#whoops i'm rambling anyway

[lazylittledragon]

what do you mean youre technically a detransitioner cause of terf bullshit?

it's a v long story but i detransitioned for a couple of years when i was 16/17, for multiple reasons but mostly because i fell into the blaire white/kalvin garrah chamber of "you have to be This way to be trans otherwise you're not real".

i was already Deeply insecure about myself and my 'passing' and i was led to believe that i couldn't want to wear makeup or skirts, and i couldn't choose not to have bottom surgery, and i couldn't do anything but bind for 12+ hours a day to the point that my ribcage is still misshapen. basically i thought that if i wasn't suffering enough doing 'feminine' things, i couldn't really be trans, so i should just go back to being a girl and suck it up.

the terf bullshit is because i'd seen a lot of terfs/detransitioners talking about the 'dangers' of testosterone and how it would turn me into a horrible ugly evil monster and how there was nothing worse than wanting to be a man. which combined with 'you need to fully medically transition to be valid at all' creates some very dangerous and upsetting feelings to cope with.

it also came from trying really hard to put myself in a little box before i realised that my sexuality/gender are very fluid and it's FINE for me not to have a label and just do whatever i want. when i was 19 or so i went back to using they/them (and eventually he/him) and changed my name again because even though i like doing 'feminine' things, i don't want to be seen as a woman.

tldr: i was conditioned by transphobic/terf rhetorics to think that i was being trans the 'wrong' way so i couldn't be trans at all, so i believed i must actually be a girl if i still wanted to do 'feminine' things. nowadays i am a transmasc who does feminine things because i don't give two shits about what any transmed prick thinks of me anymore.

[tei-to-tei]

December 14 - Spare Time

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[crazy-grrrl-on-the-computer]

I was today years old when I finally realized that the reason the principal accidentally hired a ballet instructor was because "ballet-bu" (ballet club) and the way "volleyball" is pronounced sound so similar he couldn't tell the words apart.....

"Hey, we need a volleyball advisor."

"A ballet club advisor? Sure, why not!"

"Wait--"

[ariquess-arts]

soo... I did a quick art, that took me waaay too long for something so simple (and yet, I haven't drawn in ages), of my MC from The Sole Reminiscence by @lilac-den I guess I could as well introduce them to the World.

Name: Astra

House: Val'hai

Gender: Non-binary, they/them. Assigned male at birth.

Ability: Therianthropy

Love Interest: Maverick

Standing at 5'5, with long, wavy black hair and purplish-blue eyes, they're the newest cousin of Countess Val'hai. (And what a feeling it is, to once again call someone family). With demeanor so gentle and sweet, most can't help by wonder - how the deep, ugly scar adorning their neck came to be? They heard the rumors already, or some of it, what, with so many merchants ready to share a gossip or two: of fire that never was in a small city they wonder if ever existed. Maybe the people of this world will point it to that story too. Hopefully, no one will see other scars hidden underneath the pretty dresses they wear, it's only so much they can bear.

Sometimes they wonder what it would be like, to tell someone about their past. Of all the hardships they went through, the love and then pain so hard it left them numb to it all. But how could they? How to burden someone with a sorrow and anguish so big, when each day it feels like that first one again. Their last world, they left feeling nothing more at all. This new world, with all its pretty, soft dolls and happy kids, feels like a curse in their eyes. For how can they be at ease, when they feel it mocks their beloved ones' sacrifice? Even with a Princess so sweet they could give her a hug (they won't, not with all the blood on their hands), a new home by Syphina's side, they can't forget just like that.

Oh and isn't it fun? They're losing it again. With voices they prayed to hear again and touches that left them alight.

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Sooo, a silly little idea about maybe MC having more scars besides the important one we chose at first? bc I can see my MC actually trying to feel something that way back in their world but still, the neck one is a must. (I want them to suffer alright? there's never enough of angst) Or, at least a headcanon of mine: no one cares about any other scars, not after seeing that one, haha.

Also interesting thing my youtube did, bc it changed from dark academia playlists to ones named like our time is gone, what it feels like to fade away and finally, as I write this post what it feels like to forgive yourself and I find it funny how well the titles sound with all that MC goes (and will go in the future) through.

[ninja-knox-ur-sox-off]

Sorry for the random asks, I just get random thoughts.

If the Wobbly Hearts AU Ninja were in a band AU who would be doing/playing what?

-froginninjago

bro ur asks are fun so this works out HGLKSJDF

Okay, i had to think a bit hard on this one but here we go

Jay - Lead Guitar: Bro has some wild speed which would be dope for shredding amazing for finger picking, this, ofc, is in reference to his elemental power of lightning. I'd think he can play several different types of guitars ranging from a standard electric to the banjo. He also likes to be front and centre a lot of the time and absolutely thrives off of attention so guitar solos would really give him a chance to shine. I imagine he'd play with a speed similar to this guy though likely not with that type of guitar

Kai - Bass guitar/backup vocalist: I'd actually give Kai the bass cause it's criminally underrated (like kai in the show it feels like sometimes) and it kinda lends itself to the fact his character ends up being more of a supporting role (specifically to Lloyd in the show) in the background rather than the main protagonist. He's extremely skilled in a way that not a lot of people notice, an avid bass defender and hype man and only slightly annoyed that Jay has more fans than him. He likely posts lots of bass shredding vids online

Cole - Drums: I mean come on you had to have seen this coming. I know it almost feels basic to put him but it fits so WELL. He's the one who keeps the team on track in the show and on beat in the band. He's so steady and consistent that it kinda blends together and you forget he's there sometimes. He's the one band member who can go out in public and not a single person will recognize him and he's cool with that. He has an amazing voice and could easily be a lead singer but he's content where he is. He's wildly skilled on the drums and I imagine people would start taking notice in him when he has like a drum solo that happens and its kinda like how Jay is crazy on the guitar he'd be outrageous like this dude

Lloyd - Lead Vocals/drums: Lloyd's currently learning drums from Cole and he's having a lot of fun with them. (a nod to my hc of Cole teaching Lloyd how to lead in the show.) He has the best voice out of the group with an INSANE range in his vocals. He can go from more like straight up angelic sounding to like hardcore screaming and so he's pretty versatile. (A nod to his oni/dragon sides.) He doesn't enjoy singing as much as he does drumming but he's good at it so he doesn't mind being the lead. Though he's not a huge fan of his fans. They're a little crazy. If you want to see him smile ask him to play the drums for you, he gets really winded and is always grinning with his hair a complete mess afterwards. He gets a lot of dopamine from da drums. He also enjoys helping Nya out with writing their lyrics

Nya - Stage Manager(previous)/Backup Guitarist/Second Lead Vocal/Songwriter: Nya is pretty versatile in what she can do. She knows the basics of base, is a pretty solid contender for lead guitar, she's also learning drums from Cole alongside Lloyd. She used to handle the behind the scenes stuff at some point before she actually joined the band. Her ability to both carve out her own place and easily fill in for the other's if they need to tap out lends itself to her element power of water something something. I kinda think of Walk Off the Earth with their two lead vocalists and how their voices blend together really well and the harmonies are really nice for how Nya and Lloyd would sound together. She also has a huge hand in writing the bands songs obviously. Kai did a lot of the lyrics for a while but he's not the most creative person. The whole band kinda has a hand in writing and its a group effort but Nya's usually the one leading it

Pixal - Stage Manager (current): I'm thinking Pixal used to be like, a solo act for a while or something? I dunno I actually couldn't get many ideas for her. But a soloist songwriter and maybe singer and she eventually retired from that and runs things behind the scenes for the band, booking stuff, getting transport, she's great at her job and the whole band loves and appreciates her, Kai regularly dramatically falls across her lap to ask "What would we do without you?" when she hands him a juice box after a set. She also handles the technology (with some assistance from Nya and sometimes Zane) and any more digital sounds they want added to their music

Zane - oh screw it, it's gotta be violin doesn't it??: come on just listen to his Falcon Chase song what else would he play??? All his songs in this show are literally strings!!! Cello, viola, violin, fiddle. i imagine he's classically trained in a lot of the bow + stringed instruments. I'm thinking Lindsey Stirling type playing probably or something. It lends itself to his controlled but emotional?? way of dealing with stuff? You can get a wide range of emotion from these types of instruments and he knows how to pull at your heartstrings (get it cause strings instrument--[gets hit with a chair])

Am i well versed enough in music to know if all these instruments would work well together? No, no i am not. But the concepts are cool and I guess i can be a lil silly goofy with it

[smallblueandloud]

been watching a lot of ted lasso recently. and. before i watched it, i heard a lot about an OT3 a lot of people shipped in this show -- keeley/roy/jamie. when i started the show i rolled my eyes bc the keeley/roy seemed excellent but involving jamie made me want to hurl. but now i'm halfway through season 2 and. Guys I'm Starting To See The Vision

[humbuns]

Hi i'm shy so I'm putting this on anon BUT i just need you to know that your tsumugi is one of my favorite tsumugi's of all time. You just draw him so perfectly??? His curls in particular look so right and it makes me so happy when I see him on my dash or one of my mutuals sends me your art. I HOPE YOU HAVE A GOOD DAY!!!

sobs first off, i'm overwhelmed that you regard my version of tsumugi so highly and that ppl are sharing it around !! it makes me want to combust into dust a little /pos

second, would you believe me if i told you i have observed tsumugi's hair so much that i actually have a favorite part lmao

i think i'm biased though bc i adore curly/wavy hair so much and i have an excuse to make it seem like waves for no reason so tsumugi is my current outlet of enjoyment rn (they get all the attention)

[percytheboykisser]

guys i'm flipping out i need the wisdom saga NOWWWWWWUSDUUDUDIGK

[vulpine-spectacle]

Me working on a chapter realizing I've forgotten to write Dr. Yueh into Echoes in our Blood as a reference or even foreshadowing and now I'm at a part in the story where he's deeply supposed to be included

[strangefable]

what d&d class is your oc?

tagged for this uquiz by the lovely @jillvalentinesday, @cassietrn, @inafieldofdaisies, @voidika, @josephseedismyfather, @direwombat, @poisonedtruth, and @theelderhazelnut, thank you all <3

Ranger

You are a Ranger, an explorer of dangerous territories. You are fearless and cunning, traits necessary on your travels, but you tend to be closed off from others and overly pragmatic. Your connection with nature and skill with weaponry will carry you through most battles, and your sneakiness will let you avoid the ones it will not.

There isn't any other class that suits her. She's not got the magic for druid, but her fighting style keeps her out of direct warrior/barbarian types. Archery and nature, exploration and knowing the lay of the land, and using it to advantage? That's Micah. She's at home alone in the woods, but with party members she's off her footing, unsure how to interact or engage. Trusts comes hard for her, but a fearless ability to throw herself into danger? Yeah, she's got that in spades.

Rogue

You are a Rogue, a skilled adventurer who uses guile and expertise to your advantage. You are often seen as stealthy and precise, aiming for your opponent's weakest points, but you can master various other skills to aid you on your journey. While you tend to be underhanded and greedy, you can also be daring, clever, insightful and charismatic.

Sneaky. Underhanded. Guile. Charm. Greed. Loose Morals. What else could Lil ever be but rogue?

Artificer

You are an Artificer, an adventurer who wields science in place of magic. While your foremost trait is intelligence, you're built tougher than most others who place their faith in their brains. You are inventive, curious and occasionally reckless, all traits that get you both into and out of trouble on your adventure.

I admit it, I took the quiz for her a few times until it returned the right result. Intellect and knowledge, melding science and magic, those are Bright's Things. No matter how much the quiz kept trying to make her a traditional magic user, she's just not. She's extremely reckless, but it's not out of malice or a drive for power; it's simple curiosity. And a love of shiny things. She's clever but not wise; she's quick but not strong or nimble.

Paladin

You are a Paladin, a warrior sworn to an Oath, whether it be to a god, a king, an ideology or oneself. As a divine soldier, you are well equipped to strike down evil, but must follow a code of your choosing to retain this power. While you are limited somewhat by these bonds, you are also the most driven and determined member of your group.

tbh i've never considered what would suit Lore, but honestly? yeah, she's very driven for good, for what she sees as moral and right, for the betterment of the people, though i don't know if she could be defined as a soldier or warrior. she's about practicality and function over form or style, but she'd balk at the idea of serving a god or a king. her goal is always to help people, especially those who have no voice and no power. she fights hard, but she prefers diplomacy and compromise whenever possible, to save as many lives as she can. she's one of my purest, most good characters.

i realize i'm kinda late on this one, but i'm passing on tags, anyway. (feel free to ignore me<3) @henbased, @adelaidedrubman, @v0idbuggy, @legally-a-bastard, @damejudyhench, @mars-colony, @strafethesesinners, @thisisrigged4, @mediocre-life-span, @harmonyowl, @marivenah, @socially-awkward-skeleton, @florbelles, @trench-rot, @wrathfulrook, @simplegenius042, @incognito-insomniac, @gayafsatan, @shallow-gravy, @turbo-virgins, @chazz-anova, @confidentandgood, @aceghosts, @jacobseed, @vampireninjabunnies-blog, @fourlittleseedlings, @clonesupport, @unholymilf, and anyone else who wants to do this, please say i tagged you <3

[cementcornfield]

It's important to fans to understand me, and me understand the fans. I put a lot of work on my English to talk with you guys. And I think I'm doing a good job.

[skyward-floored]

Maybe I should put some IAU Four fluff on the list of things to write huh

[skyloftian-nutcase]

To those who sent medical asks, I'll get to them, don't worry lol. Brain's just not feeling it for now.

[peridots-pixiwolf]

[Start ID. A doodle of V1 and the Flesh Prison from ULTRAKILL. V1 is shooting volleys of nails in the general direction of the Flesh Prison, whilst very harriedly running around and attempting to dodge its numerous attacks. Next to it is a thought bubble reading "I AM IN HELL". The Flesh Prison's healthbar is displayed at the top, and the text "You are here" by the very right end of it displays the futility of V1's efforts to deal any lasting damage. End ID]

aka "i thought this was the kind of boss fight where you're supposed to stay alive and wait for something to help you" aka "guess who p-ranked eight levels in one day and is suffering the consequences" aka "help."

[dewitty1]

Saturday Six (Stuff)

Hi, hi I have done one of these in a while. Sorry. I just felt like I haven't had much to talk about, or I've been busy with the Farmer's Market. But here we go!

(ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:・ﾟ✧

@astutesnow'gf has been here since the 6th. At first she was going to stay until the 12th (I thought), then I guess she told her mom the 17th so, yeah. No worries. I love having her her. Too bad our house is too small for it to be permanent. (´ ▽｀).。ｏ♡

I have started to do food blogging on on my Instagram! I've done two posts already, here, and here. Check them out if you'd like.“ψ(｀∇´)ψ

Business has been slowwww. Only one project last week. Not good.Σ(-᷅_-᷄๑)

My vegetable plants are looking good! Hopefully the veggies will be great!(❁´▽`❁)*✲ﾟ*

The kittehs are all doing well. Reggie out there catching rodents, thanks to our terrible neighbor. And Leeloo will already be a year old next month!₍˄ุ.͡˳̫.˄ุ₎ฅ˒˒

I fear it's going to be an interesting Father's day tomorrow what with two trans girls in attendance at a very misogynistic & homophobic man's house. I guess we'll see what happens. Oh, not to mention the terrible meal plan of: grocery store oven baked chicken, mom's Miracle Whip macaroni salad, possibly burnt air fried tator tots, & old, out of the freezer brownies with plain vanilla ice cream. Whoooo...(ᅌᴗᅌ* )

[itsahotsecondafter]

hdhdhdjd sorry if its feels like im being annoying or condescending. im not!! the "eclipse liking the cello" part was a reference to that one piece you did of solar playing the cello!! not surebif that was clear enough if so my bad sjhddj,,, but that solar piece lives in my head rent free for some reason idk why but i think about it!!! a lot!! no cluebwhy but yippeee!!!!

OH! NO SORRY THAT MAKES SENSE-I WAS THINKING ABOUT THAT POST WHEN I READ IT (my brain caught the tone of the thing but I kept thinking it was in reference to a specific piece and not the instrument for some reason-) BUT I DIDN'T WANT TO ASSUME IT WAS ABOUT THAT CUZ YOU MENTIONED ECLIPSE (and I don't wanna assume stuff about people's aus cuz that doesn't usually end well...) BUT THANK YOU FOR THE REFERENCE! AND THE EXPLANATION (i'm chronically stupid sorry)

i kinda wanna redraw that one actually cuz it doesn't look the way i wanted it to-but-uh- thanks! for mentioning me! and for clarifying!