend was into drugs, would you care?Unless it's like bad drugs like they gonna die, then eh?4. Is your last name longer than six letters?Nope. Exactly 6.5. Was your last kiss drunk or sober?Sober7. What does your last received text say?"RIP me"8. How many times have you kissed the last person you kissed?Like twice?9. Where was your last kiss at?.... a car...10. When is the last time you saw your sister?Right before I left for school on Easter12. Where did you sleep last night?My dorm room. Excuse me, res hall room.13. Do you think relationships are hard?Yes. Mainly bc I'm shit at communicating and feelings sharing and I think they hate me 24/7 or that I'm annoying and I'm just not good at it14. If you could go back and change something in the past 5 months, would you?Nah.15. You’re locked in a room with the last person you kissed, any problems?I would hope not.16. Would you rather it be sunny or rainy?¿Por qué no los dos?17. Do you know anyone with the same middle name as you?HA. A lot of people. 18. Are you wearing jeans,sweatpants,or pajama pants?None of the above. Running shorts.19. Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 years from now?Who knows, I'm a mess.20. Does anyone like you?I think so? Unless I cocked that up 21. Have you ever kissed someone with a name that starts with an S?No22. Is the last person you kissed gay?Yes.23. Is there a person you CANNOT stand?UGGHH YESSS24. Have you ever considered getting a tattoo?I almost did but I didn't have enough money bc I had to spend a bunch for things so I didn't go get it. :( 25. In the past week have you cried?HA. I cried TODAY. THRICE.26. What breed was the last dog you saw? I think a pitty :) my fav.27. Do you dry off in the shower or out of the shower?Well, I guess in, now, purely due to the design of our hall bath showers.28. Have you ever kissed a football player?Eww gross no.29. Do you think you’re old?No.30. Do you like text messaging?Eh. Sometimes I prefer calls and most prefer Snapchat.31. What type of day are you having?A real shitty one, thanks for asking :) 32. Have you ever thought about getting your nose pierced?Yeah. More often, recently.33. Do you prefer warm or cold weather?Warm34. Is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you?Yes, mah best dude friend.35. Would you prefer a relationship or a fling?Relationship even tho I'm shit at them 36. Are you a simple or complicated person?Just like Avril says, I make everything complicated 37. What song are you listening to?Nothing rn, but I was just listening to "Come to the Fun Home"38. When you say you’re sorry do you mean it?Yes bc I'm constantly sorry for my existence 39. Is there a girl that knows everything or almost everything about you?Yes and I wish she didn't :/ And another Im glad she does. 40. What made you start liking the person you like now?They're funny and witty and sassy and really cute and adorable and yeah :) 41. When did you last receive a text message?This morning like, 11:30?42. What is wrong with you right now?Oh boyyy so many things. Had an episode caused by my autism yesterday, that was fun, and I'm still emotionally drained from it and like wanting to die but more casually.43. How well do you know the last female you texted?Very well. 44. Does anyone disgust you?Yes :/45. Would you date someone right now if they asked?If a specific person still tolerates me even tho I fuck up a lot, and they managed to hop an ocean, yeah, I'd go on a date/date them.46. Are you in a good mood right now?No.47. Who was the last person you talked to in person?My Spanish partner48. What color shirt are you wearing?Mint green/light green49. Has someone recently told you something you didn’t want to hear?Yes, "you have a final next week."50. Anyone you’re giving up on?Myself 🙃51. Do you hate the person you fell hardest for?Never52. Have you ever thought about giving up on someone but couldn’t?Yeah. 53. Do you like rain?Unless there's really loud thunder and super bright lightening I like it54. Do you care if your boyfriend/girlfriend drinks?Pfft no. 55. Have you ever liked somebody and never told them?I'm a lesbian. Of course I have.56. Do you like to cuddle?I luuuhhhhh to cuddle57. Are you shy?"Extroverted Introvert"58. Do you get along with girls?Kinda?59. Have you dated the person you texted last?Again, eww gross no, he's a boy60. What do you carry with you at all times?My phone and ID card61. If you were paid 1 million dollars to spend the night in a supposed haunted house, would you? Sure.62. Do you think you can last in a relationship for five months?I have never done it except for the abusive one I was forced to soooooo who knows? I'd like to63. Think back to October, were you in a relationship?Noppeee64. The person you like kisses you on the forehead, do you find this cute?Yesh.65. Did anything “cute” happen in the last week?Yep 😊😊😊66. How old are the last three people you kissed?19 and I dunno the other two I was drunk67. Would you rather pay to get your nails done or do them yourself? Do them myself 68. Which do you like better- Zebra print or leopard print? Ugh gross neither 69. Do you have any stickers on your car? Yes he has a school sticker and a swim team sticker 70. Would you rather listen to Luke Bryan or Lil Wayne? ...Luke Bryan...71. BlackBerry, Anroid, or iPhone? iPhone I guess72. When’s the last time you had pizza from Pizza Hut? Like seven months 73. Do you like diet soda? The actual devil74. What color are the walls in your room? White/cream75. Are you 16 or older? Yup!76. Do you watch Pretty Little Liars? No.77. Do you have a job? Yusss :)78. What are your initials? MEC79. Did you ever have braces? Yes 80. Are you from the south? Yes??? Depends on what you consider the south but I'm in the south rn and my family are all southern. 81. What does your last status on facebook say? Probably something fucking dumb from 201382. Do you still talk to the first person you ever kissed? No...83. Are you closer to your mom or your dad? My mama84. Have you ever done cheerleading or gymnastics? Nope85. What’s the last movie you saw in theaters?Beauty and the beast 86. Do you smoke? Not currently 87. Would you rather wear heels or flip flops? I mean it always depends on the occasion 88. Is your phone touch screen? Yes89. Do you normally wear your hair straight or curly? Wavy 90. Have you ever snuck out of your house? Yes91. Would you rather swim in a river, lake, or pool? It depends on the specifics 92. Have you ever made out in a car? Yes93. …Had sex in a car? ...yes.94. Are you single or in a relationship? I don't know?95. What were you doing last night at midnight? Drinking coffee to calm myself down from panicking in the library and jumping up and down in my seat bc I was having a bb episode96. When’s the last time you saw fireworks? Fourth of July?97. Do you like the camera on your phone? Eh.98. Have you ever had a friend with benefits? Yes.99. Have you ever passed out from drinking? Yes100. Are you friends with people on facebook that you actually hate? Yup.101. Have you ever had a pregnancy scare? Yes.102. Name your favorite Kesha song:TIK TOK. 103. Do you have any tan lines right now? Chaco tan lines ✌🏼✌🏼104. Would you ever wear cowboy boots with shorts? I mean, I have soooooUgh girl that was a bitch to finish

[pagahan]

"I just wanna start off by saying that you are the sweetest & kindest person I have ever met. I truly mean that. You are so caring, generous, loving and respectful. You have the biggest heart and it grows more and more every single day. I continue to fall more in love with you and tonight I definitely did. You are.... ugh. So sweet. I think what makes it even more meaningful and loving is the fact that you don't have a lot of money. If you had a ton of money then sure it's still a kind gesture of course, but it's not as difficult to spend so much on people you don't know. I think that's why it warms my heart that you did that. The fact that you don't have much money but you still went out of your way to go to target and get them what they needed. Like... what. No one does that and that's terrible. More people definitely need to be like you. You are the most amazing man I have ever met and I can't believe I get to call someone so special, my boyfriend. I am truly blessed. Truly truly blessed to have you. You told me how people say you are still the same guy you were back then and you haven't changed and whatever.... well.. who cares what they think babe. Honestly, only God's opinion is what matters anyways. Only He knows how far you've come and how much you've changed and that's really all that matters. Who cares what those other people say. Are they here helping you through your difficult times in your life? Are they here to applaud you and acknowledge when you do something out of the kindness of your heart? No. they aren't. Soooooo their opinions don't matter. They don't truly know you or your heart. If they did, then they wouldn't ever say those hurtful things to you. I am so blessed to be able to be on this journey with you and see your heart grow everyday. I'm glad I get to be the one you constantly love on and I get to reciprocate that back to you. You deserve all the blessings you've been given babe. You deserve the world. You are absolutely wonderful. You always say that you don't deserve me.... but after everything you've been through.. (like with the way your ex treated you) you definitely deserve me. (not to toot my own horn) but you need someone like me who can love on you during the day when you're busy, take care of you when you're dying and super sick, and give you attention the way you like when you get on your man period. I would say Im the one who doesn't deserve you, but you know what.. I do. I need you. I need someone like you. We both compliment each other very well. God made us for each other and I have to say, He did a mighty fine job. We are definitely each other's better half and I don't doubt that for a second. I am so in love with you and I will continue to love you for the rest of my life, and even after. You deserve the world baby. With this Christ centered relationship, we can overcome anything and I know the future will be so fun and exciting just as long as we have each other. You always make me laugh nonstop and you never fail to put a smile on my face. I love how we can laugh about literally anything and we understand each other's weirdness, and we appreciate it. Thinking about you makes me smile. Writing about you makes me smile. Talking about you makes me smile. I'm always smiling. I've never smiled so much. You are one of the best things that has ever happened to me and I thank God everyday for bringing you into my life. I want to continue growing with you and becoming a better person for myself, you, and our kids. I look up to you in so many ways. Not in height of course cause you're shorter than me.. but in many other ways. I want my heart to be as kind and loving as yours. I see how loving you are towards people and I want to be that way. I want to be as patient and understanding as you are. The way you handle situations like when we have a disagreement or a little fight. You know how to be patient and just love on me. You know how to communicate with me and I want to be a better communicator. Baby. You are amazing and I hope to be just as amazing as you. I'm still working on myself and I know I continue to grow slowly everyday. Maybe one day I'll be as awesome as you... but idk.. that's a tough act to follow. You told me once that people told you you were unlovable. What. The. Freakin. Crap........ whoever told you that.. is. Dumb. Sorry. Not. Sorry. Ugh. That makes me so upset. Knowing that someone thought that of you. Like. What. You are the most lovable person! I just wanna hold you all the time and tell you how amazing you are. When you cry or whenever you're in your man period, I just wanna hold you and love on you even more than normal. I want to affirm you everyday of my life and remind you how perfect you are for me and how I will continue loving you. You are my adorable little build a bear and you are definitely super lovable. You are so lovable because you're so loving. The way you love on me is how I've always wanted to be loved. You do everything right. You're afraid to make a mistake and lose me, but babe. We all make mistakes. But I will choose to love you through those mistakes. Unless you cheat on me.. then... bye. Lol but no really. I love you. I will continue to love you through any arguments, fights, whatever it may be. I am here to stay. I'm here to fight for you if another girl wants to come in and take you away from me. I'm here to love on you. I'm here to take care of my wonderful boyfriend whom I plan to marry one day. I'm not going anywhere. I promise. I love you so so so much ❤️" -Erika, the night of the Hungarian family Baby. I love you. My heart has definitely changed over the years. I don't know that I could've done what I did tonight prior to tonight but I'm thankful that God tested me and I responded.