#why is my brain not working v_v

[collophora]

Do yourself a favor and go read the entire fanfic work of @fanfoolishness

(In order: Under sun and shade, Blind Side, and Breathless (patching up is one of my fav too, I just had no cool sketch idea for it)

[ourladyoftheflytrap]

I was soooo excited to work under a bomb ass woman with a PhD in chemical engineering who was running experiments related to virus filtration systems last summer only to be severely disappointed because she clearly did not want undergrads working in her lab, was forced into accepting us by the university, and then had no activities or projects lined up for us to do once we were there

[tortoisetales]

A Lonely Place of Dying

Tim's origin story!

I like that Tim is introduced as a mysterious figure stalking Batman. I've heard a lot of people arguing that Photographer Tim isn't canon, but where did he get these older framed, close-up shots of Batman and Robin otherwise? Then again, I think Batman and Robin weren't staying out of the limelight back then. Which I guess means Tim has framed publicity photos, lol.

Tim is impressed that Dick figured out whodunnit, but it was entirely because Dick accidentally handled a key piece of evidence, lol.

Look at this tiny detective baby. Also it takes him until they get to Wayne manor to tell Dick even his name:

Tim knowing Alfred as "Batman's confident" is interesting to me. No assumption that Alfred's just the help, but how did he figure that out? And he still hasn't given them his last name. "I will just fix this problem, reveal I know WAY too much, then walk out" -- Tim Drake.

I've chosen a pic that makes baby Tim look less like a mannequin, but one question remains: Why is this baby in a suit?!

Very funny to me how often this comic contradicts stuff I commonly see in Tim Drake stories. Right out the gate he mentions he attends boarding school outside Gotham, rather than living in a manor all alone. And he's not completely untrained/weak to start with. The writers are trying to convince us this kid should be Robin!

Also very interesting to me that one of the few shots we get of Janet Drake, she's worrying about Tim's feelings.

HOW DID HE FIT THE DISCOWING COSTUME UNDER HIS CIVVIES? The collar alone!

Also Nightwing's barely left the room before Alfred is like, "Dick brought you here because you should be Robin." Why do people think this man is the sensible one. (For dramatic purposes, the end of this scene is rewritten next issue, so did Alfred imply this or not? Who knows!)

I have no idea why Tim thinks Nightwing can't be a partner to Batman, only Robin can. Like yes, Batman and Robin are a legendary team ... because Bruce and Dick were a legendary team. So what if he's Nightwing now? (The argument that Robin can't be seen to have been killed makes more sense to me.) Tim stomps on Dick's feelings because he's such a fanboy and sees all of this as symbols greater than any of the people involved. Also I love how uncool Tim is despite his skills.

The Editor: *shoving his face in* Hey, this is a Titans book. Put the Titans in again. Raven: Forsooth, a data disc for Nightwing!

Batman's bullishness is straight up putting Dick in danger now that Dick's returned, even though Batman's thinking about how he needs to protect him. Good thing Dick is more cautious.

A couple issues later, Alfred is acting like he's totally against this whole Tim as Robin thing. Still driving him, though.

Tim: Batman and Robin have meant everything to me. My brain, translating: Batman and Robin are Tim's special interest.

Poor Tim, forced to wear the scaley panties. v_v oh and fight Two-face, that's bad too. And get bricked in the face--why are people always bricking Tim in the face?

Tim: I never wanted to be Robin for myself-- (slightly later) I've studied Karate half my life--

Poor Batman immediately thinks he got Tim killed. Tim is so smug about not getting killed.

"He doesn't want me but I will just keep doing my best until he's stuck with me" <- a thing that actually worked. Kudos to you, ascended fanboy, you dork.

[sun-god-els-day-off-chronology]

Gawddamn, meds are ruining my life.

If i dont want to take meds anymore, do I have to, Like... Im in AOT, and got people coming to the house, to "check on me"... Im sort of, curious about, doing Therapy without me bombed out my brain on sedatives etc.. I feel they've dampened my IQ, for better or worse, and really have been putting me out like a light, for weeks now, all I've been doing is sleeping... I know I'm not Crazy, not like they're insinuating, they was damn supposed to get me stimulant vitamins to stay up during the day and nic patches, my body is rejecting the pills and I'm not on drugs -- and that's mainly why I was having delusions and/or being afraid of what my own mind was perceiving or coming up with. >__> I'm in AOT and need rides and everything, Im just TOO DAMN SLEEPY, DAWG, to live my life, and I want to be happy, not lobotomized .. Um, I think im going to skip everything but the anti depressants, and obviously, those were working, but only b/c i increased dose on my own... I needed like 600 mg to start smiling and everything, and my voices would tease me about it,

In hands and knees, hypertension, I even have the "too much soda/sugar" bloating, sorry, but this is like a med thing ... >.< Hands are swollen, I have like no money besides the amount i put into bills, and they are just, like, making me too lazy and everything, v_V And careless, and devouring everything in sight,Im gonna cut down on the pills, myself, fuck them... I'll always be 100 Proof V-V... and not a do as I'm Told type.

[shoyoist]

rekha that ask…..oh my fucking….my pussy and remaining brain cells collapsed. i almost don’t wanna share it but i will DEFINITELY answer that but first look what i found on twt 😵‍💫 this guy apparently worked on some episodes for stone ocean and OMFGGGGG IM SO OBSESSED ive been scrolling for like 20 minutes! also you see the hands on gyro’s belt buckle right? yk what they’re pointing at? HIS FAT, HEAVY, LONG VEINY COCK THATS WHAT!! that third leg he carrying around in there 🤕

OH... SOSA ‼️😩 they worked on stone ocean?? okay they just confirmed gyro's packing in there then didn't theyy v_v and he knows he's packing that's why he got that belt buckle! he's telling us he's got a big one <3 i'm on my knees right now my mouth's open wide my tongue is OUT!

[bronan]

my brain exploded so have some measly jack wheeler & his ex-wife & vert & even some simon headcanons today

disclaimer this is, of course, all made up except for like one or two tiny things that we got from canon and it’s just my own personal self-indulgent headcanons ✌️🥺 welcome 2 my twisted mind it’s just full of jack and simon

also second disclaimer my headcanons for jack and simon are always centered around a “what if the movie didn’t happen and season 3 went like this” mindset

ANYWAY

Jack will never trash-talk his ex wife that is the mother of his son you’re talking about WHAT’D YOU SAY ABOUT CLAIRE

yeah I think I’ll name her claire V_V claire wheeler

jack 20 years old: short for eclair hahaha (gets smacked) OW I MEANT LIKE THE WHEELS claire, also 20 years old and so done with his shit already: NO YOU DIDN’T

I headcanon that jack and claire were high school sweethearts who had an oopsie baby way before they were ready BUCKLE UP JACK

and then they got married way too fast (pressure from family probably and them wanting a solid stable environment for Vert)

and then they got divorced lmao and it was hard for jack. he felt like such a failure and he wasn’t over Claire yet.

claire got primary custody but jack stuck around to help out all the time and to be with vert but he was always Restless™️ and it wasn’t unlike Jack to get an idea or a wild hair and ride off somewhere for a bit, but he’d always come back

until he didn’t

it took jack a looong time to get over his ex wife but he’ll always have love for her. just not in love with her kwim. It took him a while to find peace in that.

same with claire, she’s genuinely over it but they’ll always have that bond despite the fact that she kind of wants to really kill him for running off like he did

but they’re always a team when it comes to vert no questions asked

jack, freshly divorced, every single time he goes to zeke’s diner: hey zeke daily reminder to not date my ex wife zeke: jack shut up here’s your pie

anyway jack always drove claire fucking crazy both while married and after because he was/is an idiot. Headstrong, opinionated, wily and definitely willing to get his hands dirty for some quick cash - claire was like can you fucking not we have a toddler

THAT’S WHY HE NEEDS MONEY SO BAD CLAIRE geez let him do the dirty work, put food on the table, who cares how it got there haha ahhh

jack didn’t go to college or anything because it costs 5 million fucking dollars so he just went straight into working out of high school to make ends meet, he wanted claire home as much as possible to be with vert

jack knows he failed as a father and husband in a lot of ways ok he doesn’t need reminding. Claire also knows she could have done better but Jack really took the cake here.

they did their best!!! it was really hard!!!! claire always kind of resented jack for remaining stupid and never properly settling down and maturing. He was out there chasing bad bets and looking to rig races right up until he disappeared

WHICH SHE WAS SO FUCKING MAD ABOUT?? they were divorced for a while by then but he just LEFT. never answered her calls or texts. Never came to check on Vert. You know how hard it was to try to make Vert understand without fully making him understand? Dad’s not coming home. Why? Because. Why, mom? UGH

despite it all, Claire didn’t trash-talk Jack, either, especially not to Vert. She just carried on and raised Vert the best she could. But it doesn’t take a rocket scientist to see her building resentment and of course Vert picked up on it but it just kind of became a thing they didn’t really talk about. So, you know, Vert fucked off to the Yukon and met AJ and healed a little.

In short Claire really fucking went through it and so did Vert

meanwhile Jack in space is getting his shit kicked in every day until Tors-10 is like “oh you can BUILD stuff fucking lit make me a super weapon”

TRAUMA FOR EVERYONE WOOOOOO

in jack’s defense. he is a sagittarius. you know those fuckers can’t sit still to save their lives

jack on his 558th escape attempt: FUCK YOU TORS-10

I also love to draw Jack with scars because I just think he has lots of scars from his time spent at the gladiator pit. (cups my hands around my mouth) JACK WHEELER TAKE OFF YOUR SHIRT

so ANYWAY Jack has this HUGE chip on his shoulder even after coming back to the safety of earth. He doesn’t even know if he can see Claire for a long time. Top priority is that he wants to fix what he did to Vert by disappearing.

See Jack will push his own trauma out of the way in order to try to “fix” Vert first. He wants Vert to be okay. But he doesn’t know how to do it and his own issues will constantly rise to the surface and interfere with his ability to form a healthy bond with Vert again until he confronts it. He’s home, yay! But things aren’t better yet. 

and god you know how Jack is. He’ll insist that he’s doing it the right way because it’s his way. He’ll get frustrated when Vert pushes back, when Vert insists that he works on himself, too. Hell, dad, work on yourself first. Jack doesn’t wanna hear that.

Vert, last time he saw you, you were... god. A kid. You’re still a damn kid.

You’re always gonna be a kid to him and he can’t help that. He knows you’re 18, you’re technically an adult, but you’re still his baby. 

I think it goes without saying but jack loves vert sooooooooo much. And no matter what, he does not regret him and even though life didn’t turn out how he thought it would, he never wanted a life without his son. Vert’s his little man and he drives vert a little crazy because he still thinks that even though vert is Legally An Adult.

STILL THO they’ll butt heads sooo much for a while. Jack will want to be the team leader and man if you thought Tezz was annoying when he challenged the team’s authority/did his own thing without asking/etc...

and it doesn’t help that Simon is literally right there with you Jack he has got your BACK fuck these kids let’s go king we are Two Grown Men

They keep each other in line it’s fine, it works, it’s fine, they’re fine

Stanford: vert I’d like to say I’m so sorry Simon has proven to be an absolutely awful influence on your father but also I would like to remind you that I am not personally responsible for the actions of my obnoxious stupid cocky older brother and also I suspect that your father has been an equally bad influence on Simon Vert: I don’t feel better AT ALL

honestly it might take simon’s influence to help humble Jack. you’re WELCOME vert. See Simon matures so much awww

in all seriousness I daydream of Simon’s path to maturity as he embraces his role as the healer and protector of the team and learns to love himself for who he really is without feeling the need to pretend it’s REALLY VERY VERY GOOD I yell into the void

and actually Simon and Jack are SUCH a great team, they balance each other out really well. They also do some really stupid shit together got to keep it even. Got to have fun, keep it fresh, protect their loved ones

But Simon just fucking adores you Jack he has since day one when you tried to kill him when he ran into you in that random battlezone he is ride or die with you sir

and Jack is like wow this is a real one (points to simon) he saved my life and also forgave me for almost cutting his throat I’d die for him for sure

I mean simon is the one who took out jack’s molecular tracker. simon said “stupid krytus I’m fuckin ballin”

RIDE OR DIE

so back to Claire like it is REALLY hard for Jack to imagine seeing her again because HOW the hell does he explain his disappearance?? Without showing her Sage and BF5 and everything?? and no Vert vouching for him won’t help, he knows EXACTLY how that would look - son so desperate to see his dad again he’s just “okay” with forgetting the past and move forward without proper reconciliation like omggg jack says fuck no that would never go down well

SO LIKE yes he is back in town. But Claire has no idea and it needs to stay that way for a while. He’ll figure it out later, he always does. (Does he though...............)

poor vert having to pretend his dad isn’t back for his mother’s sake JUST MORE STRESS FOR VERT NOTHING NEW HERE

I just wanna see the day Jack defers to Vert as the leader and tells him how proud of him he is and he’s just really glad vert “didn’t turn out like me” and it’s super emotional and WHO’S CRYING anyway he’s PROUD of you son despite it all you rose up to be a great leader, friend, and warrior and honestly he couldn’t have asked for anything more he’s just so... ABLUUHHHH

jack fucking hates crying don’t look at him

vert also hates crying don’t look at him either

stanford is crying because everyone else is crying he can’t help it he’s an empath

DESPITE THAT VERT YOUR FATHER IS STILL GONNA DO WHAT HE THINKS IS BEST WHEN IT COMES TO YOUR SAFETY AND THE SAFETY OF THE REST OF THE TEAM SO DON’T EXPECT HIM TO JUST FALL IN LINE AND BE A GOOD LITTLE WORKER BEE

vert: jesus christ dad I just-- WE HAVE A THING OKAY I’VE BEEN CALLING THE SHOTS THE WHOLE TIME CAN YOU JUST CHILL I KNOW WHAT I’M DOING- jack: STORMSHOCK (rides off with simon) vert: FUCK forget it. forget it. therapist told me to breathe.

that’s it for now thanks for stopping by I love jack wheeler and simon ian rhodes ii and would love to talk about them all day every day

[yeocult]

ATEEZ as students studying

HONGJOONG:

king of self-care! but studies for 15 minutes then take a 2 hour break and calls it self-care (omg he thinks he’s me or smth)

has power naps every single day at least 30 mins because he’s Stressed

always thinking of ways to drop out during the middle of lectures

that one kid that talks to nobody & sits at the back of the class with his hood on to hide his airpods

doesn’t do it anymore bc one time it disconnected and “there’s some whores in this house” blasted out loud & now he’s paranoid

shows up to group studies but lets the group carry him,,, but he puts out One Really good idea to get his name on the paper

only cares about topics he’s interested in, other than that he’s just astral projecting

“yo can you send me your answers so i can compare mine?” but he copies it and says “we got the same answers” (all men do is lie</3)

calculates his marks; “ok so i need at least a 80 on this...oh wait no, a 95...damn okay...”

the type to arrives late with ice coffee

SEONGHWA:

wakes up at 5 am to study instead of staying up

scented candles and lofi music for the ~studying mood~

a linguistic learner

learns best by teaching others so he’ll do group studies often to help other people

teaches people without making them feel dumb

uses grammarly for his emails with 3 paragraphs asking 1 question with a proper greeting and a ‘sincerely, park seonghwa’

professor: ok - sent from iphone

you’ll never see him during exams week, he’s Gone

a loyal user of the outline method

his desk must be cleared at all times! a clean workspace makes it easier to focus

brings extra pencil just in case anyone needs them bc he’s the sweetest person ever (he’s fully aware that he’ll never get them back but it’s okay bc sharing is caring)

does his readings on time (you’ll never catch him slacking)

actually has his shit together for the most part 1/2

YUNHO:

writes “i love you” or “sorry” at the end of his tests (that he bombed)

the type to ask you to print “just one thing real quick” and it’s 15 page and at 2 am

uses emojis like :D & \(^o^)/ when sending emails to his professors

has a bad habit of copying word for word on the slide and he doesn’t actually understand/learn anything

goes to the library bc he thinks that’ll help him be in the ~studying vibe~

it doesn’t. ends up texting or watching youtube gameplay

has never heard of the colour-coding system in his entire life and ends up with a page filled with neon highlight

snacks breaks are the only thing keeping him Normal

leaves himself an encouraging note at the end of the reading page so when he’s finished he feels good !!

friends with all of the professors and uses all office hours

strongest points are his guessing skills in multiple-choice questions (process of elimination ftw!)

he tries his best, doesn’t care about marks that much because he knows it doesn’t determine him (and he’s right!)

YEOSANG:

probably runs a studyblr/gram

has the cutest note ever, his handwriting is so pretty!!

he thinks that buying an ipad pro & apple pencil will make him smarter

likes it bc he can doodle on it then erase them easily :”)

has to wear blue ray glasses because of how he looks at a screen so much

mildliners, muji 0.38 gel pen, 6 ring binder, minimal planner, washi tapes, you name it! he visits muji and daiso every other week

buys wayyy too many planners and notebooks which he never ends up using

only uses pastel mildliners because they’re easy on the eyes. cringes every time he sees yunho’s highlighters v_v

his flaw is that he spends 10 mins writing his header with brush tip pens

mutes the group project gc but gets his part done like the good classmate he is

sweats every time he gets an assignment back, takes a whole ten minute to mentally prepare himself

a visual learner; makes mind maps, flow charts, etc

actually has a working printer that he uses pretty often to prints lessons before class just to be Extra prepare

tells everyone he slept well but his bullet journal habit tracker for sleep says otherwise (plz rest!!)

exclusively uses college ruled paper like the sane person he is

SAN:

uses wide-ruled paper (unfortunately not everyone is perfect</3)

starts off very positive, motivated, and organized

then everything goes downhill by the second week

will definitely set byeol on top of his keyboard, take a picture, and send it to his professor as an ‘excuse’ as why he needs an extension (it works)

can’t sit still for any longer than 30 mins, his legs are always bouncing or fidgeting with pen

flashcard king! spends a lot of time on them but it’s worth it

a utensil chewer (always willing to share his pencil but when ppl saw the bite marks they’re like No Thanks >_>)

can’t study well with groups or himself bc he’ll be distracted,,, so he needs one person that can ground him bc when they’re in the zone, he will too be on his x game mode

sends his assignment at 11:58 pm hoping his professor will take the Hint (plz don’t be afraid to ask for help u_u)

prefers listening to ghibli studio soundtracks but then he either gets emotional or sleepy

sometimes forget to mute his mic and we just hear him groaning in frustration

“haha sorry i just stubbed my toe...”

then mutes his mic and goes back to his mental breakdown

MINGI:

the only person that studies every single day just to get his brain used to the information and running

probably listens to anime op or edm music for that Energy Boost

everyone either hates or love him because...

1. loves him bc he always comes clutched with study guides (and willing to share if he likes you enough)

2. he’s good at everything even if he’s not paying attention/doing it last minute

just naturally good at retaining information and applying them

asks Big Brain question that even the professors are shook

sometimes he gets super into the topic and wants to know Everything

“i’ve never failed an exam in my life” and he’s right! big brain mingi

fetal flaw is that he forgets easily (hence why the last minute) and has to write on his palm as a reminder

clicks his pens All the time so he switched to pens with caps just to keep others from jumping him

takes naps 10 mins before classes

actually has his shit together for the post part 2/2

“if no one got me, i know khan academy and quizlet got me. can i get an amen”

WOOYOUNG:

y’all know that one mf that doesn’t have a pencil?

yea he’s been using the same one someone lend to him before a test and never returned it

it’s been two months and it’s still working well and they’re never going to get it back

a minimalist,,,, but in a bad way</3 bc he carries his stolen pencil and paper that he spilled his energy drink over and that’s about it

just throw loose papers in his bag and forgets about their existence

doesn’t do binders or notebooks, just crumbled up paper

sometimes carries a textbook just to show everyone that he’s got his life together

really noisy for No reason, always wants to know other’s marks

a kinesthetic learner

hides his screen with he gets the kahoot questions wrong (you’ll never catch him slippin)

plays coolmathgames.com during class

doesn’t really know what to study/prioritize so he overwhelms himself with every single topic ever

thinks he’s god by pulling an all-nighter to look at the 60+ slides last minute

Swears he’ll change and do better next semester,,,</3

goes to the cafe, takes pictures of his notes & laptop, post it on his story, then leaves

JONGHO:

thrives off of red bull and ice americanos

gets notes and study guides from his upperclassmen because everyone loves jongho

an audio learner so he’ll probably work out or go on a jog while listening to lessons/audiobook

never pulls all-nighters bc it messes up his sleep schedule and says he’ll do it in the morning but he never does

doesn’t even own a highlighter, he’ll circle or underline stuff with a red or black pen

has never touched a textbook in his life

only the study guides and slides, his textbook is collecting dust rn

his notes are literally Only for him because his handwriting only makes sense to him

has questionable handwriting,,, it’s like decoding

multitasks a lot but it ends up taking a lot longer than he wanted to (bc it’s a myth)

very spontaneous; he’ll grind for 5 hours straight but sometimes he won’t even touch a pencil

works best when he talks about the work in groups and share information with each other, like having a convo about the topic

unmutes his mic Once after the lesson to say “bye”

does his work right after the lessons but then takes a short break & doesn’t even Look back for the rest of the night

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a/n: tag yourself ! i’m a bit of hohong (i projected myself on all of them in some way lmaooo)

[deathvsthemaiden]

(Hope it's fine to just drop by) but I finished reading the Fork the Witch and the Worm and it was good! I really loved the moral of the last story, there are things you can't do no matter how hard you try and it is okay, you can still live your life!

Scream!!! Of course it’s ok to stop by!! 🤗💓 Ty for sharing your thoughts! No one I know who’s read the og series has gotten around to reading TFTWATW yet 😔<\3 Also my memory of the book and the series are a /smidge/ foggy, I just skimmed my copy again though so I think what I say below should be like,, mostly correct qgshwhshs 🤭 but if it’s not you know why! 🤫

Was The Worm also your favorite story in the collection overall, would you say? 👀👀 I’ve always loved the Urgals, they’re so refreshingly different from the elves, humans and dwarves. I feel you totally about the moral, I’m glad Paolini was consistent about the Urgals being misunderstood and painted one dimensionally as warmongers with skewed priorities by the other beings of Alagaësia and had the epic contradict that idea.

Not to mention how the ending asserted that there’s always going to be danger and obstacles and whatnot but it’s not worth running yourself ragged to defeat them as long as you and your loved ones are safe etc etc, it feels opposite to that myth about the dwarf in the original series who devoted his whole life solely to carving Isidar Mithrim, the giant gem rose, and neglected everything to do it, even his wife. The contrast in intended takeaways is delicious 👁👁!! Ilgra being a girl made the whole thing more enticing to me personally, Dwarven and Urgal women in Inheritance fascinate me in general since we barelyyyy get to see them. I might be mistaken about this but I feel like she mirrored Eragon in some ways which was very neat 👀👀 (what with the Brisingr spell and the title she earns at the end of the epic) and I remember for years I’ve been dying to know what the original Eragon, that our Eragon is named after, was like too. Id love to have enough info on all 3 characters to compare and contrast them! maybe I will when my hair turns fully grey! Perhaps! GWZHSHHS 🔪 (I sound salty but I’m just. Agitated. I hate waiting 😢!)

Hands down my favorite story was The Witch. It checked so many of my boxes and Angela is one of my favorite kinds of characters. (Mischievous, knows things, baffling, literally always has a wisecrack ready etc. also: “im writing an autobiography Eragon here you can read it it’s out of order because that’s how my mindddd works 😌” ADHD represent....) and Eragon humoring her without a tinge of annoyance makes me 💖💕💖💓 he’s still such a good kid... wild to think he has chest hair now (I know he was old enough for that by the end of the original series but I still. Did a double take reading that in TFTWATW it’s just so FUNNY to think about he’s just. An earnest little dude to me, still. What does he need chest hair for (I’m kidding)) I think to protect my sanity my brain made me forget how exciting this specific story was until today because I just know Paolini will take years (yearsssss!!!!) to expand on it >_< but GOD. So many hints to juicy lore and past drama. I’m also fucking DYING to know who this Keeper of the Tower dude she won’t let Eragon talk about is... an ex? An estranged male relative she has bad blood with? An old mentor? im going insane as I type ngl.

And I’m less interested in knowing what /specifically/ Elva said to Greta but that. That was totally wild and fairy tale-ish (I loved it) I wonder if it’ll come back to haunt her? Biting the hand that fed her I mean. Her resentment towards Eragon for messing up her blessing as an infant so royally was totally understandable in the og cycle, but she’s not totally a child anymore, thus def responsible for her actions, and the possibility of her repeating his mistake in a roundabout way is so yummy I could screammm !!

All I have to say about the Fork is: 1) I think the Fork should be called SIR stabby, not Mr but whatever v_v 2) WOOO Murtagh update fi-na-lly—!! 🥳 3) I do like Paolini. I do. I liked Essie too but...I also love when you read a book with child characters and can tell whether or not the author has spent a lot of time around children or not 🤫

Do you plan to read that new sci fi book Paolini is coming out with? I do but idk whennn and I don’t remember the title atm 📖🪐💫

[ori-flails]

Rewatching Guardian - Episode 02 Part 4/4

Episode List || Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3 || Episode 03

SPOILERS for upto episode 40, SPOILERS for the novel.

They all attended the funeral of a stranger’s grandma. Q~Q

Li Qian really should’ve ended up working for/with the SID at some point.

They both look so fine- ugh.

Why did Li Qian admit to killing her grandma when she didn’t do it.

I don’t think this was on purpose or even her intention. But by admitting to the crime, she was finally allowed to speak out about her frustrations and suffering having to take care of her deteriorating grandma all by herself.

She probably never had the chance to let it out. Having established that she’s a bad person, she could let her resentment show.

If she hadn’t pulled the whole “I killed my grandma who actually committed suicide”, then there would be no point where it would be appropriate for her to express these thoughts and feelings over her dead grandma unless she went to therapy or something, and she clearly can’t afford that.

I hope this made some sense. ^^;;

Guo Changcheng, wtf are you doing?? XD

Why does no one ever explain anything to him? xD

CUTE.

I know people say Bai Yu looks like an uncle with his beard but with this hairstyle? Nope. Adorable.

The little wave killed me. Shen Wei can probably relate. xD

‘Hei Lao Ge’ has a distinctly different feel than ‘Old Brother Black’. The translation’s not wrong as far as I know but still. I have no proper knowledge of mandarin though, so there’s that.

Careful, daren, your Professor Shen is showing. XD

Zhao Yunlan’s scrutiny is painful oof.

Are they trying to imply that Ye Zun has been causing the Hallows to activate? Or like, is the narrative trying to imply that? Because I don’t think Ye Zun’s that strong at this point. Certainly not to the extent of being able to affect a Hallow that’s at Haixing while he’s still trapped in Dixing.

I honestly think there’s some cosmic alignment shit going on resulting in Shen Wei coming face to face with Zhao Yunlan and all these other things happening.

(That is, if I try to make sense of the train wreck that is the writing of Guardian. -_-)

And that is exactly what happens.

Demonic Cultivation tool, Hallows made of meteorite rock, same concept. ^^;;

Some insight to the state of Dixing.

The show completely failed at “show not tell” when it came to Dixing. These dialogues paint a clearer picture of Dixing than every scene that involves Dixing and Dixingren living there.

I can still feel the dread the next part induced in me when I first watched it. The enemies to lovers trope stresses me out.

If they were against each other I’d have been too stressed to enjoy the show till they’re friends. xD

I like angst but only very specific types of angst. xD

And I could finally breathe again lol.

The start of disaster. V_V;;

P.S: This was so long oof. If anyone actually read through these, thank you!! The number of posts per episode will entirely depend on how many screenshots I’m taking and how many of those I can fit in each post. Only 10 images per post is allowed so I actually have to use my brain a little to fit them all in. ^^;;

[happyhippystuff]

i cried to sleep last night, and i don’t really want to talk about it but i also feel like i should lest it gets buried and comes back to haunt me some day LOL also NOTE: my period is due this week, which probably explains all these emotional outbursts 

but anyway, i don’t rly rmb why/ what went through my mind last night cuz sleep and wake up yay its over but i thinkkkk i got triggered by how the bf sees food as transactional - in that, you deserve a treat if you work out or if it ~fits into your count~. and that makes me ??? anxious ??? stressed ??? annoyed ??? idk ??? partly because i feel like i should be doing that too but i am not and also because now i really just eat whatever i feel like and it makes me feel like i am doing something wrong because i should be working for what i eat. and idk, thinking about all these just makes me feel really really ???? distressed ???? also maybe because the bf was the one who kinda taught me how to eat what i want and now that he’s doing this, it makes me feel like !!!!?????!!!!!! 

BUT, i know a lot of this stems from my own competitive nature + emotional baggages and what not, so i get even more upset by the fact that i am affected by it :((((((((( it makes me feel like a really terrible and unlovable person LIKE omg why am i even affected by this. as much as i try to not judge my emotions and to just feel it and let it pass, but it is so hard :( cuz right now i just really feel HORRIBLE for being like this and i am scared that the bf will be like “huh like that also can be triggered” plus i don’t want to be a difficult person to be around - like i don’t want him to feel like there are things he cannot tell me. 

i think i spent a lot of time trying to psycho myself with being ~okay~ with all the triggers, be it online, friends, or family, but my brain is just like !!!!!! no i cannot do this anymore !!!!!! i am tired !!!!!! and i just cried and cried and even as i type this, i can feel the tears welling zzz. and i think, its not just all the food stuff, but also the (irrational) jumps and connections that my brain starts making v_v 

had a short chat with C this morning, about being triggered and it is somewhat nice to know that i am not the only one who feels this way. but she also told me there’s a difference between ED compulsion and discipline sigh i think this whole entire period is just triggering all these dormant feelings. 

i just want to cryyyy aiya maybe the solution is just for my period to come LOL