#ughhhhhhhhh how fucking awful

[blackjackkent]

Had Hector check out that weird door that Jaheira couldn't get through and it just leads to a passageway to the sewers. Not super clear on what you would do if you came into the palace from that direction because there doesn't seem to be a way to get back up once you're down there, but luckily that doesn't have to be my problem today. XD

Onward to the last door in the dungeons!

More doors!

The doors on the left and right appear to be jail cells; the left is full of children and the right some adults. I think these might be the captured Gur that we promised to try and rescue. The door straight ahead leads to a very large room that looks plot-important so we'll go there last.

Narrator: Approaching the cells, you're met by hollow-eyed faces. There's an almost physical stink of decay and neglect.

"Gods..." Hector mutters. "These poor people..." How long have they been down here? And what's been done to them? He has a sudden sinking feeling that he may not be able to fulfill his promise to the Gur after all; those red eyes say all too much.

"Oh, they're disgusting," Astarion mutters, wrinkling his nose as they approach. "Cazador never fed on wretches like this. How did they get here? What is Cazador doing with them? My brethren spoke nothing of this..."

One of the men in the cell looks sharply towards them as Astarion speaks. Then he steps against the barrier, and those glowing red eyes burn with pain.

"You. I know you..." the man groans hoarsely. "You're the one from the tavern. You smiled... and joked... and got me drunk..."

Astarion goes completely still and his eyes go wide. Hector is sure that, were it possible, he would go even paler than he already is. "You..." he whispers. All the disdain has vanished for a moment; he looks shocked to his core. "No." He takes a step backwards. "You're dead."

"You called me... so many sweet things..." the man says. "My name sounded like a lyric on your tongue..."

"Sebastian..." Astarion answers, and it's as if the word is wrung from him without his consent.

The thrall's eyebrows lift. "You remember me..."

"You were handsome," Astarion says haltingly. "Shy. You'd never been kissed..."

"You taught me how," the thrall says bitterly. "And then you destroyed me."

On the last word, without warning, he surges forward with a roar, shoves an arm through the bars of the door, reaching out to try and grab Astarion, to strike him.

But he can't reach, and slumps against the door, falling to his knees.

"It can't be..." Astarion whispers unsteadily.

(A/N: INCREDIBLY SAD HECTOR FACE happened here. :( )

Hector is feeling a little ill listening to this all play out. The abject cruelty shown by Cazador, the terrible pantomimes Astarion was forced to play out-- the bewildered grief and anger on his companion's face which so often shows such a carefully constructed shell of disdain...

One would think I would be more used, by now, to the terrible things people with power do to those who lack it. I have seen it so much in this city, and among the Absolutists... but every time it feels worse than the last, not better...

"Who is he?" he asks Astarion softly.

Astarion swallows. "It's not just him," he says. His voice is unsteady, just on the edge of trembling. "I know so many of these faces. They're... my conquests. I pursued them, seduced them, then brought them to Cazador. He told us he was feeding on them."

His fists clench at his sides. "But he turned them to spawn," he hisses. "He turned very last one so he'd have souls for this cursed ritual!"

Hector's eyes widen as he looks around, taking in all the faces of these poor broken creatures. Oh, gods... A chill runs through him as he remembers the cell full of children behind him.

"How long...?" Sebastian groans out.

Astarion flinches. "What?"

Sebastion stands, very slowly, returning that fixed gaze to Astarion's face. "How long have I been down here?"

It will be a bad answer, Hector is already sure. He feels himself struggle suddenly with the urge to babble out words of reassurance - we'll save you, we'll kill Cazador, we'll end this whole terrible nightmare of a place - but what reassurance can there be, really, to these people whose lives have already been shattered?

Let Astarion answer.

Astarion's eyes drop to the floor. "One hundred and seventy years," he mutters. "You were one of my first."

Sebastian's shoulders slump. "My friends..." he whispers. "My family. They're... all gone..." His glowing eyes narrow. "You took them from me! You took everything from me!" His voice builds to a desperate roar.

Hector draws back a step, puts a hand to the side - not quite touching Astarion's arm but gesturing him back. [PERSUASION] "We'll set you free," he says firmly.

Sebastian's head twitches slightly, a half-shake. "Free?" he says bitterly. "We'll never be free while that monster lives."

"That's why we're here," Astarion says sharply, eager to turn the subject from his past failures to his present hope of success. "To destroy Cazador."

"You can't," Sebastian says despondently. "It's not possible."

"We'll find a way," says Hector.

"And then?" asks Sebastian, rounding on him. "What happens to us?"

The question gives Hector pause for a moment. It's a valid one, really. His instinct is to tell them to run from this place and never look back - but if Astarion is right, they're spawn now just like him. And Astarion feeds on animals, but can such a crowd of people all be depended to maintain such discipline?

"What do you want to happen?" he asks slowly after a short pause.

Sebastian looks at him with a steadiness that does him credit given the length of his torture. "I don't know. I just don't want to die down here. Please... Whatever you do, just do it quickly. I can't go on waiting..."

Astarion is clearly fighting the urge to look away, but he holds the other man's gaze as he answers. "We'll be back. You have my word."

[peribirb]

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[dangermousie]

Well, that was ugly...

Has nobody ever taught Jiang Cheng healthy coping mechanisms? He feels abandoned by WWX and the fact that WWX “chose” to come to LWJ, and he hates him and blames him for his family, but what he hates the most is that he doesn’t properly hate him. So he lashes out, trying to pick a fight but that is the last thing WWX wants, that would destroy him even more. Honestly, I loved their brotherly relationship back way when and I think they still love each other, but I don’t think it’s ever fixable.

More behind read more.

But JC doesn’t want them to go because what he wants is a fight because that’s how he copes. Oh man oh man, you are so unhealthy.

Yeah, there is zero chance LWJ will let him get away with this - I love how consistently defensive of WWX he is, how protective. WWX so needs this, especially in this, one of the most painful confrontations.

Of course this riles JC even more because it’s throwing the fact that WWX has a whole other life in his face...

I love that WWX is physically holding LWJ back - they are so each other’s balance.

Yesss, and WWX was willing to take all the awful abuse JC heaped on him so humbly but the moment he even implies an insult to LWJ, he goes off. I love the symmetry.

For fuck’s sake, that is an insane blame and shows that JC is just reaching for anything he can to hurt WWX. UGHHHHHHHHH But it honestly is a veiled “you always pick others over me!” If only you knew.

How is he still alive and not embroiled in about a dozen blood feuds with tongue like that?

I love that LWJ can keep his calm when he’s insulted so badly even though he lost it at a mild insult to WWX but I love even more that WWX who was so humble really loses it and literally lays his hands on JC even though he doesn’t have any power. And he calls him by his proper name, which is so formal. I love it!

Ahahahahahah the drama isn’t even hiding things any more!!!!

Honestly, JC jusat lives for a reaction. It burns him more than anything that WWX collects himself and turns to leave. And I love that LWJ is continuously paying such close attention he notices when WWX falters and he couldn’t give two fucks about JC, all his attention is on making sure WWX is OK.

[tellywoodtrash]

khkt 02.10.19 lb

i hope you guys don’t mind i haven’t been including caps in the lbs these days. it’s just that capping + inserting the images in tumblr makes an lb take 3x longer, and i really don’t want to be spending that kinda time on a show that’s not giving me much joy rn. i’ll get back to it eventually, coz i’m a visual bish, but for now it’s just too much time and energy waste.

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i hate these preview things. i hated it on ib, i hate it now. they just spoil the episode and are utterly pointless.

naren you are a rudeass fucking bitch. i'll need you to fix that 'tude before sona gets married into this house.  

suman, you're right, but like.... calm down a little. sona is already hairaan pareshaan enough.

I AM MAMA BEAR SUMAN. I WILL MANGLE ALL YOU FUCKS TO DEATH IF YOU TALK CRAP ABOUT MY GIRL.

sona, you're too nice. if i were you, i'd be halfway to goregaon by now. fuck raima, fuck you sippys, and fuck romantic love and relationships and all this unnecessary bullshit.

great, half of sukhmani sippy’s staff and equipment have arrived.

........... ok but what zaroorat does rohit have of you rn, sona? you're not a medical professional, and you're really not in his good books at the moment. chup chaap khadi raho na yahin kahin pe.

bechaara ajit has to go all the way to j seth now. ouff.

bheed toh aise jamaa rakhi hai sippys ne jaise koi shooting chal rahi ho idhar. like, the majority of y'all work in a hospital, aur jaahilon ki tarah you’re just crowding the room and gawking like this.

god my heart is breaking for sona. why is she simply torturing herself?

ofc he has to be standoffish. ugh.

i am suman. SUMAN IS ME. can we just go the fuck home pls??????

ouff, sona and pulkit, you're both soft idiots.

men with eyelashes this good infuriate me.

this terrible waily music is adding to my dull headache.

dude. i get you're stressed, but come the fuck on, you were proposing to her 10 min back. you can afford to be civil. you could have said that in a polite tone. like ffs, be an adult and learn to keep a handle on your emotions for a bit. i'm so sick of men using any one (1) unpleasant emotion passing through their system as a ready excuse to be a fucking asshat.

oh great. Irritating Bong Mom is also here.

rohit what the fuck is wrong with you, you're a doctor for godssake, how the fuck is your bedroom a substitute for a hospital???? LIKE, IT'S NOT EVEN SOME RANDOM HOSPITAL; IT'S YOUR FUCKING HOSPITAL, YOU OWN IT, AND CALL ALL THE SHOTS THERE, SO WHAT EVEN..... lord i'm just so frustrated rn.

great, Irritating Bong Mom is shaking rohit like a pulp waale juice ka dabba.

MY GOD THIS WOMAN IS JUST SO SLAP-HAPPY; THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH HER?!?!?! AUNTY YOU CAN'T JUST GO AROUND SLAPPING PPL AS AND WHEN YOU LIKE.

OMFG SHE PUSHED SONA ALSO. AUNTY KA NAAM BADAL KE SHONALI NAGRANI RAKH DO, COZ SHE IS FUCKING ASKING FOR IT. SHE'S DYING FOR IT. GET THE FUCK OFF THEIR BACKS, GOT IT?!?!!?!?!?!?!?

rohit ki satak gayi hai. he's just yelling at everyone. if raima's family doesn't consent to her being treated by a particular doctor, fairly sure they have THE RIGHT to take her elsewhere. you can't hold her hostage here coz of your personal hangups.

sona, you need to stop pushing. like he already told you to leave, why the hell do you wanna tell him your truth RIGHT THIS SECOND??? there's no point telling a person who's not in the headspace to listen.

finally sona ko akal aa gayi.

GREAT NOW SUMAN IS LIKE NO WE CAN’T LEAVE, WE HAVE TO TELL THEM OUR SIDE OF THINGS. CAN YOU JUST FUCKING LEAVE THIS HELLHOUSE ALREADYYYYYYY?!?!!?!?

oh sona. :(((((((((

lmao suman has the most "coz men are trash, child" face ever as sona laments hysterically about rohit not listening.  

ok dipika i love you, but the shrieking is getting hard to take.

also why is sona taking responsibility for "ruining" karan's life? self pity mein kuch zyaada hi.

oh god, slap to get her outta the hysterics. how very tv serial-ish.

and ofc she went into sadma after that. ouff this show is becoming too cliche, too fast.

who woulda ever thunk suman would be my favt character in an episode????? i didn't, and i'm quite pleased about it.

oh god she's just a child on the inside. abandonment issues to the maxxxxxxxxxxx. everyone in this show needs so much fucking therapy.

god this awful fucking music, i'm getting really mad. my sensitivity to noise is super high and this episode is just hell on my nerves.

FORWARDING. I CANNOT TAKE IT ANYMORE.

oh so you've finally calmed down enough to be civil to other ppl, is it???? good. if you'd have yelled at tulsi also, screen mein ghusske i'd have kicked your damn ass.

RETURN OF MUSIC. UGHHHHHHHHH.

oh ho sona, give the dude some time. matlab, come on, let him breathe.

OMG ROHAN HOW FUCKING DARE YOUUUUUUUUUUU

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA MAIN LIARS AUR CHEATERS SE BAAT NAHI KARTI IT SEEMS.

ughhhhhhh i really cannot with you two grossass fucks rn.

is that why you came all the way here, to demand answers as to why she spoke to pooja that way???

alice's dialogue delivery is real bad rn.

ugh literally fuck off, you losers.

sona, learn to take a hint. my god, this is such a teenager-y relationship.

lol doorbell hai sir, mandir ki ghanti nahi ki bajaaaye hi jaa rahe ho.

i know this is a dream anyway so i don't really give a shit.

i still don’t understand how a ring that is thrown can injure you BEHIND THE EAR?!?!

sis, you need a klonopin. at least a shot or two of codeine waala cough syrup to knock you the fuck out for a few hours.

wow, swift return of rationality when it came to pulki's internship.

uhhhhhh, that's EXACTLY why he chose pulkit for the internship??? coz he's your brother. literally no other reason.

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veena asking the real (but waaaaay too premature) question.

raima asking irritating question.

director asking valid question.

[greatfay]

The fosters 😏

Ohhhhhh my godddddddd I’m gonna diiiiiie. Ok let the memories resurface, this may take a minute.

my all-time ultimate fave character:

Stef. I just really liked her arcs, how straight forward she is, etc. Classic ISTJ tbh... cautious, reserved, protective, methodical, quietly affectionate. Like at the end of the day, I think she’s my fave. The kids go through so much ups and downs and Dumbass Moments that none of them can be my fave, and Lena is a close second but the writers only gave her one strong arc, and that’s when she tried to have a baby and that was so painful.

For several seasons I used to say my fave was Mike because he was Prime Dad Material. Like in the very first episode, he comes off as this douchey, entitled, deadbeat asshole who oversteps boundaries, right? Classic switcheroo. You find out this man is a saint, this man oozes emotional sensitivity and communication and affection, this man is also a dilf with eyelashes longer than should be legal. When he fostered AJ (I’m crying right now). Getting Ana through rehab??? Fighting his own alcohol addiction and not breaking once. Like the only time he ever let me down was his reaction to Dani MOLESTING Brandon, but he realized like whoa wait a minute... Brandon’s been taken advantage of and if Brandon were a girl he would see it different... Like all of Mike’s mistakes were temporary mistakes, he recovered quick and tried to do the right thing. If only his son was as quick on the uptake 😒

a character I didn’t used to like but now do:

Brandon. It took five seasons for me to like Brandon. You know how many seasons this show had? Five. And it’s because he’s pulled through the ringer of Suffering™ and it’s almost ALL his fault so that by the end when he’s doing the right thing again and again for the first time ever... and meets that super sweet girl... and then she DIES 

a character I used to like but now don’t:

Jude. He was such an intuitive, intense child, with wisdom earned from awful trauma, and watching him slowly assert himself was a wonder to watch. I do think the writers got lost with him, because his second love interest was a bore, his pothead thing was awful to watch, and when he became a twitch streamer with Taylor—WHAAACK. By the time of Good Trouble (which takes place years after The Fosters, so Jude is a sophomore/junior in college) Jude is drinking a LOT, partying a LOT, and fucking!!! a LOT!! Makes me concerned. Idk, it just felt like he lost his intuition halfway through the show and kept doing dumb stuff.

a character I’m indifferent about:

Every ex of the family lmao, idr them and I was not too fired up about any of them except maybe Emma. Like all of Jesus’ and Brandon’s exes I can’t remember.

a character who deserved better:

I’m just gonna make a list

AJ. Literally just him and Mike are just the cutest because of how earnestly the actor plays AJ, you know I love found family tropes and stuff.

 Mat. Such a sweetheart, the most accommodating and supportive boyfriend. So talented. Gorgeous hair. Mariana didn’t deserve him.

Cole. This boy fought SO HARD to be recognized for his gender, organized an LGBTQA prom for all his classmates who were rejected from their school’s prom, had to get hormones off the black market, and was so intuitive and loyal... honestly I loved Cole.

Aaron. SUCH a confusing end. Out of all the love interests, he and Callie popped with the most chemistry. The shared quest, the rides on the motorcycle, pictures at the beach, his great college advice. Their fight at her prom was so left-field and upsetting, and we know it’s because they wanted Callie to be single when the series ended so she could be free to date in Good Trouble. If I’m not mistaken, theirs is the first trans/cis relationship portrayed on network television... ever? And I mean a relationship, not a hook up.

Wyatt. Another sweetheart, what happened between him and Callie wasn’t really about him, it was about her and it was definitely about legal issues, and she was right to set her boundaries, but ouch that hurt. Gorgeous hair.

Notice how most of this list either dated Callie or crushed on her lmao except for Mat. Also

Rita. The woman lives and breathes childcare and youth advocacy. Let her win.

DAPHNE KEENE. She had her daughter with her in the series finale but I haven’t heard mention of her yet in Good Trouble, she’d better have custody and a job salary over 70k for what this show put her through.

EMMA. This poor girl was practically torn in two between the twins, from Jesus’ messy/horny ass to Mariana’s bossy controlling ass. She should be president.

a ship I’ve never been able to get into:

Most of Jesus’ relationships. He’s a fuck up so all of them are basically waiting for a train wreck. His most healthy one was with Emma, who was too good for him, and the one with most chemistry was with Lexi, but she was messy af too so that wasn’t going to work.

a ship I’ve never been able to get over:

Jude/Connor. It sailed and sunk in two minutes. So apparently, Jude/Connor have the youngest LGBT kiss shown on television. This show really made history, huh. They were adorable, they literally struggled to be a couple (since Connor’s dad is homophobic) and then after being a couple for like 2 episodes, Connor’s dad walking in on them kissing and basically blowing up was so traumatizing for the kid that he moved in with his mom in LA to get away from him. They try to do the long distance thing but they're middle schoolers... and it’s their first relationship each... and both of them are just now figuring out that they’re gay. it doesn’t work out. Would love for Connor to come back in Good Trouble and try to woo Jude or something (cuz Jude...???? he’s just FUCKING... ALL the time. Like one second he’s the adorable 12-year-old you just want to shield from the world, and then it’s like TIME SKIP, he’s a college frat boy now and he fucks “straight” boys every weekend).

a cute, low-key ship:

Lol this show didn’t do low-key ships, everything was loud.

an unpopular ship but I still enjoyed it:

Stef/Lena; because they’re the main couple on the show and yet we as the audience forget that they’re even an option as an OTP. These two are marriage goals. They fight, they argue, they have conflicting viewpoints, but they always sit down and talk at the end of the day, and they pull it together because of their love for the kids and each other. I live for them, I seriously wanted them to adopt me. I’d cook for the family so they would be an ounce less stressed. They’re such great moms and they try SO hard to be there for the kids, who each come with truckloads of baggage and problems all befitting network TV teen drama protagonists.

a ship that was totally wrong and never should have happened:

BRALLIE. They’re SIBLINGSSSS AHHHH. “But they’re foster siblings” I DON’T CARE. This is not a damn Victorian novel, it’s gross. Maybe in season 1 it wasn’t as bad since Callie had zero intentions of staying with the Adams-Fosters family and was used to being bounced around in foster care, but after bonding with them all and truly believing they wanted her, season 2 onward Brallie disgusts me.

Mariana/Nick. Let’s talk about his actor for a second. Louis Hunter played a teenager in The Secret Circle back in 2011 (don’t @ me but I loved that show) and guess what, friends, he was TOO FUCKING OLD to play a teenager THEN. That opinion stands 7 years later. An absolute creep who traumatized Mariana, the girl had to go to THERAPY. She went to THERAPY because of him.

Lena/Monte. UGHHHHHHHHh this made me so mad. Monte was being so gross and inappropriate, like not only is Lena her employee/subordinate... but Lena is a WOMAN. She’s grown as hell and confident in her identity and has a whole ass wife (a WIFE) and a family to take care of, and here comes Monte with her weird ass flirtations and stuff. She could NEVER. Lena is a goddess and Monte but an ant crawling on the sidewalk outside her temple.

my favourite storyline/moment:

When Stef confronted her internalized homophobia and misogyny during his breast cancer scare and she cut her hair to symbolize her ownership of her femininity. That was POWERFUL. Stef actually had so many great emotional arcs throughout the show; losing her father (who never really “got” her “lesbianism”), her mother’s breast cancer scare, HER breast cancer scare, her fight to become a detective, maybe it’s Teri Polo but Stef is such a stand-up, rigid character with such a strong moral center that watching her trudge through emotional trauma every gd episode was riveting.

Jude’s selective mutism. I remember this out of nowhere, but Jude went mute?? And he had to see a therapist, who deduced his problem and attributed it to an anxiety disorder and advised the family not to stress him out or pressure him to talk, and he went like this for a couple episodes. Like this boy went through so much trauma that it took like one thing, one little thing, to make him shut down. And Callie like patiently waiting for him to speak, and then her seeing her rapist and the only person she wanted to talk to about it was her little brother and he still wouldn’t talk, he just sits there playing video games, and she sends him a message on Xbox Live saying ‘Please talk to me’ and he ignores it then she sends another message “I saw Liam today” and he just looks at her as tears are falling down her face and places his hand on her arm in support. I. CRIED. Even after that moment, like in the next episode he’s still mute and Callie reminds him again that he’s been so strong compared to her that he’s “due for a breakdown” and not to feel any pressure to talk before he’s ready, and they fucking plant flowers together for Lena (I’m covering my mouth with one hand to keep from crying, I’m getting old feels. Remember when we used to say ‘feels’?). Ok I’m done.

Ok the storyline where Brandon is caught cheating for people on the SATs and won’t be able to go to Juilliard was POWERFUL. I loved that Brandon and Lena had a lot of bonding moments, and Lena was honest with Brandon in a way no one else was, she was like these are the consequences of your actions. You had decisions to make and you made the bad decisions every time, and now you’re here. Remember when you selling fake IDs for that dealer ended with your hand getting smashed so you can’t play classical music any more? Did you learn from that? Clearly not. POWERFUL. Lena scalped me on that day.

a storyline that never should have been written:

Most of Brandon’s storylines lmao. Him selling the fake IDs, him taking SATs for other students, him dating that 21+ woman with a kid and deciding he has to drop out of school and get a full time job to take care of her??? I love how Stef had to pull him aside and tell him “You’re Captain Save-A-Ho! And I know this because you got your Save-A-Ho gene from me!!” Brandon was MESSY. Despite being the typically “boring” of the kids in that he didn’t party or drink, he had interest in typical teen stuff, he was also impulsive in the worst way with his relationships and would get tunnel vision. Remember when Stef and Lena had to pull a restraining on Brandon for Callie??? My godddddd, a MESS. We’re not going to talk about how he finally fell in love with the right girl and she fucking dies.

BRALLIE. That bit where Callie didn’t think she was getting adopted so she FUCKS BRANDON, I’M NOT OVER IT. AHHHH.

Jude becoming a pothead. It was really dumb. I’d have been happier if the focus was on his anxiety and how it helped him.

Everything Monte related.

The time Jude downloaded Grindr and met up with a guy in his motel room?? And the guy was a grown man?? And of course he freaks out because Jude is a kid and tells him to gtfo??? That made me SOOOOO uncomfortable, which is why I hated it. BUT, I liked how the moms handled it, because obviously he’s a boy who’s curious and he’s surrounded by other kids—especially his four siblings with their tumultuous whirlwind of relationships—who are constantly making out with this person and hooking up with that person, and because he’s gay... and has this limited dating pool... and his first love moved to another fucking city to escape his homophobic dad... how does he get to explore his sexuality? who does he get to kiss at a party? This was so relatable, so many lgbtqa youth deal with this everyday, this sort of social pressure and FOMO as the cis straight kids around us are hitting all these romantic and sexual milestones while we’re sitting on an island. And obviously Stef and Lena sympathize, but then empathize how incredibly dangerous it was because Jude could’ve gotten hurt, there are guys out there who could do terrible things to him and he has to think these things through, not to mention the guy in question could’ve been just a normal dude trying to get it on and that he was put in danger—and this was the same season that explores how Jesus and Mariana’s birth father ended up on the sex offenders’ registry. It was handled well but remembering this storyline gives me anxiety.

The Jack storyline. I forgot this kid’s name and what happened to him so I had to peruse the wiki and I fell down a rabbit hole. Basically, this is a kid who was in a privatized group home, during a season in which Callie does volunteer work with a woman, Justina Marks, who is trying to pass a bill to reform child social services—only to discover that she wants to privatized the foster system to make money off of them, which of course makes Callie like do a BUNCH of risky stupid shit to take her down. So Jack gets temporarily moved into the Adams-Fosters home, proving to be a very quirky, quiet, sensitive boy, he kisses Jude after Jude’s breakup with Connor? Then reveals he’s not actually gay, he just wanted Jude to be happy? And it’s really fucking sad because he has this bleeding heart and this need to make everyone around him happy because he sees himself as this burden. Then he gets placed into a new foster home, despite Stef and Lena wanting to keep him around... and he gets put in the same foster home with the same man who abused Jude in the show’s pilot—and like the inciting incident for the show itself (Callie destroying his car to distract him from beating her brother > her going to juvie > her getting beat up in juvie > Lena seeing this poor bruised up girl and thinking “she’s my daughter now”). So Jack ends up being fostered by the horrible, abusive man who should never have been allowed to be within feet of a child again, and Stef just so happens to be one of the officers nearby when a domestic disturbance is called in, and when she arrives at the house with her partner she’s like “bruh I know this house” and when she goes into the kitchen she steps on something: a pair of glasses. Whose glasses???

JACK’S. And she quietly lays a sheet over his dead body. His foster father, who’d already been arrested once for beating Jude, shot him in a drunken rage. And CALLIE LATER FINDS OUT JuSTINA MARKS SET IT UP TO USE AS HER FACE CASE IN SUPPORT OF HER BILL.

my first thoughts on the show:

Literally the first time I heard the theme song when I randomly decided to watch it on Netflix in like 2014 (2015? I can’t remember, I don’t think season 3 was out at that point so it might’ve been 2014) I was like oh this is going to be the crying show.

my thoughts now:

I was right. I would not rewatch this show lmao, but I’m fond of it. I did randomly decide to start watching Good Trouble and surprisingly I like it and I missed the characters. I can look back and appreciate how this show handled a lot of tender topics as tastefully as they could, and examine them from a lot of different angles.

Ask me about a tv show/movie/franchise/book!

[rhiannonroot]

BOOK REVIEW: ‘A Prince on Paper’ by Alyssa Cole

Content warning: Emotional abuse

I’m a little conflicted about Alyssa Cole’s “A Prince on Paper.” On the one hand, Cole does a lot of ambitious and interesting things in this book that I really enjoyed and admired. On the other, there are some issues that I can’t ignore.

Let’s begin, shall we? Nya Jerami is a shy, sweet young woman who is into video games and virtual dating apps. She’s the cousin of the previous heroine Ledi Smith (“A Princess in Theory”) and she’s returned home to celebrate the wedding.

Too bad the groom’s bestie Johan von Braustein is also in attendance. Dude is the prince of Liechtienbourg and a total tabloid darling. He’s a bad boy and pretty much the opposite of Nya. (I’m convinced that Johan is loosely based on Prince Harry of England. His late mother has a Princess Diana-like legacy.)

ANYWAY.

Nya accidentally bumps into him on the plane ride home. And then the two get thrown together in some wedding-themed traditions, tensions rise and Johan has a few moments of sweetness. (Nya unexpectedly gets her period, it’s visible and he makes sure she knows and no one sees, because blood stains are embarrassing.)

Meanwhile Nya plays an app called One True Prince and one of the last levels she has to complete is Johan-themed. Which is kinda hilarious. It does play into the plot a bit.

And then through wacky romance novel circumstances, Nya and Johan fake an engagement. Liechtienbourg is having a referendum on the monarchy and there’s a good chance that the royal family might not be in power anymore, so having a love story plays well in the polls. Nya wants some freedom and a little excitement. (And maybe to piss off her awful, controlling, abusive father.)

As you can imagine, the forced proximity and fake relationship sparks a lot of feelings between the two! And it’s a lot of fun.

There were a lot of things I enjoyed about this book. Cole pretty fearlessly and sensitively tackles some big issues, particularly emotional abuse by a parent and gender identity. We also see how two very different families work and don’t work – this will tug on your heartstrings. Arguably we also see how a found family works with the friendships among our heroines.

I liked Nya a lot as a heroine. She’s kind and sweet in a world that seems to want to crush it out of her. She’s also repeatedly underestimated, even though she proves herself over and over again. And best of all, she’s perceptive and incredibly savvy. In a lot of ways, Nya reminded me of Lara Jean from the “To All the Boys I’ve Loved Before” series.

We come to find out that Johan’s “carefree playboy” image is just an act. He’s a sensitive and caring dude. He makes himself into tabloid fodder because his younger half-brother is getting attention in the press and Johan wants to distract them. It kinda works? The logic isn’t super sound, but sure, dude. Johan also struggles with the loss of his mother and the relationships he has with his step-father king and crown prince brother.

For the most part, I liked their relationship, though there were multiple moments of “Could you two just fucking talk about the things that are bothering you?!”

“A Prince on Paper” is a pretty darn good book, all in all. However, like I said, I’m a little conflicted about a few things.

First and foremost, I have an issue with how Cole talks about media and journalism. Only tabloid journalists are ever mentioned or represented, which is incredibly frustrating. Look, I get that this is an element of the world, but ughhhhhhhhh, this isn’t OK. This is an issue because basic media literacy is a language many people don’t speak. So, if you didn’t know any better you’d think every journalist is part of an indistinguishable mob and that we’re all just a bunch of monsters who don’t have any sense of boundaries and only care about celebrities and their shenanigans.

This is an especially bad move because we’re coming upon the first anniversary of the killings at The Capital News-Gazette in Annapolis, Maryland, and the killing of journalist Jamal Khashoggi. Pair this with the ongoing crisis of community newspapers folding, news deserts and mass layoffs in the industry and you have a huge fucking problems.

I’m sorry to single out Cole here, she’s not the only one who does this, but I can’t ignore it either. THIS IS NOT OK. Please, authors, please stop doing this.

Rant over. Other issues: The weird mashup of French and German doesn’t quite work. It reads weird. With the exception of Lukas, the secondary characters fall flat in this book. And the pacing is off. The ending is tied up too neatly and we never get the full emotional fallout we should have. There was also a thread that I was confused about and I don’t think ever got resolved. (The early diplomatic mission where Nya’s friend is married to a man who comes across jerk-like.)

All in all, this wasn’t my favorite of the series, but I enjoyed Cole’s prose and a lot of the risks she took. I look forward to reading more from her.

[voltron-toast]

My Predictions/Notes as I watched S7 (Part 1)

1. Hunk + Romelle? What about Shay?

2. KEITH IS BEING SUCH A GOOD LEADER SKFNSKDMMDKDKFMF

3. Is this an alternate reality...??? Like are they even in the right reality? I mean- Coran and such never went in with them when fighting Lotor so nvm that doesnt make sense

4. WHAT IS HAPPENING THO

5. Coran locked in a closet is a mood

6. i love hunk

7. I LOVE ROMELLE

8. NOOOO COSMO WTF DONT HURT MY BOY

9. Wtf is happening IM SO CONFUSED. THE WEIRD LOOKING GENERALS APPEAR NOW ONTO E3 WYJDJDJDK?????

10. Krolia is a savage but leave my boy lance aloneeee

11. GIVE CORAN THE BENEFIT OF THE DOUBT SJDNKDKSM I literally love him so much

12. The mice are amazing

13. UMMM EZOR X ZETHRID I SHIP IT OMFNFJEKDKDIKC wheres acxa tho

14. Speak of the devil and he shall appear IM IN LOVE WITH HER OMFG

15. How much time has passed?

16. I literally love Lance sm

17. Acxa x Keith?

18. Pink bayard???? Is that a mistake

19. UM WTF KEITH WTFFFFF

20. DKJDKFJSJDJDJKXKF WHAT.

21. Krolia didnt look phased at all also LANCE STEPPING UP AS SECOND IN COMMAND YESSSS

22. 3 years holy shit?

23. Another bonding moment parallel

24. holy shiz im shook so much has changed

25. GAME SHOWWWW

26. Zarkon’s highfive fail tho

27. Haggard seems to be the only one acting ‘normal’ or like herself... JK nevermind she “treasures” his art hmmmm

28. ZARKON EIFJWLDMDMA f u. i stg. lance isnt dumb UGHHH

29. ))): i want to hug him ughhhhhhhhh

30. )): i sad- oh wtf did pidge do ummmm im confuseddddd what is this magic?

31. IM CRYING- LANCE WAS SO SWEET ABOUT VOTING KEITH AND THEN KEITH JUST HAD TO MAKE THAT REMARK I MISSED THEM SO MUCH WHDJRKMFMFM

32. They were all so sweet to each other it hurts

33. Also Lance’s face when he said Keith was the future wtf thats so gay? Theyre grown so much

34. im so shook rn wtf

35. Pidge is actually me with my nightmares gog im such a nerd.

36. ROMELLE IS SO CUTE

37. Krolia and Keith are so cute

38. Keith was so surprised when he died

39. HUNK YESSSS now im hungry i havent eaten breakfast rip

40. KEITH DIDNT NAME THE WOLF? HIS REASONING FOR IT IS SO CUTE THOOOO SJDKMFOSJ

41. Beautiful show bii boh bii

42. Wait- Wheres acxa? did i miss something- rippppppp shes gone

43. who is this dude

44. Is kolivan dead o_o? nooooooo sidjdjfkkdkdks nononooooo did he? NOOOO jdjdkdnfkdkdofofk All the blades ))):???? This is so sad wtf

45. Wtf is happening? OH- OH NO WTF YOU LITTLE UGHHHH KILL HIM- NONONONONO KOSMO SAVED KEITH GOOD BUT POOR EVERYONE ELSE STUCKKKK AGHHHH

46. NOOOOO KOSMO NONONONONO HIS LITTLE YELP )))):

47. Keith has abilities v cool

48. Ok kosmo is good, yay

49. KROLIA IS LEAVING?

50. NOOOOO, Keith is a good son though I hope she doesnt die- Awwwwwwwwwwwe hes so cute I cant AHHHHH He says I love you a lot now ;)))) jk only twice but still my heart just AH

51. well damn shiro. blunt af

52. they look so terrible omfg their eyes )))): nooooo hunk ;-;

53. Um Keith what the fuck oh nvm hes just going insane

54. KEITH WTF DONT SAY THAT. Hunk good i love you so much

55. Wtf is happening. Earth? WHAT? HOW? WHAT ABOUT EVERYONE ELSE? This is fake. It has to be.

56. Hunk i love you- RUNNNNNNN aJdjfkfkfkm

57. A team again yayyy

58. Those wings wtf was that Lance and Keith? Wow they make a great team

59. so thats where the season would have ended and i would have hated how shortttt thank gog its 13 eps i would have DIED

60. OH NO WE SEE IT HAPPEN???? My heart I cant omfg noooooo nonono

61. Colleeeeen yayyyyyyy cuties hehe

62. im too shook to type

63. Iverson is not horrible and Colleen has balls. Theyre gonna get so much shit ughhhhh im WORRIEDDDDD

64. James is cool i hope hes not a dick anymore

65. THIS IS SO CUTE MINI MESSAGES AWWWW LANCE’S FAMILYYYY AJDJDKDKDKMDMS The fact that Keith has no one to go home to is sad but his home is with him I suppose

66. Iverson say something u shit STAND UP AGAINST THAT HOE YESSSSS GOOD JOB HAHAHA TAKE THAT OLD HAGGGG

67. Noooooooo )): go away galraaaaa

68. No. Thats Adam. Theyre gonna kill Adam. Please let there be a miracle... Nonononononononononono NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NON ONONOSKKDKDKDKDKD NO NO NONONONO No. Thats not real. No. FUCK YOU OLD HAG no. not adam ): noooo all those people UGH I CANT. im so upset- I *sigh* f u hag

69. why hVent we heard blonde or other dude talk? im so pissed about adam

70. random af- allurance is gonna be canon calling it now ;)))

71. veronica is pretty

72. Im so upset about Adam :,))

73. Aw he said quiznak that made me happy for a moment im still pissed about adam

74. give shiro a break damnit.

75. maybe hes not dead :,))) maybe he crashed and is captured by galra and is missing an arm to match his ex and just -sobs-

76. Veronica black paladin/leader of cadets i like her ;)))

77. Why dont they say their first names, gosh so professional GASP

78. Voltron did you just kill Veronica? R u kidding meeeeee You better not have Im so pissed rn

79. Sendak is sadly smart

80. OK GOOD SHES ALIVE GOOD I WAS HELLA PISSED. Is Adam actually dead though? Ughhhhhhhhhh im still sad ):

81. shiro’s been quiet this season i just realized

82. Lance and Keith are cute “Dont miss” awwwe

83. James niceee KEITH RECOGNIZE???? Shiro doesnt have Adam to return to :,)))) LANCE’S FAMILY I HAD GOOSEBUMPS WHERES HUNK’S FAMILY AW CUTIE WHERE ARE THEY EINFKFKDNDKDKDK MY HEART

84. KEITH AND IVERSON HAND SHAKE NICEEEE AW I LIKE IVERSON

85. So Adam is dead. -deep breath- Oh Shiro im sorry... Them in Garrison outfits are weird af

86. Griffin is jealous

87. i literally want to cry about adam

88. call back to season one

89. oh hunk i want to hug you so much ))): Keith and Hunk bonding awwwwwwe WTF KEITH YOU ARE SUCH A BABE AND HUNK YESSSSSSS

90. oh i forgot to type here oops

91. allurance!!! but why does she suddenly have feelings for him idk i dont like how its been done atm.

92. why isnt red coming to lance? o.O

93. is it because he cant concentrate or somethhing else?

94. wtf red why u have to be so dramatic

95. fuck you old hag, literally hate you more than zarkon

96. voltrons dead rip

97. now they sleep a long time, correct?

98. keith ily -sobs- please do something

99. jk they arent sleeping? shut up hag im sorry but youre literally the biggest idiot sigh. i feel bad but i cant. you just. SIGH.

[oncleberns]

!!! wowie zowie !!!

the last time i posted something vaguely personal on here was in november 2014 and that was about a dream in which i was doing meth with pirates.

time to remedy this. also i haven’t had a job in three months and i feel like writing something on tumblr makes up for the fact that i rarely get out of bed before 9am and shower only when the dreadlock at the base of my neck becomes particularly troublesome. (this has been sitting in my drafts for a while so although i am still unemployed, i WILL be starting work this monday. thus, showering to commence again soon.)

anyway.

i moved to LA at the beginning of december. living in hollywood has been a trip and although some parts of it are fucking terrible (read: unbelievable amounts of tourists, lots of strange people, stupid hollywood shit that people think is cool, etc.), it’s turned out to be a dope spot to begin this whole LA adventure. 

first: let’s get the driving aspect out of the way. it blows. i already don’t like driving but doing it in a city where everyone is a self-centered asshole is even worse. no one stops for anyone, no one uses their turn signal, no one knows the rules of the road or basic geometry. the list goes on. statistically, i am going to get into an accident. i just hope there isn’t a dead person at the end of that journey. i’ll be white knuckling it until then! silver lining: since i’ll be working in beverly hills, i’m looking forward to a decent drive - especially by LA standards. i can’t wait to blast the ruff ryders anthem and russian 80s pop on these skreets.

besides discovering i’m kind of awful at generally knowing how to navigate parking structures, i’ve also discovered another beast specific to LA: the flaky friend. admittedly, this can be attributed to the whole “driving anywhere at any time of day is a pain in the ass” thing, BUT it really puts a damper on trying to make plans with motherfuckers. the easiest solution is making friends with people in your immediate neighborhood, but that is limiting and thus, vastly annoying. i don’t foresee making friends at work like most people because it’s a small unit and everyone is in their 40s/50s. ughhhhhhhhh. i’ve been putting feelers out with certain acquaintances but so far, bubkes.

WHY IS IT SO FUCKING HARD TO MAKE FRIENDS AS AN ADULT? it doesn’t help that i’ve been burned so many times and maaaaaay possibly have high intimacy/respect standards.

i guess i’ll just keep guzzling martinis nervously at social gatherings and sniffing out the non-assholes before getting so drunk my years younger-than-me cousin has to order an uber for me (true story).

[adotblog]

Brave New World - chapter 2

Pairing LMM x Reader

Warnings: Terrible decisions. Swearing I think. Far too many Rent references. Alcohol

Words:1860

When you wake up you instantly regret not having drunk any water before coming to bed. Bleurgh. Then you remember. Oh god, you and Lin kissed. Oh it was a good kiss, damn. You’d thought plenty of times in this last month about what it would be like to kiss him. All of your expectations were wrong. In such a good way.

You snap yourself out of your daydream- the reality is that you kissed a co-worker, well kinda your boss, and you don’t know if he kissed you because he likes you, because he was drunk…you’re not sure if he views this as a huge mistake.

More importantly, you’re not sure if you view it as a huge mistake. Oh, this is going to take some serious damage control. (Damn, it was a good kiss though). You deliberately resist checking your phone, trying to suspend reality for a little while longer.

You grab a towel and head for the bathroom. A shower and clean teeth later, you feel a little better but still have a bit of a headache so you pop some painkillers. You’ve got dressed and are on your second cup of tea before you pluck up the courage to check the notifications on your phone.

Jasmine: You get home Ok?

You reply to that straight away:

Y/N: Yeah, Lin walked me to my door, as you instructed.

Ok next:

iMessage

10:24am

Lin: So, uhhh, we kissed.

Oh god. How should you reply? You need to acknowledge it but also sound non-committal. Here goes:

11:37am

Y/N: Yup, that is most certainly a thing that we did…

Lin: I don’t want to talk about this over text really, can I see you at the theatre before we start work?

Great, he wants to talk to you at work. Oh this is so awkward.

Y/N: Sure, I can be there at 4?

Lin: Perfect, see you then.

Ughhhhhhhhh. Four hours to obsess about what he wants to say. Four hours to be anxious about what you’re going to say. You need a distraction. You pull on some boots and head out to do your grocery shop-the walk will help clear your head.

When you return, not only is your head still entirely muddled, but you can’t wait any longer to set off for the theatre, you so badly need to talk to Lin. You grab your work bag and take off for the subway.

When you arrive it’s very quiet, everyone else still at home, presumably. You go and knock on Lin’s door but he doesn’t yell “Come in!” as he normally would. You’re about to turn around and head for backstage when the door opens. “Hey”, he greets you with a smile. You feel instantly awkward as you brush against him when you enter the room. You take a seat on his couch and sit staring at your hands in your lap as he comes to sit beside you.

“So…”, he starts. You give him a small smile. “So.”. “Ok so look, I just wanted to apologise if I made you uncomfortable last night”, Lin says. “I know I’m not like, your actual manager but this is my show and people see me as being in charge of it…I’m trying to say I hope I wasn’t creepy boss guy making unwanted advances”, he scrunches his face.

“Hey, no no. It…uh…it wasn’t unwanted at the time, you didn’t…well we both…”, you trail off and sink your head into your hands. “I’m so bad at this”, you groan. Lin grins a little in response. “I’m saying, you didn’t, like, sexually harass me-I was a willing participant”, you say. “Well, I was very much a fan of kissing you”, he says with a laugh. “It was lovely.”, you agree.

“At the time…”, he recalls your phrasing.

You swallow hard. “Yeah. I mean, look…you are the boss, you are in charge of this whole production. Effectively I’m your employee”. Lin looks nervously at his feet as of you might land him with a lawsuit at any moment. “Sleeping with the boss is not a look I want”, you say. “Sleeping…?! We just…It was one kiss!”, Lin says in surprise. “I’m just talking about perception, Lin.”, you say. “I’m not about to be the girl who only got Hamilton cos she’s sleeping with the playwright.”

“No one is going to think that-also we’re not…”, he says. “I know, I know, I’m saying-people, if we were together…in any way…it would look bad, like you might be giving me special treatment.”, you say. “I’ve only been here a month, and I want people to know me for me and my work. Not for being with you.”. “I think people would just have to get over it”, Lin says. “But I also feel like this is just an excuse.”.

“It’s not an excuse, Lin, I can’t be in a relationship with my boss. I just can’t.”, you say quietly. “Thing is, Y/N-I never mentioned a relationship. I just…literally I just said I liked kissing you. And I think you get that I want to do it again. It’s hardly a marriage proposal”, he says-clearly frustrated with you. “But regardless, message received loud and clear, no more kissing.”

You finally look him in the eye and you feel fucking awful. He looks totally blindsided. “Lin I’m sorry. I know that I’ve given you mixed messages. I do like you. I did like kissing you. But I just don’t think it would be right to go down this path. I never meant to hurt you.”, you say. His face softens. “It’s ok. Sometimes these things don’t work out.”.

He stands and you feel like you should too. “Do me a favour though?” Lin asks. “Of course.”.

“Let me know if you change your mind.”. You laugh. “Seriously. I’m not going to pursue you, you’ve been quite clear. But if you change your mind…”. You give him a hug, which he returns. “You’ll be the first to know”, you joke. “I hope we can still be friends?”, you say. “Of course we can.”.

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An hour later and Jasmine is on your case. “Y/N you very obviously have a crush on him. Why would you not want to see what happens?”. You give a frustrated sigh. “I don’t want to be involved with someone I work for! It’s a recipe for disaster”. Jasmine gives you a look. “You and Ant are different! You’re both in the same job. If you were his boss, it’d be totally inappropriate.”.

“Maybe.”, she concedes. “But Lin is barely involved in the stage management side. I really don’t see how it would be a problem.”. “I just don’t think it’s right.”.

Jasmine looks at you a long time. “I’m gonna say this once and then we can pretend it never happened.”. “Okaaaay”, you say nervously.

“I think that you’re using this as an excuse. I think there are plenty of things you could do to reassure other people that you weren’t getting special treatment or whatever. You’re scared, I don’t know why and that’s none of my business. But Lin is a good guy. I think you’re crazy.”.

You know that she’s right- Lin is a good guy. And he deserves someone who is better at this than you.

“Now. Enough of that.”, says Jasmine. “You have to listen to this new track I heard yesterday”.

*****************************************

The rest of the week is kinda awkward. You see Lin only at work, and he tries really hard to strike a balance of being friendly but professional. It’s hard, seeing him deliberately holding back and you hope for the fifteenth time that you didn’t hurt his feelings too much.

You bury yourself in work, fixing things that are barely broken, polishing, cleaning, repairing. Eventually, Clare asks if you’re angling for a promotion. You laugh. “No I just…I just want to have made a good impression. I just want to be known for being good at my job.”. Clare’s a little taken aback and comes over to reassure you “You already are.”. She hugs you and apologises for teasing you. “No, no it’s fine”, you say. “Come on, lets go out for coffee.”.

*****************************************

It’s been nice to concentrate on relationships with other people at work but you’d be lying if you said you weren’t still attracted to, and distracted by, Lin. He’s charming, smart, hot as all hell…it’s not easy trying to keep your distance.

You still send and receive a few text messages over the next couple of weeks, but usually restricted to the group WhatsApp.

Inevitably, there’s eventually an invitation to another group outing, and you go back and forth a few times trying to decide whether to go. Jon catches you backstage and says “Look, I don’t really know what happened with you and Lin, but you can’t hide from each other forever. Come out. It’ll be fun. There’ll be karaoke-Broadway karaoke.”. “Oh god help us all!”, you joke. That same night you get a text from Lin.

Lin: So are you going to the thing tomorrow night?

Time to take the plunge.

Y/N: Sure, who else is gonna sing What You Own with you??

Lin: You realise two of our cast were actually in Rent on Broadway?!

Y/N: AND?!

Lin: Alright, yup, sure thing, Roger.

Y/N: See you tomorrow, Mark ;)

******************************

When you walk in with Jon, Lin is already there and god he looks amazing. You’re pleased that things already feel a lot less awkward since your texts last night. “Mark.”, you smile as you greet him. “Roger!”, he grins in return. “Come look at the song book-I’ve already got a couple picked out for you”, he winks. “I’ll go get drinks-Old Fashioned, right?”, offers Jon. You nod and thank him as Lin beckons you to follow him over to the back of the room where songbooks are lined up.

*****************************************

“You two thought about touring?”, jokes Pippa as you return to your seats after yet another duet. You both laugh as Lin says “Pip, please-you’d never cope without me being your husband every night!”. Pippa rolls her eyes and tells him she prefers Javi anyway.

You spend most of the night with Lin, Jon and Pippa-singing and laughing until you’re losing your voice and ready for home. You say goodbye to everyone with hugs and leave feeling significantly lighter. When you get home you send a text.

Y/N: I had so much fun tonight. Thank you for being my partner in crime.

Lin: Anytime! You make a great partner!

Y/N: it was great to just hang out and have fun again.

Lin: It really was.

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One night the following week, you’re in the wings waiting to give Jonathan his crown and watching Lin do his thing. Jasmine stands next to you, ready for her next cue. She comments “You’re staring at that man like he’s the only person in the room.”. You tear your eyes from the stage and meet her gaze with a sad smile. “Y/N, you said it was for the best…”, she says gently. “I did. Now I’m not so sure.”.

[selfcallednowhere]

OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG VIDEO THE JOHNS ARE ACTUALLY IN. EXCITING TIMES. (I know Flans said they’d be releasing one soon but it was like a month and a half ago or something that he said it so I’d half-forgotten about it honestly.)

So I have THINGS TO SAY. First of all, it’s WEIRD AS FUCK which is EXACTLY WHAT A TMBG VIDEO SHOULD BE and so I kind of love it. The Johns should have been in it more though! FUCK THOSE OTHER PEOPLE. Really it was rather disconcerting to see them in a video with other people like that (I know there are other people in some of the old Direct from Brooklyn videos too, but  never as prominently as in this one).

And then also, you know I gotta talk about it and so I will do what’s expected of me: Ughhhhhhhhh they must’ve filmed this right after John got his hair cut cos it was still in the stage where it looked COMPLETELY FUCKING AWFUL (like it still looks bad now but it looks somewhat better cos it’s grown out some by now). Goddammit John why you gotta do this to me whyyyyyyyyyyyyy?

My friend Ant pointed out the parallels to the “Ana Ng” video, which I somehow hadn’t noticed but seems rather obvious now. So that’s cool.

So basically I’m REALLY FUCKING EXCITED, other than being mad about John’s stupid hair. I already sent Flans an ask telling him how exciting it is that they’re in it and that they should pleeeeeeeease make more videos they’re actually in.

[infartoomanyfandoms]

Failsafe

Uh oh

"At least you admit she's evil" yes Catra get her

The way Catra calms down immediately at Adora's touch 😭

Low-key kind of love the SW & Casta dynamic afgfsfhk

Adora's hand is still there 🥺

Please get your hands off Adora

Catra in the background

Yeah that's understandable

Stop touching her

SPINNERELLA AND NETOSSA KISSING ON THE TITLE CARD HELL YES

Catra 🥺

"You have to go and save the world. Spare me the speech." I love them being soft and understanding each other

The hAND HOLDING

"Not because I like you" 😏 Melog says otherwise too!!

Entrapta!!!

Micah!

YOU DON'T GET TO TOUCH HER

The way Catra is immediately terrified

"Don't touch me!!" Tell her Catra!!!

What's happened to She-Ra??

I like that Swift Wind knows he can't stop her at all 🤣

Catra still being jumpy at contact, even from Adora, - god I hate shadow weaver so much

The way Catra's looking at SWs hands and not at her

dISTURBANCE!!!?! IT WAS YOUR FAULT!!!!

"This isn't about tech, this is about our chipped friends." 😭😭😭

Swifty is so stressed

Yessss!!!!!

Oh no. I hope that's Hordak

"ADORA!!" 😭😭😭

"Did you just jump into fire for me?" Her face!!!!! AHAHHSASDFGH "What. No. Shut up!!" The blushing

CASTASPELLA IN THE BACKGROUND AHHAHAHA SHE KNOWS WHAT'S UP

"I see you and Catra are close again" why are you bringing that up?

Ughhhhhhhhh because you're you, right, I forgot

"It's none of your business" tell her Adora!!

"Haven't you hurt each other enough" uGH STOP WITH THIS MANIPULATIVE BULLSHIT

Listen I was so angry at her for the first few seasons when she was around Catra. I didn't mind her so much when she was at Bright Moon doing gardening or whatever but now she's being an inSUFFERABLE BITCH to Catra and Adora AGAIN!!! Leave them alone, you've made their lives hard enough already

Catra!!

It is Hordak!!!!!

"Remember. Your imperfections are beautiful." I love her so much 😭😭😭

I'm not a fan of SW touching Catra or Adora please don't

sTOP IT LOOK HOW ANXIOUS ADORA LOOKS. STOP

Catra stopping her, wow

Melog is annnngry

She's so smart!! And I love her being protective of Adora

stOP TOUCHING HER OH MY GOD IT'S ALWAYS THE HAND ON THE FACE WHEN YOU'RE BEING MANIPULATIVE

I don't like this

Please be careful Adora

Catra 🥺😭😭

The trembling hands

Micah

Oof and this is the first time Glimmer gets to talk to her dad again oUCH

Nearly Adora!!

"Adora please! It doesn't always have to be you! ADORA!!!"

MICAH!!!!

GOOSEBUMPS!!!!!!

Catra's tears 😭

Aw Entrapta

Glimmbow!!

Catra 🥺

Adora's hair 🥺🥺🥺

Catra that was Shadow Weaver, not Adora

"Why are you like this? Why do you always have to sacrifice everything for everyone else? When do you get to choose? What do you want Adora?" And the tears. oUch!! No one's asked her that before!! And she was struggling with being made She-Ra and having a destiny she didn't want so it's really powerful that Catra asked that one specific question. I can't quite articulate everything this scene makes me feel but wow it's so well done

Catra of course she wants you and needs you

She always has!!

"CATRA!!!" ow

SHADOW WEAVER I DARE YOU TO TOUCH HER FUCKING FACE ONE MORE TIME!! I STG I WILL REACH THROUGH THE SCREEN AND BITCHSLAP YOU sTOP

YES ADORA TELL HER

[jcmorgenstern]

Do you have any theories on what Lilith's and Sebastian's dynamic will be like in s3? She obviously cares about him but then again Sebastian says she had a 'strange way of showing her love'. He recalls surviving torture in Edom by clinging to his memories of freedom, so it's not like he was okay there. Lilith either didn't save Sebastian from being disfigured, she let the other demons hurt him or she did it herself (to make him stronger or whatever). Im so hyped about those two!

Yeah so….not gonna lie this is sort of a Problem for me, because Lilith is gonna have to do like, god-tier levels of gaslighting to convince him “oh sweetie uh, that was er uh, a mmmm,,,mistake?? mommy really loves you even if you don’t uhh, actually have skin anymore. whoops.” I’m actually sort of…worried about how they might resolve that, because er, the show doesn’t always have the best track record with being super self-consistent, but it could also be really interesting?? He also calls her “awful” or something, but I think it’s difficult to separate what he was saying about Jocelyn from what he was saying about Lilith. Like, I’m guessing he got the same “your mother left us because you’re a monster” treatment from show Valentine as he did from book Valentine, so there’s that. Also, Jocelyn was 100% down to mcfucking murder him with a crossbow too, so there’s That.My guess is she’ll be a combination of like, manipulative and,,,,loving in a way?? but also controlling and…..oh boy I can already smell the mindfuck. He is her only son. In the mythos all she ever wanted was a child. So like, she’s gonna bend heaven and earth to get him back and considering Valentine and Jocelyn were 100% down to kill him thats. Pretty good as Jonathan’s luck with parental figures goes. So unless they go for an angle where for some reason she couldn’t help him in Edom he’s gonna have some major fucking cognitive dissonance going on. Especially if she was also the one to teach him how his powers work, but I have a weird feeling Asmodeus and Lilith may be at odds and she may blame whatever happened on Asmodeus, sort of connecting the Asmodeus&Magnus arc it seems we’re getting in Edom. Also, Asmodeus fucking hated Sebastian in the books, which never ceases to amuse me.I’m guessing she’ll give him Sebastian’s body permanently because a) Will b) he’s ridiculously OP if they keep the shapeshifting thing. Like, unless there’s some sort of limitation they haven’t mentioned yet it just opens up millions of plot holes and makes him pretty much impossible to track down, etc etc. And that, combined with bringing him back and “giving” him Jace, who will probably the closest fucked up thing he’s had to family, will probably make him pretty happy. And if I had to guess they’ll keep up the Clary plotline (ughhhhhhhhh) and Lilith will be like “she’ll love you and accept you, I promise” but at the very least it will be the family that Valentine promised him and. Wow! I’m fine!! (Alternately he’ll be like “anyway Clary has to die” and the drama will come from that but….who knows).It’s also possible they’ll go a different route and make him much more her pawn, ie completely manipulated and or coerced, but honestly that’s very unlikely and a bit boring like, at some point he will have to take over as a villain and if his only motivation is just “because she said so” it won’t be very interesting. But if he does feel she is the only one who cares for him and doing whatever she wants will make her happy. So she really will probably represent him “embracing his demon nature” whatever that means and going from Angery Crispy Boy to Dickass Crispy Boy. Either way, I hope he gets a major wardrobe update, because castoff Gap 2004 isn’t doing it for me. (Sorry to the wardrobe department. But I need turtlenecks and dramatic wool coats, damn it!)Either way his only appearance in 3a so far has literally just been him cockblocking poor Clary and Jace and not-quite-literally busting in on them to just yell “KILL HER” so uhhhhhhhh sign me the fuck up I laughed so goddamn hard like….he apparently objected to this so much he couldn’t even think of anything better to say and went straight to DEATH.Anyway Sebastian will soon be able to add “Mommy Issues” as well as “Daddy Issues” to his resume and I, for one, am very proud that he’s at least thorough.

[talesfromacrip]

septiembre thoughts:

I’ve been, really down lately. not showing it much, but I am.

there are other important matters to deal with than my constant irrelevant life occurrences. (imo)

I can bring them up, sure, but I don’t want it to always be about me..

I can barely hold a conversation and when I do, I just, act like a dumbass.. without a single care in the world when I’m having a plethora it seems.

I ache to let it out but I hold it in. makes me an asshole in the process bc I get moody from it.. be it a bit mad or just plain ol’ sad. it’s not even from anyone but me.. internalized ableism is truly a bitch and it makes other things/thoughts spiral

I don’t ask anyone else whats wrong and all nowadays.. I feel like they think I don’t care about them when I do so fucking much

if I do, ask em, then it’ll come down to me.. like, it makes me incredibly anxious to think and all. there’s, so much to explain yet little time with some being busy and I’m just, here being in the way. adding more weight on top of the pile

-

I feel so empty when I get up from dreams I have with someone I’ll just, never be with.

my mind loves to play these games with me. almost every night or other depending on how I’m feeling. they make me wake up crying or just plain sad. I care about them so much,but I’m just, not good enough and I know I’ll never be. if only I can get rid of dreams. they make life, interesting to an extent which I’m kinda happy about but fuck, how annoying at times

I’m glad they care about me though but I don’t think it’s the way I do and probably will never be. if only I wasn’t in such deep shit when we met maybe things would be, better? I was, in a different mindset though and I wouldn’t want it back at all..

either way, it’s so silly to think about.. pshhh, I’m sure they want a future with me. out of all the other abled and ‘beautiful’ people, me? yeahhhh. I can only dream, which is very exhausting yet very exhilarating, mmm

I can’t share it with them, these.. dreams. we sort of did before, but that was differentish sort of time. it’s a bit embarrassing tbh. pretty deep and Idont want to scare anyone away or ruin something like always with my ‘unpleasant’ thoughts

-

I feel so lonely and tired.. daily. 24/7 on this train of life?

even if I’m surrounded by the same, lovely small group of friends.. I’m still just, so lonely.

I know I’m not in some ways,but it just feels like that. I feel like, I’ll just grow to be a lonely ass loser bc of my conditions. it’s a lot for anyone to handle.. or so I’ve been told

I keep going to sleep at super late times and waking up when it’s after 3-4. sometimes being woken up earlier if someone has to do errand. I feel so exhausted and the pain varies daily within my body. so, that also affects my mood..

my insomnia is getting worse it seems and I don’t think my pills are working they way they should anymore when it comes to knocking my ass out..

they are in ways but in others I feel, hopeless. I might have to up my prescription or not, but we’ll see come appointment day and all

I think I’m suffering from something other than just anxiety, depression and slight ptsd.. time will tell as I’ve said, hopefully, whats wrong with me.. some days I just don’t feel like myself and all and I just, want to go away to somewhere where I won’t bother anyone ever. it’s, tiring but I must know or else I’ll truly go insane i feel whic, I don’t want to burden on anyone

-

I’m worried about my dog and dad with their health issues, even my mom.. what am I gonna do when they’re gone?? there is always somethings bad happening it seems every damn week. I know I can’t control it, but what am I going to if it does come down to that?? where am I gonna go? who’s gonna take care of me??

I feel like I’m getting abandoned or that I will be. that I’ll left behind on some days bc it’s too much.. I’m ‘too much’ it’s ridiculous

I shouldn’t be thinking about this but I am. they’re all I have and then no one after. I- I’m so lost , sighhhhh😪

-

I’m sexually frustrated and there’s absolutely nothing I can do ,but linger and lie in my own reckless thoughts.

I can’t touch myself as some may think I doand I’m not gonna ask for help with this bc I’m an annoying fuck of a person imo.

like, I’m just left here. sitting and trying so hard at times to not think about these thoughts. it’s a bit difficult though and I hate it. especially with someone I know is just, wayyy out of my league.. I, think they feel the same but I don’t know and I’m deathly afraid to even ask.

the old ableist sort of mindset I had made me sick yet it made me a courageous lil bitch. I’m, slowly trying to get that attitude back and without the help of being on my liquid grape death line

these thoughts hurt me more than ever though tbh.. I get so embarrassed trying to even say anything like that. it’s natural to be like this but at this level when I was never?? makes my heart race faster than my chair

well, I know why but it just makes me so sad and angry a bit. sad I cannot do anything I’d like and making it up in scenarios doesn’t do it right.. it does but I want more and to not be able to do that, makes me start to get angry. at myself that is. so, I stop and then I make things awkward it seems as always when I’m trying not to be. I’m not even experienced in this field much and I act like I am. maybe? but who knows

sometimes I’m not even sexually frustrated.

it’s just the urge to be held and hold someone close. (actually hold someone and not the way I do now..) just, feel their warmth and soft heartbeat as I lay on them gently to sleep.. mm I’ll, never have that. all the, lovey romantic bits and all that everyone daydreams about.. I can’t do or barely..

makes me cry

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I feel disgusted at my own body and I want to scream. not gonna bc I don’t want to hurt my throat and fuck up my singing which helps me calm down and me myself. anyways,,,

I can’t look at myself in the mirror and i hate how big it is.. when I get into my room, it’s right there.

I can’t avoid it and when I do, I still end up seeing it or myself that is. I can’t close my eyes or even cover. not gonna run into anything but my image it seems.

I’m not, cute or anything of the sort.. every time I get told that I get so flustered and say something mean it seems when I’m not.

I would get compliments but some where not so generous..

I don’t want to ask as well every time if it is but it’s hard to tell.

even with genuine people

when I look at myself in the mirror, I don’t feel that. I just feel the bad comments and I can’t help that.. believe me, I want to try and make myself believe I’m beautiful and all. just, not going so well and it’s not a topic you want to bring up or can so easily.

every one of my friends are gorgeous, extremely handsome. just,plain beautiful beings. me? idk, maybe but it doesn’t seem like that. feels like I’m full of myself. people of plus size being aren’t held up to that and if it is, it some sort of fetish.

it’s pretty hard for me to tell who’s being genuine I swear. it’s fucking awful but it’s not my fault I was made fun of. couldn’t even fight back and if I did I’d be in some serious trouble or possibly in the hospital or dead .-.

ughhhhhhhhh

I’ve already descibed some of my bdd issues which I know no one read and knows much besides my therapist and case workers ._.

[luninosity]

I read your Midwinter original fic in one sitting and ughhhhhhhhh! This is the first yime in forever I feel giddy and eccited about the story again, and my heart dings in anticipayion of updates. Your writing, god, SO GOOD and it makes me so warm and god I love just reading your stuff, but these two characters, and the demon twist, and ughhhhhh and did I say that I love your characterization of everything including inanimate objects? SO. GOOD. I wish you every inspiration and good luck with it!

Oh, wow! *twirls you around* I am so hoping people like this one - I mean, I like these boys and this story, but I’ve been writing them for so long that I’ve probably lost perspective, and it’s a story with a lot going on: Midwinter, music, demons, rock and roll, awful soon-to-be-ex-boyfriends, family, falling in love...

SO YAY THANK YOU!

I’ll try to maybe even post more of it today (today or tomorrow, depending on how grading goes, unless I just decide to do it first), but in the meantime, want a preview? This is right after the Bad Things happen (offscreen, obviously, given the POV we’re in; we’re getting the aftermath....)

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“You’resafe,” Kris said, “you’re safe, you’re fine, you got away—” and then held out a hand, not knowing what else to do,not wanting to touch without asking, but—

 Justinreached out. Put fingers into his hand: tentative but full of need, a flowerstraining toward cloudy-day sun.

 Kriscurled fingers around his in response—gently, gently, no pressure in his grip,like holding a precious eggshell, a glass snowdrop, a tear—and said, “You didget away. That’s—that means he’s even more wrong. About you.”

 “Aboutme?”

 “Youcould’ve done things to him. You can…” He hunted for words that wouldn’t bite.“Summon things. Push things. Teleport people. You could’ve done any of that. Tohim. But you didn’t. You ran.”

 “BecauseI’m scared.” Justin shut his eyes. “Like I told you. Scared of everything.”

 “Oh fuck no,” Kris said, angry now: at David, atthe situation, at his own inadequacy. “No. Listen. It’s not being a—a coward orwhatever—when you’re stronger than he is. And you know it. If you’d fought backyou would’ve hurt him. And that’s not you. You don’t hurt anyone.”

[tellywoodtrash]

ishqbaaz 10.07.17 lb

from now on, expect the lb to be published around this time. coz i fully have to take a 2 hour nap to prepare myself for these one hour episodes. lord, they better be worth it! GIVE ME MY BROTP MOMENTS (obros, bhaujai/bulbul, aniRuKara, ShivRi) AND I’LL TOLERATE ANYTHING!!!!!! 

ok let’s doooooooo this! *cracking knuckles*

plain text version here. 

it would have been nice if you’d informed RAGINI of this decision of yours... 😗😗😗

interesting how he just keeps saying ENGAGEMENT, and nothing about what usually follows an engagement... 😐😐😐

lmao oh man i just can’t stop laughing at ragini’s reaction. she’s seriously likeeee BISH WHUT IS EVEN HAPPENING? IS THIS A PRANK SHOW? IS CYRUS BROACHA GONNA COME OUT AND YELL BAKRAAAAAA AT ME? 😟😟😟

lololololololol everyyyyyyyy woman shivaay decides to marry has the same reaction: “.... shit. 😬😬😬” 

saved by the belllllllllll.... yas girl, you go out on your date! 😙😙😙

lmao his face. fucking idiot. what did he think, she’d instantly collapse and run into his arms at this stunt of his? 🙄🙄🙄

shivaay is having some seeeeeeeerious buyer’s remorse right now. ragini is one item that the return policy is going to prove to be veryyyyyyy tough for. 🙃🙃🙃

pinky does not know how to read the room. at all. 😑😑😑

shakti/jhanvi and (surprisingly) bhavya’s silent rage tho. 😯😯😯

shakti is trying to dad, but beta is too out of it. 😔😔😔

i think ragini is already regretting this whole thing. lmao, we all have those crushes which are way better in our head, coz the reality could never live up to it. this is one of them. she just liked looking at his kanji eyes!!!!!!!!! and now she has to deal with the whole crazy khaandaan that comes with him. 😆😆😆

anikaaaa, baby. no cryyyyyyyyyyyyy. 😪😪😪

LMAO “PYAAAR”, anika’s brain is like 0 - 200 in 3 seconds. 🙄🙄🙄

haan bas ring ko dekhta reh. fucking idiot. 😒😒😒

ok yeah, i like ragini too now. poor, hilarious, slightly off her rocker but in a kooky way, ragini. 😊😊😊

i’m glad they made ragini more likable. i hate hating on female characters. hating pinky itself is exhausting. 😖😖😖

ooooooooooh, GHARWAALI V/S BAAHARWAALI. 😧😧😧

don’t underestimate our girl here. she’s not your “typical housewife”. 😏😏😏

oh anika... why the “tum jaisi ladki” nonsense???? you don’t even know her. she might end up to be a good one, in the end. like tia did. 😌😌😌

ooooooh snap! point ragini! 😯😯😯

lol ragini is going all tia-ish on shivaay with “destiny” and shiz. 😕😕😕

ooooop. sapnaaaaaaaa meraaaaaaa toooooot gayaaaaaa. 😥😥😥

thank god this hot mess of a man did the right thing FOR ONCE and cleared it up though. not that it’s going to be of any use. coz ragini is gonna make sure this gets out into the press and becomes a big thing and shivaay’s going to be dragged into this kicking and screaming. 😬😬😬

quickkkkkkkk recovery. impressive, girl! veryyyyy impressive! 👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽

she’s never going to wash that shoulder again. 😆😆😆

anika, why are you still in the damn house? go for your date, idiot. like at least go out and pretend to be on it. so that he burnsssss in his agony for a few hours. 😈😈😈

ouff again kamra and ghar waale issues. why don’t you just pee around the room to mark your territory, you idiots? pfffffffft. 🙄🙄🙄

daaaaaaaamn, anika not in the mood to take ANY shit. basically told him to go fuck himself. i can feel my skin instantly clearing up at her sass. 😇😇😇

OMG ANIKA. YOU ON FIRE. KILL HIM, SIS. FUCKING SLIT HIS THROAT AND DRINK HIS BLOOD! 😈😈😈

“bataane ki zaroorat nahi hai, mujhe pehle se hi sab kuch pata hai.”

because he’s been stalking you, idiot girl. get the hint. 😚😚😚

TOO MUCH FARAQ-ING, NOT ENOUGH FUCKING. THAT’S YOUR PROBLEM KIDS. JUST HAVE SEX ALREADY. 😒😒😒

“achcha? aap move on ho chuke hai? ab MOVE OUT bhi ho jaaiye.” 

*actually, physically throws him out of his own fucking room* 

OMFG YOUGAIZ, I THOUGHT I WAS IN LOVE WITH ANIKA BEFORE, BUT NOW I KNOW THAT WHAT I USED TO FEEL FOR HER ARE LITTLE BABY FEELINGS OF LIKE. WHAT I’M FEELING RIGHT NOW, THIS IS WHAT LOVE IS. JESUS CHRIST, WHAT A GIRL. WHAT A FUCKING GIRL. AN ICON. A GODDESS. I CAN’T BELIEVE I’M WITNESSING THIS WITH MY OWN TWO EYES IN THE YEAR OF OUR LORD TWO THOUSAND AND SEVENTEEN. #BLESSED 🙌🏽🙌🏽🙌🏽

aw man, his hurt face. but also his disbelief that she actually fucking threw him out of his own fucking room. i’m just sitting here making weird, inhuman, half-laughing, half-crying snuffly noises. 😭😭😭😭😭

gauri kumari sharma, trying to escape this actual hellhole once again... but... 😕😕😕

what horrible dubbing. horrible horrible dubbing. it sounds like kunal is talking from fucking underwater. 😑😑😑

“aur agar main kahoon mat jao? RUK JAO?”

“KYUN?” 

yaaaaaaaaas, askkkk him, queen. QUESTION HIM. 😌😌😌

yehhhhhhhhh pakdaaaaaaa. 😍😍😍

why does she have a large... tinsel, rakhi type thing hanging from her kangans? 🤔🤔🤔

“MUJHE MERI GALTIYON KA EHSAAS HO GAYA HAI. I’M SORRY.”

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAS. 😭😭😭😭😭

gauri, my queen. my perfect, beautiful, flawless queen. 👸🏽👸🏽👸🏽

RETURN OF OLD, CALM, SORTED, RATIONAL OMKARA. 😯😯😯😭😭😭🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽

haha awwwwwww gauri. 😘😘😘

“yeh MERA ghar hai???” lmaooooooooo oh omki. you adorable fucking pupppyyyyy. 💗💗💗

oh ho, i’m so not interested in rudra’s plot with bhavya. like, i love rudra, and i can tolerate bhavya in the bg reacting to things, but as a couple, ughhhhhhhhh. 😫😫😫

lmao typicalllll rudra move. remember when sumo kept trying to tell him about romi, and he just wouldn’t listen, and then he blamed her for not telling him???? stupid boy. 🙄🙄🙄

“sarvGUN sampoorn bahuuuuu”, lollllll. 😂😂😂

the weird dramatic music so doesn’t go with the comic nature of the scene? 🤔🤔🤔

why does he keep saying “COP” like it’s a dirty word?? 😕😕😕

i mean, cops are fucking dirty... but still... 😐😐😐

ouffffffffffffff, emoshunnnnnnnnnnn. 😫😫😫

whatever, i still feel NOTHING for these two. 🙄🙄🙄

haaaaaaaye, my three fucking idiots, all together. 👶🏽👶🏽👶🏽 aankhein taras gayii thiiiiii. 

snorttttttttt “SHUT UP RUDRA!!!!!!!!” before he even saiddd anything. 😂😂😂

oh yeah, and you being an asshole had ABSOOOOOOLUTELY nothing to do with getting thrown out, eh? 😆😆😆

YAAAAAAAAAAS BHAUJAAAI VENTING TO BULBUL!!!! 😚😚😚 (and bhavya, but lbr who cares about her?) 

lmaoooo, anika’s thesis on FARAQ (and steamrolling all over poor gauri.) 😂😂😂

oh yeh lo, idhar yeh bhi lecture de raha hai on the topic du jour. 🙄🙄🙄

dimaag ho, toh nikaal sakte the. you seem to be sharing one dimaag between the three of you. imbeciles. 😒😒😒

bhauuuujaiiiii and bulbulllllllll are sharinggggg vocabularyyyyyyy!!!!!! I LOVEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 😍😍😍😍

so, established that rudra’s birthday is 10th july. he’s a cancerian. 

funny, i’d have pegged om to be the cancerian. oh well. 😗😗😗

EW WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS “LAUNDE HAI KAMAAL KE” THING NOW???? I’D JUST GOTTEN USED TO DIL BOLE OBEROI AFTER ONE WHOLE FUCKING YEAR AND YOU FUCKERS GO AND SPRING THIS NEW MICHMICHI WAALA SLOGAN ON ME? THE FUCKKKK. 😫😫😫😫😫😫😫

naaaaaariiiii sssssakti jindaaabaaaaaad! 👯🏽👯🏽👯🏽

god i love gauri so much. she’s too fucking cute to be real. 😚😚😚

lmaooooooo everyone got messages, but NEITHER GROUP INVITED PINKY. FUCKING BESTTTTTTTT. 😆😆😆

damnnnn, jhanvi looks so fucking amazing. 😯😯😯

my godddddddddd, pinky, way to make even THIS about you. victim complex mein post-doctoral kar rakha hai pinky ne. 😣😣😣

“party kam, PARTITION zyaada lag raha hai mujhe.”

snort. tej made a funnnnyyyy. 😆😆😆

ok not laughing at your jokes, you fucking wife burner. 😒😒😒 

(headcanon: advay singh raizada took arson lessons from tej.) 

ouff do i have to watch this stupid cheesy cake nonsense? really? i’m already tireddddddd. 😖😖😖

23. we finally have an age for rudra. 🙌🏽🙌🏽🙌🏽

and how old is bhavya supposed to be again? 🤔🤔🤔

WHY IS THE BIRTHDAY BOY WEARING CLOTHES THAT HAVE BEEN EATEN BY RATS????????? 😐😐😐

also, ouff, such old fashioned birthday song. we have newer options (+more rudra-appropriate), you know? 😊😊😊

*hissing* “rudra, yahaaan aa. 2 v/s 3 ho raha hai, and it’s not fair!”

businessman of the year, and grownass adult, shivaay singh oberoi, everyone!!!! (fuckinggggggg petty idiot.) 😂😂😂😂

awww the girls got rudyyyy a “peeeroteen jyaada aur meetha kam” cake! 💖💖💖

oh boy, om had a hand in making the cake too? *looks at it warily* 😬😬😬

“haan gaana koi bhi gaa sakta hai.... lekin sun sab nahi sakte na... aur khaas kar aap gaaye toh...” hahahahaha 😂😂😂

gauri patting anika’s arm to console her. ughhhhhhh. i love these two together sooooooooo much. 😍😍😍

pft, om ab tum KHOON AUR KHAANDAAN ke baare mein shuru mat ho jaana. 😒😒😒

“WHAT’S GOING ONNNNNNN?” tej is me. i am tej. 

... what’s wrong with that cake? just the icing is a little messed up. why would you still not eat it???? ugh, rich ppl. 😑😑😑

lollllllll rudraaaaa, dhokebaaaaaaaz, dil bole oberoi, kamaal launde whatever my assss. cake khaane ke liye bhool gaya bhaichaara. 😆😆😆

OK SHIVAAY, I’VE TOLERATED A LOT OF YOUR BS, BUT CAKE MUTILATION???????? A WHOLE NEW LOW FOR YOU, FUCKER. A WHOLEEEEEEEEE NEW LOW. 😡😡😡

lol omRu’s faces at this totally extra alpha male garbage. 😂😂😂

the devranis are vaguely uncomfortable with shivaay’s suggestive frosting licking, looking straight at anika. 😆😆😆

anika: “BHAVYA!!!!!!!!!! INHE ARREST KARO! ABHI KE ABHI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!” bhavya: *equally mad* “HUM TOH KAR LETE! LEKIN INDIAN PENAL CODE MEIN CAKE KA KHOON KARNE KI KOI SAZAA HI NAHI HAI, KAMBAKHT!!!!!!!”

lmaoooooooooooooooooo 😂😂😂😂

neither of the cakes was this colour or consistency? yeh teesra cake kahaan se? HOW MANY CAKES DID YOU ASSHOLES DESTROY TO SHOOT THIS FUCKING SCENE????? THERE ARE PEOPLE SUFFERING IN THIS WORLD (ME), CAKE-LESS! 😫😫😫

“jeeee baaaaaaaaaaat bhaujaaaaaaaai! bahut bol rahe the bade bhaiyya!” 

lmao oh bulbul. tumse yeh umeed nahi thi! yours was the brOTP i placed about allllll others in this houseeee. 😌😌😌

billu, if you had the slightest bit of sense in your head, you’d pull a holi reprise and smear her back all sexy and shit. but you dumb as fuckkkkkkkkk, so..... 😒😒😒

ok he’s still maarofying chance and feeling her face up all sexily. good. not aaaaaaaas dumb as he looks. 😎😎😎

OMG SMUG KISSY FACE. 😧😧😧

lol anika’s ‘fuckkkk off and die’ face at it, though. 😂😂😂

bulbul decided why should bhaujaiiii have all the fun? 😊😊

haha, cake wali holi. omg whyyyyyyyyyyyyy is she so fucking cuteeeeee? 😍😍😍

pinky and tej be like *maya sarabhai voice* GOD, THIS IS SO MIDDLE CLASS! 😆😆😆

i like that bhavya’s (seems to be???) stronger/better than rudra. 😊😊😊

lmao omg she was fully going to kick his ass if om hadn’t intervened. 😂😂😂

jungleeeee bachche toh hamesha se the. bas, this is the healthiest way this has manifested in this show ever. 😐😐😐

ok fwding this buddhon ka nonsense. don’t care. 🙄🙄🙄

pinky feeling ostracized. i don’t feel sorry for her at all though. 😑😑😑

ouff, ok, we get it. happyyyy happppy happppppppy. fwding. ⏩⏩⏩

i am happiest for om-gauriiiiiiii, who look so genuinely happy and like they’re having funnnnnnnn. aw. my babies. 💖💖💖💖 *smooshes them* 

ooooooooooh. OOOOOOOOOOOOH. BILLU IS QUITE POSSESSIVELY AND HAQ SE MAKING A MOVE ON ANIKA. 😯😯😯

LICK THE CAKE OFF EACH OTHER, YOU IDIOTS. YOU KNOW YOU FUCKING WANT TO. 😏😏😏

i quite like this dimming lights effect in o jaana moments, to signify that the world outside the two of them ceases to exist for each other. 😌😌😌

lo aaa gayi, cake mein haddi. 😶😶😶

no wonder shivaay and gauri love each other so much. both are EXTRA AF. 🙃🙃🙃

“apni apni waali ko uthaao, aur kamre mein leke jaao!” 

dadi be progressive (and kinky) as fuckkkkkkkk. 😯😯😯

haaaaaaaaaye. my boyssssss. and their girlsssssss. 😍😍😍 

ugh, and bhavya. 🙄🙄🙄

WHAT EVEN IS THIS FAMILY?????????? 😟😟😟

pfffffffft, bewakoof toh tum teeno ho. awwal number ke. premium grade. best in the country. 🙄🙄🙄

“tum log humaara WOH bana rahe ho.” “papppu?” “haan, same thing.” *muttering* “banaaye hue ko aur kitna banana?” 

anika’s snark is what powers me through life. 🙃🙃🙃

ooooop. things got super serious super suddenly. 😶😶😶

pfffffffft, coordinated and choreographed moving. totalllllly natural and human like. 🙄🙄🙄

eeeeeeeeeee, faraqqqqqqqq games continueeeee tomorrrrrow. wet billu’s getting alll up and sexyyyyyyyyy on my girl. 😏😏😏 

[pendulumprince]

TIME FOR EPISODE ONE ONE ONE!

After the opening!

EDO GOES IN FOR THE ATTACK

BUT OUR YOUNG TOMATO MANAGES TO GRAB AN ACTION CARD BEFORE THE ATTACK CONNECTS!

THIS GREATLY ANNOYS EDO, WHO HAS NO CHOICE BUT TO END HIS TURN!

HOW SPLENDID!

So the girls discuss Edo’s trap

But Grace seems to think he can do it!

Noru, on the other hand, has a MIGHTY NEED to see Edo defeated

He is sweating profusely at the thought of his position being undermined

(BTW I finally learned everybody’s names! Aren’t you proud of me? c:)

Meanwhile, yuya and Yuto exchange some talks

Yuto tells Yuya to give up on saving Edo’s soul from Leo’s clutches

BUT YUYA WON’T GIVE UP

HE’S THE MOST STUBBORN SON OF A BITCH EVER IN LIFE

SO HE TAKES HIS TURN, AND—!

Holds up his pendulum

TRIES TO HYPNOTIZE HIM INTO SUBMITTING

EDO ISN’T FALLING FOR IT

YUYA GOES IN FOR THE PENDULUM SUMMON

BRINGS PSUDO!YUSHO AND ODD EYES

RELEASES THEM BOTH

SUMMONS A 2500 ATK MONSTER THAT ALSO SORT OF LOOKS LIKE HIS POPS?? JUST WITH PURPLE HAIR???

YUYA GOES IN FOR THE ATTACK!

EDO’S TRAP BRINGS DYSTOPIAGUY’S ATTACK UP BY 100!

YUYA INCREASES HIS OWN MONSTER’S ATK POWER BY 1000 IN TURN!

SO IT’S 3000 VS 3500

EDO, FOR SOME REASON, DECIDES TO ATTACK ANYWAY

THIS ACTIVATES YUYA’S TRAP

HE SENDS THE ATTACK BACK IN EDO’S DIRECTION

AND YUAY’S MONSTER ATTACKS EDO BY EFFECT

BRINGING HIM DOWN TO 3100 LP

HIS MONSTER GOES BACK DOWN TO 2500 LP

ENDS HIS TURN!

Edo’s still trying to convince Yuya his father’s style is shit

Yuya won’t accept it

MMM FLASHBACK TIME!

TO WHEN HE DUELED YUSHO

EDO ATTACKED YUSHO DIRECTLY!

YUSHO FALLS TO THE GROUND, AND—

He’s looking down at his leg

Sadly.

Fuuuuuuuck my dude

I mean, I’m glad to see him finally showing some emotion other than happy, but it still hurts

Edo, naturally, takes a moment to gloat

They exchange some serious words about dueling and fun and Yusho already looks like he feels sorry for the poor bastard

BUT YUSHO GETS BACK UP AND PLAYS SMILE WORLD

HE SUMMONS SKY MAGICIAN AND THERE’S SMILY FACES FLOATING EVERYWHERE AND FIREWORKS AND DAMN THIS DUDE IS CHEESY AS HELL

Back to the present!

Edo is still stuck in his ignorant, genocidal ways

HE TAKES HIS TURN!

GOES IN FOR THE ATTACK!

Yuya tries to go in for an action card

BUT EDO TUGS ON THE ROPE CONNECTING HIM AND YUYA

CAUSING HIM TO FALL AND MISS IT??

Damn Edo that’s some dirty shit right there

Yuya’s down to 100 LP

Even the Tyler sisters look like they don’t approve

BOWL CUT IS SIMILARLY DEVESTATED

EDO SETS A FACE DOWN, ENDS HIS TURN

BUT FOR YUYA, THE FUN HAS JUST BEGUN (AND ALL THAT JAZZ)

YUYA TAKES HS TURN!

DRAWS!

AND IT’S SMILE WORLD AHAHAHAHAHA

GRACE AND NORU ARE OVERJOYED (though not for the same reasons)

GLORIA IS ANNOYED AT THEM BOTH, FOR DAMN GOOD REASON

YUYA INCREASES HIS PENDULUM ZONE FROM 4 TO 10

ANOTHER PENDULUM SUMMON, COMING YOUR WAY!

EDO IS FREAKING OUT??

YUYA IS CALM AS HELL, JUST LIKE I WANNA SEE HIM

YUYA BRINGS BACK ALL THREE OF THE MONSTERS HE USED DURING THE DUEL: ODD EYES, PSUEDO!YUSHO AND PURPLE!YUSHO

YUYA PLAYS A MAGIC CARD!

AND… HE GIVES PSUEDO!YUSHO AND ODD EYES TO EDO??

LOL OKAY BRUH

YUYA PLAYS SMILE WORLD!

THE ABSOLUTE BAIN OF EDO’S EXISTENCE!

EVERY MONSTER ON THE FIELD STARTS SMILING ADN WHATNOT

EVEN FUCKING DYSTOPIA GUY

THE MORE SMILES HE’S DSURROUNDED BY, THE MORE INDIGNANT EDO BECOMES

EVERY MONSTER ON THE FIELD STARTS GIGGLING

EDO ACTIVATES DYSTOPIAN GUY’S EFFECT, WHICH WOULD DESTROY PURPLE!YUSHO

YUYA GOES IN FOR THE ACTION CARD

EDO TRIES TO PULL HIS SAME DITY TRICK FROM LAST TIME

HIM PULLING ACTUALLY ENDS UP HELPING YUYA, SO HE SENDS A CARD TO THE GRAVE TO GET RID OF THE FIELD SPELL

PURPLE!YUSHO GOES DOWN

YUYA’S STILL RUNNING AROUND AND WHATNOT

BUT EVERYTHING DISAPPEARS

EDO GRABS THE ACTION CARD HIMSELF

SOMEONE OUGHT TO POP THIS DUDE IN THE MOUTH

AT LEAST WE HAVE A SHOT OF YUSHO LAUGHING RANCOROUSLY AT HIM

EDO THINKS HE’S WON, BUT WAIT! THERE’S MORE!

YUYA IS ABLE TO DRAW ANOTHER CARD? SOMEHOW?

HE BRINGS OUT BRAVE EYES AT 3000 ATK

AND ALL THREE MONSTERS ON EDO’S SIDE OF THE FIELD GO TO 0 ATK

BRAVE EYES, DUE TO IT’S EFFECT, GOES UP TO 3300 ATK

YUYA GOES IN TO ATTACK DYSTOPIAGUY

WHAT’S GONNA HAPPEN

EDO THINKS BACK TO HIS DUEL WITH THE 40 YEAR OLD CLOWN

BACK TO THE PRESENT, HE ACTIVATES A TRAP!

DYSTOPIA GUY GOES UP BY 100 ATK

AND ANOTHER TRAP IS ACTIVATED!

DYSTOPIA GUY GOES UP TO 1700 ATK

AND EDO PLAYS THAT ACTION CARD HE STOLE FROM YUYA

DYSTOPIA GUY GOES UP TO 3400 ATK

YUYA STARTS RUNNING AROUND FOR AN ACTION CARD

YUYA TRIPS, TUMBLES, AND PLAYS THE ACTION CARD HE DREW!

THIS… AMUSES EDO?!

WAS THAT A SMILE I SEE ON YOUR FACE, GOOD SIR?!

AND BRAVE EYES GOES UP TO 6600 ATK

THE ATTACK GOES THROUGH

AND EDO GOES DOWN TO 0!

YUYA WINS

I knew our favorite son could do it

Edo is laying on the ground

Arm over his eyes

Rethinking his life choices, which were all obviously awful

The action field dissipates

And for the first time since we’ve seen post!invasion Heartland

THE SUN IS SHINING?!

Damn Heartland looks halfway normal for once

GRACE, YUYA’S #1 FANGIRL, HUGS GLORIA IN CELEBRATION

NORU’S JUST HAPPY EDO DIDN’T WIN, AND THUS MAKE HIM LOOK BAD

Wait

Wait

OH NO

NO NO NO

NORU CALLED IN REINFORCMENTS

SEVERAL TRUCKS ROLL UP

AND IN AN INSTANT, YUYA AND EDO ARE SURROUNED BY OBELISK STUDENTS

UGHHHHHHHHH

FUUUUUUUCK

Preview time!

Back in Fusion!YSDS

Yusho looks none too pleased to see Asuka, Yuzu and Yugo

I CAN ONLY IMAGINE HIS REACTION TO YUGO LOLLLLL

AND

Aw fuck

It’s Dennis

He’s back

AND IT LOOKS LIKE EDO IS DEFENDING YUYA AGAINST ACADEMIA

AND MY BABY TOMATO IS BACK WITH HIS BOYS GON CHAN, SHINGO, AND KAITO

Glad to know at least that subplot works out