#webmastertalking

[a-epplesauce]

Nice to meet you; and welcome to my introduction post~

My name is Aaron, I am 20 years old as of writing this, and a couple key identities of mine include being queer (more info), autistic, a stoner, an otaku, and a leftist.

The purpose of this Tumblr for me is mostly to find community and to find fan creations of my favorite media. I come from Neocities but have a... complected history with Tumblr from middle school lol.

My discord is kyatapira_ and my messages are open. I do struggle with an intense fear of people and being precised; so please do not take it personally if I ghost or don't reply despite accepting a friend request.

Otaku: Seasonal anime, CGDCT, Touhou Project, Denpa, Visual Novels, Iyashikei, Rythum Games, Kirara manga, & anything Moe. Some specific series I really enjoy are FKMT, Monogatari, GLT, Hidamari Sketch, Yuyushiki, Machikado Mazoku, LL!, Haruhi Suzumiya, Nichijou, Panponi Dash, Subahibi, Saya no Uta & Osu!Mania. My anime list can be found here.

Animals: Big special interest in birds, especially pigeons, corvids, and parrots. I also adore cats, snails, and cows.

Media (other): MLP:FIM, South Park, Kirby, & Overwatch.

Assorted: Some of my other hobbies include sewing, HTML/CSS, homemaking (not trad), cooking + baking, permaculture, cob architecture, and reading. My political preference is communalism, but I often will just use 'letfist' as shorthand.

As far as my life offline, I live in southeastern Alaska, with my lovely boyfriend and the stray cat Toby Tomcat Tommy that comes by sometimes. I spend my days just trying to kill time. My dream in life is to hug a cow.

Nice to meet you~

DNI racist, bigoted, transphobic, homophobic, abelist, yk the drill... Also if you like Akagi Shigeru specifically because he makes my blood boil.

Please interact if you enjoy anything above or are just generally a cool person.

[a-epplesauce]

nyan yew nyamyagine nyan nyamyagine meowapurie manager nyamyagine meowapurie nyan nyamyagine meowapurie

Neko. Repeat after me. Can you imagine an imaginary menagerie manager imagining managing an imaginary menagerie?

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denpa song is the only thing that gets me out of bed in the morning

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every once in awhile I get absolutely ravaged by the rage of being a nadeko kinnie and rewatch all of her arcs & scenes for the 200th time just to feel horrible about it.

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I spend 1hr on this website, get a que going, then don't visit for another week once my que is all but dried up. It's a strategy.

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Thinking about making my site's name Katasumushi (cross between Mushi (insect) & Katasumuri (cattepilar)) bc the japanese word for caterpillar is one of my favorites but I also like bugs...

I want to have a propper name for my site instead of just my username. I'm giving myself until version 5 to decide. And maybe I'll get a domain then too.

I think the cross between the two sounds both cute yet a bit disturbing at the same time, keeping the denpa-like theme of my site

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I'm still coming to terms with having a disability because I don't want to call it that. I want to believe that I can do these things but I'm just lazy. I need to do these things and it feels like there is no option to be disabled. Just keep ramming my head into the same symptoms over and over again. Thinking maybe this time I can prove myself.

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im tired of vocally saying that i am not comfortable doing something and do not want to do the thing multiple times, people saying 'you'll be fine', and then when i am no longer fine they'll say that i should have spoken up. there's no winning.

"you have to get out of your comfort zone" and i do! but when i get to the point of becoming so overwhelmed that a meltdown is imminent they think it's quitting early and won't let me.

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bf and i are quitting weed for a month or two so he can pass a drug test and so i can try prozac. but our last night was the 21st. so in order to reference our sobriety. do you remember. the 21st night of september?

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Sick day 4 me but I have my first doctor's appointment tomorrow and I have to get better today... because even if i was at at peak health i would be scared shitless...

this was already a big big step for me why did it have to get harder :(

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recently discovering that i really like goth music after i get a medium/short haircut with bangs. becoming goth is not in my tax bracket but i understand it. i am inclined.

to be fair I have only listened to the cure & joy division's discographies but damn i need more.

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I miss when yor from spyxfamily was known more for her personality in online spaces than now that she has left containment zone and is known for being dom milf.

I've only seen s1 but kinned her and now I feel like if I put her on kin list ppl who haven't watched it will get the complete wrong idea.

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Very Tempted to cut my hair the same as Megumin. If I do ill post how that goes.

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my que just went from 10 to 20 posts per day bc my backlog has reached the 100s

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honestly sad that i get so overwhwlmingly anxious about online games, vc, posting, hell even texts, and literally anything that involves being seen by another person.

i watch random YouTube vods of people playing overwatch bc even though it is a huge special intrest of mine i can't play it for more than 1-2 rounds before feeling physically sick and hating the entire experience.

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i feel like im trapped in this ugly body. unable to exist because i am fundimentally not enough of a person and not deserving of anything.