Inward Turbulence
Months after I left for kyusi, it
became more apparent that this
home is bound to crumble on its own.
Sullen dreams, I was brought here
by steam-punk kick of adrenaline,
of blind persistent conviction
that the best path is a path unlike
yours. This is your eternal punishment:
a daughter living your unlived life;
The mass leader; Never told you I went
to Luneta, to Mendiola. Never told you
of the coasts, of the demolition, of the arson;
best actress, I guess— apt for a circus home.
The main attraction: the daughter—
A scandal to-be. Nothing to be proud of
in being the person you warned me about.
Nothing to be proud of misplaced intellect.
No sense in explaining to the close-minded.
My eternal punishment: nonrecognition and
swollen toes— wore the wrong shoes that day.
Red-stained pambahay, I don’t have to explain.
A vocation uncelebrated, uncongratulated.
unrecognized, I am a grand anomaly
in this good law-abiding family.
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Omake! Memories: Catapult
Word Count: 1300
Summary: Forum post: "Oh no, oh no, OH NONONONONONOoooooo--- I can't believe it! SOMEONE just set it up so I'll be at a festival with my crush and there will be NO ONE ELSE TO DIVERT ATTENTION AWAY TO. help. ;____;"
Warnings: None
Notes: features @theautisticselfshipper !
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Date: XXX, XX, 2007 5:37pm
Title: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
YOU GUYS!!!!!!!!! YOU'LL NEVER BELIEVE WHAT HAPPENED
I CAN'T EITHER TBH DFJSNFJDHFJDKSFKDJ HELP
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
*this proceeds for five more minutes*
Okay, SO. We went over to Celestic Town to visit---- Well, in case this SOMEHOW, MAGICALLY gets looked for IN SOME WEIRD ASS SCENARIO, I'm... not gonna say WHO but everyone who's been here already knows what's going on. Or who I mean. …........shit maybe I need to delete my previous entries or at least edit the names out....
EDIT: FUCK. MY USERNAME. ARCEUS DAMNIT. You know what, there are plenty of other sarahs out there in the world, WHAT ARE THE ODDS IT'D BE ME, HMM???????
*takes a deep breath* OKAY, WELL. AS I WAS SAYING.
The person that we went to go visit, you know, the really cool chick? Well, um.
Someone else was there too. .////////. AND SHE DIDN'T TELL ME!!!!! D///<
(we had a really good talk after though but I'm not gonna go into details about that. With her, I mean. Not with him. Hahahahaha.................. help)
RIGHT. WELL. THAT SOUNDS BAD ENOUGH, RIGHT??? NOPE. THAT WAS THE NICE PART OF THE TRIP. BECAUSE WHAT DOES SHE DO BUT--- SHIT. SHITHISHITHIT. THAT MIGHT ALSO BE TOO MUCH DETAIL. FUCK. BUT I WANNA TELL ALL OF YOU.
LOOK, POINT IS, THAT OTHER PERSON AND I ARE... no not dating lol. BUT UM. I'M WORRIED THAT IT MIGHT GET MISCONSTRUED AS ONE???? you've heard me talk about it before sevearl times, so i'm not even gonna reiterate it for the uumpteenth time. And as much as i'd like for it to be one, or, yknow...maybeleadintomoreofthemohmyarceus, I. um.
LOOK I DONT' REALLY KNOW WHAT TO SAY OKAY AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
Bye
PS: Pika says hi, and so does Riolu!
Comments
AquaKC said: ^_^ Congrats!
pkmnmaster_Sarah replied: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA NO NONONONO DON'T CONGRATULATE ME
AquaKC replied: Oh. Then uncongratulations?
pkmnmaster_Sarah replied: T_______________T that's not any better......
Sangome said: *covers own ears* I can hear you all the way over here in Pastoria City, Sarah.
pkmnmaster_Sarah replied: srrylol
pkmnmaster_Sarah replied: Wait you're in Pastoria?!
(See comment thread)
Kira said: ;D ;D ;D SOOOOOOOO, when's the wedding day?
pkmnmaster_Sarah replied: SDFNAJKLSDHFAJKCUINWEAUIOANCUIODHNASDFULBHADSUIDFSDF VICKY STFU
Kira replied: NEVARRRRR!!!
pkmnmaster_Sarah replied: T_______________________T
Kira replied: >B)
pkmnmaster_Sarah replied: you're not invited to the wedding anymore.
Kira replied: Aww man. Wait, so you ADMIT that there's going to be a wedding? HMMMM.....
pkmnmaster_Sarah replied: THERE WON'T BE, IF YOU KEEP THIS UP.
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Blaze said: WOOT WOOT!!!!
pkmnmaster_Sarah replied:: NO. NO WOOTS. PUT ALL UR WOOTS DOWN.
Blaze replied: MAKE ME! *sticks tongue out and runs away with all of the woots*
pkmnmaster_Sarah replied: damnit blaze I don't have time to chase you all across Sinnoh I have REAL MATTERS TO DEAL WITH TONIGHT.
Blaze replied: Liiiiiiiiiiiiiiike a daaaaate? :D
pkmnmaster_Sarah replied: *bashes head into a wall* no, not like a date, Blaze. Otherwise you'd be hearing me cheering a lot more and this journal would be nothing BUT capslock galore.
Blaze replied: caplocks cruise control for cool!
pkmnmaster_Sarah replied: you forgot to hit caps lock
Blaze replied: or did I? B)
pkmnmaster_Sarah replied: *facepalms* yes. You did.
Instant Message history with AquaKC
[5:43:06PM] - pkmnmaster_Sarah: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
[5:44:23PM] - AquaKC: you ok?
[5:45:01PM] - pkmnmaster_Sarah: yes, I'm just not done screaming
[5:45:10PM] - pkmnmaster_Sarah: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
[5:45:17PM] - AquaKC: Okay, let me know when you are ^_^
[5:46:09PM] - pkmnmaster_Sarah: aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa what am I gonna do, Casey?!!??!?!?
[5:47:18PM] - AquaKC: Well, it's dream come true for you, isn't it? ^^
[5:47:42PM] - pkmnmaster_Sarah: y-yeah, you're not wrong, but......
[5:47:48PM] - pkmnmaster_Sarah: I'm scared ><;
[5:47:53PM] - pkmnmaster_Sarah: What if I blow it again?! T-T
[5:48:10PM] - AquaKC: Then I wish you the best of luck!
[5:48:23PM] - pkmnmaster_Sarah: Thanks... ;///;
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Instant Message history with Sangome
[5:41:29PM] - pkmnmaster_Sarah: Stacey help what do I do!?!?!?
[5:42:12PM] - Sangome: About what?
[5:44:33PM] - pkmnmaster_Sarah: About Lance!!! and the definitely not a date but cynthia totally set it up as one thing.
[5:45:02PM] - Sangome: was that something the two of you planned?
[5:44:39PM] - Sangome: wait what
[5:44:41PM] - pkmnmaster_Sarah: Or the opportunity for it to be like one.
[5:46:44PM] - pkmnmaster_Sarah: uhh... we didn't really get a chance to, but if I had known she was going to, I might have actually debated asking anyways.................. ;;;;;;;>_>
[5:47:03PM] - Sangome: ….
[5:47:07PM] - Sangome: *sigh*
[5:47:11PM] - Sangome: I really don't know.
[5:47:16PM] - Sangome: You could try talking to him....?
[5:48:01PM] - pkmnmaster_Sarah: *dryly* yes, of course. Why didn't I think of that?!!!
[5:48:02PM] - pkmnmaster_Sarah: :|
[5:48:29PM] - Sangome: I'm just trying to help...
[5:49:54PM] - pkmnmaster_Sarah: sorry........ ><;;;
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Instant Message history with Kira
[5:40:12PM] - pkmnmaster_Sarah: VICKURRRRRR!!!!!!!! HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
[5:41:18PM] - Kira: ;D
[5:41:24PM] - pkmnmaster_Sarah: no not like that
[5:41:36PM] - Kira: I can help him pick a song to serenade you with ;DD
[5:41:48PM] - pkmnmaster_Sarah: that's not helping!!!!!!
[5:41:51PM] - pkmnmaster_Sarah: >//////////////////<
[5:41:59PM] - pkmnmaster_Sarah: plz dont do that.....
[5:42:05PM] - Kira: Awwwwww, ok
[5:42:20PM] - Kira: So what ARE you going to do?
[5:42:31PM] - pkmnmaster_Sarah: IDK!!! That's why I'm asking!
[5:42:44PM] - Kira: Well..... you COULD tell him how you feel.
(Kira is typing) (pkmnmaster_Sarah is typing)
[5:42:50PM] - pkmnmaster_Sarah: no, never, we saw how that worked out last time
[5:42:51PM] - Kira: Maybe even kiss him~~~~~
[5:42:56PM] - pkmnmaster_Sarah: *SCREAMING*
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Instant Message history with Blaze
[5:45:17PM] - Blaze: I heard you got a date~~~
[5:48:34PM] - pkmnmaster_Sarah: oh no
[5:48:38PM] - pkmnmaster_Sarah: no not like THAT
[5:48:42PM] - Blaze: Are you suuuuuure?
[5:48:45PM] - Blaze: If not, I'll take him!
[5:48:49PM] - pkmnmaster_Sarah: BLAZE NO!!!!!!
[5:48:54PM] - pkmnmaster_Sarah: that shit's not funny :\\\\
[5:48:59PM] - pkmnmaster_Sarah: you know how I feel about that joke
[5:49:11PM] - Blaze: sowwwy
[5:53:29PM] - pkmnmaster_Sarah: haaaaaalp wat dooooooooooo
[5:53:57PM] - Blaze: IDK dood!
[5:54:00PM] - pkmnmaster_Sarah: ;~;
[5:54:01PM] - Blaze: Dress up?
[5:54:11PM] - pkmnmaster_Sarah: uh, no. Not an official date, 'member?
[5:54:15PM] - Blaze: I 'member
[5:54:17PM] - Blaze: But you could!
[5:54:47PM] - pkmnmaster_Sarah: Blaze, I'm not gonna make an awkward situation even worse!
[5:55:02PM] - pkmnmaster_Sarah: I don't want him to think that I expect anything out of this? Or from him?
[5:55:22PM] - Blaze: Do you?
[5:55:26PM] - pkmnmaster_Sarah: Do I what?
[5:55:29PM] - Blaze: Expect anything!
[5:55:48PM] - pkmnmaster_Sarah: well.... no, not really.
[5:56:13PM] - pkmnmaster_Sarah: I mean, it'd be NICE, but I'm not really gonna try to push my luck
[5:56:21PM] - pkmnmaster_Sarah: It didn't work out too well last time.
[5:56:33PM] - Blaze: Ah.
[5:56:37PM] - Blaze: Then IDK!
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Text Message history with Cynthia
<< I can't believe you did this!!!
>> :3c
>> You don't have to go if you don't want to, you know.
>> I apologize if it was too pushy. But the opportunity is there now.
>> It's up to you if you want to go or not
<< Oh no.
<< I am GOING
<< But that doesn't mean I'm gonna be happy about it.
<< wait
<< YOU KNOW WHAT I MEANT
>> Lol.
>> Do you need help getting ready?
<< ….
<< I dunno
<< I don't have anything SUPER nice, but I don't
<< need anything super nice, right?
<< It's just some festival
>> Hm...
>> I could lend you some clothes, if you want
<< LOL
<< I'm too fat to fit into anything of yours
<< Maybe I could fit one garment over one of my thighs
>> =\
>> You shouldn't talk about yourself like that.
<< Yeah yeah I know.
>> I wasn't always able to fit into my current size.
<< o.h.
<< My bad
<< I didn't know, i'm sorry ><'''
>> You don't need to apologize for not knowing
>> But by saying those things about yourself, you're also
>> running the risk of hurting others like you, or those
>> that used to be like you.
<< I'm really sorry!!!!
<< >~<'''''
<<
<< *sigh*
<< ...As nice as your offer is, I think I'm just going
<< to go with what I have.
<< I think it might make it feel less like a date
<< if I'm just wearing what I normally do
<< And if being myself doesn't impress him, then oh well
<< sucks to me be
>> That's....
>> An almost mature response
>> I think you might be growing up, Sarah :)
<< Thanks >////<
>> I hope it goes well for you!
<< Thanks. Yeah, me too...
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