#vomit it started out with just incase lmao

[eddiescumfilledsock]

thinking happy scenarios about eddie to cope and pretend vol2 didn't happen with <3 also idk dnd stuff so like if anyone who reads this knows dnd or wants to add on please feel free!!! I love talking about him

-ok so like imagine if there was an online dnd game thing that you and eddie play where you randomly got asigned the same team with

-after awhile of playing and mainly talking to the team as a whole about the strategies and stuff you decide to dm him privately since he mentioned liking the same rock song too! you dont like all the same bands but you end up having quite a bit in common!

-eddie starts almost looking foward to his online campaigns more than the ones in real life because youre playing with him. hes eagerly awaiting for the school bell to ring so he can rush home and sit in that same shitty kitchen chair in front of his clunky computer to talk to the person whos quickly becoming his best friend

-the way you can ease his nerves or any anguish that comes from living in a place full of people that would rather him gone with just a few words makes it feel like maybe the world isn't such a hateful place to people like him

-after some more time you start taking about more personal things like where you live and school life, even sending some cool pictures from around town and your rooms and such but! surprise! you guys are in the same city! and youre obvi like !?!? because what are the odds! playing with people all over the usa and you just happen to live in the same little town as eachother

-so you guys agree to meet up at like an ice cream shop or something since you have gotten so close and like on the day of the meeting you tell him what clothes youll be wearing and something vuage like your hair color so he can find you easier and since hes never seen you he is just expecting an average looking person not the literal prettiest human hes ever laid eyes on because what ethereal as fuck being like that would play dnd right?,,,,right???

-so when he gets there there arent many people and definitely only one wearing what you described, youre turned away looking at the big menue so he casually taps on your shoulder to get your attention and is about to say the name you gave him only to be about knocked off his gd feet and is left Absolutly breathless, feeling like all the blood in his body is rushing to his face to give him the prettiest blush

-youre obviously not much better either becuase like have you seen that man???? his big baby cow brown eyes alone could make your heart explode from your chest in a flurry of hearts and butterflies, was this really the guy that youve been kicking fictional monster ass with?

-hes starting to regret not taking more time to tame his mess of hair or pick out something other to wear than the same old leather jacket that hasnt been washed in months, hell even just put on one more spray of cologne, did he remember to use deodorant? god he sure hopes so

-after a few seconds of you guys just staring at eachother you are able to gather yourself enough to mutter a quite hi with a shy little wave, and eddie thinks he found the person hes desined to marry because youre so kind,smart AND cute yet still listen to hard rock and play dnd? wowza, you really are a breath of freah air from the large majority of dicks hes forced to be around daily

-you guys start to try and make awkward small talk, not sure what unspoken boundaries that the other has and fear of potential embarresmnt but when you both ask for the same icecream flavor at the same time you cant help but laugh a little and eddie can instantly feel a lot of the tension leave his body at such a soothing sound, helping the easy conversations that youve had hundreds of online carrying over to the real world soon after

[obeymehasinfluncedmythoughts]

KINDA GROSS BUT ANYONE WITH A UTERUS HAS TO DEAL WITH IT SO FUCK IT

MC having the monster of all periods and all the boys or in the middle of it. And when I say the monster of all I mean it. Everything is happening. Clots, bloating, zits/pimples, PAIN, nausea, heat, anger, emotions going crazy, fatigue, headaches, back pain, insomnia, BLOOD, anxiety, aggression, food cravings, irritability, muscle pains and all the other gross and painful shit we have to deal with every month. How do they survive/react

This personally hits home for me 😔.

Before I was on my birth control, I had periods 24/7, all year. I know it's gross, but at my worst I went through 7 of those overnight pads in an hour. I had to go to the hospital for it (And then proceeded to get called a drama queen by a doctor). My cramps were horrible, and man, I still have bad periods but not nearly as bad as that. This is going to be a bit "gross" (Because despite how comfortable we can be discussing them, and how natural the process is, you can still be a bit grossed out by it. I mean blood by itself isn't bad, but sometimes it's like you give birth to placenta and that's pretty gross) but it's also hella fluffy.

Lucifer.

Very unbothered by periods. Out of any natural body process, it's probably the one that bothers him the least.

He pretty much treats it the same as any other basic need. Every bathroom has toiletries that he's got placed in some neat little box and their medications in any available cabinet.

But that's pretty much all he thought was needed.

When he realizes just how bad your periods are, he's a little under prepared. The household isn't exactly equipped to handle this situation, so he, and a few of his brothers (particularly Asmodeus and Mammon), scramble to gather whatever items might be needed from the various corners of the house.

Lucifer grabs you towels for your bed, in case you're the type to bleed through during the night. He finds you a heating pad, rub-on muscle relief creams, and a multitude of pain meds that exceed the typical Midol relief.

He can get a little peeved about your attitude, but knows that you can't really help it. So he'll grin and bare it, and accepts the fact that you're going to be a bit different until this is done.

Mammon

He's not extremely well-versed in the topic of menstruation.

However, I think this is one of those topics that despite not understanding, he automatically is incredibly accommodating.

There's lots of cuddles, lots of playing with your hair, and a lot of nonsensicle rambling that is mostly comforting (but sometimes headache inducing).

He is a little weird about bleeding through though. Not in a bad "You're disgusting" way, but more of a "I'm extremely confused as to what I'm supposed to do in this situation" way.

Thankfully he becomes pretty quick at just wrapping his jacket around you in public if you do start to leak.

He does think a cold wet rag is the secret to everything lmao.

At least it takes away from the hot flashes!

Leviathan

He might be a little embarrassed when there are obvious signs of a period (like blood or toiletries), but otherwise he handles it normally.

Levi doesn't point out your acne. He doesn't mention when you leak onto his sheets during the night. He won't call you out for being a bit more aggressive then usual (or even crying, because sometimes that's just all you can do).

All he does is just be a silent support. It's a nice break from the others tbh.

Like when you're in the bathroom, turn between feeling like you're going to throw up because your contraction-like cramps are wrecking havoc on your entire body, he'll be beside you. Stroking your back, holding up your hair incase you do vomit, and running around for whatever you need.

Definitely the type who, when you ask him to pick up pad/tampons, grabs every size and brand, puts them in the cart as discreetly as possible, then rushes home in a frenzy.

Satan

Satan is just as irritable during your period as you are lmao.

He's absolutely understanding, sure, but I think he feeds off of anger. So the minute you start getting pissy, he does too.

It's like a sympathy period thing, but uh, more linked to his sin then anything else.

Everyone is absolutely tired of you two squabbling by the end of your cycle.

Someone probably tries to lock one of you away tbh. You two are just extremely annoying.

It's even worse that after every fight you guys just cuddle. Like nothing ever happened. And everyone else is just kinda left there tense as hell because you two were arguing over fucking fruit for no reason.

Asmodeus

He's kinda like a big sister in this situation.

Asmodeus will give you acne treatments, run baths for you (always makes sure you don't worry about cleaning out the tub!), and gives you massages that sometimes get a bit spicy (But he always makes sure you're okay to handle it).

Yeah, I'll say it, Asmodeus isn't scared of period sex.

This is like the one time of the month he actually breaks his "strict" diet and junks out with you.

Cue lots of food photos! And a few that he sneaks of you for his personal folder. Expect to see your rather bloated self as a part of his aesthetically set up phone background. He thinks it's cute!!

A lot of body worship and praise is going down. Between him and Beel it's enough to make your head spin.

Beelzebub

This is like prime Beel time.

Cuddles, food, and massages are his speciality.

(Also not opposed to period sex but tbh he's like, extremely concerned about your well being the entire time.)

He's like, always kneading your muscles and thighs. Whenever you get self-conscious about your pre-period or period body, he'll always be ready to lay down a thick layer of praises that seem almost too good to be true.

Always let's you finish the snacks ❤

He gets you heat and cold packs. Well, tries. Somewhere along the line he gets distracted and tends to come back with cold peas instead of a ice pack. Works the same way, just, uh, food driven.

Beel is extremely calm during this whole thing. He rarely ever gets offended by your emotions or aggression either. Probably just pats your head and walks away when you're getting a bit too much for him to handle.

Belphegor

He is like, the biggest fucking asshole, but like in the funniest way.

Genieunly doesn't care about toiletries or whatever, but he's so blunt about it

(What size pussy kinda guy)

Oh you leaked and bled onto his sheets? Go back bed. Throw a towel over it. He'll sleep on that side if you want.

Absolutely no help to your insomnia btw, unless he's like blessed with magic sleeping powers, you're going to need to stay up with someone else.

Honestly though... he's not the best with handling periods but I think he's extremely casual about it. He doesn't look down on you, or your cycle, an does whatever you ask.

Extremely passive lmao.

[custom-emojis]

You know ever since you mentioned possibly telling the story to it I've been very curious about your physical trigger with water

alright im drunk and its my birthday time to tell the dog mace story. tw for sickness/emeto and prob other stuff. 

alright so as you all know. I cant drink water. thats due to the unfortunate circumstances that occured circa 2011? maybe earlier?? idk i cant think of ages rn but rest assured I was a Fairly Young Child. around 8-11

anyways my parents were out at this comedy club thing, and I was left alone with my wreched brother. We had this dog, Sasha, whom i loved very much and I was sick with the flu. My brother goes to walk the dog and while he was out and about, he found a can of dog mace. You see, pepperspray is more or less illegal here in Canada afaik. but dog mace is pretty commonly found bc people working mail jobs get it incase dogs are aggressive. i’m pretty sure it’s legal to carry. Some people would also say dog mace is stronger than pepper spray but idk. 

anyways, my brother comes in the house after walking Sasha and is fiddling with this can of dog mace, and it explodes in his hand. Who knows why or how it just did. So the entire fucking house is filled with dog mace. we also lived in a tiny little underground suite so the living room and where I was laying was right by the front door. 

i get such a fucking whiff of dog mace and i immediately run to the bathroom and start puking. 

Listen. when I say this was the more terrifying experience of my life I damn well mean it. Everything burned, my lungs my nose my throat and tongue and eyes and skin all burned and I was all crying and snotty. I also tend to be a VERY aggressive projectile puker unfortunately, an it’s common for me to black out while puking due to inability to breath. 

I did that. many times. that night. I kept projectile vomiting as my brother had to hold me to make sure I didn’t give myself genuine whiplash. I blacked out multiple times, and most of it’s a blur. My brother got me on the couch and I had 4 giant glasses of water infront of me and i’d like. chug a glass, then inevitably throw up into said glass, so my brother would grab it quick and go to clean and rinse it and refill it and i had the other 3 glasses to go through as he did. And he did that for hours. My parents refused to come home bc they said it was our fault lmao so we were forced to deal with it alone. 

i deadass thought I was gonna die. We didnt know milk soothed the stuff until years later. but being a child with almost an entire cans worth of dog mace was uhhhh not great. I also cant eat spicy food bc the burning in the back of my throat reminds me of it and i instantly start gagging. similarily I cant drink water bc it like. just reminds me of it and i swear i can feel the burning in my throat when i drink the stuff lmao. Like. especially writing it out like this I can tell it was clearly. very traumatic for me..? but I think i’ve mostly processed and am fine with it now aside to the physical aversion that i’ve never been able to get over. 

anyways thats the story of why I cant drink water hope u enjoyed. 

[genderbattles]

a diary entry/word vomit

my mind is so full rn im finding it hard to focus (so this paragraph is definitely just gonna be sentences of random thoughts strung together apologies in adv), weirdly enough its not purely on the sad stuff like usual, im starting to celebrate the little things like new sunglasses or not crashing the car in driving lessons and having a good day at work lmao. idk today was a good day but Raz got sad and id be lying if I said it didn't kill me inside. she's genuinely my heart and soul and seeing her sad kills me more bc im like PLEASE DONT BE SAD BC IM SAD AND I KNOW WHAT ITS LIKE TO BE SAD AND ITS GODDAMN HORRIBLE! fam keep telling her she's a failure which is weird bc she's doing better than me and they usually tell me im the failure? I gave her a huge ass pep talk bc she is a gr8 human and I said she's got a lifetime ahead of her and she said she only wanted to live into her 20s and it scares me incase she's not taking the piss??? I just want her to be okay and know her worth in this hell hole of a world. other stuff thats one my mind rn is gender KMS..........I want to transition BUT I know I can never come out bc fam are shite and ive already been through it once with being gay but it would be 3000 times worse coming out as NB and wanting to transition and go on hormones, surgery etc. acceptance will never come and knowing this makes me die a little every day. suicidal tendencies grow each and everyday I find myself asking ‘how much do you want to die rn karla?’ as a serious question and the answer is always a lot, whats worse is when I picture the future I have none and when I picture how Ill die its by my own hand....?theres also the constant reminder when someone uses the wrong pronouns that im not male passing and its the worst bc you tell yourself constantly that you're a boy and that you look so masculine etc then someone calls you she/her or any remotely female pronoun and you're back to square 1 and dysphoria hits you like a double decker bus. 

this para took a sudden turn for the worst which was noooot the aim at all so im gonna stop bc im not gonna ruin a really good day fuckkk:)))))