Change the perception of what's little or big.
Change actually saves when it's accepted?!!? 10-28-23
"It's the little details that are vital. Little things make big things happen." - John Wooden
~I believe that the significance of a day rests in the hands of those willing to accept its synchronicities, because. . . .. I've been writing it out for years now.~
Lots of pretty big, cool things for me lately in the last month or so.
I turned 48 ( like wtf )
10 years off the dope
10 years I've been writing the entries that keep me here
5 years no smoking
and
Pride Fence just turned a year old.
A lot of these . . .I never imagined I'd ever reach. Some I never wanted to reach if you go back in time far enough.
It's so wild.
We've been planning. (and spending), for the upcoming holiday season. Both of those things didn't used to happen đ that way either.
Planning, money for spending on others? I mean . . what?
It's so wild.
"Change my attempt, good intentions
. . .
Crowned, hopeless
The article read, living wasteland
This time, you've tried
All that you can, turning you red
but i will not
Hide you through this
I want you to help" - 10 Years by Wasteland
I'm out of town this weekend, visiting my oldest son, who is trying to get better himself. #grateful
Here with some other family, and being able to share in some Halloween/family festivities and help with . . .from/to our guest reader for this week's story time. I might miss seeing some family sometimes, usually against my will, but there's always other times and different things, planned in advance or not, that keep my heart so very full.
I try so hard to make sure the ones filling my heart are having theirs filled too.
It's so extraordinarily wild.
This is me.
Feel jealous? đ
It wouldn't matter when I die, my life is where it should be.
The only real regret that I'll carry with me, as of right now, if I did, would be that I couldn't continue to fill the hearts of those that I do.
Share love, share laughter, and just be nice. Don't over-complicate it.
Until next week;
"If you are going to achieve excellence in big things, you develop the habit in little matters. Excellence is not an exception, it is a prevailing attitude." - Colin Powell
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Love Reading đ€€- October 2023 - Scorpio
Singles:
Overall energy: 2 Cups
How you will meet: 6 Wands
How they will treat you: Page of Pentacles rev
Long-term Potential: The Hermit
Oracle: YOLO
KARMIC RELATIONSHIP đȘą
- Resentments & Triggers
- Perception
- Intensity & Letting Go
- Turmoil & Fleeting
This one feels more specific than general, but itâs for someone. Youâre pining for this person, probably love this person - 2 Cups - but theyâve moved on đ If itâs love at all. Itâs possible this was never really anything defined or committed to, but it was a deep connection of some kind. At least - for you it was. A friendship maybe. The two of you may never have even discussed âloveâ, but you felt it, and the other one followed life wherever that is taking them. When you meet them (again?) this is someone very successful at what they do, they are celebrating a win in their life, probably to do with work, an award, some kind of recognition or opportunity, etc.
Theyâve never brought up the topic of romance, they donât plan to come back around, I donât even think the two of you talk to each other. Or if you do, that will stop because of whatever else is going on in their life, maybe you like their posts or something. Itâs like they see you in a good light, but where youâre standing & what youâre feeling has never even occurred to them. Long term, this wonât become anything more than it is now, The Hermit shows a complete disconnect, and so does The World. They might not even be online either, this person could disappear off the face of the planet, move across the world and start a whole new life. They probably donât update social media much (or itâs rare) and no one has any idea what theyâre up to anymore - they give off that kind of vibe.
Further clarification - If Scorpio speaks up now, can this outcome change? - 4 Cups revâŠyou shouldâve done it a long time ago, but itâs like youâre just now realizing that. Itâs not a yay or a nay, itâs a Tower either way. I think this one is too far gone. If it was meant to be, it wouldnât be that way đ
Messages -
Their side:
- LESSON đŻ
- Iâve Moved On
Your side:
- You make me feel ALIVE đ„ł
- I still think of you.
Signs you may be dealing with:
Virgo, Capricorn & Libra
Couples:
Overall energy: 4 Swords rev
Current: The Tower
Challenge: The Devil
How they feel about you: 5 Swords
How you feel about them: 2 Pentacles
Outcome: 7 Wands
This is an outright battle more than a relationship. At least this month. There could have already been a period of silence between you, one of you tries to heal the connection, and it starts all over again. With things not being addressed, and mean or petty actions being taken, itâs just a cycle of continuous hurt piled on hurt piled on hurt. Like youâre still hurt by the first thing, but weâve got five more things to add to that now, so thatâs cool đ
There is some other person in your personâs world, Iâm not sure if theyâre with this person, doesnât have to be. If youâre broken up, then yes there is someone else, or this could just be someone existing in their environment that pisses you off. They could be making their intentions clear that they want your person. This person is the priority, they are getting your attention, the possessive monster in you is rearing itsâ headâŠand your person could be doing this *just* to get a rise out of you, because fk you - 5 Swords. I do get silence though, Iâm not sure how long, and you want to break that cycle after this person has moved onto other things? But is that the whole reason you want this?
The Devil being the challenge can be control, thatâs on their side. It can be jealousy, lust, power trips, possessiveness, bad behavior, toxic cycles, a whole range of things that have not been healed because no one is talking. How can they? You have Twin Flame on your side, and The Devil can show a relationship that you feel BOUND to, like you canât escape it. That would probably be their feelings, because theyâre *trying* to do just that. Do they love you, yes. Theyâre toxic too just so you know, Iâm getting this being a shared energy between you.
Their feelings are snide & hurting you to prove a point, like I said. They know what theyâre doing. Do they know the full extent of how youâre really feeling, probably not, again thereâs no decent communication going on here. Your feelings are going back & forth on what you even want anymore, because you love them, but what do they want? WHO do they want? Is it even youâŠyouâre feeling inadequate to some other person, and thatâs a shitty feeling. Hugs to you, you shouldnât be comparing yourself to anyone ever đ Outcome for mid Nov is you defending yourself because this person didnât commit to you, didnât choose you, and shouldâve all along. Itâs like hello, youâre the natural choice, and what the fk are they proving? Except they like to hurt you? If this is a Twin, itâs not for everyone, the only indicator is that one card, but no matter what itâs time to go. Trigger the awakening by walking away đŻ Not all of you will, I know, but it wouldnât be the worst thing. If you do âhealâ thisâŠis that possible?
Messages -
Their side:
- Yearns for your love đ
- Controlling
Your side:
- I love our walks together.
- Twin Flame đ„
Oracles - Inhale the good shit. Exhale the bad shit.
Their side:
SNAKE đ
- Competition & Enemy
- The Other Woman
- Look Over Your Shoulder
Your side:
NOT TODAY đ€
- Boundaries & Hurt
- Avoiding Conversation
- Not Dealing
- Still Upset
Signs you may be dealing with:
Scorpio, Leo, Pisces, Capricorn, Aries & Cancer
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love language(s) â himejima gyomei
Authorâs Note: my thumbs are not green. đ„ Gyomei would be disappointed in me... canât keep a plant to save my life. Actually: if my life were on the line, then prob would survive â my competency isnât that horrid. Other than that drastic scenario, however... rip any plant placed under my care. đ”Â
love language(s) â himejima gyomei
Himejima Gyomei x Reader
Word Count: ~1,800
CW: mild sexual content
Request Fulfilled: hello hello! may i request some gyomei hcs :> like,, what would be his love language/s [giving and receiving] hehe thank you!!
~faqs~
Giving
Hold up
Physical touch
Quality time
Gift giving
Verbal affirmation
Whatâs the fifth love language again ?? Trying to recall from memoryâŠ
AHA!
Acts of service (should be â5.â but tumblr formattingâs picky af)
So I must confess that I havenât read any KNY manga đŹ
Which means my perception of Gyomei is from the miniscule amount of screentime he got in s2 plus any fanfics about him that Iâve read
That being said, I feel like Gyomei gravitates toward giving Quality Time and Verbal Affirmation
Altho the softie in me *technically* imagines all the Hashira as cuddle bugs (albeit some more highkey than others) I am not touch starved tyvm Okay maybe just a little đ
Gyomei just strikes me as particularly simple
Not like, simple in the noggin đ¶
Just
Simply spending time together
And constantly announcing how splendid you are
Heâs not into flashy gimmicks *cough* Tengen *cough*
I see him as someone who deeply values his alone time
Mind you, being alone on missions is different from having undisturbed time to oneself, ya feel?
Not to mention: itâs gotta be, to some degree, mentally exhausting to be moved to tears all the time â even when the tears are happy ones
So like, this man needs loads of time to decompress
And prob seeks out lower stim environments when socializingÂ
At the very least, heâs gotta suffer from dry eyes
Have you ever cried so much that your eyes hurt?
Now imagining crying a lot
I presume eye drops exist in Demon Slayer?
If Shinobu can regrow Zenitsuâs limbs, then eye drops must be canon đ€Â
Welp, Gyomei definitely has a vial of dry-eyes-be-gone on him 24/7
Iâm getting sidetracked
Himejima Gyomeiâs the guy whoâd rather read a book in bed with a mug of herbal tea vs go out with the other Hashira for drinksÂ
And by other Hashira Iâm thinking mostly Kyojuro, Sanemi, and Tengen (Mitsuri only goes when Shinobu does, and vice versa)
Initially, youâd be hesitant to encroach on his alone time
Heâd never exactly uninvite you, but he didnât necessarily invite you either
Until one day when you semi jokingly remark while returning from a joint mission, âGyomei-san, are we even romantically involved? We hardly do anything together. Unless you count fighting demons?â
And suddenly, heâs inviting you to practically everything he used to do alone
Book in bed with a mug of herbal tea? He wants you there â
Begins stock piling your favorites
Morning meditation? Invitation sent â
Whether or not you wake up in time to join him is entirely up to you đŽ
Watering his plants? â
Begs you to come along, which, you almost regret bc he has sooo many plants and itâs stiflingly humid in his greenhouse yes this man has a private greenhouse, author makes the rules and he takes foreeevvverrr to water them bc, âThey each need 30 seconds of water, 3 times. Okay, [y/n]-san?â buuut heâs a cutie đ» so mostly you just feel honored that he trusts you to care for his plants
As much as he enjoys being deployed on missions with you, he does not consider fighting demons to be quality time đ
You lowkey wrecked him asking if yâall were âeven romantically involvedâ bc ?? đ He adores you ?? đ Cherishes you ?? đ Loves you ?? đ
Youâd literally sent him in a tizzy
âWhat if [y/n]-san breaks up with me?â Oh wait đ They donât even know whether weâre together
Dw, he wasnât frustrated by you
Mostly just distraught at his own lack of recognition that you needed âšattentionâš
P.S. The morning after your fateful remark, youâd awoken to a letter slipped under your front doorstep inviting you most affectionately and hopefully to join Gyomei for an evening stroll đ
Srsly tho
He has the time to water a bajillion plants on the daily
âLogistical plothole here what with frequently being away on missions: Iâm aware đ
âBut thatâs what hiring gardeners is for đ€
But the most important plant was wilting before his very own eyes and he didnât fricking notice ?!?!
Youâre his prettiest-flower-that-isnât-a-flower
Ofc, he doesnât douse you with water
He douses you with thoughtful compliments
Exhibit A: âThe color of your haori truly highlights the gentleness of your eyes.â
Exhibit B: âYour fingers are so elegant plucking the dead leaves from my hostas. Thank you for pruning them with me.â
Exhibit C: âYour laughter is a butterflyâs wing against my cheek â so light and tender, and capable of granting me endless joy.â
He douses you with encouragement and pride
Exhibit A: âThank you for cooking dinner [y/n]-san. Youâre doing a wonderful job! Iâm sure you wonât overcook the rice this time.â And if you do, then heâll try his best to only cry a little, just for you
Exhibit B: âIâm so impressed you beheaded that demon before me, [y/n]-san! May I watch you train sometime? Itâs been a while since we sparred, and I believe I could learn a thing or two from you.â
âHe really didnât let you have it
âNo, really đ
âIt was all you baybee đ„ł
âOkay so he might have accidentally absolutely unintentionally moved a tad slower than you so you could reach it first
Exhibit C: âI know it hurts, [y/n]-san, but I know you can handle it.â this will remain appropriate, unfortunately âA wayward sprain could never restrain your resilience and spirit.â
âHe still cries as you hobble around adorably, then cries bc he just wants you to okay, and cries some more bc he gets to scoop you into his arms and tuck you into his bed â the injured must rest!
And most annoyingly significantly, he douses you in nonstop-when will it stop-plsmakeitstop-he really doesnât have to continue feeling so guilty about it reassurance of your romantic involvation I donât think âinvolvationâ is a real word oops
Exhibit A; Random Day | Random Location | Random Time: âDo you know who my romantic partner is, [y/n]-san?â he smiles widely. You sigh. âYou are, [y/n]-san! You are my romantic partner.â
Exhibit B; Random Day | Gyomeiâs Greenhouse | Early Afternoon: âDo you know what romantic partners do, [y/n]-san?â he leans down and pecks the top of your head cheerfully. You groan. âThey nurture nature together! And [y/n]-san â we nurture nature together!â
Exhibit C; Random Day | Gyomeiâs Bed | Nightfall: âDo you know what the worst part about having a romantic partner is, [y/n]-san?â he murmurs softly, bookmarking his page as he angles his body to face yours. You lay your book aside as well, quietly placing your hands over his. âItâs knowing there could never be enough clothes, rope, string, anything, to escape the depth of your devotion to them,â he pauses, struggling to collect himself, âBut that is also the best part. You are my partner, [y/n]-san, and I am devoted to you.â
â
Ahhhhh
Gyomei, devoted, to you
His time spent, on you
His words spoken, to you
What a gem đđ„ș
Receiving
Time to give myself emotional whiplash transitioning from that bucket of fluff to another bucket of fluff
â
Imo, the language that screams GIMME the most for Gyomei
⊠as in, heâs screaming âGIMMEâ đ
Is Physical Touch
Except heâs actually suuuper bashful about it
And never screams for it
âThatâs his job
âTo make you scream for it đł
âThat was an attempt at what Iâd hoped would be a hilarious innuendo
âGuess not âčïž
It took you a while to figure him out
He doesnât exactly shy from your touch
More like melts into it âșïž
But the only physical touch heâs naturally comfortable asking for is⊠đ„đ„đ„
Holding hands đ€
Beyond holding hands, Gyomei relies on you to lead the way
Creating a sort of catch 22, because you try your best to be cognizant and respectful of his upbringing
Which, his upbringing â Physical Touch
Usually, you initiate touch in bed
Not like that
Yeesh
I already told you this will remain appropriate, unfortunately đ
You initiate touch in bed, away from curious eyes, immersed in the soothing glow of cerulean and lavender lanterns â hand painted by you and Gyomei
Toasty, sweet aromas of sobacha and kuromamecha tea cling to his olive green kakebuton, a gift from you to him âjust becauseâ
As the moon peers above the horizon, youâre tentative, knee leaning lightly into his thigh, your arm barely skimming his, the turning of pages floating pleasantly between you
Sitting in his bed, beside him, because he wants you there, is achingly meaningful
You move like honey as the moon ascends, a brush of your elbow against his ribcage here, a tap of your fingertip on his hip there
Not teasing, not seducing â easing him into your closeness
The pressure of your knee leaning on his thigh increases and increases, until he gently murmurs, âIâd feel very happy if our legs were fully touching.â
When the moon reaches and rests at its highest point, you press your mouth delicately to his shoulder
Gyomeiâs focus wavers, book falling from his grip to his lap, a low, contented moan vibrating in his throat
âAnother. Please. [y/n]-san. TouchâŠâ
âTouch, Gyomei-san?â you smile tenderly
âMmâŠâ he doesnât elaborate
Doesnât have to
You have him figured out
âHow does this feel?â your fingernails scratch faintly along his jawline Mm
âAnd this?â you playfully flick his ear Mm
âYouâre warm, Gyomei-san,â your body adjusts itself Mm
Taut as you stretch to kiss the corner of his eye
Familiar as you exhale slowly, breath leaving a quiet trail of goosebumps from his cheek to his neck to the edge of his collarbone; your fingers wrap reassuringly around the strength of his wrist, lifting his palm to your nose; you nuzzle cutely, nipping at his callouses; then, you grip his hand with both of yours, his fingers straightening as you peep at him through them
âMay I?â you whisper
Mm
You release his hand, sleepily settling further into bed, rolling onto your side
So casually, so safely, you tuck yourself into his sitting form, hugging his nearest forearm to your chest as you pull your knees up
âThis is how you fall asleep, clinging to Gyomei
His heart hums, a constant, mellow bliss
As he picks up his book, and continues to read
âŠ
Before you even ask-
Yes, he fumbles his book every so often
Itâs hard to read with just one hand holding (the book) AND turning (the pages)
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