#update my portfolio and finish my extra credit stuff

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THERES SO MUCH I WANNA DO WHY AM I NOT DOING IT AAAAAAAAAAA

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   My self-inserts for Bendy and the Ink Machine~! Let’s go! Thanks for asking me about this, @robotarmjokes!!

HUMAN VERSE

Your average animator named Rachel. Glasses-wearing, brown hair that parts down the middle, dark green eyes...and often found in their work outfit. (Hair in a bun and casual clothes- t-shirt and pants- with an apron over it. For the ink stains, of course.)

Joey Drew accepts just about anyone...provided they’d want to work with him in the first place. When they begged him to look at their portfolio, well... A look through ended up assuring a job, much to their delight.

Works among the inking section of the cogs that are Joey Drew Studios. Thus, their apron that’s often gently splattered with the dark liquid.

Tends to be lowkey and not very talkative, but gets along with Henry Stein, Allison Pendle, Shawn Flynn, Ernest Craft, and Daisy Lindel. (The latter two being OCs of mine.)

Their favorite creation of the studio’s? Probably Alice. “I like the way she sings... She’s got such a lovely voice to her! Like a songbird.”

Also has a crush on Sammy Lawrence... Though with the guy being such a shut-in, you’d be hard-pressed to find them together.

...Though the more Rachel protests to wiggling into his time, the more they hang out, later down the line.

It turns into Rachel showing him their personal projects, even allowing him to flip through their sketchbook freely. (Though he’s never seen their notebook, filled with notes, more art...and drawings of him, as well as love notes.)

Sammy gets to vent to them about music, often getting to be the one who sees the idea or clarity for a project strike him, urging to finish that old one or start up a new one. It’s their great pride to help him, as they’ve said a few times before.

They do end up dating later down the line... Though most at the studio didn’t know it, even after they started coming to work together. They kept their private life, well, private.

Though they were living together and even bought a house together with their pooled savings; the extra rooms were morphed into an art room and music room, to settle with their interests.

Both of them credit each other as the other’s muse. That’s where the rumors began that the two might be dating. (Though they were behind on the news, of course.)

Joey Drew Studios collapsed not long later, much to Sammy’s frustration. Both were worked to the bone, but also had to make payments, so... A potential job-hunt wasn’t up either of their alleys. Though Rachel was determined to try, despite the odds.

One day, he snapped. Said he wouldn’t come back until he figured out what happened to the studio.

...He never did.

Depending on the timeline, Henry might find Rachel, lost in the studio, trying to find Sammy. In others, they’re the one who Joey called back...and now have a few time-loops of their own.

TOON VERSE

In another world, they are someone different... Meet Kathy the Clumsy Kitten! A creation of Joey Drew Studios (specifically by Ernest Craft, but Joey Drew has since taken all the credit for her creation, much to Ernest’s chagrin) and one of the more...quietly loved characters of the series.

Kathy started out as “Kitten” and with the design below:

In these early days, she had no voice to use. Instead, sound effects would play to denote her emotions; like soft chimes when she cried or the zing of a piano when surprised.

However, people thought she was another demon with her ears looking like they did! As well, despite her feminine appearance, a lot of comparisons between her and Bendy soon arose...

To combat this, she was quickly redesigned to look more...original. The design settled on this less than a year later:

...and that’s the design that’s always been used since!

Update notes: inside of ears drawn, fur tufts on face, and a tail added.

It was also with this design that Joey gave Kathy her now-defining character trait: being a literal scaredy-cat. Easily spooked and, of course, very clumsy.

She’s known to be bullied by Bendy, terrified of Boris, and good friends with Alice, despite the fact her clumsiness has inconvenienced Alice quite a few times in the various episodes that the studio has produced.

She also considers Joey Drew a father figure, Daisy Lindel a mother figure (especially since Daisy would end up being Kathy’s first VA), and Ernest someone spooky....!!

She does also have quite a bit of trust with Sammy Lawrence, though; his music and ramblings often lull her to sleep.

There’s also ANOTHER toon-friend she has named Aki... Aki the Grimmest Reaper, as they call her. (Joey Drew Studios did a trade with a Japanese animation studio at the time. Not only did they work on a short for the other studio, but made a character for the other studio to use; Aki was from the Japanese animation studio.)

Though... The biggest problem by far? Kathy’s got a crush on Bendy.

And now, we get verse dependent~! As there’s two ways things work out......

With Bendy: It takes some vague scolding on Aki’s behalf and clarification from Alice before Bendy realizes that Kathy isn’t as much of a welcome mat as she is just a pushover to the person she likes. Which is. Him.

It’s embarrassing on both sides, but hey~! Bendy’s got charm, yeah? He does his best to lessen the tricks and instead provide little hearts he cuts out of pink (or red) paper and flowers he steals under other people’s noses.

It’s made her a good bit more clumsier at first, what with all the surprise flattery from her crush, but once Bendy finally went all out with asking her to be his lil lady... Well, she actually got better. Still clumsy, but not as bad as she used to be.

They’re a heartrendingly sweet couple. She showers him in praise and affection (which he adores) and- once the show’s all said an’ done- spends time cuddling with her after. It’s...really nice and something Kathy loves to do with him.

However, this has not stopped Bendy’s love for dancing. He even purposefully got thicker shoes so he could waltz or dance in any way he pleases with Kathy. So why thicker shoes? So that way, when she inevitably steps on his feet, he won’t feel it as much!! (It’s embarrassing, but that did make her laugh, much to his delight.)

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With Alice: ...Or on another hand, Alice ends up gaining a crush on her best friend and shy little kitten. And you know what? If Bendy won’t treat Kathy right, then Alice will!

So she does, finding Kathy, taking her to the best spot Alice knows, and holding both of her hands as Alice confesses to liking her. It surprised the life outta Kathy to hear, but-!! .....Well, it’s not like she doesn’t want to date her...

It’s an uncertain thing at first, with Kathy getting to see Alice in a new light. Alice takes it slow in response, though in what feels like no time at all, they’re one of the cutest couples of the studio!

It’s not uncommon for Kathy to still try to help out with Alice’s performances, mostly in regards to setting up. Though her clumsiness still makes Alice pretty nervous... It’s too easy for her to trip up on a stray rope and make everything fall apart like dominoes!

Though on a sweeter note, it’s not uncommon to hear Alice singing and find her cradling Kathy, singing the kitten toon to sleep and guaranteeing only the kindest of dreams.

Alice has mentioned matching outfits someday... Kathy’s still flustered by the idea but very, very much up to it.

Finally..... Some additional notes. ;>

INK DEMON VERSE: Daisy eventually gave up her role voicing Kathy, giving it to her daughter, Clara Lindel. However, the young woman didn’t work as Kathy’s VA for very long. The character was her favorite of the show, so it was incredibly heartbreaking for it to end so soon... However, when Joey Drew sent that letter, asking for a callback? Of course she wanted to go!

...Not knowing what awaited her when she got to the studio.

She’d awake later, no longer a human. But a mix of ink and soul.

She’s more “Clara” at first. But as time goes on, that personality- that person- melts away, more and more becoming “Kathy”... Neither of them want this. But neither of them can stop it, either.

Though it’s also why they try so desperately to help Henry to escape; if they can’t be helped, hopefully he can... Right?

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Though there is technically a thing where I ship Bendy with literally me. No universe-fitting self-insert stuff.

This started due to needing to get my teeth worked on and me being super anxious about it. I needed someone to be with me. Someone small, protective, easy to hold and with wit to make me feel better when scared... I latched onto Bendy, since BATIM happened to be my main special interest at the time.

It’s also where this artwork came from: 

So... That’s a thing, too! So it doesn’t quite matter if you call me Rachel, Aki, or Kathy to him, technically.... Though you do get a different answer during F/O Takeovers when asked about him and Kathy!

Have one more art for reading all of this, slkfdjsk

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We Shall Rule - Chapter 9

Fandom: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Marvel Comics Pairings: Platonic Bucky Barnes/Clint Barton, Steve Rogers/Sam Wilson, Steve Rogers/Peggy Carter, past Steve Rogers/Bucky Barnes Word Count: 3482

Also available on AO3.

Bucky was halfway out the door of he and Steve's flat, jacket on and scarf in hand, when his phone rang. He picked up and frowned when he saw Sam's name displayed on his screen. Hadn't Steve said they were going to have brunch together?

Bucky checked the time. It was only 12:30. This was weird.

“Hello?” He said, picking up. He was still hovering in the hallway, not sure whether it would be better to walk on out or stay inside.

“Hey, Bucky?”

He shifted his weight on his feet, still undecided. “Yeah. How are you, man? I thought you were supposed to be with Steve?”

“Yeah. Yeah, I was. He...”

Bucky stopped, feeling worry rise. “Did something happen?”

Sam seemed to immediately realise what Bucky meant. “No. Nothing bad happened to him. We're both fine. Just...”

Bucky heard Sam take a deep breath. He decided it would be better if he went out like he had wanted to, to try and keep his head clear.

“He talked to you about it, right?” Sam went on. “About this girl Peggy, and him, and... well, and me.”

Bucky closed the door behind him. So Steve had had that conversation. Okay. That was good. That was great.

“Yeah. He did.”

Sam stayed silent for a moment on the other side of the line. Bucky could guess he was trying to figure out what to say next.

“And... he's serious?” There was a beat. “I mean, no, I know he didn't say it as a joke or something, even he doesn't have that shitty a humor, but... Did he... Did he really think about it? It's not just... I don't know... It's...”

“Whatever you're thinking, it's not that. Steve did think about it. I promise. He wouldn't just... He spent a month thinking about it, Sam. If he's telling you now, it means that he's serious.”

“Okay. Okay, that's... nice.”

“Are you okay? Where are you right now?”

If Steve had confessed his feelings and Sam wasn't with him right now, it meant that they had left each other at some point. And from the time, it was too early for them to have finished their brunch and parted ways normally. Something must have happened.

“I'm fine. I'm at my place. I... I kind of ditched Steve, I guess. I was confused. I told him I needed to think about it. I mean...” He let out a short, slightly hysterical laugh. “First he told me he likes me. To be honest, I had kind of given up on that ever happening, with the way we've been dancing around each other for months. And then... then he tells me he's dating this girl I've never heard of. But that he's serious about liking me. And that he thought he could make it work to... to date both of us? I guess that's what he said?”

“A polyamorous relationship. That's what it's called,” Bucky replied, trying to keep his tone calm and reassuring. “Steve did his research. He wouldn't have approached you if he didn't think he could make it work.” He sighed, kept walking. The fresh air helped a little. “He was... He was miserable with it, for a while. I'm not saying that to make you feel bad. Not at all. He brought it upon himself but... He was confused. I don't know much about Peggy either, but apparently they've known each other for a while, and they met up again and started being closer.”

“I don't-” Sam interrupted.

“But he was already pining for you at the time,” Bucky continued as if he hadn't been interrupted. “And he couldn't figure out if that meant he didn't really like Peggy, or didn't like you anymore. He felt like it would be as if he'd been leading you on if he started dating her, but apparently their relationship took that turn naturally and... I'm not telling you what you should do, Sam. And I'm not just defending my best friend. But he really thinks that this would be the best solution to all involved.”

“I... Does... Does Peggy know?”

Bucky smiled. He had expected Sam to ask the question. “I told Steve to ask if she would be okay with it before he approached you. He didn't tell me he did it, but I trust him, so... I think she knows.”

“Okay. That's... good. I guess.”

“You should ask Steve, though. Think about it alone if you need to, but if you have questions... Steve will answer them. He's trying. You can text him if you prefer.”

“That... That sounds good. Yeah. Thanks, I... I don't know...” Sam apparently faltered. It was strange, hearing him like this. Vulnerable and confused while Bucky was the one holding it together and speaking as the voice of reason. “I needed to talk to someone.”

“It's fine. If you need... I don't really understand what Steve thinks, or how you'll make it work if you try to make it work. I'm actually pretty confused by all this, and you know that I... I can't promise to...”

Bucky sighed, then took a deep breath. He had talked to his therapist about this. He just had to say it aloud. Leave it in the open.

“I can't promise to always be there, but if you need to talk to someone, I can try.”

“Thanks, Bucky. Thanks a lot. I'll... It means a lot. I'll pay you back somehow.”

“You don't have to. But... I mean, whatever happens... Steve was right about one thing. You're a cool person. I... I like hanging out with you. So, whatever happens, don't be a stranger. Please.”

“No, I...” Sam let out a short laugh. “I guess those kind of things do happen. But I don't want to burn bridges. Not with you, not with Steve. You're my friends.”

“Okay. That's great, Sam. Take your time to think about it all. I'll handle Steve.”

“Thanks, man. If he's... Tell me if he's okay, please?

“Sure. And... Sam?”

“Yeah?”

Bucky collected his thoughts before speaking. “Don't... Don't feel pressured to do something you don't want just to get something you think you want. Think about it seriously too. That's what Steve wants as well.”

There was a pause on Sam's end. “Okay. I guess I'll talk to you soon, then.”

“Yeah. Talk to you soon.”

He let Sam hang up and put his phone back into his pocket.

He had kept walking throughout all of their conversation, and had passed the supermarket on his way. He walked back, lost in thoughts.

Bucky did some groceries, and found Steve scrolling on his phone as he came in.

“Sam called me,” he immediately said. Better to pull off the band-aid as quickly as possible.

“Oh.” Steve replied, looking up and putting his phone away. Bucky dropped his bag on the kitchen table and came back to the living room. His friend looked nervous, playing with the cuff of his shirt. “Did he... What did he say?”

Bucky shrugged and sat down. “Nothing you should worry about. He's confused. He'll... He's going to need some time to think about it.”

“But why did he call you?”

Bucky leant back and put his arms behind his head. He could feel that this wasn't going to be the last conversation of this type they were going to have.

“He wanted someone to reassure him, I guess. Tell him that you truly meant it.”

“Of course I meant it! I wouldn't joke about something like-”

Bucky raised his hand, stopping him before he could talk further. “I know that. But you can't be mad at him. He was surprised. He's still surprised. You've got to be patient. And be there for him if he ever comes back to you. And that means as a friend as well.”

“Of course,” Steve nodded. He looked down at his hands. “Of course. I'm still his friend, I...”

“You're real lucky,” Bucky said without thinking. It made Steve look up immediately. “Sam's sweet. Despite everything, he's still worried about you. And he doesn't want to lose your friendship either. So don't ruin this, Rogers.”

“I'm trying,” Steve whispered.

“Did you talk to Peggy, then?”

“I did, yeah. She... she was surprisingly cool about it? I mean... We never used to talk about that. Back in school. And by that I mean... queer stuff, I guess? I guess she had a girlfriend before so that explains it, but she was also very... casual about me being trans and having changed my name. And she knew what polyamorous means and she said she thought she'd be open to it, in theory, but she wasn't sure how it would work in practice. And that's... that's totally normal. That's good. She told me to... to keep her updated I guess. After I talked to Sam.”

“She sounds... nice. I... I'd like to meet her, I think.”

Steve smiled. “That would be nice. You're very different from each other, but I feel like you'd like her.”

“You met her at uni, right?”

“Yeah. One of the political science classes that I took as extra credit. We lost touch after our first year, and considering I had my legal name change in the meantime I didn't expect that she would ever find me again.”

“That does seem unlikely.”

“But apparently she heard one of her friends talk about me, and she remembered my last name so she looked up my portfolio online. And she contacted me by e-mail to see if I was the same person, if I wanted to hang out someday. Then there was the gallery opening thing.”

“And here we are. Right?”

“Yeah.” Steve let his face turn to a neutral expression.

“You did what you needed to, Steve. Things are in Sam's hands, now.”

“Yeah, I know.” He drew his knees towards his chest and huddled closer to Bucky, who let himself melt against him. “I know. I'm just scared. I really hope I didn't ruin things with him. I don't know how I would... I don't know what would happen if I did. I don't know if it would be the same with Peggy if Sam wasn't around.” He paused. “Does that make any sense? I'm not sure it makes sense.”

Bucky frowned a little. “I don't know. If it makes sense for you, then that's it. You can't do anything about it. And I guess... Well, you started dating Peggy while you still had a crush on Sam, so I guess it's normal that the feelings you have for the two of them get conflated somehow. They're linked because they happened at the same time, they come from the same psychological place. Or something.”

Steve looked up, raising an eyebrow. “Your therapist must be proud, you're starting to sound like her.”

Bucky shrugged. “I mean, the point of therapy is that I'm supposed to think about what she tells me. There would be no use in going otherwise.”

“Yeah, I guess. How is it going?”

That was the question Bucky always dreaded. “It's going... fine? Well? It's... hard to judge.”

“Yeah, I figure.”

“It's been so long, already. There's not real drastic change happening from day to day, I guess. That's a bit frustrating. I'm supposed to be making progress, but I can't really feel it. It's... I want to move past things, you know. But I don't know... I don't really know how much progress is even possible.”

Steve huddled closer. “I'm sorry I've been so distracted these past few weeks. I really am.”

Bucky sighed, running a hand through the short part of his hair. “It's okay.” He searched for his words a while. He was supposed to share the things he felt, to leave them out in the open and try not to feel guilty about it. “I mean... I missed you. It hurt a bit, in a way. But I asked for it as well, in a sense. I'm always going on about how I want to be independent, how I want to be able to live without anyone's help. I can't do that if I fall apart whenever you're distracted by something.”

“You... There's no shame in needing help, you know.”

Bucky looked up at the ceiling. He thought about the groceries getting warm on the kitchen table. He thought about the fact he still had his shoes on. Anything but to think about the things that hurt.

“I know that. If I think about it, I know that but... that's not realistic. That's not how the world, or people or... that's not how I work. It feels too different. I constantly feel like I'm... like it's not good enough, because it's not like it was before.”

“It's never gonna be like before, Buck,” Steve said. He slid his fingers through Bucky's. He was sitting on his right side, so it was the flesh-and-blood hand, but Bucky still understood what the gesture meant. He had scars on his body that would never fade, it only made sense that his mind would have the same unseemly look.

“I'm trying to... I'm trying to find the good in the different. That's why I want to meet new people. I have to start new things. I want to replace all of the... I don't know. I don't think I can forget. Although sometimes... I guess I want to.”

“That's...”

“Really sad but also understandable?” Bucky asked ironically. “Trust me, I know. I've thought about it a whole lot, turns out.”

“It's...” Steve stopped himself. “Can I be the douchebag who says the really obvious thing like it's all so easy? Because I think you might need to hear it even if I also know that that's not how things work.”

Bucky laughed, then shrugged. It was true that sometimes he needed to hear the obvious bullshit. As much as it was annoying to feel like his struggle was never really understood, it helped to know that there was something else than struggle. Something to strive for.

“Go ahead. Be the douchebag.”

“I think you can make new memories, and they don't have to erase the old ones. Because I don't think... I don't think that's healthy, and beyond that I'm not even sure that's possible.” Steve drew away a little bit, looking Bucky in the eye as he kept talking. “'Cause isn't that how trauma works? You try to supress traumatic memories, but they never really go away and then you're left with PTSD and other things like that. Or something. I don't know, I'm not...” He shook his head. “What I mean is... Sometimes you need a new beginning. You need to become a new person. And that's okay. But it doesn't mean you have to kill the person you used to be, you know? You don't have to destroy it and pretend it never existed. You can become someone else, and look at who you were, and see that those are two different people. But you can still acknowledge that you used to be that other person as well, you know?”

Bucky frowned. He looked at his friend and wondered, not for the first time, how much he had missed after leaving, and how many things Steve had had to go through alone.

“I've never really thought about it in terms of... Of being someone else. But I guess... It's weird, sometimes, being with you.”

Steve didn't seem obviously hurt by the comment, but his half-smile looked like it hid something. After all these years, his emotions were easy for Bucky to decode, and he could see how hard Steve was trying to be supportive.

“It's weird, because you knew me before, and you know me now. And sometimes I feel like... Like you'll expect something else. Something better or something... Something like the old me.”

“I...” Steve started fidgeting with the cuff of his shirt. “I can't promise I wont- Sometimes I do- Uh. I can't promise that it never... never happens. That I don't think about the way you sometimes acted before. But I won't ever... It's not something I'll ever hold against you. I can promise that. We're growing. It's normal that we're different... We're all changing and, okay, your change came in a really fucked up way and I would prefer if it had never happened and I never want you to get hurt ever again but... it happened. And it's part of you now. And I... I'm just glad I still have a chance to have you as a part of my life. I was... really scared. When we didn't know. When we didn't know what had happened, or if you would make it or... at the beginning. When you were bad. I was so scared that you would just... go.”

Bucky moved closer to his friend, almost unconsciously. He remembered that time, when he had just gotten out of the hospital. When the joyful feeling of newly found freedom quickly gave way to disgust at his constant failures, to a realisation of how little this new freedom shared with the one he had known before signing up. Those were the days when he had looked at his prosthesis with disgust. How could he feel anything else towards this alien bit of plastic and metal barely capable of imitating basic human functions? A myoelectric prosthesis, they'd said. Top of the line, they'd said. He should be happy, normally his insurance wouldn't cover such quality equipment, but this model hadn't been commercialized yet because they still needed to run some tests and...

Bucky had listened to all of what the doctors had said. He had nodded and said thanks, all the while thinking that this wasn't real. This couldn't be real. This wasn't his body, not his arm nor the lack of it.

In those days, maybe he would have just gone if he had believed there was anywhere he could go.

“So yeah. I miss the old days, sometimes. I miss it because...” Steve let out a puff of breath. “It was easier to make you happy, then. But that's gone. And I still have a chance to make you happy now. And that's more than I could have asked for, I think. It's enough. It's all we have and it has to be enough, and I'll make it more than enough.”

Bucky sighed. The determination in Steve's voice was a comfort. He couldn't lie about that. “This isn't your fight alone, Rogers,” he said. “Hell, this isn't even your fight at all. But I... I'm glad that you're taking it on anyway. I don't know what I would have done... I don't know what I would have done, if you hadn't been there to remind me that... that there was something else. That it wasn't going to be just that, like that forever.”

“If I can't fight for you, how could you justify all the time you spent fighting for me when we were younger?”

Bucky stretched his neck. “Yeah, well, we fit each other, I guess. Good news after all these years.” He stood up.

“Would you like to invite Peggy here? For dinner or something? I could... I could try and ask Clint? If you want to meet him as well?”

Bucky felt embarrassed at the timidity in his voice. In a sense, there was some comfort in keeping part of his life to himself. Steve was his best friend, though, his brother almost. The fact that the two men didn't yet know each other was only due to Bucky and Steve's distance of late, which stained the whole thing with painful memories.

There was also some apprehension at the idea of meeting Peggy and seeing Steve interact with her. As much as Bucky wanted to be supportive, he had gotten used to seeing his friend flirt with Sam, and wasn't sure how he would react to seeing him with his now girlfriend. Having someone else there to act as buffer was a precaution, in a sense.

“Uh? Yeah,” Steve replied. “Yeah, sure. That's actually a good idea. I would love to meet him. And I'll ask Peggy. This could be... this could be good, yes.”

Bucky nodded with a smile. “Give Sam some time. He'll get back to you.”

Steve paused, then let out a sigh. “Yeah. Okay. Thanks.”

“Now, I haven't eaten anything this morning. Let me fix myself something before we get into more emotional discussions.

[horiiis]

hello friends uwu it’s been some time!

Been filling up the queue every once in awhile and I’ve updated the blog’s theme! Please feel free to take a look at it! I am using a glenthemes theme.

I am still in the process of updating everything (such as adding announcements, properly making a change log, etc)

It’s quite an unceremonious return, but I can’t wait to share stuff with you all again!! 

I might be asking for feedback on this blog (specifically in regards to tagging) if that’s okay. If you have any suggestions for me, I’d love to hear them! The interface hasn’t seemed to change TOO much since I left, but with the new characters, I’m wondering if I should change the tags again...

If you’re interested, keep reading to get details on what I have done so far and what I’ve been up to during my hiatus!

On the desktop theme, I’m planning on keeping a similar format! With links on the side to where you can read GSNK, the taglist, and my fanfics. I intend on updating the announcements page for important dates (when gsnk ch are released on GanGan, when the most recent CMC chapter was released, character birthdays, etc). The News container will later be updated to contain blog changes (so, a change log) at some point.

I removed the submissions feature on this blog, since it was never used!

I’ve already updated the About page and was surprised to be reminded of the original intent of this blog! It won’t be happening anytime soon, but if we can host more events in the future, I think it would be very fun.

When I read the old About, I was reminded the original purpose of horisexual was actually to host fanfic competitions! Your love and engagement with my old fics made me really nostalgic, and a few on the GSNK discord convinced me to jump back into tumblr. I am glad that everyone is still so friendly and nice!

Re: the submissions feature (mentioned above), if we ever get to a point where we host a fanfic contest, I will likely be using the submissions as the way to submit.

(Speaking of events, will you be participating in GSNK Week? I’ve planned out what I want to draw already and I’m super excited~~)

I have also updated my Fanfics page using code from namjooneh but will continue to work on it so it fits horisexual better. I might have implemented this new format, but the filters don’t seem to work, so I’ve already found a backup that I just need to enter the fic information into.

You may also note that none of the long chapter fics are in there (except for one) because I’ve only decided to rewrite one of them (for now! We’ll see where that motivation goes, haha)

That being said, are there any ways you would like the fics to be filtered? I don’t believe the new format has a filter system, but it would be nice to know what information you would like me to add to the blurbs and previews!

As for an explanation for my hiatus:

I was receiving a lot of hate on my personal blog around mid-2016. A lot of the attacks were about information I overshared, which as a minor, I should have been more mindful of. I am ashamed of how I acted back then (refusing to simply ignore/block and instead kept responding && the information that I was freely giving out), but I’d like to think I’ve healed a lot since then. I have since went in, deleted all my posts on my personal blog from 2016, deleted the few remaining hate messages still in my inbox from that time, and am ready to start again.

What I’ve been up to:

In the past 4 years, I’ve been attending university within my state! Our GameDev program is apparently one of the best programs nationally, but no one seems to know that outside of our university (we were told to put it on our resume and bring it up in cover letters haha) so it’s a bit weird to talk about. I have made some games! This is a link to my portfolio if you want to know a little about them.

I’ve also started a ko-fi page! I used to be a dual major until recently, so I am taking an extra semester (plus this summer semester) to finish up my credits as I graduate. Graduating later than 4 years isn’t a big deal, but it’s very hard financially. Student loans are no longer willing to help support me, I will be a part-time student in the fall (little to no financial aid), and I’ve been barely been able to support myself as of late since my job assigned me on a project with a $2 pay cut from my regular rate.

I also got accepted into an internship program in Japan! As mentioned before, financing the rest of my tuition is hard enough, and now I need to be able to afford my plane ticket, the program fees and living expenses. I am currently studying Japanese for the N3 certification, but we’ll see how that goes (I’m going to stay hopeful!! I still have time!!)

If you want to know more about Ko-fi and the program I’m doing, I made a YT video a month ago. It also briefly explains why I find this internship so important to my professional development. If you have the time, resources, and would like to support me, I would greatly appreciate it! I even have a sticker club reward for monthly supporters, and a portion of those sales goes to Project COVID-19, a fundraising project by a few of my colleagues who are raising money to purchase PPE for health facilities nationwide (US). 

I would like to explain more, but covering the past 4 years is a long time (haha)... and you’re here for the GSNK content! I am sure there will be loads of more opportunities to talk about myself (apologies if I do so...) so I will end it here. 

Thank you for being a follower of horisexual for so long. And if you’re new here, welcome!

I am currently taking summer courses and working (remotely), so I do not know how active I will be, but I will definitely return to fill up the queue a few times a week- if not every day. I have a few asks from before I left/received during hiatus. You can still submit prompts to me via ask and I will try to get to them!

If you want to talk I am also on discord ( JamKats#9424) and twitter @/jamkataclysms (note my twitter is mostly art & games). I also have a ko-fi account where I post GSNK fanart sometimes! https://ko-fi.com/jamkats

I hope you have a great day! As a reward for reaching the end of this long post, here’s a recent redraw of one of the gsnk omakes! (from vol 10)

If you’re in the GSNK server, you’ve probably seen it already, so I guess it’s not that good of an award...The other (the first) redraw I did has been queued so it will go up sometime this week!

I spent all night studying, so I’ll probably go to sleep now <3 thank you again :)

[gothshy]

;; PSA: busy next to weeks

Okay muffins.

Here’s the gist. The next two weeks are Hell Week (pre-exams) and Exam Week, respectively. I might have only on exam and just a thesis to finish for now but that is surprisingly quite a bit. So my activity will be LOW. 

So these blogs are going to be a little quieter than usual. I’ll still try to get to drafts and replies at night and early morning before I move on to my important stuff but for the next two weeks I’ve got a SCHEDULE. It’s the only way I stay sane in this kind of chaos/clusterfuck of responsibilities. 

I’ve a Thesis to format/proofread (yeah I decided to give it one more proofreading before I turn it in again and that’ll take a day or two), a poetry portfolio to edit (15 poems), a take home exam to do, a poetry journal (28 poems) to write, and five-page essay to write. I possibly might have to beg for some extra credit too from one of my fav professors for missing so much class and losing some credit points too! (Thanks a lot social anxiety that kept me away from class). So I will be booked! 

The madness is likely to end around May 10th. If I’m not mistaken. I’ll keep you all updated. My thesis process is a bit unique since I’m not graduating traditionally (walking the stage) and won’t be finishing ‘til I take a Comps Exam in the upcoming Fall Semester after summer so technically I won’t be done any time soon but the hustle and bustle should be over in the next two weeks. But the daytime hours will be packed with things to do for me until then. 

Another note is that I am trying hard to kickstart back up a novel I began in 20014 and want to finish so I’m trying to focus on that during the day. So after 9:30am each day I’ll be attempting to focus there. 

But fear not. I’ll return at night when chores and homework are done. It’s not a traditional hiatus or anything like that. Rp is much to close to a stress-reliever for me to give it up in times of high tension like this and plus even if I’m not actually playing having you guys here is important to me. So I’ll be around.

<3, Ace