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#whatever pays the bills you know?
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love waking up to my mom giving me an ultimatum and ordering that i have to give up my (admittedly expensive) apartment 1n 2 weeks and move back home for good. i had stuff to do today but i guess being gripped by dread and anxiety works too
#i had been thinking about moving to a smaller one too. but now she's ordering me to do that#and expects me to move back home#when my university and all of my two friends are in the city.#and i have TWO WEEKS to live here if she wants me to move before summer because i have to go back home anyway in early may#for my summer job.#like sure i wouldve understood like a hey. my child. your financial situation is oretty tough so i have some suggestions that could help#but she was like okay here's whay you do: option a) [something i couldnt do before fall] b) find a cheaper apartment and live in two weeks#c) move home for good and commute over an hour any day you have university stuff to do and also essentially lose access to your#friends and all and any independence you have managed to cobble together so i can treat you like a child and yeall at you#the last part wasnt included but it's what she does anyways so i assume it's part of the deal#then i would have to commute or drive an hour any time i wanted to see either of my friends. after every summer im already#tired and desperate to come back to my apartment to get to be on my own. and now she's saying i have to never do that again#and here's the fuckin thing. her husband is planning on fixing my car. my mom pays my phone bill. i know what a loser i am whatever.#she actually owns my dogs and my childhood home. i cannot. piss her ofd too much. because then i'll lose all of those#phone. whatever i can get a new one. car. slightly more heartbrwakin but like i still own it. but the house?#my dogs?? i think i would rather die atm if im being honest#so what the fuck am i supposed to do. huh.#maybe i should just walk into the sea foe good i feel like that would just so neatly solve all of my problems
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lothloriien · 1 year
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there’s something very lonely about being the planner friend on your birthday
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faerl · 9 months
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Small vent but I hate how complicated life has to be because of stupid things like made up numbers in your bank account and how much of that is owed to someone else for saving your life from dying etc like .... Okay I could just be dead and not owe you anything, would that be better? Like idk I guess I'm just thinking about how you could be taken out at literally any second and none of the bullshit would matter, like literally none of it. Only the connections to the people near you and how you live on through them will matter, not debt or lack of possessions or the things you didn't do or didn't get to do because of made up boundaries set enforce by people who love running the money machine of the world for themselves.
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lonesomedotmp3 · 10 months
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not even there yet and my flatmates are already annoying me 😐 whatever.
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n0thingiscool · 9 months
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You can tell how privileged someone is based on if they get angrier about how you don't like their TV show vs. how a CEO is threatening a population's housing costs, individual health record privacies, and/or social media access revocations to the disabled.
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vampire-crimson · 1 year
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we have three toilets in our house. every day, and that is not an exaggeration, at least one of them breaks or otherwise gets messed up in some way. luckily we have not yet had a situation where all three break at the same time, but we have had situations where two of them do.
the “every day” thing has only started in the past, maybe three months? but from the time we’ve lived here (two and a half years) we have had issues with our toilets. even when there is seemingly nothing wrong, every now and then theres this kind of septic smell in the house
who wants to guess our rent costs!!!
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god i love health insurance in this country
#would love it if it did literally anything#got to love the news that it won't cover anything at all for me in this surgery!#anyway i can still afford it and im still happy about it but like finances are so tight for me rn lmao.#its like. part of the reason ive been waiting so long for this is the pride and knowledge that i should not have to pay anything for#medical care under a just and correct system and having to set my standards aside and grovel for the fucking. necessary and life saving#stuff i need to not feel horrible and disgusting and ugly every day of my life is debasing and dehumanizing#to sum it u#i'm just really frustrated rn.#its so hard to like... go get help or do anything for myself in the first place ever because like. every single time i try to do anything i#get slapped with the harshest penalties known to mankind#you could argue that i could have tried to find a different doctor or whatever but i need my hand held through everything and i still think#that this one was the proper and correct choice based on that#anyway. i have the lump sum. i dunno if i should try to finance it to make myself not feel like i have no money or what.#maybe ill try to open comissions or something but idk if i even have time for that#like im still going to send them the request to reimburse me for my fucking medical bills anyway and i know theyre not going to because#fuck you. but still. id like a letter saying 'fuck you vintage go die and give me 10 grand' instead of just trusting some schmuck over the#phone about it. lmao.#im so tired. i need a break.#between this and work i think its killing me.#im hopeful my blood pressure isnt going to be too high for clearence lmao i am so fuckign worried about that because if it is then like.#nothing ive done at all to prepare for it has mattered at all#i need to be unemployed i am so tired of working for a living i just want to crawl in a hole and sleep for forever
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Nothing more scary as an adult than having to call out of work for the 2nd or 3rd time this week because your dysautonomia is fuckin with you, making it difficult to think clearly or do anything more taxing than sitting on the couch.
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theood · 5 days
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Oh cool people being really mean about a thing I do 🤪 that's fine j can drop that entire chunk of my personality it's fine I needed a new one anyway so I'm more likeable 👍👍👍
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fazcinatingblog · 15 days
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Oh yeah I have to fight and beg and plead with my boss tomorrow to not double the invoices for the BAS's just because the timesheet says
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bladeofthestars · 2 months
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#currently having one of those shits you have to get naked for#curled over the toilet and yelling as quietly as possible#hopefully whatever this is is out of my system before i have to go to lessons tomorrow#would hate to have to call off#i've been pretty consistent about my practice and would like to actually get good at it#also excited to go out for a latte tomorrow and put the lavender flowers i just bought in it. they smell super pungent so should be good#would also like to write or draw sometime soon#have mostly just been playing videogames with my SO when they're home and various homemaking stuff or piano practice when they're not#we desperately need to move out of here which means i need a job which aaaaaaa#i have desperately fucking needed this break after how that place was treating me#hoping to get a work from home job again to make moving easier#also would like to not burn through my entire savings but ey whaddaya gonna do sometimes ya know?#between med bills student loans keeping gas in my car groceries car insurance and whatever the fuck else life throws my way#my decently sized savings will likely dwindle fast#my partner is currently covering my car insurance but like. i pay significantly more than that amount for our shared groceries#maybe double or triple the monthly cost of my car insurance#and they have like 0 bills except the amount taken out paycheckly to have health insurance#hate ever even suggesting to take up more of the load tho#just awkward to talk about#in any event#here's to hoping for a decent wfh job. it's much easier to take care of the home and myself with wfh.
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what if my body could have invented joints that work
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autistic-shaiapouf · 2 months
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I need to go to work and be nothing short of absolutely mid
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lastoneout · 1 month
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Like I know we all love making ADHD seem cool but like, don't forget it's actually a disability? My ADHD is bad enough I've nearly been evicted for forgetting to mail the rent check to the property manager, I've forgotten to pay the utility bills and had my water or power get turned off or had to pay fines bcs I missed a credit card payment. Once I was supposed to cat sit for a friend and I lost the house key she gave me but didn't realize until she was already out of town, and she had to call the apartment office to get someone to give me the spare so her cats would have food for the week. When I'm unmedicated I can't even get myself to shower half the time, forget eating or cleaning. Before I started living with my fiance I'd just like, not eat for days because I didn't have anyone to remind me to eat or go buy me food. I've forgotten to turn the stove off so many times and ruined kettles and tbh been DAMN fucking lucky the house didn't burn down. I've done stupid, impulsive shit that's nearly gotten me KILLED. I can't remember to close the shower curtain reliably even through my fiance points out every single time I forget, and he's almost out of soap rn bcs for the last MONTH neither of us have been able to remember to order more once we get out of the shower.
I've had such bad memory my entire life that to this day someone suggesting I forgot something because I simply didn't care enough is a legitimate trigger that, in the worst cases, makes me have a breakdown.
I get that for some of you this is just something that makes studying hard or you forget to take a pee break when you're playing Minecraft or whatever, that's still a valid struggle and you do deserve help and understanding, but like, ADHD is a disability. It's disabling. It's not impossible to improve and learn coping skills, meds help a lot, there are great accommodations out there(LIKE CLEANING SERVICES), but not every case of ADHD is the same, and a lot of them are pretty ugly ngl, and just because you managed to do something doesn't mean someone else is gonna be able to manage it too, or that they're being lazy for struggling. And that obviously doesn't mean ADHD people have a free pass to never work on themselves and make everyone cater to their every need or whatever, but we do deserve some understanding when we explain that our disability is actually disabling in ways that aren't palatable to you. So like, idk, maybe don't immediately recoil in horror when you find out that someone with ADHD can't keep their house clean. And for fucks sake don't ridicule them for it.
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